Kaitlyn. You have touched me. I am so blessed to have gotten a chance to know who you are even if it was just through your videos. From day 1 I was inspired by how you did your makeup, to also how careless you seemed of worries. It made me happy. and today seeing you open up about a subject that most people just wana see you "tackle through and just be happy again" sort of thing, I am so glad that you touched on your real self. And although you may feel lost at times, and you may see no way out.. Just remember that somewhere, out there you have somehow impacted a life, such as mine, so greatly that I will never forget. Love you from the bottom of my heart.
BrownGirlLifts TV what a beautiful message thank you I agree so very much I think about Kaitlyn every day Kaitlyn has changed my life as well Kaitlyn is such a amazing wonderful woman and I hope Kaitlyn comes back to UA-cam as I believe thousands of people would be so happy to see Kaitlyn again Again thank you for sharing your thoughts I hope Kaitlyn sees it Kind regards Melanie
You deserve, have a right to, and need to grieve your losses! People sometimes only leave grief for death of loved ones. But you have had some deaths. Deaths of your arms and legs. Death of dreams. Death of possibilities. You have to grieve those losses. I encourage you to work through those things. Reach put to loved ones. Do the best you can! And do not continue to beat yourself up if you think you fell short of your desires or intentions. You are only human! And sometimes we need to sit back and lick our wounds. Its okay! Truly! Just dont get stuck! If you need time, then please, take time! Just make sure you do not get stuck in it! Much love, happiness, and strength your way. I will pray for you.(not sure of your beliefs. Just found your channel. But my prayers are meant as help.) Keep searching for what you need! You do deserve it! And most certain will find it! Hugs
Thank you posting this. I have been depressed lately because of how much my life has been derailed by the limitations my illness causes and I hit the wall last night and just broke down in tears - which of course left me feeling alone, stupid and weak. Then I see your video pop up in my sub feed and there is this badass chick I admire the hell out of saying “yes I sometimes get upset with my situation and yes I cry and yes I disappear sometimes - but I’m not afraid to admit and I’m not letting it stop me anymore”. Just seeing you turn the camera back on again made me feel like maybe I could resume my life too. Thank you for sharing your struggle and your determination - I really needed to see this today.
SomethingToFear, Very well said. This is my first time coming across a video of Kaitlyn's. She is terrific, isn't she!? I am also struggling with my new reality of chronic illness and disability....and I also found this to be inspirational. Sometimes it just takes a bit of a kick in the pant's to get me back on the right track. All the best to you, and I am glad you saw a bit more light in your day! Blessings and positive vibes are being sent your way!! :)
What you talking about Willis, That is so kind of you to say...Thank you! I certainly don't feel like it! I have been dealing with my insurance regarding correct DME equipment, and everyone knows how fun that can be! I just keep telling myself, that it could be worse! Thanks for giving me a little smile today.... :). UPDATE: My DME finally got approved! I've very thankful and grateful. Here's hoping it provides relief!!!
My mom is very sick from cancer. I’m watching her fade away. I want her back like you want your arms and legs back. I understand. Life has so much pain sometimes and it just doesn’t make sense. We must accept the pain and push on and be strong, but cry when we need to. You are worthy of having arms and legs. I am worthy of having my mom. And it really sucks that this is how things are. All we can do is value the things that we do have. I respect you for saying how you feel. We struggle at night in the sadness. This all makes us much stronger though. You’re stronger than you probably ever thought possible. Keep moving forward.
Cute Pumpkin I know honey I knew exactly what you meant by it as well wanting something that bad. Just ignore people like that baby take what you need from the comments and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away. I pray for you and your mumma darling.
It just hit me...have u ever thought about becoming a counselor or a psychologist....u could help people so much because I think ur perspective on life is a unique one..u have been through so much for such a young person that u probably have a lot of wisdom and insights into life.and I really REALLY believe u could help people with emotional problems...it would give u such a feeinng of selfworth. I REALLY believe what happened to u happened for a reason...u have already completely reinvented yourself with you tube,maybe u need now to find also alternative ways to find meaning in ur life.
Cry, rant scream....get "it" out! What has happened to you is incredibly unfair and has got to be overwhelmingly frustrating. You have every right to feel good, bad or otherwise. Please know, and never forget, how amazing you are, regardless, or in spite of, your challenges. You're funny, bright and talented, that's why those that follow you, adore you so very, very much. Sending you tons of love and hugs from So. Cal. 💕
Wow your so transparent, you didn’t have to share that but I’m happy that you trust us to know something so personal. I actually went through a divorce this year and when I left my husband I picked up a journal and starting writing to God. And when I tell you it was the best way of screaming and getting things out and telling God my needs and wants and how I was longing for his direction. It helped me more ways then words can explain🙌🏽. I’m saying this to say stick to it, your going to overcome this💪🏽. You are stronger and brighter then you even know. I’m praying for you girl♥️
Kaitlyn, as someone who has been dealing with chronic health issues for over 25 years, let me share something. It's OK It's ok to be sad. It's ok to want what's gone. It's ok to wish things were different. It's ok to want more. We beat ourselves up way too much... over everything and nothing. We mourn for what was. With that said, a wise man once told me, "Worry about that which you can change. There's no sense in stressing yourself out over things that are out of your control." It is a hard mentality to get into, but once you do burdens seem somehow less. I've had to come to terms with a lot over the years, and I try to do it with a laugh and a smile. Yet, tears do fall. It's OK when they do. I've also been told by a wise woman, "When you feel your worst, just reach up/out. You've got support in places you don't even realize, and someone will help." My friends have been there time and again...I just needed to trust. My tiny channel has a video called "This is what a bad day looks like" and it's my raw, hurting truth. It was hard for me to share, but it might help you know that you're not alone. We all struggle sometimes.
4 years ago my brain started sending and receiving wrong signals. Involuntary movement, seizures, tics, fatigue, pain, memory issues. I went from active mum to housebound. I eventually got a wheelchair, so I can get out on better days. I still have my arms and legs but they do their own thing lol and when they don't do their own thing my muscles fatigue so fast I struggle. I completely understand how you feel. I miss walking the dogs the most ,feeling the wind. seeing other people walking easily I wish they knew the gift they had. I've gone through anger , depression etc how you feel is so normal after such a life changing experience.
Some of the most awesome people I know have been in or are currently in therapy. I'll be starting soon and, with all due respect, I'm thinking it may help you. Neither of us deserves to be sad when many or most or all of our issues are caused by people or circumstances from the past. Whatever you decide, I hope you know that we are rooting for you. And, if you do decide to go, the reading I've been doing suggests therapists/counselors and/or life coaches are better for many issues. UA-cam has quite a few. I've heard a lot of frustrated psychiatric patients that are getting drugs that they don't believe are helping and that's all they get.
I saw you in my recommendation and decided to take a chance and watch you! I am so glad that I did. Your spirit and openness is catching! Never feel that you have to explain why you are sad/depressed. I too suffer from depression and go off the grid for quite some time. My family does not understand why and when I try to explain I am only bashed for it and told to "get over it". I wish I was as open as you are, you are an inspiration to me as well as everyone on here! Keep praying and keep your head up! If ever you need someone to talk to, or anyone reading this comment, please feel free to message me, I will be a listening ear and try to comfort you all! God bless you!!! Continue to be you hunny!! ❤❤❤
You are beautiful and amazing. Listen, I know that if you compare what happened to you with other people's struggles you may feel alone. The truth is we are not good at accepting our limitations. I know this too well. I had an accident and being in a wheelchair since then. I wouldn't accept it for so long, I spent years praying for a miracle and I went crazy sometimes thinking that I could walk again. I don't want to sound stupid, but things get easier when you accept reality. Once you do that, you start to improve yourself in realistic ways. For example I started to work out (the way I could) eating healthier, and I did investigate the new technology for people like me. So you can see that my expectations were more realistic. You have a community here that supports you, if you find something that would make your condition better, you can always ask for help to get the means to do it. If you need therapy do it, if you need pills take them, if you need to work out do it. But you have to accept first and stop being the victim, because feeling like that its the worst, being there. :(
If you want to take a break from you tube, then take it! You don't owe us anything. I'm grateful to see whenever you do post. And, you should already be proud of yourself!!! I am proud of you, I think you are 1 hell of a woman. You have a very cool personality and a great speaking voice, did you ever try to do any voice over work? Well going to be sending you lots of positive energy! Take care
Aww Kaitlyn 😢 I cannot imagine in the slightest what you’re going through, but I do know what sadness/depression feels like. Everyone has their own battles and trials to go through in life to teach us lessons and make us who God wants us to be. Remember that God knows exactly how you feel and what you’re going through, and that He will NEVER forsake you. He is there to guide you through the good and bad times, so keep your focus on Him; Heb 13:5. Remember Job was a righteous man, was prosperous and had a big family, then all of a sudden he lost everything and got very sick. Of course he fell under depression but persevered and God eventually blessed him with twice as much as he had before. God is full of mercy and though you may not understand at this moment why things went the way they happened, know that “All things work together for good for those that love God” Romans 8:28. Keep hanging on, you have already come this far. Live in the moment and trust that you are still alive for a good reason ❤️ Sending you all my love and care 🤗
Job has never helped me. I've been a Christian for a very long time and I will never understand how that book can be hopeful. God and I will talk about that in heaven. :)
Chrissy Foley You have to give your LIFE to Jesus.... Live the bible ..... Being a Christian does not mean that IT is always easy......but Worth IT!!!!!!!
I don't understand your answer. I've given my life to Jesus many years ago. I know it's not easy believe me I've walked through a lot and without him I would not have made it. However just because I don't understand Job doesn't mean I don't live the Bible. He had so many things happen to him. Once being the loss of his children. You can never replace children. All I'm saying is that book makes me sad and doesn't help me when I'm going through things. There are many things I can't wait to talk to God about face to face.
There are a gazillion things you can do with your life. Do what makes you feel good, and get help/counseling if you need it. Being born disabled, I can't quite understand how becoming disabled later in life feels and what it can do to a person. But I know that there are many things we can do, and that even though life can suck it can also be pretty damn awesome. Have you looked into going to culinary school (did I get that right? I'm tired, have dysexecutive syndrome and am Swedish 😂), what kind of support you could get while at school, etc.? I, too, try to be a UA-camr, but my disabilities, especially my dysexecutive syndrome, chronic pain with fatigue and depression get in the way... In closing, you're awesome. ❤️
Kaitlyn - You are amazing! I look at you and I see such an incredible and beautiful human being. You don't need to explain to anybody why you disappeared. Everyone has their story and their struggles. I cannot even begin to imagine yours. I know we don't know each other but you make such an impact on me I can't even explain. I watch you in awe. And maybe you may think that you are nothing more than any other person out there but there is something about you... It put the biggest smile on my face when I saw you had uploaded a new video. You do that to people. From hundreds of miles away - you make people smile. How awesome is that? In a world where a lot of people go about their days with their heads down and just not giving two turds about the people around them....and then there is you. You shine. You are as real as they come. Take the time that you need. You deserve it without apology or explanation. You do deserve the life you want - a normal life and an easier life as you mentioned. To sit here and say I understand....is wrong...because the honest truth is I don't. I don't know what you are going through. All I can say is that you inspire me to see life through a different lens and for that my friend, I am so grateful. You bring life to life and it's true inspiration. I wish only the best for you in this thing called life and I hope that you find emotional healing.
Grace Burbridge, Very nicely said....Kaitlyn truly is inspirational! There is one thing that you said, (as well as another viewer), that makes me question people's viewpoint regarding saying 'I understand'. I personally don't feel it is wrong to say 'I understand', to someone. When I say that in conversation, I am meaning I understand you are struggling, I understand you are in pain, I understand you are so excited, or joyous about the birth of your new child...etc. When I say that, I am not saying I know exactly how you feel with any of the above, but I do understand that you are hurting, etc. I was an RN for over 25 years, and I recently got rid of my work file that had all sorts of thank you cards from previous patients I cared for. I am not trying to pat myself on my back, I'm only using this as an example. The vast majority mentioned how 'compassionate' I was. Never once have I been told by a patient 'You don't understand me', 'You don't know how I'm feeling.', or something to that effect. I am honestly interested in anyones input regarding this, so we can all know what people find acceptable and not acceptable. Thanks!
Mellow Yellow, I appreciate your attempt at explaining things, and sharing your input. I still am not on the same page as what you are saying. I think the word 'empathy', truly describes what you are stating. If someone (understandably) didn't use the words 'I empathize with you', the more common phrase would be 'I know what you are feeling'. Those two things basically describe what you are saying (from my point of view). One definition of 'Understand', is to perceive the intention of what one is saying or expressing. If I am off base with my thought process, I guess I should count my lucky stars that I have never been pulled up on this by my patients, colleagues, and bosses, and students. Maybe it's time for me to stop teaching 'Interpersonal Communication In The Workplace'. No... I don't think so, but thanks for trying to enlighten me. All the best....
EVERYONE'S GOT ISSUE'S BEAUTIFUL GIRL, JUST SO SORRY, WISH I COULD GIVE U A BIG SQUISH!!!!!!!!! PRAYERS KEEP FIGHTING SWEETHEART 💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙 YOU ARE SO STRONG!!!!!!!!! LOTS OF LOVE HUNNY!!!!!!😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
You are totally justified in feeling frustrated and down. You’ve been through a lot. Thank you for being so vulnerable, it’s inspiring to many of us. You have a lot to offer the world. You’ve touched my heart. Sending you love from Washington. ❤️❤️❤️😘
Arms and legs or not, you are worthy of all. I know life is hard. 💔 But take time for you if you need. Believe it or not, you really don't owe anybody any explanation because you have every right to feel what you're feeling. You are so brave and I pray you find your happiness! 💓
This is the first time I see a video of you, and you touched me deeply. I know that I'm not always grateful enough for the things I have. Like limbs. I will now watch other videos of you, because I want to hear about you. But I understand you don't actually talk about that … I hope you will do it more though, because I feel you can help people with that. Bless you.
I love your realness in this video♡♡♡ Its not always going to be easy, but you WILL get through it. Life will keep moving, and you will figure out how to move through it as you go. I understand the difficulty of opening up, and feeling exposed. But, maybe sharing your struggles like this is something you can do.I find your story, and the honesty in this video so relatable, and personally enjoy watching them more then make up tutorials. Never stop sharing your story, I love you for it ♡♡♡♡ Take care of yourself Katie, we need you here just the way you are.
Everyone is sad at times and life IS hard. You have more reason than most to feel that way. You ARE the person God wants you to be. Stay strong. Prayers
Your explanation is all that is needed. You are a very good person and are human. Do not beat yourself up because you are human. Feelings do not need explanations because we all feel what we feel. Just control what you can control. Unfortunately, us humans were never given control over everything. Sometimes all we can do is hang on till a period of sadness passes. You are stronger than what you think you are or you would not have come this far. I have depression and anxiety also. That is why I have a medication manager and counselor. If you feel like that could help, try it. In a nutshell, all of us out here are sending you the best vibes we can. I am sorry to be so disjointed, I am trying to get too many positive ideas to you at one time!! Hang in dear lady!! You are loved by many.
Glad ur back, thanks for sharing such a personal side...you have been through so much, sometimes u need a break to reset. One day at a time beautiful..see u soon! :)
Your a beautiful soul and you honestly have the right to feel the way that you do... you shouldn't get down on yourself cause your sad ... It's okay to feel sad or depressed ... all that matters is you don't stay there and let the sadness stay too long an take over your life.. embrace those emotions let yourself feel them without remorse... And don't ever be sorry for it cause your taking care of you !! Stay strong pretty lady ❤ And don't let the sadness win cause your stronger than that !!
I think we all understand before you even explain.. not many people know what you go through, so yeah we get it. An Idea, on UA-cam right now it's a thing to build up anticipation. Make people excited to see your content.. leave them wanting more so when you do come back it'll feel like you never left, that also might help you with you depression and help motivate and excite you as well! I really want nothing but the best for you, you're a good person, with a good heart! Gods got your back though and remember to trust him, you may not understand now but hopefully one day you will!.. much love ❤
You showed up in my feed and I watched several of your videos...I don't think you realize how amazing you are. You exemplify TRUE beauty and there is something so magnetic about you...I know I don't know you, but your story has touched my heart. I hope you're in better spirits, and I pray that you'll be able to overcome any sadness or pain you're experiencing. Whenever you decide to post, I look forward to seeing you in your next video.
@@glitterbomb7614 there's alway that 1 person ..geesh..not sure why she thought you were being sarcastic but she needs to mind her own business..I hope your okay ...
Kaitlyn I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. Just know we are always here for you and taking time for yourself is so important. There is nothing that you owe us. I'm an Occupational Therapy Assistant and if there's anything I can ever help you with feel free to reach out to me. Sending my love and good vibes to you💜💜
Your sadness is valid. It isn't pathetic or stupid. Don't forget the challenges you have overcome. YOU ALMOST DIED! But you lived. You grace us with your videos and you make us laugh and wish we were friends with you in real life. You amaze us and impress us. Even more so with your honesty. You are not just the woman who can apply banging makeup with a prosthetic arm. You are so much more than that. I don't know what your purpose is on this earth but I'm glad your back.
you're amazing and strong and you deserve to be able to take time off for yourself when you're feeling sad. We love you and you inspire a lot of people.
#GIRLBYE we all get in our feelings from time to time, we love you, we are here for you, YOU ARE PERFECT just the way you are, God makes no mistake, YOU ARE SPECIAL, do not let satan steal your joy, hold your head high and BEAT - YOUR-FACE-FOR-THE-GAWDS!!! you are an inspiration and remember u dnt need arms and legs to be smart and beautiful all you need is a smile and a pure heart 💜💛💚💕
I’m sorry you are feeling sad. I truly wish you weren’t depressed and I’m sending white light and love your way. I still think you are pretty awesome. You inspire so many people. Life is hard...you are so right about that. If you ever want to chat, just send me a message. We can cry together and laugh too. Do something kind for yourself. I’m going through a little bit of a rough time myself. Sometimes I wonder what’s even the point to my life...I know it sounds so dark. But my husband passed away in 2011 and it just seems I have gone further and further down hill. But there’s that little voice inside that i still feel like there IS a reason. A reason for everything. We are all here to help each other. We get one life and that soul that heart beating inside of you IS worth just as much as anyone else’s. So I try to tell myself...my life may not be perfect, it will never be perfect. Shit is going to happen. We will be sad at times. We will be angry as hell. We might question our faith. We might lose faith. But just know you will be rewarded in your next life for being such a kind hearted, beautiful soul in this one. I believe that. So please just know you are loved by so many. I am pretty sure I’ve watched all of your videos. I can’t say that about any other UA-camr. You are a beautiful and genuine person. It’s also ok to be pissed. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok because it’s human. I wish I could hug you. Please don’t stop smiling.
Sending so much love ❤️❤️❤️ I love your authenticity. We’re all trying to navigate our unique experiences of life, but reaching out with honesty and perspective will help us all make it through learning and loving at as many stages as possible.
Awe sweets. So much of what you said made total sense. I truly believe the hardest thing to stop doing is wanting something you can’t have. My situation is my daughter is autistic. And now with tears I wish she could talk. My mom in me wishes you had arms and legs. With legs and arms or not I have found you inspiring. Loving and real. I wish for me I could help you the way you have helped me. The sickness you got is so unfair as there are people who do nothing but poison themselves with their arms and hurt themselves w their legs. I think culinary school is a fantastic idea. I was just saying to my husband that I wish that field wasn’t all perfection. I would love to see someone who has a disability and maybe our paths crossed for a reason. I know it would be hard. But babe if u can do eyeliner you can cook. I know you can and I for one would buy your cook book!!!!! Thank you for you. I was once told it was ok to loose it every now and then but it’s also great to find it again too ❤️
I'm so sorry you feel that way. I suffer with PTSD, chronic depression and anxiety so I know how hard it can be. We are all here for you. You can do WHATEVER you put your mind to. But no one can tell you that unless you believe it yourself. We love you.
This is so sad to me because you really can't understand how she feels she just want to have a normal life again an do things that she can't no more...I feel that pain but no matter what she still a beautiful person
I understand hunnie. I battle with depression and it can leave you feeling withdrawn and detached from the world. It's very isolating as we try to deal with it ourselves. I've turned to mindfulness and cognitive behavioural therapy. It's not a quick fix but has given me some tools to use to manage my negative thinking process and live in the now and the present. I'm a work in progress my lovely. You are an inspiration to me sweetie. To have the courage to talk to your followers about your state of mind is so brave as we feel so vulnerable. I hope we can all support you and get you through each day. Sending you hugs from The UK ❤ ❤
Kaitlyn trust me girl.. I understand what you are feeling.. Now i realize we are on a cycle with many others like us. But let me give you this assurance you and i are having a faar better life than 60% population of the world. You are beautiful, your smile is one of the bests i have seen. This is just a weather which will pass by.. Love you.. 😘❤
Well I’m following you as being someone with anxiety and depression you have been my inspiration. But OMG you have showed what you CAN do with your makeup alone!!!
What is wrong with you??? You have every right to disappear/take time off! And you never have to explain yourself to anyone. Your strength is astounding. Your personality and sense of humor makes me want to be a better person. It makes me humble and grateful for the things I take for granted. You are brave, strong and beautiful and so very loved. It's ok to be sad and angry. I hope you get happy and goofy soon. We are all here for you girl!!
I love you so much! This was so beautiful and have inspired me so much more than you’ll ever know. The amount of fight you have is really stunning! ❤️❤️❤️❤️ Thank you!!!
I completely understand your feelings; I am epileptic. It too has changed my life and I also went through a long period of wanting to go back to the way I was. It’s normal for you to have these feelings. Believe it or not, but they’re part of the healing process. Everyone’s process is different and some take longer than others, but it’s all very normal. One day I promise that you will get to a positive place where you know that the old you is the past, and you can’t go back to the past. Your experience has helped to build a stronger you, mentally, emotionally, and physically - even though you may not see that now. You do have a purpose and you’ll find it when you’ve past this stage. It’s a difficult stage, believe me, I know. You’re a better person for your experience. A day will come when you’ll be ready to take the view point that it’s time to look at your disability (that’s how I see my epilepsy) and the pitfalls, and make them work for you in the positive. Only you can figure that out, but it will happen. Hugs!
You may be in a bad mood but girl! Your sooooo beautiful today!!! It's ok to have times of sadness or set backs. Things happen, and we all love you and totally understand. I'm praying for you, your so amazing and incredible!
My gran always says "These things are sent to try us". I don't know why some people get far worse things happening to them than others. As a believer in God, that part has always made me wonder, especially when it comes to children being hurt and killed. My cousin lost her son who was just four years old, he drowned and my cousin has never and will never get over it. I don't know what it's like for you and what you've gone through, it's clear you've been through hell and back though. Thing is, you're here, you beat that horrible disease that could easily have taken your life and I do believe you're here for a reason. I believe it will become apparent in the not so distant future what that reason is. In the meantime, could I suggest that you get some counseling? I don't know what your stance is on medication but maybe think about that also. I know meds aren't always the answer but you needn't be on them long term, it could be that you'd benefit from a course just to help with what sounds a lot like depression. I hope you don't mind me saying that. I won't profess to know you but from what I've seen, you are as strong as hell but that doesn't mean you can't have times where you feel really low and lost. It's about finding a coping tool that you can fall back on when you have bad days. You've got every right to say why me, what did I do? But that will only hold you back more as harsh as that sounds. You've got an amazing family there and I'm sure they'll do absolutely anything to help you. Try not to think that you can't tell them these things in case it upsets them, I'm pretty sure they'd be glad you did. There's nothing worse than bottling everything up inside but putting on a brave face for others. You've got loads to give sweetheart, I wish I had a magic wand and give you back what you lost but you still have a lot of life to live and with more and more advances in prosthetics, who knows what's waiting around the corner. I hope I've not offended you in any way, it's just a shame that someone as beautiful as you is suffering in silence and feeling so alone. You have all of us anytime you want to offload so don't ever think oh I better not say this or that. Use this platform because you've already given us plenty, such as allowing us to get to know just how lovely a person you are. I'll be thinking about you and hope you start feeling better real soon, god bless.
I'm going through depression and to be honest I think about suicide every single day. I totally understand that sometimes we can get sad to the point that it makes us not want to do anything. Do what is best for you. If you can't make videos take a break. We will always support you no matter what!!
Kaitlyn. Nothing I say could ever make it better and maybe this might be bitter sweet for you to hear! But I want you to know! I have neglected my arms and legs. I make excuses... my legs hurt my arms hurt I’m tired.... but nothing hurts more than hearing you say “I want my arms and legs back” and “I’ll do anything to be worth of having them back” 😭 I’m balling my eyes out typing this! I’m so sorry kaitlyn. I want to be better and do better with the arms and legs I do have! I don’t want to take them for granted and for the people who wish they had arms and legs I want to live my life to the fullest that I can with them for you and others like you! I’m so sorry! You’re a beautiful and amazing person and you’re so worthy of arms and legs girl! I know this doesn’t help but you’re such a beautiful person and you’re almost too worth for them! You have such a huge calling on your life and make an impact on so many arms and legs aren’t worthy of YOU! you’re going to have a bright future and I know there’s a reason you’re where you are! And I just seriously wish we could be friends! You’re so encouraging and bright! and I know it’s not always rainbows and sunshine but girl! You just naturally radiate and I love it! And I don’t say this to strangers or just anyone but seriously I have so much love for you! Stay strong! You’re impacting so many!
Sam This was so well put. I wanted to say something but I don’t know how to put in into words of encouragement when I feel so hypocritical. You’re absolutely right and I relate as I complain over the dumbest things. Her struggle is not just not having arms and legs but to do some of the basics we often take for granted. I feel so shitty and selfish. Sometimes complaining over things that would have anyone give me the side eye. Anyways, you seem like such a lovely person and that exact quote from her did get to me. Take care and continue to inspire others with your words and smile.
awe girl i totally understand depression is tough and i could not imagine what you go through i cried with you.you have every right to take as many breaks as you need.and i will be here to watch videos no matter how many times you post.im sure others feel the same.cause i find you so inspiring and you show me to be thankful and not take things for granted.i suffer from depression as well and when i see you happy doing make up and having beautiful attitude it makes me suck it up and take care of myself. Im sorry for rambling on lol i hope you get yourself feeling good again and feel happiness cause you deserve it girl.
You been though hell many times over. Of course you’re gonna depressed. Life sucks and life is hard. How can anyone be “happy” under those circumstances? Life hasn’t treated you fair at all. Anger is a natural response.
I'm sorry Kaitlyn, I've struggled with depression and disability too. We're here for you and you should have a counselor or other support when you need it and focus on yourself when you need time out for that 💖💖
You're amazing young lady! I'm handicapped also and I can understand you on a certain level. Being the me I was supposed to be, I mourn the loss of her. You're super talented and creative! I know you will move from this darkness back into the light. We go side to side and sometimes backwards but we always end up going forwards again because we are positive people! You give me inspiration!!! Much love and happiness!!!
You're still mourning your loss and that's fine, you never need to just get over it. What you do need to do is focus on the other things you can do. It's easier to focus on the things we can't do. It's okay to have these moments of feeling down, so cry as you need to and let it out, but know that tomorrow is a new day and you need to pick yourself up and keep pushing. You're still going through that phase of finding yourself.
Kaitlyn.... I write down the same things hunny... I dont have my legs and I am sad everyday .... EVERYDAY. I dont know what to do to change it. I feel like I am stuck in this wheelchair forever and will never be the wife and mother I was 4 years ago. I dont know if it will help but if you want to chat Im here... we can be sad together lol love you....
Glad you came back...that took guts to read that to us! I understand the sad times... I think we all get them, you're not alone. I may have arms and legs, but I also have stage 5 renal failure! I know I'm not long for this earth, but while I'm still alive I will help others smile daily. Even though you may be sad on the inside you can put a smile on your face and help others be happy! You truly are an amazing woman!
Be proud that you made this video. I know it takes a lot of energy to do especially when your sad. I can relate, i have been suffering from depression for a few years now, mainly due to a 9 year relationship ending then having been diagnosed with low thyroid which makes me sleep a lot and gives me no energy or motivation. It takes a lot just to leave the house. I couldn't imagine getting the strength to make youtube videos, I always wondered in the past how you do it. I also don't cry much , its usually a song that would make me start crying for no reason, which sucks cause i love music and listen a lot. I, like many others I'm sure, are very proud of you and we are here for support. And if things do get worst or don't get better then please confide in someone. From a 36 year old guy. Love and support from Ireland.
You're absolutely amazing. Your strength gives others strength. I know your life isn't "normal" anymore, but the path you're on now is so inspiring and you're actually changing the world just by persevering and giving others hope. You're beautiful inside and out and absolutely indispensable to the human race. Please hang in there and take care, we all love you.
Being a human is messy, and complicated, and we cannot always control our feelings. I love that you have found a way to express them and share them with the world. Sending much love to you. xx
It's ok to be sad... It sucks but it's a normal feeling, especially since you do have struggles and challenges that are beyond most of our understanding. You are a light and a blessing, just for being YOU!👍🏼💕
My heart breaks for you! This is the first vlog of yours I’ve watched, but it won’t be the last! I subscribed and will continue to watch! You are an incredible young woman and I am going to show my kids your vlogs! My children are all adults now, but their world has changed drastically over the past nineteen years! They were happy and extremely active when they were young up through about middle school. One at a time they and their dad were diagnosed with Muscular Dystrophy and slowly they went from very active to wearing leg braces and the oldest is now in a wheelchair and hospital bed. I know that it is very hard for them sometimes and there is nothing I can do to take it away as much as I would like to! When they see how courageous you are I hope it will help them! God Bless you, you are an inspiration!
Thank you Kaitlyn! Thank you for being brave and honest. You have given me perspective just when I needed it. If sharing these feelings on camera is helpful for you DO IT guuurl!!! Whatever we all need to do to get us through....is ok. Love you ♥
Awe please dont be sad, you are beautiful, talented, strong, and loved! And you can do anything that you put your mind to. You inspire me so much to live my life to the fullest every single day!
Oh Kaitlyn , this is a great video. I have all my limbs and I still suffer from the worst depression sometimes. To the point where I'll think "what is my purpose?" "Im worthless" etc. As a kid I suffered a huge amount of psychological trauma. I believe that may be part of the reason I feel like my life has no value. Sometimes I have better days. But I just want to remind you we all can be helpless and weak and feel like the future holds nothing great for us. With or without the limbs. But that's just part of the journey. It's important to cry and let it out. And it's important to take some time off things. I am glad to see you back though!
❤️❤️❤️❤️ I get it. I TOTALLY get where you are coming from. I struggled horribly with chronic depression for years along with horrible anxiety and PTSD. I found relief in two things- therapy and medication. Let’s talk about the elephant in the room- meds. My brain does not make the amount of stuff it needs to keep the sads away. I struggled with this because I didn’t want to be on meds because I was embarrassed and saw it as a weakness. Now I see things totally different. I would not tell someone to not take insulin, so why am I being so mean to myself. Therapy was another thing. I had to deal with my trauma and learn ways to deal with my anxiety and depression. It WORKS. It’s worth it. You deserve it. No matter the route you chose, just know that you are from from alone and we are here to listen and support you. I have ups and downs still, but they are so much better and far in between now. Every body is different so please continue to be kind to yours. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
you went through SO MUCH! its just natural that your brain needs time to process everything. therapy helped me so much. i talk to a therapist every 2 weeks since over 6 years and im still learning to deal with my feelings. you dont need to just suffer your emotions through. go and reach out for a professional, theres no shame to that. love you! you are incredible strong and i understand how much things can SUCK. life can suck so bad. but there are good things, even if its hard to feel it from time to time
Thank you for posting this video. I've been dealing with an unexpected major surgery then back in the hospital less than a week later. Today i have felt sad, hopeless and why has this happened to me. You are amazingly strong and beautiful person and having those feelings seem natural. Hang in there and thank you again for your post 💜💜
I go through the same things. Sometimes I just get sad and don't know the exact reason. I fall deeper and deeper trying to figure out the roots to the emotions. everything happens for a reason and makes us stronger. You'll get through it girl. Just surround yourself by positive supportive people. Prove to everyone and yourself that regardless of your condition that you'll make the best of it. You'll still achieve your goals and passions. We love you 💙💚💙💚
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. It’s beautiful. I’m so sorry you’re sad right now.. life has so many seasons and this sounds like a really tough one. Sending you strength, peace and love 💓🌸🌻
You are one very strong bumble bee and I love you. ❤️ It is so hard to apreciate life sometimes when it treats you so unfairly. Keep on hangig over there, you never know what surprises you in the future, what opertunities you will get and joys. Life is one fucked up rolercoaster. Love u ❤️
Hi Kaitlyn...I had to retire early from 25yrs as an RN. I was then declared permanently disabled due to my chronic illnesses. Just writing that, is still hard for me to realize....it is my new reality. My last day of work was 8/1/2015 - 3 yrs ago! I want to tell you that you are terrific. I think it is not just you that sometimes or frequently gets sad and avoids talking about it. I think the majority of people in our society go thru times of sadness, irregardless of chronic illness, disability, or whatever....AND people just don't seem to talk about it. Why do we do that to ourselves? I think you posting this video will be very helpful to many viewers, and hopefully you as well. That in itself is something to be proud of. You give me inspiration, and that is something you should be proud of. I'm certainly no expert; however, when I heard someone speak about the importance of living your truth...it rang true for me. Not saying it is easy, it's not. For me, it was helpful to hear, that living my truth is a very healthy, respectable thing to do. Life is not 'hunky dory' all the time, (far from it), but it's something to strive for and be proud of, and hopefully we will find it a more peaceful way of living our lives. Thanks again, and all sorts of positive vibes being sent your way!!
I always love seeing you pop up on my feed 💛 i can’t imagine how hard it is for you but you’ve been such an inspiration in my life and i’m sure there’s some great good that can come out of all of this, even if it’s impossible to see how. we love you kaitlyn!
Your a WARRIOR!!!! Just getting up everyday and living your life day to day is a struggle, I'm sure. Your doing great! Just keep on being you and real and everything else will fall into place! Your amazing
Aww, love! Know that we are all rooting for you! 💕 It takes alot of damn courage to do what you do and get behind a camera and tell your story or share how you feel and be transparent. You're a badass...don't forget that.
You are amazing!! I’ve always admired your strength. You are an inspiration, and it’s ok to have the feelings you’re having. Just remember to pick yourself back up. You’re only human girl!! Keep being unapologetically you❤️❤️🤘🏼
This was so relatable n 1 million ways ,im an artist so I see relations n connections n things people will never notice,but 1 thing is that we're all human n its always a shallow shock when people jus do t understand another ways n reasons n I love that I do understand u 10000% ♡ im jus an understanding person n im glad I was blessed wit that importance, n blessed to have come across u.
Kaitlyn. You have touched me. I am so blessed to have gotten a chance to know who you are even if it was just through your videos. From day 1 I was inspired by how you did your makeup, to also how careless you seemed of worries. It made me happy. and today seeing you open up about a subject that most people just wana see you "tackle through and just be happy again" sort of thing, I am so glad that you touched on your real self. And although you may feel lost at times, and you may see no way out.. Just remember that somewhere, out there you have somehow impacted a life, such as mine, so greatly that I will never forget. Love you from the bottom of my heart.
BrownGirlLifts TV what a beautiful message thank you I agree so very much I think about Kaitlyn every day Kaitlyn has changed my life as well Kaitlyn is such a amazing wonderful woman and I hope Kaitlyn comes back to UA-cam as I believe thousands of people would be so happy to see Kaitlyn again
Again thank you for sharing your thoughts I hope Kaitlyn sees it
Kind regards Melanie
You deserve, have a right to, and need to grieve your losses! People sometimes only leave grief for death of loved ones. But you have had some deaths. Deaths of your arms and legs. Death of dreams. Death of possibilities. You have to grieve those losses.
I encourage you to work through those things. Reach put to loved ones. Do the best you can! And do not continue to beat yourself up if you think you fell short of your desires or intentions. You are only human! And sometimes we need to sit back and lick our wounds. Its okay! Truly! Just dont get stuck! If you need time, then please, take time! Just make sure you do not get stuck in it!
Much love, happiness, and strength your way. I will pray for you.(not sure of your beliefs. Just found your channel. But my prayers are meant as help.)
Keep searching for what you need! You do deserve it! And most certain will find it! Hugs
This made me cry, your advice/words are perfect....
Couldn't have said it better myself!
Thank you posting this. I have been depressed lately because of how much my life has been derailed by the limitations my illness causes and I hit the wall last night and just broke down in tears - which of course left me feeling alone, stupid and weak.
Then I see your video pop up in my sub feed and there is this badass chick I admire the hell out of saying “yes I sometimes get upset with my situation and yes I cry and yes I disappear sometimes - but I’m not afraid to admit and I’m not letting it stop me anymore”.
Just seeing you turn the camera back on again made me feel like maybe I could resume my life too. Thank you for sharing your struggle and your determination - I really needed to see this today.
SomethingToFear ditto
SomethingToFear, Very well said. This is my first time coming across a video of Kaitlyn's. She is terrific, isn't she!? I am also struggling with my new reality of chronic illness and disability....and I also found this to be inspirational. Sometimes it just takes a bit of a kick in the pant's to get me back on the right track. All the best to you, and I am glad you saw a bit more light in your day! Blessings and positive vibes are being sent your way!! :)
GVGIRL I think you are inspirational
What you talking about Willis, That is so kind of you to say...Thank you! I certainly don't feel like it! I have been dealing with my insurance regarding correct DME equipment, and everyone knows how fun that can be! I just keep telling myself, that it could be worse! Thanks for giving me a little smile today.... :). UPDATE: My DME finally got approved! I've very thankful and grateful. Here's hoping it provides relief!!!
We all have days, weeks, months.. You have no reason to feel that you have to explain yourself..
My mom is very sick from cancer. I’m watching her fade away. I want her back like you want your arms and legs back. I understand. Life has so much pain sometimes and it just doesn’t make sense. We must accept the pain and push on and be strong, but cry when we need to. You are worthy of having arms and legs. I am worthy of having my mom. And it really sucks that this is how things are. All we can do is value the things that we do have. I respect you for saying how you feel. We struggle at night in the sadness. This all makes us much stronger though. You’re stronger than you probably ever thought possible. Keep moving forward.
You really can't compare those two situations at all. Please don't try to.
violet_blume shut the fuck up.
Cute Pumpkin hey sweetie hope your mum is doing ok today. Thinking of you from New Zealand. Beautifully said darling. I also hope your ok. Good girl.
What you talking about Willis thank you. That girl’s response really hurt my feelings. God bless.
Cute Pumpkin I know honey I knew exactly what you meant by it as well wanting something that bad. Just ignore people like that baby take what you need from the comments and with a breath of kindness blow the rest away. I pray for you and your mumma darling.
It just hit me...have u ever thought about becoming a counselor or a psychologist....u could help people so much because I think ur perspective on life is a unique one..u have been through so much for such a young person that u probably have a lot of wisdom and insights into life.and I really REALLY believe u could help people with emotional problems...it would give u such a feeinng of selfworth.
I REALLY believe what happened to u happened for a reason...u have already completely reinvented yourself with you tube,maybe u need now to find also alternative ways to find meaning in ur life.
Orla O'Riordan great insight
10000%right
So true ..she is such a wise person and has a wonderful heart ..she could help a lot of people ..
Cry, rant scream....get "it" out! What has happened to you is incredibly unfair and has got to be overwhelmingly frustrating. You have every right to feel good, bad or otherwise. Please know, and never forget, how amazing you are, regardless, or in spite of, your challenges. You're funny, bright and talented, that's why those that follow you, adore you so very, very much. Sending you tons of love and hugs from So. Cal. 💕
Caliluv sending love & hugs right back at you from nor cal! 💕💕💕💕💕💕
Caliluv, SO TRUE!! Nicely said!
Oh this hurt my heart so much for you. Thank uou for being so brave to share
Wow your so transparent, you didn’t have to share that but I’m happy that you trust us to know something so personal. I actually went through a divorce this year and when I left my husband I picked up a journal and starting writing to God. And when I tell you it was the best way of screaming and getting things out and telling God my needs and wants and how I was longing for his direction. It helped me more ways then words can explain🙌🏽. I’m saying this to say stick to it, your going to overcome this💪🏽. You are stronger and brighter then you even know. I’m praying for you girl♥️
Kaitlyn, as someone who has been dealing with chronic health issues for over 25 years, let me share something. It's OK It's ok to be sad. It's ok to want what's gone. It's ok to wish things were different. It's ok to want more. We beat ourselves up way too much... over everything and nothing. We mourn for what was. With that said, a wise man once told me, "Worry about that which you can change. There's no sense in stressing yourself out over things that are out of your control." It is a hard mentality to get into, but once you do burdens seem somehow less. I've had to come to terms with a lot over the years, and I try to do it with a laugh and a smile. Yet, tears do fall. It's OK when they do. I've also been told by a wise woman, "When you feel your worst, just reach up/out. You've got support in places you don't even realize, and someone will help." My friends have been there time and again...I just needed to trust. My tiny channel has a video called "This is what a bad day looks like" and it's my raw, hurting truth. It was hard for me to share, but it might help you know that you're not alone. We all struggle sometimes.
You inspire thousands... you are my hero...
4 years ago my brain started sending and receiving wrong signals. Involuntary movement, seizures, tics, fatigue, pain, memory issues. I went from active mum to housebound. I eventually got a wheelchair, so I can get out on better days. I still have my arms and legs but they do their own thing lol and when they don't do their own thing my muscles fatigue so fast I struggle. I completely understand how you feel. I miss walking the dogs the most ,feeling the wind. seeing other people walking easily I wish they knew the gift they had.
I've gone through anger , depression etc how you feel is so normal after such a life changing experience.
Do you have MS?
I know, I wish other people knew what they had sometimes.... But that makes me think that maybe I have more than I think too!
This broke my heart :-(
Some of the most awesome people I know have been in or are currently in therapy. I'll be starting soon and, with all due respect, I'm thinking it may help you. Neither of us deserves to be sad when many or most or all of our issues are caused by people or circumstances from the past. Whatever you decide, I hope you know that we are rooting for you. And, if you do decide to go, the reading I've been doing suggests therapists/counselors and/or life coaches are better for many issues. UA-cam has quite a few. I've heard a lot of frustrated psychiatric patients that are getting drugs that they don't believe are helping and that's all they get.
We are all allowed to feel like this! You have a good reason ! But you ll bounce back!. Give yourself time. Xxxxxxxxxxx
Just glad you're ok! However long it takes for you to upload, your fans will be here.💜
I saw you in my recommendation and decided to take a chance and watch you! I am so glad that I did. Your spirit and openness is catching! Never feel that you have to explain why you are sad/depressed. I too suffer from depression and go off the grid for quite some time. My family does not understand why and when I try to explain I am only bashed for it and told to "get over it". I wish I was as open as you are, you are an inspiration to me as well as everyone on here! Keep praying and keep your head up! If ever you need someone to talk to, or anyone reading this comment, please feel free to message me, I will be a listening ear and try to comfort you all! God bless you!!! Continue to be you hunny!! ❤❤❤
You are beautiful and amazing. Listen, I know that if you compare what happened to you with other people's struggles you may feel alone. The truth is we are not good at accepting our limitations. I know this too well. I had an accident and being in a wheelchair since then. I wouldn't accept it for so long, I spent years praying for a miracle and I went crazy sometimes thinking that I could walk again. I don't want to sound stupid, but things get easier when you accept reality. Once you do that, you start to improve yourself in realistic ways. For example I started to work out (the way I could) eating healthier, and I did investigate the new technology for people like me. So you can see that my expectations were more realistic. You have a community here that supports you, if you find something that would make your condition better, you can always ask for help to get the means to do it. If you need therapy do it, if you need pills take them, if you need to work out do it. But you have to accept first and stop being the victim, because feeling like that its the worst, being there. :(
Hugs. I'm sad too sometimes. We understand if you need time away. 💝
If you want to take a break from you tube, then take it! You don't owe us anything. I'm grateful to see whenever you do post. And, you should already be proud of yourself!!! I am proud of you, I think you are 1 hell of a woman. You have a very cool personality and a great speaking voice, did you ever try to do any voice over work? Well going to be sending you lots of positive energy! Take care
Aww Kaitlyn 😢 I cannot imagine in the slightest what you’re going through, but I do know what sadness/depression feels like. Everyone has their own battles and trials to go through in life to teach us lessons and make us who God wants us to be. Remember that God knows exactly how you feel and what you’re going through, and that He will NEVER forsake you. He is there to guide you through the good and bad times, so keep your focus on Him; Heb 13:5. Remember Job was a righteous man, was prosperous and had a big family, then all of a sudden he lost everything and got very sick. Of course he fell under depression but persevered and God eventually blessed him with twice as much as he had before. God is full of mercy and though you may not understand at this moment why things went the way they happened, know that “All things work together for good for those that love God” Romans 8:28.
Keep hanging on, you have already come this far. Live in the moment and trust that you are still alive for a good reason ❤️ Sending you all my love and care 🤗
Thank you so much for that bible quote, I needed that. We can all learn something from Job.
What a beautiful comment.x
Job has never helped me. I've been a Christian for a very long time and I will never understand how that book can be hopeful. God and I will talk about that in heaven. :)
Chrissy Foley You have to give your LIFE to Jesus.... Live the bible ..... Being a Christian does not mean that IT is always easy......but Worth IT!!!!!!!
I don't understand your answer. I've given my life to Jesus many years ago. I know it's not easy believe me I've walked through a lot and without him I would not have made it. However just because I don't understand Job doesn't mean I don't live the Bible. He had so many things happen to him. Once being the loss of his children. You can never replace children. All I'm saying is that book makes me sad and doesn't help me when I'm going through things. There are many things I can't wait to talk to God about face to face.
There are a gazillion things you can do with your life. Do what makes you feel good, and get help/counseling if you need it.
Being born disabled, I can't quite understand how becoming disabled later in life feels and what it can do to a person. But I know that there are many things we can do, and that even though life can suck it can also be pretty damn awesome.
Have you looked into going to culinary school (did I get that right? I'm tired, have dysexecutive syndrome and am Swedish 😂), what kind of support you could get while at school, etc.?
I, too, try to be a UA-camr, but my disabilities, especially my dysexecutive syndrome, chronic pain with fatigue and depression get in the way...
In closing, you're awesome. ❤️
Kaitlyn - You are amazing! I look at you and I see such an incredible and beautiful human being. You don't need to explain to anybody why you disappeared. Everyone has their story and their struggles. I cannot even begin to imagine yours. I know we don't know each other but you make such an impact on me I can't even explain. I watch you in awe. And maybe you may think that you are nothing more than any other person out there but there is something about you... It put the biggest smile on my face when I saw you had uploaded a new video. You do that to people. From hundreds of miles away - you make people smile. How awesome is that? In a world where a lot of people go about their days with their heads down and just not giving two turds about the people around them....and then there is you. You shine. You are as real as they come. Take the time that you need. You deserve it without apology or explanation. You do deserve the life you want - a normal life and an easier life as you mentioned. To sit here and say I understand....is wrong...because the honest truth is I don't. I don't know what you are going through. All I can say is that you inspire me to see life through a different lens and for that my friend, I am so grateful. You bring life to life and it's true inspiration. I wish only the best for you in this thing called life and I hope that you find emotional healing.
Grace Burbridge....wow I love what you said 💟
Grace Burbridge beautiful
Grace Burbridge, Very nicely said....Kaitlyn truly is inspirational! There is one thing that you said, (as well as another viewer), that makes me question people's viewpoint regarding saying 'I understand'. I personally don't feel it is wrong to say 'I understand', to someone. When I say that in conversation, I am meaning I understand you are struggling, I understand you are in pain, I understand you are so excited, or joyous about the birth of your new child...etc. When I say that, I am not saying I know exactly how you feel with any of the above, but I do understand that you are hurting, etc. I was an RN for over 25 years, and I recently got rid of my work file that had all sorts of thank you cards from previous patients I cared for. I am not trying to pat myself on my back, I'm only using this as an example. The vast majority mentioned how 'compassionate' I was. Never once have I been told by a patient 'You don't understand me', 'You don't know how I'm feeling.', or something to that effect. I am honestly interested in anyones input regarding this, so we can all know what people find acceptable and not acceptable. Thanks!
Mellow Yellow, I appreciate your attempt at explaining things, and sharing your input. I still am not on the same page as what you are saying. I think the word 'empathy', truly describes what you are stating. If someone (understandably) didn't use the words 'I empathize with you', the more common phrase would be 'I know what you are feeling'. Those two things basically describe what you are saying (from my point of view). One definition of 'Understand', is to perceive the intention of what one is saying or expressing. If I am off base with my thought process, I guess I should count my lucky stars that I have never been pulled up on this by my patients, colleagues, and bosses, and students. Maybe it's time for me to stop teaching 'Interpersonal Communication In The Workplace'. No... I don't think so, but thanks for trying to enlighten me. All the best....
You don't need to have explanation life happens we love you!
EVERYONE'S GOT ISSUE'S BEAUTIFUL GIRL, JUST SO SORRY, WISH I COULD GIVE U A BIG SQUISH!!!!!!!!! PRAYERS KEEP FIGHTING SWEETHEART 💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙💜💙 YOU ARE SO STRONG!!!!!!!!! LOTS OF LOVE HUNNY!!!!!!😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍
You are totally justified in feeling frustrated and down. You’ve been through a lot. Thank you for being so vulnerable, it’s inspiring to many of us. You have a lot to offer the world. You’ve touched my heart. Sending you love from Washington. ❤️❤️❤️😘
Arms and legs or not, you are worthy of all. I know life is hard. 💔 But take time for you if you need. Believe it or not, you really don't owe anybody any explanation because you have every right to feel what you're feeling. You are so brave and I pray you find your happiness! 💓
This is the first time I see a video of you, and you touched me deeply.
I know that I'm not always grateful enough for the things I have.
Like limbs.
I will now watch other videos of you, because I want to hear about you.
But I understand you don't actually talk about that … I hope you will do it more though, because I feel you can help people with that.
Bless you.
I love your realness in this video♡♡♡ Its not always going to be easy, but you WILL get through it. Life will keep moving, and you will figure out how to move through it as you go.
I understand the difficulty of opening up, and feeling exposed. But, maybe sharing your struggles like this is something you can do.I find your story, and the honesty in this video so relatable, and personally enjoy watching them more then make up tutorials. Never stop sharing your story, I love you for it ♡♡♡♡ Take care of yourself Katie, we need you here just the way you are.
Everyone is sad at times and life IS hard. You have more reason than most to feel that way. You ARE the person God wants you to be. Stay strong. Prayers
Your explanation is all that is needed. You are a very good person and are human. Do not beat yourself up because you are human. Feelings do not need explanations because we all feel what we feel. Just control what you can control. Unfortunately, us humans were never given control over everything. Sometimes all we can do is hang on till a period of sadness passes. You are stronger than what you think you are or you would not have come this far. I have depression and anxiety also. That is why I have a medication manager and counselor. If you feel like that could help, try it. In a nutshell, all of us out here are sending you the best vibes we can. I am sorry to be so disjointed, I am trying to get too many positive ideas to you at one time!! Hang in dear lady!! You are loved by many.
Very brave! It’s ok to not be ok! You are an inspiration! ❤️❤️
Glad ur back, thanks for sharing such a personal side...you have been through so much, sometimes u need a break to reset. One day at a time beautiful..see u soon! :)
Your a beautiful soul and you honestly have the right to feel the way that you do... you shouldn't get down on yourself cause your sad ...
It's okay to feel sad or depressed ... all that matters is you don't stay there and let the sadness stay too long an take over your life.. embrace those emotions let yourself feel them without remorse...
And don't ever be sorry for it cause your taking care of you !!
Stay strong pretty lady ❤
And don't let the sadness win cause your stronger than that !!
I have mental illness including depression so I understand. You went through such a traumatic event. We all understand 💜
I think we all understand before you even explain.. not many people know what you go through, so yeah we get it. An Idea, on UA-cam right now it's a thing to build up anticipation. Make people excited to see your content.. leave them wanting more so when you do come back it'll feel like you never left, that also might help you with you depression and help motivate and excite you as well! I really want nothing but the best for you, you're a good person, with a good heart! Gods got your back though and remember to trust him, you may not understand now but hopefully one day you will!.. much love ❤
You showed up in my feed and I watched several of your videos...I don't think you realize how amazing you are. You exemplify TRUE beauty and there is something so magnetic about you...I know I don't know you, but your story has touched my heart. I hope you're in better spirits, and I pray that you'll be able to overcome any sadness or pain you're experiencing. Whenever you decide to post, I look forward to seeing you in your next video.
Nice to see your beautiful face ❤️ Im sad too.
you find yourself funny?
@@angelinamartinez3210 there was nothing funny about what I said. Fuck off. She's beautiful.
@@glitterbomb7614 there's alway that 1 person ..geesh..not sure why she thought you were being sarcastic but she needs to mind her own business..I hope your okay ...
Im sad too but about nothing specific.
This hurt my heart, you deserve to be happy. You are strong as fuck and so beautiful, YOU GOT THIS
Kaitlyn I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. Just know we are always here for you and taking time for yourself is so important. There is nothing that you owe us. I'm an Occupational Therapy Assistant and if there's anything I can ever help you with feel free to reach out to me. Sending my love and good vibes to you💜💜
Your sadness is valid. It isn't pathetic or stupid. Don't forget the challenges you have overcome. YOU ALMOST DIED! But you lived. You grace us with your videos and you make us laugh and wish we were friends with you in real life. You amaze us and impress us. Even more so with your honesty. You are not just the woman who can apply banging makeup with a prosthetic arm. You are so much more than that. I don't know what your purpose is on this earth but I'm glad your back.
Maybe someday you can get your wish. We love you no matter what. You owe us nothing, but you opened up to us. That’s gotta count for something.
you're amazing and strong and you deserve to be able to take time off for yourself when you're feeling sad. We love you and you inspire a lot of people.
#GIRLBYE we all get in our feelings from time to time, we love you, we are here for you, YOU ARE PERFECT just the way you are, God makes no mistake, YOU ARE SPECIAL, do not let satan steal your joy, hold your head high and BEAT - YOUR-FACE-FOR-THE-GAWDS!!! you are an inspiration and remember u dnt need arms and legs to be smart and beautiful all you need is a smile and a pure heart 💜💛💚💕
And Kaitlyn has the smarts, the looks and mad skills
I feel you! I suffer from depression because I've dealt with illness my whole life. You ain't alone girl :) stay strong! Life's a roller coaster
I’m sorry you are feeling sad. I truly wish you weren’t depressed and I’m sending white light and love your way. I still think you are pretty awesome. You inspire so many people. Life is hard...you are so right about that. If you ever want to chat, just send me a message. We can cry together and laugh too. Do something kind for yourself. I’m going through a little bit of a rough time myself. Sometimes I wonder what’s even the point to my life...I know it sounds so dark. But my husband passed away in 2011 and it just seems I have gone further and further down hill. But there’s that little voice inside that i still feel like there IS a reason. A reason for everything. We are all here to help each other. We get one life and that soul that heart beating inside of you IS worth just as much as anyone else’s. So I try to tell myself...my life may not be perfect, it will never be perfect. Shit is going to happen. We will be sad at times. We will be angry as hell. We might question our faith. We might lose faith. But just know you will be rewarded in your next life for being such a kind hearted, beautiful soul in this one. I believe that. So please just know you are loved by so many. I am pretty sure I’ve watched all of your videos. I can’t say that about any other UA-camr. You are a beautiful and genuine person. It’s also ok to be pissed. It’s ok to cry. It’s ok because it’s human. I wish I could hug you. Please don’t stop smiling.
Sending so much love ❤️❤️❤️ I love your authenticity. We’re all trying to navigate our unique experiences of life, but reaching out with honesty and perspective will help us all make it through learning and loving at as many stages as possible.
Awe sweets. So much of what you said made total sense. I truly believe the hardest thing to stop doing is wanting something you can’t have. My situation is my daughter is autistic. And now with tears I wish she could talk. My mom in me wishes you had arms and legs. With legs and arms or not I have found you inspiring. Loving and real. I wish for me I could help you the way you have helped me. The sickness you got is so unfair as there are people who do nothing but poison themselves with their arms and hurt themselves w their legs. I think culinary school is a fantastic idea. I was just saying to my husband that I wish that field wasn’t all perfection. I would love to see someone who has a disability and maybe our paths crossed for a reason. I know it would be hard. But babe if u can do eyeliner you can cook. I know you can and I for one would buy your cook book!!!!! Thank you for you. I was once told it was ok to loose it every now and then but it’s also great to find it again too ❤️
I'm so sorry you feel that way. I suffer with PTSD, chronic depression and anxiety so I know how hard it can be. We are all here for you. You can do WHATEVER you put your mind to. But no one can tell you that unless you believe it yourself. We love you.
This is so sad to me because you really can't understand how she feels she just want to have a normal life again an do things that she can't no more...I feel that pain but no matter what she still a beautiful person
I understand hunnie. I battle with depression and it can leave you feeling withdrawn and detached from the world. It's very isolating as we try to deal with it ourselves. I've turned to mindfulness and cognitive behavioural therapy. It's not a quick fix but has given me some tools to use to manage my negative thinking process and live in the now and the present. I'm a work in progress my lovely. You are an inspiration to me sweetie. To have the courage to talk to your followers about your state of mind is so brave as we feel so vulnerable. I hope we can all support you and get you through each day. Sending you hugs from The UK ❤ ❤
Kaitlyn trust me girl.. I understand what you are feeling.. Now i realize we are on a cycle with many others like us.
But let me give you this assurance you and i are having a faar better life than 60% population of the world.
You are beautiful, your smile is one of the bests i have seen. This is just a weather which will pass by..
Love you.. 😘❤
Well I’m following you as being someone with anxiety and depression you have been my inspiration. But OMG you have showed what you CAN do with your makeup alone!!!
What is wrong with you??? You have every right to disappear/take time off! And you never have to explain yourself to anyone. Your strength is astounding. Your personality and sense of humor makes me want to be a better person. It makes me humble and grateful for the things I take for granted. You are brave, strong and beautiful and so very loved. It's ok to be sad and angry. I hope you get happy and goofy soon. We are all here for you girl!!
I love you so much! This was so beautiful and have inspired me so much more than you’ll ever know. The amount of fight you have is really stunning! ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you!!!
So glad to see your face again!
I completely understand your feelings; I am epileptic. It too has changed my life and I also went through a long period of wanting to go back to the way I was.
It’s normal for you to have these feelings. Believe it or not, but they’re part of the healing process. Everyone’s process is different and some take longer than others, but it’s all very normal.
One day I promise that you will get to a positive place where you know that the old you is the past, and you can’t go back to the past. Your experience has helped to build a stronger you, mentally, emotionally, and physically - even though you may not see that now.
You do have a purpose and you’ll find it when you’ve past this stage. It’s a difficult stage, believe me, I know. You’re a better person for your experience. A day will come when you’ll be ready to take the view point that it’s time to look at your disability (that’s how I see my epilepsy) and the pitfalls, and make them work for you in the positive. Only you can figure that out, but it will happen. Hugs!
You may be in a bad mood but girl! Your sooooo beautiful today!!! It's ok to have times of sadness or set backs. Things happen, and we all love you and totally understand. I'm praying for you, your so amazing and incredible!
You’re such an inspiration. It’s okay to be sad. We’re only human ❤️
My gran always says "These things are sent to try us". I don't know why some people get far worse things happening to them than others. As a believer in God, that part has always made me wonder, especially when it comes to children being hurt and killed. My cousin lost her son who was just four years old, he drowned and my cousin has never and will never get over it. I don't know what it's like for you and what you've gone through, it's clear you've been through hell and back though. Thing is, you're here, you beat that horrible disease that could easily have taken your life and I do believe you're here for a reason. I believe it will become apparent in the not so distant future what that reason is. In the meantime, could I suggest that you get some counseling? I don't know what your stance is on medication but maybe think about that also. I know meds aren't always the answer but you needn't be on them long term, it could be that you'd benefit from a course just to help with what sounds a lot like depression. I hope you don't mind me saying that. I won't profess to know you but from what I've seen, you are as strong as hell but that doesn't mean you can't have times where you feel really low and lost. It's about finding a coping tool that you can fall back on when you have bad days. You've got every right to say why me, what did I do? But that will only hold you back more as harsh as that sounds. You've got an amazing family there and I'm sure they'll do absolutely anything to help you. Try not to think that you can't tell them these things in case it upsets them, I'm pretty sure they'd be glad you did. There's nothing worse than bottling everything up inside but putting on a brave face for others. You've got loads to give sweetheart, I wish I had a magic wand and give you back what you lost but you still have a lot of life to live and with more and more advances in prosthetics, who knows what's waiting around the corner. I hope I've not offended you in any way, it's just a shame that someone as beautiful as you is suffering in silence and feeling so alone. You have all of us anytime you want to offload so don't ever think oh I better not say this or that. Use this platform because you've already given us plenty, such as allowing us to get to know just how lovely a person you are. I'll be thinking about you and hope you start feeling better real soon, god bless.
I'm going through depression and to be honest I think about suicide every single day. I totally understand that sometimes we can get sad to the point that it makes us not want to do anything. Do what is best for you. If you can't make videos take a break. We will always support you no matter what!!
Kaitlyn. Nothing I say could ever make it better and maybe this might be bitter sweet for you to hear! But I want you to know! I have neglected my arms and legs. I make excuses... my legs hurt my arms hurt I’m tired.... but nothing hurts more than hearing you say “I want my arms and legs back” and “I’ll do anything to be worth of having them back” 😭 I’m balling my eyes out typing this! I’m so sorry kaitlyn. I want to be better and do better with the arms and legs I do have! I don’t want to take them for granted and for the people who wish they had arms and legs I want to live my life to the fullest that I can with them for you and others like you! I’m so sorry! You’re a beautiful and amazing person and you’re so worthy of arms and legs girl! I know this doesn’t help but you’re such a beautiful person and you’re almost too worth for them! You have such a huge calling on your life and make an impact on so many arms and legs aren’t worthy of YOU! you’re going to have a bright future and I know there’s a reason you’re where you are! And I just seriously wish we could be friends! You’re so encouraging and bright! and I know it’s not always rainbows and sunshine but girl! You just naturally radiate and I love it! And I don’t say this to strangers or just anyone but seriously I have so much love for you! Stay strong! You’re impacting so many!
Sam
This was so well put. I wanted to say something but I don’t know how to put in into words of encouragement when I feel so hypocritical. You’re absolutely right and I relate as I complain over the dumbest things. Her struggle is not just not having arms and legs but to do some of the basics we often take for granted. I feel so shitty and selfish. Sometimes complaining over things that would have anyone give me the side eye. Anyways, you seem like such a lovely person and that exact quote from her did get to me. Take care and continue to inspire others with your words and smile.
awe girl i totally understand depression is tough and i could not imagine what you go through i cried with you.you have every right to take as many breaks as you need.and i will be here to watch videos no matter how many times you post.im sure others feel the same.cause i find you so inspiring and you show me to be thankful and not take things for granted.i suffer from depression as well and when i see you happy doing make up and having beautiful attitude it makes me suck it up and take care of myself. Im sorry for rambling on lol i hope you get yourself feeling good again and feel happiness cause you deserve it girl.
hi :) don't be sad, we love you !
Totally understand as I suffer with depression and ptsd hope you can stay strong your very brave and a genuine lovely woman ❤️❤️
You been though hell many times over. Of course you’re gonna depressed. Life sucks and life is hard. How can anyone be “happy” under those circumstances? Life hasn’t treated you fair at all. Anger is a natural response.
I'm sorry Kaitlyn, I've struggled with depression and disability too. We're here for you and you should have a counselor or other support when you need it and focus on yourself when you need time out for that 💖💖
So happy to see u ur beautiful missed seeing u
You're amazing young lady! I'm handicapped also and I can understand you on a certain level. Being the me I was supposed to be, I mourn the loss of her. You're super talented and creative! I know you will move from this darkness back into the light. We go side to side and sometimes backwards but we always end up going forwards again because we are positive people! You give me inspiration!!! Much love and happiness!!!
Have you tried therapy! It helps me a ton! ❤️
Melissamonique, Very true, and great suggestion for anyone who is struggling!
It has turned my life around. Well, I did the work, and it’s been paying off
You're still mourning your loss and that's fine, you never need to just get over it. What you do need to do is focus on the other things you can do. It's easier to focus on the things we can't do. It's okay to have these moments of feeling down, so cry as you need to and let it out, but know that tomorrow is a new day and you need to pick yourself up and keep pushing. You're still going through that phase of finding yourself.
Kaitlyn.... I write down the same things hunny... I dont have my legs and I am sad everyday .... EVERYDAY. I dont know what to do to change it. I feel like I am stuck in this wheelchair forever and will never be the wife and mother I was 4 years ago. I dont know if it will help but if you want to chat Im here... we can be sad together lol love you....
Hey, lovely lady, no need to explain.
Glad you came back...that took guts to read that to us! I understand the sad times... I think we all get them, you're not alone. I may have arms and legs, but I also have stage 5 renal failure! I know I'm not long for this earth, but while I'm still alive I will help others smile daily. Even though you may be sad on the inside you can put a smile on your face and help others be happy! You truly are an amazing woman!
Hi beautiful i miss you so much 💞🌹💞🌹
Rosa Love u trans?
Chester Izzy Of course not why do you say that
Chester Izzy Are you
Be proud that you made this video. I know it takes a lot of energy to do especially when your sad. I can relate, i have been suffering from depression for a few years now, mainly due to a 9 year relationship ending then having been diagnosed with low thyroid which makes me sleep a lot and gives me no energy or motivation. It takes a lot just to leave the house. I couldn't imagine getting the strength to make youtube videos, I always wondered in the past how you do it. I also don't cry much , its usually a song that would make me start crying for no reason, which sucks cause i love music and listen a lot. I, like many others I'm sure, are very proud of you and we are here for support. And if things do get worst or don't get better then please confide in someone. From a 36 year old guy. Love and support from Ireland.
Kaitlyn ,you have wonderfull parents I don't but must live with it .....
You're absolutely amazing. Your strength gives others strength. I know your life isn't "normal" anymore, but the path you're on now is so inspiring and you're actually changing the world just by persevering and giving others hope. You're beautiful inside and out and absolutely indispensable to the human race. Please hang in there and take care, we all love you.
Being a human is messy, and complicated, and we cannot always control our feelings. I love that you have found a way to express them and share them with the world. Sending much love to you. xx
It's ok to be sad... It sucks but it's a normal feeling, especially since you do have struggles and challenges that are beyond most of our understanding. You are a light and a blessing, just for being YOU!👍🏼💕
My heart breaks for you! This is the first vlog of yours I’ve watched, but it won’t be the last! I subscribed and will continue to watch! You are an incredible young woman and I am going to show my kids your vlogs! My children are all adults now, but their world has changed drastically over the past nineteen years! They were happy and extremely active when they were young up through about middle school. One at a time they and their dad were diagnosed with Muscular Dystrophy and slowly they went from very active to wearing leg braces and the oldest is now in a wheelchair and hospital bed. I know that it is very hard for them sometimes and there is nothing I can do to take it away as much as I would like to! When they see how courageous you are I hope it will help them! God Bless you, you are an inspiration!
Thank you Kaitlyn! Thank you for being brave and honest. You have given me perspective just when I needed it. If sharing these feelings on camera is helpful for you DO IT guuurl!!! Whatever we all need to do to get us through....is ok. Love you ♥
Awe please dont be sad, you are beautiful, talented, strong, and loved! And you can do anything that you put your mind to. You inspire me so much to live my life to the fullest every single day!
Oh Kaitlyn , this is a great video. I have all my limbs and I still suffer from the worst depression sometimes. To the point where I'll think "what is my purpose?" "Im worthless" etc. As a kid I suffered a huge amount of psychological trauma. I believe that may be part of the reason I feel like my life has no value. Sometimes I have better days. But I just want to remind you we all can be helpless and weak and feel like the future holds nothing great for us. With or without the limbs. But that's just part of the journey. It's important to cry and let it out. And it's important to take some time off things. I am glad to see you back though!
❤️❤️❤️❤️ I get it. I TOTALLY get where you are coming from. I struggled horribly with chronic depression for years along with horrible anxiety and PTSD. I found relief in two things- therapy and medication. Let’s talk about the elephant in the room- meds. My brain does not make the amount of stuff it needs to keep the sads away. I struggled with this because I didn’t want to be on meds because I was embarrassed and saw it as a weakness. Now I see things totally different. I would not tell someone to not take insulin, so why am I being so mean to myself. Therapy was another thing. I had to deal with my trauma and learn ways to deal with my anxiety and depression. It WORKS. It’s worth it. You deserve it. No matter the route you chose, just know that you are from from alone and we are here to listen and support you. I have ups and downs still, but they are so much better and far in between now. Every body is different so please continue to be kind to yours. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
You are amazing and strong!!!! You should be proud of yourself... you are inspiration to other people!!!!
you went through SO MUCH! its just natural that your brain needs time to process everything. therapy helped me so much. i talk to a therapist every 2 weeks since over 6 years and im still learning to deal with my feelings. you dont need to just suffer your emotions through. go and reach out for a professional, theres no shame to that. love you! you are incredible strong and i understand how much things can SUCK. life can suck so bad. but there are good things, even if its hard to feel it from time to time
Thank you for posting this video. I've been dealing with an unexpected major surgery then back in the hospital less than a week later. Today i have felt sad, hopeless and why has this happened to me. You are amazingly strong and beautiful person and having those feelings seem natural. Hang in there and thank you again for your post 💜💜
I go through the same things. Sometimes I just get sad and don't know the exact reason. I fall deeper and deeper trying to figure out the roots to the emotions. everything happens for a reason and makes us stronger. You'll get through it girl. Just surround yourself by positive supportive people. Prove to everyone and yourself that regardless of your condition that you'll make the best of it. You'll still achieve your goals and passions. We love you 💙💚💙💚
Bless your heart. No wonder you feel this way at times. It's totally understandable. Xx
Thank you for sharing your vulnerability. It’s beautiful. I’m so sorry you’re sad right now.. life has so many seasons and this sounds like a really tough one. Sending you strength, peace and love 💓🌸🌻
Wow. That was a really beautiful and strong piece of writing. Sending you good vibes, depression is tough but you're tougher.
You are one very strong bumble bee and I love you. ❤️ It is so hard to apreciate life sometimes when it treats you so unfairly. Keep on hangig over there, you never know what surprises you in the future, what opertunities you will get and joys. Life is one fucked up rolercoaster. Love u ❤️
Hi Kaitlyn...I had to retire early from 25yrs as an RN. I was then declared permanently disabled due to my chronic illnesses. Just writing that, is still hard for me to realize....it is my new reality. My last day of work was 8/1/2015 - 3 yrs ago! I want to tell you that you are terrific. I think it is not just you that sometimes or frequently gets sad and avoids talking about it. I think the majority of people in our society go thru times of sadness, irregardless of chronic illness, disability, or whatever....AND people just don't seem to talk about it. Why do we do that to ourselves? I think you posting this video will be very helpful to many viewers, and hopefully you as well. That in itself is something to be proud of. You give me inspiration, and that is something you should be proud of. I'm certainly no expert; however, when I heard someone speak about the importance of living your truth...it rang true for me. Not saying it is easy, it's not. For me, it was helpful to hear, that living my truth is a very healthy, respectable thing to do. Life is not 'hunky dory' all the time, (far from it), but it's something to strive for and be proud of, and hopefully we will find it a more peaceful way of living our lives. Thanks again, and all sorts of positive vibes being sent your way!!
I always love seeing you pop up on my feed 💛 i can’t imagine how hard it is for you but you’ve been such an inspiration in my life and i’m sure there’s some great good that can come out of all of this, even if it’s impossible to see how. we love you kaitlyn!
Your a WARRIOR!!!! Just getting up everyday and living your life day to day is a struggle, I'm sure. Your doing great! Just keep on being you and real and everything else will fall into place! Your amazing
Aww, love! Know that we are all rooting for you! 💕 It takes alot of damn courage to do what you do and get behind a camera and tell your story or share how you feel and be transparent. You're a badass...don't forget that.
I’ve been watching you off and on for a while but not a subscriber. That said, you don’t owe anyone an explanation. You’re very much loved. You rock!!
You are amazing!! I’ve always admired your strength. You are an inspiration, and it’s ok to have the feelings you’re having. Just remember to pick yourself back up. You’re only human girl!! Keep being unapologetically you❤️❤️🤘🏼
Thankful to have you & your vids ! Hard to explain how much your ya mean to some of us. YOU are amazing !
This was so relatable n 1 million ways ,im an artist so I see relations n connections n things people will never notice,but 1 thing is that we're all human n its always a shallow shock when people jus do t understand another ways n reasons n I love that I do understand u 10000% ♡ im jus an understanding person n im glad I was blessed wit that importance, n blessed to have come across u.