I hate coding

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  • Опубліковано 30 вер 2024
  • This video took a long time to record and edit haha, hope you all like it! Let me know how you feel about coding in the comments, I read every single one :)
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 355

  • @halfbakedproductions7887
    @halfbakedproductions7887 Рік тому +20

    Anyone who genuinely enjoys writing code is either a) a dysfunctional freak who lives and breathes code or b) a liar.
    And I can say that quite confidently having worked as a software engineer. I get excited about code and then think "Ehh why am I doing this" after about 2-3 lines or so. It feels like I no longer have the ability to just _think_ and to solve problems, much of the time my brain feels like a lump of concrete and I either miss things that should be obvious, or overthink and overengineer things, or am totally deficient at stuff I was doing for years with aplomb.
    Either burnout, AD(H)D, or some kind of other mental break, I think. Should probably get it checked out.

    • @STEELO-247
      @STEELO-247 8 місяців тому

      I feel entirely the same way. Damn.

    • @dragonbleu1205
      @dragonbleu1205 6 місяців тому

      For me it's dyslexia, my brain hate textual work.

  • @marlonmarcello
    @marlonmarcello Рік тому +45

    I am an SE as well, I work at Shopify and I code everyday, I work hard and give my best and I wouldn't say I hate coding but outside of my working hours I don't want anything to do with coding. I want to enjoy my wife, my dog, friends and my other hobbies. I think you nailed it, work can be just work, it's okay. Thanks for sharing!

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +3

      Thank you for your comment!! And yes I want to spend time actually focused on interests and leave the coding for my job haha :)

    • @marlonmarcello
      @marlonmarcello Рік тому

      @@mewtru you got this! 🌟

    • @liam1902
      @liam1902 Рік тому +1

      I despised coding in university because the grades mattered the most and not learning. But then I fell in love with coding after working on some cool projects/tech stacks for my job. Now that I have a good amount of work experience, it's a mixed-bag because I really want to do and learn more outside of work but doing so now becomes tiresome.
      I wish I could just code for fun without having to worry about the bills 😂

    •  2 місяці тому

      Yeah.. learning a new framework because you suddenly need it for your work due to decisions of management or team-leads should be paid time.

  • @ankansharma4897
    @ankansharma4897 8 місяців тому +14

    I think I just had a profound enlightenment. I just dont like coding. All these 3 to 4 yrs or from childhood I used to think I love coding and now be miserable why I am not like those linkedin people who can code Google in a day. But I dont like coding. Thats why I am not focused or like code in my off-time.
    I am in it for money. I like travelling, interacting with animals, cooking, watching TV shows but I dont like coding.
    Man I feel so light now. I dont have to be good in it. Just be enough to climb the ladder to make more money. Fuck it feels like cheat code to my hugely miserable life.
    I subbed thanks for this.

  • @Jakerandall-h9r
    @Jakerandall-h9r Рік тому +8

    The topics in the code influencer space are mostly pointless and hyperbolic for the sake of clicks. Many of the opinions expressed are only to chase view counts. Furthermore, some people are actively projecting confidence to hide the fact that they too feel like an imposter.
    As a programmer myself-- & I also don't love coding. I love making things that impact the world. I code because it gives me the freedom to build cool things I want to see in the world. The code itself is secondary or even tertiary.

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому

      I love that, " I code because it gives me the freedom to build cool things I want to see in the world". I miss building cool things, going to try and get back into that.

  • @CodingWithLewis
    @CodingWithLewis Рік тому +5

    Great video! Being in the unique position of a programmer AND a programming content creator is something that can be draining REALLY fast. After my job as a programmer, I would go on UA-cam, TikTok, whatever to do something new but now because thats also my job, it's like it's consumed every aspect of my life.
    I relate to the different hobbies aspect that you mentioned. I think learning video editing, 3d modelling and other things has allowed me to create an outlet for creativity in what might seem like a job to most. Being in the "box" of programming content also has allowed me too to think creatively on how to explain things differently.
    Awesome video! Something that should be discussed more.

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +2

      Thank you so much Lewis :)! You make amazing content and your edits are 😩👌🏽. That’s awesome that you do 3D modeling!!!

  • @babylilacforever
    @babylilacforever Рік тому +17

    I think a job can just be a job - find your passion outside of it! I look forward to seeing your animations 🎉

    • @Joshua.Developer
      @Joshua.Developer День тому

      No bro, no. Do not work in jobs you hate every second. The longest I can code is 3 hours max before my brain shuts off. Most devs that love coding to the poi t of 16+ are on the spectrum. So if your not don't even try to be that hyper focused.

  • @lemonfodder
    @lemonfodder Рік тому +22

    Sounds like you need to win the lottery and go permanently offline 🤣

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +6

      Lmaooo I wish 😂

    • @vishwasjadav903
      @vishwasjadav903 Рік тому +1

      I want that too 😢

    • @cosmicentity1520
      @cosmicentity1520 Рік тому

      In my life, there's just 1 puzzle piece missing and that is to win $1B in lottery 🥵

  • @prpunk787
    @prpunk787 Рік тому +10

    anything that humans do 16+ hours a day becomes uninteresting.....

    • @NathanHedglin
      @NathanHedglin Рік тому +1

      Not necessarily but yeah usually a good recipe for burnout

  • @Seekingtruth-mx3ur
    @Seekingtruth-mx3ur Рік тому +9

    Honestly if I ever hit the jackpot lotto I would kick coding to the curb. I fucking hate it. I'm only learning it for the money, other than that... it's so dry, tedious and boring.

    • @kwilson617
      @kwilson617 Рік тому +7

      Sounds like you are making a mistake friend

  • @rumoneanderson270
    @rumoneanderson270 Рік тому +9

    It’s really refreshing to hear an engineer at your status say this but it’s the reality for a lot of devs me included.

  • @benchilcott6908
    @benchilcott6908 Рік тому +5

    Of all the content you’ve made, this has honestly felt the most enjoyable to watch. Not even because of what you’re talking about, it just feels natural and engaging and not forced.
    If there’s a subject you’re truly passionate about (animation, UI, anything) then those will always be your best videos, and you’ll grow an audience that shares those interests.

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +1

      Thank you Ben :)! I feel the same about this video, it felt way more natural to record and edit vs. the technical ones.

  • @KeyesAnthony
    @KeyesAnthony Рік тому +12

    i finish my CS degree tomorrow. college has sucked every molecule of joy out of my soul and even the souls of all of the me's in parallel universes.

    • @Fadegg
      @Fadegg Рік тому +2

      You completed one of the hardest majors. I can only dream of having a cs degree. Congratulations!

    • @KeyesAnthony
      @KeyesAnthony Рік тому +1

      @@Fadegg thank you!

    • @summushieremiasclarkson4700
      @summushieremiasclarkson4700 Рік тому

      @@Fadegg You kidding? It was a cakewalk. CS degrees are a dime a dozen these days.

  • @siyapandey8799
    @siyapandey8799 8 місяців тому +8

    I want to quit my coding job , I've just started, it's just an internship but I feel like it's not for me n I wanna change my entire career only

  • @senshai1267
    @senshai1267 Рік тому +10

    I just hate the sedentary aspect of it .. just sitting around at a desk in the office … bleh

  • @halhali-u2f
    @halhali-u2f 8 місяців тому +7

    I have been a software engineer for past 8 years and I have never related more to someone. Thanks for sharing how you feel girl. I feel the same and it sucks that I am a senior developer now but I genuinely don't care about coding discussions that my coworkers often do. It makes me hate my job even more and make me feel like I am in the wrong career

  • @MrMudbill
    @MrMudbill Рік тому +7

    Mixing a hobby and a job is risky, because you might end up hating your hobby. I think this might have something to do with your feelings with programming.

  • @barmiro
    @barmiro 7 місяців тому +5

    I graduated from med school last year (forced by parents), currently in an internship. I recently realized the same thing about being a doctor - I just don't like it, at all. Every job comes with its difficulties (toxic environment, high expectations, tons of paperwork), but I could never see the point of enduring them, which made me HATE classes and now the job itself.
    That's why I decided to change careers. I'll finish the internship to get my license just in case, but the moment I come home I sit down and code for a couple of hours. It's so much fun! There are of course days when I'm not so enthusiastic, but I just can't process the fact that I actually enjoy watching lectures and doing assignments. I had always hated studying and seriously thought there was something wrong with me.
    Changing careers is daunting, but it's worth it in the long run. I can't imagine doing something I hate for over 40 years.

  • @karri17
    @karri17 Рік тому +9

    currently sobbing over my laptop, I can't stand to see another bug again

  • @DevonVanNote
    @DevonVanNote Рік тому +4

    I am in the same boat as you. I do my work and when I hop off for the day, coding means nothing to me lol. I have many other creative hobbies I enjoy and my job funds that and that’s totally cool with me. Like you said, schooling for computer science is h a r d. At least it was for me. I do this job for the money and I work with a cool team and that’s enough. Others love coding like I love my other hobbies which is totally okay and more power to them. They can keep answering the stack overflow questions I need answers to lmao. Stay rad! Another great video.

  • @genericdeveloper3966
    @genericdeveloper3966 8 місяців тому +6

    As someone who started his work life doing construction in 110 degree weather I have nothing to complain about in my programming career.

  • @GTaichou
    @GTaichou 5 місяців тому +4

    God, this is so good to hear right now. I was feeling *so good* about my choice to change careers into software dev for the last two years taking classes at night, and then I had an absolute existential CRASH at the end of 2023 and it's been SO MUCH HARDER SINCE. I'm so scared for my graduation this year and trying to get a job. The imposter syndrome is REAL.
    I gotta remember that the reason I want to do it is so that I can potentially work from home and use my surplus to fund and participate in animal foster and rescue - and because I like puzzles and want to be more mentally engaged with my work. I'm not *bad* at code (except for being fresh). I learn well, always have, but boy trying to parse official documentation as a fresher feels like reading a technological circle-jerk that makes circular references instead of actually defining a single concept. 😰
    Reddit and such in general have me so scared that if I'm not some savant that deep-throats tech 24/7 like kirby with the munchies that I'll be obsolete and unemployable in 5-10 years.

  • @tibbydudeza
    @tibbydudeza Рік тому +4

    I found my love coding again after being a C coder - was writing boring TPS report programs in a 4GL (SAP ABAP) for 11 years - the money was good but it was soul sucking.
    But then I got laid off during Covid and then learned Python Pandas and .NET C# in my downtime and started contracting writing back end web services and recently I did a contract to implement smartcard (low level bits and bytes) using Java and Android.
    Frustrating but glorious when it all came together.
    I could never do JavaScript or CSS or that web stuff - it reminds me of the SAP ABAP world - so farking boring !!!!.

  • @harshmathurx
    @harshmathurx 5 місяців тому +7

    tortured programmers society

  • @Lucas-iv6ld
    @Lucas-iv6ld Рік тому +9

    I have bachelors in CS, I've been working as a programmer since 2016... And I can say that I hate coding... every new project give me a really bad sensation now... I'm just doing this to pay the bills now.

    • @cosmicentity1520
      @cosmicentity1520 Рік тому +5

      I left the tech industry 1 year after I graduated college. Sleepless nights, endless bugs, excessive deadlines, etc. I couldn't handle it. Wish I never picked tech as a degree.

    • @RyanRonin
      @RyanRonin 5 місяців тому

      ​@@cosmicentity1520what do you do now?

  • @aaronaustrie
    @aaronaustrie 11 місяців тому +11

    I regret choosing CS as my major 🤦🏾‍♂️

    • @YutingWang1123
      @YutingWang1123 11 місяців тому +7

      So do I. It's like a nightmare. I have a final assignment due soon, I procrastinate, have no idea about this.

    • @mithos789
      @mithos789 11 місяців тому +1

      sounds like cs is for autists.

    • @rocket4359
      @rocket4359 10 місяців тому

      @@mithos789 🤣

    • @lgiorgos1
      @lgiorgos1 10 місяців тому

      Do not regret it guys. It's one of the best choices you will make in your life. You will find it later. Trust me on that. You just need to be systematic in your studying.

    • @rocket4359
      @rocket4359 10 місяців тому

      @@lgiorgos1 what do you mean “you will find it later”?

  • @clarenceaigbuza3479
    @clarenceaigbuza3479 Рік тому +6

    Words cannot explain how much I appreciate this VIDEO…. Thank you❤❤❤

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +1

      I appreciate you 🫶🏼!!!

  • @elizabeth00653
    @elizabeth00653 5 місяців тому +9

    I feel this too, I am in a programming degree and I feel like a fake because I'm just there for a job and I don't care about anything else

  • @dank56
    @dank56 Рік тому +4

    This video was so refreshing to watch and resonates with me massively!
    But 9 - 5 as an engineer + 5 - 9 as an engineering content creator = burnout, no? So much thinking about coding
    Give yourself a break haha

  • @kanny8742
    @kanny8742 10 місяців тому +5

    Haven’t seen a more relatable video, are you my long lost sister?😢

  • @aaronaustrie
    @aaronaustrie 11 місяців тому +7

    Programming sucks 🤦🏾‍♂️😞

  • @christofferb5620
    @christofferb5620 Рік тому +6

    I can't even remember the last time I left a comment on a youtube video, it was 10+ years ago without a doubt. I have been trying to grasp what to me feels like a super complex subject, which is: atomic design systems/design system in design (Figma) + code (Nextjs + tailwind) that are synced and preferably has some kind of two-way sync, where Figma components + tokens can translate to code and vice versa and I just watched your three videos going through the nextjs design system with Tailwind and you managed to make something I've honestly spent a ridiculous amount of time on to seem embarrassingly easy (even if I still have some left to figure out on the Figma side of things). Based on that I just had to leave a comment after watching this video, and thank you for you being awesome and sharing these incredibly helpful pieces of content. Looking forward to those framer motion videos! :D

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +1

      Awwwww, this was such a nice comment to read!!! Thank you for the kind words :)

  • @Ytsssss364
    @Ytsssss364 Рік тому +7

    im in a new game dev program, ngl coding not for everyone - we have an intro web interface course and actually learning html and css is interesting - amazing how just one extra line here or there - can do so much. It's a language - look at it like if you want to speak German or Chinese. I like it English my second language - so I guess it takes all kinds; sure there are moments when learning that's frustrating, just like at Berlitz. But overall, it's great. My Asperger's/ADHD co-diagnosis probably is a help in this case.

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +3

      yeah I agree, I don't think coding is for everyone. What differentiates coding from human grammar, is that in human grammar you can interpret meaning out of incorrect statements. Like someone can just say "I cold" and you can interpret that to meaning they're feeling cold. In formal languages like programming you need to be exactly correct. There’s an objective answer to will this code execute or not. So you can't just say like "const a cold" it's like "const a = cold" lol (bad example but you get it)

  • @theemyriamichelle
    @theemyriamichelle Рік тому +5

    Currently getting a minor in comp sci and my coding classes are giving me mental breakdowns this is not for me

  • @justinwalsh424
    @justinwalsh424 Рік тому +5

    Programming dumb stuff is my only joy in life. People love throwing mad shade at flash, but making interactive animated content was my jam. We don't get to do that anymore. Everyone is obsessed with stale ass boring corporate user interfaces pumped through 12 committees and a design system rewrite every few years using broken tools that limit creativity to the point where all I get to do is lego other people's work together like a factory worker. AI should take over. It should take that part over. I quit working on UI and frontend, there is no charm left in it for me. Looking forward to more programming dumb stuff videos.

  • @joshellis8248
    @joshellis8248 Рік тому +5

    I feel this. I learned programming when I was younger because I wanted to make games, and programming just seemed like a necessary part of it. In particular, I want to write the stories for and design games and coding seemed like something I'd have to slog through to get to make what I wanted to make. I fell into an entry-level programming job and did ok and over the years I grew to senior level, but the more time goes on, the more I hate it.
    Part of it is the job itself getting worse, but a lot of the things making it worse are things that have taken over the whole industry. Like Agile and Scrum and sprints, etc. I have no desire to keep up with new technologies, because if they're not specifically about games, they don't interest me in the least. So I just feel stuck and hating life.
    Life got in the way of working on my own stuff, but to be honest, the idea of it not doing well enough to get me out of this is just adding to my depression about everything.

  • @bhargavibhat7044
    @bhargavibhat7044 4 місяці тому +4

    "You don't have to love programming to work as a SE"
    THANKYOU SO MUCH THAT'S VALIDATING AF because I really want to make music, however the industry is pretty corrupted here and its hard to make money out of it initially. That is why I pursued CS and I do quite well in my class, I'm able to build projects better. Somehow, it feels like so much of knowledge is never enough. There's always something out there that I'm unaware of. I fear admitting that I see working in IT as just a money maker when I truly want to spend my energy elsewhere.
    Ugh I hope I land a good job and be able to lead life I want to. These streasful nights where I search my existential issues on UA-cam has to stop someday 😅

  • @martinafourie8726
    @martinafourie8726 10 місяців тому +4

    Thank you for being so open and vulnerable about this! The more I talk to software engineers the more I hear how everyone feels like an imposter at some point in their life. I appreciate that this video shows this from a female perspective as well. As women we can be so hard on ourselves and feel like the odd ones out when we don't fit the norm, and videos like yours show that it is okay and normal to have these feelings and that you're not alone! ❤

  • @mckndesign
    @mckndesign 10 місяців тому +6

    This is me, I feel fake but who cares as long as I have a job.

  • @ArthurSchoppenweghauer
    @ArthurSchoppenweghauer 10 місяців тому +7

    all the important code was already written in before 1980. Ever since then, computers have been getting faster and programmers have been declining in skill. Software is slower now than ever before, which comes with the rise of low-skill developers. This has happened as programming has gone mainstream and armies of replaceable code monkeys aspire to do meaningless busywork in react and angular for FANG because six figures. No new and interesting problems are being solved, no man on the moon, no flying cars, just slow websites, crypto bullshit and lots of software bloat and supply chain attacks. We are living in the dark ages and, of course, most of us don't even know it yet.
    most devs ain't shit, a simple consequence of the pareto distribution. A small number of geniuses basically created the modern world, and because of their incredible genius, there's really nothing for rhe mediocre masses to do any more. this, however, is unacceptable to most people because their lives would be utterly meaningless without some form of purpose, no matter how obviously fake and illusory it might be.In the case of software development this translates to devs making up problems that don't need solving. "Should I abstract the concept of a person?" No, you can just access the data at a specific location in memory and manipulate it.

    • @ocoolwow
      @ocoolwow 10 місяців тому +1

      holy shit your ignorance is astounding

    • @arshiaaghaei
      @arshiaaghaei 7 місяців тому

      Most sane Stack Overflow mod:

    • @whipshaw
      @whipshaw 7 місяців тому

      with AI then...

  • @bananasplitter420
    @bananasplitter420 Рік тому +5

    As a CS student, I keep hearing about impostor syndrome being a HUGE thing in this field, but that makes it so much worse, cuz now I keep thinking "Is this just impostor syndrome, or do I actually not know what the fuck I'm doing"

  • @felipe-ms6ws
    @felipe-ms6ws Рік тому +5

    I needed this. College is just sucking the joy of programming out of me.

  • @factbaba9593
    @factbaba9593 Рік тому +5

    Bruh, i can relate 100% when you said "if i don't do this, what else do i have !!" 😢

  • @LukePighetti
    @LukePighetti Рік тому +5

    Unsolicited opinion: you're not sweating the small stuff which is GOOD. Very few programmers have the ability to say "yo, this pedantic thing everyone is arguing over is NOT IMPORTANT and NOT WORTH MY TIME." That's rare and extremely valuable.

    • @LukePighetti
      @LukePighetti Рік тому +1

      Hot take: your desire for more followers over more money might not be as irrational as you think. We're starting to learn more and more that success comes from distribution, not hard work, and social reach is the most lucrative distribution channel right now.

  • @vegito8502
    @vegito8502 10 місяців тому +7

    If you hate coding, can I have your job? I’m trying to start my career

    • @mechy2k2000
      @mechy2k2000 10 місяців тому +2

      For real, If you hate coding, I'll do your work for a side cut. Man....... I'm trying to get my foot in the door

  • @JohnStockton7459
    @JohnStockton7459 Рік тому +6

    Perspective is extremely important for anyone feeling like this. Would you rather be in a factory or iron foundry or coal mine working 10x harder for half the money?
    "Work" for most of human history has been involuntary slave labor you did survive. Things could always be worse than simply being bored at work

    • @curious_thinker
      @curious_thinker Рік тому +2

      But the choice is not between being a factory worker or being a software engineer. There are so many professions and fields out there that it is possible to find work that is at least tolerable to someone. I have been a software engineer for over a decade and I aboslutely hate this field. Thankfully I am quitting this field forever next week as I found something that is far better for me. Software engineering is absolutely not for everyone.

  • @theultimatereductionist7592
    @theultimatereductionist7592 8 місяців тому +5

    I hate programming and I hate learning non-computer languages, too.
    I only like science language and math language.
    Whether it is spending hours finding the correct words and syntax to create a sentence in Python or C++ or Java that does something useful or spending hours finding the correct words and syntax to create a sentence in Russian, French, Chinese, Hungarian, etc just to say one useful thing, the amount of payoff, of benefit, is trivially insignificant compared to the effort.
    With science and math, each new discovery I find after spending hours of labor feels unique and special and something nobody else can do or has done.

    • @dragonbleu1205
      @dragonbleu1205 6 місяців тому

      Oh same for me ! I also hate learn any language. I'm dyslexic it's why I hate so much textual things.

  • @Haldun_
    @Haldun_ Рік тому +3

    Coding can just be a job. It doesn't have to be your personality.

  • @TypewritR
    @TypewritR 10 місяців тому +5

    me too.
    but in retrospect, coding hates you too.

  • @whatisthis1262
    @whatisthis1262 Рік тому +4

    I studied history and politics at uni, worked in various jobs in banking then got onto an apprenticeship with my employer in software development. I enjoy coding in so far as I need to and in small doses. I will never be that person doing projects in my spare time. It's the best job I've had but it's always going to be just a job.

  • @AminSani
    @AminSani Рік тому +4

    I feel the same
    Coding is just my career not my hobby.

  • @michaelpieters1844
    @michaelpieters1844 Рік тому +4

    The only coding I do is for physics simulations. Otherwise programming is boring and I can't be motivated to do it. So much code bloat in this world today. Fuck it.

  • @MiketheCoder
    @MiketheCoder 8 місяців тому +6

    You go girl!! At least you're being honest!

    • @whipshaw
      @whipshaw 7 місяців тому

      why the "at least" part?

    • @melvin4524
      @melvin4524 6 місяців тому

      Because she doesn't really understand how the computer works, like how the cpu cores work, what the assembly instructions ,that get generated in the end ,actually tell the cpu to do, how does data live in memory, what caches are, etc.
      And it's not her fault. Stuff like html and css specs were made by complete morons in the 90's. Not to mention better ml's existed BACK THEN. Most web programmers are a bit delusional and tend to discuss things that are completely detached from what the computer actually is capable of doing, which is also not helping because thats what newcomers to programming are bombarded with when they wish to learn more about programming. I can tell you right now, low level/ embedded systems programmers don't feel like imposters because the systems they work on and the tools they use, are something that those programmers know intimately well, and that's because those systems and tools (like the C language for example) were very thoroughly thought out and in order to for a programmer to get something to work at all, they had to learn about the actual physical part that would be doing the work.

  • @freitasgst
    @freitasgst Рік тому +5

    I hate coding. I like seeing my code succed. Like popping a pimple.

  • @swfh3542
    @swfh3542 Рік тому +5

    At the age of 28.... iam struggling to with my javascript....i think gonna give up...😔

    • @NathanHedglin
      @NathanHedglin Рік тому +1

      It isn't for everyone.

    • @jroseme
      @jroseme Рік тому +2

      Javascript is weird as hell. Its a tough first language. Theres a tutorial out there called ‘Javascript: understanding the weird parts’ that helped me. Its pretty old but good.

    • @Seekingtruth-mx3ur
      @Seekingtruth-mx3ur Рік тому +2

      If you don't like it. Fuck it. Do something to you enjoy.

  • @willowsayswhat9642
    @willowsayswhat9642 Місяць тому +3

    TL;DR picked the wrong career out of school and now hates her job.

    • @cosmicentity1520
      @cosmicentity1520 21 день тому

      Same for me. Spent years completing my Tech Degree, didn't use it after grad.

  • @logicdonkey
    @logicdonkey Рік тому +4

    I go through periods where I actually enjoy the stuff I'm coding. Then I go through periods where it's very much just a job. At least it's a job where I can turn my head slightly to the left and have UA-cam :)

  • @raphaelribeiro5536
    @raphaelribeiro5536 Рік тому +3

    "Bless thier indian souls..." Best line ever !!!

  • @DanielDogeanu
    @DanielDogeanu Рік тому +4

    My opinion is that if you truly hate coding, you should find something else to do. There's no reason to force yourself to do something you hate, just because your parents considered that this is what you should do. There are lots of other jobs in tech that pay well. I understand that some people don't love coding and are not passionate about it, and that's ok. But that's different from hating it! If you hate it, you are basically swimming uphill, and it will only lead to burnout and depression. You should find something that you can at least tolerate it, but not hate it!

  • @anyadavidovich1083
    @anyadavidovich1083 Рік тому +6

    this is so relatable it hurts 🫠

  • @whipshaw
    @whipshaw 7 місяців тому +3

    I think the main problem is not what we are doing for living and etc, you could do design, photography, coding etc, but the problem is, you have to do it for long periods of time, harming your quality of life just to be a part of a system who benefits a little percentage of people and suffocate the majority of us.

  • @ShangXindictedlyness
    @ShangXindictedlyness Рік тому +5

    As a teahcer who shifts profession to front-end dev, I can relate to you. I wanted to be a designer, but programming is job-guranteed, so I studied a lot and became a programmer. But coding doens't exicte me a lot, especially after coding professionally for a year. My suggestion is take a break, read some books, go travelling or spend more time with friends & family. You can save money by being a programmer, and that money can give you the opportunity to be who you truly are, in the years to come (sounds cliche, I know).

    • @kegami7997
      @kegami7997 Рік тому

      You are lucky if in ur country programming is "job-guranteed" :)

    • @ShangXindictedlyness
      @ShangXindictedlyness Рік тому

      @@kegami7997 Yeah, ur right. But I did about 20 interviews, and got offers from only 3 companies. Plus, the money is lower than what I used to make😬. So I guess it's not that easy, hhh🤣

    • @kegami7997
      @kegami7997 Рік тому

      @@ShangXindictedlyness it's not to much, trust me. Ur first year is for experience. In my country we don't have much Junior/Intern jobs, and even it's shows after 1 day it's have 800+ resumes.

    • @ShangXindictedlyness
      @ShangXindictedlyness Рік тому

      @@kegami7997 Agreed. Sounds like competition is really tough in ur country.

  • @LionhartM
    @LionhartM 10 місяців тому +3

    I'm sorry you are feeling that way. I can't tell you how many UA-camrs I've heard say the same exact thing about their topic or profession. Burn out seems to be inevitable. It's one reason I keep changing what my interest is.

  • @paruldhiman2515
    @paruldhiman2515 3 місяці тому +2

    Ever since I was in college i struggled a lot in programming. I tried my best but it was like my brain was not ready to understand the coding, but I left it years back ..

  • @Schuenkelife
    @Schuenkelife Рік тому +3

    Girl same I hate that stuff as well I’m in infrastructure/devOps smh it’s insanely boring I love designing game design not programming lol 😂

  • @dmnkb
    @dmnkb Рік тому +5

    Honestly, I think you do a great job reflecting all the facets of having a career in software engineering. I know nobody working in this industry that always has joy; there are always ups and downs, and I think that's fine. It's like with all things in life: If there were no downs then how would you distinguish things you're passionate about? Also, impostor's syndrome is terrible. But once you've realized that almost everybody feels the same you can cope. It's most important to really focus on what you enjoyed about coding in the first place. Side projects (when time allows them at least) are what really help me stick to my job, only when you can create something yourself every now and then that you can really identify with, do you feel confident with what you're doing.

    • @nicolasaguirre54
      @nicolasaguirre54 Рік тому +2

      Sir those words that you said specially about impostor’s syndrome inspired me to get a cs degree I’m a senior in high school and I started learning about coding couple weeks ago and I’m nervous on going to college I feel like I wouldn’t know anything but I have to study more to be better sir I have a question if you work as a software engineer could you give me some tips about how to be good at coding(I know it takes time) also is it better to be a full stack developer than back end developer thank you hope you respond:)

    • @dmnkb
      @dmnkb Рік тому

      @@nicolasaguirre54 Glad to hear that! Sure, dm me if you like!

  • @trevorfranks69
    @trevorfranks69 Рік тому +3

    I spent my 3 years in compsci repeating classes on semester break, and got randomly placed in internships outside my expertive I really hate. When everyone wants to work in banks or popular startups, I used to have this goal to learn Unity 2D and pixel art, work in an indie game studio and maybe publish my own games on Steam, but at this point I'll be lucky to have the will to graduate before unaliving myself

  • @Kiran_Chhablani
    @Kiran_Chhablani Рік тому +3

    I can relate to you. Yesterday was the worst day at work. Thought I should just quit. But I should just stress less and find other hobbies and work on that

  • @hrithikprasad
    @hrithikprasad Рік тому +2

    Half of my brain is tiktok sound 😅 really liked that part

  • @avi12
    @avi12 Рік тому +3

    I've been a web dev for over a decade now and I'm honestly kinda tired of JavaScript, yet researching new stuff and deciding what to do while having to maintain my projects (one of them has 100K users) is not easy

  • @kristianlavigne8270
    @kristianlavigne8270 10 місяців тому +4

    My favourite dev jobs - slowly upgrading a 20 year old legacy system to 10 year old legacy tech with essentially the same junk code inside 😂

    • @VforVanish
      @VforVanish 9 місяців тому +1

      Jesus, i've been working on a project like this for 6 months ago and i hate it already.

  • @vladislavsdombrovskis7930
    @vladislavsdombrovskis7930 2 місяці тому +2

    i understand you, i feel like that very often as well as a SE. i started feeling a lot better when i just deleted all the influencer social networks like insta, twitter, facebook as well. The only place i get exposed to this unrealistic influencer shit is youtube, but i force the algorithm to pick better videos for me, but blocking annoying channels and so on. This is how i found you and it s awesome!! Thank you for this video!!

  • @Xe054
    @Xe054 Рік тому +3

    There's a clip you showcasing a 404 page of a caterpillar crawling across the screen, and you're just laughing, having a good time 😂. That's the programming content I love to see! That stuff is memorable. It's creative. I never see programmers smiling over their own creations.
    I also have terrible memory and sometimes I question why I even got into programming instead of music. Maybe one solution is to tap into creative projects that combine programming with animations/music/. Idk 🤷‍♂️ but great video!

  • @nicolaszein
    @nicolaszein Рік тому +3

    Tru!!!! I arrived here by accident but you cracked me up. Not enjoying the stuff you build or building for others must indeed be horrible. It was very fun watching you be so honest and candid. Keep it up my dear.

  • @AnnaSokolova-k6i
    @AnnaSokolova-k6i Рік тому +3

    This is so relatable!! I feel like I'm only doing coding because it's a well-paid and not location-tied job. I couldn't feel less interested about the brand new frameworks or whatever it is I'm supposed to be passionate about.

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +1

      hahah tell me about it, I mean I'll learn it if I have to for my job

  • @Marizyth
    @Marizyth 9 місяців тому +4

    I hate it because there are these things called code reviews where others critique my perfect code, fuck off I am doing gods work here but oh no there's a wHitEspAce. That whitespace was destined there by god.

    • @whipshaw
      @whipshaw 7 місяців тому

      and tests, I hate doing tests, what a waste of time (not a waste since it's valid, you know, but I like to build stuff, the machine could test everything for me)

  • @igotbit9454
    @igotbit9454 11 місяців тому +4

    You should prolly make content that inspires you then. I’d still watch it

  • @ifstatementifstatement2704
    @ifstatementifstatement2704 9 місяців тому +3

    I love programming when I am left to code at my level and the way I want. But as soon as some a-hole reviews the code, it's all depressing from there. No matter how much you improve there will always be a-holes doing that to justify their pay at the company.

  • @wantedsavage7776
    @wantedsavage7776 Рік тому +4

    Ay finally an honest soul! God bless you in life!

  • @poshimukaka
    @poshimukaka Рік тому +4

    l have the same feeling, graduated with a software engineering degree ( very good grades ) but coding sucks the soul out of me and l don't see myself doing this as a job. If you have any helpful advise please reply with it.
    The dilemma: l enjoy computer and tech stuff (actually like problem solving and technical stuff just not solving coding problems) but I'm stuck on what type of career path to pursue coz all the options l see like business analyst, UX/UI e.t.c don't interest me, l would be interested in something that is more practical instead of theory stuff coz l am really good at learning stuff by doing (strange right coz l could have just coded more, l don't know just doesn't excite me enough) For example, l could go into a field with zero knowledge and l am confident that within a month of practically doing stuff and seeing the immediate results l would pick up that skill easily. Also l thrive in repetitive tasks even thought they change over time but the core concept of the day to day duties will be repetitive. Feel free to ask for more info if you wanna help.
    Thanks

    • @lutherlusk2975
      @lutherlusk2975 Рік тому +1

      I am also thinking on these lines

    • @poshimukaka
      @poshimukaka Рік тому

      hey, hope you find away out that is fulfilling. I am almost there figuring out the options, the confusion clears up with time an just more research on what type of careers are out there in the IT field, I have came across some stuff l never heard of so keep going. @@lutherlusk2975

  • @millax-ev6yz
    @millax-ev6yz Рік тому +3

    Been doing a version of this for a while. Im again facing an impossible problem and reaching into the miracle bag to solve it. I have no passion at all but I'm trapped at my age. I liked your video because you didn't give bland cliches about all of this

  • @Nonsense116
    @Nonsense116 Рік тому +2

    Definitely a bummer to see. I don't think someone needs to be passionate about programming to be good at their job. I think that reputation comes because to get the job in the first place you have to do a lot of study by yourself with no one else telling you what to do. To stay relevant in the space you often need to spend time often outside of 9-5 to keep your skills sharp and updated. It's definitely hard to do those things without some kind of passion. It is for me at least.
    I was really excited for this channel because most of my favorite programming channels have either grown to dislike programming or making content for similar reasons to you. I guess it goes to show the amount of stress educational content creators go through. I'll definitely miss the videos but I'm glad you're doing what's best for you. Keep at it!

  • @MarcelOramas
    @MarcelOramas Рік тому +2

    Mewtru I feel you. Even though I do love coding, I had to spend four years working as a tour guide just to make enough money to get out of Cuba. Sadly it's a country without future where you can't really make a living as an engineer or pretty much anything else. So I did the tour guide thing... I was good at it, I got a lot of praise, great reviews, but I had to become someone I wasn't for three to six hours a day, like wearing a mask, it was draining... Now luckily I got to Uruguay and landed my first job as software engineer. Anyways, I'm 100% with you on doing what you like and being happy, even if it's outside your job hours. Thanks for all the great content so far, and looking forward to what's coming next.

  • @aneon1273
    @aneon1273 Рік тому +3

    I feel this is a very genuine video in terms of what youtubers generally post. I have been struggling with studies, life, even hobbies. And I generally come across streamers or youtubers who are super motivated and love what they are doing and they seem to have life figured out. I wish the best for you, and it's absolutely fine if you stop doing all the coding tech stuff. Ig some of us still have some figuring out to do

  • @joellisfsantana
    @joellisfsantana Рік тому +3

    Thank you for sharing your experience with us, we really don't need to do something just because others are doing it or because I've been told it's the best solution, but rather do something that makes us happy to be doing it. Looking forward to the next videos 😁❤

  • @helloiamshubham
    @helloiamshubham 6 місяців тому +3

    Hello Tru, my name is False.

  • @darenbaker4569
    @darenbaker4569 Рік тому +2

    Imposor syndrome lives with all your life I know still suffer 30 years programing and I hate a lot of boring features and bug fixing. But it pays the bills, hopefully I have learnt to say f**** it I am good enough where I am looking at ai and are might bring some excitement back. Love your videos in IT please keep going it will pay off.

  • @MMIV-GAMESCAPE
    @MMIV-GAMESCAPE 4 місяці тому +3

    School made me hate coding with a passion i still wanna learn to do it, but i get angry whenever i get stuck from the sheer hatred I’ve developed

    • @erkiiiiiiiii617
      @erkiiiiiiiii617 3 місяці тому

      Bro same, don’t know how to overcome it

  • @SeantheSkater96
    @SeantheSkater96 2 місяці тому +2

    I really think you have to enjoy software engineering to some degree if you want it as a career.
    The core aspects never change, tech goes through cycles and unless you want a job for life doing Fortran in a basement for one of the big banks, you'll be expected to learn new stuff for the rest of your career. And I dont think programming is comparable to other run of the mill 9-5s that millions of people have, where you may hate your job, but it's predictable in its monotiny (to the point you can barely engage and still breeze through).
    You can maybe keep up the grind of bashing your head against programming for 5-10 years, but eventually that shit catches up to you in one way or another.

  • @valera924
    @valera924 Рік тому +3

    Easy solution. Collect enough money and go make your own business

  • @brewershow
    @brewershow Рік тому +1

    LOVE IT!!!!! You are amazing! Laughed at least 10 times, listening to that honest and so positive message to everyone 🙌🎯

  • @tehillahville
    @tehillahville 28 днів тому +1

    I felt this in my soul . I tried making tech content for 6 months and i hated it a lot

  • @kumataro_
    @kumataro_ 6 місяців тому +7

    Oh my god this is so damn relatable

  • @vijayamaurya4067
    @vijayamaurya4067 Рік тому +2

    Mostly relatable content i have seen in months. I feel the same way. Coding is not that exciting. I feel like it's just my job to do it so I do it but I should be having something other than my job to make me happy about my life. Really glad you shared ❤️

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому

      Thank you!!! I'm glad it was relatable :)

  • @ismailox93
    @ismailox93 6 місяців тому +2

    I feel the same, i think im burn out !

  • @ensourceTV
    @ensourceTV 3 місяці тому +1

    You described me perferctly, even the stuff about high school resonated. I HATE coding, but I am successful at it lol

  • @jonny555333
    @jonny555333 Рік тому +2

    Y'all had cs classes in highschool? Never even heard of that.

  • @scotmcpherson
    @scotmcpherson 7 місяців тому +2

    I have a different problem. I do game dev, but the programming part is the part I like.

  • @lifeofgaurz
    @lifeofgaurz Рік тому +4

    omg i used dreamweaver too 😆

  • @laurentruong
    @laurentruong Рік тому +2

    Thank you for being open and vulnerable, I appreciate this honesty so much. I’m 24 an about to start my career as an ai/ml engineer post-grad, but still feeling confused and slight imposter syndrome of how I got to where I’m at. I do believe in that your career doesn’t have to be a passion. I enjoy coding, but personally my passions do lie in other things I must fund (like kayaking and cooking). Definitely venture out to your other passions, will support you the whole way through. (:

    • @mewtru
      @mewtru  Рік тому +1

      Of course! Thank you for this wonderful comment ❤️! I’ll definitely be trying other styles of videos, I miss cooking so maybe I can do something with that 👀. Also those post grad feels are so relatable, I wish you all the best 🫶🏼

  • @fauwara3249
    @fauwara3249 Рік тому +2

    hi hate coding, im dad.