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U know that moment u want to cry but u can't? As if you're internally crying but can't even shed one single drop of tear? That, that's my exact feeling right now.
Same I’m never 👌🏽 & I went through so much but I couldn’t tell anyone bc even when I tell my closest friend how I feel she just always says K to everything then other ppl say why is it always about them (the ppl being mean)
I do this wean im tired of that question,always asking me am i ok,like they really care,if they did,they would have listened me wean i do tell them,not tell me to shut up
mom/dad: why don’t you ever talk about you’re problems? my mind: you judge my mind: you will tell me that’s it’s not a big deal my mind: you tell me i’ll be okay me: i don’t have any.
I told my mom that I'm depressed and that I keep help but to think about ending my life. And she just got mad and ask me to not kill myself in the house for respect of her. And everyone else in my life just think that I'm joking but I'm not and it makes me sad
XxgachanightwolfxX NighteolfxX yeah, it's the same with me and I never learn my lesson. Which is why I never got help until someone saw me and realised that I was not just "tired"
••Toxic Melody•• I know in my head that we need to tell them what's wrong or say no when they ask if we are ok but for some reason we lie to them and suffer even more inside. One time, I lied to my French teacher and she knew straight away nothing was ok because she was going through the exact same thing at the time but only ever showed it once in the middle of class, me and my classmate were the only ones who noticed. Turns out now we take the same medication and same doctor also which we kinda freaked out but now we know that we both have sever depression, we check up on eachother a couple times a day, everyday which feels really nice knowing I have someone to support and someone to support me
Before going to bed. Take a moment and think of the most fun and happy thinks you have done so far in life and think of the moments when you smile a lot with friends and family. Then go bed with a huge smile on your face no one can them away from you. They are yours and only yours alone.
I know that feeling.. sometimes you just want to cry so badly but you can't shed even a single teardrop.. it just doesn't come out even though you want it badly
And you can feel yourself tearing apart on the inside but on the outside all you can do is smile and act like everything's OK because that is what you've gotten so used to doing
Sometimes, me and inside of me talk about this. "Hey, are you not tired?" "Tired of what?" "Tired of pretending." "Of course I'm tired but I just can't stop and tell them that I'm not okay." "Then why?" "Because I'm scared." "Scared of what?" "Scared that they don't care about what I'm saying and scared that they will think me as attention seeking, drama queen, or etc." "Yeah, you right. It makes sense."
Damn!!!! It's like she stole my feelings and wrote it down! 💔 Dear, the one reading this, hold on, pain ends. it's not gonna be there forever. I know for me it's been more than a year and a half. I'm still the same but didn't stop fighting, the inner thoughts, the negative comments and my demons. that's all a part of life, and we all have to survive through it. just hold on, you can, we can make it through. with loads of love.
“are you feeling alright?” they ask “what’s wrong?” they wonder “what do you feel?” they say it feels like i’m drowning. but I can see everyone around me breathing.
Same here They ask -hi, how's your day been -hi, how are you -are you ok -how do you feel to day -how's your breakfast/lunch/dinner They ask many other thing, but I answer all of them in a same answer, always the same -good I answer that way, always that way, and no one know that, the real answer is in my head - no, I am not ok, I'm drowning, I can't breath, I'm lonely, I want/need to cry, I need someone to calm me, everything is tough for me now, in school and home, everything is tough. I keep yelling it in my head, and of course no one can hear it.
This hit me so deep, especially the ending. I say this to everyone. “Don’t worry about me. I’m fine.” I guess I never realized though that I wasn’t okay.
Let talk to here... Be real.. Explain the deepest darkest parts of your depression, explain this is not puberty but something else that you understand she may not understand but is still real.... Stay strong brother... Much love x
The people in my class say I’m fake just because I hide my depression under a mask of fake happiness so they leave me in the dark and stop being friends with me
Me:*had a panic attack and is crying* Mom:*laughs* Sister:*laughs* Brother:*laughs* Later on Mom:what's wrong Me:nothing Mom:bull, what's wrong Me:nothing! Mom:ok your sister is out of the car, what's wrong! Me:NOTHING Mom:OH BULL, what's wrong! Me:I SAID NOTHING! Mom:ok then In my mind:I wish I could tell her but she'll just laugh again
Try to find a friend someone who you can talk you and that you can trust who won't laugh at your problems or the way you are. When others laugh at you just because they think it's fun or just think your lying then they are not meant to be your family. I hope you find someone who can help you with your problems.
You are so important for this world. You don't even know how much. And one day, you'll find someone who sees it. But mostly, if you start repeating that to yourself every sigle day, you will belive it. And you will know you're worth loving, and listening, and caring for.
It doesn't have to be your mom. You could talk to anyone you trust or just get a therapist. Find the reason why you feel that way and learn/grow from it
I told my freind about my drepression.i cried. She laughed. "Youre gonna be fine" she says "Get out if your bed" she says "Stop being rude to me" she says "Fine. Lets just stop being friends"...she says..... Dont feel anything. Im numb. Not important. People are not helping. Im just 10... Cant handle this. Im not okay.
Taehyung's heart-faceu doggo me too. I'm 11, and my mother abandoned me at three. My fathers is a drug addict, and my brother is convinced I'm Satan. My nana is here, and I love her, but she does get it. I'm almost alone in this world. I can take it. Without my vest friend, I wouldve died a long time ago. A very long time ago.
Friend : hey how are you? My mind: *everythings fucked up..every day seems to be getting darker and darker..everythings so blurred and emotion isnt what it used to be like 6 years back when i was a little kid that didnt have problems or at least..i didnt see stuff in that perspective back then..you know everytime i look at the railing of the balcony i wanna jump..jump and get relieved from all this shit..suicidal thoughts and self harm because i fucking hate myself..some people call me "cute" and shit like that but it doesnt matter since i dont see it..* My mouth: im fine
Alexia T. Don’t ever jump .... I understand u But their are people that care about but they may not act like it. But if u ever jumped the people that love u will always jump next.. :/
I know how you feel Im tired of getting made fun of Im tired of feeling Like crap everyday Im tired of being unlucky! I dont Want to hurt my self and I won't! But I also dont want to be sad anymore but the pain just wont go away!💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭thank you! 👍👍👍👍
Please dont hurt yourself Im Broken and depressed to But cutting wont solve any problems its just gonna cause harm to everyone else. I know the pain you Feel....😔
Wow - did that hit home - I've been screaming those exact words silently inside everyday for nearly 58yrs now - my biggest fear is the day i am asked by someone whom truly cares, "Are You Ok ? I'm here for you, can we just talk & see where it goes ?" - at which point i will crumble into millions of pieces & cry like never before - this is the most beautiful confession of self I've ever seen or heard - i admire the courage & strength it took to put it out there - absolutely beautiful - thank you for just being you !
Me - I think I'm depressed Friends - just your girl development you will get over it 2 years later - Me - I'm depressed Friends - sorry we aren't friends with depressed goths Boy in my class - are you ok? Me - I'm fine just not okay
Depression & anxiety please have mercy on your self and your loved ones your family life is very precious look at those who can’t see but still leading a happy life waana live happy look at those who don’t have enough but still trying believe me it hurts when you know that your soul belongs to someone who is not caring enough but think this way love is even more beautiful when it’s not divided into two persons it’s all yours you don’t need someone to love you back you can love them without them it’s all yours yes it becomes very beautiful unconditional love I hope you understand what I mean
It is good that you express these thoughts, So we learn to know How your soul is feeling. We do care about you and your soul, you make a difference in our lives. In mine right now. You remind me right now of myself being at that point 21 years ago... DON'T do it. Get yourself hospitalised to protect yourself against yourself NOW ! Make that phonecall! And Stay Alive. I love you to LIVE 🌸🦋🌼💐.
Hey if u look at this and I really hope u do then just know u can talk to me if u ever need anything. I won’t judge or anything I’ll happily just listen to everything if that’s what u need.
You wake up and go through the motions. U try ur hardest to be happy. And ur body automatically reacts the way u used to. U seem fine. But every emotion u show.... U dont FEEL it. Its not real. And you get home at night and u will do ur work, then u sit and think. Thats one of the worst decisions. U think and u begin to cry. But u welcome it because it us the only thing u feel. And u sob and cry. You get something to scratch urself with, hoping to find that ur arm still has feeling. And u scratch till u bleed because its the only thing u have left that u can count on. Its predictable. The harder u scratch, the more it hurts. The more u scratch, the more it bleeds. Its dependable. So u keep on. And it gets over the top. Every day is the same. And everyday u dont want to get out of bed, and usually ur forced. U dont have the motivation. But what can u do? Nothing. Because depression isnt going to wash away like dort on ur hand. It will probably never fade completely. Because it has been there. And it never fully leaves.
@ zo mister Finally there is someone out there who scratches there arms like me, now at least I don’t feel so alone. Anyway thanks for ur comment it rly helps me
that was a beautiful way of describing it. I’m sorry this is happening to u and to me and to all of us. But from experience u feel like ur not alone once u talk to ppl especially professionals. It’s gets better eventually. I have no clue whether it goes away cos im not there yet but hang on. Be kind to urself, and please find people who understand and want to help you. I hope u get through it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
When I tell my mom that I got the highest grade in math she just look at me and walk away I feel like I want to be alone but when my brother talk to them about his grade they look so happy. I said to myself " it's unfair when I said to them my highest grade they just walked away but when my brother tell thet he got the highest grade they look so happy" I cried to my room everynight but when i with them i always smiling to hide my pain they just unfair 😢😢😢
I have a problem like that. I would show my mum drawings I done and she will just look at it then say nothing and sometimes I feel like I put all my energy into for nothing. But then soon I found out my mum didn't had to say about it the drawing tells you. If your happy stay happy do not ever let yourself down. If you get high greads be very proud of your self for it. Throw your self a small party only for you to enjoy and no one else ruin or get a friend to join you they will help. If you have problems if you trust your brother tell him what's going on, he will help or a friend they will always be there for you no matter what. If there's no one to talk too... I want you to be in your room all on you own, look outside the window let your mind wonder off take in every little detail for a moment. Breath calmly close your eyes say a small pray or in your mind. It will help alot trust me
*Let me tell you about myself* (Im 17 years old, a little but idiot and pretty ugly in my eyes) I used to live in the US (Im Arabic but really white and blonde) and people used to be very racist to me at school because I was born in Jordan/Amman. I think this caused my current social anxiety. I never told my mom because I was afraid shed go to school and make a fuss about it. I only told her I didn't have friends and her only option was for me to change schools, which was something I wasn't gonna do so she didn't really do much. She was also very bad tempered when I was young. I moved back to Jordan at age 10. I have had social anxiety since I was a little kid, this led to me isolating myself from my whole family and most of my schools. I don't even go out with friends anymore. I don't drink or smoke or anything which is also a huge part of this. I don't have any close friends who I trust and I've never had a girlfriend because, who would want to go out with the ugly lonely nobody in the school? My parents don;t like me. They're proud of my brother who has won various international tennis championships and my sister who gets awesome grades and does pretty much everything perfectly. Im useless. I dont do anything right nor do I know how to do much. I've tried lots of activities in the past but as I said before, I cant get along with people and I cant really enjoy doing stuff alone like drawing or writing. My parents complain about everything I do. Im depressed and I find it impossible to get good grades and concentrate at school (I think I may have a medical condition) so they yell and start taking away all my stuff (phone, pc, consoles) for a while and complain because I still don;t get good grades after they do this. I've tried to tell them Im depressed and life is getting really hard and heavy on me. Ive even told them that I don;t care about school anymore because all I want is to pass. Not to get good grades. I tell them to please stop making me feel like shit because they complain about every step I take. They say they'll try, but this is always a lie. They just keep on acting like nothing happened and everything is fine. I don;t go to family reunions or parties or anything and I've started to lock myself up in my room everyday, only going out a few times to get food or to walk my dog. I can't believe they think that everything is fine in my life or that they just don;t care. I've thought about suicide constantly for the last few years but cant get to actually killing myself because Im kinda scared of death. Since I hate seeing blood I don;t cut myself but I do stuff like hit my leg until its very hard to walk or just punching the wall until I cant do it anymore. One time I fractured my hand but just hid it from everyone because I knew they wouldn't care. I lost all motivation in my life and now Im about to finish high school without ever having a girlfriend or a kiss. My youth sucked. My life is going nowhere and I don;t know what to do. I don;t trust anyone. I don;t like people. I have nowhere to go and I hate myself. What should I do? Kill myself? Wait to see what happens? People say life will get better but this isn't true. Not for the last almost 18 years. Each year has been worse than the last. I hope someday Ill read this and say, wow, Im glad my life is good now. If you read it all, thank you ❤ *and don't subscribe to my channel :D*
Hi, I've read and identified myself with many things you said... Just be patient, I know, it sounds very cliché, but let's hope. If you want to talk about anything, I'm here for you.
I once stood in my living room, I was home alone for the first time in a while. I felt the feeling of complete, absolute *silence* for the first time in forever. And I couldn't think of anything to think about to distract me from it. I didn't have my phone with me to play a song to drown out the *silence* . And I realized that I'm going to spend my whole life hearing this *nonexistent sound* because I'm too *difficult* for people to understand. I didn't hardly get any sleep that night. Or the night after that. Because Insomnia is another issue.
I feel like everyone on here. I have an amazing fiancee, 3 beautiful kids and a lovely house and yet I feel nothing apart from emptiness and go through the motions every single day to make it look like everything's fine to everyone around me. Every night I go to sleep hoping it's my last night in this torturous nightmare of my life
Arianna Heart honestly I have insomnia too. If I told my mom why I have it she wouldn’t believe me. Why, you might be thinking? Well, it’s because I’ve gotten so good at lying and pretending that it makes me seem like the sweetest, happiest person, but sometimes the brightest smiles are the ones who are going through the most.
I r not worthless one day or name is going to be somewhere and I will be proud. Stay strong and know that there's always hope at the end of the tunnel. Stay safe
these words literally brings me into tears i love him but i choose to stay away from him bcz of my anxiety and depression.and its so tough and horrible
Thank you so much for posting this. I was heavily depressed last year after my ex gf broke up with me. I was a mess. And until now I had no idea how to describe that feeling of depression. Telling people that your fine when your not! I lived in a body with no soul. I didn't know what I was doing. I just ate (barely), got dressed and went to work. I wanted to die. Luckily I'm stronger now. My family and friends are what I needed to help me. But this video brings back so many memories and feelings. Feelings that I don't want to forget. I want to remember what depression feels like. I want to remember how heartbreak feels. Because i never want to make myself vulnerable to those things again! Thank you for posting this!
Take care you sound young you have all your life ahead of you don’t let depression get hold on you will make you ill I have suffered depression most my life now addicted to tablets loosing my mum 33 years ago my dad my husband his 2 brothers and this year lost my grandson 11/1/2018 I love them all they are together but my pain won’t go away when I lost my grandson 25 so stay strong take care
i was depressed many times in my life even i decided to end my life .my age is 21 year i got so much pain from my family.i seen every colour of people so i decided i only love my self now first priorty of my life is myself.so be brave and forget your past live with present peoples and relations are gone with its time
I have struggled for the past 10 years with my depression, and now I realized it's okay not to be okay. It's also okay to tell people you're not mentally well. The first step into becoming better is admitting you're not okay and need a helping hand. Remember, as big as this world is we are loved. We have a purpose. Though it may take years to find it, that purpose will show. Never give up on yourself.
This totally hit me, it's true that I don't wanna worry them about me, because ugh it's hard to explain. And this free audio video totally hit me because I'm one of those who wear mask on their faces, I always pretend that I'm okay,I'm fine but the truth is I'm broken I'm drowning I don't know what to do, it sucks! I don't want to be emotional here guys but I can't help it sorry for the bother.
Bother? Never !! Worry about you? Always. Hard to explain? Can I try? (well, I will anyway - so there !!) I think (based on my education, and experience) that what you are feeling is akin to nausea. When we've got that, it feels like we'll never get over it - but we always do !! I hate to seem to try to simplify what you're going through, but that's the closest analogy I can come up with, on short notice. Give me some time, I'll (at least try to) do better. Know this, you WILL feel better - I swear. If I'm wrong (almost never), I'll refund your money. Honest! (or give you a HELLUVA deal on a used car)
Sometimes I hurry so bad I can't put my feelings into words... Well I stumbled upon this in a heart breaking search for songs and it said it perfectly!!!! Thank you for posting this song!!!!!
Yea this msg is just the same life what I am going through in my daily life .Living without anyone care . Struggle for everything for daily life that no one knows about it .Thank you for sharing .God blessed you all.🙏🙏🙏❤️
Praise God! This is me in every way. At this moment I’m fine, but not ok!! The words you used to explain how you feel, are the words I’ve been looking for 🙁 Thank you for sharing and posting
Sonya McDaniel u must clean your tears to think that this world can't wish to walk with those who cry bcz this world wish to walk with those who smile. Love is die long time ago bcz of some foolish now mostly love does not exist people use other still they not have other option. Its so hard to have a true lover n also identified him/her.
I felt it so badly!! This is all what's going on from last 4 months. And saddest part is, you can do whatever you want.. But what you actually want can be done by someone who don't want anything from you not even love not even presence. Each morning waking up by thinking, may be today things will turn right.. And while waiting the whole day passes in a flash..
I don’t cry often. That’s because I really can’t. To me, crying doesn’t fix anything. It’s basically pointless. It’s just sitting there thinking about whatever it is making me sad really gets me. That’s where all my deep thoughts go to tear me apart and rip all the happiness left in my soul out. It’s emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausting to think that much. I just kinda sit there, and think about all the bad possibilities there are, and all the bad reasons about whatever and whoever I’m with, etc. People always ask, “you don’t cry?” and i just answer truthfully, “I just think.”.
Dear MoCe... Aq dpt merasakan apa yg kau alami.. menurut aq, kamu tidak dapat merasakan apa arti kebahagiaan, karena apapun yg kamu inginkan, semua dpt dgn mudah didapatkan tanpa perjuangan yg berarti. Sehingga kamu lupa cara bersyukur.. lupa bahwa semua yg kamu dapatkan adalah atas pemberian dr Allah Azza Wa Jalla.. Berbeda dg aq, semua yg aq inginkan tidaklah mudah didapatkan dan butuh perjuangan..Sehingga ketika aq mendapatkan apa yg pernah aq idam2kan, aq merasakan kebahagiaan yg amat sangat..dan aq selalu bersyukur.. Dan jika kamu tidak pernah merasakan kesedihan, karena kamu tidak pernah merasakan kehilangan sesuatu yg sangat berharga dihidupmu..dan hatimu sudah beku.. karena kamu gak pernah merasakan kepedihan orang2 yg hidupnya tidak seberuntung kamu.. Berbeda dgnku... Aq bisa menangis sedih jika melihat orang lain yg hidupnya menderita... Andaikan aq bisa memberikan sesuatu yg mereka butuhkan, aq merasakan kebahagiaan.. Kamu menjalankan aktifitas sehari hari tanpa jiwamu... itu karena kamu tinggal dg orang2 yg tidak kamu cintai.. Seperti makan nasi dg lauk pauk, tp kamu tidak merasakan nikmatnya masakan yg sedang dimakan.. yg kamu rasakan hanya kenyang.. sedih yaa.. MoCe, mulai saat ini rubahlah gaya hidupmu... Lebih medekatkan diri kpd Allah Azza Wa Jalla, karena itu adalah kunci segalanya.. Bacalah Al Quran setiap hari beserta artinya. Dan datanglah ke majelis2 ilmu... Berkumpullah dg orang2 yg soleh dan solehah .. jangan berteman dg orang2 yg membawamu ke dunia maksiat.. Jauhilah narkoba dan minuman keras.. karena semua itu yg dapat membuat hatimu seperti batu.. dan jauh dr ridho-NYA. MoCe, aq ingin kamu menjauhi dunia malam yg sudah merusak akhlakmu.. ayolah... andaikan kamu menginginkan kematian, itu tdk akan menyelesaikan masalahmu di dunia dan akherat... Apakah kamu sudah menyiapkan perbekalanmu utk perjalanan jauh ke akherat ??.. ingatlah..semua perbuatan kita didunia akan diminta pertanggung jawabannya di akherat nanti.. Hartamu yg melimpah dipergunakan untuk apa saja... MoCe..Aq sangat menyayangimu... Meskipun dahulu kamu menolak menikahiku, aq tetap peduli dan sayang.. Bertemu dan berpisah karena Allah Azza Wa Jalla... Ayo bangkitlah.. Semangat hidup lagi.. Berjuanglah keluar dr lingkaran setan.. Jauhi sex bebas dan pesta minuman keras... Aq ingin kamu yg dulu... Kamu yg berpedoman hidup dgn Al Quran dan sunah Rosul.. Yaa.. Seorang laki2 yg cerdas, sangat menyayangi ibu kandungnya dan tidak pernah meninggalkan sholat 5 waktu dan mengaji..
Oh girl, you just read my heart, ♥️. We're not alone.... We are ok... We're just different 😉, we're the chosen ones. We're blessed 🙏❤️🐦 a flower to you, my sister in God🌹.
They always ask what’s wrong instead of trying to help.... They always say ‘you’ll be fine’ when you know you won’t..... You have to keep hanging out with the ‘cool’ kids even though they insult you at every turn...... But hey I’m just a person writing a comment, you didn’t have to listen to me..... You can just leave like all the others did.... Not even my fantasies, can help me now.... I think this audio has a very deep meaning behind it.... It’s saying something like, ‘You know how I’ve been telling you I’m ok? Well I’m not, if you could even notice’ We all have felt sad... Do you know what it’s like..? Do you, dear reader understand? ‘Depression is like drowning... But you can see everyone else around you.... Breathing....’
That's my line to say I'm fine, when really I am dying inside, we can't change the past, only try to move forward as much as it hurts inside. I pretend that I'm strong and will be ok, but keep fighting the loveliness, of missing the one that I love, he left me 5 months ago for another, I let him go because he loved someone else. I try to be Happy but I just cry. I have got to get out of this depression somehow...
Cathy Tharington I hope you’re ok. Please know you’re not alone. Stay strong. It’s going to be ok. I know life gets hard sometimes, I’ve been there. But at the end of the day, you will always have yourself no matter what. Stay strong. Keep fighting the battle. Maybe try and do some things with your day that you enjoy. Some things that will make you happy. But remember, no storm lasts forever. Keep your head up. You matter, you are needed on this earth. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always here. ❤️❤️❤️
Same here Im not ok Im sad People at school Are mean to em and donr like me for who I am And Im going throught so mich and it hurts bc No one but a few people Understand me and my pain!💔😥😥😭😭😭😭I dont know what happened I keep Suffering and pretending that Im ok but Im really Not!💔💔💔😭😭😭 Thank you for this.....💖😥
I heard this and feelings came over me because I have said these same things ! Often times we lose ourselves in the situation we’re in and forget who we really are! I hope whoever said this is saved before it’s too late! We can never forget that we are worth so much more than just a body existing! Love is to be loved and to show it we must be happy with ourselves! Stay positive and know someone’s opinion is exactly that! An opinion! Don’t let it defy who you are. God is your only judge and we should always tell those we love that you love them! Bless everyone who reads this!
I once told me mom that I thought I was depressed, I was feeling really low for a while and I would cry at night, I hated myself and I wasn’t sleeping. She then told me that it’s because I’m on my phone at night. I’m too scared to express my feeling she cause now I know no one wants to deal with them
The last 3 lines are so meaningful to me at this point of my life.' I don't want you to worry about me, I don't want anybody to worry about me, I'm fine, but I'm not OK.'
Jesus is a real person and not a religion. He is LIGHT in a dark and lonely world. God IS the very epitome of LOVE. May He richly bless you in all parts of your life. AMEN
I feel the same way. That feeling has been with me for years now. I donot know how to tell people. I donot think they can understand because to be honest I don't understand it myself. Everything just lost all their colours and I feel empty and numb. But I can't tell anyone. Bearing that feeling on your own is not easy. Afterwards, that feeling turns into suicidal thoughts. It keeps eating me up inside. I believe that things will get better but for now, its hard, and even harder when you're all alone in this.
This hit me so deep that I almost broke in tears. I felt this so many times, and I'm that type of person who is very sensitive. Those days I feel really depressed, I just can't feel nothing. Happiness, sadness, rage... Those feelings... Are nothing to me. I don't find a point on feeling something, because It just gets to the point where I just think that I'm dead inside and nobody else can save me. It just feels like I'm drowing. I can't breath, and I just see everybody else wondering why I just can't get out the water. Everytime I just feel that I wanna end my life, I just remember how many people *actually* cared about me and put their hope in me. If I die... Everybody else's hope will die with me.
Woah woah woah, Me myself isn’t a depressed person. But I feel bad not knowing how to let someone feel better even just the tiniest bit. All of my friends had one common thing Depression. It hurts so bad to know that I could never fix them because depression is the one thing that will always stick with you. I’m sorry I failed my friends I’m sorry I didn’t save them in time But for some reason something kept me going. I had that glimmer of hope even though it always wasn’t visible I had that one chance and I never let go of it. It’s something I do but I struggle to keep going
"Rember what I said in our last conversation I lied I'm not ok" damn that hit hard, I've felt that way but never the courage to say it to anyone I'm scared to be judged and then left behind for "faking" it
I don’t talk to people about my problems. Not my biggest problems. There is nobody that knows. That’s because I don’t tell people how I feel. Not because I’m afraid…I just… keep it to myself. I always keep my biggest problems to myself. I don’t have depression. I don’t have anxiety. I just have problems. Not “dangerous” problems. I don’t feel like I’m good enough. I love myself. But I hate myself. I have the most amazing parents ever. And I have the most amazing life I could ever wish for. But, it’s my own thoughts. Sometimes, I hate myself. I keep on screwing up everything. But other times, I’m happy. I still hide my problems, but I’m happy. I would say I’m mostly happy, but that I still struggle with my own problems. But don’t worry. Those problems aren’t critical. They aren’t “bad”. I’m not depressed. Honestly. *im fine* (I’m not depressed by the way. I promise I’m completely fine. Like not F.I.N.E.=Forget it not explain. But I have a good life. So don’t be worried for my health! But I wanted to write this, so that people would know that they are NOT alone💞💝)
I'm not suicidal for the reasons that I have a higher power that is helping me through right now. But I tell ya. I feel every part of what was said. This hit deep. There's nothing worse than having your soul ripped from you once, but twice or more makes you question your own inner strength. I will survive as I have been through worse. I just have to grab a hold of the light again that saved me from my darkness the last time. I Thank God that he has instilled that within me. If I didn't have my faith I don't know where I'd be. "I will praise you in this storm".
I hate how I keep coming back to these videos.. they don’t make me feel better, they just bring me to tears and remind me that I’m really not ok. I have at least one person to talk to, my boyfriend. And god knows how much I love him, but lately... he’s been saying that he doesn’t feel it. He doesn’t feel the love I’m offering him. That this relationship of ours feels one-sided to him. So, I decided if he feels this way, I’ll put away my own problems and worries, and focus on him. I’ll focus on him, and stay next to him till he feel every last bit of love I’m trying to give him, and even after that, I’ll never leave. If I’m being honest, sometimes he really, really hurts me with his words. But I know he doesn’t mean to, it’s not his fault, and I know that it would hurt even more if I were to leave him, or he were to leave me. I.. don’t think he realizes how much pain I’m in right now.. but that’s fine. Cause my only mindset is to give him my love, so I can fix us, I need to worry about him, and not me. Right now.. I’m not important. The only thing that’s important right now, is him. And without him, I really do feel like I’m worthless. Because he’s the only one to ever notice my pain and save me, the only one to actually show any type of concern. But right now, he’s distancing himself, and saying hurtful things, and only making it harder for me to fix what I didn’t try hard enough to keep... and I’m really trying, but I guess I still need to try harder. And it’s ok if I’m hurting so much. I just want to be ok, and feel my love. So I’ll talk to him about this, and I’ll see if he’s also willing to put in effort to fix us. And I know he’s also going through some stuff, he just lost someone very close to home recently, but he’s not letting me help him, he’s not letting me be there for him, and I really need to. We need to be there for each other, so one day, in the future, we both might be able to be ok and feel whole again
Yes!! I always tell people I'm fine don't worry I'm okay. I'm just tired now telling people I'm fine. I'm tired pretending. I just wanna run away from questions like "why are you like this" "are you okay?" "When are you gonna change yourself? " I'm tired. I wanna run away from everything.
BTS always SLAYS Forever an ARMY where u go after run from people question n also if u go some where other there also people too. Don't be loser dear u must say the people that I am wrong or right that I for myself. I must happy with myself n also i not need change myself bcz I like myself in this condition.
Very profound. I'm fine, but I'm not okay. It's an oxymoron. You can't be fine if you're not okay. Yet...it's easier to say "fine" because often there is no way to express what you're feeling...no words to articulate it. Also, you don't want to alarm loved ones that count on you. There is still so much stigma attached to depression, anxiety, panic, bi-polar, manias or anything mental health or emotional health oriented....so it gets suppressed til it's numb....for awhile. Numbness avoids pain, but eventually it'll turn up again. Best to find one or two trusted people you can let your guard down with (a close friend, a professional counselor, a pastor) and share concerns, burdens, fears, plans....etc. Lots and lots of people feel like this from time to time and it takes courage to express it, but it makes a huge difference in feeling heard and cared for. We aren't always fine...life is full of ups and downs and its okay to say..."Right now, I'm not okay...please hear me out!" It's smart, pro-active and healthy.
The moment something or someone finally pushed you to far.. And you snapped... The moment when something triggered you to cry.. Cry so deeply you sob for days! An anytime a song ,video or person trys to speak to you, it triggers the the waterfall of tears like they never started! I'm fine seems like a robotic response that I so desperately want someone, anyone to notice or see through an tell that I'm in despair. When and how do we become so good at "I'm ok?" When does society become ok with accepting it? 💔122
This hit me hard. I'm tired of everyone telling me that everything is going to be ok. When they don't even know what I'm going through. You try to tell them but they just say your fine you'll be ok. You just want everything to go away. You don't want to be on this Earth anymore.
The pain and loneliness become numbness and suspicion and you being to question everything then you just accept the unfair hand and begin to just go thru the motions without feeling out on the mask of I'm fine in reality you are literally falling apart then 1 day you either let this beat you or get up dust yourself off and start to love yourself and change your life because no matter what anyone says thinks or does ...damn it I am worth all of the wonderful things life has to offer ...and so are you...if no one told you today I love you
This was just so accurate.. I'm feeling exactly this rn and just don't know what to do where to go.. just following my daily routine acting like it's all ok but actually I'm lost.. just want somebody to care.. somebody to ask.. somebody to talk to .. :)
Trying to be fine ant fine enough trying to find the missing piece is like trying to explain to someone with out them asking a million questions it's ok don't worry being treated like I have no answers to say i try to be nice but being nice is like covering up to all we have to do is smile
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I care to much. I was sure it's right and ewen feeld it. Was I wrong?
U know that moment u want to cry but u can't? As if you're internally crying but can't even shed one single drop of tear? That, that's my exact feeling right now.
Yeah I hear you
Yeah thats how i feel and i hate this feeling
I know that moments
You are too exhausted to cry
Stan KPOP i know that feeling... it sucks, its a pain. Its annoying
Some people ask, "Are You Okay?"
My question is, "do you really care?'
All I've said was lies, in my entire life
I feel you
Same I’m never 👌🏽 & I went through so much but I couldn’t tell anyone bc even when I tell my closest friend how I feel she just always says K to everything then other ppl say why is it always about them (the ppl being mean)
I do this wean im tired of that question,always asking me am i ok,like they really care,if they did,they would have listened me wean i do tell them,not tell me to shut up
My life is a lie😕
Stay strong friends. You are worth so much more than this. Hold on
mom/dad: why don’t you ever talk about you’re problems?
my mind: you judge
my mind: you will tell me that’s it’s not a big deal
my mind: you tell me i’ll be okay
me: i don’t have any.
Could really relate on this 😕 sending the love hope ur getting better
I told my mom that I'm depressed and that I keep help but to think about ending my life. And she just got mad and ask me to not kill myself in the house for respect of her. And everyone else in my life just think that I'm joking but I'm not and it makes me sad
They always ask me what’s wrong, me trying to not sounds sad or mad I say nothing. They know something is up, but I will never tell them.
@@rararaka2348 relatable as fuck
Taylor coyne sane thing happens to me
“It’s just your body without your soul” that hit me hard.
Me too
Me too. That's what got me.
Same
BlUe hit me hard to. Specially since its true
Rightttt😕
Someone: "What's wrong?"
Me: "Nothing, I'm just tired."
We've all made that excuse too many times
Akasha Kireka that is the excuse I use everyday
XxgachanightwolfxX NighteolfxX yeah, it's the same with me and I never learn my lesson. Which is why I never got help until someone saw me and realised that I was not just "tired"
I use this excuse every day :(
After crying for an hour and someone asks me if I’m okay I just say I got no sleep at all
Why does it work almost every time?
••Toxic Melody•• I know in my head that we need to tell them what's wrong or say no when they ask if we are ok but for some reason we lie to them and suffer even more inside. One time, I lied to my French teacher and she knew straight away nothing was ok because she was going through the exact same thing at the time but only ever showed it once in the middle of class, me and my classmate were the only ones who noticed. Turns out now we take the same medication and same doctor also which we kinda freaked out but now we know that we both have sever depression, we check up on eachother a couple times a day, everyday which feels really nice knowing I have someone to support and someone to support me
The day : smile
The night: cry
Well,this is my routine.
Before going to bed. Take a moment and think of the most fun and happy thinks you have done so far in life and think of the moments when you smile a lot with friends and family.
Then go bed with a huge smile on your face no one can them away from you. They are yours and only yours alone.
Gay Child yep same
The day: Cry
The Night: Cry
My routine! :)))
Gay Child same
Mee too
I know that feeling.. sometimes you just want to cry so badly but you can't shed even a single teardrop.. it just doesn't come out even though you want it badly
Dookee Family same
Yes..
And you can feel yourself tearing apart on the inside but on the outside all you can do is smile and act like everything's OK because that is what you've gotten so used to doing
We're all just suicidal people telling others suicide isn't the answer.
Riley wolf ain't that the truth
I wanna die but i don't even know how to kill myself
I mean...I'm not suicidal but I tell my friends not to do it
@@bilby3523 DON'T DO IT ...whatever happened...it's not worth the death
I try to cut my hand, but it didn't bleed
Friend: how are you
My mind: they don’t care
My mind: they will judge you
My mind: forget them
Me: I’m fine
Tru
vivian and the kids it’s horrible
Sometimes, me and inside of me talk about this.
"Hey, are you not tired?"
"Tired of what?"
"Tired of pretending."
"Of course I'm tired but I just can't stop and tell them that I'm not okay."
"Then why?"
"Because I'm scared."
"Scared of what?"
"Scared that they don't care about what I'm saying and scared that they will think me as attention seeking, drama queen, or etc."
"Yeah, you right. It makes sense."
The only person that has always been there for me was myself. Somehow people get offended when I act like I don't need anyone.
This hits hard
It happens to me too. If someone asking about me i always say im ok, im fine but the truth its not
I.... Same 😔
The only person who listens to me what I have had Said that is only my my heart it listens everything ang it gives me some hope
Damn!!!! It's like she stole my feelings and wrote it down! 💔
Dear, the one reading this,
hold on, pain ends. it's not gonna be there forever. I know for me it's been more than a year and a half. I'm still the same but didn't stop fighting, the inner thoughts, the negative comments and my demons.
that's all a part of life, and we all have to survive through it.
just hold on, you can, we can make it through.
with loads of love.
I know right me too😭
Same 😔
Thank you
“are you feeling alright?” they ask
“what’s wrong?” they wonder
“what do you feel?” they say
it feels like i’m drowning.
but I can see everyone around me breathing.
plz end my suffering true
Demn ☺💔
oofle I
Same here
They ask
-hi, how's your day been
-hi, how are you
-are you ok
-how do you feel to day
-how's your breakfast/lunch/dinner
They ask many other thing, but I answer all of them in a same answer, always the same
-good
I answer that way, always that way, and no one know that, the real answer is in my head
- no, I am not ok, I'm drowning, I can't breath, I'm lonely, I want/need to cry, I need someone to calm me, everything is tough for me now, in school and home, everything is tough.
I keep yelling it in my head, and of course no one can hear it.
oofle it’s not up to the people around you to help you, it’s up to you in the end... no one can save you, only yourself.
This hit me so deep, especially the ending. I say this to everyone. “Don’t worry about me. I’m fine.” I guess I never realized though that I wasn’t okay.
Kyle C so true.
Me: *Im depressed mom*
Mom: *Its just your puberty*
edit: thanks guys for the likes. i love u all❤️
Relatible literally happened yesterday
julianna wilson aww
its just happen,,,,
Let talk to here... Be real.. Explain the deepest darkest parts of your depression, explain this is not puberty but something else that you understand she may not understand but is still real.... Stay strong brother... Much love x
16 and still the same answer for 3 yrs 😢
I've become so good at pretending I'm okay and everything is fine, that sometimes I convince myself of all of it.
Carja Damar I know exactly what you mean.. I I’m so good to pretend I’m ok, that no one believe that I have it so heavily..
:/.... Ik..
The people in my class say I’m fake just because I hide my depression under a mask of fake happiness so they leave me in the dark and stop being friends with me
the same for me my close friends think i lie when i tell then that i fake the happiness
Yeah.... Me too....
Me:*had a panic attack and is crying*
Mom:*laughs*
Sister:*laughs*
Brother:*laughs*
Later on
Mom:what's wrong
Me:nothing
Mom:bull, what's wrong
Me:nothing!
Mom:ok your sister is out of the car, what's wrong!
Me:NOTHING
Mom:OH BULL, what's wrong!
Me:I SAID NOTHING!
Mom:ok then
In my mind:I wish I could tell her but she'll just laugh again
Try to find a friend someone who you can talk you and that you can trust who won't laugh at your problems or the way you are.
When others laugh at you just because they think it's fun or just think your lying then they are not meant to be your family.
I hope you find someone who can help you with your problems.
You are so important for this world. You don't even know how much. And one day, you'll find someone who sees it. But mostly, if you start repeating that to yourself every sigle day, you will belive it. And you will know you're worth loving, and listening, and caring for.
It doesn't have to be your mom. You could talk to anyone you trust or just get a therapist. Find the reason why you feel that way and learn/grow from it
I told my freind about my drepression.i cried. She laughed. "Youre gonna be fine" she says
"Get out if your bed" she says
"Stop being rude to me" she says
"Fine. Lets just stop being friends"...she says.....
Dont feel anything.
Im numb.
Not important.
People are not helping.
Im just 10...
Cant handle this.
Im not okay.
Taehyung's heart-face doggo true😭😭
i love you
♥RubyRecording♥ aw i luv u too
Taehyung's heart-faceu doggo me too. I'm 11, and my mother abandoned me at three. My fathers is a drug addict, and my brother is convinced I'm Satan. My nana is here, and I love her, but she does get it. I'm almost alone in this world. I can take it. Without my vest friend, I wouldve died a long time ago. A very long time ago.
Taehyung's heart-faceu doggo same witg me im 13 : (
Friend : hey how are you?
My mind: *everythings fucked up..every day seems to be getting darker and darker..everythings so blurred and emotion isnt what it used to be like 6 years back when i was a little kid that didnt have problems or at least..i didnt see stuff in that perspective back then..you know everytime i look at the railing of the balcony i wanna jump..jump and get relieved from all this shit..suicidal thoughts and self harm because i fucking hate myself..some people call me "cute" and shit like that but it doesnt matter since i dont see it..*
My mouth: im fine
That shit hit so different I can sadly say I relate badd 😴✌🏼
Alexia T. Don’t ever jump ....
I understand u
But their are people that care about but they may not act like it.
But if u ever jumped the people that love u will always jump next.. :/
I know how you feel Im tired of getting made fun of Im tired of feeling Like crap everyday Im tired of being unlucky! I dont Want to hurt my self and I won't! But I also dont want to be sad anymore but the pain just wont go away!💔💔💔💔😭😭😭😭😭😭thank you! 👍👍👍👍
Please dont hurt yourself Im Broken and depressed to But cutting wont solve any problems its just gonna cause harm to everyone else. I know the pain you Feel....😔
UA-cam 2017 - no
UA-cam 2018 - not yet
UA-cam 2019 - lets put this in ppl’s recommendations to make them even more depressed
UA-cam 2020 - let's make them cry.
UA-cam 2022 - lets show it only to suicidal ppl
Wow - did that hit home - I've been screaming those exact words silently inside everyday for nearly 58yrs now - my biggest fear is the day i am asked by someone whom truly cares, "Are You Ok ? I'm here for you, can we just talk & see where it goes ?" - at which point i will crumble into millions of pieces & cry like never before - this is the most beautiful confession of self I've ever seen or heard - i admire the courage & strength it took to put it out there - absolutely beautiful - thank you for just being you !
Me - I think I'm depressed
Friends - just your girl development you will get over it
2 years later -
Me - I'm depressed
Friends - sorry we aren't friends with depressed goths
Boy in my class - are you ok?
Me - I'm fine just not okay
The only thing holding me back from killing myself is how to do it.
Depression & anxiety please have mercy on your self and your loved ones your family life is very precious look at those who can’t see but still leading a happy life waana live happy look at those who don’t have enough but still trying believe me it hurts when you know that your soul belongs to someone who is not caring enough but think this way love is even more beautiful when it’s not divided into two persons it’s all yours you don’t need someone to love you back you can love them without them it’s all yours yes it becomes very beautiful unconditional love I hope you understand what I mean
i relate, but then I remind myself to put others happiness before my sadness and emptiness. you will get through it and so will I.
It is good that you express these thoughts, So we learn to know How your soul is feeling. We do care about you and your soul, you make a difference in our lives. In mine right now. You remind me right now of myself being at that point 21 years ago... DON'T do it. Get yourself hospitalised to protect yourself against yourself NOW ! Make that phonecall! And Stay Alive. I love you to LIVE 🌸🦋🌼💐.
understand I would FUCK that up be in a wheel chair again
Hey if u look at this and I really hope u do then just know u can talk to me if u ever need anything. I won’t judge or anything I’ll happily just listen to everything if that’s what u need.
"So how do you change the hate within one person?"
"You love them."
Mom: Why didnt you telled me you have depression and anxiety?
Me: *Because no one asked*
ItzWeirdyBirdy Playz I have anxiety to for like 4 years I just never noticed:/
This is funny and deep
Me: Because you woudn't care
@@kadrikapa5855 did u tell her tho
@@keemchii No, I can't. She doesn't understand me at all, so I have closed myself for her.
You wake up and go through the motions. U try ur hardest to be happy. And ur body automatically reacts the way u used to. U seem fine. But every emotion u show.... U dont FEEL it. Its not real. And you get home at night and u will do ur work, then u sit and think. Thats one of the worst decisions. U think and u begin to cry. But u welcome it because it us the only thing u feel. And u sob and cry. You get something to scratch urself with, hoping to find that ur arm still has feeling. And u scratch till u bleed because its the only thing u have left that u can count on. Its predictable. The harder u scratch, the more it hurts. The more u scratch, the more it bleeds. Its dependable. So u keep on. And it gets over the top. Every day is the same. And everyday u dont want to get out of bed, and usually ur forced. U dont have the motivation. But what can u do? Nothing. Because depression isnt going to wash away like dort on ur hand. It will probably never fade completely. Because it has been there. And it never fully leaves.
You are never alone
I feel the same way that God never cared for me
@ zo mister Finally there is someone out there who scratches there arms like me, now at least I don’t feel so alone. Anyway thanks for ur comment it rly helps me
that was a beautiful way of describing it. I’m sorry this is happening to u and to me and to all of us. But from experience u feel like ur not alone once u talk to ppl especially professionals. It’s gets better eventually. I have no clue whether it goes away cos im not there yet but hang on. Be kind to urself, and please find people who understand and want to help you. I hope u get through it. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
When I tell my mom that I got the highest grade in math she just look at me and walk away I feel like I want to be alone but when my brother talk to them about his grade they look so happy.
I said to myself " it's unfair when I said to them my highest grade they just walked away but when my brother tell thet he got the highest grade they look so happy" I cried to my room everynight but when i with them i always smiling to hide my pain they just unfair 😢😢😢
I have a problem like that. I would show my mum drawings I done and she will just look at it then say nothing and sometimes I feel like I put all my energy into for nothing.
But then soon I found out my mum didn't had to say about it the drawing tells you. If your happy stay happy do not ever let yourself down.
If you get high greads be very proud of your self for it. Throw your self a small party only for you to enjoy and no one else ruin or get a friend to join you they will help. If you have problems if you trust your brother tell him what's going on, he will help or a friend they will always be there for you no matter what. If there's no one to talk too...
I want you to be in your room all on you own, look outside the window let your mind wonder off take in every little detail for a moment. Breath calmly close your eyes say a small pray or in your mind. It will help alot trust me
*Let me tell you about myself*
(Im 17 years old, a little but idiot and pretty ugly in my eyes)
I used to live in the US (Im Arabic but really white and blonde) and people used to be very racist to me at school because I was born in Jordan/Amman. I think this caused my current social anxiety. I never told my mom because I was afraid shed go to school and make a fuss about it. I only told her I didn't have friends and her only option was for me to change schools, which was something I wasn't gonna do so she didn't really do much. She was also very bad tempered when I was young. I moved back to Jordan at age 10.
I have had social anxiety since I was a little kid, this led to me isolating myself from my whole family and most of my schools. I don't even go out with friends anymore. I don't drink or smoke or anything which is also a huge part of this. I don't have any close friends who I trust and I've never had a girlfriend because, who would want to go out with the ugly lonely nobody in the school?
My parents don;t like me. They're proud of my brother who has won various international tennis championships and my sister who gets awesome grades and does pretty much everything perfectly. Im useless. I dont do anything right nor do I know how to do much. I've tried lots of activities in the past but as I said before, I cant get along with people and I cant really enjoy doing stuff alone like drawing or writing.
My parents complain about everything I do. Im depressed and I find it impossible to get good grades and concentrate at school (I think I may have a medical condition) so they yell and start taking away all my stuff (phone, pc, consoles) for a while and complain because I still don;t get good grades after they do this. I've tried to tell them Im depressed and life is getting really hard and heavy on me. Ive even told them that I don;t care about school anymore because all I want is to pass. Not to get good grades. I tell them to please stop making me feel like shit because they complain about every step I take. They say they'll try, but this is always a lie. They just keep on acting like nothing happened and everything is fine. I don;t go to family reunions or parties or anything and I've started to lock myself up in my room everyday, only going out a few times to get food or to walk my dog. I can't believe they think that everything is fine in my life or that they just don;t care. I've thought about suicide constantly for the last few years but cant get to actually killing myself because Im kinda scared of death. Since I hate seeing blood I don;t cut myself but I do stuff like hit my leg until its very hard to walk or just punching the wall until I cant do it anymore. One time I fractured my hand but just hid it from everyone because I knew they wouldn't care.
I lost all motivation in my life and now Im about to finish high school without ever having a girlfriend or a kiss. My youth sucked. My life is going nowhere and I don;t know what to do. I don;t trust anyone. I don;t like people. I have nowhere to go and I hate myself. What should I do? Kill myself? Wait to see what happens? People say life will get better but this isn't true. Not for the last almost 18 years. Each year has been worse than the last. I hope someday Ill read this and say, wow, Im glad my life is good now.
If you read it all, thank you ❤ *and don't subscribe to my channel :D*
Hi, I've read and identified myself with many things you said... Just be patient, I know, it sounds very cliché, but let's hope. If you want to talk about anything, I'm here for you.
sure you have skype or steam?
I sent you a private message
if you ever need someone to talk to im here for u
If u ever need to talk I'm here for u :)
I once stood in my living room, I was home alone for the first time in a while. I felt the feeling of complete, absolute *silence* for the first time in forever. And I couldn't think of anything to think about to distract me from it. I didn't have my phone with me to play a song to drown out the *silence* .
And I realized that I'm going to spend my whole life hearing this *nonexistent sound* because I'm too *difficult* for people to understand.
I didn't hardly get any sleep that night.
Or the night after that.
Because Insomnia is another issue.
Arianna Heart I get it...
I feel like everyone on here. I have an amazing fiancee, 3 beautiful kids and a lovely house and yet I feel nothing apart from emptiness and go through the motions every single day to make it look like everything's fine to everyone around me. Every night I go to sleep hoping it's my last night in this torturous nightmare of my life
Arianna Heart honestly I have insomnia too. If I told my mom why I have it she wouldn’t believe me. Why, you might be thinking? Well, it’s because I’ve gotten so good at lying and pretending that it makes me seem like the sweetest, happiest person, but sometimes the brightest smiles are the ones who are going through the most.
x tonib x my normal hours of sleep I get is 5-6 hours and I a almost 11 years old my birthday is in 4 days I have lost the true feeling of happiness
Nobody sees what i hide in the inside they only see the outside that is full of lies
Mackenzie bure i love you sending you virtual hugs 🖤🖤
Mackenzie bure true
dude I always ask myself
*"why tf am I even born if no one cares about me?"*
boi I'm useless to this world.
I r not worthless one day or name is going to be somewhere and I will be proud. Stay strong and know that there's always hope at the end of the tunnel. Stay safe
oh wow. I'm glad there's ppl like u
No your not your can be usefull but only if you want too if you don’t ok 👌🏻 if do life will eventually get better ..
-Art with ash
I'm Worthless so sorry you feel this way but I do understand. Just remember this you are NOT worthless!
My mom would tell me I'm nothing all the time but we r somthing we r God's Angles
these words literally brings me into tears i love him but i choose to stay away from him bcz of my anxiety and depression.and its so tough and horrible
boys never love any girl sooner or later reality fall on us
Don't push him away if he wants to be there for you.
Your not alone
This audio is the definition of how I really feel... it strucked my heart so much that I started to cry. Thank you for making it.
Thank you so much for posting this. I was heavily depressed last year after my ex gf broke up with me. I was a mess.
And until now I had no idea how to describe that feeling of depression. Telling people that your fine when your not! I lived in a body with no soul. I didn't know what I was doing. I just ate (barely), got dressed and went to work. I wanted to die.
Luckily I'm stronger now. My family and friends are what I needed to help me. But this video brings back so many memories and feelings. Feelings that I don't want to forget. I want to remember what depression feels like. I want to remember how heartbreak feels. Because i never want to make myself vulnerable to those things again!
Thank you for posting this!
never love anybody more than yourself. the person in our life sooner or later give pain .person and pain start with letter of P soo..
Take care you sound young you have all your life ahead of you don’t let depression get hold on you will make you ill I have suffered depression most my life now addicted to tablets loosing my mum 33 years ago my dad my husband his 2 brothers and this year lost my grandson 11/1/2018 I love them all they are together but my pain won’t go away when I lost my grandson 25 so stay strong take care
i was depressed many times in my life even i decided to end my life .my age is 21 year i got so much pain from my family.i seen every colour of people so i decided i only love my self now first priorty of my life is myself.so be brave and forget your past live with present peoples and relations are gone with its time
alvia alee god bless you take care 🙏
I am going through it, and I just can't stop crying. God don't fail me now.
"Run away where questions are not asked" so true worst painful.... God can heal anything..... Thank you Yeshua...
This is frighteningly relatable.
I have struggled for the past 10 years with my depression, and now I realized it's okay not to be okay. It's also okay to tell people you're not mentally well. The first step into becoming better is admitting you're not okay and need a helping hand. Remember, as big as this world is we are loved. We have a purpose. Though it may take years to find it, that purpose will show. Never give up on yourself.
my friend- constantly talking about herself
*me: helps her out and puts her feelings before checking up on myself first*
This totally hit me, it's true that I don't wanna worry them about me, because ugh it's hard to explain. And this free audio video totally hit me because I'm one of those who wear mask on their faces, I always pretend that I'm okay,I'm fine but the truth is I'm broken I'm drowning I don't know what to do, it sucks! I don't want to be emotional here guys but I can't help it sorry for the bother.
Bother? Never !! Worry about you? Always. Hard to explain? Can I try? (well, I will anyway - so there !!) I think (based on my education, and experience) that what you are feeling is akin to nausea. When we've got that, it feels like we'll never get over it - but we always do !! I hate to seem to try to simplify what you're going through, but that's the closest analogy I can come up with, on short notice. Give me some time, I'll (at least try to) do better. Know this, you WILL feel better - I swear. If I'm wrong (almost never), I'll refund your money. Honest! (or give you a HELLUVA deal on a used car)
UUMMMM EXCUSE ME! she litterally just stole my feelings,wrote them down,and then omg she puts it on youtube
Sometimes I hurry so bad I can't put my feelings into words... Well I stumbled upon this in a heart breaking search for songs and it said it perfectly!!!! Thank you for posting this song!!!!!
The most commonly told lie is "I'm fine"
Yea this msg is just the same life what I am going through in my daily life .Living without anyone care . Struggle for everything for daily life that no one knows about it .Thank you for sharing .God blessed you all.🙏🙏🙏❤️
Praise God! This is me in every way. At this moment I’m fine, but not ok!! The words you used to explain how you feel, are the words I’ve been looking for 🙁
Thank you for sharing and posting
Sonya McDaniel u must clean your tears to think that this world can't wish to walk with those who cry bcz this world wish to walk with those who smile.
Love is die long time ago bcz of some foolish now mostly love does not exist people use other still they not have other option.
Its so hard to have a true lover n also identified him/her.
this audio explained me. I feel every sentence is about me.
I'm depressed
I'm living but I feel I'm not alive...
This is what I'm feels right now 💔 I do it just for my friend 😇but in deep of my heart I'm not okay n I'm lied to him, because for his happiness.
💔🖤
....this made me cry so bad- because it’s kinda relatable to me, so I just wanna say your not alone-...
Whenever someone asks me "how are you" i kinda panic cuz im terrified of telling someone how i actually feel... Cuz no one actually cares
I felt it so badly!! This is all what's going on from last 4 months.
And saddest part is, you can do whatever you want.. But what you actually want can be done by someone who don't want anything from you not even love not even presence.
Each morning waking up by thinking, may be today things will turn right.. And while waiting the whole day passes in a flash..
I was having an emotional breakdoen and my friend was at school so i called her mum and her mum saved my life
I don’t cry often. That’s because I really can’t. To me, crying doesn’t fix anything. It’s basically pointless. It’s just sitting there thinking about whatever it is making me sad really gets me. That’s where all my deep thoughts go to tear me apart and rip all the happiness left in my soul out. It’s emotionally, mentally, and physically exhausting to think that much.
I just kinda sit there, and think about all the bad possibilities there are, and all the bad reasons about whatever and whoever I’m with, etc.
People always ask, “you don’t cry?” and i just answer truthfully, “I just think.”.
Dear MoCe...
Aq dpt merasakan apa yg kau alami..
menurut aq, kamu tidak dapat merasakan apa arti kebahagiaan, karena apapun yg kamu inginkan, semua dpt dgn mudah didapatkan tanpa perjuangan yg berarti. Sehingga kamu lupa cara bersyukur..
lupa bahwa semua yg kamu dapatkan adalah atas pemberian dr Allah Azza Wa Jalla..
Berbeda dg aq, semua yg aq inginkan tidaklah mudah didapatkan dan butuh perjuangan..Sehingga ketika aq mendapatkan apa yg pernah aq idam2kan, aq merasakan kebahagiaan yg amat sangat..dan aq selalu bersyukur..
Dan jika kamu tidak pernah merasakan kesedihan, karena kamu tidak pernah merasakan kehilangan sesuatu yg sangat berharga dihidupmu..dan hatimu sudah beku..
karena kamu gak pernah merasakan kepedihan orang2 yg hidupnya tidak seberuntung kamu..
Berbeda dgnku...
Aq bisa menangis sedih jika melihat orang lain yg hidupnya menderita...
Andaikan aq bisa memberikan sesuatu yg mereka butuhkan, aq merasakan kebahagiaan..
Kamu menjalankan aktifitas sehari hari tanpa jiwamu...
itu karena kamu tinggal dg orang2 yg tidak kamu cintai..
Seperti makan nasi dg lauk pauk, tp kamu tidak merasakan nikmatnya masakan yg sedang dimakan..
yg kamu rasakan hanya kenyang..
sedih yaa..
MoCe, mulai saat ini rubahlah gaya hidupmu...
Lebih medekatkan diri kpd Allah Azza Wa Jalla, karena itu adalah kunci segalanya..
Bacalah Al Quran setiap hari beserta artinya. Dan datanglah ke majelis2 ilmu...
Berkumpullah dg orang2 yg soleh dan solehah ..
jangan berteman dg orang2 yg membawamu ke dunia maksiat..
Jauhilah narkoba dan minuman keras..
karena semua itu yg dapat membuat hatimu seperti batu..
dan jauh dr ridho-NYA.
MoCe, aq ingin kamu menjauhi dunia malam yg sudah merusak akhlakmu..
ayolah...
andaikan kamu menginginkan kematian, itu tdk akan menyelesaikan masalahmu di dunia dan akherat...
Apakah kamu sudah menyiapkan perbekalanmu utk perjalanan jauh ke akherat ??..
ingatlah..semua perbuatan kita didunia akan diminta pertanggung jawabannya di akherat nanti..
Hartamu yg melimpah dipergunakan untuk apa saja...
MoCe..Aq sangat menyayangimu...
Meskipun dahulu kamu menolak menikahiku, aq tetap peduli dan sayang..
Bertemu dan berpisah karena Allah Azza Wa Jalla...
Ayo bangkitlah..
Semangat hidup lagi..
Berjuanglah keluar dr lingkaran setan..
Jauhi sex bebas dan pesta minuman keras...
Aq ingin kamu yg dulu...
Kamu yg berpedoman hidup dgn Al Quran dan sunah Rosul..
Yaa..
Seorang laki2 yg cerdas, sangat menyayangi ibu kandungnya dan tidak pernah meninggalkan sholat 5 waktu dan mengaji..
Oh girl, you just read my heart, ♥️. We're not alone.... We are ok... We're just different 😉, we're the chosen ones. We're blessed 🙏❤️🐦 a flower to you, my sister in God🌹.
I just wanted to be silent for a while, just looking for somebody find me and get me
sadly the truth is when I'm in silence, nobody's there
They always ask what’s wrong instead of trying to help....
They always say ‘you’ll be fine’ when you know you won’t.....
You have to keep hanging out with the ‘cool’ kids even though they insult you at every turn......
But hey I’m just a person writing a comment, you didn’t have to listen to me.....
You can just leave like all the others did....
Not even my fantasies, can help me now....
I think this audio has a very deep meaning behind it....
It’s saying something like,
‘You know how I’ve been telling you I’m ok? Well I’m not, if you could even notice’
We all have felt sad...
Do you know what it’s like..?
Do you, dear reader understand?
‘Depression is like drowning...
But you can see everyone else around you....
Breathing....’
That's my line to say I'm fine, when really I am dying inside, we can't change the past, only try to move forward as much as it hurts inside. I pretend that I'm strong and will be ok, but keep fighting the loveliness, of missing the one that I love, he left me 5 months ago for another, I let him go because he loved someone else. I try to be Happy but I just cry. I have got to get out of this depression somehow...
Cathy Tharington just hold on u can do this 💜
Cathy Tharington I hope you’re ok. Please know you’re not alone. Stay strong. It’s going to be ok. I know life gets hard sometimes, I’ve been there. But at the end of the day, you will always have yourself no matter what. Stay strong. Keep fighting the battle. Maybe try and do some things with your day that you enjoy. Some things that will make you happy. But remember, no storm lasts forever. Keep your head up. You matter, you are needed on this earth. If you ever need someone to talk to, I’m always here. ❤️❤️❤️
Same here Im not ok Im sad People at school Are mean to em and donr like me for who I am And Im going throught so mich and it hurts bc No one but a few people Understand me and my pain!💔😥😥😭😭😭😭I dont know what happened I keep Suffering and pretending that Im ok but Im really Not!💔💔💔😭😭😭 Thank you for this.....💖😥
Are you okay?
*Shrugs.*
Why are you so quiet?
My mind: maybe I just want to think and not talk.
*Shrugs.*
I heard this and feelings came over me because I have said these same things ! Often times we lose ourselves in the situation we’re in and forget who we really are! I hope whoever said this is saved before it’s too late! We can never forget that we are worth so much more than just a body existing! Love is to be loved and to show it we must be happy with ourselves! Stay positive and know someone’s opinion is exactly that! An opinion! Don’t let it defy who you are. God is your only judge and we should always tell those we love that you love them! Bless everyone who reads this!
I once told me mom that I thought I was depressed, I was feeling really low for a while and I would cry at night, I hated myself and I wasn’t sleeping. She then told me that it’s because I’m on my phone at night. I’m too scared to express my feeling she cause now I know no one wants to deal with them
Première qu'un audio d'écrit autant bien am situation en ce moment 😭
it’s always that stupid question and I’m tried of hearing it, “are you ok?”
Literally the truest thing I've ever heard
“You should open up more!”
If I do I’ll get fussed at and people won’t care.ill get bullied.
The last 3 lines are so meaningful to me at this point of my life.' I don't want you to worry about me, I don't want anybody to worry about me, I'm fine, but I'm not OK.'
Jesus is a real person and not a religion. He is LIGHT in a dark and lonely world. God IS the very epitome of LOVE. May He richly bless you in all parts of your life. AMEN
In Jesus name
I feel the same way. That feeling has been with me for years now. I donot know how to tell people. I donot think they can understand because to be honest I don't understand it myself. Everything just lost all their colours and I feel empty and numb. But I can't tell anyone. Bearing that feeling on your own is not easy. Afterwards, that feeling turns into suicidal thoughts. It keeps eating me up inside. I believe that things will get better but for now, its hard, and even harder when you're all alone in this.
Me: Mom I don't know why I feel so sad so lonely....
My mom: What?!?! your 7th grade how are you talking that
My mind:Who ever cared about me..
This hit me so deep that I almost broke in tears. I felt this so many times, and I'm that type of person who is very sensitive. Those days I feel really depressed, I just can't feel nothing. Happiness, sadness, rage... Those feelings... Are nothing to me. I don't find a point on feeling something, because It just gets to the point where I just think that I'm dead inside and nobody else can save me.
It just feels like I'm drowing.
I can't breath, and I just see everybody else wondering why I just can't get out the water.
Everytime I just feel that I wanna end my life, I just remember how many people *actually* cared about me and put their hope in me. If I die... Everybody else's hope will die with me.
People ask "hey, how are you?"
My mind: they won't care
My mind: they'll say it's not a big deal
My mind: they'll say you'll be ok
Me: I'm fine
Woah woah woah,
Me myself isn’t a depressed person. But I feel bad not knowing how to let someone feel better even just the tiniest bit.
All of my friends had one common thing
Depression.
It hurts so bad to know that I could never fix them because depression is the one thing that will always stick with you.
I’m sorry I failed my friends
I’m sorry I didn’t save them in time
But for some reason something kept me going.
I had that glimmer of hope even though it always wasn’t visible
I had that one chance and I never let go of it. It’s something I do but I struggle to keep going
i always push my friends away even when i don't intend to
i guess no wonder why we ain't that close anymore
Same here
"Rember what I said in our last conversation I lied I'm not ok" damn that hit hard, I've felt that way but never the courage to say it to anyone I'm scared to be judged and then left behind for "faking" it
*friend* : how are you ?
*me* : i’m fine.
Im happy to see people that feel the same way.i thought i ways alone altho i asked for help no one could but this helped me thank you
I don’t talk to people about my problems. Not my biggest problems. There is nobody that knows. That’s because I don’t tell people how I feel. Not because I’m afraid…I just… keep it to myself. I always keep my biggest problems to myself. I don’t have depression. I don’t have anxiety. I just have problems. Not “dangerous” problems. I don’t feel like I’m good enough. I love myself. But I hate myself. I have the most amazing parents ever. And I have the most amazing life I could ever wish for. But, it’s my own thoughts. Sometimes, I hate myself. I keep on screwing up everything. But other times, I’m happy. I still hide my problems, but I’m happy. I would say I’m mostly happy, but that I still struggle with my own problems. But don’t worry. Those problems aren’t critical. They aren’t “bad”. I’m not depressed. Honestly. *im fine*
(I’m not depressed by the way. I promise I’m completely fine. Like not F.I.N.E.=Forget it not explain. But I have a good life. So don’t be worried for my health! But I wanted to write this, so that people would know that they are NOT alone💞💝)
i thought im the only one like this
your voice represents my heart all this time, it's felt empty
Save me + I'm fine.
I'm not suicidal for the reasons that I have a higher power that is helping me through right now. But I tell ya. I feel every part of what was said. This hit deep. There's nothing worse than having your soul ripped from you once, but twice or more makes you question your own inner strength. I will survive as I have been through worse. I just have to grab a hold of the light again that saved me from my darkness the last time. I Thank God that he has instilled that within me. If I didn't have my faith I don't know where I'd be. "I will praise you in this storm".
This is exactly how i used to feel. Empty. Numb.
If it were not for the good Lord, I wouldn't be here anymore.
I hate how I keep coming back to these videos.. they don’t make me feel better, they just bring me to tears and remind me that I’m really not ok. I have at least one person to talk to, my boyfriend. And god knows how much I love him, but lately... he’s been saying that he doesn’t feel it. He doesn’t feel the love I’m offering him. That this relationship of ours feels one-sided to him. So, I decided if he feels this way, I’ll put away my own problems and worries, and focus on him. I’ll focus on him, and stay next to him till he feel every last bit of love I’m trying to give him, and even after that, I’ll never leave. If I’m being honest, sometimes he really, really hurts me with his words. But I know he doesn’t mean to, it’s not his fault, and I know that it would hurt even more if I were to leave him, or he were to leave me. I.. don’t think he realizes how much pain I’m in right now.. but that’s fine. Cause my only mindset is to give him my love, so I can fix us, I need to worry about him, and not me. Right now.. I’m not important. The only thing that’s important right now, is him. And without him, I really do feel like I’m worthless. Because he’s the only one to ever notice my pain and save me, the only one to actually show any type of concern. But right now, he’s distancing himself, and saying hurtful things, and only making it harder for me to fix what I didn’t try hard enough to keep... and I’m really trying, but I guess I still need to try harder. And it’s ok if I’m hurting so much. I just want to be ok, and feel my love. So I’ll talk to him about this, and I’ll see if he’s also willing to put in effort to fix us. And I know he’s also going through some stuff, he just lost someone very close to home recently, but he’s not letting me help him, he’s not letting me be there for him, and I really need to. We need to be there for each other, so one day, in the future, we both might be able to be ok and feel whole again
God, that’s longer than I thought it’d be
Yes!! I always tell people I'm fine don't worry I'm okay. I'm just tired now telling people I'm fine. I'm tired pretending. I just wanna run away from questions like "why are you like this" "are you okay?" "When are you gonna change yourself? "
I'm tired. I wanna run away from everything.
BTS always SLAYS Forever an ARMY where u go after run from people question n also if u go some where other there also people too.
Don't be loser dear u must say the people that I am wrong or right that I for myself. I must happy with myself n also i not need change myself bcz I like myself in this condition.
Same
Very profound.
I'm fine, but I'm not okay.
It's an oxymoron.
You can't be fine if you're not okay.
Yet...it's easier to say "fine" because often there is no way to express what you're feeling...no words to articulate it. Also, you don't want to alarm loved ones that count on you.
There is still so much stigma attached to depression, anxiety, panic, bi-polar, manias or anything mental health or emotional health oriented....so it gets suppressed til it's numb....for awhile.
Numbness avoids pain, but eventually it'll turn up again.
Best to find one or two trusted people you can let your guard down with (a close friend, a professional counselor, a pastor) and share concerns, burdens, fears, plans....etc.
Lots and lots of people feel like this from time to time and it takes courage to express it, but it makes a huge difference in feeling heard and cared for.
We aren't always fine...life is full of ups and downs and its okay to say..."Right now, I'm not okay...please hear me out!" It's smart, pro-active and healthy.
It's just your body, without your soul
The moment something or someone finally pushed you to far.. And you snapped...
The moment when something triggered you to cry.. Cry so deeply you sob for days! An anytime a song ,video or person trys to speak to you, it triggers the the waterfall of tears like they never started! I'm fine seems like a robotic response that I so desperately want someone, anyone to notice or see through an tell that I'm in despair. When and how do we become so good at "I'm ok?" When does society become ok with accepting it? 💔122
I'm in such misery, pain, sorrow to where my tears fall on their own.
Edit: I haven't gotten better..
mel jeon sane when my tears run down my face it feels like lava burning my skin
I've held back my tears and my feelings so much my tears don't fall at all unless I'm in theater and I perpously cry
that hits me so hard i cant stop crying, so much true in it
I cried so hard when I was finished this vedio
Im watching these videos because I cant feel anything anymore. I cant be happy. I cant be sad. Im stuck and this video helped me realize it.
I'm 17 years old people are like are you okay? What's wrong? Is something bothering you? Yeah I'm fine when I'm not.
This is so beautiful. I feel this way right now.
Wanna run away from the world From all questions 😓💔
Heart touching words, It leaves the listener speechless.
I said! I explained my feelings! She Said she understand! No you dont! Dont jugde me too quick cause you only see the me i alow you to see!
This hit me hard. I'm tired of everyone telling me that everything is going to be ok. When they don't even know what I'm going through. You try to tell them but they just say your fine you'll be ok. You just want everything to go away. You don't want to be on this Earth anymore.
Therapist: so how was winter break?
Me: um can I show u a video to let u know?
The pain and loneliness become numbness and suspicion and you being to question everything then you just accept the unfair hand and begin to just go thru the motions without feeling out on the mask of I'm fine in reality you are literally falling apart then 1 day you either let this beat you or get up dust yourself off and start to love yourself and change your life because no matter what anyone says thinks or does ...damn it I am worth all of the wonderful things life has to offer ...and so are you...if no one told you today I love you
My whole life in a video
This was just so accurate.. I'm feeling exactly this rn and just don't know what to do where to go.. just following my daily routine acting like it's all ok but actually I'm lost.. just want somebody to care.. somebody to ask.. somebody to talk to .. :)
Trying to be fine ant fine enough trying to find the missing piece is like trying to explain to someone with out them asking a million questions it's ok don't worry being treated like I have no answers to say i try to be nice but being nice is like covering up to all we have to do is smile