All we viewers are wrapping our arms around you in a very BIG HUG. I know well the dread of gripping anxiety …. Surround yourself with your family, fur babies and friends. Being outside has always helped me and especially keeping busy as you are. It WILL get better. 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
I have said this before, but my mom had a dissecting aneurysm and survived. She is a gardener, and I believe that had something to do with it. All we can do is embrace those we love, embody our beliefs, and share things we are passionate about and find joy in. Which you do and share with us all. More people are lifting you up than you know.❤
You got this! You have done everything right. So please be kind to yourself n relax. Trust God, your docs , and a good supportive spouse. Sending love n hugs.
Thanks for sharing, Brian. My husband has medical anxiety so this message is for dear Emily. I’m 84, Emily. Blessings on you and Brian. My advice, keep your sense of humor Girl! It is a gift to both of you. Laughter with compassion is great medicine! ❤❤
My best friend's husband has a aneurysm, about 15 years ago.... he's almost 80 now and doing great ...he did have surgery! Praying everything goes well 😊
Brian, I personally have not had to deal with an aneurysm. However, I have known several who have. One of whom is my brother in love, Bill. He did have to have a procedure to repair them and is doing fine. Just like you, Bill has to have an MRI and wait for the results. Yes, waiting IS the most difficult part. You have done a great thing here by sharing your story and the battle you have with anxiety. It's the first step! Praise God! My wife Barbara and I will be praying for you and your family. Asking Him to give you peace beyond our understanding! Also praying for a good report from your doctor! Good to hear you are keeping yourself busy! I'm looking forward to seeing the results! Love your content! Be thankful, be safe, and God bless!
I know how you feel Brian I also have a brain aneurism and I have to go for my scan on the 16th. I have had it now for 3 years. I also suffer with anxiety and ptsd. It’s hard to explain to other people what you’re going through but you made me feel better with your explanation. It’s nice to know I’m not alone with this issue.
Suffering with anxiety is a burden that keeps on giving...I empathize 1000%...We love you and your priceless wife and loving son...And all you do and share with us is deeply meaningful. ❤️ 💚🌿
Emily is so funny - “this is Brian on drugs”. She’s hilarious! Thanks for sharing. Talking about our most person experiences is very courageous and as you know, helps with healing. I, in the past, have used yoga to get through tough, dark times. There were lots of men participating and even my husband wanted to go. Wishing you and your family health and happiness ❤
Hang in there. This is totally understandable! Hugs! I had a year in which I got divorced, laid off, a mentor died, and had to move to a different State (with 2 young kids). I had to move LITERALLY the day of my mentor's funeral. It was spring and for years I had physical manifestations of anxiety every spring. It's been almost 9 years now. It's gotten better (thank you therapy)! It's not all gone but it'll get better! In fact GARDENING, a SPRING activity, has really helped with the healing! Praying for peace for you.
I remember when you shared this news with us and how I went into prayer mode right away. You have done amazingly and God is continuing to bless you every day. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Stay positive & believe in yourself, you got this 👍
Brian, You are doing awesome! Your positive attitude and smile make so many people happy. Your healthy lifestyle of physical activity, fresh food, animal vibes therapy and all while surrounded by your loving family is a big help. Thank you for all you do.
I haven't seen the video yet, but I hope you're health is okay. So I'm finally at the point of the video where you've spoken about your health, and now you're talking about your land and your fabulous work. And I can't think about anything but your health. I also have ADHD, and had cancer a few years ago and am still testing annually to make sure it's not back. And for days I stress. And STRESS!!! Emily is a God send. And you live life the way it was meant to be lived. Fully. With love and kindness. And you share that love with all of us. And we love you back. All the best. And prayers as well. And I'll wait on the edge of my seat for the video that says you'll be working on the Japanese garden soon. Woohoo! Spring is coming!
Brian, I am not a doctor but I worked in several very prestigious hospitals (Including Vanderbilt) in Nashville, Houston, Atlanta, Charleston, Washington D.C., etc. in information technology for many years working alongside of all kinds of doctors, nurses, specialists, etc.. While I am retired now, I can tell you that when tests like yours are done, you can be sure that if you had something show up really bad, they would immediately roll you to the E.R. and assign you to a bed - you would definitely not be sent home so soon. So, what I have learned is the longer you wait on a result, the less likely it is to be urgent. I know this sounds counter intuitive and it drives you batty, but that is my experience dealing with the medical establishment. No doctor worth his/her salt is going to risk their carreer on delaying test results that may be fatal. I hope this helps, stay busy and keep postive. Our prayers are with you.
I truly believe in WHAT YOU ARE saying about tests. I had to keep telling myself the same thing waiting for the results of my PET scan recently to tell me if my throat cancer was gone. No signs of cancer at this time.
This @robertjohnson. Sure told you the TRUTH. I just had this experience. Long story short....I was sick a month ago and ambulance took me to Hospital and told that I had to have surgery, immediately, that same day... WHAT 😮 and now I am all better 😊😍
Sending prayers while you wait, Brian. I've been going through a similar experience because of prostate cancer. I have had more scans, scopes and biopsies in the last two years than I've had in my entire life before the diagnosis. My providers have a web site where they post results usually within the same day of the test. Only drawback was I had to find out I had cancer all on my own, by reading a radiologist's report. You know that you have a HUGE community of followers who are concerned about you.
Being honest about anxiety is always hard. Thinking about procedures that are diagnostic is hard. Having a loving and caring partner is super important. Kudos to you and Emilee for that. Sending prayers for positive outcomes.
BROTHER YOU GOT THIS! So many of us out here are pulling for you I hope you can feel it, at least a little...as for myself, you have helped me so much, my garden is my bliss and your gentle guidance is so much a part of it!
I understand your thoughts and anxiety completely. I had cancer in 2011/2012. (I’m completely cancer free now.) The first few years after recovery I would have a PTSD reaction as my mammogram would approach. I even changed facilities for my mammos, because it brought back so many bad memories to sit in that waiting room. I can tell you that it got better each year, and now I feel only the slightest twinge of nerves on the day of the exam. Each year of good reports adds up to the positive evidence your brain needs to feel safe again. You will get there. I’m already praying for you and for a speedy and good report.
Sending positive energy your way, Brian & Emilie! You got this! As someone who has dealt with anxiety nearly all of my 50 years, I understand that that is often worse than whatever medical emergencies that come knocking on your door. Continue to be grateful that you're aware of the problem, and more importantly keeping up with the checkups - as scary as that is. For what it's worth, you've got so many people sending prayers up or positive energy or healing light your way, and although it can be strange to some, I believe those prayers and energy and healing light - even from people you may have never met - can be a wee bit of help, even if it is just to ease the anxiety for a few moments of your day. I hope you get your good news/results sooner rather than later! ...and if all else fails, hug a big fluffy pup (or a small not as fluffy pup! ;) ), or an adorable little Dexter cow, or a tree, and just let the energy of your little world bring you the happiness you all so deserve!
My best friend was diagnosis with 2 aneurysms when she had a concussion and they found them. That was 20 years ago She has had one completely resolve and no changes in the second one. Hang in there.Sending prayers for good results.
Continue surrounding yourself with your loved ones and positive friends. Most of all, continue to pet and hug your beautiful fur babies, digging your hands in the dirt, hugging Emily and your son. Sending lots of light, and a big hug. Hang in there❤
I can relate to your fears. I have had 4 strokes and lived in a Nursing Home for several years while I was in my 50s. I live with those fears every day that It will happen again. I am happy to say that I have bought a house and a car and am living independently, something that I never thought I would do again. My point is, fears can be tackled and dealt with. I do what I enjoy, gardening and painting and I have good friends that I can turn to. God bless you and happy gardening.
Brian, you have an army of people who are praying for you and rooting for everything to be just great! I know because here in Texas I can count at least 10 of my close friends who know about you through me, who follow your adventures and pray for you to relax and trust God! And this is just people I keep in touch daily. There is many more who come to my garden, my chicken people and it’s just little Belton Texas. We all love your ideas, their execution and look forward to every video! You are the talk of the town my friend 😄 Very thankful to have you and your beautiful family in my life!
I do know how you are feeling. I have terrible anxiety and I have been to therapy to try to NOT think ahead and think of only distastrous things. I am praying for you!! I know how you feel and empathize with you. Hang in there. God has a plan for your live and you have positively helped me so much. Because of your next level gardening show, I started a container garden this year and it helped me so much emotionally and the garden was a great success and looking forward to spring to start another one!! Thank you and hang in there!!!!
Anxiety is very real and to the people who say "get over it or stop worrying about it"...well, they just don't understand and it's usually because they haven't had to go thru waiting for test results like this. You are a strong person and you've got this. I hope the waiting time for results is not too long. I wish doctors realized how hard this kind of waiting is on people. Staying busy does help. Sending prayers for you, Emily and Noah as you wait for the good news...that I feel certain you are going to get.
I have told you this in a comment about a year ago. I had a stroke in 2021.... Watching you Thrive after your Medical issues has given me so much inspiration. You help people even though you dont know it. You got this brother
I can relate having to deal with Prostate cancer diagnosis on March 18 of 2022 and cancer surgery, and having to deal with the issues from the surgery. Gardening has been my safe place to go to occupy my mind from the medical issue and helping others. All my positive thoughts are with you!! Cannot wait for your good news video and the new year ahead for all of us.
Thank you so much for talking about your mental health issues. It’s something we neglect and pretend isn’t a problem in this country. As someone who lives with ADHD and anxiety I salute your ability to share it so publicly. I am sure you have reached more people than you know because we keep these things so private. If you have inspired one person to get help you have done more than most.
Hello Brian. You're a gem. You'll be just fine. You have a very supportive family. Praying for you. Yes staying busy helps a lot. Keep up the good work🙏🏽❤
My Mom and Step Dad both had Aneurysms that resolved on their own. Praying on your results. Daylight savings is fast approaching and can help shift head space too. I can relate to a lot of the things you mentioned in this vid. Blessings.
Have you thought about putting a gate in the section of fence you take out for tractor work. That way you could get a riding lawnmower through. You may end up with more tractor work down the road then you will already have a gate for the tractor to go through.
Brian, you are an amazing person, and a real blessing! I continue to pray for you to have peace and quietness in your mind and heart. Praying for a good report from the doctor! 😊
I don't know what I would do if I couldn't garden and watch UA-cam channels like yours. They are a great distraction from driving myself crazy thinking of all the 'what ifs' ,or worse yet, the " if onlys. " Both scenarios can keep me up with anxiety all night. Thank goodness i can reread your companion planting book and take notes from your gardening tips. Stay active as much as you can as a distraction and maybe being happy seeibg all u accomplished will raise your endorphins. Wishing you abd your family only the best! Take care!
You're doing all the right things, not overloading yourself/knowing limitations, talking about it and getting support. Every cancer survivor also knows the feelings you're expressing. It is real. Anniversary months are hard & we just do the best we can each day. 🤗 🕊
I have severe anxiety, so I understand it well! I just said a prayer that your doctor will give you great news. Will be looking forward to the update!!
Hugs and good thoughts coming your way. I HATE the waiting for results of tests! I don't know why the doctors couldn't just let you know, but schedule an appointment to actually go over the results in full.
Hello my brother, a year before you announced your aneurism my medical team found a problem in me. I had just moved to a new state, so it took some time to find new doctors and figure out what it was. But I have multiple aneurisms, behind my knees, in my carotid artery, and in my aorta. Unfortunately the one in my aorta is below my my heart, and so inoperable. Funny thing, I started watching your channel, and I decided to build a raised bed garden, I was 67 years old and I had had gardens off and on since 1974. I knew it would keep my mind off the medical issues. Well, now it is three years later. My aneurisms are not growing, but they did a carotid endarterectomy on my right side because it was over 50% clogged. The other locations have not changed, so they just keep watching. In the meantime they discovered I have prostate cancer *sigh*. So I am going through radiation therapy now. I guess what I am telling you is... Peace out my friend, it is the garden that gives me peace. I watch life begin, I protect it from the enemies (bugs and such). I revel in the sunlight, I rejoice when I succeed in a resolving an issue. I am not going to live forever, but I WILL LIVE while I am here, and it is the garden that lets me do that.
You're doing great, Brian! I too have anxiety related to medical issues, mine and my husband's. You have Emily who is a great encourager, hard work to occupy your time, and the support and care of family, friends, and us, your online family. You are perfectly normal in your reactions. I am a retired RN and I have to tell you that most of the time, if the doctor doesn't call right away, things are good. Praying for you! Take care and sending love and hugs. -Mary
The anxiety around this is absolutely understandable. I know while I was going through chemo and the following checks my dogs are a huge help with worry and anxiety. They just seem to know when we need them a little bit more. We are keeping you in our prayers.
Hope everything turns out okay with the x-ray. Please always think positive and don't give any place to negativity. Thank you for sharing such a personal thing with us. We are here for you which we care and support you. Your You Tube family, Teresa
Hugs and best wishes❤ you're so strong! We completely understand and it is more than ok for you to take time to take care of your anxiety. We are here to support you! You inspire all of us for doing everything you do even with all that anxiety. Very proud of all your work on both your properties, your previous and this one. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ this wasn't negative. It is part of you and we as your gardening friends understand and are with you.
Brian, 6 months ago I had cardiac surgery for an aortic aneurysm that had grown over the past three years. I had no symptoms. I had open heart surgery in August and I’m doing really good. I’ll say don’t worry, but I know you will. God bless.
A few years ago I had pain in my head by my left temple, it hurt when I put my head down. I had those tests, and I had what I called ‘brain bleed’ not to long after that the pain went away. A year or so later the top of my head hurt and I had more tests and found I had another brain bleed. Later the pain went away and another test showed that they were healed. They were caused by my migraines which may have been caused by stress. I don’t worry about them or about getting more because I tried to eliminate what was causing the stress and I don’t have any more pain. If I do get some pain then I will worry. I enjoy your podcasts
Anxiety is very real and so hard to handle. Totally understandable. Sitting in the garden and breathing in the smells and sights is so good and you have a wonderful one to do that in. We are all supporting you! ❤❤
Scanxiety is a real thing and no fun! Had kidney cancer found by accident, lost my right kidney and dealt with the scanxiety for 5 yrs and for some years after. 12 yrs later I am finally free of the anxiety. It does get better!! It's like a semi trunk ran you over and you lived, but you just don't believe it's really over....and doctors telling you you're fine just doesn't mean much to relieve that anxiety. I hope the scanxiety gets better for you soon!!!! ❤
I know how it feels. I have had PTSD since childhood and as you said, it never goes away ( I'm 71). But therapy does give you a lot of different tools to get through episodes. My favorite is DISTRACT, DISTRACT, DISTRACT. Going at a hands on project that you know will clear your mind is the best medicine. At night, a good book or getting lost in UA-cam works for me as well. You just do whatever it is to get through the 'wait for result' period and know that a lot of your subscribers are wishing the absolute best for you!
Big big hugs Brian. You’ll be just fine. Cuddle that big furry white pup to relieve anxiety. She’s a comfort animal. Every thing is going to be just fine. Look at all you’ve done on your place and nothing happened. You did a lot of physical work and you did it without even a scratch. Sending positive vibes your way. 😊
As someone who has ADHD and anxiety I completely understand how the thoughts and worry just overwhelm you. I'll be praying for another good report. ❤ so many of us truly care about you & your family and appreciate you sharing your knowledge, life and "real ess" here. Please don't apologize for needing to share hard stuff or seek comfort in your time of need.
I love that you are "real" with us! I have PTSD and anxiety disorder so I get the anxiety part. It's hard to deal with. Thank you for sharing your journey! Only positive energy coming your way. I also gave you a shout out on my latest video-mountain harmony gardening 😊 you deserve all the ❤ you can get!
My sister had a brain aneurysm. She is doing great. She lives with family members and is surrounded by grandchildren. That keeps her grounded. My sis works a lot for a grocery chain also. Keeps busy. She also had cancer after the brain aneurysm. She made it through surgery and doing well. Her faith is strong and is doing great. My sis is an amazing person. You are a kind and gentle soul and my prayers are with you an Emily. Blessings ❤️🌺
I know a 92 year old lady who has had an aneurysm on the brain for years and she's still going strong! I hope this is encouraging to you in some way. Hugs and prayers!
My husband has an aortic aneurysm that we found during an ER visit. He sees a cardiologist every year for images to see if it has changed. We go together to the appoinents. It is hard not to worry, but it is what we have to do. I have anxiety and depression also along with my own medical problems. I can only say that gardening and hanging out with chickens helps me stay steady. So, I garden and hang out with chickens and share my fears and concerns with my husband. We have been married 38 years and are fortunate to have a relationship in which we share everything--each helping to carry the burdens of the other. The hardest losses shared have been the illness and passing of his parents and my father. Sometimes you think you can't do another hard thing. And then you do and you get through. Take care and know that your gardening and farming videos help your viewers have an outlet-- place to learn gardening things, but also a place to sit a bit and unwind. Thanks for doing that for me! ❤
I hear you. This is my fifth year out. Still...EVERY time I go for any kind of testing, I'm stressed to hell...ever since my world crashed 5 years' ago. Simpatico...and sending good vibes for results you want.
That is a lot of weight on your shoulders each year. Prayers for good news quickly returned to you! I completely relate to the focus issue when “waiting for the shoe to drop”! Try to relax when you can and take good care of yourself! All the fencing ideas sound great! Hugs for both of you from TN. ❤
Praying for you, When I get like this I listen to a bible study, devotion, sermon but for years I didn’t think of this until I was sick to stomach, with worry , and anxiety.
I have never had an aneurysm, but have dealt with Anxiety, I have begun doing daily meditation and focus on the now moment and it has really helped immensely!
Brian, this is total normal. Who wouldn’t be afraid considering the journey you have been on for several years. But waiting is awful!! Stay strong my friend and you have wonderful support from Emily💞
I have an abdominal aoritic aneurysm. It's a hard thing to live with at times. Sometimes I get off in the deep end with worrying but then remember that I serve an awesome God. I am not leaving this earth a day earlier than what he has planned. I am not in control. When my time comes, I am going home to a much better place. Prayers for your anxiety🙏❤
We found out my husband has a cardiac aneurysm in 2022. He has his repeat scan in a couple weeks. I understand the anxiety. 🙏🏻 for you and your family.
Dear dear friend the emotions are natural and it is hard to overlook, many of us have you covered in prayer. So, hang in there!!! I know what you are going thru, my wife had 4 heart attacks in March -April 2010 and has had 4 more since then with the latest being 12 /27/2022 at which time they started talking transplant. She got a pacemaker 01/25/23 but still in December 2023 they want a transplant and we go thru all of the emotions again and she now 52 way to young for all this ,and you are source of relief for me .I love watching you and the homestead grow. Stay positive and know that GOD is in control. By the way have you ever thought of simply moving the chain link fence and investing just your time. Most sincerely with LOVE my brother. All is well with YOU!!!!!
I totally understand. I have Anxiety too. It's why I don't make as many videos for my channel as I should. Thank you for having the encourage to share. It takes mental strength to do so. Kudos to you. Hugs & God bless.
In 2022, my husband's health became our entire focus with a scary diagnosis. (Not the same as yours, Brian, so I have nothing to offer there). However, I was completely overwhelmed with anxiety. Couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't function. I understand everything you are going through on that front. I must say that you are very self-aware and you understand what your thoughts do...( when I learned about "catastrophizing", I thought the word was created to describe me!!). It is ALL totally understandable. It is not being whiny or cranky. You are thinking, saying, and doing all the right things (hurray for CBT!!) but I understand that the waiting is still so very hard. Keep moving. Keep focusing on the things you love. (this is where you have helped me tremendously, btw!!!) Keep redirecting those thoughts. Keep practicing your cognitive strategies. You will get through this. Information is power. And I believe (and pray) that the positive results from this MRI will continue to lessen the anxiety you experience each January. It will get better!! 💜💚💙💚💜💚💙💚💜
My mom had an aorta aneurysm and had surgery. Her heart was extra strong after her recovery. And for many, many years and she lived a long and fruitful life doing what she loved to do
Been watching the channels for years now. Can’t believe that was so many years ago now! I’m the same way about tests and always look up the lab reports days after instead of waiting on the follow up visit. So I am usually informed before I get a call from the office about the results and can formulate questions for the doctor for at the follow up visit
PRAYER! Positive speaking into your world health. Having a conversation with our Father thanking him for where you are and ABLE TO DO.I have anxiety attacks too due to health issues of family members …I garden a lot,thrift shopping,rearranging my yard/garden. Try and make a vision board of things you wanna do. I’m sending PRAYERS of peace of mind. You’re not alone 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽
Prayer and positive thinking has gotten me through the horrors of dealing with throat cancer! My praying and that of everyone I knew had brought me through along with the positive thinking. I always make it a point to find something, anything, good in every bad situation. For me it works wonders. It took some time to learn but it was well worth it.
Don’t ever think you are whining because you need to vent your feelings and I’m sure all of your viewers are only too happy to listen. I’ve been through breast cancer and it’s alway good to let it all out when you can. Positive energy and thoughts coming your way from Sydney Australia 🇦🇺.
Watching you walk around your property in the beginning was eye opening. It was a view into all the beautiful beautiful work you've done since you moved... Take a deep breath, you'll get thru it, I'm sure you have a very good doctor.
Brian, anxiety is another condition that your care providers have to consider in how they proceed with your care. That said, have you discussed this with your doctor? Have you let him/her know how debilitating the anxiety can be, how much it affects your and your family's life? I say that because once the mri is finished it does not take long for them to read it and give you a report..if they want to they can have mri results almost immediately! It surprises me that they would make you wait two weeks plus for results. I think you should really stress the importance of getting fast results because another condition is impacted by this wait time. I know everyone is anxious about test results, but not to the same degree, and they need to keep this in mind. Good luck.
Grateful you have shared your struggles on here. You are helping many many others. Anxiety doesn’t make sense and you can’t wish it away. Admire your strength in managing this. So happy you have such a great support system. Sending you the best for good news and continued good health.
I know a lot of people will sympathize with the way you feel. I have suffered from anxiety for so long that it has affected my health. Prayers do make a difference and I've sent one up for you. I'm glad you got therapy and I know you are not one to waste your precious time worrying. Waiting is definitely the worst, I agree.
My heart goes out to you, Brian. I have ADHD and anxiety and I totally understand what you are saying. There is actually a name for it "waiting mode". When you know something is coming and it takes up all your mental bandwidth making it impossible to do other things. I get it. Medical trama is totally real too. I had issues right before 2020 and they thought I may have cancer in my ear. The waiting on that was unreal. It turned out to be something else but the options all looked terrible at the time. In the end it wasn't something that bad and I was given meds. But the docors we not helpful going through it. Hugs to you and yours.
I had cancer and I know how you feel. I had a finger removed, because of cancer a year later I had a stroke, but with therapy I’m getting better. This is good that you are talking about.
Brian-hang in there. Praying for you and your family as you wait. As a nurse I know the anxiety is real, never worry about expressing it. That’s healthy -and it allows you to be in control of the anxiety, not the inverse.
As a retired MRI tech I want to thank you for not trashing the MRI machine experience. The angiography scans don't take as long because they are usually just a couple of sequences. I just got the news that I have the big "C". I have been having scans and doctors appointments for several months trying to figure out what treatments/surgery should be done. It is hair raising to say the least. I keep telling my husband "I don't want to be the patient". I have been doing hobbies to keep busy. Please keep us in the loop on how you are doing. . Your homestead looks so good, even in January. Prayers to you and your family.
We as a country need to do a better job on mental health. Love and prayers coming your way. There are lots of us 'out here' who know how you feel. I'm only 2 years past a breast cancer diagnosis, so every twinge, ache and pain brings the fear with it.
I know what you are going through Brian I lost my husband in January four years ago to cancer he was 57. I dread January but with the help of family and friends I can get through it. My garden has been a life saver to me it keeps me busy. Sending you hugs and strength . Please think positive always, you are doing well Brian.
My husband gets one once a month right now. He has an appointment with the doc to discuss the results tomorrow. He’s not worried too much because our doctor would phone right away if it were bad. Good luck and try not to worry too much.
You are a beautiful human being and your willingness to expose your vulnerability makes you even more so. My 78th birthday is coming up so I’ve had plenty of years to learn ways to reduce the volume of the voice of anxiety. Sometimes just saying to its stories “ya, I hear you…but I don’t believe you” creates a palpable shift. Let’s face it, aneurism, anxiety, whatever…the only thing for certain is the present moment. Thank you for so many beautiful moments, my friend.
I too have chronic illnesses, adhd, and medical trauma/anxiety, I get it. Thank you for sharing this with us, I hope it helps to get it off your chest. I don't love MRIs but the wait for results is definitely worse than the test.
Your anxiety is totally situational and normal. If you need some time off that's OK. Keeping busy is the best therapy for most things. I am currently reading a book called "Brain Energy" The fact your PTSD is annual is a good thing because you and Emilie can learn to plan for it and maybe minimize it ahead of time instead of letting it kind of broad siding you. Prayers 🙏
You are in my prayers. I also suffer from anxiety and some OCD. I have rough times myself and that is when I try to do the same as what you are doing, take it one day at a time. I try to focus on good stuff and trust God to get me through. I have to give my worries to him everyday because I can't do anything about it but trust in him. He has always given me peace.
Praying for you and your family. I always used to dread the month of October because all kinds of bad things happened for me during that month, including health issues, for several years in a row. I finally realized it doesn’t do any good to worry about what hasn’t happened. You have no control over it. Now I’m old and retired and those issues really don’t bother me much anymore, but I completely understand where you’re coming from. God bless you!
I totally understand your anxiety as I have dealt with it my entire life, too. What I try to do to lessen my anxiety is to change my perspective on what is causing me to be anxious by making a celebration out of a difficult event. I create a special dinner with loved ones or treat myself to an adventure that isn't in my normal routine. That way, I have something to look forward to after or in concurrent with the anxious event. I like to think that it cancels out the anxiety. I wish you all the best 💜
I can understand your anxiety and frustration. Sending prayers for both you and Emily that results will come quickly and all is well. You truly have a gem in Emily. 💕 Take a tip from Bing Crosby and the blessings song from White Christmas. “When you’re worried and you can’t sleep, count your blessings instead of sheep. And you’ll fall asleep counting your blessings.” Brian you are surrounded by blessings, start counting my friend. 😊💕🙏🏼
Ever since 2020 anxiety has been high. So much has happened. Please know you are in my prayers for a good report and peace in your heart and mind while you wait. Emily is a gem working to keep you calm.
All we viewers are wrapping our arms around you in a very BIG HUG. I know well the dread of gripping anxiety …. Surround yourself with your family, fur babies and friends. Being outside has always helped me and especially keeping busy as you are. It WILL get better. 💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗
Thank you 😊
Absolutely!!! I so wish I could have reached through the screen and hugged him!!
I have said this before, but my mom had a dissecting aneurysm and survived. She is a gardener, and I believe that had something to do with it. All we can do is embrace those we love, embody our beliefs, and share things we are passionate about and find joy in. Which you do and share with us all. More people are lifting you up than you know.❤
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You got this! You have done everything right. So please be kind to yourself n relax. Trust God, your docs , and a good supportive spouse. Sending love n hugs.
Thanks for sharing, Brian. My husband has medical anxiety so this message is for dear Emily. I’m 84, Emily. Blessings on you and Brian. My advice, keep your sense of humor Girl! It is a gift to both of you. Laughter with compassion is great medicine! ❤❤
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My best friend's husband has a aneurysm, about 15 years ago.... he's almost 80 now and doing great ...he did have surgery! Praying everything goes well 😊
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Maybe you guys could start some new family traditions at this time to replace the trauma. 💗💗
Brian, I personally have not had to deal with an aneurysm. However, I have known several who have. One of whom is my brother in love, Bill. He did have to have a procedure to repair them and is doing fine. Just like you, Bill has to have an MRI and wait for the results. Yes, waiting IS the most difficult part.
You have done a great thing here by sharing your story and the battle you have with anxiety. It's the first step! Praise God!
My wife Barbara and I will be praying for you and your family. Asking Him to give you peace beyond our understanding! Also praying for a good report from your doctor!
Good to hear you are keeping yourself busy! I'm looking forward to seeing the results! Love your content!
Be thankful, be safe, and God bless!
I know how you feel Brian I also have a brain aneurism and I have to go for my scan on the 16th. I have had it now for 3 years. I also suffer with anxiety and ptsd. It’s hard to explain to other people what you’re going through but you made me feel better with your explanation. It’s nice to know I’m not alone with this issue.
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I just posted my aneurysm story here. I hope you can find some hope through my sharing.
Suffering with anxiety is a burden that keeps on giving...I empathize 1000%...We love you and your priceless wife and loving son...And all you do and share with us is deeply meaningful. ❤️ 💚🌿
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Emily is so funny - “this is Brian on drugs”. She’s hilarious! Thanks for sharing. Talking about our most person experiences is very courageous and as you know, helps with healing. I, in the past, have used yoga to get through tough, dark times. There were lots of men participating and even my husband wanted to go. Wishing you and your family health and happiness ❤
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Hang in there. This is totally understandable! Hugs! I had a year in which I got divorced, laid off, a mentor died, and had to move to a different State (with 2 young kids). I had to move LITERALLY the day of my mentor's funeral. It was spring and for years I had physical manifestations of anxiety every spring. It's been almost 9 years now. It's gotten better (thank you therapy)! It's not all gone but it'll get better! In fact GARDENING, a SPRING activity, has really helped with the healing! Praying for peace for you.
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I remember when you shared this news with us and how I went into prayer mode right away. You have done amazingly and God is continuing to bless you every day. I will continue to pray for you and your family. Stay positive & believe in yourself, you got this 👍
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Brian, You are doing awesome! Your positive attitude and smile make so many people happy. Your healthy lifestyle of physical activity, fresh food, animal vibes therapy and all while surrounded by your loving family is a big help. Thank you for all you do.
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I haven't seen the video yet, but I hope you're health is okay. So I'm finally at the point of the video where you've spoken about your health, and now you're talking about your land and your fabulous work. And I can't think about anything but your health. I also have ADHD, and had cancer a few years ago and am still testing annually to make sure it's not back. And for days I stress. And STRESS!!! Emily is a God send. And you live life the way it was meant to be lived. Fully. With love and kindness. And you share that love with all of us. And we love you back. All the best. And prayers as well. And I'll wait on the edge of my seat for the video that says you'll be working on the Japanese garden soon. Woohoo! Spring is coming!
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Brian, I am not a doctor but I worked in several very prestigious hospitals (Including Vanderbilt) in Nashville, Houston, Atlanta, Charleston, Washington D.C., etc. in information technology for many years working alongside of all kinds of doctors, nurses, specialists, etc.. While I am retired now, I can tell you that when tests like yours are done, you can be sure that if you had something show up really bad, they would immediately roll you to the E.R. and assign you to a bed - you would definitely not be sent home so soon. So, what I have learned is the longer you wait on a result, the less likely it is to be urgent. I know this sounds counter intuitive and it drives you batty, but that is my experience dealing with the medical establishment. No doctor worth his/her salt is going to risk their carreer on delaying test results that may be fatal. I hope this helps, stay busy and keep postive. Our prayers are with you.
I truly believe in WHAT YOU ARE saying about tests. I had to keep telling myself the same thing waiting for the results of my PET scan recently to tell me if my throat cancer was gone. No signs of cancer at this time.
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This @robertjohnson. Sure told you the TRUTH. I just had this experience. Long story short....I was sick a month ago and ambulance took me to Hospital and told that I had to have surgery, immediately, that same day... WHAT 😮 and now I am all better 😊😍
@@juneramirez8580I am happy you were clear of the throat cancer. That is a terrible cancer. Bless you!
Sending prayers while you wait, Brian. I've been going through a similar experience because of prostate cancer. I have had more scans, scopes and biopsies in the last two years than I've had in my entire life before the diagnosis. My providers have a web site where they post results usually within the same day of the test. Only drawback was I had to find out I had cancer all on my own, by reading a radiologist's report. You know that you have a HUGE community of followers who are concerned about you.
Being honest about anxiety is always hard. Thinking about procedures that are diagnostic is hard. Having a loving and caring partner is super important. Kudos to you and Emilee for that. Sending prayers for positive outcomes.
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BROTHER YOU GOT THIS! So many of us out here are pulling for you I hope you can feel it, at least a little...as for myself, you have helped me so much, my garden is my bliss and your gentle guidance is so much a part of it!
I understand your thoughts and anxiety completely. I had cancer in 2011/2012. (I’m completely cancer free now.) The first few years after recovery I would have a PTSD reaction as my mammogram would approach. I even changed facilities for my mammos, because it brought back so many bad memories to sit in that waiting room. I can tell you that it got better each year, and now I feel only the slightest twinge of nerves on the day of the exam. Each year of good reports adds up to the positive evidence your brain needs to feel safe again. You will get there. I’m already praying for you and for a speedy and good report.
Sending positive energy your way, Brian & Emilie! You got this! As someone who has dealt with anxiety nearly all of my 50 years, I understand that that is often worse than whatever medical emergencies that come knocking on your door. Continue to be grateful that you're aware of the problem, and more importantly keeping up with the checkups - as scary as that is. For what it's worth, you've got so many people sending prayers up or positive energy or healing light your way, and although it can be strange to some, I believe those prayers and energy and healing light - even from people you may have never met - can be a wee bit of help, even if it is just to ease the anxiety for a few moments of your day. I hope you get your good news/results sooner rather than later! ...and if all else fails, hug a big fluffy pup (or a small not as fluffy pup! ;) ), or an adorable little Dexter cow, or a tree, and just let the energy of your little world bring you the happiness you all so deserve!
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My best friend was diagnosis with 2 aneurysms when she had a concussion and they found them. That was 20 years ago
She has had one completely resolve and no changes in the second one. Hang in there.Sending prayers for good results.
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Continue surrounding yourself with your loved ones and positive friends. Most of all, continue to pet and hug your beautiful fur babies, digging your hands in the dirt, hugging Emily and your son. Sending lots of light, and a big hug. Hang in there❤
I can relate to your fears. I have had 4 strokes and lived in a Nursing Home for several years while I was in my 50s. I live with those fears every day that It will happen again. I am happy to say that I have bought a house and a car and am living independently, something that I never thought I would do again. My point is, fears can be tackled and dealt with. I do what I enjoy, gardening and painting and I have good friends that I can turn to. God bless you and happy gardening.
Brian, you have an army of people who are praying for you and rooting for everything to be just great! I know because here in Texas I can count at least 10 of my close friends who know about you through me, who follow your adventures and pray for you to relax and trust God! And this is just people I keep in touch daily. There is many more who come to my garden, my chicken people and it’s just little Belton Texas. We all love your ideas, their execution and look forward to every video! You are the talk of the town my friend 😄 Very thankful to have you and your beautiful family in my life!
I do know how you are feeling. I have terrible anxiety and I have been to therapy to try to NOT think ahead and think of only distastrous things. I am praying for you!! I know how you feel and empathize with you. Hang in there. God has a plan for your live and you have positively helped me so much. Because of your next level gardening show, I started a container garden this year and it helped me so much emotionally and the garden was a great success and looking forward to spring to start another one!! Thank you and hang in there!!!!
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Anxiety is very real and to the people who say "get over it or stop worrying about it"...well, they just don't understand and it's usually because they haven't had to go thru waiting for test results like this. You are a strong person and you've got this. I hope the waiting time for results is not too long. I wish doctors realized how hard this kind of waiting is on people. Staying busy does help. Sending prayers for you, Emily and Noah as you wait for the good news...that I feel certain you are going to get.
Keeping you in my prayers for a positive outcome! 🙏🙏🙏
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I have told you this in a comment about a year ago. I had a stroke in 2021.... Watching you Thrive after your Medical issues has given me so much inspiration. You help people even though you dont know it.
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I can relate having to deal with Prostate cancer diagnosis on March 18 of 2022 and cancer surgery, and having to deal with the issues from the surgery. Gardening has been my safe place to go to occupy my mind from the medical issue and helping others. All my positive thoughts are with you!! Cannot wait for your good news video and the new year ahead for all of us.
Thank you so much for talking about your mental health issues. It’s something we neglect and pretend isn’t a problem in this country. As someone who lives with ADHD and anxiety I salute your ability to share it so publicly. I am sure you have reached more people than you know because we keep these things so private. If you have inspired one person to get help you have done more than most.
Hello Brian. You're a gem. You'll be just fine. You have a very supportive family. Praying for you. Yes staying busy helps a lot. Keep up the good work🙏🏽❤
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My Mom and Step Dad both had Aneurysms that resolved on their own. Praying on your results. Daylight savings is fast approaching and can help shift head space too. I can relate to a lot of the things you mentioned in this vid. Blessings.
Have you thought about putting a gate in the section of fence you take out for tractor work. That way you could get a riding lawnmower through. You may end up with more tractor work down the road then you will already have a gate for the tractor to go through.
Brian, you are an amazing person, and a real blessing! I continue to pray for you to have peace and quietness in your mind and heart. Praying for a good report from the doctor! 😊
I don't know what I would do if I couldn't garden and watch UA-cam channels like yours. They are a great distraction from driving myself crazy thinking of all the 'what ifs' ,or worse yet, the " if onlys. " Both scenarios can keep me up with anxiety all night. Thank goodness i can reread your companion planting book and take notes from your gardening tips. Stay active as much as you can as a distraction and maybe being happy seeibg all u accomplished will raise your endorphins. Wishing you abd your family only the best! Take care!
Praying for continued good health, physically, mentally, emotionally . Thanks for the update 🌅
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You're doing all the right things, not overloading yourself/knowing limitations, talking about it and getting support. Every cancer survivor also knows the feelings you're expressing. It is real. Anniversary months are hard & we just do the best we can each day. 🤗 🕊
Hang in there Brian, will keep you in my prayers.
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I have severe anxiety, so I understand it well! I just said a prayer that your doctor will give you great news. Will be looking forward to the update!!
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An up date we will all be looking for!!!
Hugs and good thoughts coming your way. I HATE the waiting for results of tests! I don't know why the doctors couldn't just let you know, but schedule an appointment to actually go over the results in full.
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Hello my brother, a year before you announced your aneurism my medical team found a problem in me. I had just moved to a new state, so it took some time to find new doctors and figure out what it was. But I have multiple aneurisms, behind my knees, in my carotid artery, and in my aorta. Unfortunately the one in my aorta is below my my heart, and so inoperable. Funny thing, I started watching your channel, and I decided to build a raised bed garden, I was 67 years old and I had had gardens off and on since 1974. I knew it would keep my mind off the medical issues. Well, now it is three years later. My aneurisms are not growing, but they did a carotid endarterectomy on my right side because it was over 50% clogged. The other locations have not changed, so they just keep watching. In the meantime they discovered I have prostate cancer *sigh*. So I am going through radiation therapy now. I guess what I am telling you is... Peace out my friend, it is the garden that gives me peace. I watch life begin, I protect it from the enemies (bugs and such). I revel in the sunlight, I rejoice when I succeed in a resolving an issue. I am not going to live forever, but I WILL LIVE while I am here, and it is the garden that lets me do that.
That is a great approach. Thank you
You're doing great, Brian! I too have anxiety related to medical issues, mine and my husband's. You have Emily who is a great encourager, hard work to occupy your time, and the support and care of family, friends, and us, your online family. You are perfectly normal in your reactions. I am a retired RN and I have to tell you that most of the time, if the doctor doesn't call right away, things are good. Praying for you! Take care and sending love and hugs. -Mary
Um... MRI's alone are anxiety-provoking, and it takes a lot for me to get anxious. This isn't just you. You've already beat the odds. You've got this!
I have an ascending aortic aneurysm and leaky heart valves, so i get how you feel!
Positive energy to you!
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Love the door. Are you getting a talking horse?
🙏🙏🙏 The power of prayer works!
You've got this, Brian. Thanks for sharing something so personal. ❤
The anxiety around this is absolutely understandable. I know while I was going through chemo and the following checks my dogs are a huge help with worry and anxiety. They just seem to know when we need them a little bit more. We are keeping you in our prayers.
Hope everything turns out okay with the x-ray. Please always think positive and don't give any place to negativity. Thank you for sharing such a personal thing with us. We are here for you which we care and support you. Your You Tube family, Teresa
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Hugs and best wishes❤ you're so strong! We completely understand and it is more than ok for you to take time to take care of your anxiety. We are here to support you! You inspire all of us for doing everything you do even with all that anxiety. Very proud of all your work on both your properties, your previous and this one. ❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤ this wasn't negative. It is part of you and we as your gardening friends understand and are with you.
Brian, 6 months ago I had cardiac surgery for an aortic aneurysm that had grown over the past three years. I had no symptoms. I had open heart surgery in August and I’m doing really good. I’ll say don’t worry, but I know you will. God bless.
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John. Sending prayers your way for much more healthy days ahead!!!
A few years ago I had pain in my head by my left temple, it hurt when I put my head down. I had those tests, and I had what I called ‘brain bleed’ not to long after that the pain went away. A year or so later the top of my head hurt and I had more tests and found I had another brain bleed. Later the pain went away and another test showed that they were healed. They were caused by my migraines which may have been caused by stress. I don’t worry about them or about getting more because I tried to eliminate what was causing the stress and I don’t have any more pain. If I do get some pain then I will worry. I enjoy your podcasts
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Thinking of you, Brian! Keeping busy really does help no matter what we're anxious about!
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Anxiety is very real and so hard to handle. Totally understandable. Sitting in the garden and breathing in the smells and sights is so good and you have a wonderful one to do that in. We are all supporting you! ❤❤
I understand completely what you are going through. Everything is going to be OK. Love your channels.
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Scanxiety is a real thing and no fun! Had kidney cancer found by accident, lost my right kidney and dealt with the scanxiety for 5 yrs and for some years after. 12 yrs later I am finally free of the anxiety. It does get better!! It's like a semi trunk ran you over and you lived, but you just don't believe it's really over....and doctors telling you you're fine just doesn't mean much to relieve that anxiety. I hope the scanxiety gets better for you soon!!!! ❤
I know how it feels. I have had PTSD since childhood and as you said, it never goes away ( I'm 71). But therapy does give you a lot of different tools to get through episodes. My favorite is DISTRACT, DISTRACT, DISTRACT. Going at a hands on project that you know will clear your mind is the best medicine. At night, a good book or getting lost in UA-cam works for me as well. You just do whatever it is to get through the 'wait for result' period and know that a lot of your subscribers are wishing the absolute best for you!
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Big big hugs Brian. You’ll be just fine. Cuddle that big furry white pup to relieve anxiety. She’s a comfort animal. Every thing is going to be just fine. Look at all you’ve done on your place and nothing happened. You did a lot of physical work and you did it without even a scratch. Sending positive vibes your way. 😊
Sending lots of prayers your way and lots of love to you and your family
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As someone who has ADHD and anxiety I completely understand how the thoughts and worry just overwhelm you. I'll be praying for another good report. ❤ so many of us truly care about you & your family and appreciate you sharing your knowledge, life and "real ess" here. Please don't apologize for needing to share hard stuff or seek comfort in your time of need.
Sending you positive vibes.
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I love that you are "real" with us! I have PTSD and anxiety disorder so I get the anxiety part. It's hard to deal with. Thank you for sharing your journey! Only positive energy coming your way. I also gave you a shout out on my latest video-mountain harmony gardening 😊 you deserve all the ❤ you can get!
My sister had a brain aneurysm. She is doing great. She lives with family members and is surrounded by grandchildren. That keeps her grounded. My sis works a lot for a grocery chain also. Keeps busy. She also had cancer after the brain aneurysm. She made it through surgery and doing well. Her faith is strong and is doing great. My sis is an amazing person. You are a kind and gentle soul and my prayers are with you an Emily. Blessings ❤️🌺
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You’ve got this brother!❤ Emily is a heaven sent blessing to you. Prayers are lifted for your well being, physically and emotionally. Hugs!
I know a 92 year old lady who has had an aneurysm on the brain for years and she's still going strong! I hope this is encouraging to you in some way. Hugs and prayers!
Hey Brian we Love you, Emily and Family. Prayers are being sent for You! We are waiting for a good report!
I’m not a big ‘pray-er’, but I am sending positive vibes your way, Brian. All the best. You are an awesome human.
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My husband has an aortic aneurysm that we found during an ER visit. He sees a cardiologist every year for images to see if it has changed. We go together to the appoinents. It is hard not to worry, but it is what we have to do. I have anxiety and depression also along with my own medical problems. I can only say that gardening and hanging out with chickens helps me stay steady. So, I garden and hang out with chickens and share my fears and concerns with my husband. We have been married 38 years and are fortunate to have a relationship in which we share everything--each helping to carry the burdens of the other. The hardest losses shared have been the illness and passing of his parents and my father. Sometimes you think you can't do another hard thing. And then you do and you get through. Take care and know that your gardening and farming videos help your viewers have an outlet-- place to learn gardening things, but also a place to sit a bit and unwind. Thanks for doing that for me! ❤
I hear you. This is my fifth year out. Still...EVERY time I go for any kind of testing, I'm stressed to hell...ever since my world crashed 5 years' ago. Simpatico...and sending good vibes for results you want.
That is a lot of weight on your shoulders each year. Prayers for good news quickly returned to you! I completely relate to the focus issue when “waiting for the shoe to drop”! Try to relax when you can and take good care of yourself! All the fencing ideas sound great! Hugs for both of you from TN. ❤
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Praying for you,
When I get like this I listen to a bible study, devotion, sermon but for years I didn’t think of this until I was sick to stomach, with worry , and anxiety.
I have never had an aneurysm, but have dealt with Anxiety, I have begun doing daily meditation and focus on the now moment and it has really helped immensely!
Brian, this is total normal. Who wouldn’t be afraid considering the journey you have been on for several years. But waiting is awful!! Stay strong my friend and you have wonderful support from Emily💞
PTSD is awful. Our friend Jose has had an aneurysm for year and he is a spunky cool guy. All the best to you!
I have an abdominal aoritic aneurysm. It's a hard thing to live with at times. Sometimes I get off in the deep end with worrying but then remember that I serve an awesome God. I am not leaving this earth a day earlier than what he has planned. I am not in control. When my time comes, I am going home to a much better place. Prayers for your anxiety🙏❤
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So true.
We found out my husband has a cardiac aneurysm in 2022. He has his repeat scan in a couple weeks. I understand the anxiety. 🙏🏻 for you and your family.
Dear dear friend the emotions are natural and it is hard to overlook, many of us have you covered in prayer. So, hang in there!!! I know what you are going thru, my wife had 4 heart attacks in March -April 2010 and has had 4 more since then with the latest being 12 /27/2022 at which time they started talking transplant. She got a pacemaker 01/25/23 but still in December 2023 they want a transplant and we go thru all of the emotions again and she now 52 way to young for all this ,and you are source of relief for me .I love watching you and the homestead grow. Stay positive and know that GOD is in control. By the way have you ever thought of simply moving the chain link fence and investing just your time. Most sincerely with LOVE my brother. All is well with YOU!!!!!
I totally understand. I have Anxiety too. It's why I don't make as many videos for my channel as I should. Thank you for having the encourage to share. It takes mental strength to do so. Kudos to you. Hugs & God bless.
Anxiety, I get it. You’re not alone and your video tells me I’m not alone. Thank you. You are appreciated.
In 2022, my husband's health became our entire focus with a scary diagnosis. (Not the same as yours, Brian, so I have nothing to offer there). However, I was completely overwhelmed with anxiety. Couldn't eat, couldn't sleep, couldn't function. I understand everything you are going through on that front. I must say that you are very self-aware and you understand what your thoughts do...( when I learned about "catastrophizing", I thought the word was created to describe me!!). It is ALL totally understandable. It is not being whiny or cranky. You are thinking, saying, and doing all the right things (hurray for CBT!!) but I understand that the waiting is still so very hard. Keep moving. Keep focusing on the things you love. (this is where you have helped me tremendously, btw!!!) Keep redirecting those thoughts. Keep practicing your cognitive strategies. You will get through this. Information is power. And I believe (and pray) that the positive results from this MRI will continue to lessen the anxiety you experience each January. It will get better!! 💜💚💙💚💜💚💙💚💜
Thank you for sharing this. Gardening is the best balm for everything!
There are no “off” buttons for anxiety. It’s “real” when it’s yours. Positive energy coming your way 🤗
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My mom had an aorta aneurysm and had surgery. Her heart was extra strong after her recovery. And for many, many years and she lived a long and fruitful life doing what she loved to do
Been watching the channels for years now. Can’t believe that was so many years ago now! I’m the same way about tests and always look up the lab reports days after instead of waiting on the follow up visit. So I am usually informed before I get a call from the office about the results and can formulate questions for the doctor for at the follow up visit
PRAYER! Positive speaking into your world health. Having a conversation with our Father thanking him for where you are and ABLE TO DO.I have anxiety attacks too due to health issues of family members …I garden a lot,thrift shopping,rearranging my yard/garden. Try and make a vision board of things you wanna do. I’m sending PRAYERS of peace of mind. You’re not alone 🙏🏽❤️🙏🏽
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Prayer and positive thinking has gotten me through the horrors of dealing with throat cancer! My praying and that of everyone I knew had brought me through along with the positive thinking. I always make it a point to find something, anything, good in every bad situation. For me it works wonders. It took some time to learn but it was well worth it.
Don’t ever think you are whining because you need to vent your feelings and I’m sure all of your viewers are only too happy to listen.
I’ve been through breast cancer and it’s alway good to let it all out when you can.
Positive energy and thoughts coming your way from Sydney Australia 🇦🇺.
Watching you walk around your property in the beginning was eye opening. It was a view into all the beautiful beautiful work you've done since you moved...
Take a deep breath, you'll get thru it, I'm sure you have a very good doctor.
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Brian, anxiety is another condition that your care providers have to consider in how they proceed with your care. That said, have you discussed this with your doctor? Have you let him/her know how debilitating the anxiety can be, how much it affects your and your family's life? I say that because once the mri is finished it does not take long for them to read it and give you a report..if they want to they can have mri results almost immediately! It surprises me that they would make you wait two weeks plus for results. I think you should really stress the importance of getting fast results because another condition is impacted by this wait time. I know everyone is anxious about test results, but not to the same degree, and they need to keep this in mind. Good luck.
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Grateful you have shared your struggles on here. You are helping many many others. Anxiety doesn’t make sense and you can’t wish it away. Admire your strength in managing this. So happy you have such a great support system. Sending you the best for good news and continued good health.
I know a lot of people will sympathize with the way you feel. I have suffered from anxiety for so long that it has affected my health. Prayers do make a difference and I've sent one up for you. I'm glad you got therapy and I know you are not one to waste your precious time worrying. Waiting is definitely the worst, I agree.
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My heart goes out to you, Brian. I have ADHD and anxiety and I totally understand what you are saying. There is actually a name for it "waiting mode". When you know something is coming and it takes up all your mental bandwidth making it impossible to do other things. I get it. Medical trama is totally real too. I had issues right before 2020 and they thought I may have cancer in my ear. The waiting on that was unreal. It turned out to be something else but the options all looked terrible at the time. In the end it wasn't something that bad and I was given meds. But the docors we not helpful going through it. Hugs to you and yours.
I had cancer and I know how you feel. I had a finger removed, because of cancer a year later I had a stroke, but with therapy I’m getting better. This is good that you are talking about.
Brian-hang in there. Praying for you and your family as you wait. As a nurse I know the anxiety is real, never worry about expressing it. That’s healthy -and it allows you to be in control of the anxiety, not the inverse.
As a retired MRI tech I want to thank you for not trashing the MRI machine experience. The angiography scans don't take as long because they are usually just a couple of sequences. I just got the news that I have the big "C". I have been having scans and doctors appointments for several months trying to figure out what treatments/surgery should be done. It is hair raising to say the least. I keep telling my husband "I don't want to be the patient". I have been doing hobbies to keep busy. Please keep us in the loop on how you are doing. . Your homestead looks so good, even in January. Prayers to you and your family.
We as a country need to do a better job on mental health.
Love and prayers coming your way. There are lots of us 'out here' who know how you feel. I'm only 2 years past a breast cancer diagnosis, so every twinge, ache and pain brings the fear with it.
I know what you are going through Brian I lost my husband in January four years ago to cancer he was 57. I dread January but with the help of family and friends I can get through it. My garden has been a life saver to me it keeps me busy. Sending you hugs and strength . Please think positive always, you are doing well Brian.
My husband gets one once a month right now. He has an appointment with the doc to discuss the results tomorrow. He’s not worried too much because our doctor would phone right away if it were bad. Good luck and try not to worry too much.
You are a beautiful human being and your willingness to expose your vulnerability makes you even more so. My 78th birthday is coming up so I’ve had plenty of years to learn ways to reduce the volume of the voice of anxiety. Sometimes just saying to its stories “ya, I hear you…but I don’t believe you” creates a palpable shift. Let’s face it, aneurism, anxiety, whatever…the only thing for certain is the present moment. Thank you for so many beautiful moments, my friend.
I too have chronic illnesses, adhd, and medical trauma/anxiety, I get it. Thank you for sharing this with us, I hope it helps to get it off your chest. I don't love MRIs but the wait for results is definitely worse than the test.
Your anxiety is totally situational and normal. If you need some time off that's OK. Keeping busy is the best therapy for most things. I am currently reading a book called "Brain Energy" The fact your PTSD is annual is a good thing because you and Emilie can learn to plan for it and maybe minimize it ahead of time instead of letting it kind of broad siding you. Prayers 🙏
You are in my prayers. I also suffer from anxiety and some OCD. I have rough times myself and that is when I try to do the same as what you are doing, take it one day at a time. I try to focus on good stuff and trust God to get me through. I have to give my worries to him everyday because I can't do anything about it but trust in him. He has always given me peace.
Praying for you and your family. I always used to dread the month of October because all kinds of bad things happened for me during that month, including health issues, for several years in a row. I finally realized it doesn’t do any good to worry about what hasn’t happened. You have no control over it. Now I’m old and retired and those issues really don’t bother me much anymore, but I completely understand where you’re coming from. God bless you!
I totally understand your anxiety as I have dealt with it my entire life, too. What I try to do to lessen my anxiety is to change my perspective on what is causing me to be anxious by making a celebration out of a difficult event. I create a special dinner with loved ones or treat myself to an adventure that isn't in my normal routine. That way, I have something to look forward to after or in concurrent with the anxious event. I like to think that it cancels out the anxiety. I wish you all the best 💜
That’s a good idea. Thank you 😊
I can understand your anxiety and frustration. Sending prayers for both you and Emily that results will come quickly and all is well. You truly have a gem in Emily. 💕
Take a tip from Bing Crosby and the blessings song from White Christmas. “When you’re worried and you can’t sleep, count your blessings instead of sheep. And you’ll fall asleep counting your blessings.” Brian you are surrounded by blessings, start counting my friend. 😊💕🙏🏼
Ever since 2020 anxiety has been high. So much has happened. Please know you are in my prayers for a good report and peace in your heart and mind while you wait. Emily is a gem working to keep you calm.
hey brian. it is soooo, soooo good that you are talking about your anxiety