Shit was whacked out now my life’s apart Then my mum got leukaemia and that’s what broke my heart I was hurting all along till I went numb from the pain I aint never tell nobody shit I let it fuel my rage Why they give a fuck about me 5:08 I love the girl but I don’t have the energy Cause I don’t trust a girl after what my ex did to me Tryna keep my nose clean, tryna stay out of trouble But how can I do that when all my surroundings bring is trouble Half of me is saying I should conduct myself better Something that rhymes with better The other half is saying who gives a fuck what they think, who gives a fuck what they feel who gives a fuck what they see I was a good kid I was a nobody to thee and now I’m out on badness and they wanna talk of their loss for respect in me? Like where the fuck were you then? When that shit WOULDNT end? Same people who saw me do it hard now acting like we’ve always been friends And I don’t give a fuck about anyone’s feelings either Cause no one gave a fuck about mine so now we’re even Put on a brave face but I cry in my room Looking in the mirror saying why’s this happen to you? Depression heisting happy thoughts in mind like it’s a stick up People hating my anger but never the buildup And I know that I love her but I put my feelings on the shelf Cause how can I love her when I don’t even love myself? Constantly reminding myself life goes on But even the people closest to me don’t know the shit that goes on I went from being treated like a peasant to straight royalty My mum always said stay away from the bad crowds But mummy it’s the bad crowds that showed the most loyalty I got big dreams, I got big plans But it’s almost like every time I’m boutta to hit a milestone shit hits the fan Whether it be family, friends or the money Whether it be beef to the point I can’t be seen in public I remember being a kid couldn’t afford the new freshest shoes I was a sensitive kid but pain changed my point of view I was angry at my dad and it reflected through my actions If my brothers go to war best believe I am there with em So many young kids are so ready to throw their block up But listen when I say my friends from young are drug fucked or locked up And truthfully I don’t even trust my friends It’s nothing against them that’s just the way that I am My younger days were feet to the ground but my head in the stars Watching deals and steals from the backseat of the fams car In and out of motels big level of independence School report says 35% attendance We all play the same game just different levels We all go through hell we just got different devils
(Yeah) I use to not give a fuck but now I’m giving that a rest cuz you got no other option when your girl feeling depressed and then she try’s to hang her self because her life’s been quite a mess And there’s no antidote for those thoughts inside your head Your anxiety reaches and it sparks becomes a threat And they only time you get to see her is when she’s stuck up on those meds And you got no damn idea If the shit will ever end Like as if my life wasn’t already fucked Now I’m on my own and they say in god we trust But honestly where is he he’s let me suffer When things been tough And my family thinks I’m happy that’s just an image that I’ve created Fake faces with happy smiles I’ve been doing that verbatim Easy to do when practice makes perfect An it’s been your routine for everything with no evasion (Yea) and that’s the type of shit that makes me switch another note maturity levels growing but you could say I’ve been uncomfortable honestly confused I just need a path to guide me home cuz seems I lost my family in this process I just wanna know Was it worth it Every day I spent of my life feeling worthless So others could feel good inside and stay perfect Whale I’m the one who dies and gets the casket closed with all my curtains Cuz I’ve been tripping over shit that I shouldn’t I been nervous All be honest Cuz I know I’ve broke a promise I can’t keep my word if I’m not respecting what I say And my respect is nothing less then just a thing I cast away because I hate myself so I cursed my life in vain Yeah reminisce back on the old days Little kids still in the hallways , happy faces were reality and then we had an off phase Criminally honest to fake people so all add another cold case Use to myself as evil now I see I act my own age (Yeah) and they say I’ve been mysterious they asking why I’m anxious so I ghost em when there curious I push them all away and then won’t talk to them through periods It’s not because there fake it’s cuz I can’t look where a mirror is I dragged myself to a rock bottom it’s been weighing on me heavy so you could say that I can’t become afloat when I drown myself in tears man this gets messy I neglect all my fears and keep acting like I’m ready I put on a face when I’m hurt and I say come an test me When In reality if it did I’d be underwater like a penny And that’s the fucking truth and most don’t even know it Girl almost died And I was sad an broken believe when I cried I a kept a river flowing Not even gonna lie It kinda numbed emotions The ones that I had I made em fry to nothing Only time I felt happy is when I tried take a bullet To bad I didn’t have the guts to pull it ..
life hits hard but it can hit harder, love comes in the form of a kiss but behind the lips is a tongue that’ll kill faster, try to run n you’ll trip faster, sacrifice my life to this craft so i can ball like coach carter, not no pool of blood but there’s stab marks where i’ve had my heart fed to the red pearly lips of this bitch called karma, deceive you with smile and laughter, appear as something you need then reveal that knife, stab you in the heel guess you could say my achilles’ tendon was having no father. i got a message for god but idk if that shits still sending or he’s just refusing to answer, i’m losing the chances, i don’t feel pain no more but i know where my heart is, i used to wanna end it all and sometimes i still do but idk where the start is, i don’t wanna hurt the others around me so i try keep my calm a mask on say i’m fine try not to start on no one but life’s hard and it can get harder. anger controls my path i don’t like dat but i can’t control dis nada, i’ve been in dark places but it gets darker, life’s more than money life’s more than dat, tryna provide for mummy give her more than dat, better life give her something dat won’t regret the way that she started, i’m affected all the way to the core with facts, never lived in lies caus what’s the point in dat ? im driven all the way to the core with rap, forever how ima survive caus that’s the only way i see a sense of joy no cap, i’m shooting my target, bows on the ground guns where my palm is, i ain’t stopping till i know i’m the farthest, i won’t ever leave when i know i’m the father, caus i know where that pain leads and i know where that path goes, just makes life harder, caus life hits hard but it can hit harder, 14 tryna make my dream come true but i don’t sleep everyday i wake up just to try harder, write bars so i don’t have to be behind them choosing the right path i’m taking the main course fuck the starter, i’m so drained from the grind but i’d be gutted if don’t make it bruv life hits hard but i can hit harder, the struggle is real i mean fuck life the grim reaper is my partner, death isn’t a fear or a threat it’s a promise and a guarantee but don’t let that stop you from making that green like you a gardener
I feel loads of guilt. Coz of my trauma I find it fucking hard to endure love. I got some brothers, but my old ones left when shit got real. I had a girl, but being nice don leave large shoes to fill Now my attachment like the last thread on a quilt. You call it self focus i call it a disorder. You got your girl flowers, sometimes I’ll ignore her. For her birthday you’d get her a customised mug, I’ll get her the last Mars bar from around th corner. Sometimes just socialising leaves me tired and worn out. Youtes nowadays care about the designer worn out. It used to be footy on the pitch, now it’s lying about going out. When the fuck did things take a turn? You see on socials is just all the
14 years old the lyricism was bold Wanted to make it big and man would just scold Making it in music is like finding some gold But I’ll never stop until my body is cold Until my body’s slumped over I didn’t get taken to anything I wanted to do Call me aitch cause I had to catch the bus down No one can’t tell me bout my background That little man saw me and he sat down I’m tryna make music work I don’t wanna end up in the crack house So I’ll come back round With new bars and new flows and new songs I wasn’t born into poverty, or born into wealth 14 years later of life and I’m questioning my health Been listening to my music so much that when you hear my tune you gotta skip it I’m tryna change the world Some man can’t even change flows I’ll give it 5 more days and I’ll have a word with avelino Feels like I got all eyes on me while your selling that tupac And where’s that gonna get you Cause when you get caught then you expect your bro’s to press an issue Mummy’s at home crying Don’t worry mummy here’s a tissue She’s screaming out your name and how she miss you Just because you can rap Doesn’t mean you should rap Shooting so many shots call me chiraq I’ll spin you with a 38 Wait I mean a 32 Wanted to be an actor and still everything I say is true Yeah everything I say is facts In fact I’ll probably make some other tracks And then try make a couple racks And work my ass off for a golden plaque Yeah I’m awsome Drip so hard I’ll make a man nauseous Step to my man better be cautious I don’t work I make things work Picture me, 14, a little mind with big dreams I never wanted to be no Rap yute in a tracksuit Sending for the next gang Or rap group I just wanna have my words and my work move views on the earth
They ain’t killing it like me I was like 5 g Wearing my nightys Haze or Cali still plug me for 5g Look at my story I bet u could write me On the roads is fiends n kids on spice g ZOOT backstrapped burning it nicely Bust on all her face is getting slimey Touch on of the bros then that shit gets pricey All I know is guns drugs n swinging knifeys Now my mum told when is it gonna end I told my mum I ain’t snitching on my friends From young I was smoking on pens Cartier shades i wanna drift in a benz N the glide that i went shit became tense N ain’t copping grams if it ain’t dense Throw away penny we doing count pence Feds in there pergous I’m jumping over fence
spent my 19th birthday in the hospital With my brother and my mum And I know it sounds dumb but I felt like I lost it all The pain's compulsory, suffering's optional Takeshi's castle, my life's got obstacles I'm still dealing with a whole load of stress I see my older brother so close to the edge And that there put a hole in my chest And then they tell you home's where the heart is But I got a hole where my heart is Because I let a hoe where my heart is Never again, I had to tell her that we're better as friends I never messaged again Every message I send, ends up in a groupchat 'Cause girls go and tell all their friends That's one of many reasons why I ain't sending DMs Look, I'm gonna keep this cake and I'm gonna eat this cake That's why I'm living three lives, I'm in GTA I'm in Los Angeles driving a Mercedes and it's funny because honestly I didn't think I'd see LA Surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake, coming I need this money like its EMA You gotta separate the rats from the G's if you can't handle cheese, how the hell you gonna be a great? I need a blazing inferno for my enemies Behind my back I know that everybody sends for me And I'd respond but I don't even have the time I mean, asking Avelino couldn't help me find the energy I don't think my ends want the best for me That's why the question me, fake G checking me Fuck the road but if anybody's testing me It's one step away like a 5-a-side penalty Every Santander Nationwide remembers me Right pocket full of cards, I'm a referee Ain't it funny how this money that I'm getting came from fucking PA's like I'm sleeping with a secretary Secondly, your girlfriend's obsessed with me But that's a story for another day and this is why love is fucked 'Cause you went and put your trust in her and then she sent me nudes I said "Nuh-uh-uh, cover up" I aired it, certain girls I can't respect We're all nothing to someone, and that you can't forget So just remember when the girl's playing hard to get There's probably another person that she's trying hard to get And there's probably a girl in your phone right now that you hardly text That's looking for love But everybody wants what they can't touch, so If you, touch my money you can see what I'm about You can ask your little sister I will be inside your house Eating from your fridge, feet up on your couch Tell your little brother "Butter me a sandwich, spread in evenly amounts" You think I'm playing any games? Why do you think I talk about cars, women and chains On half of the songs I make, materialistic aims Make me feel a way when I want it When I got it, it don't ever feel the same We got different types of problems I'm getting corporate tax on this cash that I'm making And at the same time I need to vanquish my paigons If you think it's dead you're mistaken I'm hot headed and dangerous And still living in this matrix All I wanna do is make my loved ones proud In this year alone we made three hundred thousand But my mum won't smile becuase her son's on trial We've got different types of problems What do you know about living in a shadow Where every single thing that you can do is being tainted 'Cause your brother's in the station and he's ill to the marrow 12 or 13 when I turned into an adult All them kids my age were going TeenFest When I was getting searched by a golden retriever in a Cat. A prison while I'm standing on an arrow We used to have cards and now we're playing with swords My G went from Blackjack to a black Jack Sparrow I know so many man who got a case on their head that would kill to come home But there chances are narrow in this world that we live in Nobody listens, we do have thoughts But nobody's thinking and I get it 'Cause none of us are tyna play the victim Any disrespect then retaliation, instant I know a lot of man have been dodging karma And they think it's all laughter 'til the bitch comes to kiss them You know the difference between life and death is one bad decision, 3 or 4 inches So many man my age have got P.T.S.D and I don't think that it's hit them If you envision, the way that we're living The things that we had seen, situations that we'd been in You would understand why I don't wanna talk about my life in every song I've ever written I really wanna help, but it's out of my control and jurisdiction 'Cause a lot of road yutes have got a sickness, mentally Like, look My mummy always used to tell me this "David, listen when your older's speaking" I know man that listened to their olders speaking And now they're all life'd off and they don't know the reason In a weird way summer is the coldest season You'll get killed at a party for the smallest reason One day you're chilling in secondary Next day your right hand's a memory So when I say that I'm alone, do you know the feeling? When I say the game's over, do you know the meaning? I mean that I don't have the time for this I need a girl but same time there's no time for them I got people inside and I don't write to them It's like I don't feel pain no more I can't do journeys on a train no more Can't shed a tear writing on a page no more I don't wanna play games no more I don't want my friends on a case no more And trust me, I don't want a war on the ends But it's like you wanna start it so say no more I'm too big for this nonsense, I don't need problems Meetings, 1.5 milli ain't an option I don't need a deal or an option In my own neighbourhood Me, Jack, Benny in the office I don't need excel, Sony, drama Our team's faster, street Sam Chara I got a lot of love for everyone that checks for me And a lot of love for certain girls sexually Texting me, saying that she slept on me And definitely wishes that she slept with me Look On another note I wanna say thanks to Carl One of my closest from young and we're still at it now I remember when we learnt to play piano Just to make each other jealous, who'd've thought that we would practice now Your talent's been standing out Be proud of your dream, you should stand and shout I remember last year you never had a clue And this year you went and did "Attitude" Speaking of attitude, it's only right I say sorry for my attitude And I ain't never mad at you Tyrell, Manon, Frasier especially I got a lot of things I'm dealing with mentally I feel down a lot and I ain't got the energy I need all of your help to get the best from me There's way too much to do, I ain't getting sleep And last time I got a rest they arrested me Tell me I treatment for a video I didn't make myself from scratch Every lyric, every melody Every fucking beat Every little detail in the artwork and video Everything is me A wonderful team and a God that I serve My friends and my mum, my brothers and my girl I don't want short-term success or a banger Man are signing to a sentence, getting lost in the words And it's fine if you sign man it's each to their own But these clones need to know that I'm different from the world Don't compare me to them, they couldn't beat me at my worst It don't matter if I'm rapping or I'm singing on the verse Look People don't get that I'm serious I don't wanna play games no more And I don't wanna talk to these girls no more I can't fuck a girl that's in it for the fame no more And man can't talk on my name no more I give it 5 or 10 minutes 'til your main ting talks She's telling me that they don't talk no more but I'm pretty sure that his wifey knows more No more, no I don't wanna play no more No talks if it isn't money made no more No more, no I don't wanna play no more I don't wanna play no games no more And I don't wanna see my girl no more 'Cause I don't really wanna see her hurt no more My mum telling me that she's gotta stop working and I'm telling mummy you ain't gotta work no more No more, mummy you ain't gotta hurt no more You ain't gotta cry in your shirt no more Mummy you ain't gotta wake up for work in the freezing cold in the middle of the night for a cheque no more Mummy you ain't gotta cry no more You ain't gotta stress in the night no more And I ain't gotta say no more We ain't playing games no more
you gotta release this my g i read this whole thing and you have a genuine story to tell man i hope you do something with it cause you really need to, much love bro i wish you success and i lvoe the lyricd ❤
I spent my 19th birthday in the hospital With my brother and my mum And I know it sounds dumb but I felt like I lost it all The pain's compulsory, suffering's optional Takeshi's castle, my life's got obstacles I'm still dealing with a whole load of stress I see my older brother so close to the edge And that there put a hole in my chest And then they tell you home's where the heart is But I got a hole where my heart is Because I let a hoe where my heart is Never again, I had to tell her that we're better as friends I never messaged again Every message I send, ends up in a groupchat 'Cause girls go and tell all their friends That's one of many reasons why I ain't sending DMs Look, I'm gonna keep this cake and I'm gonna eat this cake That's why I'm living three lives, I'm in GTA I'm in Los Angeles driving a Mercedes and it's funny because honestly I didn't think I'd see LA Surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake, coming I need this money like its EMA You gotta separate the rats from the G's if you can't handle cheese, how the hell you gonna be a great? I need a blazing inferno for my enemies Behind my back I know that everybody sends for me And I'd respond but I don't even have the time I mean, asking Avelino couldn't help me find the energy I don't think my ends want the best for me That's why the question me, fake G checking me Fuck the road but if anybody's testing me It's one step away like a 5-a-side penalty Every Santander Nationwide remembers me Right pocket full of cards, I'm a referee Ain't it funny how this money that I'm getting came from fucking PA's like I'm sleeping with a secretary Secondly, your girlfriend's obsessed with me But that's a story for another day and this is why love is fucked 'Cause you went and put your trust in her and then she sent me nudes I said "Nuh-uh-uh, cover up" I aired it, certain girls I can't respect We're all nothing to someone, and that you can't forget So just remember when the girl's playing hard to get There's probably another person that she's trying hard to get And there's probably a girl in your phone right now that you hardly text That's looking for love But everybody wants what they can't touch, so If you, touch my money you can see what I'm about You can ask your little sister I will be inside your house Eating from your fridge, feet up on your couch Tell your little brother "Butter me a sandwich, spread in evenly amounts" You think I'm playing any games? Why do you think I talk about cars, women and chains On half of the songs I make, materialistic aims Make me feel a way when I want it When I got it, it don't ever feel the same We got different types of problems I'm getting corporate tax on this cash that I'm making And at the same time I need to vanquish my paigons If you think it's dead you're mistaken I'm hot headed and dangerous And still living in this matrix All I wanna do is make my loved ones proud In this year alone we made three hundred thousand But my mum won't smile becuase her son's on trial We've got different types of problems What do you know about living in a shadow Where every single thing that you can do is being tainted 'Cause your brother's in the station and he's ill to the marrow 12 or 13 when I turned into an adult All them kids my age were going TeenFest When I was getting searched by a golden retriever in a Cat. A prison while I'm standing on an arrow We used to have cards and now we're playing with swords My G went from Blackjack to a black Jack Sparrow I know so many man who got a case on their head that would kill to come home But there chances are narrow in this world that we live in Nobody listens, we do have thoughts But nobody's thinking and I get it 'Cause none of us are tyna play the victim Any disrespect then retaliation, instant I know a lot of man have been dodging karma And they think it's all laughter 'til the bitch comes to kiss them You know the difference between life and death is one bad decision, 3 or 4 inches So many man my age have got P.T.S.D and I don't think that it's hit them If you envision, the way that we're living The things that we had seen, situations that we'd been in You would understand why I don't wanna talk about my life in every song I've ever written I really wanna help, but it's out of my control and jurisdiction 'Cause a lot of road yutes have got a sickness, mentally Like, look My mummy always used to tell me this "David, listen when your older's speaking" I know man that listened to their olders speaking And now they're all life'd off and they don't know the reason In a weird way summer is the coldest season You'll get killed at a party for the smallest reason One day you're chilling in secondary Next day your right hand's a memory So when I say that I'm alone, do you know the feeling? When I say the game's over, do you know the meaning? I mean that I don't have the time for this I need a girl but same time there's no time for them I got people inside and I don't write to them It's like I don't feel pain no more I can't do journeys on a train no more Can't shed a tear writing on a page no more I don't wanna play games no more I don't want my friends on a case no more And trust me, I don't want a war on the ends But it's like you wanna start it so say no more I'm too big for this nonsense, I don't need problems Meetings, 1.5 milli ain't an option I don't need a deal or an option In my own neighbourhood Me, Jack, Benny in the office I don't need excel, Sony, drama Our team's faster, street Sam Chara I got a lot of love for everyone that checks for me And a lot of love for certain girls sexually Texting me, saying that she slept on me And definitely wishes that she slept with me Look On another note I wanna say thanks to Carl One of my closest from young and we're still at it now I remember when we learnt to play piano Just to make each other jealous, who'd've thought that we would practice now Your talent's been standing out Be proud of your dream, you should stand and shout I remember last year you never had a clue And this year you went and did "Attitude" Speaking of attitude, it's only right I say sorry for my attitude And I ain't never mad at you Tyrell, Manon, Frasier especially I got a lot of things I'm dealing with mentally I feel down a lot and I ain't got the energy I need all of your help to get the best from me There's way too much to do, I ain't getting sleep And last time I got a rest they arrested me Tell me I treatment for a video I didn't make myself from scratch Every lyric, every melody Every fucking beat Every little detail in the artwork and video Everything is me A wonderful team and a God that I serve My friends and my mum, my brothers and my girl I don't want short-term success or a banger Man are signing to a sentence, getting lost in the words And it's fine if you sign man it's each to their own But these clones need to know that I'm different from the world Don't compare me to them, they couldn't beat me at my worst It don't matter if I'm rapping or I'm singing on the verse Look People don't get that I'm serious I don't wanna play games no more And I don't wanna talk to these girls no more I can't fuck a girl that's in it for the fame no more And man can't talk on my name no more I give it 5 or 10 minutes 'til your main ting talks She's telling me that they don't talk no more but I'm pretty sure that his wifey knows more No more, no I don't wanna play no more No talks if it isn't money made no more No more, no I don't wanna play no more I don't wanna play no games no more And I don't wanna see my girl no more 'Cause I don't really wanna see her hurt no more My mum telling me that she's gotta stop working and I'm telling mummy you ain't gotta work no more No more, mummy you ain't gotta hurt no more You ain't gotta cry in your shirt no more Mummy you ain't gotta wake up for work in the freezing cold in the middle of the night for a cheque no more Mummy you ain't gotta cry no more You ain't gotta stress in the night no more And I ain't gotta say no more We ain't playing games no more
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This beat is amazing
Appreciate that g🙏
Love the slower type vibes on this ⚡️ Melody really chilled out and love that vocal sample in the background 🥶🔥
Thanks g!
Melody is nice asf, subbed
Shit was whacked out now my life’s apart
Then my mum got leukaemia and that’s what broke my heart
I was hurting all along till I went numb from the pain
I aint never tell nobody shit I let it fuel my rage
Why they give a fuck about me
5:08
I love the girl but I don’t have the energy
Cause I don’t trust a girl after what my ex did to me
Tryna keep my nose clean, tryna stay out of trouble
But how can I do that when all my surroundings bring is trouble
Half of me is saying I should conduct myself better
Something that rhymes with better
The other half is saying who gives a fuck what they think,
who gives a fuck what they feel who gives a fuck what they see
I was a good kid I was a nobody to thee and now I’m out on badness and they wanna talk of their loss for respect in me?
Like where the fuck were you then? When that shit WOULDNT end?
Same people who saw me do it hard now acting like we’ve always been friends
And I don’t give a fuck about anyone’s feelings either
Cause no one gave a fuck about mine so now we’re even
Put on a brave face but I cry in my room
Looking in the mirror saying why’s this happen to you?
Depression heisting happy thoughts in mind like it’s a stick up
People hating my anger but never the buildup
And I know that I love her but I put my feelings on the shelf
Cause how can I love her when I don’t even love myself?
Constantly reminding myself life goes on
But even the people closest to me don’t know the shit that goes on
I went from being treated like a peasant to straight royalty
My mum always said stay away from the bad crowds
But mummy it’s the bad crowds that showed the most loyalty
I got big dreams, I got big plans
But it’s almost like every time I’m boutta to hit a milestone shit hits the fan
Whether it be family, friends or the money
Whether it be beef to the point I can’t be seen in public
I remember being a kid couldn’t afford the new freshest shoes
I was a sensitive kid but pain changed my point of view
I was angry at my dad and it reflected through my actions
If my brothers go to war best believe I am there with em
So many young kids are so ready to throw their block up
But listen when I say my friends from young are drug fucked or locked up
And truthfully I don’t even trust my friends
It’s nothing against them that’s just the way that I am
My younger days were feet to the ground but my head in the stars
Watching deals and steals from the backseat of the fams car
In and out of motels big level of independence
School report says 35% attendance
We all play the same game just different levels
We all go through hell we just got different devils
Bars tuff mate
(Yeah) I use to not give a fuck but now I’m giving that a rest cuz you got no other option when your girl feeling depressed and then she try’s to hang her self because her life’s been quite a mess
And there’s no antidote for those thoughts inside your head
Your anxiety reaches and it sparks becomes a threat
And they only time you get to see her is when she’s stuck up on those meds
And you got no damn idea If the shit will ever end
Like as if my life wasn’t already fucked
Now I’m on my own and they say in god we trust
But honestly where is he he’s let me suffer
When things been tough
And my family thinks I’m happy that’s just an image that I’ve created
Fake faces with happy smiles I’ve been doing that verbatim
Easy to do when practice makes perfect
An it’s been your routine for everything with no evasion
(Yea) and that’s the type of shit that makes me switch another note maturity levels growing but you could say I’ve been uncomfortable honestly confused I just need a path to guide me home cuz seems I lost my family in this process I just wanna know
Was it worth it
Every day I spent of my life feeling worthless
So others could feel good inside and stay perfect
Whale I’m the one who dies and gets the casket closed with all my curtains
Cuz I’ve been tripping over shit that I shouldn’t I been nervous
All be honest
Cuz I know I’ve broke a promise
I can’t keep my word if I’m not respecting what I say
And my respect is nothing less then just a thing I cast away because I hate myself so I cursed my life in vain
Yeah reminisce back on the old days
Little kids still in the hallways , happy faces were reality and then we had an off phase
Criminally honest to fake people so all add another cold case
Use to myself as evil now I see I act my own age
(Yeah) and they say I’ve been mysterious they asking why I’m anxious so I ghost em when there curious
I push them all away and then won’t talk to them through periods
It’s not because there fake it’s cuz I can’t look where a mirror is
I dragged myself to a rock bottom it’s been weighing on me heavy so you could say that I can’t become afloat when I drown myself in tears man this gets messy
I neglect all my fears and keep acting like I’m ready
I put on a face when I’m hurt and I say come an test me
When In reality if it did I’d be underwater like a penny
And that’s the fucking truth and most don’t even know it
Girl almost died And I was sad an broken believe when I cried I a kept a river flowing
Not even gonna lie It kinda numbed emotions
The ones that I had I made em fry to nothing
Only time I felt happy is when I tried take a bullet
To bad I didn’t have the guts to pull it ..
life hits hard but it can hit harder,
love comes in the form of a kiss but behind the lips is a tongue that’ll kill faster,
try to run n you’ll trip faster,
sacrifice my life to this craft so i can ball like coach carter,
not no pool of blood but there’s stab marks where i’ve had my heart fed to the red pearly lips of this bitch called karma,
deceive you with smile and laughter,
appear as something you need then reveal that knife,
stab you in the heel guess you could say my achilles’ tendon was having no father.
i got a message for god but idk if that shits still sending or he’s just refusing to answer,
i’m losing the chances,
i don’t feel pain no more but i know where my heart is,
i used to wanna end it all and sometimes i still do but idk where the start is,
i don’t wanna hurt the others around me so i try keep my calm a mask on say i’m fine try not to start on no one but life’s hard and it can get harder.
anger controls my path i don’t like dat but i can’t control dis nada,
i’ve been in dark places but it gets darker,
life’s more than money life’s more than dat,
tryna provide for mummy give her more than dat,
better life give her something dat won’t regret the way that she started,
i’m affected all the way to the core with facts,
never lived in lies caus what’s the point in dat ?
im driven all the way to the core with rap,
forever how ima survive caus that’s the only way i see a sense of joy no cap,
i’m shooting my target,
bows on the ground guns where my palm is,
i ain’t stopping till i know i’m the farthest,
i won’t ever leave when i know i’m the father,
caus i know where that pain leads and i know where that path goes,
just makes life harder,
caus life hits hard but it can hit harder,
14 tryna make my dream come true but i don’t sleep everyday i wake up just to try harder,
write bars so i don’t have to be behind them choosing the right path i’m taking the main course fuck the starter,
i’m so drained from the grind but i’d be gutted if don’t make it bruv life hits hard but i can hit harder,
the struggle is real i mean fuck life the grim reaper is my partner,
death isn’t a fear or a threat it’s a promise and a guarantee but don’t let that stop you from making that green like you a gardener
Tell How you picture this
I feel loads of guilt.
Coz of my trauma I find it fucking hard to endure love.
I got some brothers, but my old ones left when shit got real.
I had a girl, but being nice don leave large shoes to fill
Now my attachment like the last thread on a quilt.
You call it self focus i call it a disorder.
You got your girl flowers, sometimes I’ll ignore her.
For her birthday you’d get her a customised mug, I’ll get her the last Mars bar from around th corner.
Sometimes just socialising leaves me tired and worn out.
Youtes nowadays care about the designer worn out.
It used to be footy on the pitch, now it’s lying about going out.
When the fuck did things take a turn?
You see on socials is just all the
Wassup bro this beat is mad fire🔥 Im tryna use it for a soundcloud demo in the future are you cool with that?
Yo bro, there's a purchase link in the description, sorry I cant give this one out g!
i wanna buy this beat
Link in bio g!
Link in bio g!
im writing something to this, you got social media g
Yes g: insta is @olliehill__
14 years old the lyricism was bold
Wanted to make it big and man would just scold
Making it in music is like finding some gold
But I’ll never stop until my body is cold
Until my body’s slumped over
I didn’t get taken to anything I wanted to do
Call me aitch cause I had to catch the bus down
No one can’t tell me bout my background
That little man saw me and he sat down
I’m tryna make music work I don’t wanna end up in the crack house
So I’ll come back round
With new bars and new flows and new songs
I wasn’t born into poverty, or born into wealth
14 years later of life and I’m questioning my health
Been listening to my music so much that when you hear my tune you gotta skip it
I’m tryna change the world
Some man can’t even change flows
I’ll give it 5 more days and I’ll have a word with avelino
Feels like I got all eyes on me while your selling that tupac
And where’s that gonna get you
Cause when you get caught then you expect your bro’s to press an issue
Mummy’s at home crying
Don’t worry mummy here’s a tissue
She’s screaming out your name and how she miss you
Just because you can rap
Doesn’t mean you should rap
Shooting so many shots call me chiraq
I’ll spin you with a 38
Wait I mean a 32
Wanted to be an actor and still everything I say is true
Yeah everything I say is facts
In fact I’ll probably make some other tracks
And then try make a couple racks
And work my ass off for a golden plaque
Yeah I’m awsome
Drip so hard I’ll make a man nauseous
Step to my man better be cautious
I don’t work I make things work
Picture me, 14, a little mind with big dreams
I never wanted to be no
Rap yute in a tracksuit
Sending for the next gang
Or rap group
I just wanna have my words and my work move views on the earth
Das sick
simple rhymes, dead
Can i use this for profit cah u aint got a link to lease it if you have send it
www.beatstars.com/ohproductions/tracks
sorry bro was meant to update the link a while back
Luv g imma lease it soon got a banger ill still link u in it even if i dont have to
@@OHProd Do u not have an unlimited lease up cause the one on the page says i can get a max of like 50k views
@@yxngm3370 just replied to your message on beat stars bro
What bpm is dis
94 cuz
@@OHProd thanks bro defo the best 19th birthday type beat i could find ur shits hardd
Snare needs to hit a little harder, all together hard beat tho 👏🏼🙏🏼
They ain’t killing it like me
I was like 5 g
Wearing my nightys
Haze or Cali still plug me for 5g
Look at my story I bet u could write me
On the roads is fiends n kids on spice g
ZOOT backstrapped burning it nicely
Bust on all her face is getting slimey
Touch on of the bros then that shit gets pricey
All I know is guns drugs n swinging knifeys
Now my mum told when is it gonna end
I told my mum I ain’t snitching on my friends
From young I was smoking on pens
Cartier shades i wanna drift in a benz
N the glide that i went shit became tense
N ain’t copping grams if it ain’t dense
Throw away penny we doing count pence
Feds in there pergous I’m jumping over fence
spent my 19th birthday in the hospital
With my brother and my mum
And I know it sounds dumb but I felt like I lost it all
The pain's compulsory, suffering's optional
Takeshi's castle, my life's got obstacles
I'm still dealing with a whole load of stress
I see my older brother so close to the edge
And that there put a hole in my chest
And then they tell you home's where the heart is
But I got a hole where my heart is
Because I let a hoe where my heart is
Never again, I had to tell her that we're better as friends
I never messaged again
Every message I send, ends up in a groupchat
'Cause girls go and tell all their friends
That's one of many reasons why I ain't sending DMs
Look, I'm gonna keep this cake and I'm gonna eat this cake
That's why I'm living three lives, I'm in GTA
I'm in Los Angeles driving a Mercedes and it's funny because honestly I didn't think I'd see LA
Surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake, coming
I need this money like its EMA
You gotta separate the rats from the G's if you can't handle cheese, how the hell you gonna be a great?
I need a blazing inferno for my enemies
Behind my back I know that everybody sends for me
And I'd respond but I don't even have the time
I mean, asking Avelino couldn't help me find the energy
I don't think my ends want the best for me
That's why the question me, fake G checking me
Fuck the road but if anybody's testing me
It's one step away like a 5-a-side penalty
Every Santander Nationwide remembers me
Right pocket full of cards, I'm a referee
Ain't it funny how this money that I'm getting came from fucking PA's like I'm sleeping with a secretary
Secondly, your girlfriend's obsessed with me
But that's a story for another day and this is why love is fucked
'Cause you went and put your trust in her and then she sent me nudes
I said "Nuh-uh-uh, cover up"
I aired it, certain girls I can't respect
We're all nothing to someone, and that you can't forget
So just remember when the girl's playing hard to get
There's probably another person that she's trying hard to get
And there's probably a girl in your phone right now that you hardly text
That's looking for love
But everybody wants what they can't touch, so
If you, touch my money you can see what I'm about
You can ask your little sister I will be inside your house
Eating from your fridge, feet up on your couch
Tell your little brother "Butter me a sandwich, spread in evenly amounts"
You think I'm playing any games?
Why do you think I talk about cars, women and chains
On half of the songs I make, materialistic aims
Make me feel a way when I want it
When I got it, it don't ever feel the same
We got different types of problems
I'm getting corporate tax on this cash that I'm making
And at the same time I need to vanquish my paigons
If you think it's dead you're mistaken
I'm hot headed and dangerous
And still living in this matrix
All I wanna do is make my loved ones proud
In this year alone we made three hundred thousand
But my mum won't smile becuase her son's on trial
We've got different types of problems
What do you know about living in a shadow
Where every single thing that you can do is being tainted
'Cause your brother's in the station and he's ill to the marrow
12 or 13 when I turned into an adult
All them kids my age were going TeenFest
When I was getting searched by a golden retriever in a Cat. A prison while I'm standing on an arrow
We used to have cards and now we're playing with swords
My G went from Blackjack to a black Jack Sparrow
I know so many man who got a case on their head that would kill to come home
But there chances are narrow in this world that we live in
Nobody listens, we do have thoughts
But nobody's thinking and I get it
'Cause none of us are tyna play the victim
Any disrespect then retaliation, instant
I know a lot of man have been dodging karma
And they think it's all laughter 'til the bitch comes to kiss them
You know the difference between life and death is one bad decision, 3 or 4 inches
So many man my age have got P.T.S.D and I don't think that it's hit them
If you envision, the way that we're living
The things that we had seen, situations that we'd been in
You would understand why I don't wanna talk about my life in every song I've ever written
I really wanna help, but it's out of my control and jurisdiction
'Cause a lot of road yutes have got a sickness, mentally
Like, look
My mummy always used to tell me this
"David, listen when your older's speaking"
I know man that listened to their olders speaking
And now they're all life'd off and they don't know the reason
In a weird way summer is the coldest season
You'll get killed at a party for the smallest reason
One day you're chilling in secondary
Next day your right hand's a memory
So when I say that I'm alone, do you know the feeling?
When I say the game's over, do you know the meaning?
I mean that I don't have the time for this
I need a girl but same time there's no time for them
I got people inside and I don't write to them
It's like I don't feel pain no more
I can't do journeys on a train no more
Can't shed a tear writing on a page no more
I don't wanna play games no more
I don't want my friends on a case no more
And trust me, I don't want a war on the ends
But it's like you wanna start it so say no more
I'm too big for this nonsense, I don't need problems
Meetings, 1.5 milli ain't an option
I don't need a deal or an option
In my own neighbourhood
Me, Jack, Benny in the office
I don't need excel, Sony, drama
Our team's faster, street Sam Chara
I got a lot of love for everyone that checks for me
And a lot of love for certain girls sexually
Texting me, saying that she slept on me
And definitely wishes that she slept with me
Look
On another note I wanna say thanks to Carl
One of my closest from young and we're still at it now
I remember when we learnt to play piano
Just to make each other jealous, who'd've thought that we would practice now
Your talent's been standing out
Be proud of your dream, you should stand and shout
I remember last year you never had a clue
And this year you went and did "Attitude"
Speaking of attitude, it's only right I say sorry for my attitude
And I ain't never mad at you
Tyrell, Manon, Frasier especially
I got a lot of things I'm dealing with mentally
I feel down a lot and I ain't got the energy
I need all of your help to get the best from me
There's way too much to do, I ain't getting sleep
And last time I got a rest they arrested me
Tell me I treatment for a video I didn't make myself from scratch
Every lyric, every melody
Every fucking beat
Every little detail in the artwork and video
Everything is me
A wonderful team and a God that I serve
My friends and my mum, my brothers and my girl
I don't want short-term success or a banger
Man are signing to a sentence, getting lost in the words
And it's fine if you sign man it's each to their own
But these clones need to know that I'm different from the world
Don't compare me to them, they couldn't beat me at my worst
It don't matter if I'm rapping or I'm singing on the verse
Look
People don't get that I'm serious
I don't wanna play games no more
And I don't wanna talk to these girls no more
I can't fuck a girl that's in it for the fame no more
And man can't talk on my name no more
I give it 5 or 10 minutes 'til your main ting talks
She's telling me that they don't talk no more but I'm pretty sure that his wifey knows more
No more, no I don't wanna play no more
No talks if it isn't money made no more
No more, no I don't wanna play no more
I don't wanna play no games no more
And I don't wanna see my girl no more
'Cause I don't really wanna see her hurt no more
My mum telling me that she's gotta stop working and I'm telling mummy you ain't gotta work no more
No more, mummy you ain't gotta hurt no more
You ain't gotta cry in your shirt no more
Mummy you ain't gotta wake up for work in the freezing cold in the middle of the night for a cheque no more
Mummy you ain't gotta cry no more
You ain't gotta stress in the night no more
And I ain't gotta say no more
We ain't playing games no more
you gotta release this my g i read this whole thing and you have a genuine story to tell man i hope you do something with it cause you really need to, much love bro i wish you success and i lvoe the lyricd ❤
@@officialsenoyt lol thats 19th birthday lyrics from dave and its already a song and it is beautiful. game over album final track
I made a song Called Accused pt. 3 Liar using this beat I would appreciate it if you listen to it
I spent my 19th birthday in the hospital
With my brother and my mum
And I know it sounds dumb but I felt like I lost it all
The pain's compulsory, suffering's optional
Takeshi's castle, my life's got obstacles
I'm still dealing with a whole load of stress
I see my older brother so close to the edge
And that there put a hole in my chest
And then they tell you home's where the heart is
But I got a hole where my heart is
Because I let a hoe where my heart is
Never again, I had to tell her that we're better as friends
I never messaged again
Every message I send, ends up in a groupchat
'Cause girls go and tell all their friends
That's one of many reasons why I ain't sending DMs
Look, I'm gonna keep this cake and I'm gonna eat this cake
That's why I'm living three lives, I'm in GTA
I'm in Los Angeles driving a Mercedes and it's funny because honestly I didn't think I'd see LA
Surprise birthday party I didn't see this cake, coming
I need this money like its EMA
You gotta separate the rats from the G's if you can't handle cheese, how the hell you gonna be a great?
I need a blazing inferno for my enemies
Behind my back I know that everybody sends for me
And I'd respond but I don't even have the time
I mean, asking Avelino couldn't help me find the energy
I don't think my ends want the best for me
That's why the question me, fake G checking me
Fuck the road but if anybody's testing me
It's one step away like a 5-a-side penalty
Every Santander Nationwide remembers me
Right pocket full of cards, I'm a referee
Ain't it funny how this money that I'm getting came from fucking PA's like I'm sleeping with a secretary
Secondly, your girlfriend's obsessed with me
But that's a story for another day and this is why love is fucked
'Cause you went and put your trust in her and then she sent me nudes
I said "Nuh-uh-uh, cover up"
I aired it, certain girls I can't respect
We're all nothing to someone, and that you can't forget
So just remember when the girl's playing hard to get
There's probably another person that she's trying hard to get
And there's probably a girl in your phone right now that you hardly text
That's looking for love
But everybody wants what they can't touch, so
If you, touch my money you can see what I'm about
You can ask your little sister I will be inside your house
Eating from your fridge, feet up on your couch
Tell your little brother "Butter me a sandwich, spread in evenly amounts"
You think I'm playing any games?
Why do you think I talk about cars, women and chains
On half of the songs I make, materialistic aims
Make me feel a way when I want it
When I got it, it don't ever feel the same
We got different types of problems
I'm getting corporate tax on this cash that I'm making
And at the same time I need to vanquish my paigons
If you think it's dead you're mistaken
I'm hot headed and dangerous
And still living in this matrix
All I wanna do is make my loved ones proud
In this year alone we made three hundred thousand
But my mum won't smile becuase her son's on trial
We've got different types of problems
What do you know about living in a shadow
Where every single thing that you can do is being tainted
'Cause your brother's in the station and he's ill to the marrow
12 or 13 when I turned into an adult
All them kids my age were going TeenFest
When I was getting searched by a golden retriever in a Cat. A prison while I'm standing on an arrow
We used to have cards and now we're playing with swords
My G went from Blackjack to a black Jack Sparrow
I know so many man who got a case on their head that would kill to come home
But there chances are narrow in this world that we live in
Nobody listens, we do have thoughts
But nobody's thinking and I get it
'Cause none of us are tyna play the victim
Any disrespect then retaliation, instant
I know a lot of man have been dodging karma
And they think it's all laughter 'til the bitch comes to kiss them
You know the difference between life and death is one bad decision, 3 or 4 inches
So many man my age have got P.T.S.D and I don't think that it's hit them
If you envision, the way that we're living
The things that we had seen, situations that we'd been in
You would understand why I don't wanna talk about my life in every song I've ever written
I really wanna help, but it's out of my control and jurisdiction
'Cause a lot of road yutes have got a sickness, mentally
Like, look
My mummy always used to tell me this
"David, listen when your older's speaking"
I know man that listened to their olders speaking
And now they're all life'd off and they don't know the reason
In a weird way summer is the coldest season
You'll get killed at a party for the smallest reason
One day you're chilling in secondary
Next day your right hand's a memory
So when I say that I'm alone, do you know the feeling?
When I say the game's over, do you know the meaning?
I mean that I don't have the time for this
I need a girl but same time there's no time for them
I got people inside and I don't write to them
It's like I don't feel pain no more
I can't do journeys on a train no more
Can't shed a tear writing on a page no more
I don't wanna play games no more
I don't want my friends on a case no more
And trust me, I don't want a war on the ends
But it's like you wanna start it so say no more
I'm too big for this nonsense, I don't need problems
Meetings, 1.5 milli ain't an option
I don't need a deal or an option
In my own neighbourhood
Me, Jack, Benny in the office
I don't need excel, Sony, drama
Our team's faster, street Sam Chara
I got a lot of love for everyone that checks for me
And a lot of love for certain girls sexually
Texting me, saying that she slept on me
And definitely wishes that she slept with me
Look
On another note I wanna say thanks to Carl
One of my closest from young and we're still at it now
I remember when we learnt to play piano
Just to make each other jealous, who'd've thought that we would practice now
Your talent's been standing out
Be proud of your dream, you should stand and shout
I remember last year you never had a clue
And this year you went and did "Attitude"
Speaking of attitude, it's only right I say sorry for my attitude
And I ain't never mad at you
Tyrell, Manon, Frasier especially
I got a lot of things I'm dealing with mentally
I feel down a lot and I ain't got the energy
I need all of your help to get the best from me
There's way too much to do, I ain't getting sleep
And last time I got a rest they arrested me
Tell me I treatment for a video I didn't make myself from scratch
Every lyric, every melody
Every fucking beat
Every little detail in the artwork and video
Everything is me
A wonderful team and a God that I serve
My friends and my mum, my brothers and my girl
I don't want short-term success or a banger
Man are signing to a sentence, getting lost in the words
And it's fine if you sign man it's each to their own
But these clones need to know that I'm different from the world
Don't compare me to them, they couldn't beat me at my worst
It don't matter if I'm rapping or I'm singing on the verse
Look
People don't get that I'm serious
I don't wanna play games no more
And I don't wanna talk to these girls no more
I can't fuck a girl that's in it for the fame no more
And man can't talk on my name no more
I give it 5 or 10 minutes 'til your main ting talks
She's telling me that they don't talk no more but I'm pretty sure that his wifey knows more
No more, no I don't wanna play no more
No talks if it isn't money made no more
No more, no I don't wanna play no more
I don't wanna play no games no more
And I don't wanna see my girl no more
'Cause I don't really wanna see her hurt no more
My mum telling me that she's gotta stop working and I'm telling mummy you ain't gotta work no more
No more, mummy you ain't gotta hurt no more
You ain't gotta cry in your shirt no more
Mummy you ain't gotta wake up for work in the freezing cold in the middle of the night for a cheque no more
Mummy you ain't gotta cry no more
You ain't gotta stress in the night no more
And I ain't gotta say no more
We ain't playing games no more
are these meant to be your lyrics (-_-)
@@milespeniamina8499 its 19th birthday by dave
Mach mir lieber keinen Kopf
Ich geh in meinem block
Und lasse meinen Song
Ich will hunderte Milionen