The Train Ride Home | SVA Thesis Film (2020)
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- Опубліковано 11 лип 2020
- A young woman and her father set out in hopes of catching up with each other. My final film from the School of Visual Arts (CAD). Hope you enjoy!
Art by Jessica Pon:
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Music by Omar Habbak:
• "The Train Ride Home" ...
Imagine how traumatic it would be to end up on the very train that your daughter leapt in front of. Horrible.
You know it's actually a fact, most people die not too far from their homes or family. I just read it somewhere the other day in an article.
I thought about it as well but I don't think it was like this because he would hear the drama of "someone threw themselves" and it will take his attention.
@@lipstickrose Its because most people who end there lives want to be somewhere familiar its the same way for if someone is dyeing.
@@lipstickrose Ohh
When you say it, i think it's true. All of the suicides i know are like that.
But she must've survived since she still types with him at the end there
That big dark "X" circled on the calendar is revealed at the beginning after she closes the door. That and none of the days after it have anything notated. That is strongly suggestive that she planned on that being her last day. The fact that it comes into focus after the door closes is the animator's way of telling us that it is not just some random calendar, but is significant to the story. When you add that to the other hints already mentioned and it seems hard to avoid the conclusion that she did indeed intend to end her life. However the film leaves just enough ambiguity to keep us from being absolutely sure. That is a mark of excellent film making.
You have a point!
in the end you see her heel stepping off the train floor meaning right before the film ends, she most likely does step off
It‘s not uncertain at all. She is literally seen taking a step over the safety line while the train is approaching. The only thing that could have saved her would‘ve been someone else grabbing her arm or something, but she 100% tried to take her life there.
And you can see all the sticky notes in her work office, one of them says “die! 03/24”
@@blacky_Ninja At the very end, you can see her father and she is replying to his message. This suggests that she likely changed her mind at the last minute.
One thing I like about this is the blank eyes. It gives the feeling that everyone, at least in her perspective, is soulless. Unkind, uncaring, unloving. Even her.
Edit made 10/9/22: I've noticed something more! She says "This time he's nice" when talking to baba about someone she met, which to me seems to be an indication that she may be a victim of some kind of abuse from a past partner, which really just makes this whole animation so much sadder.
Especially how eyes are the windows to the soul
Or at least blind to the reality of how other people feel on the inside
@@starzeit24 right? there's absolutely no reflection, not even color. just a blank, colorless expanse.
The way people lives in America
@@aylex1974 Yup, I'm in America, I get it lol
Seriously though I didn't realize when I typed the OG comment how much I see the world like this
I’ve seen a lot of people point out the calendar, but her to-do list is also super telling and sad. The first thing on the list is “drop off donations” which could be her giving away her stuff, and “drop off snowy” could be her putting her pet up for adoption before she committed. Very sad, and very well done.
i love the use of warmer colours for baba's side of the train and colder tones for the daughter. depicts the mood so well. this is amazing.
Exactly 💯
What an amazing story, I really hope that she’s okay. Seeing her trying so hard to not show how alone she feels and all the stress she’s under, was really heartbreaking. Yet at the same time understandable and relatable
Didnt she jump in front of the train in the end ?
Jenny Duong dude you missed the message, she kills herself at the end after hiding her true emotions.
milo miga If continue watching at the end, you’ll see that the daughter is texting back by the ... next to her picture. And there was a message ping as well. So I’m holding out hope, not ignoring the message as you say.
Oh ok. It totally looked like she killed herself sorry
@@jennyduong2466 no but he said he just got signal so that means her text just went through
Glad that it had a happy ending. That "ding" after the dots on the phone shows that she didn't leap infront of the train but she read dad's msgs and replied to him hence the "ding"
Everyone Can relate to this, we're all trying to keep up a good face in front of our loved ones or people in general, a Friend, a pet, a family member, or just because we try to believe that everything is fine.
Even at the end, she kept a smile on and tried to look alright, which is really hard.
Even if it's only a fictionnal character, i Hope she's doing okay, also those things happen in Real life, like for all we know that nice lady that helped us Yesterday, could have killed herself.
It's really terrifying to see how much a person Can hide with a smile or a poker face.
Bless those people 💛
Hey, idk if it’s something that happened to you and this might be late but know that God loves you and has a plan for you, he knows your trials and just wants you to lean on him, He made you for a reason. ❤️
It might be better to let your family know if you’re not having a good time. “Keeping a good face” would only make you feel more lonely, no? They’re not meant to just be made to believe you’re doing well they might help too
@@hehehi9627 this could be triggering to the person, you have no idea what their history is, please stop
@@larissaheunis533 hi there, thanks for the reply and I understand but my reply wasn’t intended to harm the person nor anyone who will read it, rather I just wanted people to know and hear about God’s love for people, second chances and beginnings do happen and we are called to give the message to people who need it. We live in a very broken world where it needs a savior, idk if you or this person have been through something or had a bad experience with the church but God’s love is far more and different from humans, so again I did not mean anything negative, and I hope that you will not either from this reply, have a blessed day.
It’s so apparent that you see what’s relevant in your life in what you watch, but for me this is all about help being there. She’s planned this. She’s set on doing it. She’s there. She’s trying so hard not to let it show and not to be a burden on her beloved baba.
But as a person who’s been suicidal I see other things too. The planning of a suicide is not only the last chance to “do something right” but also a last chance to change your mind. The time from when that X on the calendar was made until that train comes is the time for a sign. For anything that could tell her it’s worth still living. And when those dots turn up on her baba’s phone I breathed a sigh of relief, because I think that was it for her. An excuse to power through a little bit longer. A reason to keep on living.
For me this film is about such a small thing as a visit or a kind word to someone you love could be the difference between life and death.
It took me two times to watch this video and read this comment to realise what do you actually mean. It's not Baba who needs a visit or a kind word. It's she.
Yup, once you set everything in motion you go through with it in one swift motion.
The fact that she replies at all means she’s alive, at least for today.
Even if my reasoning was so very different from her, its weird to see such things still line up.
I love what you said ❤️ For myself, the book "A Life GOD Rewards" changed how I felt about suicide. The dot and arrow analogy in this book helped me to understand the mistaken belief that taking one's life is not the end...
It’s funny how her call starts and ends with a step.
I didn't realize that! It's a cool parallel.
Foreshadowing
@@T-Ko0 not really foreshadowing, just a parallel
IM GOING TO CRY WHY DID YOU WORD IT THIS WAY THAT HITS WAY HARDER THAN IF YOU JUST SAID IT PLAINLY
@@-Persephone_Wannabe- She didn't commit that's why she still typed at the end
I'm crying. This was so well made, how on the phone she's trying to reassure her dad that everything's okay when the images show otherwise. How the lighting for the girl is dark and gloomy but for the dad it's bright and hopeful. The detail of the calendar, hinting that she planned to do that from the beginning. The subtle imagery of s*lf h*rm where she feels like she's drowning all alone. The ambiguous ending where we don't know if she survived or not. This was incredible.
Who the heck disliked this wonderfully fantastic animation?! It's so blinkin' good!
Sometimes (not often) I dislike things not because I think they’re bad, but because I clicked on them accidentally and don’t want more things like them recommended to me. Again, not because they’re bad, but just because they’re not my cup of tea. (I didn’t do it to this one, but other people might have)
@@sisterdragonwithfeathers1654 Okay, that's fair enough reason.
the ones that cried
Well... now UA-cam really doesn't have a dislike button anymore... their only concerned with the likes
@@aydenjacko5810 use an extention
Honored to have been a part of this film ❤️
woah! Nice!
there's no part 2 because she's is dead now
This is amazing work!!
@@bluble4490 who
It must’ve been really good to be involved with such a wonderful project like this. Honestly I wouldn’t mind doing something like this in the future as well, even though I don’t know what industry I might go into fully. How long did it take to meet this? And what are both of you doing now?
This needs to be talked about more. Saying your fine and not have to look at anyone when you say it. It’s so easy. When really, they don’t even know how much pressure your under and how your struggling to keep it down. Like when your under iced water. They can’t see you, but you can see them. This captured that perfectly.
This is beautiful. The music and the voice acting sold it incredibly well. And the choice to give them no iris' and just have the white eyes makes it feel as though they're empty or lacking something. So well done.
I got chills oh my god- that was beautifully composed. Especially the calendar detail… she knew what she was doing. The blank eyes really added to the mild insanity of it. 10/10
Calendar? You are making me think as if we ended herself… it’s scary..
"Anyways, sorry for everything..." That line broke my heart
just noticed that when she says she met someone, she says “don’t worry, this time he’s nice”. i think this implies she was in some kind of abusive relationship which makes this even more sad
What a wonderful story. I'd like to think dad's message came just in time to keep her from stepping on the tracks.
I feel bad that I didn't got the hint early on that she is planning on ending it all. I fear that might happen with someone close to me and I didn't catch the hints. I myself experience how hard it can be, and I don't wish for the people I love to experience it, or rather, go through it alone. Kudos for the awesome animation!
This is incredibly well made and so touching. It makes me realise how important it is to encourage your kids to open up freely about whatever it is that's bothering them. When a parent expresses themselves in a healthy way at home, it allows kids to be their authentic selves. This way, the parent will know and be able to read their kids better than anyone. Even if they claim to be OK. ❤️
crying right now
this hits close to home, always pretending everything is alright but it isnt
wait nooo i wanna know if she took her life or stopped herself before she did it, pleeeeeeease tell me D:
Same why do they have to make the end so confusing
i assumed that since her dad got a response from her it meant she was still alive, she probably saw his text and stopped herself
@@kappathefish7171 maybe or it could be police who found her body all through the phone would shatter, hmm I don't know
@@kappathefish7171 WHAT IF HER DAD WAS DEAD TOOOOO
She didn't ...that's why they showed that she is replying... it's like they saying that her dad's massage had put hope in her i think
They way she says hi baba (baba in our language means Father) and continues to state how she has been doing trying to make it sound good, hiding her true feelings, is that how depression and loneliness really feels like? being able to swallow up all the pain and suffering with a simple smile cause it is easier to look happy that to explain why you are feeling this way as it is so subtle that even you yourself won't know how you got there, you start feeling burdened with emotional pain and suffering, your mental burn out starts to take a physical form, you start losing interest in everything you used to like be it your hobbies or your job, your start distancing yourself from others often feeling left out, you try to make it look as if everything is fine but you know it's not, then you start losing hope in life and apologize for everything you've done and finally your life slowly fades away... Truly an amazing short film with so much depth.
you can't just make me cry like this!!! my heart cant take it
When she was about to step on the rail...
Me: NONONONO PLEASE DONT DO IT!!!!
When she responds to the text...
Omg I'm so happy shes alive 😭
I don’t think she responded, because the father just got signal, she probably sent the message before she decided to pass, then it loaded when the father got signal
I was also thinking it could be somebody else texting, breaking the bad news to her father
it's ambiguous
@@alfieomega how is someone else texting on her phone though, like do you really think her phone is intact after being hit by a train and then do you really think someone is going to reach into this dead woman's pocket and look for her phone? And even if it wasn't in her pocket, do you really think someone would reach next to a bloody dead woman to get her phone when they have their own phone to call 911. Just some rational thought questions.
@@HotCheetoGirl_ you bring good points
@@alfieomega I like you
As a Chinese person I have you a fun (not so fun) fact. If you look at the calendar, you can see it's the 4th month. Number 4 is unlucky number because its pronunciation is similar to word death, so it's the number of death.
I love that she sugar coats her whole life to her loved ones, it really is significant as that’s common for people with depression
I'm subscribing. This is a wonderful piece of art, and hope to see more from you in the future!
Great animation, great story and wonderful music! Good job on this one! Absolutely amazing work
This is a very beautiful story.
My own description of this is;
Mostly when children grow up, there's a way their parents as well as society have very many expectations of. For example in Africa; marriage, career, children are the questions that come up with time as you grow. These young adults start living their lives to impress others yet deep down there they're hurting. Some parents think since their children are all grown up, it's now a must and their responsibility to take care of their parents. These parents forget that no matter how seemingly energetic these youths are, most of them are battling with a lot of things. They even decide to keep everything to themselves, always give a good picture of "we're doing just great" to the elders for them not to worry.
Forgetting that they matter too.
This is so touching😢😢
She was speaking exactly the opposite of what was going on in her life🙌
this is a creative way to make an animation related to depression and suicide .. like , she never mentioned that she was going to do it and lied about her ugly life .. then probably jumped in front of a train . i really do hope that this isn't related to creator and their life .. i really like this animation and kinda relate it because how bad things are going for me now , I'm not thinking to end my life but things are pretty heavy ..
so i interpret this as her father being already dead (the bright light around him might be something like heaven or so) and then there is her who planned the day to be her last day (she is unhappy obviously) and she joins his father (text about that she is home now -> with her father again)... beautiful shortmovie!
I'm pretty sure the light around him is signifying that he's her light, or, her reason to live.
That's what I thought as well
this really hit home to me, but i love this all at the same time as it waking me up to what reality i have. constantly reasuring others that im 'ok' when i know truly im not. what a stunning animation and moving piece you have made. i truly adore it.
In just few seconds, this made me cry like a baby. 😭😭😭
This story is SO sad. Excellent animation and story telling btw, it gets u into the mood of the story so smoothly and leaves you feeling heartache for the lady and the father who is about to loose his daughter too…
Thank you for you work on this film. I feel the same during last two years, and your film make feel me better.
it's amazing how deep you can dive into history in just 2 minutes.. Great job👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻😿
It's so hearttouching. Beautiful filmmaking. I loved the art style
the art and storytelling are just incredible. absolutely stunning and heartbreaking
Plss this was amazingg smtg ab this art style is so simple yet so alluring and that accompanied w the bgm made this a masterpiece in my eyes ✨ your storytelling skills r op
Her mind was so confused, her life was so bad but she doesent told to anyone, she just accepted it.
So tired of try and all was so... messed that life loses it senses and the death become a salvation...
In the begging, it shows some photos of her and her father, the childhood, the gradduation, first job, new house, she was being strong and doing her better all the time that it begin to be a storm for her.
So tired of try to ´´ being someone of respect in society`` that she end her own life.
Wow! I was not expecting that at all. This short deserves more attention!
This literally brought a tear to my eye
Thanks for this animation. I feel a lot of people can relate. For me personally, I've been struggling these past 2 years in college, not making friends, barely keeping up with work, I know what subjects/interests I have, but I don't know if it's worth working all my life with nothing outside of that. And for me I wish I had the relationship her daughter has with her dad, I hate that when you have had an abusive parent in your life you never trust them again but you wish it could be different and that you could love them like a parent. Especially that line 'Sometimes I wish I was just a kid again' hits too damn hard. Sometimes I just wish I was just living with my mom again and I wouldn't need to worry about friends or social life or the future.
oh wow, same.
It's 2024, I'm still here. Never fails to make me cry
I just know that she didnt make it out alive, thank you for making this. Its so real and shows truely what that feeling of depression is like.
Don't lose hope yet! When her dad texts her at the end, the dots showing that she's typing pop up, as well as a notification sound!
Hope you’re doing ok man, know that you can always bring your troubles to the Lord because he cares for you, don’t be scared to rely on him because he sees you, have a blessed day! ❤️
@@hehehi9627 Or any other god/deity in existence, which is.. a lot. The Lord as you call him is a singular one out of millions which are thought of by other people. Or they may simply not have a god/deity at all
@@-.RuhRoh hey that might be what you would think, but it says Jesus is the way the truth and the life, and again I am just trying to help spread the love that he wants to give, and I’m not trying to stir or make any arguments, all love ❤️ bless you.
@@hehehi9627 Nothing worse than a person forcing their religious beliefs on someone. Disgusting
I’ve never felt so much emotion in a short amount of time
It's been 2 years since you made this video so I do not think you will see this but I just wanted to say how much this means to me. When I was still in middle school I had this friend. She had just moved to my school so I was very excited for her. She join soccer and was making new friends everyone thought her life was getting better until she committed, the same way the girl in the video did. Your film is really touching.
Wow. I don’t know what to say. This is amazingly heart renching
This was so triggering for me as a survivor. I am glad I'm still alive and didn't die with any of my attempts sometimes I feel like I should have but no I cant I really want to live and see beyond this cacophonous darkness because this can't be it.
i absolutely love the colors in this
Is it me or all these short animations end up on cliff hangers?
The animation is beautiful, i love the music in the background
and the woman's voice was so calm and pretty.
This story will always be in my heart
He saved her... really shows how impactful a single "how are you?" text to someone who's struggling can be.
He didn't save her, he arrived too late at her house. She was already at the train station.
I remember that when i was struggling mu friend text me how are you and i was crying because of that
Devastating. Entirely. It will make great reference for my project, though, so I suppose enduring the gut-wrenching ending and foreshadowing is wort it. What a wonderful short film.
Wow, great animation and
Congratulations on your graduation 👏👏👏
The art style gave me "Best Friend" vibes, good work btw!
this is... breathtaking..
This video is full of questions that no one can awnser...
Wow, this was so sad. I loved the animation style and foreshadowing. Don’t give up on life, no matter how hard it gets!!
Gosh this literally gave me goosebumps
Yep. I’ve made that list before too.
It gets better. I promise you.
The world needs you in it.
Just beautiful.. made me cry
The “I’m sorry for everything” hit me pretty hard ngl.
Wow.. beautiful animation, so underrated!
Este es un gran cortometraje! Mis felicitaciones!
The world is such a disturbing unforgiving and empty floating rock that seeing something beautiful just even once, can add color to the canvas that is your life
this made me feel things i was not ready to feel
"My train is here" ...chills
This was wonderfully made.
What i loved about this shortfilm.. Is i watched it the first time listening to what she was saying, but realized she meant the complete opposite. So i rewatched it saying allowed what she really meant.. and it was heartbreaking.
This made me cry because i honestly feel the same way
Beautiful short film ❤️ I loved it
The scene when girl is under water is beautiful.
Always be Grateful for your loved one's ❤️
Its almost sad how relatable this is
I've almost been to that point. Fate did take a u turn when i got there. The "im just a bit tired" hit hard. Still remember the weight in my chest. Wish eveyone a nicer day. For those who took the train, safe trip. I respect your choice.
so sad... but the dots in the end give me hope she steps back and answers her dad..
This animation is so beautiful, both the story and the style. The music and the voice acting made it even better.
You did such a good work, I'm subscribing
Nothing wrong with your English at all.
@@sylviaallen270 thanks, Google Translate never fails with me
I had to watch it again. Amazing
It's comforting to be surrounded by people...
O-O
This is why I believe in kindness. Everyone needs help at some point and being inconsiderate or flat out hateful can give them that one for sure. And the next thing you know, they're gone.
Call me dumb, call me slow, but kindness and reaching out CAN make a difference. And as sad as it is, maybe not every time it will work, but please, I'm begging you, give it a try.
I've even found out that it can help me sometimes.
emotionally touching.beautiful
This is beautifully done. So much powerful imagery, and haunting music. I do feel like the three dots by her icon at the end imply that she WAS still alive and typing a reply. Maybe not all software works the same, but I assume that's her. Someone else with her phone probably wouldn't have replied so quickly.
I love the visuals.
Beautiful artstyle and amazing, sad story...
That gave me shivers done my spine ...
So much feelings
adorable background music.
This is amazing!!
very important topic.. very sad aswell
but this was the first thing that popped in my mind
"Honey if ur mom is dead ur the one who going to say hi"
From the photos and from the picture for the front video cover I could tell it was a suicidal note because I feel the same way .
I am sorry you're feeling this way. I've been there too, things are hard sometimes, aren't they? I know it feels like no one will understand, and it might not change, but it will. Keep going and if you don't like it start everything all over again, change your life in the craziest way your heart desires but don't end it. It will be better, and you will be happy again.
This made me cry
Ohmygod I foresaw this twist yet IT DIDN'T STOP ME
This is good is this so under rated
Powerful 🙏🏼🕊
Wow this one caught me off guard. Crying rn
amazingggg
This animation captures perfectly what i’m feeling these days (since i started my first job at a big city)..😞
...including that last part?
Don’t worry I’m not suicidal. It’s just that so many things happened in a short time and I’ve to face it alone here. Every time I made a video call with mom, I’d act like everything was great and normal, smile for her. Exactly what happened to the woman in this video, I feel her. I’m not good at explaining things sorry. But thank you for your concern.
@@georgiarose818 Good to hear that, always keep your mental health above everything from work to study to any other thing. Afterall what's the use when you are not benefiting from it ?! It will take a lit bit of more time to get adjusted to such things(job) but when you will do it will not be as hard as it used to be in the initial days. Most importantly make friends or anyone to talk to and share or discuss, it will benefit a lot since you are not keeping it locked in your head rather lettings it flow via words.
(Now when i read it again i realized i sound like grandpa😂 telling things which we already know... sorry for that )
@@harshit2.02 I appreciate that, really. Yeah I may be a little clumsy now, did a lot of mistakes already at work lol. But I guess it’s fine cuz I learnt from it and I’ll get better at my work, friends, place and everything here. No you don’t sounds like a grandpa at all, instead you sounds like an old friend giving advice. So thank you :)
@@georgiarose818 Aww even my real friends haven't told such words lol BTW very true, time is always a great teacher, we get better and better in our work the more we do it. Was nice talking to you...Have a nice day :D
This hurt so much to see, you don’t know till their gone.
1:03 I feel like this scene was protayed sooo perfectly, u rlly got the feeling u wanted to get across, across♡