YES! I agree with the extreme regret if a highly caloric food (or any food for that matter) that you chose to "waste" calories on doesn't taste as good as you imagined and hoped it would. I beat myself up if I eat something like pizza and it was mediocre. My ED brain screams "Dammit! You could have saved and used those calories on something truly tasty or eaten something lower calorie". When that happens, the rest of my day seems to turn to shit...:(
I understand that problem. When I eat some/anything my ED shouts at me: "You should save that amount of calories for later! You're so gluttony without any self-control!" It's really tricky bc there's always a "later". I try to close out the voice of it but it's hard to make yourself deaf when it cames from your own head... :(
Absoloutly .. i been stuck for week's .. until now.. it clicked over night.. low fat cheese.. low carb bread.. cauliflower pizza .. seriously?? Zero coke but ice cream.. ?! Im done.. no more light no more zero no more time restricting.. im constantly looking for the worst option now :)
That may be true, but I believe it's possible to override that part of our brains with consistent practice... And it's fair/necessary to grieve for your ED - so that part which doesn't want to recover needs even more compassion from us.
What if you don't know what to challenge anymore? I don't know how to challenge myself Because I can eat almost anything now (which is great but I don't know if I'm missing something I'm scared or nervous about) .
So I enjoy Quark, it is very delicious but I only use the plain because I do not eat sugar. I have been trying so hard to allow myself "natural" sugars from fruit etc. The other day I picked up my order of Quark and they gave me the wrong one, it had maple syrup in it. I broke down after taking a bite, I spit it in the sink, I put in back in the tub, I put it back in the bowl, the tub, the bowl, I cried and I ended up washing it down the sink and going to bed because I literally exhausted myself. I have a massive sugar aversion, on one hand, this can be healthy but my behavior around it is not. I do not know how to balance this.
YES! I agree with the extreme regret if a highly caloric food (or any food for that matter) that you chose to "waste" calories on doesn't taste as good as you imagined and hoped it would. I beat myself up if I eat something like pizza and it was mediocre. My ED brain screams "Dammit! You could have saved and used those calories on something truly tasty or eaten something lower calorie". When that happens, the rest of my day seems to turn to shit...:(
I understand that problem. When I eat some/anything my ED shouts at me: "You should save that amount of calories for later! You're so gluttony without any self-control!"
It's really tricky bc there's always a "later". I try to close out the voice of it but it's hard to make yourself deaf when it cames from your own head... :(
This was definitely insightful (and it is nice to know I am not alone in the shifting of "safe foods").
Absoloutly .. i been stuck for week's .. until now.. it clicked over night.. low fat cheese.. low carb bread.. cauliflower pizza .. seriously?? Zero coke but ice cream.. ?! Im done.. no more light no more zero no more time restricting.. im constantly looking for the worst option now :)
Hearing this actually really resonates with me. Really helpful.
Thank you so much!
If you are watching Tabitha Farrar or asking her questions, you definitely have not recovered..........part of me never wants to recover...
That may be true, but I believe it's possible to override that part of our brains with consistent practice... And it's fair/necessary to grieve for your ED - so that part which doesn't want to recover needs even more compassion from us.
What if you don't know what to challenge anymore? I don't know how to challenge myself Because I can eat almost anything now (which is great but I don't know if I'm missing something I'm scared or nervous about) .
ThatOneGirl same
almost everything?! thats the answers to your question..
So I enjoy Quark, it is very delicious but I only use the plain because I do not eat sugar. I have been trying so hard to allow myself "natural" sugars from fruit etc. The other day I picked up my order of Quark and they gave me the wrong one, it had maple syrup in it. I broke down after taking a bite, I spit it in the sink, I put in back in the tub, I put it back in the bowl, the tub, the bowl, I cried and I ended up washing it down the sink and going to bed because I literally exhausted myself. I have a massive sugar aversion, on one hand, this can be healthy but my behavior around it is not. I do not know how to balance this.
Stinky😂😂😍