I cried hearing this You write music like you lived my life. I have been with my husband for 20 years. We were addicts together, had everything, lost everything, been homeless, jail, and so much more. We both will have 9 years clean in November and live a good life. I lost a beautiful daughter to addiction at the tender age of 24 . Your music tugs at my heartstrings and it's like wow someone gets it!!! Keep crushing bro!!!!!
I can relate i just beat addiction recently caught cases 2 duis years ago out on bail again for a bad accident and one day i woke up and said this cant be it what else do i have to lose to learn ! I allowed my mind to take the wheel RLS only thing i couldnt fight and today im finally happy
Bro, I can't even explain to you how hard this hit home. I've been with my woman for 12 years and We went through the worst addiction together, weve had everything together... lost it all together, we were homeless together...now Were both a little over a year clean now, and rebuilding our life together. Those scenes of y'all stealing food from the store to eat...man... Thanks dawg.
I wish this for my sister and her man 😢 I hope they both find the light before it's to late. They have lost everything together and I wish they could sober up and rebuild together and get their kids back together..make a home together. I just want them to both be clean together
I lost my girl after being with her on and off for 22yrs this past year and I don’t kno what to do with myself these days without her here..she was always a phone call away and now she’s not!! This song makes me cry so hard but they’re good tears and I put this song on repeat for hours!! Thank you so much for such a beautiful song my dude!! Keep up the hard work!! RIP Natalie Carr-I’ll always love you and you will forever live thru me!! #loveisreal #realtalk 💯💯❤️❤️
This kid needs to blow up y'all! Don't just watch his videos, see them. Don't just listen to the lyrics, hear them. His music hits different, you feel the pain he has inside while trying to heal himself. The world needs the message he speaks in his songs, to help heal this nation of sick people. Thank you, honestav... your music make me feel my emotions and it scares me, but a good scare!
Best comment award goes to you!!! All so true for me and well said as well. So much good music is born from pain and suffering. And thank you to the artist who wasnt afraid to share his pain and energy with us
This just fucked me up and I cannot stop crying. Reminds me of all the friends I’ve lost due to addiction. Makes me question if there is more than could have been done. We all hurt, but some hurts heal and for others just waking up is a reminder of their pain. Hey YOU, I’m glad you’re still here and know that YOU matter. We love YOU.
I'm learning to be happy that I'm still here too, I definitely shouldn't be here with how many times I've tried but somethings always pulled me through. It's not my time yet ✨️ thank you bud
This song reminds me of my best mate turned lover turned awkward phase turned best friend again ... whom we started experimenting with different types of Drugs, LSD, Shrooms, Ketamine etc I lost my mind 😢got institutionalized and things felt different. I was now struggling with my first manic episode psychosis demon's feeding on my fear, I met a man and during my manic episode I stupidly gave in to trying heroin as my manic episode psychosis made me have no boundaries 😢😢😢 I moved away from my friend and friends my flatmates I loved. And 3 years later my best friend laid down on the train tracks and had killed himself 😢😢😢 I'm still grieving and it was about 5 years ago now 😢😢😢😢 It was a period of life when I had the most fun, 20 years old, like a kid stuck in a woman's body. I think about him so much, suicide breaks those around you. Never give up on hope. 4 years ago now Jesus Christ saved me from the pit of the depths of despair. I'm happy now , feeling joy and peace with my lord Jesus Christ. If only I could have known God back then perhaps I could of helped him. You do blame yourself 😢😢😢😢😢
you've got no idea how relatable ur music is to me... helps me just understand that life is what you make of it, cant focus on the bad and expect good. Keep up the great music king!
“Wish u could hear thoughts I got so much that I could say, I took the rest of my dads ends I’ll save that bottle for a rainy day, if you could can save me a plate, not there yet dad but I’m on the way, wait, don’t think we’re goin to the same place , they gon send me to hell you in heavens gatesss” 🤧❤️🩹man felt thissss
I feel like this guy always grabs a piece of our hearts that we stashed in a shoe box in hopes to forget about and carry on; nonetheless, it's nothing but smiles with this man's music, no matter the memory.
Idk what your going through. But the only girl I’ve ever loved since we were kids.. just told me she’s got 3 years left.. soon as we got sober and everything was finally perfect.. I cry everyday.. love bro… This real af..
Brother she is waiting for you up there god knoŵs you are coming just dont be in a hurry you still have some music god wants you to lèave behind you nothing but love brother and god bless you
Dad passed from cancer 2 years ago. He was 44, I was 24. Gone too soon. Knowing him, he'd have a plate waiting for me in the afterlife. He loved to cook and was the happiest person despite his sickness. That dad line always hits close to home, I appreciate your music! I'd do anything to see my dad again and just have a nice home cooked meal from him.
I’m a 58 year old woman who lived a life of chaos and addiction. During it I had a couple of boyfriends that I really connected with. This song brings back memories of good times in bad situations. Both of those men are dead from overdoses. I miss them terribly and the weird thing is sometimes I feel like it was yesterday and they are still here. They say when you’re an addict your brain doesn’t develop past the time you started and sometimes I feel that way. I started when I was 13…….
I can’t believe the amount of talent I’ve discovered this year just from random reels I stumble across. Thought the skits were funny and original. This shit is next level. New fan here bout to start a deep dive
This song has hit me so hard thank you so much. I just lost my best friend in June and we're only 20. I lost my dad when I was 14. Too much grief in my life it's so suffocating but these songs they speak exactly how I feel & somehow manage to free me from the prison I'm in.
"Imma love you til we both dead." Hits hard when you've struggled with your best friend and lover of almost 20 years. We are finally at a spot we both are happy and comfortable with along with our 4 year old daughter. I think we finally found our peace. ❤
Bro I've been secretly battling addiction, n this music is the most therapeutic thing in my life, scarry how your videos and lyrics are so relatable to what I've been feeling but not able to express, love you from Buffalo New York
My son hits a year old in 26 days. Quit smoking for over a year. This song hits! The struggle is real for everyone. Hope everything goes well for anyone listening to this! You got this!!
This is so beautiful, I hope you know how much beauty and pain and real you’re giving out into the universe right now in such a needed time. You’re now in the web, the web of life where we are all connected. Much love
Thank you Av, your music is so eye opening and honest. I honestly pray for the day you come to Colorado so I can see you preform live, its has been and continues to be an honor to hear you spill your soul to us. Looking forward to the Starduhst and Flowers & Rain videos!
I needed this right now, thanks for always supplying the best of the best. Your on the rise my friend, Keep up the good work and shinning be proud of your dedication, your killing it my homie. Big love from Melb,Aus.
My girls in the other room battling addiction. I feel so helpless. Called everywhere to get her help. Sitting here listening to all your songs in tears. Lost my dad to addiction and her daughters here. Some say to walk away. I don't want her daughter to feel the pain of losing a parent.
3 years ago i was homeless in Kensington. I ended up in a psychosis so deep i thought everyone was trying to kill me. April 8th 2022 i was locked up for 6 months and that was the start to my journey sober. I ended up in rehab after jail. Right now, today I am working at that rehab. I still struggle with SI and truly don't understand what life is about. I no longer crave getting high but I also don't crave anything. I have no motivation and I feel so flat. I really don't know what to do with myself but I am grateful that I'm sober.
Ive just discovered your music and honestly ive been listening constantly it really hits deep for me!! Ive suffered addiction from 15 and mental health issues. This really hits deep. We need more artists like you!!!! LEGEND!!!!!! ❤❤❤
You remind of gettin' high In the times of my life Remind me of summer nights When it's dark, and it's warm and we're drinkin' And I know that we cutting ties But can you find me sometime? 'Cause I know how it get too dark When you're stuck in your head and you're thinkin' You the moonlight in my night You the rain clouds in my sky You the brain that stuck in my head Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead You remind me of gettin' high In the times of my life Remind me of summer nights When it's dark and it's warm and we drinkin' And I know that we cuttin' ties But can you find me sometime? 'Cause I know how it get too dark When you stuck in your head and you thinkin' You the moonlight in my night You the rain clouds in my sky You the brain that's stuck in my head Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead You remind me of gettin' old Playing card games and dominoes Mushrooms when they grow like mold Taking out the trash and doing what I'm told Words cut deep and they hurt like hell I feel like blades when I cut myself No, I promise mama I don't need no help When you talkin' to God, pray 'bout that health Tell my friends I'm still as well Still drunk, still stoned, still raising hell Still stuck on shit that I shouldn't tell Still just a fool and you're one as well You're the moonlight in my night You're the rain cloud in my sky You the brain that's stuck in my head Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead You remind me of getting high In the times of my life Remind me of summer nights When it's dark, and it's warm and we're drinkin' And I know that we cuttin' ties But can you find me sometime? 'Cause I know how it get too dark When you stuck in your head and you thinkin' You the moonlight in my night You the rain cloud in my sky You the brain that's stuck in my head Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead Wish you could hear my thoughts I got so much that I could say I took the rest of my dad's hands I'll save that bottle for a rainy day If you're cooking save me a plate I'm not there yet dad, but I'm on the way Wait, don't think we going to the same place They gon' send me to hell Are you at heaven's gate? Don't tell me to stop my cryin' I get so high I feel like dyin' I get so drunk, I feel like you I'm a 10.5 when I'm in your boots I'm a 9.5 on my own I'ma push it all down, I'ma keep gettin' stoned I'ma wear a fake smile through the screen on the phone And I'ma run towards you when I'm feeling alone You remind me of gettin' high In the times of my life Remind me of summer nights When it's dark, and it's warm and we're drinkin' And I know that we're cuttin' ties But can you find me sometime? 'Cause I know how it gets too dark When you stuck in your head and you thinkin' You're the moonlight in my night You're the rain cloud in my sky You the brain that's stuck in my head Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead
The rawness of your music never fails to bring me to tears & warm my heart at the same time. Love what you do & the music you put out into the world. Keep creating beautiful shit man, you’re saving lives out here
Omg. I seriously got MAJOR goosebumps this entire song. Keep going, bud!! You’ve got a real gift!! You have no idea how many people you’re healing and giving hope. Thank you ❤ #WeDoRecover ❤️
Keep on keeping on brotha please. My life is getting old but my Daughter is the only reason im still here 😢 the music is my medicine. Still drinking an smoking but its from the Gods. I understand why i do me and keeping on keeping on
Found you and your music today! Heard I’d rather overdose.. then had to find more! Wow you are so talented! Your music is so real and made me super emotional. Like everyone else too I’m sure. I just want to say keep doing what you’re doing, don’t ever stop being you. You stand out because you just speak what’s on your mind and aren’t afraid of being authentic or showing vulnerability. Mark my words you are gunna blow up! And I’ll be sure to buy a ticket when you come to my hometown! Loveee love lovee your music❤️🙏
Bro thank you real talk i listen to music to relate and release stress you have no idea how much you have helped me with the shit im still goin through god bless u my guy keep at it every damn song man just hits hard 😢💪respect 💯
I found you a couple of months ago and you’ve become my favourite artist. Your songs are so relatable, and healing. I love this song, and the video was so beautiful, was perfect for this song. Keep making amazing music and videos!
Just getting over a break up and horrible addiction to fentanyl just went from downs to ups when she left me cause I couldn’t get high off fentanyl or tranq anymore now trying to get sober and your music has been the biggest inspiration
Omg i lost my soul mate in 2017. We had known each other since highschool but never dated. When we finally did date we were both scarred from life. I had already been addicted to opiates and kicked it but unfortunately relapsed and he did too. Despite some of the terrible times we had there were a lot of great times too. But now 6 years sober i realize i used to think i was having fun because i was hi but really i was having fun because i was with him. I miss him everyday since he took the forever sleep of the god morpheus by unknowingly ingesting fentanyl dec 4 2017. I’ll never be the same after losing him but i have found happiness without opiates now. I know he watches over me and his son.
Lost my daddy in 3/24/21 and in 8/21/21 the Women whom I Loved with all my Soul, it’s 11/3/24 and many Moons and Suns passed me by and Still in Tears rn… God saved me now I’m married with a 2 month old baby and it’s fucking crazy that we just have to turn the page and start a new chapter or else my book would’ve been closed if I didn’t ACCEPT what Others have before me. DESTINY.
I remember when I went to get sushi with my friend Harrison, Harrison's dad, and my friend Scott for Harrisons dad's birthday when I was in high school. Harrison's dad went first, death by OD, Harrison was using then too but got clean for awhile, then OD'd and died after being laid off for covid lock downs with a daughter on the way, I lost touch with Scott only to see his obituary later(an OD, had a thing about a related cause to donate too). Out of the 4 I am the only one that isn't dead yet, the ending brought back that memory eating sushi together with them. Lost 6 people from my youth from OD, really feels weird.
man reminds me of me and this girl i loved, and addiction, and my youth, both of us are dead now, as in those people we were those kids dont exist no more.... ten years later and many near death experiences, i am finally sober and she lives in Florida, i went all the way there to see her one year and she stood me up... so i never talked to her again since
I cried hearing this You write music like you lived my life. I have been with my husband for 20 years. We were addicts together, had everything, lost everything, been homeless, jail, and so much more. We both will have 9 years clean in November and live a good life. I lost a beautiful daughter to addiction at the tender age of 24 . Your music tugs at my heartstrings and it's like wow someone gets it!!! Keep crushing bro!!!!!
Stay strong, and never give up.
I can relate i just beat addiction recently caught cases 2 duis years ago out on bail again for a bad accident and one day i woke up and said this cant be it what else do i have to lose to learn ! I allowed my mind to take the wheel RLS only thing i couldnt fight and today im finally happy
@ one day at a time my dude because 2 or 3 days is not an option for us! You got this
she loves you always. you never failed her mama this world is just cold. sending love always.
Bro, I can't even explain to you how hard this hit home. I've been with my woman for 12 years and We went through the worst addiction together, weve had everything together... lost it all together, we were homeless together...now Were both a little over a year clean now, and rebuilding our life together. Those scenes of y'all stealing food from the store to eat...man...
Thanks dawg.
Stay the path brother, give glory to Jesus and God. Just keep going.
@@Sober1299amen!
I wish this for my sister and her man 😢 I hope they both find the light before it's to late. They have lost everything together and I wish they could sober up and rebuild together and get their kids back together..make a home together. I just want them to both be clean together
I feel this too much and it hurts a bit
so proud of you both
The ending really broke me💔. Don't ever stop making music man 🙏.
Same 💔
I think if there was only one coke bottle would have had more impact, still an amazing video and song
My wife died on June 23rd, she was almost 32, and this songs FUCKING KILLING ME right now dude , this is so great
So sorry.. please keep going, get/stay sober.. she would only want the very best for you ❤
Or do what you want love how people assume and tell you what to do. Do what works for you
My condolences 🙏
Jesus man. Hang in
Hugs❤
I lost my girl after being with her on and off for 22yrs this past year and I don’t kno what to do with myself these days without her here..she was always a phone call away and now she’s not!! This song makes me cry so hard but they’re good tears and I put this song on repeat for hours!! Thank you so much for such a beautiful song my dude!! Keep up the hard work!!
RIP Natalie Carr-I’ll always love you and you will forever live thru me!! #loveisreal #realtalk 💯💯❤️❤️
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All his songs just hit home it frazy
anybody else cry reading this comment. Sorry for your loss
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I lost my love of my life 2 yrs ago and I dont know how to live without him either
Dude has the music for all my past times.....
This kid needs to blow up y'all! Don't just watch his videos, see them. Don't just listen to the lyrics, hear them. His music hits different, you feel the pain he has inside while trying to heal himself. The world needs the message he speaks in his songs, to help heal this nation of sick people. Thank you, honestav... your music make me feel my emotions and it scares me, but a good scare!
He IS blowing up!!! ❤
Best comment award goes to you!!! All so true for me and well said as well. So much good music is born from pain and suffering. And thank you to the artist who wasnt afraid to share his pain and energy with us
Very well said....❤🙏✌️🤟💪💪
I’d say 107 K is kinda blowing up don’t you think???😂😂😂☮️☮️☮️💟💟💟
Broke boyfriend ain't broke no more. Your music is awesome man. Please keep it up. Your helping the masses.
Song has always been a hit but the vhs quality of the video brings the vibe together for real.
This just fucked me up and I cannot stop crying. Reminds me of all the friends I’ve lost due to addiction. Makes me question if there is more than could have been done. We all hurt, but some hurts heal and for others just waking up is a reminder of their pain. Hey YOU, I’m glad you’re still here and know that YOU matter. We love YOU.
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I'm learning to be happy that I'm still here too, I definitely shouldn't be here with how many times I've tried but somethings always pulled me through. It's not my time yet ✨️ thank you bud
addiction, youth, and two young kids who dont exist no more
I have found that everyone leaves me but it's ok in the end it's just me, myself and God ❤
Gifted Hand's.
This song reminds me of my best mate turned lover turned awkward phase turned best friend again
... whom we started experimenting with different types of Drugs, LSD, Shrooms, Ketamine etc I lost my mind 😢got institutionalized and things felt different. I was now struggling with my first manic episode psychosis demon's feeding on my fear, I met a man and during my manic episode I stupidly gave in to trying heroin as my manic episode psychosis made me have no boundaries 😢😢😢
I moved away from my friend and friends my flatmates I loved. And 3 years later my best friend laid down on the train tracks and had killed himself 😢😢😢
I'm still grieving and it was about 5 years ago now 😢😢😢😢
It was a period of life when I had the most fun, 20 years old, like a kid stuck in a woman's body. I think about him so much, suicide breaks those around you. Never give up on hope.
4 years ago now Jesus Christ saved me from the pit of the depths of despair. I'm happy now , feeling joy and peace with my lord Jesus Christ.
If only I could have known God back then perhaps I could of helped him. You do blame yourself 😢😢😢😢😢
you've got no idea how relatable ur music is to me... helps me just understand that life is what you make of it, cant focus on the bad and expect good. Keep up the great music king!
Yo spot on homie!
*cant relate to being dead*
*good voice tho*
*rip foolio*
*he dead*
Yep. Pretty great to hear someone who thinks like I do. Too weird for the cool kids. Too cool for the weirdos hit too hard
*the ending is amazing*
*especially for anyone out there who realizes they dont want to offer anyone anything*
The emptiness of that ending hit me so hard man ..
for real
Fr fam. Y'all take care yourselves out there.
2:31 that sound of his voice mixed with the lyrics. The breath that it takes away.
“Wish u could hear thoughts I got so much that I could say, I took the rest of my dads ends I’ll save that bottle for a rainy day, if you could can save me a plate, not there yet dad but I’m on the way, wait, don’t think we’re goin to the same place , they gon send me to hell you in heavens gatesss” 🤧❤️🩹man felt thissss
Damn 👊✨
🥺😖😭😭😭
Straight facts ...barrrss
Seriously...hey please check out my music if u don't mind..u might like it...or if u don't I dont mind constructive criticism
I thought he said “rest of my dad’s ends” like his ashes and he’s finna spread the rest when he feels like it time. What you think?
Such a good feeling finding one of few authentic artists, he keeps it so real I love it
Yo faso faso!
Yeah idk how he’s doing it but it’s legit special stuff
I feel like this guy always grabs a piece of our hearts that we stashed in a shoe box in hopes to forget about and carry on; nonetheless, it's nothing but smiles with this man's music, no matter the memory.
Idk what your going through. But the only girl I’ve ever loved since we were kids.. just told me she’s got 3 years left.. soon as we got sober and everything was finally perfect.. I cry everyday.. love bro…
This real af..
I'm sorry...time to REALLY LIVE now!❤❤❤🙏🙏🙏✌please check out my song Angel if u don't mind. It might relate to u..
Be strong brother. Be there for her.
@@Lonemitethank you. I’ll do my best❤️
Brother she is waiting for you up there god knoŵs you are coming just dont be in a hurry you still have some music god wants you to lèave behind you nothing but love brother and god bless you
Dad passed from cancer 2 years ago. He was 44, I was 24. Gone too soon. Knowing him, he'd have a plate waiting for me in the afterlife. He loved to cook and was the happiest person despite his sickness. That dad line always hits close to home, I appreciate your music! I'd do anything to see my dad again and just have a nice home cooked meal from him.
I’m a 58 year old woman who lived a life of chaos and addiction. During it I had a couple of boyfriends that I really connected with. This song brings back memories of good times in bad situations. Both of those men are dead from overdoses. I miss them terribly and the weird thing is sometimes I feel like it was yesterday and they are still here. They say when you’re an addict your brain doesn’t develop past the time you started and sometimes I feel that way. I started when I was 13…….
Yes!!!! Me too!!! I'm 46 and it just brought me back to those crazy times.
Just remember, you're not alone in this life
"Rather ovedose" es otro excelente tema de este grupo.
That dad line hits the heart man. Glad I stumbled on your music man it’s great
R.I.P Zane Leon Smith 🖤 1985-2011.. I will ALWAYS love you!
Bro keep putting out Music. Never stop. Each piece you put out is a master piece. All tell a story. Thank you letting us be apart of it
This guy really came outta nowhere dropping masterpiece after masterpiece
Lmao you are so right. Been listening to him non stop 😭 About to blast "Looking Glass" for the next hour
Dude that’s what I’m saying. Every song hits
Frrrr
Bro you are out here changing mindsets, healing hearts, and fixing the human condition
I can’t believe the amount of talent I’ve discovered this year just from random reels I stumble across. Thought the skits were funny and original. This shit is next level. New fan here bout to start a deep dive
This song has hit me so hard thank you so much. I just lost my best friend in June and we're only 20. I lost my dad when I was 14. Too much grief in my life it's so suffocating but these songs they speak exactly how I feel & somehow manage to free me from the prison I'm in.
I’m like 15+ years past this message, but damn, this is spot on. All the love to both of you.
Recently shared this video with a lady who is becoming very important to me. Thank you for making music that connects deeply
I swear, man, every song you make brings tears to my eyes.
Saaaaaame
53 recovered addict here. Love you message. I'd rather be sober in the streets than live that life again.
This song has me choked, it hits hard. The vocals drive it.
Keep killin it, if this doesn't blow up I'll be surprised
Just found this dude today. All his music makes me believe everything is gonna be okay
I am blown away. Every word, every line, is just perfect man! Thank u
"Imma love you til we both dead." Hits hard when you've struggled with your best friend and lover of almost 20 years. We are finally at a spot we both are happy and comfortable with along with our 4 year old daughter. I think we finally found our peace. ❤
I am such a a complete junkie for this song! I keep playing it over and over!
Bro I've been secretly battling addiction, n this music is the most therapeutic thing in my life, scarry how your videos and lyrics are so relatable to what I've been feeling but not able to express, love you from Buffalo New York
I've followed your journey from way back when. What a true legend. Keep going. Keep doing this
My son hits a year old in 26 days. Quit smoking for over a year. This song hits! The struggle is real for everyone. Hope everything goes well for anyone listening to this! You got this!!
One of the best pieces of music I've heard in my 29 years on this planet
Omg the ending. I am sobbing. Such a great song. The voice, lyrics, emotion, video all together is a masterpiece. Thank you, Av ❤ Thank you Addy ❤
This is so beautiful, I hope you know how much beauty and pain and real you’re giving out into the universe right now in such a needed time. You’re now in the web, the web of life where we are all connected. Much love
You never miss! Never change Av - you’re the artist we’ve all been needing. Thank you!
Not me CRYING😭😭😭 yall are treasures on this earth. Don’t ever change 🥹🫶🏼
Awwww your beautiful 🥰 love what said 💓have a good dayyyyyy sissy!!! ✨🙏your a treasure btw ☺️🤟
You both are. I’m so lucky to have stumbled upon you. I discovered Av through your podcast and I’m so grateful. Ty for what you do too 🫶🏼
The ending hits home when u love someone like that and they leave you it feels so short time wise looking back on it but I was happy then I miss that🖤
Never related to any artist like I have with this mafka, I'm 38 now and feel like I'm watching my past memories and how I've felt.
Thank you Av, your music is so eye opening and honest. I honestly pray for the day you come to Colorado so I can see you preform live, its has been and continues to be an honor to hear you spill your soul to us. Looking forward to the Starduhst and Flowers & Rain videos!
Bro this song hit so deep I never thought I’d be sitting on the bus cryin relating to this song so much💔
I needed this right now, thanks for always supplying the best of the best. Your on the rise my friend, Keep up the good work and shinning be proud of your dedication, your killing it my homie. Big love from Melb,Aus.
100%
Please tour in Aus.
This couldn't be any more perfect.
@@TeagenFoley93-n2g 2nd this.
@@TeagenFoley93-n2g 👌
Lost my partner in crime in 2018 to addiction, and my father in 2022 to cancer. This song hits hard
My girls in the other room battling addiction. I feel so helpless. Called everywhere to get her help. Sitting here listening to all your songs in tears. Lost my dad to addiction and her daughters here. Some say to walk away. I don't want her daughter to feel the pain of losing a parent.
I love this video so much. And the springfield aspect makes it 10x better. But it makes my soul so happy
3 years ago i was homeless in Kensington. I ended up in a psychosis so deep i thought everyone was trying to kill me.
April 8th 2022 i was locked up for 6 months and that was the start to my journey sober.
I ended up in rehab after jail.
Right now, today I am working at that rehab.
I still struggle with SI and truly don't understand what life is about. I no longer crave getting high but I also don't crave anything. I have no motivation and I feel so flat. I really don't know what to do with myself but I am grateful that I'm sober.
That voice, that honesty - therapeutic 💯
That's why he's HonestAV lol.
Ive just discovered your music and honestly ive been listening constantly it really hits deep for me!! Ive suffered addiction from 15 and mental health issues. This really hits deep. We need more artists like you!!!! LEGEND!!!!!! ❤❤❤
You remind of gettin' high
In the times of my life
Remind me of summer nights
When it's dark, and it's warm and we're drinkin'
And I know that we cutting ties
But can you find me sometime?
'Cause I know how it get too dark
When you're stuck in your head and you're thinkin'
You the moonlight in my night
You the rain clouds in my sky
You the brain that stuck in my head
Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead
You remind me of gettin' high
In the times of my life
Remind me of summer nights
When it's dark and it's warm and we drinkin'
And I know that we cuttin' ties
But can you find me sometime?
'Cause I know how it get too dark
When you stuck in your head and you thinkin'
You the moonlight in my night
You the rain clouds in my sky
You the brain that's stuck in my head
Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead
You remind me of gettin' old
Playing card games and dominoes
Mushrooms when they grow like mold
Taking out the trash and doing what I'm told
Words cut deep and they hurt like hell
I feel like blades when I cut myself
No, I promise mama I don't need no help
When you talkin' to God, pray 'bout that health
Tell my friends I'm still as well
Still drunk, still stoned, still raising hell
Still stuck on shit that I shouldn't tell
Still just a fool and you're one as well
You're the moonlight in my night
You're the rain cloud in my sky
You the brain that's stuck in my head
Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead
You remind me of getting high
In the times of my life
Remind me of summer nights
When it's dark, and it's warm and we're drinkin'
And I know that we cuttin' ties
But can you find me sometime?
'Cause I know how it get too dark
When you stuck in your head and you thinkin'
You the moonlight in my night
You the rain cloud in my sky
You the brain that's stuck in my head
Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead
Wish you could hear my thoughts
I got so much that I could say
I took the rest of my dad's hands
I'll save that bottle for a rainy day
If you're cooking save me a plate
I'm not there yet dad, but I'm on the way
Wait, don't think we going to the same place
They gon' send me to hell
Are you at heaven's gate?
Don't tell me to stop my cryin'
I get so high I feel like dyin'
I get so drunk, I feel like you
I'm a 10.5 when I'm in your boots
I'm a 9.5 on my own
I'ma push it all down, I'ma keep gettin' stoned
I'ma wear a fake smile through the screen on the phone
And I'ma run towards you when I'm feeling alone
You remind me of gettin' high
In the times of my life
Remind me of summer nights
When it's dark, and it's warm and we're drinkin'
And I know that we're cuttin' ties
But can you find me sometime?
'Cause I know how it gets too dark
When you stuck in your head and you thinkin'
You're the moonlight in my night
You're the rain cloud in my sky
You the brain that's stuck in my head
Really pretty, I'ma love you 'til we both dead
I took the rest of my dads' xans*
The rawness of your music never fails to bring me to tears & warm my heart at the same time. Love what you do & the music you put out into the world. Keep creating beautiful shit man, you’re saving lives out here
Love that you are just a local Springfield guy ( old Springfield native here). stay humble always❤ .. So proud of you!😊
How is this guy cracking this many bangers and not blown up yet? Legend
because he promotes stealin, driving high and unhealthy nutrition 😄
I know my comment is just a drop in the bucket but this man has pure talent 🔥
Omg. I seriously got MAJOR goosebumps this entire song. Keep going, bud!! You’ve got a real gift!! You have no idea how many people you’re healing and giving hope. Thank you
❤ #WeDoRecover ❤️
this track been on repeat for me since it’s release, the video perfectly sums up what i pictured when it played. good shit mannnn!
Yaaaaassss 🤙
Keep on keeping on brotha please. My life is getting old but my Daughter is the only reason im still here 😢 the music is my medicine. Still drinking an smoking but its from the Gods. I understand why i do me and keeping on keeping on
Holy shit that ending got me 😭😭😭
Yeeeees
Amen ❤
*cant relate to being dead*
*good voice tho*
*rip foolio*
*he dead*
Keep doing what you’re doing Av. You’re voice and music reaches the hearts of so many ❤
Never give up on the one you Love..
Love them a WHOLE LATTE
Found you and your music today! Heard I’d rather overdose.. then had to find more! Wow you are so talented! Your music is so real and made me super emotional. Like everyone else too I’m sure. I just want to say keep doing what you’re doing, don’t ever stop being you. You stand out because you just speak what’s on your mind and aren’t afraid of being authentic or showing vulnerability. Mark my words you are gunna blow up! And I’ll be sure to buy a ticket when you come to my hometown!
Loveee love lovee your music❤️🙏
Every single music video of yours has been an absolute hit. I jam your music every day brother keep doing what you’re doing. Thank you.
you do this so well. you dont even know the h9w many people you help with your music. clean since 2017. thank you. Keep it up.
Bro thank you real talk i listen to music to relate and release stress you have no idea how much you have helped me with the shit im still goin through god bless u my guy keep at it every damn song man just hits hard 😢💪respect 💯
Meeting you was the highlight of my year. Thank you for making music that speaks to so many souls.
This one gave me goosebumps and brought tears to my eyes. I love your voice. You are going to do great things.
Bro we bumping u in waco tx u blowing up big bro and speaking to the soul of people who come from the same place
3:20 sh*t broke my heart. dang.
It did all of us fr man.
Broke my goddamn heart.
Bro not gone be workin for long !!! Been listening to him for two weeks and nothing else . Just amazing .
Idk where this man been but im so fucking glad he here now
It’s like you wrote the sound track to my life! Keep doing big thangs baby!
This is the best song I’ve listen to in a very long time!! I felt this song in my soul!!
I found you a couple of months ago and you’ve become my favourite artist. Your songs are so relatable, and healing. I love this song, and the video was so beautiful, was perfect for this song. Keep making amazing music and videos!
You make me feel so much less alone thank you 😊 🥺🥰
Just getting over a break up and horrible addiction to fentanyl just went from downs to ups when she left me cause I couldn’t get high off fentanyl or tranq anymore now trying to get sober and your music has been the biggest inspiration
Love it! Av is such a poet! Blessings 💜🌈
Been sober for 7month now and this song helps a lot fr
The ending..holy damn 🥺 I wasn’t ready for that.
Your music is so healing for me ❤ 8 years clean this year 😭
Thanks brother! please never stop recording this stuff ❤🩹
Omg i lost my soul mate in 2017. We had known each other since highschool but never dated. When we finally did date we were both scarred from life. I had already been addicted to opiates and kicked it but unfortunately relapsed and he did too. Despite some of the terrible times we had there were a lot of great times too. But now 6 years sober i realize i used to think i was having fun because i was hi but really i was having fun because i was with him. I miss him everyday since he took the forever sleep of the god morpheus by unknowingly ingesting fentanyl dec 4 2017. I’ll never be the same after losing him but i have found happiness without opiates now. I know he watches over me and his son.
Your music is really helping me move on. Everytime i hear your songs i cry but everytime i listen i cry less. Thank you
this song reminds me of my dad. for better or worse, blood is deeper than everything
So happy we're getting music videos to go along with these amazing songs. Much love Av
Yes Kay wow the music video is beautiful ✨🌹🙏 lite! bro keeeeeeeeep it uppp☺️
lots of love all you guys listening 💯
Lost my daddy in 3/24/21 and in 8/21/21 the Women whom I Loved with all my Soul, it’s 11/3/24 and many Moons and Suns passed me by and Still in Tears rn…
God saved me now I’m married with a 2 month old baby and it’s fucking crazy that we just have to turn the page and start a new chapter or else my book would’ve been closed if I didn’t ACCEPT what Others have before me. DESTINY.
Losing your wife when you were in your 20s makes this hit different
Lost my love July 18 2022 we were both 25… 😔 much love man
💓💓💓
Omfg😵💫 bruh fexx
Lost my love at 21... He was 26... I get it
Your not alone my guy it’s the worst pain youll ever experience you’ll only learn to live with it
I remember when I went to get sushi with my friend Harrison, Harrison's dad, and my friend Scott for Harrisons dad's birthday when I was in high school. Harrison's dad went first, death by OD, Harrison was using then too but got clean for awhile, then OD'd and died after being laid off for covid lock downs with a daughter on the way, I lost touch with Scott only to see his obituary later(an OD, had a thing about a related cause to donate too). Out of the 4 I am the only one that isn't dead yet, the ending brought back that memory eating sushi together with them. Lost 6 people from my youth from OD, really feels weird.
In LOVE with your music and by far one of my favorite songs and you’re my favorite artist
Just found this guy and cant telll people enough how much i can relate and it actually saved my life today❤😢
DO
NOT
STOP
WE NEED AV
Man this dude saved my life 💜 LONG LIVE KAITLYN 🕊️💔💜
What happened?!?
He saved mine to
Yeah amen🌹🕊️
*cant relate to being dead*
*good voice tho*
*rip foolio*
*he dead*
That empty ending punched me right in the fucking gut...
Lost some of my favorite people.
Thanks for making such beautiful music.
Keep going bro🤝 destined for success
man reminds me of me and this girl i loved, and addiction, and my youth, both of us are dead now, as in those people we were those kids dont exist no more.... ten years later and many near death experiences, i am finally sober and she lives in Florida, i went all the way there to see her one year and she stood me up... so i never talked to her again since