Thank you all so much for the kind words! I am pleasantly surprised at how many people were able to connect with this song :) For those of you who asked for the lyrics, I put them in the description! Again thank you so much for all the love, you guys are so sweet
This video showed up in an add before another video I was going to watch and I couldn't stop listening. This girls voice is absolutely unreal. I was incredibly surprised to see that this channel doesn't have more subscribers. Well, It has one more now. I hope many more are too follow. :)
I'm inspired by her she is so underated she needs more notice Also I've written a songs but I wish she could sing it but I dont think she'll notice this comment
My old therapist needs to hear this line. "Everyone has dark thoughts" "You don't seem like the kind of person to attempt" Aaand then I very nearly did.
@@letsgolesbians9617 You ARE okay! I am sure you have been through so much simply because you understand these lyrics... Please know and never forget this- you are completely invaluable. You are loved and irreplaceable even by those you may not notice! Keep your chin up and have faith that you will smile again :)
@@metalxcore5368 Thank you so much! CW: Su!c!de By the time I was 14 I'd already attempted twice, so these lyrics hit very hard for me. Thank you so very much, you are a kind and amazing person, I wish you all the best.
"No one know's what goes on up in my head." She took the words from my soul. I am a great pretender at hiding what's really going on in my mind. Love this. But there is hope.
Me too. My teacher, who teaches 10 of us, said "none of you have depression, stop making those jokes!" the day I got diagnosed with MD.. It kind of hurt that my favorite teacher couldn't tell how broke I was..
@@adelynnjack5392 Don´t be. The problem is not others. You shouldn´t focus in the negative side of her if she is your favorite. Try opening more to her, people with different perspectives may coexist. An online therapist from the gaming community, graduated from Oxford, said that depression and other mental health problems are really something new, it´s easy to comprehend the misjudgment from anyone.
For me, it’s not always that I’m hiding what’s going on in my head. It’s that I can’t properly explain what’s going on in my head to anyone in a way that they fully understand. I can’t explain my OCD.
Grace im in that head state. I wrote this song and so many others. Been a song writer and piano play since AD lol beatles floyd zeplin, my father also composes and preforms, hes not dead hes there writing to me, exposing our amazing ability. I have wrote modonna whitney to elle golding, several christan bands even rap.... my bf is huge too. Drake jay Z. Im X from the wall pinky
The system we live in doesn't support mental health, passions, the expression of individuality, or any form of fulfillment other than material possessions, money, drugs, or sex. The best we can do is strive to follow our passions and dreams, focus on learning how to communicate peacefully, and surround ourselves with an environment and people that support our mental health and happiness, find little ways to feed the soul
I'm speechless. You deserve to be more popular around the music industry. You sing so passionately and powerfully please let us hear more of you beautiful voice. You amazing.❤️
I didn't notice the tears flowing down my face until my wife asked me if I was okay. This song is going to be a huge part of my life for a long time and I thank you for helping me find words to help explain the unexplainable. There are so few songs in this world that have touched me in a way that yours has - ever. Thank you Faith Marie. Thank you.
@@LegalAlien80 How's that mean? This comment is clearly fake... No one crys without noticing. You can explain something unexplainable it makes no sense. @daemolitia has simply tried to write a comment that will earn thumbs up. And I'm calling them out on the bullshit, becasue I'm not an idiot.
Actually, I didn't notice because I wasn't watching the video. I had my eyes closed listening to the words and was so engrossed in the words that I did not notice them. I have always found it difficult to describe the feelings I have and this song has been invaluable to me because I can play it for someone and they instantly understand what I had been unable to describe in words. My comment was purely intended to be that of gratitude to the artist and to let her know that it had an effect on me. I think we know who is actually trolling for thumbs up and points. Maybe ask questions before identifying as someone who can read minds and "know" the intentions of others. Calling me out. Lol. Let me guess, you too suffer with depression and I am doing the community a huge disservice by expressing my feelings towards a song without all the clarity you need to feel safe and protected. I'm no poser so step outside your ridiculous preconception of what a comment should look like and troll another commenter. I'm not saying you're stupid, but, you know, it's kind of obvious that you're at least ignorant of how others can feel and express themselves.
It's been a while, but when I first heard this, something in me resounded, I felt I was filled with excitement, but also a scratching feeling. I was surprised how powerful this was.
When I'm breaking down, I play her songs and plug out the world and let my thoughts settle, she has such a great voice and beautiful lyrics. She sings all the words I've been longing to say 🤧💕
I feel the same, whenever I'm done with my family or my school I will just turn on her songs and put my earphones in and block them all out. We all feel that we need that certain time of day to ourself to be who what we want for a little.
its been a year from first listening to this. i havent heard her songs in months, I tried to stop listening in attempt to leave the negativity behind. Here i am after my 5th breakdown this week wondering how to fix it all. Im glad this exists to show that though im still hurting, ive grown and become better and hopefully i can come back next year with a new found happiness.
I had never heard this artist before today, and my wife and I were already planning on naming our first child Faith Marie if we have a daughter. If our daughter turns out to be this talented (which I have no doubt she will) then her name will already live up to the hype. Beautifully done, Faith.
This was one of my bad nights.... I'm crying as I listen to this.... This is one of the best songs and I'm connecting to it so quickly... You are truly beautiful, I'm glad I was able to listen to this song.
You'll be okay, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or next week; but someday you'll look back at yourself, not with pity, no, with understanding, with love, with KINDNESS. One day you'll see your worth, you'll learn how to love your flaws, you'll learn that your quirks are beautiful. One day you'll see yourself the same way everyone else does; you just have to hope for that day, you need to breathe, and never stop, fight without hesitance and love without fear. I know things are hard right now, and that's okay, that's valid, but you need to breathe, you need to live, if not for yourself, for the people you'll meet, for the person you'll fall in love with, for your best friends, for your siblings, for your children, and nieces and nephews. You may not see that your life is important, and you may feel that no one does, but there are people who do, and people who will. Someone loves and it would break their heart if you died.
If you wish, take no notice of this comment. If you would like, please help it reach a higher point to increase the chance of it being seen by Faith. I'm just like any other person, but I have a few things I would like to say, just on the off chance that Faith Marie might see this. I would like to thank you. I can't express my emotions about this enough. Your music has helped me through the darkest part of my life over this past year. No medication or therapy was able to achieve as much as your songs. I'm no longer suicidal, and have been clean from cutting for almost two months. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Finding refuge in my own lies "How are you" "I'm doing alright" Small talk is a great disguise Just let me be just let me be Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind Am I only living, living to survive? Shake it off but I've lost the drive Just let me be just let me be Let me be, okay [Chorus] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok [Verse 2] All the voices in my head are coming to life They're getting louder and I'm terrified How do you run from your own mind? Is this what I've become? Take it back what have I done [Chorus] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok [Bridge] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands I can change my plans I can change my plans I tried to find my reflection on the glass But all I ever saw were the things I lacked All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane All I ever thought I was Was a mistake [Outro] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head Up inside my head Up inside my head
[Verse 1] Finding refuge in my own lies "How are you" "I'm doing alright" Small talk is a great disguise Just let me be just let me be Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind Am I only living, living to survive? Shake it off but I've lost the drive Just let me be just let me be Let me be, okay [Chorus] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok [Verse 2] All the voices in my head are coming to life They're getting louder and I'm terrified How do you run from your own mind? Is this what I've become? Take it back what have I done [Chorus] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok I just want to be ok [Bridge] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands I can change my plans I can change my plans I tried to find my reflection on the glass But all I ever saw were the things I lacked All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane All I ever thought I was Was a mistake [Outro] No one knows what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one knows what goes on up inside my head Up inside my head Up inside my head
As a person with BPD, I can't tell you how much I appreciate and relate to this song. It is beautiful and you are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your amazing talent.
I found this song while I was in a really bad place mentally, and I've never related or been moved so much by a song before. I instantly cried and continued to do that the following 5 times I heard it. Im much better now, and for me today, is the song just a great song, I find really lovely to sing but the way it made me feel two years ago, I will absolutely never forget, and thank u faith so much for that
This is single handedly the best song I've ever heard. You are my inspiration. The lyrics are as deep as the ocean, your talent as wide as the sea. It's insane. It makes me physically in pain that you aren't famous and the crappy "talented" pop and rap singers we have today in our society are looked up to. They haven't felt pain. True pain is what makes good artists, and that means you have gone through a lot. This song is stuck inside my head, I never stop thinking about it because it's what true music is like, and I wish we had more of that here in this sinful world. Thank you so much for writing this.
I thought I was getting better but a full year later, I'm back here again. I wish recovery was easy but it's not. don't stop trying but don't expect immediate results. keep fighting everyone, I love you ❤️
Hey ...This is such a wonderful song. The melody touches me very much. Please continue this way and go on your way. I wish you much success in the music. You are a very strong Person. I like You
Why is this artist not that famous?? She makes great music that pierces deep through the heart!!! I felt everything! Every phrase, melody! Thanks for this music. For your empathy.
I used this song as my lyrical solo for dance this year, I just was able to connect so much to this song, as someone who struggles with reaching out to others for help, especially when I hit a rough patch and my mind goes dark and whenever I look in the mirror all I'm able to see are my flaws and things I hate about myself. This song and the dance I had was my way of expressing what I was bottling up inside❤❤
*Friends:* You're too depressed and bring the mood down. *Parents:* Why can't you be more like your brother? *School:* You'll never get anywhere in life. *Music:* Sweetie are you okay? Just listen to me and you'll be fine
Faith, this is ONE kick in the pants of a great song. The lyrics are painfully real and immediately personal to many (even though they're clearly yours). Your piano licks are stunning and deeply enhance how you're feeling inside your head. And to finally hear your sweet and one-of-a-kind voice is a pleasure. You may not realize that I only just 30 or so minutes ago tripped over your Facebook page, which thankfully led me here, to this piece of musical magic... Antidote. I've given it five listens already, and intend to listen some more, but not 'til I've gone through the rest of your repertoire. While you're performing tonight in Salt Lake City, I'm back here in Santa Clarita, staring out at the ever-increasingly gray sky where it's been pouring since shortly after Midnight, and I've been watching many exotic birds just outside my upstairs window. There is a lovely pair of mourning doves who is feasting on the red berries on the hill right here, and I wish you could see them, since they're nearly as beautiful as you, Faith. Your budding career is going nowhere else but upward, dear girl, and I wish I'd known all along just where you were in this dramatic climb. Continue having great fun, and always sing from your heart, your mind, and your very being-ness. That is what it is all about. Love, Susie
"there's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread" *-2015:* that's such a beautiful metaphor *-2020:* ah yes, the virus really does suck doesn't it
I was driving myself insane and had so much hurt, anger, pain and resentment. I made a choice and its a conscious choice and battle every day to except myself, love myself with all my flaws...to love my individuality. To do what makes me truly happy no matter how silly or unimportant it seems to other people. To be myself even if it means to rediscover myself and the things i used to love. To become who i know i should be and reject and get rid of the negative, even if its people. To fight the demons of my own mind is a battle, but one i know i will win because i am unique in my own way. Sex, drugs, booze, and all that goes with this hurt never healed me, it made it worse. No matter how tired i am, i will myself to always keep fighting for the real me until i win. Thank you for this song, its a reminder of the small battles i’ve already won. ♥️♥️♥️
you know i allways tought that there is no people like u bc all the boys i've met,it didn't end up well they were mean to me and they have never been in pain like we did listening to this song thank you
The thing I love about you, Faith, is that look at all those people in the coments letting all their thoughts out... Your songs really make ppl think about who they are and what they think.
People always try to suppress their emotions. I do it too, commonly. People try to hide from facts and try to hide their face. I just turned light theme on because I got sick of looking at it. I'm not gonna tell you that you need to stop, that you need to stay confident, and just get rid of these negative emotions. I'm not here to condescendingly tell you, "It's okay sweetie" and walk away not caring. I'm here to tell you that by hiding your emotions and hiding what your shameful of, be it physical or mental, your delaying the inevitable. But like, it's not like you're suddenly gonna become super confident, love yourself like you love your crush, and become just ok suddenly, that doesn't happen. All I'm saying is, it's important to exept your emotions, not hide them, instead of saying. "I wish I never broke down over the smallest things." Think "I know I'm gonna break down over something with no meaning, and it's gonna suck, so what can I do to keep calm." Don't try to escape your problems, just sit their and let whatever demons plan an attack on you. Because then, the demons will never notice that you've heard everything.
Heard this when it came out and was obsessed for a pretty long time , am back now and am so freaking proud u have grown so much since last time and u deserve all of it
The moment between 2:47 and 2:55 captures the feeling of distance and self-doubt pretty well. As a classical instrumentalist of fifteen+ years, I practice making sounds convey more than just melodies, and the way she plays these two dissonant chords is a perfect example of playing to the meaning of the song.
Faith i love this song and not just that this is an amazing song you wrote but your expression the way you would just stare off into space just made it that much more real you were so into the song it just added to the feel of the video you are an amazing beautiful and talented young woman
My favorite part of this song is that it's written so...raw and honest and understandable, that those kids that can't speak the truth to their parents because they are comfortable in their lies can give them this song to listen to and it can speak for them in a way that they are more likely to understand. Edit: I wish it had existed when I was a kid. It would have saved me three years of trying to explain what needed to be felt not heard.
This is my go to song every time I feel sadness is eating me up inside again and when my self hatred is overwhelming. I am always self sabotaging. Oh how many times I go back here in every year. This song has everything that I feel inside. Crazy how it speaks to my soul too. I feel like this song is my antidote.
"Am I living just to survive?" is exactly the question I've been asking myself the past few weeks. Online college, pandemic isolation, and feeling like a burden are slowly drowning me... Thank the gods for therapy and family/friends who understand my darkness and help me fight it.
Been here 5 years ago, and guess what dude.. You've made it! This song reaches those souls that need this kind of remedy. We'll this song reminded me that don't be intoxicated by your own thoughts..
I think the most striking part of this song, which nobody seems to have noticed, is the part where she says, "I didn't know the antidote was in my hands / I can change my plans, I can change my plans." Thank you for giving me the words I needed to regain my locus of control
I used to feel like this sometimes. If you feel this way, just remember, things can get better, but it’s important that you believe they can, in the bottom of your heart. It’s okay to be scared, it’s okay to cry, but think to yourself, is this how you want your life to continue? My advice is to find someone close to you who will understand, and tell them about it. If your too scared to tell your family, then don’t. Talk to the person you can trust, and maybe they can tell someone for you. Just remember, the ones who mind, don’t matter, the ones who matter, don’t mind.
I've listened to this at least 15 times since last night. Do the world a favour and get a record deal already! Thank you for your work, you will go far.
'they don't think I need help, but I'm scaring myself. I just want to be okay' hits way to close to home. Why can it be so tough to convince people you need help? It's hard enough to ask for it so please listen to anyone in your life telling you that they are not okay. Thank you so much for your music faith, it's exactly what I need right now.
wow when did you crawl inside my mind... thank you for letting me know im not alone. i seriously feel lonely and im surrounded by people who love and care about me. this song hits me in the feels.
This song surfaced right at the beginning of my mental state's decline. She spoke right to my heart, and she still does. I've been struggling with borderline personality disorder for as long as I can remember. This song hits hard now that I have a diagnosis and I'm in therapy. I truly have the antidote in my hands now. Im so grateful to all the music that helps my broken soul cope with life.
It's 2018 and I'm STILL loving this song... So relatable... Depression is like the uninvited person to the party... And.with you being the party... It sucks but we will get through it together... It's hard... But believe me... God loves you too much!
Its hard to be okay when everyone in life tries so hard to bring you down. They say once you hit rock bottom, the only way left to go is up, right? Well little did they know, if you tear someone up, they will start digging farther down.
When I first grew suicidal to a scary degree(like, I've often thought about dying and stuff, but it was never really suicidal) that's the first time I was scared of myself. It's a really horrifying feeling. Because the only thing I had, myself, I was also scared of. And I still am. Every day, I never go outside, out of fear of what I would do. Or what I would buy. (Rope to hang myself, painkillers, sleeping pills...) Much to the dismay of my mother. She doesn't understand. How I could be depressed. She also doesn't know (yet) that I'm suicidal. And until the day I die, she will probably never know. Anyways, I don't trust myself. So if I can't even do that, how am I supposed to trust others? How will I ever get better? HOW??!
I've been passively suicidal for a while, and when I was feeling like I might actually want to kill myself, it was really scary. I don't know you and I don't know what your situation is like, but I want you to know that if you need/want someone to talk to, I'm here. Please don't kill yourself. I understand that it feels like the only option sometimes, but remember that there are people who care about you. If you can't think of anyone who does, think of me, a random stranger on the internet who's dealt with some of the same awful feelings that you have. I care about you, and I'm happy to chat if you want :)
The first step is to get help. Dont go to a clinical doctor but an actual psychiatrist and be aware that not every psychiatrist or psychologist is going to be your cup of tea. It's a VERY daunting taste but take it from someone who has tried to commit suicide twice, the frustration and anxiety is worth it. Second step, find a support system. Even if it ine single person, as it is for me, find someone who you know will love you no matter what. That is also very difficult. I was married to my husband for 2&1/2 years before I began to believe I could truly trust him with everything, even my mental illness which I kept to myself for so long. 3rd step, remember it is an on going process, you aren't going to randomly be better one day and recognize that healing and "better" is different for everyone, dont try to measure your progress and growth with anyone else.
You are loved. You are worthy of love. People care about you. More then you know. Until you can live for yourself, live for them. You can be happy. You deserve happiness. You deserve a good life.
This song hits way too close to home. Between the words and the sound my heart is melting through my fingers. Faith, you have some serious talent. Please make more!
Back when I first heard this song I just think it's a good song. But then I start getting panic disorder and insomnia this past few weeks. Just recently I experienced the worse panic attack that last longer than my usual panic attack. I've never feel so terrified. This song express how I feel going through this. I can't tell my parents cause they won't understand, I have no actual friends to talk with and therapy is expensive since I'm not a student anymore. Recently I befriend someone on instagram who are willing to lend their ears and be there for me everytime I have a panic attack and I'm just grateful that they're always there to listen and talk to me despite our time zone difference. I'm still far from recovering and might never be but I'll recover. Someday.
I hope you are okay. I wish your friend best of luck, and yes, I'm also willing to lend you a listening ear. I won't judge or hate, I'll just listen if you are willing to open up. And if not, that's also okay. I just hope you heal soon.
Y'all are not alone fight on brothers and sisters. Embrace your perspective it's important to voice it you are you and you are not the only one who is in the fight. Rock on mates ( :
Antidote Finding refuge in my own lies How are you I'm doing alright Small talk is a great disguise Just let me be x2 Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind Am I only living to survive? Shake it off but I've lost the drive Just let me be x2 Let me be okay No one know what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one know what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be okay x2 All the voices in my head are coming to life They're getting louder and I'm terrified How do you run from your own mind? Is this what I've become? Take it back what I've done No one know what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one know what goes on up inside my head They don't think I need help But I'm scaring myself I just want to be ok x2 No one know what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread But I didn't know the antidote was in my hands I can change my plans I can change my plans I tried to find my reflection on the glass But all I ever see is the things I lacked All the smudges on the mirror make me go insane All I ever though I was.. ..was a mistake. No one know what goes on up inside my head There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread No one know what goes on up inside my head Up inside my head x2
this is by far my favorite song... i have never related to a song on a level like this before... thank you for being strong enough to write the lyrics and composing this track its gorgeous and speaks a truth
I saw this in an ad and I must say, I'm very glad I didn't hit the skip button...this song is so relatable to me and Faith's voice is just so angelic. Easily one of my favorite songs
Ugh this song is so beautiful. It expresses the way so many of us feel. Life is so fucking harsh. I’ve spent so much of my life trying to help others, and I think I’ve forgotten how to help myself. I’ve literally teared up almost every day for almost half a year now. It’s been a slow descent for many years now, and everything is finally falling apart hard. Songs like this just might help to get through it all.
Thank you all so much for the kind words! I am pleasantly surprised at how many people were able to connect with this song :) For those of you who asked for the lyrics, I put them in the description! Again thank you so much for all the love, you guys are so sweet
this was really such a great song! can't wait to hear more originals from you! c:
This video showed up in an add before another video I was going to watch and I couldn't stop listening. This girls voice is absolutely unreal. I was incredibly surprised to see that this channel doesn't have more subscribers. Well, It has one more now. I hope many more are too follow. :)
+Faith Marie What's the piano for this I would like to learn it
Faith are you subscribed to AmyLee33? She's really sweet
Omg your so pretty and I love your voice more then anyone I've ever heard! I'm so happy I found you and I'm excited for more to come!😍
"They don't think I need help, but I'm scaring myself"
I am glad I finally found music that I can relate to during these times...
I'm inspired by her she is so underated she needs more notice
Also I've written a songs but I wish she could sing it but I dont think she'll notice this comment
My old therapist needs to hear this line. "Everyone has dark thoughts" "You don't seem like the kind of person to attempt" Aaand then I very nearly did.
We all need help.
@@letsgolesbians9617 You ARE okay! I am sure you have been through so much simply because you understand these lyrics... Please know and never forget this- you are completely invaluable. You are loved and irreplaceable even by those you may not notice! Keep your chin up and have faith that you will smile again :)
@@metalxcore5368 Thank you so much! CW: Su!c!de
By the time I was 14 I'd already attempted twice, so these lyrics hit very hard for me. Thank you so very much, you are a kind and amazing person, I wish you all the best.
"No one know's what goes on up in my head." She took the words from my soul. I am a great pretender at hiding what's really going on in my mind. Love this. But there is hope.
Just keep going
Me too. My teacher, who teaches 10 of us, said "none of you have depression, stop making those jokes!" the day I got diagnosed with MD.. It kind of hurt that my favorite teacher couldn't tell how broke I was..
@@adelynnjack5392 Don´t be. The problem is not others. You shouldn´t focus in the negative side of her if she is your favorite. Try opening more to her, people with different perspectives may coexist.
An online therapist from the gaming community, graduated from Oxford, said that depression and other mental health problems are really something new, it´s easy to comprehend the misjudgment from anyone.
For me, it’s not always that I’m hiding what’s going on in my head. It’s that I can’t properly explain what’s going on in my head to anyone in a way that they fully understand. I can’t explain my OCD.
She controls the volume of her voice perfectly for this style of music.
OddPasta right
I didn't ever know that someone could match my mental state in song form this perfectly
Same, toxic thoughts really speaks to me as well, all her songs do x
Yeah
Yes! I couldn’t find the words but you said it exactlyyy!
Grace im in that head state. I wrote this song and so many others. Been a song writer and piano play since AD lol beatles floyd zeplin, my father also composes and preforms, hes not dead hes there writing to me, exposing our amazing ability. I have wrote modonna whitney to elle golding, several christan bands even rap.... my bf is huge too. Drake jay Z. Im X from the wall pinky
Lol I totally agree! :]
The system we live in doesn't support mental health, passions, the expression of individuality, or any form of fulfillment other than material possessions, money, drugs, or sex. The best we can do is strive to follow our passions and dreams, focus on learning how to communicate peacefully, and surround ourselves with an environment and people that support our mental health and happiness, find little ways to feed the soul
American Capitalism is a death cult
@@amalbenmoussa159 %100
We The unwilling, will dutifully carry out our role. And hope to scrape together a bit of happiness for our meagerselves
I'm speechless. You deserve to be more popular around the music industry. You sing so passionately and powerfully please let us hear more of you beautiful voice. You amazing.❤️
Your*
+Moo Moo I ❤ your name
and I agree w/ u
unfortunately artists like this rarely reach mainstream success
well when they do, their music gets ruined anyway.
I didn't notice the tears flowing down my face until my wife asked me if I was okay. This song is going to be a huge part of my life for a long time and I thank you for helping me find words to help explain the unexplainable. There are so few songs in this world that have touched me in a way that yours has - ever. Thank you Faith Marie. Thank you.
What a fake comment.
@@Irrelevantusername000 Why so mean?
@@LegalAlien80 How's that mean? This comment is clearly fake... No one crys without noticing. You can explain something unexplainable it makes no sense. @daemolitia has simply tried to write a comment that will earn thumbs up. And I'm calling them out on the bullshit, becasue I'm not an idiot.
Actually, I didn't notice because I wasn't watching the video. I had my eyes closed listening to the words and was so engrossed in the words that I did not notice them. I have always found it difficult to describe the feelings I have and this song has been invaluable to me because I can play it for someone and they instantly understand what I had been unable to describe in words.
My comment was purely intended to be that of gratitude to the artist and to let her know that it had an effect on me. I think we know who is actually trolling for thumbs up and points. Maybe ask questions before identifying as someone who can read minds and "know" the intentions of others.
Calling me out. Lol. Let me guess, you too suffer with depression and I am doing the community a huge disservice by expressing my feelings towards a song without all the clarity you need to feel safe and protected. I'm no poser so step outside your ridiculous preconception of what a comment should look like and troll another commenter. I'm not saying you're stupid, but, you know, it's kind of obvious that you're at least ignorant of how others can feel and express themselves.
@@Tubolitia I stand by my comment. And clearly I have not done it for likes, people dislike honesty. They prefer sentimental lies such as yours.
i love her that voice speaks out of the soul she is even crying
Your so right
wandy cherokee bonifacio you’re*
Just discovered this girl. So thankful I did.
Helping me through a rough time.
All her songs speak word for word what I feel.
+Biovox13
she said "this girl" what are u talking about
there both stupid, i see nothing wrong with what she typed.
+Awoo
exactly im so confused wtf are they on about
woah you cant assume their gender, it is 2017 afterall
Emily Melton I feel the same way. Her voice is really beautiful too :)
I heard "Little Girl" as an ad, and now I'm obsessed with your music/voice.. I love it so much
Ive been enjoying it for the last hour or so :)
same
me as well. I write alot of stuff like this but I suck at singing so it never gets sung :(
Thank you fiercefoxy, I forgot about this song, its good for those sad times, :) thank you
I got a notification lol
"is this what I've become, take it back what have I done"
That hit hard
I felt like my soul was singing this song..only some will understand this ♡
Becca Butterfly I know how you feel ♡
I know..
It's been a while, but when I first heard this, something in me resounded, I felt I was filled with excitement, but also a scratching feeling. I was surprised how powerful this was.
your comment just gave me cancer
cancer shouldn't be a joke.
When I'm breaking down, I play her songs and plug out the world and let my thoughts settle, she has such a great voice and beautiful lyrics. She sings all the words I've been longing to say 🤧💕
Heart idear I'll try
I feel the same, whenever I'm done with my family or my school I will just turn on her songs and put my earphones in and block them all out. We all feel that we need that certain time of day to ourself to be who what we want for a little.
I do the same thing...
its been a year from first listening to this. i havent heard her songs in months, I tried to stop listening in attempt to leave the negativity behind. Here i am after my 5th breakdown this week wondering how to fix it all. Im glad this exists to show that though im still hurting, ive grown and become better and hopefully i can come back next year with a new found happiness.
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I had never heard this artist before today, and my wife and I were already planning on naming our first child Faith Marie if we have a daughter. If our daughter turns out to be this talented (which I have no doubt she will) then her name will already live up to the hype. Beautifully done, Faith.
Did u name her faith marie?
My first and middle are this.
It's a beautiful name! I am also Faith Marie
How old is he/she now?!
This was one of my bad nights....
I'm crying as I listen to this....
This is one of the best songs and I'm connecting to it so quickly...
You are truly beautiful, I'm glad I was able to listen to this song.
You'll be okay, maybe not today, or tomorrow, or next week; but someday you'll look back at yourself, not with pity, no, with understanding, with love, with KINDNESS. One day you'll see your worth, you'll learn how to love your flaws, you'll learn that your quirks are beautiful. One day you'll see yourself the same way everyone else does; you just have to hope for that day, you need to breathe, and never stop, fight without hesitance and love without fear. I know things are hard right now, and that's okay, that's valid, but you need to breathe, you need to live, if not for yourself, for the people you'll meet, for the person you'll fall in love with, for your best friends, for your siblings, for your children, and nieces and nephews. You may not see that your life is important, and you may feel that no one does, but there are people who do, and people who will.
Someone loves and it would break their heart if you died.
@@BeesFairyTale Thank you. That gives me many more reasons to live ❤
@@BeesFairyTale From what you wrote, you truly are a beautiful person.
I hope you are doing ok x
@Bee thank you for reminding me that life is worth living
If you wish, take no notice of this comment. If you would like, please help it reach a higher point to increase the chance of it being seen by Faith. I'm just like any other person, but I have a few things I would like to say, just on the off chance that Faith Marie might see this. I would like to thank you. I can't express my emotions about this enough. Your music has helped me through the darkest part of my life over this past year. No medication or therapy was able to achieve as much as your songs. I'm no longer suicidal, and have been clean from cutting for almost two months. I thank you from the bottom of my heart.
Alana Dunn belladonna1771 music has some crazy power. I’m so glad for you that you’ve started to heal, keep fighting and stay strong. ❤️
Music can do that. Glad that you're getting better 🙂
🖤
Glad your better depression I deal with it everyday music seems to help me faith marie has a beautiful voice
I hope she sees this and i know this comment was almost a year ago, but im so proud how far you've come. 💙 I hope you're still becoming stronger! 💋
7 years later and it still has the same impact
I wish, music like this used to be my cathartic release but nothing hits the same anymore.
Dead Inside.
incredible, well worth the wait!
ikr :)
+SeaPeeKay Awww Thank you! And thank you for waiting!! :)
oh hey I watch ur videos lol
Not quite who I expected to see here
omg hi
Finding refuge in my own lies
"How are you"
"I'm doing alright"
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be just let me be
Let me be, okay
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Verse 2]
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Bridge]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
[Outro]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head
from 15 years old to 23 years old this song still hits everytime
[Verse 1]
Finding refuge in my own lies
"How are you"
"I'm doing alright"
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be just let me be
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living, living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be just let me be
Let me be, okay
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Verse 2]
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what have I done
[Chorus]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok
I just want to be ok
[Bridge]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There is a new kind of poison and starting to spread
But I didn’t think the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever saw were the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror made me go insane
All I ever thought I was
Was a mistake
[Outro]
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one knows what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head
Up inside my head
Jazmin Ornelas yas queen or something lol
T^T)b
As a person with BPD, I can't tell you how much I appreciate and relate to this song. It is beautiful and you are beautiful. Thank you for sharing your amazing talent.
You and me both girl!
me too
Omg I literally just said this to my boyfriend and then I look down at the comment section and you had already said it.
LolcakesTV same.... I have nobody to talk to.... 😢
Totally agreeable
I found this song while I was in a really bad place mentally, and I've never related or been moved so much by a song before. I instantly cried and continued to do that the following 5 times I heard it. Im much better now, and for me today, is the song just a great song, I find really lovely to sing but the way it made me feel two years ago, I will absolutely never forget, and thank u faith so much for that
I love your music. I showed little girl to my patients at a psychiatric hospital (veterans) and they all were moved by your words. thank you
Me: *Thinks* "I just wanna be ok..."
Music: "I JUST WANT TO BE OK!!!"
Me: HOLY SH- 0-0
THIS GURL A MIND READER OR SOMETHING...
That is just the absolute truth.
Oh gawd how blind are you there is no problem. Alan watts
That's so true.
Everyone brings you down without trying to bring you back up so you have to find refuge in music and comfort in yourself
Yes, comfort in my lies and fake smiles has worked rather well for a while
This is single handedly the best song I've ever heard. You are my inspiration. The lyrics are as deep as the ocean, your talent as wide as the sea. It's insane. It makes me physically in pain that you aren't famous and the crappy "talented" pop and rap singers we have today in our society are looked up to. They haven't felt pain. True pain is what makes good artists, and that means you have gone through a lot. This song is stuck inside my head, I never stop thinking about it because it's what true music is like, and I wish we had more of that here in this sinful world. Thank you so much for writing this.
pain can be one way to express. u could also make happy music without the pain =D but i know what u mean
SJK so what genre is this song considered
Carlotta TheFriendlyPerson a bit late but yeah some pop songs have a deep meaning tho...
..... Speechless. What a beautiful song and a magical voice.. I really can feel this song ❤️
I thought I was getting better but a full year later, I'm back here again. I wish recovery was easy but it's not. don't stop trying but don't expect immediate results. keep fighting everyone, I love you ❤️
I'm also struggling with recovering
Fuck I'm here again too.
we love you too, keep on keeping on :D
music like this keeps me alive...
Me too...
same-
Hey ...This is such a wonderful song. The melody touches me very much. Please continue this way and go on your way. I wish you much success in the music. You are a very strong Person. I like You
I agree I am inspired by this song
Why is this artist not that famous?? She makes great music that pierces deep through the heart!!!
I felt everything! Every phrase, melody!
Thanks for this music. For your empathy.
i don't know how many times I've listened to the song but every time i listen to it, it brings out tears of my eyes
lialiar I have tears in my soul not eyes when listening. That's because I made a promise not to cry.
What an amazing voice, damn ...
What an amazing everything... The voice, the lyrics, the melody....
I used this song as my lyrical solo for dance this year, I just was able to connect so much to this song, as someone who struggles with reaching out to others for help, especially when I hit a rough patch and my mind goes dark and whenever I look in the mirror all I'm able to see are my flaws and things I hate about myself. This song and the dance I had was my way of expressing what I was bottling up inside❤❤
I'm here for you
Never heard my thoughts expressed so beautifully and so clearly. Beautiful! Thank you
I honestly think that this song is better than most artists out there right now.
for sure!
*Friends:* You're too depressed and bring the mood down.
*Parents:* Why can't you be more like your brother?
*School:* You'll never get anywhere in life.
*Music:* Sweetie are you okay? Just listen to me and you'll be fine
That's so true.
Everyone brings you down without trying to bring you back up so you have to find refuge in music and comfort in yourself
Lmao you're school must be fuckin wack
I honestly relate so much to the friends part of this comment, i thought it was just me
True
@@MC-ns8gb You must be the coolest kid on middle school. What are you doing listening to loser music? Poser. Get a life.
Faith, this is ONE kick in the pants of a great song. The lyrics are painfully real and immediately personal to many (even though they're clearly yours). Your piano licks are stunning and deeply enhance how you're feeling inside your head. And to finally hear your sweet and one-of-a-kind voice is a pleasure.
You may not realize that I only just 30 or so minutes ago tripped over your Facebook page, which thankfully led me here, to this piece of musical magic... Antidote. I've given it five listens already, and intend to listen some more, but not 'til I've gone through the rest of your repertoire.
While you're performing tonight in Salt Lake City, I'm back here in Santa Clarita, staring out at the ever-increasingly gray sky where it's been pouring since shortly after Midnight, and I've been watching many exotic birds just outside my upstairs window. There is a lovely pair of mourning doves who is feasting on the red berries on the hill right here, and I wish you could see them, since they're nearly as beautiful as you, Faith.
Your budding career is going nowhere else but upward, dear girl, and I wish I'd known all along just where you were in this dramatic climb.
Continue having great fun, and always sing from your heart, your mind, and your very being-ness. That is what it is all about.
Love,
Susie
You are so kind. Thank you for encouraging her and being such a wonderful friend.
"How do you run from your own mind?"💔
I dream and distract myself
@@sarahguhl3071 Either daydream or fall asleep.
ARMYS everywhere :)
Avoiding
"there's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread"
*-2015:* that's such a beautiful metaphor
*-2020:* ah yes, the virus really does suck doesn't it
I wouldn't have associated it with an actual virus. Whatever's going on inside the minds of maga-hat wearers, though... yeah, that seems toxic.
I mean to make a joke at the expense of all those who have died and have lost loved ones is horrible
@@Amygdallama I'm.. I'm not sure what you mean by this?
@@CubsYT sorry, I thought you were making a joke
The key difference is that people go crazy about a non-leathal virus, but no one cares about depression
got soooooo many chills when the piano hit at 1:00
Damn I felt it too 😮😮
I was driving myself insane and had so much hurt, anger, pain and resentment. I made a choice and its a conscious choice and battle every day to except myself, love myself with all my flaws...to love my individuality. To do what makes me truly happy no matter how silly or unimportant it seems to other people. To be myself even if it means to rediscover myself and the things i used to love. To become who i know i should be and reject and get rid of the negative, even if its people. To fight the demons of my own mind is a battle, but one i know i will win because i am unique in my own way. Sex, drugs, booze, and all that goes with this hurt never healed me, it made it worse. No matter how tired i am, i will myself to always keep fighting for the real me until i win. Thank you for this song, its a reminder of the small battles i’ve already won. ♥️♥️♥️
There is a saying "in the battle against evil stalemate is victory" if you can stay strong through the dark times you win
This is so my life but people think it good idea to take possession out of me no more
you know i allways tought that there is no people like u bc all the boys i've met,it didn't end up well they were mean to me and they have never been in pain like we did listening to this song thank you
This sound is so wonderful. The person who is reading this comment, I wish you great success, health, love and happiness!
Why I am just finding this now??? OMG
ikr?! same tho
I found this from spotify
I'm wondering the same damn thing, this girl needs to be on the radio already
i found this from a friend she knew i have depression
The thing I love about you, Faith, is that look at all those people in the coments letting all their thoughts out... Your songs really make ppl think about who they are and what they think.
One of my first picks when I feel this way.
🙏🏻
People always try to suppress their emotions.
I do it too, commonly.
People try to hide from facts and try to hide their face.
I just turned light theme on because I got sick of looking at it.
I'm not gonna tell you that you need to stop, that you need to stay confident, and just get rid of these negative emotions.
I'm not here to condescendingly tell you, "It's okay sweetie" and walk away not caring.
I'm here to tell you that by hiding your emotions and hiding what your shameful of, be it physical or mental, your delaying the inevitable.
But like, it's not like you're suddenly gonna become super confident, love yourself like you love your crush, and become just ok suddenly, that doesn't happen.
All I'm saying is, it's important to exept your emotions, not hide them, instead of saying.
"I wish I never broke down over the smallest things." Think
"I know I'm gonna break down over something with no meaning, and it's gonna suck, so what can I do to keep calm."
Don't try to escape your problems, just sit their and let whatever demons plan an attack on you.
Because then, the demons will never notice that you've heard everything.
Heard this when it came out and was obsessed for a pretty long time , am back now and am so freaking proud u have grown so much since last time and u deserve all of it
The moment between 2:47 and 2:55 captures the feeling of distance and self-doubt pretty well. As a classical instrumentalist of fifteen+ years, I practice making sounds convey more than just melodies, and the way she plays these two dissonant chords is a perfect example of playing to the meaning of the song.
Faith i love this song and not just that this is an amazing song you wrote but your expression the way you would just stare off into space just made it that much more real you were so into the song it just added to the feel of the video you are an amazing beautiful and talented young woman
My favorite part of this song is that it's written so...raw and honest and understandable, that those kids that can't speak the truth to their parents because they are comfortable in their lies can give them this song to listen to and it can speak for them in a way that they are more likely to understand.
Edit: I wish it had existed when I was a kid. It would have saved me three years of trying to explain what needed to be felt not heard.
I listened to this on repeat for 8 hours in the midst of a mental breakdown. Thank you for this. It got me through it.
This is my go to song every time I feel sadness is eating me up inside again and when my self hatred is overwhelming. I am always self sabotaging. Oh how many times I go back here in every year. This song has everything that I feel inside. Crazy how it speaks to my soul too. I feel like this song is my antidote.
This hit me right in the feelz. Such an amazingly haunting voice. Incredible song.
+Chris Hughes Aww thanks! Sorry about the feelz!
Thank you again for your music. Years later, and it still helps.
Who else finds comfort in music because friends and family can't understand your pain and internal suffering? ✋
*Yeah. Me too.* 💖
💯
Me too dude...
this is amazing!!
You two should collaborate on something! You both are sooo talented!
OMG! It's you! Hahahaha
Emma Campbell yes voice angel O:-) hand beautiful (((🔥))) woaah 🌴 🎧 🔥✞♥
cv
"Am I living just to survive?" is exactly the question I've been asking myself the past few weeks. Online college, pandemic isolation, and feeling like a burden are slowly drowning me...
Thank the gods for therapy and family/friends who understand my darkness and help me fight it.
i dont know how to explain this but this literally explains everything happening in my life right now.
Louis Tommo this is late but I hope it gets better
There is just so much truth, tragedy, hope and genius in this song. What an amazing piece!
Been here 5 years ago, and guess what dude.. You've made it! This song reaches those souls that need this kind of remedy. We'll this song reminded me that don't be intoxicated by your own thoughts..
YOUR ARE ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!!!! NEVER STOP BEING YOU!! The lyrics are a perfect mix of haunted and profound. I love it.
Awww wow thank you so much!! You're so sweet ❤️
I actually very much connect to this. I have a mental disorder and my parents don't understand it and this explains it so much.
I think the most striking part of this song, which nobody seems to have noticed, is the part where she says, "I didn't know the antidote was in my hands / I can change my plans, I can change my plans." Thank you for giving me the words I needed to regain my locus of control
This is one of the most beautiful songs I’ve ever heard in my life. Thank you for this. This is so much what it means to be human.
this song is great the piano is on spot your voice is great and you've accurately portrayed so many suffering peoples feelings that we can never voice
I used to feel like this sometimes. If you feel this way, just remember, things can get better, but it’s important that you believe they can, in the bottom of your heart. It’s okay to be scared, it’s okay to cry, but think to yourself, is this how you want your life to continue? My advice is to find someone close to you who will understand, and tell them about it. If your too scared to tell your family, then don’t. Talk to the person you can trust, and maybe they can tell someone for you. Just remember, the ones who mind, don’t matter, the ones who matter, don’t mind.
Yes ( :
I've listened to this at least 15 times since last night. Do the world a favour and get a record deal already! Thank you for your work, you will go far.
+Jacob Bouthillier Hahaha aww thank you!! That's so sweet!
The tears I cry are more than worth it thank you for time to really think about things, You truly are a life savior!
'they don't think I need help, but I'm scaring myself. I just want to be okay' hits way to close to home. Why can it be so tough to convince people you need help? It's hard enough to ask for it so please listen to anyone in your life telling you that they are not okay. Thank you so much for your music faith, it's exactly what I need right now.
wow when did you crawl inside my mind... thank you for letting me know im not alone. i seriously feel lonely and im surrounded by people who love and care about me. this song hits me in the feels.
I'm so happy I found this song; I can relate so much. But, I'm sad the radio doesn't play amazing vocals and songs like this ;-;
This song surfaced right at the beginning of my mental state's decline. She spoke right to my heart, and she still does. I've been struggling with borderline personality disorder for as long as I can remember. This song hits hard now that I have a diagnosis and I'm in therapy. I truly have the antidote in my hands now. Im so grateful to all the music that helps my broken soul cope with life.
Therapy is good. 😀🙏
Your voice and the way you're singing this song is simply charming...amazing...
This is so beautiful!!!! I'm getting chills listening to such beauty! You SERIOUSLY need to be famous, you're WAY too talented to not be recognized.
I love how the piano melody changes at 2:22, that relaxing melody is so good
This is amazing. Thank you for these real emotions.
+TheRickymh Thank you! So glad you like it :)
You don't understand how deeply this song effects me. It's like you see life through my eyes
All these years later and I keep going back to this song when I'm having a meltdown. Faith Marie has summed everything up so perfectly in this song.
It's 2018 and I'm STILL loving this song... So relatable... Depression is like the uninvited person to the party... And.with you being the party... It sucks but we will get through it together... It's hard... But believe me... God loves you too much!
Ididnt know god was real 🙄🙄🙄
LoNely nightcore, some people believe he is real. Some don't. They do
LoNely nightcore, some people believe he is real. Some don't. They do
Amazingly beautiful, thank you!!!
“All the voices in my head are coming to life. They're getting louder and I'm terrified”.
It hits different
I really love the diminished chord in the middle of the song!
Dustin Troyer same! It makes the song even more perfect
Its hard to be okay when everyone in life tries so hard to bring you down. They say once you hit rock bottom, the only way left to go is up, right? Well little did they know, if you tear someone up, they will start digging farther down.
When I first grew suicidal to a scary degree(like, I've often thought about dying and stuff, but it was never really suicidal) that's the first time I was scared of myself. It's a really horrifying feeling. Because the only thing I had, myself, I was also scared of. And I still am. Every day, I never go outside, out of fear of what I would do. Or what I would buy. (Rope to hang myself, painkillers, sleeping pills...) Much to the dismay of my mother. She doesn't understand. How I could be depressed. She also doesn't know (yet) that I'm suicidal. And until the day I die, she will probably never know. Anyways, I don't trust myself. So if I can't even do that, how am I supposed to trust others? How will I ever get better? HOW??!
I've been passively suicidal for a while, and when I was feeling like I might actually want to kill myself, it was really scary. I don't know you and I don't know what your situation is like, but I want you to know that if you need/want someone to talk to, I'm here. Please don't kill yourself. I understand that it feels like the only option sometimes, but remember that there are people who care about you. If you can't think of anyone who does, think of me, a random stranger on the internet who's dealt with some of the same awful feelings that you have. I care about you, and I'm happy to chat if you want :)
The first step is to get help. Dont go to a clinical doctor but an actual psychiatrist and be aware that not every psychiatrist or psychologist is going to be your cup of tea. It's a VERY daunting taste but take it from someone who has tried to commit suicide twice, the frustration and anxiety is worth it. Second step, find a support system. Even if it ine single person, as it is for me, find someone who you know will love you no matter what. That is also very difficult. I was married to my husband for 2&1/2 years before I began to believe I could truly trust him with everything, even my mental illness which I kept to myself for so long. 3rd step, remember it is an on going process, you aren't going to randomly be better one day and recognize that healing and "better" is different for everyone, dont try to measure your progress and growth with anyone else.
only you can make you happy its about perspective. dont let the background noise of your mind get to you 🤗🤗peace internet bro or sister
You are loved. You are worthy of love. People care about you. More then you know. Until you can live for yourself, live for them. You can be happy. You deserve happiness. You deserve a good life.
I feel the same way. You are not alone. ❤️
This song hits way too close to home. Between the words and the sound my heart is melting through my fingers. Faith, you have some serious talent. Please make more!
Back when I first heard this song I just think it's a good song. But then I start getting panic disorder and insomnia this past few weeks. Just recently I experienced the worse panic attack that last longer than my usual panic attack. I've never feel so terrified. This song express how I feel going through this. I can't tell my parents cause they won't understand, I have no actual friends to talk with and therapy is expensive since I'm not a student anymore. Recently I befriend someone on instagram who are willing to lend their ears and be there for me everytime I have a panic attack and I'm just grateful that they're always there to listen and talk to me despite our time zone difference. I'm still far from recovering and might never be but I'll recover. Someday.
I hope you are okay. I wish your friend best of luck, and yes, I'm also willing to lend you a listening ear. I won't judge or hate, I'll just listen if you are willing to open up. And if not, that's also okay. I just hope you heal soon.
Y'all are not alone fight on brothers and sisters. Embrace your perspective it's important to voice it you are you and you are not the only one who is in the fight. Rock on mates ( :
Thank you
@@dragoninthemoon7719
Antidote
Finding refuge in my own lies
How are you I'm doing alright
Small talk is a great disguise
Just let me be x2
Empty thoughts start to crowd my mind
Am I only living to survive?
Shake it off but I've lost the drive
Just let me be x2
Let me be okay
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one know what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be okay x2
All the voices in my head are coming to life
They're getting louder and I'm terrified
How do you run from your own mind?
Is this what I've become?
Take it back what I've done
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one know what goes on up inside my head
They don't think I need help
But I'm scaring myself
I just want to be ok x2
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
But I didn't know the antidote was in my hands
I can change my plans I can change my plans
I tried to find my reflection on the glass
But all I ever see is the things I lacked
All the smudges on the mirror make me go insane
All I ever though I was..
..was a mistake.
No one know what goes on up inside my head
There's a new kind of poison and it's starting to spread
No one know what goes on up inside my head
Up inside my head x2
Thank you!
this is by far my favorite song... i have never related to a song on a level like this before... thank you for being strong enough to write the lyrics and composing this track its gorgeous and speaks a truth
My mood:
"Just let me be...let me be....let me be okay"
The "all I ever thought I was was a mistake" hits me sooo hard
I saw this in an ad and I must say, I'm very glad I didn't hit the skip button...this song is so relatable to me and Faith's voice is just so angelic. Easily one of my favorite songs
+UA-camhype Awww thank you!! You're so kind! I'm glad you liked it! :)
This song has saved my life this is the only way I could ever explain how I felt and be able to ask for help ....... can’t thank you enough
So reminded me of twenty one pilots. Your lyrics are very well thought out.
notch747 like tøp and halsey combined 😍
notch747 I was thinking the same thing
notch747 I was thinking the same
This is one of the most amazing songs I've ever heard. This is artwork. Beautiful job! So relatable.
+Bethany Adrienne Thank you!! I'm glad you enjoyed it!
Am I the only one that listens to nothing but Faith Marie. ONLY. Years later and still play these songs on repeat.
same does she still make music?
@@lucija9197 Yeah, just this year, like the new song Trapped in the Thought of Free
Ugh this song is so beautiful. It expresses the way so many of us feel. Life is so fucking harsh. I’ve spent so much of my life trying to help others, and I think I’ve forgotten how to help myself. I’ve literally teared up almost every day for almost half a year now. It’s been a slow descent for many years now, and everything is finally falling apart hard. Songs like this just might help to get through it all.