Happy she came through. My boy 6 weeks old currently on his third day in intensive care. He was in cardiac arrest for 40 minutes to unfortunately he hasn’t woken up since. Praying 😢
Sending you so much love - what a hard traumatic story to share 😢 I really believe that you were supposed to fall asleep with Avery - because I think that is what saved her. It wasn’t something you wanted to do - and yet you fell asleep. You were and still are her amazing guardian angel and she is so lucky to have you both as parents because you give 1 million percent to her and it shows every time she looks up at you and gives that beautiful smile ❤️
I agree 100%! As a mom of three, grandmother of eight and a retired OB nurse, I believe with all my heart that you saved your daughter's life. That God allowed you to fall asleep with her that night so your mother's intuition woke you up just as she went still. (My best guess, tho I'm not a doctor, was that Avery was caught just before SIDS would have taken her.) That you saved her is a miracle. You are her guardian angel who knew the minute she needed you. You have a powerful bond with her. I know you carry feelings of guilt, so many mothers do. But I don't feel you were in any way responsible for what caused this event. Please hear the voices of people who tell you that you are the reason she is alive today. Life's journey has some horrible frightening and uncertain times. But holding on to the love and determination you feel will give you the peace of mind and power to continue doing everything you need to do. Special needs children require so much time, attention and energy, but their precious lives are such a beautiful gift even with the challenges. Avery has a reason to be here and you will give her all the love and support she needs. May God soothe away all your feelings of guilt and bless your heart filling you the joy of your beautiful family. You are truly an inspiration. I have so much love and admiration for you and Avery from Vermont USA 🙏 ❤
So happy to find you My son recently suffered a cardiac arrest and also survived My breastmilk wasn’t working and I didn’t notice I feel the guilt you speak of But we can only do the best we can with what we have at the time It was lovely to find and hear a similar journey Sending much love
I’m glad you found us, I don’t often hear of cardiac arrest stories post birth. Having this channel and he support of all of my subscribers has definitely helped me battle the guilt xx
As a mum, my heart is literally breaking listening to your story. I can't begin to imagine how difficult reliving this trauma must be. Thank you for having the strength to post this. You are an absolutely phenomenal mum. Sending loads and loads of love to you and your beautiful baby girl. ❤️
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️ I knew early on into starting my channel that I wanted to share Avery’s story, it just took me a while to gather the strength to revisit the whole event. Now that I’ve said it all out loud in order I feel a bit better, like it’s off my chest a little xx
Crissie, thank you so much for your support. We couldn't do what we do without people like you. Yours and Avery's bravery and strength will give hope to so many other people going through similar situations. Sending love to you and all your family.
Oh, Chrissy, you poor girl. I'm so very sorry that this happened to your perfect little angel. You're right...Avery is a very strong little girl, with an amazing will to live. She has been blessed with life. Who knows what lessons she will teach us. I'm sending you my love&hugs across the many miles. You are a wonderful mother, don't you ever doubt that! ❤️🫂😭🙏
We’ve all done it. It’s the reason she’s ALIVE. Please don’t think you caused it. You saved her life because she was in your arms when she had a SIDS episode. Sometimes babies forget to breathe. She had only been doing it for 2 days and her brain just got things mixed up. I believe this in my heart. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
I’m just bawling at the sadness in this story, and all you and Avery have gone thru. I have 2 friends who have had SIDS babies. It is the most horrible nightmare that you can’t wake up from. I believe you saved Avery and it was meant to be that you fell to sleep with her. She is absolutely meant to be here and has a purpose in this life, and you played a part. You are so brave to share. I cannot even imagine the strength it took to speak your deepest hurt and questionings. Lots of respect, love and blessings to you and your precious, beautiful girlie.❤
Thank you so much I appreciate that. Whenever I hear stories about SIDS it makes me remember how lucky we are. It could have ended up that way and I don’t know how I would have survived xx
Crissie, I am a great believer in the saying “everything happens for a reason “ and I really believe that you fell asleep next to Avery so you can save her life. You are an amazing mom, such a strong woman❤️🤗
You are a beautiful mum to your children and the way Avery looks at you and the love you have for her can been seen through all your videos ❤️❤️ I have a 20 month old and a 2 week old it's tough! We are all doing our best and that's all we can ever do ❤️❤️
My daughters heart stopped twice its so traumatic and the trauma never leaves,, so much of your story reminds me of our story, like avery chloe fought so many battles and I believe she was sent to us for a reason, she wakes up every day with a big smile. I blame myself all the time thinking if there was something I did wrong or could I have done something different, just know that you are an amazing mother and avery is so blessed to have you and you her ❤️ be kind to yourself, sending you the biggest hug ❤️
God Bless you Momma. Any of us with children know the exhaustion and see how you fell asleep. But this surely sounds like your cuddle with her saved her life. I know it will never do any good to tell you not to blame yourself, because every single one of us would do and feel the same as you. Sending you tight hugs sweetie.
Hi Chrissy, I am just seeing this for the first time. This is not your fault. No way no how. This could have happened while in the crib. You and Josh are awesome parents. Never question that. Lots of love from Maryland!!
It is not your fault sweetie. These things happen and there was nothing that you could have done to prevent it. She is a beautiful little girl and you are an awesome mom! Much love, prayers and hugs.
Yes Dear. You are here , Avery is here, you are her mum and she needs you. Look forwards not backwards. You can only do that which is within your control. You are a mother. You will give her more than 100% of your time, love and care. There is no blame in any of this. You are most certainly not at fault. Sending you loads of courage, love , support and prayers. Take care of yourself so you can be there for Avery.
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it will help many others with similar experiences to feel less alone. You are a good momma. Avery is here because you followed your momma instincts and checked on her. What happened isn’t your fault. But when something bad happens we always look for a why. We are so quick to blame ourselves, especially mothers. I wish you could package up your guilt and put it somewhere so that you don’t have to carry it around. Avery is surrounded by people who love her and she has a good life. That beautiful smile of hers says it all. I wish you and your family peace this holiday season. ❤
my grandson who was born on 3/19/2024 just had his 2nd open heart surgery today after surg he suffered a 40 minute cardiac arrest i am so scared right now that we will lose him he is on a machine that is doing his breathing and keeping his heart beating
This came up Iam already a Subscriber and Team Camp Mummy and Avery !! I just wanted to say how Brave and Strong Averys Mummy is ! Such a Traumatic Event and I felt every Emotion you posted ! If I’d have been there I would have held you and told you this was not you’re fault! And you’re Averys Hero ! Then and Now !! I know it’s only words ! I can’t imagine how you survived those mins half hours and hours and days ahead ! You’re Strong Incredible and there isn’t One Mummy Avery could have Chose!! Sending So much Love 🙏💫💕
This video was in my recommended feed and as a mom of course I was compelled to watch. The absolute heartbreak in your voice, your face, your eyes is like looking in the mirror back in time. When my son was 4 he was diagnosed with a rare and hard to treat form of childhood Leukemia. His life was immediately threatened and the next four years was something out of a nightmare. I had that same terrified look about me and found myself on my knees groveling with God to please take me instead if someone had to go. His diagnosis is also that of an unknown origin. Some kids get this disease and some don’t and I spent years blaming myself as I was his mom and didn’t protect him from the unknown. We, as moms, do this and it’s a form of self torture - but we can’t help ourselves can we. There is most certainly a component of PTSD in mothers of children with life threatening illness. You can almost bank on that. Something about your story, however, makes me feel compelled to share that I co-slept with all 3 of my kids. Breastfeed them in my bed and fell asleep only to wake up to nurse them some more. This was a time before it was discouraged to co-sleep with a baby. I truly, firmly don’t believe your daughters emergency was caused by you falling asleep. Not because I and many others co-sleep without issue but because of the way things unfolded. The fact that your baby was pink and warm when you woke up indicates that she likely hadn’t been without oxygen for more than several minutes time. It doesn’t take long for the skin to begin changing color when a person is deprived of oxygen. Sure your body warmth could have helped somewhat to keep her circulation going but her lips, especially, would have begun to turn gray -something you would have noticed. Second, because she was still pink and warm when you started CPR and got no response until 45 minutes could very well mean that other things were preventing her heart from restarting. You may never know for sure when this occurred but the one thing you are absolutely certain of is that you didn’t do anything but be the best mom you could be. You can’t punish or blame yourself for that.
Thank you for taking the time to share your experience. I’m so sorry to hear about your son ❤️ mom guilt is part of the package with any children but it definitely has a more dominant role in stories like ours. So many who have children with HIE can blame the hospital when it’s caused by a labour or birth trauma, I felt like I had no one to blame but myself. But it’s gotten better over time, especially with the support of everyone here on UA-cam xx
I have no words for what you and your family have gone throw, but do not be mistaken Avery is where she is to be. You are both great parents and this little beautiful girl is to have the best life she can. Merry Christmas 🎄
You're so incredibly strong for sharing this, I've been working non stop crying throughout - you were meant to wake when you did because that's the reason this wonderful little girl is in the world ❤️ I love you so much xxxx
So very brave of you to share your story. Truly all new sleep deprived moms know how exhausted you can be. I had a chair to feed my daughter and still fell asleep in the chair many times. It could happen to so many of us. So glad precious Avery is here with you still. ❤
Thank you I appreciate that. You’re right, I did with my boys plenty of times, you just never think something like that would happen to you or your baby xx
Please don’t blame yourself. You’re an amazing mama and your sweet baby girl is still here! All moms make mistakes and that’s okay. I would try giving it to God and forgive yourself. Then you will find true peace.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Oh my! My heart is breaking for you right now and your heartbreaking story 😢 I assumed she had palsy. Please know that you did what most exhausted mums do and remember, you're not sure that's why she stopped breathing. She may have had sids and you saved her life. God loves you and doesn't want you, a wonderful mum, to ever live with guilt. It can destroy you. Praying that you found that peace you deserve. It sounds like you have an amazing husband. Please let go of all that sadness and focus on how amazing you are to be a mum of 3 beautiful children and that Avery is soooo lucky to have you as a mum! I know this video is older but please know you are loved by your babies and guilt does us no good. God knows your pain, let him take it from you! Continued prayers to you and your beautiful family, may you find peace in knowing that mistakes happen and regardless how it accured, God knows your heart, innocence, and you moved quickly which saved her life. Her smile is worth it all. What an incredible mum you are!!! In my heart, I feel like maybe sids played a part, not you. You woke up for a reason to check on her. That's the miracle!! She's breathtakingly beautiful and so are you. Give yourself grace and just enjoy every moment. God, bless this family as they heal and give them peace and comfort. In Jesus's precious name... AMEN! 😢❤🙏🏼
My heart broke watchi g this. When my son was born he had stopped breathing during birth tha k god he was ok and not suffered any brain damage. Prayers to you and your family
Just finished watching at 9:41 pm and just wish I could give you a hug, my heart breaks for you. I know God heard your cry and that precious beautiful baby girl is here to spread peace, joy, and love to people all over the world. And I pray that God will take away any guilt that you feel, it happened it was so traumatic but Praise God he gave you a miracle! You keep sharing what God has brought your family through, because it is a story worthy to be told. Loving your family from down south USA!🤗🥰😇
Bless you 🙏🏻 You literally had to watch your baby die. But God brought her back. Please do NOT feel guilty. You are the best mom ever and do everything you can to take care of that baby! You are so brave to tell your story.
Chrissy I’m so so sorry for your continued silent grief, I m not a cryer but your truth was so raw and vulnerable that I was indeed crying with you! I have been following you since you started and have always admired just how beautifully dedicated you are to your children. You did nothing wrong and you have to start to believe this, we as mums do everything in our power to keep our children safe and well, tragically Chrissy horribly sad and terrible things do just happen! Please Please be kind to your self. You did nothing wrong. Your actually an angel you are selfless! you are caring! you have integrity that is very rare and I admire you with the greatest respect Chrissy. ❤
Sending hugs to you both. What a traumatic thing to happen to you and you were able to share your story. Avery was meant to live and be with you and it is a miracle.❤️❤️❤️
Oh Chrissy my heart is breaking listening to your story. You have been given the best gift ever with this little girl. She is your little angel here on earth and look how many lives she is touching just by you sharing your life with us here every week. She is exactly who she was meant to be and i believe many lives will be touched because of hers over the years to come. Much love from Canada. ❤
Bless your heart this has to be so difficult 😥. There are no words, but there is prayer and I will be praying for God to help you through this journey and give you peace. You are so strong and take care of her so well. You are a good mom. ❤
Thank you for being so transparent & sharing your story ❤️ you’re so strong mama. My heart really feels for you, I went through a similar traumatic experience with my son at 3 days old. He was diagnosed with a metabolic disorder, high ammonia as well he stopped breathing completely and was put on life support for a week until he slowly came back to us. It’s a tough journey but you guys were built for this ❤️ Avery is nothing short of a miracle 🙏🏼
Your experience sounds incredibly similar.. they never determined metabolic issues to be the cause of Averys cardiac arrest, they did more tests and disregard it. How is your son now? Xx
I am so so sorry. I can't imagine what you and your husband went through. Praying for your healing as this such a traumatic event. I just want to hug you and help you with your pain. Please please don't blame yourself. You did every thing possible to try and save your baby. Please get help for your guilt as it will eat away at you. You are such a fantastic mother to all your kids and stepson. Please love yourself and remember God is Good. Avery was meant to be with your family and she is a survivor and will continue to learn under your family's love for her. She will continue to bring you joy and happiness. Hugs and love to your and your family!
Thank you that means a lot ❤️ I am in the process of getting some professional guidance to help me process and cope with the emotions. I too believe Avery was meant to be here ❤️
You are such an incredibly loving and wonderful mom. Avery is here on this earth to bless you and to be blessed by you. Keep her close and love her and she will have a wonderful and happy life. Love to you all.
You are not to blame. I don't know, but she could have had an inborn error of metabolism. Regardless, your love for Avery is evident and it is clear you would never do anything to injure your baby. God bless you and your family. Praying for you.❤❤
Oh my goodness how brave of you to share and relive that traumatic time you experienced, Avery is a fighter she proved that and you are the best mum she could have so sending love and hugs 💐💕
Thank you for sharing this with us. Couldn’t have been easy. I think you are such an amazing mom!!! Avery is beautiful and so perfect, she’s so lucky to have you guys as her family. Love you both
Thank you for sharing her story with us. I knew behind that sweet angelic face was a warrior princess but I didn't know quite how strong. She fights hard. And now I know who she got it from. I will keep you in my prayers.
🤗🤗🤗 Thank you for being so brave to share your story. My heart just broke for you but your Angel Avery survived and yes she is here for a purpose. God's hand was on you all and still is. She is beautiful and love her smile. She will bring you and your family so much joy. Sending you lots of hugs and love. You one strong lady. 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
oh mama, i can’t even imagine having to relive all those terrible memories. i work in child welfare and have worked on the child death reviews, and sadly SIDS happens too often with just no cause. im so thankful to know you were there and were able to save her. ❤
Thank you ❤️ we knew a social worker was looking into the case the nurses were always very sheepish when we asked who had called. They called us a few weeks after the event and closed the case. Xx
Bless you, thank yoy for sharing. I have no words except to remember that she is a fighter and so beautiful. Be kind to yourself, you deserve it. Lots of love to yiu all.
Thank you for sharing this it must have been awful . My heart broke with you while listening.. I can't imagine the worry and fear. Your an amazing mum and avery is a beautiful amazing little girl ❤️
My heart is breaking for you and your family. Thank God that you felt something wrong. Prayers for healing 🙏 not sure if you can ever get over it, I'm sure it feels just like yesterday. So I need to add I think because she was sleeping with you is why she is still a live, you were there at the exact time if you were in a different room you might have not known before it's was to late. God has a plan for Avery.
You falling asleep there was a miracle and having that feeling was definitely a higher power moving you to save her. If you had never fallen asleep, then she most likely wouldn’t be here today so plz don’t blame yourself! ❤❤❤
So very sorry - what a terrible ordeal. You're an absolutely amazing Mum!! This may sound wacky but I often think things unfold the way they do for reasons we can't understand, but look how many people you're helping with this channel! And who knows how far this will go or what other amazing things lie ahead. A different path than expected but perhaps one that will really and truly make a difference in people's lives.
Wow. That was absolutely a traumatic story and as a mom I know I would have felt the same way. We always take in the guilt for everything that happens to our children. How she survived that must be some kind of medical miracle. When you said you heard that first cry. I got chills, I can’t even imagine. So so blessed that she came back to you!! Even though you’ll never really know if falling asleep with her contributed, you know you meant her no harm and you’re a terrific mother and she’s in the best hands with you and your husband. What a miracle! Best and warm wishes, because I can completely sympathize about what a horrific event that must have been to live through. Glad you’re on the other side of it and little A is thriving and happy. Thank you for sharing something so difficult. It will help someone out there I’m convinced. ♥️
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️ the ‘what ifs’ are always at the back of my mind. But you’re right I never meant her any harm, I never even meant to fall to sleep. But she is here despite the odds and she is a miracle ❤️
You are an awesome mum ❤️ Please don't beat yourself up, it will only make you sick. You have to try to relax it is not good to get so worked up. Take a few deep breaths. You can't change the past, you can change the future. I care very much sending you a virtual hug.
You are so brave to feel able to tell us, your supporters, even though we are strangers. You take such good care of her and she is so loved. I hope you can source someone to talk to about it when you are ready. I agree with your idea that you might have PTSD. Thank you for your story.
Sending hugs and positive thoughts to you and your family, you are doing all you can, never doubt that, and thank you so much for sharing your journey with us xxx
As mothers, we take on the huge task of assuming guilt, whether warranted or not. You are not to blame, sweet mother; I know my saying that does not change how you feel, but, please know, no one should think you did anything wrong. You did everything you could to help her. You love her, that is what counts, what people know.
Hi Chrissie Avery is a little angel and it's because of you she is still here and it's because she has a purpose in life who knows what that is. She is already leaving a mark on the world through you sharing your story and lives on this channel. It's not your fault that she is disabled you saved her life. As a result she is impacting lives in a great way like my life. She is such a happy child smiling lots when she is well and I'm glad she finally is well. Her smiles bring joy to me and many others watching your channel. It must have been so hard to share all this with us you are so brave in telling us. My best friend is like a mother to me she lost a baby to Sid's he was sleeping in a cot and she talks about feeling guilty for taking a walk while a friend looked after him. Babies die from Sid's and we don't know why but Avery is meant to be here she is a blessing and a gift from God he helped you wake up so you could save her life. It's a true miracle. I had my life saved by God I now have a disability following my injuries and my faith in God is so crucial to me. The most important things to Avery is love and happiness and she has both thanks to her dedicated parents and because of the rest of her family. You sharing about Avery is helping many keep sharing your lives I look forward to your next video and especially Christmas vlogs. Merry Christmas to you all and God bless you all in the New Year with happiness and good health. ❤️🌲🕊️
Thank you I really appreciate it. I really hope Avery grows up happy even with her disabilities. My faith got me through the hardest part and I’m hoping it will help carry her through too xx
She already is growing up happy just look at how much she smiles. I'm sure God will help her through he is always there for all of us as we are his children xx
Your so strong for sharing God bless you as your sweet family! I believe you lying with Avery saved her life you woke and noticed her because you were with her it could have been very different if she had been in her crib. I’m sorry for pain you have gone through emotionally and mentally. I prayed for you family today. I believe God has great things in store for miss Avery! God bless you all
So sorry for all that you went thru. It is Gods will even though we don’t understand why. You are a wonderful mother and take excellent care of beautiful Avery. Some things are meant to be and you shouldn’t keep blaming yourself. I’m sure it’s hard for you but you have such love for Avery and she is well taken care of. We wish nothing but the best for all of you. ❤
Thank you so much ❤️ I believe that. The one thing that has stayed strong through all this has been my faith. I thank God everyday that Avery is still here xx
It is by the grace of Jesus christ that Avery is alive today. When i was a baby i too also stopped breathing and found out i had sleep apnea and am a miracle just like your precious Avery.
Guilt is an uncontrollable and often intolerable emotion. Guilt is a good thing in small doses as it is part of what makes us a good person. If we never felt guilty about anything we would be selfish and cold-hearted. Just like anything in life, guilt is about balance. We should ensure that we are feeling guilty for the right reasons and learn to find forgiveness within ourselves, else guilt will eat you up inside!
awww my sweet dear mum, you are more amazing and beautiful than you know. your precious angel is so beautiful, her smile lights up the room. My heart breaks for you my dear. You and Josh are wonderful parents with so much love. I pray with each passing day you both will stroll on in your journey as parents knowing how wonderful you both are. Thank you for sharing your heart, love to your family🙏🙏🙏🙏💕💕💕💕
Dear Sweet momma I believe that miracles happen and that God doesn't call the qualified he qualifies the called. You sweet momma were called by Angels and God to be Averys mom. I think you fell asleep beside her because this was going to happen and you saved her life. I'm so sorry you and your family went through this. You are so brave and strong to share this story thats so traumatic. I wanted to just give you a big hug the whole time I watched this. I'm not one to usually comment on videos I just follow people and watch. But I felt the upmost urge to comment on this one to tell you that and to show my love and compassion to you and your family. Avery is loved by so many on here she is worthy precious and so Blessed to have you as her momma and you are Blessed to have her as your daughter. Much Love and Respect 💖
Listening to this video, my heart broke for you! I could tell reliving, it was very difficult, but thanks very much for sharing. So many people, including my sister, coa sleep with their children, so I definitely don’t think it was that, and you honestly have nothing to feel guilty about. These things happen sometimes very sadly. I’m so very sorry! As I said before, you are a wonderful mother. Having been born blind, and extremely slight cerebral palsy myself, my mum did a lot of work with me as a baby, physio and things like that. I love your videos! You are a wonderful family! XXX
Thank you I really appreciate it ❤️ I’m glad you enjoy our videos. When people comment on my videos and say that have cerebral palsy it gives me a lot of hope for Avery’s future. Even typing a message isn’t something we can just assume Avery will be able to do. Thank you for giving me more hope ❤️❤️
@@mummyandavery I have lived on my own for the past 20 years, so anything is possible. I don’t know much about dystonia, but I think a friend of mine did have that, and was quite independent. I had to have speech therapy as I learnt to talk. I was a bit delayed as well when it came to walking in talking. I believe I was two of three or something like that when I took my first step. Your other comments here are so encouraging! Such wonderful people around! It is sad when some people ruin that, but I hope you won’t get negative comments at all. So much love to you all, and please give Avery a huge gentle hug from me. XX
This is too much for you to bear...thank you for sharing Avery's story. I just don't know how you've found the strength. I hope relaying it gives you some Peace. Thank God Avery is alive and well and we can cherish her together!❤ I know this will not change your heart, but you are completely blameless. You will never let yourself believe it but you were born to save your daughter. It's as plain to me as my own life story and I never thought you bore any responsibility for her CA. It's something that was in Avery's life walk, for whatever reason, just like she and God chose you and Josh and her family because God...doesn't make mistakes and neither did you. I can't change your mind but I will remind you of it as often as I'm able. Every time you see my name...you saved her, you did no harm to Avery. I promise you. ❤
Thank you so much ❤️ I do believe that we were chosen to be her parents for a reason. No one will ever lover her like we do she and her brothers are our everything ❤️
Aww sweetheart your so brave opening up I had tears rolling down my face this is such a horrible time you went through but hearing her cry most of been the best thing even though she wasn’t out of the woods yet It’s not your fault my sweetheart you basically saved her life my checking on her again But the best thing is Avery is with us today she may have all her disabilities and her needs but she is such a beautiful gorgeous loving caring special little girl She have such a beautiful nature and of course a beautiful smile I have a disability too I have heart disease when I was born I wasn’t breathing can’t remember how long for but it was quite a while but eventually I started crying but rushed to NICU (beds) my mum was so poorly too after giving birth to me so she couldn’t go and see me for a few days but eventually I was well enough to go home but the 1st 2 years of my live I had a 24/7 heart Monitor Lots of hospitals appointments heart scans Etc Until I was 18 I had a heart appointment yearly but now it’s every 2 years will since covid I haven’t had one and I long over due And when u move to children’s to adult the hospital lost all my notes and that was so money for when I was born and they have never got found I also have Learning difficulties ,mild autism It’s hard at times as I can’t have children as it will be too dangerous for me and baby will I could I will have lots more scans for I just to frightened to as me and my mum almost dead too But I have my 3 gorgeous niece’s who keep me going and on my toes lol 😂 but I will do anything to be mummy I will always look a lot younger and never change the doctors alway call me Peter Pan lol but god made me like this for a reason But apart for that I’m normal I just want to say a huge thank for opening up today it made me open up about my story So I apologise if sometimes my comments don’t make sense But I’m here and I 30 but I may be different but I’m the same as everyone else just like Avery So Avery is my rock she remind me to just love and life life everyday and that why I work with special needs children people who are a lot lot worse than me but I love it and always will Thank you again ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story I was welling up reading this. I had no idea you had disabilities. I never have difficulty making sense of your comments and I always look out for them. I can’t believe they lost your notes, as if you don’t have enough to cope with. Sometimes I think we are seen as just patients or parents of patients not real people xx
You are such a brave person to share your traumatic experience with complete strangers. I feel so sad lisening to what happened with your sweet girl. Imagining what had happened made me tear up And felt panic just thinking about it! Sometimes i believe in destiny, because in my Case, i gave birth to my twins at 26 weeks. I used to be very careful what i ate And what i did while i was pregnant. All of a sudden i had a fever And by the time i arrived in hospital i was in Labour.... To this day i don t know what exactly happened! One of the twins passed away And one survived And he too has cerebral Palsy. I can relate to what you Said about the guilt feelings And the what if questions, others Times i just say that s what meant to happen... Hugs to you And pls know that you are not alone And i admire your strenght And love you have towards your family
Thank you ❤️ it’s a very scary thought but I do believe I woke up at that very moment because she wasn’t meant to leave us. I’m sorry that happened to you, I knew for a short while what it felt like to lose a child and even then I can’t imagine how that must have felt for you. You’re totally right, sometimes you can do everything by the book and it doesn’t change what was always supposed to happen. Even if we don’t understand why xx
Oh God bless you sweetie, you have been through hell. But God gave you the nudge to check Avery again or she wouldn't be alive today. She is beautiful and will be a testimony to the glory of God. She was alive and breathing when you laid her down , you sleeping with her had nothing to do with her cardiac arrest. God will give you everything you need to get through these days💚
Oh you poor, poor girl! I am in tears with you listening to this. You are so very brave talking about this ❤️ Avery is so lucky to have you as her mummy! Have you had any help coping with this? I personally think it is due to you sleeping with her that she survived, it doesn’t bare thinking about what would have happened if she’d been in her cot on her own when she stopped breathing.
@@mummyandavery you’re husband is right. Many, many mums co sleep, I just got this from Google = “62% of parents said they co-sleep so their families get more sleep, while another 62% said they do so because they want to make their kids feel safe and secure. Just over half, 52%, cited bonding with their infants as to why they share a bed.” You did nothing wrong and you must try to get rid of the guilt you feel and change that guilt to thanking God that you did sleep with her that night ❤️❤️
How traumatic to relive the story. 💔My heart breaks for you. 💔You didn’t cause this to happen!!!!!! I know that you blame yourself but you shouldn’t!! 😢😢😢
On watching your videos you both are amazing mum and dad and the boys are great big brothers to avery x she is here living a good life and that cheeky smile when she knows to look at you my heart is breaking for you revisiting her horrible event xx but it may help you plus it’s not your fault xx❤️
You may have saved her life from SIDS (sudden infant death) and it has nothing to do with her sleeping with you. Please read up on it. I wish I could hug you I know it won’t change anything but your heart is so fragile. Avery is a beautiful child. Your pain breaks my heart. Love y’all bunches 💙💖💙💙💙💖
I tried to bring that up so many times with the Doctors but they would all dismiss it. They said they wouldn’t consider SIDS in this situation because she is alive and they would find out a lot more because of that. I never really understood it xx
Im so sorry this happened 😭 theres a reason you fell asleep with her next you and woke up when you did bc how else would you have got to her as fast as you did. Ive been co sleeping with my baby since we brought her home shes about to be 11 months old now and i know its not for everyone but i cant imagine not being close to my baby and be able to help her when she needed it. You are amazing you saved your baby girls life. You did. you are the reason she is here today💞🫶
Thank you ❤️ so many people do, one of my closest friends co sleeps with her baby. There’s nothing the doctors have been able to find out to suggest that it happened because she was next to me, and I do believe that she wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t have woken up. It’s just hard knowing there’s a chance xx
Happy she came through. My boy 6 weeks old currently on his third day in intensive care. He was in cardiac arrest for 40 minutes to unfortunately he hasn’t woken up since. Praying 😢
Praying for your son ❤️ I’m so sorry you’re going through this xx
*_Heartbreaking!_* 😢
Sending you so much love - what a hard traumatic story to share 😢 I really believe that you were supposed to fall asleep with Avery - because I think that is what saved her. It wasn’t something you wanted to do - and yet you fell asleep. You were and still are her amazing guardian angel and she is so lucky to have you both as parents because you give 1 million percent to her and it shows every time she looks up at you and gives that beautiful smile ❤️
I appreciate that, that’s what josh says to me when the guilt comes to the surface ❤️
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That's what I was thinking from the beginning. You were meant to be that close to her while she was sleeping. You're a great mom and wife!
thank you ❤️
I agree 100%! As a mom of three, grandmother of eight and a retired OB nurse, I believe with all my heart that you saved your daughter's life.
That God allowed you to fall asleep with her that night so your mother's intuition woke you up just as she went still. (My best guess, tho I'm not a doctor, was that Avery was caught just before SIDS would have taken her.) That you saved her is a miracle.
You are her guardian angel who knew the minute she needed you. You have a powerful bond with her. I know you carry feelings of guilt, so many mothers do. But I don't feel you were in any way responsible for what caused this event.
Please hear the voices of people who tell you that you are the reason she is alive today. Life's journey has some horrible frightening and uncertain times. But holding on to the love and determination you feel will give you the peace of mind and power to continue doing everything you need to do.
Special needs children require so much time, attention and energy, but their precious lives are such a beautiful gift even with the challenges.
Avery has a reason to be here and you will give her all the love and support she needs. May God soothe away all your feelings of guilt and bless your heart filling you the joy of your beautiful family.
You are truly an inspiration. I have so much love and admiration for you and Avery from Vermont USA 🙏 ❤
So happy to find you
My son recently suffered a cardiac arrest and also survived
My breastmilk wasn’t working and I didn’t notice
I feel the guilt you speak of
But we can only do the best we can with what we have at the time
It was lovely to find and hear a similar journey
Sending much love
I’m glad you found us, I don’t often hear of cardiac arrest stories post birth. Having this channel and he support of all of my subscribers has definitely helped me battle the guilt xx
As a mum, my heart is literally breaking listening to your story. I can't begin to imagine how difficult reliving this trauma must be. Thank you for having the strength to post this. You are an absolutely phenomenal mum. Sending loads and loads of love to you and your beautiful baby girl. ❤️
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️ I knew early on into starting my channel that I wanted to share Avery’s story, it just took me a while to gather the strength to revisit the whole event. Now that I’ve said it all out loud in order I feel a bit better, like it’s off my chest a little xx
Crissie, thank you so much for your support. We couldn't do what we do without people like you. Yours and Avery's bravery and strength will give hope to so many other people going through similar situations. Sending love to you and all your family.
Thank you so much ❤️ I really appreciate it and hope to do more fundraising in the future xx
Oh, Chrissy, you poor girl. I'm so very sorry that this happened to your perfect little angel. You're right...Avery is a very strong little girl, with an amazing will to live. She has been blessed with life. Who knows what lessons she will teach us. I'm sending you my love&hugs across the many miles. You are a wonderful mother, don't you ever doubt that! ❤️🫂😭🙏
Thank you I appreciate your kindness. She is the strongest person I know and she’s definitely taught me that life is precious ❤️
We’ve all done it. It’s the reason she’s ALIVE. Please don’t think you caused it. You saved her life because she was in your arms when she had a SIDS episode. Sometimes babies forget to breathe. She had only been doing it for 2 days and her brain just got things mixed up. I believe this in my heart. ❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much I appreciate it. I think you’re right ❤️
I’m just bawling at the sadness in this story, and all you and Avery have gone thru. I have 2 friends who have had SIDS babies. It is the most horrible nightmare that you can’t wake up from. I believe you saved Avery and it was meant to be that you fell to sleep with her. She is absolutely meant to be here and has a purpose in this life, and you played a part.
You are so brave to share. I cannot even imagine the strength it took to speak your deepest hurt and questionings. Lots of respect, love and blessings to you and your precious, beautiful girlie.❤
Thank you so much I appreciate that. Whenever I hear stories about SIDS it makes me remember how lucky we are. It could have ended up that way and I don’t know how I would have survived xx
I am a nurse & there are no signs in what you described that cosleeping caused this. It wasn’t your fault in any way. You saved her. ❤🧸
From cardiac arrest to meeting Olaf on a little over a year. Now THAT’S a miracle!
Yes! You’re absolutely right 😂❤️
Crissie, I am a great believer in the saying “everything happens for a reason “ and I really believe that you fell asleep next to Avery so you can save her life. You are an amazing mom, such a strong woman❤️🤗
Thank you I really appreciate that ❤️ xx
You are a beautiful mum to your children and the way Avery looks at you and the love you have for her can been seen through all your videos ❤️❤️ I have a 20 month old and a 2 week old it's tough! We are all doing our best and that's all we can ever do ❤️❤️
Thank you ❤️ congratulations on your new baby xx
My daughters heart stopped twice its so traumatic and the trauma never leaves,, so much of your story reminds me of our story, like avery chloe fought so many battles and I believe she was sent to us for a reason, she wakes up every day with a big smile. I blame myself all the time thinking if there was something I did wrong or could I have done something different, just know that you are an amazing mother and avery is so blessed to have you and you her ❤️ be kind to yourself, sending you the biggest hug ❤️
My heart goes out to your knowing how you must have felt. How is Chloe now? Did her events have an affect on her life? Xx
Yes she has cerebal palsy seizure disorder, she is 23 now and she is the happiest girl always laughing and smiling ♥️
Thank you for telling us about your gorgeous little Avery. You saved her life. I truly believe this. I’m so happy she has you for her Mummy 💕💗💕xx
Thank you so much ❤️
You are a great loving mom to your 3 children and Avery is blessed to have you as her mother. God bless you and your family 🙏🙏🙏
Thank you so much ❤️
God Bless you Momma. Any of us with children know the exhaustion and see how you fell asleep. But this surely sounds like your cuddle with her saved her life. I know it will never do any good to tell you not to blame yourself, because every single one of us would do and feel the same as you. Sending you tight hugs sweetie.
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Hi Chrissy, I am just seeing this for the first time. This is not your fault. No way no how. This could have happened while in the crib. You and Josh are awesome parents. Never question that. Lots of love from Maryland!!
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
It is not your fault sweetie. These things happen and there was nothing that you could have done to prevent it. She is a beautiful little girl and you are an awesome mom! Much love, prayers and hugs.
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Yes Dear. You are here , Avery is here, you are her mum and she needs you. Look forwards not backwards. You can only do that which is within your control. You are a mother. You will give her more than 100% of your time, love and care. There is no blame in any of this. You are most certainly not at fault. Sending you loads of courage, love , support and prayers. Take care of yourself so you can be there for Avery.
You’re right, I can’t change the past but I can have an impact on Avery’s future ❤️
@@mummyandavery You are absolutely spot on Dear. We all support you with our prayers.
I can't imagine how hard that must've been for you to tell and even more live through.
It’s been hard but it’s all worth it xx
@@mummyandavery🙏💙🤍💕🫂
Aww Chrissy , not your fault ! She lives because of you . Hugs and love . Give yourself grace !
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story. I’m sure it will help many others with similar experiences to feel less alone. You are a good momma. Avery is here because you followed your momma instincts and checked on her. What happened isn’t your fault. But when something bad happens we always look for a why. We are so quick to blame ourselves, especially mothers. I wish you could package up your guilt and put it somewhere so that you don’t have to carry it around. Avery is surrounded by people who love her and she has a good life. That beautiful smile of hers says it all. I wish you and your family peace this holiday season. ❤
Thank you so much, I really appreciate your kind words ❤️❤️
I'm so very sorry!❤️ The medical team did a great job helping Avery!❤️👍👍🙏🙏🙏❤️
They did a wonderful job xx
my grandson who was born on 3/19/2024 just had his 2nd open heart surgery today after surg he suffered a 40 minute cardiac arrest i am so scared right now that we will lose him he is on a machine that is doing his breathing and keeping his heart beating
I’m so sorry to hear this. I remember how gut wrenching those early days are. Thinking of you and your precious grandson xx
14:07 Im weeping😭
I can’t even imagine the pain and trauma you experienced . Sending you so so much love❤️
Thank you ❤️
It’s an absolutely MIRACLE that Avery is alive today. She is a true miracle from God.
She is 🥰
This came up Iam already a Subscriber and Team Camp Mummy and Avery !! I just wanted to say how Brave and Strong Averys Mummy is ! Such a Traumatic Event and I felt every Emotion you posted ! If I’d have been there I would have held you and told you this was not you’re fault! And you’re Averys Hero ! Then and Now !! I know it’s only words ! I can’t imagine how you survived those mins half hours and hours and days ahead ! You’re Strong Incredible and there isn’t One Mummy Avery could have Chose!! Sending So much Love 🙏💫💕
Thank you so much that means a lot ❤️
This video was in my recommended feed and as a mom of course I was compelled to watch. The absolute heartbreak in your voice, your face, your eyes is like looking in the mirror back in time. When my son was 4 he was diagnosed with a rare and hard to treat form of childhood Leukemia. His life was immediately threatened and the next four years was something out of a nightmare. I had that same terrified look about me and found myself on my knees groveling with God to please take me instead if someone had to go.
His diagnosis is also that of an unknown origin. Some kids get this disease and some don’t and I spent years blaming myself as I was his mom and didn’t protect him from the unknown. We, as moms, do this and it’s a form of self torture - but we can’t help ourselves can we. There is most certainly a component of PTSD in mothers of children with life threatening illness. You can almost bank on that.
Something about your story, however, makes me feel compelled to share that I co-slept with all 3 of my kids. Breastfeed them in my bed and fell asleep only to wake up to nurse them some more. This was a time before it was discouraged to co-sleep with a baby. I truly, firmly don’t believe your daughters emergency was caused by you falling asleep. Not because I and many others co-sleep without issue but because of the way things unfolded. The fact that your baby was pink and warm when you woke up indicates that she likely hadn’t been without oxygen for more than several minutes time. It doesn’t take long for the skin to begin changing color when a person is deprived of oxygen. Sure your body warmth could have helped somewhat to keep her circulation going but her lips, especially, would have begun to turn gray -something you would have noticed. Second, because she was still pink and warm when you started CPR and got no response until 45 minutes could very well mean that other things were preventing her heart from restarting. You may never know for sure when this occurred but the one thing you are absolutely certain of is that you didn’t do anything but be the best mom you could be. You can’t punish or blame yourself for that.
Thank you for taking the time to share your experience. I’m so sorry to hear about your son ❤️ mom guilt is part of the package with any children but it definitely has a more dominant role in stories like ours. So many who have children with HIE can blame the hospital when it’s caused by a labour or birth trauma, I felt like I had no one to blame but myself. But it’s gotten better over time, especially with the support of everyone here on UA-cam xx
I have no words for what you and your family have gone throw, but do not be mistaken Avery is where she is to be. You are both great parents and this little beautiful girl is to have the best life she can. Merry Christmas 🎄
Thank you so much ❤️ merry Christmas to you xx
You're so incredibly strong for sharing this, I've been working non stop crying throughout - you were meant to wake when you did because that's the reason this wonderful little girl is in the world ❤️ I love you so much xxxx
Thank you ❤️ was a hard one to film, love you ❤️❤️
So very brave of you to share your story. Truly all new sleep deprived moms know how exhausted you can be. I had a chair to feed my daughter and still fell asleep in the chair many times. It could happen to so many of us. So glad precious Avery is here with you still. ❤
Thank you I appreciate that. You’re right, I did with my boys plenty of times, you just never think something like that would happen to you or your baby xx
So sorry about Avery. Thanks for sharing this story x
Thank you ❤️
Please don’t blame yourself. You’re an amazing mama and your sweet baby girl is still here! All moms make mistakes and that’s okay. I would try giving it to God and forgive yourself. Then you will find true peace.❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so much ❤️
Oh my! My heart is breaking for you right now and your heartbreaking story 😢 I assumed she had palsy. Please know that you did what most exhausted mums do and remember, you're not sure that's why she stopped breathing. She may have had sids and you saved her life. God loves you and doesn't want you, a wonderful mum, to ever live with guilt. It can destroy you. Praying that you found that peace you deserve. It sounds like you have an amazing husband. Please let go of all that sadness and focus on how amazing you are to be a mum of 3 beautiful children and that Avery is soooo lucky to have you as a mum! I know this video is older but please know you are loved by your babies and guilt does us no good. God knows your pain, let him take it from you! Continued prayers to you and your beautiful family, may you find peace in knowing that mistakes happen and regardless how it accured, God knows your heart, innocence, and you moved quickly which saved her life. Her smile is worth it all. What an incredible mum you are!!! In my heart, I feel like maybe sids played a part, not you. You woke up for a reason to check on her. That's the miracle!! She's breathtakingly beautiful and so are you. Give yourself grace and just enjoy every moment. God, bless this family as they heal and give them peace and comfort. In Jesus's precious name... AMEN! 😢❤🙏🏼
Thank you so much your kind words mean a lot ❤️❤️
@@mummyandavery 😘🙏🏼🩷
My heart broke watchi g this. When my son was born he had stopped breathing during birth tha k god he was ok and not suffered any brain damage. Prayers to you and your family
Thank you so much ❤️
Just finished watching at 9:41 pm and just wish I could give you a hug, my heart breaks for you. I know God heard your cry and that precious beautiful baby girl is here to spread peace, joy, and love to people all over the world. And I pray that God will take away any guilt that you feel, it happened it was so traumatic but Praise God he gave you a miracle! You keep sharing what God has brought your family through, because it is a story worthy to be told. Loving your family from down south USA!🤗🥰😇
Thank you so much that means a lot ❤️
Bless you 🙏🏻 You literally had to watch your baby die. But God brought her back. Please do NOT feel guilty. You are the best mom ever and do everything you can to take care of that baby! You are so brave to tell your story.
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Praise God that Avery is so strong and beautiful now! I adore watching your channel so much, more than Any other UA-cam channel.
Thank you so much ❤️ I’m glad you enjoy our videos xx
This could happen to anyone, it’s not your fault at all! Sending love and strength. ❤❤❤
Thank you ❤️
Chrissy I’m so so sorry for your continued silent grief, I m not a cryer but your truth was so raw and vulnerable that I was indeed crying with you! I have been following you since you started and have always admired just how beautifully dedicated you are to your children. You did nothing wrong and you have to start to believe this, we as mums do everything in our power to keep our children safe and well, tragically Chrissy horribly sad and terrible things do just happen! Please Please be kind to your self. You did nothing wrong.
Your actually an angel you are selfless! you are caring! you have integrity that is very rare and I admire you with the greatest respect Chrissy. ❤
Thank you I really appreciate you saying that, it means a lot ❤️
Sending hugs to you both. What a traumatic thing to happen to you and you were able to share your story. Avery was meant to live and be with you and it is a miracle.❤️❤️❤️
Thank you ❤️
Oh Chrissy my heart is breaking listening to your story. You have been given the best gift ever with this little girl. She is your little angel here on earth and look how many lives she is touching just by you sharing your life with us here every week. She is exactly who she was meant to be and i believe many lives will be touched because of hers over the years to come. Much love from Canada. ❤
Thank you I really appreciate it ❤️❤️
Bless your heart this has to be so difficult 😥. There are no words, but there is prayer and I will be praying for God to help you through this journey and give you peace. You are so strong and take care of her so well. You are a good mom. ❤
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Thank you for being so transparent & sharing your story ❤️ you’re so strong mama. My heart really feels for you, I went through a similar traumatic experience with my son at 3 days old. He was diagnosed with a metabolic disorder, high ammonia as well he stopped breathing completely and was put on life support for a week until he slowly came back to us. It’s a tough journey but you guys were built for this ❤️ Avery is nothing short of a miracle 🙏🏼
Your experience sounds incredibly similar.. they never determined metabolic issues to be the cause of Averys cardiac arrest, they did more tests and disregard it. How is your son now? Xx
I am so so sorry. I can't imagine what you and your husband went through. Praying for your healing as this such a traumatic event. I just want to hug you and help you with your pain. Please please don't blame yourself. You did every thing possible to try and save your baby. Please get help for your guilt as it will eat away at you. You are such a fantastic mother to all your kids and stepson. Please love yourself and remember God is Good. Avery was meant to be with your family and she is a survivor and will continue to learn under your family's love for her. She will continue to bring you joy and happiness. Hugs and love to your and your family!
Thank you that means a lot ❤️ I am in the process of getting some professional guidance to help me process and cope with the emotions. I too believe Avery was meant to be here ❤️
Thank you for sharing your story with us , but I believe that its you that saved her . Mother’s always blame them selves . Your an amazing mum x
Thank you ❤️ that’s true mothers tend to carry guilt for anything that goes wrong with their children. Xx
You are such an incredibly loving and wonderful mom. Avery is here on this earth to bless you and to be blessed by you. Keep her close and love her and she will have a wonderful and happy life. Love to you all.
Thank you so much ❤️
You are not to blame. I don't know, but she could have had an inborn error of metabolism. Regardless, your love for Avery is evident and it is clear you would never do anything to injure your baby. God bless you and your family. Praying for you.❤❤
Thank you I appreciate it. Medicine changes all the time one day we might find out what happened xx
Oh my goodness how brave of you to share and relive that traumatic time you experienced, Avery is a fighter she proved that and you are the best mum she could have so sending love and hugs 💐💕
Thank you so much ❤️
Thank you for sharing this with us. Couldn’t have been easy. I think you are such an amazing mom!!! Avery is beautiful and so perfect, she’s so lucky to have you guys as her family. Love you both
I truly believe you saved her and none of this is anyones “fault”
Thank you so much I appreciate it ❤️
You are such a wonderful mother to all of your children. Avery is in the very best hands
Thank you so much ❤️
Such a sad story, sorry that happened to you. You and josh are great parents to all your children
Avery is a beautiful little girl
Thank you ❤️❤️
Please don`t feel guilty i`m sure you had a guardian angel somewhere you and josh are both fantastic parents sending love and hugs to you all ❤❤
Thank you so much it means a lot ❤️
Thank you for sharing her story with us. I knew behind that sweet angelic face was a warrior princess but I didn't know quite how strong. She fights hard. And now I know who she got it from. I will keep you in my prayers.
Thank you I really appreciate it, Avery is the strongest person I know ❤️
🤗🤗🤗 Thank you for being so brave to share your story. My heart just broke for you but your Angel Avery survived and yes she is here for a purpose. God's hand was on you all and still is. She is beautiful and love her smile. She will bring you and your family so much joy. Sending you lots of hugs and love. You one strong lady. 🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗
Thank you so much ❤️ I agree, she has a purpose on this earth xx
oh mama, i can’t even imagine having to relive all those terrible memories. i work in child welfare and have worked on the child death reviews, and sadly SIDS happens too often with just no cause. im so thankful to know you were there and were able to save her. ❤
Thank you ❤️ we knew a social worker was looking into the case the nurses were always very sheepish when we asked who had called. They called us a few weeks after the event and closed the case. Xx
Bless you, thank yoy for sharing. I have no words except to remember that she is a fighter and so beautiful. Be kind to yourself, you deserve it. Lots of love to yiu all.
Thank you so much ❤️
Thank you for sharing this it must have been awful . My heart broke with you while listening.. I can't imagine the worry and fear. Your an amazing mum and avery is a beautiful amazing little girl ❤️
Thank you so much ❤️❤️
My heart is breaking for you and your family. Thank God that you felt something wrong. Prayers for healing 🙏 not sure if you can ever get over it, I'm sure it feels just like yesterday. So I need to add I think because she was sleeping with you is why she is still a live, you were there at the exact time if you were in a different room you might have not known before it's was to late. God has a plan for Avery.
Thank you ❤️ I do believe I woke up at that time because Avery was supposed to be here. A few minutes later and it could have been too late xx
You falling asleep there was a miracle and having that feeling was definitely a higher power moving you to save her. If you had never fallen asleep, then she most likely wouldn’t be here today so plz don’t blame yourself! ❤❤❤
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
God bless her and the family!
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Crying with you watching this, you are so strong ❤
I wish I could have just held your hand as you told this story. You are a beautiful person and an amazing mother. Sending you hugs and love.❤️
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
So very sorry - what a terrible ordeal. You're an absolutely amazing Mum!! This may sound wacky but I often think things unfold the way they do for reasons we can't understand, but look how many people you're helping with this channel! And who knows how far this will go or what other amazing things lie ahead. A different path than expected but perhaps one that will really and truly make a difference in people's lives.
Thank you ❤️ that means a lot, that why I started sharing our journey in the first place xx
You are an amazing mummy thank you for sharing your story with us xx
Thank you ❤️
Wow. That was absolutely a traumatic story and as a mom I know I would have felt the same way. We always take in the guilt for everything that happens to our children. How she survived that must be some kind of medical miracle. When you said you heard that first cry. I got chills, I can’t even imagine. So so blessed that she came back to you!! Even though you’ll never really know if falling asleep with her contributed, you know you meant her no harm and you’re a terrific mother and she’s in the best hands with you and your husband. What a miracle! Best and warm wishes, because I can completely sympathize about what a horrific event that must have been to live through. Glad you’re on the other side of it and little A is thriving and happy. Thank you for sharing something so difficult. It will help someone out there I’m convinced. ♥️
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️ the ‘what ifs’ are always at the back of my mind. But you’re right I never meant her any harm, I never even meant to fall to sleep. But she is here despite the odds and she is a miracle ❤️
You are an awesome mum ❤️ Please don't beat yourself up, it will only make you sick. You have to try to relax it is not good to get so worked up. Take a few deep breaths. You can't change the past, you can change the future. I care very much sending you a virtual hug.
Thank you I really appreciate it ❤️
You are so brave to feel able to tell us, your supporters, even though we are strangers. You take such good care of her and she is so loved. I hope you can source someone to talk to about it when you are ready. I agree with your idea that you might have PTSD. Thank you for your story.
Thank you ❤️ that means a lot. Xx
Thanks for sharing this with us!!!! I know it was hard for u to share!!!! Love your channel and look forward to your next video!!!!!🎄🙏🎄✨🎄🙏🎄🙏🎄✨🎄🙏🎄
Thank you I’m glad you enjoy them ❤️
Sending hugs and positive thoughts to you and your family, you are doing all you can, never doubt that, and thank you so much for sharing your journey with us xxx
Thank you so much ❤️❤️
As mothers, we take on the huge task of assuming guilt, whether warranted or not. You are not to blame, sweet mother; I know my saying that does not change how you feel, but, please know, no one should think you did anything wrong. You did everything you could to help her. You love her, that is what counts, what people know.
Thank you for your kindness. It means the world ❤️
Hi Chrissie Avery is a little angel and it's because of you she is still here and it's because she has a purpose in life who knows what that is. She is already leaving a mark on the world through you sharing your story and lives on this channel.
It's not your fault that she is disabled you saved her life. As a result she is impacting lives in a great way like my life. She is such a happy child smiling lots when she is well and I'm glad she finally is well. Her smiles bring joy to me and many others watching your channel.
It must have been so hard to share all this with us you are so brave in telling us. My best friend is like a mother to me she lost a baby to Sid's he was sleeping in a cot and she talks about feeling guilty for taking a walk while a friend looked after him. Babies die from Sid's and we don't know why but Avery is meant to be here she is a blessing and a gift from God he helped you wake up so you could save her life. It's a true miracle. I had my life saved by God I now have a disability following my injuries and my faith in God is so crucial to me.
The most important things to Avery is love and happiness and she has both thanks to her dedicated parents and because of the rest of her family. You sharing about Avery is helping many keep sharing your lives I look forward to your next video and especially Christmas vlogs. Merry Christmas to you all and God bless you all in the New Year with happiness and good health. ❤️🌲🕊️
Thank you I really appreciate it. I really hope Avery grows up happy even with her disabilities. My faith got me through the hardest part and I’m hoping it will help carry her through too xx
She already is growing up happy just look at how much she smiles. I'm sure God will help her through he is always there for all of us as we are his children xx
Thank you for sharing. Hugs. That baby is a miracle.
Thank you ❤️ she really is xx
Your family has been through so much. You all are amazing, including the boys, you mum & dad too. Many prayers and we’ll wishes go to you. 🙏🏻
Thank you so much ❤️
Your so strong for sharing God bless you as your sweet family! I believe you lying with Avery saved her life you woke and noticed her because you were with her it could have been very different if she had been in her crib. I’m sorry for pain you have gone through emotionally and mentally. I prayed for you family today. I believe God has great things in store for miss Avery! God bless you all
Thank you so much I appreciate it ❤️
So sorry for all that you went thru. It is Gods will even though we don’t understand why. You are a wonderful mother and take excellent care of beautiful Avery. Some things are meant to be and you shouldn’t keep blaming yourself. I’m sure it’s hard for you but you have such love for Avery and she is well taken care of. We wish nothing but the best for all of you. ❤
Thank you so much ❤️ I believe that. The one thing that has stayed strong through all this has been my faith. I thank God everyday that Avery is still here xx
Chrissy thank you for sharing!! I know that this was beyond difficult.
Thank you, it was but I feel better now it’s out there, you have all made it so much easier with your kindness ❤️
It is by the grace of Jesus christ that Avery is alive today. When i was a baby i too also stopped breathing and found out i had sleep apnea and am a miracle just like your precious Avery.
That certainly does make you a miracle ❤️ I agree it’s a miracle Avery is here, I believe she’s being watched over xx
Guilt is an uncontrollable and often intolerable emotion. Guilt is a good thing in small doses as it is part of what makes us a good person. If we never felt guilty about anything we would be selfish and cold-hearted. Just like anything in life, guilt is about balance. We should ensure that we are feeling guilty for the right reasons and learn to find forgiveness within ourselves, else guilt will eat you up inside!
That makes a lot of sense ❤️
awww my sweet dear mum, you are more amazing and beautiful than you know. your precious angel is so beautiful, her smile lights up the room. My heart breaks for you my dear. You and Josh are wonderful parents with so much love. I pray with each passing day you both will stroll on in your journey as parents knowing how wonderful you both are. Thank you for sharing your heart, love to your family🙏🙏🙏🙏💕💕💕💕
Thank you so much I appreciate it ❤️❤️
So sorry to hear about your baby girl sending love and prayers from America
Thank you so much ❤️
Dear Sweet momma
I believe that miracles happen and that God doesn't call the qualified he qualifies the called. You sweet momma were called by Angels and God to be Averys mom. I think you fell asleep beside her because this was going to happen and you saved her life. I'm so sorry you and your family went through this. You are so brave and strong to share this story thats so traumatic. I wanted to just give you a big hug the whole time I watched this. I'm not one to usually comment on videos I just follow people and watch. But I felt the upmost urge to comment on this one to tell you that and to show my love and compassion to you and your family. Avery is loved by so many on here she is worthy precious and so Blessed to have you as her momma and you are Blessed to have her as your daughter.
Much Love and Respect 💖
Thank you ❤️ I really appreciate you taking the time to comment it means a lot. The response I’ve had on this video has been overwhelming ❤️
Sending you some love and my heart is literally breaking listening to this
Thank you ❤️
Listening to this video, my heart broke for you! I could tell reliving, it was very difficult, but thanks very much for sharing. So many people, including my sister, coa sleep with their children, so I definitely don’t think it was that, and you honestly have nothing to feel guilty about. These things happen sometimes very sadly. I’m so very sorry! As I said before, you are a wonderful mother.
Having been born blind, and extremely slight cerebral palsy myself, my mum did a lot of work with me as a baby, physio and things like that. I love your videos! You are a wonderful family! XXX
Thank you I really appreciate it ❤️ I’m glad you enjoy our videos. When people comment on my videos and say that have cerebral palsy it gives me a lot of hope for Avery’s future. Even typing a message isn’t something we can just assume Avery will be able to do. Thank you for giving me more hope ❤️❤️
@@mummyandavery I have lived on my own for the past 20 years, so anything is possible. I don’t know much about dystonia, but I think a friend of mine did have that, and was quite independent. I had to have speech therapy as I learnt to talk. I was a bit delayed as well when it came to walking in talking. I believe I was two of three or something like that when I took my first step.
Your other comments here are so encouraging! Such wonderful people around! It is sad when some people ruin that, but I hope you won’t get negative comments at all. So much love to you all, and please give Avery a huge gentle hug from me. XX
This is too much for you to bear...thank you for sharing Avery's story. I just don't know how you've found the strength. I hope relaying it gives you some Peace. Thank God Avery is alive and well and we can cherish her together!❤
I know this will not change your heart, but you are completely blameless. You will never let yourself believe it but you were born to save your daughter. It's as plain to me as my own life story and I never thought you bore any responsibility for her CA. It's something that was in Avery's life walk, for whatever reason, just like she and God chose you and Josh and her family because God...doesn't make mistakes and neither did you. I can't change your mind but I will remind you of it as often as I'm able. Every time you see my name...you saved her, you did no harm to Avery. I promise you. ❤
Thank you so much ❤️ I do believe that we were chosen to be her parents for a reason. No one will ever lover her like we do she and her brothers are our everything ❤️
Aww sweetheart your so brave opening up I had tears rolling down my face this is such a horrible time you went through but hearing her cry most of been the best thing even though she wasn’t out of the woods yet
It’s not your fault my sweetheart you basically saved her life my checking on her again
But the best thing is Avery is with us today she may have all her disabilities and her needs but she is such a beautiful gorgeous loving caring special little girl She have such a beautiful nature and of course a beautiful smile
I have a disability too I have heart disease when I was born I wasn’t breathing can’t remember how long for but it was quite a while but eventually I started crying but rushed to NICU (beds) my mum was so poorly too after giving birth to me so she couldn’t go and see me for a few days but eventually I was well enough to go home but the 1st 2 years of my live I had a 24/7 heart Monitor
Lots of hospitals appointments heart scans Etc
Until I was 18 I had a heart appointment yearly but now it’s every 2 years will since covid I haven’t had one and I long over due
And when u move to children’s to adult the hospital lost all my notes and that was so money for when I was born and they have never got found
I also have Learning difficulties ,mild autism It’s hard at times as I can’t have children as it will be too dangerous for me and baby will I could I will have lots more scans for I just to frightened to as me and my mum almost dead too
But I have my 3 gorgeous niece’s who keep me going and on my toes lol 😂 but I will do anything to be mummy I will always look a lot younger and never change the doctors alway call me Peter Pan lol but god made me like this for a reason
But apart for that I’m normal
I just want to say a huge thank for opening up today it made me open up about my story
So I apologise if sometimes my comments don’t make sense
But I’m here and I 30
but I may be different but I’m the same as everyone else just like Avery
So Avery is my rock she remind me to just love and life life everyday and that why I work with special needs children people who are a lot lot worse than me but I love it and always will
Thank you again ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much for sharing your story I was welling up reading this. I had no idea you had disabilities. I never have difficulty making sense of your comments and I always look out for them. I can’t believe they lost your notes, as if you don’t have enough to cope with. Sometimes I think we are seen as just patients or parents of patients not real people xx
@@mummyandavery thank you lovely ❤❤❤
You are such a brave person to share your traumatic experience with complete strangers. I feel so sad lisening to what happened with your sweet girl. Imagining what had happened made me tear up And felt panic just thinking about it! Sometimes i believe in destiny, because in my Case, i gave birth to my twins at 26 weeks. I used to be very careful what i ate And what i did while i was pregnant. All of a sudden i had a fever And by the time i arrived in hospital i was in Labour.... To this day i don t know what exactly happened! One of the twins passed away And one survived And he too has cerebral Palsy. I can relate to what you Said about the guilt feelings And the what if questions, others Times i just say that s what meant to happen... Hugs to you And pls know that you are not alone And i admire your strenght And love you have towards your family
Thank you ❤️ it’s a very scary thought but I do believe I woke up at that very moment because she wasn’t meant to leave us. I’m sorry that happened to you, I knew for a short while what it felt like to lose a child and even then I can’t imagine how that must have felt for you. You’re totally right, sometimes you can do everything by the book and it doesn’t change what was always supposed to happen. Even if we don’t understand why xx
Oh God bless you sweetie, you have been through hell. But God gave you the nudge to check Avery again or she wouldn't be alive today. She is beautiful and will be a testimony to the glory of God. She was alive and breathing when you laid her down , you sleeping with her had nothing to do with her cardiac arrest. God will give you everything you need to get through these days💚
Thank you so much it means a lot ❤️
Oh you poor, poor girl! I am in tears with you listening to this. You are so very brave talking about this ❤️ Avery is so lucky to have you as her mummy! Have you had any help coping with this? I personally think it is due to you sleeping with her that she survived, it doesn’t bare thinking about what would have happened if she’d been in her cot on her own when she stopped breathing.
Thank you ❤️ my husband says this too, he says she lived because I woke up and I may not have woken up if she wasn’t next to me xx
@@mummyandavery you’re husband is right. Many, many mums co sleep, I just got this from Google = “62% of parents said they co-sleep so their families get more sleep, while another 62% said they do so because they want to make their kids feel safe and secure. Just over half, 52%, cited bonding with their infants as to why they share a bed.” You did nothing wrong and you must try to get rid of the guilt you feel and change that guilt to thanking God that you did sleep with her that night ❤️❤️
Thank you, it means a lot ❤️❤️
Lord Bless you and your family you did nothing wrong.
Thank you ❤️
Sending you all the love and hugs you can manage xxxx at least she's here and safe x
Thank you so much, you’re right she’s here and safe ❤️ xx
How traumatic to relive the story. 💔My heart breaks for you. 💔You didn’t cause this to happen!!!!!! I know that you blame yourself but you shouldn’t!! 😢😢😢
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
On watching your videos you both are amazing mum and dad and the boys are great big brothers to avery x she is here living a good life and that cheeky smile when she knows to look at you my heart is breaking for you revisiting her horrible event xx but it may help you plus it’s not your fault xx❤️
Thank you that means a lot ❤️
I am so sorry for what you went thru. Definitely a traumatic time.
Thank you I appreciate it ❤️
Prayers and hugs
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send love thanks sharing your story you are brave wonderfull mum Xxxxx
Thank you so much ❤️
You may have saved her life from SIDS (sudden infant death) and it has nothing to do with her sleeping with you. Please read up on it.
I wish I could hug you I know it won’t change anything but your heart is so fragile. Avery is a beautiful child. Your pain breaks my heart.
Love y’all bunches 💙💖💙💙💙💖
I tried to bring that up so many times with the Doctors but they would all dismiss it. They said they wouldn’t consider SIDS in this situation because she is alive and they would find out a lot more because of that. I never really understood it xx
Im so sorry this happened 😭 theres a reason you fell asleep with her next you and woke up when you did bc how else would you have got to her as fast as you did. Ive been co sleeping with my baby since we brought her home shes about to be 11 months old now and i know its not for everyone but i cant imagine not being close to my baby and be able to help her when she needed it. You are amazing you saved your baby girls life. You did. you are the reason she is here today💞🫶
Thank you ❤️ so many people do, one of my closest friends co sleeps with her baby. There’s nothing the doctors have been able to find out to suggest that it happened because she was next to me, and I do believe that she wouldn’t be here if I hadn’t have woken up. It’s just hard knowing there’s a chance xx
Your wonderful mom ❤❤
Thank you so much ❤️
Awww am so sorry 😞
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