My Imposter Syndrome as a Late-Diagnosed Autistic Person
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- Опубліковано 28 сер 2024
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I can definitely relate...I don't know about your insurance or if they're available in your location (I'm in the US) but Prosper Health has neurodivergent affirming therapists that are trained to work with autistic adults. They do virtual appointments and accept various different insurances.
Also, don't let your trauma tell you that you didn't "work hard enough" for your diagnosis, your experiences are valid and they don't have to look like anyone else's. ❤
Hi! I know I’m a couple months late to the party, but I wanted to comment and say that this video ABSOLUTELY resonated with me as a late diagnosed adult (35F.) Long ramble coming up…
First, I’m so sorry you had the childhood you had. Trauma and autism interact in all kinds of ways and you’ve got your share of experience with both. I’m learning that life experiences and personal circumstances absolutely impact your particular autistic presentation. I’m glad you’re healing and slowly rebuilding your circle.
Second, not sure if anyone else has said this, but you are not the only autistic person who’s gotten a badly written diagnostic report. I did go through a more “traditional” diagnosis with an ADOS assessment, and the write up I got is god-awful. Proofing/quality control mistakes, obvious generic cut/paste, recommendations that made no sense, and literally every single test explained in excruciating detail EXCEPT the one for autistic traits. Beyond some generic phrases aligned with the DSM, I had very little idea what they saw in me that made them decide I’m autistic. I wish I’d pushed back, but it took so much tooth-pulling and follow-up to get the report in the first place that I didn’t want to risk any more waiting.
Also, while I’m relieved and validated to know I’m autistic, I have had some of THE WORST impostor syndrome post diagnosis. My circle of people is also very small and predominantly neurodivergent. I don’t recognize myself in the “dealing-with-neurotypicals” stories I often hear. My self-comparison is horrible; when I hear an experience that differs from mine (especially if it’s a really “cool” autistic person who dresses punky and does cool stuff with their life), my brain goes, “See? That’s a REAL autistic person with a REAL autistic experience.” Sensory differences are a whole thing. My brain is constantly going, “If you were a REAL autistic person, that background noise would drive you nuts. If you were a REAL autistic person, you wouldn’t be able to deal with ____.”
Listening to other autistic people talk about their experiences is a double-edged sword. On the one hand, it can be so validating and enlightening. On the other hand, if every single one of the ones you find happens to have a particular experience and you don’t, it can be even more isolating.
I have so much more I could say, but just… thank you for posting this. I know a lot of autistic folks talk about having impostor syndrome, but sometimes you hear an experience that just resonates... and then you post a whole novel in the comments. 😆
Your comment means so much to me, THANK YOU ♥️ my imposter syndrome has quieted down a bit since I made this video but I still get the occasional doubt and I feel less alone and very comforted by what you said 🙏
Thank you for explaining all this. Stay strong.
What you have talked about, the continual wearing down of self belief and self accomplishment by my parents. I was fed and clothed but there was no comfort, physical love, hugs has left me with inferiority complex, severe social issues. I have very few friends and feel lost.
I’m sorry you went through this and feel this way 🫂♥️
C-PTSD and autism have ton of overlap! So confusing
YES!