hey just a heads up you cant listen to this on desktop because the warning that it has mentions of suicide just skips or completely stops the video you have to refresh the page so i advise against putting it in a playlist to just let run in the background
Can confirm. No friend was there in my darkest or dark moments. It passed. I raw dogged it No booze, no drugs. Just pure emotion. And it's left a mark on me. Kinda of forever looking at a blue sky and always seeing a couple black clouds No matter the weather.
The issue is that I’m that friend for many other people in my life. The moment I rely on them too much, I fail the role of the only thing keeping me in this world.
@@epicsandvich014 yeah that makes perfect sense its hard to be able to be the friend who's goal is to be the therapist and help others when you in of yourself are down like this maybe trying to talk to one of your friends to find the best was to get both of you heard and getting comfort at the same time may help I'm not experienced with these situations so I do not know the best words I am sorry but I wish you the best of luck and happiness
"I don't know whats scarier... the fact that everyone in this kingdom wants to drive a sword into my heart.... or the fact that sometimes I want to let them" - nimona
In addition to watching ASMR, I have found that converting all your bad thoughts into meaningless lyrics you will never release also helps because you have somewhere to write down and release all your bad thoughts. Thank you for making this audio. Have a good night.
Plot twist. She's a hitwoman. The reason we're alive is because we avoid her so often. She was going to kill us but after finding out we want to die she actually starts bodyguarding.
wow another audio with a deep and serious subject…i must say i liked it a lot and i‘m sure that a lot of people will find this very comforting too. Some words for those who relate to this and feel like the listener does in this audio: I know very well that life can be cruel to you a lot and i know very well that the pain you feel in your chest can be unbearable sometimes too. I also know that these bad thoughts and voices in your head are so loud that you just want them to stop but they keep on going and they keep on dragging you down into that deep dark hole (that‘s what i call it). But please believe me when i say that it can and will get better eventually❤️. Harming yourself won‘t help you solving the root of the problem, it will only worsen the state you are in and besides that it will hurt the people who truly love you and if you think that no one loves you, not your friends not your family then just know that i love you and i care for you. i know i might sound like every other casual person who just tries to make you feel better right now and you are right i don‘t know how it feels to harm yourself and what you are going through. But i was also depressed the first half of this year and i was not doing well in my childhood (mentally) most of the time either and i wished more than enough that i would just die or that everyone would be better off if i wouldn’t have been born… so please believe me when i say that things will get better. promise me to keep on pushing through. help is always right around the corner, may it be friends, family or a therapist. someone does care for you and wants to help you. (i need to stop at that… this was actually really hard to write for me😅 i was not crying but my mind stoped thinking and i didn’t know how to put this into words, that is actually a self defense mechanism i have to keep me away from these bad memories) so no i want to get to the actual video❤️ 1. like i said under the last video with the deep talk, i think this type of audio fits your channel and the atmosphere you want to create so much. It feels even more like a safe space because this is really comforting for people that feel that way. Very lovely made and you definitely put a lot of love into this and thoughts.❤️ 2. The acting. your vouce suits this type of audio so well because it feels so comforting and… real. you are really good at acting the comforting and concerned characters🥰. The main reason for me to say that is because your voice really feels real to me, like an actual person is talking to me, somehow i don‘t experience this with any other VA i have listened to, at least not for audios like this one. so if i ever start to feel bad again i’ll make sure to come back to one of these audios from you (but i will give my best to prevent that ofc.). 3. Edit and sfx. loved the rain sfx, i find it the most fitting fir such an audio and i loved that little edit you had for the background of the video. also suited the atmosphere well🥰 3. The character. I loved the bodyguard in this one and the story itself was just so sweet for me. She was really very sweet and loving, a bodyguard that takes her jib very seriously and even safes you from yourself, very admirable if you ask me.😌 4. The description. wow the description is super detailed and heartbreaking for me because the one part where you wrote that we wished to be dead and that because of the bounty we wouldn’t have to do it ourselves, so we just went out to some places and waited for someone to kill us, reminded me of myself as a child and half a year ago… i also felt so bad that i didn’t want to live (never did any kind of self harm) and i also did reckless things in the beginning of the year, but i‘m really glad that i made it through this time thx to music asmr and my friends. I really love it how much effort you put into the descriptions my Queen❤️ wow i‘m finally done with writing this. i‘m so so sorry for the late reply but i felt so tired these last days and i wanted to take my time writing this with a bit more clear head. well guess what i‘m writing this while being tired as hell XD also a factor why i had problems writing this. I really hope that i could put a smile on some faces that red all of this. remember my friends to stay strong ok? For my Queen. i hope that you never had to go through such a time or similar stuff and i really hope that the tough time you are going through right now is getting a bit better, if not stay strong too my lovely Queen, i will always be there to support you as much as possible❤️. I wish everyone who is still reading this a very lovely day/night filled with beautiful dreams that make you feel super happy, energized and give you some more strength to go through another day❤️ I love you all very very much and don‘t forget that🥰 Remember to deink, eat and sleep enough and i‘m sending you lots of love and the most important thing a love filled and super warm and the most cozy hug i can give you (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ❤️ This one will give you extra strength and stamina to go through these hard times until they get better❤️. see you soon everyone👋
Daniel you are a truly wonderful person. Thank you so much for all your encouraging words. I am once again in awe of your delightful, thoughtful, amazing comment. You deserve the entire world. Thank you so, so much for your encouraging feedback. I've been wanting to do some deeper audios for a long time now but just didn't feel comfortable with it. I'm trying it out with a couple, and the reaction has been surprising and wonderful. It really gives me the confidence to try out new videos, so thank you for that. Thank you for noticing the sound effects, I was actually very proud of the audio in this video! And thank you once again for noticing my description! I do put a lot of energy into those, this one in particular hit very close to home, and I appreciate your kind words about it! I hope you can get some rest and take some time to yourself 💕 Always remember to put yourself first and take care of yourself. You are an incredible person and deserve the best of everything. Stay strong ✨ Have a wonderful day, and thank you again my friend.
wow you even remembered my name, i feel honored my queen🥰 and thank you so much for these sweet words, that means that i have accomplished my goal of making you feel better❤️. And yes please try out new types of audio if you want, you will never know if it is good if you don‘t try it once right? you really can be proud of this audio. you did an amazing job🥰 Yes i will make sure to put myself first and i will take really good care of myself🥰 btw life seems to keep on getting better and better right now. i got a call from someone i send an application to for my apprenticeship next year and i we made out a meeting next week wednesday and i can work there for one hour so we all can get to know each other and they seem super chill and kind, so i‘m nervous yet super excited 🤩 how are you doing btw if i may ask my Queen? (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ❤
@@Asta66 Ty! Ahh congratulations!! I wish you all the best with it. I’m hanging in there. Life’s been a little rough lately but I’ll get through it. Thanks for asking!
I enjoy audios like because to some people who have suicidal tendency have something to listen for comfort and know that there are people who can help them through it good job and keep up the good work
If you find yourself in this situation remember, even if you don't have hope things can always get better. About 6 months ago I woke up in the hospital, turns out I had survived. I realized I might have a problem so I looked for a doctor. I didn't really see the point, but if I was going to die why not try. Fast forward to now, and while life is still pretty crappy, I feel a lot better with myself. Maybe soon I'll find a reason to live. So stay alive and hang on, and you'll make it.
@@skellygaming2129ey cheers to that buddy, the only thing you can really do, is to try and find satisfaction in your own resilience. Fighting to be alive only on principle is underrated.
I've never attempted. But I have the thoughts a lot. To anyone going threw this, please try to find help. You MEAN something!!!!! Please don't think otherwise!!!!!
I hope everyone with suicidal thoughts knows this; asking for help is a sign of strength - not weakness. If you’re in a crisis, please dial your country's respective suicide prevention number or seek professional help. If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here. If you feel too much, don’t go. If this world is too painful, stop and rest. It’s okay to stop and rest. If you need a break, it’s okay to say you need a break. This life - it’s not a contest, not a race, not a performance, not a thing that you win. It’s okay to slow down. You are here for more than grades, more than a job, more than a promotion, more than keeping up, more than getting by. This life is not about status or opinion or appearance. You don’t have to fake it. You do not have to fake it. Other people feel this way too. If your heart is broken, it’s okay to say your heart is broken. If you feel stuck, it’s okay to say you feel stuck. If you can’t let go, it’s okay to say you can’t let go. You are not alone in these places. Other people feel how you feel. You are more than just your pain. You are more than wounds, more than drugs, more than death and silence. There is still some time to be surprised. There is still some time to ask for help. There is still some time to start again. There is still some time for love to find you. It’s not too late. You’re not alone. It’s okay - whatever you need and however long it takes - it’s okay. It’s okay. If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here. If you feel too much, don’t go. There is still some time.
@@ImperialGuardsman2danm, thats alot of words, shame they are all hollow. Like theres a bunch of things saying dont let the world get you down, and to find hope in yourself. But for people like me, the hope in me, is the twisted wish that someone else will paint a sidewalk with me. And the world outside me dosnt get me down, its empty, its just mirrors reflecting all the self inflicted emptieness back at me. Sorry that this came out so negative, i dont mean to say anything negative about you. Just that this one comment dosnt exactly understand the target, i mean how could it.
Not all wounds are visible. Not all trauma can be seen. Life is hard sometimes my dudes. Remember ACE: ask, care and escort. If your battle buddy is having a hard time, be there for em.
The pain of being left behind not once but twice is indescribable. You may think people are better off without you but that's so far from the truth. You are important. Each and every one of you is important.
Everytime I listen to something like this I get this feeling in my gut like it’s caving in and empty I don’t know why I keep listening to this stuff when it doesn’t make me feel any better
As someone who's been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts throughout their life... this is eerily similar to a weird complex I have, so I guess other people might have it too? Mainly, when I'm often suffering, I often feel _reluctant_ to open up about it to certain people, such as my parents or family. On the flipside, there are also people I would feel _more willing_ to talk with, such as a close friend. I don't really know why I go through this, maybe it has something to do with knowing your family members more and thinking that they don't have the ability to give you what you need. All I know is that when I'm in an especially tight corner, I get the most comfort not from my family, but from a _friend_ who willingly goes out of their way to help me.
I am so deep in the dark hole that I wouldn't care if anything bad were to happen, I'm getting help for it but I have depression disorder so it keeps comming back
Thank you...I’ve been having...second thoughts...I might reconsider but if I keep getting messages or anything that makes me cry or just have a breakdown...I swear I just...can’t take it anymore...Whenever anyone ask me how am I I say I’m fine...but deep down I’m really not I’m breaking down inside...One time when I vented people called me an attention seeker...But they don’t say that to anyone else venting...I just wanna be comforted to you know! I wanna know what it feels like to be loved again...not fake friendships...fake love...I’m tired of it all being fake...I just want it to be real...just once...I just feel like the 90% of the entire world is against me and won’t be satisfied until I’m dead...
The crowded part is probably safer than alone as there is less commotion to push the assassin around and make it hard to get to you as well as it's hard to shoot someone in the middle of a crowd and not get arrested. Edit: It also makes it harder for a sniper to hit you because someone may get in the way. Also i am not a professional or anything. I'm just some kid wit too much free time and an internet connection.
me upon hearing that I can't go to the library: Then let me die. The library is the best thing that I have going for me. LOL Me now: Ignore that LOL. Apparently, my father, despite telling me that I could go to the Library last Thursday, 2 days ago, actually DID need me to stay two days ago, and because he said that he had it, I went to the library, and now I'm losing my apartment.
@@arestingplace Exactly. In such circumstances I'd rather have my peace from the hands of a friend than from botched attempt of some random hitman, feeding on other people's hatred.
@@arestingplace BTW - I had a talk with my father about that day off You wanted and he accepted. We agreed that prolonged exposure to stress and constant focus might have adverse effects on Your well-being. Don't worry, I promise I'll still be here when You return. Don't want to be a disappointment, not to You.
I remember the first and the last time I tried to take my life, dumbest decisions of my life. I was 12 and put a gun in my mouth, pulled the trigger and the fucking thing jammed. Last time I tried, I was 15, jumped in front of a car going 45+ mph on a main road and it swerved and missed me. 2 of 9 different attempts, all of which failed. Please, if you’re having these thoughts, if you’re hurting yourself or you genuinely just don’t wanna be alive anymore, talk to someone. It doesn’t have to be a friend, family member, or even a professional. I remember late 2020 around Christmas, I was struggling really bad with mental health and some random kid messaged me online asking if I wanted to be friends, I said yea and asked if I could vent, he said yes and I did. 2 hours of venting and crying later, me and that kid were best friends and we had each others backs. A random stranger will be willing to listen and be there for you. Shit, I’ll listen to you and be there for you. Just please do not resort to taking your own life, you’re a beautiful soul and you deserve to live. I’ve come a long way, 5 years ago, at the age of 12, I didn’t want to be alive anymore. Now, at the age of 17, I love life and everything about it, even if it’s bad and causes me an inconvenience or fucks my day up. I love you all, stay safe and be blessed🫶🏻
@@arestingplace Thank you, I’m glad as well. If it weren’t for certain people in my life, I wouldn’t have been able to grow and know my self worth. My girlfriend, my little sisters, my mom, and my old math teacher. They’re all very important people, and I’m grateful that they’re part of my life. I’m sorry for rambling, but what I’m trying to say is we all have our person/people. Thank you for making content like this and for being you Miss, have a wonderful day/night!
@justacanofbeans8217 it doesn't work for everyone trust me you just need to find what's right for me talking and not holding it in has helped but got me in trouble at the same time so just try different things till you find whats right I wish you all the best
Ok I know this is supposed to be a more serious audio but the part where you said “did you say something no? Ok then resume lecture “got me I though that was pretty funny 😂 but in all seriousness I hope everyone is doing well 😊
Numerous attempts to end my life.. yet I'm still here.. I guess I'm a loser.. whenever I try to be happy, something happens to ruin it.. I'm tired of it...
*hugs* the universe must need you alive. You’re a very special person, please try to hold on. Things get better eventually, trust me, even if you can’t see it now
Funny I find these about 8 years after my lowest of low in life Never was suicidal but I didn't have the will to live what so ever for longer than I should've, think my anger towards the thought of life beating me is why I'm still around. Still have anger problems but I have too many people who care ab me to dip out. Still have the thoughts of what would happen if I did just crash my motorcycle going a 120, it's like a fucking curse hovering over me that comes and goes. But man, if you got this shit going on in your head just blast music have wind chimes and get ur favorite McDonald's or snack whatever the fuck and enjoy sitting on a rock or some shit. If you picture life without you and you have a slight slimmer of sorrow for anybody you care for who'd miss you, you're wanted man, stay here for em. Also if youre reading this whoever you are and have heard of something called "agitated depression" and know what it is and have it, don't let life beat you, it's a cunt so beat it's ass for yourself and whoever loves ya.
I was trying to finish this but I just couldn’t I had a talk with my band teach about how my life was been going and what happened and it hurts me so much I watch these to help me but I just couldn’t finish but I loved the 7:04 mins I watched
I liked the audio- (Vent in general): Although one minor thing I hate in all these audios is the mention of therapist, doctors, etc. Tbh I’m dealing with wanting to die but the idea of therapy makes me wish for my death sooner. I don’t want some slave to the government getting their noses in my problems. See fun fact I wish to die..out of hatred. I want people to cry about it when they find out it’s all their fault. And I know what people might be thinking, “how cruel”, “mental”, “you need help”. But the truth is no one understands me and they won’t ever. My mind is different from yours for some odd reason which I hate but whatever. Because you all depend on authority figures or people you love. I don’t understand that way of thinking, or how people can be so blind. Everyone’s emotions confuse me. The way they act, dress, pretend. It’s all weird. I’ve been able to see through everything since I was really young and it isn’t fun. My mind doesn’t have happy dreams, just night terrors every night. I might shut down, unable to speak but internally I can hear, speak, and mock you all for your insane or weird behavior. I have been told to be careful about trying to daydream and fantasize everyday cause that line between reality might disappear but it sucks cause my mind reminds me constantly that my life sucks so no need to worry. People piss me off with their pity and emotions or what not. Like if I said “I wish to die” you all over react with some sappy nonsense like “someone loves you”, “don’t throw your life away”, “it will get better”. Well do I have news for you Btw, I know I’m loved, and I know all about your idea of throwing a life away but yet I don’t care. I hope the people that love me cry for what they did. And another thing my life won’t ever get better, I’m a jinx after all. No matter how many times I try I’m stuck in a loop. Bad, then hope, possible good, then disaster after. I’m tired of this life. It had been going on for years. I’m ready to move on from trying. And I might have more vent but I’m done for now. Anyways I just wanted to vent so nothing wrong with your audio. It’s just a vent made by me. And also for peoples info, I’m only 14-17 so yes I’m a minor. And yes this is how I feel.
I'm glad you feel safe enough to vent here 💕 If you want my discord dms are open. I'm so sorry you're struggling rn but you're doing amazing. Here's a cookie 🍪
@@arestingplace Iguess although idk about the discord dms. I mean people often call me mental for my problems and or usually don’t care so. Are you sure?
Danm bruv, where did you get the idea that you mean that much? Like how do you justify hating so many people and trying to hurt them. Where do you get the confidence to think you would be mourned for long? Killing yourself because you think itll hurt someone is the most childish thing ive ever heard. Im not gonna tell you to just wait till it gets better, but please dont try to make other people feel worse because you feel bad. You seem like a smart kid, you know that vengeance is utterly useless, and you wont even be able to enjoy it since you would be dead. There are few things worthy of hate, those that love you are not worth the effort of hating. What im saying is, be sad and all but that dosnt excuse being a self centered brat, and killing yourself out of spite is only cool when done in malicious compliance.
Being stuck living with your transphobic parents and not being able to get a job, because you have a panic attack so bad that it seems like a heart attack, is horrible. I can't keep living like this. I'm trying to do my best to stay happy, but unless I'm suddenly allowed to wear the clothes I want, and start taking estrogen, that'll never happen. I can't even find love or take weed to numb the pain. I just want to be held and told that everything's gonna be okay, but that'll never happen because the only people who care about me are online and nowhere near me. I can't take weed, mainly because I'm not 21, but if I did somehow get weed, I'd be instantly kicked out if my parents found out. I'm stuck in a loop of pain and I just want my Prince Charming to fix the mess that people call "life" and to just live happily ever after. But that'll never happen, because I'm a parasite that latches on to anyone who even gives me a sliver of attention or sense of belonging. Then, I just drive them away and go back to wanting to off myself.
I feel sad with the fact you at the beginning you say "reach out to someone you trust" I trust my school friends and online friends they don't really talk with me about it when I told them idk why but I don't trust my family
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hey just a heads up you cant listen to this on desktop because the warning that it has mentions of suicide just skips or completely stops the video you have to refresh the page so i advise against putting it in a playlist to just let run in the background
Thx for the info!
@@arestingplace Some people can, im on desktop and it showed me a warning but let me continue
You Can, but you have to be logged in and recent youtube app
nah just reload the page and it will fix it
I wish everyone who is going through this gets a friend like this someone they can turn to in their darkest moments
Thank you...
Can confirm. No friend was there in my darkest or dark moments. It passed. I raw dogged it
No booze, no drugs.
Just pure emotion. And it's left a mark on me. Kinda of forever looking at a blue sky and always seeing a couple black clouds No matter the weather.
@@stevefromwork6136 I am so glad that you never turned to drugs for that support trust me if you ever feel that pull fight your hardest to avoid it
The issue is that I’m that friend for many other people in my life. The moment I rely on them too much, I fail the role of the only thing keeping me in this world.
@@epicsandvich014 yeah that makes perfect sense its hard to be able to be the friend who's goal is to be the therapist and help others when you in of yourself are down like this maybe trying to talk to one of your friends to find the best was to get both of you heard and getting comfort at the same time may help I'm not experienced with these situations so I do not know the best words I am sorry but I wish you the best of luck and happiness
You sure didn't mess around with this audio, it's heavy, but also very inspiring. This bodyguard deserves a raise. Thanks for making this.
Thank you!! 💕
Lets be honest here, that bodyguard needs far more than a raise and we know it-
@@-Dark_Shadow-truth, whole truth
holy shit idk why but the "are you ok?" felt so genuine to me it made me cry dude
"I don't know whats scarier... the fact that everyone in this kingdom wants to drive a sword into my heart.... or the fact that sometimes I want to let them" - nimona
Love that movie 💕
@@arestingplace 🖤
In addition to watching ASMR, I have found that converting all your bad thoughts into meaningless lyrics you will never release also helps because you have somewhere to write down and release all your bad thoughts. Thank you for making this audio. Have a good night.
Plot twist. She's a hitwoman. The reason we're alive is because we avoid her so often. She was going to kill us but after finding out we want to die she actually starts bodyguarding.
Whaaaaaattt 🤯
Oh dayum-
Getting the hitwoman to be your bodyguard is ideal. Whose going to actually do the job? No one. That's who.
wow another audio with a deep and serious subject…i must say i liked it a lot and i‘m sure that a lot of people will find this very comforting too.
Some words for those who relate to this and feel like the listener does in this audio: I know very well that life can be cruel to you a lot and i know very well that the pain you feel in your chest can be unbearable sometimes too. I also know that these bad thoughts and voices in your head are so loud that you just want them to stop but they keep on going and they keep on dragging you down into that deep dark hole (that‘s what i call it). But please believe me when i say that it can and will get better eventually❤️. Harming yourself won‘t help you solving the root of the problem, it will only worsen the state you are in and besides that it will hurt the people who truly love you and if you think that no one loves you, not your friends not your family then just know that i love you and i care for you. i know i might sound like every other casual person who just tries to make you feel better right now and you are right i don‘t know how it feels to harm yourself and what you are going through. But i was also depressed the first half of this year and i was not doing well in my childhood (mentally) most of the time either and i wished more than enough that i would just die or that everyone would be better off if i wouldn’t have been born… so please believe me when i say that things will get better. promise me to keep on pushing through. help is always right around the corner, may it be friends, family or a therapist. someone does care for you and wants to help you.
(i need to stop at that… this was actually really hard to write for me😅 i was not crying but my mind stoped thinking and i didn’t know how to put this into words, that is actually a self defense mechanism i have to keep me away from these bad memories)
so no i want to get to the actual video❤️
1. like i said under the last video with the deep talk, i think this type of audio fits your channel and the atmosphere you want to create so much. It feels even more like a safe space because this is really comforting for people that feel that way. Very lovely made and you definitely put a lot of love into this and thoughts.❤️
2. The acting. your vouce suits this type of audio so well because it feels so comforting and… real. you are really good at acting the comforting and concerned characters🥰. The main reason for me to say that is because your voice really feels real to me, like an actual person is talking to me, somehow i don‘t experience this with any other VA i have listened to, at least not for audios like this one. so if i ever start to feel bad again i’ll make sure to come back to one of these audios from you (but i will give my best to prevent that ofc.).
3. Edit and sfx. loved the rain sfx, i find it the most fitting fir such an audio and i loved that little edit you had for the background of the video. also suited the atmosphere well🥰
3. The character. I loved the bodyguard in this one and the story itself was just so sweet for me. She was really very sweet and loving, a bodyguard that takes her jib very seriously and even safes you from yourself, very admirable if you ask me.😌
4. The description. wow the description is super detailed and heartbreaking for me because the one part where you wrote that we wished to be dead and that because of the bounty we wouldn’t have to do it ourselves, so we just went out to some places and waited for someone to kill us, reminded me of myself as a child and half a year ago… i also felt so bad that i didn’t want to live (never did any kind of self harm) and i also did reckless things in the beginning of the year, but i‘m really glad that i made it through this time thx to music asmr and my friends. I really love it how much effort you put into the descriptions my Queen❤️
wow i‘m finally done with writing this. i‘m so so sorry for the late reply but i felt so tired these last days and i wanted to take my time writing this with a bit more clear head. well guess what i‘m writing this while being tired as hell XD also a factor why i had problems writing this.
I really hope that i could put a smile on some faces that red all of this. remember my friends to stay strong ok?
For my Queen. i hope that you never had to go through such a time or similar stuff and i really hope that the tough time you are going through right now is getting a bit better, if not stay strong too my lovely Queen, i will always be there to support you as much as possible❤️.
I wish everyone who is still reading this a very lovely day/night filled with beautiful dreams that make you feel super happy, energized and give you some more strength to go through another day❤️ I love you all very very much and don‘t forget that🥰 Remember to deink, eat and sleep enough and i‘m sending you lots of love and the most important thing a love filled and super warm and the most cozy hug i can give you (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ❤️ This one will give you extra strength and stamina to go through these hard times until they get better❤️. see you soon everyone👋
Daniel you are a truly wonderful person. Thank you so much for all your encouraging words. I am once again in awe of your delightful, thoughtful, amazing comment. You deserve the entire world.
Thank you so, so much for your encouraging feedback. I've been wanting to do some deeper audios for a long time now but just didn't feel comfortable with it. I'm trying it out with a couple, and the reaction has been surprising and wonderful. It really gives me the confidence to try out new videos, so thank you for that. Thank you for noticing the sound effects, I was actually very proud of the audio in this video! And thank you once again for noticing my description! I do put a lot of energy into those, this one in particular hit very close to home, and I appreciate your kind words about it!
I hope you can get some rest and take some time to yourself 💕 Always remember to put yourself first and take care of yourself. You are an incredible person and deserve the best of everything. Stay strong ✨ Have a wonderful day, and thank you again my friend.
wow you even remembered my name, i feel honored my queen🥰 and thank you so much for these sweet words, that means that i have accomplished my goal of making you feel better❤️. And yes please try out new types of audio if you want, you will never know if it is good if you don‘t try it once right? you really can be proud of this audio. you did an amazing job🥰
Yes i will make sure to put myself first and i will take really good care of myself🥰 btw life seems to keep on getting better and better right now. i got a call from someone i send an application to for my apprenticeship next year and i we made out a meeting next week wednesday and i can work there for one hour so we all can get to know each other and they seem super chill and kind, so i‘m nervous yet super excited 🤩
how are you doing btw if i may ask my Queen? (づ｡◕‿‿◕｡)づ❤
@@Asta66 Ty! Ahh congratulations!! I wish you all the best with it.
I’m hanging in there. Life’s been a little rough lately but I’ll get through it. Thanks for asking!
I enjoy audios like because to some people who have suicidal tendency have something to listen for comfort and know that there are people who can help them through it good job and keep up the good work
Thank you 💕
as soon as they said 'are you ok' i broke down crying
*tight hugs* my discord DMs are open lovely 💕💕 also thank you for getting my pronouns right I rly appreciate it
If you find yourself in this situation remember, even if you don't have hope things can always get better.
About 6 months ago I woke up in the hospital, turns out I had survived.
I realized I might have a problem so I looked for a doctor. I didn't really see the point, but if I was going to die why not try.
Fast forward to now, and while life is still pretty crappy, I feel a lot better with myself. Maybe soon I'll find a reason to live.
So stay alive and hang on, and you'll make it.
I know it may not mean much. But from 1 survivor to another... I am proud of you
@@JustSomeWords024 Those are some meaningful words, stay strong
Ive not gotten this bad yet, but i wish you the best of luck
I don't think life is going to get any better and you said it yourself, you're trying to find a reason to live.
@@skellygaming2129ey cheers to that buddy, the only thing you can really do, is to try and find satisfaction in your own resilience. Fighting to be alive only on principle is underrated.
I hope everyone who is struggling right now might see the rainbow in the middle of the storm soon! You got this :D
Often times the problem is not knowing what the problem is.
I've never attempted. But I have the thoughts a lot. To anyone going threw this, please try to find help. You MEAN something!!!!! Please don't think otherwise!!!!!
I hope everyone with suicidal thoughts knows this; asking for help is a sign of strength - not weakness. If you’re in a crisis, please dial your country's respective suicide prevention number or seek professional help.
If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here. If you feel too much, don’t go. If this world is too painful, stop and rest. It’s okay to stop and rest. If you need a break, it’s okay to say you need a break. This life - it’s not a contest, not a race, not a performance, not a thing that you win. It’s okay to slow down. You are here for more than grades, more than a job, more than a promotion, more than keeping up, more than getting by. This life is not about status or opinion or appearance. You don’t have to fake it. You do not have to fake it. Other people feel this way too. If your heart is broken, it’s okay to say your heart is broken. If you feel stuck, it’s okay to say you feel stuck. If you can’t let go, it’s okay to say you can’t let go. You are not alone in these places. Other people feel how you feel. You are more than just your pain. You are more than wounds, more than drugs, more than death and silence. There is still some time to be surprised. There is still some time to ask for help. There is still some time to start again. There is still some time for love to find you. It’s not too late. You’re not alone. It’s okay - whatever you need and however long it takes - it’s okay. It’s okay. If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here. If you feel too much, don’t go. There is still some time.
Well said, and thank you for this. 💕
very beautifully said my friend. i‘m sure this will help a lot of people❤️
Tried calling once. They answered then hung up. Didn't even say a word. Just about sums up everything that needs to be said on that front.
@@ImperialGuardsman2danm, thats alot of words, shame they are all hollow. Like theres a bunch of things saying dont let the world get you down, and to find hope in yourself. But for people like me, the hope in me, is the twisted wish that someone else will paint a sidewalk with me. And the world outside me dosnt get me down, its empty, its just mirrors reflecting all the self inflicted emptieness back at me.
Sorry that this came out so negative, i dont mean to say anything negative about you. Just that this one comment dosnt exactly understand the target, i mean how could it.
Not all wounds are visible. Not all trauma can be seen. Life is hard sometimes my dudes. Remember ACE: ask, care and escort. If your battle buddy is having a hard time, be there for em.
Been dealing with this for the last 5 years ,and i think the hardest thing about it is having to fake that you're happy
yea true honsetlly, i fell like that most of the times yknow..? LIKE I DONT KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME-
The pain of being left behind not once but twice is indescribable. You may think people are better off without you but that's so far from the truth. You are important. Each and every one of you is important.
Everytime I listen to something like this I get this feeling in my gut like it’s caving in and empty
I don’t know why I keep listening to this stuff when it doesn’t make me feel any better
I’m sorry 😔 my dms on discord are open if you need a friend
@@arestingplace I am doing ok. No bad thoughts or anything but just the guy feeling and loneliness. It could be nice to talk to you though:)
@@Light_beam-mh7wn I’d love to talk to you if you wanted, doesn’t have to be about anything serious 💕
I honestly love audios where the listener is a kid and the audio is an adult and it has something to do with a sad topic.
As someone who's been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts throughout their life... this is eerily similar to a weird complex I have, so I guess other people might have it too? Mainly, when I'm often suffering, I often feel _reluctant_ to open up about it to certain people, such as my parents or family. On the flipside, there are also people I would feel _more willing_ to talk with, such as a close friend. I don't really know why I go through this, maybe it has something to do with knowing your family members more and thinking that they don't have the ability to give you what you need. All I know is that when I'm in an especially tight corner, I get the most comfort not from my family, but from a _friend_ who willingly goes out of their way to help me.
This
Actually comforted me in these dark times
I’m glad 💕 stay strong
Idk why these thoughts have come back, but I’m grateful that I saw this video…
Sometimes I question my decision to stay.. not a lot, but sometimes…
I understand. Im glad you’re here 💕 my discord dms are open if you need a friend
If only I really had someone who cared this much
My discord dms are always open :)
@@arestingplace I don’t have discord, but thanks anyway
This helps a bit. Thanks. Probably won’t stop me from almost crying but it helps.
🫂
Apart from having a hit and a bodyguard this is super relatable also i was listening to death bed in the background and this hit soo hard
Sorry for being late, but Ty for the audio it helped a bit
No worries, and thank you Mochi! 💕
Wonderful audio I hope everyone is doing well today 😺
Fine ig
❤
>finding another voice actress I'm getting addicted to
Aww ☺️
Ma’am, your voice is so lovely, bravo you did a fantastic job!
Thank you sm!!
*gets a hit on me*
Oh thank god! Finally someone is here to free me from this sundered world and I can be finally free!!!
Using asmrs to cope as I muster the mental strength to ask for help😃👍(I literally don’t know how to simply be like “hey, I need help badly”)
You got this!!
You should ask for help, but be careful who. Asking the wrong people could turn you off from the idea
I needed this.
I act like more of a therapist than my actual therapist bc I don't tell anyone my problems
I feel pity for myself that the only thing that comforts me are internet audios. Not a single person. 🐱
My discord dms are open 💕
I mean I don't have a friend like this or anything, but I do have an occasional blunt to help me through the hard times!
Very nice
Thanks it makes me feel better ..
I am so deep in the dark hole that I wouldn't care if anything bad were to happen, I'm getting help for it but I have depression disorder so it keeps comming back
I'm sorry lovely, my discord dm's are open
It's funny because i answer a lot of questions like that.
"Hey be careful" "ahh, i hope i die."
Same 😂
Thank you...I’ve been having...second thoughts...I might reconsider but if I keep getting messages or anything that makes me cry or just have a breakdown...I swear I just...can’t take it anymore...Whenever anyone ask me how am I I say I’m fine...but deep down I’m really not I’m breaking down inside...One time when I vented people called me an attention seeker...But they don’t say that to anyone else venting...I just wanna be comforted to you know! I wanna know what it feels like to be loved again...not fake friendships...fake love...I’m tired of it all being fake...I just want it to be real...just once...I just feel like the 90% of the entire world is against me and won’t be satisfied until I’m dead...
Man... That sounds terrible... Hope you feel better soon... And I'm sorry I can't be of much help...
@@yn5868 It’s okay you talking to me is enough comfort
You aren’t alone on that
@@scribbl6115 Nice to know...
It’s the truth. If you have discord feel free to dm me. I’ll listen/read along
I need a friend like you.
I'm a friend like me! Add me on discord and we'll talk💕
I tired of living:
My honestly reaction:
I actually don't know how to convince to tell he/her don't k11ling yourself.
bodyguard: is there anything i could do to help you right now
me: ya let me get some fo-
bodyguard: that isnt getting food
me: 🤐
We can still get you food baby 😭💕🥺 have a cookie 🍪
@@arestingplace thank u
The crowded part is probably safer than alone as there is less commotion to push the assassin around and make it hard to get to you as well as it's hard to shoot someone in the middle of a crowd and not get arrested.
Edit: It also makes it harder for a sniper to hit you because someone may get in the way. Also i am not a professional or anything. I'm just some kid wit too much free time and an internet connection.
Fun facts of today
Good to know
Thank you you helped me so much I’m getting a lil better
me upon hearing that I can't go to the library: Then let me die. The library is the best thing that I have going for me. LOL Me now: Ignore that LOL. Apparently, my father, despite telling me that I could go to the Library last Thursday, 2 days ago, actually DID need me to stay two days ago, and because he said that he had it, I went to the library, and now I'm losing my apartment.
the craziest is that you sound like one of my irl friend... it actualy made me tear up...
-if there's anything I can do to relieve some of that pain, please let me know
-take the bounty...
Never. You’re more than a client. You’re my friend.
@@arestingplace Exactly. In such circumstances I'd rather have my peace from the hands of a friend than from botched attempt of some random hitman, feeding on other people's hatred.
@@arestingplace BTW - I had a talk with my father about that day off You wanted and he accepted. We agreed that prolonged exposure to stress and constant focus might have adverse effects on Your well-being. Don't worry, I promise I'll still be here when You return. Don't want to be a disappointment, not to You.
I left my wireless earpiece to charge for over 10 hours, only to find that it wasn't plugged in ....
And it 3 am here now
And after 30 mins, it's at 60% :D
Noooooooo 😭
I’m very fucking wanted, nr 1 on the hit list
I really want to give up on life
But I can't get myself to do it...
Hang in there 💕
Plz dont gives up
I remember the first and the last time I tried to take my life, dumbest decisions of my life. I was 12 and put a gun in my mouth, pulled the trigger and the fucking thing jammed. Last time I tried, I was 15, jumped in front of a car going 45+ mph on a main road and it swerved and missed me. 2 of 9 different attempts, all of which failed. Please, if you’re having these thoughts, if you’re hurting yourself or you genuinely just don’t wanna be alive anymore, talk to someone. It doesn’t have to be a friend, family member, or even a professional. I remember late 2020 around Christmas, I was struggling really bad with mental health and some random kid messaged me online asking if I wanted to be friends, I said yea and asked if I could vent, he said yes and I did. 2 hours of venting and crying later, me and that kid were best friends and we had each others backs. A random stranger will be willing to listen and be there for you. Shit, I’ll listen to you and be there for you. Just please do not resort to taking your own life, you’re a beautiful soul and you deserve to live. I’ve come a long way, 5 years ago, at the age of 12, I didn’t want to be alive anymore. Now, at the age of 17, I love life and everything about it, even if it’s bad and causes me an inconvenience or fucks my day up. I love you all, stay safe and be blessed🫶🏻
I’m so glad you’re doing better ☺️💕
@@arestingplace Thank you, I’m glad as well. If it weren’t for certain people in my life, I wouldn’t have been able to grow and know my self worth. My girlfriend, my little sisters, my mom, and my old math teacher. They’re all very important people, and I’m grateful that they’re part of my life. I’m sorry for rambling, but what I’m trying to say is we all have our person/people. Thank you for making content like this and for being you Miss, have a wonderful day/night!
Thank you ❤️
Long spoon geting therapy for depression it is working and I recommend it fof anyone who is going through the same
I'm glad long spoon is getting help, I wish long spoon all the best 💕
Could you explain how it makes you feel better? I tried it, and it just felt like nothing.
@justacanofbeans8217 it doesn't work for everyone trust me you just need to find what's right for me talking and not holding it in has helped but got me in trouble at the same time so just try different things till you find whats right I wish you all the best
@@long_spoon danm, guess im dead.
@@justacanofbeans8217 don't say that just keep trying and you will get there I know you can do it
Never go out in a sniper ridden city unsupervised by a bodyguard or by a guardian
I'm not sure how I feel knowing that even UA-cam is getting suspicious of me now 😭
Immediately clicked
Be strong
You as well
Thanks
Death is the only exit
Not necessarily
Ok I know this is supposed to be a more serious audio but the part where you said “did you say something no? Ok then resume lecture “got me I though that was pretty funny 😂 but in all seriousness I hope everyone is doing well 😊
Thank you! 😂
@@arestingplace your welcome 😂 I can’t wait to see the next one 😊
yes
Numerous attempts to end my life.. yet I'm still here.. I guess I'm a loser.. whenever I try to be happy, something happens to ruin it.. I'm tired of it...
*hugs* the universe must need you alive. You’re a very special person, please try to hold on. Things get better eventually, trust me, even if you can’t see it now
Make a part 2
I think this one is a stand alone but Ill see about videos like it
Funny I find these about 8 years after my lowest of low in life
Never was suicidal but I didn't have the will to live what so ever for longer than I should've, think my anger towards the thought of life beating me is why I'm still around.
Still have anger problems but I have too many people who care ab me to dip out. Still have the thoughts of what would happen if I did just crash my motorcycle going a 120, it's like a fucking curse hovering over me that comes and goes. But man, if you got this shit going on in your head just blast music have wind chimes and get ur favorite McDonald's or snack whatever the fuck and enjoy sitting on a rock or some shit. If you picture life without you and you have a slight slimmer of sorrow for anybody you care for who'd miss you, you're wanted man, stay here for em.
Also if youre reading this whoever you are and have heard of something called "agitated depression" and know what it is and have it, don't let life beat you, it's a cunt so beat it's ass for yourself and whoever loves ya.
I'm so sorry you've had to struggle but I"m proud of you for being strong 💕
@@arestingplace more of a too pissed to die haha. Thanks for the kind words ❤️
@@blitzkrieg634 ok but love that 💕 live out of spite. I wish you the best
this is nice. :)
Thank you 💕☺️
The only one I trust to tell this these days is the blade
Dam, my parents found this. How do I explain
You could say you need help?
Soldier down
Well I don't have friends,,,, I offed my self many times didn't die,,, until I gave up,,, and now I'm emotionless 🤣🤣🤣😂😂😂
My discord dms are always open 💕
I was trying to finish this but I just couldn’t I had a talk with my band teach about how my life was been going and what happened and it hurts me so much I watch these to help me but I just couldn’t finish but I loved the 7:04 mins I watched
Hugs 🫂 you doing ok?
@@arestingplace I wish I could say yes but I can’t I’m not ok
@@Axel-km6mp my discord dms are open 💕
I liked the audio-
(Vent in general): Although one minor thing I hate in all these audios is the mention of therapist, doctors, etc. Tbh I’m dealing with wanting to die but the idea of therapy makes me wish for my death sooner. I don’t want some slave to the government getting their noses in my problems.
See fun fact I wish to die..out of hatred. I want people to cry about it when they find out it’s all their fault. And I know what people might be thinking, “how cruel”, “mental”, “you need help”. But the truth is no one understands me and they won’t ever.
My mind is different from yours for some odd reason which I hate but whatever. Because you all depend on authority figures or people you love. I don’t understand that way of thinking, or how people can be so blind.
Everyone’s emotions confuse me. The way they act, dress, pretend. It’s all weird. I’ve been able to see through everything since I was really young and it isn’t fun.
My mind doesn’t have happy dreams, just night terrors every night. I might shut down, unable to speak but internally I can hear, speak, and mock you all for your insane or weird behavior. I have been told to be careful about trying to daydream and fantasize everyday cause that line between reality might disappear but it sucks cause my mind reminds me constantly that my life sucks so no need to worry.
People piss me off with their pity and emotions or what not. Like if I said “I wish to die” you all over react with some sappy nonsense like “someone loves you”, “don’t throw your life away”, “it will get better”.
Well do I have news for you Btw, I know I’m loved, and I know all about your idea of throwing a life away but yet I don’t care. I hope the people that love me cry for what they did. And another thing my life won’t ever get better, I’m a jinx after all. No matter how many times I try I’m stuck in a loop. Bad, then hope, possible good, then disaster after. I’m tired of this life. It had been going on for years. I’m ready to move on from trying.
And I might have more vent but I’m done for now. Anyways I just wanted to vent so nothing wrong with your audio. It’s just a vent made by me. And also for peoples info, I’m only 14-17 so yes I’m a minor. And yes this is how I feel.
I'm glad you feel safe enough to vent here 💕 If you want my discord dms are open. I'm so sorry you're struggling rn but you're doing amazing. Here's a cookie 🍪
@@arestingplace Iguess although idk about the discord dms. I mean people often call me mental for my problems and or usually don’t care so. Are you sure?
@@_killingkenzie_2832 I’m sure
Danm bruv, where did you get the idea that you mean that much? Like how do you justify hating so many people and trying to hurt them. Where do you get the confidence to think you would be mourned for long? Killing yourself because you think itll hurt someone is the most childish thing ive ever heard. Im not gonna tell you to just wait till it gets better, but please dont try to make other people feel worse because you feel bad. You seem like a smart kid, you know that vengeance is utterly useless, and you wont even be able to enjoy it since you would be dead. There are few things worthy of hate, those that love you are not worth the effort of hating. What im saying is, be sad and all but that dosnt excuse being a self centered brat, and killing yourself out of spite is only cool when done in malicious compliance.
How tf did she find that?
Find what?
@@arestingplace that I wanna die bro like ???
Me when the video is blocked by the number to the crisis lifeline
🙂
That's always fun ✨ Or the "this video may contain blah blah topics, are you sure you wish to continue?" Anyway have a cookie 🍪
Being stuck living with your transphobic parents and not being able to get a job, because you have a panic attack so bad that it seems like a heart attack, is horrible. I can't keep living like this. I'm trying to do my best to stay happy, but unless I'm suddenly allowed to wear the clothes I want, and start taking estrogen, that'll never happen. I can't even find love or take weed to numb the pain. I just want to be held and told that everything's gonna be okay, but that'll never happen because the only people who care about me are online and nowhere near me. I can't take weed, mainly because I'm not 21, but if I did somehow get weed, I'd be instantly kicked out if my parents found out. I'm stuck in a loop of pain and I just want my Prince Charming to fix the mess that people call "life" and to just live happily ever after. But that'll never happen, because I'm a parasite that latches on to anyone who even gives me a sliver of attention or sense of belonging. Then, I just drive them away and go back to wanting to off myself.
I’m so sorry lovely. My discord dms are open if you want to talk 💕
The voices are getting louder
Sorry wrong vid lol but i did love this
Wait why would i even i have a bodyguard
Ah well in my mind it''s bc your family is rich and famous perhaps mafia but it's up to you my friend!
whats if i have no one to talk it about
My discord dms are open 💕
I feel sad with the fact you at the beginning you say "reach out to someone you trust" I trust my school friends and online friends they don't really talk with me about it when I told them idk why but I don't trust my family
I dont want to exist
My discord dm's are always open :)
Me: listening to the in front or my family like :^
Sadly there ain't anyone irl to care
My discord dms are always open 💕
@@arestingplace Thank you but, i really wish not to bother anyone without need... It's still very kind of you.
It's not bother, I love making new friends. No pressure tho, always here if you need me :) @@advanced2780
well.. ig we could chat a bit, maybe it works out maybe it doesn't@@arestingplace
Not sure hugs are in the job description of a bodyguard.
Bold of you to assume I didn’t add them to the description
@@arestingplace Well I did say not sure. Do you get extra hug pay? Lol
How else can she guard your body? Hugging you cloaks your body in their own.
Im so fucking Depressed, just thank you or something might have happened
My discord dms are open if you need a friend :)