As a strong Catholic all my life , I know baby Noah is ok and he will see you when the time is right. I can’t tell u how sad I am. He was just amazing 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I've never lost a child but I've also never been able to conceive. I don't understand why but I feel the same way these girls do. I'm forever waiting for a miracle to happen. I'm broken and empty and trying to find purpose and no one understands or cares. Everyone just keeps living their happy lives while I'm just stuck.
My daughter died one week before I went into labor. Full term beautiful Heidi. Thirty-three years ago she was born and I still grieve. Accepting her loss took years. The questions for God were we’re not answered. My faith in Jesus Christ remains. Life is never the same. We as parents and mommas are forever changed. Pain does ease over the years but never gone. I will see my Heidi again and have eternity to spend together. It’s the hardest loss to lose a child. My deepest sympathies
Catholic here and Maci, you are so on the money. Thank you for sharing how bereaved parents need to be treated, and how grief needs to be spoken about. Honesty from people like you is why I believe I've seen so much progress from people of faith and the Priests in my life.
Thank you for being vulnerable. My loved one also got cancer and I was also hurt by what some church member did during that time so it’s relatable. I had so many wrestling with God and I think it’s ok to be angry and question him about what had happened in our real life, He can take that. I don’t know what to say but I pray God to give you peace and comfort, like what He has given me. Praying for you 🤍
Hi ❤ we watched this video with my husband now a few months after giving birth to a severly disabled child. Our first child is healthy (so far...) but this second is blind, deaf and has many diagnoses and it was totally unexpected. We were told we're expecting a girl and after the c-section they couldn't tell us even the gender! (He has malformed genitals, it was swallen so he seemed like a girl). And we both strongly believe in God and go to church every sunday. After this, I'm angry, depressed, jealous, i'm devastated. We' re in another situation, but I can tell you how angry I am when I see this poor child and I ask why God let him just suffer! ...I wish you both to find peace some day. I wish I could hug you. Bad things happen and it hurts and it's not fair! I just think God wants personally me to love this kid, give him love and comfort and one day i wish he will peacefully pass away, straight to heaven 🩵🩵🩵. I believe after death we will finally find out WHY! Thank you for creating this channel ❤ i think of you often.
I’ve loved all your videos and this one was particularly vulnerable and impacting. I could write novels about how my faith changed from Juno’s sickness and death. Coming from an agnostic upbringing and a background in paganism/Buddhism….it was Christ who met me in the depths of my suffering by showing me His own suffering and introducing me to salvation in the Catholic Church. I plan on converting next year. There’s no where I feel closer to Juno than before the altar celebrating the sacrifice of mass. I rejoice that my baby is a celebrated saint in Heaven. Yet my relationship with God is so complicated too, and I have so much anger towards Him. I’m so bitter that my baby didn’t receive the miracle I felt he was promised. Christ was so present initially after Juno’s death. And now it is radio silence. Right now I feel like I’m at that same standstill with God that Maci describes, waiting for Him to make the first move. Faith has been such a wild journey on top of grief and PAL. Love you ladies and your babies. Thanks for sharing ❤
One of the best things is when you can use those words against them when their turn comes around. The point being, the platitudes of the faithful are only from a position of privilege up until tragedy strikes them
I didn’t lose my baby, but I almost did. I had a chronic abruption that started at 13weeks so I prepared myself. It almost broke my husband because I told him I was preparing to have a baby while also planning his funeral. I didn’t know what would happen, but I knew I didn’t want it to impact my relationship with God. So many people looked at me weird and tried to dismiss my feelings, but I stood on what I believed which was God’s will is perfect and if he chooses to keep my baby then I want to prepare myself for that hurt and pain. I love to the channel that y’all have started and the transparency💕
On October 4th, 1995, my beautiful twin babies were born at 23 weeks, 5 days. It’s all a blur but at times clear as day. I was angry with God and with the loss of my twins, my faith passed away. I couldn’t find one good reason for my babies to die, not one. They were perfect if not for prematurity. Since then, I no longer pray or attend any religious gatherings. The words that are applied to loss are useless. If, there is an afterlife and we reunite, how beautiful it would be. I don’t believe anyone holds the key to its truth. I am validated by the words of these women. Severe CHURCH HURT is real! I get it.❤
Today is my anniversary of finding out. 14 Years ago today 12/7. I got one of the worst news a mother can get. "We are sorry your baby didn't make it." Went in for a normal pre-natal check up having felt her move at about 630 am to being told at 8:30am she had passed.
Thank you for sharing your stories! I follow Jesus, but I still don't really understand why God allows people to go through such profound loss. And I think that's okay. It is something I have had to wrestle with a lot on my journey to becoming a nurse, and that is just from seeing other people's suffering. I can't imagine how much more difficult it is for the parents. Both of your responses seem completely understandable, and anyone criticizing you needs to step back and look at where they are standing. Do they know how you feel? Do they know your hearts? No. The best thing to do is just be there to listen. Christian platitudes don't help.
I understand how it feels when you lose your child, that’s what happened to my cousin who died when she was a baby, I never met her, she would be 19 years old now
I love the truthfulness, rawness, and realness of this video. I feel like people just don't know what to say. No excuses but they probably meant well. Don't you think? I'm just happy you made this video to educate the rest of us. I'm so sorry to both of you.
Definitely! Most people mean well, but it’s definitely tiring to hear things that aren’t actually comforting so often, and have to just take it each time. Hopefully people will learn from watching these videos!
I’ve had multiple miscarriages and now I’m pregnant again. The fear that god brings me is strong. I’m afraid that if I don’t believe I will miscarry again. Then in the past I’ve lost faith. I often compare myself to others and say it’s not fair. I feel even if/when I have my baby I’ll be so worried all the time more than the “normal” parents. I know it doesn’t compare but it’s still hard.
A friend of mine told me about the theory of our soul before birth, choosing to come to earth with a certain "training" in mind. Like getting your bachelor's, master's or PhD. So you pick how hard and what "classes" your soul will complete to get the knowledge. You and the closest people to you : make a contract. Your mom , dad , your kids and even your partner. (S) That is why you feel instant connections with people and forever bonded. Hugs to you all.
Ever since my daughter was born I prayed to god to protect my daughter from bad things of this world and when she passed away I was so hurt and angry at god
As a devout Catholic I agree, I have no answers over this loss. I honestly can’t believe it 😭😭
As a strong Catholic all my life , I know baby Noah is ok and he will see you when the time is right. I can’t tell u how sad I am. He was just amazing 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
I've never lost a child but I've also never been able to conceive. I don't understand why but I feel the same way these girls do. I'm forever waiting for a miracle to happen. I'm broken and empty and trying to find purpose and no one understands or cares. Everyone just keeps living their happy lives while I'm just stuck.
My daughter died one week before I went into labor. Full term beautiful Heidi. Thirty-three years ago she was born and I still grieve. Accepting her loss took years. The questions for God were we’re not answered. My faith in Jesus Christ remains. Life is never the same. We as parents and mommas are forever changed. Pain does ease over the years but never gone. I will see my Heidi again and have eternity to spend together. It’s the hardest loss to lose a child. My deepest sympathies
Catholic here and Maci, you are so on the money. Thank you for sharing how bereaved parents need to be treated, and how grief needs to be spoken about. Honesty from people like you is why I believe I've seen so much progress from people of faith and the Priests in my life.
I’ve seen a lot of progress too! I hope these conversations will help more people see the importance of loving people first!
Thank you for being vulnerable. My loved one also got cancer and I was also hurt by what some church member did during that time so it’s relatable. I had so many wrestling with God and I think it’s ok to be angry and question him about what had happened in our real life, He can take that. I don’t know what to say but I pray God to give you peace and comfort, like what He has given me. Praying for you 🤍
Hi ❤ we watched this video with my husband now a few months after giving birth to a severly disabled child. Our first child is healthy (so far...) but this second is blind, deaf and has many diagnoses and it was totally unexpected. We were told we're expecting a girl and after the c-section they couldn't tell us even the gender! (He has malformed genitals, it was swallen so he seemed like a girl). And we both strongly believe in God and go to church every sunday. After this, I'm angry, depressed, jealous, i'm devastated. We' re in another situation, but I can tell you how angry I am when I see this poor child and I ask why God let him just suffer! ...I wish you both to find peace some day. I wish I could hug you. Bad things happen and it hurts and it's not fair! I just think God wants personally me to love this kid, give him love and comfort and one day i wish he will peacefully pass away, straight to heaven 🩵🩵🩵. I believe after death we will finally find out WHY!
Thank you for creating this channel ❤ i think of you often.
I’ve loved all your videos and this one was particularly vulnerable and impacting. I could write novels about how my faith changed from Juno’s sickness and death. Coming from an agnostic upbringing and a background in paganism/Buddhism….it was Christ who met me in the depths of my suffering by showing me His own suffering and introducing me to salvation in the Catholic Church. I plan on converting next year. There’s no where I feel closer to Juno than before the altar celebrating the sacrifice of mass. I rejoice that my baby is a celebrated saint in Heaven. Yet my relationship with God is so complicated too, and I have so much anger towards Him. I’m so bitter that my baby didn’t receive the miracle I felt he was promised. Christ was so present initially after Juno’s death. And now it is radio silence. Right now I feel like I’m at that same standstill with God that Maci describes, waiting for Him to make the first move. Faith has been such a wild journey on top of grief and PAL. Love you ladies and your babies. Thanks for sharing ❤
One of the best things is when you can use those words against them when their turn comes around. The point being, the platitudes of the faithful are only from a position of privilege up until tragedy strikes them
I didn’t lose my baby, but I almost did. I had a chronic abruption that started at 13weeks so I prepared myself. It almost broke my husband because I told him I was preparing to have a baby while also planning his funeral. I didn’t know what would happen, but I knew I didn’t want it to impact my relationship with God. So many people looked at me weird and tried to dismiss my feelings, but I stood on what I believed which was God’s will is perfect and if he chooses to keep my baby then I want to prepare myself for that hurt and pain. I love to the channel that y’all have started and the transparency💕
I would love to share my story of my son’s lost. I’m using my faith to keep me moving forward.
On October 4th, 1995, my beautiful twin babies were born at 23 weeks, 5 days. It’s all a blur but at times clear as day. I was angry with God and with the loss of my twins, my faith passed away. I couldn’t find one good reason for my babies to die, not one. They were perfect if not for prematurity. Since then, I no longer pray or attend any religious gatherings. The words that are applied to loss are useless. If, there is an afterlife and we reunite, how beautiful it would be. I don’t believe anyone holds the key to its truth. I am validated by the words of these women. Severe CHURCH HURT is real! I get it.❤
Today is my anniversary of finding out. 14 Years ago today 12/7. I got one of the worst news a mother can get. "We are sorry your baby didn't make it." Went in for a normal pre-natal check up having felt her move at about 630 am to being told at 8:30am she had passed.
Thank you for sharing your stories! I follow Jesus, but I still don't really understand why God allows people to go through such profound loss. And I think that's okay. It is something I have had to wrestle with a lot on my journey to becoming a nurse, and that is just from seeing other people's suffering. I can't imagine how much more difficult it is for the parents. Both of your responses seem completely understandable, and anyone criticizing you needs to step back and look at where they are standing. Do they know how you feel? Do they know your hearts? No. The best thing to do is just be there to listen. Christian platitudes don't help.
Thank you for sharing your stories!❤
I understand how it feels when you lose your child, that’s what happened to my cousin who died when she was a baby, I never met her, she would be 19 years old now
I love the truthfulness, rawness, and realness of this video. I feel like people just don't know what to say. No excuses but they probably meant well. Don't you think? I'm just happy you made this video to educate the rest of us. I'm so sorry to both of you.
Definitely! Most people mean well, but it’s definitely tiring to hear things that aren’t actually comforting so often, and have to just take it each time. Hopefully people will learn from watching these videos!
I’ve had multiple miscarriages and now I’m pregnant again. The fear that god brings me is strong. I’m afraid that if I don’t believe I will miscarry again. Then in the past I’ve lost faith. I often compare myself to others and say it’s not fair. I feel even if/when I have my baby I’ll be so worried all the time more than the “normal” parents. I know it doesn’t compare but it’s still hard.
A friend of mine told me about the theory of our soul before birth, choosing to come to earth with a certain "training" in mind. Like getting your bachelor's, master's or PhD. So you pick how hard and what "classes" your soul will complete to get the knowledge. You and the closest people to you : make a contract. Your mom , dad , your kids and even your partner. (S) That is why you feel instant connections with people and forever bonded. Hugs to you all.
Ever since my daughter was born I prayed to god to protect my daughter from bad things of this world and when she passed away I was so hurt and angry at god
I’m so sorry ❤
My son passed away at 5 months old in march. I still don’t know what to do with myself
Yes yes yes yes yes thank you for this