Thank you Slayer. Went to the grocery store to get some snacks, found myself in the liquor isles. Pulled this video up and listened to it and it got me home
Every time I relapse it takes me way too long to get sober again. Usually something bad has to happen to make me try again staying sober, like do it. Abstinence is the best thing to do bc it’s never worth it. I still can taste alcohol when I imagine drinking it, but I really want to have a manageable, productive life. We all deserve that, it’s the way God intended it for us.
I’m very similar to you Salina!! As you said for people like us abstinence is absolutely the best option. Also we do deserve to have normal lives and I 100% believe we will get all of that and more if we stay away from that bottle. It always seems like when I relapse I take 3 steps backwards in life, it never allows you to move forward. Anyways thanks for the comment and much love 🙏
you are so right! Inner peace is what it's all about. Whenever I wake up and realize I didn't drink yesterday, it is SO worth it, because the anxiety is so much less, or not there at all. Congrats on resisting that temptation.
I understand your propensity toward anxiety. I have always been like that too, and drank for the same reason! I still do struggle with it, but I take medication that helps a lot. So glad you made the right decision on the beer. Keep fighting. You don't want to be in LD's shoes or my dearly departed son Ron's who is in an urn right now. Love ya Slayer.
I am so proud of you for reaching out to two people that day. Even though you bought the alcohol, your actions testify for your desire to move forward with your life. My friend, anxiety is the ugliest experience. I really feel you here. My anxiety can be crippling at times. I don't really get panic attacks anymore, but I often have entire days where I'm just crawling through the day with my heart in my throat and my thoughts in the gutter. Hands shaking, absolute sad, hopeless, manic energy choking me all day. I really understand. Those days, I just go home, cook something, and try to distract myself. Other days, I reach out like you did. Because even though no one can convince you that everything will be okay, talking about it and expelling that energy sometimes helps. And sometimes, just hearing reassurance even when you can only reject it is somehow comforting. Probably just because you feel that they believe it, and you can feel that they care. It took a mountain of strength to have those beers in your possession and then dump them. Your resilience is showing, my friend! And I know that you've got this. Keep up the great work and keep reaching out. Much love, my friend ❤😊❤😊
Hey Slay!! Proud of ya for going to your dads and pouring out the beers! 💪🏽 🙌🏽 I hope this week is better and the anxiety subsides. I know it’s TOUGH. Stay strong, you/ we got this! Much love🖤🖤🖤
I drank for 34yrs. SOBRIETY IS A BEAR THE 1ST YEAR! The 1st 6 months is physical/emotional. The 2nd 6 months is mental/spiritual. Unfortunately, the more it SUCKS The better it WORKS.
I am sorry to hear you suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I know exactly how they feel. I would not wish them on my worst enemy. I had them for years between my early 20s and mid 30s. .. Laying on the floor, heart pounding, dizzy, feelings of unreality, convinced I was going to die. I have driven myself to the ER convinced I was having a heart attack. Once they come on they are horrendous. You have my sympathies bro. I don't get them anymore. I think they were down to stress and lifestyle. I know they feel real and are exhausting but it helps to remember a couple of things. 1) they burn themselves out. Your body simply cannot maintain that state for more than about 15 minutes. It was designed to get you out of trouble. 2) they are essentially fear of fear and the more attention you give them the worse they will be. It got to the stage with me that worrying about when I might have an attack would eventually bring on an attack! It is like a circular argument / process. You have to remember it is a defense mechanism. It is designed to deal with short term, physical situations like if you had to run from a lion or something. The problem is your mind cannot differentiate between physical threats and the 'threats' that are stressing you out, bubbling away in your subconscious. Your body can't see the difference. It does is all it knows how: It dumps a fuck ton of adrenaline into your system. Then your heart rate goes up, you start feeling weird, you worry there is something wrong.....maybe a heart problem, maybe you are having a stroke.... Your mind starts racing with possibilities.... So your body dumps a load more adrenaline into your system to cope with the 'threat'.... Round and round we go until it burns itself out. Once you understand the mechanism, it helps you to deal with it. Knowing it will pass and it is just a reaction to stress. Sometimes try and visualize standing next to yourself and observing the situation if it helps you to get a handle on them. Good luck bro.. B complex vitamins also help relieve stress / nerve situations and drinkers are often heavily deficient in them. They help sleep too and that in turn helps a ton.
Proud of you for pouring that crap out, man! Respect! It takes a lot to be able to do that. Giving up booze really feels like losing a best friend, but the reality is that alcohol is not our friend. Alcohol is nobody's friend, and it's not the answer when dealing with anxiety! Things will get better with time as long as we do the work!
I quit drinking 2 years ago. When I quit I had terrible shakes and insane anxiety for a few weeks. It was absolute hell. But each day got ever so slightly easier. The first year was a struggle but reduced each day over the course of the year. I felt like it would never fully subside though. But finally after about the 1 year mark I no longer missed it or feel like I’m missing out when people drink around me. When that day comes it is extremely liberating. I was at a birthday party with an open bar just a few hours ago and it meant nothing to me. I still enjoyed myself without feeling like I’m missing something. Stay strong friend you can do it. It gets better. Today won’t be tomorrow.
So glad you posted this today honestly. I agreed to go along to an event today and it was a huge mistake, drinks everywhere, people drinking everywhere, i came home and planned all the ways i was going to get a drink when i got home. I got home, smoked like 4 cigarettes and went the hell to bed. When you were saying it took everything in you to pour those away ... i do understand how much it took, everything. Im proud of you. 🖤
Thanks for sharing and being so honest with yourself and the UA-cam world, bro I've never liked meds either but I'll tell you since I've been in this rehab I've been on some antianxiety meds and they have really helped me personally especially with cravings and helping my thought process, it slows me down so I don't get so worked up when life hits me so hard you want to relapse. I don't plan on being on meds for the rest of my life but it is helping me personally at this time in my life. This is your journey and I pray the best for you and to keep that strength you have knowing you do have the tools and support to conquer anything! Much lovey friend thank you for sharing. Be easy homie ❤️🩹💯
What’s uppp Luke!!! Hope you and your family are doing well my brother. I said it before and I’ll say it again I’m so proud of you man. The fact that you stood up and said enough is enough makes me smile. You are one of the most solid dudes I’ve met on UA-cam and like a lot of us you deal with this demon of alcohol. Keep your head up and keep pushing forward like the soldier I know you are! As always man your uplifting words/advice mean more than you know. This community is truly beautiful. Keep me updated brother and I’ll do the same 🙏
@@Slayer-7373thanks big dawg thank you for creating this community you are an inspiration to myself but so many others again can't say enough about how much I appreciate you and your honesty that's what gravitates me towards you. Keep going and like you say it's one day at a time much love for my brother Slayer!
You got this man, it’s normal to have those relapse thoughts. So don’t be hard on yourself, I completely understand the weed thing. I’ve been smoking since I was 13, I’m about to be 31. Unfortunately I have over a month clean from weed because it triggers me to want to drink beer with it because it’s a chill combo. Today marks my 7th day clean from alcohol. Gotta keep your head up
Good morning Slay! I'm so happy you posted. I'm struggling too but remember, you're for us to let us know we're not alone but I also don't want you to feel obligated or feel responsability when we struggle, is all part of this long process. I've been thinking about you and your dog. Keep the good mempries Slay and find joy in that. Also, for panick attack (they are horrendous) COLD showers or just dump for up your head (still attached to your body lol) into a bowl of cold water. I used to do that as a part pf therapy from sheer fear I had afterwards almost losing my limbs in a car accident from a drunk driver and the irony hits me hard cause I started drink 15 years after the trauma. I'm not sure how this whole trauma works cause if I'm still alive from that accident anf also from the drinking and the seizure I had, terrifies me to my core. If you can muster the strength and energy to take a cold COLD as ice water, it helps with panick attacks, your blood presure goes down and if you can listen to your heart it calms down and the heartbeat is slower but to a point where your anxiety drips away. It has worked for me and I force myself to do that and not end up in the ER where they treat you like crap (in my experience) is embarrassing and ssd to be honest. The cold showers work in a way where you can get your brain to focus on something else rather than the onset panick you're having. You know when you get full blown panick attack paralyzes you to the point your nerves mame you puke your guts out. Oh man, I feel for us, anything I can do to to help anyone, please reach out to me. It sucks feeling alone in this, and the shame and guilt. We need to nurture oursevles with good support such as yourself Slay. I'm proud of you and I say that with every ounce of honesty. Keep strong and steadfast.
New here. Love your honesty. I’ve poured drinks recently and thank God had the strength to dump them. I’m only 3 weeks sober. 😢. I want beer so bad every minute of every day while awake. I have moderate cirrhosis, but don’t want to die. I have kids. So embarrassing.
@@deirdrekokora8680 don’t go back and drink it brother trust me, it’s not worth it. I had a relapse a few days ago and it’s landed me in a detox bed. 3 weeks is absolutely incredible, enjoy feeling someone normal without it because once you’re laying here it’s like mannnnnn WHAT WAS I THINKING. Keep your head up, prayers to you
Dang brother i know those panic attacks and they really suck i been there as well . But glad you got threw it and keep up the good fight bro . I'll keep you in my prayers brother stay safe stay sober U got this. 💪
That's amazing you poured them out. There is no way I could do that. very impressed with you!! Keep up the good work. Drinking just prolongs the torture. Been there many years. I have bad anxiety and panic attacks too. I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm 20 days sober. Last time I was in AA 2 years ago I was so nervous I couldn't hold a conversation or speak without my voice shaking. I'm back in AA again and I'm there fighting for my life. People there are so nice. So are you. I got one friend from the program and she's amazing. I had a massive panic attack this morning out of nowhere and I had felt fine for days prior I'm so happy you didn't relapse. I promise it'll get better. I understand.
I’m struggling yet again, embarrassing Enough to say. Your comments have put a smile on my face tho, congratulations on 20 days!!!!!!!!! If no one else has said it, I’m proud of you. I’ll catch up with ya as soon as I can ;)!!!
Très bien, bravo Slayer !! You did well 🤍! About the panic attaks you are still mourning your dog it’s hard, may be a bit of running or working out could help !! Thanks for your video xxx
Your doing good bro I suffer chronically from generalize anxiety disorder it can get to you and make you think about relapses but keep saying no you can't do that it is unfortunate about them benzoes I know the hell they put you through just stay clean and when you feel a panic attack coming on that is when you come on here and talk to us, you got this!
@@Slayer-7373 thanks bro I was doing good tapering iff of clonazepam then I lost my grandma I felt the most emptiness sad and lonely I made the mistake of not caring and went up the dosage I started abusing it, alcohol, Adderall, smoking weed staying broke because of my addiction, I woke up finally and I said what in the hell am I doing it took me 3 years to wake up I abruptly stopped the Adderall my brain felt like it was frying so I stopped that, I went through the crash and depression from that, soon after I stopped smoking, that wasn't to bad, I rarely drink now I know I can stop drinking now with no issues but the clonazepam is a beast I don't even know where I'm going to begin my taper again because I've kindled by going back up so I'm basically off if 3 drugs it's just this clonazepam it has a long half life which means longer withdraw but I see it as I'm trying, I see it as your trying and your going to be OK but I do advise you not to let a Dr put you on a benzo it's a alcohol pill that's basically it us hang in there bro
Dude anxiety and panic attacks are the worst. I remember when I was 18 and had my first beer my anxiety washed away and I though oh this is what normal people feel like. 4 years later stuck in this mess of alcoholism/panic attacks, xanax addiction all this shit man its hell on earth.
I am your comment lol, I can relate to it so much. We drink to take our anxiety away not knowing that it all comes back 7fold. Keep your head up brother, much love
I've had panic attacks from alcohol withdrawals and it's truly incredible how much of a relief drinking again truly is. But then you think to yourself, *"Is THIS how much of a grasp this liquid sh-t has on me?"* It's a sad and sobering thought.
Bruwwww!! I can see The Creator in you and The Light of God on your face. You are a good man and have good intentions and motives. It's okay to struggle and it's all part of The Journey of being a man. You are a good man. Stop being so hard on yourself!! You're right where your supposed to be and Life is experiencing itself thru you. God is your experience. You are in God!! The Man who love's struggle's is free!!
Meant to comment on your last video. I consider my pets as family as well. They are so supportive in numerous ways that humans are not. Thank you for sharing all that raw and honest emotion, my heart goes out to you. Yes, sometimes when reaching for the alcohol, I feel like I'm on "auto pilot". Stay strong, dear. You are very loved.
Hey man, sorry to hear about your dog. I know who've probaably heard this before but your a young man and its hard to think "I cant drink or do drugs ever again" cause it not like your a 60 year old man and been through it. Theres alot of time ahead and to learn how to navigate this crazy trip we call life without any substances is daunting. But with meditation and good practices we can work on sobriety with weapons in our arsenal. Peace brothers and sisters, stay strong
Thanks for another video! The anxiety and worst of all, panic attacks were some the scariest events when I went through hard core withdrawal. You really do feel like you are going to pass out and/or die. But once you get a few drinks in you it goes away and you feel "normal" again. Being over 3 months sober now, it does get easier, but the first few weeks are pretty hellish.
Hey James, thanks brother. It really helps knowing I’m not alone in these feelings. Also it brought a smile to my face when I read 3 months sober, that is amazing brother. Don’t look back, don’t give it a second thought, keep pushing forward because life will only get better. I’m on the road to that myself, one day at a time. 🙏 Much love
I would love to see you in a men's group with a therapist who has Tons of experience with anxiety and panic. I had both with horrible social anxiety through my 30s and yes got tremendous relief from alcohol. Could barely sit in a restaurant with friends -- could barely sit in a theatre and enjoy a movie. Boy was I sick with that ---- put a strain on my marriage big time. I went on meds for depression twice in my life --- each time on about a year .. One time, Desyril, and then Prozac. I have to say the meds straightened out my head chemistry I think. God what a horrible thing. All that shit went away eventually -- Anyone who suffers panic has my full empathy
Have u ever thought of getting a service dog to help with your anxiety and panic attacks? They truly can make a difference. I just found your channel. I admire your honesty. I will continue to follow you. Take care. Deb
We all love ya Slayer! Alcoholism is an ugly, nasty disease and we all need to stick together. Anxiety is the worst and the longer I’m in AA, the more I’m realizing most of us have anxiety disorders.
Prayers and love Slayer! I've had panic attacks starting at age 21. I did watch a video that helped me a lot especially when driving. Basically there are signs before you go into a full blown panic attack. I realized when i was driving first my leg muscles would get tight, then my stomach muscles. Now if i notice this i try to relax those muscles. Love your videos!
Stay focused and strong buddy... your getting there..in time you will look back and be so glad that you persevered and conquered it. Slow and steady wins the race brother. 👍🙏 🤞🤞
Good job. I was listening to a podcast with a brain surgeon talking about MS, dementia and alzymers, obviously a brilliant person. He said something that stuck with me. He said, "suffering is part of the human condition". I wish the interviewer would have done a follow-up question regarding that remark, but he didn't. I found it interesting non the less.
Whenever you feel close to relapse-just remember how you felt after previous relapses.. that will give you the determination to persevere. Think about how much you'd lose and set yourself back whenever you feel close to relapse. Constantly think about these things when you feel yourself weakening. 👍🙏 🤞🤞
Hey Slayer - I’m sorry you’re feeling overwhelmed and anxious. You mentioned that you’ve battled this even as a young teen, were you ever able to figure out the cause of the anxiety? I know our thoughts can take over for sure and it’s tough to push past the doom and gloom some days. Alcohol as you know doesn’t make it better when we’ve gotten to the point where it no longer makes our anxiety better but instead much worse. Anyways, I’m so proud of you for dumping the poison out. You will start feeling better just give it time and take it one moment, day at a time. You’re worth it! 😊much love always my friend, hang in there. You have so many rooting for you.
Hey brother first of all I thank you for the videos you make.. For it gives me courage everytime I watch ur videos... Iam male 31 from nagaland India I have been alcoholic since 2012 but last year 2023 I started binge drinking for a week without food and only alcohol.. I started to get hallucinations tremors and mentally unstable.. My parents had rush me to a mental hospital as I was getting mad from the alcohol.. but due to poor facility out here in my state, the doctor wasnt available . So they told me to come on Monday so on our way back home I started to vomit, nauses,tremors, watery stools, weakness, and was about to fall down and die out there but my parents however rush me to a bigger hospital in er... That's when I notice what alcohol withdrawal really feels like.. My feets went cold and the seizures were deadly I kept asking the nurse for a peg of alcohol (how stupid),, I even had alcohol withdrawal epilepsy and bite my toung broke my skull following fall.. Alcohol delirium tremors are sure deadly... I was on librium..Your so lucky you we're born in a good facility state and country..Soberty now
I’m so sorry you went through that brother, but I’m glad you found this channel. You aren’t alone here, this community doesn’t judge. We are here to help one another
You chose life! I’m proud of you, my friend, you could have easily drunk those beers, especially with panic in your brain. It sounds like your body is warning you though, having a panic attack after only one night of drinking is a warning. It used to happen to me after benders, never after a session. You cannot go back to drinking again, next time might be the last time you have before death, your body is warning you. Well done!
@@archangel_josh hey thanks brother 👋, you know as well as I do how hard that was, ultimately though it was definitely the best decision. Also yea it’s been insane, I hope it’s not a sign of something terrible. Every day even this morning when I woke up I’ve been in a full blown panic state. I’ve gotta stay away from that bottle man, it just destroys and ruins everything. Gonna keep taking it one day at a time, much love my friend! Take care 🙏
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out EveryWhere!!❤ I’ve been through the same things and hell no! It’s Not Worth It!!! Alcohol Sucks!!! Find Joy In Living bc that garbage kills! Stay Strong Slayer!!!🔥🫡
Hey Cindy as always thank you so much. 🙏🖤 you understand this demon, you’ve been through it. Also I’m not sure if you saw but I saw you were watching big lance haha, that’s cool. I’ve been following jay for quite some time. He’s been a big motivator. 🙏
Watched a couple of your videos and liked them. What's your job? Doesn't alcohol seriously interfere with it? For me, getting a hard manual labor job, THAT actually was the solution for my drinking problem. I simply had to stop - there's no choice. Drink alcohol -> terrible hangover -> can't work, lose job -> no money, homeless, illness, death (also, in my country you don't get social security for sitting on your couch drinking alcohol / you either work, or you end up in the streets without anything)
Hey thanks brother, I actually work for family. It’s probably the only reason I haven’t been fired. I’m very flexible, I can take time off because when I do work I work like a hound. Sometimes I think it’s the better route to lose everything for some people, it seems to wake them up to I can’t do this…… Thanks for watching brother
Looking sharp man! I don’t want to get you hooked on anything else but if you are feeling bad anxiety you could try this little drinks called Feel Free. It has Kava and other stuff but it would probably help. If you do try it you might want a chaser cause they aren’t very good lol. I hope you get better soon and can find a resolution. Maybe go on a hike or something too. Idk if you have mountains. Nature can help. Things will get better. 🙏
Hey datone, sorry brother that I never got back till now. As you might know I’ve been struggling pretty hard. I’m sorry to inform you on that man, I’m in a detox bed as we speak. The devil won this fight but he ain’t gonna win the war. Much love 🙏
Anxiety / panic attacks could be due to PAWS; Try getting into some exercise brother Slayer to counter the anxiety and stay strong as are all behind you. The struggle is real and your honesty is humbling. ALWAYS IN YOUR CORNER!!!
Alcohol is not our problem. It is a symptom of our real underlying problem or "hole". We use alcohol as medicine to cover up said hole. Life is beautiful!! Find an interest or purpose that makes you happy. Use that to "fill the hole" and leave alcohol in the rear view mirror.
No hate, and I def understand your point, but many of us drink to have fun. It isn't to fill any "hole," it is just cuz we love to party hard. I'm not justifying it I'm just sayin. 2 days sober. IWNDWYT.
@@frank-the-tank75 I think Vinnie is right, but it follows from what he is saying that there is no need to give up completely. I very much doubt he'll agree with the rest of my point, but here it is. Firstly, addiction does not exist as a meaningful disease or syndrome. It is just an excuse to blame someone else for poor behaviour, i.e. "my parents and grandparents were alcoholics" or "I was born an alcoholic" or "it's a terrible disease", and therefore it's not my fault! The idea of addiction as a meaningful condition is junk science. The reason everyone here is constantly talking about never drinking again and then their subsequent relapses is a combination of not addressing their underlying issues and the fact that never drinking again is neither realistic nor necessary. Alcohol isn't as such good for you physically, but it's largely harmless when drank in moderation. I'm not a shrink and I'm not here to psychoanalyse anyone, but there is something the matter if going on absolute benders is something that almost always happens when a drop of alcohol touches your tongue. I used to be exactly the same, and drank at least a bottle of wine first thing in the morning before going to my office job - often two. Enough alcohol at lunch to floor a normal person on an innocent and fun night out. Hospital visits. Horrendous withdrawals with vivid auditory and visual hallucinations. Night sweats, violent shaking, enormous panic, and I believe a few mini-seizures in my sleep. You get the idea. I was able to tackle the problem (without rehab clinics, AA etc.) and funnily enough I didn't ultimately arrive at any genuinely deep-seated problems. I did have to properly move on from a past relationship, granted, but it was mainly about losing weight, breaking the harmful cycle of anxiety-drink-anxiety-drink..., and facing up to the fact that what I was doing was ruining my life, which I was not particularly in denial about. I could feel my liver hurting every day, no doubt I'd had acute pancreatitis before too. I looked a mess, my finances were a mess, and indeed my life was a mess in general. Some of you may have deeper issues to take care of, but there's no need to suppose you have to go the rest of your life without a couple of beers on a Friday and Saturday. Now, I have a couple of kids, more than enough money, a happy marriage etc. Basically everything you could ever reasonably want, and more. I like drinking beer on the weekend but nothing more than the average 30-something year old parent. In a former life, I categorically couldn't get to work without a skinful, never mind through lunch time. Now I feel no temptation at all, and look forward to a well-deserved drink at the end of the week. I am no different to anyone else here, and I am not here to annoy anyone. I'm just offering my story up, and think you can take from it the lessons that I learnt: addiction is not a meaningful, genuine medical condition; you CAN simply taper down and go back to normal amounts; and adding meaning to your life will take away these absurd temptations to drink yourself into oblivion. These realities are FAR better than the alternative: these delusions that you're suffering from a disease, and that the only way "out" is to spend each day you have left strategically dodging alcohol, and constantly living on the edge, wondering if one day you'll relapse. The appeal of the latter is that you're able to say that you're largely blameless, because you either caught a disease without meaning to, or you inherited it from your ancestors. It's not true. Luckily, accepting this truth puts YOU back in control, and relegates alcohol to its rightful place - simply a drink you occasionally partake in, rather than the ruler of your life.
This is a fantastic point. I once read layne staylee truly died of depression and his addiction. His addiction was just part of the depression. If you can’t ever truly find some happiness, I’d imagine that’s a road any of us could go down. Very sad
@@hoxtondave9619 Thank you! I read it all and this is a fantastic position. How many beers do you throw down on the weekends/what do you mean by average 30 year old drinker? I'm 6 days today. Tomorrow is the hardest day of the week for me. I haven't gone a Friday without drinking (except a little camping stint a few weeks ago) in over 3 years. I'd love a good tip!
@@frank-the-tank75 Thanks for reading mate. I might have in the region of 5 to 10 pints over Friday and Saturday, and I could imagine that being fairly normal. I'm not actually in the business of being provocative but people here are literally worshipping alcohol. Their attitude is that it has ruled them and that it is something they cannot have for the rest of their lives, whilst at the same time publicising the fact that they desperately want it. Then they wonder why alcohol remains their god, and something that they think about all day.
Man can I get your email or something? You gave me your Insta info awhile back but I don't have Instagram... I understand completely with what you're saying. I had the worst panic attacks still occasionally suffer from them. Most terrifying experience is going through "HANGZIETY" No one will ever understand how bad it is unless they went through it words don't do it justice. I remember being in college or at work or in a store terrified thinking to myself this is it I'm about to die in front of all these people.... Terrible feeling. What's worse is going through that at home by yourself with no one to talk to because everyone is asleep and everyone thinks you're "sober again" and you don't want to seem like an overdramatic crazy person who can't keep their word. So you just stay silent and either drink again or just nervously pace around the house in terror praying because you know you've killed yourself. I get it dude. You're going to make it and I'm so happy I'm not the only one that's been through this you're inspiring for making this channel. Thank you so much I used to think there was something seriously wrong with me and I was crazy I would Google and UA-cam this crap all the time and could never find anything. LD and you have really brought this to light and I know within this community reading other comments I'm not crazy and I'm not alone. Thank you for being brave and putting yourself out there. God bless and take care
@shotinthedark, I went through the same things and I finally realized that alcohol actually causes Extreme Anxiety!!! It uses anxiety to try to keep people using it!! Every time I’d try to quit I’d have the Worst Anxiety Ever!!! It’s crippling. Take good care of you!!
Hey brother god bless you man, you are not alone. Also absolutely my email is slayersober7@gmail.com, send me a email man and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can. I know this pain you speak of, much love
I use to have bad anxiety attacks or just random often anxiety pingin. Its been a few months of working out and dieting my anxiety has been almost 0. N it only occured to me when id realize i was calm an cool during a time when id usually get antsy ect. The shit works man ,so fucking worth it.
Just to politely correct one thing here - Diazepam (instead of Ativan) is the drug they generally give you to avoid seizures during alcohol withdrawal. Ativan gave me horrible rebound anxiety - diazepam was a lifesaver during my withdrawals and was relatively easy to stop (compared to the hell that was Ativan for me!) ❤ Also curious if you've looked into Vivitrol? Essentially like suboxone but for alcohol. Stops the bodies ability to get the "buzz" from alcohol and ultimately gives you some time and space to work on your addiction.
Related to the other comment I made on the hospital video, have you talked to a therapist about getting to the root causes of your anxiety/panic attacks? As you've mentioned, alcohol has been used to get those things out of your head instead of working on them.
@@enchantedrockview it is nice to hear :), you seem like an awesome person. If you ever need anything shoot me an email @slayersober7@gmail.com, or send me a message on instagram. Slayer_youtube_73, much love!! 🙏
Sometimes switching routes to get home works, I’ve heard others say that. You can do it brother, don’t end up like me laying in a detox bed because I thought I could control it for the 1000th time. 🙏🙏 I’ll send a prayer real quick to you man.
@@Slayer-7373 oh no I’m 29 I’ve been to the hospital a few time I swore I won’t go to the hospital again it’s either I get clean or death but I’ll never check myself in a hospital again feels like jail and they took my brother away for a whole year so I guess Ik the system but I’m willing to try outpatient
I've had a few bad days! Days that I would normally run to the nearest liquor store get that bottle go home and drink. Next maybe 30 days would be the same everyday. This time I have a very important app. which Im thinking I'll miss it, But then I though of how hard it is to get off drinking, how much money and buying it but the cig, I smoke when drinking I can do a carton in 4 days when drinking. I though of how many days it took to get back to normal that's after the shakes are gone Glad to say I won this time.. I dont start drinking unless I get mad really bad. Just to sit and watch tv or music or a drink with a friend no I never start that way. You'll always will have something to bring it to thought but you also have the though not to drink.
If you do drink my dooooo not drink hard alcohol 🥃 my boy have just a few beers 🍻 but the problem is we can never 👎 just have 2 every time I try I fail drink intill I go to sleep 🛌
You’re right man, I’ve tried in the past to only stick to beer but it never last long. Before too long I’m buckin an entire jack Daniel’s bottle. I appreciate your comments bro, thank you 💯🙏
Sure thing, man. I was up to my neck in the shit just about the same spot. My panic attacks messed a bunch of stuff up and that was when I was 14 - quite a long time ago. As far as the relapse goes, forget it. I feel almost 100% now since I bounced back from my relapse. You will keep feeling better. I know it was only one night. Might be kindling. I am putting out a video on "Hangxiety" later this morning. I am not completely sure it's hangxiety, though. It might just be generalized anxiety disorder with heavy periods of it being acute. I am not sure. I know a bit about psychiatric diseases, but can't really do much other than say to maybe see your doctor again if you have been put on another medication. Sometimes the side effects can be the very thing the shit was designed to prevent. I hate psych meds and try not to take the stuff. I am glad you didn't drink. One day at a time, man. We understand if nobody else does. I am glad you didn't take a drink.
@@ShadesOClarity I think zoom would be the best, I can screen record it or you can and we could make like 2-3 parts. Talk about booze, addiction, UA-cam, sober community and much more. I want to get a few videos out like I said before but i want to make it happen. You’re a super cool dude, we relate on a lot and I think people would really enjoy. Lets just stay in touch and we will make it happen, take care my friend.
You can be proud that you poured out the beers, you made it. You were able to stop the start of a relapse and this means a lot. Unfortunately, the demons of alcoholism will come again and again, still, it is possible to deal with them. Every time you can do it, you get another step forward. You can do this. Stay sober and healthy out there, Slayer!
Thank you jack, this means more than you know brother. Also absolutely that demon ain’t ever gonna stop coming, this is gonna be a life long battle for me I can tell. One day at a time man, one day at a time. Much love 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks! As i am much older than you, i struggled even with heroin, was addicted for around 20 years. Got clean. When i can do this even with heroin, you can do it with alcohol. It requires a lot of self control and discipline. Like now in your video, there are times where you are so close to relapse, but you can still prevent it, that's the best. That's a serious success.
Oh man withdrawals definitely cause panic attacks. Back in the day I was working as a food delivery boy - of course I was hangover and I started getting really panicky while driving. Im always afraid of either a heart attack, or a stroke. This time I was deathly afraid of a stroke and because it will give you facial muscle paralisys I needed to double check so I pulled up to one of the restaurants I was working with. I have barged in through the staff door to the kitchen with probably the weirdest, widest and most forced grin ever and asked everybody IS MY SMILE NORMAL!?!? One of the chicks said "yeah I guess" so I just stormed out without a word. I still cringe to this day. But I have got a tip too: on one of the music festivals where I overdid a bunch of stuff I was also suffering from a panic attack. A random hippie noticed it and told me he knows a trick - he showed me to close my left nostril with a finger, breathe 5 times, then close my right nostril with a finger and breathe five times. Then you repeat it 4 more times (left, right, left right) for 5 times in total and then just take 5 normal breaths. Supposedly it calms down a certain neural pathway in your body or something like that. Whatever it is it has saved my ass on many ocassions, its not foolproof but worked for me pretty often. Thanks random hippie!
Heavy drinking burns up all your B vitamins. Are you taking any supplements? Sounds like you may be deficient from the last binge. B vitamins stabilize mood.
Sounds like you are experiencing cognitive dissonance or something like that over the lapse. Time will heal as you get farther away from the lapse. Pouring out the beer will probably push your anxieties into a better direction
100% zack, I’ve been reading up on cognitive dissonance and I feel like I’m definitely experiencing that. It’s not fun at all, reality doesn’t feel quite the same but I know over time it will go away. I’ve experienced this in the past and the only way for it to stop is by stopping the booze. Much love man, one day at a time 🙏
Thank you Slayer. Went to the grocery store to get some snacks, found myself in the liquor isles. Pulled this video up and listened to it and it got me home
@@CornBeefinthePassengerSeat that is truly beautiful man. This is why I do this, I’m proud of you. 🙏
Every time I relapse it takes me way too long to get sober again. Usually something bad has to happen to make me try again staying sober, like do it. Abstinence is the best thing to do bc it’s never worth it. I still can taste alcohol when I imagine drinking it, but I really want to have a manageable, productive life. We all deserve that, it’s the way God intended it for us.
I’m very similar to you Salina!! As you said for people like us abstinence is absolutely the best option. Also we do deserve to have normal lives and I 100% believe we will get all of that and more if we stay away from that bottle. It always seems like when I relapse I take 3 steps backwards in life, it never allows you to move forward. Anyways thanks for the comment and much love 🙏
you are so right! Inner peace is what it's all about. Whenever I wake up and realize I didn't drink yesterday, it is SO worth it, because the anxiety is so much less, or not there at all. Congrats on resisting that temptation.
I understand your propensity toward anxiety. I have always been like that too, and drank for the same reason! I still do struggle with it, but I take medication that helps a lot. So glad you made the right decision on the beer. Keep fighting. You don't want to be in LD's shoes or my dearly departed son Ron's who is in an urn right now. Love ya Slayer.
Man I know the feeling of anxiety. Alcohol is liquid anxiety. Keep staying strong.
@@Knightcommander69 liquid anxiety, perfect way of putting it. I’m hanging in there brother, prayers to you 🙏
Tonight I just thought to myself that alcohol is a panic attack in a bottle. Definitely good to way to hack the brain.
I am so proud of you for reaching out to two people that day. Even though you bought the alcohol, your actions testify for your desire to move forward with your life. My friend, anxiety is the ugliest experience. I really feel you here. My anxiety can be crippling at times. I don't really get panic attacks anymore, but I often have entire days where I'm just crawling through the day with my heart in my throat and my thoughts in the gutter. Hands shaking, absolute sad, hopeless, manic energy choking me all day. I really understand. Those days, I just go home, cook something, and try to distract myself. Other days, I reach out like you did. Because even though no one can convince you that everything will be okay, talking about it and expelling that energy sometimes helps. And sometimes, just hearing reassurance even when you can only reject it is somehow comforting. Probably just because you feel that they believe it, and you can feel that they care. It took a mountain of strength to have those beers in your possession and then dump them. Your resilience is showing, my friend! And I know that you've got this. Keep up the great work and keep reaching out. Much love, my friend ❤😊❤😊
You are so honest slayer!! Very proud of you! ❤️ 🎉
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Hey Slay!! Proud of ya for going to your dads and pouring out the beers! 💪🏽 🙌🏽 I hope this week is better and the anxiety subsides. I know it’s TOUGH. Stay strong, you/ we got this! Much love🖤🖤🖤
Keep going with this process...your helping me and a lot more than you really know.
🥲these are the type of comments that keep me going. Thanks my friend.
I drank for 34yrs. SOBRIETY IS A BEAR THE 1ST YEAR! The 1st 6 months is physical/emotional. The 2nd 6 months is mental/spiritual. Unfortunately, the more it SUCKS The better it WORKS.
Thank you so much for your wise encouraging words! ❤
🖤🖤thank you Jennifer
Anxiety is no joke man.
That is definitely the truth popcorn!! 🙏
I am sorry to hear you suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. I know exactly how they feel. I would not wish them on my worst enemy. I had them for years between my early 20s and mid 30s. .. Laying on the floor, heart pounding, dizzy, feelings of unreality, convinced I was going to die. I have driven myself to the ER convinced I was having a heart attack. Once they come on they are horrendous. You have my sympathies bro. I don't get them anymore. I think they were down to stress and lifestyle. I know they feel real and are exhausting but it helps to remember a couple of things. 1) they burn themselves out. Your body simply cannot maintain that state for more than about 15 minutes. It was designed to get you out of trouble. 2) they are essentially fear of fear and the more attention you give them the worse they will be. It got to the stage with me that worrying about when I might have an attack would eventually bring on an attack! It is like a circular argument / process. You have to remember it is a defense mechanism. It is designed to deal with short term, physical situations like if you had to run from a lion or something. The problem is your mind cannot differentiate between physical threats and the 'threats' that are stressing you out, bubbling away in your subconscious. Your body can't see the difference. It does is all it knows how: It dumps a fuck ton of adrenaline into your system. Then your heart rate goes up, you start feeling weird, you worry there is something wrong.....maybe a heart problem, maybe you are having a stroke.... Your mind starts racing with possibilities.... So your body dumps a load more adrenaline into your system to cope with the 'threat'.... Round and round we go until it burns itself out. Once you understand the mechanism, it helps you to deal with it. Knowing it will pass and it is just a reaction to stress. Sometimes try and visualize standing next to yourself and observing the situation if it helps you to get a handle on them. Good luck bro.. B complex vitamins also help relieve stress / nerve situations and drinkers are often heavily deficient in them. They help sleep too and that in turn helps a ton.
Proud of you for pouring that crap out, man! Respect! It takes a lot to be able to do that. Giving up booze really feels like losing a best friend, but the reality is that alcohol is not our friend. Alcohol is nobody's friend, and it's not the answer when dealing with anxiety! Things will get better with time as long as we do the work!
Hey David sorry I’m just seeing this brother!! You’re 100% right!!! 💯💯🙏🙏
I quit drinking 2 years ago. When I quit I had terrible shakes and insane anxiety for a few weeks. It was absolute hell. But each day got ever so slightly easier. The first year was a struggle but reduced each day over the course of the year. I felt like it would never fully subside though. But finally after about the 1 year mark I no longer missed it or feel like I’m missing out when people drink around me. When that day comes it is extremely liberating. I was at a birthday party with an open bar just a few hours ago and it meant nothing to me. I still enjoyed myself without feeling like I’m missing something. Stay strong friend you can do it. It gets better. Today won’t be tomorrow.
That is badass that you went to that event and did that. I’m PROUD brother, Imma take this as inspiration 🙏🙏
Love your videos man it helps with my sobriety
@@Marcuslamar103 this is what it’s all about brother, glad to hear. God bless bro 🙏
So glad you posted this today honestly. I agreed to go along to an event today and it was a huge mistake, drinks everywhere, people drinking everywhere, i came home and planned all the ways i was going to get a drink when i got home. I got home, smoked like 4 cigarettes and went the hell to bed. When you were saying it took everything in you to pour those away ... i do understand how much it took, everything. Im proud of you. 🖤
Thanks for sharing and being so honest with yourself and the UA-cam world, bro I've never liked meds either but I'll tell you since I've been in this rehab I've been on some antianxiety meds and they have really helped me personally especially with cravings and helping my thought process, it slows me down so I don't get so worked up when life hits me so hard you want to relapse. I don't plan on being on meds for the rest of my life but it is helping me personally at this time in my life. This is your journey and I pray the best for you and to keep that strength you have knowing you do have the tools and support to conquer anything! Much lovey friend thank you for sharing. Be easy homie ❤️🩹💯
What’s uppp Luke!!! Hope you and your family are doing well my brother. I said it before and I’ll say it again I’m so proud of you man. The fact that you stood up and said enough is enough makes me smile. You are one of the most solid dudes I’ve met on UA-cam and like a lot of us you deal with this demon of alcohol. Keep your head up and keep pushing forward like the soldier I know you are!
As always man your uplifting words/advice mean more than you know. This community is truly beautiful. Keep me updated brother and I’ll do the same 🙏
Also brother I did want to let you know I am looking into medications at the moment 🙏, god bless
@@Slayer-7373thanks big dawg thank you for creating this community you are an inspiration to myself but so many others again can't say enough about how much I appreciate you and your honesty that's what gravitates me towards you. Keep going and like you say it's one day at a time much love for my brother Slayer!
This video sounds like it was real pain in the ass to make, and we appreciate it. You're an absolute treasure.
You got this man, it’s normal to have those relapse thoughts. So don’t be hard on yourself, I completely understand the weed thing. I’ve been smoking since I was 13, I’m about to be 31. Unfortunately I have over a month clean from weed because it triggers me to want to drink beer with it because it’s a chill combo. Today marks my 7th day clean from alcohol. Gotta keep your head up
You did good buddy! Whenever you feel weak look at the comment section at all the people pulling for you and caring about you.
So glad to have you here with us. Your videos are a great help
@@_morgancal thanks Morgan! 🖤🙏
Good morning Slay! I'm so happy you posted. I'm struggling too but remember, you're for us to let us know we're not alone but I also don't want you to feel obligated or feel responsability when we struggle, is all part of this long process. I've been thinking about you and your dog. Keep the good mempries Slay and find joy in that. Also, for panick attack (they are horrendous) COLD showers or just dump for up your head (still attached to your body lol) into a bowl of cold water. I used to do that as a part pf therapy from sheer fear I had afterwards almost losing my limbs in a car accident from a drunk driver and the irony hits me hard cause I started drink 15 years after the trauma. I'm not sure how this whole trauma works cause if I'm still alive from that accident anf also from the drinking and the seizure I had, terrifies me to my core. If you can muster the strength and energy to take a cold COLD as ice water, it helps with panick attacks, your blood presure goes down and if you can listen to your heart it calms down and the heartbeat is slower but to a point where your anxiety drips away. It has worked for me and I force myself to do that and not end up in the ER where they treat you like crap (in my experience) is embarrassing and ssd to be honest. The cold showers work in a way where you can get your brain to focus on something else rather than the onset panick you're having. You know when you get full blown panick attack paralyzes you to the point your nerves mame you puke your guts out. Oh man, I feel for us, anything I can do to to help anyone, please reach out to me. It sucks feeling alone in this, and the shame and guilt. We need to nurture oursevles with good support such as yourself Slay. I'm proud of you and I say that with every ounce of honesty. Keep strong and steadfast.
New here. Love your honesty. I’ve poured drinks recently and thank God had the strength to dump them. I’m only 3 weeks sober. 😢. I want beer so bad every minute of every day while awake. I have moderate cirrhosis, but don’t want to die. I have kids. So embarrassing.
@@deirdrekokora8680 don’t go back and drink it brother trust me, it’s not worth it. I had a relapse a few days ago and it’s landed me in a detox bed. 3 weeks is absolutely incredible, enjoy feeling someone normal without it because once you’re laying here it’s like mannnnnn WHAT WAS I THINKING. Keep your head up, prayers to you
I'm proud of you too.
Dang brother i know those panic attacks and they really suck i been there as well . But glad you got threw it and keep up the good fight bro . I'll keep you in my prayers brother stay safe stay sober U got this. 💪
That's amazing you poured them out. There is no way I could do that. very impressed with you!! Keep up the good work. Drinking just prolongs the torture. Been there many years. I have bad anxiety and panic attacks too. I'm sorry you're going through this. I'm 20 days sober. Last time I was in AA 2 years ago I was so nervous I couldn't hold a conversation or speak without my voice shaking.
I'm back in AA again and I'm there fighting for my life. People there are so nice. So are you. I got one friend from the program and she's amazing.
I had a massive panic attack this morning out of nowhere and I had felt fine for days prior I'm so happy you didn't relapse. I promise it'll get better. I understand.
I’m struggling yet again, embarrassing Enough to say. Your comments have put a smile on my face tho, congratulations on 20 days!!!!!!!!! If no one else has said it, I’m proud of you. I’ll catch up with ya as soon as I can ;)!!!
Très bien, bravo Slayer !! You did well 🤍! About the panic attaks you are still mourning your dog it’s hard, may be a bit of running or working out could help !! Thanks for your video xxx
😓 if I only would have stuck with it.
I’m gonna bounce back stronger than ever this time.
I’ve been going through the same except post opioid withdrawal. Stay well and stay strong man. 🙂
It helps to know I’m not alone in these feelings. Thank you 🙏🖤
Your doing good bro I suffer chronically from generalize anxiety disorder it can get to you and make you think about relapses but keep saying no you can't do that it is unfortunate about them benzoes I know the hell they put you through just stay clean and when you feel a panic attack coming on that is when you come on here and talk to us, you got this!
Hey kev thank you man for making me feel less alone. I’ll take your advice, one day at a time. Y’all are awesome!! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 thanks bro I was doing good tapering iff of clonazepam then I lost my grandma I felt the most emptiness sad and lonely I made the mistake of not caring and went up the dosage I started abusing it, alcohol, Adderall, smoking weed staying broke because of my addiction, I woke up finally and I said what in the hell am I doing it took me 3 years to wake up I abruptly stopped the Adderall my brain felt like it was frying so I stopped that, I went through the crash and depression from that, soon after I stopped smoking, that wasn't to bad, I rarely drink now I know I can stop drinking now with no issues but the clonazepam is a beast I don't even know where I'm going to begin my taper again because I've kindled by going back up so I'm basically off if 3 drugs it's just this clonazepam it has a long half life which means longer withdraw but I see it as I'm trying, I see it as your trying and your going to be OK but I do advise you not to let a Dr put you on a benzo it's a alcohol pill that's basically it us hang in there bro
Dude anxiety and panic attacks are the worst. I remember when I was 18 and had my first beer my anxiety washed away and I though oh this is what normal people feel like. 4 years later stuck in this mess of alcoholism/panic attacks, xanax addiction all this shit man its hell on earth.
I am your comment lol, I can relate to it so much. We drink to take our anxiety away not knowing that it all comes back 7fold. Keep your head up brother, much love
I've had panic attacks from alcohol withdrawals and it's truly incredible how much of a relief drinking again truly is. But then you think to yourself, *"Is THIS how much of a grasp this liquid sh-t has on me?"* It's a sad and sobering thought.
Yeah, being at that point is pure hell. Have a couple drinks in you and the panic attacks slowly go away.... I hated it. Never again.
I understand
This is a beautiful way of putting it. I completely understand and can relate. As James said, pure hell!
@@afterhourscinema782 Panic attacks are OK for us. Why do you think we drank in the first place = anxiety
I’m gonna make it my duty to find out why we are this way. I love you all and anxiety sucks.!!
Well done for not relapsing!
I withdraw this comment in light 💡 of recent events. Just joking 🙃 bud!
Bruwwww!! I can see The Creator in you and The Light of God on your face. You are a good man and have good intentions and motives. It's okay to struggle and it's all part of The Journey of being a man. You are a good man. Stop being so hard on yourself!! You're right where your supposed to be and Life is experiencing itself thru you. God is your experience. You are in God!! The Man who love's struggle's is free!!
@@Andy101-tm3hz god bless 🙏🙏thank you brother.
There's a reason they call it *"liquid courage."* Drink and your anxiety disappears. But quit drinking, and the anxiety comes back worse than ever.
Absolutely, it’s a sling shot effect. You push your anxiety back but then it sling shots back at you 10x as strong!!
@@Slayer-7373 Yeah like bungee jumping. It’s intense for a while but slowly you’ll come to a stop.
god bless you man
God bless you too brother, thank you 🙏
Meant to comment on your last video. I consider my pets as family as well. They are so supportive in numerous ways that humans are not. Thank you for sharing all that raw and honest emotion, my heart goes out to you. Yes, sometimes when reaching for the alcohol, I feel like I'm on "auto pilot". Stay strong, dear. You are very loved.
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Hey man, sorry to hear about your dog. I know who've probaably heard this before but your a young man and its hard to think "I cant drink or do drugs ever again" cause it not like your a 60 year old man and been through it. Theres alot of time ahead and to learn how to navigate this crazy trip we call life without any substances is daunting. But with meditation and good practices we can work on sobriety with weapons in our arsenal. Peace brothers and sisters, stay strong
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Slayer! I’m so proud of you for not hitting the bottle today. That takes incredible courage! Wat to go. Hugs hugs hugs ❤
Thank you so much Mona 🙏🖤🥲,
Thanks for another video!
The anxiety and worst of all, panic attacks were some the scariest events when I went through hard core withdrawal. You really do feel like you are going to pass out and/or die. But once you get a few drinks in you it goes away and you feel "normal" again.
Being over 3 months sober now, it does get easier, but the first few weeks are pretty hellish.
Hey James, thanks brother. It really helps knowing I’m not alone in these feelings.
Also it brought a smile to my face when I read 3 months sober, that is amazing brother. Don’t look back, don’t give it a second thought, keep pushing forward because life will only get better. I’m on the road to that myself, one day at a time. 🙏
Much love
Thank you for posting this comment. It's terrifying to say the least.
Love you man.. keep at it.. we got this!
Love you too brother, one day at a time 🙏🙏 we do got this!
I would love to see you in a men's group with a therapist who has Tons of experience with anxiety and panic. I had both with horrible social anxiety through my 30s and yes got tremendous relief from alcohol. Could barely sit in a restaurant with friends -- could barely sit in a theatre and enjoy a movie. Boy was I sick with that ---- put a strain on my marriage big time. I went on meds for depression twice in my life --- each time on about a year .. One time, Desyril, and then Prozac. I have to say the meds straightened out my head chemistry I think. God what a horrible thing. All that shit went away eventually -- Anyone who suffers panic has my full empathy
@@judithnicholais1492 god bless you!!!!, I really appreciate your comments and what you’ve shared. I can tell you are a genuine soul. 🙏🙏
Slay, Oh Wow! You poured that poison ☠️ out!!! You’re telling on your addiction! Good Job Slayer!!!🔥🫡
Have u ever thought of getting a service dog to help with your anxiety and panic attacks? They truly can make a difference.
I just found your channel. I admire your honesty. I will continue to follow you. Take care. Deb
This is not a bad idea, thank you deb 🙏
We all love ya Slayer! Alcoholism is an ugly, nasty disease and we all need to stick together. Anxiety is the worst and the longer I’m in AA, the more I’m realizing most of us have anxiety disorders.
Prayers and love Slayer! I've had panic attacks starting at age 21. I did watch a video that helped me a lot especially when driving. Basically there are signs before you go into a full blown panic attack. I realized when i was driving first my leg muscles would get tight, then my stomach muscles. Now if i notice this i try to relax those muscles. Love your videos!
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Congrats on 1K subscribers!!
Hey thanks Bryan, it’s awesome to have this community 🙏
Stay focused and strong buddy... your getting there..in time you will look back and be so glad that you persevered and conquered it. Slow and steady wins the race brother. 👍🙏 🤞🤞
@@john-bo9ve appreciate your encouragement brother, thank you man 🙏
Good job. I was listening to a podcast with a brain surgeon talking about MS, dementia and alzymers, obviously a brilliant person. He said something that stuck with me. He said, "suffering is part of the human condition". I wish the interviewer would have done a follow-up question regarding that remark, but he didn't. I found it interesting non the less.
Well done you for resisting. Proud of you. ❤❤
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🙏thanks Calvin.
lmao "20th time". Nice job, bro. I get it. So glad you didn't relapse, that's scary and so so real. Hang in there, rooting for you :)
I just saw this wtf!! Thank you Anna 🙏🖤
Good job slayer!
@@tyrobgaming5423 hey man, thank you 🙏
Whenever you feel close to relapse-just remember how you felt after previous relapses.. that will give you the determination to persevere. Think about how much you'd lose and set yourself back whenever you feel close to relapse. Constantly think about these things when you feel yourself weakening. 👍🙏 🤞🤞
@@john-bo9ve will do John, thanks brother. 🙏
Hey Slayer - I’m sorry you’re feeling overwhelmed and anxious. You mentioned that you’ve battled this even as a young teen, were you ever able to figure out the cause of the anxiety? I know our thoughts can take over for sure and it’s tough to push past the doom and gloom some days. Alcohol as you know doesn’t make it better when we’ve gotten to the point where it no longer makes our anxiety better but instead much worse. Anyways, I’m so proud of you for dumping the poison out. You will start feeling better just give it time and take it one moment, day at a time. You’re worth it! 😊much love always my friend, hang in there. You have so many rooting for you.
Hey brother first of all I thank you for the videos you make.. For it gives me courage everytime I watch ur videos... Iam male 31 from nagaland India I have been alcoholic since 2012 but last year 2023 I started binge drinking for a week without food and only alcohol.. I started to get hallucinations tremors and mentally unstable.. My parents had rush me to a mental hospital as I was getting mad from the alcohol.. but due to poor facility out here in my state, the doctor wasnt available . So they told me to come on Monday so on our way back home I started to vomit, nauses,tremors, watery stools, weakness, and was about to fall down and die out there but my parents however rush me to a bigger hospital in er... That's when I notice what alcohol withdrawal really feels like.. My feets went cold and the seizures were deadly I kept asking the nurse for a peg of alcohol (how stupid),, I even had alcohol withdrawal epilepsy and bite my toung broke my skull following fall.. Alcohol delirium tremors are sure deadly... I was on librium..Your so lucky you we're born in a good facility state and country..Soberty now
I’m so sorry you went through that brother, but I’m glad you found this channel. You aren’t alone here, this community doesn’t judge. We are here to help one another
You chose life! I’m proud of you, my friend, you could have easily drunk those beers, especially with panic in your brain. It sounds like your body is warning you though, having a panic attack after only one night of drinking is a warning. It used to happen to me after benders, never after a session. You cannot go back to drinking again, next time might be the last time you have before death, your body is warning you. Well done!
@@archangel_josh hey thanks brother 👋, you know as well as I do how hard that was, ultimately though it was definitely the best decision.
Also yea it’s been insane, I hope it’s not a sign of something terrible. Every day even this morning when I woke up I’ve been in a full blown panic state. I’ve gotta stay away from that bottle man, it just destroys and ruins everything.
Gonna keep taking it one day at a time, much love my friend! Take care 🙏
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out EveryWhere!!❤ I’ve been through the same things and hell no! It’s Not Worth It!!! Alcohol Sucks!!! Find Joy In Living bc that garbage kills! Stay Strong Slayer!!!🔥🫡
Hey Cindy as always thank you so much. 🙏🖤 you understand this demon, you’ve been through it.
Also I’m not sure if you saw but I saw you were watching big lance haha, that’s cool. I’ve been following jay for quite some time. He’s been a big motivator. 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Yes I watch Jay and BL. Do you ever watch Big Weavy? He has late night livestreams. It’s a bunch of us there. Check it out.💞
Watched a couple of your videos and liked them. What's your job? Doesn't alcohol seriously interfere with it? For me, getting a hard manual labor job, THAT actually was the solution for my drinking problem. I simply had to stop - there's no choice. Drink alcohol -> terrible hangover -> can't work, lose job -> no money, homeless, illness, death (also, in my country you don't get social security for sitting on your couch drinking alcohol / you either work, or you end up in the streets without anything)
Hey thanks brother, I actually work for family. It’s probably the only reason I haven’t been fired. I’m very flexible, I can take time off because when I do work I work like a hound.
Sometimes I think it’s the better route to lose everything for some people, it seems to wake them up to I can’t do this……
Thanks for watching brother
I’m here however u need me to show up
Yep my first memories start around 12.
Appreciate this more than you know Karen.
@@Slayer-7373 🥴 Karen? Again? Lol
@@Kristen10-22 why does it auto correct it to Karen!!!! Ughhhh!!! I’m sorry Kristen!!! 🖤
@@Slayer-7373 nbd! I think it’s subconscious lmao! I’m so not a Karen so we’re good. Promise
Thanks for the laugh my friend
Looking sharp man! I don’t want to get you hooked on anything else but if you are feeling bad anxiety you could try this little drinks called Feel Free. It has Kava and other stuff but it would probably help. If you do try it you might want a chaser cause they aren’t very good lol. I hope you get better soon and can find a resolution. Maybe go on a hike or something too. Idk if you have mountains. Nature can help. Things will get better. 🙏
Hey datone, sorry brother that I never got back till now. As you might know I’ve been struggling pretty hard. I’m sorry to inform you on that man, I’m in a detox bed as we speak. The devil won this fight but he ain’t gonna win the war.
Much love 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Hang in there man! You got this 🙏❤️
Anxiety / panic attacks could be due to PAWS; Try getting into some exercise brother Slayer to counter the anxiety and stay strong as are all behind you. The struggle is real and your honesty is humbling. ALWAYS IN YOUR CORNER!!!
Fascinating, I’ve been definitely experiencing this the last couple days!!
Also 🙏🖤thank you.
Alcohol is not our problem. It is a symptom of our real underlying problem or "hole". We use alcohol as medicine to cover up said hole. Life is beautiful!! Find an interest or purpose that makes you happy. Use that to "fill the hole" and leave alcohol in the rear view mirror.
No hate, and I def understand your point, but many of us drink to have fun. It isn't to fill any "hole," it is just cuz we love to party hard. I'm not justifying it I'm just sayin. 2 days sober. IWNDWYT.
@@frank-the-tank75 I think Vinnie is right, but it follows from what he is saying that there is no need to give up completely. I very much doubt he'll agree with the rest of my point, but here it is.
Firstly, addiction does not exist as a meaningful disease or syndrome. It is just an excuse to blame someone else for poor behaviour, i.e. "my parents and grandparents were alcoholics" or "I was born an alcoholic" or "it's a terrible disease", and therefore it's not my fault! The idea of addiction as a meaningful condition is junk science.
The reason everyone here is constantly talking about never drinking again and then their subsequent relapses is a combination of not addressing their underlying issues and the fact that never drinking again is neither realistic nor necessary. Alcohol isn't as such good for you physically, but it's largely harmless when drank in moderation.
I'm not a shrink and I'm not here to psychoanalyse anyone, but there is something the matter if going on absolute benders is something that almost always happens when a drop of alcohol touches your tongue. I used to be exactly the same, and drank at least a bottle of wine first thing in the morning before going to my office job - often two. Enough alcohol at lunch to floor a normal person on an innocent and fun night out. Hospital visits. Horrendous withdrawals with vivid auditory and visual hallucinations. Night sweats, violent shaking, enormous panic, and I believe a few mini-seizures in my sleep. You get the idea.
I was able to tackle the problem (without rehab clinics, AA etc.) and funnily enough I didn't ultimately arrive at any genuinely deep-seated problems. I did have to properly move on from a past relationship, granted, but it was mainly about losing weight, breaking the harmful cycle of anxiety-drink-anxiety-drink..., and facing up to the fact that what I was doing was ruining my life, which I was not particularly in denial about. I could feel my liver hurting every day, no doubt I'd had acute pancreatitis before too. I looked a mess, my finances were a mess, and indeed my life was a mess in general. Some of you may have deeper issues to take care of, but there's no need to suppose you have to go the rest of your life without a couple of beers on a Friday and Saturday.
Now, I have a couple of kids, more than enough money, a happy marriage etc. Basically everything you could ever reasonably want, and more. I like drinking beer on the weekend but nothing more than the average 30-something year old parent. In a former life, I categorically couldn't get to work without a skinful, never mind through lunch time. Now I feel no temptation at all, and look forward to a well-deserved drink at the end of the week.
I am no different to anyone else here, and I am not here to annoy anyone. I'm just offering my story up, and think you can take from it the lessons that I learnt: addiction is not a meaningful, genuine medical condition; you CAN simply taper down and go back to normal amounts; and adding meaning to your life will take away these absurd temptations to drink yourself into oblivion. These realities are FAR better than the alternative: these delusions that you're suffering from a disease, and that the only way "out" is to spend each day you have left strategically dodging alcohol, and constantly living on the edge, wondering if one day you'll relapse. The appeal of the latter is that you're able to say that you're largely blameless, because you either caught a disease without meaning to, or you inherited it from your ancestors. It's not true. Luckily, accepting this truth puts YOU back in control, and relegates alcohol to its rightful place - simply a drink you occasionally partake in, rather than the ruler of your life.
This is a fantastic point. I once read layne staylee truly died of depression and his addiction. His addiction was just part of the depression. If you can’t ever truly find some happiness, I’d imagine that’s a road any of us could go down. Very sad
@@hoxtondave9619 Thank you! I read it all and this is a fantastic position. How many beers do you throw down on the weekends/what do you mean by average 30 year old drinker? I'm 6 days today. Tomorrow is the hardest day of the week for me. I haven't gone a Friday without drinking (except a little camping stint a few weeks ago) in over 3 years. I'd love a good tip!
@@frank-the-tank75 Thanks for reading mate. I might have in the region of 5 to 10 pints over Friday and Saturday, and I could imagine that being fairly normal.
I'm not actually in the business of being provocative but people here are literally worshipping alcohol. Their attitude is that it has ruled them and that it is something they cannot have for the rest of their lives, whilst at the same time publicising the fact that they desperately want it. Then they wonder why alcohol remains their god, and something that they think about all day.
Man can I get your email or something? You gave me your Insta info awhile back but I don't have Instagram... I understand completely with what you're saying. I had the worst panic attacks still occasionally suffer from them. Most terrifying experience is going through "HANGZIETY" No one will ever understand how bad it is unless they went through it words don't do it justice. I remember being in college or at work or in a store terrified thinking to myself this is it I'm about to die in front of all these people.... Terrible feeling. What's worse is going through that at home by yourself with no one to talk to because everyone is asleep and everyone thinks you're "sober again" and you don't want to seem like an overdramatic crazy person who can't keep their word. So you just stay silent and either drink again or just nervously pace around the house in terror praying because you know you've killed yourself. I get it dude. You're going to make it and I'm so happy I'm not the only one that's been through this you're inspiring for making this channel. Thank you so much I used to think there was something seriously wrong with me and I was crazy I would Google and UA-cam this crap all the time and could never find anything. LD and you have really brought this to light and I know within this community reading other comments I'm not crazy and I'm not alone. Thank you for being brave and putting yourself out there. God bless and take care
@shotinthedark, I went through the same things and I finally realized that alcohol actually causes Extreme Anxiety!!! It uses anxiety to try to keep people using it!! Every time I’d try to quit I’d have the Worst Anxiety Ever!!! It’s crippling. Take good care of you!!
Hey brother god bless you man, you are not alone. Also absolutely my email is slayersober7@gmail.com, send me a email man and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can. I know this pain you speak of, much love
I use to have bad anxiety attacks or just random often anxiety pingin. Its been a few months of working out and dieting my anxiety has been almost 0. N it only occured to me when id realize i was calm an cool during a time when id usually get antsy ect. The shit works man ,so fucking worth it.
This comment is the truth!!! The true cure to anxiety and depression 🙏
Just to politely correct one thing here - Diazepam (instead of Ativan) is the drug they generally give you to avoid seizures during alcohol withdrawal.
Ativan gave me horrible rebound anxiety - diazepam was a lifesaver during my withdrawals and was relatively easy to stop (compared to the hell that was Ativan for me!) ❤
Also curious if you've looked into Vivitrol? Essentially like suboxone but for alcohol. Stops the bodies ability to get the "buzz" from alcohol and ultimately gives you some time and space to work on your addiction.
Just emailed you. Hang tight brother
Hey brother I will make sure to get back to your email tonight!!! Been a real busy day. Much love, hope you are doing well man. 🙏
Related to the other comment I made on the hospital video, have you talked to a therapist about getting to the root causes of your anxiety/panic attacks? As you've mentioned, alcohol has been used to get those things out of your head instead of working on them.
@@enchantedrockview working on this now with 2 therapist actually yes. 🙏🖤
@@Slayer-7373 I'm happy to hear that, wish you the best 🙏🏻
Also, I just wanted to say you have very beautiful eyes 😍 Everything about them 😍
@@enchantedrockview awe thank you, that’s really awesome of you to say :)
@@Slayer-7373 you're welcome ☺️ I'm sure you've gotten that compliment before, but it's always nice to hear 🙌🏻😁
@@enchantedrockview it is nice to hear :), you seem like an awesome person. If you ever need anything shoot me an email @slayersober7@gmail.com, or send me a message on instagram. Slayer_youtube_73, much love!! 🙏
Driving home from work will be the hardest part after work passing all the liquor stores in my experience trying to quit on my own 😂
Sometimes switching routes to get home works, I’ve heard others say that. You can do it brother, don’t end up like me laying in a detox bed because I thought I could control it for the 1000th time. 🙏🙏 I’ll send a prayer real quick to you man.
@@Slayer-7373 oh no I’m 29 I’ve been to the hospital a few time I swore I won’t go to the hospital again it’s either I get clean or death but I’ll never check myself in a hospital again feels like jail and they took my brother away for a whole year so I guess Ik the system but I’m willing to try outpatient
I've had a few bad days! Days that I would normally run to the nearest liquor store get that bottle go home and drink. Next maybe 30 days would be the same everyday. This time I have a very important app. which Im thinking I'll miss it, But then I though of how hard it is to get off drinking, how much money and buying it but the cig, I smoke when drinking I can do a carton in 4 days when drinking. I though of how many days it took to get back to normal that's after the shakes are gone Glad to say I won this time.. I dont start drinking unless I get mad really bad. Just to sit and watch tv or music or a drink with a friend no I never start that way. You'll always will have something to bring it to thought but you also have the though not to drink.
Try Kava, it helps me a ton. Drink it in the evening 8-9 pm. Mix it with honey and whole milk , tastes like crap otherwise but it works.
Hey man you are actually the second person now that has suggested kava. I’m going to look into it thank you!
If you do drink my dooooo not drink hard alcohol 🥃 my boy have just a few beers 🍻 but the problem is we can never 👎 just have 2 every time I try I fail drink intill I go to sleep 🛌
You’re right man, I’ve tried in the past to only stick to beer but it never last long. Before too long I’m buckin an entire jack Daniel’s bottle. I appreciate your comments bro, thank you 💯🙏
Sure thing, man. I was up to my neck in the shit just about the same spot. My panic attacks messed a bunch of stuff up and that was when I was 14 - quite a long time ago. As far as the relapse goes, forget it. I feel almost 100% now since I bounced back from my relapse. You will keep feeling better. I know it was only one night. Might be kindling. I am putting out a video on "Hangxiety" later this morning. I am not completely sure it's hangxiety, though. It might just be generalized anxiety disorder with heavy periods of it being acute. I am not sure. I know a bit about psychiatric diseases, but can't really do much other than say to maybe see your doctor again if you have been put on another medication. Sometimes the side effects can be the very thing the shit was designed to prevent. I hate psych meds and try not to take the stuff. I am glad you didn't drink. One day at a time, man. We understand if nobody else does. I am glad you didn't take a drink.
Hey shades 👋, thanks brother. It’s kind of crazy how much all of us can relate. Looking forward to the near future for our collab, much love brotha
@@Slayer-7373 Sure. We just have to figure out how to do it.
@@ShadesOClarity I think zoom would be the best, I can screen record it or you can and we could make like 2-3 parts. Talk about booze, addiction, UA-cam, sober community and much more. I want to get a few videos out like I said before but i want to make it happen. You’re a super cool dude, we relate on a lot and I think people would really enjoy. Lets just stay in touch and we will make it happen, take care my friend.
@@Slayer-7373 Sounds good. I don't care which channel it's on. If you want to record it, you can. Didn't you do a few things with LD?
You can be proud that you poured out the beers, you made it. You were able to stop the start of a relapse and this means a lot. Unfortunately, the demons of alcoholism will come again and again, still, it is possible to deal with them. Every time you can do it, you get another step forward. You can do this. Stay sober and healthy out there, Slayer!
Thank you jack, this means more than you know brother. Also absolutely that demon ain’t ever gonna stop coming, this is gonna be a life long battle for me I can tell. One day at a time man, one day at a time. Much love 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks! As i am much older than you, i struggled even with heroin, was addicted for around 20 years. Got clean. When i can do this even with heroin, you can do it with alcohol. It requires a lot of self control and discipline. Like now in your video, there are times where you are so close to relapse, but you can still prevent it, that's the best. That's a serious success.
@@Slayer-7373 Thanks, look at my other answer that i accidentally posted on my own message, sorry.
We all have a lower brain and a higher brain...lower is our child lol
Stay strong, brother. How old are you? 27?
@@Zeuskazoo will do brother 🙏, also yes I’m in my later 20’s! You are just one year off. Fun to keep people guessing haha.
Oh man withdrawals definitely cause panic attacks. Back in the day I was working as a food delivery boy - of course I was hangover and I started getting really panicky while driving. Im always afraid of either a heart attack, or a stroke. This time I was deathly afraid of a stroke and because it will give you facial muscle paralisys I needed to double check so I pulled up to one of the restaurants I was working with. I have barged in through the staff door to the kitchen with probably the weirdest, widest and most forced grin ever and asked everybody IS MY SMILE NORMAL!?!? One of the chicks said "yeah I guess" so I just stormed out without a word.
I still cringe to this day.
But I have got a tip too: on one of the music festivals where I overdid a bunch of stuff I was also suffering from a panic attack. A random hippie noticed it and told me he knows a trick - he showed me to close my left nostril with a finger, breathe 5 times, then close my right nostril with a finger and breathe five times. Then you repeat it 4 more times (left, right, left right) for 5 times in total and then just take 5 normal breaths. Supposedly it calms down a certain neural pathway in your body or something like that. Whatever it is it has saved my ass on many ocassions, its not foolproof but worked for me pretty often. Thanks random hippie!
I will definitely have to try that technique sometime brother, never heard of it. Interesting
You have to trust God, and you have to trust your program.
God has to be number 1
❤ u Slay
🖤 you Karen thank you!!
try magnesium glycnate it helps with panic attacks
I’ll check this out, thanks my friend. 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 btw make sure to start small and work ur way up. speaking from experience
@@catlolis alright, thank you 🙏
You might want to go on antidepressants for the short term until your brain heals
Heavy drinking burns up all your B vitamins. Are you taking any supplements? Sounds like you may be deficient from the last binge. B vitamins stabilize mood.
Been taking B supplements recently and I think they are giving me b vitamins in the detox as well. I’m Hanns brother
Smoking weed is safer than alcohol
@@arc9812 100%
Sorry about your dog
@@heatherinCT thank you 🙏 🖤
@@Slayer-7373 I give you a lot of credit for sharing your story. I have panic disorder it's no joke. Hope you find relief!
It is absolutely no joke, my heart goes out to you. I know how bad it is 🙏
You alright bro?
@@somepoliticalgamer6459 currently laying in a detox bed, hanging in there. Let my emotions get the best of me, I’ll update y’all when I can. 🙏
Sounds like you are experiencing cognitive dissonance or something like that over the lapse. Time will heal as you get farther away from the lapse. Pouring out the beer will probably push your anxieties into a better direction
100% zack, I’ve been reading up on cognitive dissonance and I feel like I’m definitely experiencing that. It’s not fun at all, reality doesn’t feel quite the same but I know over time it will go away. I’ve experienced this in the past and the only way for it to stop is by stopping the booze. Much love man, one day at a time 🙏
Dont lie u pounded em back lol jk
I might as well have, it was within the same night I relapsed!!! 😓😓
@Slayer-7373 srry bro I'm struggling too I keep on saying tomorrow be the day I drank 3 beers like I'm on auto pilot or something it's crazy.
Glad you didn't pick up👍👏🙏🫂♥️