I am so grateful for all your support on this video and all the wonderful comments! ✨It warms my heart to see so many people find comfort in my music 💙 🎧 If you wish to support my work, you can do so by simply checking out some of my other playlists and leaving a comment or like as it really helps out the channel - it would truly mean a lot to me! 😊 I will post a new video weekly🎵Thank you so much for being here!
Somehow, it's comforting to know that a bunch of strangers are vibing to the same playlist at weird hours of the night. It’s like a quiet, unspoken pact to just... exist together for a bit. Anyway, if you're reading this, I hope you find the peace you're looking for in this corner of the internet.
It's 11pm, I'm awake by myself and I can't stop crying. Everything is falling apart and I can't seem to hold anything together. I'm losing sight of what I'm meant to do and be and it scares the living fuck out of me. To whomever reads this. I pray with all of my soul only good thing into your life. We will find our peace soon.
Embrace the breakdown and find the things thats in your control to move forward and change your outcome even if it means going in deep. But never succumb to it and never give up. Stay strong, you are not alone 🤝.
“I must study politics and war… so that my sons can study mathematics and philosophy, navigation, commerce and agriculture so that their children can study painting, poetry and music.” -John Adams
I lost my job a month ago, and now I’m here staying up endless hours into early morning like this at 4AM. I feel hopeless in life. I feel like such a failure. I did this to me. I sabotaged myself into losing my job due to fear, due to anxiety because of the pressure at work thrown at me. Fear not though, right? Because I lost it, but now I’m wondering when I’ll ever get one. One that I will love. I don’t know. There is so much going on in my head I don’t know what’s right or wrong in the direction of my life. I’m young, 25, and still have the years ahead of me. Though it seems the years ahead of me have quite shortened. It seems as if I have the will in me but I’m gradually losing the light behind my eyes..
you can do it, just do it and relax your soul and your thoughts. That´s part of the process that the life´s having for you. Trust in you and the life´ll give you everything you need to
Something better will roll around for you. The universe and your guides are always looking out for you. When one door closes. Another opens. Take this time to work on yourself and trust that what's meant for you is already yours.
I've been there. Best thing to do is stay in rhythm. Go to bed normal time and wake up with energy. Just so you can find a fitting job where they will acknowledge you for the person you are. It aint easy but you'll get there. As of this moment i have the same struggle
a person once told me, "friends, family & lovers are kinda like flowers, once you find someone you care about, your relationship with them grows and grows, just like a flower, but sometimes that flower doesn't stay the same forever, neither does a person, so eventually that flower will wilt, and wilt until it is no more then a pile a petals. And the same goes with relationship's, as time goes on they become different, and your relationship with them wilts, and wilts, until it's like it never existed.Its a sad world we live in really. But hopefully, it'll be ok" that's been running through my mind this hole playlist.
I have anxiety issues, and that has lead to experiences that felt like depression. My background taught me that I don’t deserve to be loved, and trying to leave that background hurts me terribly, even if I know that’s good for me. I’ve not fully accepted that I’m different to my current group of friends, but that being queer doesn’t mean I don’t deserve love. Right now I want to cry myself to sleep, hoping against how that I’ll find someone to love, and someone who loves me unconditionally .
No matter our preferences I truly believe we all deserve love. You are a human being that deserves to find love and to be loved for who you are, not what you are or aren't. ❤
I'm lying in bed with my 14 year old female cat cuddled up beside me, it's 930pm here and I feel so peaceful and grateful. Memories of my past are flashing to me of times and instances that helped me become the man that I am, but at the time they felt like deep adversity and there was no way out. Sat here smiling thanking the Lord for everything he has done for me to make me the man I am. God bless you all and I hope you realize everything is for us, never against us. God bless.
4 am on the dot as I start typing this. I had a great night out, went for a long drive, just to come home , flop on the bed and feel an absolutely ice cold blade hit my gut cause my mind at night when im alone is a level of loneliness, shame, regret, and absolute sorrow to a level that is physically impossible to minorly describe. So I thank you for this. As this will allow me to wake up and realize I'm gonna be okay. But to feel something so soul snatching and dark and to tell yourself "God I love this" is.... just what I call brain heroin. You wanna stop but you can't wait for the next fix even if it only.lasts a few hours. You need it no matter what. It wrecks you but eventually it just heals you. You become whole again.
TW: some su1c1de ideation in this vent. I'm having these roller-coaster rides of manics that go from peaks to deep valleys. Some days I want to call out of work, cry all day and do something stupid. I've said time and time again that I don't want perish. I'm just tired. So tired that I want to sleep and never wake up. Dissapear in and not be anyones problem. I'm on a waitlist to see a professional but I can't get medication until I am diagnosed, so I am stuck in this vicious cycle until I can see someone, or until these thoughts really do take over. I've went from hoarding tendencies to throwing out more and more thinks weekly and it worries me that my cleaning manics are.. "preparing". I'm not sure what else to do other than work myself to exhaustion and sleep as long as I possibly can to avoid these thoughts. I'm glad that, while I can't sleep, I have this comforting playlist to help me just breathe. I hope anyone who took the time to read and could relate a little.. just know it gets better. We will get through this you and I. Maybe one day, we'll meet each other and not even know it.
12:30am and once again overthinking everything and realizing I need to change so much. I feel everyone around me isn’t experiencing this. I feel so alone, when I try to talk about things like this to others it seems I’m just annoying and being a downer. As I’ve cut a lot of addictions out of my life recently it’s left me in deep thoughts and thinking about things I can’t change. I’ve messed up a lot, and I don’t relate to others around. I hope this connects with other people and shows you aren’t alone in this battle. We can get through this. It’s a challenge. if it wasn’t, everyone would be happy and have everything. Stay strong
It's 2pm on a Wednesday and I'm tired of everyone's problems. I'm exhausted trying to hold up shields for everyone and fighting off negativity with my bare hands. I long for a flood to wash away all this mess for yet another hoard to grow to be complained about tomorrow. I hope for the dawn to break so the the sun can shine on maybe a different part of my future
Im in a very closed off village on an island in greece. Everyone knows each other. I never had a big family. But here everyone lives together. They leave keys on the door and any family member or other villager can come in.
Even tho I'm not feeling alright and this gives me an escape, I want to feel grateful for having a new chance to get better and feeling better. Starting with God and destiny that guided me to this amazing video and channel. Tysm for reading and for being so strong, we'll get over this!
October 6th.. Someone entered my life unexpectedly, as if they were written for me, as if they were my other half i never knew i needed.. 5 days ago things ended for good.. contemplating life is an understatement.. especially after losing someone very close.. to whom ever reading this, don't be too scared to love, it is often a memorable story that will live in your memories for a very long time.. if you are lucky.. for life.
As I write this it is my 20th birthday 1:50am, it was a bland day, no cake, no friends over laughing and playing on the old swing set out back, there was no hugs from my grandma or a kiss on the forehead from my aunt's, or a charlie horse from my annoying cousins. What ever it maybe and no matter how hard we try we can never stay young forever, growing up is hard, to see all those childhood friends leave for their future endeavors, or moving away from that childhood house, it always hits hard knowing they will just be memories and nothing more. If anyone out there is reading this I hope life treats you well, make friends, lose friends, party, rest, live life, thats what we are all doing at the end of the day, lets just get through it together.
10.30pm in Argentina. Not too cold but not too hot either. August 29th. I don't know where my life is going, but I learned to not be afraid of that feeling. If you need a hug, receive one from me right now. Life is really not that serious, I believe. Think of it as a movie... it's a bit absurd, isn't it? Life's what you make of it (what you can with what you have). God bless you.
Guess I'll add my thoughts here as well. I know there's a God I just, don't know which one. So whenever life gets to be too much I just sit and talk, and invite the universe or 'God' to listen. I voice my thoughts, wishes, I ask for guidance, help. Sometimes I feel like I'm just talking to myself, others I feel like, I'm being guided purposefully by this force. Whatever the case may be, I know the times we're living in will build lots of character, that goes for anyone, not just me. Anyone thats going through something, I urge you, just cry out. Talk. Have that 'mental breakdown' because it's okay. It's moments like those where we can really analyze everything and find a ways to success. I wish everyone the best. ❤
Thank you for this video, I really needed this, it’s soothing. Really struggling with my mental health at the moment, I feel like people close to me don’t understand me or what I’m going through. I’ve also tried therapy but don’t seem to be getting anywhere. Feeling very lost and frustrated. Hope everyone else in the comments is okay. Take care, J.
I'm losing my best friend due to stupid argument but I don't want to be the one (as always) to save this friendship up and apologize since I did nothing wrong. I don't want to lose myself and it sucks..
I'm afraid of failure, I can't seem to make progress in anything meaningful in my life because of fear and humiliation, I wish to be free of this fear...to be brave and try to accomplish something in my life...I don't want to be a coward but I know that deep inside I am.
Thank you for posting, and above all for creating. You are one of not so many people who happen to have the gift of creation, and use it rightfully. Keep the good work! 🙏🏻
Only 10:09 on a Friday night and I'm already overthinking everything. Anxiety starts to kick in and the dark cloud of depression hangs over. At least I have these sounds, my fellow insomniacs and the night. The only time that I feel somewhat at peace. Thank you for a safe space! Blessings to you all! ❤
These comments ❤️🩹 May we find solace in the depths of our unspoken sorrows, and release the burden of overthinking and fixating on those who have caused us pain. I wish you all healing.
@@monbreau7306 Time is paradoxical. It often feels slow, yet when we look back it has flown by. The ancient Greek concept of time was multifaceted, reflected in the figures of Khronos, Kairos and Aion. Kairos represents the fleeting nature of opportune moments. Aion represents the cyclical and eternal, like the Ouroboros.
@@silwatmahmud4672 Time (the silent river) is not just a steady ticking of the clock. The flow of time, known as time's arrow, prevents second-order logical paradoxes but is a contradictory paradox in itself. Every moment is Janus faced, looking towards the past and future. Time is profoundly subjective, bending with the weight of emotion in our personal journey. Kairos symbolises the opportune moment, the right time to act. Aion and the Ouroboros symbolise an infinite cycle. The snake is reborn from its mouth when it sheds its skin, which is also symbolised in Hehet. Heh and Hehet tie this cycle of time to death and rebirth.
Currently tipsy from drinking Soju. Contemplating about my life. Honestly....I do not know what I am doing with my life. I'm just....here....clueless...floating....
Almost every other person in my life has a significant other and is in a decent relationship that they've been in for years now, I've never had a first date, a first kiss, I've barely had friends in life, I was the outcast of the outcasts, I occasionally enjoy my life, but most days im going through the motions at best with occasional blips where im genuinely happy and at worst am wasting my time trying the minimize my perception of my own waste of a life.
Come back when ur first significant other shows you u, you never meant anything to them , then come back when your second ex does u worse then your first one because u told her everything and she uses it as a playbook because it was just a game to her too
11:37PM and I’m simply doing my best. Don’t force yourself to be perfect, none of us can do that. Remember that you, like everyone else, are human. Stay strong, and do your best. Even if it’s not that much today, tomorrow is another day ❤
I am trying to get an internship because I need it. I went to interview and now they wanted me to do PowerPoint. I am so so scared the fact that I might get that job. I want a job but at the same time I don’t want it. I am scared the shit out of me. That feeling is terrible. I want to hide somewhere and do nothing about life. I don’t want to do anything to be productive. I can’t explain people about that I am truly scared and anxious about that getting internship. I am so so so anxious about that.
I want to go somewhere and face something instead of facing my own life. I hate to say this but I don’t want to live like this anymore but I still don’t want to get changes. Am I really ducked up? I don’t want my life like this? I hate these things. I don’t know how to handle this.
I feel you, I am also worried about bit changes in my life, I want certain things and I have the tools at my hands to make my dreams come true it just feels overwhelming. Where do I even begin? I have the intentions but it feels like everyone knows what to do with their life and they have a routine figured out meanwhile Im stuck here trying to figure out what my calling is. The fact that you put in work into getting that internship must mean something. You have the intention of getting a job and youre halfway there. I wish you lots of luck
@@totallytubularrr0112 Your reply means a lot to me, actually. You will find your step because I believe it. I have never seen you before, so maybe this is the sign to get out of your map and take a step to whatever it goes. I believe that you will go to the right way. Trust me, nobody knows what they want and what they feel. The only person I admired the most said that she is not satisfied with her life because she has made tons of mistakes. I love to chat with you today. I wish for you to get where you are happy and healthy with whom you belong. You are born to be what you want to be. I WISH THE BEST FOR YOU, MY FRIEND! YOU GOT IT!!!!
This is gold; you are exquisite at creating the ambient so perfect it creates its own space and time.. This is the perfect consolation. Thank you so much for making this beautiful art..
It's midnight here and I'm not sure what i want to say... I know we are all facing some hardship but I want you all to know that you are not alone. You are truly loved and you are stronger than you know. I wish I could meet you all in person to share a coffee and a laugh. I wish I could make it all go away, I wish I could take the pain away but I can't. All i can do is say that I have also been in that dark place but know that there is always hope. Keep you head, keep moving forward, and know you are amazing. You don't need to trust other but always trust in yourself. If you find yourself reading this I want you to know that you are absolutely amazing in every way. I love you all ❤
Thank you for this playlist. Really needed some comfort given I have sensed weird and know some shady things spouse of a friend did so am processing the worst in advance. What is a kind friend when compared to being in a bed with a ruthless lover?
Thank you definitely needed a cry. I couldn't no matter what for the past couple days. Idk what it is. Things aren't the same nothing feels right anymore. Idk what im doing. Something feels off like something bad is gonna happen. I just feel it.
Listening to this at 10pm I am going to be turning 21 soon and as I look back on my life, I really wasted my youth. I waste my days away in my room still living with parents that argue with each other often. I look back and think would my life have changed if I was more extroverted, if I didn’t worry about getting good grades, took more risks. Or would I still be stuck in the same place. I sleep everyday regretting my past as I wish I could have had a better life. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I am alone with only my thoughts. I currently have no dreams or goals. I feel like my life is coming to a close… Anyways, these are some of thoughts that are always in the back of my mind.
She probably won’t ever see this….. Dear Bobbie… ✨Your touch warms me like the sheets of my bed, your eyes are like bright blue skies on a clear summers day, the thought of you alone make me feel like i am safe and in control, i feel like i am home when i’m in your presence, your laughs and giggles are infectious, your energy and mood is contagious. your velvet soft kisses make me feel like my chest is full of fire and makes my heart pound faster and louder than ever, you give me such good memories and moments to hold onto, its an understatement to say that i’m blessed to have you in my life because you truly are a one of a kind girl, and i hope you know that i will always be there for you no matter what we may or may not become, and i would wait lifetimes just to see you happy day after day and to be able to be the one to bring you endless days and nights of love✨
I’m up late at night wanting to sleep. But stuck in the thoughts of trying to find a job, recently out of the hospital from my third stroke. And hoping to find love. Hoping it will all come together. I guess these things take time.
Good things, bad things, they all come and go, for the only thing we can control, are our desires. True confort, for the troubled mind, can't be in the material, nor people, it will be and only will be, in letting go of burden and pain, in the end, peace and love, will be achieved with time and self love, like a garden well guarded, God bless all of us
I’d like to associate my friends with colours. Red is my favourite, I see red in every stop sign and beautiful sunset. Orange seems to follow me, it’s on the walls of my room, the covers of my school books. Yellow is my colour, the colour of the sun we would draw in the corner of our drawings as kids Green I could live without, I see it in the grass I walk along, but I mostly pay attention to the sky Blue is a type of neutral for me, it’s not associated with anything other than the limitless sky that I just can’t reach. Purple is best on me, it’s a hollow comforting colour, the shades match with whatever I seem to be Pink I like to think is reds favourite, they’re shades of eachother I seem to see in his cheeks whenever I come near. (Yes Ik this is shitty but uhh I felt like writing)
August 28th, 2024 2:35 AM. [You’ve saved your progress of your current playthrough.] The world turns slowly, ever slowly. At times, it feels as if your body doesn’t move with it. Stuck behind. Stuck in the past. Push forward slowly, ever slowly. Once you get the hang of things, pick up the pace. Pick up the pace and don’t look back. Drift slowly, ever slowly. Take time to enjoy the little things. Because when the world turns cold and light is burnt out, the little things will seem larger than life. Slowly. Slowly. Slowly.
It's 3:48 AM I'm outside sitting on my Rockwall and while im listening to this I keep thinking that life will get better, I'm not gonna be depressed or suciedal anymore but as time goes on a part of me dies because I know the real truth on how the world works. 🌎💔❣️
I just broke things off with this girl i was talking to these past few months, and of course, she did not take it well and i dont know what to think at the moment.
If you can see this comment, please realize that no matter how hard the times were that you've been through so far, you may think you have failed.. but you haven't. You've survived all this time, and you are so strong.. endurance, perseverance.. you don't realize how much you are genuinely loved, appreciated, and you may think no one sees you, that no one acknowledges the good you have done in your life.. I see it. I see you. And I'm so proud of you for coming this far. Please understand that when you don't know what to do, faced with difficult situations and needing to make a decision, no matter what, listen to yourself - your heart will guide you through intuition. You know what is best for you so far on your journey. You are never alone, if you can understand, we are not the body, we're the Energy that animates the body.. And that Energy that you are is connected to the whole; we are all one in Spirit/Energy. Focus on what you have, not dwelling on what you lack. The Future can ONLY be changed in the Present moment.
I've done a lot of reflecting these past few months, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that someday I'll have to say goodbye to certain parts of my life. A part of me is scared to leave home, a part of me wants to marry, and a part of me regrets never trying to look for a partner in college. I want to reach out, but I'm scared of getting hurt or wasting my time. God, if you want me to find a husband, let that be clear to me.
As the bible said, God won't put a test in our way knowing that we won't be able to make it, let the spirit rest, for God, with the love of a caring father, will only want goodness in our lives, so leave the work to him, for he yearn for us to have peace, and as to us?. We can only do what we can, and that, is to be kind, with ourselves, and with others, amen
It's 11.55pm. I know it's hardly "late" but everyone else is asleep and I'm here thinking about my future... I have work 6am but I lay in bed trying to distract myself from the fearful "what-if"s and trauma from past memories.... One word triggered this whole cascade... It started with adrenaline rush through my body like a cold sweat, my heart was pounding in my head...and now I'm contemplating driving out in my car to the closest dam I could find and either park there and skip work tomorrow or maybe never even go back home... Or maybe I could drive the car in that dam and be gone for good. I think about the people I would leave behind. My pet rabbit.. and maybe even the things I have to clean after if I just end up skipping work and going back home after my midnight "rendezvous"... it's not worth it.... But then again... nothing seems to be worth it... No matter how much I work or rise up the ranks I can't even afford a house.. The owner of the place we are renting wants to sell this home... I don't know where to go.... but at the same time is it even worth finding a new place...? Wouldn't it be so much easier if I died and didn't have to worry where my body lives...
I don’t have any passions anymore. I don’t feel anything. I worked so hard to finish college, and now my love for my career is gone. I feel like it was taken away from me; I don’t find enjoyment in things that I used to enjoy, I feel like this all started when my grandpa died 2 years ago… God have mercy please
What is it about nights where its cloudy and like you can hear nothing. I remember growning up in Chicago some nights in winter the snow would muffle the city and it always felt like it was me alone in the city, or in the whole world
I hate liars He acts like he gave me so much😂oooh I can’t wait to just KNOW and FEEL the difference between something real and something made to look real.
My high school life is about to end only one more month left until my final exam right now I lost all of my friends I have no one to study for the exam with I'm trying to keep pushing but this hurt so much i don't know what happened to my friends why they don't talk to me it's like when I started improving myself I lost them they are so far away from me right now I'm in a team of freelancers I'm not making any money but I gained a lot of experience but it come with a price I lost all my Friends for the sake of self improvement it's like when you get better in life the lesser friends you have it like a cursed of self improvement it 1:12 AM All I'm trying to say to you is if you are lonely it's mean you have value why because people think that you're better than them and they decide not to be with you instead they're jealous of you
Yeah, i been losing it for years and to top it off i went in the store to buy a Monster the other day, minding my business. This lady walks up to me and randomly tells me i look like a cartoon. What i got from that basically solidified the thoughts i have or no thoughts. Derealization
Truly dedicating yourself to Christ is so much more difficult than I imagined. I wish I had the grit and the inner strength to do what I want to do and dedicate my life to Jesus.
don't beat yourself up too much about it. none of us have the strength for it, or if we do it's only for short periods of time, even if it might not look that way from the outside. we're saved because of who Christ is and what He has done, not who we are or what we do. so rest easy, ask God for help and guidance, and trust Him. remember He's not aloof and sees us as weak and pathetic -- He has faced every single temptation we have, He overcame and never gave in but He still faced it. He sympathizes with our struggles and cares for us.
I can't say the same for me, I gave up on any kind of deity long ago, but I do hope you find what or who you're looking for in your god. Doesn't matter where we come from, what we do, who we worship, we're all just people in the end, people trying to find the right path and be happy.
It is a war. Look at Ephesians chapter 6, it is spiritual war, we are depraved as humans every single human is sinful and every single human need God. Christ loves you and as St. Augustine said something along as "If God comes back and doesn't find me as a winner, he will find me as a fighter" so fight sin, give your life to Jesus and pray, pray pray and be in the Word of God so that you may grow in your faith spiritually. God hates sin but he loves when we fight it, and we don't have strength to fight it by our own, we all fall and we all deserve hell but as 2nd Corinthians 5:21 says "God made him who had no sin to be sin[b] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." All we need and all we have is Jesus. Worship him and give him glory as He deserves and pray for growth and wisdom. God bless you.
There is no need to worry about any of that. Focus on your actions, keep them kind and just. Spread good energy to those around and remember, by simply existing you are fulfilling your role
I am so grateful for all your support on this video and all the wonderful comments! ✨It warms my heart to see so many people find comfort in my music 💙
🎧 If you wish to support my work, you can do so by simply checking out some of my other playlists and leaving a comment or like as it really helps out the channel - it would truly mean a lot to me! 😊
I will post a new video weekly🎵Thank you so much for being here!
Somehow, it's comforting to know that a bunch of strangers are vibing to the same playlist at weird hours of the night. It’s like a quiet, unspoken pact to just... exist together for a bit. Anyway, if you're reading this, I hope you find the peace you're looking for in this corner of the internet.
Agreed. And well said. Right there with you while surrounded by an ocean of buildings, in the middle of Chicago. Cheers dude.
UA-cam comments are so wholesome compared to instagram or tiktok comments. I really appreciate that
It's not even 9pm does that count as a weird hour?
My heart glows from this.
It's 11pm, I'm awake by myself and I can't stop crying. Everything is falling apart and I can't seem to hold anything together. I'm losing sight of what I'm meant to do and be and it scares the living fuck out of me. To whomever reads this. I pray with all of my soul only good thing into your life. We will find our peace soon.
Things will get easier friend, not sure when but they will get easier. Remember that. Try your get some sleep.
u are not alone, i wish u paz and confort
God is the best disposer of affairs. Just do what you can. No man can be asked of anything more than that. And often, that's all that's needed.
Embrace the breakdown and find the things thats in your control to move forward and change your outcome even if it means going in deep. But never succumb to it and never give up. Stay strong, you are not alone 🤝.
Ur definitely..not the only one who's going through this..I relate u sm lets hope things get better asap ❤
My ancestors fought fierce wars so that in 2024 I could find comfort in a UA-cam video.
Your ancestors fought wars for rich people, you are finding peace in music!
Sometimes I wish I could have fought so they didn’t have too yuh know….
You can still help make the world a better place in the present :) @@rainz7432
“I must study politics and war… so that my sons can study mathematics and philosophy, navigation, commerce and agriculture so that their children can study painting, poetry and music.” -John Adams
Well yes!
I lost my job a month ago, and now I’m here staying up endless hours into early morning like this at 4AM. I feel hopeless in life. I feel like such a failure. I did this to me. I sabotaged myself into losing my job due to fear, due to anxiety because of the pressure at work thrown at me. Fear not though, right? Because I lost it, but now I’m wondering when I’ll ever get one. One that I will love. I don’t know. There is so much going on in my head I don’t know what’s right or wrong in the direction of my life. I’m young, 25, and still have the years ahead of me. Though it seems the years ahead of me have quite shortened. It seems as if I have the will in me but I’m gradually losing the light behind my eyes..
you can do it, just do it and relax your soul and your thoughts. That´s part of the process that the life´s having for you. Trust in you and the life´ll give you everything you need to
This is an opportunity
Keep steady and keep moving forward. Do not lose sight and live by grace and love brother🙏🏼
John 12:35-36
Something better will roll around for you. The universe and your guides are always looking out for you. When one door closes. Another opens. Take this time to work on yourself and trust that what's meant for you is already yours.
I've been there. Best thing to do is stay in rhythm. Go to bed normal time and wake up with energy. Just so you can find a fitting job where they will acknowledge you for the person you are. It aint easy but you'll get there. As of this moment i have the same struggle
a person once told me, "friends, family & lovers are kinda like flowers, once you find someone you care about, your relationship with them grows and grows, just like a flower, but sometimes that flower doesn't stay the same forever, neither does a person, so eventually that flower will wilt, and wilt until it is no more then a pile a petals. And the same goes with relationship's, as time goes on they become different, and your relationship with them wilts, and wilts, until it's like it never existed.Its a sad world we live in really. But hopefully, it'll be ok" that's been running through my mind this hole playlist.
I read Ecclesiastes to this at night, I really recommend it! May God bless you!
To everything there is a season....
How coincidental !! I just finished it this night .
I have anxiety issues, and that has lead to experiences that felt like depression. My background taught me that I don’t deserve to be loved, and trying to leave that background hurts me terribly, even if I know that’s good for me. I’ve not fully accepted that I’m different to my current group of friends, but that being queer doesn’t mean I don’t deserve love. Right now I want to cry myself to sleep, hoping against how that I’ll find someone to love, and someone who loves me unconditionally .
No matter our preferences I truly believe we all deserve love. You are a human being that deserves to find love and to be loved for who you are, not what you are or aren't. ❤
No one will love you unconditionally, maybe just your parents.
Nothing beats the peaceful silence at night when everyone is asleep 💙🌌
I'm lying in bed with my 14 year old female cat cuddled up beside me, it's 930pm here and I feel so peaceful and grateful. Memories of my past are flashing to me of times and instances that helped me become the man that I am, but at the time they felt like deep adversity and there was no way out. Sat here smiling thanking the Lord for everything he has done for me to make me the man I am. God bless you all and I hope you realize everything is for us, never against us. God bless.
Thoughts come easier when the world is finally quiet and the air feels a little easier to breathe.
that´s the exact sensation that I´m feeling
this is what i am feeling 🍷💌
this is precisely why I dislike the daytime and try to avoid people as much as possible
4 am on the dot as I start typing this. I had a great night out, went for a long drive, just to come home , flop on the bed and feel an absolutely ice cold blade hit my gut cause my mind at night when im alone is a level of loneliness, shame, regret, and absolute sorrow to a level that is physically impossible to minorly describe. So I thank you for this. As this will allow me to wake up and realize I'm gonna be okay. But to feel something so soul snatching and dark and to tell yourself "God I love this" is.... just what I call brain heroin. You wanna stop but you can't wait for the next fix even if it only.lasts a few hours. You need it no matter what. It wrecks you but eventually it just heals you. You become whole again.
I hope you don't feel lonely, I don't know you but I'm here to listen if you ever need to talk
Just because you're lonely it doesn't mean you're alone. We all get that gut deep loneliness feeling. We're here for you.
A Student here, rest you all know!!
Love your music❤❤
TW: some su1c1de ideation in this vent.
I'm having these roller-coaster rides of manics that go from peaks to deep valleys. Some days I want to call out of work, cry all day and do something stupid.
I've said time and time again that I don't want perish. I'm just tired. So tired that I want to sleep and never wake up. Dissapear in and not be anyones problem.
I'm on a waitlist to see a professional but I can't get medication until I am diagnosed, so I am stuck in this vicious cycle until I can see someone, or until these thoughts really do take over.
I've went from hoarding tendencies to throwing out more and more thinks weekly and it worries me that my cleaning manics are.. "preparing". I'm not sure what else to do other than work myself to exhaustion and sleep as long as I possibly can to avoid these thoughts.
I'm glad that, while I can't sleep, I have this comforting playlist to help me just breathe.
I hope anyone who took the time to read and could relate a little.. just know it gets better. We will get through this you and I. Maybe one day, we'll meet each other and not even know it.
Hang in there, if you need someone to vent to, I am here for you.
im reading Dracula.. and i can say: i found the perfect playlist for it
I wish I could read Dracula again for the first time. Man it wss so good
12:30am and once again overthinking everything and realizing I need to change so much. I feel everyone around me isn’t experiencing this. I feel so alone, when I try to talk about things like this to others it seems I’m just annoying and being a downer. As I’ve cut a lot of addictions out of my life recently it’s left me in deep thoughts and thinking about things I can’t change. I’ve messed up a lot, and I don’t relate to others around. I hope this connects with other people and shows you aren’t alone in this battle. We can get through this. It’s a challenge. if it wasn’t, everyone would be happy and have everything. Stay strong
love this blurred image of the city from afar....goes perfect with the tunes.
ive been looking for this comment, the image are FIRE.. imagine seeing this for real
This video found me, sleepless summer night at 01:51am. The perfect tune of night! UA-cam is where we all insomniac come to find these sounds
It's 2pm on a Wednesday and I'm tired of everyone's problems. I'm exhausted trying to hold up shields for everyone and fighting off negativity with my bare hands. I long for a flood to wash away all this mess for yet another hoard to grow to be complained about tomorrow. I hope for the dawn to break so the the sun can shine on maybe a different part of my future
I really love views of cities at night from far away like this one. Something about them is just so peaceful.
Im in a very closed off village on an island in greece. Everyone knows each other. I never had a big family. But here everyone lives together. They leave keys on the door and any family member or other villager can come in.
s/o to all the overthinkers ... sleepless night over and over. Hang On felows we're the chosen ones
chosen ones...i would love believe that..can't wait for déãth to come
It's 4 am and I can't sleep this is relatable
Even tho I'm not feeling alright and this gives me an escape, I want to feel grateful for having a new chance to get better and feeling better. Starting with God and destiny that guided me to this amazing video and channel. Tysm for reading and for being so strong, we'll get over this!
October 6th.. Someone entered my life unexpectedly, as if they were written for me, as if they were my other half i never knew i needed.. 5 days ago things ended for good.. contemplating life is an understatement.. especially after losing someone very close.. to whom ever reading this, don't be too scared to love, it is often a memorable story that will live in your memories for a very long time.. if you are lucky.. for life.
As I write this it is my 20th birthday 1:50am, it was a bland day, no cake, no friends over laughing and playing on the old swing set out back, there was no hugs from my grandma or a kiss on the forehead from my aunt's, or a charlie horse from my annoying cousins. What ever it maybe and no matter how hard we try we can never stay young forever, growing up is hard, to see all those childhood friends leave for their future endeavors, or moving away from that childhood house, it always hits hard knowing they will just be memories and nothing more. If anyone out there is reading this I hope life treats you well, make friends, lose friends, party, rest, live life, thats what we are all doing at the end of the day, lets just get through it together.
10.30pm in Argentina. Not too cold but not too hot either. August 29th. I don't know where my life is going, but I learned to not be afraid of that feeling. If you need a hug, receive one from me right now. Life is really not that serious, I believe. Think of it as a movie... it's a bit absurd, isn't it? Life's what you make of it (what you can with what you have).
God bless you.
Guess I'll add my thoughts here as well. I know there's a God I just, don't know which one. So whenever life gets to be too much I just sit and talk, and invite the universe or 'God' to listen. I voice my thoughts, wishes, I ask for guidance, help. Sometimes I feel like I'm just talking to myself, others I feel like, I'm being guided purposefully by this force. Whatever the case may be, I know the times we're living in will build lots of character, that goes for anyone, not just me. Anyone thats going through something, I urge you, just cry out. Talk. Have that 'mental breakdown' because it's okay. It's moments like those where we can really analyze everything and find a ways to success. I wish everyone the best. ❤
I truly believe, God puts everyone on a path, in the only good thing to do is ask for the tools for you to continue to fill your purpose
Thank you for this video, I really needed this, it’s soothing.
Really struggling with my mental health at the moment, I feel like people close to me don’t understand me or what I’m going through.
I’ve also tried therapy but don’t seem to be getting anywhere. Feeling very lost and frustrated.
Hope everyone else in the comments is okay.
Take care,
J.
Keep your head up and be patient with yourself.
Focus on things that you like or wish to do and don't research things that are wrong about you online. One step at a time.
Its weird how people like pop, rap, and metal. But im starting to thing that ambient music, is becoming more of a favorite 😅.
They say the road to heaven is like hell
And the road to hell is like heaven
Look like a joke
Matthew 7:13-14
You’ve made it this far, gotta keep going. You owe it to yourself.
4am, feeling horrible, but at least it will pass. Everyone finds a way to get through something. One way or another.
This is everything. Thank you for creating a safe space for those of us who......well...if you know you know if you're one of us.
I'm losing my best friend due to stupid argument but I don't want to be the one (as always) to save this friendship up and apologize since I did nothing wrong.
I don't want to lose myself and it sucks..
Its midnight i have my own playlist like this ive made on Spotify but for some reason feels less lonely over here, so thanks 🥂
I'm afraid of failure, I can't seem to make progress in anything meaningful in my life because of fear and humiliation, I wish to be free of this fear...to be brave and try to accomplish something in my life...I don't want to be a coward but I know that deep inside I am.
Thank you for posting, and above all for creating. You are one of not so many people who happen to have the gift of creation, and use it rightfully. Keep the good work! 🙏🏻
This is so pure, thank you ❤
Only 10:09 on a Friday night and I'm already overthinking everything. Anxiety starts to kick in and the dark cloud of depression hangs over. At least I have these sounds, my fellow insomniacs and the night. The only time that I feel somewhat at peace. Thank you for a safe space! Blessings to you all! ❤
Literally this song have a different vibe, feels like approach my heart
These comments ❤️🩹 May we find solace in the depths of our unspoken sorrows, and release the burden of overthinking and fixating on those who have caused us pain. I wish you all healing.
Silent river flows
Time moves slow, and rushes past
Moments lost and found
Lol?
@@monbreau7306 Time is paradoxical. It often feels slow, yet when we look back it has flown by. The ancient Greek concept of time was multifaceted, reflected in the figures of Khronos, Kairos and Aion. Kairos represents the fleeting nature of opportune moments. Aion represents the cyclical and eternal, like the Ouroboros.
@HeartfeltLands please, tell us more.
@@silwatmahmud4672 Time (the silent river) is not just a steady ticking of the clock. The flow of time, known as time's arrow, prevents second-order logical paradoxes but is a contradictory paradox in itself. Every moment is Janus faced, looking towards the past and future. Time is profoundly subjective, bending with the weight of emotion in our personal journey. Kairos symbolises the opportune moment, the right time to act. Aion and the Ouroboros symbolise an infinite cycle. The snake is reborn from its mouth when it sheds its skin, which is also symbolised in Hehet. Heh and Hehet tie this cycle of time to death and rebirth.
this is my favorite haiku
Currently tipsy from drinking Soju. Contemplating about my life. Honestly....I do not know what I am doing with my life. I'm just....here....clueless...floating....
That first song has me stuck on repeat ❤
worked till 10pm last night, today i open at 6am. This is nice to listen to as I get ready, thankyou
Pluviophile, [ploo-vee-uh-fahyl] a person who enjoys rain and rainy days, and who is fascinated by the sights, sounds ect., of rain.
Almost every other person in my life has a significant other and is in a decent relationship that they've been in for years now, I've never had a first date, a first kiss, I've barely had friends in life, I was the outcast of the outcasts, I occasionally enjoy my life, but most days im going through the motions at best with occasional blips where im genuinely happy and at worst am wasting my time trying the minimize my perception of my own waste of a life.
Come back when ur first significant other shows you u, you never meant anything to them , then come back when your second ex does u worse then your first one because u told her everything and she uses it as a playbook because it was just a game to her too
11:37PM and I’m simply doing my best. Don’t force yourself to be perfect, none of us can do that. Remember that you, like everyone else, are human. Stay strong, and do your best. Even if it’s not that much today, tomorrow is another day ❤
Would like to hear more like this. Good stuff
Me too is so sweet and relxing misic have nice night my friend❤
this is beautiful.
you are really good at making calming music. +sub
Deep thoughts focused calm relaxed 7pm... ❤ playlist❤❤
So far this is very good for thinking and just feeling.
I am trying to get an internship because I need it. I went to interview and now they wanted me to do PowerPoint. I am so so scared the fact that I might get that job. I want a job but at the same time I don’t want it. I am scared the shit out of me. That feeling is terrible. I want to hide somewhere and do nothing about life. I don’t want to do anything to be productive. I can’t explain people about that I am truly scared and anxious about that getting internship. I am so so so anxious about that.
I want to go somewhere and face something instead of facing my own life. I hate to say this but I don’t want to live like this anymore but I still don’t want to get changes. Am I really ducked up? I don’t want my life like this? I hate these things. I don’t know how to handle this.
I feel you, I am also worried about bit changes in my life, I want certain things and I have the tools at my hands to make my dreams come true it just feels overwhelming. Where do I even begin? I have the intentions but it feels like everyone knows what to do with their life and they have a routine figured out meanwhile Im stuck here trying to figure out what my calling is. The fact that you put in work into getting that internship must mean something. You have the intention of getting a job and youre halfway there. I wish you lots of luck
@@totallytubularrr0112 Your reply means a lot to me, actually. You will find your step because I believe it. I have never seen you before, so maybe this is the sign to get out of your map and take a step to whatever it goes. I believe that you will go to the right way. Trust me, nobody knows what they want and what they feel. The only person I admired the most said that she is not satisfied with her life because she has made tons of mistakes. I love to chat with you today. I wish for you to get where you are happy and healthy with whom you belong. You are born to be what you want to be. I WISH THE BEST FOR YOU, MY FRIEND! YOU GOT IT!!!!
This is so beautiful, you composed and played this? wow. Lovely.
Oh yeah this will definitely hit 1mil.
This is gold; you are exquisite at creating the ambient so perfect it creates its own space and time.. This is the perfect consolation.
Thank you so much for making this beautiful art..
Good night ❤
It's midnight here and I'm not sure what i want to say... I know we are all facing some hardship but I want you all to know that you are not alone. You are truly loved and you are stronger than you know. I wish I could meet you all in person to share a coffee and a laugh. I wish I could make it all go away, I wish I could take the pain away but I can't. All i can do is say that I have also been in that dark place but know that there is always hope. Keep you head, keep moving forward, and know you are amazing. You don't need to trust other but always trust in yourself. If you find yourself reading this I want you to know that you are absolutely amazing in every way. I love you all ❤
I don't even know what am i doing with my life now
I'm filled with comfort but what cost? I love the image btw!
picture looks just like one i took from fushimi inari in 2018... good memories. this music is so soothing 💕
Always staying tuned for your next creation.
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Thank you for this playlist. Really needed some comfort given I have sensed weird and know some shady things spouse of a friend did so am processing the worst in advance. What is a kind friend when compared to being in a bed with a ruthless lover?
Thank you definitely needed a cry. I couldn't no matter what for the past couple days. Idk what it is. Things aren't the same nothing feels right anymore. Idk what im doing. Something feels off like something bad is gonna happen. I just feel it.
Hope you find that clarity you needed 🩵
Listening to this at 10pm
I am going to be turning 21 soon and as I look back on my life, I really wasted my youth. I waste my days away in my room still living with parents that argue with each other often. I look back and think would my life have changed if I was more extroverted, if I didn’t worry about getting good grades, took more risks. Or would I still be stuck in the same place. I sleep everyday regretting my past as I wish I could have had a better life. I don’t have anyone to talk to. I am alone with only my thoughts. I currently have no dreams or goals. I feel like my life is coming to a close…
Anyways, these are some of thoughts that are always in the back of my mind.
She probably won’t ever see this…..
Dear Bobbie…
✨Your touch warms me like the sheets of my bed, your eyes are like bright blue skies on a clear summers day, the thought of you alone make me feel like i am safe and in control, i feel like i am home when i’m in your presence, your laughs and giggles are infectious, your energy and mood is contagious. your velvet soft kisses make me feel like my chest is full of fire and makes my heart pound faster and louder than ever, you give me such good memories and moments to hold onto, its an understatement to say that i’m blessed to have you in my life because you truly are a one of a kind girl, and i hope you know that i will always be there for you no matter what we may or may not become, and i would wait lifetimes just to see you happy day after day and to be able to be the one to bring you endless days and nights of love✨
Gracias por el mensaje al inicio. Donde sea que estés, como te llames , o la forma que tengas, espero estés a salvo.
I’m up late at night wanting to sleep. But stuck in the thoughts of trying to find a job, recently out of the hospital from my third stroke. And hoping to find love. Hoping it will all come together. I guess these things take time.
Good things, bad things, they all come and go, for the only thing we can control, are our desires. True confort, for the troubled mind, can't be in the material, nor people, it will be and only will be, in letting go of burden and pain, in the end, peace and love, will be achieved with time and self love, like a garden well guarded, God bless all of us
I’d like to associate my friends with colours.
Red is my favourite, I see red in every stop sign and beautiful sunset.
Orange seems to follow me, it’s on the walls of my room, the covers of my school books.
Yellow is my colour, the colour of the sun we would draw in the corner of our drawings as kids
Green I could live without, I see it in the grass I walk along, but I mostly pay attention to the sky
Blue is a type of neutral for me, it’s not associated with anything other than the limitless sky that I just can’t reach.
Purple is best on me, it’s a hollow comforting colour, the shades match with whatever I seem to be
Pink I like to think is reds favourite, they’re shades of eachother I seem to see in his cheeks whenever I come near.
(Yes Ik this is shitty but uhh I felt like writing)
Thank you
August 28th, 2024 2:35 AM.
[You’ve saved your progress of your current playthrough.]
The world turns slowly, ever slowly. At times, it feels as if your body doesn’t move with it. Stuck behind. Stuck in the past.
Push forward slowly, ever slowly. Once you get the hang of things, pick up the pace. Pick up the pace and don’t look back.
Drift slowly, ever slowly. Take time to enjoy the little things. Because when the world turns cold and light is burnt out, the little things will seem larger than life.
Slowly.
Slowly.
Slowly.
Im tired boss
Ohhh good
It's 3:48 AM I'm outside sitting on my Rockwall and while im listening to this I keep thinking that life will get better, I'm not gonna be depressed or suciedal anymore but as time goes on a part of me dies because I know the real truth on how the world works. 🌎💔❣️
I just broke things off with this girl i was talking to these past few months, and of course, she did not take it well and i dont know what to think at the moment.
amazing
Why the fk i belong to here , only here , this music is me and i'm this music
Finally made it to college, but I still have a long journey ahead
If you can see this comment, please realize that no matter how hard the times were that you've been through so far, you may think you have failed.. but you haven't. You've survived all this time, and you are so strong.. endurance, perseverance.. you don't realize how much you are genuinely loved, appreciated, and you may think no one sees you, that no one acknowledges the good you have done in your life..
I see it. I see you. And I'm so proud of you for coming this far.
Please understand that when you don't know what to do, faced with difficult situations and needing to make a decision, no matter what, listen to yourself - your heart will guide you through intuition. You know what is best for you so far on your journey. You are never alone, if you can understand, we are not the body, we're the Energy that animates the body..
And that Energy that you are is connected to the whole; we are all one in Spirit/Energy.
Focus on what you have, not dwelling on what you lack.
The Future can ONLY be changed in the Present moment.
She’s gone 😪
This picture really speaks to me, not sure why. Where’d you find it?
On my camera's SD card ;)
This sounds become real when you realise that not everyone is asleep.
I've done a lot of reflecting these past few months, and I'm coming to terms with the fact that someday I'll have to say goodbye to certain parts of my life. A part of me is scared to leave home, a part of me wants to marry, and a part of me regrets never trying to look for a partner in college. I want to reach out, but I'm scared of getting hurt or wasting my time. God, if you want me to find a husband, let that be clear to me.
As the bible said, God won't put a test in our way knowing that we won't be able to make it, let the spirit rest, for God, with the love of a caring father, will only want goodness in our lives, so leave the work to him, for he yearn for us to have peace, and as to us?. We can only do what we can, and that, is to be kind, with ourselves, and with others, amen
Make thy rich.. I like water in my wealth
It's 11.55pm. I know it's hardly "late" but everyone else is asleep and I'm here thinking about my future...
I have work 6am but I lay in bed trying to distract myself from the fearful "what-if"s and trauma from past memories.... One word triggered this whole cascade... It started with adrenaline rush through my body like a cold sweat, my heart was pounding in my head...and now I'm contemplating driving out in my car to the closest dam I could find and either park there and skip work tomorrow or maybe never even go back home... Or maybe I could drive the car in that dam and be gone for good.
I think about the people I would leave behind. My pet rabbit.. and maybe even the things I have to clean after if I just end up skipping work and going back home after my midnight "rendezvous"... it's not worth it....
But then again... nothing seems to be worth it... No matter how much I work or rise up the ranks I can't even afford a house.. The owner of the place we are renting wants to sell this home... I don't know where to go.... but at the same time is it even worth finding a new place...? Wouldn't it be so much easier if I died and didn't have to worry where my body lives...
I really hope seeing from you in the morning
can't say anything encouraging. I feel the same, everything is pointless...
I don’t have any passions anymore. I don’t feel anything. I worked so hard to finish college, and now my love for my career is gone. I feel like it was taken away from me; I don’t find enjoyment in things that I used to enjoy, I feel like this all started when my grandpa died 2 years ago… God have mercy please
What is it about nights where its cloudy and like you can hear nothing. I remember growning up in Chicago some nights in winter the snow would muffle the city and it always felt like it was me alone in the city, or in the whole world
Hope this comes to bandcamp
Not to Bandcamp unfortunately, but it will be published on the 30th on many streaming platforms like Spotify, AppleMusic etc.
@@semiquaver16th anywhere we can buy it?
@@justsomeamerican2301 yes, on my ko-fi shop, it's linked in the description:)
@@semiquaver16ththanks homie
@semiquaver16th also "behind every light" sounds extremely similar to music for airports from Brian eno, i enjoyed that. Wonderful job making this.
I hate liars
He acts like he gave me so much😂oooh I can’t wait to just KNOW and FEEL the difference between something real and something made to look real.
Not just them but anyone sent to my life to teach me how to know what I want
Yep, that's me.
I guess with school starting again soon I should be waking up at 5:15 not barely going to sleep and I'm not even tired...
Good
Literally me last night
My high school life is about to end only one more month left until my final exam right now I lost all of my friends I have no one to study for the exam with I'm trying to keep pushing but this hurt so much i don't know what happened to my friends why they don't talk to me it's like when I started improving myself I lost them they are so far away from me right now I'm in a team of freelancers I'm not making any money but I gained a lot of experience but it come with a price I lost all my Friends for the sake of self improvement it's like when you get better in life the lesser friends you have it like a cursed of self improvement it 1:12 AM
All I'm trying to say to you is if you are lonely it's mean you have value why because people think that you're better than them and they decide not to be with you instead they're jealous of you
Yeah, i been losing it for years and to top it off i went in the store to buy a Monster the other day, minding my business. This lady walks up to me and randomly tells me i look like a cartoon. What i got from that basically solidified the thoughts i have or no thoughts. Derealization
Dog I'm strategizing plotting on throne
The masta of the ace sitting on chrome
Have nice night my friend❤
Truly dedicating yourself to Christ is so much more difficult than I imagined. I wish I had the grit and the inner strength to do what I want to do and dedicate my life to Jesus.
don't beat yourself up too much about it. none of us have the strength for it, or if we do it's only for short periods of time, even if it might not look that way from the outside. we're saved because of who Christ is and what He has done, not who we are or what we do. so rest easy, ask God for help and guidance, and trust Him. remember He's not aloof and sees us as weak and pathetic -- He has faced every single temptation we have, He overcame and never gave in but He still faced it. He sympathizes with our struggles and cares for us.
I can't say the same for me, I gave up on any kind of deity long ago, but I do hope you find what or who you're looking for in your god. Doesn't matter where we come from, what we do, who we worship, we're all just people in the end, people trying to find the right path and be happy.
It is a war. Look at Ephesians chapter 6, it is spiritual war, we are depraved as humans every single human is sinful and every single human need God. Christ loves you and as St. Augustine said something along as "If God comes back and doesn't find me as a winner, he will find me as a fighter" so fight sin, give your life to Jesus and pray, pray pray and be in the Word of God so that you may grow in your faith spiritually. God hates sin but he loves when we fight it, and we don't have strength to fight it by our own, we all fall and we all deserve hell but as 2nd Corinthians 5:21 says "God made him who had no sin to be sin[b] for us, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God." All we need and all we have is Jesus. Worship him and give him glory as He deserves and pray for growth and wisdom. God bless you.
Ask for the baptism of fire.
There is no need to worry about any of that. Focus on your actions, keep them kind and just. Spread good energy to those around and remember, by simply existing you are fulfilling your role
7am been up all night. One more cigarette? Idk if i can get up anymore.. atleast until i have to
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