this makes me realize that the “dark phase” of my life was never a phase. it’s the small spurts of happiness i feel in between that are the actual phases. the happiness is the phase, not the sadness
Mm, I do believe there's no such thing as phases. Everything is constant, and it just depends on where you allow yourself to be exposed to, thus, creating the perception of 'phase' once you get detached from where you thought you belong
Know exactly how you feel. Thought it was the dark times that were temporary, but the more time had passed I started to realize I feel empty and sad more than I feel happy :/
I think we try to empathize with others and understand them, but we never know for sure what is going on in other people's hearts. Everyone is like their own endless universe ... Ok, now I feel lonely 😔
This song reminds me of when i used to live in Ansbach, Germany and whenever i went to the marketplatz (market place) i would see people just enjoying life, each to their own, all content and happy while i felt like an outsider. I would see people with life long friends relaxing and smiling while eating ice cream, while me, a military kid, couldn't even make one temporary friend. All i would ever make were acquaintances, people whom you'd only know because you both happen to be at the same place at the same time. People whom you would later forget. Don't get me wrong I am perfectly content with being alone, that's all I've ever known. i just wished loneliness didn't come with the territory. I've always imagined myself in other peoples positions and how much my life would be different with friends I've known my whole life. Would i be happier? Or would i still feel this overwhelming emptiness gaping a hole in my stomach? This song perfectly encapsulates the feeling of one being alone yet there's a calmness to it, like everything will be ok.
Sometimes The road best traveled is the lonesome one, you get create that core experience, and never forget the feeling it conveyed to you, so at last, you’re doing alright, trust me. Just breathing is alright, take care. And sending you love man,
I know you have probably heard this multiple times , but you are not alone. Heck , the amount of food i eat is decreasing along with my appetite , yet i cant bring myself to eat. Even when your life is crumbling into pieces , theres no way you havent had atleast one time where you experienced something you wish to enjoy again. If you havent , you will probably stumbke across it in the future. I can’t say much but all i really can say is , i hope you can get your shit together
Sitting alone, being able to see the landscape, the sky, the clouds and sun, despite all sadness, hatred or pain and that emptiness that person left, I realize that maybe life is not that bad at all… it’s still beautiful at least. And even more beautiful knowing they’ll be happy somewhere, somewhen, somehow.
Sometimes I feel homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I create endless worlds in my head to distract myself from my shitty reality. It's sad, really. Not even worlds, just places. I really wish I could just fall asleep and live in a dream forever.
This is exactly why i got into art. Creating a world which didn’t exist but now does because you created it. It doesnt have to be perfect or bad , it is your world after all. I imagine a world with sunrises looking like a huge field that was plowed and filled with pink and purple fillings. One where i can sit on the railings of a roof top without fearing falling off. One where i can have a comfort of someone warm holding me in their arms.
“Tell me Dazai, why is it that you wish to die?” -“let’s turn that question around. Is there really any value, to this thing we call living?” -Osamu Dazai
I know not all y’all are religious but just imagine: you’re sitting in a field all by yourself looking at the most beautiful sunset while you cry so hard you can’t breathe, begging God to just take you already, you’re so tired and you don’t want to feel this way anymore, you miss someone so much and you can’t have them back, it hurts so much to lose someone, it feels like you are dying inside every day. But then you hear someone call your name so you turn around, it’s a man in a robe standing there with his arms wide open, waiting for YOU, you run to him and he gives you the biggest and best hug you’ve ever had and you can literally feel how much he loves you, no words have been spoken, but you can tell he just understands and feels your pain with you, comforting you, so you aren’t alone in your pain anymore, you cry ten times harder, like a baby crying for their mom, this is the first time you have been able to just cry to someone without any judgement, all you needed all this time was someone to understand and you finally get that. This person loves you unconditionally, no matter how much you screw up, no matter how bad you screw up, no matter what, he is always here for you waiting with open arms, you just have to turn around, he’s been there this whole time watching over you, it’s Jesus. I hope y’all can picture this, life gets so so hard, trust me I know it does, but you just need to keep hanging in there, someone has your back, someone you can truly rely on, he will never forsake you, when you feel like there is literally nobody left on this planet that cares about you, remember that Jesus may not be right in front of you, but he’s always there❤️❤️❤️ You are doing so good and trying so hard to keep going, I’m proud of you, keep trying your best, it doesn’t have to be much, as long as it’s your best that’s all that matters. Keep moving forward❤️
This is one of many songs i cry, deppress and have existencial crisis to but its actually relaxing in its way - w- I need a 1 hour version of this masterpiece
I have tried to be happy my whole life. Growing in a unstable household, being bullied and left alone by my peers. Now as a 23 year old i still feel alone, perhaps loner than ever, and I don't know if someone can love me, I wish someone would love me, I wish I could love myself. I'm going to therapy but some days I cannot bear my thoughts, and this is one of them. Thanks for this song, it helps me feel the sadness I hide most of the time
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I'm glad to hear that therapy is part of your path towards healing. Remember that it takes time and patience to work through difficult emotions and experiences. It's important to be kind and patient with yourself throughout this process. Seeking support from a therapist is a great step, as they can guide you in developing coping mechanisms and strategies for self-love. Remember that therapy takes time, and it's okay to have ups and downs along the way. In the meantime, music can often provide solace during tough times. It's great that you've found a song that resonates with you and helps you express and process your emotions. Remember to also reach out to friends and loved ones for support, as having a strong support system can make a significant difference. Keep reminding yourself that you are deserving of love and happiness. You are on a journey towards self-discovery and healing, and it's okay to have difficult days. Be patient and gentle with yourself, and know that you are not alone.
Sometimes I want to sleep forever. Yeah… I like the idea of that. An invisible sleep monster that roams the world, with no worries at all. I wouldn’t need to worry about keeping track of my friends, family, wealth, looks, smarts, school work, career, and my worth. I’d sit and watch the sun rise and sun set. I’d travel the world, admire the scenery, admire the stars and the clouds. I’d let the direction of the wind tell me where to travel next. With not a care in the world, this dream would be my home.
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to reach out to someone you trust for support.
Each song like this let me release whats been built up for so long. I grew up in a abusive household so I have a lot of anger issues because of my hatred for the people that hit me. I never need, and get to vent, or talk to someone about this. Because the only reason why I’m holding it is because. “I don’t care” those 3 words keep all of my feelings locked up. This is why I wrote this all down. I’m finally letting go of my feelings. Letting them flow. Now I shall end with a quote “A man doesn’t cry because he’s weak, it’s because he’s been strong for too long.”
wow didnt even last a week huh. here i am. i binged and now food wrappers cover my bed. stacks of homework sit beside those wrappers undone yet due by tomorrow. my scissors lay in my lap while bubbles of poppy red liquid dot my newly made wounds, diagonal across my irritated wrist. i thought i was just tired today. i just got such great news yesterday so why am i here? i should be happy and hopeful, but with my disorder feelings like that flee like migrating birds, vanishing without a trace. how long has it been? right, four years. i always continue to wonder how i survived this long. maybe because that shower head broke or there wasn’t enough pills in the bottle or maybe because i merely wasn’t strong enough to drive that knife deep enough. theres so many things i should be looking forward to, so many things that should motivate me and give me hope. why did i have to get this disorder? i could live happy and healthy like all the other kids. i could go to parties, not have anxiety attacks, i could wear short sleeves whenever i want, i could easily do homework and have good hygiene. the possibilities are endless if my brain wasn’t like this. so why? am i merely not good enough to have happiness that lasts more than 20 minutes?
Damn, that's the deepest shit in this comment section. Hope you're okay. The worlds a shitty place full of broken people, nothings ever gonna change that. I wish I could give a hug to every hurting person in the world. They deserve better. Love you, even if I don't know you. ❤️
this gives me a "its the end of the world. no one is left but you. you sit as the sunsets, not knowing if this is your last time ever watching such a beautiful sight. you cherish the moment as you smile sadly, reminiscing the memories with your friends. you hears crunching leave behind you and you see a beautiful animal. it walks slowly to you as it lays beside you. you reach out to pet it and it sits there sleeping. you lay back, relaxing next to your new friend. going to sleep for eternity." vibes
That's a very melancholic and introspective atmosphere you're experiencing. It seems like a bittersweet moment of solace and companionship amidst the feeling of impending loss and uncertainty.
Please don't ever delete this, my cat loves this, sadly he passed away this morning. Everytime I played this he would lay down next to this sound. I miss him sm 😭
That sounds like a very serene and peaceful moment! Taking time for yourself and creating a relaxing atmosphere can be a great way to unwind and find peace. Enjoy the tranquility and the music playing on your speaker.
It's the 03. May 2022, 00:30. I am about to go to sleep. In 8,5 hours my final Maths Exam starts. I feel anxious, sad, happy, relieved and at the same time stressed, while hearing this song. I will go to bed not knowing if I will write a good mark or not, but there's one thing I am sure of: I have a loving family and girlfriend who will make my life better no matter the grades or achievements. I an mostly happy in my life and as well want to wish everybody to achieve happiness and to fulfill their dreams. Good night and farewell.
Good night! It sounds like you have a lot on your mind right now, but it's wonderful that you have such a loving support system. No matter what happens in your exam, remember that your worth is not solely determined by your grades. You are more than just a mark on a paper. Believe in yourself and your abilities, and trust that everything will work out for the best. Wishing you a restful night's sleep and the best of luck in your exam tomorrow. Sweet dreams!
@angeltruth4311 hey, thanks for your answer :) the exam was 2 years ago and I didn't fail it :) I'm studying now and things turned out well mostly. I wish you a good time!
This type of song is the type of a song where u just stare and think of how far you came to a child to where u are now. U start wondering why ur even here and what’s urpurpose of living if the end is just u getting old and dying anyway
I imagine this song when I hear it I look at my ceiling, I feel comfortable while crying my eyes out, while I also imagine that the actual person that loves me is coming into my room, and then they make me happy but no. They’re gone.
I'm literally in a crying session and this played. It's comforting to have something hugging you. I'm going to wake up and forget the pain, but I know that my eyes will show it all. I know for sure that my eyes will be puffy and red. But this video is helping me through it, so it's okay.
It is the next day after my crying session, and I would like to say thank you to ethereal. I was able to shut my eyes and cry. I had something to hug me and comfort me, I for that, I am grateful. Thank you!
I want to listen to this on a sunny spring afternoon, while laying down on the grass with the love of my life, my head atop their chest, feeling their heartbeat on my cheek. Lord, when... 😩
what i find to be one of the most heartbreaking things is liking someone who likes that specific person that is perfect through your eyes. we think that they are better than us. it gets in our head and messes with it. i’m going through that rn. and it is just truly heartbreaking. i’m sorry if you are going through it too or have gone through it. i wish the best for you. sending virtual hugs.❤️
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult situation. It can be really tough when we develop feelings for someone who seems to be perfect in our eyes, especially if they are interested in someone else. It's important to remember that nobody is perfect, and it's natural to feel inadequate or discouraged in these situations. However, it's crucial to value and appreciate yourself for who you are. Remember that there is someone out there who will appreciate and love you just as you are. Take care of yourself and focus on your own happiness. Virtual hugs to you too, and I hope things improve for you soon. If you ever need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to reach out.
POV: You are sitting by the bus stop. Shivering cold, drinking hot cocoa. The bus finally comes. You get on the bus and lay your head on the window, seeing the raindrops slowly drip on the window. Your eyes close, and you fall alseep. You wake up, put your earphones in and listen to music. You fall back asleep until you hear the bus stop and get off of the bus.
When:You fail, they yell at you, you have to go to the coordinator, but the coordinator didn't come and you sit in the middle of the hall and listen to this masterpiece.
sami se ves esto te queria decir que te amo, me haces muy feliz y quiero estar toda mi vida junto a ti, espero y nunca podamos terminar, eres lo mejor que tengo y lo mas importante para mi, eres lo que necesito para estar bien, no sabes lo en calma que me haces sentir, siempre seras mi gran amor, porque no importa dondes estes o que estes haciendo, yo siempre, verdaderamente y completamente te amare corazon
This reminds me of Friday, 21st February 2020. I was at our college's parking lot, it was already 6 p.m. I came back from the small convenience store to bought snickers (chocolate), and a cup of coffee. I watched the darkening purplish sky as I ate the snickers. I thought, "God, I want to meet you. If possible.. ah no, it's not possible." It was already 6 p.m to begin with, your house was far away from college and Friday isn't our practice day, there wasn't any event either so there's just no chance you'd come here. But then, a second after I had that thought, a motorcycle was approaching near to park somewhere. I glanced over and it was you. I was speechless, and so happy. God.. Thank you.. You got off from your motorcycle, placed your helmet on it and approached me. I couldn't see my face but I'm sure I wash blushing like crazy. You wore black t shirt with grey line on the collar, and you carried a small grey backpack that you wore only recently. I said hey and then we walked down the parking lot to sekre (Our Extracurricular/club's room) as you asked, "Does this bag fit my look?" I said, "yeah, you look nice." Now you're with her, I hope you're happy and I wish I told you how much I liked you back then.
No one understands me, and it hurts... So when my teacher said "I get it, I understand" to me? though she might've said it in attempts to try and calm me down, as I was yelling at a classmate because I was tired of her butting in my buissness and tired of her pushing me down .. I felt some sort of feeling of comfort, as the feeling started at my my heart and spreaded through my body, so quickly that it shocked me, My heart was beating fast and I was gonna cry.. but I held myself together and made sure no tears fell from my eyes. I didn't show my teacher how what she said made me feel , instead I continued to be a angry emotional wreck kid and give a rude tone, though I did stop yelling.. hoping that was enough to let her know that what she said meant a lot to me because in the moment, I was shook, the words hit me so hard and it made my heart feel relived, though in the moment I still stood my ground though my heart wanted me to walk off the edge and give into my teacher in the moment my brain felt as if we didn't want to let her "win". But now looking back at it. I regret not letting her know how she made me feel... I regret continuing to be rude and nasty..because she didn't deserve that and she still doesn't. She's always my support person and I love her for it Who is that teacher you ask? Ms.Serena my history teacher
i wish i could blast this at the highest possible volume and it still be enjoyable (meaning extremely loud jus not too loud to where it makes me deaf and i could never hear this✨️ again lol)
Hey guys… can I ask a question? When I try really hard, why is it never enough. Why is it I feel I need to change myself entirely but that won’t be enough for anyone. I feel I just need to go away, and no one will have to deal with me.
Just relax, calm down. It’s gonna be fine, you don’t need to prove yourself by anyone, you don’t need others validation, you don’t need approval from others, just take it step by step and ITLL be fine
“No matter your wealth, no matter your power, The end shall always close with you withering away into nothingness. We all shall rot in our deep graves, with people shedding their, once fond memories of thou.” - A random B!tch
This feels like when I was 8 years old, and I was suddenly woken up after a great night's sleep by the sound of rain, and the scenery looked grey, but the atmosphere felt fresh.
It was one of those rare moments when everything seemed calm and peaceful, even with the storm raging outside. The sound of raindrops hitting the window created a comforting melody, lulling me back into a state of tranquility. The world seemed to be at a standstill, as if nature itself was taking a deep breath and refreshing its surroundings. I could feel the coolness in the air, a welcomed contrast to the warmth of my cozy bed. The soft pitter-patter of raindrops on the leaves outside seemed to cleanse the world, washing away any worries or troubles that might have lingered from the previous day. The atmosphere was charged with a sense of renewal, as if the rain was breathing new life into everything it touched. Looking out the window, the scenery appeared etched with shades of gray, but it only added to the peacefulness of the moment. The raindrops blurred the edges of objects, creating a dreamlike quality that made the world feel softer, gentler. The greens of the trees and grass appeared more vibrant against the gray backdrop, as if the rain had brought out their true colors. As I opened the window, a gentle breeze carried the subtle scent of wet earth, filling my lungs with the invigorating fragrance.
Just figured out my crush that I spent so much time with had so much laughs with had so much fun with just got a boyfriend but I was not god enough for that role now there is nothing left she was my everything and I was nothing to her I was just nothing
Listen, I don’t judge people. I’m sorry that you feel that way, but you did and most likely still do mean something to her. She probably just didn’t have a romantic feeling for you, but she still cares for you as a friend. You do have importance to her.
Today my dad and I got into a fist fight... He left and hasn't come back... All this time I've wanted him gone and it's only now that I realize how much I want him to walk through the door...
Are the things going to be ending this soon??? I want my best times back .... I am tired or I am just overthinking everything...... No one needs anyone.... But God, please i can't afford loosing this one person from my life....
this makes me realize that the “dark phase” of my life was never a phase. it’s the small spurts of happiness i feel in between that are the actual phases. the happiness is the phase, not the sadness
that's so sad
Thank you
Mm, I do believe there's no such thing as phases. Everything is constant, and it just depends on where you allow yourself to be exposed to, thus, creating the perception of 'phase' once you get detached from where you thought you belong
Know exactly how you feel. Thought it was the dark times that were temporary, but the more time had passed I started to realize I feel empty and sad more than I feel happy :/
ITS NOT A PHASE MOM
I'm surprised that a human being is capable of understanding how I feel
What is this from
@@chachars5038 Steven universe
I think we try to empathize with others and understand them, but we never know for sure what is going on in other people's hearts. Everyone is like their own endless universe ... Ok, now I feel lonely 😔
The beats just makes everything calming
Emo vibes
This song reminds me of when i used to live in Ansbach, Germany and whenever i went to the marketplatz (market place) i would see people just enjoying life, each to their own, all content and happy while i felt like an outsider. I would see people with life long friends relaxing and smiling while eating ice cream, while me, a military kid, couldn't even make one temporary friend. All i would ever make were acquaintances, people whom you'd only know because you both happen to be at the same place at the same time. People whom you would later forget. Don't get me wrong I am perfectly content with being alone, that's all I've ever known. i just wished loneliness didn't come with the territory. I've always imagined myself in other peoples positions and how much my life would be different with friends I've known my whole life. Would i be happier? Or would i still feel this overwhelming emptiness gaping a hole in my stomach? This song perfectly encapsulates the feeling of one being alone yet there's a calmness to it, like everything will be ok.
I want to hug you
Sometimes The road best traveled is the lonesome one, you get create that core experience, and never forget the feeling it conveyed to you, so at last, you’re doing alright, trust me. Just breathing is alright, take care. And sending you love man,
It’s the human condition to feel empty. Life is still good though because those little moment were everything feels okay are very much worth it.
That was so poignant and elegant.
I'm here for you.
At this beyond point it's not a phase my life is crumbling into pieces
sorry to hear that...
Hi Peyton
I know you have probably heard this multiple times , but you are not alone. Heck , the amount of food i eat is decreasing along with my appetite , yet i cant bring myself to eat. Even when your life is crumbling into pieces , theres no way you havent had atleast one time where you experienced something you wish to enjoy again. If you havent , you will probably stumbke across it in the future. I can’t say much but all i really can say is , i hope you can get your shit together
Sitting alone, being able to see the landscape, the sky, the clouds and sun, despite all sadness, hatred or pain and that emptiness that person left, I realize that maybe life is not that bad at all… it’s still beautiful at least.
And even more beautiful knowing they’ll be happy somewhere, somewhen, somehow.
Underrated comment...
Damn I could feel U bro 😖
Sometimes I feel homesick for a place that doesn't exist.
I create endless worlds in my head to distract myself from my shitty reality. It's sad, really. Not even worlds, just places. I really wish I could just fall asleep and live in a dream forever.
me too i cry sometimes i wish i was somewhere else i feel like this place isnt home..
Wow I do the same thing didn't know I wasn't the only one
Same
damn
This is exactly why i got into art. Creating a world which didn’t exist but now does because you created it. It doesnt have to be perfect or bad , it is your world after all. I imagine a world with sunrises looking like a huge field that was plowed and filled with pink and purple fillings. One where i can sit on the railings of a roof top without fearing falling off. One where i can have a comfort of someone warm holding me in their arms.
“Tell me Dazai, why is it that you wish to die?”
-“let’s turn that question around. Is there really any value, to this thing we call living?”
-Osamu Dazai
I know not all y’all are religious but just imagine: you’re sitting in a field all by yourself looking at the most beautiful sunset while you cry so hard you can’t breathe, begging God to just take you already, you’re so tired and you don’t want to feel this way anymore, you miss someone so much and you can’t have them back, it hurts so much to lose someone, it feels like you are dying inside every day. But then you hear someone call your name so you turn around, it’s a man in a robe standing there with his arms wide open, waiting for YOU, you run to him and he gives you the biggest and best hug you’ve ever had and you can literally feel how much he loves you, no words have been spoken, but you can tell he just understands and feels your pain with you, comforting you, so you aren’t alone in your pain anymore, you cry ten times harder, like a baby crying for their mom, this is the first time you have been able to just cry to someone without any judgement, all you needed all this time was someone to understand and you finally get that. This person loves you unconditionally, no matter how much you screw up, no matter how bad you screw up, no matter what, he is always here for you waiting with open arms, you just have to turn around, he’s been there this whole time watching over you, it’s Jesus. I hope y’all can picture this, life gets so so hard, trust me I know it does, but you just need to keep hanging in there, someone has your back, someone you can truly rely on, he will never forsake you, when you feel like there is literally nobody left on this planet that cares about you, remember that Jesus may not be right in front of you, but he’s always there❤️❤️❤️
You are doing so good and trying so hard to keep going, I’m proud of you, keep trying your best, it doesn’t have to be much, as long as it’s your best that’s all that matters. Keep moving forward❤️
This comment made my day. Life is really hard for me right now and those words and this song where exactly what I needed
Thanks
Thank you so much. You made my day and today was speaking ielts exam so it really motivated me ☺️☺️☺️☺️
I think this is the best comment
Lo que has escrito es realmente hermoso
Just imagine laying on ur bed, staring at the ceiling and as the beat drops u look at ur door and ur imagining ur comfort character stands there.
Yessss I wish my comfort character is naked chucky cheese wby?
@@FvckZach albedo, walks in and smiles at me, ready to cuddle :)
@@FvckZach NAKED CHUCKY CHEESE? BYE VHIJDOKBVHFDJKL
mordekaiser!!
@@Koy_sg ALBEDOOO
This is one of many songs i cry, deppress and have existencial crisis to but its actually relaxing in its way - w-
I need a 1 hour version of this masterpiece
Wait I think u can just loop it
@@Ryukontherun24 you can.
I can’t describe how this makes me feel. But it’s the best music I’ve ever listened to
Same the song makes me fall asleep and I listen it when I am not not happy and like I sad or angry at the same time
I'm glad to hear that you are enjoying the music! Music has the ability to evoke strong emotions and can be a great source of comfort and relaxation.
If you ever need to talk or share what you're feeling, I am here to listen and provide support.
@@PoisonelleMisty4311tysm ❤
I have tried to be happy my whole life. Growing in a unstable household, being bullied and left alone by my peers. Now as a 23 year old i still feel alone, perhaps loner than ever, and I don't know if someone can love me, I wish someone would love me, I wish I could love myself. I'm going to therapy but some days I cannot bear my thoughts, and this is one of them. Thanks for this song, it helps me feel the sadness I hide most of the time
I love you reach out to me if you need someone to talk to.
@@iRainHQ actually I would love to, how can I contact you?
ok but thats just a chemical reaction
You can always talk to me on UA-cam if you ever need to vent. Normally I'd give you a hug, but this is over UA-cam comments.
I'm sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I'm glad to hear that therapy is part of your path towards healing. Remember that it takes time and patience to work through difficult emotions and experiences. It's important to be kind and patient with yourself throughout this process.
Seeking support from a therapist is a great step, as they can guide you in developing coping mechanisms and strategies for self-love. Remember that therapy takes time, and it's okay to have ups and downs along the way.
In the meantime, music can often provide solace during tough times. It's great that you've found a song that resonates with you and helps you express and process your emotions. Remember to also reach out to friends and loved ones for support, as having a strong support system can make a significant difference.
Keep reminding yourself that you are deserving of love and happiness. You are on a journey towards self-discovery and healing, and it's okay to have difficult days. Be patient and gentle with yourself, and know that you are not alone.
Sometimes I want to sleep forever. Yeah… I like the idea of that. An invisible sleep monster that roams the world, with no worries at all. I wouldn’t need to worry about keeping track of my friends, family, wealth, looks, smarts, school work, career, and my worth. I’d sit and watch the sun rise and sun set. I’d travel the world, admire the scenery, admire the stars and the clouds. I’d let the direction of the wind tell me where to travel next. With not a care in the world, this dream would be my home.
I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, but I can't provide the help that you need. It's important to reach out to someone you trust for support.
Each song like this let me release whats been built up for so long. I grew up in a abusive household so I have a lot of anger issues because of my hatred for the people that hit me. I never need, and get to vent, or talk to someone about this. Because the only reason why I’m holding it is because. “I don’t care” those 3 words keep all of my feelings locked up. This is why I wrote this all down. I’m finally letting go of my feelings. Letting them flow. Now I shall end with a quote
“A man doesn’t cry because he’s weak, it’s because he’s been strong for too long.”
wow didnt even last a week huh. here i am. i binged and now food wrappers cover my bed. stacks of homework sit beside those wrappers undone yet due by tomorrow. my scissors lay in my lap while bubbles of poppy red liquid dot my newly made wounds, diagonal across my irritated wrist. i thought i was just tired today. i just got such great news yesterday so why am i here? i should be happy and hopeful, but with my disorder feelings like that flee like migrating birds, vanishing without a trace. how long has it been? right, four years. i always continue to wonder how i survived this long. maybe because that shower head broke or there wasn’t enough pills in the bottle or maybe because i merely wasn’t strong enough to drive that knife deep enough. theres so many things i should be looking forward to, so many things that should motivate me and give me hope. why did i have to get this disorder? i could live happy and healthy like all the other kids. i could go to parties, not have anxiety attacks, i could wear short sleeves whenever i want, i could easily do homework and have good hygiene. the possibilities are endless if my brain wasn’t like this. so why? am i merely not good enough to have happiness that lasts more than 20 minutes?
Damn, that's the deepest shit in this comment section. Hope you're okay. The worlds a shitty place full of broken people, nothings ever gonna change that. I wish I could give a hug to every hurting person in the world. They deserve better.
Love you, even if I don't know you. ❤️
this gives me a "its the end of the world. no one is left but you. you sit as the sunsets, not knowing if this is your last time ever watching such a beautiful sight. you cherish the moment as you smile sadly, reminiscing the memories with your friends. you hears crunching leave behind you and you see a beautiful animal. it walks slowly to you as it lays beside you. you reach out to pet it and it sits there sleeping. you lay back, relaxing next to your new friend. going to sleep for eternity." vibes
That's a very melancholic and introspective atmosphere you're experiencing. It seems like a bittersweet moment of solace and companionship amidst the feeling of impending loss and uncertainty.
Please don't ever delete this, my cat loves this, sadly he passed away this morning. Everytime I played this he would lay down next to this sound. I miss him sm 😭
My condolences, Nara, he's in the better place for now, I believe ✨️
I’m so sorry
This is my comfort song, thanks ♡
i love you. this makes me feel too much in the best way possible. mwah tysm
so underrated omg i love this
I have a loud fan in my room and it makes the rain sound seem like it is actually raining
But reading while listening to this makes it so relaxing as well
LINK???🤤🤤
Liked even before listening...I knew it was gonna be a vibe 😭😞
It’s literally 2am, I’m sat in the bath with candles and the light off. This playing on my speaker. I’m at peace. 😮💨✨
why did you put an emoji farting sparkles
@@thebetteralex2978 its a face exhaling not farting
@@faroukaitali3655 face fart.
Omg wait. Im sitting in my closet playing this on loop since 11 pm and its now 2 am. Same 🧍
That sounds like a very serene and peaceful moment! Taking time for yourself and creating a relaxing atmosphere can be a great way to unwind and find peace. Enjoy the tranquility and the music playing on your speaker.
I’m having an eargasm
Wha-
It's the 03. May 2022, 00:30. I am about to go to sleep. In 8,5 hours my final Maths Exam starts. I feel anxious, sad, happy, relieved and at the same time stressed, while hearing this song. I will go to bed not knowing if I will write a good mark or not, but there's one thing I am sure of: I have a loving family and girlfriend who will make my life better no matter the grades or achievements. I an mostly happy in my life and as well want to wish everybody to achieve happiness and to fulfill their dreams. Good night and farewell.
Good night! It sounds like you have a lot on your mind right now, but it's wonderful that you have such a loving support system. No matter what happens in your exam, remember that your worth is not solely determined by your grades. You are more than just a mark on a paper. Believe in yourself and your abilities, and trust that everything will work out for the best. Wishing you a restful night's sleep and the best of luck in your exam tomorrow. Sweet dreams!
@angeltruth4311 hey, thanks for your answer :) the exam was 2 years ago and I didn't fail it :) I'm studying now and things turned out well mostly. I wish you a good time!
I really want to meet people who listen to this art at night 🫂
Can i have this being played when it is time for my funeral day, please :D. So perfect to ascend my soul to heaven peacefully.
This song is comfortable
This type of song is the type of a song where u just stare and think of how far you came to a child to where u are now. U start wondering why ur even here and what’s urpurpose of living if the end is just u getting old and dying anyway
This song makes me realize how things could end in a snap of a finger and never be the same again for good or bad🥹
I imagine this song when I hear it I look at my ceiling, I feel comfortable while crying my eyes out, while I also imagine that the actual person that loves me is coming into my room, and then they make me happy but no. They’re gone.
i’ve been looking for this thank you
My go too for when I meditate so relaxing brings me peace and calmness. Thank you for this masterpiece 🙏🏼
This song.. really puts me into a deeper thinking place,It hits differently
This is so perfect omg.
I'm literally in a crying session and this played. It's comforting to have something hugging you.
I'm going to wake up and forget the pain, but I know that my eyes will show it all. I know for sure that my eyes will be puffy and red.
But this video is helping me through it, so it's okay.
I hope you’re alright :)
it gets better sister, trust me. It'll be alright
@@i.m.a.wrytor2382 thank you, life still sucks, but I'm holding on.
ty for this :) cried that feeling that i cant explain out to this and i feel better
It is the next day after my crying session, and I would like to say thank you to ethereal. I was able to shut my eyes and cry. I had something to hug me and comfort me, I for that, I am grateful. Thank you!
thanks, i needed this
i just don’t want to be alone again
This song is amazing that i cant go to sleep without it. And I always use this vid 💖
I want to listen to this on a sunny spring afternoon, while laying down on the grass with the love of my life, my head atop their chest, feeling their heartbeat on my cheek. Lord, when... 😩
No but Im exactly the same. When are they coming in my life :(
I wasted 1 hour of my life searching for this song, but it's totally worth it
beautiful. this song brings me so much peace.
💜She is perfect
omg, i used headphone when i listen that music video . I feel like the sound from far . Relaxing!
Mate I just had an eargasm thank you
what i find to be one of the most heartbreaking things is liking someone who likes that specific person that is perfect through your eyes. we think that they are better than us. it gets in our head and messes with it. i’m going through that rn. and it is just truly heartbreaking. i’m sorry if you are going through it too or have gone through it. i wish the best for you. sending virtual hugs.❤️
I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a difficult situation. It can be really tough when we develop feelings for someone who seems to be perfect in our eyes, especially if they are interested in someone else. It's important to remember that nobody is perfect, and it's natural to feel inadequate or discouraged in these situations. However, it's crucial to value and appreciate yourself for who you are. Remember that there is someone out there who will appreciate and love you just as you are. Take care of yourself and focus on your own happiness. Virtual hugs to you too, and I hope things improve for you soon. If you ever need someone to talk to, don't hesitate to reach out.
@@PoisonelleMisty4311 thank you so much. I wish you the very best. 🤍
POV: You are sitting by the bus stop. Shivering cold, drinking hot cocoa. The bus finally comes. You get on the bus and lay your head on the window, seeing the raindrops slowly drip on the window. Your eyes close, and you fall alseep. You wake up, put your earphones in and listen to music. You fall back asleep until you hear the bus stop and get off of the bus.
When:You fail, they yell at you, you have to go to the coordinator, but the coordinator didn't come and you sit in the middle of the hall and listen to this masterpiece.
bro I loved it man how did you do it it's amazing
this sound calms me down
Listening this music alone,night and its just you and your feelings just hit different
sami se ves esto te queria decir que te amo, me haces muy feliz y quiero estar toda mi vida junto a ti, espero y nunca podamos terminar, eres lo mejor que tengo y lo mas importante para mi, eres lo que necesito para estar bien, no sabes lo en calma que me haces sentir, siempre seras mi gran amor, porque no importa dondes estes o que estes haciendo, yo siempre, verdaderamente y completamente te amare corazon
que onda tu y tu apellido de narco .w.? JHFDAKJH
Lo escucho ya mas de 10 veces m gusto mucho ....
life is just a hole with emotions in it.
Listening to this with your phone under a pillow is a different kind of vibe
Thank you. :]
The version just for me :’)
THAT'S SO GOOOOOOOOOOOD OMG!
This song reminds me of falling in love. I don't exactly know why but it's the first thing I think about when I hear it. I absolutely adore it though.
I love this music.
This reminds me of Friday, 21st February 2020. I was at our college's parking lot, it was already 6 p.m. I came back from the small convenience store to bought snickers (chocolate), and a cup of coffee. I watched the darkening purplish sky as I ate the snickers. I thought, "God, I want to meet you. If possible.. ah no, it's not possible." It was already 6 p.m to begin with, your house was far away from college and Friday isn't our practice day, there wasn't any event either so there's just no chance you'd come here.
But then, a second after I had that thought, a motorcycle was approaching near to park somewhere. I glanced over and it was you. I was speechless, and so happy. God.. Thank you..
You got off from your motorcycle, placed your helmet on it and approached me. I couldn't see my face but I'm sure I wash blushing like crazy. You wore black t shirt with grey line on the collar, and you carried a small grey backpack that you wore only recently. I said hey and then we walked down the parking lot to sekre (Our Extracurricular/club's room) as you asked, "Does this bag fit my look?" I said, "yeah, you look nice."
Now you're with her, I hope you're happy and I wish I told you how much I liked you back then.
This is one of those songs that, make me feel human again.
**slowly adds to my POV: You're the group therapist with your own problems but can't talk to anyone about them playlist**
i love this song so much
Любимая песня
😌 good
listening to this with earbuds/AirPods/headphones >>>
Thnku !!!!!
I love the raindrops
2022
Un año mas de vida
19%
Ojalá todo vuelva hacer como antes....
I was 15 min in before I came back to my body.. you doin sum
No one understands me, and it hurts... So when my teacher said "I get it, I understand" to me? though she might've said it in attempts to try and calm me down, as I was yelling at a classmate because I was tired of her butting in my buissness and tired of her pushing me down .. I felt some sort of feeling of comfort, as the feeling started at my my heart and spreaded through my body, so quickly that it shocked me, My heart was beating fast and I was gonna cry.. but I held myself together and made sure no tears fell from my eyes. I didn't show my teacher how what she said made me feel , instead I continued to be a angry emotional wreck kid and give a rude tone, though I did stop yelling.. hoping that was enough to let her know that what she said meant a lot to me because in the moment, I was shook, the words hit me so hard and it made my heart feel relived, though in the moment I still stood my ground though my heart wanted me to walk off the edge and give into my teacher in the moment my brain felt as if we didn't want to let her "win". But now looking back at it. I regret not letting her know how she made me feel... I regret continuing to be rude and nasty..because she didn't deserve that and she still doesn't. She's always my support person and I love her for it
Who is that teacher you ask?
Ms.Serena my history teacher
i wish i could blast this at the highest possible volume and it still be enjoyable (meaning extremely loud jus not too loud to where it makes me deaf and i could never hear this✨️ again lol)
Feeling interested in a girl hopefully things go well only time will tell :)
just imagine the girl you have always wanted laying in the middle of a field watching the stars with you :(
I feel unable to imagine, I don’t feel like I’m capable or should feel anything.
or the boy
I like feeling sad sometimes.
Me sinto em paz
que bom
siiiuu que relajasion espesialmente cuando duermes
Hey guys… can I ask a question? When I try really hard, why is it never enough. Why is it I feel I need to change myself entirely but that won’t be enough for anyone. I feel I just need to go away, and no one will have to deal with me.
Just relax, calm down. It’s gonna be fine, you don’t need to prove yourself by anyone, you don’t need others validation, you don’t need approval from others, just take it step by step and ITLL be fine
@@eeeyeee8873 thank you
“No matter your wealth, no matter your power, The end shall always close with you withering away into nothingness. We all shall rot in our deep graves, with people shedding their, once fond memories of thou.” - A random B!tch
"... And after that I killed him" said the killer.
Looks like no one's innocent. Not even you. Not even me.
2:06 am ,a lot of memories from this song
Comfort ❤️✨
wow, this really works. i can't find a single toxic comment
"sir youre going to die in 5 minutes"
Play this song
"But sir its 20 minutes long"
Death: dont worry ill wait
" Without Error, There Can Be No Brilliancy. "
This feels like when I was 8 years old, and I was suddenly woken up after a great night's sleep by the sound of rain, and the scenery looked grey, but the atmosphere felt fresh.
It was one of those rare moments when everything seemed calm and peaceful, even with the storm raging outside. The sound of raindrops hitting the window created a comforting melody, lulling me back into a state of tranquility. The world seemed to be at a standstill, as if nature itself was taking a deep breath and refreshing its surroundings.
I could feel the coolness in the air, a welcomed contrast to the warmth of my cozy bed. The soft pitter-patter of raindrops on the leaves outside seemed to cleanse the world, washing away any worries or troubles that might have lingered from the previous day. The atmosphere was charged with a sense of renewal, as if the rain was breathing new life into everything it touched.
Looking out the window, the scenery appeared etched with shades of gray, but it only added to the peacefulness of the moment. The raindrops blurred the edges of objects, creating a dreamlike quality that made the world feel softer, gentler. The greens of the trees and grass appeared more vibrant against the gray backdrop, as if the rain had brought out their true colors.
As I opened the window, a gentle breeze carried the subtle scent of wet earth, filling my lungs with the invigorating fragrance.
rn i just want a hug.
I wanna hug
que lindo sonido
my fav song
i dont know how to be happy anymore, so i try to make other people happy
but it feels like i annoy them
i miss my childhood
Just figured out my crush that I spent so much time with had so much laughs with had so much fun with just got a boyfriend but I was not god enough for that role now there is nothing left she was my everything and I was nothing to her I was just nothing
Listen, I don’t judge people. I’m sorry that you feel that way, but you did and most likely still do mean something to her. She probably just didn’t have a romantic feeling for you, but she still cares for you as a friend. You do have importance to her.
Today my dad and I got into a fist fight... He left and hasn't come back... All this time I've wanted him gone and it's only now that I realize how much I want him to walk through the door...
Are the things going to be ending this soon??? I want my best times back
.... I am tired or I am just overthinking everything...... No one needs anyone.... But God, please i can't afford loosing this one person from my life....
The description is how i feel.
Stark Stream
good night