My Chemical Romance Helena-Vamperized

Song from 2004 From album Tjree Cheers For Sweet Revenge.
This song is partially about the death of lead singer Gerard Way's grandmother, Elena Lee Rush. She taught Gerard how to draw, paint and sing, and she gave him his first car - the white van that appears in the original "I'm Not Okay (I Promise)" video. The song is dedicated to her, as is the CD. She is mainly who the part "Can you hear me? Are you near me?" is for. But this song also starts the concept of the CD. A man and a woman (Helena) die in a car crash ("When both our cars collide"), except the woman doesn't really die, the man only thinks she has. The man is sent to hell. This song is a mourning for Helena's "death" by the man. He is wishing he could see her again and is giving his last goodbyes ("So long and goodnight").
know it's about his grandma, but I interpret it differently. I think it's about a girl who was suicidal and mentally ill. She kills herself, and this song is about the guy who loved her feeling angry and having to deal with the aftermath. He's pissed that she was so eager to die. He's says that everyone is far from her. I think this means both physically because she's dead, and mentally because she was so hard to understand. Now that she's gone I think her presence is still burning around them. He's saying that even in death she makes the lives of the people she knew difficult. The chorus basically reiterates the point. I think the blade part refers to her suicide. He doesn't say a blade, but "the" blade. Now he's holding on, but it's been hard on him. He's thinking about how in life she pushed him away and he wanted to leave sometimes, but it was better that he stayed. I also think at this point he's considering dying to be with her, but he knows that it's better for him to stay. Then he tells her goodbye. He remembers when she was at her worst and everything made her emotional and sad. Then she basically transferred her pain to everyone else when she killed herself. He knows they will meet again in death. Until then he has to pretend that he's over her even though he never really will be.
Long ago
Just like the Hearse you die to get in again
We are so far from you
Burning on
Just like the match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break?
And like the blade you'll stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall
Brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take
From every heart you break?
And like a blade you'll stain
Well, I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Well, if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Can you hear me?
Are you near me?
Can we pretend to leave and then
We'll meet again
When both our cars collide
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
And if you carry on this way
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight