I had no idea what an Adult Autistic Diagnosis would do to me...
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- Опубліковано 15 жов 2024
- Some days it feels like I was diagnosed with Autism and ADHD so very long ago, but in reality it's only been 2.5 months ago. I've processed so much emotion in that short time period. To be fair, time blindness is part of ADHD so that may be part of it.
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I resonated with everything you said Amanda. Especially the part about everyone thinking you’re “perfect.” I was always the perfect, quiet, stay out of trouble child, but inside I felt like a failure. It really is an intense experience pulling back all those layers and learning about yourself. Thank you for your content! ❤
You relayed it back exactly. So many layers. I did have a very good therapy session today. It's going to take time but eventually I'll process enough that it won't feel so intense when a new revelation pops up.
Thanks for this video. I am late diagnosed and can remember as a child either being too shy or talking non stop. So many answers since being diagnosed!
I used to say I was a shy extrovert. Which I guess I still am. I do like being around people, but I'm learning how to be around them and not exhaust myself by people pleasing at the same time.
Thank you for this. I've been absorbing realizations about my neurodivergence and it's been hard like that. Depressing and empowering and relieving and confusing and wonderful.
So many emotions all at once converging.
Hope u r doing well a year later
I felt like everyone had a version of my brain to different degrees. I naively thought everyone was like me, but now I can finally see the reasons I was never accepted/bullied.
I brought it up to my therapist & he said: You don't look Autistic. I told him: I'm high masking & been around ALOT of assholes in my life.
It all finally makes sense! I'm at the point of flashing back & going...ohhhhhhh! Now I get it. I'm mad about alot of it but using it to try to figure out my boundaries.
I'm 41 & self diagnosed for about a weekor so now. *I can see clearly now, the rain is gone.*
Awkwardly, Amandalyn in Florida
Welcome to the community. Find a therapist that supports you as a self diagnosed autistic. ❤️
14:03 oh man, the subconscious tuning out of whole ginormous things sometimes is still amazing the heck out of me, like several times a week, now that I’m actually aware of what I’m doing.
It's so crazy. This whole Unmasking experience had been like alternative universe weird.
@@i.am.mindblind yes, exactly.
No worries if you feel like you might not make a specific point- I’ve remembered several past experiences that are relevant to my self-diagnosis while I’ve watched your videos. I think I’ve had similar enough experiences, and your stories bring them up. So, thank you!
I appreciate this. ❤️ So glad my videos are helpful.
So completely relatable!!
To be honest, I am kind of glad that I didn’t realise that I was actually autistic until later in life (at 55). It was right under my nose, so to speak, as I had a close male relative diagnosed when I was in my late teens. Of course that was in the 80s, and even for boys the presentation and symptoms had to be on par with level 3 or possibly picked up at what might now be level 2. I did of course struggle making and keeping close friendships, and was always tired and anxious due to what I now know was masking. However looking back, I am not sure if I would have kept pushing for the things I wanted if I was told I was autistic and therefore unwell. I have had over 30 years of work (perhaps underemployed due to somewhat understanding my limitations but not really knowing why I had them). I have a lovely home and family. I am very grateful for that. The autism discovery came about when I could no longer cope with everything that had changed around me. I am in a bit of a heap now, but will work it out. It’s distressing and confronting to deal with, especially the unmasking, but I think the real issue is not necessarily being undiagnosed, but the total misconception and misunderstandings in the community. Ideally I would have liked the knowledge I have now about ASD and other medical issues 5 years ago, but the human mind and body are complex, so it has taken time and a process of consultation and random things to work out what’s been going on. The understanding and criteria for ASD has changed immensely in the last 50 years. All we can do is live and learn and love, and live the best life we can in the world around us. I believe having a diagnosis earlier may have provided me some more accommodations, but there would likely have been negative consequences too. Maybe we are just supposed to find out when we do? Who knows. Hopefully the spreading of awareness will help humans be more understanding and tolerant and helpful in the long run, and we are all part of that collective journey of knowledge. 😊
It's a bit of a catch-22 for sure. I wish I had known, but if I ha known earlier when there was even MORE stigma, it probably wouldn't have been easier. It's frustrating but true.
Right there with you on the bubbling emotions situation.
I'm a champagne bottle of emotion! 😂
@@i.am.mindblind perfect 😂
Yeah that tiktok sounds really intense
Masking is a broken concept. No austistic person can mask so they seem nerotypical to nerotypical people.
Yes, someone autistic spend a lot of time and energy on pretending to be "normal", the PROBLEM is that it doesn't WORK. So it's important to catch autism early, because if someone autistic, gay or trans KNOW they can adjust to the worlds bad behavior isntead of pretending to be nerotypical, straight or non-trans. It might still end up breaking the person that the world hate you, but that at least is a NORMAL reaction.
No Normal person has autistic traits! You are confusing the fact that we all eat, but someone alergic can't eat all the food a normal person can. That doesn't in no way allow for a normal person to have alergic traits. Same with Autism, a normal person does not have a single autistic trait, they have the NORMAL version of human behavior traits, not the autistic version. No one grows up to be a healthy person by being badly bullied by "normal" people, even normal people break when that is done to them.
Autism, gay, trans isn't sicknesses you can cure or fix. Only thing we can do is try to fix normal people, but since normal people is evil that is going to be hard, because they will ALWAYS think that because they are NORMAL the world should adjust, not them.
I'm sorry, but I don't understand what your trying to communicate. I think I'm lost on the word normal. Do you mean neurotypical? No one is really "normal" we all have our own things. Masking is when an Autistic person tries to appear to be Neurotypical. It works to some degree. I've always felt like an outsider but others didn't see my internal turmoil.
The "being someone everyone always gets along with but never someone that was invited anywhere" resonates with me so much 🥲
Yeah, that one was always so confusing growing up. 😔