Chy...Our lives are So much alike. I'm 60y.o. in AA, my dad was a heroin user and alcoholic. My mom remarried 3 other times. I was sexually abused. I've had lots of therapy. I've been married 38 yrs. Thank God we did survive, and that He makes all things new!!! God bless you and Billy in His journey for y'all.
Most of my life from childhood to 17 yrs. of age was spent missing my father. You don't get the option to pick who your parents are. My father was gone from the house most of the time and I used to think that meant daddy was in jail again. My poor mother was only 17 when she got pregnant with me and married my completely dysfunctional father. He never touched me. Not even a spanking, but he beat my mother so many times and I remember her friends telling her "'He's going to kill you if you don't leave" and one night he sent me and my little sister outside after he had just gotten home from God knows where and I heard my mom crying. I told my sister to stay there and I went in. I was 7. My sister didn't stay outside. The next thing I knew, we were looking for my mom's front tooth on the bathroom floor. Her jaw had been broken so badly that the doctors told her if it happened again, they wouldn't be able to fix it. Anyway, I left my sister to look for the tooth and I went to where my father was pacing and I said; "You hurt my mommy and I want you to leave and never come back." He did. After the divorce, he visited twice and one more time he said he would come for Christmas. My mother had a wonderful boyfriend at that point who stood 6'4" and was gorgeous. I saved all my money until it came time to buy my Dad a present. I didn't buy for anyone else. I was just a kid. I bought him a blow dryer. He opened it and I saw the look of disappointment on his face. He had lost most of his hair by then. He didn't even have enough class to say Thank you sweetheart. He left shortly after that and that's when I never saw him until I was 17. I had enough common sense to tell him that nobody ever taught him how to be a man. His father beat him and my grandmother. I saw a lightbulb moment in my father. He thanked me. It took many years but after we both stopped drinking, we managed to have a really good relationship. He died at 64 from liver cancer. I was 46. I knew he was going to die. He told me. I loved him very much. I actually got to be daddy's little girl for a few years and it was wonderful. I had a happy ending. I think he did too. Thanks for letting me tell my story. There's so much more but I'd have to write a book. I too did the drugs and drank myself stupid many times over for many years. I'm clean and sober. I just realized I'm 55 and he's been gone 9 yrs. Wow.
When my Mom collapsed at 66 from a brain aneurysm, I was 38. I didn’t think I could survive without her. In the hospital as she was dying, I laid in the bed with her. My sister and I sang Karen Carpenter songs to her , from the radio. A nurse came in and said I needed to get out of the bed. I said, “my mother is dying only once. I’m not moving .”
I am a nurse and that makes me very sad…..I’m glad you stood your ground. My mom passed away in 2019……she was my best friend. I long to see her again as this is the only thing that gives me hope.
You go James! You may reach a point where you are pretty steadily confronted with some uncomfortable things that crop up in your sobriety walk. Please just take them as they come and accept them as part of the process without getting hung up on them. I was given that advice and it was so helpful to me. ❤️
Dear Chynna, I just celebrated my 5th year of sobriety and you are the first celebrity that I have heard discuss AA and your walk with God. I was born in 1966 so I remember hearing The Mamas and the Papas growing up, they were one of my sisters favorite groups and I still turn up the tunes when they are on as I do when Wilson Phillips is on ( I used to sing Hold On in the shower lol). It's inspiring when you talk about your journey with God, I was a non-believer until 2018 when God took away my obsession for alcohol and drugs as well as other miracles only God could have a hand in as I was supposed to be dead by 2019 from advanced COPD, I was on supplemental oxygen for the past two years and about a month ago I was able to go without it. I pray and spend time everyday with my savior and still thank him for keeping me away from alcohol daily. I'm steadily getting my ambition back and would one day like to open a rehab/sober living house, as the Doctors feel I could go another 5 years at least. God Bless you for your channel and I pray for the best for you and your family. Thanks for listening, Sincerely Patrick Koch
My dad always showed up. My mother fought to make it as hard as possible for him to have a relationship with me and my brother and it became so difficult that I made the decision at thirteen to cut him off so that she would stop retaliating against me for wanting to spend time with him. That blew up in my face, let me tell you. She was worse than ever after that because there was no oversight in the form of my father. 😖 I retreated into myself because I had no one on my side. Then I started looking for acceptance and affection anywhere I could get it, and that’s when I started drinking more than ever, and other things. Sigh. Textbook. I really can’t stand that so many of us have such similar painful histories. I have known 80 year old women who were still hurting from the abuses and neglect of childhood. It’s so important for those of us who know Christ to introduce others to him.
Such an eye opening conversation into my own past. My father didn’t use drugs but he died when I was 22. He had been sick with cancer. You don’t have to be famous to have childhood trauma and mess up. I was given burdens I am still carrying at 60.
You ladies have so helped me this morning ❤️❤️❤️ We often think that we are the only ones going through these traumas 🙏 Thank you so much for your transparency
My father committed suicide when I was 13, ruined my life as I knew it, had to deal with major anxiety for years due to the PTSD. I was very intimidated and fearful of men all my life, and my therapist said because I never had much of a relationship with my father, and then I found him like that, revealed the absence and trauma I had developed in the fear of men. Thank you Jesus for saving me from myself 🙏
I saw a quote that said “ Be the adult you needed as a child” I love that, so sorry you went through that, you did what you had to do ,to survive that, As a teenager , I felt at one point, my innocence was taken away & it stayed with me, I think our childhood & even teen years stay with us, my much older relative still always thinks back to issues of childhood, maybe we all do & maybe that s why I tried to make my child’s life as good as possible, I also think as long as you have one good parent or person who stands by you & you feel safe with, you re good, So great that you guys can talk about this ❤️ sending much ❤️
Sometimes I think of myself as a child , I mean REALLY think, back to my young self, I was happy, singing, dancing & carefree most of the time, but was also worried, anxious & fearful at times, In my mind, I hug that child & give her love & talk to her the way I think she needed it & I pray that I gave MY kid all that a child needs to feel loved & safe ❤️
Yes! Yes! I’d love to see her some more. It is so wonderful to have a friend since childhood... someone who’s seen you in all phases and stages of your life. Somebody who knows you well. That’s nothing to take lightly. It is truly a wonderful thing to have in this life! May these two be loving, strong friends for the rest of their abundant lives and may all their latter years be far greater than their forner!!! In Jesus’ Mighty Name! And it is so! AMEN
Much healing love to Chynna and all of us who need healing as well. I love this tribe of like-minded souls filled with compassion for all hoping for healing for all. Chynna rocks and rolls for this communal purpose. Thank you, Chynna!
My father stole my innocence when I was 10..my mother committed suicide when I was 12 and I had to learn to cook, clean, iron, etc. For my little brothers. I am 67 now. I have been surviving my whole life. And I could never have achieved that without the love of Our LORD Jesus Christ ❤
Many never had a relationship with their earthly Dad. There is a great book by James Robison "My Father's Face" it was so significant for my eldest son. Highly recommended!
Agree. The US has the highest rate of single parent households. Yes. Fatherlessness and motherlessness - to varying degrees - affect many on many levels. Agree
Chynna when you share your childhood you are helping people. Thank you for opening up and letting people in. You are brave. Let your healing in...you may never totally heal but take solace that you are not alone and your feelings matter and are justified! You have a wonderful friend that came all the way to you to see if you are OK. That's a beautiful thing.
@@rhiannonrhiannon6285 Yes, trauma and neglect experienced in our formative years can take years to unravel. Unfortunately, it isn't a one and done experience of resolution. I feel like God doesn't just plainly reveal all knowledge to us all at one time, unraveling these childhood traumas may never fully be understood in our lifetime here, maybe not until we see Him face to face in the kingdom, where He will make our hearts as full as the day of our birth.
@@speechgirl9647 I think what Judy was saying is that Chynna should after she talks about it have some sort of resolution but Chynna is still working things out and trying to heal. She went from teenager, early twenties and then went right into motherhood where she had to care for children for 20 years. She is now at a point in her life to dig deep and start working on herself. Which she is doing and bringing people on her journey.. How this is helping people is that others can say wow I am not alone that happened to me also. That's what a lot of people want to know. They want to know they are not alone. That their shame is felt by others...sometimes that's enough to heal someone.
Chynna and Robyn!!! Thank you for this very honest and open video!!! My horrible abusive father was a Psych Prof at a college in O.C. Cali...pretend Morman to the outside world...Monster in the home. He didn't drink...(it was just him!!!)...but he may have experimented with drugs cuz it was during the Timothy Leary days in the 60s. My Mom was a sweetheart, but very weak and stuck in that abusive cycle of letting him move out and move back in for many years. Us kids called the cops on him 3 times...but of course Mom would tell them..."Everything is OK".....Grrrrrr!!! AMAZING how this stuff still affects us weel into our adulthoods....Much Love to you Both!!! God Bless....Love, Cherie HUGGGzzzzzz......
@@whiteviolet5862 White Violet....i soooo get what you are saying....Thank you for responding....she was a sweet broken lady....but kept us all together and believed me when my father did something to me on an overnight at age 12....No Overnights after that when I and my bro and sis had to talk to a judge...All a Matter of record in the O.C Fam Court....if they go back that far!!! (I lost respect for both of them!!!)....God Bless, Violet!!! Love, Cherie
I’m so sorry you experienced all that hon!! It breaks my heart that so many children have had to experience that kind of abuse. God bless you sweet sister!
@@whiteviolet5862 Awww....Thank you, Sis!!! Yeah...Praise God...I belong to Jesus now and He is in the process of healing us day by day....Much Love, Cherie
@@jolyn2133 Hey Sweet JoLyn!!! Thank you for your compassionate comment!!! I am amazed also since finding out now online how widespread it is and was. Praise God for Moms who believe us, right??? Much Love, Cherie
So disgusting on so many levels that a grown ass woman to let their children be touched or victimized by a grown ass man and anyway that’s so weak and I get it women and have a lot of places to go for help especially with children but it’s still disgusting
I realize listening to y’all just how blessed I was as a child to have a secure upbringing. Mom was a Christian, dad not until much later and went to Church from at least 7 through now and I became a Christian at that same age. No drugs, divorce and only a six pack of Budweiser for dad on the weekends. You are such a inspiration because of your upbringing and strong testimony. Love and God Bless
Thanks for sharing. My dad drank too much but our lives were mostly stable and great, thankfully. I still had to heal. Im 66 and still rebuke some thoughts. I love Jesus.
Wow. Your stories are so similar to mine and I thank you for sharing as it is so validating to me!! I am no contact with my whole family except my oldest son, who also has an amazing testimony of Jesus as well as me. Instead of focusing on my tragedies, I want to share a prayer experience I had. I was thanking Jesus just over and over worshipping my Savior for saving my life the 7 times for sure I should have died, and I heard a whisper say, 'those are only the times YOU know about'. I got a mic drop from Jesus. I love him with all my mind, my heart, and my soul. God Bless Chynna, and so proud that you stood up to the crowd to keep this channel going!
Me too, not completely over a traumatic childhood, but living my life relatively well at 69. Brought up in a fancy way, in the Palisades, so I really can relate. Thank you for sharing.
Hey Wendy!!! Santa Monica here...also my parents, aunts and uncles and grandparents!!! Thank you for sharing!!! After a 23 year career in the biz...Childhood trauma crosses ALL lines of success and money!!! God Bless you, honey!!! Love, Cherie
My Father left us when I was six years old. My mother had an affair with a family friend, which resulted in a pregnancy and she told my Father the baby was his, which was a lie and that lie eventually came out, which resulted with my Father leaving. Then my mother told my Father that he needed to stay out of our lives, I have six other siblings. The family friend, became our stepfather who was very abusive. Never got to have a relationship with my Father, because he died. Life is full of hardships and Peace of Christ is what keeps me living life. Thank You for sharing your life.
I thank God that I never experienced anything like this in my early life. I truly lived the Ozzie and Harriet life. Mom a homemaker, dad a plant worker. Poor, but ok. Never a hint of perversion. No alcohol or drugs. No violence beyond the whippings we earned. I cannot even imagine how you all evolved so wonderfully. Better than I am, much better Christians. Shame on me. You two work so hard and fight for health and love, and search for meaning. I am ashamed that I don't fight to be better. I hope I am not coming of as arrogant. I was just lucky until now. Your stories inspire me to be more grateful and thankful, and I get such inspiration from your channel. My life now is very different and am not so happy as I was as a kid. This last chapter of my life is so incredibly different, that I am amazed about how I got here. No real horrow story, just some sad circumstances. I am a stranger in a strange landscape. But this has been a humbling experience, and maybe now i can learn to fight to be better as well. I recognize I have been too detached from Jesus now as my life is practically over. I recognize how hollow my soul is. I don't understand how I can be this way. Pray that I fight the good fight, and achieve even half of what you two have accomplished. Pray for my soul too. Thank you.
Great video Chynna I didn't grow up with my father, he left us before I was born. I didn't really know how much it affected me until a pastor wanted to speak to me alone. He had a gift of knowledge and he said to me I needed to forgive my father for not being around when I grew up, I literally burst into tears, I was 23 years old and didn't even have the slightest hint that there was any damage there. It is amazing how emotions can rest just under the surface. I did forgive my father, I have reconnected with him off and on the last 21 years.
It is a shame some of the things you went through, but God used it for good and He looked over you, because you are here and spreading His word. He is your Daddy. God bless.
@@paulsmith2279 my dad was 100% better parent than my mother to me. Unfortunately my soul ties were with her. But my dad showed unconditional love and support all through my life. Having a NM is dangerous because you will open your life to them only to get burnt again and again until you learn.
I think I just realized the term: "daddy issues" is very patrionizing. It seems to put blame on the girl / woman who struggles instead of placing responsibility on the dad that just wasn't there. I don't know I just thought of this while watching you talk. I admit I have issues too but it was not my inner child's fault that my dad choose to not show up for me. I blame myself a lot for things. Have to get out of the "I'm defective" mindset. I can somewhat identify with. your conversation here. One thing I want to say about my experience is that we were in a Christian family and I was shocked when I realized as an adult that it was a dysfunctional christian family.
I’ll be 67 this year. The pain inflected upon me as a child never healed. No matter how much therapy the scars are still there and on occasion the Scars rear their Ugly head. Child abuse both mental and physical. And a mother that did both to her children. A father that was gone and didn’t have the GUTS to force visitation rights. Too busy living HIS good life. He was a failure too! All these years later and he and his current wife can’t understand why I have absolutely NO emotional attachment to him. How could I?? I didn’t grow up with him. I had to take care of myself starting at the age of 5!! The day She died I was Thankful that now she couldn’t hurt anyone again. As far as my biological father, I want nothing to do with him.
I totally relate and agree to what you said. Some differences in our experience. My mom wasn't physically abusive but was emotionally not there for me for anything....everything is about her and her issues to this day. Dad left us when I was 12(now 54) and was never there and I didnt grow up with him in my life. Tried several times to have a relationship with him as an adult initiated by me or my brothers and he would never take responsibility for anything and he was always drunk and inapropriate. The last time this happened was 5 years ago and my brothers said they could except him the way he was but I could not. Everytime I was around him he would get drunk and make stuff up about the past and try to blame others. I told him I couldn't do it and I explained to him why. He acted like he had no idea what I was talking about and like I was delusional. He died last summer and I told my step Mom and brothers that I would only come to the hospital if he asked for me and something he wanted to say to me, he knew he was dieing for a couple of weeks and was coherent for most of that time. I never got the call but was at peace with my decision. There is now a strain with my relationships with my brothers. They say they dont understand how I could not go to see him before he passed if I am a Christian(they are not christians). I said that I if you dont have a relationship in life with someone than why would you in death? I forgave him many times but knew that God didn't expect me to be in a relationship with somone that continues to hurt me. My brothers and I were always close and never had any issues and I am trying to let go of the anger I feel, because even in death I feel like he is still hurting me because of my brothers and my diagreement over his death. I think my brothers are mourning the fact that they will never have the relationship with him that they really wanted more than for his death. We all had different experiences with the situation. I know that God will get me through this just like all the other stuff I've worked through. The older I get I realize the childhood trauma will always be there and that it just evolves and teaches me new things.
@@NOBODY-fz3im I am SOOOO praying for you, honey!!! Jesus is very real and Loves you soooo much....even when we don't "feel" it. Ask God to reveal Himself to you...and he will!!! Maybe not a love interest....but good Bros and Sisters who will love you and will be there for you. Much Love, Cherie
Chynna My daughter, who just turned 52 today, had a real painful relationship with her dad, my ex. He would say he was coming to pick her up time and time again and not showing up. She had a tremulous relationship with him her whole life and has had up until a year ago, when she got sober, decided to forgive him and now she can actually talk to him without crying. So.. so many children have such angst over parents with alcohol and drug problems and the abuse that they endure. I am so glad that you are talking about this with your friends, your mom and us! We appreciate your honesty it’s so important 😍
Who was YOUR dad that you chose this man to be the father of your child? 🤔 (Not meaning to pry or disrespectful--just genuine curiosity/trying to understand/bring light--it is said that "we marry our parents")
My parents are still married and I have a better relationship with my 85 year old father now than I did most of my life. He was very critical, crushed my self esteem, very negative and dismissive. I had him around physically but I envied my friend's whose Dads were so close to their daughters. At the age of 54 years old I still find myself trying to get my father's approval and working on my self worth and image. Thankfully I have a very loving and positive mother.
I remember your mom telling me that story. It was so heartbreaking. I had similar experiences with my dad except it was alcohol. All this chaos, I too felt it was my fault.
I was fortunate to have a father who loved me and stood by me & my sisters no matter what… and I praise the Lord every day for giving me a wonderful childhood. My ex husband, however, decided he didn’t want the weight of a family tying him down and walked out on me when our girls were young. It broke my heart that they wouldn’t ever know what it was to have a wonderful dad and though I was the best single mom I could be, I do see different ways it affected my girls. Thank Jesus they turned out to be sweet, loving, hardworking girls, but it will always break my heart knowing they didn’t get to experience the kind of childhood I did.
The Lord puts other father figures in their path when necessary. Sadly, ur ex was more a woman than a man. Real men enjoy that part of life to be there for their children, especially girls. Dads love their girls. They love their boys too, but walking out isn’t natural. Ur ex is wayyy off balance. That’s why I say he isn’t a real man. 🌻🙏
Blessed to have this dear, dear friend in your life for so many years, Chynna. I really liked Robyn. So nice and easy to be with. Hope you have her on again. Hugs to teenage Chynna & Robyn who needed hugs then, but who can "hold on" and hug each other now.
75K!!! HSA! Love seeing you and Robyn doing a Cal Preach!!! (Hi Robyn 💞💞💞). So much here, thank you for being so open- this will again help so many people! Love, love, love!
I'm so glad I had a strong enough mind to say "NO!" to everything...I was almost attacked by my friend's oldest brother who had been drinking and i had to work the next day - "I said I'll tell your mom and dad! and you will drive me to work tomorrow and he did"
Thank you for sharing your stories Chynna ,,and Robyn💕. Your both a blessing for us all, and a blessing to each other as well. Your both in my prayers. Have a blessed night. Peace Of Christ.✨💕🙏🛐😊💕👍.
This made me really sad. So glad you survived those times. Some friendships are priceless. I can't believe how open and honest you are, Chynna..it's so hard for me to even think of my past, let alone share it with anyone.. Thank you.
Dearest Chynna, We've never met or spoken face to face, yet I feel like I know you as in some ways, we've walked similarly traumatic paths to finding our healing faith in God. I am so sorry that you witnessed the horrors of drug addiction as a child. I'm sure you will never be able to forget that image of your stepmother bleeding. How awful 💔 I'm very proud of you for speaking out about how addiction can affect an entire family. I'm also proud of the work your sister Mackenzie is doing to be a living example that addiction be overcome and that often it is a way to treat underlining mental health issues. I'm so sorry you were drug raped on your 18th birthday. You've been through so much, and that you still love the Lord and spread your faith is just so impressive to me. Hearing Robyn speak was powerful too. You are both such inspiring and strong women. I too work in mental health, I'm so influenced by you both. This is one of your best videos. I will share it with others needing hope. I'm thankful to God for your friendship. May he continue to bless you both.
Yes! Love the toothpaste on lip & you didn’t even edit it out. Your public “realness” is inspiring. Love how Holy Spirit Activate is spreading. Thank You, Jesus.
Do you know/have ever met China Kantner? I think it's interesting that two children whose parents were in popular 60s rock groups, both with similar names (okay, different spellings but pronounced the same) are into Christianity/Christian theology.
I never met my Dad. The only thing I knew for sure about him as a child, was that I had his brown eyes, because my mom's family were all blue eyed people. If I was out in a crowd or a public place, I would look around at the adult men and check to see if there were any with brown eyes and imagine that maybe one of them was my Dad.
😢😭 SOOOOO SORRY FOR YOUR CHILDHOOD TRAUMA! WE TOO, HAD A LOUSE OF A FATHER WHO IGNORED ALL 6 OF US WHEN HE WAS HOME. NEVER SAID HE LOVED US, WAS PROUD OF US, OR ANYTHING POSITIVE! OUR MOTHER WAS A SAINT! WE ALL TURNED OUT GREAT, (NO DRUGS, ALCOHOL, JAIL, etc.). We ALL went to college & became professionals, DR.S, DESIGNERS, ARTISTS, ARCHITECTS, PILOTS.....BUT, THE HURT & PAIN OF BEING IGNORED NEVER WENT AWAY! SO, HE WAS TECHNICALLY 'PHISICALY' THERE, BUT MENTALLY ABSENT! I THINK THAT WAS WORSE. HE FINALLY LEFT US FOR GOOD; WITH 2 IN JR. HIGH, 3 IN COLLEGE, & 1 IN MED. SCHOOL! WE WERE ALL HAPPY!
So genuine and heartfelt, thank you for sharing this. It helps to know we all have struggles and to open your hearts and share, so wonderful. So nice to see good friends supporting each other after all this time🌹💐🥰💕🌺
Loved this. So helpful to so many. I can see it as a tool for wherever someone is in their healing journey. Lovely to hear that Robyn works in the field that she does. My heart breaks for children waiting on disconnected dads. As a kids’ ministry director, I see it in the church, as well.
@@stuntbrat777smith4 Hello dearest Cherie! I’m so glad to read your comment! You’ve been on my heart the last several weeks wondering where you are. So, I prayed for you and here you are. I’m up early right now, 4am or so due to storms. Blessings to you. ♥️
.... and then there are over protective parent's. One positive thing about that is, I wasn't exposed to thing's at an early age. I was old enough (mature)to understand and handle things in a healthy way. I practice what your friend said about listening to your kids and give them some space. The results have been rewarding. Nice visit that you had with your friend with a little reminiscing. Take Care.
I have a couple of stuffed animals. I use one every night as a hug pillow. Cuter than a pillow and I am not ashamed either. Makes me feel secure. I have recently discovered I have CPTSD and it has been eye opening into some of my behaviors.
It says in the Bible that We are to share our burdens with one another. It is a beautiful thing to do with our special friends and loved ones as it helps to lighten our load in this life. I don’t usually say much but I love this channel and how much you share with us Chyna. It keeps us from feeling alone in our struggles so thank you so much! I know sometimes you struggle with not feeling loved, I do also from having had an absent father, but you have made such an amazing and wholesome life for yourself! And you have given so much joy and healing to the world. there is so much beauty in this life and in nature that God has provided for us, no matter what goes on, I am still astounded and am in awe of this beautiful earth that God gave us to enjoy!!!
Nice to meet your friend and see how far you both have come since those bad times growing up! You have something to really be proud of Chynna, a wonderful husband, three beautiful children, a beautiful home and most importantly a risen Savior that has saved us all who come to Him through faith!! POC
My best friend and I have been showing up for each other for 40 years! We met when she lived in Montana in 1981 and now she lives in Florida and we talk on the phone almost every day!! Don't know what I'd do without her!!
Real and meaningful relationships and friendships are one of the greatest gifts we can give and receive in our lives. They truly are priceless ! Some of the deepest relationships and friendships are often built on shared experiences the good and the bad, and the reliability and trust built over time. You both are amazing friends to each other, really enjoyed watching and hearing that and feeling that connection, Peace of Christ to you both 🕊️🙏❤️
On man, love you Chynna, I had such turmoil in my childhood, horrible abuse, your stories let’s me know that all others behind closed doors didn’t have a perfect life. Thank you for the vidoes, thank you for the honesty, thank you for sharing your heart, your story❤️🩹🙏🏼
I left home at 12 years of age for a multitude of reasons. But what I wanted to say; Accept what is , let go Of what was, and have ' Faith ' in What will be... I Love You. You are probably thinking, " Goodness you don't even know me." But if people can; Hate For No Reason, I Can LOVE. 🙏 Jesus Activate 🙏 Having found your channel has brought me closer to the Lord, blessed be.🙏
I have a dear friend from 3rd grade. We keep in touch about once a week. Unfortunately she lives in another state but that doesn’t matter, no way! She knows me sometimes better than I know myself. I treasure that friendship. She’s always looking it out for me. I know I could call her anytime even late at night n she be there to listen n never judges me. She may give a suggestion though. This was a great video about dear friendships. You definitely had a different childhood from many of us. I praise God that you found Jesus’s love n His forgiveness . We can’t change our past but we can learn from it n trust God to see each new day with His glorifying love. ♥️♥️🙏😇
i have had a lifetime of chronic illness and at age 54 its very difficult...in every way on all levels. i did have a great dad who was there always.he was my protector and i felt unconditional love... he passed in 2015 and hard to even be without him as an adult. feel so alone without my parents... I do know people who had abusive dads or their dad was not there and it is very painful for them. my father had a friend whose father ignored him to such an extent that he told me dad it would have been better if his dad had hit him because at least he would have known he knew he was there.
I had a good enough mother, my father was abusive to my mother and us, and an alcoholic. I was in 5 th grade when she left him. She then married my stepfather who was better to us. My father then basically disappeared. Even tho he was abusive my heart yearned for him, so sad, the Lord has shown me over the years the love of a good father. It took years for this to get settled in me, but more and more I trust our Lord. Grateful grateful for his love!
Chynna I’m really hurting w the many that are facing things in Hollywood rt now. I feel His mercy reaching out in some real dark times. I didn’t know where to put this burden and also new hope for people that r used to being so elevated who are now feeling such a hard fall into a feeling they r not used to. I’m glad u have been an influence for Billy who can then share hope. So thankful Chynna. God bless❤️
I AM your mighty God your Father Risen Son of man HEALER of the broken from the song I AM by Mark Schultz i listen to this when it all gets too much , thank you for your channel your kindness your honesty your empathy your Faith. 🙏🌷
Chynna Philips Baldwin, I sincerely hope that you heal from all the challenges that were laid at your doorstep, these were not for you to own. What happened to your father while he was drugged out was not of his own choosing but the shame of occurrences, while he was in that state, would stay with him, hence the addiction. Can you imagine a whole town with half its people in the same state, it's happening today? Methodone, Suboxone does that. I will also go so far as to say, your sister revealing some "family secrets" on the day of your new album release is by no accident. I grew up with two younger sisters and let me tell you we were not allowed to have a positive public image. Envy is strong in siblings sets. You see as someone once said, Jealousy is an emotion that you can have of someone, but what they have you can have or attain. Envy is much stronger, you want what a person has but yourself can never have. So people do crazy stuff to ruin others' lives, to maim and hurt them. It's real negative attention-seeking. I hope these panic attacks and sadness lessen. You are deserving of a good and free and happy life because of truth. And same for those around you. take everything with a grain of salt. America was in a crazy state of revolution when your mom and dad were together, that's the big picture. (read. My sister, my self, Vicki stark)
Sweet precious Chynna. I know the visual and mental impact of parents sin. I saw my father get crazy with alcohol, heard he beat on my brothers, sisters before I was born. My mother so trashed walking down the hallway bouncing stumbling and mumbling, she even ran with me 7 yrs and my sister 8 from my fathers rage and ran down a huge dirt embankment, fell face first. They divorced much later. My sweet mother later gave her life to Yeshua, being engulfed with the HOLY Spirit. I hope my father did. I saw him die on the hospital bed. I prayed for GOD to not allow him to suffer. Diabetes took his legs..SAD It still hurts Chynna but my Yeshua, my LORD, my ELOHIM is my everything. WE ARE A PECULIAR PEOPLE. AMEN
I'm so sorry that you and your friend have been through so much in your lives. You're both fighters and the fact that you haven't given up, despite the hell that you've been through, is inspirational. I'm sure you've helped a lot of people by telling your stories. Our two adopted children have had drug and alcohol problems for years (they're both from a different culture). We live in a small community and some of the kids at school bullied them. I found out about it and put a stop to it. When they were in High School that's when everything went downhill. My son has been in and out of jail/prison since he was 13 and is going to prison again in the near future. My daughter is doing better. Many a time I've worried that they'd end up dead of an overdose or killed by a drug deal gone wrong. I still worry about that with my son. My husband and I have never had drug or alcohol problems. So I can't figure out what went wrong. I've blamed myself and wondered what we both could have done differently to help them. I love them dearly. ❤️ I pray for them every night and day and hope that they will choose to completely turn their lives around.
That's one area where I was lucky. My dad has always been there and when my husband died suddenly, it's amazing how much my father shows up for me and my kids. He stepped up and took on many of the roles my husband did, like house and car stuff, when the kids need help, etc.
Great video Chynna ❤ I can relate in so many ways....My Grandfather was My EVERYTHING He introduced me to GOD And JESUS 🙏🙏🙏❤ I also didn't have an early relationship with My father he was too Busy I could relate to the waiting and waiting for him to come pick me up It got so Bad He sent me a telegram for my 6th Birthday 😲😣 O Well My Mother remarried a WONDERFUL Man that treated me like his own❤❤❤ blended families have ALOT of issues but My Mother and Step Father Worked so Hard to make Us ALL a Family Much Love to You Chynna 😘❤❤❤ JESUS IS SO WONDERFUL Love You ❤❤❤
My eyes do the random rapid movement, it's a small partial localized seizure stress and bright lights are my triggers. Mine is also related to MS. ❤ so interesting to know you have experienced something I have
Wow! This is a lot to digest! This is a super deep conversation. I hope you don't have an emotional break tonight...I actually had to stop about 1/2 way through as it brought up some deep emotions for me! God bless you! Thanking Him for His perfection.
Chy...Our lives are So much alike. I'm 60y.o. in AA, my dad was a heroin user and alcoholic. My mom remarried 3 other times. I was sexually abused. I've had lots of therapy. I've been married 38 yrs.
Thank God we did survive, and that He makes all things new!!!
God bless you and Billy in His journey for y'all.
Most of my life from childhood to 17 yrs. of age was spent missing my father. You don't get the option to pick who your parents are. My father was gone from the house most of the time and I used to think that meant daddy was in jail again. My poor mother was only 17 when she got pregnant with me and married my completely dysfunctional father. He never touched me. Not even a spanking, but he beat my mother so many times and I remember her friends telling her "'He's going to kill you if you don't leave" and one night he sent me and my little sister outside after he had just gotten home from God knows where and I heard my mom crying. I told my sister to stay there and I went in. I was 7. My sister didn't stay outside. The next thing I knew, we were looking for my mom's front tooth on the bathroom floor. Her jaw had been broken so badly that the doctors told her if it happened again, they wouldn't be able to fix it. Anyway, I left my sister to look for the tooth and I went to where my father was pacing and I said; "You hurt my mommy and I want you to leave and never come back." He did. After the divorce, he visited twice and one more time he said he would come for Christmas. My mother had a wonderful boyfriend at that point who stood 6'4" and was gorgeous. I saved all my money until it came time to buy my Dad a present. I didn't buy for anyone else. I was just a kid. I bought him a blow dryer. He opened it and I saw the look of disappointment on his face. He had lost most of his hair by then. He didn't even have enough class to say Thank you sweetheart. He left shortly after that and that's when I never saw him until I was 17. I had enough common sense to tell him that nobody ever taught him how to be a man. His father beat him and my grandmother. I saw a lightbulb moment in my father. He thanked me. It took many years but after we both stopped drinking, we managed to have a really good relationship. He died at 64 from liver cancer. I was 46. I knew he was going to die. He told me. I loved him very much. I actually got to be daddy's little girl for a few years and it was wonderful. I had a happy ending. I think he did too. Thanks for letting me tell my story. There's so much more but I'd have to write a book. I too did the drugs and drank myself stupid many times over for many years. I'm clean and sober. I just realized I'm 55 and he's been gone 9 yrs. Wow.
When my Mom collapsed at 66 from a brain aneurysm, I was 38. I didn’t think I could survive without her. In the hospital as she was dying, I laid in the bed with her. My sister and I sang Karen Carpenter songs to her , from the radio. A nurse came in and said I needed to get out of the bed. I said, “my mother is dying only once. I’m not moving .”
I am a nurse and that makes me very sad…..I’m glad you stood your ground. My mom passed away in 2019……she was my best friend. I long to see her again as this is the only thing that gives me hope.
Nurses can be so insensitive and cruel. I have had similar experiences. We need to advocate for ourselves. You were very wise.
@@petuniashadowgirl8305 My sister is a nurse! I have great respect for nurses in general!
I’m so sorry. I love Karen so much.😍
@@martahernandez9784 They can also be very caring and loving.
Exactly 4 months sober today praise God
Congratulations James. A true sober walk with God is Holy!!!!
You go James! You may reach a point where you are pretty steadily confronted with some uncomfortable things that crop up in your sobriety walk. Please just take them as they come and accept them as part of the process without getting hung up on them. I was given that advice and it was so helpful to me. ❤️
congratulations!! that is a huge PRAISE!!
James!!! Proud of you, bro!!! Praise God indeed!!! Only One Day at a Time, right??? God Bless....Love, Cherie
I play music for a part-time living which typically involves restaurants and bars but I’m good with that I have my boundaries working the steps.
Dear Chynna, I just celebrated my 5th year of sobriety and you are the first celebrity that I have heard discuss AA and your walk with God. I was born in 1966 so I remember hearing The Mamas and the Papas growing up, they were one of my sisters favorite groups and I still turn up the tunes when they are on as I do when Wilson Phillips is on ( I used to sing Hold On in the shower lol). It's inspiring when you talk about your journey with God, I was a non-believer until 2018 when God took away my obsession for alcohol and drugs as well as other miracles only God could have a hand in as I was supposed to be dead by 2019 from advanced COPD, I was on supplemental oxygen for the past two years and about a month ago I was able to go without it. I pray and spend time everyday with my savior and still thank him for keeping me away from alcohol daily. I'm steadily getting my ambition back and would one day like to open a rehab/sober living house, as the Doctors feel I could go another 5 years at least. God Bless you for your channel and I pray for the best for you and your family. Thanks for listening, Sincerely Patrick Koch
My dad always showed up. My mother fought to make it as hard as possible for him to have a relationship with me and my brother and it became so difficult that I made the decision at thirteen to cut him off so that she would stop retaliating against me for wanting to spend time with him. That blew up in my face, let me tell you. She was worse than ever after that because there was no oversight in the form of my father. 😖 I retreated into myself because I had no one on my side. Then I started looking for acceptance and affection anywhere I could get it, and that’s when I started drinking more than ever, and other things. Sigh. Textbook.
I really can’t stand that so many of us have such similar painful histories. I have known 80 year old women who were still hurting from the abuses and neglect of childhood. It’s so important for those of us who know Christ to introduce others to him.
Monster McBoo, I totally agree with you. I've had alot of chilhood and adult trauma. Without Jesus, I would be so different/or dead .✝️
@@kellybode4812 Yes, I guess having an imaginary father (jesus, god, whatever) is better than not having a father at all.
Steevee, Jesus is real, and he's always there for me.💜🙏✝️
@Steevee14 you don’t have to believe in God for Him to believe in you. Hope your day gets better.
@@kellybode4812 If Jesus is real for you, and is always there for you, then more power to you and your beliefs, whether fictional or not!
Such an eye opening conversation into my own past. My father didn’t use drugs but he died when I was 22. He had been sick with cancer. You don’t have to be famous to have childhood trauma and mess up. I was given burdens I am still carrying at 60.
You ladies have so helped me this morning ❤️❤️❤️ We often think that we are the only ones going through these traumas 🙏 Thank you so much for your transparency
My father committed suicide when I was 13, ruined my life as I knew it, had to deal with major anxiety for years due to the PTSD. I was very intimidated and fearful of men all my life, and my therapist said because I never had much of a relationship with my father, and then I found him like that, revealed the absence and trauma I had developed in the fear of men. Thank you Jesus for saving me from myself 🙏
Omg I'm so 🥺
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God Bless you. 🙏
I saw a quote that said “ Be the adult you needed as a child” I love that,
so sorry you went through that, you did what you had to do ,to survive that,
As a teenager , I felt at one point, my innocence was taken away & it stayed with me, I think our childhood & even teen years stay with us, my much older relative still always thinks back to issues of childhood, maybe we all do & maybe that s why I tried to make my child’s life as good as possible, I also think as long as you have one good parent or person who stands by you & you feel safe with, you re good,
So great that you guys can talk about this ❤️ sending much ❤️
Stealing that quote! How empowering 😇😇😇🙏🙏🙏🙌🙌🙌🥰🥰🥰 thank you.
Sometimes I think of myself as a child ,
I mean REALLY think, back to my young self, I was happy, singing, dancing & carefree most of the time, but was also worried, anxious & fearful at times,
In my mind, I hug that child & give her love & talk to her the way I think she needed it & I pray that I gave MY kid all that a child needs to feel loved & safe ❤️
you & robyn are adorable together! please have her on cal preach again
Yes! Yes! I’d love to see her some more. It is so wonderful to have a friend since childhood... someone who’s seen you in all phases and stages of your life. Somebody who knows you well. That’s nothing to take lightly. It is truly a wonderful thing to have in this life! May these two be loving, strong friends for the rest of their abundant lives and may all their latter years be far greater than their forner!!! In Jesus’ Mighty Name! And it is so! AMEN
She was so nice what a great friend you have
Such sad story stories but we went through similar disfunction.
Much healing love to Chynna and all of us who need healing as well. I love this tribe of like-minded souls filled with compassion for all hoping for healing for all. Chynna rocks and rolls for this communal purpose. Thank you, Chynna!
❤🙏 WELL SAID ! ☝💜
My father stole my innocence when I was 10..my mother committed suicide when I was 12 and I had to learn to cook, clean, iron, etc. For my little brothers.
I am 67 now.
I have been surviving my whole life.
And I could never have achieved that without the love of Our LORD Jesus Christ ❤
I’m so sorry you had to go through that at such as an innocent child.
Many never had a relationship with their earthly Dad. There is a great book by James Robison "My Father's Face" it was so significant for my eldest son. Highly recommended!
Agree. The US has the highest rate of single parent households. Yes. Fatherlessness and motherlessness - to varying degrees - affect many on many levels. Agree
James has a wonderful story!
@@truthseeker3773 James Robison is author.
@@truthseeker3773 that is what I found also. Would like to know for sure.
@@MercyUS can you tell us where to find it because I found the same as @Truth Seeker.
Chynna when you share your childhood you are helping people. Thank you for opening up and letting people in. You are brave. Let your healing in...you may never totally heal but take solace that you are not alone and your feelings matter and are justified! You have a wonderful friend that came all the way to you to see if you are OK. That's a beautiful thing.
@@judyivie4181 not sure what you mean. When people talk about their experiences they may be repeated.
@@rhiannonrhiannon6285 Yes, trauma and neglect experienced in our formative years can take years to unravel. Unfortunately, it isn't a one and done experience of resolution. I feel like God doesn't just plainly reveal all knowledge to us all at one time, unraveling these childhood traumas may never fully be understood in our lifetime here, maybe not until we see Him face to face in the kingdom, where He will make our hearts as full as the day of our birth.
@@judyivie4181 a positive approach? Seriously? She was a child, teenagers are children! I m trying to be respectful , but that comment is insane
@@vickivanderveen1815 Wow beautifully said!
@@speechgirl9647 I think what Judy was saying is that Chynna should after she talks about it have some sort of resolution but Chynna is still working things out and trying to heal. She went from teenager, early twenties and then went right into motherhood where she had to care for children for 20 years. She is now at a point in her life to dig deep and start working on herself. Which she is doing and bringing people on her journey.. How this is helping people is that others can say wow I am not alone that happened to me also. That's what a lot of people want to know. They want to know they are not alone. That their shame is felt by others...sometimes that's enough to heal someone.
Chynna and Robyn!!! Thank you for this very honest and open video!!! My horrible abusive father was a Psych Prof at a college in O.C. Cali...pretend Morman to the outside world...Monster in the home. He didn't drink...(it was just him!!!)...but he may have experimented with drugs cuz it was during the Timothy Leary days in the 60s. My Mom was a sweetheart, but very weak and stuck in that abusive cycle of letting him move out and move back in for many years. Us kids called the cops on him 3 times...but of course Mom would tell them..."Everything is OK".....Grrrrrr!!! AMAZING how this stuff still affects us weel into our adulthoods....Much Love to you Both!!! God Bless....Love, Cherie HUGGGzzzzzz......
@@whiteviolet5862 White Violet....i soooo get what you are saying....Thank you for responding....she was a sweet broken lady....but kept us all together and believed me when my father did something to me on an overnight at age 12....No Overnights after that when I and my bro and sis had to talk to a judge...All a Matter of record in the O.C Fam Court....if they go back that far!!! (I lost respect for both of them!!!)....God Bless, Violet!!! Love, Cherie
I’m so sorry you experienced all that hon!! It breaks my heart that so many children have had to experience that kind of abuse. God bless you sweet sister!
@@whiteviolet5862 Awww....Thank you, Sis!!! Yeah...Praise God...I belong to Jesus now and He is in the process of healing us day by day....Much Love, Cherie
@@jolyn2133 Hey Sweet JoLyn!!! Thank you for your compassionate comment!!! I am amazed also since finding out now online how widespread it is and was. Praise God for Moms who believe us, right??? Much Love, Cherie
So disgusting on so many levels that a grown ass woman to let their children be touched or victimized by a grown ass man and anyway that’s so weak and I get it women and have a lot of places to go for help especially with children but it’s still disgusting
I realize listening to y’all just how blessed I was as a child to have a secure upbringing. Mom was a Christian, dad not until much later and went to Church from at least 7 through now and I became a Christian at that same age. No drugs, divorce and only a six pack of Budweiser for dad on the weekends. You are such a inspiration because of your upbringing and strong testimony. Love and God Bless
Thanks for sharing. My dad drank too much but our lives were mostly stable and great, thankfully. I still had to heal. Im 66 and still rebuke some thoughts. I love Jesus.
Oh my gosh,I so identify with waiting for hours for my dad to “show up”,and most of the time he never did….
Wow. Your stories are so similar to mine and I thank you for sharing as it is so validating to me!! I am no contact with my whole family except my oldest son, who also has an amazing testimony of Jesus as well as me. Instead of focusing on my tragedies, I want to share a prayer experience I had. I was thanking Jesus just over and over worshipping my Savior for saving my life the 7 times for sure I should have died, and I heard a whisper say, 'those are only the times YOU know about'. I got a mic drop from Jesus. I love him with all my mind, my heart, and my soul. God Bless Chynna, and so proud that you stood up to the crowd to keep this channel going!
Me too, not completely over a traumatic childhood, but living my life relatively well at 69. Brought up in a fancy way, in the Palisades, so I really can relate. Thank you for sharing.
Hey Wendy!!! Santa Monica here...also my parents, aunts and uncles and grandparents!!! Thank you for sharing!!! After a 23 year career in the biz...Childhood trauma crosses ALL lines of success and money!!! God Bless you, honey!!! Love, Cherie
@@stuntbrat777smith4 Thank you Cherie. What a kind soul...Warmly, Wendy
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@@stuntbrat777smith4 You appear happy and successful. We are survivors!
Powerful transparency Chynna...wow!
You are helping a lot of people. It's a tremendous part of your ministry calling. Such incredible courage.🙏
My Father left us when I was six years old. My mother had an affair with a family friend, which resulted in a pregnancy and she told my Father the baby was his, which was a lie and that lie eventually came out, which resulted with my Father leaving. Then my mother told my Father that he needed to stay out of our lives, I have six other siblings. The family friend, became our stepfather who was very abusive. Never got to have a relationship with my Father, because he died. Life is full of hardships and Peace of Christ is what keeps me living life. Thank You for sharing your life.
I thank God that I never experienced anything like this in my early life. I truly lived the Ozzie and Harriet life. Mom a homemaker, dad a plant worker. Poor, but ok. Never a hint of perversion. No alcohol or drugs. No violence beyond the whippings we earned. I cannot even imagine how you all evolved so wonderfully. Better than I am, much better Christians. Shame on me. You two work so hard and fight for health and love, and search for meaning. I am ashamed that I don't fight to be better. I hope I am not coming of as arrogant. I was just lucky until now. Your stories inspire me to be more grateful and thankful, and I get such inspiration from your channel. My life now is very different and am not so happy as I was as a kid. This last chapter of my life is so incredibly different, that I am amazed about how I got here. No real horrow story, just some sad circumstances. I am a stranger in a strange landscape. But this has been a humbling experience, and maybe now i can learn to fight to be better as well. I recognize I have been too detached from Jesus now as my life is practically over. I recognize how hollow my soul is. I don't understand how I can be this way. Pray that I fight the good fight, and achieve even half of what you two have accomplished. Pray for my soul too. Thank you.
Chynna, so glad you survived your childhood & beyond seems like you went through a lot. God had plans for your life.
I wish she & Billy we’re going ahead with their show. Shame
Great video Chynna
I didn't grow up with my father, he left us before I was born. I didn't really know how much it affected me until a pastor wanted to speak to me alone. He had a gift of knowledge and he said to me I needed to forgive my father for not being around when I grew up, I literally burst into tears, I was 23 years old and didn't even have the slightest hint that there was any damage there. It is amazing how emotions can rest just under the surface.
I did forgive my father, I have reconnected with him off and on the last 21 years.
You’re a gem 💎
@@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin Chynna have you heard 'the Lamb' by Bryan Mclean?
It is a shame some of the things you went through, but God used it for good and He looked over you, because you are here and spreading His word. He is your Daddy. God bless.
Divorce can be so hard on the children especially if you have a Narcassist parent
@@paulsmith2279 my dad was 100% better parent than my mother to me. Unfortunately my soul ties were with her. But my dad showed unconditional love and support all through my life. Having a NM is dangerous because you will open your life to them only to get burnt again and again until you learn.
I think I just realized the term: "daddy issues" is very patrionizing. It seems to put blame on the girl / woman who struggles instead of placing responsibility on the dad that just wasn't there. I don't know I just thought of this while watching you talk. I admit I have issues too but it was not my inner child's fault that my dad choose to not show up for me. I blame myself a lot for things. Have to get out of the "I'm defective" mindset. I can somewhat identify with. your conversation here. One thing I want to say about my experience is that we were in a Christian family and I was shocked when I realized as an adult that it was a dysfunctional christian family.
Very true! Not your fault at all. It’s a bad father issue Christian or not. If he’s truly a Christian then that treatment ...it just hurts more.
You are so very correct!!
It’s a dead beat butt head issue.
Oh my gosh. I so resonate with every word of this post.😔 thank you for expressing this.💞 I’m praying for US.🙏🏻
I agree so much! Thanks for your perspective !
You have so many friends, and some have been friends for so many years, it's really wonderful 🤗
Precious people. Thank you for this.
This was such a powerful interview. Thank you. I had similar experience. Wish I had a friend that I could talk to about it. THat is a blessing.
I love your bunny stuffed animal! How nice to have a good friend to relate to.
I’ll be 67 this year. The pain inflected upon me as a child never healed. No matter how much therapy the scars are still there and on occasion the Scars rear their Ugly head. Child abuse both mental and physical. And a mother that did both to her children. A father that was gone and didn’t have the GUTS to force visitation rights. Too busy living HIS good life. He was a failure too! All these years later and he and his current wife can’t understand why I have absolutely NO emotional attachment to him. How could I?? I didn’t grow up with him. I had to take care of myself starting at the age of 5!! The day She died I was Thankful that now she couldn’t hurt anyone again. As far as my biological father, I want nothing to do with him.
I totally relate and agree to what you said. Some differences in our experience. My mom wasn't physically abusive but was emotionally not there for me for anything....everything is about her and her issues to this day. Dad left us when I was 12(now 54) and was never there and I didnt grow up with him in my life. Tried several times to have a relationship with him as an adult initiated by me or my brothers and he would never take responsibility for anything and he was always drunk and inapropriate. The last time this happened was 5 years ago and my brothers said they could except him the way he was but I could not. Everytime I was around him he would get drunk and make stuff up about the past and try to blame others. I told him I couldn't do it and I explained to him why. He acted like he had no idea what I was talking about and like I was delusional. He died last summer and I told my step Mom and brothers that I would only come to the hospital if he asked for me and something he wanted to say to me, he knew he was dieing for a couple of weeks and was coherent for most of that time. I never got the call but was at peace with my decision. There is now a strain with my relationships with my brothers. They say they dont understand how I could not go to see him before he passed if I am a Christian(they are not christians). I said that I if you dont have a relationship in life with someone than why would you in death? I forgave him many times but knew that God didn't expect me to be in a relationship with somone that continues to hurt me. My brothers and I were always close and never had any issues and I am trying to let go of the anger I feel, because even in death I feel like he is still hurting me because of my brothers and my diagreement over his death. I think my brothers are mourning the fact that they will never have the relationship with him that they really wanted more than for his death. We all had different experiences with the situation. I know that God will get me through this just like all the other stuff I've worked through. The older I get I realize the childhood trauma will always be there and that it just evolves and teaches me new things.
EMDR therapy so helpful with traumas. Far better than any other therapy!
@@NOBODY-fz3im I am SOOOO praying for you, honey!!! Jesus is very real and Loves you soooo much....even when we don't "feel" it. Ask God to reveal Himself to you...and he will!!! Maybe not a love interest....but good Bros and Sisters who will love you and will be there for you. Much Love, Cherie
Chynna
My daughter, who just turned 52 today, had a real painful relationship with her dad, my ex. He would say he was coming to pick her up time and time again and not showing up. She had a tremulous relationship with him her whole life and has had up until a year ago, when she got sober, decided to forgive him and now she can actually talk to him without crying. So.. so many children have such angst over parents with alcohol and drug problems and the abuse that they endure. I am so glad that you are talking about this with your friends, your mom and us! We appreciate your honesty it’s so important 😍
Who was YOUR dad that you chose this man to be the father of your child? 🤔
(Not meaning to pry or disrespectful--just genuine curiosity/trying to understand/bring light--it is said that "we marry our parents")
My parents are still married and I have a better relationship with my 85 year old father now than I did most of my life. He was very critical, crushed my self esteem, very negative and dismissive. I had him around physically but I envied my friend's whose Dads were so close to their daughters. At the age of 54 years old I still find myself trying to get my father's approval and working on my self worth and image. Thankfully I have a very loving and positive mother.
I have all the same stories. Crazy. Listening to this brings me back. Thank God we are his now!!
Love your stories .. they're soooooooo raw and soooooooooo real .. thank you
What a SWEET friendship over the years❤️❤️
I remember your mom telling me that story. It was so heartbreaking. I had similar experiences with my dad except it was alcohol. All this chaos, I too felt it was my fault.
I was fortunate to have a father who loved me and stood by me & my sisters no matter what… and I praise the Lord every day for giving me a wonderful childhood. My ex husband, however, decided he didn’t want the weight of a family tying him down and walked out on me when our girls were young. It broke my heart that they wouldn’t ever know what it was to have a wonderful dad and though I was the best single mom I could be, I do see different ways it affected my girls. Thank Jesus they turned out to be sweet, loving, hardworking girls, but it will always break my heart knowing they didn’t get to experience the kind of childhood I did.
JoLyn....Hey Honey!!! Sometimes it's better if a bad father is outta their lives....just sayin....(Left a comment).....Love, Cherie....God Bless...
@@stuntbrat777smith4 True… and they always had me and my family. And they had Jesus 😊. God bless you too😘
The Lord puts other father figures in their path when necessary. Sadly, ur ex was more a woman than a man.
Real men enjoy that part of life to be there for their children, especially girls.
Dads love their girls. They love their boys too, but walking out isn’t natural. Ur ex is wayyy off balance. That’s why I say he isn’t a real man. 🌻🙏
CONGRATULATIONS ON 75K SUBSCRIBERS! Always remember...You are a Princess because your father is the King of Kings!
AMBER!!! Right!!?? Praise God!!!
Blessed to have this dear, dear friend in your life for so many years, Chynna. I really liked Robyn. So nice and easy to be with. Hope you have her on again. Hugs to teenage Chynna & Robyn who needed hugs then, but who can "hold on" and hug each other now.
75K!!! HSA! Love seeing you and Robyn doing a Cal Preach!!! (Hi Robyn 💞💞💞). So much here, thank you for being so open- this will again help so many people! Love, love, love!
I'm so glad I had a strong enough mind to say "NO!" to everything...I was almost attacked by my friend's oldest brother who had been drinking and i had to work the next day - "I said I'll tell your mom and dad! and you will drive me to work tomorrow and he did"
drive me to work...(too fast-hung over)
Thank you for sharing your stories Chynna ,,and Robyn💕. Your both a blessing for us all, and a blessing to each other as well. Your both in my prayers. Have a blessed night. Peace Of Christ.✨💕🙏🛐😊💕👍.
This made me really sad. So glad you survived those times. Some friendships are priceless.
I can't believe how open and honest you are, Chynna..it's so hard for me to even think of my past, let alone share it with anyone.. Thank you.
Dearest Chynna,
We've never met or spoken face to face, yet I feel like I know you as in some ways, we've walked similarly traumatic paths to finding our healing faith in God.
I am so sorry that you witnessed the horrors of drug addiction as a child. I'm sure you will never be able to forget that image of your stepmother bleeding. How awful 💔
I'm very proud of you for speaking out about how addiction can affect an entire family. I'm also proud of the work your sister Mackenzie is doing to be a living example that addiction be overcome and that often it is a way to treat underlining mental health issues.
I'm so sorry you were drug raped on your 18th birthday. You've been through so much, and that you still love the Lord and spread your faith is just so impressive to me.
Hearing Robyn speak was powerful too. You are both such inspiring and strong women. I too work in mental health, I'm so influenced by you both.
This is one of your best videos. I will share it with others needing hope.
I'm thankful to God for your friendship. May he continue to bless you both.
Yes! Love the toothpaste on lip & you didn’t even edit it out. Your public “realness” is inspiring. Love how Holy Spirit Activate is spreading. Thank You, Jesus.
Sad just how common these stories seem to be. No wonder we have trouble learning the goodness of God!❤️🩹
My husband's eyes move back and forth, especially under stress. His is call Nystagmus. His Mother had it too.
I have double vision and one eye pops all around. But I’m happy in Christ! It helps if my diet is clean.
Thank you for sharing and being so transparent. Not having the love of a father is so heartbreaking. I know I pray for healing in this area.💜
Do you know/have ever met China Kantner? I think it's interesting that two children whose parents were in popular 60s rock groups, both with similar names (okay, different spellings but pronounced the same) are into Christianity/Christian theology.
I never met my Dad. The only thing I knew for sure about him as a child, was that I had his brown eyes, because my mom's family were all blue eyed people. If I was out in a crowd or a public place, I would look around at the adult men and check to see if there were any with brown eyes and imagine that maybe one of them was my Dad.
😢😭 SOOOOO SORRY FOR YOUR CHILDHOOD TRAUMA! WE TOO, HAD A LOUSE OF A FATHER WHO IGNORED ALL 6 OF US WHEN HE WAS HOME. NEVER SAID HE LOVED US, WAS PROUD OF US, OR ANYTHING POSITIVE! OUR MOTHER WAS A SAINT! WE ALL TURNED OUT GREAT, (NO DRUGS, ALCOHOL, JAIL, etc.). We ALL went to college & became professionals, DR.S, DESIGNERS, ARTISTS, ARCHITECTS, PILOTS.....BUT, THE HURT & PAIN OF BEING IGNORED NEVER WENT AWAY! SO, HE WAS TECHNICALLY 'PHISICALY' THERE, BUT MENTALLY ABSENT! I THINK THAT WAS WORSE. HE FINALLY LEFT US FOR GOOD; WITH 2 IN JR. HIGH, 3 IN COLLEGE, & 1 IN MED. SCHOOL! WE WERE ALL HAPPY!
This was so good! Please continue you’re ministry.
Bless you Chynna. How did you get through these horrors? And you came out with love and strength and a passion for helping all of us.
So genuine and heartfelt, thank you for sharing this. It helps to know we all have struggles and to open your hearts and share, so wonderful. So nice to see good friends supporting each other after all this time🌹💐🥰💕🌺
Loved this. So helpful to so many. I can see it as a tool for wherever someone is in their healing journey. Lovely to hear that Robyn works in the field that she does. My heart breaks for children waiting on disconnected dads. As a kids’ ministry director, I see it in the church, as well.
You're a miracle! I loved you hugging your new stuffed bunny as you shared your life with us. I'm so glad you belong to Jesus. XO!
Hey Sweet Kingdom!!! SOOOOOOoooo Glad to SEEya!!!! Love, Cherie
@@stuntbrat777smith4 Hello dearest Cherie! I’m so glad to read your comment! You’ve been on my heart the last several weeks wondering where you are. So, I prayed for you and here you are. I’m up early right now, 4am or so due to storms. Blessings to you. ♥️
.... and then there are over protective parent's. One positive thing about that is, I wasn't exposed to thing's at an early age. I was old enough (mature)to understand and handle things in a healthy way. I practice what your friend said about listening to your kids and give them some space. The results have been rewarding. Nice visit that you had with your friend with a little reminiscing. Take Care.
Another captivating account! It demonstrates that drama and trauma are everywhere, even in Brentwood.
I have a couple of stuffed animals. I use one every night as a hug pillow. Cuter than a pillow and I am not ashamed either. Makes me feel secure. I have recently discovered I have CPTSD and it has been eye opening into some of my behaviors.
It says in the Bible that We are to share our burdens with one another. It is a beautiful thing to do with our special friends and loved ones as it helps to lighten our load in this life. I don’t usually say much but I love this channel and how much you share with us Chyna.
It keeps us from feeling alone in our struggles so thank you so much! I know sometimes you struggle with not feeling loved,
I do also from having had an absent father, but you have made such an amazing and wholesome life for yourself! And you have given so much joy and healing to the world.
there is so much beauty in this life and in nature that God has provided for us, no matter what goes on, I am still astounded and am in awe of this beautiful earth that God gave us to enjoy!!!
Nice to meet your friend and see how far you both have come since those bad times growing up! You have something to really be proud of Chynna, a wonderful husband, three beautiful children, a beautiful home and most importantly a risen Savior that has saved us all who come to Him through faith!! POC
Appreciate what you had and have.
My best friend and I have been showing up for each other for 40 years! We met when she lived in Montana in 1981 and now she lives in Florida and we talk on the phone almost every day!! Don't know what I'd do without her!!
Enjoyed this, thx for sharing Chynna,
Awesome conversation! ❤ The invisible walls of 'secrecy' are falling down.
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Beautiful. ❤ my oldest friends, some of my best friends ! So thankful for them! Thanks for sharing 😊
Real and meaningful relationships and friendships are one of the greatest gifts we can give and receive in our lives. They truly are priceless ! Some of the deepest relationships and friendships are often built on shared experiences the good and the bad, and the reliability and trust built over time. You both are amazing friends to each other, really enjoyed watching and hearing that and feeling that connection, Peace of Christ to you both 🕊️🙏❤️
Boy, I want to give you two a huge hug. You are both fabulous, strong survivors even on the days you don't feel strong. God bless both of you.
On man, love you Chynna, I had such turmoil in my childhood, horrible abuse, your stories let’s me know that all others behind closed doors didn’t have a perfect life. Thank you for the vidoes, thank you for the honesty, thank you for sharing your heart, your story❤️🩹🙏🏼
Similar experiences and yet everybody has a unique story. Thank you for sharing sistahs🌹
I left home at 12 years of age for a multitude of reasons. But what I wanted to say;
Accept what is , let go
Of what was, and have ' Faith ' in
What will be...
I Love You.
You are probably thinking,
" Goodness you don't even know me."
But if people can; Hate For No Reason,
I Can LOVE. 🙏 Jesus Activate 🙏
Having found your channel has brought me closer to the Lord, blessed be.🙏
I have a dear friend from 3rd grade. We keep in touch about once a week. Unfortunately she lives in another state but that doesn’t matter, no way! She knows me sometimes better than I know myself. I treasure that friendship. She’s always looking it out for me. I know I could call her anytime even late at night n she be there to listen n never judges me. She may give a suggestion though.
This was a great video about dear friendships. You definitely had a different childhood from many of us. I praise God that you found Jesus’s love n His forgiveness . We can’t change our past but we can learn from it n trust God to see each new day with His glorifying love.
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Thankyou for sharing and empowering those that resonate. Love and strength to all ❤️
You can't miss what you never had is something I rely on.
me, too
i have had a lifetime of chronic illness and at age 54 its very difficult...in every way on all levels. i did have a great dad who was there always.he was my protector and i felt unconditional love... he passed in 2015 and hard to even be without him as an adult. feel so alone without my parents... I do know people who had abusive dads or their dad was not there and it is very painful for them. my father had a friend whose father ignored him to such an extent that he told me dad it would have been better if his dad had hit him because at least he would have known he knew he was there.
Your so encouraging! By sharing your trauma it helps others work through theirs. God is for us, who can be against us.
I was very fortunate to have good parents!
I had a good enough mother, my father was abusive to my mother and us, and an alcoholic. I was in 5 th grade when she left him. She then married my stepfather who was better to us. My father then basically disappeared. Even tho he was abusive my heart yearned for him, so sad, the Lord has shown me over the years the love of a good father. It took years for this to get settled in me, but more and more I trust our Lord. Grateful grateful for his love!
Blessing 💙💙💙💙
@@ChynnaPhillipsBaldwin take comfort in the fact that you and Billy are good, loving, caring parents. ✨
Oh, love this video with your best friend!💗💗
Fabulous ladies!!🙏❤🙏😘
Aw....♥️ed
I sware, I grew up with you guys.
I’ve just came across your videos and love them. Especially the funny ones with your hubby . ♥️🙏✝️
Chynna I’m really hurting w the many that are facing things in Hollywood rt now. I feel His mercy reaching out in some real dark times. I didn’t know where to put this burden and also new hope for people that r used to being so elevated who are now feeling such a hard fall into a feeling they r not used to.
I’m glad u have been an influence for Billy who can then share hope. So thankful Chynna. God bless❤️
I AM your mighty God your Father Risen Son of man HEALER of the broken from the song I AM by Mark Schultz i listen to this when it all gets too much , thank you for your channel your kindness your honesty your empathy your Faith. 🙏🌷
Chynna Philips Baldwin, I sincerely hope that you heal from all the challenges that were laid at your doorstep, these were not for you to own. What happened to your father while he was drugged out was not of his own choosing but the shame of occurrences, while he was in that state, would stay with him, hence the addiction. Can you imagine a whole town with half its people in the same state, it's happening today? Methodone, Suboxone does that. I will also go so far as to say, your sister revealing some "family secrets" on the day of your new album release is by no accident. I grew up with two younger sisters and let me tell you we were not allowed to have a positive public image. Envy is strong in siblings sets. You see as someone once said, Jealousy is an emotion that you can have of someone, but what they have you can have or attain. Envy is much stronger, you want what a person has but yourself can never have. So people do crazy stuff to ruin others' lives, to maim and hurt them. It's real negative attention-seeking. I hope these panic attacks and sadness lessen. You are deserving of a good and free and happy life because of truth. And same for those around you. take everything with a grain of salt. America was in a crazy state of revolution when your mom and dad were together, that's the big picture. (read. My sister, my self, Vicki stark)
Such a blessing to have a friend with whom to share wonderful victories! Praise God. 👏🙌💖
Sweet precious Chynna. I know the visual and mental impact of parents sin. I saw my father get crazy with alcohol, heard he beat on my brothers, sisters before I was born. My mother so trashed walking down the hallway bouncing stumbling and mumbling, she even ran with me 7 yrs and my sister 8 from my fathers rage and ran down a huge dirt embankment, fell face first. They divorced much later. My sweet mother later gave her life to Yeshua, being engulfed with the HOLY Spirit. I hope my father did. I saw him die on the hospital bed. I prayed for GOD to not allow him to suffer. Diabetes took his legs..SAD
It still hurts Chynna but my Yeshua, my LORD, my ELOHIM is my everything. WE ARE A PECULIAR PEOPLE. AMEN
Prayers for you and comfort
I'm so sorry that you and your friend have been through so much in your lives. You're both fighters and the fact that you haven't given up, despite the hell that you've been through, is inspirational. I'm sure you've helped a lot of people by telling your stories. Our two adopted children have had drug and alcohol problems for years (they're both from a different culture). We live in a small community and some of the kids at school bullied them. I found out about it and put a stop to it. When they were in High School that's when everything went downhill. My son has been in and out of jail/prison since he was 13 and is going to prison again in the near future. My daughter is doing better. Many a time I've worried that they'd end up dead of an overdose or killed by a drug deal gone wrong. I still worry about that with my son. My husband and I have never had drug or alcohol problems. So I can't figure out what went wrong. I've blamed myself and wondered what we both could have done differently to help them. I love them dearly. ❤️ I pray for them every night and day and hope that they will choose to completely turn their lives around.
Not your fault. Pray!!
Continuing to pray for everyone here. Praising Jesus always!
That is why it's so important that we plant the correct seeds in children. Great talk. You both helped a lot of people. Blessings
That's one area where I was lucky. My dad has always been there and when my husband died suddenly, it's amazing how much my father shows up for me and my kids. He stepped up and took on many of the roles my husband did, like house and car stuff, when the kids need help, etc.
I'm sobbing! I love your friendship sooo much!! I hope you 2 never stray away from one another. Peace of Christ, LadiesXx
Chynna, I love friends like your Robyn, where you know each others history without judgment♥️ Cheers to Lifelong Friends!!Joy!
Wow. You always have such a testimony of what God can do & how he has kept you🙌🏼🙌🏼🙌🏼
Great video Chynna ❤ I can relate in so many ways....My Grandfather was My EVERYTHING He introduced me to GOD And JESUS 🙏🙏🙏❤ I also didn't have an early relationship with My father he was too Busy I could relate to the waiting and waiting for him to come pick me up It got so Bad He sent me a telegram for my 6th Birthday 😲😣 O Well My Mother remarried a WONDERFUL Man that treated me like his own❤❤❤ blended families have ALOT of issues but My Mother and Step Father Worked so Hard to make Us ALL a Family Much Love to You Chynna 😘❤❤❤ JESUS IS SO WONDERFUL Love You ❤❤❤
My eyes do the random rapid movement, it's a small partial localized seizure stress and bright lights are my triggers. Mine is also related to MS. ❤ so interesting to know you have experienced something I have
Wow! This is a lot to digest! This is a super deep conversation. I hope you don't have an emotional break tonight...I actually had to stop about 1/2 way through as it brought up some deep emotions for me! God bless you! Thanking Him for His perfection.