Cameron Philip - Think I Might Kill Myself (Audio)

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    Lyrics:
    think i might kill myself
    i don't know how i feel
    think i might kill myself
    i don't know how i feel
    would you miss me if i'm gone
    i can't do all this alone
    would you miss me if i'm gone
    i can't do all this alone
    everybody always thinking that i'm okay, ever since i was a kid been feeling lonely
    have a bad thought and it never ever go 'way, but i never tell nobody 'bout it no way
    never asking how i felt, no one really seemed to care,
    guess i made it hard to tell, still nobody's ever there
    does nobody think of me, do you know i live in hell
    does nobody really seeeee how i feel about myself
    do you understand the way i feel inside oh no probably cause you never looked me in the eyes
    there's a lot of things in my brain there's a lot of things i hide
    there's a reason that i stay up overthinking late at night
    there's a reason that i cry there's a reason that i'm sad
    there's a reason that i feel like i don't have a mom or dad
    there's a reason i'm alone there's a reason i'll be gone
    there's a reason that i'll never truly feel the way i want
    SO
    think i might kill myself
    i don't know how i feel
    think i might kill myself
    i don't know how i feel
    i need help, i need friends, don't need wealth, don't need fans
    i need love, i need care, i need someone to be there
    i had to do it aloooone, but then i cut everyone ouuut
    so i take the blame, i am what i found
    and i feel insane, writing this down, but that's all okay
    we'll figure this out, whoever that be, that's helping me out
    and i wanna feel like the stars in the sky in the night
    i'll glow in the darkness and shine way up high
    and i'll beat all my demons i'll beat all my shitttttt
    i got all these feelings now let's deal with ittttttttt
    i wanna break through this, i wanna go do this
    i need to let everything out or i'll lose it i swear
    SO
    think i might kill myself
    i don't know how i feel
    think i might kill myself
    i don't know how i feel
    would you miss me if i'm gone
    i can't do all this alone
    would you miss me if i'm gone
    i can't do all this alone

КОМЕНТАРІ • 233

  • @kookietaeschildig6766
    @kookietaeschildig6766 5 років тому +106

    "I don't know how I feel" wow that's too relatable

  • @duskiere
    @duskiere 5 років тому +512

    i didn’t see the “(audio)” and i scared myself half to death

  • @zeriahandrea2727
    @zeriahandrea2727 5 років тому +290

    As much as I want to tell you to cheer up, and be happy. I know emotions like this are a hard one to deal with, so I'm glad you've decided to cope with it by doing something you love. Writing and making music. And by sharing these emotions with us, you're letting us know how you feel. And you're communicating. Thank you Cameron for being so open and honest. 💕 we're here for you anytime.

    • @katiec8888
      @katiec8888 5 років тому +2

      Same Cameron always here if you wanna talk I know I would miss you terrible -sope is real!!!

  • @sydthesquidkid4172
    @sydthesquidkid4172 5 років тому +360

    I'm crying rn because this just put how I feel into a song.

    • @libertyathena
      @libertyathena 5 років тому +5

      Me too:'(

    • @Himnotlee
      @Himnotlee 5 років тому +9

      Its so Wyld

    • @elmariajin3369
      @elmariajin3369 5 років тому +7

      No joke, a song has never made me LITERALLY cry but I felt this song and i almost actually cried

    • @liabelle6431
      @liabelle6431 5 років тому

    • @jhonana34
      @jhonana34 5 років тому +3

      Yes, this hit like a rock

  • @fannyalvarado7995
    @fannyalvarado7995 5 років тому +65

    “There’s a reason that I feel like I don’t have a mom or dad” when he said that I felt my heart drop, I relate so much

  • @andreamadrid8646
    @andreamadrid8646 5 років тому +241

    It’s funny because almost everyone says “it’s exactly how I feel” but when you are really in that mood you think you are the only one passing through those things.

    • @enstart4603
      @enstart4603 5 років тому +1

      well i dont fell anything so i dont fell pain but i cant tell between right or wrong

    • @alisiabakerjb
      @alisiabakerjb 5 років тому +3

      So true!! When you feel like this, you don't think anyone understands!

    • @TzicuriVlogs
      @TzicuriVlogs 4 роки тому +2

      But you can understand and feel that everybody go through this kind of things, but even if you have the same mental Illness, let’s say it, like depression, even if you talk with someone who has it too, and faces the same as you do, you’ll still feel alone. That’s why it’s mental illness

  • @peopleandanimalslovm
    @peopleandanimalslovm 5 років тому +313

    "Would you miss me if i was gone"
    yes, a million times yes. You always make me laugh and I'm forever grateful for you

  • @miggxy192
    @miggxy192 5 років тому +62

    THREE AT THE SAME TIME CAMERON NO WONDER YOU WERE GONE SO LONG

  • @jadamorris1374
    @jadamorris1374 5 років тому +20

    Cam, I know know how you feel and I know it probably might not mean that much to hear this from a strangers on the internet but we truly love you and your videos/ music. They always seem to make us cry from laughter or smile to the point our cheeks hurt and like me, some of us don’t usually get that enough in our life’s. Watching your videos makes us feel less alone in this world and all we wish for you is the same happiness you could give us❤️

  • @elarkive2717
    @elarkive2717 4 роки тому +7

    1:23 "there's a reason that i feel like i don't have a mom or dad" this hits me hard i can relate to the song so much

  • @gavriellarutigliano2356
    @gavriellarutigliano2356 5 років тому +7

    this song feels like a hug when im in a bad depressive episode

  • @martialaw566
    @martialaw566 5 років тому +9

    "I wanna feel like the stars in the sky" -cameron
    "Never forget the stars that you wish for / can only rise in the dark" -suga
    *I'm not crying you are*

  • @melissacastillo7626
    @melissacastillo7626 5 років тому +45

    The whole first verse was me having to explain to my family that I'm not okay, this album is hitting me so hard I'm taking little breaks as go

  • @FollowTheCreepyWhiteRabbit
    @FollowTheCreepyWhiteRabbit 5 років тому +12

    I don't know if I've ever related to someone so much or felt like a song was just explaining my soul. I can't tell you how deeply this touched me, I'm sobbing. Thank you, Cameron. I know I'm just a fan but in a way I feel like we're just long distance friends supporting each other from afar.💚

  • @laurazaetz9505
    @laurazaetz9505 5 років тому +6

    Thank you for your bravery, Cameron. It takes a lot to ask for help and speak out about something that no one wants to hear. This song is very raw and I appreciated that there is still a note of hope in the last verse. It let's people know that though these feelings are so powerful, those who listen won't be as encouraged to follow through with them

  • @nextrexflex
    @nextrexflex 5 років тому +49

    I was scared for a second I didn't see the "Audio" Part yet

  • @victoriashelton9918
    @victoriashelton9918 5 років тому +14

    My chest hurts with how relatable this is
    It's perfect cam the album is gonna be bomb af keep it going

  • @cats6208
    @cats6208 5 років тому +17

    Cameron: How sad did make you during this song?
    Me: Yes **cries**

  • @MrBobbyboy765
    @MrBobbyboy765 4 роки тому +2

    I needed this

  • @danamairelee5366
    @danamairelee5366 5 років тому +3

    As I sit here and listen to this I can't help but tear up, "will you miss me if im gone" I ask this question 10000× daily. I lay awake at night wondering what is life all about why am I stuck in my head and so much more. "Think I might kill myself I don't know how I feel" my head races with so many worries fears ect always wanting to scream Becuase no one ever wants to get close no one wants to know me for me, Lonely no friends ect.
    Cameron you're talented you're strong you got this💜 we all purple you.

  • @marsikim2937
    @marsikim2937 5 років тому +5

    I swear to God this hit home for me..... Cameron. I swear always love just how awesomely real you are and I hope you continue to just be you. I hope you're healthy and that ksquad loves you and I love you.

  • @SophietheFirst01
    @SophietheFirst01 5 років тому +6

    I have been feeling like this for so long and I never was able to put it into words. But your song describes it exactly and I having been feeling alot better now. Anyways thank you for writing this and putting it out there for people to hear it is a touchy subject for some people but it should be talked about.

  • @Clovis_Rose
    @Clovis_Rose 5 років тому

    This song speaks volumes to me...There's no way to express how much I get this song. Thanks Cameron, for all the wonderful you give to the world!

  • @maxdun6874
    @maxdun6874 4 роки тому +1

    I love how this is a really sad song but it also gives me so much strength !

  • @Lostmisfit8250
    @Lostmisfit8250 5 років тому +1

    Aside from this song growing on me pretty quickly it's good that you have this passion as your outlet. Not only are you sharing your thoughts with your viewers but also resonating with those of us who could be feeling the same way. If you get to the point where you feel like you're in it alone again we'll be here.

  • @justmochithings8800
    @justmochithings8800 5 років тому +62

    hey. I just wanna say, LOVE YOURSELF.
    I dunno if you wrote this for music's sake, or if its for those who feel the same,..
    But if this is YOUR story, dude, LOVE YOURSELF, for fks sake.

    • @dogggothedog5250
      @dogggothedog5250 4 роки тому +5

      Just Mochi Things
      thank you I needed that

    • @reaganb6013
      @reaganb6013 4 роки тому

      that is so much easier said than done

    • @justmochithings8800
      @justmochithings8800 4 роки тому +2

      @@reaganb6013 if it gets hard, then taking baby steps wont hurt. No need to rush. Then soon you'll realize how awesome you are.

    • @reaganb6013
      @reaganb6013 4 роки тому +1

      @@justmochithings8800 :)

    • @FrigNick
      @FrigNick 4 роки тому

      Just Mochi Things don’t say “for fks sake” like it’s so fucking easy, little bitch only cuz ur so happy doesn’t mean we all are

  • @gavriellarutigliano2356
    @gavriellarutigliano2356 5 років тому

    this shit deadass almost made me cry. i've been dealing with a lot of mental issues poorly for years, and i listen to these types of songs when im in bad periods, but i've never heard a verse quite like that second one, or at least not one that hit me as hard. it's rare for songs with raw emotion like this to have such a message of knowing what's needed for recovery, having goals and aspirations for it, around with some of the most depressing and frustrating aspects of those in these types of mindsets and situations. just, wow.......

  • @mjk4724
    @mjk4724 5 років тому +3

    Seriously, Cameron, get out of my heart and mind. How did you know this about me to put it in such a great song?!

  • @mmmmpaprika
    @mmmmpaprika 4 роки тому +2

    Istg I wish I knew Cam irl, I would hug him and listen to him all the time...he doesn't deserve to be alone ever and I'm glad he has a gf now but seriously I just wanna be his best friend

  • @keke2722
    @keke2722 5 років тому +4

    You need love? We’re here. WE LOVE YOU CAM🥺💜

  • @parulwarrier7453
    @parulwarrier7453 4 роки тому +2

    I can relate to this song on a whole new level...

  • @AMA-bg3bn
    @AMA-bg3bn 5 років тому +63

    i was so early that i didn't see the "audio" and almost had a heart attack

  • @starryhotlines2461
    @starryhotlines2461 5 років тому

    Bro I legit teared up, opening up like this, is one of the way to heal, I hope u find love and someone to care for, just know that there alot of people out there who love u and care for u and it's okay to be sad sometimes and feel weak, u will deal with it and become better

  • @liddlecow2839
    @liddlecow2839 5 років тому +2

    I hope things are getting better for you. Honestly, l've been through things like this. I've felt this way before and I know how hard it is. Of course, I'm not you so I don't exactly know what you're feeling, just know you're not alone. I know how foolish that sounds because we can just be seen as "fans" but a lot of us have grown connected to you. I know I have. I mean, you make me laugh and smile when I really need it. I may just be a fan but you do make a difference and it's because of that difference and because of what a funny and charming and talented man that you are that I care so much. You have so much potential and you're so wholesome. Never lose touch with your inner being and remember that even when the world frowns upon you, there are people that look up to you, admire you, and will smile hoping that you'll smile back ❤

  • @melg.922
    @melg.922 5 років тому +13

    This honestly a mood but please baby don’t🥺😭

  • @Nora-N_7
    @Nora-N_7 4 роки тому +1

    It’s really sad how much people are related to this song

  • @vasudha188
    @vasudha188 5 років тому +126

    YO WHY U POST LIKE A BUNCH IN THREE SECOND

    • @quasonmiles5632
      @quasonmiles5632 5 років тому +6

      Because the album is released, many artists usually do this as it is all the content

  • @Larsbars123
    @Larsbars123 4 роки тому +1

    Cam... this is beautiful... I just want you to know that you are loved... I’ll be your friend... and I’ll ALWAYS be there and not just me... the whole
    k-squad... we love you...💜💜💜

  • @alexc.199
    @alexc.199 4 роки тому +1

    I'm late to this but I love you, Cameron. I'm a new fan and I wanted to say thank you! Your videos are hilarious and your music is inspiring. ❤❤

  • @A_wildflower7
    @A_wildflower7 4 роки тому

    I am so glad you made it through and is doing better than this past self. Love you always

  • @skyisonfire6070
    @skyisonfire6070 5 років тому

    I love the whole album but this song is my favorite. I relate to it so much...

  • @ДарияБражникова
    @ДарияБражникова 5 років тому +2

    Hey, your music is literally amazing! I wasn’t your follower but then suddenly I saw some of your videos and that’s it. Thanks for it, you really did well. Now you have a follower from Russia who will send your music to all of her friends ❤️

  • @marinemmmj
    @marinemmmj 4 роки тому

    Really really love this one, Cam. I can totally relate to the lyrics. Thank you so much 💜

  • @lilmeowmeow6697
    @lilmeowmeow6697 5 років тому +9

    CAMERON I JUST WOKE UP DONT MAKE ME CRY LIKE THAT :(((((

  • @Haffiegotit
    @Haffiegotit 2 роки тому

    Every single song that you wrote, They really understand people.

  • @lovelyrosalie
    @lovelyrosalie 5 років тому

    I’m really in love with your album 😍 I’m not in a good mood right now and your music cheer me up!! Thank you! Sorry for my English I’m French 😊❤️❤️💗😔☀️

  • @joselynereyes5830
    @joselynereyes5830 5 років тому

    This song is, like... i don't even know how to describe it. What i need you to know (talking to Cam) is that everythimg goes through. Please don'r do anything stupid.
    I love you. I really do.

  • @robbie8269
    @robbie8269 4 роки тому +1

    Cammmm! Be happyyyy pleaseeeee! K-Squad loves you so muchhhh! 🥺🥺🥺😘😘😘💜💜

  • @learninonemin
    @learninonemin 4 роки тому

    i cry a river listening to this song

  • @ajx8421
    @ajx8421 5 років тому +6

    Seen the notification and right away I clicked

  • @mayralara8043
    @mayralara8043 5 років тому

    I feel the same way man, I’m here for you if you need someone to be there, even if I can’t even be there for myself, I’d rather help you. 💜✊

  • @knoxulla
    @knoxulla 5 років тому

    This is one of those songs that you listen to and cry to late at night knowing that someone really understands what you're going through.

  • @Bullxtproofbangtan
    @Bullxtproofbangtan 5 років тому

    This hit deep 😭I needed to hear those last words at the end

  • @loulirose6302
    @loulirose6302 5 років тому

    Wawww this is one of My favorites ...i cried it..you're amazing ..i'll dance to it later while practincing...you're 👌👑👽

  • @gyankumarthapa4842
    @gyankumarthapa4842 4 роки тому

    The song is a vibe in itself.

  • @user-ly3nl2zs9m
    @user-ly3nl2zs9m 5 років тому

    Yo the tracks are all so differet and yet they're all GREAT good job cam we love you :)

  • @user-fb4bg9dr7l
    @user-fb4bg9dr7l 5 років тому

    Great job cam, I relate with your message and I hope that one day you'll be ok. Don't die, people need you.

  • @lou8591
    @lou8591 5 років тому

    I bawled my eyes out from start to end and now I can't stop

  • @zahavimartinez579
    @zahavimartinez579 5 років тому

    Thanks this is now My New favorite song Bcuz I feel the SAME FUCKING WAY 🥺😭

  • @Julian-lf6tv
    @Julian-lf6tv 5 років тому +1

    Love it

  • @kittyfairy662
    @kittyfairy662 5 років тому

    omg i relate so much, i used to really think this, but i've worked on myself and i've gotten better now. at times i still hurt, but i've healed a lot compared to back then. To everyone, trust me it gets better, all wounds heal, even mental ones

  • @loulirose6302
    @loulirose6302 4 роки тому

    Love this song so much ...i feel myself in it ..😭😭😭?it hurts godd?💎keep it up ..u're amazing...💎👑

  • @thatgirlmaria5557
    @thatgirlmaria5557 5 років тому

    This song made me cry so much. I love it.

  • @yoonminforlifebishes2430
    @yoonminforlifebishes2430 5 років тому +1

    Fucking cameron 😂 the notification really scared me 😂 gosh am happy it was just a song, nice song by the way 😂

  • @Larsbars123
    @Larsbars123 4 роки тому

    Damn cam... you out here making tear jerkers...

  • @like_an_echo
    @like_an_echo 4 роки тому

    as someone who uses music to numb their mind when nothing ever works out... this song hit hard

  • @Rebourne95
    @Rebourne95 5 років тому

    This is very deep bro I can relate to this great job bro and great song

  • @_kendal2167
    @_kendal2167 5 років тому +4

    we are here for you bby. you are valid and i really felt this song. you make pure magic.

  • @namjoonscrabs4852
    @namjoonscrabs4852 5 років тому

    I’m obsessed with this song😔

  • @alexandrialackey4875
    @alexandrialackey4875 5 років тому +1

    This is my favorite song on the whole album

  • @mimina7385
    @mimina7385 5 років тому

    I am literally crying right now I will pray for you cam I love you

  • @selenazepeda9714
    @selenazepeda9714 5 років тому

    I really needed this, thank you cameron🙏

  • @awzzzi
    @awzzzi 4 роки тому

    Crying currrently😔

  • @itryidie
    @itryidie 4 роки тому +1

    absolute banga

  • @CrazWoolf
    @CrazWoolf 4 роки тому

    I'm late... but this song is like- an everyday mood.

  • @harleyb9470
    @harleyb9470 5 років тому

    Ah. It hurts to know that he or anybody actually feels this way. This song is honestly so good and relatable to everybody at one time or another. But the lyrics "I don't need fame/fans" hurts more. I know it's true. That's how it really is with everyone but still... it hurts to know that even if we watch his videos and talk with him or love him as a person, its not enough. we cant truly be there for him, by his side, comforting him and that is really a shame. I hope that he finds that person who can be there. he deserves it

  • @sha5034
    @sha5034 5 років тому

    I'm loving this

  • @julyannamonero
    @julyannamonero 5 років тому

    Thank you for this song. 🖤

  • @BangtanHearts
    @BangtanHearts 5 років тому

    3am and i am crying at this. Wow that some powerful stuff 😭❤️

  • @ella915
    @ella915 5 років тому

    I felt this also i LOVE ur albun

  • @sarahernandez6561
    @sarahernandez6561 5 років тому

    THIS IS SO GOOD BUT IS ALSO SCARIN ME BC WHAT IF THIS IS ACTUALLY HOW HE FEELS OMG CAM UR LOOOOOOOVED I LOVE U SOOOO MUCHHH😭😭😭😭💖💖💖💖💖

  • @sangwoostolemyankles5742
    @sangwoostolemyankles5742 5 років тому +2

    Mood.

  • @randomwildlife1414
    @randomwildlife1414 5 років тому +3

    No please no

  • @justmochithings8800
    @justmochithings8800 5 років тому +10

    hey i- oh. dont scare us like that. dude.

  • @pwyotn
    @pwyotn 5 років тому +1

    CAMMMMMMM THIS IS SO GOOOOD

  • @stickypicky1238
    @stickypicky1238 5 років тому

    This music is fire

  • @ckijiae
    @ckijiae 5 років тому +1

    We love you cam💗

  • @hanabadawy9351
    @hanabadawy9351 5 років тому

    we’re so proud and we’re here for you all the time!!

  • @morgan-bm2mi
    @morgan-bm2mi 5 років тому

    Wow... these lyrics. Cameron we’re here for you. Please please don’t do anything like this. We love you

  • @priceymashups7692
    @priceymashups7692 5 років тому

    I hope you’re doing better Cam, you are loved and special 💗

  • @shannon9259
    @shannon9259 5 років тому +3

    aisjksk what a mood

  • @anayah8263
    @anayah8263 4 роки тому

    A whole bop

  • @ojktm5
    @ojktm5 4 роки тому

    I like this song.

  • @anushka7474
    @anushka7474 5 років тому

    This is the song that speaks to me

  • @imannassir3002
    @imannassir3002 5 років тому +1

    we stan 🤩🤩🤩

  • @sps8684
    @sps8684 3 роки тому

    found this song while thinking about kms, and googling i think i might kms. i dont know how i feel. but i feel like this is fire.

  • @duskiere
    @duskiere 5 років тому +1

    guys ignore the upload schedule for a second and think about the message

  • @kino9369
    @kino9369 5 років тому

    Cameron i hope for u the best stay strong we here for u❤️❤️❤️

  • @KpopSpriteAndLimes
    @KpopSpriteAndLimes 5 років тому

    Bro I’m crying rn

  • @asmaadil1842
    @asmaadil1842 5 років тому +1

    The fact that i feel just the same but I don't care i just wanna make you feel better 🤷🏻‍♀️
    Please stay okay ♥️