Hey! I'm a huge fan. So happy to see you back. Love hearing your honest story about your self journey. Keep at it, you're inspiring so many!! Love and internet hugs.
I had a feeling that those were the things you were going through these past many months.... I'm glad to see that you're still alive and seemingly figuring things out though. So long as you're being healthy about things (both mentally & physically) then you have my/our support; glad to see you back :)
I realised pretty late in that I hadn't heard from her in a while, but when I did it got me a little worries and I looked through some comments and twitter and this was what I thought too.. I don't know what it must be like, but I really feel for sorry for her, having to go down the road she did for it must have been so hard... I wish you the best of luck Ellko! See you soon
Cassie both you and her are channels I admire its great seeing you on this page mental illness can really kick some ass and it takes a hell of a lot of fighting to keep it at bay my own fight is getting scarier but at the same time I'm getting stronger keep fighting both of you
You look 500x healthier than you did a few months ago and it's not even just weight loss. Your hair is gorgeous. Your skin is glowing. You look amazing. Just from this one video it's obvious how much you've grown and learned from this experience. I'm so happy for you and so glad you're back!
I'm so glad you're back. I have loved your channel for some time. I find you to be someone I can relate to in more ways than one. I was recently diagnosed with Bpd and it's been a challenge for me to accept this but at the same time I'm thankful that there is a reason for why I've felt and behaved the way Ihave since I was a child. I completely relate to how you're feeling. My husband just retired from the military and since we closed the door on that chapter I have been struggling to find out where I fit in life and struggling to find even the smallest morsel of confidence to acquire the jobs I need to help support my family. Thank you for being so strong even when you didn't feel you were. I have realized that even the smallest of things are successes if I don't give in to the depression and the negativity. I'm glad you are back because you are an inspiration and definitely a person I can relate to in life that offers love and compassion. Always Keep Fighting Ellie.
So glad you are back! I went through a divorce and mine was a mess. I am glad you took time for yourself. Good for you! You continue to be an inspiration. Thank you!
I believe once your a plus size girl, you always are. There's always that struggle even if your not a plus size anymore, on the inside, there are still those struggles and still image struggles with the extra skin and maintaining etc. You know I love you girl and am always here for me. Hit me up whenever. You have my number and my love 😘
I agree with this 100% - My channel is called 'Fat Girl Lifts' and when I try and explain that even if I become "not fat" I'll always be fat. It's not just a physical state.
Girlie, you are a beautiful soul and you need to let your passions fly no matter what your body type. You know how it feels to be plus sized and the struggles that come with that, and those experiences don't go away because you've lost weight. You can help so many people (and I know you will), and you have many who love you- don't you worry! Missed you and I look forward to this change in your channel! : ) Wishing the best!
Once you're plus size, you're always plus size. Not in the sense of your weight, but of your whole mind set and how you see yourself, how you see others, and how others see you. I went from a skinny high schooler, to a plus size college student, to my current size 8 body. I remember in high school always picking out the bigger people from the rest but then as I became plus size I only saw the skinny people. But now I only see the faces and peoples real beauty. It changes your perceptive so much. My advice about your relationship, learn to love yourself before you love anyone or let anyone love you. Learn to stand on your own two feet because when you finally find the one that you can depend on, it'll be ten times better. I love you so so much and I'm so glad you're back!
I know the feels and that's the truth! as someone who has struggled my entire life with constant weight gain and weight loss, being at a weight of 138 at. 5'5 I still felt like I was 220 which was my heaviest. I wouldn't be caught dead in shorts, short sleeve shirts, a swimsuit, etc. even though I look back and think what a nice body I achieved through all that hard work, it didn't change my confidence. Your body may change but the way I felt on the inside was still the same.
First of all, I am so glad you are recovering and in such a positive way! Welcome back! Secondly, I had a VERY similar life crisis at the end of last year from which I am still recovering (I have BPD and Bipolar 1, the latter diagnosis I received after my crisis). I have held so much shame and guilt from my uncharacteristic actions that hearing your positivity, and your story has helped SO much. I gained quite a bit of weight while I was sick (I was already overweight) so I have been struggling to accept my body now, and also to work towards the body that I want. In a nutshell, this video was very relevant to me as well and I am truly grateful. I am happy to see you radiate such positivity and happiness; can't wait for more videos!
ellie. I'm so glad you are back. I saw a notification and was like "!!!!!!" you are beautiful as you always have been. I'm sorry to hear you've gone so much, but you are strong. you conquered it. I love you elli♡♡ again it's good to see you back.
Glad you're back and doing well! I'm a big advocate for mental health. I suffer from anxiey, depression, and OCD and my mom has borderline. I empathize with you and completely understand your struggles. Taking time for yourself to figure things out and to do some soul searching is what we need sometimes in order to sort of recharge ourselves. It's a daily battle for me. Some days are good. Some days I can't leave the house. You've definitely got the right idea by releasing negativity, encouraging good vibes only, and keeping your body fueled. Thank you for sharing your story. It's so hard for so many of us to speak out. Keep encouraging others. Even though it may be hard for you to see it you are an inspiration.
Thank you for your honesty. I can't imagine how difficult all the stuff you are going through has been let alone telling the Internet about it. You're such a wonderful human. Much love as you continue to work on your transition to a new chapter in life.
Listening to you talk, I just kept thinking how beautiful you look. I'm not just talking about prettiness but how peaceful and healthy you look. I am so happy you have been able to rise, and grow from your pain. I also have BPD and I am on a similar journey. I am looking so forward to your new videos and seeing your progress. Love and peace, Susan.
I want to write a comment addressing some of the people writing comments about Ellie's weight and appearance. Let me start off by saying do I by no mean think that anyone is trying to be insensitive, I think everyone is just so glad that she's back and I think the compliments are genuine. However, it makes me uncomfortable as someone who has struggled with mental illness and lost a substantial amount of weight that I did not intend to lose, seeing it being complimented or praised or asking what her secret was to looking so good. I can't speak for Ellie, but I know when I lost all of the weight I did, that whenever someone complimented me on it, it just reminded me of the awful way I had lost it. Losing weight due to illness is not desirable. None of your clothes fit, depending on how you lost it your hair can change (become thin, break easily), your skin changes, whenever you look in the mirror you don't see yourself you instead see all of the missing parts. So, just be aware these things when commenting on someone's weight. Sometimes it's best to not comment at all.
+Katherine Woods I won't pretend to know what did or didn't happen, all I'm saying in my comment is that because we don't know the details that people should be more mindful and sensitive.
You said EXACTLY what I have experienced as well. I've always been overweight, then got ill and lost more than half of my body weight. One friend even said, "Well the good side effect of illness is you've lost so much weight", and another said "Oh it will be great if you can keep this figure" etc.
very negative person, you'll bury yourself with negativity... whenever something bad happens, good things come with it... whether u've lost weight by going to the gym or due to an illness.. an unhealthy fat is gone, and you are outside of obesity zone.. appreciate that and stop being negative...
You followed me on instagram ages ago, and i almost died of happiness. I've always admired you and thought highly of you. I stubbled onto your channel randomly one day and now i sit just enjoying every video you make. My heart goes out to you, and the hard time's you've been through and going through i hope there is a new chapter for you and things improve. I was a plus sized girl who lost weight to, however the stretch marks the inner pain is reminder of your past and i still think you can still speak for plus sizes regardless. It wasn't that you set out to lose weight you just simply set out to be healthy and you did that and that was incredible and it's a good messaage to send everyone plus sized or not. So much love to you, during this time and whenever thing's get lonely or you feel like youre struggling remember all the love and support you'l always have right here
im so glad you're back! we've been worrying about you!! i totally understand why you were gone and for a long period of time; you needed it and at the end of the day you are you're priority. i'm just glad you've gotten to a place now where you are not in your 'all time low' as you called it and that you've made some decisions for your health (the pescatarian change) and for your mental wellbeing too :D as much as i've missed your videos please make sure not to overwhelm yourself with the work that the videos take!! Take your time, we are always supporting you! love you
I am really glad you made this video !!! I've started to follow you ever since you made a UA-cam about borderline. I want you to know that I do look up to you, I rarely do things like this, but you give me high hopes. I want to know more about it, I need to help a family member with it, I want to let her know I'm a here to help her, to cope with it, to guide her with it. She is not alone. Just like you, you don't give up, you may be down for a few, but the. Again everyone needs a break once in awhile. Is ok.... The only thing to remember is that you must go on! No matter what. You have to know that people in your life need you. I am really happy, happy that you came back and btw you look amazing! Not saying because of the weight... Your hair look fabulous and notice you have a little tan 🙂 and you look happy!!!!
Can you make a video on how you lost weight? I'm trying to, but I can't be vegan for health reasons and I've never been able to find someone who has lost weight without being vegan. Thank you and I just wanted to say welcome back! I've missed you! Much love ❤️
There's lots of people who've lost weight without veganism! I think you should check out health channels like Mind over Munch, she talks about the lifestyle changes you can make on the road to a healthier you. I found it extremely helpful to eat "clean", that is, to eat things that don't come in packaging, eating things that came from the soil or that came from live animals, mostly chicken and turkey and fish. Hope that was helpful.
I'm pretty sure she lost weight accidentally or perhaps inadvertently because she was struggling so much with her mental & physical health. I think I remember her discussing that a while back in one of her videos when people were asking about her weight, but I could be wrong.
+Nami Nuitsuki I work for the American Heart Association - we have TONS of recipes and plans on our website! It's all about calories in, calories out. So if you aren't super active (desk job, no regular workouts), then your calorie intake should represent that. If you aren't supper active, and want to get into shape, take it one step at a time! Go for long walks, get a fun exercise video that you enjoy - and tell yourself you're going to do it 2-3 times a week to start. You'll notice that you'll start feeling amazing, so you'll want to keep doing it. No need for p90x or anything bonkers. Haha! Remember that your plate should be: half fresh, colorful fruits and veggies, 1/4 lean protein, and 1/4 multi-grain carbs. 🙃
I'm sorry you had to go through everything, but glad you're accepting it as positive change I can see you look happy, and your eyes are full of life looking forward to more videos from you!
Instead of preaching about being plus size, teach and learn about self love! That includes everyone :) just a thought. I'm happy you are back! I've been starting to learn about crystals and the chakras as well. Yay for positivity!
I'm so glad you're alright. I've gone through a similar situation after I graduated college in 2015 and became depressed and then August of that same year I went through a breakup that sent me spiraling further downward when I thought life couldn't fet worse it continued to prove me wrong. This past year of my life has been a rollercoaster of emotion, but I've also experienced new things, met new people, and have enjoyed being home while trying to figure my life out. It has taken time and I'm nowhere where I want to be at yet, but by focusing on myself and with the help of my own village I've slowly gotten better and am rediscovering myself and finding out what I really want to do and who is really there for me. Thank you for sharing your life with all of us even when didn't have to. You are so inspirational Ellie. My heart goes out to you and I hope your journey to where you want to be is successful and fills you with the joy you need. I'm so excited to continue to get to watch you ❤❤
Self love is far deeper than a size. You are smart, beautiful, and have the ability to strive for amazing things in life. It's a number such as age which doesn't define you.
Self love is more than your size. You need to find peace within yourself and learn that you are you and you are beautiful. No matter size or age or what people think of you. There is only one you in the world and that in its self is beautiful.
There's nothing wrong with being plus sized, it's honestly okay, just don't let other tell you that you need to lose weight or that you're this and that, just look in the mirror everyday and compliment yourself. You're a beautiful person ❤️
I was so worried about you! I'm glad to see you are back. I'm sad to hear about you and Jet-as you seemed so happy together, and it's confusing to hear about without asking questions, which are of course-none of my business, so I can only say I hope you find what makes you happy. And welcome back, we've missed you :) As for your platform, i followed you before and I'm someone who WAS plus sized and no longer is...and I'm certain i am not alone :)
Good on you kiddo for being so honest. I've enjoyed being a subscriber for a while and always look forward to seeing you. It sure looks like you've got everything sorted as the light in your eyes isn't fake. You are an inspiration for a lot of young girls who look up to you. keep pushing through the fog. xxxx
I can tell you what is your platform. The ex plus size that lost weight due to health issues that is struggling with borderline personality, but is brave enough to share her story with the rest of us. It's ok to not know what to do and to discover it in the process. It's really difficult to find someone talking about mental and physical health in a honest way, so I'm sure you will succeed if you just share a little bit of your journey with us ;)
I'm so glad you're back. I've missed you and I love your videos. From the ones when you were plus size until now. I would honestly watch if all you did was talk about your life or even give some advice. You're beautiful and I'm glad you are working on taking care of yourself 💕
I'm so glad to see you back! Praying for you as you continue your journey. Last year I had a brutal struggle with anxiety and depression, but God and my amazing friends helped me through it. During that time I read more of the Bible than ever and faced a lot of fears from my past. Now, I feel like I'm in a great new season where I can use my story to encourage other people. Best wishes for this new season in your life!
P.S. I hope you find what your looking for...You look sad honestly...I mean I know you're coming back from a hard climb but you do look quite sad...I will send positivity and hope for peace your way...Keep your chin up girl...
I'm so glad you're back and healthy, and know that we'll always support you no matter what towards your journey to reach a new happy place. The battles you lead to live with your bordeline disorder and to encourage body image love despite our shape and size are truly inspiring. I was sad to hear about Jett, but I hope you're doing well and can't wait to watch your next videos. Do ya thing girl, you are gorgeous inside and out, sending you lots of love from France
I am so happy you are back. Thank you for being so refreshingly open and honest with your struggle. It is so hard to deal with borderline personality disorder on your own, let alone with a public audience, so thank you from the bottom of my heart for that. Look forward to seeing your smiling face every week
Welcome Back. This is why I enjoy your channel so much, you are human and keep it real. We all get lost sometimes trying to find our way back. Keep on doing what you're doing, it looks good on you.
Ellie I'm so glad that you're back and that you're healthy - mind, body & spirit. You're a ray of absolute sunshine here on UA-cam & I can't wait for more videos! xoxo
OMG!!! You are still alivee!! (just kidding)!! Im so happy to see you again. And truthly I understand you, when I started to follow your videos last year mi dad recently has left this world, my boyfriend leave me and I was completly lost, and your videos make me smile, at least for a couple minutes. Everyday its a little bit easier to find the way and Im sure you will be able to find yours very soon!! Dont feel overwarm to be "a plus size model" or feel like you have to be plus size to carry on with your "fight". Now you are a different model to follow, now in your re-birth (as you say) the change puts you in the place of many many people who has lost weight and have to deal with all the changes: Physical and emotional. I love you and Im sooo happy to see you again!!! And I will like to give you, not an advice, just a recomendation.. One fight at the time!! Love you and I really hope you read this and can understand me hahaha lots of kisses and hugs and love from argentina!!!
I've been so worried! I was just checking for updates yesterday! I'm so glad you're okay, praying for you during this time of transition and healing. ❤️
I'm so glad you're back, I was on your channel multiple times, even yesterday hoping that maybe your videos were just not coming into my subscription box. I'm so glad you're feeling a lot better. Suffering from borderline myself I know how hard it can be. TOMORROW I get my exam results and these determine my life and I'm a bubbling mess but this video has made me happy because you're okay.
I'm so happy you're back. From what you've gone through the last few months has shown how strong you are. I'm praying for the best luck in your future and overcoming anymore struggles that come along. I'm so excited to see what you have in store for your channel. Stay strong and much love!
I missed you and I'm happy you're back ❤ I'm glad you are finding yourself. its good you don't have regrets, YOU should always come first in your life.
The best way to ANY self-recovery is showing yourself that you love yourself. I know that sounds cheesy but I had a hard time relearning how to love myself when the world, family/friends, and just regular routines crushed me. I want to say it took me 4-5years to learn to appreciate, understand what I was capable of. I'm glad your back. I'm glad you are sharing your story: Besides you have 2, maybe 3, platforms you can reach: struggle with weight/plus sized, BPD/mental disorders, and self-love
I have been wondering what happened!!!! I am so happy that you are back. I've been sending good vibes to you. I am so sorry for what you have gone through but I know that you have come out as a stronger woman. Sending more love your way! ❤️❤️❤️
I am so happy you are back, El!!!! I have been watching you transform & have been a subscriber for a long time. You have always been so down to earth, open & encouraging to watch. As one door closes another one opens. You have my support & I am sending you best wishes!!!
So happy that you are back! We've all missed you so much! Your courage and humbleness really inspires me- they way that you took a break for yourself to find who you truly are is something so beautiful. I have also been learning about energies and spirituality myself. I find the whole existence of it very therapeutic, and am very glad that you have discovered it as well. Once again, I am so happy you are back and can't wait to see more of you in the future! ❤️
I've been through your trip and I can definitely understand and feel your struggle. Years later I am still finding myself. I can say that after all I have been through I am in a better place. It is great to feel like I am not alone and your channel is amazing. I enjoy watching all your videos to include the keep it real talk sessions. Glad you are back and doing well. I have missed watching your videos. Thank you for being you.
I'm so so so so happy you're back. Im willing to support you no matter what choice you make. I love you so much you are so strong and such an inspiration, thank you for coming back. I'm so happy!!!
I'm so glad to see that you're back! I too am going through a new "change" in life and I'm struggling a bit with it because it's all very new to me. Hearing all of the positivity that you have to share with us gives me hope ❤️
I'm so proud of you for recognizing that you needed to do what was best for you. I'm so happy to see that you're healthy and taking HUGE steps to find your happiness. You deserve nothing but the best. I've been since the beginning and I will be here for you until the end. Positive vibes, girl! ☮💜
I am so glad you are back you were missed. You are my favorite youtuber of all time!! I can completely relate to what you are trying to say. Two years ago I was going through a similar situation with borderline and leave a relationship with a spouse and medical problems. I understand what you mean when you said it took a village and not understanding who you were or what you were about. I am lucky to have had the supportive people in my life that I do. I am so glad that you are finding your way to a new and better you out of hardship. I am looking forward to being able to see you on your journey to finding your new platform and revitalizing yourself. You inspire me to keep going on my journey to know myself better. Thank you for sharing so fearlessly with the world!!! we love you :)
im glad youre doing ok enough to come back to youtube. you will find ur place again soon and it may surprise you how close it is to where it used to be before. love and strength to you x
Ellie, Im truthfully really happy you are back, we missed you so much! For me is a little shocking to think that you can care for someone you don’t know, but is the truth, we care about you, we are the ellkofam and you are part of our routine, and again Im so happy you are here, you seem very fresh, and light, I can tell the change of energy, you seems happy and I am very happy and proud for you, I can relate with you in so many ways that when you disappeared was like my best friend stopped taking to me. I can’t wait to see more videos, obviously, when you feel like doing it. I know you don’t even remember we talk some time ago, but I’m going to the states from Chile, south america, to take a course, and Im going to be in NY, Queens for 3 months starting on August 16, so, If is still possible I would really like to have a coffee with you! let me know on a private message :) Lots of love and positive energies, you are the best and Im sure everything from now on is going to go up hill. Constanza.
I was so excited when I saw that you uploaded a new video since its been so long. First off look amazing, and you seem like you are so refreshed. The fact that you recognized that you needed time off for self care and rejuvenation is amazing, and that shows all of your followers and fans that it's okay to fall off the grid when necessary to better yourself. You have set such a good example for individuals going be through mental health issues and the resiliency you have is out of this world. Can't wait for more uploads Ellie! ❤️
Ah, I never comment on any youtube videos, but I just feel compelled to for you. You are such an inspiration to me in every way. I love your videos, your message, and well basically everything about you haha. I'm so glad to see that you're back and wish you the best in everything!!!
Welcome back girl, missed seeing your videos. Glad to hear you're doing well and following the path that makes you happy. I don't think you need to be any specific body type to promote body positivity. I think it's awesome that you love this movement so much and want to keep involved--and I really think you should. You are one of my favorite UA-camrs that has always promoted body positivity/self love ❤️.
So glad to see you Ellie. I've considered messaging you on Twitter a few times but talked myself out of it. I'm sorry you've been having a hard time but I'm happy to see you're coming out of it so well ❤️ I'm having a difficult time myself with my borderline right now so I totally feel you! I have to say, you're looking SO healthy 💖
I am so happy you're back!!!! I love how honest and genuine you are. thank you for being so open and caring about us. I definitely look forward to what you have in store for us!
So glad you're back! You have a beautiful soul and I missed seeing it beam through my screen. This year has been a year of change for me too, so I completely understand. Whatever you do, I will watch! Hugs to you beautiful lady.
So glad to see you're back and well! Your openness/realness with your life is one of the reasons you are one of my favorite UA-camrs. Can't wait to see what's in store for your channel and videos!
I'm glad that you're back and that you've taken the time to get yourself healthy. This year has also been a low for me. Sadly I haven't been able to get myself out of my low, mentally I've progressed, physically I've declined and it's slowly making my mental state go back to bottom but I don't know how to balance out.
I've gone through and am still going through the same things. I think if you've got your mentality where it should be then you're headed in the right direction! Keep going! Your physical self will follow. :) Just know that there are people out there going through the same things and you aren't alone. Good vibes for you!
Glad you're back! Just keep going and focus on positive things, that's the only way you'll overcome everything you are going through. You are such a beautiful soul and deserve everything in this world. I'm sending you a million hugs and good vibes ❤️
Love that you're back, have missed watching your videos. Absolutely love all of your honesty, it's wonderful that you're willing to share you life with us. Thank you!!
I am beyond thrilled that you are back and doing well. I missed you so much not just your videos but your inspiring words and encouragement to me as a plus size woman feel beautiful and confident in my own skin. You are an amazing person Ellie. Life can really be a lot to deal with sometimes but always remember This to shall pass. I love you so much! ellkoNYC Fan For Life!
We've all missed you so much! Your videos always make me so happy and I genuinely enjoy hearing your perspective on life. I am so happy for you that you were able to fight back and that you are on your way to a place of being well again. I also want to thank you for speaking up and being open with us about your mental illness because awareness is so important, especially with the heavy stigma still surrounding mental health issues. I am always so inspired by people like you who are unashamed; you have helped me learn to stop being ashamed of my own brain chemistry... As for a question, could you (if you're comfortable, of course), talk a little more about your "low place" and how you realized you needed to start making changes? What gave you the strength to start a journey to recovery? I ask because I've had a lot of ups and downs with my own mental health and never find myself ever able to make lasting changes, even after very low moments. Again, so excited that this channel is back and better than ever! We love you Ellie
So glad to have you back! Much love & support from every one of your followers. You are looking fabulous, and have grown so much, but please know that you never owe us anything. Take care of yourself first, and then check back in with us. If you get to it, I would love a more in depth story about your health/weight loss, and what you are going through now (you mentioned some problems with skin elasticity). Much love xo
I'm so happy you're back and I'm glad you found the strength to make this video. I think I originally found your channel because of body positivity and I'm so afraid that you feel like you can no longer be an advocate because you've lost weight. Your voice still matters. It always will. You have always been a ray of sunshine in my sub box and I hope continuing to create videos helps you on your journey to finding yourself. Lots of love to you.
I'm so excited that you're back! I've got BPD and I know how tough it can be to pick yourself up again. I'm so happy for you that you've started to do it! I know I don't personally know you but honestly I'm so proud. We all love you!
I'm so glad you're back and starting to feel better!! I think we all understand the importance of taking care of yourself, and support you doing the things you need to to stay healthy. As far as your body positivity stuff goes, a lot of that never goes away. No matter how small you get you remember what it's like to not fit into the clothes you want to wear, or feel too big for the style that feels like "you." Do what feels right to you, make the content you want to because I'm sure I'm not the only one who is really excited to see what comes next for you and from you!!
I'm glad that you're back but I am even more glad that you took time for yourself!! We love you but you being healthy mentally and physically is so much more important that being online and making videos!! Stay strong!!
first off i am so happy you are back and refinding yourself. these past few months i have been thinking about how you have been doing since when we last saw you, we could tell you were not in great shape. I'm so looking forward to your return! your videos really did help during a dark time for me last year. it took me from reality. your a strong women and i think its important for you to know we as your fans are so proud of everything you have endeavor, with the borderline and weight loss to how your handling your separation. you are truly inspiring, keep rocking it girl ❤
It's a very difficult experience discovering yourself as a person not connected to someone else by such a "big" relationship. Once you do, it'll seem so simple but for the moment it'll seem crazy. Be yourself, wholly and unconditionally. Love, and shine bright because you're a beautiful soul.
Ellie! 4 months is not that long! Though everyone missed you, I think I speak for everyone in saying we are so glad you're okay and fighting through everything. 4 months to get yourself together and to a point where you are okay enough to talk about everything is nothing. Happy to see your face and looking forward to the future!!!
You look stunning!!! I too went through divorce some months ago. The marriage will add a bit to who you are and so will the divorce. But my dear... They're all experiences in our lives that thread together the person who we are molding into. But don't worry to much about finding yourself... Just enjoy the ride and one day you'll look back and see who you were all along 💕 glad to have you back .
This video gave me the final bit of strength I needed to leave a bad relationship. It's been two months. Things are still stressful and my whole life feels up in the air, but the main source of anxiety in my life is now at least an hour away from me at all times. Thank you for that. I know that isn't what you were going for, but knowing someone else let their life flip around all weird in attempts to further themselves made everything seem less hopeless.
So glad you are back. I'm a grandma, and lost 80 lbs - took me 3+ years and I understand how you feel. When you define yourself as being a Plus Size and you wake one morning and realize you have changed so dramatically; even your friends don't know how to approach you. It is frightening. You are so young and so pretty, you will achieve whatever you set your mind to. I ran across your videos quite by accident one day while searching for something, but you have a great presence and personality so even someone my age finds your videos fun and interesting. You may lose yourself more than once in a life time, because life happens. It looks like you have it well under control. Thank you for helping me be a hip granny, so my granddaughters don't think I am boring. :)
I've missed your videos so much lately. I had a feeling this had something to do with the borderline stuff. You look so well now. You just seem happier. Your eyes are brighter and you're just looking a lot better :) I'm also very glad you got into chakras!!! Those are my favorite!!! It's nice to go over yourself once a week or even once a day in the morning or something. Makes a huge difference!!! I wish you well in these coming years and you know that we will be here for you no matter what. :)
I was wondering where you went, but I understand. It's always hard for everyone to lose something important for yourself and your life, I went through same situation too. I lost 30lbs from that too, but all I could do was staying positive and be beautiful. You are amazing person outside and inside. Your life is going to be better and better! I'm glad that you are back! Don't forget everyone was waiting for you and everyone loves you!!!
Hey! I'm a huge fan. So happy to see you back. Love hearing your honest story about your self journey. Keep at it, you're inspiring so many!! Love and internet hugs.
omg hi
HI LISA!!!
LISA!!!!!
Hi
omfg lisa
I had a feeling that those were the things you were going through these past many months.... I'm glad to see that you're still alive and seemingly figuring things out though. So long as you're being healthy about things (both mentally & physically) then you have my/our support; glad to see you back :)
Wow. I'm surprised to see you here, Cassie.
CASSIEEEEEESEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!
I realised pretty late in that I hadn't heard from her in a while, but when I did it got me a little worries and I looked through some comments and twitter and this was what I thought too.. I don't know what it must be like, but I really feel for sorry for her, having to go down the road she did for it must have been so hard...
I wish you the best of luck Ellko! See you soon
Cassie both you and her are channels I admire its great seeing you on this page mental illness can really kick some ass and it takes a hell of a lot of fighting to keep it at bay
my own fight is getting scarier but at the same time I'm getting stronger
keep fighting both of you
ahhhh my fav youtubers supporting eachother!! i love u both
Ellie is back! You look great! I love your hair! You didn't have to give any explanation. Most of us are just happy to have you back :)
You look 500x healthier than you did a few months ago and it's not even just weight loss. Your hair is gorgeous. Your skin is glowing. You look amazing. Just from this one video it's obvious how much you've grown and learned from this experience. I'm so happy for you and so glad you're back!
Omg I've missed you. You've had me worried😂😂.Your hair has gotten so much longer
she got a divorce?
she did
+Líf Þórðardóttir ty😄
+lovesugarshow ty😄
I'm so glad you're back. I have loved your channel for some time. I find you to be someone I can relate to in more ways than one. I was recently diagnosed with Bpd and it's been a challenge for me to accept this but at the same time I'm thankful that there is a reason for why I've felt and behaved the way Ihave since I was a child. I completely relate to how you're feeling. My husband just retired from the military and since we closed the door on that chapter I have been struggling to find out where I fit in life and struggling to find even the smallest morsel of confidence to acquire the jobs I need to help support my family. Thank you for being so strong even when you didn't feel you were. I have realized that even the smallest of things are successes if I don't give in to the depression and the negativity. I'm glad you are back because you are an inspiration and definitely a person I can relate to in life that offers love and compassion. Always Keep Fighting Ellie.
Patiently, patiently waited for this day. So glad you're alive and well.
So glad you are back! I went through a divorce and mine was a mess. I am glad you took time for yourself. Good for you! You continue to be an inspiration. Thank you!
I believe once your a plus size girl, you always are. There's always that struggle even if your not a plus size anymore, on the inside, there are still those struggles and still image struggles with the extra skin and maintaining etc. You know I love you girl and am always here for me. Hit me up whenever. You have my number and my love 😘
Here for YOU* hahaha smh
I agree. once you are plus size it doesn't matter how much weight you lose. you are still plus size at heart
I agree with this 100% - My channel is called 'Fat Girl Lifts' and when I try and explain that even if I become "not fat" I'll always be fat. It's not just a physical state.
Girlie, you are a beautiful soul and you need to let your passions fly no matter what your body type. You know how it feels to be plus sized and the struggles that come with that, and those experiences don't go away because you've lost weight. You can help so many people (and I know you will), and you have many who love you- don't you worry! Missed you and I look forward to this change in your channel! : ) Wishing the best!
Once you're plus size, you're always plus size. Not in the sense of your weight, but of your whole mind set and how you see yourself, how you see others, and how others see you. I went from a skinny high schooler, to a plus size college student, to my current size 8 body. I remember in high school always picking out the bigger people from the rest but then as I became plus size I only saw the skinny people. But now I only see the faces and peoples real beauty. It changes your perceptive so much. My advice about your relationship, learn to love yourself before you love anyone or let anyone love you. Learn to stand on your own two feet because when you finally find the one that you can depend on, it'll be ten times better. I love you so so much and I'm so glad you're back!
I know the feels and that's the truth! as someone who has struggled my entire life with constant weight gain and weight loss, being at a weight of 138 at. 5'5 I still felt like I was 220 which was my heaviest. I wouldn't be caught dead in shorts, short sleeve shirts, a swimsuit, etc. even though I look back and think what a nice body I achieved through all that hard work, it didn't change my confidence. Your body may change but the way I felt on the inside was still the same.
First of all, I am so glad you are recovering and in such a positive way! Welcome back!
Secondly, I had a VERY similar life crisis at the end of last year from which I am still recovering (I have BPD and Bipolar 1, the latter diagnosis I received after my crisis). I have held so much shame and guilt from my uncharacteristic actions that hearing your positivity, and your story has helped SO much.
I gained quite a bit of weight while I was sick (I was already overweight) so I have been struggling to accept my body now, and also to work towards the body that I want. In a nutshell, this video was very relevant to me as well and I am truly grateful. I am happy to see you radiate such positivity and happiness; can't wait for more videos!
ellie. I'm so glad you are back. I saw a notification and was like "!!!!!!" you are beautiful as you always have been. I'm sorry to hear you've gone so much, but you are strong. you conquered it. I love you elli♡♡ again it's good to see you back.
Glad you're back and doing well! I'm a big advocate for mental health. I suffer from anxiey, depression, and OCD and my mom has borderline. I empathize with you and completely understand your struggles. Taking time for yourself to figure things out and to do some soul searching is what we need sometimes in order to sort of recharge ourselves. It's a daily battle for me. Some days are good. Some days I can't leave the house. You've definitely got the right idea by releasing negativity, encouraging good vibes only, and keeping your body fueled. Thank you for sharing your story. It's so hard for so many of us to speak out. Keep encouraging others. Even though it may be hard for you to see it you are an inspiration.
Welcome back Love, missed you so much.
Thank you for your honesty. I can't imagine how difficult all the stuff you are going through has been let alone telling the Internet about it. You're such a wonderful human. Much love as you continue to work on your transition to a new chapter in life.
Glad you're okay! Now drop a hair tutorial for those waves!
braids....for sure
She has one 😉 its the French braid tutorial
Listening to you talk, I just kept thinking how beautiful you look. I'm not just talking about prettiness but how peaceful and healthy you look. I am so happy you have been able to rise, and grow from your pain. I also have BPD and I am on a similar journey. I am looking so forward to your new videos and seeing your progress. Love and peace, Susan.
I want to write a comment addressing some of the people writing comments about Ellie's weight and appearance. Let me start off by saying do I by no mean think that anyone is trying to be insensitive, I think everyone is just so glad that she's back and I think the compliments are genuine. However, it makes me uncomfortable as someone who has struggled with mental illness and lost a substantial amount of weight that I did not intend to lose, seeing it being complimented or praised or asking what her secret was to looking so good. I can't speak for Ellie, but I know when I lost all of the weight I did, that whenever someone complimented me on it, it just reminded me of the awful way I had lost it. Losing weight due to illness is not desirable. None of your clothes fit, depending on how you lost it your hair can change (become thin, break easily), your skin changes, whenever you look in the mirror you don't see yourself you instead see all of the missing parts. So, just be aware these things when commenting on someone's weight. Sometimes it's best to not comment at all.
^^^^^^^^
I doubt that happened to her
+Katherine Woods I won't pretend to know what did or didn't happen, all I'm saying in my comment is that because we don't know the details that people should be more mindful and sensitive.
You said EXACTLY what I have experienced as well. I've always been overweight, then got ill and lost more than half of my body weight. One friend even said, "Well the good side effect of illness is you've lost so much weight", and another said "Oh it will be great if you can keep this figure" etc.
very negative person, you'll bury yourself with negativity... whenever something bad happens, good things come with it... whether u've lost weight by going to the gym or due to an illness.. an unhealthy fat is gone, and you are outside of obesity zone.. appreciate that and stop being negative...
You followed me on instagram ages ago, and i almost died of happiness. I've always admired you and thought highly of you. I stubbled onto your channel randomly one day and now i sit just enjoying every video you make. My heart goes out to you, and the hard time's you've been through and going through i hope there is a new chapter for you and things improve. I was a plus sized girl who lost weight to, however the stretch marks the inner pain is reminder of your past and i still think you can still speak for plus sizes regardless. It wasn't that you set out to lose weight you just simply set out to be healthy and you did that and that was incredible and it's a good messaage to send everyone plus sized or not. So much love to you, during this time and whenever thing's get lonely or you feel like youre struggling remember all the love and support you'l always have right here
You look great!! Your skin is glowing!
im so glad you're back! we've been worrying about you!! i totally understand why you were gone and for a long period of time; you needed it and at the end of the day you are you're priority. i'm just glad you've gotten to a place now where you are not in your 'all time low' as you called it and that you've made some decisions for your health (the pescatarian change) and for your mental wellbeing too :D as much as i've missed your videos please make sure not to overwhelm yourself with the work that the videos take!! Take your time, we are always supporting you! love you
Oh my goodness!! You look amazing!!!!!
I am really glad you made this video !!! I've started to follow you ever since you made a UA-cam about borderline. I want you to know that I do look up to you, I rarely do things like this, but you give me high hopes. I want to know more about it, I need to help a family member with it, I want to let her know I'm a here to help her, to cope with it, to guide her with it. She is not alone. Just like you, you don't give up, you may be down for a few, but the. Again everyone needs a break once in awhile. Is ok.... The only thing to remember is that you must go on! No matter what. You have to know that people in your life need you. I am really happy, happy that you came back and btw you look amazing! Not saying because of the weight... Your hair look fabulous and notice you have a little tan 🙂 and you look happy!!!!
Can you make a video on how you lost weight? I'm trying to, but I can't be vegan for health reasons and I've never been able to find someone who has lost weight without being vegan. Thank you and I just wanted to say welcome back! I've missed you! Much love ❤️
Check out The Vegan Couple! There may be a way you can eat plant based despite your health reasons! Good luck!
There's lots of people who've lost weight without veganism! I think you should check out health channels like Mind over Munch, she talks about the lifestyle changes you can make on the road to a healthier you. I found it extremely helpful to eat "clean", that is, to eat things that don't come in packaging, eating things that came from the soil or that came from live animals, mostly chicken and turkey and fish. Hope that was helpful.
I'm pretty sure she lost weight accidentally or perhaps inadvertently because she was struggling so much with her mental & physical health. I think I remember her discussing that a while back in one of her videos when people were asking about her weight, but I could be wrong.
Thanks for all of the advice everyone! I appreciate it, I'll keep everyone of them in mind when I establish a diet plan. ❤️
+Nami Nuitsuki I work for the American Heart Association - we have TONS of recipes and plans on our website! It's all about calories in, calories out. So if you aren't super active (desk job, no regular workouts), then your calorie intake should represent that. If you aren't supper active, and want to get into shape, take it one step at a time! Go for long walks, get a fun exercise video that you enjoy - and tell yourself you're going to do it 2-3 times a week to start. You'll notice that you'll start feeling amazing, so you'll want to keep doing it. No need for p90x or anything bonkers. Haha! Remember that your plate should be: half fresh, colorful fruits and veggies, 1/4 lean protein, and 1/4 multi-grain carbs. 🙃
I'm sorry you had to go through everything, but glad you're accepting it as positive change
I can see you look happy, and your eyes are full of life
looking forward to more videos from you!
Instead of preaching about being plus size, teach and learn about self love! That includes everyone :) just a thought. I'm happy you are back! I've been starting to learn about crystals and the chakras as well. Yay for positivity!
I'm so glad you're alright. I've gone through a similar situation after I graduated college in 2015 and became depressed and then August of that same year I went through a breakup that sent me spiraling further downward when I thought life couldn't fet worse it continued to prove me wrong. This past year of my life has been a rollercoaster of emotion, but I've also experienced new things, met new people, and have enjoyed being home while trying to figure my life out. It has taken time and I'm nowhere where I want to be at yet, but by focusing on myself and with the help of my own village I've slowly gotten better and am rediscovering myself and finding out what I really want to do and who is really there for me.
Thank you for sharing your life with all of us even when didn't have to. You are so inspirational Ellie. My heart goes out to you and I hope your journey to where you want to be is successful and fills you with the joy you need.
I'm so excited to continue to get to watch you ❤❤
How do I love myself when I'm plus sized at the age of 14? ILYSM
Self love is far deeper than a size. You are smart, beautiful, and have the ability to strive for amazing things in life. It's a number such as age which doesn't define you.
I'm plus size and 11
Self love is more than your size. You need to find peace within yourself and learn that you are you and you are beautiful. No matter size or age or what people think of you. There is only one you in the world and that in its self is beautiful.
There's nothing wrong with being plus sized, it's honestly okay, just don't let other tell you that you need to lose weight or that you're this and that, just look in the mirror everyday and compliment yourself. You're a beautiful person ❤️
Your size does not matter. You are a beautiful human being.
Love you Ellie, happy you're back. Thanks for always being so real with us
Damn you look fabulous, tell me you secret!!! 😍😍😍
Veganism :)
Melissa Juarez she said she wasn't good at it so there's something else
+Karen Lara yes I saw that , I was just gonna say that! she said she's not good at veganism and kind drifting away
Chyspa Martinez also she said she eats more.. I'm not hating. I just think she looks amazing and whatever she is doing works
Karen Lara Same she looks really pretty today nothing wrong what she does just hoping she is doing well in her health
I was so worried about you! I'm glad to see you are back. I'm sad to hear about you and Jet-as you seemed so happy together, and it's confusing to hear about without asking questions, which are of course-none of my business, so I can only say I hope you find what makes you happy. And welcome back, we've missed you :) As for your platform, i followed you before and I'm someone who WAS plus sized and no longer is...and I'm certain i am not alone :)
Doesn't have to be about Plus Size... just about body acceptance no matter what shape or size.
Good on you kiddo for being so honest. I've enjoyed being a subscriber for a while and always look forward to seeing you. It sure looks like you've got everything sorted as the light in your eyes isn't fake. You are an inspiration for a lot of young girls who look up to you. keep pushing through the fog. xxxx
I can tell you what is your platform. The ex plus size that lost weight due to health issues that is struggling with borderline personality, but is brave enough to share her story with the rest of us. It's ok to not know what to do and to discover it in the process. It's really difficult to find someone talking about mental and physical health in a honest way, so I'm sure you will succeed if you just share a little bit of your journey with us ;)
You're a beautiful person. Such a genuine soul, and so strong. You're my inspiration x
Did you loose a lot of weight! Your so pretty
She was pretty before as well, your weight doesn't make you pretty or not...
+Molly Prestler right but she never said that ellie suddenly became pretty, shes simply stating that she is pretty!!
+Molly Prestler she didn't say "you're so much prettier since you lost weight!!" she was just noticing the weight loss & complimented her
I'm so glad that you're back and that you're on the way to healing. You've crossed my mind a lot in the past few months.
no offense to anyone but did she loose weight????
yes she did
did you even watch the video?
+jenna maria I watched part of it I didn't really have time ND even now I don't have any
That's what I thought too she is so gorgeous and thin 😍
she said she did in the video
I'm so glad you're back. I've missed you and I love your videos. From the ones when you were plus size until now. I would honestly watch if all you did was talk about your life or even give some advice. You're beautiful and I'm glad you are working on taking care of yourself 💕
You lost so much weight what the heck
IKR
Did you not watch the video? Be supportive and be positive!
She's just shocked. I'm just as shocked about how much weight she has lost.
I'm so glad to see you back! Praying for you as you continue your journey. Last year I had a brutal struggle with anxiety and depression, but God and my amazing friends helped me through it. During that time I read more of the Bible than ever and faced a lot of fears from my past. Now, I feel like I'm in a great new season where I can use my story to encourage other people. Best wishes for this new season in your life!
I totally forgot I was subbed to you lol...
P.S. I hope you find what your looking for...You look sad honestly...I mean I know you're coming back from a hard climb but you do look quite sad...I will send positivity and hope for peace your way...Keep your chin up girl...
So happy to have you back! I'm amazed on how much of your story reminds me of my own.
I'm so glad you're back and healthy, and know that we'll always support you no matter what towards your journey to reach a new happy place. The battles you lead to live with your bordeline disorder and to encourage body image love despite our shape and size are truly inspiring. I was sad to hear about Jett, but I hope you're doing well and can't wait to watch your next videos. Do ya thing girl, you are gorgeous inside and out, sending you lots of love from France
I am so happy you are back. Thank you for being so refreshingly open and honest with your struggle. It is so hard to deal with borderline personality disorder on your own, let alone with a public audience, so thank you from the bottom of my heart for that. Look forward to seeing your smiling face every week
Welcome Back. This is why I enjoy your channel so much, you are human and keep it real. We all get lost sometimes trying to find our way back. Keep on doing what you're doing, it looks good on you.
Welcome back Ellko, and thank you for being so honest. Looking forward to having you back!
Ellie I'm so glad that you're back and that you're healthy - mind, body & spirit. You're a ray of absolute sunshine here on UA-cam & I can't wait for more videos! xoxo
OMG!!! You are still alivee!! (just kidding)!! Im so happy to see you again. And truthly I understand you, when I started to follow your videos last year mi dad recently has left this world, my boyfriend leave me and I was completly lost, and your videos make me smile, at least for a couple minutes. Everyday its a little bit easier to find the way and Im sure you will be able to find yours very soon!! Dont feel overwarm to be "a plus size model" or feel like you have to be plus size to carry on with your "fight". Now you are a different model to follow, now in your re-birth (as you say) the change puts you in the place of many many people who has lost weight and have to deal with all the changes: Physical and emotional. I love you and Im sooo happy to see you again!!! And I will like to give you, not an advice, just a recomendation.. One fight at the time!! Love you and I really hope you read this and can understand me hahaha lots of kisses and hugs and love from argentina!!!
I've been so worried! I was just checking for updates yesterday! I'm so glad you're okay, praying for you during this time of transition and healing. ❤️
I'm so glad you're back, I was on your channel multiple times, even yesterday hoping that maybe your videos were just not coming into my subscription box. I'm so glad you're feeling a lot better. Suffering from borderline myself I know how hard it can be. TOMORROW I get my exam results and these determine my life and I'm a bubbling mess but this video has made me happy because you're okay.
I'm so happy you're back. From what you've gone through the last few months has shown how strong you are. I'm praying for the best luck in your future and overcoming anymore struggles that come along. I'm so excited to see what you have in store for your channel. Stay strong and much love!
I missed you and I'm happy you're back ❤ I'm glad you are finding yourself. its good you don't have regrets, YOU should always come first in your life.
The best way to ANY self-recovery is showing yourself that you love yourself. I know that sounds cheesy but I had a hard time relearning how to love myself when the world, family/friends, and just regular routines crushed me. I want to say it took me 4-5years to learn to appreciate, understand what I was capable of. I'm glad your back. I'm glad you are sharing your story: Besides you have 2, maybe 3, platforms you can reach: struggle with weight/plus sized, BPD/mental disorders, and self-love
I have been wondering what happened!!!! I am so happy that you are back. I've been sending good vibes to you. I am so sorry for what you have gone through but I know that you have come out as a stronger woman. Sending more love your way! ❤️❤️❤️
I am so happy you are back, El!!!! I have been watching you transform & have been a subscriber for a long time. You have always been so down to earth, open & encouraging to watch. As one door closes another one opens. You have my support & I am sending you best wishes!!!
So happy that you are back! We've all missed you so much! Your courage and humbleness really inspires me- they way that you took a break for yourself to find who you truly are is something so beautiful. I have also been learning about energies and spirituality myself. I find the whole existence of it very therapeutic, and am very glad that you have discovered it as well. Once again, I am so happy you are back and can't wait to see more of you in the future! ❤️
I've been through your trip and I can definitely understand and feel your struggle. Years later I am still finding myself. I can say that after all I have been through I am in a better place. It is great to feel like I am not alone and your channel is amazing. I enjoy watching all your videos to include the keep it real talk sessions. Glad you are back and doing well. I have missed watching your videos. Thank you for being you.
I'm so so so so happy you're back. Im willing to support you no matter what choice you make. I love you so much you are so strong and such an inspiration, thank you for coming back. I'm so happy!!!
I'm so glad to see that you're back! I too am going through a new "change" in life and I'm struggling a bit with it because it's all very new to me. Hearing all of the positivity that you have to share with us gives me hope ❤️
I'm so proud of you for recognizing that you needed to do what was best for you. I'm so happy to see that you're healthy and taking HUGE steps to find your happiness. You deserve nothing but the best. I've been since the beginning and I will be here for you until the end. Positive vibes, girl! ☮💜
I am so glad you are back you were missed. You are my favorite youtuber of all time!! I can completely relate to what you are trying to say. Two years ago I was going through a similar situation with borderline and leave a relationship with a spouse and medical problems. I understand what you mean when you said it took a village and not understanding who you were or what you were about. I am lucky to have had the supportive people in my life that I do. I am so glad that you are finding your way to a new and better you out of hardship. I am looking forward to being able to see you on your journey to finding your new platform and revitalizing yourself. You inspire me to keep going on my journey to know myself better. Thank you for sharing so fearlessly with the world!!! we love you :)
im glad youre doing ok enough to come back to youtube. you will find ur place again soon and it may surprise you how close it is to where it used to be before. love and strength to you x
So glad you're back!!! I'm so sorry for all that you've been going through, but I admire your strength. You are beautiful inside and out!
Ellie, Im truthfully really happy you are back, we missed you so much!
For me is a little shocking to think that you can care for someone you don’t know, but is the truth, we care about you, we are the ellkofam and you are part of our routine, and again Im so happy you are here, you seem very fresh, and light, I can tell the change of energy, you seems happy and I am very happy and proud for you, I can relate with you in so many ways that when you disappeared was like my best friend stopped taking to me. I can’t wait to see more videos, obviously, when you feel like doing it.
I know you don’t even remember we talk some time ago, but I’m going to the states from Chile, south america, to take a course, and Im going to be in NY, Queens for 3 months starting on August 16, so, If is still possible I would really like to have a coffee with you! let me know on a private message :)
Lots of love and positive energies, you are the best and Im sure everything from now on is going to go up hill.
Constanza.
I was so excited when I saw that you uploaded a new video since its been so long. First off look amazing, and you seem like you are so refreshed. The fact that you recognized that you needed time off for self care and rejuvenation is amazing, and that shows all of your followers and fans that it's okay to fall off the grid when necessary to better yourself. You have set such a good example for individuals going be through mental health issues and the resiliency you have is out of this world. Can't wait for more uploads Ellie! ❤️
Ah, I never comment on any youtube videos, but I just feel compelled to for you. You are such an inspiration to me in every way. I love your videos, your message, and well basically everything about you haha. I'm so glad to see that you're back and wish you the best in everything!!!
Welcome back girl, missed seeing your videos. Glad to hear you're doing well and following the path that makes you happy.
I don't think you need to be any specific body type to promote body positivity. I think it's awesome that you love this movement so much and want to keep involved--and I really think you should. You are one of my favorite UA-camrs that has always promoted body positivity/self love ❤️.
I'm so glad to hear that you are getting healthier physically and mentally
So glad to see you Ellie. I've considered messaging you on Twitter a few times but talked myself out of it. I'm sorry you've been having a hard time but I'm happy to see you're coming out of it so well ❤️ I'm having a difficult time myself with my borderline right now so I totally feel you! I have to say, you're looking SO healthy 💖
I am so happy you're back!!!! I love how honest and genuine you are. thank you for being so open and caring about us. I definitely look forward to what you have in store for us!
Welcome back beautiful
Why, why would anyone thumbs down this video ?? Glad you're back! And have a healthy outlook, physically, emotionally and mentally 💕
So glad you're back! You have a beautiful soul and I missed seeing it beam through my screen. This year has been a year of change for me too, so I completely understand. Whatever you do, I will watch! Hugs to you beautiful lady.
So glad to see you're back and well! Your openness/realness with your life is one of the reasons you are one of my favorite UA-camrs. Can't wait to see what's in store for your channel and videos!
I'm glad that you're back and that you've taken the time to get yourself healthy. This year has also been a low for me. Sadly I haven't been able to get myself out of my low, mentally I've progressed, physically I've declined and it's slowly making my mental state go back to bottom but I don't know how to balance out.
I've gone through and am still going through the same things. I think if you've got your mentality where it should be then you're headed in the right direction! Keep going! Your physical self will follow. :)
Just know that there are people out there going through the same things and you aren't alone. Good vibes for you!
Glad you're back! Just keep going and focus on positive things, that's the only way you'll overcome everything you are going through. You are such a beautiful soul and deserve everything in this world. I'm sending you a million hugs and good vibes ❤️
So glad you are back, its glad to know that i am not the only one going through this. You aren't alone, we aren't alone. Thank you
Love that you're back, have missed watching your videos. Absolutely love all of your honesty, it's wonderful that you're willing to share you life with us. Thank you!!
I'm so excited to see you back and I love to see you happy and feeling yourself. This made my worrying go away.
I'm so happy to see you back on UA-cam!! You look amazing, and so healthy!! Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us. We love you!!
I am beyond thrilled that you are back and doing well. I missed you so much not just your videos but your inspiring words and encouragement to me as a plus size woman feel beautiful and confident in my own skin. You are an amazing person Ellie. Life can really be a lot to deal with sometimes but always remember This to shall pass. I love you so much! ellkoNYC Fan For Life!
We've all missed you so much! Your videos always make me so happy and I genuinely enjoy hearing your perspective on life. I am so happy for you that you were able to fight back and that you are on your way to a place of being well again. I also want to thank you for speaking up and being open with us about your mental illness because awareness is so important, especially with the heavy stigma still surrounding mental health issues. I am always so inspired by people like you who are unashamed; you have helped me learn to stop being ashamed of my own brain chemistry... As for a question, could you (if you're comfortable, of course), talk a little more about your "low place" and how you realized you needed to start making changes? What gave you the strength to start a journey to recovery? I ask because I've had a lot of ups and downs with my own mental health and never find myself ever able to make lasting changes, even after very low moments. Again, so excited that this channel is back and better than ever! We love you Ellie
so happy you're back Ellie! Can't wait for new things ahead! Keep up the good spirits girl!
So glad to have you back! Much love & support from every one of your followers. You are looking fabulous, and have grown so much, but please know that you never owe us anything. Take care of yourself first, and then check back in with us.
If you get to it, I would love a more in depth story about your health/weight loss, and what you are going through now (you mentioned some problems with skin elasticity). Much love xo
Welcome back! I'm so glad you are back and finding your voice again! we are here for you! Keep being strong and you will gain more strength.
I'm so happy you're back and I'm glad you found the strength to make this video. I think I originally found your channel because of body positivity and I'm so afraid that you feel like you can no longer be an advocate because you've lost weight. Your voice still matters. It always will. You have always been a ray of sunshine in my sub box and I hope continuing to create videos helps you on your journey to finding yourself. Lots of love to you.
I'm so excited that you're back! I've got BPD and I know how tough it can be to pick yourself up again. I'm so happy for you that you've started to do it! I know I don't personally know you but honestly I'm so proud. We all love you!
I'm so glad you're back and starting to feel better!! I think we all understand the importance of taking care of yourself, and support you doing the things you need to to stay healthy. As far as your body positivity stuff goes, a lot of that never goes away. No matter how small you get you remember what it's like to not fit into the clothes you want to wear, or feel too big for the style that feels like "you." Do what feels right to you, make the content you want to because I'm sure I'm not the only one who is really excited to see what comes next for you and from you!!
I'm glad that you're back but I am even more glad that you took time for yourself!! We love you but you being healthy mentally and physically is so much more important that being online and making videos!! Stay strong!!
first off i am so happy you are back and refinding yourself. these past few months i have been thinking about how you have been doing since when we last saw you, we could tell you were not in great shape. I'm so looking forward to your return! your videos really did help during a dark time for me last year. it took me from reality. your a strong women and i think its important for you to know we as your fans are so proud of everything you have endeavor, with the borderline and weight loss to how your handling your separation. you are truly inspiring, keep rocking it girl ❤
It's a very difficult experience discovering yourself as a person not connected to someone else by such a "big" relationship. Once you do, it'll seem so simple but for the moment it'll seem crazy. Be yourself, wholly and unconditionally. Love, and shine bright because you're a beautiful soul.
Ellie! 4 months is not that long! Though everyone missed you, I think I speak for everyone in saying we are so glad you're okay and fighting through everything. 4 months to get yourself together and to a point where you are okay enough to talk about everything is nothing.
Happy to see your face and looking forward to the future!!!
You look stunning!!! I too went through divorce some months ago. The marriage will add a bit to who you are and so will the divorce. But my dear... They're all experiences in our lives that thread together the person who we are molding into. But don't worry to much about finding yourself... Just enjoy the ride and one day you'll look back and see who you were all along 💕 glad to have you back .
This video gave me the final bit of strength I needed to leave a bad relationship. It's been two months. Things are still stressful and my whole life feels up in the air, but the main source of anxiety in my life is now at least an hour away from me at all times. Thank you for that. I know that isn't what you were going for, but knowing someone else let their life flip around all weird in attempts to further themselves made everything seem less hopeless.
So glad you are back. I'm a grandma, and lost 80 lbs - took me 3+ years and I understand how you feel. When you define yourself as being a Plus Size and you wake one morning and realize you have changed so dramatically; even your friends don't know how to approach you. It is frightening. You are so young and so pretty, you will achieve whatever you set your mind to. I ran across your videos quite by accident one day while searching for something, but you have a great presence and personality so even someone my age finds your videos fun and interesting. You may lose yourself more than once in a life time, because life happens. It looks like you have it well under control. Thank you for helping me be a hip granny, so my granddaughters don't think I am boring. :)
I've missed your videos so much lately. I had a feeling this had something to do with the borderline stuff. You look so well now. You just seem happier. Your eyes are brighter and you're just looking a lot better :) I'm also very glad you got into chakras!!! Those are my favorite!!! It's nice to go over yourself once a week or even once a day in the morning or something. Makes a huge difference!!! I wish you well in these coming years and you know that we will be here for you no matter what. :)
I was wondering where you went, but I understand. It's always hard for everyone to lose something important for yourself and your life, I went through same situation too. I lost 30lbs from that too, but all I could do was staying positive and be beautiful. You are amazing person outside and inside. Your life is going to be better and better! I'm glad that you are back! Don't forget everyone was waiting for you and everyone loves you!!!
So good to see you well and back Ellie! Sending you love and strength
how lovely ❤