Permission To Torque - Exploring Mostar - P2T EP13
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- Опубліковано 24 кві 2023
- The13th installment of my 5000 mile solo road trip to the Balkans on board the mighty BMW R1250 GS Adventure.
In this episode, I wake up in a bad way mentally - its not nice to watch but that's the reality of living with anxiety. However, my trusty steed pulled me from my funk and out down a beautiful road to a waterfall for some quiet reflection.
Permission to Torque is a Mental Health movement set up to show others that you "get it" by displaying a discrete symbol for others to take comfort in. Its not about sitting around in a circle feeling sorry for yourself, its about shared experience and getting out there to find out what makes us happy - this is the aim of my trip and why I am sharing it on UA-cam, the good days and the inevitable bad ones too.
I hope you enjoy the journey with me and find it at least vaguely useful! :)
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Helloooo! My sincere apologies for the sabbatical on this series, its back now and im going to get to the end! Please when watching this, before commenting, this was at a particularly bad time (now 8 months ago) when my anxiety was peaking. I have left this part in here because this trip is about the reality of mental illness and the often irrational thoughts and feelings that go with it. So, before commenting about how hard and cool you are, take a moment and recall a time when you were not thinking rationally, how things were overwhelming, and then consider your response. Much Thankings ✊💦
Thank goodness!… I thought you’d forgotten about us! 😘
That first couple of minutes brought a tear to my eye. Stay strong bro
Great to have you back. Greeting from New York City. 🙏
First and foremost I'm glad you're still alive and kicking. Was getting a bit concerned to be honest (I think it was your previous video that I commented on)
Anxiety, depression and self doubt are horrible things. I've seennitbfrom all angles as I suffer myself, have family who suffer and have also worked as a counselor with people who suffer.
You'll get people telling you to "man up" "sort your s#!t out" etc bit the only thing that you can really do is take time out as only you know how you really feel.
I know you feel alone and having us lot isn't really the same as having company with you but, if you need to reach out to any of us I'm sure we'll all be here for you
Stay safe..🤪
When I went to school some guys I thought who were my friends started bullying me for no apparent reason other than their personal entertainment. It didn't end well and I became quite a hermit. After that, every time I heard someone laugh, I thought that person was laughing about me. Took me a few years and a couple of genuine friends to finally get over that.
Chris I don't think you realise the positive impact of sharing this with us all. It makes confronting your own issues so much easier. Thank you. ❤
based on the escape-instinct
Its making me depressed as hell
I agree, this makes me cope with my stuff easier. Thanks a lot Chris
@@juicy9592 dont watch it then, and maybe dont put comments like that either!
Make no mistake - this is inspiring! Anyone, (especially a guy) who can be this honest on such a big stage deserves a 👏...An actual honest video on UA-cam 👏.. Hope you're feeling better now and thank you for sharing.
your honesty and transparency are a wonderfully refreshing reminder of real life that youtube content creators often hide. it really helps remind me that the rest of us arent that much different than our role models. thank you
First 4 mins are complete relatable. Thank you for sharing that, it's a reminder that other people are suffering in the same way and that we all have to keep pushing on to get to the other side of the storm cloud
Hi Chris. The evolution of BvG, from hiding behind a helmet for years to now totally exposing yourself (not your willy though) is commendable. I'm one of the many that have been silently with you the whole time. May your BvG content continue for the foreseeable future, in whatever format you want to show it.
Baring your soul was so brave….being prepared to face all you’re fears in such a way has to be applauded.
Watching this from a hospital bed with a broken leg feeling a bit low myself, stay strong brother
Well bloody done! You should be very proud of yourself. This has been a fantastic series! x
It is inspirational, you are opening up and showing how difficult life can be and also how, what you do to cope and do your best to get back to positive. Love ya mate
Chris. You have nothing to be ashamed of. I’m right alongside you when it comes to using motorcycles as therapy. They give those of us who are lucky enough to have one of these amazing contraptions in our life the ability to take time. Time to be selfish and process the world around us, it’s events and it’s impact on ourselves. I fully champion your reasons for the whole Permission to Torque series and ethos, I’ve been in a very similar place. As I’m sure more than a few of us have been. The fact that you are willing to put this all out there is a massive leap into the unknown and takes some huge minerals. And your son will always be there for you because you clearly care deeply about him. Relationships come and go, sadly it’s part of life. But you’re being painfully honest with yourself about things and that is nothing short of heroic. We’re all here to talk, some of us nodding our heads in recognition of what you are going through. Don’t ever suffer alone, I’m sure there are plenty of people who would gladly sit and listen and I’m happy to add my name to the list. Take care.
The majority of us don’t share our darkest/lowest moments with close friends and family, so kudos to you Chris for including it. I hope most of the feedback you get will be supportive and positive, getting through those difficult moments gives you more tools in your box to deal with future challenge so it’s all good. Just remember to breathe and enjoy the moment. Even your lowest point while travelling is 100 times better than being chained to a desk, watching your life tick away on the clock praying for 5 o’clock to arrive, like so many poor souls out there.
Can’t tell you how excited I was seeing this pop up in my feed!! So appreciate your honesty along the journey. Such an antidote from all the curated UA-cam content. Looking forward to the rest of the story.
Can't have been easy to edit something so personal and put it out into the world. One thought. Inspirational doesn't mean have to mean something is happy and lovely and shiny. It's inspiring to see someone who is so self-aware (imperfectly I'm sure) and then able to communicate so directly and clearly (even if you don't think so). Your sense of humour helps :-)
Thank you for posting this Chris, I've loved this series and you are an inspiration. It's very brave of you to share your lows but remember you're never on your own.
I know this video is quite old now but after following this channel for about ten years I can’t not comment on this one… Chris, my dude, thank you so much for documenting every part of this trip, with all its ups and downs. You’re an absolute legend and we, your audience, will always be here to listen to whatever you have to say. As long as you don’t bleep out too much of the swearing, yeah? Anyway, gonna watch the rest now. Thanks for everything, you nob! 🫡
Thats it fella, one day at a time. Been there. Time heals, mostly.
Chris, You are stronger than You realise. Never stop being YOU!!
loving this series Chris. Good to see warts and all and it is inspirational. you are only human and it does show what it is like being on your own many 1000's of miles from home. The scenery is Wow factor number one. no apology needed. great enjoyment
This is inspirational. It's an accurate, honest, and true insight into life with these challenges. The fact you are out there doing stuff and sharing it with us - in spite of the challenges - is inspirational because it's relatable and real. Thank you for taking the time and for having the testicular fortitude to share the journey with us =)
How weird! 10 years ago i started watching, laughed myself silly at the green laneing and then for some reason I stopped watching when it was just the commuting! 😪 I got myself GSXR, then a Ducati Diaval, then another GSXR and now i ride a Moto Guzzi V9 🤷♂ (I'm getting old!!) And then out of the blue I watch these.... I was in Mostar in the War and watched that bridge get smashed to bits... Watching through tears its great to see the rebuild and the banks of the river and the fact that Bosnia seems to be thriving - thank you 👍
You described the anxiety exactly the way I feel when I’m anxious
It doesn't matter how we feel, viewers will always find something interesting in your moto diary. It's your session and the journey of a lifetime. One tip, always eat traditional food or just taste it wherever you are, the food is also one way of experience, especially on such trips. Cheers
I'm just catching up on my favourite channels...
Life is tough, mate, but you're with us, and we are very grateful for your work and inspiration. Work means I cannot get in the 'long distance ' saddle right now, but I'm keeping these places on my list for the future. Thank you 🍻
All the episodes have been quality Baron. Everything i could praise you for has already been said in the comments 👍🏻 this video particularly could have such a positive effect on many viewers! 👌🏻 keep it all up pal, onwards and upwards with each video! All the best 😁
I’ve written this several times and deleted it thinking it won’t change anything, I would like to say I understand how you feel but in reality I don’t, I have times when I’m feeling low and times when I’m happy, the majority of the time I feel anxious with zero confidence to do things and that gets me down, I’m not someone who can easily talk to people so I’m thinking that doing what your doing might help as I won’t have to talk to an actual person but I will still be able to get stuff out of my head instead of just letting it fester in my brain, I do tend to hide behind my helmet and when no one can see me I feel better I don’t really know why I’m even writing this but watching you has helped, your are an awesome guy with more inner strength than I can imagine having but you inspire me to be better, for that I thank you
Hi mate, this is imo your best content so far. Travelling alone is always a journey of self-discovery. Congrats on your honesty, thank you
What you've done for raising mental health issues to the fore, particularly amongst the traditionally macho community should be utterly applauded mate. Keep the faith and keep biking
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59 secs in i have to pause and say we love you, Chris.
Glad this is continuing, became a regular watch! Was gutted when it stopped
I've missed you and your vids! Great to have you back and thank you for sharing everything 👍
Thanks for sharing Chris, glad you are back on with the series. Truly inspirational.
This is an inspirational series mate your letting us know we’re not alone and that it’s alright
Another Bobby Dazzler, mate. I always enjoy using the bidet facilities for mid-trip clothes washes…x
You're a brave man Chris. Thanks for sharing this.
Can't wait to watch this. And so good to have real content and someone on UA-cam be honest. Inspiring BVG
Nice to see you back Chris. I'd been wondering if there were more videos to come in this series. Appreciate your honesty and openness. Wishing you well.
Very brave showing the dark and deeply personal parts of your trip Chris.
You summed up perfectly the struggle of not feeling ok and not knowing why. Especially when jumping on the bike doesnt work to clear the very cluttered foggy mind.
My old 09 blade has dragged me out from some deep dark places over the years.
Luckily I now have caring & loving girlfriend so the darkness is much less frequent.
In the words of the late great Bob Hoskins
"Its good to Torque"
Thanks for sharing this. It is very important that you find your way mate. this also helps me. so thank you Chris
Yes! I'm so glad this is continuing, thank you Chris!
Glad you got through it Chris, and well done for posting it! Hope your head is in a better space now
Been watching you for years Chris. Your videos inspire me to go on more trips. Please keep it up!
Thanks for having the courage to show us the meltdown. It's encouraging and timely for others currently in a tailspin and letting things at work and life compound that anxiety.
The worlds a better place with you in it Chris and your tube outputs bring so much to so many. I battled anxiety post out of the blue heart attack a while back and am acutely aware of what you’ve had to deal with. Keep fighting mate and absorb all that is still good in the world it will pass or has passed I hope.
The whole trip has been inspirational for many reasons! 👍🏼
Love you Chris. Thanks for the years of entertainment.
I've always loved your editing style Chris. Glad to see you made it through the day. Sometimes just getting through a single day can feel like fighting an entire war. One day at a time mate, we're all proud of you.
The strength of character required to not only do a trip like this while being in that headspace, and then to share it with the world is astonishing. Inspirational isn't a strong enough word. Remember this forever Chris, you have not only shown yourself to be worthy and proved you have the inner strength to move forward, but given that power it to hoards of other lunatics as well. You're a brave man and I salute you. Fair fucking play.
“Wherever you go, there you are”
Chris, you rock. It's not easy sharing the highs and lows in all honesty. Very hapy to see continuation of the series! You're an inspiration.
Damn yeah!!!! Happy to see you again my friend!!!
Truly inspirational Chris. We all go through sh*t in life, you are only human. Ride on and keep learning about yourself!!
Finally a continuation, love this!
The thoughts you're pointing out here deeply deeply resonate with me. Much love for you brother.
Thanks for putting this out there. You're the best.
I think I'm similar to you in that I love solitude and being alone but I do also need a social element at times. Humans are social creatures afterall. I think a lot of solo travellers get around this by meeting people along the way. Which is nice, but it's hard if you struggle with anxiety. I think I have some level of anxiety, not on the level you experience so I only know how I think you feel. But I really respect that you actively make the choice to put this stuff out there and be honest with it. It takes a lot of courage to do that.
i have been desperately waiting for this series to continue
I think it's inspirational. That you are showing this side. Very Brave of you. I know I could do! I'm sure it helps hundreds of people. 👏
Big up for putting this out. It’ll help a lot of people.
Really brave this one mate, more of this sort of stuff helps those who suffer realise they're not alone, which is some comfort within itself
Hi Chris
What an inspirational series this is !
It’s nice to see someone who thinks the same way as I do makes me realise I’m not alone keep that head held high ! Much love 💚
Glad to have you back, I’ve missed this series
Thank you so much for leaving this part in
Seeing someone else going through a hard time really makes it easier for me to go through hard times, and it makes me feel less alone in a sense
I know it couldn’t have been easy to watch and edit this but I truly appreciate that you did
Hi Chris, thank you for this honest and raw video. Mental health is so important to our wellbeing and please continue talking about your journey is you wish to in the future. Loving the videos
You are such a legend, Chris! Thankyou for sharing your most vulnerable parts of this journey, it’s real and that’s so much better then pretending everything is peachy all the time! Good on you. I’ve been a long time viewer from Australia! I know this was posted a while ago but hope things have gotten better for you day to day!
Chris you absolute babe! Thank you so much for sharing this. You're a real hero. X
Good for you getting it out there mate. Chuffed that things are better now. It’s a f ing rollercoaster. Take care, Chris
Chris ur a true inspiration buddy I love all this showing the real you is what it's all about.chin up big man.
Inspirational, we all go through crap, just wish I had the confidence to plan and actually go on a trip like you've embarked on! Like yourself my anxiety has held me back for way too long! Thanks for sharing the highs and lows, I'm sure everyone can relate to it.
It’s hard to stop the wave of sadness almost impossible I’ve been there and still have that horrible feeling once in awhile I’m sorry you’re going through this but you are helping a lot of people including myself
Perfect timing for me, starting a holiday trip on saturday on my own. I know it is difficult to be with just yourself and enjoy it.
As others have said, appreciate you leaving the very honest beginning in. You being open will hopefully inspire others to be open about their feelings too. Good on you and looking forwards to the remaining episodes of this particular journey.
Big love Chris. Very brave sharing all of that. All the best.
You say you want to be inspirational and you are! Thank you for being so honest and for sharing
Thanks for sharing Chris. For the average person watching it would be difficult to understand what you were feeling, but those that have suffered anxiety and panic it's very relatable. Great series, open, honest, and with the usual boys humour. Great inspiration, it looks amazing there 👍🏻
Jaysus.....wondered where you'd gone.
Keep going, inspiring videos to say the least. Loving the journey, glad you're overcoming the challenges. All the best
Thank you for being real and vulnerable. Many of us suffer from anxiety and I appreciate the honesty and openness. We can't keep ignoring issues of mental health!
You’re an inspiration to me! Love your channel!
Its been too long brother hope your well buddy, we all suffer with depression mate and my GTR1400 is my best therapy, I'll be riding Scotland over 3 weeks July into August, never been and just gonna freeball it, you and your channel has inspired me to just go for it, so thank you for all your humour and sad times they are all part of life! Keep your chin up mate, the adventure of life continues 🏍☁☁☁ PS. I've now joined and become your newest member. Thanks bro.
I hope you are feeling better Chris, and wishing you all the very best in terms of your mental health.
Men’s mental health issues are mostly swept under the rug and it’s sad to see how many of us blokes are dealing with internal wars and struggles.
Sending some positive vibes your way mate. Kudos for being a voice on the issue.
Thank you for making this video, you aren't alone....
No apology needed, we all go through stuff like this, brave of you to be so open with your thoughts 😎
Nice to see you back man ,keep on going!
Honest and open, you are an inspiration.
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It's hard enough to open up and be vulnerable to yourself let alone in a public way like this. Much respect and I'm glad the rest of your journey is upcoming.
Cheers
Thank you for posting this
what a wicked place. great to see this series back
Been like this so many times Chris and know what you were feeling fella.
Massive respect for showing the "warts and all" feelings and putting yourself out there.
Huge manly bear hug incoming next i see you in person mate.
Love ya dude.
Pete
Chris, sorry to see you having a hard time. Glad you’re doing better these days.
Wanted you to know, you’re an inspiration to me.
As a fellow anxiety sufferer, I’m picking up a new 1250GS tomorrow and taking it to Eastern Europe in the Summer.
good to see another episode and that now you are feeling a bit better
Thank you Chris, a great series capturing then reality of what life is in reality for a lot of people. Your emotional sincerity and vulnerabilities shine through in you experiences during this trip. Well done and thank you.
We all appreciate the effort you're putting into these videos, I've been watching since you were riding into London chuntering to yourself about random shite 🤣 cheers
It is inspirational man you got some big cahoona's doing this i felt like you do a few years ago...... when your at the bottom the only way is up ;) still struggle now sometimes but gotta keep going..... takes alot of courage to be honest about your feelings when your a bloke ! Kepp up the great work loving the channel
Thanks Baron, I needed that this morning. :)
Chris,
Well done for being honest. Putting yourself out there like this is an immensely brave thing to do. Your Von Grumble and 44 Teeth videos are amazing and always cheer me up.
I can’t imagine what you’re going through and how the anxiety feels, but you’re having a positive impact on lots of people’s lives and you should be so proud.
Well done you for staying out there. It’s a massive pull to just retreat when things go like that and to pull yourself into logical thinking is extremely impressive! Good man!
Thanks Chris. Relationship stuff is difficult. I’m going through it at the moment and as hard as it is you have to keep moving forward, learn and heal. Going on a bike trip was never going to make the issue disappear but riding sure helps keep you focused on other things and stop the negative thoughts. It’s F!?%ING hard. Thanks again👍
Hard to watch but thank you so much for sharing, hope you are in a better place man, keep going, you give us all hope!
Thanks as always for the video! I enjoyed it immensely, this series has actually really helped me get on with doing somethings I'd been dreading and stopping a lot of the self-sabotage I often end up doing.
Also really want to check out Bosnia and Mostar now! Looks lovely!
Thanks for sharing 🙏