Am I on my way to being a famous writer yet?

For years, I’ve been trying to “make it” as a writer. I made all these overtures towards writing publicly, only to conclude that I (like, let’s face it, pretty much everyone else with creative ambitions) needed to get on social media. I started making videos.
Then, something unexpected happened. I started, for the first time in years, enjoying process for the sake of process, not for the praise it got me. I started having fun and caring less about where everything was headed.
Is this the path to freedom from an obsession with external validation? Who knows. Will I keep having fun, even if I make hundreds of videos and no one watches? Likewise, who knows.
What I can say is that it’s been an existential roller coaster. To anyone reading, thanks for coming along for the ride.
My "writing": sarahgabriella.substack.com/
00:00 the state of creativity today
01:06 I am just a nobody from nowhere
01:47 failed lifestyle blogger
02:52 suppressed creative ambitions
04:41 the personal essay era
05:48 the do-or-die mentality (or not exactly "die" but whatever)
06:44 resurrecting the theatre kid
07:47 searching my soul
10:32 freedom (also fun)

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Cant wait till you drop the personal essays link :p

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Haha they're coming, I promise!