Dealing With Relapse & Getting Sober Again
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My Story
My name is Noah and on May 18 2011, I had a rare reaction to a medication called VIVITROL and consequently, spiraled into a suicidal depression with depersonalization and anxiety. I lost 25 lbs in 4 weeks and was in full panic or near panic for 8 weeks straight mixed with the darkest most painful depression I cold have ever imagined. I immediately could not work and had to move in with my parents who, along with many siblings and friends, had to watch me 24/7 as I was a danger to myself. Eventually I was hospitalized in the Psych Ward for a week. Getting through each day seemed truly unbearable and I knew I would surely die. I have been put on many many different doctor prescribed SSRI's SNRI's Tricyclics, mood stabilizers, anti-psychotics, holistic meds, acupuncture and even a form of shock therapy called RTMS. I barely saw any improvement in my condition for a full year. It was decided I had treatment resistant depression and I spent nearly every moment in tears. Weeks after starting my newest round of medications (Seroquel & Nortryptaline) as a last ditch effort, I had my blood drawn for possible hormone imbalances and my Testosterone levels came back 200 ng/Dl and 150 ng/Dl. The average 25 year old male has 750 ng/Dl. With this discovery I had an explanation as to why I was not getting better and why I might be so so sick. The symptoms of Low T are very similar to those of major depression. I started legally prescribed testosterone replacement therapy soon after and have been checking in with the world and documenting my experience with treatment as well as giving my insight and perspective on various topics of mental health. I am blessed to say that I have slowly, over the last 6 years, been improving and becoming more stable which I never thought to be possible. My low T manifested itself in the form of Major depression, anxiety, and depersonalization/ derealization for over a year. Treating my low testosterone has been 1 HUGE part of the puzzle but I have had to continue to work hard to hold on to my mental stability with many set backs. Gaining some mental stability back is nothing short of a miracle as I was near death for what felt like forever. I do not consider myself to be totally healed yet but I am closer now then ever before and aim to use what I have been through to help or at least offer support to others in need I was able to successfully come off my Seroquel and Pamelor.
I work out all the time as a part of my mental health recovery!!! Weight training and all kinds of cardio rule much of my free time and I also share this on my channel.
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Wow! I totally identify with you. I'm a bindge drinker and I drink alone to get wasted. The guilt and shame I experience after drinking is so debilitating. I won't give up on myself no matter how long it takes to get sober.
I'm an alcoholic. I'm 7 months sober now.
Mad respect for being so candid to so many of us! We are all behind you, bro!
Ewan Roy. Are you still sober in May 2021 ?
11th May 2021 I'm 7months sober. Damn it's so hard.
I had 3 years and 4 months when I relapsed last year. I just got my 30 days... it's been 38 days now clean and sober!! thank you for sharing
Hope Badten I had a horrible relapse, I've been clean for almost 2 months...we are all in this together
I've only just admitted to having a problem at the age of 35. I wish i could be As strong as you. Well
Why you are a woman you don’t need help on nofap
Shadow Wolf1234 what does being a woman have a GD thing with her needing help?
Good for you. It's so hard starting over again and again.
Thank you so much for this. I relapsed 4 days ago after having 3 months sober and i'm just struggling. It's so hard. This helped.
+Maya Ranade
Keep with folks who are in the Program.
Take what you need, leave the rest. We are all in this together.
Blessings and best wishes.
Thank you so much :) I just got a month sober!!
Jack Shite Thanks! Getting sober before i turn 21 is so freaking scary
Good luck. I was never able to quite; not until I found a recovery program in jail, but it's never too late. Be strong, hang in there and never give up.
Maya Ranade wow 3 months I’ve sat on tha shitter longer than that
You're the man. Thank you for putting this out. I'm trying to get sober. I appreciate your honesty.
+Ian Ludvickson Wishing you the very best in that journey. 1 day at a time.
Did you try EFT tapping to overcome cravings.
I was a month and a half sober, clean eating and working out. Then my mother came to visit. I fell off the wagon HARD. Seeing her had triggered so many negative feelings to resurface, I ended up falling back into that negative spiral. I am just getting better again after a two week bender. Great video BTW!
Hope you are doing well today and if not I hope tomorrow is better.
The fact that you were SOBER for 2 years is awesome. You did that, means you can keep going. It’s just a slip up!
You got this, you have climbed out of it. You’ll stay out, just get back up and keep going.
🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I really appreciate your videos. Just stumbled on them today. I relapsed again (10 days sober today) lost my job(again) but back in the program. Thank you for putting your story out there!
Hey good job for not staying down, getting up and keep going!
You slipped up.Don't dwell on it to much.I see a strong person in you.
I relapsed after 11 months of sobriety. I’m struggling. I can’t stay off alcohol for more than 2-3 days. I get irritable and raged. Like a grown man. This video gave me some motivation to get on the wagon again thanks
Good luck Buddy! Don't be too hard on your self. You have done so well. Hope you find the strength to keep sober.
Really love your honesty. Knowing we are not alone... that I’m not the only one struggling gives me hope. Thank you for sharing. Prayers to you
I have just stumbled upon these help videos recently. I am struggling with this terrible addiction myself. I am also opening my eyes to the fact that just being apart of this caring community of people, I can do this. People just like yourself, with just saying a few supportive comments can go a long way in helping someone put. Thank you.
Honesty is the beginning to healing...relapse is part of recovery. Don't be ashamed... You will make it. Being raw and honest is the best thing you can do right now...Hats off to you....i wish you the best in your recovery💝
I'm in the middlw of a relapse right now. Just got home ( 5 a.m. ) and I have disappointed the one person I love with all my heart. I had 31 days sober. That might not seem like a long time, but it was for me. Thank you for this video! I won't drink 2morrow!
This is such a great video. This takes SO MUCH courage and vulnerability. I am so glad I came across this video today. I have been struggling like I never have before with my sobriety- I have one month and 17 days. Your video gave me the strength I needed during a weak time within my sobriety. Thank you so much. Take Care :)
I relapsed yesterday, was doing really well but saw an episode on Netflix where this girl dad passed away and it just triggered me into drinking. I jus feel really disappointed in myself you know? This overriding guilt is horrible to wake up to. Thanks for this video man really helped. It’s about what we do next that counts
Hey guy I don't know, but immediately connect with! Yeah... you're human. Staying sober is hard. It's hard! SO damn hard!!! Having people like you out there, checking themselves real-time for the benefit of others melts my heart. Thanks for being an honest YOU, it means more to people than you'll ever know.
Your a brave man and I ny prayers are with you. Its hell starting to be sober!
You are a good man. enough said,
awesome vid. i am 1 day sober...got to start somewhere
+dave lastman - Dave, how's it going? 2 months for me, and it's a struggle.
stupid video by a self absorbed uneducated freak.im glad u loved it..speaks volumes about your sense of humor..
hi scott. it has been up and down. this feb was the worst i had ever been...let me just say it was horrible. i just about illed myself with the shit vodka. i went into detox and they held me for 4 days. this was my wake up call. i am now just about 1 month sober and i have no cravings and i love it...it is so awesome. my sleep is awesome and i am eating like a horse. i thank the powers that be and all the np ambulance and the staff at the hospital...everyone was fantastic in helping me.
Scott Moore how are you doing now?
Thanks for being so vulnerable. I watch your present videos and old videos and these really help when I’ve been going thru relapse. I appreciate you.
Relapses are very normal. We can have up to 4 or 5 relapses until staying sober longtime. And even then it can happen again.
Not blaming ourselves is crutial to not get into a negative spiral which can lead to drink more. Love yourself even for that.
I don't know if you still check the comments on this video, but I'm commenting from 2019 and I'm battling alcohol addiction. Your videos are so great, and so helpful. I love your honesty and openness. Thank you so much. Here's hoping that THIS time sobriety will stick for me.
I`ve been there,brother. The guilt,the shame,the remorse,the sorrow and regret.Thank you for sharing.
You being open and honest helps tremendously. I promise you that your video is helping those who are just starting to realize they have a problem but don't know what to do. Thank you for your honesty.
Many alcoholic people relapse. But you’re honest and working towards the goal. Also do a journal. I’ve experienced this and it’s hard but also read the Bible it uplifts but instead still working on it
your honesty and fearless moral inventory encourages others to do same. thank you xo
Dj Tennessee its the least I can do. Thx DJ
You are a great man
Man you know that no matter what the reason you find its not that you're weak, its just part of the journey. All you have to do is stick to the 12 steps and stay clean 1 day and sometimes 1 hour at a time. Don't use this as a reason to stay on the shit, be kind to yourself and know its your disease, you're a winner brother...Love & Respect
keep doing this, you are helping people around the globe. Im fighting addiction for the 3rd time in my life. ex junkie and present drinker. thx
I wish I had the courage to post things like this... I'm so glad you have
I relapsed last week and went on a 7 day bender..... now sober 48 hours and still feel a mess withdrawals and mentally feel messed!! I have let down my parents, daughter and mrs... but I'm slowly but surely going to crawl out this hole and get back on track.
You are so intelligent and sensitive.
I'm trying to get sober too. I drink alone, but not heavily. However, it's all the same.
Feeling feelings is so hard; please try to ride the wave, cry, go for a good walk.
To live a regular day to day life, to feel okay, to be productive, to help other people. Yup! Hearing that is going to give me the little push I need to put pants on this morning and head out in the rain to hit a meeting I haven't been to a while. In fact I plan to hit two today. And in between it's recovery recovery recovery, including more videos like this one.
Thank you for your candor! You are not alone. I put down the bottle 2 days ago again and I really needed to hear that I'm not alone. Hang in there and you have nothing to be ashamed of. Shame and guilt are useless emotions that will destroy you. I'm glad you are back!
You have power over your mind - not outside events. Realize this, and you will find strength.
I'm struggling real bad after letting myself fall down that slippery slope. The anxiety is crippling after sobering up. Thank you so much. I needed this. I'll continue to fight with you. Stay strong.
Thank you. I relapsed yesterday and the first resource I thought to go to was your UA-cam channel. Your videos have helped in the past and now that I'm starting over again they will be an asset to my recovery.
I search recovery and relapse and your video came up in the suggestions and I think God it did. Everything you said resonates so deep and hard with me and I can’t thank you enough for sharing because tonight’s the scale was about to get up to two years worth of sobriety listening to this video and hearing your words kept me from it thank you stranger thank you for taking the time and having the courage to post this and say the things you did you saved a life tonight
Interesting, so many of the words resonate. "Just want to be okay, normal happy", "Has to stay sober", "Fight to better myself", "Help other people", "Need mental stability", "Going to die if continue to drink", etc.
I'm more than 100 days in atm after a relapse during the summer. And I keep telling myself the same kind of stuff, probably have been for the last decade or so. And it doesn't seem to help me.
I don't want to be just okay, I want to be excuberant! Loving & enjoying life to the fullest. I don't want to restrict myself from the things I enjoy, be that alcohol, friends, movies, games, food, whatever. I don't want to fight all the time. I do not need to help other people. Or even the mental stability. And I'm most certainly not going to die of drinking a "mere" half a liter vodka a day.
It's such an uphill battle when you put all those demands on an already fragile Self. I'm fine with who I am, the only time it's not fine is when I try to conform to all those ideas. Or be surrounded with people(society) who demand such things from me.
It's different for everybody. But it just seems that "The Fight" is too demanding and counter-productive. Especially if you try to live according to God's words, or in my case the Buddha's teachings. That doesn't mean you can go ham and do whatever you want, it just means to stop being so (relatively) hard on yourself.
The number 1 way to become depressed/unstable is to make big plans for yourself "that will definitaly help you" and get you on the "good track" and make you "a good and productive citizen so you can help others", and then not being able to follow through and complete them. Or to complete them and not be able to "reward" yourself, by not feeling a rewarding sensation. The latter might be even worse.
Anyways sorry for the rambling, guess I have a story to share/deal with aswell :) Peace and all the best.
I don't drink and never have, one of the few right choices I made as a teenager many years ago. I pray that God gives you the strength to remain sober. It must be so hard to stay sober when you have so much pain in your life.
God bless and keep you
I hope you know how much of an inspiration you are. I'm going thru hell right now..ive never seen someone be this honest..you truly are appreciated. thank you for being so honest
Stay Strong my brother. God Bless
Fight, fight, fight homie! Life isn't about the fall, it's about picking yourself up! Every fall, every scar makes us stronger!
Thank you so much for this video. I relapsed on Wednesday after being a year clean and celebrating that. Now I have to go back to this upcoming meeting and tell everyone that I'm coming back into the rooms even though we just celebrated my year. I really appreciate your video because it makes me feel like I'm not alone. I'm dating someone in active addiction who I used to use with. (which I know is a bad idea) It's been a pull back and forth of him being sober and me using, to now him using and me being sober. I was staying over night at his place for a while, getting back into the same, old lifestyle I used to live with him. And one day the drugs were just in front of me and I didn't say no. Thank you for the inspiration. :) I'm not going to discount the year I just put so much hard work into. I'm just going to continue on and get another year. My recovery just includes a relapse in the story but I am still going to be on the path to recovery and I am still continuing on. :)
Congrats Jessica, keep moving forward. That must be really hard. At the same time it is all about the journey. Keep pressing forward. =0)
You're the strongest enabler I know of.
Good luck Jessica. I know the feeling.
Be encouraged! Relapse happens to the best of us! Don't give up! I'm proud of you and is praying for you!💕 ❤
I hate my drinking. It has affected every endeavor and relationship in my life. Unlike a lot of people who struggle with drinking, I am the first to admit I have a problem. However that doesn't make it any easier to stop. I am one day sober today and I want to continue my sobriety before I lose my job, girlfriend, maybe even my life. Anyone thinking about quitting alcohol use, know that I am going through the same struggle and it is not easy. Thanks for this video and for what you do Noah, it helps a lot. I'm with you man, best of luck to you.
You're doing good by sharing and letting things out
thank you for this do not stop posting i need you i am trying and relapsing trying again and relapsing i am so tired
LOVE your humility and raw honesty! Hope the best for you and really appreciate you sharing your struggles. It really helps more than you know! I’m 14 days sober at 53 years old. Started drinking at 14. Drank off and on for all those years. Quit for 7 years at one time but jumped back into it due to a miserable marriage. My way to cope, Anyway ready to stay sober and change my life for the better. One day at a time. Keep sharing your wonderful videos with us! Really appreciate it!! God bless!😊
Thank you so much for being brave enough to do the videos, even when you're not on top. I suffer with addiction and other mental illnesses,it sounds like you are speaking directly to me. I relapsed 5 days ago after 2 yrs. of continuous sobriety. I am in my 60,s now and bouncing back takes So Much Longer than it used to for me. May Your Higher Power Bless you, and keep you Strong! Thanks again, Kim
Hey man thanks for the honesty I’m still trying to stay sober.
I went 7 weeks and wasn’t feeling right and I had a drink.
I’m starting sober again
Hope you are doing well.
The guilt of relapse is worse than the actual relapse. The guilt of what you did, what you said, lies you told, promises you made.....and probably don't remember. Stay strong brother
Thank you for always being so honest!
The block of granite which was an obstacle in the pathway of the weak becomes a stepping-stone in the pathway of the strong. Dont give up, dont quit. I wish you the best my friend
Your honesty is refreshing. I am currently struggling. My husband and I enable eachother and I am trying to be strong for both of us. This is only day 2 btw. Have a long road to go. I suffer from depression and anxiety. I know I should go somewhere fof support. Not sure where yet.
We don't think any less of you, Noah! Your ability to do these videos is humbling. You are one courageous dude! Thank you for using your trials to help others.
Thank you for making this video. I needed to hear that. Thank you for your honesty and vulnerability.
Wow this brought tears to my eyes, I'm going through the exact same thing, the depersonalization is so awful
Very little is needed to make a happy life; it is all within yourself, in your way of thinking.
Love you. You're not alone.
i am an indian from india. and i drank half a bottle of rum everyday. i quit a week ago. but the craving is hard! I started out with beer too when i was 18. i am 28 now! i am having trouble sleeping. whenever i feel like i am going to fall asleep i twitch and wake up. got a medical test done and my liver is ok. But yeah, the craving!! the craving is fucking so strong!
Thank you for sharing. I wish you all the best of good thinking, doing, and skill to get sober again. For years, you have been working very hard toward a "SUSTAINABLE Change". People that make Sustainable Changes can often slip up but they can't stay there because there's way way too much pain in staying there... I wish you the best in getting right back on track and I know you are already in the process!!
I have a friend that once said..."living without addiction is beautiful although sometimes the addiction is missed, when the going gets rough... However, if you CHOOSE to go back...Your Misery and Problems will ALWAYS be Refunded to You"!!! I thought that was very powerful.
I found this just out of the blue. I hope you're doing better man and this video helped me keep the course today. I'm almost 2 months for me now but I'm no stranger to relapsing. That probably was my middle name for a while. Also, thank you for sharing this.
today is my first day going to my first meeting today. it really helps to know Im not the only one that feels this way.
This video is just what I needed. I’m an alcoholic. I quit for 4 months and fell off the wagon. I black out when I drink I can’t and never will be able to drink like a normal person. I’m back on the wagon today. This is day one.
Hang in there Noe! I'm someone surviving the deepest suicidal Depersonalization, Anxiety and Depression. And being quite stable these days ;) (to the point where I can't even remember what depersonalization feels like anymore)
It is so hard for a depressed person to hear that "hang in there, it WILL pass" the way it is intended to sound.
It's so hard because in depression NOTHING really seems to sound vibrant and hopeful. But once out of there, it will shine with clarity.
Relax and be patient.
First time trying to quit the alcohol. Made it 10 days.. the most I have done in years. I was happy about it, but had a bad “mental health” day, so I decided to have a little “drinky poo” I love channels like this, thank you so much. I think I’ll be “back on the wagon” and my goal is to beat that 10 days and keep it going. This ain’t a joke folks, it’s real. And together we can do it!
Brother, I appreciate your honesty. I too struggle with addiction and I too battle with staying on a straight path. Take it one day at a time, you are an inspiration! Much love!
I’ve relapsed again after speaking to my father on the phone. Every time I speak to him I seem to go back to drinking. My girlfriend is starting to get fed up. I’m fed up! I’m staying sober today. The anxiety is just unbearable. Great vid btw. Just what I need to see
I just came across this video. I have 13 days back from a 4 mth relapse. I'm fighting with u bro. Together we fight the good fight. 1.D.A.A.T. Thank you for this video. It's saving lives!!!
Mate, this makes perfect sense to me. This is like I'm looking in a mirror. With you every step of the way.
I've been sober in AA for just over a year now and just had a random 3 week relapse. I felt a resentment coming up in early january which involved some heavy duty decisions on my behalf. This spread to a resentment against AA and I randomly picked up again. Didn't enjoy it, felt nothing, got no buzz ... pointless. Horrified by the speed at which my intake shot back up to previous levels.
Every time I've stopped drinking I've had a seizure so had to do a a chemical detox. Finished this on Tuesday and went to my homegroup meeting in the evening. Shared about my experience and got so much back from the room. Been to meetings every day since and am keeping this up for at least the rest of the week.
Your comments on antidepressants are fascinating because my sobriety started going tits up when I stopped taking SSNRi's
There are several chemical channels going on in the brain and in my case I now know it's the Seratonin channel that's fucked up. When you take a prolonged release version of these drugs the seratonin receptors happily accept the goodness and all is well. When you drink alcohol you get the same feeling BUT more receptor channels open up, need feeding so we drink more.
I'm going back onto 150mg of Venlafaxin, hitting my meetings hard and working the arse off my programme.
I'm a neuroscientist as well as an alkie so withe the right drugs and AA reckon I have a good chance.
I'm approaching the relapse as a learning experience and staying positive. If I didn't have AA in my life I'd be shitting myself. As I do have that awesome support network I have no fear.
Hope you got your life back together and thanks for the share.
Smile when you look in the mirror Brother as you have helped at least one person. Thank you for sharing this.... Me Too!!!! Prayers for all of us who are struggling and Looking for healthy Balance. May we be Blessed. picking myself up and dusting myself off. PEACE
Thank u for your honesty. I was 6 weeks sober and relapsed this weekend so I’m here Monday morning watching.
Dude. You've done so well to hold onto hope. That's the key. You've climbed out of this before and you can do it again. You know you can. Starting over is very hard but the only way is up for you and you know that you can do it.
Its withdrawal. Not a relapse bro. Give it some time. It will dissipate. Happens for all of us. You will be 100% ok. With time. Patience. Patience. Patience. God bless you.
Idk if you’re still sober or out there but this video is soooo important and amazing and I’m so thankful you shared this. Bless you
I went 2 year sober but relasped and kept relasping to this day. Everything you've said about yourself is everything that i am. It's a hard struggle goin through this and your video is a godsend and makes me feel as though i'm not goin insane. Keep goin mate, we'll get there where ever 'there' is :)
You’re still a hero!!!
Youre a very genuine guy, very well spoken and easily relatable to alot of people.
brian I relapsed melboune cup day after just getting my life back together now I have to start again, I know I cannot stop so now back to aa hope I can do better for my life you give me strength your not alone
This is Jeff again from Florida thank you for sharing man seriously
Much love and good vibes.
I struggle with it everyday. Stay the course.
You're an inspiration, Noah.
You're a brave person for saying all that , it takes guts. to admit that . I know what you're going through, Its tough being sober and , staying sober. I'm a recovering alcoholics myself, im 14 Months sober. Don't get me wrong, im proud of myself, keeping off long as that. But its hard work, cos it has effected my mental health so much. I've lots of days, where I feel like I cant function or losing my mind. I don't wanna talk to anyone, and lately especially with lockdown happening. Its making me tempted to relapse, where all I want is to feel good for few minutes and forget everything. Cos my anxiety cripples me and, I clam up in social events. I know if I relapsed, I'd hit it hard and . Not stop till , I cant drink no more . Or get alcohol poisoning, thats my biggest fear . Of what could happen and , as much as I want to cave in and say fuck it . It wouldn't be worth it , cos that could end up happening. Where it mite kill me . Keep at it man , and keep trying. No one can ever fault you for that , your a fighter and. I can hear it in you, that you want to beat this stay strong.
Do not beat yourself up too much. Just learn from it and MOVE ON. Please review the 12 step program and read over each of the 12 steps. I hope you have a sponsor. Please do not look at the negative things but the positive things like your woman. God Bless
I have relapsed just 2 days ago after 8 months of being sober. I am the one to be blamed as I went out with an old friend who kinda introduced me to alcohol, pills and such at a very young age. He is an heroine addict now and the day I relapsed, I was drunk as hell and he stole my money and my mobile phone, which I was able to find on google. I feel like shit but I won't give up, the trigger was to go out with the wrong people thinking that they are still friends, which clearly isn't. I will stick with the positive ones who motivate me like I did for these 8 months and come back stronger. Thank you for the video!
i had a week sober i drank last night and called into work today😞 i feel like i was doing so good. even in that short amount of time (just a week) i felt like things were already turning around. i feel ashamed. i geuss theres nothing i can do but just start over.
It is true what is done is done. I have just lost my job calling out too much because I thought i was a functioning alcoholic and was going to live a perfectly fine life balancing the two. Alcohol has stung me with its scorpion tale. I am not worried about losing my job or even losing the next one. I am not worried about being homeless either. I am worried im headed for an early grave if i keep using this drug. That is why im here and need help. I also know once i stop using the drug ill feel better, get all my energy back, get new hobbies and feel emotions again like a normal human being. I will also start to make better decisions in life. So if i was homeless and on the street, i can still have a chance to get back into being normal again and begin to discover who i actually am without chemicals dictating me. I have not met very many homeless people who are consistently sober, even though they are out there. We can still make terrible decisions being sober. Its how we deal with them that can make all the difference.
Hey man, I really needed to hear this . I relate and wanted someone who goes through it just like me. 1 year cleans from heroin and one night I felt just like you did. Thanks for letting me relate. Nice to have someone to get clean again with. Love
This is so inspiring to me. I'm feeling in the same place. I remember offering to buy my brother alcohol and he was so disappointed. I went to rehab and the same thing happens to me. I look at the alcohol and go ''oh no, i'm drinking tonight'' and i can't stop myself. I am desperately reaching for that mindfulness in those moments to go ''no!!!!!!!!!!!" I can do it with all sorts of other chemicals so why is it that alcohol is the love of my life? if it was a person we would have broken up years ago. Every low is even lower.
Glad I found this, hope you’re doing well. I’m overcoming my first major relapse after having 7 months clean. It only took 2-3 weeks and my using already kicked my ass all over again. Powerless
Hey man! I hope your doing well! I just got out of rehab. I feel so determined and confident at the moment. I havnt had any thoughts of picking up again yet. However i am anticipating the overwhelming craving. And it scares the shit out of me!!! Thankyou so much for doing this! You will help so many people on this planet! Stay possitive! Thanx heaps!! Aaron :Melbourne, Australia xx
You gotta know how much I appreciate this video, Noah. Thanks for your openness.
Stay strong brother. You’ve been an inspiration to all of us.
you are amazing. I feel just like you. my name is Adam I stumbled upon your video I was searching for someone that felt like me. and here u are . I want to survive too. stay sober first. God bless you
Just watching in 2019, hope you are sober and loving life. I do not suffer from alcoholism but whenever I had gone on binge nights as a young adult I would wake up with extreme depression. That alone kept me from wanting to drink much in my adult life. I hope you are well.
I quote sly stallone from his last Rocky film (I believe). "It ain't about how hard you hit, it's about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward. How much you can take and keep moving forward." You can do this bro. One day at a time. Trust me, it can be done. God bless.
Pretty raw brother, im only trying to give up weed. But this kind of honesty is very disarming. Good luck to you. Keep it going
If we devout or time and life to our recovery we will be successful in this stage of our development. We need to practice and pray every day of our lives.
Hey man, I really appreciate your vlogs on your struggles with addiction. I'm going through it myself and the journey has been so lonely and painful. You have taught me that staying clean is about learning to deal with the very difficult emotions: regret, guilt, self hate... js generally not feeling or having what you want. I am also dealing with a lot of guilt, regret and shame in my life. I am usually very suicidal during a relapse. Anyway. Thanks. I hope we both find greener pastures in our life.
This vid is old but I'll comment anyway. I affirm you for coming clean about your relapse. I hope you were able to get back on track with your sobriety.
Hey there. Thanks for sharing your experiences. I think it's important to be open about your struggles. We alchys always think that the next drinking experience will be different or more controlled. What a lie we tell ourselves. We will never be able to drink normally. Ever. Stay focused and sober if you can, but take it easy on yourself. It's in the genes and it is an illness. My prayers are with you and all alchys everywhere.
You're such a cool, genuine & down-to-earth dude. I really enjoy watching your vids; you inspire us all :)