Dude, I had such a similar experience. I was on a heavy dose of shrooms and started unpacking those existential "boxes" and all the sudden it just clicked. Im it, everything and nothing is it. and went into that void of the most lonely and scary feeling I have ever had. There was nothing to grasp on to for comfort because I, we am all there ever was or will be. its been about 3 months since this shroom trip and am still working on integrating it. its been tough and have been struggling with depersonalization and derealization but I feel like my mind is slowly coming back together. each day has been a challenge, however like you I have had some noticeable positive changes from this realization. I stopped smoking weed the day after and have had no desire to do it since and this is after years of a heavy marijuana addiction, Im getting along so much better with my parents and paradoxically what originally made me feel alone is started to open up my heart and empathy again after years of feeling like I loved the world but could not understand why It did not love me. now I understand that loving myself ( not in a narcissistic way) but a true love for myself is the key to loving everything. I am still struggling with heavy existential feelings but each day I feel like I have more clarity and the feeling of panic and eternal loneliness is slowly being overtaken by peace in the present moment.have always been a spiritual person and sometimes I regret my dabbling in psychedelics because I was already on a spiritual path and should of just kept the realizations coming to me on a drip feed the natural way as my life moved on. However a part of me feels like everything happens for a reason and this is a process I need to trust. I am also thankful that this realization hit early in my dabbling of psychedelics because I absolutely got the message and understand now there is no need to alter your consciousness and that phone can be hung up indeed. Peace brother, thanks for this video it really is helpful to listen to.
Namaskar, I had an ego death experience at 20 (11 years ago) that you describe beautifully. It was an...unknown synthetic chemical and the after effects were pretty disturbing. Thank you for helping me understand where this experience fits in my paradigm. Seriously. Super rad of you to share this Now that I've had a bit of time to absorb, my current perspective is that ego death is just a chemical tearing of the veil that spiritual or other enlightened beings usually gain through other means. Those means are usually painful (like this), or long (lifetimes of meditation). I've found learning more about buddhist and yogic philosophy very helpful. Those teachings contain the wisdom of many masters who devoted lifetimes to the focused, scientific exploration of ego-death: the self is a delusion. Crap, wait how do we still be happy? They've come up with some pretty good solutions I think. Rant over lol
I just had an intense ego death on 1p lsd yesterday and i got absolutely terrified too. I also kept beating myself up during it that i'm not accepting it and wondering why. And i also kept searching for myself hoping to find myself and never doing so. I tried to embrace it but the ability to embrace it was part of myself which was then gone. I do seek to better myself in the future but i'm not sure if it will make feel better in general. I guess i will find out.
I did a 5.5 dose and a tab of lsd. in darkness, silent with blindfold. I had all the answers im reading on this thread. we are god. this is far from the end. most people are ruled by fear and attempt to control others to avoid self exploration. i had the same feelings the next few days after. just alone, couldnt watch tv. just stared out the window. its been 4 days. I'm not really sure how I feel. i havent gone to yoga, or read anything. ive slept and ate a lot. maybe this is the reintegration process? breaking yourself open and then rebuilding. I was on no porn for 3 months but have been looking at so much. went a bit crazy on dating sites. I do in a way feel more confident in myself for sure, I havent been beating myself up or feeling guilty. which is huge for me. but I honestly don't feel like hanging out with anyone, I just feel so separate. maybe it will take more time. any thoughts?
I've found speaking in person with other folks to be helpful post-experience. Those who are on the same wavelength, or those who are very close and that I feel open with. Talking with others helps ease back into the compassionate side of consensus-reality, which is very much more pleasant than other loops to get caught in, at least for myself. Also I've found for porn that cow-head posture and/or slowly cooling the genitals with cold (real cold) water twice daily to be helpful to calm my svadisthana chakra. Taking the heat from those regions raises me out of detachment/dissociation and increased sexual drive. Or at least that's the current paradigm programed into my brain goo. It's more fun than most of the other takes on reality I've tried Much love
Do you think an entire ego death manifestation is essential in order to accept that the notion of time is just an illusion? In other words, is it necessary to take psychedelics just to realize this?
The Elite NaRwHal you don’t need psychedelics to experience ego death, it’s just the most direct way for most people. I believe we’re raised and conditioned with a false sense of self which creates a distorted perception of time. One day I think this won’t be the case, thus negating the need for tools like psychedelics.
I understand, im definitely gonna work up to try 5DGISD or something along the lines of that, I've tried to explain to my friends the concepts and self insight you could understand/gain but they just wanna do it for the visuals :/
The Elite NaRwHal it is always for the Awareness, visuals are simply the manifestation.. and yes you can experience this without entheogenic intaking had a long conversation with my mom about just that.. and quite honestly done it myself before I took them. Your friends will most likely be surprised to say the least..
The Elite NaRwHal it’s in my opinion that you won’t have a complete experience in development until you get a deeper level of understanding of what’s inbetween your ears. My answer is yes, but you have to be in an open and good place in order to make it through how you want to.
So i basically had the same ego death 3 days ago but still feel some of the nothingness sensation and also the fear that i’m gonna die or end my own life. Though that is is not what i wish upon myself, the fear that i had during my trip continues to come back in waves.. i do feel very good when the bad feeling goes away but then it comes back and is almost just as strong as the actual trip. did you feel completely better the next day? Or did it take a few days. Was hoping you could provide some insight or help.
Hey man how have you been since, I just had a similar experience and I am still coming to terms with it myself, it was the most intense experience of my life and the most fearful I have ever been im still figuring it all out I hope all is well with you and you have begun your path to happiness
@@jahuliii8883 Im happy to hear from you and good luck with your struggles I was on psilocybin about 4 or 5 grams late at night. It was my 4th trip on shrooms but after getting in a fight with my girlfriend I reached a state where I lost my sense of self and time it was extremely disorienting and I felt like I was collapsing into myself and time was infinite I saw alot of personal and scary imagery and didnt think it was ever going to end at the time. I eventually felt my ego begin dying but regrettably I had been drinking earlier and I became defensive and my ego fought back in full force with fear to try and keep itself intact but eventually it all dissolved away until I just heard vibrating then i pissed myself and fell asleep and have yet to recover fully but I got alot of insight
subscrieber2692 how long ago? Wow the way you described “your ego fighting back” was spot on. Basically what happened to me. And i guess i now feel stuck. What have you been doing to help?
Dude, I had such a similar experience. I was on a heavy dose of shrooms and started unpacking those existential "boxes" and all the sudden it just clicked. Im it, everything and nothing is it. and went into that void of the most lonely and scary feeling I have ever had. There was nothing to grasp on to for comfort because I, we am all there ever was or will be. its been about 3 months since this shroom trip and am still working on integrating it. its been tough and have been struggling with depersonalization and derealization but I feel like my mind is slowly coming back together. each day has been a challenge, however like you I have had some noticeable positive changes from this realization. I stopped smoking weed the day after and have had no desire to do it since and this is after years of a heavy marijuana addiction, Im getting along so much better with my parents and paradoxically what originally made me feel alone is started to open up my heart and empathy again after years of feeling like I loved the world but could not understand why It did not love me.
now I understand that loving myself ( not in a narcissistic way) but a true love for myself is the key to loving everything. I am still struggling with heavy existential feelings but each day I feel like I have more clarity and the feeling of panic and eternal loneliness is slowly being overtaken by peace in the present moment.have always been a spiritual person and sometimes I regret my dabbling in psychedelics because I was already on a spiritual path and should of just kept the realizations coming to me on a drip feed the natural way as my life moved on. However a part of me feels like everything happens for a reason and this is a process I need to trust. I am also thankful that this realization hit early in my dabbling of psychedelics because I absolutely got the message and understand now there is no need to alter your consciousness and that phone can be hung up indeed. Peace brother, thanks for this video it really is helpful to listen to.
Thank you for being brave & sharing your experience!
Namaskar, I had an ego death experience at 20 (11 years ago) that you describe beautifully. It was an...unknown synthetic chemical and the after effects were pretty disturbing. Thank you for helping me understand where this experience fits in my paradigm. Seriously. Super rad of you to share this
Now that I've had a bit of time to absorb, my current perspective is that ego death is just a chemical tearing of the veil that spiritual or other enlightened beings usually gain through other means. Those means are usually painful (like this), or long (lifetimes of meditation). I've found learning more about buddhist and yogic philosophy very helpful. Those teachings contain the wisdom of many masters who devoted lifetimes to the focused, scientific exploration of ego-death: the self is a delusion. Crap, wait how do we still be happy? They've come up with some pretty good solutions I think. Rant over lol
I just had an intense ego death on 1p lsd yesterday and i got absolutely terrified too. I also kept beating myself up during it that i'm not accepting it and wondering why. And i also kept searching for myself hoping to find myself and never doing so. I tried to embrace it but the ability to embrace it was part of myself which was then gone. I do seek to better myself in the future but i'm not sure if it will make feel better in general. I guess i will find out.
From 6:50 to 8:00 was what happened to me. I felt I am able to listen better, with "me" out of the way. It makes for better relationships. Very cool.
All the people who have been on the battlefield knows what true ego death is.
You mean Battlefield 1 or Battlefield 5?
Somebody But Nobody here...that's my whole thing, CONTRADICTIONS...I am SOMETHING, but I am NOTHING at all! Welcome, to The SBN Lifestyle...
Thank you for sharing great video
Potato many thanks! :)
Don't worry man,you're going to be OK in fact, you already are!
I did a 5.5 dose and a tab of lsd. in darkness, silent with blindfold. I had all the answers im reading on this thread. we are god. this is far from the end. most people are ruled by fear and attempt to control others to avoid self exploration. i had the same feelings the next few days after. just alone, couldnt watch tv. just stared out the window. its been 4 days. I'm not really sure how I feel. i havent gone to yoga, or read anything. ive slept and ate a lot. maybe this is the reintegration process? breaking yourself open and then rebuilding. I was on no porn for 3 months but have been looking at so much. went a bit crazy on dating sites.
I do in a way feel more confident in myself for sure, I havent been beating myself up or feeling guilty. which is huge for me. but I honestly don't feel like hanging out with anyone, I just feel so separate. maybe it will take more time. any thoughts?
I've found speaking in person with other folks to be helpful post-experience. Those who are on the same wavelength, or those who are very close and that I feel open with. Talking with others helps ease back into the compassionate side of consensus-reality, which is very much more pleasant than other loops to get caught in, at least for myself.
Also I've found for porn that cow-head posture and/or slowly cooling the genitals with cold (real cold) water twice daily to be helpful to calm my svadisthana chakra. Taking the heat from those regions raises me out of detachment/dissociation and increased sexual drive. Or at least that's the current paradigm programed into my brain goo. It's more fun than most of the other takes on reality I've tried
Much love
Do you think an entire ego death manifestation is essential in order to accept that the notion of time is just an illusion? In other words, is it necessary to take psychedelics just to realize this?
The Elite NaRwHal you don’t need psychedelics to experience ego death, it’s just the most direct way for most people. I believe we’re raised and conditioned with a false sense of self which creates a distorted perception of time. One day I think this won’t be the case, thus negating the need for tools like psychedelics.
I understand, im definitely gonna work up to try 5DGISD or something along the lines of that, I've tried to explain to my friends the concepts and self insight you could understand/gain but they just wanna do it for the visuals :/
The Elite NaRwHal it is always for the Awareness, visuals are simply the manifestation.. and yes you can experience this without entheogenic intaking had a long conversation with my mom about just that.. and quite honestly done it myself before I took them. Your friends will most likely be surprised to say the least..
The Elite NaRwHal it’s in my opinion that you won’t have a complete experience in development until you get a deeper level of understanding of what’s inbetween your ears. My answer is yes, but you have to be in an open and good place in order to make it through how you want to.
So i basically had the same ego death 3 days ago but still feel some of the nothingness sensation and also the fear that i’m gonna die or end my own life. Though that is is not what i wish upon myself, the fear that i had during my trip continues to come back in waves.. i do feel very good when the bad feeling goes away but then it comes back and is almost just as strong as the actual trip. did you feel completely better the next day? Or did it take a few days. Was hoping you could provide some insight or help.
Hey man how have you been since, I just had a similar experience and I am still coming to terms with it myself, it was the most intense experience of my life and the most fearful I have ever been im still figuring it all out I hope all is well with you and you have begun your path to happiness
subscrieber2692 still going through it to be quite honest... sometimes are great and some moments are terrible. Holding on as tight as i can
subscrieber2692 can you describe your experience and what you’ve been going through
@@jahuliii8883 Im happy to hear from you and good luck with your struggles I was on psilocybin about 4 or 5 grams late at night. It was my 4th trip on shrooms but after getting in a fight with my girlfriend I reached a state where I lost my sense of self and time it was extremely disorienting and I felt like I was collapsing into myself and time was infinite I saw alot of personal and scary imagery and didnt think it was ever going to end at the time. I eventually felt my ego begin dying but regrettably I had been drinking earlier and I became defensive and my ego fought back in full force with fear to try and keep itself intact but eventually it all dissolved away until I just heard vibrating then i pissed myself and fell asleep and have yet to recover fully but I got alot of insight
subscrieber2692 how long ago? Wow the way you described “your ego fighting back” was spot on. Basically what happened to me. And i guess i now feel stuck. What have you been doing to help?
I think that you are getting more mature in your life. That is happening around mid-thirty for most everyone. xcuse my pour english writing.
If that was all integrated you would be enlightened