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This is the first time I could finally get through this, I got too choked up every other time. I'm so sorry for you. You're such a brave person and honestly an inspiration for being where you are now. This made me feel so damn much and I don't know how to fully express it.
this just shows how great of a person you truly are. while i love that you put yourself out there for all of us to see, i advise to proceed with caution. not everyone is as good intentioned and kind as you and the majority of your viewers. don't reveal anything that can be turned around and used to attack you. it happens all the time and caused many good asmrist to stop uploading as im sure you know.i am not saying to stop giving these kind of stories to us viewers but do be carfull with how much you do reveal.
There is a LOT I didn't talk about and a LOT I could've elaborated on. I just wanted to put somewhat of a foundation out there, otherwise I would've rambled on and on trying to fit everything in, every point of view, and freaking out about making sure i'm articulating anything and everything correctly. Then you'd end up never getting a video, because that's never going to happen, and even if it did, you're not going to please everyone. So I think everyone should be able to tell their story without being afraid to do so. It doesn't have to be perfect, super profound, or whatever, it just has to be you and what you feel in your heart! So I guess this is me just going for it. Thank you for allowing me and giving me a place like this to do so.
I don't usually comment on UA-cam videos and I know this video is from a year ago but I just want to send you so much love. So much. You mean so much to this community and you've done so much for people that watch your videos. You truly are a blessing.
I just want to give you a big hug. I’m very sorry this happened to you. You are so strong. I can’t imagine going through this, it’s the absolute worst that can happen to you. I’m glad ASMR is able to help you and I hope you continue to be better and feel better. You deserve it so much. ❤️
You’re such a kind, beautiful soul and this is exactly what I’m talking about being so proud and happy to be in this community!! Thank you so much lovely!! 💕
fastASMR what about losing your leg in afghanistan, or losing a parent, or so many other things. Not trying to trivialize her misfortune but you can say somethings the “absolute worst” thing that can happen to you. Everyone’s lost someone before, we’ve all gone through it (unless you’re like 12). Honestly, her and you and I have experienced nothing in terms of pain and anguish. And i say that with confidence even not knowing your past. It’s just disrespectful seeing you say that’s the absolute worst thing that can happen to you when there’s much worse that goes on every day.
Viewer 1819 I think you’re over thinking her comment. Yes, there are situations that happen in this world that are way worse than Lauren’s. I agree. I think that the OP worded her comment wrong though. I’m sure she didn’t mean any disrespect
She loves you. She doesn’t want you to carry this guilt. She loves you, Lauren. I don’t believe for a second she’s forgotten you. Even if she can’t communicate it to you, she loves you. I found my mate almost six years and every day with him is a blessing. I can tell you even if I was blind, paralyzed, and mute, I would never forget him. She hasn’t forgotten you. She never will; just like you’ll never forget her or stop loving her.
I know this was a year ago, but this is the most pure video I’ve ever seen.... you are so strong frivvi. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder back in 2018 and you honestly saved my life. I literally can’t sleep without listening to you. You are a light in this world frivvi. Your voice soothes me and comforts me. Thank you for saving my life, I wouldn’t be here today without you. you are an angel💓
I know what it feels like to blame yourself for taking someone from everyone else. 10 months ago I lost my mom. She died of a heroin overdose. I remember the night before she died we were having fun with my brother and grandmother. She was laughing and being happy. Before saying good night to us, she asked my brother and I if we wanted to go to a party with her. It was a simple birthday party for one of her friends twin daughters. We replied no because I wanted to sleep in and have a lazy Saturday. The next day she was dead. I always thought to myself “What if I had just said yes and gone to the party?” “Could I have stopped her from getting the heroin?”. I blamed myself for so long. I still wonder to this day and will continue to wonder what would have happened if I had gone. I miss her so much. Listening to your story brought back so many memories of her. Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss.
Obscure Dig don’t blame yourself man, there’s nothing u can do about it, keep pushing along in your life. Don’t forget about your mom, and always remember her. Wish u the best of luck in your life.🙏
It wouldn't be different... that's the life decision she made maybe sooner or later I truly believe that all of our days are written may she rest in peace 🙏❤
Lauren, you were blessed with a heart big enough to go through something like this and still be able to share your care and love with others. I can’t even begin to empathize with your story, but I felt it in every fiber of my being as you described it. It’s easy to tell how much you loved her - how truly transcendent and pure your connection was. Beauty is entangled in you, and I am grateful you share that with us so regularly. Thank you, for being here, and helping to spread the love. I love you, and I am so sorry.
Jeez. I've watched your videos for about a year. I saw you as a bubbly girl with a smile to melt an iron heart. I cant begin to understand how you feel. I'm so sorry.
Cant believe I've never seen this video. I will try and keep this short, because I could carry on way too long about how I now feel that it wasn't just a coincidence that I found your channel. When I was 17, my Dad and I used to ride dirt bikes out in the desert - he loved being in remote places, just the two of us. Again, to keep this short, that Saturday afternoon my Dad crashed his bike in a horrific accident. We were literally in the middle of nowhere, miles and miles from the nearest phone or person. When he crashed, I didn't know what to do - he had blood in his mouth and couldn't speak, he could only look in my eyes. I begged him to be okay - to tell me what to do. Do I go get help? Do I stay here with you? I wasn't even sure I would be able to find him again once I did find help. I went for help, and prayed for strength, I was so afraid. The ride was so far, I had no idea what to do. Riding away from my Dad, laying there alone I shouted to God, begging for help, my sanity beginning to unwind. The next 20 hours were a blur of panic, loss of hope, a family camping, helicopter trip to the hospital, and horrific news that I was not prepared for. Riding was my idea, my Dad spent every free minute with me, and riding was such a great way for us to spend time together. But, his mother and father, my grandparents, didnt understand that, and they blamed me for his death. At 17 I was alone, and in a world of pain. My Dad only wanted me to try my best, and from a promise I made him, I went to college, graduate degree, and jumped into a career. Fast forward several years and I didnt do a very good job of dealing with my memories and pain. After a while, that pain started to let me know it was going to be addressed one way or another. Sleepless nights, panic attacks, nightmares, anxiety, etc. I finally had to get some professional help to try to believe his passing was not my fault. That I did the right thing. Most nights, I would read, watch TV, scan the internet and videos to wear my brain down until I would finally pass out. I found ASMR less of a "tingles" response, but more of a way of finding relaxation, almost meditation. Your video was the first I came across. I had no idea you had been through so much pain. Please know that as much as you feel we mean to you, you bring so much to us, to me. Countless nights you have helped me shut off my brain and find peace. Your positive smile and messages soak into my thoughts as I have drifted off literally at my desk more nights than I can count. I travel for work each week to various client sites (pausing now with Covid), and you are there with me wherever I go, whatever hotel I might be in. Thank you so very much for sharing your story with us. My nightly therapy sessions with you have an even greater impact now and will mean even more to me. Thank you for your big heart and such a kind soul, and for being stronger than you will ever realize you are.
Holy crap you've been through a lot, what an insane and tragic story. Ive never been through such loss so I cant speak for your grandparents... but that's very unfair of them... I hope you and your family have been able to heal a bit 💕🙏
man you've got my whole respect you and everyone in such big pains, stories like yours make me feel embarrassed for every time i said i suffered i wish you the best.
I'm so sorry to hear about your father I dont think I woulda been able to handle your situation if I was in it so I hope you have a nice night or day or whatever time it is for you God bless and I hope you keep feeling better🙏
Mario Jerez ......did you not listen to the whole story? It’s quite a bit more than just “teenage love drama.” Regardless, this is her channel, and she can talk about what she wants. And I’m guessing that since you clicked on the video, you have the capability to click OFF the video rather than making a rude comment. 🙂
@@evan6463 Buddy, Kids that fought in ww2 were not iron soldiers. Fighting in that time caused immeasurable suffering and pain for everyone involved. Just because someone else has gone through a horrible circumstance, doesn't mean they are saying they have had it worse. Death is not a contest, and I hope someday you stop treating it like one.
As a person who just recently discovered what it's like to truly love someone despite anything. I listened to this story to put me in your shoes and the girl I love in the place of yours and I truly came close to breaking down. I know everyone is saying it but you're so strong being here today. I love how genuine you are and telling us this story that is so personal to you. When something like that happens 6 years ago it's easy for the pain to last so much to where everyday it feels like yesterday. This was and is a beautiful video. Thank you for this, You're accepted and loved by everyone here. And thank you for giving us the comfort and love that you needed yourself in those hard times. Because alot of people really need it. Thank you
So I know I'm four years late, but I just saw your community post about how it's been ten years since the accident, and I had no idea you were in an accident, much less, losing the love of your life. I've always been a very casual viewer of yours since around 2016, when I first discovered ASMR. But I've always enjoyed your content. That being said, I'm glad you talked about this, Friv. The cost of love is to be missed so dearly. I hope one day soon, that love is returned back to you. I hope you carry her in your heart always, and you get a second chance. Have a great 2023, and thanks for telling me your story.
You said something like "Asmr is supposed to be relaxing and not about a dark past" but honestly I love that you've taken 48 minute's of your life to tell us about it. It makes me respect YOU as an asmrtist. Knowing what you have gone through makes me respect your videos and you so much more. Seriously Frivvi, you are so wonderful and beautiful. Your videos have put me to sleep and stopped my anxiety from getting too bad, and I honestly appreciate you so much. I am always sending you love Frivvi. ❤❤❤
when i heard friv say "breathe life into her" i really had to choke back the tears. I've heard that so many times from frivvi and now, knowing where it came from... I have no words. Thank you for what you do Friv.
"Gotta have opposites dark and light, light and dark in a painting. It's like in life. Gotta have a little sadness once in a while so you know when the good times come. I'm waiting on the good times now." -Bob Ross Hang in there, kiddo. It'll be okay.
You're the bravest ASMRtist I've ever seen! You're strong and have a beautiful soul. You had to deal with a pain that I don't think I would ever be able to deal. Hope you feel the love 💖💖💖
I have no words to describe how much I want to give you a hug. I live in Ireland and I am willing to fly to you just to make that happen. It breaks my heart to hear you say things like "for some reason..." when describing your accomplishments. The reason your channel grew is because you gave something that people needed. You are not indebted to us. We are indebted to you. You breathe life into us all in every video and if we can make you feel the same then that is a healthy relationship. I've watched so many ASMR artists and for me, you're one of the best. I listen to you every night. It is 2am now and I won't sleep without getting my ears eaten. ;p If you do end up reading this I'll be feckin chuffed.
I'm only seeing this now, but this story needs to be shared. It's so heartbreaking and incredible. I feel like this should be a book. You are so strong, Lauren. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I wish I could just hug you through the screen. It's incredible that you could twist such a devastating story and incident eventually into a positive outfit and mindset. I have endless respect for you. My heart hurts. I'm sending you every inch of love that I have.
I love you so much Lauren. I remember hearing part of this story a few years ago on one of your livestreams and hurting for you and with this video it's the same. I could see on your face your love for her and it broke my heart for you. You have grown so much as a person and you have such a pure soul. You have helped me and countless others. You have created a positive outcome out of a negative situation. I'm so proud of you. Lovelovelovelovelovelove
Now it's our time to say this: You are worthy, you are enough, and you are so much loved. We all love you and will be here anytime, every day, supporting, sharing our time with you and just being here just for you Desde argentina, desde el fondo de mí corazón, te quiero mucho, te aprecio y te mando las mejores energías, esas que tanto me has dado a lo largo del tiempo. Love you friv!
“What is grief if not love preserving” you are a strong person and the fact that you are here right now speaks volumes to your dedication of the willingness to live.
Just now seeing this video. Please remind yourself everyday that you are a good person. You are so worthy of all the light in life, and all the love. We love you, and she loves you too! My name is Lauren, too, so I feel an extra bit of love & connection with you. All the hugs 💗
When i found out she was still alive my heart tore. I’m currently crying while writing this and i am so sorry jesus christ. I’m glad you’re with someone now and i’m glad you’re at least somewhat happy now, but i can’t fathom how it feels to have a loved one who is here but isn’t at the same time.
I was arguing with my girlfriend a little bit before I watched this. Like AS i clicked on this. I just was like nope. I’m so thankful for her, so i just dropped it and gave her love.
It's so strange to hear the stories of other people to me since im young and haven't really gone through anything big, sometimes I forget that the people I walk past on the street have stories, and lives, and problems and this video just opened my eyes, im so so so incredibly sorry for your loss 💚. But also thank you so much, although I haven't gone through anything as emotionally changing as you did, your ASMR has helped me calm down during times where I've let my anxiety get the best of my conscience and have felt useless to the people around me, you've helped me get over so many sleepless nights of constant overthinking and this video on it's own has helped me feel a little less alone about my issues in school and my sexuality, thank you for everything you've done, and thank you for all the times you've breathed life into me and thousands of others
Frivvi, your story really tugs at my heartstrings. I've sat in a puddle of tears during and after watching this, and I can't imagine how many times you did as well. I applaud your strength. I know it's strange, but I really do feel like I know you deeper, and like we're friends. This story really helped me look at my life with a new perspective, and realize I have some things to change. ❤️ Thank you so much for sharing, you don't understand how much it means to all of us.
“The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence; the past is a place of learning, not a place of living.” - Roy T. Bennett Keep on moving forward and be that beacon of light many of us know you to be. When you falter, know there are over 800,000 people here for you, and we'll always be here...waiting patiently for when you're ready to come back.
Never thought my respect for you could grow more. You’re the strongest soul I’ve ever seen. I love you with my entire heart and you’re the most brave human ever. Stay strong Frivvi.
When you describe your lover it very much seems like you are describing yourself. Whatever of her seems lost to you seems to be very much alive in and as you. Thanks for having the courage to share this. Love flowing from heart to heart we all live on in and as each other.
No UA-camr has ever hit me so much that I just can't bring myself to speak. I want to scream, fight, fix everything, hug you, and change time so that you woke up tomorrow in a world where that never happened. I want to move to you just to try to make you smile every day. I'm working towards becoming a trauma surgeon. I plan to work with groups like Doctors without borders, and other charity groups. I want to spend my life making the world better for everyone, but I worry about things like this. I will want to just "fix" everything, and make everything magically better, but that is rarely up to us. If you ever need someone to vent or talk to, I will always happily listen. That goes for anyone in Frivi's comments. If you need someone to just talk to, and to just vent, I will do so happily. Your story sparked a light inside of me that was feeling pretty dim. I feel reinvigorated towards what I'm working towards. Thank you. Again, I'm here to listen to you Frivi, and anyone else out there, who just needs someone to talk to. It's okay to feel lonely or to need someone to listen or chat with. We often don't like to admit that we need that, and sometimes a total stranger are the easiest to talk to. If anyone ever needs someone to talk to, I made a Kik account (I know people used to use those a lot). My username is JWPSmith
@@celia6509 it doesn't matter to me what you want to vent about! Just whatever is on your mind! I'm using Kik because I'm trying to be careful about putting my personal info out there, but if you can think of another anonymous method, I wouldn't mind doing it another way.
@@walcodebruyn2135 absolutely! Just send me a message on Kik! My username is JWPSmith. I'm using Kik because it is anonymous. I want to be careful about providing personal info.
I don't think you have a selfish or mean bone in your body Fox. Your story is both heartbreaking and incredible. You are a truly honest and beautiful person. Thank you for being here. :)
I can not imagine what you have been going through. I must say I really appreciate that you let us hear your story. Please know, even if we can not put ourselves in your position to completely understand all the crap you had to go through, we always will be here to listen to your concerns when you need us the most. You have already given us so incredibly much with your videos and your passion that this is the least we can offer you. You are a wonderful person and nothing will change that. All the love to you.
I'm crying because i recently lost someone who meant alot to me like she was like a mother to me, I had to watch her change in horrible ways and become more in pain by the day, ofc i wasnt allowed to see her cuz her mother wouldnt let us visit her so i only saw her once whilst all of this was happening and like 2 days ago she died and i cant even go to her funeral but to have to watch someone you love go through something so horrible and all you can do is watch I wouldnt wish it on anyone and i am so sorry you went through that
I am very sorry for your loss. I nearly died in a car crash Nov 4, 2015 and was nearly paralyzed for 2 or 3 weeks at 65 years old (and with severe osteoporosis already). I thought I would never leave my home!
That bit at the end, where you say yet another time what’s going to be the most important thing you have said. You know, it’s not ok now but someday it will. But this time. This time ... It was for her. I’ve shed a tear and sat in front of you, talking and whispering in that monitor, and it just overwhelmed my mind. She would love your ASMR and the beautiful person you’ve become. Just as we do. All the wrong you’ve been through and all the bad you’ve always had the feeling you’ve caused, you helped us go through some very similar things. You are so sweet to me and you are so sweet to us all. What she saw in you, we did too. I don’t feel attached to any UA-cam channel like I do with you. We love you.
I've always identified as a straight male, I do not find other men sexually attractive, but have been more than comfortable to admit when another man is attractive or handsome. My best friend Jr. took his life four years ago(due to bullying and hatred) and I think he was one of the most beautiful people I've ever known. He felt like a second part of me, he was a soul mate in a sense. We did everything and went everywhere together. He came out to me before everyone else, because he thought I would be the worst judge and held my opinion higher than most. In a sense, get the worst out the way. He was still Jr. to me, the same person and I still love him to this day. I swore to myself, that I would end the life of everyone responsible for tormenting him. I sat, I seethed, I plotted and I prepared. My heart was filled with pure murder. His mother handed me a letter he wrote before he took his life...it told me to forgive, it told me to forget, it told me to counter the hatred with love...he knew I would get violent. I chose this path to honor Jr., there isn't a day that goes by, that I don't want to end someone...his final request made me a better person, and I've learned to live and let live, and love let love. R.I.P my friend.
Everyone commenting on my user name, this account is almost as old as I am. This was my uncle's account at one point, I kept it because he was subbed to everyone I watched anyway, except the ASMR stuff, that's from me. Pretty sure this user name is based off of the bass player for a band called Mushroom Head.
The words that were repeating in my head as you told your story “If I could, through myself Set your spirit free I'd lead your heart away See you break, break away Into the light And to the day” It never ceases to amaze how those who have seen the worst find peace in giving of themselves to healing others. Thank you!
I lost the love of my life to breast cancer and seeing how you made it through all that pain and built up this channel and somehow turned it into something positive makes me respect you a lot. And people are going to say a lot of things in this comment section and probably other places on the internet but a lot of those people don't know what it's like to lose somebody that special to you and i hope they never will.
i’m so sorry that u had to go through this. this is so heartbreaking. i hope she gets better. i hope u get better. thank u for making this video and being brave enough to post it. i love u so much
Her name was Ladonna, she was my sun and moon. My first love my first everything. We got into a fight she left my apartment at a two way stop she was turning on green she went to cross and was hit head on by a drunk driver she was pronounced dead. That was 35 years ago. She could sing and dance she was amazing. You're not alone darlin. All my love to you. Thank you for sharing this story
She lives on. My LaDonna and I wrote a song together and each time it slips into my mind I know shes right there watching and singing right along w it th me.
This is truly heartbreaking. I can’t fathom how you managed to get through the pain you must feel. You are truly truly an inspiration to us Lauren. Something about you just gets me through. Stay strong.
I didn't intend on writing a comment but after watching this I just want to say you're such a pure human being and I'm so sorry about your past. I hope things continue to get better and if you ever need anyone to talk to you have 800,000 people that would do anything for you, myself included. Thank you for being here for us.
This video broke me down in a way I don't have words for. It was raw, emotional, and you told one of the hardest times in your life to give everyone perspective. The word "bittersweet" doesn't even begin to express it, but goddamn there's nothing else. From the bottom of all our collective hearts, I'm sorry for what you endured and continue to hold; something that never leaves you, even when you've found yourself stronger from all the pain... but more importanly, we all love you, too. You left your story on a positive note; one of love and admiration for everyone here, so I'll do the same. Thank you for reminding us all that, though things may be unimaginably dark and that there are turns you can never see coming, there are always people in the world who will accept everything you've been through and seen; the darkest reaches of your heart and the brightness you'd thought was had dimmed to nothingness. No more fancy words... thank you again, and again.
Marc Bisson i really don’t think i could have said it better, i can’t start to explain how i feel but you did it. friv i love you so so much and i know you won’t see this and i’m just hhh it’s three am and i’m just- i just want to hug you
I've always assumed she was straight, like it was never even a second thought of mine. Even as she was describing the girl, I was half expecting for her to say something like "and then I met her brother". But the look in her eyes and the way she described her made me realize that that girl was the love her life, even before she said anything about it. How narrow minded of me to assume anything about her sexuality. Love is such a beautiful thing and she's lucky to have found it at such a young age, such a strong and passionate love, for however long it may have lasted. You're amazing Frivvy and i love you and your channel so much. This was such a well done video. Thank you for all you do. ❤
No andno Don’t beat yourself up! Growing up religious, I found myself being very homophobic. I’ve also very much always been attracted to guys. I would’ve never imagined I’d end up falling in love with a girl. We mess up, we learn, we grow. You may have also have heard that I have a boyfriend now, so to many people they’re confused. I was confused when I fell in love with her, too, but I mean. Love is love, man. I never really thought of myself being Bi, but if it’s possible that I fell in love with a girl once, it could happen again, right? So, sure! I’m bi. haha. This was one of the things I didn’t elaborate on in the video but intend do in a Q&A because I’m sure many people are going to be like WAIT YOURE GAY?! haha. ANYWAYS! Thank you for watching and being such a kind, wonderful person. We’re only human. We assume things and try to neatly put everything in boxes 🧚🏻♀️ But rarely is life so neat and clear-cut. So, again, don’t beat yourself up 💕 Thanks for being here and thank you so much for your understanding and support!!
You don't need to apologise for taking your time and waiting till you were ready/able to tell the story. It is helpful to hear and I'm glad this channel has helped you heal yourself as much as it's helped me relax, sleep, feel better. Thank you for sharing.
“You are loved; You’re worthy, you’re worth it. It may not seem like it’s okay, it may not be okay; it’s not okay. But somehow, someway; it will be.” ~FrivviFox (Lauren)
I’m barely watching this video and Ik I’m two years too late but this was so heartbreaking and I can’t believe you went through all this. May your heart and soul continue healing itself and may you find whatever happiness you seek Bc EVERYONE deserves happiness.
I read the description and am already bawling. You are loved by all of us. And i don’t know what id do without your care. You are an amazing person and the people Putting you down don’t realize how incredible you are
It's very rare that I watch something this long from beginning to end, but this was very captivating. I don't even know what to say except that I'm glad your experience on UA-cam has helped you in the healing process.
The problem with UA-cam is that when a friend is opening her heart to you and revealing her most traumatic experiences, you can't hold her hands and lock eyes with her when you see her start to linger just a moment too long in the landscape of a memory.
I remember when I was a little kid my mom was my best friend. She was an amazing person, funny, kind, accepting, understanding and caring. She had a stroke when I was 9. Everyone said she got lucky, because she could talk and move and walk, not like most of the people after something like that, but she never really came back. She's a totally different person now, with different mindset and opinions. It feels like she's a total stranger to me and I couldn't handle that for so many years. She has problems remembering stuff, like sometimes she forgets one hour long conversations. I don't want to say I know what it feels like, because everyone's story is so different, but in a way I lost her too. I don't know why I wrote this but I felt like I had to. What I want to say is that I respect you for being so strong, and you help me so much with your videos, so thank you.
I lost the love of my life in a car accident too. 7 years ago now. He changed my life for the better. I’ll always miss him. I’m so sorry you had to experience this deep loss.
I watched this 5 yrs ago and just watched it again. You’ve grown into such a beautiful, transparent and truly selfless young lady. I feel like a proud mom Lauren!💜🫶🏼💜🫶🏼💜
As somebody who struggles with PTSD and depression, I just want to say you are amazing. I’m so sorry you were denied being able to see her. You don’t deserve the blame.
I was putting off watching this video ever since you posted it because I knew it would be heavy, but I'm so glad I finally did. You're absolutely the most genuine, resilient, and just purely wonderful human on here. Our lives are nothing alike and yet I feel this on a level I could have never imagined (it gave me a different kind of tingles). You've always been great at that, and I feel like we're actually friends. Not sure if you'll even see this, but I appreciate all the work you do, for being vulnerable, for being real, for fighting every single day. I appreciate you. And you have the most wonderful community of friendly supportive people (I always get this warm fuzzy feeling in this part of the interwebs), and I think that's because of you. Because you didn't give up. Because you breathe life. You attract wonderful people, but I think you make us all better too. We all see that in you. We love you Friv!
It's a 3am and I just finished listening to your story, my pillow is wet from the tears, you are a very strong person and you have helped me fall asleep on many occasions when I have had a rough day or my mind is just racing. I hope that you keep doing asmr, it really helps so many people. Always stay positive.
@OG Loc are you serious? Damn... SMH... 😑 I hope & pray the day never comes when you need compassion, understanding & support. "Judge not lest ye be judged."
I've been crying this entire video, and I don't know where you get your strength. You are truly inspiring, a light within this community and I think we can all agree when I say she loves you. Happy pride, love you x
Thank you for making this video Frivi. I lost my dad 4 years ago and the anniversary was only a few days ago. I was home alone 14 and I found him unconscious in his room. I blamed myself for not calling the ambulance fast enough, after he died I just wanted to end it all for years. It's taken me a lot of time and work to come to realize that it was no ones fault. Im in my first year of college far from home and I've felt really alone without any of my friends or family, so being able to hear someone else talk about their struggles helps me feel just a little less lonely. Keep those beautiful memories of her close to your heart, I'm sure she'd want you to be live your life to the fullest, and I'm glad I had the honor to hear about this beautiful person. Even if you don't read this comment, I hope you read others like it and realize that we all love you. Thank you for helping me with my nightmares. Thank you for helping me with my depression. Thank you for making me believe I'm worth something, and that I'm loved. Thank you for being a person I can look up to. We're not alone, and asmr is a beautiful thing that I'm proud to be a part of. We all support you! P.S. as a gay gal your story of your loves perseverance in this world is incredible
she's smiling in the video...How do you do that? It didnt even happen to me and yet im bawling man. She really is hella strong, i dunno why but im proud. I dont even know her, but im proud
Hey man I know its been 2 years since your comment, their is alot of positive comments alot pf people here have empathy and honestly its so nice to see such a tight community I wish nothing but the best for everyone who has a thpught other than themselves, including friv even if its been years scars fade but never heal
I saw your heartbreak... I felt it. The whole time I thought she died and in a way she did. I am so sorry. You deserve all the happiness and acceptance in the world
This sounds like an unreal story from a fiction book. It’s so horrible and I’m so sorry this happened to you. I love your videos and I hope you keep uploading.
The fact that you didn't break all the way down after you lost your soul mate in that... I mean you're pretty amazing for that alone. If that would of happened to me I would of lost it completely. You picked yourself up time and time again. I know I'm too old for personal hero's but you are the strongest person I know ❤❤
Don't feel bad that you didn't make this 2 years ago. I'm glad you waited until you were truly ready. There was never no need to rush or open up your personal life off the bat. I'm brave of you for finally sharing with us though, and I feel sorry that you went through that and I wish you the very best in your future. I actually just did start watching not too long ago and I really like your personality and I'm glad you managed to find an outlet to help you get through the rough times. Again, I wish you the very best, and I look forward to seeing the things you continue to make for us in the future. We truly do appreciate everything you do :)
Hey Friv, I listened to your story and felt the need to just say some stuff. First off, you've done nothing wrong. I'm sure you've heard it before, but none of this is your fault. It pains me to hear you blame yourself because o know that feeling. I can only imagine what it's like to lose someone so very close to your heart. I've had heartache before, but never like this. You are truly a strong person to still be with us today. I deal with clinical depression and a lot of the ways you described things and things you said kind of rung home to me. I saw a bit of myself in you while listening and I just couldn't help but want to reach out and say something. Anything, because I just can't stand seeing people in so much pain. You are loved, you are valued, and you are cherished. I pray for you, that things only get better from here on. You're a kind, gentle soul and really only deserve nothing but the best. You're genuine and you're sweet. I feel privileged to hear your story and I'm happy you were able to share it. Man, there's so many thoughts going through my head, I wish I could be there to tell you in person. Anyways, I know I'm just a faceless person from the internet, but I wish for you the best. Please try not to hate yourself. I know it's easier said than done, trust me, but you're too precious to hate. You're one of a kind and you're just overall a really lovely person. I'll stop before my comment gets too long. Love ya Friv. Never change and keep your eyes forward. And never give up.
Fuck, I cried. Love you man. Couldn't imagine you not doing this. God definitely has something special in store for you. Asmr is just a taste of what's to come. I know it.
Your channel is the first think I go in when I’m having a rough time. Your words are comforting and reassuring. Your channel allows me to space out, laugh and relax. You do so much for others I can’t even.. I know it’s irrational but when I feel like no one cares I click on one of your videos and it just feels like you somehow understand and you make it okay. This video was like a rollercoaster of emotions that somehow left me with tears while smiling. I just wanna give you a BIG OL BEAR HUG and just cry together! But I’m afraid my biceps might break you... keep being you Lauren. We all love you and we’ll always be around! Thank you for being you :) -Love from Canada 🇨🇦
I know it's almost 2 years since this video came out and I am pretty late. But my heart just broke while hearing your story. I am truly sorry for what you have gone through and I think I won't ever be able to understand the pain you're feeling. But nevertheless, I wanted you to know that I am so amazed and so proud of you on how you still keep up with your life and that you haven't given up. And I wanted you to know that I really love you. Your videos always make me smile and feel better. Even if my problems - compared to the tragedies of other human beings - way to unimportant you always give me hope and fill me up with motivation and a warm feeling of finding someone who understands me in a sort of way. I am so thankful that you are here 💕
Bad things happen to good people. You've come so far, and we are proud of you. You're a very kind and strong person. You deserve all the love in the world.
Now I know why your “It’s ok” video is so heartfelt and comforting. (It seemed strange from someone half my age!) You are making your life’s story big enough to hold the pain. Keep growing it, that’s the way through ❤️🙏
I'm glad that you made a video about your story, it's been a mystery to me for most of the time I've watched your videos (about 2 years) and now I have even more respect for you. Your content has let me fall asleep on restless nights, thank you for making these videos.
Such a strong and beautiful soul. Frivvy I think one of the reasons that i have related to you without many words being said is because of our traumatic pasts. You have helped me keep sober, for that i will thank you. I'm legit crying while trying to study
This definitely made me cry, I just relate to this so much, it just put me in that same bubble that I have always been. I am so sorry that this has happened to you. I remember when I read your about and knowing that you lost someone made me cry for days. Knowing someone you love and just enjoy watching and knowing the dark life they suffer, touched me. Loosing someone is one of the hardest thing as well, I don't know how you still put up with. You're such a strong *beautiful* person, Lauren. *I love you so much! xxx*
Frivi...I just want to reach through this screen and hold you and comfort you. While I personally can’t relate to the first part of your story, I can relate to that feeling of loss. Loss comes in so many different ways. For me it was losing my mom at 23 after she battled stage 4 breast cancer for 13 years. Those 3 years you talked about being in such a dark place... made my heart stop, because that was me. 5 years I drowned in my grief and other emotions, and aside from seeing a therapist weekly these last 2 years, ASMR has been what’s helped me begin to heal. And you specifically have been a huge part of that. I could go on and on, but know you are loved. You are respected and valued so so much. You are strong. And you are worth so so much more than I think you realize. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story *hug*
As Lauren talks, the rain started pouring heavily, I believe they’re not only from the tears you have slipped down your cheeks, but also from those who are suffering from all kinds of obstacles and difficulties. Thank you for being here, existing and being alive, you’ve done a great job that most people couldn’t, you breathe life into us.
You have a beautiful soul dear, thank you so much for sharing. You create fabulous content, and it’s not just what you do, but how you put yourself into it. It’s the love you offer. So I offer you my love in return, and as many air hugs as you like. You are strong, kind, beautiful, and true. Never questioned why we love you. Again, thank you for sharing you wonderful person.
I've seen your live streams on this and I always wanted to know more but I never wanted to push to ask for more because I could tell that it was a very important story and personal story so I have always been waiting for you to slowly open up about it to complete strangers and think you are incredibly brave making this video when you shouldn't have to explain yourself to people who don't know you and I think it's amazing and I'm just happy you are willing to ignore the haters and post something so personal and I love you more as a person and as an asmrtist because of it
I lost the person I loved 9 years ago, a few days after Christmas, after she suffered a tbi from a car accident. I cannot begin to express how much I relate to this story. I know how much it hurts and I'm so sorry you had to experience that level of pain.
God, I’m so sorry about what happened. I can’t imagine what that whole experience must’ve been like for you. It’s so saddening to have to go through something like that. I’m glad that your outlet through ASMR has helped along your path in life. Idk if you still pray or believe in God anymore but I’ll try to keep you and your love in my prayers. Some Christians can be very judge mental including my own family, but ultimately, God is the only one who’s wise enough to judge us and I really don’t want to go on some religious rant or something but I just want to say I believe God loves all his children and watches over us no matter what.
God knew that we were sinners and that we would continue to be sinners when His son died for us on the cross. There is no sin that God cannot forgive when we are in Christ Jesus. However, it's important to know that we should never be at peace with our sins. We should always try our best to fight it and run to God. God is a very loving God, but He is also just and righteous.
I've gotten many messages asking where the best place to donate to me is, if I have an Amazon WishList, etc. While I appreciate the sentiment, I made this video to simply connect and encourage. If you feel moved to donate, I ask you to instead donate to one of these three non-profits that are near and dear to me (for probably obvious reasons):
www.braintrauma.org/donate
americanstroke.org/
afsp.org/
This is the first time I could finally get through this, I got too choked up every other time. I'm so sorry for you. You're such a brave person and honestly an inspiration for being where you are now. This made me feel so damn much and I don't know how to fully express it.
I respect you dearly💞
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My heart goes out to you, sister, thanks for sharing.
this just shows how great of a person you truly are. while i love that you put yourself out there for all of us to see, i advise to proceed with caution. not everyone is as good intentioned and kind as you and the majority of your viewers. don't reveal anything that can be turned around and used to attack you. it happens all the time and caused many good asmrist to stop uploading as im sure you know.i am not saying to stop giving these kind of stories to us viewers but do be carfull with how much you do reveal.
There is a LOT I didn't talk about and a LOT I could've elaborated on. I just wanted to put somewhat of a foundation out there, otherwise I would've rambled on and on trying to fit everything in, every point of view, and freaking out about making sure i'm articulating anything and everything correctly. Then you'd end up never getting a video, because that's never going to happen, and even if it did, you're not going to please everyone. So I think everyone should be able to tell their story without being afraid to do so. It doesn't have to be perfect, super profound, or whatever, it just has to be you and what you feel in your heart! So I guess this is me just going for it. Thank you for allowing me and giving me a place like this to do so.
FrivolousFox ASMR #SUPEREARLYSQUAD!!!!!
FrivolousFox ASMR we love you lauren!
FrivolousFox ASMR I love you so much
Thank you for everything you do for all of us
FrivolousFox ASMR. I love you/ te amo a ti
I spanish peruvian
There are no words besides this: I will hold you in my heart every day. Thank you for being you, Friv.
Couldn’t have said it better myself!
😭
so well said ❤️
slight sound asmr ilove your asmr 2
You are a breath of life for this community, Lauren. I'm so sorry for your loss. Sending you all of my love 💗
Damn ok I see you, commenting on a 21 Savage song (21 Savage - ASMR) now you're commenting on a 4 month old ASMR video damn
She’s not dead
@@anarose222 you're right. She isn't. That's why she said sorry for your loss.
Even though this was months ♀🤦♀
@OG Loc guilt, all guilt
How do u get verified
I don't usually comment on UA-cam videos and I know this video is from a year ago but I just want to send you so much love. So much. You mean so much to this community and you've done so much for people that watch your videos. You truly are a blessing.
@Adam Affer agreed my friend
U r very nice you r a very good person u r y people still upload because they get suport like this
sinners
@@jackwilliams5223 dude. she went through a massive trauma with her girlfriend, and all you care about is her sexuality?
@@sutton.s Yes. Only boys have girlfriends. I stand by what I wrote.
I just want to give you a big hug. I’m very sorry this happened to you. You are so strong. I can’t imagine going through this, it’s the absolute worst that can happen to you. I’m glad ASMR is able to help you and I hope you continue to be better and feel better. You deserve it so much. ❤️
You’re such a kind, beautiful soul and this is exactly what I’m talking about being so proud and happy to be in this community!! Thank you so much lovely!! 💕
your comment mad me cry right after i stoped crying because of the story. beautiful words!
Agreed
fastASMR what about losing your leg in afghanistan, or losing a parent, or so many other things. Not trying to trivialize her misfortune but you can say somethings the “absolute worst” thing that can happen to you. Everyone’s lost someone before, we’ve all gone through it (unless you’re like 12). Honestly, her and you and I have experienced nothing in terms of pain and anguish. And i say that with confidence even not knowing your past. It’s just disrespectful seeing you say that’s the absolute worst thing that can happen to you when there’s much worse that goes on every day.
Viewer 1819 I think you’re over thinking her comment. Yes, there are situations that happen in this world that are way worse than Lauren’s. I agree. I think that the OP worded her comment wrong though. I’m sure she didn’t mean any disrespect
She loves you. She doesn’t want you to carry this guilt. She loves you, Lauren. I don’t believe for a second she’s forgotten you. Even if she can’t communicate it to you, she loves you.
I found my mate almost six years and every day with him is a blessing. I can tell you even if I was blind, paralyzed, and mute, I would never forget him. She hasn’t forgotten you. She never will; just like you’ll never forget her or stop loving her.
glad you're with your God-given soulmate:) God Bless you all.
Is Lauren LGBTQ+? I’m so confused? Tbh Idc bc she is a ASMR queen!
@@Brokes9 probably a british person or Australian. And mate is another word for partner or boyfriend/Girlfriend
@@Brokes9 dude, it works more than one way
@@AshsPikachu101 and so do I, ooooohhh aaaahhh
After 48 minutes of honesty and emotion, I now realize that I just witnessed someone bear their soul. I wish all impacted by your story well.
I know this was a year ago, but this is the most pure video I’ve ever seen.... you are so strong frivvi. I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder back in 2018 and you honestly saved my life. I literally can’t sleep without listening to you. You are a light in this world frivvi. Your voice soothes me and comforts me. Thank you for saving my life, I wouldn’t be here today without you. you are an angel💓
GET FRIVVI TO SEE THIS COMMENT
@@skylermaxwell2778 I AGREe SHE NEEDS TO SEE IT
Nobody is weak. It's what you do in the face of terrible events in life that makes you who you are. It's okay.
Oowie that sure is soooooo inspiring, I’m certain I won’t be killing myself now that I’ve heard about YOUR bipolar depression.
@@krook7969 bruh not a good time to be sarcastic smh
I know what it feels like to blame yourself for taking someone from everyone else. 10 months ago I lost my mom. She died of a heroin overdose. I remember the night before she died we were having fun with my brother and grandmother. She was laughing and being happy. Before saying good night to us, she asked my brother and I if we wanted to go to a party with her. It was a simple birthday party for one of her friends twin daughters. We replied no because I wanted to sleep in and have a lazy Saturday. The next day she was dead. I always thought to myself “What if I had just said yes and gone to the party?” “Could I have stopped her from getting the heroin?”. I blamed myself for so long. I still wonder to this day and will continue to wonder what would have happened if I had gone. I miss her so much. Listening to your story brought back so many memories of her. Thank you and I’m sorry for your loss.
Obscure Dig don’t blame yourself man, there’s nothing u can do about it, keep pushing along in your life. Don’t forget about your mom, and always remember her. Wish u the best of luck in your life.🙏
It wouldn't be different... that's the life decision she made maybe sooner or later I truly believe that all of our days are written may she rest in peace 🙏❤
It’s not your fault bro stay strong
my dad died the same way
You can’t blame your self for dreadful stuff that has happened to those close around you you could never of known that that would happen
Lauren, you were blessed with a heart big enough to go through something like this and still be able to share your care and love with others. I can’t even begin to empathize with your story, but I felt it in every fiber of my being as you described it. It’s easy to tell how much you loved her - how truly transcendent and pure your connection was. Beauty is entangled in you, and I am grateful you share that with us so regularly. Thank you, for being here, and helping to spread the love. I love you, and I am so sorry.
Jeez. I've watched your videos for about a year. I saw you as a bubbly girl with a smile to melt an iron heart. I cant begin to understand how you feel. I'm so sorry.
Cant believe I've never seen this video. I will try and keep this short, because I could carry on way too long about how I now feel that it wasn't just a coincidence that I found your channel. When I was 17, my Dad and I used to ride dirt bikes out in the desert - he loved being in remote places, just the two of us. Again, to keep this short, that Saturday afternoon my Dad crashed his bike in a horrific accident. We were literally in the middle of nowhere, miles and miles from the nearest phone or person. When he crashed, I didn't know what to do - he had blood in his mouth and couldn't speak, he could only look in my eyes. I begged him to be okay - to tell me what to do. Do I go get help? Do I stay here with you? I wasn't even sure I would be able to find him again once I did find help. I went for help, and prayed for strength, I was so afraid. The ride was so far, I had no idea what to do. Riding away from my Dad, laying there alone I shouted to God, begging for help, my sanity beginning to unwind. The next 20 hours were a blur of panic, loss of hope, a family camping, helicopter trip to the hospital, and horrific news that I was not prepared for. Riding was my idea, my Dad spent every free minute with me, and riding was such a great way for us to spend time together. But, his mother and father, my grandparents, didnt understand that, and they blamed me for his death. At 17 I was alone, and in a world of pain. My Dad only wanted me to try my best, and from a promise I made him, I went to college, graduate degree, and jumped into a career. Fast forward several years and I didnt do a very good job of dealing with my memories and pain. After a while, that pain started to let me know it was going to be addressed one way or another. Sleepless nights, panic attacks, nightmares, anxiety, etc. I finally had to get some professional help to try to believe his passing was not my fault. That I did the right thing. Most nights, I would read, watch TV, scan the internet and videos to wear my brain down until I would finally pass out. I found ASMR less of a "tingles" response, but more of a way of finding relaxation, almost meditation. Your video was the first I came across. I had no idea you had been through so much pain. Please know that as much as you feel we mean to you, you bring so much to us, to me. Countless nights you have helped me shut off my brain and find peace. Your positive smile and messages soak into my thoughts as I have drifted off literally at my desk more nights than I can count. I travel for work each week to various client sites (pausing now with Covid), and you are there with me wherever I go, whatever hotel I might be in. Thank you so very much for sharing your story with us. My nightly therapy sessions with you have an even greater impact now and will mean even more to me. Thank you for your big heart and such a kind soul, and for being stronger than you will ever realize you are.
Holy crap you've been through a lot, what an insane and tragic story. Ive never been through such loss so I cant speak for your grandparents... but that's very unfair of them... I hope you and your family have been able to heal a bit 💕🙏
man you've got my whole respect you and everyone in such big pains, stories like yours make me feel embarrassed for every time i said i suffered i wish you the best.
I'm so sorry to hear about your father I dont think I woulda been able to handle your situation if I was in it so I hope you have a nice night or day or whatever time it is for you God bless and I hope you keep feeling better🙏
you have my respect Stark, I rush you the best of luck
I’m so sorry for your loss. It was a terrible way for him to go. I’m glad your getting through it. Sending live from America. ❤️
You’re so brave for talking about this. I’m so proud and grateful that you let us in to your life in this way. All the love ❤️❤️❤️
Mario Jerez ......did you not listen to the whole story? It’s quite a bit more than just “teenage love drama.” Regardless, this is her channel, and she can talk about what she wants. And I’m guessing that since you clicked on the video, you have the capability to click OFF the video rather than making a rude comment. 🙂
Mario Jerez lol okie dokie 🙄😂 bye 👋
@@evan6463 Buddy, Kids that fought in ww2 were not iron soldiers. Fighting in that time caused immeasurable suffering and pain for everyone involved. Just because someone else has gone through a horrible circumstance, doesn't mean they are saying they have had it worse. Death is not a contest, and I hope someday you stop treating it like one.
brave? what about the veterans that risk their lives every day, get shot at, blown up, and tortured in order to protect your freedom.
@@sb2h There are different types of bravery.
As a person who just recently discovered what it's like to truly love someone despite anything. I listened to this story to put me in your shoes and the girl I love in the place of yours and I truly came close to breaking down. I know everyone is saying it but you're so strong being here today. I love how genuine you are and telling us this story that is so personal to you. When something like that happens 6 years ago it's easy for the pain to last so much to where everyday it feels like yesterday. This was and is a beautiful video. Thank you for this, You're accepted and loved by everyone here. And thank you for giving us the comfort and love that you needed yourself in those hard times. Because alot of people really need it. Thank you
Yup
It was a nice message but I just can’t take it seriously with that profile picture
Me too
"I fell in love with her, and for some reason she fell in love with me." for some reason that hit me hard.
EiZ it made me realize I’m probably gonna be alone forever
I feel the same way with my boyfriend
@@myrkattt big mood
@@myrkattt that makes 2 of us.
i'm falling in love with someone right now and i know i am but i don't know if they'll ever feel the same so that hit me too
So I know I'm four years late, but I just saw your community post about how it's been ten years since the accident, and I had no idea you were in an accident, much less, losing the love of your life. I've always been a very casual viewer of yours since around 2016, when I first discovered ASMR. But I've always enjoyed your content. That being said, I'm glad you talked about this, Friv. The cost of love is to be missed so dearly. I hope one day soon, that love is returned back to you. I hope you carry her in your heart always, and you get a second chance. Have a great 2023, and thanks for telling me your story.
@@emmagracxsame I literally cried during this video for her
I'm just lying in my bed half asleep in tears.
BunnyMunchkin Draws I am lying on a couch watching bobs burgers at 2 am in the morning... I have issues
BunnyMunchkin Draws me too, i’m about to fall asleep but i cant stop crying
Omg same
OhmyGod same 😭😭😭😭
BunnyMunchkin Draws I’m drowning
I swear, when you started talking about her, your eyes just started sparkling✨
_melissa_k_ her eyes were also red
Fr tho its bootiful
Hey I’m ur 1k like, I just thought that was cool..sorry ;-;
@@gamershellyshelly8171 i was the 1.1k
@@gamershellyshelly8171 lol
You said something like "Asmr is supposed to be relaxing and not about a dark past" but honestly I love that you've taken 48 minute's of your life to tell us about it. It makes me respect YOU as an asmrtist. Knowing what you have gone through makes me respect your videos and you so much more. Seriously Frivvi, you are so wonderful and beautiful. Your videos have put me to sleep and stopped my anxiety from getting too bad, and I honestly appreciate you so much. I am always sending you love Frivvi. ❤❤❤
Listen to them when they talk like this its the persons SOUL speaking. Such a beautiful privilege in life to experience such a beautiful creation.
@@snoopbeerus4091 please just DONT.
when i heard friv say "breathe life into her" i really had to choke back the tears. I've heard that so many times from frivvi and now, knowing where it came from... I have no words. Thank you for what you do Friv.
"Gotta have opposites dark and light, light and dark in a painting. It's like in life.
Gotta have a little sadness once in a while so you know when the good times come.
I'm waiting on the good times now."
-Bob Ross
Hang in there, kiddo. It'll be okay.
I love this quote
You can beat me bobby
That is my mood
Jyrki Sukula yeah it was about two weeks after she had passed, and i'm not 100% sure but i think shortly after, he was also diagnosed with lymphoma
You're the bravest ASMRtist I've ever seen! You're strong and have a beautiful soul. You had to deal with a pain that I don't think I would ever be able to deal.
Hope you feel the love 💖💖💖
You dont know anything until,you have to deal with it
Mari ASMR what happened? Can’t watch video right mow
Original Name she lost the love of her life in a car accident, that's the main reason why she's an ASMRtist
I have no words to describe how much I want to give you a hug. I live in Ireland and I am willing to fly to you just to make that happen.
It breaks my heart to hear you say things like "for some reason..." when describing your accomplishments. The reason your channel grew is because you gave something that people needed.
You are not indebted to us. We are indebted to you. You breathe life into us all in every video and if we can make you feel the same then that is a healthy relationship.
I've watched so many ASMR artists and for me, you're one of the best. I listen to you every night. It is 2am now and I won't sleep without getting my ears eaten. ;p
If you do end up reading this I'll be feckin chuffed.
I'm only seeing this now, but this story needs to be shared. It's so heartbreaking and incredible. I feel like this should be a book. You are so strong, Lauren. I'm so sorry you had to go through all that. I wish I could just hug you through the screen. It's incredible that you could twist such a devastating story and incident eventually into a positive outfit and mindset. I have endless respect for you. My heart hurts. I'm sending you every inch of love that I have.
I love you so much Lauren. I remember hearing part of this story a few years ago on one of your livestreams and hurting for you and with this video it's the same. I could see on your face your love for her and it broke my heart for you. You have grown so much as a person and you have such a pure soul. You have helped me and countless others. You have created a positive outcome out of a negative situation. I'm so proud of you. Lovelovelovelovelovelove
Now it's our time to say this: You are worthy, you are enough, and you are so much loved. We all love you and will be here anytime, every day, supporting, sharing our time with you and just being here just for you
Desde argentina, desde el fondo de mí corazón, te quiero mucho, te aprecio y te mando las mejores energías, esas que tanto me has dado a lo largo del tiempo. Love you friv!
Argentina con A mayúscula
Flaco23 Jaja discúlpame, se me pasó ese detalle. Estaba demasiado ocupado llorando como una madalena como para darme cuenta de la ortografía xD
"Nothing lasts forever... But something special, can last a lifetime."
@OG Loc Didn't you listen to her story? Her parents wouldn't let her see her girlfriend. And it was a tragic accident.
who u talkin’ to bruh
shoeske they deleted their comment josukeeeee
I want to know what was the original comment ?
“What is grief if not love preserving” you are a strong person and the fact that you are here right now speaks volumes to your dedication of the willingness to live.
Just now seeing this video. Please remind yourself everyday that you are a good person. You are so worthy of all the light in life, and all the love. We love you, and she loves you too! My name is Lauren, too, so I feel an extra bit of love & connection with you. All the hugs 💗
Fabled Fawn ASMR I just found this video too also I love your videos
Fabled Fawn ASMR as much as I’d love love to say that’s sweet we don’t know what she is like when the camera off
I love how asmrtists support each other like this. Asmr is good! It brings people together!!
Cheesy👎
Fabeld fawn youre an amazing person for asmrtists supporting her and i love your videos btw
When i found out she was still alive my heart tore. I’m currently crying while writing this and i am so sorry jesus christ. I’m glad you’re with someone now and i’m glad you’re at least somewhat happy now, but i can’t fathom how it feels to have a loved one who is here but isn’t at the same time.
I was arguing with my girlfriend a little bit before I watched this. Like AS i clicked on this. I just was like nope. I’m so thankful for her, so i just dropped it and gave her love.
Thats so sweet!
Its always best to forgive and forget
It's so strange to hear the stories of other people to me since im young and haven't really gone through anything big, sometimes I forget that the people I walk past on the street have stories, and lives, and problems and this video just opened my eyes, im so so so incredibly sorry for your loss 💚. But also thank you so much, although I haven't gone through anything as emotionally changing as you did, your ASMR has helped me calm down during times where I've let my anxiety get the best of my conscience and have felt useless to the people around me, you've helped me get over so many sleepless nights of constant overthinking and this video on it's own has helped me feel a little less alone about my issues in school and my sexuality, thank you for everything you've done, and thank you for all the times you've breathed life into me and thousands of others
Frivvi, your story really tugs at my heartstrings. I've sat in a puddle of tears during and after watching this, and I can't imagine how many times you did as well. I applaud your strength. I know it's strange, but I really do feel like I know you deeper, and like we're friends.
This story really helped me look at my life with a new perspective, and realize I have some things to change. ❤️ Thank you so much for sharing, you don't understand how much it means to all of us.
“The past is a place of reference, not a place of residence; the past is a place of learning, not a place of living.”
- Roy T. Bennett
Keep on moving forward and be that beacon of light many of us know you to be. When you falter, know there are over 800,000 people here for you, and we'll always be here...waiting patiently for when you're ready to come back.
" Life's too short to worry about what others think"
-Brian Escamilla
I can relate with what you say. 👍
Schvatzva
Keep on moving on
Someone said it idk who
Edit that 800,000 into 976,000
Never thought my respect for you could grow more. You’re the strongest soul I’ve ever seen. I love you with my entire heart and you’re the most brave human ever. Stay strong Frivvi.
When you describe your lover it very much seems like you are describing yourself. Whatever of her seems lost to you seems to be very much alive in and as you. Thanks for having the courage to share this. Love flowing from heart to heart we all live on in and as each other.
wow this is beautiful 🥺❤️
No UA-camr has ever hit me so much that I just can't bring myself to speak. I want to scream, fight, fix everything, hug you, and change time so that you woke up tomorrow in a world where that never happened. I want to move to you just to try to make you smile every day.
I'm working towards becoming a trauma surgeon. I plan to work with groups like Doctors without borders, and other charity groups. I want to spend my life making the world better for everyone, but I worry about things like this. I will want to just "fix" everything, and make everything magically better, but that is rarely up to us.
If you ever need someone to vent or talk to, I will always happily listen. That goes for anyone in Frivi's comments. If you need someone to just talk to, and to just vent, I will do so happily.
Your story sparked a light inside of me that was feeling pretty dim. I feel reinvigorated towards what I'm working towards. Thank you. Again, I'm here to listen to you Frivi, and anyone else out there, who just needs someone to talk to. It's okay to feel lonely or to need someone to listen or chat with. We often don't like to admit that we need that, and sometimes a total stranger are the easiest to talk to.
If anyone ever needs someone to talk to, I made a Kik account (I know people used to use those a lot). My username is JWPSmith
can you only talk through kik and also (this is a stupid question)if i do want to vent does it matter what its about if you know what i mean?
May i contact you please...
@@celia6509 it doesn't matter to me what you want to vent about! Just whatever is on your mind! I'm using Kik because I'm trying to be careful about putting my personal info out there, but if you can think of another anonymous method, I wouldn't mind doing it another way.
@@walcodebruyn2135 absolutely! Just send me a message on Kik! My username is JWPSmith. I'm using Kik because it is anonymous. I want to be careful about providing personal info.
@@JWPSmith21 i just did thanks.
I don't think you have a selfish or mean bone in your body Fox. Your story is both heartbreaking and incredible. You are a truly honest and beautiful person. Thank you for being here. :)
I can not imagine what you have been going through. I must say I really appreciate that you let us hear your story. Please know, even if we can not put ourselves in your position to completely understand all the crap you had to go through, we always will be here to listen to your concerns when you need us the most. You have already given us so incredibly much with your videos and your passion that this is the least we can offer you. You are a wonderful person and nothing will change that. All the love to you.
Fafari what happened??? I can’t watch right now
I'm crying because i recently lost someone who meant alot to me like she was like a mother to me, I had to watch her change in horrible ways and become more in pain by the day, ofc i wasnt allowed to see her cuz her mother wouldnt let us visit her so i only saw her once whilst all of this was happening and like 2 days ago she died and i cant even go to her funeral but to have to watch someone you love go through something so horrible and all you can do is watch I wouldnt wish it on anyone and i am so sorry you went through that
I am very sorry for your loss. I nearly died in a car crash Nov 4, 2015 and was nearly paralyzed for 2 or 3 weeks at 65 years old (and with severe osteoporosis already). I thought I would never leave my home!
ASMR Soft Voice aww! i’m so sorry! glad you’re better now😊
glad you made it through♡
@@HeHaTeSmEe Day by day, Jessica!
Glad God pulled you through! And I will be checking out your channel it sounds great! :]
i was celebrating my 8th birthday that day, i’m so sorry.
That bit at the end, where you say yet another time what’s going to be the most important thing you have said. You know, it’s not ok now but someday it will. But this time. This time ... It was for her. I’ve shed a tear and sat in front of you, talking and whispering in that monitor, and it just overwhelmed my mind. She would love your ASMR and the beautiful person you’ve become. Just as we do. All the wrong you’ve been through and all the bad you’ve always had the feeling you’ve caused, you helped us go through some very similar things. You are so sweet to me and you are so sweet to us all. What she saw in you, we did too.
I don’t feel attached to any UA-cam channel like I do with you. We love you.
I've always identified as a straight male, I do not find other men sexually attractive, but have been more than comfortable to admit when another man is attractive or handsome. My best friend Jr. took his life four years ago(due to bullying and hatred) and I think he was one of the most beautiful people I've ever known. He felt like a second part of me, he was a soul mate in a sense. We did everything and went everywhere together. He came out to me before everyone else, because he thought I would be the worst judge and held my opinion higher than most. In a sense, get the worst out the way. He was still Jr. to me, the same person and I still love him to this day. I swore to myself, that I would end the life of everyone responsible for tormenting him. I sat, I seethed, I plotted and I prepared. My heart was filled with pure murder. His mother handed me a letter he wrote before he took his life...it told me to forgive, it told me to forget, it told me to counter the hatred with love...he knew I would get violent. I chose this path to honor Jr., there isn't a day that goes by, that I don't want to end someone...his final request made me a better person, and I've learned to live and let live, and love let love. R.I.P my friend.
pigbenis201 what a kind tribute to your friend ❤️ RIP Jr.
....nice username
This kinda made me tear up but then I saw your username and now I don't know what to do with my emotions
pigbenis201 beautiful,
Everyone commenting on my user name, this account is almost as old as I am. This was my uncle's account at one point, I kept it because he was subbed to everyone I watched anyway, except the ASMR stuff, that's from me. Pretty sure this user name is based off of the bass player for a band called Mushroom Head.
The words that were repeating in my head as you told your story
“If I could, through myself
Set your spirit free
I'd lead your heart away
See you break, break away
Into the light
And to the day”
It never ceases to amaze how those who have seen the worst find peace in giving of themselves to healing others. Thank you!
I lost the love of my life to breast cancer and seeing how you made it through all that pain and built up this channel and somehow turned it into something positive makes me respect you a lot. And people are going to say a lot of things in this comment section and probably other places on the internet but a lot of those people don't know what it's like to lose somebody that special to you and i hope they never will.
Sorry for your loss 😞
terry mcginnis I havent gone through loss, but I appreciate you being brave and sharing. You and frivvi have both gone through a lot.
Sorry for your loss my man, i lost my uncle to cancer
i’m so sorry that u had to go through this. this is so heartbreaking. i hope she gets better. i hope u get better. thank u for making this video and being brave enough to post it. i love u so much
vida seagraves yeah
Her name was Ladonna, she was my sun and moon. My first love my first everything. We got into a fight she left my apartment at a two way stop she was turning on green she went to cross and was hit head on by a drunk driver she was pronounced dead. That was 35 years ago. She could sing and dance she was amazing. You're not alone darlin. All my love to you. Thank you for sharing this story
This is so sad I'm gonna cry 😢🙏🏾 I'm honestly so so sorry
She lives on. My LaDonna and I wrote a song together and each time it slips into my mind I know shes right there watching and singing right along w it th me.
Katt Knight oml 35 years??? I’m so sorry for you, she will always be watching you.
Hugs. I just want you all to know you're not alone in this thing we call life. We are here and should be there for one another.
Amen brother
This is truly heartbreaking. I can’t fathom how you managed to get through the pain you must feel. You are truly truly an inspiration to us Lauren. Something about you just gets me through. Stay strong.
I didn't intend on writing a comment but after watching this I just want to say you're such a pure human being and I'm so sorry about your past. I hope things continue to get better and if you ever need anyone to talk to you have 800,000 people that would do anything for you, myself included. Thank you for being here for us.
This video broke me down in a way I don't have words for. It was raw, emotional, and you told one of the hardest times in your life to give everyone perspective. The word "bittersweet" doesn't even begin to express it, but goddamn there's nothing else. From the bottom of all our collective hearts, I'm sorry for what you endured and continue to hold; something that never leaves you, even when you've found yourself stronger from all the pain... but more importanly, we all love you, too.
You left your story on a positive note; one of love and admiration for everyone here, so I'll do the same. Thank you for reminding us all that, though things may be unimaginably dark and that there are turns you can never see coming, there are always people in the world who will accept everything you've been through and seen; the darkest reaches of your heart and the brightness you'd thought was had dimmed to nothingness.
No more fancy words... thank you again, and again.
Marc Bisson i really don’t think i could have said it better, i can’t start to explain how i feel but you did it. friv i love you so so much and i know you won’t see this and i’m just hhh it’s three am and i’m just- i just want to hug you
I've always assumed she was straight, like it was never even a second thought of mine. Even as she was describing the girl, I was half expecting for her to say something like "and then I met her brother". But the look in her eyes and the way she described her made me realize that that girl was the love her life, even before she said anything about it. How narrow minded of me to assume anything about her sexuality. Love is such a beautiful thing and she's lucky to have found it at such a young age, such a strong and passionate love, for however long it may have lasted. You're amazing Frivvy and i love you and your channel so much. This was such a well done video. Thank you for all you do. ❤
No andno Don’t beat yourself up! Growing up religious, I found myself being very homophobic. I’ve also very much always been attracted to guys. I would’ve never imagined I’d end up falling in love with a girl. We mess up, we learn, we grow. You may have also have heard that I have a boyfriend now, so to many people they’re confused. I was confused when I fell in love with her, too, but I mean. Love is love, man. I never really thought of myself being Bi, but if it’s possible that I fell in love with a girl once, it could happen again, right? So, sure! I’m bi. haha. This was one of the things I didn’t elaborate on in the video but intend do in a Q&A because I’m sure many people are going to be like WAIT YOURE GAY?! haha. ANYWAYS! Thank you for watching and being such a kind, wonderful person. We’re only human. We assume things and try to neatly put everything in boxes 🧚🏻♀️ But rarely is life so neat and clear-cut. So, again, don’t beat yourself up 💕 Thanks for being here and thank you so much for your understanding and support!!
FrivolousFox ASMR l
that comment was written very well
FrivolousFox ASMR yea lol I was about to say, like don’t you have a boyfriend lol
Nothing to be confused about now then. Just be you. :)
You don't need to apologise for taking your time and waiting till you were ready/able to tell the story. It is helpful to hear and I'm glad this channel has helped you heal yourself as much as it's helped me relax, sleep, feel better. Thank you for sharing.
“You are loved; You’re worthy, you’re worth it. It may not seem like it’s okay, it may not be okay; it’s not okay. But somehow, someway; it will be.”
~FrivviFox (Lauren)
King Erick I’m not loved
@@ibxjackcat2565 now you are.
Reading through the comments, I started reading your comment 1 second before she started saying it in the video. It was perfect timing!
Celia Triemstra it’s crazy because same
I’m barely watching this video and Ik I’m two years too late but this was so heartbreaking and I can’t believe you went through all this. May your heart and soul continue healing itself and may you find whatever happiness you seek Bc EVERYONE deserves happiness.
I read the description and am already bawling. You are loved by all of us. And i don’t know what id do without your care. You are an amazing person and the people Putting you down don’t realize how incredible you are
It's very rare that I watch something this long from beginning to end, but this was very captivating. I don't even know what to say except that I'm glad your experience on UA-cam has helped you in the healing process.
The problem with UA-cam is that when a friend is opening her heart to you and revealing her most traumatic experiences, you can't hold her hands and lock eyes with her when you see her start to linger just a moment too long in the landscape of a memory.
I remember when I was a little kid my mom was my best friend. She was an amazing person, funny, kind, accepting, understanding and caring. She had a stroke when I was 9. Everyone said she got lucky, because she could talk and move and walk, not like most of the people after something like that, but she never really came back. She's a totally different person now, with different mindset and opinions. It feels like she's a total stranger to me and I couldn't handle that for so many years. She has problems remembering stuff, like sometimes she forgets one hour long conversations. I don't want to say I know what it feels like, because everyone's story is so different, but in a way I lost her too. I don't know why I wrote this but I felt like I had to. What I want to say is that I respect you for being so strong, and you help me so much with your videos, so thank you.
I lost the love of my life in a car accident too. 7 years ago now. He changed my life for the better.
I’ll always miss him.
I’m so sorry you had to experience this deep loss.
“What we have once enjoyed deeply we can never lose. All that we love deeply becomes a part of us.”
-Helen Keller
This is literally the saddest story I've ever heard. *sobbing at work*
Meghan LeVota why were you watching this at work?
derek petty some people do it for relaxation so they don’t get stressed out while they work or so the background noises calm them.
I watched this 5 yrs ago and just watched it again. You’ve grown into such a beautiful, transparent and truly selfless young lady. I feel like a proud mom Lauren!💜🫶🏼💜🫶🏼💜
As somebody who struggles with PTSD and depression, I just want to say you are amazing. I’m so sorry you were denied being able to see her.
You don’t deserve the blame.
Lmao depression is not real grow up kid
Bowsette Is Bae how old are you?
Brian Burkhardt it isnt real its just being soft and having your feelings hurt
Wavvy Tay thanks dr. Tay, I’ll be sure to make sure my psychiatrist gets the update.
whats wrong with you guys? How is depression not real?
I was putting off watching this video ever since you posted it because I knew it would be heavy, but I'm so glad I finally did. You're absolutely the most genuine, resilient, and just purely wonderful human on here. Our lives are nothing alike and yet I feel this on a level I could have never imagined (it gave me a different kind of tingles).
You've always been great at that, and I feel like we're actually friends. Not sure if you'll even see this, but I appreciate all the work you do, for being vulnerable, for being real, for fighting every single day. I appreciate you. And you have the most wonderful community of friendly supportive people (I always get this warm fuzzy feeling in this part of the interwebs), and I think that's because of you. Because you didn't give up. Because you breathe life. You attract wonderful people, but I think you make us all better too. We all see that in you. We love you Friv!
It's a 3am and I just finished listening to your story, my pillow is wet from the tears, you are a very strong person and you have helped me fall asleep on many occasions when I have had a rough day or my mind is just racing. I hope that you keep doing asmr, it really helps so many people. Always stay positive.
I may be a year late, but this has me SOBBING
Ms.Panda Loaf dude same. I can’t even imagine
Congratulations
Lol
o my is that Zuko
same
The greatest glory in living lies not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall.
- Nelson Mandela
@OG Loc wow just wow
@OG Loc are you serious? Damn... SMH... 😑 I hope & pray the day never comes when you need compassion, understanding & support.
"Judge not lest ye be judged."
Natzu Müller He is the pride of South Africa and for this exact reason.
I've been crying this entire video, and I don't know where you get your strength. You are truly inspiring, a light within this community and I think we can all agree when I say she loves you. Happy pride, love you x
Thank you for making this video Frivi. I lost my dad 4 years ago and the anniversary was only a few days ago. I was home alone 14 and I found him unconscious in his room. I blamed myself for not calling the ambulance fast enough, after he died I just wanted to end it all for years. It's taken me a lot of time and work to come to realize that it was no ones fault. Im in my first year of college far from home and I've felt really alone without any of my friends or family, so being able to hear someone else talk about their struggles helps me feel just a little less lonely. Keep those beautiful memories of her close to your heart, I'm sure she'd want you to be live your life to the fullest, and I'm glad I had the honor to hear about this beautiful person. Even if you don't read this comment, I hope you read others like it and realize that we all love you. Thank you for helping me with my nightmares. Thank you for helping me with my depression. Thank you for making me believe I'm worth something, and that I'm loved. Thank you for being a person I can look up to. We're not alone, and asmr is a beautiful thing that I'm proud to be a part of. We all support you!
P.S. as a gay gal your story of your loves perseverance in this world is incredible
😢😭😢😭😢😭
😫😫😭😭😿😿😿😯😯😯
she's smiling in the video...How do you do that? It didnt even happen to me and yet im bawling man.
She really is hella strong, i dunno why but im proud.
I dont even know her, but im proud
Hey man I know its been 2 years since your comment, their is alot of positive comments alot pf people here have empathy and honestly its so nice to see such a tight community I wish nothing but the best for everyone who has a thpught other than themselves, including friv even if its been years scars fade but never heal
I saw your heartbreak... I felt it. The whole time I thought she died and in a way she did. I am so sorry. You deserve all the happiness and acceptance in the world
This sounds like an unreal story from a fiction book. It’s so horrible and I’m so sorry this happened to you. I love your videos and I hope you keep uploading.
@OG Loc I'm so sick and tired of people like you.
Mae Mae I get mixed feelings from this
@@aes_lake I know I'm extremely late, but what did they say if I may ask?
george's big toe i wonder too
The fact that you didn't break all the way down after you lost your soul mate in that... I mean you're pretty amazing for that alone. If that would of happened to me I would of lost it completely. You picked yourself up time and time again. I know I'm too old for personal hero's but you are the strongest person I know ❤❤
When she talked about the best moment of her life I started absolutely sobbing
me too
I knew the story but not with all the details and I was not prepared for how much emotion I felt from this video. Sending you all the love Lauren 💜
I read the About tab on your channel, and it was very sweet. We love you Frivi and thank you for everything you’re doing for us.
Don't feel bad that you didn't make this 2 years ago. I'm glad you waited until you were truly ready. There was never no need to rush or open up your personal life off the bat. I'm brave of you for finally sharing with us though, and I feel sorry that you went through that and I wish you the very best in your future. I actually just did start watching not too long ago and I really like your personality and I'm glad you managed to find an outlet to help you get through the rough times. Again, I wish you the very best, and I look forward to seeing the things you continue to make for us in the future. We truly do appreciate everything you do :)
she remembers you. i know in my heart and soul, that she remembers you.
I felt that. Idk how else to say or word that or how to describe that
She?
@@jackwilliams5223 Did you watch the video??
@@gudetama4697 Only a bit.
@@jackwilliams5223 Oh ok ok I'm sorry
Hey Friv, I listened to your story and felt the need to just say some stuff.
First off, you've done nothing wrong. I'm sure you've heard it before, but none of this is your fault. It pains me to hear you blame yourself because o know that feeling.
I can only imagine what it's like to lose someone so very close to your heart. I've had heartache before, but never like this. You are truly a strong person to still be with us today.
I deal with clinical depression and a lot of the ways you described things and things you said kind of rung home to me. I saw a bit of myself in you while listening and I just couldn't help but want to reach out and say something. Anything, because I just can't stand seeing people in so much pain.
You are loved, you are valued, and you are cherished. I pray for you, that things only get better from here on. You're a kind, gentle soul and really only deserve nothing but the best. You're genuine and you're sweet.
I feel privileged to hear your story and I'm happy you were able to share it. Man, there's so many thoughts going through my head, I wish I could be there to tell you in person.
Anyways, I know I'm just a faceless person from the internet, but I wish for you the best. Please try not to hate yourself. I know it's easier said than done, trust me, but you're too precious to hate. You're one of a kind and you're just overall a really lovely person.
I'll stop before my comment gets too long.
Love ya Friv. Never change and keep your eyes forward.
And never give up.
@OG Loc dude, her parents blocked her out so she couldnt see her. It wasnt her choice
It already did.......NOBODY WILL READ THE WHOOOLLE THING! sorry I was too harsh there ..
I feel like this could be made into a movie. This is honestly heart breaking. You’re so strong and brave and I’m sending you lots of love.
13:44 *My heart melted😣, And I'm ALREADY in tears*
I just cried like a baby listening to your story. You’re stronger than you know. Thank you for sharing 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Fuck, I cried. Love you man. Couldn't imagine you not doing this. God definitely has something special in store for you. Asmr is just a taste of what's to come. I know it.
35:44 her face :( that broke my heart! 💔
Almost cried
green . dirt what happened I’m confused
Eliza Hamilton hey Eliza!
how did you watch the video that fucking long i got bored at 5 minutes
@@buganddoug1253 some of us are actually attached to this human emotionally and care about what they have to say believe it or not
Your channel is the first think I go in when I’m having a rough time. Your words are comforting and reassuring. Your channel allows me to space out, laugh and relax. You do so much for others I can’t even.. I know it’s irrational but when I feel like no one cares I click on one of your videos and it just feels like you somehow understand and you make it okay. This video was like a rollercoaster of emotions that somehow left me with tears while smiling. I just wanna give you a BIG OL BEAR HUG and just cry together! But I’m afraid my biceps might break you... keep being you Lauren. We all love you and we’ll always be around! Thank you for being you :) -Love from Canada 🇨🇦
I know it's almost 2 years since this video came out and I am pretty late. But my heart just broke while hearing your story.
I am truly sorry for what you have gone through and I think I won't ever be able to understand the pain you're feeling. But nevertheless, I wanted you to know that I am so amazed and so proud of you on how you still keep up with your life and that you haven't given up. And I wanted you to know that I really love you. Your videos always make me smile and feel better.
Even if my problems - compared to the tragedies of other human beings - way to unimportant you always give me hope and fill me up with motivation and a warm feeling of finding someone who understands me in a sort of way.
I am so thankful that you are here 💕
Bad things happen to good people. You've come so far, and we are proud of you. You're a very kind and strong person. You deserve all the love in the world.
Now I know why your “It’s ok” video is so heartfelt and comforting. (It seemed strange from someone half my age!)
You are making your life’s story big enough to hold the pain. Keep growing it, that’s the way through ❤️🙏
I'm glad that you made a video about your story, it's been a mystery to me for most of the time I've watched your videos (about 2 years) and now I have even more respect for you. Your content has let me fall asleep on restless nights, thank you for making these videos.
Such a strong and beautiful soul. Frivvy I think one of the reasons that i have related to you without many words being said is because of our traumatic pasts. You have helped me keep sober, for that i will thank you. I'm legit crying while trying to study
This definitely made me cry, I just relate to this so much, it just put me in that same bubble that I have always been. I am so sorry that this has happened to you. I remember when I read your about and knowing that you lost someone made me cry for days. Knowing someone you love and just enjoy watching and knowing the dark life they suffer, touched me. Loosing someone is one of the hardest thing as well, I don't know how you still put up with. You're such a strong *beautiful* person, Lauren. *I love you so much! xxx*
Frivi...I just want to reach through this screen and hold you and comfort you. While I personally can’t relate to the first part of your story, I can relate to that feeling of loss. Loss comes in so many different ways. For me it was losing my mom at 23 after she battled stage 4 breast cancer for 13 years. Those 3 years you talked about being in such a dark place... made my heart stop, because that was me. 5 years I drowned in my grief and other emotions, and aside from seeing a therapist weekly these last 2 years, ASMR has been what’s helped me begin to heal. And you specifically have been a huge part of that. I could go on and on, but know you are loved. You are respected and valued so so much. You are strong. And you are worth so so much more than I think you realize. Thank you for being vulnerable and sharing your story *hug*
Is this loss
*hugs both of you*
Who else loves her?💞
Everyone 😊😊
@@stevanmilovanovic9128 well seven people don't😓
me
i do🤗
She's a sweet, kind, caring human being... She's so loveable. 💜
As Lauren talks, the rain started pouring heavily, I believe they’re not only from the tears you have slipped down your cheeks, but also from those who are suffering from all kinds of obstacles and difficulties.
Thank you for being here, existing and being alive, you’ve done a great job that most people couldn’t, you breathe life into us.
You have a beautiful soul dear, thank you so much for sharing. You create fabulous content, and it’s not just what you do, but how you put yourself into it. It’s the love you offer. So I offer you my love in return, and as many air hugs as you like. You are strong, kind, beautiful, and true. Never questioned why we love you. Again, thank you for sharing you wonderful person.
I've seen your live streams on this and I always wanted to know more but I never wanted to push to ask for more because I could tell that it was a very important story and personal story so I have always been waiting for you to slowly open up about it to complete strangers and think you are incredibly brave making this video when you shouldn't have to explain yourself to people who don't know you and I think it's amazing and I'm just happy you are willing to ignore the haters and post something so personal and I love you more as a person and as an asmrtist because of it
I’m sobbing in my bed at four am. I wasn’t prepared for this.
Ashley Nicole Ikr, I knew it was going to be sad but I’m legit just sitting in my bed sobbing, like my nose pouring, eyes puffy, kind of sobbing.
Same.
Omg same I stupidly thought it was going to be subtly sad but then I watched it and I was not prepared for how many tissues I would use
Ashley Nicole the 99 likes was pissing me off.. so I liked it
Yea same I knew it was going to be sad but not this sad
I lost the person I loved 9 years ago, a few days after Christmas, after she suffered a tbi from a car accident. I cannot begin to express how much I relate to this story. I know how much it hurts and I'm so sorry you had to experience that level of pain.
God, I’m so sorry about what happened. I can’t imagine what that whole experience must’ve been like for you. It’s so saddening to have to go through something like that. I’m glad that your outlet through ASMR has helped along your path in life. Idk if you still pray or believe in God anymore but I’ll try to keep you and your love in my prayers. Some Christians can be very judge mental including my own family, but ultimately, God is the only one who’s wise enough to judge us and I really don’t want to go on some religious rant or something but I just want to say I believe God loves all his children and watches over us no matter what.
Amen brother amen
God knew that we were sinners and that we would continue to be sinners when His son died for us on the cross. There is no sin that God cannot forgive when we are in Christ Jesus. However, it's important to know that we should never be at peace with our sins. We should always try our best to fight it and run to God. God is a very loving God, but He is also just and righteous.
Amen dude! You said everything in the best way possible!
@@seant.2387 are you saying being gay is a sin?
PREACH.