I love him, but…
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- Опубліковано 7 бер 2023
- I can't believe how much of a challenge it's been. Allowing myself to share what's been so heavy on my heart lately. Never, have I felt so fearful and insecure in my creation process. Exposing my most intimate life to the world, it made me question if I even wanted to do this anymore. Filming my life with a focus on the behind the scenes, actually. Shouldn't I be keeping secret all these deep, inner equations?
But, that's what we do, right?! We go beyond mental boundaries, diving head first in these bothering triggers we so feel. Only to unveil what the heart was whispering all along.
Love is hard and painful.
But real, honest, unconditional Love, is the only healer.
For anyone who needs it today, here is (I hope), a warm hug.
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I would say, to any girl who loves the mountains and loves a man, go on regular camping trips by yourself in the mountains. You'll get the air you are gasping for, and you'll come back appreciating him even more
"The highest form of love is to be the protector of another person's solitude." - Rainer Maria Rilke
Hahaha 😂 that’s such a load of horse shit
I get very tense being under the same roof with anyone else in no time. I desperately need alone time. Being in different rooms is not enough. The older I get, the more alone time I need.
That's a normal body reaction to too much of dopamine. After you get too much dopamine due to some kind of excitement your body goes in to low dopamine mode to keep the balance. That's when you feel low or even depressed. This is why falling in love is a completely unique experience, it makes your mind go trough rollercoaster of different feelings and moods. Taking a few week trip away from home does the trick. Or finding some kind of activity which makes you feel uncomfortable. Do not let go people who you really care for, you will feel regret when you get older ;)
Nothing new under the Sun, as Bible teaches us.. just people being selfish and self-centered assholes who want to benefit of a relationship, but not contribute to it or have responsibilities..
you all forget that all the past generations, across different cultures and civilizations followed the principles of giving it all to your family and family giving all to you... and it worked for thousands of years.. Now in 2023, all this talk about self-discovery and self-fulfillment leads only to more depressions, suicides and unaccomplished lives and ill society and generation...
Dopamine is just one tiny actor in this play.. we are not just bunch of biochemical processes.. But, your last sentence really brings it home, such big truth for the females of this generation.. huge swathes of girls literally dismiss some of the best men and potential husbands when they are in the best years of their lives and could share all that with their mate.. and when they whither away and get to about 35 and 45, what is one of the most common questions you hear?
"where are all the good guys?" "why men no longer...?"
We have been told to wise count days of our lives, to understand that every season has its purpose and goals. instead we just looooovee to laugh at ancient wisdom.. well, won`t laugh for long..
This moment, "I trust that real healing comes from taking responsibility. I, and only I, create my worries, my emotions, and my actions. No one else. I am responsible for everything that happens to me today," is going to become a new mantra for me. So many beautiful reminders in this video. Thank you deeply
loved that part too❤
I went to Norway alone for 2 months to live with my friend and learn from him to do things i didn't know.
This was after my mentally/emotionally abusive relationship with my narcissistic ex finally ended and i was free.
I flew alone for the first time to Norway, near Trømso, very very far in the north. 5 days after the breakup. I felt like crap.
But after a month i felt good. I didn't want to date any man ever again but i met a boy. He was so kind, so sweet. We share a lot in common but are also very different, in a good way. I learned through him what it feels like to be loved. When someone actually listens to, when someone doesn't disregard your feelings, your dreams, your desires.
He doesn't shame me for who I am, he never does. He actually views me as a human being.
I really hope that this lasts. I learned to love him, this love was slow, and that feels good. It didn't hit me like a train like narcissistic love does to you, it developed over time and that's what made it so wonderful to me.
That's cute. You've found someone who sees you like a 'human being.' Must be something uncommon these days.
@@diavolacciosatanasso yeah it feels uncommon. But it's a wonderful feeling when someone respects you and sees that you also have feelings and not just them
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Your honesty and vulnerability is so empowering to me. I truly admire your creative courage ❤
Thank you so much. ♥️
I will show you the the iteme
"Spread your wings and fly...., I'll be watching." So beautiful ~ so free ~ such love ~
Vanille, you are very blessed to find someone to share life with. One who matches your energy, values as nd dreams. Finding this is rare indeed. Cherish it with all of your heart and soul. Life is not about having all the answers, right now, it's about traveling the path of life, together, being open and receptive to what is and can be. You both will discover it together as the future unfolds before you.
Thank you for this Mike. 🤍 You know how much this means to me.
Give in to the commitment and don't look back. You can be free together. Simply give each other space when needed and come together in between. I was afraid of commitment, but after 24 years of marriage, I am glad I dove in.
THE PICTUREPART IS VERYGOOD IN MANY OF HER VIDEOS .
That's Good, Keep Going! "Take possession of your own mind, and you may soon make life payoff on your own terms. - Napoleon Hill,1883-1970"
Ok, ok one can decide to move on, but real human connection is also rare. One needs to be careful throwing that away imo. There are ways to let go within a relationship too. For example, allow the other half to do their own thing from time to time like a holiday or a meditation course etc. Or move to a house where you both have an own working place. Then meet up in the evening to be and to eat together. Actually that is what happens in most relationships. People work during the day then meet in the evening or weekend. Anyway in the end it is up to you because you both know better what is right for yourself in this situation.
Having a lover ,sharing the space and time, all of these are meaning one thing to make COMPROMISES.
In the end is just one question You have to answer ; what do You treasure most, your total freedom or your freedom forced to do those compromises in exchange for the received love and companionship.
Is really that simple. Or maybe not.
I am in a similar boat, I live here with my bf in a small apartment, and we both work from home. I love his company more than anyone else's, but I now sleep separately at night to have some space to wind down and think. He has a lot of hobbies, and I like going for long walks and all, too, so we make sure to have other things going on. It's important not to just be focusing on each other and concentrate on work, hobbies, and everything else. We also have a nice little cat that keeps us very entertained!
I have lived through many relationships. No matter how much room the home that you share has, you always need space for yourself. You are right about how it is easy to lose yourself in the relationship. As I did that myself, dedicating all of my time and energy towards, someone I loved and unfortunately I just didn’t get that love back. Wasting years of my life that I wish I had back to myself and maybe somebody else who is less caring about what the world thinks of them and more so towards the gift that has already been given in life.
I always say, if we are given one life to live… We need to live it every day like there’s no tomorrow. Experience the world around us, and cherish every drop of rain that hits our head. In this new world of instantaneous access to everything, many people seem to lose their sense of nature and the world around them. Instead of exploring a wilderness on foot, they look at pictures of trees on screens. It’s not a life lived, but one drained away by excess and possibly fear of failure and rejection. Regardless, we still have to face every day. Whether we are drowning ourselves in technology, or breathing in fresh air from the mountaintop.
Excess of anything leads to normality of everything. Meaning, that if we let ourselves get to used to anything in this world around us, we risk losing our child like imagination and curiosity. Moderation is the key to happiness. You are a breath of fresh air in a world seemingly obsessed with technology. Your heart, mind and energy empowers many people to want to do the same. Thank you for being you, and showing the world one of the most magnificent ways to live. ❤
Every relationship has its ups and downs no matter how much you love each other ….?I’ve been married 23 yrs and we are happy married he’s my bff and my soul mate but at times I can’t stand him for no reason at all!! You need space make and office for you or him and it will make a whole lot of difference ❤I love the love that you shared he sounds like an amazing man 😊
He is a very very lucky man to be close to you. Any man would trade places with him to share life with you. Support and enrich your life is how you grow in this world and having that person near you invites life into your soul. Stay safe and take care.
I relate heavily to this video. It's very painful to experience, and I can't make sense of the internal conflict either. We're reaching 5 years together, and I repeatedly feel like running away, for no rational reason. I want to marry this man, and yet I can't bring myself to work towards that. It's incredibly frustrating, and I know I'm self sabotaging. At the same time, I don't trust myself or my decisions. He's supportive of whatever I want to do, so why do I feel this way? 🤷♀️
Nothing new under the Sun, as Bible teaches us.. just people being selfish and self-centered assholes who want to benefit of a relationship, but not contribute to it or have responsibilities..
you all forget that all the past generations, across different cultures and civilizations followed the principles of giving it all to your family and family giving all to you... and it worked for thousands of years.. Now in 2023, all this talk about self-discovery and self-fulfillment leads only to more depressions, suicides and unaccomplished lives and ill society and generation...
You asking why do you feel this way? because media like his, movies, modern music and lyrics have conditioned you to get to this point, and you let them..
It might help to contact a clairvoyant/energy healer so you could understand the root of your feelings better. They could even be in past lives.
The same. I broke up because I saw that he wanted to get married and I couldn't even though I wanted to. I have been suffering a lot for a long time and I feel lost. Did you come up with an answer or a solution? 😢❤
You’re not alone. Trust. Many women feel the same. I believe we carry it through many many generations of suppression and more. Related and not. Keep writing and journaling when most peaceful. Dont analyze, judge or fix what you wrote. Just express. Also try the 5 whys. Write the answer to your own question and keep asking why after each. Try to stick with what comes up first. Repeat as often as needed. Obv simplistic but can help. Key is be willing to see and accept what is as it is. We can’t change what’s not acknowledged. Truth is inside - when ready. Peace and health.
Hey, I hear you. What's your attachement style (= the way we are wired through life to connect with others, ranging from secure to anxious, avoidant, and fearful-avoidant. Oftentimes it is interrelated with our childhood and primary caregivers)? Do you find it hard to distinguish your own needs and wants from societal expectations? Either way, wishing you well 🤍
It's just not healthy having 2 work from home, absence makes the heart grow fonder. Everyone needs solitude it's healthy. But balance is key.
As Osho said Love and Freedom both are possible together , all we need is to learn that skill and prepare and work on ourself cosistently. If you choose only love or freedom then it is just gold but if you chose to be with both together then it will be gold with fragrance.
Everyone needs their own space in a relationship, in a house etc. I am all alone in the world due to a death and I can tell you at least for me I know I need someone to go through life with. I hope the two of you will grow to love each other even more.
You cannot change your ascetic nature, you will always need your space, and no matter how much you love him, you can't share such limited space and not feel craped in it.
This reminds me of conversations I have had when two people retire. The women talk about too much togetherness. That's why it's essential that you do things on your own. Your Man sounds like a gem. Don't feel you have to make a choice between him and solitude. I believe you can have both. Maybe it's time to find a bigger place where you can both have your own space to work?
Awe, he sounds so wise and sensitive to you. It can be challenging for two people to live (and also work) in a smaller space. Love your videos, you are so genuine and creative.
As a 69 year old artist at the peak of his powers, and having had many lovers over 52 years I can relate on a personal level. When you need space from your lover it is a warning of thiings that leave us uneasy and unsettled at a very spiritual level. For myself, I recognized the exact same dilemma in a relationship that meant a lot to me, but failed to head the inner voice telling me to walk away. Now in no way I am I telling you to do the same thing, that would be cruel and unspeakably evil in a way that could harm you both. This is something you alone must face, and decide the action you wish to take. Personally it sounds like he is a wonderful human being, and lover, so please give great consideration to him as a human being. Haste is not your friend, take your time, try and acquire more space for each of you first before taking any action. In time you will know what to do, and I wish both of you peace in your hearts and souls. Jack. Son of the watchful one.
Lovely and sage advice to heed.
(To) Love = to let go. And this is irreconcilable with that, what humans generally believe, is love. Human "love" is to claim, to make ... one's own. This is not what Love is. As I said before Verdant, as you will recall: "Peace comes from within. Do not seek it without." 💕
Rene the Wise, always ♥️
@@VerdantVanille As I feel and see things, we're all here, just learning Verdant.. Each of us have their own "path" to traverse through the many illusions, to ultimately find our "home" again. In Universal Oneness.. In the One Universal Field.. How lonely we can feel, or isolated or maybe confused, so long as we are identified with outer perceptions, and beliefs in the outer physical, material world around us here... Our Spirit and the soma we dwell in, so many times seem to be two different worlds, realities.. The process of disidentification seems to take the life-time of the soma 🙂
Our lives are so parallel, thank you for sharing this and speaking your truth. My husband and I have been living in a tiny home together for 7 years. If you haven't lived through that experience it's hard to really understand how truly difficult it can be. Also, you're an artist, it makes perfect sense why you don't want him there when you're creating videos like that. Because I am also a UA-cam content creator, I thoroughly get what you mean there! We also live off-grid in the hills but my husband works away from the home at least a few days a week so I have the luxury to work when he's gone. When we are in here for more than 3 or 4 days straight together we start bickering...usually about stupid shit 😂 but it's because it bubbles up over time and that steam has to be released or we'll both blow! Thank you for another BEAUTIFUL, honest, refreshing and WISE vlog. So grateful Spirit led me to you, sweet soul ✌💕🙏🏻🌟😇❣❣
I greatly appreciate her video and your comment. It give much insight as my lover and I are currently working towards this type of path of living off grid and working from home. We are working on transition from city to home and to land. We both have a dep burning passion for creativity and establishing online entities to create. Blessed be from our ranch family to thee 🏞💜💛💚
That means a lot. We are connected ♥️
@@VerdantVanille So deeply connected, witchy sister 🙏🏻🕯😇 . Also, am so grateful for your candor. Living like this is NOT easy, though it may look that way to some. We've been living like this for 7 years. In the process of getting a house again, a cabin...with doors! Though this was a great adventure, it taught us how much privacy is important. He & I were two lone Wolves that came together after being single for a very long time. Love or not...this shit takes a toll, we're ready to move on 🤪🙃😂😂😂😂 ! Love your content, love YOU...sending you calming, peaceful energy from the Pacific Northwest, Washington US❣❣
@@RaeFaeM My pleasure 🙏🏻 . Happy to answer any questions you may have! Eventhough we watched countless videos about tiny home & off-grid living, nothing prepares you for it until you do it. We moved in together after only being together 10 months. You learn a LOT about each other living this way. Our first one was 26×10 feet. The one we're in now is 35 feet...and even with 10 more feet we are over it😩 . But we've also been living like this for 7 years. It's taken its toll...we are in the process of buying a house (cabin) again and we are SO excited! Never realized how truly important privacy is. Hard to come by when you're both home....even with a door 😂 ! Good luck to you both!!
What a gift to have found your soul mate! This relationship should sounds far to meaningful to give up on! But even souls mates need time apart and separateness, then the coming together is even more special, that keeps it alive in my opinion!❤
Absolutely Miranda ♥️
Great reflection … exploring the journey of the soul with your ‘anam cara’ … no easy answers … just questions pointing to more questions … searching and growing together and apart 🌀☯️🌀
Your strength physically and mentally is so impressive
Was NOT EXPECTING those kickass workouts. Man alive!
I discovered you a couple of days ago and watching all of your videos during my first days of painful menstruation, they are so calming. Thank you for this gift. I have a book recommendation for you, please take it with love. If you haven't read it yet and you love to read, I believe the book Attached by A.Levine, can give you some kind of explanation about loving so much a person but still feeling you want to escape sometimes. It's a book that the world would need to read.
Thou art suffering the winter blues. Hold on for spring
Your a great poet Verdant Vanille it makes me happy people like you exist.
I can't talk on a phone when someone else is in the room let alone talk to a camera. It seems to be a very natural thing...I bet people in stone age also didn't call anyone with other people around or had problems talking to a camera :)
I actually needed some help and your video shows me I'm not alone with these of love but also need for solitude... independence? And there's so many people in this comment section who also feel this. Ty for talking about these sides of life. Hope you have a good day and: omg that workout 😅 so strong 😅
The answers will come, and new questions will arise, and the answers will come, and new questions arise, etc. etc. Life IS a Question, from moment to moment, bc Expansion is the nature of the Soul. AGAPE - Unconditional Love - is the Highest form of Love and indeed it will be the basis of all relationships in the future. Let go of all your Fears and you will be protected Earth Angel. Love for yourself comes first and then you can Truly Love another. You have learned Wisely. Showing the World how it's done. BRAVO.
Thank you Steve. That is very touching.
I am so happy you have found the one,and feel happy to share your love and joy 😂 ,my life was filled with betrayal and i only wished for love alas it was never to be . discovered my daughters 27and
You do not have to see the whole staircase to take the first step 💙✨
Rachel hope,
Happy to heard you have found someone.
Hope for others.
Beautiful video! 💚 Before I got married 8 yrs ago, I explained to my husband how very imperative it is, and has always been, for me to get time for myself. He rarely respects this, and doesn't understand 'alone time' at all.... I think it's wonderful that your boyfriend actually embraces it and understand, and is even cheering you on in this respect. Wishing the both of you all luck! ✨️
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Yes, her lover's respect for her privacy speaks to the quality he is. A rare gem.
Light and Love hug 💖🙏🥰
So, beautiful, Verdant. Beautiful. It’s so funny how I can relate to yours today.
love love totally understand....hugs but if he is yours he will give you the space you need
When you talk about him I can hear the love in your voice! Sometimes relationships take some getting use to, so stay strong and follow your heart and everything will work out. The attachments you made for your belt to hold your dress up is awesome, and it looks good to! Love the video!
Need a 2nd room that is a bedroom area that is separate from the kitchen/dining area.
I have a suggestion for you regarding your issue about recording with someone else in the room listening. I have been happily married to my soulmate for almost 20 years now, first I must encourage you to treasure your love. A real soulmate comes along but ONCE in a lifetime....IF you're lucky! My Husband works in the Aerospace Industry by day, but he also hosts a talk radio show in the evenings since he's former military and used to work for SPAWAR (the Space and Naval Warfare Command) which is under the Department of Defense....he has A LOT of knowledge to share, so he does. We are often in the same room while he's recording. I got a pair of really good headphones that cancel out all external sound. That way I can either read a book in silence with the headphones on to drown out the sound, or I can listen to music, an audio book, watch youtube....whatever. They work wonderfully. If your partner must be nearby while you record, getting a set of noise cancelling headphones is the literal next best thing to being alone in the room. All he needs to do to make it a bit easier for you, is to busy himself with something (a book, the computer, tv, a magazine, whatever) and simply ask him not to look at you since it is a distraction that throws off your mojo. 😊 I'm certain that he will happily oblige. It may take a little time for you to get used to being "alone, but not alone" at once, but trying out the headphones will give you peace of mind that he really can't hear you, and with his cooperation about paying you no mind while you're working, you'll get comfortable with it quickly. I really hope this helps.
I know that no matter how much you love one another or how wonderful the relationship is, it's nice to have space and time to yourself once in a while. When there is true mutual love and respect, you can both be ok with respecting one another's need for personal space. Your loving relationship doesn't need to end just to have a little time alone, or perhaps out with your girl friends. This is the first video I've seen on your channel (as it came up as a suggestion) so I don't know your exact circumstances (yet) but please take it from someone who has been with the love of my life for a very long time...when the feelings, love and friendship you share are deep and genuine, there is NOTHING you can't work through together. You are always stronger with a team mate than you are alone. Never take that connection for granted! It's a rare gift indeed! Peace and well wishes to you from Massachusetts, USA.
7:09, the red book, nice! I have it too!
So long as you communicate and are open and honest with each other, you won't go far wrong. Even if you choose to go your own way, it is better to have loved than to have lost. Perhaps just having some time apart will allow you to realise the changes you need to make, and whether a relationship is something that will benefit you going forward. In the end though, it is better to make a decison sooner rather than later to avoid compromising an otherwise great relationship.
This is so beautiful! ❤
Thank you for the video
I think it is absolutely valid that you want and need your privacy, at least for the audio parts of your videos. Try setting this up officially in the shed or whichever way. It is necessary and healthy for your relationship. Each one should have their own work space. I hope you can work it out, especially for the well being of the relationship. 💗 This has nothing to do with lack of love; on the contrary, it's respecting each one's individual need for their own space.
Ain’t love fascinating? Your tenacity will lead you to solutions. I think you and The Cottage Fairly were cut from the same cloth!🙏🏼
Oh, Tomás. ♥️
Beautifully Crafted 💝✊🏽💞
Beautiful ✨️
I feel love feels this way and answers come as like you say we work with our self and our loved one. ❤ listen to your heart
I am going to escape to your little corner of the world everyday ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ This is art
Another inspiring video ❤ love it ❤
Love this page. Just to say: Your video is a case study in attachment trauma. You are afraid to lose space and also to interdepend or attach too close. Look up dismissive avoidant and fearful avoidant on the page ‘personal development school’ and you’ll see the stories you’ve experienced. If you need space take it, but this is perfectly narrated attachment trauma and it will eventually ruin a relationship if not healed. (Usually) | Learn to take space and not make everything so big. It’s not REALLY about a mic, it’s that you feel uncomfortable being overseen and overknown. Learn that you are allowed to let someone else meet your own needs.
Sending love!
I am excactly the same ! free spirit ! I was always feeling akwards in social situations so I was hiding far away from people , I feel bad energy .
Just another great video, again. ✌️
You are really unique and an escape from this fucked up world.
I love these videos
It's not easy all the time but the soul knows it's home ❤
It’s far from always I dare to watch your videos. There is so much honesty, openness, and will to share, in your videos that I’m afraid it will be too much for me. You are so much braver than me.
So, its been some time since I watched a video, even if I’m a subscriber……..
I loved this one. It gave me hope, hope that you will be happy and loved….and it gave me hope that love will also come to me…….
I wish you all the best….
You so much deserve to be loved, sweet soul ♥️
❤this is soo good ❤you also helped me in a way I can't even tel😊
Your videos always bring me great joy and warmth in this cruel world. Thank you.
That, my friend, was so beautiful!!! Thank u for ur wonderful words!!!
you're amazing
Great going girl ....
I love your videos! Don't worry it's a matter of time until it becomes normal that someone else is there listening to you. It happened to me at the beginning of the pandemic, I'm a teacher and it was weird that my couple listened to my online classes but now I don't even notice.
Lovely video. I can relate. I need and enjoy my solitude. I working on finding a way for it.
Be blessed, and love ❤️ to you both.
PS, your ferocious when you work-out 🏋️♀️ 💪
Your films get better and better and deeper and deeper. Really rwmarkable. The part at 9,42 about accepting responsibility is so true and something that few people acknowledge. It is often easier to blame someone else.
😊❤️ let the heart flow with love... Thanks for shining
That is not lying, it is omitting your private issues. If you feel not being honest to your audience, it depends on how deep you feel committed to your audience and the type of content you committed to yourself to share here in your channel. Cheers!
That, feels really good. ♥️
This story offers many teachings! Thank you for your wisdom. ❤
I completely understand about not being able to talk while making a video in front of people. I couldn't either for years but then I started doing lives pretty often at one point and I had 3 male tenants live with me at one point, so it was inevitable. It forced me outside of my box. However, I still prefer doing my videos when no one else is around.😁
I'm sure with your love, you just need space. Could he get his own place and you two can spend time together but not all your time together? Perhaps schedule trips alone as well? I wish you the best because I still long for my love. I had my love and I have never found anyone since our divorce and it's been 19 years. I've had boyfriends after but no one that meant to me what he did. I'm a bit of an introvert, so I understand you wanting your time but if you can figure out how to grow together without having the feeling of being suffocated, then try all avenues. 💖
Love is all you need❤
I’m so in love with your story and life. I’m at a loss to define how it makes me feel but it is so powerful and poignant. If this was a series or movie I would be addicted. Thank you for allowing us into your world and somehow it gives me hope and peace.
What joy to see you have a new video. I don’t even know you but to see your video pop up was delightful. 🐕🐕🚴
Wow, finally see you immediately in the feed.
wow.. you have articulated in video form exactly how i've been feeling these past few months living with my lover... I love him so much it's life or death he always says i'm his soulmate too, but my deep soul calling/potential is screaming. this entire video just gave me so much hope because i am not alone, neither are you. Thank you, just found your channel
I'm glad you found someone. I think you needed that. It is fine to be a hermit and it is fine to be in relationship with someone. Perhaps you can plan to be together part of the year and separate for part of the year. Thanks for your poetic videos.
"Seek freedom and you will get chaos, seek discipline and you will get freedom" (Maria Montessori il me semble). ou une autre encore "Recherchez la liberté et vous deviendrez esclave des vos désirs". Pas facile tout ça. Sinon, il faut écouter emmanuelle marie errera (par example).... pour effaçer toute traçe d'idée que l'on ait un libre arbitre...ce qui est la vrai liberté... Merci pour le contenu, la vulnérabilité, les images...
I love you so much 💓 and I love your energy and your videos 💕 thank you 🙏
Thank you so much!!♥️
Oh my! I can definitely relate to that but with a big difference! Yet, I'm still single but on the verge of beginning a new relation and the thought of sacrificing part of my freedom to make a family is suffocating and has kept my mind busy for a while now.
Love your videos, and though we have not met ever, I think as if you are a friend of mine :)
One breathe at a time, all will be well Nina ♥️
Thank you for your beautiful video and for sharing your thoughts with us. Wishing you a wonderful week and sending you best wishes from Scotland. 'What is for us, won't pass us by'. Old Scottish saying.
I just found your channel a few hrs ago, and I like the connections, amd understanding that you have. May you keep growing in all that your soul desires, and to continue to be at peace within ❤.
Thank you Vanille for sharing this wonderful video. Can't wait for another one. May Godbless you. Sending love from Philippines | ❣
Through the coldnest of the winter, you bring warmth to each others hearts. Hopefully you both find peace and happiness with each other and can work through the minor details of a relationship. Sending love and blessings to you both.
Thank you for sharing, you will find your solution that works best for you both. Everyone stay warm, safe, happy and healthy. From Henrico County Virginia
Your soul really shines bright and your love story sounds like a very special one. It can be hard to be so vulnerable. Thank you for sharing 💓
I'm halfway through listening & if I am correct, maybe you need a gentle reminder that things we need to face or experience will happen when we need them to.
No sooner, no later.
& We are always given the most we can handle, not more despite it feeling that way.
Forgive my being so personal on a public chat but it comes from a good place...
Your soul, your spirit, is incredibly guarded like some mythical animal deep in an impenetrable forrest which no one ever see's but has only heard or read about.
Every time you experience moments of deep connection with your man, he reaches closer to your spirit (mythical animal so to speak), the real you.
You aren't used to it & due to all your thoughts & emotions he is causing you, it becomes so intense that you seek to retreat back to deep within that impenetrable Forrest of yours.
I know you know what I'm about to write next but it still doesn't hurt to be reminded...
He isn't trying to tame you, his spirit is simply trying to join yours.
We are never in control but we all foolishly try to be. Trust that there is enough room in that Forrest of yours for the both of you.
From darkness came light.
From sadness comes joy.
From pain comes healing.
New life comes from the pain of childbirth.
Love is not too different with the challenges it frequently throws at us.
Resolving each argument we have with friends, family & those we care about only strengthens our bonds with them as time goes on.
The less you shy away & keep going with it & through it, the stronger you (& him) will become both personally & together.
Spending time alone in your Forrest away from others offers safety but being alone, truly alone in spirit (not simply physically away from other people) really sucks.
You can't add a pinch of natural salt or sweet to every recipe. You know all things are exactly like cooking & baking.
All things require specific ingredients, multiple ingredients & exact amounts.
A plant, a tree, all living things including ourselves require the right things & a suitable environment to grow.
I know you know all this but strangely feel you need reminding.
The way I see it is this...
Love can only be given freely, not taken. You have someone who gives you that & forgive my saying so but I think if you are going to allow someone access to your Forrest then it may as well be someone who loves you.
If you can let the man into your kitchen then you can let him into your Forrest.
Such a beautiful video once again! I totally relate to needing personal space a lot, even with people who are really close to me. I would understand the speaking in someone's presence problem too. Knowing they're there automatically attunes you to how to phrase things for them and how they see you instead of directly channeled from your soul... and spoken with feeling... I appreciate your vulnerability and videos so much!!
Thank you for sharing this sweet Kseniya ♥️
Lovely vlog and love your honesty.... Living with your soul mate isn't always easy but with time/communication/commitment to growing together and yet also on your own, you will find a way and learn to fly side by side alone in the togetherness... If this makes any sense - it does to me who lived through a similar situation.
Wonderful tiny home you created in the heart of mountains, I feel like it's healing your soul. True, it is not easy to balance between dependancy in love and personal feedom. I think that relation is toxic when only one person sacrifices something. In happy relation there is always a dialoque, understanding, compassion and you give and receive, not only give. You listen and you are heard, you understand him and he undestands you, you sacrifices your time/freedom/finances but he gives you something instead. Unconditional love is a sweet that spoils a man turning him into a spoiled naughty boy. Only mom loves her child unconditionally while the adult healthy woman should have a list of her conditions of love. It's from my life experience, I'm a bit older) so maybe it'll help you to decide.
Hey, Kozlova... haha love this name.. why do you say she sacrifices time and finances for him? she says they both work from home..
why do you assume it is just him being spoiled by unconditional love, not her too?
if a woman should have list of her conditions of love, then men should have it too, no?
or is a misogyny when men expect something from women?
Wow this video was so ... I can't even describe ... So touching so true so deep so close and sobeautiful ... I still couldn't say what i really feel inside ... Let me just say thank you so much 🖤
I'm so happy you found someone special. We all deserve someone like that.
What you are feeling sounds just like what I feel and is normal for me but at times I need my space to freely express myself with no one watching. I think that is healthy for everyone.
I understand this on such a deep level. I record voice over for my videos as well and have to do it in a closet sometimes just to be away from everybody. Keep asking these questions and listening to yourself and I am sure your freedom and your love can coexist. Peace and love
Watched this for second time. Listening to you without watching the video, it was like a movie in my mind. 🐕🐕🚴
You are wonderfull, thank you!
Wow, thank you! ♡