31 year old here. Made a fool out of myself and my partner almost a month ago. Not the first time. I've been in denial for a long time thinking I could control my binge drinking. I finally accepted that when I drink I have no control. Haven't touched alcohol since and don't plan on it ever again. I'll be a month sober in 2 days.
What helped me a bit is someone described alcohol as an evil little clown in your head that when you look at it he smiles, and when you turn away he evil grins and plans your destruction. They also said the first drink is the only drink that is under your control and is your choice. The following drinks are all the evil clowns choice. I didn't like the idea of something playing me and using me like that. I don't know, it made me really protective of myself and adversarial towards the clown (alcohol). I don't like the idea that something else is plotting to destroy me. I wanted to take the control back. weird but it worked for me I guess :) Thanks again for sharing your story. It will prob help more people than you know
I think something similiar to that. Almost 6 months sober now, finally after almost 40 years of alcohol, i see it for what it truly is. Through Christ Jesus, im no longer stuck in the struggle.
Yep, Ive tried every kind of time limit and drink limit from quitting for 3 months and thinking “I can control it” to Im only gonna have one glass of wine saturday night just before bed. Every single time, without exception, it leads to a minimum 4 day binge and a hangover breakdown, and I don’t even drink that much. This time Ive finally admitted that I have no control over it.
I've watched 2 of your videos today and I absolutely love them. I'm 33 years old and I'm struggling with alcohol addiction. I've tried quiting numerous times. The longest I've made it is 8 days in 13+ years. The amount of times I've drank and drove just to get more alcohol is outrageous. I'm not proud of it but someone must be watching over me because I've never had a DUI or worse. As I'm typing this, I'm hung over from drinking this morning and waking up on the floor. I also made a vow to my sister for not drinking for an entire month. Your video has given me clarity that I'm not alone in this journey. I wanted to say thank you.
When you are deep into the drinking life, it is hard to imagine not drinking. My advice: (1) Never downplay the importance of your numerous “mini-quitting” periods; accumulating a history of trying to quit lays the foundation for sustained quitting; (2) If you are a frequenter of bars, see if you can discipline yourself to take a meal at some eating establishment that does not serve alcohol; after eating, you may be sufficiently full that you don’t want alcohol - or the hassle associated with driving to a different place just to drink. (3) Look for a hobby, a discipline, a cause, another person, anything not currently in your life that is incompatible with being buzzed or drunk. For me, that “thing” was my now 2.5 year old granddaughter. I couldn’t be responsible for her care and continue to drink. The alcohol had to go. That was 402 days ago.
I had the almost exact thing happen to me and I believe it was God's way of taking drinking out of me. I've been sober 2 1/2 years now and I have no desire to ever drink again.
I can relate to a lot of what you said. I've never said before drinking "I'm gonna black out tonight! Woo hoo!" yet it happens quite often. It's time to realize I have a problem. Time to man up and make a change! Thank you for some inspiration.
Allowing yourself to be vulnerable like this is very healing for both yourself and those you are sharing with. It's actually the best way to live as it dissolves the ego or false self. I really appreciate you opening up like this because it will inspire other people to also be vulnerable, which is exactly what this world needs.
Thank you. When I was having a hard time I always felt comforted finding videos likes these, that’s why I want to make them for others so you saying that means a lot. 💜
Your story reminds me so much of myself. I’m in that stage where I know I need to stop but don’t want to but it’s ruined so much of my life. Friendships, relationships, self esteem. I just afraid I’m going to miss out because I’m so anxious and depressed when I’m not drinking. I’m a binge drinker too. I don’t drink daily
Beautiful story, and I hopefully you have become closer and closer to God. With God, nothing is impossible, and it doesn’t help that kind of saves your soul because I live here on this earth is that a brief moment in time compared to eternity.! God bless you🙏🙏🙏♥️
I'm on day one....similar story....nearly getting into a wreck cause of blurry vision (mixture of low blood sugar due to no appetite due to the binge that was the night before and cravings for more). Good luck to you.
It sounds like you had a severe panic attack. I had these exact same symptoms a few days before a job interview. Literally thought I was going to die. I’m glad you’re doing better now!
Definitely a major panic attack- I had one when I was super hungover, and I had to pull over and call a friend. She came and calmed me down enough to follow her back to the house. Then I drank steadily for 20 more years before quitting for good 😂
I'm So Proud of you. Its a very strange and very unnerving sensation when you feel yourself is being pulled from your body. You are an amazing person and make us all feel stronger for sharing your Experience so Honestly. Thank you so much. All the Best J
Thank you for sharing your experience, definitely resonates with me. It's so true, if you have to put in parameters then that is a sign that you've got a problem. I'm only just really coming to terms with this in myself. Hoping to stop drinking after a big scary moment a few days ago. Well done for stopping! Thanks again x
Thanks for sharing your stories I’m watching them now to feel less alone with needing to quit drinking in my 20s. I just had an intense wake up call about a month ago after years of drinking alone, blacking out, telling myself I could just be more moderate with discipline, etc etc. it’s officially time to just stop. Alsooo I love traveling too and also lived in a van at one point ☺️
In esoteric knowledge and different cultures, alcohol is referred to as "spirits" because it invites negative spirits in. Some say that when you blackout you're actually possessed in a way.. like you're not fully in your body anymore/ not the one who is in control. After I learned that it really made something click for me, and I no longer wanted to drink. It scared me to think about it in that way. And I think it's so interesting that alcohol is so socially acceptable. I think it's legal and so woven into society and culture for a reason. Like getting blacked is honestly so normal, especially amongst young people.
I've heard this too and while we can't really know for sure, it makes sense that if you are not in control, anything could be. Reminded me of Matthew 12:43-45, which is out of context, but it's what I thought of.
I can’t believe I’m hearing thoughts that I actually had in my head myself. I quit drinking 77 days ago completely by choice and it feels like your words were the exact thoughts I had when I’m like ‘nope I don’t care what anyone thinks… I don’t want to do this, it’s actually dangerous’ and honestly life got so much color back when I realized I could feel my real self and feelings again: good or bad. I don’t consider myself an alchoholic but I never will put that poison in my body again, because it’s done too much damage to my life. This video is comforting and it’s nice to not feel alone. ❤
I'm sooooo relieved you made it through that stop light because the beautiful person you have become is worth millions of subscribers you will be very blessed in life for taking the hard way through life it is easy to give in to temptation but hard to be good and stay clean but it pays for sure your able to save money and have a genuine smile just remember to have forgiveness for yourself and others while we attempt to become perfect little 👼
I think you're far more aware than most and fortunate to have figured this out while you are still young enough to recover. Drinking like that takes a heavy toll and IT WILL catch up to you. Hangover, huge dose of caffeine and sugar is recipe for a panic attack! I had a similar experience being stressed, sleep deprived and having drank 2 red bulls on an empty stomach. While driving along my left side went numb, I had difficulty breathing and an overpowering sense that I was going to die. I thought I was having a stroke. I went to the ER. My blood pressure was sky high but CT scan showed nothing wrong. I've learned to recognize my triggers and avoid anything that bad again. I'm happy for you, never let your guard down. While this is bad (I was almost afraid to watch), I could imagine far worse. And, all I was here for was some lighthearted China Vlogs! “I would not put a thief in my mouth to steal my brains.” ― William Shakespeare
First, I LOVE that quote! Second you speak wise words. Caffeine, alcohol and sugar are indeed a recipe for disaster if not managed. I feel like we were both lucky to have an “event” that made that very clear. Thanks for sharing your story and I wish you all the best! :)
I was a daily drinker, and I had a very similar experience twice. Once was when I was at a farmers market with a friend in the morning, the other was when I was driving home from the gas station. For me, it was instant as well, and completely out of nowhere. But my eyes couldn't focus on anything. I could see but everything kind of just became one, kind of like tunnel vision or vertigo or something. Felt like I couldn't walk properly, my heart was pounding, and I was thinking I was going to pass out at any moment. Not to mention how shaky I got. Truly terrifying.
You are so brave. Thank you for sharing. I’m so scared I’m 31 years old. Have a beautiful 3 year that I am so in love with. I need help I am a binger. I can’t stop at 2-3. I don’t know how to do this. I drink to deal with anxiety but also take anxiety meds which isn’t healthy. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t drink. I need to be better for my baby. I’m so upset with myself.
That is such an incredible story and I can related, well sorta. Six months ago my youngest daughter had a very similar story and since then has been sober. She just shared her story on FB of her journey on deciding to stop drinking. Woke up on a Sunday morning with that feeling on not wanting to drink anymore. She is so happy and free from the haunts of drinking. Ironically a month after she stopped drinking, I too stopped drinking too. The funny part was that she had not even shared her story with me until a month after I stopped. I feel so good now, been five months ( 50 yrs of drinking ) now. I too had a switch go off in my head that helped my to stop. My whole life has changed for the better.
Thank you for giving us the details of your story. I kida sorta went through a similar thing, but I was lucky. I was able to realize pretty quickly that alcohol was becoming a problem, before I developed any kind of physical dependency. It took a very embarrassing moment in public to reach that point, but I'm better for it, and it makes for a good story. The part about you having trouble keeping the brake pedal down reminded me of a time I actually ran a red - I was feeling like crap about something, and it was like I couldn't control my body, I was shaking, and for whatever reason my foot just moved off the brake and onto the gas pedal. Thankfully, nothing bad happened. Are you so in control of it now that being around other people drinking doesn't bother you at all?
Wow that’s scary! I’m glad you’r okay. It’s weird how our bodies react sometimes. And no it doesn’t bother me at all! I think it’s because now I don’t even want it. I honestly just feel like a “non-drinker”. It’s weird sometimes to think about.
This happens to me , my hands go numb then it goes to my whole body starts shaking and I feel like I don't know where I am at , for a few moments and my heart start feeling like it's not beating and I have to try to breath shallow breaths it happens to me alot and it's messed up it makes you think your dying
IMO, it does take determination and strong will power to completely give up drinking or tackle any other similar addictions for that matter, that's quite a feat, well done.
@@Brennasphere “You can't move away from family!” As an adult, you are hopefully responsible enough to make wise decisions to take care of your family. It's not okay to move away from the family. Why you move to others house. i think better you live with your family. THAT WHY IN ASIAN, the family live together, they want to be responsible to each other. Brennasphere i heard in America you like to send your parent in old house, it is true?
You are lucky and mentally strong to fight alcoholism, although it is a day by day battle. I watch Intervention on A&E and most people need a few rounds of rehabs. Definitely getting your anxiety under control could help you in the long run. Keep up and wishing for your new travel videos in the future!
Hey Brenna! Been a while since I've seen ya. Glad to see you are out there just living your life. You've come a long way from the day we met. Glad you are doing better and out there seeing the world! Stay strong, stay the course.
yeah, when I realize i had to put a schedule for drinking , that's when I figured it would be best to give it up for a while. Best decision ever so far.
I cried with your other video and I’m feeling so so so grateful that you shared. You have no idea how much you’ve helped me. I don’t drink that often but when I do I completely lose control of my limit. I’m hypoglycemic so I shouldn’t even be drinking in the first place but I do and when I do, I almost always have episodes and black out (not even gonna get into how bad I act, how rude I am to my husband when he tries to tell me to stop drinking -and that just triggers my rebel self and I drink more “because i can”). Yesterday was one of those days and I woke up so ashamed and feeling so low. Like why the hell did I drink so much?? It’s just a limit, it should be easy to see. Right? Wrong! And listening to your experience made me feel human again, and gave me strength to look at myself with compassion and sympathy. I can do this!
Sounds like you had a major allergic reaction to that coffee drink...on an empty stomach (sounds like,) still processing the previous nights alcohol...The caffeine and sugar freaked your body out. I am so happy for your wakeup call...Your protection and your survival...your shift. I am on day 2. Wish me strength and love, if you see this. Thanks.
Thank you for this video, same thing happened to me a couple of years ago driving back home. It’s hard to explain but my body was vibrating and my body started locking up or cramping. I had my brother and dad come pick me up. I couldn’t even talk on the phone, My jaw was locking up or something idk. It is a out of body experience, it’s a scary feeling at that moment I felt like is this it? Is this where I leave this world on the side of the highway. It’s really hard to explain to someone, It was a 3 hour drive back home and I had to stop like every 30 mins just to get home. I would only feel that feeling when driving and would have to get out of the truck to walk the feeling off. I had so much to drink the day before so I’m sure it was because of that. Thanks again for this video!
Alcohol is creating the foundation for panic attacks, been suffering myself until I decided to completely stop drinking. Was very hard considering I drank for about 18 years., heavily the last 4. About 2 months sober now... Alcohol disregulates GABA making it hard for you to relax and unwind without it., so if you consume any stimulants while your GABA is wrecked it may hit hard and/or cause a panic attack. Consuming any stimulants in the first month or so after stopping drinking is also a very very bad idea.
Hey, that happened to me too. I think you might have asthma, but don't worry it's only a mild one. Try to take deep breaths through your month next time . Stay safe
@@Brennasphere “You can't move away from family!” As an adult, you are hopefully responsible enough to make wise decisions to take care of your family. It's not okay to move away from the family. Why you move to others house. i think better you live with your family. THAT WHY IN ASIAN, the family live together, they want to be responsible to each other. Brennasphere i heard in America you like to send your parent in old house, it is true?
Could this have been a severe blood sugar crash? I suffered and still am occacionally from low blood sugar because of my drinking and what you described sounded exactly like that. The jitter, blurred vision and anxiety is what I would also experience especially after caffeine and sugar intake.
stop drinking people, stop drinking. wake up. what a miserable way to live, and i know. my early years were a mess. sober 35 years now. do what you have to do.
Throw all your anxiety on Jah...he wants to help you, and he will. He loves you. Psm 94v19 "when anxieties overwhelmed me, You comforted and soothed me.
Thanks, these are some good reminders, there’s no question that increasing your mental clarity and boosting your drive, comes with quitting. Yes, there are many ways to kick the habit, Steffon Barkload's approach is what worked for me, best shortcut I go’ogled that took days without withdrawal.
Me, 23, never got drunk and didn’t drink from the beginning... and it wasn’t for religious reasons either... I have always been a dumb under-socialized person that never got the meaning of drinking... like, why? What was the initial reason for people to start drinking?
Have you ever been tested for ADHD ? Or Autism ? Theres a lof of undignosed people on recovery etc..You seem quite hyper etc...Theres a big link between conditions like ADHD and substance abuse..
31 year old here. Made a fool out of myself and my partner almost a month ago. Not the first time. I've been in denial for a long time thinking I could control my binge drinking. I finally accepted that when I drink I have no control. Haven't touched alcohol since and don't plan on it ever again.
I'll be a month sober in 2 days.
What helped me a bit is someone described alcohol as an evil little clown in your head that when you look at it he smiles, and when you turn away he evil grins and plans your destruction. They also said the first drink is the only drink that is under your control and is your choice. The following drinks are all the evil clowns choice. I didn't like the idea of something playing me and using me like that. I don't know, it made me really protective of myself and adversarial towards the clown (alcohol). I don't like the idea that something else is plotting to destroy me. I wanted to take the control back. weird but it worked for me I guess :) Thanks again for sharing your story. It will prob help more people than you know
I love the little clown analogy! I agree with everything you said. :) thanks for watching!
Love that!!!! Thank you!!!
I think something similiar to that. Almost 6 months sober now, finally after almost 40 years of alcohol, i see it for what it truly is. Through Christ Jesus, im no longer stuck in the struggle.
Evil clown...it was Craig Beck...here is a link where he talks about it ua-cam.com/video/9UpPtvsZzXw/v-deo.html
Yep, Ive tried every kind of time limit and drink limit from quitting for 3 months and thinking “I can control it” to Im only gonna have one glass of wine saturday night just before bed. Every single time, without exception, it leads to a minimum 4 day binge and a hangover breakdown, and I don’t even drink that much.
This time Ive finally admitted that I have no control over it.
I've watched 2 of your videos today and I absolutely love them. I'm 33 years old and I'm struggling with alcohol addiction. I've tried quiting numerous times. The longest I've made it is 8 days in 13+ years. The amount of times I've drank and drove just to get more alcohol is outrageous. I'm not proud of it but someone must be watching over me because I've never had a DUI or worse. As I'm typing this, I'm hung over from drinking this morning and waking up on the floor. I also made a vow to my sister for not drinking for an entire month. Your video has given me clarity that I'm not alone in this journey. I wanted to say thank you.
How's it coming Joeseph?
@@Pre_Vee_et still a struggle but I don't drink and drive anymore.
When you are deep into the drinking life, it is hard to imagine not drinking. My advice: (1) Never downplay the importance of your numerous “mini-quitting” periods; accumulating a history of trying to quit lays the foundation for sustained quitting; (2) If you are a frequenter of bars, see if you can discipline yourself to take a meal at some eating establishment that does not serve alcohol; after eating, you may be sufficiently full that you don’t want alcohol - or the hassle associated with driving to a different place just to drink. (3) Look for a hobby, a discipline, a cause, another person, anything not currently in your life that is incompatible with being buzzed or drunk. For me, that “thing” was my now 2.5 year old granddaughter. I couldn’t be responsible for her care and continue to drink. The alcohol had to go. That was 402 days ago.
How are you going?
How is it going with the drinking? Did you overcome it or slow it down?
I had the almost exact thing happen to me and I believe it was God's way of taking drinking out of me. I've been sober 2 1/2 years now and I have no desire to ever drink again.
I can relate to a lot of what you said. I've never said before drinking "I'm gonna black out tonight! Woo hoo!" yet it happens quite often. It's time to realize I have a problem. Time to man up and make a change! Thank you for some inspiration.
Allowing yourself to be vulnerable like this is very healing for both yourself and those you are sharing with. It's actually the best way to live as it dissolves the ego or false self. I really appreciate you opening up like this because it will inspire other people to also be vulnerable, which is exactly what this world needs.
Thank you. When I was having a hard time I always felt comforted finding videos likes these, that’s why I want to make them for others so you saying that means a lot. 💜
The hero struggles and ultimately lives to tell the story and show the way. We love you!
Your story reminds me so much of myself. I’m in that stage where I know I need to stop but don’t want to but it’s ruined so much of my life. Friendships, relationships, self esteem. I just afraid I’m going to miss out because I’m so anxious and depressed when I’m not drinking. I’m a binge drinker too. I don’t drink daily
I have a similar story
An anxiety attack at work followed by 24 hours of anxiety after was my last straw. So happy for you!
Oh yes, I experience this😔
Beautiful story, and I hopefully you have become closer and closer to God. With God, nothing is impossible, and it doesn’t help that kind of saves your soul because I live here on this earth is that a brief moment in time compared to eternity.! God bless you🙏🙏🙏♥️
So many stories of the prayer for help that turns the corner for so many!
I'm on day one....similar story....nearly getting into a wreck cause of blurry vision (mixture of low blood sugar due to no appetite due to the binge that was the night before and cravings for more). Good luck to you.
It sounds like you had a severe panic attack. I had these exact same symptoms a few days before a job interview. Literally thought I was going to die. I’m glad you’re doing better now!
Definitely a major panic attack- I had one when I was super hungover, and I had to pull over and call a friend. She came and calmed me down enough to follow her back to the house. Then I drank steadily for 20 more years before quitting for good 😂
I'm So Proud of you. Its a very strange and very unnerving sensation when you feel yourself is being pulled from your body. You are an amazing person and make us all feel stronger for sharing your Experience so Honestly. Thank you so much. All the Best J
Thank you J!
Had a few of those, it hits you like a truck the first time because you have no experience of it before. One of the most difficult times of my life.
Well done,keep it up,wish I could also end alcoholism right now.but am gradually work on it.
Thank you for sharing your experience, definitely resonates with me. It's so true, if you have to put in parameters then that is a sign that you've got a problem. I'm only just really coming to terms with this in myself. Hoping to stop drinking after a big scary moment a few days ago. Well done for stopping! Thanks again x
Thanks for sharing your stories I’m watching them now to feel less alone with needing to quit drinking in my 20s. I just had an intense wake up call about a month ago after years of drinking alone, blacking out, telling myself I could just be more moderate with discipline, etc etc. it’s officially time to just stop.
Alsooo I love traveling too and also lived in a van at one point ☺️
In esoteric knowledge and different cultures, alcohol is referred to as "spirits" because it invites negative spirits in. Some say that when you blackout you're actually possessed in a way.. like you're not fully in your body anymore/ not the one who is in control. After I learned that it really made something click for me, and I no longer wanted to drink. It scared me to think about it in that way. And I think it's so interesting that alcohol is so socially acceptable. I think it's legal and so woven into society and culture for a reason. Like getting blacked is honestly so normal, especially amongst young people.
I've heard this too and while we can't really know for sure, it makes sense that if you are not in control, anything could be. Reminded me of Matthew 12:43-45, which is out of context, but it's what I thought of.
My first anxiety attack scared the shit out of me.
I can’t believe I’m hearing thoughts that I actually had in my head myself. I quit drinking 77 days ago completely by choice and it feels like your words were the exact thoughts I had when I’m like ‘nope I don’t care what anyone thinks… I don’t want to do this, it’s actually dangerous’ and honestly life got so much color back when I realized I could feel my real self and feelings again: good or bad. I don’t consider myself an alchoholic but I never will put that poison in my body again, because it’s done too much damage to my life. This video is comforting and it’s nice to not feel alone. ❤
I'm sooooo relieved you made it through that stop light because the beautiful person you have become is worth millions of subscribers you will be very blessed in life for taking the hard way through life it is easy to give in to temptation but hard to be good and stay clean but it pays for sure your able to save money and have a genuine smile just remember to have forgiveness for yourself and others while we attempt to become perfect little 👼
Thank you Kenny! :) practicing forgiveness (on myself) is something I’m still practicing. Thanks for the words of encouragement!
I’m happy you’re doing so well mate.
I think you're far more aware than most and fortunate to have figured this out while you are still young enough to recover. Drinking like that takes a heavy toll and IT WILL catch up to you. Hangover, huge dose of caffeine and sugar is recipe for a panic attack! I had a similar experience being stressed, sleep deprived and having drank 2 red bulls on an empty stomach. While driving along my left side went numb, I had difficulty breathing and an overpowering sense that I was going to die. I thought I was having a stroke. I went to the ER. My blood pressure was sky high but CT scan showed nothing wrong. I've learned to recognize my triggers and avoid anything that bad again. I'm happy for you, never let your guard down. While this is bad (I was almost afraid to watch), I could imagine far worse. And, all I was here for was some lighthearted China Vlogs!
“I would not put a thief in my mouth to steal my brains.” ― William Shakespeare
First, I LOVE that quote! Second you speak wise words. Caffeine, alcohol and sugar are indeed a recipe for disaster if not managed. I feel like we were both lucky to have an “event” that made that very clear. Thanks for sharing your story and I wish you all the best! :)
A booze panic attack is no joke!
I was a daily drinker, and I had a very similar experience twice. Once was when I was at a farmers market with a friend in the morning, the other was when I was driving home from the gas station. For me, it was instant as well, and completely out of nowhere. But my eyes couldn't focus on anything. I could see but everything kind of just became one, kind of like tunnel vision or vertigo or something. Felt like I couldn't walk properly, my heart was pounding, and I was thinking I was going to pass out at any moment. Not to mention how shaky I got. Truly terrifying.
You are so brave. Thank you for sharing. I’m so scared I’m 31 years old. Have a beautiful 3 year that I am so in love with. I need help I am a binger. I can’t stop at 2-3. I don’t know how to do this. I drink to deal with anxiety but also take anxiety meds which isn’t healthy. I don’t know anyone who doesn’t drink. I need to be better for my baby. I’m so upset with myself.
How have you been feeling allie? want to make sure you know someone is supporting you even if we are strangers 💗
The last part is half true. Everyone needs limits. Imagine a society without limits. This world would be reckless.
Praise the Lord for the miracle!
That is such an incredible story and I can related, well sorta. Six months ago my youngest daughter had a very similar story and since then has been sober. She just shared her story on FB of her journey on deciding to stop drinking. Woke up on a Sunday morning with that feeling on not wanting to drink anymore. She is so happy and free from the haunts of drinking. Ironically a month after she stopped drinking, I too stopped drinking too. The funny part was that she had not even shared her story with me until a month after I stopped. I feel so good now, been five months ( 50 yrs of drinking ) now. I too had a switch go off in my head that helped my to stop. My whole life has changed for the better.
Do you mind if I ask you what age you were when you quit?
yes, my daughter is 35 @@CraftyRocks
I quit at 66
Thank you for giving us the details of your story. I kida sorta went through a similar thing, but I was lucky. I was able to realize pretty quickly that alcohol was becoming a problem, before I developed any kind of physical dependency. It took a very embarrassing moment in public to reach that point, but I'm better for it, and it makes for a good story.
The part about you having trouble keeping the brake pedal down reminded me of a time I actually ran a red - I was feeling like crap about something, and it was like I couldn't control my body, I was shaking, and for whatever reason my foot just moved off the brake and onto the gas pedal. Thankfully, nothing bad happened.
Are you so in control of it now that being around other people drinking doesn't bother you at all?
Wow that’s scary! I’m glad you’r okay. It’s weird how our bodies react sometimes. And no it doesn’t bother me at all! I think it’s because now I don’t even want it. I honestly just feel like a “non-drinker”. It’s weird sometimes to think about.
This happens to me , my hands go numb then it goes to my whole body starts shaking and I feel like I don't know where I am at , for a few moments and my heart start feeling like it's not beating and I have to try to breath shallow breaths it happens to me alot and it's messed up it makes you think your dying
IMO, it does take determination and strong will power to completely give up drinking or tackle any other similar addictions for that matter, that's quite a feat, well done.
Thank you!
@@Brennasphere “You can't move away from family!” As an adult, you are hopefully responsible enough to make wise decisions to take care of your family. It's not okay to move away from the family. Why you move to others house. i think better you live with your family. THAT WHY IN ASIAN, the family live together, they want to be responsible to each other. Brennasphere i heard in America you like to send your parent in old house, it is true?
So sweet story and stay safe than sorry ! Life is short and dun procrastinate!
You are lucky and mentally strong to fight alcoholism, although it is a day by day battle. I watch Intervention on A&E and most people need a few rounds of rehabs. Definitely getting your anxiety under control could help you in the long run. Keep up and wishing for your new travel videos in the future!
Hey Brenna! Been a while since I've seen ya. Glad to see you are out there just living your life. You've come a long way from the day we met. Glad you are doing better and out there seeing the world! Stay strong, stay the course.
God was looking out for you!
yeah, when I realize i had to put a schedule for drinking , that's when I figured it would be best to give it up for a while. Best decision ever so far.
Keep going, you are doing great. 😁
I cried with your other video and I’m feeling so so so grateful that you shared. You have no idea how much you’ve helped me. I don’t drink that often but when I do I completely lose control of my limit. I’m hypoglycemic so I shouldn’t even be drinking in the first place but I do and when I do, I almost always have episodes and black out (not even gonna get into how bad I act, how rude I am to my husband when he tries to tell me to stop drinking -and that just triggers my rebel self and I drink more “because i can”). Yesterday was one of those days and I woke up so ashamed and feeling so low. Like why the hell did I drink so much?? It’s just a limit, it should be easy to see. Right? Wrong! And listening to your experience made me feel human again, and gave me strength to look at myself with compassion and sympathy. I can do this!
Same x
What you are saying is correct, it can save lives.
Thank you. I sure hope so!
Sounds like you had a major allergic reaction to that coffee drink...on an empty stomach (sounds like,) still processing the previous nights alcohol...The caffeine and sugar freaked your body out. I am so happy for your wakeup call...Your protection and your survival...your shift. I am on day 2. Wish me strength and love, if you see this. Thanks.
she had a panic attack, that is exactly what they’re like
Sounded a lot like a major blood sugar crash. I had them also due to alcohol abuse. The shaking, anxiety and heart pounding comes with it.
this was really insightful, thank you for posting it! would love to hear what you have been up to for the past couple months
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Thank you!
Thank you for this video, same thing happened to me a couple of years ago driving back home. It’s hard to explain but my body was vibrating and my body started locking up or cramping. I had my brother and dad come pick me up. I couldn’t even talk on the phone, My jaw was locking up or something idk. It is a out of body experience, it’s a scary feeling at that moment I felt like is this it? Is this where I leave this world on the side of the highway. It’s really hard to explain to someone, It was a 3 hour drive back home and I had to stop like every 30 mins just to get home. I would only feel that feeling when driving and would have to get out of the truck to walk the feeling off. I had so much to drink the day before so I’m sure it was because of that. Thanks again for this video!
Alcohol is creating the foundation for panic attacks, been suffering myself until I decided to completely stop drinking. Was very hard considering I drank for about 18 years., heavily the last 4. About 2 months sober now... Alcohol disregulates GABA making it hard for you to relax and unwind without it., so if you consume any stimulants while your GABA is wrecked it may hit hard and/or cause a panic attack. Consuming any stimulants in the first month or so after stopping drinking is also a very very bad idea.
stay strong!
Thank you!!
Your amazing I love your videos ❤️
If you prayed to God and he saved you in that moment then you didn't quit on your own...
God saves all alcoholics....LOL.
Hey, that happened to me too. I think you might have asthma, but don't worry it's only a mild one. Try to take deep breaths through your month next time . Stay safe
Didnt know u r such a tough girl, stay strong!
Thank you!!
@@Brennasphere “You can't move away from family!” As an adult, you are hopefully responsible enough to make wise decisions to take care of your family. It's not okay to move away from the family. Why you move to others house. i think better you live with your family. THAT WHY IN ASIAN, the family live together, they want to be responsible to each other. Brennasphere i heard in America you like to send your parent in old house, it is true?
Well done Brenna, cheers.
Thank your!
Human has body and soul. Body we can see and we can touch. Like i touch your body. But soul, we can't see or touch. Agree Brenna? 🙂
Driving while having a panic atack. Been there.
Could this have been a severe blood sugar crash? I suffered and still am occacionally from low blood sugar because of my drinking and what you described sounded exactly like that. The jitter, blurred vision and anxiety is what I would also experience especially after caffeine and sugar intake.
Thx for showing the power of sharing
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so beatiful eyebow and eye I have saw. like spend some time watch your video and study english at the same time. thanks so much for your present.
Thank you
don't ever drink coffee on empty stomach
stop drinking people, stop drinking. wake up. what a miserable way to live, and i know. my early years were a mess. sober 35 years now. do what you have to do.
Throw all your anxiety on Jah...he wants to help you, and he will. He loves you. Psm 94v19 "when anxieties overwhelmed me, You comforted and soothed me.
Thanks, these are some good reminders, there’s no question that increasing your mental clarity and boosting your drive, comes with quitting. Yes, there are many ways to kick the habit, Steffon Barkload's approach is what worked for me, best shortcut I go’ogled that took days without withdrawal.
Can I ask how many itimes a week you were drinking and abiout how many drinks you would have when you did drink?
Not if you share your alcohol. I manage my consumption of ham and cheese.
Sounds like a spike in blood pressure
Watched the first six minutes and still do not know; you stopped drinking ... coffee???
Watch her first video before the one
beautiful girl，don't drink too much alcohol
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Me, 23, never got drunk and didn’t drink from the beginning... and it wasn’t for religious reasons either...
I have always been a dumb under-socialized person that never got the meaning of drinking... like, why?
What was the initial reason for people to start drinking?
Feeling cool probably
Wanting to fit in, to gain confidence at social events in which you wouldn't be able to achieve without alcohol etc.
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Have you ever been tested for ADHD ? Or Autism ? Theres a lof of undignosed people on recovery etc..You seem quite hyper etc...Theres a big link between conditions like ADHD and substance abuse..
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It seemed that you were drugged or on a bad trip
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beautiful clothes, I heard Texas is USA farm, in China, farmers are big drinkers, how about you.
you'd not be shamed about this, hahhahahhah
U sound great,right on the the money all my problems with addiction is between my ears.AA 14 years for me I'm a Real alcoholic+I believe it LOL