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This video actually perfectly described what I've been going through for the last 6 months and it would've probably been different if I had seen this earlier. I will try to look positively to what my future entails with this newfound knowledge. Maybe one day I'll make some videos like you on such topics and this comment might be remembered ; )
So, dropping off a present for an old friend yesterday, I then experienced bizarre sensation on the walk home, wherein I felt as if I was walking a tight rope that was going slack to the point on bouncing up and down; the World might shake me like a cold. ...or a virus?
Pandemic saved my life Life kicked me in the balls soo hard that i was planning my suicide ,but then i got corona and almost died to it When i were half alive i have totaly rebuild my values, realised few things and just got over problem from my past. If i didnt got corona i would be propably dead by now. Sounds kida wierd but loneliness and philosophy helped me out
@@dlloydy5356 oh yeah lol, this summer was the third life perspective shift I've had so far, but it's continued for so long and changed so much idk if I should count it as two or even three
Before the pandemic, I tried my best to minimize my procrastination. After the lockdown, my procrastination became worst and it slowly undermined my works. I eventually stopped working, I just couldn't do it anymore. I've been completely broken with my low self-esteem since then. I've felt ashamed of myself and started to shut everyone out of my life. I've wasted every single day on junk food, watching political news and talking to my brain about philosophy. Sometimes I gave myself a chance to escape from my negative thoughts, to reach out, to see other people, to see some hopes. All I saw is everyone already getting better except me. Maybe someone out there is still depressed, I just haven't seen them yet, maybe, I'm not even sure about anything anymore. I came back to my little room, deliberately isolated myself, again. I started to engage some small "debates" on the internet just to avoid talking to my brain. It's just not working, and I truly hate myself. What a lovely vicious circle. Anyways, stay strong, stay safe, and good luck to you all.
Please reach out to someone. People put up appearances and even if they are getting better there’s no reason you can’t talk to them if you’re depressed. You’re already pushing them away by shutting them out, if you push them away by being depressing then so be it (but realistically there’s probably at least a few who will help you and be understanding and kind). I wish you luck (I’m speaking from my own personal experiences btw)
I resonate strongly with what you've said here. Strong enough that even a chronic lurker like me wants to pen something down, with the intent it'll help others. I feel shame every day. I've spent most of 2020 being a dick to myself, repeating my past mistakes and cringe moments (socially, professionally, personally) as evidence that I am not meant for better. I've been unemployed for over a year now, and haven't applied for any jobs in several months. A mix of government assistance and my family are supporting me. I've started and stopped my hobbies several times this year, and haven't been consistent with them. And I isolate myself from my friends, from gaining new friends, because I question what I have to offer them, given that most of my days are essentially copy-paste. I don't feel like I've 'grown' in any meaningful way this year. And each attempt to do so is met with nihilistic tendencies that are always creeping in to poison any genuine progress of mine with whispers of 'what's the point'. So when I read you talking about the vicious negative feedback loops, *I understand how you feel*. The cycle of not growing and not reaching out because reaching out means shining a light on my shame. Being out of sight, out of mind, is so much easier. But I'm trying to be better. I have stopped viewing my Ideal Self as a form of self-abuse. That that is merely my demon hell-bent on keeping me in my place. A Deceiver using my Ideal Self as a puppet. That my genuine Ideal Self is understanding, and virtuous, wants me to do well, and *knows I can*. Because if I can think of an Ideal Self, then I can work towards it. My Ideal Self is my friend. It understands that I have been listening to this cycle of self-criticism for years, and it will take time for this to turn into self-compassion. Because most of this criticism is purely self-fulfilling prophecy. If my first thought is ‘I haven’t, so I can’t’, I will never grow. But this is a lie. The biggest lie I tell myself. Yes, it is true. ‘I haven’t’. I can’t change the past. But hell, if I can scribble down this much in some self-indulgent UA-cam comment, I’m self aware enough to replace my past with better. I absolutely can, even if unlearning 'I can't' and replace it with 'I can' will take time. I've got time. Especially now.
@@TheUnluckyRooster I relate so hard, Over they year I've sunken into this place of self festering negativity. When I really look at it, a lot of the "bad" is just me working myself over things, and in the moment I don't always realize I'm doing that. But I know deep inside that I should feed the good wolf, and that knowing makes me feel better
I am at exactly the same situation. The thing is tho i have been there in the past. So i know it's not exactly real. Other are depressed too. The only advice i can give you: start running. Go outside and run. This is a free time. While you run you are free and can't be ashamed about being a failure at the moment because there's none around to shame you....oh wait, it's quarantine. You can't go outside that easily. Yeeeee..... Dark humour helps. If it makes you feel any better, i haven't gone outside my place in a week, i have spend all the time eating junk food and playing video games. I am not useful to anyone or anything and none is expecting anything from me. Feel good, there's always someone worse than you 👍
I have been separated from my girlfriend since April. I was about to go visit her. I was planning a trip for months, but then the borders closed. I just want see her again. I just need her embrace. Good video.
My long term "it's complicated" called things off indefinitely. My circle was already shrunken by my failures and now it's as good as empty. The painful concept of quantum immortality keeps me going whether I like it or not. No autonomy, no.. ( *brain ironically churns* ) ..competence, and an informed cynicism of others that prevents any meaningful relatedness. 0 for 3.
Bro.. I have not seen my girlfriend(irl) in 2 years. we get sad whenever we talk about it. About how we can't see each other. We have definitely learned to have some patience I will say we were forced to learn to have patience, Can't really be in a long distance relationship otherwise. I Understand your pain hope you guys meet soon good luck :)
I lost everything during this pandemic. My job. My home. My girlfriend. My friends. My pets. My transport. My will to live, And now I feel like I'm loosing my mind. I keep asking the doctors for help. But I never get it. I keep asking for appointments, but they never get scheduled, I reach out to people but they never have time. I have had my whole life destroyed, and I don't feel like I'll ever be the same again. Sorry to rant on here, everything just got to me, and it was a nice release.
Idk, this year is so bittersweet for me - graduating high school without the actual exams and a proper „finale” of such part of my life. Kinda wasted summer but at the same time not really. Going to university abroad just to find out all of the classes are online and not much is going on to be honest. In the process of getting a study leave/dropping out, going back to homeland, searching for a job, trying to reconnect with some people I lost contact with. Making art, discovering fashion and literature while drinking cheap beer. Walking by the coast of the sea in the afternoon watching the grey sky and seagulls while slightly drunk on mulled wine and feeling oddly saudade - very much „in the moment”. Shit is werid for sure, odd even.
God bless you man. I'm in college during this whole pandemic and I'm going to have to drop a second class because of my grades. I've been struggling with massive depression and self-criticism over the person I am recently and it's made meeting the standards I've been expected to meet so incredibly difficult. I cried watching this video just off of how simply you put the matter of making a better life for yourself; I don't want to return to my pre-pandemic life. I have an ep coming out soon that is some of my best work, but I still feel like a disappointment based off my grades and how my parents see me. Yet I think I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that there's nothing else I wanna do in life than make music. You couldn't have dropped this at a better time for me man, namaste bro.
I feel like that autistic guy from the Onion when he visits a prison. I'm totally in my comfort zone right now and I'm sick of pretending like I'm not.
You should listen harder, then you will start to hearing the many blessed voices of our eldritch overlord, at least this what they are whispering to me, through the birds at window.
Fantastic share. From my experience, what's helped me tremendously is having things I'm focused on to keep me busy, whether it be work, family or creating content. Usually it goes a long way and gives me a purpose for my actions despite the fact we can't live right now as we normally would
I had a emotional/spiritual/mental breakdown in July. I am overseas living with my wife in her country. No job for 10 months straight as of writing this comment. I went into a dark night of the soul initiation and I see things differently now. I've incorporated habits that I never thought I could and I've released bad old habits or become more aware of them when I catch myself in that rut. You're right, the pandemic does make ourselves look inwards. I'm glad I suffered this way because if not, I would unconsciously go down the path that would eventually break me in the future. Good vibrations and blessings =)
I'm gonna come out of quarantine having overcome my depression and with control of my life. So it isn't all that bad. I'm also gonna come out of it as a girl, which is really nice.
@@kuba37571 OH. An asshole. The faster you accept that trans people exist and that bigotry is evil the better your life will be. Honestly, I'll never get why people like you are so bothered by the fact that other people are happy.
@@onyxtay7246 I've written my comment out of concern fot you not hatred. I've seen time and time again people becoming empty husks after going too far into their transitions. Just look at the data of suicides among trans (I think it's about 43% right now, could be wrong). It's a fool's game seeking protection from rain under a borrowed umbrella (gender). Hell, go on reddit and see how many people post operation realise that they've only mutilated their body, nothing more. Like I've said if you feel better this way more power to you man, you being happy is awesome. What isn't awesome is exposing yourself to a community that drives people to suicide and misery, but again if you want just to label me as a bigot and not listen to a word I say it's fine too.
@@kuba37571 The reason for the trans suicide rate is bigots like you. It drops to normal levels when people have supportive family and friends. If you genuinely care for the wellbeing of trans people then you will stop trying to hurt us. I'm in a place where your bigotry just pisses me off, but there might be a trans person in your life, and your actions could drive them to suicide. It's not the trans community driving people to suicide, it's people like you. Casually misgendering folk when you know they care (don't think I didn't notice that asshole), trying to invalidate someone's identity because you don't understand it. You are the reason for the trans suicide rate. I'll say it again, if you actually do care then you'll educate yourself and stop being a bigot. But I don't think you will. Because I'm pretty sure this is just an ego trip for you, to let you feel special and justify your prejudices. Maybe next you'll try to correct my "borrowed umbrella" of sexuality. After all, not being straight is wrong and living in that sin is going to ruin my life. I'm sure being oppressed and maybe put through some electroshock would definitely be better for someone like me than just being allowed to live my fucking life. In short, you're a terrible person. The trans suicide rate is because of people like you. Stop being a bigot.
Writing notes and writing thoughts in journal is really really really good advice . Better than meditation. Lot better. Really life changing for me. Self efficacy is really important. I only did help someone cause i accidentally helped someone years ago
Maybe, they are different excercises. Meditation allows you to recognize toughts and emotions as not permanent, and as entities separate from yourself. Journaling allows you to explore what is in your mind, instead of letting it go away like in meditation.
I had PTSD before the pandemic so thankfully for me I already had a tool kit to keep my mental health in check, but I have had some dark days. I therapy on video chat once a week, eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. Go for atleast a 20 minute walk everyday and I have been play Just Dance ha. I have also had a few occasions gotten quite drunk on video chat with friends. Also there is a neighbours cat that comes and say hello everyday. I have also been on and off work on Furlough since the pandemic and will be going back in a month of so. One thing I learnt from having PTSD is that only thinking about 1 day at a time and not thinking past that will help the anxiety and feeling of dred. Also learning how to love your own company can help, I do still talk to friends but I have learnt to enjoy my own company.
Please consider talking with a licensed therapist. I’ve cleaned my room, taken life’s blows with my chin up, and guess what? I still have depression and anxiety and autism and ADHD. So I need medication and therapy to help with all that, it takes strength to admit you need help from others. A good therapist will save you so much pain and frustration in the long run, potentially even save your life. But in the meantime, be gentle with yourself. Be compassionate with yourself. Don’t beat yourself up for not trying hard enough, let yourself be proud that you’re trying at all. Because it’s hard, especially when your pain is something other people can’t see. But you’ll be okay. In the meantime, it’s okay to not be okay.
Very important 7:00 don't do something because you think something. Like he doesn't mean just cause you have free time you should start pursuing some goal you like thinking it would bring you pleasure. Don't go I am feeling bad. I have to set a goal. tries to remember what i think i like(huh when i was a kid i liked spain). Makes learning spanish a goal. Doesn't like the experience but continues anyway thinking it would bring him pleasure. Don't do this. Don't try if the activity itself doesn't bring you pleasure. If you don't enjoy experience of learning Spanish then don't learn Spanish. It usually helps if the activity you do is close to what your ideals and core values are. but don't quit doing something you enjoy just because you think it's not related to any of your core values
To be honest, I'm more of an introvert person so this global pandemic doesn't affect me that much. I feel bad for extroverts, but this whole situation turned out to be quite nice for me. Plus, the masks hide that I'm quietly talking to myself all the time. All in all, a 9/10 from me.
The final message about post traumatic growth is something I’ve been reading about recently.....I think it relates to a breakdown being realised as a breakthrough & personal growth. A tough path to stick to yet the rewards/realisations are massive.
Its a great video. Anything to contribute helps a lot. Remember people are frustrated don't sweat it. I suggest running (rewarding for sadness) horseriding outdoors and Being careful of choices you make. I've made several bad ones. Avoid if at all possible. Thank goodness for people I know. Money was spent for little return or empathy. The loss of routine made me lose my appetite though i gained in the first lockdown. Miss the gym but have neighbours and family.I had classes but those teachers also had to cut those due to pandemic. Adjust expectations. Standards are likely to drop workers are stressed. Delay all desicions if affected. Cant think of a more dangerous time for a rash desicion if it feels wrong probably should back out. Write down as right now one will forget it. Stick to what makes you feel good but not what makes you unhappy can always change your mind. Do talk to doctors or psychologist. Who knows how many struggle after several lockdowns . I'm in the second in ireland. This lockdown was worse due to length of time. The best things are often free or almost free . I recommend video games the Simms 2 and a run or exercise always.
Just realized something lockdown doesn't affect me cause i have always been alone. It has just made me really happier. I geuss i already know what i want to do and what i desire.
After binge watching all of these videos and being blown away, I've come to a conclusion... I love this channel and also I actually want a ridge wallet now after the 6th commercial.
Thank you for sharing these valuable nuggets of knowledge. I don't mean to be discouraging, but the rapidly changing visuals themselves in this video could drive someone over the edge by triggering an epileptic episode.
I love your videos. If you don't want to get mad in these time you first have understand and learn to communicate with your own mind. Your videos teach me to do so.
Something about you and your ideas are extremely reassuring to me. You should genuinely consider perusing something that actively helps people in your carrier if you haven't already. I'm sure no matter what you choose to do in life you'll be great at it. Never change brother
2020, besides the pandemic, was quite a harsh mistress to me. First in January my mom got cancer, and as my dad is disabled I had to take full responsibility for her, but my parents are religeous and I am agnostic, so that made huge conflicts arise. I also burned out at my laboratory job in the foundry, a lot of stress and bad conditions precipitated it. I fell into depression and had a hard time getting up and doing anything, libido got totally shot. My wife suddenly wanted an open relationship, which made us divorce. Now I live completely alone in a studio apartment. I got some help through sleeping meds to cope with the anxiety at night, and now that I get rest again during the correct times, I get to use the day for something productive again. I have signed up to university after realizing that the budget on my own, even if unemployed, can last me for ages. Things are slowly looking up again. I feel like I have a purpose, and I can laugh about myself and the world again. Time to get back to growing and learning as a person. Thanks for giving me the time of your day by reading this, and if you are in a bad place yourself, hold on. It can't rain forever.
This hit at about the same time that I decided I was finally going to get out, join some sort of social club, and improve. I guess im just meant to be isolated.
I haven't been isolated I have been working with adults with learning difficulties I won't lie it's hard to work with people too stupid understand why acting in a particular way is to keep others and themselves safe don't me wrong some do but some don't
Honestly, the pandemic helped me with self reflection Before the pandemic, I was completely isolated and alone, only leaving my house to go to school simply because I was forced to The pandemic happening and everyone becoming as low as I already was gave me a perspective on how messed up my life was
Regarding the Poppy Campaign mentioned at the end: in the U.S. we also have a Poppy Charity. The reason in November. 11 was the date WWI ended. The poppy referred to is the opium poppy because so many veterans sustained injuries requiring morphine.
I broke up with my girlfriend before the virus and now there's no social events in which to go to meet new people and especially new potential girlfriends. Needless to say I've been feeling really lonely lately with no one to lean on for support but I've been lifting away the sadness with weights. Like if I get strong enough I'll be able to carry by own burden of emotional pain. Hope y'all are finding a way too. 🙏
Maybe because i had been unravelling before covid, but this didn't affect me as much. I love spending time at home. I had been meaning to rearrainge my social life but i didn't have the balls to tell certain people i didn't want to be their friends anymore. Covid gave me the perfect excuse to cut them off.
Dude you should write/draw a book that's a summary of what you believe to be Earths greatest ideas. I would buy that sooooooooo quick. I love your style and narration.
Just living in a university dorm alone, during the online education, for a month is very boring. Good thing I'm a volunteer and can sometimes do something
Too late mate, lost it 2 times, ended up in mental institution, lost my friends, girlfriend, will to live.. But I made it here so that's something, right?
As an immigrant in the USA during this shitshow year, relatedness has been the hardest part of the simple list of thing u recalled in the last minutes of you video, am in the seattle area and there is a saying that people around here "suck" called the "Seattle Freeze" we there just a bunch of automated passive aggressive politeness machines that never go beyond that point, its so much that even people that are more ethnic related to on self and have been here a certain period of time have lost their spice and become one of the masses. if u aint cashing money u are basically no one like the hundreds of people that are homeless in the cold streets of this city.
Honestly i am really enjoying lockdown i can stay like this forever. Did lot of amazing shit in lockdown questioned lot of things and am now thinking about probability. Like man i don't need your videos to not lose mind . I am already pretty good and like state of losing mind more than any normal state. it's more fun also you think lot in this state and thinking about things is what i value the most. Not very productive state though
I'm really grateful I don't live in a big city. My college is still open (I go to a trades school), I still have a job, I can go to my gf's, and hangout with friends. We still have to wear masks in public, but at least everything's not locked down.
Nothings changed for me I’m an essential steel worker and I’ve never been quarantined, shutdown, locked down or anything else no one I’ve known has ever caught it or been sick this whole year how it’s been for me is I get up at 5 go to work at 7 get off at 330 go to the gym for a few hours or watch some tv for a few hours and go to sleep everyday really all it has done is stopped me from is going to the gym for 2 months and restaurants and bars as well but those 2 weren’t apart of my normal schedule just spur of the moment things so it was never a big deal I started Uber eats made some extra money doing that but all together my regular life has already made me depressed badly and I got over it in a 18 month period listening to philosophy and building healthy habits and I was already wearing a mask all the time at work because of stone dust and chemicals so I just put a different one on when I leave work all in all I’m happy and honestly I wish they would lock me down I could use a nice long vacation
My way to deal with the pandemic is by expressing myself online. Make videos, art, talents and such. That also means that people will use it for bad and misinformation (Facebook)
Hey sisyphus, I really enjoy your videos but one thing that's always bothered me is the fact that you don't link your spotify playlist lmao. The music has always been the cherry on top for all your vids and I'm sure people would like to hear what you listen to considering your tastes.
I’ve been through a lot of hard shit in my life, but I don’t feel very strong. For the last decade I’ve felt like I’m on the edge of a cliff, with a fire slowly burning towards me. This whole pandemic has just been a strong wind fanning the flames. Drawing them closer and closer and closer. I don’t know how much more heat I can handle before I have to jump.
Being soft is ok too. You have to deal with humanities perils during soft and hard times. It's ok to accept yourself for whatever mental durability you have and proceed therein
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Thanks for the video :)
I'm banded from liking videos I think :( otherwise I'd give it a like
Ye thanks for the great video Mr. Sissy fus
This video actually perfectly described what I've been going through for the last 6 months and it would've probably been different if I had seen this earlier. I will try to look positively to what my future entails with this newfound knowledge. Maybe one day I'll make some videos like you on such topics and this comment might be remembered ; )
So, dropping off a present for an old friend yesterday, I then experienced bizarre sensation on the walk home, wherein I felt as if I was walking a tight rope that was going slack to the point on bouncing up and down; the World might shake me like a cold. ...or a virus?
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Pandemic saved my life
Life kicked me in the balls soo hard that i was planning my suicide ,but then i got corona and almost died to it
When i were half alive i have totaly rebuild my values, realised few things and just got over problem from my past. If i didnt got corona i would be propably dead by now.
Sounds kida wierd but loneliness and philosophy helped me out
I’m glad you’re still here with us today :)
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Yes, welcome back to the land of the livilng, hope you have a good and long time and maybe make it easier for some others to do so to
Wow this is very relatable although for different reasons the perspective shift/clarity is life changing
@@dlloydy5356 oh yeah lol, this summer was the third life perspective shift I've had so far, but it's continued for so long and changed so much idk if I should count it as two or even three
These vids have been very valuable during this insane period in history.
True. Now all we need is for Sam O'Nella to come back, and then we will all be a-okay!
Exurb1a collab?
@@GarlicGrinder9 yeeees
Hope you're doing okay out there.
You may be physically distant,
You don't have to be emotionally.
we are equally emotionally distant
I read this just as I took a sip of my hot coffee and it felt like your comment caused the warm sensation in my chest
We are maybe in different boats, but we're in the same ocean
We are like ships that pass in the night. It’s a big ocean - and it would be very cold to fall into.
Before the pandemic, I tried my best to minimize my procrastination.
After the lockdown, my procrastination became worst and it slowly undermined my works.
I eventually stopped working, I just couldn't do it anymore.
I've been completely broken with my low self-esteem
since then.
I've felt ashamed of myself and started to shut everyone out of my life.
I've wasted every single day on junk food, watching political news and talking to my brain about philosophy.
Sometimes I gave myself a chance to escape from my negative thoughts, to reach out, to see other people, to see some hopes.
All I saw is everyone already getting better except me.
Maybe someone out there is still depressed, I just haven't seen them yet, maybe, I'm not even sure about anything anymore.
I came back to my little room, deliberately isolated myself, again.
I started to engage some small "debates" on the internet just to avoid talking to my brain.
It's just not working, and I truly hate myself.
What a lovely vicious circle.
Anyways, stay strong, stay safe, and good luck to you all.
Please reach out to someone. People put up appearances and even if they are getting better there’s no reason you can’t talk to them if you’re depressed. You’re already pushing them away by shutting them out, if you push them away by being depressing then so be it (but realistically there’s probably at least a few who will help you and be understanding and kind). I wish you luck (I’m speaking from my own personal experiences btw)
I resonate strongly with what you've said here. Strong enough that even a chronic lurker like me wants to pen something down, with the intent it'll help others.
I feel shame every day. I've spent most of 2020 being a dick to myself, repeating my past mistakes and cringe moments (socially, professionally, personally) as evidence that I am not meant for better. I've been unemployed for over a year now, and haven't applied for any jobs in several months. A mix of government assistance and my family are supporting me.
I've started and stopped my hobbies several times this year, and haven't been consistent with them. And I isolate myself from my friends, from gaining new friends, because I question what I have to offer them, given that most of my days are essentially copy-paste. I don't feel like I've 'grown' in any meaningful way this year. And each attempt to do so is met with nihilistic tendencies that are always creeping in to poison any genuine progress of mine with whispers of 'what's the point'.
So when I read you talking about the vicious negative feedback loops, *I understand how you feel*. The cycle of not growing and not reaching out because reaching out means shining a light on my shame. Being out of sight, out of mind, is so much easier.
But I'm trying to be better. I have stopped viewing my Ideal Self as a form of self-abuse. That that is merely my demon hell-bent on keeping me in my place. A Deceiver using my Ideal Self as a puppet. That my genuine Ideal Self is understanding, and virtuous, wants me to do well, and *knows I can*. Because if I can think of an Ideal Self, then I can work towards it.
My Ideal Self is my friend. It understands that I have been listening to this cycle of self-criticism for years, and it will take time for this to turn into self-compassion. Because most of this criticism is purely self-fulfilling prophecy.
If my first thought is ‘I haven’t, so I can’t’, I will never grow. But this is a lie. The biggest lie I tell myself. Yes, it is true. ‘I haven’t’. I can’t change the past. But hell, if I can scribble down this much in some self-indulgent UA-cam comment, I’m self aware enough to replace my past with better. I absolutely can, even if unlearning 'I can't' and replace it with 'I can' will take time. I've got time. Especially now.
Ay, I'm proud of you for keeping on trying. I want you to know I care about you. You deserve to get help. Love you bro, I think you'll get better.
@@TheUnluckyRooster I relate so hard, Over they year I've sunken into this place of self festering negativity. When I really look at it, a lot of the "bad" is just me working myself over things, and in the moment I don't always realize I'm doing that. But I know deep inside that I should feed the good wolf, and that knowing makes me feel better
I am at exactly the same situation. The thing is tho i have been there in the past. So i know it's not exactly real. Other are depressed too. The only advice i can give you: start running. Go outside and run. This is a free time. While you run you are free and can't be ashamed about being a failure at the moment because there's none around to shame you....oh wait, it's quarantine. You can't go outside that easily. Yeeeee..... Dark humour helps. If it makes you feel any better, i haven't gone outside my place in a week, i have spend all the time eating junk food and playing video games. I am not useful to anyone or anything and none is expecting anything from me. Feel good, there's always someone worse than you 👍
I have been separated from my girlfriend since April. I was about to go visit her. I was planning a trip for months, but then the borders closed. I just want see her again. I just need her embrace. Good video.
I feel your pain. Haven't seen my girlfriend since March
My long term "it's complicated" called things off indefinitely. My circle was already shrunken by my failures and now it's as good as empty. The painful concept of quantum immortality keeps me going whether I like it or not. No autonomy, no.. ( *brain ironically churns* ) ..competence, and an informed cynicism of others that prevents any meaningful relatedness. 0 for 3.
Bro.. I have not seen my girlfriend(irl) in 2 years. we get sad whenever we talk about it. About how we can't see each other. We have definitely learned to have some patience I will say we were forced to learn to have patience, Can't really be in a long distance relationship otherwise. I Understand your pain hope you guys meet soon good luck :)
Keep pushing through man...I’m in the same boat
I choose this guy's girlfriend's embrace...
*exceptions includes exes
My ex after 4 years followed me on instagram lol
Even after blocking her?
Make your account private!
@@soda_clown
Why would you do that? Is your taste in potential partners so poor? ;D
@@soda_clown u sound toxic, my ex left on good terms
@@matty_daddy 3 of my exes left in good terms one didnt..
people have different temprement.
this is so much better than my strategy of just playing more skyrim. wish i found this video some time before level 90.
I lost everything during this pandemic. My job. My home. My girlfriend. My friends. My pets. My transport. My will to live, And now I feel like I'm loosing my mind.
I keep asking the doctors for help. But I never get it. I keep asking for appointments, but they never get scheduled, I reach out to people but they never have time.
I have had my whole life destroyed, and I don't feel like I'll ever be the same again.
Sorry to rant on here, everything just got to me, and it was a nice release.
Idk, this year is so bittersweet for me - graduating high school without the actual exams and a proper „finale” of such part of my life. Kinda wasted summer but at the same time not really. Going to university abroad just to find out all of the classes are online and not much is going on to be honest. In the process of getting a study leave/dropping out, going back to homeland, searching for a job, trying to reconnect with some people I lost contact with. Making art, discovering fashion and literature while drinking cheap beer. Walking by the coast of the sea in the afternoon watching the grey sky and seagulls while slightly drunk on mulled wine and feeling oddly saudade - very much „in the moment”.
Shit is werid for sure, odd even.
Thank you so much, starting university during all of this was so bad
I'm sorry this happened at the time of your life. I can't imagine dealing with this at that point!
Got depression? Ridge wallet.
I giggled...
Capitalism moment
For some reason I read this like the "hotel? Trivago." phrase haha
yes
I too love the simple life.
God bless you man. I'm in college during this whole pandemic and I'm going to have to drop a second class because of my grades. I've been struggling with massive depression and self-criticism over the person I am recently and it's made meeting the standards I've been expected to meet so incredibly difficult. I cried watching this video just off of how simply you put the matter of making a better life for yourself; I don't want to return to my pre-pandemic life. I have an ep coming out soon that is some of my best work, but I still feel like a disappointment based off my grades and how my parents see me. Yet I think I'm finally coming to terms with the fact that there's nothing else I wanna do in life than make music. You couldn't have dropped this at a better time for me man, namaste bro.
I feel like that autistic guy from the Onion when he visits a prison. I'm totally in my comfort zone right now and I'm sick of pretending like I'm not.
Autistic Reporter Michael Falk is my hero
Hard times create Strong Goblins
Strong Goblins create good times
Good times create Weak Goblins
Weak Goblins create hard times
Society
So we'll become strong soon
We will become the MIGHTIEST OF GOBLINS
We live in a society.
Ah yes, Philosophy of the Goblin Slayer, P. 1883
right on! the lack of seeing my fellow cult members has made my confidence take a hit
Are you still doing the weekly rituals?
Wait........
Is that a good cult or a bad cult?
You should listen harder, then you will start to hearing the many blessed voices of our eldritch overlord, at least this what they are whispering to me, through the birds at window.
Fantastic share. From my experience, what's helped me tremendously is having things I'm focused on to keep me busy, whether it be work, family or creating content. Usually it goes a long way and gives me a purpose for my actions despite the fact we can't live right now as we normally would
I had a emotional/spiritual/mental breakdown in July. I am overseas living with my wife in her country. No job for 10 months straight as of writing this comment. I went into a dark night of the soul initiation and I see things differently now. I've incorporated habits that I never thought I could and I've released bad old habits or become more aware of them when I catch myself in that rut.
You're right, the pandemic does make ourselves look inwards. I'm glad I suffered this way because if not, I would unconsciously go down the path that would eventually break me in the future.
Good vibrations and blessings =)
I'm gonna come out of quarantine having overcome my depression and with control of my life. So it isn't all that bad.
I'm also gonna come out of it as a girl, which is really nice.
You will never be a woman. The faster you accept that the happier your life will be.
@@kuba37571 OH. An asshole.
The faster you accept that trans people exist and that bigotry is evil the better your life will be.
Honestly, I'll never get why people like you are so bothered by the fact that other people are happy.
@@onyxtay7246 I've written my comment out of concern fot you not hatred. I've seen time and time again people becoming empty husks after going too far into their transitions. Just look at the data of suicides among trans (I think it's about 43% right now, could be wrong). It's a fool's game seeking protection from rain under a borrowed umbrella (gender).
Hell, go on reddit and see how many people post operation realise that they've only mutilated their body, nothing more. Like I've said if you feel better this way more power to you man, you being happy is awesome. What isn't awesome is exposing yourself to a community that drives people to suicide and misery, but again if you want just to label me as a bigot and not listen to a word I say it's fine too.
@@kuba37571 The reason for the trans suicide rate is bigots like you. It drops to normal levels when people have supportive family and friends. If you genuinely care for the wellbeing of trans people then you will stop trying to hurt us. I'm in a place where your bigotry just pisses me off, but there might be a trans person in your life, and your actions could drive them to suicide.
It's not the trans community driving people to suicide, it's people like you. Casually misgendering folk when you know they care (don't think I didn't notice that asshole), trying to invalidate someone's identity because you don't understand it. You are the reason for the trans suicide rate. I'll say it again, if you actually do care then you'll educate yourself and stop being a bigot.
But I don't think you will. Because I'm pretty sure this is just an ego trip for you, to let you feel special and justify your prejudices. Maybe next you'll try to correct my "borrowed umbrella" of sexuality. After all, not being straight is wrong and living in that sin is going to ruin my life. I'm sure being oppressed and maybe put through some electroshock would definitely be better for someone like me than just being allowed to live my fucking life.
In short, you're a terrible person. The trans suicide rate is because of people like you. Stop being a bigot.
@@onyxtay7246 Good luck. you will never be a woman, have a nice day.
Writing notes and writing thoughts in journal is really really really good advice . Better than meditation. Lot better. Really life changing for me.
Self efficacy is really important. I only did help someone cause i accidentally helped someone years ago
Maybe, they are different excercises. Meditation allows you to recognize toughts and emotions as not permanent, and as entities separate from yourself.
Journaling allows you to explore what is in your mind, instead of letting it go away like in meditation.
I had PTSD before the pandemic so thankfully for me I already had a tool kit to keep my mental health in check, but I have had some dark days. I therapy on video chat once a week, eat breakfast, lunch and dinner. Go for atleast a 20 minute walk everyday and I have been play Just Dance ha. I have also had a few occasions gotten quite drunk on video chat with friends. Also there is a neighbours cat that comes and say hello everyday. I have also been on and off work on Furlough since the pandemic and will be going back in a month of so. One thing I learnt from having PTSD is that only thinking about 1 day at a time and not thinking past that will help the anxiety and feeling of dred. Also learning how to love your own company can help, I do still talk to friends but I have learnt to enjoy my own company.
I feel like this video is going to help not only myself but a lot of other people get through this. Thank you so much, man.
What to do when the anxiety, depression and anger ones had, already existed before the pandemic.
Please consider talking with a licensed therapist. I’ve cleaned my room, taken life’s blows with my chin up, and guess what? I still have depression and anxiety and autism and ADHD. So I need medication and therapy to help with all that, it takes strength to admit you need help from others. A good therapist will save you so much pain and frustration in the long run, potentially even save your life.
But in the meantime, be gentle with yourself. Be compassionate with yourself. Don’t beat yourself up for not trying hard enough, let yourself be proud that you’re trying at all.
Because it’s hard, especially when your pain is something other people can’t see. But you’ll be okay.
In the meantime, it’s okay to not be okay.
Become bosnian and fight against srpska
@@bosanski_Cevap Lol
ur artwork is underrated.
As an introvert I’ve never been happier.
Ya man, the pandemic had a lot of negative. For me, the hub.
Very important
7:00
don't do something because you think something. Like he doesn't mean just cause you have free time you should start pursuing some goal you like thinking it would bring you pleasure.
Don't go
I am feeling bad.
I have to set a goal.
tries to remember what i think i like(huh when i was a kid i liked spain).
Makes learning spanish a goal.
Doesn't like the experience but continues anyway thinking it would bring him pleasure.
Don't do this.
Don't try if the activity itself doesn't bring you pleasure.
If you don't enjoy experience of learning Spanish then don't learn Spanish.
It usually helps if the activity you do is close to what your ideals and core values are.
but don't quit doing something you enjoy just because you think it's not related to any of your core values
To be honest, I'm more of an introvert person so this global pandemic doesn't affect me that much. I feel bad for extroverts, but this whole situation turned out to be quite nice for me. Plus, the masks hide that I'm quietly talking to myself all the time. All in all, a 9/10 from me.
Felt at talking to myself all the time
It’s nice to know others are going thru the same thing. I thought I was weird for writing down my thoughts and changing my pre-pandemic mindset
The final message about post traumatic growth is something I’ve been reading about recently.....I think it relates to a breakdown being realised as a breakthrough & personal growth. A tough path to stick to yet the rewards/realisations are massive.
The fact you're Canadian is so comforting....
Thanks for the video. These things really work, it's just that I recently find them not to work for me personally.
for me, it's always been the same. closed-off, staying at home, isolated and depressed introvert.
It’s all good if you’re content with that. Unfortunately introversion can lead to painful loneliness without some social interaction.
Its a great video. Anything to contribute helps a lot. Remember people are frustrated don't sweat it. I suggest running (rewarding for sadness) horseriding outdoors and Being careful of choices you make. I've made several bad ones. Avoid if at all possible. Thank goodness for people I know. Money was spent for little return or empathy. The loss of routine made me lose my appetite though i gained in the first lockdown. Miss the gym but have neighbours and family.I had classes but those teachers also had to cut those due to pandemic. Adjust expectations. Standards are likely to drop workers are stressed. Delay all desicions if affected. Cant think of a more dangerous time for a rash desicion if it feels wrong probably should back out. Write down as right now one will forget it. Stick to what makes you feel good but not what makes you unhappy can always change your mind. Do talk to doctors or psychologist. Who knows how many struggle after several lockdowns . I'm in the second in ireland. This lockdown was worse due to length of time. The best things are often free or almost free . I recommend video games the Simms 2 and a run or exercise always.
*Sees title:* Well, it's _kinda_ late for that...
Kind of. Anyway, we still have a way to go before the vaccine actually makes the rounds.
Just realized something lockdown doesn't affect me cause i have always been alone. It has just made me really happier. I geuss i already know what i want to do and what i desire.
After binge watching all of these videos and being blown away, I've come to a conclusion... I love this channel and also I actually want a ridge wallet now after the 6th commercial.
we really needed this video about 8 months ago ngl
Thank you for sharing these valuable nuggets of knowledge. I don't mean to be discouraging, but the rapidly changing visuals themselves in this video could drive someone over the edge by triggering an epileptic episode.
the ad is so relaxing
I cannot stress this enough, I love this channel
I love your videos. If you don't want to get mad in these time you first have understand and learn to communicate with your own mind. Your videos teach me to do so.
Of all of the personally pertinent videos, this is one of my favorites.
Perfect. Editing, the way you present each concept, just... perfect
I recharged my batteries by sitting on a rock last week. 9/10 forgot my coat
Something about you and your ideas are extremely reassuring to me. You should genuinely consider perusing something that actively helps people in your carrier if you haven't already. I'm sure no matter what you choose to do in life you'll be great at it. Never change brother
Get out of my head!
This video is exactly what I needed, very much appreciated, thank you!
I have BPD and finding it extremely difficult at the moment. Felt I’ve lost a lot of autonomy, competence and relatedness.
2020, besides the pandemic, was quite a harsh mistress to me. First in January my mom got cancer, and as my dad is disabled I had to take full responsibility for her, but my parents are religeous and I am agnostic, so that made huge conflicts arise. I also burned out at my laboratory job in the foundry, a lot of stress and bad conditions precipitated it. I fell into depression and had a hard time getting up and doing anything, libido got totally shot. My wife suddenly wanted an open relationship, which made us divorce. Now I live completely alone in a studio apartment. I got some help through sleeping meds to cope with the anxiety at night, and now that I get rest again during the correct times, I get to use the day for something productive again. I have signed up to university after realizing that the budget on my own, even if unemployed, can last me for ages. Things are slowly looking up again. I feel like I have a purpose, and I can laugh about myself and the world again. Time to get back to growing and learning as a person. Thanks for giving me the time of your day by reading this, and if you are in a bad place yourself, hold on. It can't rain forever.
This was so incredibly insightful and it helps me understand my own thinking in the past few months, thank you for making this
Finding out Sisyphus 55 is a Canuck gave me a feeling of happiness
This hit at about the same time that I decided I was finally going to get out, join some sort of social club, and improve. I guess im just meant to be isolated.
excellent timing I almost took up conlanging last night but now I know I should just buy a ridge wallet
To put it simply Sisyphus; Thank You.
Literally exactly what I needed.
I haven't been isolated I have been working with adults with learning difficulties I won't lie it's hard to work with people too stupid understand why acting in a particular way is to keep others and themselves safe don't me wrong some do but some don't
Today i learn about this thing called relatedness(from adelfer) and then you upload thhis lol, this help me more, thank you..
This pandemic isolation lonliness is nothing to me i have been quarantine in my home before this virus happen so yeah goodluck out.
Honestly, the pandemic helped me with self reflection
Before the pandemic, I was completely isolated and alone, only leaving my house to go to school simply because I was forced to
The pandemic happening and everyone becoming as low as I already was gave me a perspective on how messed up my life was
Regarding the Poppy Campaign mentioned at the end: in the U.S. we also have a Poppy Charity. The reason in November. 11 was the date WWI ended. The poppy referred to is the opium poppy because so many veterans sustained injuries requiring morphine.
There isn't enough stress... now is the time to regardless do whatever you wanted.
I broke up with my girlfriend before the virus and now there's no social events in which to go to meet new people and especially new potential girlfriends. Needless to say I've been feeling really lonely lately with no one to lean on for support but I've been lifting away the sadness with weights. Like if I get strong enough I'll be able to carry by own burden of emotional pain. Hope y'all are finding a way too. 🙏
same here brotha, hope you feel better soon 💯
Maybe because i had been unravelling before covid, but this didn't affect me as much. I love spending time at home. I had been meaning to rearrainge my social life but i didn't have the balls to tell certain people i didn't want to be their friends anymore. Covid gave me the perfect excuse to cut them off.
Thanks Sisyphus you always cheer me up
Dude you should write/draw a book that's a summary of what you believe to be Earths greatest ideas. I would buy that sooooooooo quick. I love your style and narration.
This video came in too late - I'm afraid I've already lost it
Just living in a university dorm alone, during the online education, for a month is very boring. Good thing I'm a volunteer and can sometimes do something
Dude you're voice gives me the tingles 😌😌
Wouldn't want to know, what and how I were doing, had I not embraced books during this time.
Keep saving the world dude
Too late mate, lost it 2 times, ended up in mental institution, lost my friends, girlfriend, will to live..
But I made it here so that's something, right?
Beautiful, well put, insightful, inspiring
As an immigrant in the USA during this shitshow year, relatedness has been the hardest part of the simple list of thing u recalled in the last minutes of you video, am in the seattle area and there is a saying that people around here "suck" called the "Seattle Freeze" we there just a bunch of automated passive aggressive politeness machines that never go beyond that point, its so much that even people that are more ethnic related to on self and have been here a certain period of time have lost their spice and become one of the masses.
if u aint cashing money u are basically no one like the hundreds of people that are homeless in the cold streets of this city.
Thank you for this, it's been rough.
these are dark times my friends, dark times
Honestly i am really enjoying lockdown i can stay like this forever. Did lot of amazing shit in lockdown questioned lot of things and am now thinking about probability. Like man i don't need your videos to not lose mind . I am already pretty good and like state of losing mind more than any normal state. it's more fun also you think lot in this state and thinking about things is what i value the most. Not very productive state though
"It is not good that man should be alone." - God
He’s right about something anyway.
U know the pandemic got to u when the Arkham Asylum and City inmates start sounding relatable
Perhaps meditation and duolingo really is all i need
Thank you for this wonderful video
9:40
My childhood of neurological scarring and trauma.
I'm really grateful I don't live in a big city. My college is still open (I go to a trades school), I still have a job, I can go to my gf's, and hangout with friends. We still have to wear masks in public, but at least everything's not locked down.
Somebody needs to pay for this.
Should I be wearing comic book 3D glasses for these videos? The red and blue outlines on the furiously jiggling animations hurts my brain
Sadly, many meetup groups seem to have taken a hit. My beloved science book club is kaput as is my art film meetup group. 💀
Always on point sisyphus
Nothings changed for me I’m an essential steel worker and I’ve never been quarantined, shutdown, locked down or anything else no one I’ve known has ever caught it or been sick this whole year how it’s been for me is I get up at 5 go to work at 7 get off at 330 go to the gym for a few hours or watch some tv for a few hours and go to sleep everyday really all it has done is stopped me from is going to the gym for 2 months and restaurants and bars as well but those 2 weren’t apart of my normal schedule just spur of the moment things so it was never a big deal I started Uber eats made some extra money doing that but all together my regular life has already made me depressed badly and I got over it in a 18 month period listening to philosophy and building healthy habits and I was already wearing a mask all the time at work because of stone dust and chemicals so I just put a different one on when I leave work all in all I’m happy and honestly I wish they would lock me down I could use a nice long vacation
"developing calculus" is a pretty fucking high bar to set
My way to deal with the pandemic is by expressing myself online. Make videos, art, talents and such. That also means that people will use it for bad and misinformation (Facebook)
Thank you for you great points.
Hey sisyphus, I really enjoy your videos but one thing that's always bothered me is the fact that you don't link your spotify playlist lmao. The music has always been the cherry on top for all your vids and I'm sure people would like to hear what you listen to considering your tastes.
I’ve been through a lot of hard shit in my life, but I don’t feel very strong. For the last decade I’ve felt like I’m on the edge of a cliff, with a fire slowly burning towards me. This whole pandemic has just been a strong wind fanning the flames. Drawing them closer and closer and closer. I don’t know how much more heat I can handle before I have to jump.
Hey, you are loved and appreciated. Please stay safe and cozy. Lots of love.
Weed can only help the quarantine for so long.
Time to add shrooms. 😂. They help for real.
Life Therapy you know what? Why not
@@lifetherapy3245 tweaking bru😂
I bet that ridge wallet ad is on his desktop in a folder called money.
thank you for this video
Being soft is ok too. You have to deal with humanities perils during soft and hard times. It's ok to accept yourself for whatever mental durability you have and proceed therein
Very accurate thumbnail
YAY A NEW VIDEO
No worries, lost it long before corona. It's debatable I ever had it.
8:54 Reminders that I am a social creature by nature that is dependent on others for my sanity do make me want to vomit.
I love you. ~ Patrick Star
😔🤘