I hate to look at this a know that it’s so true.. Idek if I trust my cousin anymore. We have the strongest bond and Idek if she’s just ignoring me or if she’s rlly just not realizing I’ve been calling and texting over and over..
nobody will love you. Nobody finds you pretty. Nobody will wipe your tears. Nobody will help you feel better. Nobody will help you overcome addiction. Nobody will help you get over your pain. Nobody will call you beautiful. Nobody will call you daily to make sure you’re okay. Nobody will every think of you. Nobody would be devastated with your sorrow. Nobody will listen to your pain. Hello, my name is Nobody. I will forever love you, because i love like a Dog. No matter how harsh of a person you may be- no matter how angry or sad you get. I will come back, and try to fix it. I Love You.
"Youre not sad! You're normal! Everyone feels that way" little does my mom know how much i want her words to be true. I dont want to be sad anymore. Im 13.. how can my life be so miserable when im so young!? I just wanna be like everyone else. But thats impossible, trust me. I have tried..
I understand you completely. Its normal to feel how you're feeling. I dont know what you're going thru but its gonna get better trust me. I know you're trying your best and I'm proud of you I really am. Dont give up yet tho. its all gonna be ok you js gotta wait. it might take a long time but trust me it will get better. No matter what happens tho just know that you are not alone nd that you are loved so much. You can do it I believe in you kiddo. Js keep smiling nd dont let anything stop you or get in your way. I know you got this in the bag. js keep your head up nd believe in yourself. you might fall sometimes but dont let it get to you. I know you can do it I know u can. Take care ily.
at least u have a mom,I'm 12 and I all ready want to die,I go to school get bullied and go home feeling terrible,my sister just says to me"ur a boy u can't cry".I get bullied by my family since I was 6,nobody cares about my feelings.
Hey buddy, I am really sorry for you Listen, I’m 22 yo and I wanted to tell you your feelings are valid and we understand you here. There is no age to experience suffering unfortunately. I wish I could tell you it’s a phase it’ll pass eventually but sometimes the pain stay. What you gotta do is try to live with it to accept it and to keep trying no matter what. And when I say trying I don’t mean good grades and that shits. Even just waking up every morning is a victory that prove you are still trying. You can be proud of yourself. Look at you. You are still breathing you are 13 and you’re dealing with this and still stay here while other way more older than you have given up. You can be proud of you I am proud of you. And you probably know all the cliché stuff like you got peoples that loves you and you are not alone but the truth is you don’t realize how you’re not alone right away. But with time and with the good peoples you can truly feels thoses words as true. My advice for you is to seek for help. Try slow at your own pace everyone heal at their own rythme. And I got to warn you sometimes after you had healed. The pain can go back. You can go through another bad month or even year. But that don’t mean you « screwed up » or you are « not good enough » it happens. Healing is healing not miracles. It will still have some moments where you will feel at your lowest. But accepting them and validate yourself and accept and move yourself will make it more easier to bear it. I don’t know how your life is it’s probably not so great but I can promise you, if you want it you can make it better. Just a step at the time. Love yourself buddy okay, give yourself time and love and give yourself chances and allow yourself mistakes. Cause you’re only 13. Don’t be hard on yourself. Surround yourself with the good peoples. Online or IRL try to comprehend your emotions, try to understand what makes you so sad it’ll be hard but eventually the problem will be clear and to make sure you understand it by the problem I never mean you. Cause you will never be the problem. It is not your fault. It’s not a phase, you are not being dramatic or seeking for attention you are not weak or a crybaby you are not useless or fat or ugly. None of this is true. I want you to go in the mirror and tell yourself things you like about you. Try to see you as the real you. My message probably is messy but I really wanted you to know all of that. I’ve been through this. I harmed myself when I was your age and thought I would never make it to my 18 birthday but guess what, I’m 22 now. Life still hurt, I still feel down small and lonely sometimes but other times I can go for a walk, look at the tree and feel in peace and happy that I stayed that long cause I would have missed how beautiful the world is how pretty trees are how gracious the colours of the sky are when it changes. Someday you’ll be grown up and you’ll look back at the time you were 13 and felt down and miserable. And you will feel proud of you cause you made it! Make yourself a promise, promise yourself to think of that day when you’ll be grown up and promise yourself that you’ll be proud of you cause you have every reason to be proud ! I will come back to this comment section. And I’m here for you if you need to talk or vent, no matter what, all of your pain all of your feelings are valid, and you are very very strong for keep trying after all this time suffering ! Stay safe buddy, we’re here if you need yo talk okay? Drink water put on your favorite music lay in you bed and relax, try to draw or write, play video games or bake do something where you feel at peace, something that brings you joy! You can do it dear! You got it we’re all behind you you can do it !
My parents always say 'you can tell us about your problems'. When I tell them about my problems, they say, 'You're a teenager, everyone feels like you.' I'm sorry when I can't tell them about a problem later but it's apocalypse at home. About 2 years ago, my friend fell from the roof and died... Sometimes I want to say to my parents, 'Look how miserable her family is and how guys want to feel like this.' but if I say, a fist comes from the right and a slap from the left. if you have read thanks.
I was 6 standing in the recess yard It was snowing The wind was cold My friends cheering My head was up looking at the sky As I asked God to give me more snowflakes Let me run alone in snow again Feeling my body burn because of frostbites Let me feel alive again.
@@somebodywho_see7940 thanks ! yes, it’s based on memories of primary school I had. In France we don’t have much snow anymore, I live in Paris and it haven’t snowed like in my childhood for years. I miss it
"I saw them standing right there, kinda thought they might care" pov: me sobbing loudly and having a mental breakdown, me knowing for a fact my parents hear me and aren't doing anything-
@@ELINADRISKELL dude that sucks. im so incredibly sorry that you're have to deal with that, and i hope that at some point in the future (no matter how far or close into the future) you start feeling better
You know, I used to read these comments that say "oh dont worry i love you, you will get better". You know those types of comments, i used to read them thinking "idc" and "this doesnt even help me or do anything for me" but now i read them in tears because i just really needed to hear that. all I want to do sometimes is sream as loud as I can and just tell somebody my problems and just be able to even put whats wrong with me into even just words but i cant do that
Okay, just incase anybody needed to hear this... i love your smile i love your laugh i love your personality i love your hair (or lack thereof) i love you even if you have insecurities i love your accomplishments i love you even if you have failures i love your eyes i love your beauty i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate) i love the way you dance i love you on your happy days i love you even on sad days i love you on the days you feel lonely i love you on the days you feel helpless i love you on the days you feel like no one cares i love you on the days you feel forgotten i love you on the days you feel unmotivated i love you on the days you feel loved i love you on the days you feel sick i love you on the days you feel motivated i love you on the days you feel depressed i love you on the days you feel stressed i love you on the days you feel crazy i love you on the days you feel hopeful i love you on the days you feel cuddly i love you on the days you feel clingy i love you on the days you feel amazing i love you on the days you feel beautiful i love you on the days you feel like a failure i love you on the days you feel angry i love you on the days you feel aggressive i love you on the days you feel horrible i love you on the days you feel safe i love you on the days you feel unsafe i love you on the days you feel vulnerable i love you on the days you feel weird i love you on the days you feel ok i love you when you're healthy i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music) i love your taste in music i love your taste in movies i love your taste in tv shows i love the way you act i love you even if you cry i love you when you're kind i love you even if you you're mean i love you even if you're alone i love you even if you can't feel i love you even if you feel too much i love you even if you can't take life anymore i love you even if you feel like it's too much i love you when you're asleep i love you even if you have nightmares i love you when you have dreams i love how you believe i love you when you believe in yourself i love you even if you don't believe in yourself i love you even if you hate yourself i love you when you love yourself i love the way you think i love you even if you have problems i love your solutions i love how you support i love you even if you're in pain i love you even if you're hurt i love your promises i love your secrets i love your attitude i love you sass i love your creativity i love your voice (or lack thereof) i love you hand gestures i love your stories i love you even if you have wounds i love you even if you have scars i love your face i love your past i love your future i love your present i love your outfits i love your style i love your art i love your honesty i love you even if you lie i love you even if you're tired i love you when you're energetic i love how you look i love how you cook i love you when you're adventurous i love you even if you're scared i love your imperfections i love your perfections i love you even if you worry i love you when you talk (or communicate) i love your opinions i love you even if you have headache i love you even if you have a stomach ache i love you when you help others i love you when you're mature i love you even if you're immature i love you in the hard times i love you in the easy times i love you even if life isn't bright i love you when you're responsible i love you even if you're irresponsible i love you even if you fight i love you in your darkest moments i love you in your brightest moments i love your heart i love you in the day i love you in the night i love you at midnight i love you at 3 am i love you at all times i love you at your best i love even if your worst i love the little things you do i love all of you i love you when you're you i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
Didn't know I need this currently for in to a new relationship and my past is getting in the way and I'm currently sitting in uni sobbing to this because I didn't know I needed this message thank you ❤
thank but i broke someones heart and i liked him, i was just not ready and he told me awful things (this was like 12 min ago) can pls somebody help me? im now so broken, even more than in the past :(
I’m proud of you for waking up. I’m proud of you for brushing your hair. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for breathing. I’m proud of you for making your bed. I’m proud of you for eating. I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat. I’m proud of you for drinking water. I’m proud of you for being here. I’m proud of you for being you. I’m proud of you for smiling. I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for blinking. I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed. I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth. I’m proud of you for standing up. I’m proud of you for sitting down. I’m proud of you for defending yourself. I’m proud of you for believing in yourself. I’m proud of you for simply trying. I’m proud of you for being alive. IM PROUD OF YOU.
I was crying, screaming in my pillow, until I got a notification, and this was in my recommendation. And when I looked at the thumbnail it said "Don't Cry."...
honestly I dont ever feel like going to school. my best friend just bosses me about, as if she doesnt even care, she thinks everything is about her. I cant even play with other friends anymore and she just uses "if you dont I wont be your friend anymore" as her excuses. i never get any alone time whenever im upset, and she always is lying, she even made me cry by talking about my old friends that hated me and how she was them.
I know how this feels because I’m in the same situation with one of my friends. The best advice that I can give to you is try not responding or being a bit more distant. This can be hard because getting out of a friendship like this is difficult (I don’t know if this applys to you but I’m just saying for me it is). Another thing you can do is just be as vague as possible or not respond at all when she asks you questions or just wants to talk. Some of this advice may seem stupid but if you can try this it might help. I think we can both agree that we need better friends and that I hope one day soon you’ll find someone who clicks with you. I hope everything goes well love :) ♥♥♥♥♥
Hey I know how you feel because I'm in the same situation you could say considering she's already left me but I can still see her. Leave her she doesn't deserve you! Tell her how you feel if you hadn't already. She's probably going to get mad but ignore that. You can cry, let your emotions come out. It's ok to cry. After she'll surely say she doesn't want to be your friend anymore. If not, tell her yourself. It's alright if you don't say much that's completely fine. What I mean abt saying how you feel I mean that don't say anything sensitive especially if they could use that against you. Just say things she can't use on you. After you've done that do what you love. Eat a snack,watch a move,take a walk,even stay up longer if you want! The only thing I'll say about staying up is still get some rest! I hope your doing better! - a stranger from the Internet that loves you❤
200 reasons to stay alive.. 1.your family 2. your friends 3. the feeling you get when you’ve finished something 4. the feeling you get when you get a compliment 5. the feeling you get when you buy new clothes 6. the feeling you get when you try on new clothes 7. the feeling you get when youre room is tidy 8. the feeling you get when youre laughing hesterically. 9. the feeling you get when you make a new friend 10. the feeling you get when you make someone smile 11. you’d have to watch your family and friends grieve. 12. you’ve never been to that place you always wanted to visit. 13. you’ve never been to disney world. 14. you’ve never been skinny dipping. 15. you’ve never swam in a lake. 16. you’ve never met your idol. 17. you haven’t gotten married. 18. you’ve never decorated your own house. 19. you will never save someone’s life. 20. you haven’t learnt to drive. 21. there is music you haven’t listen too. 22. you have so many more people to meet. 23. everyone who thought you’d do well in life, would have been wrong. 24. the people who said you’d end up no where, would have been right. 25. all the fake people would pretend to like u and post u on their stories. 26. you would have been the best mom or dad. 27. you haven’t lived the ‘my funeral will be packed’ type of life. 28. your friends would suffer. 29. your mum would never be able to walk into your room. 30. you haven’t apologised to people you have hurt. 31. someone loves you. 32. you are not alone. 33. i’m here for you. 34. the clothes you’re buried in might be gross. 35. you haven’t truly loved yourself yet. 36. suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems. 37. you haven’t watched your kids open their christmas presents. 38. you haven’t watched your kids grow older. 39. the pain you feel right now, isn’t forever. 40. there are so many foods you haven’t tried. 41. you’ll never get the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day. 42. finding your person. 43. really soft pillows. 44. eating pizza with your kids and partner. 45. you will never be able to dance in the rain. 46. you will never kiss anyone in the rain 47. there are so many hobbies you haven’t tried. 48. you’ll never have a sleepover with your best friend again. 49. your friends would blame themselves. 50. your mom's smile. 51. your best friend's laugh. 52. your sibling(if y have one) would lose her/his best friend. 53. your cousins that look up to you. 54. hot chocolate on cold days. 55. ice water on hot days. 56. getting a tan. 57. hearing ‘i love you’. 58. not being able to sleep the night before and exciting day. 59. your birthday. 60. you’ve probably never been to a nightclub. 61. long hot showers. 62. long steamy baths. 63. freshly shaved legs. 64. perfectly smooth hair. 65. watching people trip over small objects. 66. you could have a huge impact on someone’s life. 67. you would regret dying. 68. you can’t change your mind once you're gone. 69. you wake up everyday for a reason. 70. stars. 71. you will always be enough. 72. movies that make you feel warm when they’re over. 73. reading powerful quotes. 74. genuine smiles. 75. the crunch of autumn leaves. 76. christmas. 77. christmas eve. 78. decorating the tree. 79. long meaningful hugs. 80. sunsets. 81. ice cream. 82. you will never get your favourite puppy. 83. you are so brave, it would be a waste to let the fire go. 84. rainbows. 85. travelling to new places. 86. funny stories. 87. funny jokes. 88. inside jokes. 89. coffee. 90. your talents would go to waste. 91. the feeling you get when you’re truly happy. 92. all nighters with friends. 93. cuddling. 94. reconnecting with old friends and family. 95. smiling. 96. capturing perfect moments on camera. 97. swimming on a hot day. 98. feeling cozy in blankets. 99. helping other people with the same thing you got help with. 100! becoming successful. 101. cute babies. 102. cute old people. 103. love stories that make you jealous. 104. telling crazy stories. 105. watching lightning. 106. watching rain. 107. star gazing. 108. recovery. 109. melted chocolate. 110. freshly baked cookies. 111. late night adventures. 112. overcoming fears. 113. sunday mornings. 114. friday mornings. 115. you’ll be dead, forever. 116. you will make a difference to people. 117. picnics with friends. 118. waking up late. 119. waking up late and ending up being on time. 120. to prove them wrong. 121. to prove them you can. 122. to prove you're strong. 123. to love and be loved. 124. the ocean. 125. pets. 126. very loud music. 127. days out. 128. finishing a book. 129. conversations that just flow. 130. learning new things. 131. you are important. 132. you are wanted. 133. mistakes. 134. snow. 135. sun. 136. flowers. 137. flowers that look gorgeous but smell gross. 138. new bed sheets. 139. new home decor. 140. roller coasters. 141. theme parks. 142. smiling at strangers. 143. random acts of kindness. 144. the sound of water. 145. visiting a place from your childhood. 146. to look back on all the things you got yourself through on your own. 147. to feel proud. 148. reassurance. 149. cute nicknames. 150. long stares that make you feel loved. 151. meaningful gifts. 152. blowing out candles. 153. meeting online friends in real life. 154. success. 155. to work the job you always wanted. 156. the live the life you dreamt of. 157. babies smiling. 158. sleep. 159. tea. 160. breaking rules. 161. dreams. 162. the last day of school/work. 163. taking pictures. 164. brownies. 165. bubbles. 166. water slides. 167. holidays. 168. to fall asleep on someone. 169. to feel protected. 170. to grow taller. 171. to grow stronger. 172. to grow old. 173. to make memories you’ll cherish. 174. to laugh at old pictures. 175. to be loved by a pet. 176. the first signs of summer. 177. the first signs of autumn. 178. the first signs of winter. 179. the first signs of spring. 180. to binge watch a series. 181. to live independently. 182. to get somewhere in life all by yourself. 183. to not have broken any promises. 184. to fulfill your promises. 185. to breathe. 186. so you can tell your children stories of when you was there age. 187. so say you’re alive. 188. to know you’re stronger than you think. 189. falling in love. 190. you will never be able to snuck out again or for the first time. 191. you’ve never not smashed your phone. 192. staying up all night. 193. you are a kind soul. 194. you have a warm heart. 195. you care for others. 196. the smell of pancakes. 197. when you walk over frosty grass. 198. you haven't truly apologized to all the people you've hurt 199. i love you. 200! to say you made it. anyone reading this, please know you are not alone and I love every single one of you. things are hard right now i know. you’ll get over it I promise. nothing lasts forever.❤
Whoever you are. You just saved my life..im not kidding. I was about to end it here: 9:47 right there. Until i finished reading this. I love you and will always remember this.
@@Lotus-chu thanks for staying. Thank you. The world needs you. Whether or not you think it does, you are needed. Whether you’re needed now, or in the future, you are needed. ❤❤❤
Vent Trigger warning I got in a fight like I often do, but now they bring my mental health into it. They began to yell at me that maybe I should kms and that I’m selfish to even consider it, they tell me I eat like a pig, they call me many heart shattering words. What probably hurt/shocked me most is that these words came from the mother, my creator. The on that was supposed to build me up, protect me, heal. But she never did anything but hurt me. I have no confidence to tell anyone in the real word. It’s all so tiring. I want it all to be over.
hey dude, you're doing amazing still being here after all that, you're so strong and i'm proud whether i am just a teenage girl behind a screen, it's shocking to read this, but to think that anyone js a little less weaker than you could have ended it all already, it shows your strength, you're doing great bud. Imagine your mother's words as crumbs, which means she is doing no damage, i know it's hard but everyone needs YOU here. Keep pushing, We believe in you
Your mom clearly doesn't deserve you, your amazing and you deserve life and happiness, you deserve a smile forever, don't listen to this crap! Your worth so much, soon things will get better....iam sure it will, you could go outside look in the sky or stay in your room with music take deep breaths eat a bite of your favorite snack and start thinking of momments and things that relax you Make happy momments Your beautiful and amazing okay? 💖
I said this to my friend and she slapped me….. “ I could complain on how my mother and father body shame me and love my brothers more, but I don’t go around telling people that ‘my mom hits me’ like you do….. Why lie to their face when your parents spoil you?”
"You can control your depression and anger" AGHHHHHHHH. I'd love to be able to, thanks though for making it worse. I don't know how many people have told me this. And I thought I trusted them.
My brother says to me everytime i cry "stop being dramatic you depressed idiot" he doesn't even realise how much i looked up to him and hoped when i grow i up he would take me away from my mom
I'd love to talk to someone abt the stuff that's troubling me but I don't 'cause I dont want to be a menace so I just isolate from everyone and go listen to playlists like this one and read the comment section. I just find it weirdly comforting.
Why? Why can’t I have what they have? A friend that I’m not awkward around. A friend I feel comfortable with. I close friend. A *best* friend. Why can’t I have that? Why don’t I deserve that? I did everything I could. I am always nice to everyone! So why? Why oh why don’t I deserve that?
You will find them. As long as you hold onto hope you will find them. You know why? Because somewhere in this world there is someone also lonely, feeling socially awkward wishing they could find a best friend. A real friend for all their pains and laught and guess what, they don’t know you yet but you already are on their mind! Someday you two will met and it will feels like you always were together like you always known each others, keep having hope, they also keep hope to meet you one day!
I’m so sorry you felt that way and I know it’s been a year but I truly hope you’ve gotten better, even though you’ve barely lived yet remember that it’s a reason to keep going instead of giving up ❤️
no matter how hard i try, how much i give, how much i do for people all i get in return are the most hurtful words to me the little things and the words that means nothin to some people get to me and makes me day the worst makes me wanna curl into a ball and cry trying to hold my tears back while listening to them say it to me jst wow amazes me
It will be ok:) you are not alone we are all here for you and we will always be but you will have to be strong for everyone you love just know that there are people out there that care about you even when it doesn't feel like it Stay strong superstar✨
Your good enough....you were always good enough And they were always wrong, you are always right, you deserve so much better Your hard work is worth so much, they should be grateful to have you Your beautiful okay? DONT LISTEN TO THEM PLEASE! YOU MATTER TOO! AND YOUR THE BEST PERSON!!! IAM SURE!!, 💖💖💖💖
I like to hug. I hug people to support them and show love. But no one hugged me when I needed it most. When I cry, everyone stays silent and does nothing. My life sucks. family problems, bullying (both teachers and classmates), loneliness, violence, psychological pressure… I wish someone would hug me with love.
Ur describing my life a lot, dam why is everyone I relate to most likely never gonna actually run into me irl? I just wanna know somebody irl that gets me and doesn’t just sit there and never asks how I’m doing over time and just stays quiet and awkward, barely saying they felt bad once or twice and that’s mostly it, I just want it to feel like I’m not talking to a robot or ai, I wanna have a real time connection with somebody, ion even care who, I want someone to express their care bc I feel like I am the one having to express it more or less
For everyone that needed to hear this... I am so goddamn proud of you. Even if I have no idea who you are you have already made my day and so many others by just being here and I know it can be hard sometimes but just trust me it will all get better no matter how long it takes and regardless of your religion, you were born for a reason, so just remember that we all love you. Make sure you eat, sleep, and smile. I am so damn proud of you. Keep going superstar ✨
Literally the second "i cant handle change" came on, i knew this playlist was perfect for me. And i was right. Its absolutely perfect for the state of mind im in right now. Thank you so much.
Once I opened to my mom,not that I wanted to is just that when I look sad or something she wanted me to tell her.most of the time I am not that see through,I can literally cry hours in my room and when I go out you wouldn't even notice. Once I had enough of her asking for me to open up to her so I told her that I might have depression, anxiety and even Dissociative identity disorder which at the end come to be true.all that she said is that I want attention and that is just a phase I will grow out of it.After 4 years (I was 15 then) I started seeing therapist I had told her every thing I had to go to mental hospital for almost 2 years until i've had learned how to deal with D. I. D and after my depression and anxiety is gone. Till this day my mom and other members of family except my only brother blame me for not telling them on time.
Iam so sorry....you deserve SO much better... Your family members are horrible... You are better then them, your wonderful!, I really hope treatment helps you more and soon your family freaking realizes how bad they are treating you Please smile more and just remember you MATTER A WHOLE LOT! And iam so so sorry iam 3 months late...
thank you for this ❤ I'm having a rough time confessing to someone and nobody cares enough to help. my friends only like me for my good qualities. people only speak to me for help with something. they dont wanna talk with me. they wanna talk to their reuseable coupon.
All i want in life is peace and a respectable and understanding friend, i don't need a hug or anything like that, i just need someone to understand how i feel
It hurts to know that before you used to smile a lot as a comfort zone, but then years later you got hurt so bad that you only smile for others, not for yourself I've been there, It's heavy on the lips, but I can't smile even if I want to. Life is getting started with the pain... I want help
Knowing that the world is at shit and people are dying brutal deaths all around me is just saddening to see. I use my dreams to escape from the world. Sleep is for regenerating my body to it’s full self. But when I wake up, I still see reality slapping me right in the face. If only I could change the state of the world and make it more peaceful, and safer.. I would die to do that.
a poem that broke my heart. My parents ignored me, my teachers sneered at me and my friends, they neglected me. One night I asked my mother to teach me how to appreciate the values in life. Would you care what she told me?;Stop bothering me! Can’t you see? I had to dress up for my mahjong session, some other time my child. I turned to my father to console me, but, what a wonderful thing he told me. Child, here’s 500 bucks, get it and enjoy yourself, go and ask your teachers that question! And in school, I heard nothing but the echoes of the voices of my teachers torturing me with these words. "Why waste your time in studying, you can’t even divide 100 by 5!"
Im always the therapy friend, people always vent to me. " blah blah blah " i have to act like i care, i dont. i have to act like im listening, but im not. Nobody ever dares asking me if i could vent to them or if im ok.
i feel this so much omg it started with me venting to my friends but slowly i stopped doing it and eventually i just became the therapy friend. one of my friends said she was proud of how ive gotten better. this was conveniently after i had one of my biggest mental breakdowns. i let another one of my friends lean on me quite heavily. i sort of brought up my own state and they brushed it off just saying "uh". i let them lean on my when i was already low and when i hit my lowest i cant even lean on him as well. ive hit my lowest and this time dont even have anyone to lean on like i did before so theres no way im getting out of it this time- thats enough about how i dealt with something like that Lol. if you need someone to lean on im right here though so-
Sometimes. When my mum says "I love you!" There's always that little voice in my head, it's her voice, screaming at me "I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN BE YOUR MOTHER!!" .. That had a big impact on me.. Now I don't wanna let her down.. I'm scared..
I’m sorry you had to go through that, I’m not sure if you just wanted to get this out or want to be comforted but if you were looking for comfort I hope you get better, maybe you should talk to your mom about it to try and heal but if you don’t want to then that’s perfectly fine, I know I’m just a random stranger giving you advice that you probably don’t want so sorry if this is useless to you. Have a great day ❤
Anyone who is reading this: Everyone has a different life. Some are lucky some are just not lucky, we get normal friends or best friends! Or.. bad friends. We also have the family stuff to, some people has a amazing family some people don't. Just to let you guys know YOU ARE WORTHY YOU ARE SPECIAL YOU ARE AMAZING YOU ARE THE BEST YOU ARE THE MIRACLE YOU ARE THE MOST SPECIAL PERSON. Don't let anyone make ur motivation go away or make u sad. If they do it remember: THAT'S NOT THE TRUTH I AM SPECIAL I AM STRONG I AM A MIRACLE Again, don't let anyone get in ur way. Don't let anyone CHANGE YOU! You can be anyone u want! Follow ur dreams. From, Cookie.
my mental health begins to dissipate slowly, growing to more worries and the more question, all blank nothing's new all I ask myself is "I began to tolerate these feelings, can my body handle it? Would I find peace within myself if I just died? If so must this be another bad day like anything else?" trust me I tried..
It’s sad to know that a complete and total stranger can make you feel so much better than your friends and family do my friend just says “I’m sorry to hear that” then proceeds to ask me how my day was
To whoever is reading this. Your feelings are valid, don’t let others change the way you feel. You are amazing. Yes the person reading this, you will get through these tough times. I wish i could give you a big hug because all of you need it, 🫂 for now here’s an internet hug. I promise it will get better. I’m 18 and man life has taken a toll on me. But i’m still here and standing. i pormise on my life it will get better. You are handsome/beautiful. You are amazing, you are loved (you may not know me but i love you ❤) Keep fighting my loves. Keep your head up, don’t let that crown fall off. Your crown is there for a reason and it’s to show that you can do anything you put your mind to. Take a walk, check up on your friends(if you don’t have any now i’m your friend❤) Take a minute to breath, it’s okay. You are okay, make sure you stay hydrated and you eat as well. Even if it’s anything small, if you already did that. I’m so proud of you. I’m proud of you for waking up today, I’m proud of you for eating/drinking some water. I’m proud of you for being here still. You are all Amazing, and wonderful
10:55 always will be one of my favourite songs, the 2 birds remind me of the 2 versions of myself. One who wants it all to end in a horrific and painful way and the other who wants it to end peacefully.
My whole group of friends a year ago left me and talked behind my back and blamed me for talking behind theirs when I never did, then they’d make fun of me sometimes they acted like they cared for years just to drop me like a light switch turning off. And I’m here again because I got a new group of friends just to have one of my closest friends tell me that the person who took me into my new friend group, who was my first new friend after my old friend group dropped me. Hated my guts and to make it worse she always acted like she cared, now I sit here sobbing because I thought I had somebody in life and just as it’s going good I get my period with bad cramps and more friends drop me like a light switch turning off. And that’s not even half of my problems.
All of that sounds horrible, and the fact that the things you said aren’t even half of your problems is worse. I know this was commented 8 months ago but if something that happened a year ago is still on your mind I thought that you might need comfort, if you don’t then I’m sorry. But I really hope that you find some new friends that will always have your back ❤️
I know a lot of yall need to here this, im proud of you, you have made it this far dont give up yet one day we will have peace just keep going. I believe in you!
The first step of the day is to wake up if you can get past that then you should encourage yourself to continue your day like you did when you decide to wake up
ive been dealing with stress and depression(half) lately, and i dont want to vent but i cannot hold it in anymore, i just hate the people that dont understand you, and i cannot even tell my family what is happening, i just want to vent but its too much and i dont even know where to start. but then theres one thing that cheers me up. my bff, and you guys, and you, the stranger reading this, please just get me relived, i dont know if anyone else is going through their, how i call it, Vent phase, im in it rn, and im hiding from crying infront of my family, or alone, i just want to cry when theres nobody, and i mean nobody that hears me or sees me. please. *Help me.*
Im so sorry for commenting after 1 year, but i hope you're fine now. If not, then please feel free to vent your human. we all cry for different reasons. We feel pain in other ways, but were still flesh bones were soft and sensitive Were isolated and bottled up But i just wanted to say that there might be someon3 you know or dont who appreciate your company smile personality your beauty or when you just there and if you think that none cares about your existanc3 please know that i love fobeing strong weak skinny chubby girl , boy or other genders FIND PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE❤
It's not your fault Your not a problem You are perfect You aren't fat You aren't skinny You aren't the problem You aren't a bad person You are wonderful You aren't a crybaby Your don't deserve them You love yourself You are clean You are kind Your are the person that everyone wants Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it Your size isn't a book... don't judge it Your life isn't a movie... don't end it Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do. The past of you suffering will end Your suffering will end Don't c^t your body your hair Don't kill your self yet. If you have a pet it will make your problem go away They get mad at you for being soo perfect They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning You are brighting the world.. you are a true star Keep going.. it will past. We love you don't stop being kind to everyone The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back. They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous Give everyone a second chance not too many tho your eyes is perfect your nose is perfect your height is perfect your skin is perfect your mouth is perfect your hair is perfect your face is perfect your body is perfect your hands is perfect your fingers is perfect your teeth is perfect your waist is perfect Your torso is perfect your legs are perfect your thighs are perfect your tounge and everything is perfect YOU are perfect love your body and everything You are so greatful for what you have. Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you And leave your fake friends You deserve better. Don't give up Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person. We are proud to see you alive. We are so proud We love your smile We love your laugh We love your personality So don't give up We love you. We love you so much Don't end it too fast. Don't commit Don't get controled Don't make them control you like a puppet Do your own way Do everthing you like Ignore the rude people Ignore the hate Ignore getting yelled There's people by your side and always be. We love you no matter what you do to yourself. They don't know what your been through They ain't been in your shoes Don't belive them they are liars Love youself. We are proud of you existing here We love you so much.. NEVER GIVE UP You're precious You made it this far. And it's so amazing that you are still here
“You don’t even have a reason to be depressed?” “What’s so wrong in your life?” “I don’t care how “harsh” your life is, mine was worse” “Ew cringe” “Stop being fake. We aren’t friends anymore.” “Depression isn’t even that bad, you are so dramatic.” “Why are you always gloomy and sad? Your life is perfect.” 1. comparing trauma and depression isn’t cool. 2. i trusted you. I came out to you. I was comfortable with you, but now I don’t know you. 3. I’m coming out to you, don’t tell me I’m dramatic. Take it serious.
It just breaks my heart to see how much people listened that. im so sorry for all of you, guys. It'll be okay. Someday, somewhere, somehow you'll gonna feel found. Everybody have a chance.
Hey, I’m here for you. If you need to talk, or just have a good cry I’ll be here. You’re going through a lot, it’s okay. I’m so proud of you for making it this far. ❤
@mishaiia hey i was looking at the comments and i realized you respond to almost every comment and idk that made me feel super happy like man someone actually genuinely cares. please stay like this💕
I don't know what to do. I don't feel like ending it but its like that song, numb little bug where you don't want to die but you don't exactly want to live. I just feel sad for no reason, I guess its that summertime sadness. But I have lots of friends I can't open up to and I cry so much. I just can't tell anyone face-to-face because they won't understand. I don't understand. I just want to go somewhere safe, somewhere where I can lay down and think about nothing, somewhere I can be safe.
I know this was commented a year ago but I truly hope you found that comfort and happiness you deserve, I’m not sue if you’re looking for advice or not but I think it would be best to open up to a close family member who would understand. Sorry if you didn’t want advice or if you’ve already done that. I hope you have a great day ❤️
At some point I got told that imagining your child self talking to your adult self could be therapeutic so I tried while listening to this playlist. Here’s how it goes: Adult walk in Child self: omg! That’s me!! Child self run to Adult -Im so glad to finally see you!! I’ve been talking about it with my friends at school!! Oh do you remember them?? Are we still best friends forever?? Rn im studying fractions and I try to draw a cat but it’s so hard and- Adult: you know you’re a good child right ? Child:…yeah? Adult: no. You have to know, it wasn’t your fault. You’re a good child, right ? Child:… Adult: you perceived the world differently from others Child: that’s because I’m Adult and child: crazy and weird Adult: yeah we heard that a lot right. Child:..please stop Adult: you had a different personality, you could be noisy, curious, talkative and oversharing Child: stop. Adult: you lied a lot too Child: I’m sorry Adult: what are you ? Child:.. Adult: c’mon me…what are you Child: a terrible person Adult: wrong. Try again. What are you Child:…a child. Adult: you are a child. More than that. * adult leans to clean child’s tear* you were a good child. You were noisy and talkative because you wanted to laugh with people and make them feel good with you. You said a couple of lies to make you look more interesting because you were terrified of not receiving love. Because you weren’t able to love yourself. Because you felt that love was conditional. Child: * tears roll down cheeks * Adult: I love you me. You are a good child. Nobody should make you believe otherwise. You were just a kid. Nobody should had ask you to grow old faster. Nobody should had push you to hate yourself Child face is now completely blank. Almost adult like. It had lost all its childish trait. To old for such a young body. Such a young soul. Adult : I wish we were able to see at the time. We didn’t deserved that. Child: I am tired. Adult: I know Child: I’m scared Adult: you’re allowed to be tired and scared. Child: I’m hurt too. Adult: I’m sorry Child: oh.. * its face goes shocked and completely destroyed by pain. * Adult: I am so sorry Child: stop. Adult: I am so so sorry for what I did to us Child: I SAID STOP Adult: we were just kid. I am so sorry Child: WHY DO YOU CARE WHY DO YOU APOLOGIZE IT WAS JUST US. * child fell on its knees sobbing shaking* it was just us. Adult: it was us. That’s why I’m so sorry. It was us. Child: I’m sorry.
@@dmitrix_ thank you so much you have no idea how I needed to hear thoses words! I wish you the best as well, may you and your loved ones can always be able to feel happiness
I remember my lowest point, I was 12 I was watching a mha tiktok compilation because it was 2021 and I had literally not been allowed to leave my apartment for over a year at that point I hadn't seen the sun outside in over a year So I was watching this video It was mostly memes, some cosplays, some edits But halfway through there was a bakugou comfort audio I've never cried like that, and I hope I never will again Because that was the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE I'd heard someone, anyone, say "I'm proud of you" And it got better I went back to school, made real friends Got some therapy through a charity program But sometimes I remember And it still hurts
Thanks for this! I’m having a hard time in life But no-one is noticing except my therapist I got a therapist at 5th grade because of me goggling something online The school found it and contact my mom and my mom delivered the information to my gram/tia The teacher almost told the police because of that I lost my first best friend at four/third grade and came back at 6th grade it feels like we are separated she found other friends but hanged out with me but I didn’t feel so close to her anymore She picked a other friend she just met over me they where so close to each other I felt left out but hid my feelings I had kids make fun of my through 1-4 grade I spent four years with that because I couldn’t express it I had ‘ew’ faces at me for four years they made me cry and it just boiled my blood I wanted to just rip their spine and lung in pieces they were so nasty and selfish they even embarrassed me by saying “ewe I don’t wanna be behind her she is nasty and stinky bro I bet she doesn’t shower” I yelled at the teacher and said I’m being at the back the teacher command me to stay in front but I denied but I knew riping someone apart isn’t the right way so I did nothing because that’s not the right way and I knew they just wanted to be cool So i didn’t bother hurting anyone but no one found out my mum didn’t even notice how much I suffered then the person I love the most died by her health at 4th grade I cried the whole year she even named me even though She wasn’t my mom she was just my trans aunt then her mom died her mom reminded me of her so I cried also but I cover my tears that day I was tired of life and I felt like my mum doesn’t care about me but Ik that’s a false alarm I knew she was my mom and I loved her even tho when she gets mad or sees me with something she body shames, calls me ugly,etc.. but I cried because of that and she doesn’t know that I hate my body/personality/everything about me so she makes comments like that but no matter I still loves her then at 5th grade I felt like my group just used me for food then they stopped talking to me at 6th grade and I found my best friend but she was still hanging out with me and stuff but I feel like everyone is using me and hates me but that continues through.. ..and still no-one knows anything everything I’m telling you who is reading this . . . I’m still holding on
I feel you. My bestfriend also was a backstabber, after 9 years of relationship she left me out with other friend. My classmates talk bad about me, that started 5 years ago, also thougth it was my fault. I'm here for you❤
I’m almost 13 and have been going through a lot of trauma because my mom and dad aren’t together and I go back and forth to their houses. All that’s happened was hearing fighting through the phone and police coming once in a while at each of their houses…
I’m sorry that’s been happening to you, I really hope your parents stop fighting and realize how much they are hurting an amazing teenager like you (no disrespect to them sorry if that sounded rude and sorry if you didn’t want this comfort) if you want advice, maybe you can try talking to them about how the situation makes you feel? It can be a really hard thing to do and if you don’t want to it’s totally understandable. I really hope you have a bright future that you deserve and that this doesn’t hold you back from anything ❤️
Today my other friend was crying, I deeply care about her so I approached her to comfort her but her other friends told me to go away. But I understand, who would want to be next to someone like me. Can't even maintain a normal daily schedule, never remembered having a loving father. Today I asked my mom how I was like when I was in preschool. She said I used to be so friendly and kind. But I realized all the things she said she said "used to be" I also remember cutting myself and nobody seemed to care, my friends just made fun of me, my mom yelled at me, my brother hid the knives. It's crazy how my brother who likes hitting me ends up being to most supportive one. Whenever I try to tell my friends my story they brush it off, some don't even listen. I hate myself. I was a mistake, "the special child" is just a nicer way of saying the "adopted child" The only person who seemed to care about me ended up liking me from some reason. I felt really bad for rejecting her and now she doesn't really seem that nice anymore. I rejected her because I already like someone else but it's all my fault. Why would anyone like me in the first place?
I hate that fact that every time i have a straight face so I don't cry and my mom will tell me to "cut my attitude" but when my brother has a straight face she asks him if he is okay and if someone did something wrong or if something happened idk I love that she cares about him but I wanna feel that same way I wanna feel like she cares
VENTING So after years of hiding that I was depressed. I got the courage to tell my mom about how I felt and I thought it would be the best thing I could have done and make me feel less alone. But now after 1 year nothing has changed every time I talk about how I feel she would talk about something else and I would be disappointed every time hoping this time she would listen and talk to me about it. Now I think what was the point of telling her how I felt if nothing would change. I have no one to talk to and I think It will always be like that and now I can't tell anyone how I feel. I even said to her can I please go to therapy and she said I could and she would help but nothing has happened. I don't feel like it is her fault for being like that when she was raised that way and does not know how to help me and express it. but I feel like she should have at least tried to.
I think a therapist can really help. Maybe search for one close to your home and ask your mom if you can go see him. To show her that you really want to go and so that she don't have to do the research. And if you can't find a therapist, you'll find someone who will listen to you, someone who will listen to your feeling. It won't always be like that, it will get better
“It all gets better!” NOT UNTIL IM 18! UNDERSTAND WHAT WE GO THROUGH, NOT EVERYTHING GETS MAGICALLY BETTER PEOPLE! I’m 13 and shouldn’t feel like this, I should be so mature for my age I wanna run around and hang out with my friends but I can’t do that..
It's wild I can tell people's ages from their comments. The kids growing up "everyone hates me I hate myself" Adults "I can't be bothered, I'm tired" At some point we stop caring bout what others think and just struggle to make any progress
"Mom." "Yeah?" "Can I have a cig?" "No, why would you ask that?" "You said I can try." "I never said you can start smoking." "Why? You do it. Dad does it. Everyone else does it. Why can't I?" "Becouse I don't want you to kill yourself." "Shoulda said that long ago." "What do you mean?" "Nothing." "It can't be nothing. It's never nothing." "Shut up. You never told me not to run away. You never told me not to jump. You never said anything." "How could you say that? I've done so many for you. I cared for you every time." "You only care about yourself. You only care about what others say about you. Never about me. Never about dad. It's allways you. Allways you who want's to fight. Allways you who wins. It's unfair." "No. That's not true. You're just lazy. Now go back to studying." "Thank's for the motivation. Really fucking helped." "You're welcome." "Damn this shit hole." "Stop swearing." "You don't swear?" "No. I don't." "Seems you don't lie either." "I don't." "Good night...(forever. I'm going to jump this time.)" I didn't. I don't want to feel more pain. More guilt. Edit: Ya'll pretty worried so I'ma answere so you stop. I'm much better. After 9 years I finally feel good. PS(to @T): That flip joke is funny😂
same bro its feels numb but we will get better this feeling will go away it might not seem like it but it will im here if you need anything i might be a stranger who doesn't know anything about you but just know im here.
I wish I could have a life where I can feel at peace, my parents argue 24/7 and might get a divorce, my friends at school not actually care and just ignore me, this guy I know keeps telling me to Kms, to cut myself and to starve myself and my gf broke up with me yesterday. On top of that I have so much homework piled up from school and I’m an embarrassment and disappointment to everyone. I haven’t had a hug in minths and god knows I need one so much right now, I’m only here today thanks to my 7 year old cousin who looks up to me. I only find escape in music but even then, would it ever be enough to save me?
The fact that ppl online care more Abt us more than anyone Reminders: Your body is not paper so don’t cut it Your look/looks are not a book so don’t judge it Your neck is not a rope so don’t hang it I love you when ur aggressive I love you when ur sad I love you when u feel suicidal I love you no matter what you do Ilysm please don’t end it all I LOVE YOU EYES I LOVE UR EYEBROWS I LOVE YOUR LIPS I LOVE YOUR NOSE I LOVE UR TONGUE I LOVE YOUR WEIGHT I LOVE YOUR BODY I LOVE YOUR LEGS I LOVE YOU STOMACH I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE don’t end it all I love you when ur aggressive I love you when your sad I love you when your anxious I love you when ur scared I love you when ur happy I love when u feel suicidal I love you to the moon and back LOVE YOUR SELF, REMEMBER ILY
I just don't understand what is wrong in this life, I always create problems, but with my environment I am always cheerful and every time I am alone, there is just one desire die, die, die I'm getting worse and worse every day, my morale is getting worse and worse, I'm going to dig deeper in my life, and this is probably the first and last time I can speak out like this ...)
Dear school...... Why can't you stop desroying mental health...? I barely get any sleep.. just to get the perfect grades to please my family... And you want more....? Pushing on more..? Dear friends..... Why are you so blind? I want to tell you what's happening.. but you're blind and don't ask me if I'm fine every once in awhile..... I want to cry.. so bad. Dear parent(s)... You have my respect.. more to my mom.... You have listened.. but my fears don't let me speak more than I have....
It feels like everything I've ever known, everything I've ever cared about, has been stripped away from me, leaving behind a hollow shell where my life used to be. The things that once brought me joy, the people I used to lean on, and the dreams I once chased with passion all of it is gone, scattered like ashes in the wind. Every day feels like a battle just to survive, and the weight of it all is unbearable. I’m drowning in a sea of despair, and no matter how hard I try to reach for the surface, I keep sinking deeper. It's as if the world has turned its back on me, and I'm left standing in the ruins of what once was, with nothing but the echoes of a life I can no longer touch. I can’t do this anymore. The fight has left me, and I’m exhausted beyond words. Every step forward feels like a step into the void, and I’m not sure I have the strength to keep walking. The pain of losing everything of watching everything I’ve ever loved slip through my fingers is more than I can bear. I’ve reached the end of my rope, and I don't see a way out of this darkness. It feels like there’s nothing left for me here, and the thought of trying to rebuild from the rubble seems impossible. I’m lost, broken, and so utterly defeated that I don't know how to continue living in a world where everything that mattered to me is gone.
srry if its alot i js had to vent take care all of u
My best friend left school last year and we talk on the phone sometimes when she returns home (she went to a boarding school), after she left i still had friends , basically i tried being nice to everyone so the whole class was friendly with me, but there was this one duo of besties who were always together, nut once a new girl transferred to our class, one friend from the duo left the other, i really didn’t think much we were young. Now we’re more of seniors, the left out friend and I became friends, best friends to be exact, and for some reason joined in with the new girl’s duo, so now it was a group of four, but the new girl didn’t like me nor the left out friend, she started treating badly the people she didn’t like , but no one questioned a thing, because who would ever go against her? She’s the prettiest in the whole school, she’s the topper, every guy wants her or her best friend, they’re like rlly popular for their looks and outgoing personality…..and when after having kept bullied the leftover friend and kicked her out of the group basically, no one batted an eye.. and fast forward now a couple weeks ago she told me she never though of me as a friend, the girl I stood up for when none of the fakes did, the girl I thought was my bestie, hated me….always, she and her pretty bsf are always mad at me if I just simply talk to others, i am not allowed to talk to others, nor invited in conversations, always left out, they on,y need me when they are bored or when they need me , they always hit me and laugh about it,they insult me and say it’s a joke,they don’t respect my opinions, im merely their puppet and I fucking hate it here, i wish i coul change schools but my parents don’t want to listen either, i ha e no real friends , no personality, looks, ir grades I’m a loser and deeply inside i feel like i am paying for a sin I will never commit again
I'm sorry that this is happening to you. You don't deserve it. Please keep telling your parents about this or someone you know you could trust. Bullying is not good. It could effect you a lot. Mentally and physically. Make them beg for your forgiveness. I don't know who you are, but I know you're pretty. Don't let others tell you otherwise. I'm proud of you, if you don't get good grades, I'm still proud of you, for being here, for staying strong even tho you're going through something so hard. Please take care of yourself. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things that makes you happy. Don't let others prevent you from doing things that makes you happy. Take care :)
@@Ed1th.I am so grateful that someone took the time to read my comment, I thank you for being so kind. But I have tried talking with my parents many times , soo many times that I don’t even think it’s gonna help at this point. My mother doesn’t want to understand anything, she calls me a psychopath and other names I possibly couldn’t write, but the past times that I did talk with her she always shared my personal moments with her to everyone as if I have no privacy , for them my mental health is a joke, she share’s everything embarrassing and things I kept a secret with her to everyone , my father scolds me every time I want to give entrance exams for other prestigious and better schools, I don’t have any people close to me to share stuff either, the girls at school make me sick , and I’m not allowed to talk with guys. I have hobbies I want to try out, things I want to do, places I want to go, but it’s all a joke, I am always compared by my parents to other kids, because As long as my room is clean, I don’t wear short clothes, and my grades are good, that’s all that’ll make my parents happy
@@kire1948 You're so welcome. You deserve kindness and happiness. You really do. I wish you do some day. Y'know, that could unfortunately be verbal abuse. It's horrible to not care for what's happening to you in school. She shouldn't have invalid your privacy. Mental health is not a joke. It's a real thing that many people had struggled with, or are struggling with. Mental health is a serious thing. It could happened to kids, teens, adults and elders. This y'know, I'm afraid would be mental abuse. She shouldn't invalidate your privacy and she shouldn't have told others your secrets. Your privacy and secrets are yours. They can't act like it's theirs. It's NOT okay. Any parents shouldn't scold their kid for such things like that. When making decisions like that, it should also be your decision, not only them. Can counselors in your school, perhaps, help you in some way? This is a serious matter. You're still so young and you deserve to be treated kindly. You deserve a perfect time when you're still just so young, not a traumatic experience where it could lead you to having suicidal thoughts. I'm just so sorry, but this could not keep happening any further. Please try to tell your teacher about those girls. Do you mean that those girls prevent you from talking to guys or your parents? Don't let your parents prevent you from doing what you want. You always have your own freedom. They can't just let you stay like this. It's YOUR decision whether if you want to try out new hobbies, things you want to do, places you want to go and others. Don't let your parent's negative words go through you. Don't let them effect you. Tell yourself you deserve happiness and that you're proud of yourself. Tell yourself compliments. Tell yourself that you've done enough and that's enough. I'm so proud of you, for everything. For staying here. That makes you strong. No one is perfect. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes, and that's completely okay. Don't let them control you, okay? Clean room or not, I'm still proud of you. Choice of clothing, then again, should be your decision. Do what you think is best for yourself, not for others. Good grades or bad grades, that's completely fine. I'm still proud of you. Do things that makes you happy too. Care for your own needs and wants. Don't just do things for someone only, do it for yourself too. Make yourself happy. I wish I could make you happy. I wish I could make you feel better at some point, because you, you deserve happiness. I am grateful that you've responded to my comment. I hope I could help at some point. I hope you'll find what you need. Stay safe, take care. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things you love. Try out some new things. I'm sure it'll be worth it. It's better trying than being scared to do so. Sometimes you might feel relieved to know what happens when you try. Please don't give up. You're so young, you deserve to be so loved and again, you deserve happiness. Again, I'm proud of you. Keep going. My apologies, if this was way too long.
"You're not depressed!" "Stop being so melodramatic." I really wish I could stop thinking of all the horrible thoughts that cross my mind, but I can't, and I feel so useless because everyone thinks I'm lying. Not even the people closest to me think I need help, even though I've tried to tell them I do need help, and I can't help myself because of the mindset I'm in.
@samanthacanadayt I agree. And I know how it feels to be one. So I know exactly how they’re feeling. At least how I feel in a situation like this: I’m saying all these nice things and taking care of everything and everyone yourself but you can’t even worry about yourself. But you will never tell anyone because you don’t want to put pressure on others. But then that just builds more pressure on YOU instead.
People say “you can move on you’ll have people in your life”. Or “go put on makeup ,go lose some weight”. And other people at school say they are friends with me like everyone at the whole entire school says they can understand but the thing is I know they all may have been through worse but not what in my thoughts and my feelings say I’m just a kid stuck in a teenage body with no one by my side when my whole entire family has been separated from each other and I mean like my whole entire family we all barely see each other even my cousins they barely talk to me and never wonder how am I like nobody wants me they say they do but I think through my head saying “ then why are you doing this to me why do you say I don’t love you when I loved you first I loved all of y’all first even my siblings mostly them cause they were there for me mostly my sister cause my other sibling passed away when I was 5 and it was almost my birthday and I had to deal with all the crying in my little room I toke over from my brother’s bedroom while passing by all the favorite things he loved while I was wearing a matching shirt of what he loved and after that I had to do with more lost family members dieing on me and they said I was too young to understand that they were dead but I already knew cause I saw him in his bed not moving or breathing I was the one who first knocks on his damn door just to see if he was ok right after getting out of the shower and was dressed cause I shared another bedroom with my sister and mostly everyday I was the one who breaks in his room laughing with him and watching and getting reached from him while he was playing games and he was 19 right when he died and they think I can’t sit there and see how he lays there and getting taken by the ambulance from having a seizure an my sister toke cared of me mostly than parents should my sister was always there she was my best friend she was my world she was my life my wise person my leader my everything and we were so close and when brother left our lives life became worse mom and dad fights all the time and they separate rooms and never talk but argue all the time and mom found somebody knew and was already getting more traumatized by hearing banging on the wall and yelling in my moms room while I sat there in the front door crying and crying and later on a few years later my sister moved to her boyfriends and I was the one sitting there all alone in the living room with no one not. Even my dad. He always locked his door and barely talks to me I always knock on his door but I smell the smokes and alcohol as I already knew he wasn’t there in his joyful mind and my moms not attacking how she use to when our family was perfect and I sat there in the damn living crying and no one heard me I reached out for anybody’s hand but no one toke it but my sister did she comes visit and always checks on me before she goes back to her boyfriends and she would even let me spend the night where she was just to keep me safe from all the drama and mostly I cry and cry in my brothers room where he use to be wondering why me while I be at school most of people didn’t want me but two old friends that I lost later on and yet I always watched myself grow while looking in the mirror and tell myself “I look so ugly when I cry when do I even cry” and a few years later it got worst and I went to grandmas and my moms boyfriend came along and beated grandma in front of me than points the knife at me saying “turn around so I can cut your grandmother into pieces and probably will do it to you too” and then point the gun at me while I hid under the bed crying and watching and it was all for a medicine battle to borrow and beated up my uncle and slide my dad against the wall and repeatedly beated up my mom every time and every day and finally I had enough and I told the school and later on I was separated from them and I couldn’t even barely contact them and after few months the woman promised I could see them all again but I never had the chance cuz of what the woman did and the woman even traumatized me everyday saying I’m too skinny and too fat I’m too stupid and so ugly and many more things and did more worse things and when one day I accidentally hit her she slapped my face so hard I had a bruises and fell against the floor crying and crying constantly for days and even at school nobody wanted to talk to me they all used me and bullied me and I wished I had the two friend I had when I needed them but now I’m alone afraid scared traumatized and always saying to myself “I’m never good enough to do anything no matter what I do I try and try but I can’t do this on my own I want my sissy(nickname for sister as child self) “ and I always cried like a child and they say why am I so childish everyday abd after a while I finally came back home but before then my sister passed away and that toke my heart out because the woman who was watching over me never wanted to see her again as now till this day I’m standing on my too feet while my mom and dad are divorced of course and mom making me guilty and sad mostly and other family members not talking to me as often and alone with no friends as I’m homeschooled and moms boyfriend in jail he deserves it but every time I get out of my room something bad always happen as I always think I’m the cause of everything no matter what I do they always say do better your too fat you eat to much food your ugly go put on some makeup or go make friend well I can’t can’t you see why ? I always wanted to just make myself disappear but it’s like I want to die but I really don’t want to it’s just how I feel and it’s so hard when they always say “S.M.I.L.E” and you know how I spell smile out ? S: suffers M:mentallly damaged I: invisible to the world L: lied to E:: Emotionally abused that’s how I spell out smile in my emotions and in my head and I am still alone and always crying still and missing my sister and brother as they were the only thing I had left in life now I’m alone as they were just a dream and not reality don’t anyone knows how I feel and still can never get over it as more people in my family fades away from me and when I finally contacted an old friend finally and when they spent the night she talked to her other friend instead of me and I said let’s hangout and she said maybe later and later on I said do you want to hang out now and she said later but I said I have waited for you for ever just to hangout with you and now your saying maybe Later? And she says trust me I will hang out with you later on a few more shouts and I said why not now and she said cause I’m talking to my friends and I’m not use to you and when she said that she didn’t even know that it finally broke me and I went to the bathroom looking in the mirror crying and crying and I thought to myself “ after all in my life how I cry every second …every minute and hour and days just to be with the most people I loved and missed just to not be able to be laughing and talking like other fitness and family meme bees should be …” and later on she still hasn’t talked to me for days now and I’ve been texting her and she barely texts back and she mostly says she is busy when I see and hear her mostly talking to other friends and mostly now everyday I fairly smile and saying I’m doing fine as I say it to every I go to my room and cry so many times more as I am still faking my smiles and happiness all I had is now Gone as I have no one to love no friends nobody just the shadows and myself ….
im so tired of everything being about my sister. shes so open about being sad and my parents starting taking her to therapy, and no matter how many times i tell them i feel the same way or tell them my feelings they say im just faking it or i just want attention and my sister calls me a pick me for that. little do they know ive been struggling with depression for almost 6 years now. my sister ruined everything for me. shes all my parents care about now. ive known im the least favorite child for a long time but its too much now. this is gonna make me sound bad but shes always making everything about her sadness and everything. like i get how she feels. im so tired of my life. im tired of nobody liking me. im tired of not having any friends. thats one of the reasons why i wanna be a kpop idol. ive been dancing for a couple years now and my parents told me i could audition in november but then as soon as i was about to submit my audition they straight up told me they didnt support me. that was first time ive ever cried so hard in front of them. but they support my sister with her music career. i genuinely dont know what i did to make them not like me. theres more i can say its just too much. i have been giving them so many signs but they dont care. i even went to the school counselor and they still didn’t care. i started dancing to forget about it and so i can get far away from everything here but i cant anymore. they thought that i’ll probably be here for the rest of my life is such a depressing thought to me. i have to leave this toxic town. i would honestly rather die than stay here. nobody cares for me. if i went to korea to be a trainee i’d be happier because im not here anymore. im tired of my sister and my parents.
They all ignore me. And then they ask "Heyy, why are you so quiet? You don't want to talk?? Awh" No I want to talk but no one is f listening. I freaking hate this.
![it's all my fault [vent playlist]](http://i.ytimg.com/vi/kwtKfH5cwxo/mqdefault.jpg)
time stamps ❤️
0:00 - 3:19: i can’t handle change
3:20 - 7:19: everything i wanted
7:20 - 10:52: michelle
10:55 - 13:50: two birds
13:55 - 19:11: space song
19:14 - 23:35: twin size mattress
23:35 - 26:47: young
Thanks I was to lazy to make them
@@Mishaiia_14 np!
do you know who the first song is by? i cant find it :(((
@@jadasherman34 It’s by ROAR
Here’s a link: m.ua-cam.com/video/ZNcNiC7PZDo/v-deo.html
@@jadasherman34 it's by Roar
Its so sad how strangers can be more comforting than our parents and family
fr
I hate how that is true
I hate to look at this a know that it’s so true.. Idek if I trust my cousin anymore. We have the strongest bond and Idek if she’s just ignoring me or if she’s rlly just not realizing I’ve been calling and texting over and over..
it really is, i wish i was a little girl again when i didnt care about anything or anyone
i love how this is true cuz i don't really spend my time with my family cuz they don't even care.
nobody will love you. Nobody finds you pretty. Nobody will wipe your tears. Nobody will help you feel better. Nobody will help you overcome addiction. Nobody will help you get over your pain. Nobody will call you beautiful. Nobody will call you daily to make sure you’re okay. Nobody will every think of you. Nobody would be devastated with your sorrow. Nobody will listen to your pain.
Hello, my name is Nobody. I will forever love you, because i love like a Dog. No matter how harsh of a person you may be- no matter how angry or sad you get. I will come back, and try to fix it.
I Love You.
awww thx
dude i cried reading the first part and then happy cryed afterwards :) same to you my name is nobody
thank you you love me more then my parents
I feel so much better
Aww Tysm! I rlly needed this
"Youre not sad! You're normal! Everyone feels that way" little does my mom know how much i want her words to be true. I dont want to be sad anymore. Im 13.. how can my life be so miserable when im so young!? I just wanna be like everyone else. But thats impossible, trust me. I have tried..
I understand you completely. Its normal to feel how you're feeling. I dont know what you're going thru but its gonna get better trust me. I know you're trying your best and I'm proud of you I really am. Dont give up yet tho. its all gonna be ok you js gotta wait. it might take a long time but trust me it will get better. No matter what happens tho just know that you are not alone nd that you are loved so much. You can do it I believe in you kiddo. Js keep smiling nd dont let anything stop you or get in your way. I know you got this in the bag. js keep your head up nd believe in yourself. you might fall sometimes but dont let it get to you. I know you can do it I know u can. Take care ily.
you ever so casually explaining my life rn
but i hope you feel better soon(:
at least u have a mom,I'm 12 and I all ready want to die,I go to school get bullied and go home feeling terrible,my sister just says to me"ur a boy u can't cry".I get bullied by my family since I was 6,nobody cares about my feelings.
Hey buddy, I am really sorry for you
Listen, I’m 22 yo and I wanted to tell you your feelings are valid and we understand you here. There is no age to experience suffering unfortunately. I wish I could tell you it’s a phase it’ll pass eventually but sometimes the pain stay. What you gotta do is try to live with it to accept it and to keep trying no matter what. And when I say trying I don’t mean good grades and that shits. Even just waking up every morning is a victory that prove you are still trying. You can be proud of yourself. Look at you. You are still breathing you are 13 and you’re dealing with this and still stay here while other way more older than you have given up. You can be proud of you I am proud of you. And you probably know all the cliché stuff like you got peoples that loves you and you are not alone but the truth is you don’t realize how you’re not alone right away. But with time and with the good peoples you can truly feels thoses words as true. My advice for you is to seek for help. Try slow at your own pace everyone heal at their own rythme. And I got to warn you sometimes after you had healed. The pain can go back. You can go through another bad month or even year. But that don’t mean you « screwed up » or you are « not good enough » it happens. Healing is healing not miracles. It will still have some moments where you will feel at your lowest. But accepting them and validate yourself and accept and move yourself will make it more easier to bear it. I don’t know how your life is it’s probably not so great but I can promise you, if you want it you can make it better. Just a step at the time. Love yourself buddy okay, give yourself time and love and give yourself chances and allow yourself mistakes. Cause you’re only 13. Don’t be hard on yourself. Surround yourself with the good peoples. Online or IRL try to comprehend your emotions, try to understand what makes you so sad it’ll be hard but eventually the problem will be clear and to make sure you understand it by the problem I never mean you. Cause you will never be the problem. It is not your fault. It’s not a phase, you are not being dramatic or seeking for attention you are not weak or a crybaby you are not useless or fat or ugly. None of this is true. I want you to go in the mirror and tell yourself things you like about you. Try to see you as the real you.
My message probably is messy but I really wanted you to know all of that. I’ve been through this. I harmed myself when I was your age and thought I would never make it to my 18 birthday but guess what, I’m 22 now. Life still hurt, I still feel down small and lonely sometimes but other times I can go for a walk, look at the tree and feel in peace and happy that I stayed that long cause I would have missed how beautiful the world is how pretty trees are how gracious the colours of the sky are when it changes. Someday you’ll be grown up and you’ll look back at the time you were 13 and felt down and miserable. And you will feel proud of you cause you made it! Make yourself a promise, promise yourself to think of that day when you’ll be grown up and promise yourself that you’ll be proud of you cause you have every reason to be proud !
I will come back to this comment section. And I’m here for you if you need to talk or vent, no matter what, all of your pain all of your feelings are valid, and you are very very strong for keep trying after all this time suffering !
Stay safe buddy, we’re here if you need yo talk okay? Drink water put on your favorite music lay in you bed and relax, try to draw or write, play video games or bake do something where you feel at peace, something that brings you joy! You can do it dear! You got it we’re all behind you you can do it !
The fact that strangers can make you feel more wanted than your family or friends.
real.
I love reading the comment section.
so true my mother doesn't even recognize me as her daughter but as a waste of space
My parents always say 'you can tell us about your problems'. When I tell them about my problems, they say, 'You're a teenager, everyone feels like you.' I'm sorry when I can't tell them about a problem later but it's apocalypse at home. About 2 years ago, my friend fell from the roof and died... Sometimes I want to say to my parents, 'Look how miserable her family is and how guys want to feel like this.' but if I say, a fist comes from the right and a slap from the left. if you have read thanks.
I just want you to know that I want you to liv. I know how tuff it is but you will make it through. Stay strong.
same, stay strong girl, we can do this
same.. :(
Yes that true, went I tell my parents about something like I hate, they says the same as your words😢
My jaw droped when l read this lm so sry for your lost be strong ❤❤❤
I was 6 standing in the recess yard
It was snowing
The wind was cold
My friends cheering
My head was up looking at the sky
As I asked God to give me more snowflakes
Let me run alone in snow again
Feeling my body burn because of frostbites
Let me feel alive again.
That's pretty. Did you wrote it ?
@@somebodywho_see7940 thanks ! yes, it’s based on memories of primary school I had. In France we don’t have much snow anymore, I live in Paris and it haven’t snowed like in my childhood for years. I miss it
@@P0oseidonnah I see! Though it sounds like it was really beautiful
"I saw them standing right there, kinda thought they might care" pov: me sobbing loudly and having a mental breakdown, me knowing for a fact my parents hear me and aren't doing anything-
i feel you ive got parents that dont like me at all they treat me like sh!t and they dont give a sh!t abt my sh addiction
@@ELINADRISKELL dude that sucks. im so incredibly sorry that you're have to deal with that, and i hope that at some point in the future (no matter how far or close into the future) you start feeling better
@yv_love your parent's don't deserve a lovely boy/girl like you
I love how every1 are saying they're issues,
anxiety, problems and those people who tries to cheer them up, even tho they are only strangers
i am committing to every comment and try to make them happy even if it takes all night
it's wierd that strangers on the internet comfort me more than my friends and family
@@miamaroon5755FR tho 😔
Don't be upset about you losing a friend.
Be happy you got time with them while they lasted
That was too depressing, i've had a friend whos been with me since 1st grade were in 8th now, she talks shit behind my back and shes a dumbass
I wish i could say this without crying for like 6996696969 hours straight 😭😭😭😭
@@coolcat.92 nice
@@coolcat.92 crying is good. let it all out!
thanks friend☺
You know, I used to read these comments that say "oh dont worry i love you, you will get better". You know those types of comments, i used to read them thinking "idc" and "this doesnt even help me or do anything for me" but now i read them in tears because i just really needed to hear that. all I want to do sometimes is sream as loud as I can and just tell somebody my problems and just be able to even put whats wrong with me into even just words but i cant do that
I can see it’s been a year, but how are you? I may not relate to problems you have now, or understand how they affect you, but I will listen
@@Just_a_dork Im not the greatest but its more bearable than whenever I wrote the original comment, thank you tho❤️❤️
Okay, just incase anybody needed to hear this...
i love your smile
i love your laugh
i love your personality
i love your hair (or lack thereof)
i love you even if you have insecurities
i love your accomplishments
i love you even if you have failures
i love your eyes
i love your beauty
i love your handwriting (or the way you communicate)
i love the way you dance
i love you on your happy days
i love you even on sad days
i love you on the days you feel lonely
i love you on the days you feel helpless
i love you on the days you feel like no one cares
i love you on the days you feel forgotten
i love you on the days you feel unmotivated
i love you on the days you feel loved
i love you on the days you feel sick
i love you on the days you feel motivated
i love you on the days you feel depressed
i love you on the days you feel stressed
i love you on the days you feel crazy
i love you on the days you feel hopeful
i love you on the days you feel cuddly
i love you on the days you feel clingy
i love you on the days you feel amazing
i love you on the days you feel beautiful
i love you on the days you feel like a failure
i love you on the days you feel angry
i love you on the days you feel aggressive
i love you on the days you feel horrible
i love you on the days you feel safe
i love you on the days you feel unsafe
i love you on the days you feel vulnerable
i love you on the days you feel weird
i love you on the days you feel ok
i love you when you're healthy
i love how you sing (or hum or feel the music)
i love your taste in music
i love your taste in movies
i love your taste in tv shows
i love the way you act
i love you even if you cry
i love you when you're kind
i love you even if you you're mean
i love you even if you're alone
i love you even if you can't feel
i love you even if you feel too much
i love you even if you can't take life anymore
i love you even if you feel like it's too much
i love you when you're asleep
i love you even if you have nightmares
i love you when you have dreams
i love how you believe
i love you when you believe in yourself
i love you even if you don't believe in yourself
i love you even if you hate yourself
i love you when you love yourself
i love the way you think
i love you even if you have problems
i love your solutions
i love how you support
i love you even if you're in pain
i love you even if you're hurt
i love your promises
i love your secrets
i love your attitude
i love you sass
i love your creativity
i love your voice (or lack thereof)
i love you hand gestures
i love your stories
i love you even if you have wounds
i love you even if you have scars
i love your face
i love your past
i love your future
i love your present
i love your outfits
i love your style
i love your art
i love your honesty
i love you even if you lie
i love you even if you're tired
i love you when you're energetic
i love how you look
i love how you cook
i love you when you're adventurous
i love you even if you're scared
i love your imperfections
i love your perfections
i love you even if you worry
i love you when you talk (or communicate)
i love your opinions
i love you even if you have headache
i love you even if you have a stomach ache
i love you when you help others
i love you when you're mature
i love you even if you're immature
i love you in the hard times
i love you in the easy times
i love you even if life isn't bright
i love you when you're responsible
i love you even if you're irresponsible
i love you even if you fight
i love you in your darkest moments
i love you in your brightest moments
i love your heart
i love you in the day
i love you in the night
i love you at midnight
i love you at 3 am
i love you at all times
i love you at your best
i love even if your worst
i love the little things you do
i love all of you
i love you when you're you
i love 𝙮𝙤𝙪.
Didn't know I need this currently for in to a new relationship and my past is getting in the way and I'm currently sitting in uni sobbing to this because I didn't know I needed this message thank you ❤
thank but i broke someones heart and i liked him, i was just not ready and he told me awful things (this was like 12 min ago) can pls somebody help me? im now so broken, even more than in the past :(
i wish my parents could tell me this.
I needed this bad
❤
I’m proud of you for waking up.
I’m proud of you for brushing your hair.
I’m proud of you for blinking.
I’m proud of you for breathing.
I’m proud of you for making your bed.
I’m proud of you for eating.
I’m proud of you for TRYING to eat.
I’m proud of you for drinking water.
I’m proud of you for being here.
I’m proud of you for being you.
I’m proud of you for smiling.
I’m proud of you for continuing on even when things are difficult for you.
I’m proud of you for standing up.
I’m proud of you for blinking.
I’m proud of you for getting out of bed after spending the whole day in bed.
I’m proud of you for brushing your teeth.
I’m proud of you for standing up.
I’m proud of you for sitting down.
I’m proud of you for defending yourself.
I’m proud of you for believing in yourself.
I’m proud of you for simply trying.
I’m proud of you for being alive.
IM PROUD OF YOU.
This made me tear up... Thank you, I'm proud of you too (for all these things)
i didnt brush my hair
thank you so much im trying not to do self harm its been 3 weeks
Ty
@@leo_valdezthefireboy-mi5ns CG 👏👏, I'M PROUD OF YOU
I was crying, screaming in my pillow, until I got a notification, and this was in my recommendation. And when I looked at the thumbnail it said "Don't Cry."...
Woah… like UA-cam knew what you needed
honestly I dont ever feel like going to school. my best friend just bosses me about, as if she doesnt even care, she thinks everything is about her. I cant even play with other friends anymore and she just uses "if you dont I wont be your friend anymore" as her excuses. i never get any alone time whenever im upset, and she always is lying, she even made me cry by talking about my old friends that hated me and how she was them.
Next time she says "then I won't be your friend anymore" then say "fine". Because she doesn't seem like a very good friend.
I know how this feels because I’m in the same situation with one of my friends. The best advice that I can give to you is try not responding or being a bit more distant. This can be hard because getting out of a friendship like this is difficult (I don’t know if this applys to you but I’m just saying for me it is). Another thing you can do is just be as vague as possible or not respond at all when she asks you questions or just wants to talk. Some of this advice may seem stupid but if you can try this it might help. I think we can both agree that we need better friends and that I hope one day soon you’ll find someone who clicks with you. I hope everything goes well love :) ♥♥♥♥♥
For @-Saturn_Spits_Bars- 💕
I’m struggling with the same problems, i can only tell you to leave her be at this point bc she dosent sound like a best friend
Hey I know how you feel because I'm in the same situation you could say considering she's already left me but I can still see her. Leave her she doesn't deserve you! Tell her how you feel if you hadn't already. She's probably going to get mad but ignore that. You can cry, let your emotions come out. It's ok to cry. After she'll surely say she doesn't want to be your friend anymore. If not, tell her yourself. It's alright if you don't say much that's completely fine. What I mean abt saying how you feel I mean that don't say anything sensitive especially if they could use that against you. Just say things she can't use on you. After you've done that do what you love. Eat a snack,watch a move,take a walk,even stay up longer if you want! The only thing I'll say about staying up is still get some rest! I hope your doing better!
- a stranger from the Internet that loves you❤
200 reasons to stay alive..
1.your family
2. your friends
3. the feeling you get when you’ve finished something
4. the feeling you get when you get a compliment
5. the feeling you get when you buy new clothes
6. the feeling you get when you try on new clothes
7. the feeling you get when youre room is tidy
8. the feeling you get when youre laughing hesterically.
9. the feeling you get when you make a new friend
10. the feeling you get when you make someone smile
11. you’d have to watch your family and friends grieve.
12. you’ve never been to that place you always wanted to visit.
13. you’ve never been to disney world.
14. you’ve never been skinny dipping.
15. you’ve never swam in a lake.
16. you’ve never met your idol.
17. you haven’t gotten married.
18. you’ve never decorated your own house.
19. you will never save someone’s life.
20. you haven’t learnt to drive.
21. there is music you haven’t listen too.
22. you have so many more people to meet.
23. everyone who thought you’d do well in life, would have been wrong.
24. the people who said you’d end up no where, would have been right.
25. all the fake people would pretend to like u and post u on their stories.
26. you would have been the best mom or dad.
27. you haven’t lived the ‘my funeral will be packed’ type of life.
28. your friends would suffer.
29. your mum would never be able to walk into your room.
30. you haven’t apologised to people you have hurt.
31. someone loves you.
32. you are not alone.
33. i’m here for you.
34. the clothes you’re buried in might be gross.
35. you haven’t truly loved yourself yet.
36. suicide is a permanent solution to temporary problems.
37. you haven’t watched your kids open their christmas presents.
38. you haven’t watched your kids grow older.
39. the pain you feel right now, isn’t forever.
40. there are so many foods you haven’t tried.
41. you’ll never get the feeling of walking into a warm building on a cold day.
42. finding your person.
43. really soft pillows.
44. eating pizza with your kids and partner.
45. you will never be able to dance in the rain.
46. you will never kiss anyone in the rain
47. there are so many hobbies you haven’t tried.
48. you’ll never have a sleepover with your best friend again.
49. your friends would blame themselves.
50. your mom's smile.
51. your best friend's laugh.
52. your sibling(if y have one) would lose her/his best friend.
53. your cousins that look up to you.
54. hot chocolate on cold days.
55. ice water on hot days.
56. getting a tan.
57. hearing ‘i love you’.
58. not being able to sleep the night before and exciting day.
59. your birthday.
60. you’ve probably never been to a nightclub.
61. long hot showers.
62. long steamy baths.
63. freshly shaved legs.
64. perfectly smooth hair.
65. watching people trip over small objects.
66. you could have a huge impact on someone’s life.
67. you would regret dying.
68. you can’t change your mind once you're gone.
69. you wake up everyday for a reason.
70. stars.
71. you will always be enough.
72. movies that make you feel warm when they’re over.
73. reading powerful quotes.
74. genuine smiles.
75. the crunch of autumn leaves.
76. christmas.
77. christmas eve.
78. decorating the tree.
79. long meaningful hugs.
80. sunsets.
81. ice cream.
82. you will never get your favourite puppy.
83. you are so brave, it would be a waste to let the fire go.
84. rainbows.
85. travelling to new places.
86. funny stories.
87. funny jokes.
88. inside jokes.
89. coffee.
90. your talents would go to waste.
91. the feeling you get when you’re truly happy.
92. all nighters with friends.
93. cuddling.
94. reconnecting with old friends and family.
95. smiling.
96. capturing perfect moments on camera.
97. swimming on a hot day.
98. feeling cozy in blankets.
99. helping other people with the same thing you got help with.
100! becoming successful.
101. cute babies.
102. cute old people.
103. love stories that make you jealous.
104. telling crazy stories.
105. watching lightning.
106. watching rain.
107. star gazing.
108. recovery.
109. melted chocolate.
110. freshly baked cookies.
111. late night adventures.
112. overcoming fears.
113. sunday mornings.
114. friday mornings.
115. you’ll be dead, forever.
116. you will make a difference to people.
117. picnics with friends.
118. waking up late.
119. waking up late and ending up being on time.
120. to prove them wrong.
121. to prove them you can.
122. to prove you're strong.
123. to love and be loved.
124. the ocean.
125. pets.
126. very loud music.
127. days out.
128. finishing a book.
129. conversations that just flow.
130. learning new things.
131. you are important.
132. you are wanted.
133. mistakes.
134. snow.
135. sun.
136. flowers.
137. flowers that look gorgeous but smell gross.
138. new bed sheets.
139. new home decor.
140. roller coasters.
141. theme parks.
142. smiling at strangers.
143. random acts of kindness.
144. the sound of water.
145. visiting a place from your childhood.
146. to look back on all the things you got yourself through on your own.
147. to feel proud.
148. reassurance.
149. cute nicknames.
150. long stares that make you feel loved.
151. meaningful gifts.
152. blowing out candles.
153. meeting online friends in real life.
154. success.
155. to work the job you always wanted.
156. the live the life you dreamt of.
157. babies smiling.
158. sleep.
159. tea.
160. breaking rules.
161. dreams.
162. the last day of school/work.
163. taking pictures.
164. brownies.
165. bubbles.
166. water slides.
167. holidays.
168. to fall asleep on someone.
169. to feel protected.
170. to grow taller.
171. to grow stronger.
172. to grow old.
173. to make memories you’ll cherish.
174. to laugh at old pictures.
175. to be loved by a pet.
176. the first signs of summer.
177. the first signs of autumn.
178. the first signs of winter.
179. the first signs of spring.
180. to binge watch a series.
181. to live independently.
182. to get somewhere in life all by yourself.
183. to not have broken any promises.
184. to fulfill your promises.
185. to breathe.
186. so you can tell your children stories of when you was there age.
187. so say you’re alive.
188. to know you’re stronger than you think.
189. falling in love.
190. you will never be able to snuck out again or for the first time.
191. you’ve never not smashed your phone.
192. staying up all night.
193. you are a kind soul.
194. you have a warm heart.
195. you care for others.
196. the smell of pancakes.
197. when you walk over frosty grass.
198. you haven't truly apologized to all the people you've hurt
199. i love you.
200! to say you made it.
anyone reading this, please know you are not alone and I love every single one of you. things are hard right now i know. you’ll get over it I promise. nothing lasts forever.❤
Whoever you are. You just saved my life..im not kidding. I was about to end it here: 9:47 right there. Until i finished reading this. I love you and will always remember this.
@@Lotus-chu thanks for staying. Thank you. The world needs you. Whether or not you think it does, you are needed. Whether you’re needed now, or in the future, you are needed. ❤❤❤
@@Lotus-chu im so, so proud of you
@@Lotus-chu I’m so happy you stayed! I hope you have a great life and keep on living, I really hope it will get better for you ❤
lthank you i was abt to end my lifeline untill i saw this
you saved my life too i love whoever you are behind this camera❤🥹
Vent
Trigger warning
I got in a fight like I often do, but now they bring my mental health into it. They began to yell at me that maybe I should kms and that I’m selfish to even consider it, they tell me I eat like a pig, they call me many heart shattering words.
What probably hurt/shocked me most is that these words came from the mother, my creator. The on that was supposed to build me up, protect me, heal. But she never did anything but hurt me. I have no confidence to tell anyone in the real word.
It’s all so tiring. I want it all to be over.
hey dude, you're doing amazing still being here after all that, you're so strong and i'm proud whether i am just a teenage girl behind a screen, it's shocking to read this, but to think that anyone js a little less weaker than you could have ended it all already, it shows your strength, you're doing great bud. Imagine your mother's words as crumbs, which means she is doing no damage, i know it's hard but everyone needs YOU here. Keep pushing, We believe in you
you did come out of her, so you should tell her "it takes one to make one"
They can say any shit they want but your life is so precious u can live with being happy and youthful with 1 real freind!
Your mom clearly doesn't deserve you, your amazing and you deserve life and happiness, you deserve a smile forever, don't listen to this crap! Your worth so much, soon things will get better....iam sure it will, you could go outside look in the sky or stay in your room with music take deep breaths eat a bite of your favorite snack and start thinking of momments and things that relax you
Make happy momments
Your beautiful and amazing okay? 💖
even though I'm a child, a stranger behind the screen, I hope it gets better, you doing great. :)
I said this to my friend and she slapped me….. “ I could complain on how my mother and father body shame me and love my brothers more, but I don’t go around telling people that ‘my mom hits me’ like you do….. Why lie to their face when your parents spoil you?”
im sorry
Oh my im so sorry that happened :(
.... im sorry that happened :(
im sorry i want to hug you my mother is mentally abusive and telling me that if i commit suicide its gonna be a better world
@@leo_valdezthefireboy-mi5nsOh no I’m sorry for u, try not to listen to her. I may not know you but the world won’t be the same without u :(
"You can control your depression and anger" AGHHHHHHHH. I'd love to be able to, thanks though for making it worse. I don't know how many people have told me this. And I thought I trusted them.
My brother says to me everytime i cry "stop being dramatic you depressed idiot" he doesn't even realise how much i looked up to him and hoped when i grow i up he would take me away from my mom
I'd love to talk to someone abt the stuff that's troubling me but I don't 'cause I dont want to be a menace so I just isolate from everyone and go listen to playlists like this one and read the comment section. I just find it weirdly comforting.
Why? Why can’t I have what they have? A friend that I’m not awkward around. A friend I feel comfortable with. I close friend. A *best* friend. Why can’t I have that? Why don’t I deserve that? I did everything I could. I am always nice to everyone! So why? Why oh why don’t I deserve that?
You do deserve that, ur perfect the way you are
i shall be your online friend i have a friend a good one but i cant see much so i will be your friend
You will find them. As long as you hold onto hope you will find them. You know why? Because somewhere in this world there is someone also lonely, feeling socially awkward wishing they could find a best friend. A real friend for all their pains and laught and guess what, they don’t know you yet but you already are on their mind! Someday you two will met and it will feels like you always were together like you always known each others, keep having hope, they also keep hope to meet you one day!
Here's a tip, everytime you feel like this, you need to breath deeply, and say to yourself "Everything is gonna be okay", and it will be.
Im 13... and I can"t believe I feel more comforted by these people I don"t know more than by my family and close friends...
The worst feeling is when your not sad enough to mentally unstable but too sad to be fine
These audios help when your trying to tell someone how you feel and they change the subject to something so strange
I wonder how many people are listening to this while reading the comments. Having no one to talk to. Just crying alone.
Are you okay? ❤
I’m barely 13, yet I’m listening to these playlists at night, trying to fall asleep. What the hell, world? I’ve barely even lived yet…
I’m so sorry you felt that way and I know it’s been a year but I truly hope you’ve gotten better, even though you’ve barely lived yet remember that it’s a reason to keep going instead of giving up ❤️
no matter how hard i try, how much i give, how much i do for people all i get in return are the most hurtful words to me the little things and the words that means nothin to some people get to me and makes me day the worst makes me wanna curl into a ball and cry trying to hold my tears back while listening to them say it to me jst wow amazes me
It will be ok:) you are not alone we are all here for you and we will always be but you will have to be strong for everyone you love just know that there are people out there that care about you even when it doesn't feel like it
Stay strong superstar✨
Your good enough....you were always good enough
And they were always wrong, you are always right, you deserve so much better
Your hard work is worth so much, they should be grateful to have you
Your beautiful okay? DONT LISTEN TO THEM PLEASE! YOU MATTER TOO! AND YOUR THE BEST PERSON!!! IAM SURE!!, 💖💖💖💖
I like to hug. I hug people to support them and show love. But no one hugged me when I needed it most. When I cry, everyone stays silent and does nothing. My life sucks. family problems, bullying (both teachers and classmates), loneliness, violence, psychological pressure… I wish someone would hug me with love.
*hugs* you're stronger than you know bestie! ❤
Virtual hugs
Ur describing my life a lot, dam why is everyone I relate to most likely never gonna actually run into me irl?
I just wanna know somebody irl that gets me and doesn’t just sit there and never asks how I’m doing over time and just stays quiet and awkward, barely saying they felt bad once or twice and that’s mostly it, I just want it to feel like I’m not talking to a robot or ai, I wanna have a real time connection with somebody, ion even care who, I want someone to express their care bc I feel like I am the one having to express it more or less
"The pain makes us alive."
When you can't feel or describe pain anymore....
Am I still alive?
For everyone that needed to hear this...
I am so goddamn proud of you. Even if I have no idea who you are you have already made my day and so many others by just being here and I know it can be hard sometimes but just trust me it will all get better no matter how long it takes and regardless of your religion, you were born for a reason, so just remember that we all love you. Make sure you eat, sleep, and smile.
I am so damn proud of you. Keep going superstar ✨
Aw thank you:DD I'm proud of you as well friend! Keep yourself safe and i love you:))
Literally the second "i cant handle change" came on, i knew this playlist was perfect for me. And i was right. Its absolutely perfect for the state of mind im in right now. Thank you so much.
Once I opened to my mom,not that I wanted to is just that when I look sad or something she wanted me to tell her.most of the time I am not that see through,I can literally cry hours in my room and when I go out you wouldn't even notice. Once I had enough of her asking for me to open up to her so I told her that I might have depression, anxiety and even Dissociative identity disorder which at the end come to be true.all that she said is that I want attention and that is just a phase I will grow out of it.After 4 years (I was 15 then) I started seeing therapist I had told her every thing I had to go to mental hospital for almost 2 years until i've had learned how to deal with D. I. D and after my depression and anxiety is gone. Till this day my mom and other members of family except my only brother blame me for not telling them on time.
Iam so sorry....you deserve SO much better...
Your family members are horrible...
You are better then them, your wonderful!, I really hope treatment helps you more and soon your family freaking realizes how bad they are treating you
Please smile more and just remember you MATTER A WHOLE LOT!
And iam so so sorry iam 3 months late...
thank you for this ❤ I'm having a rough time confessing to someone and nobody cares enough to help. my friends only like me for my good qualities. people only speak to me for help with something. they dont wanna talk with me. they wanna talk to their reuseable coupon.
dang, that's happened to me too. I left that toxic friend group and I'm doing a bit better. I hope you find the right people who actually care.
i hope one day you got someone that willing to be a shoulder for you to cry on
All i want in life is peace and a respectable and understanding friend, i don't need a hug or anything like that, i just need someone to understand how i feel
Confess here then ,get it out ...
ya know what fuck those friends come with me to france i can speak french so
It hurts to know that before you used to smile a lot as a comfort zone, but then years later you got hurt so bad that you only smile for others, not for yourself
I've been there, It's heavy on the lips, but I can't smile even if I want to. Life is getting started with the pain... I want help
"oh your being dramatic, Your FINE nothing is wrong with you, your just sad." Im sad everyday. This is just the only time you have noticed
Knowing that the world is at shit and people are dying brutal deaths all around me is just saddening to see. I use my dreams to escape from the world. Sleep is for regenerating my body to it’s full self. But when I wake up, I still see reality slapping me right in the face. If only I could change the state of the world and make it more peaceful, and safer.. I would die to do that.
I would too❤
@@colletteegnot1532💞
This playlist would’ve helped me so much during my anxiety attack 😢
a poem that broke my heart.
My parents ignored me, my teachers sneered at me and my friends, they neglected me.
One night I asked my mother to teach me how to appreciate the values in life. Would
you care what she told me?;Stop bothering me! Can’t you see? I had to dress up for
my mahjong session, some other time my child. I turned to my father to console me,
but, what a wonderful thing he told me. Child, here’s 500 bucks, get it and enjoy
yourself, go and ask your teachers that question!
And in school, I heard nothing but the echoes of the voices of my teachers torturing me
with these words. "Why waste your time in studying, you can’t even divide 100 by 5!"
Im always the therapy friend, people always vent to me. " blah blah blah " i have to act like i care, i dont. i have to act like im listening, but im not. Nobody ever dares asking me if i could vent to them or if im ok.
hey, you can vent here if you want
i feel this so much omg
it started with me venting to my friends but slowly i stopped doing it and eventually i just became the therapy friend. one of my friends said she was proud of how ive gotten better. this was conveniently after i had one of my biggest mental breakdowns. i let another one of my friends lean on me quite heavily. i sort of brought up my own state and they brushed it off just saying "uh". i let them lean on my when i was already low and when i hit my lowest i cant even lean on him as well. ive hit my lowest and this time dont even have anyone to lean on like i did before so theres no way im getting out of it this time-
thats enough about how i dealt with something like that Lol.
if you need someone to lean on im right here though so-
Sometimes. When my mum says "I love you!" There's always that little voice in my head, it's her voice, screaming at me "I'D RATHER BE DEAD THAN BE YOUR MOTHER!!" .. That had a big impact on me.. Now I don't wanna let her down.. I'm scared..
I’m sorry you had to go through that, I’m not sure if you just wanted to get this out or want to be comforted but if you were looking for comfort I hope you get better, maybe you should talk to your mom about it to try and heal but if you don’t want to then that’s perfectly fine, I know I’m just a random stranger giving you advice that you probably don’t want so sorry if this is useless to you. Have a great day ❤
Anyone who is reading this:
Everyone has a different life. Some are lucky some are just not lucky, we get normal friends or best friends! Or.. bad friends. We also have the family stuff to, some people has a amazing family some people don't. Just to let you guys know
YOU ARE WORTHY
YOU ARE SPECIAL
YOU ARE AMAZING
YOU ARE THE BEST
YOU ARE THE MIRACLE
YOU ARE THE MOST SPECIAL PERSON.
Don't let anyone make ur motivation go away or make u sad. If they do it remember:
THAT'S NOT THE TRUTH
I AM SPECIAL
I AM STRONG
I AM A MIRACLE
Again, don't let anyone get in ur way. Don't let anyone CHANGE YOU!
You can be anyone u want! Follow ur dreams.
From, Cookie.
Thank you so much
Thank you Cookie
funny how strangers online are more comforting than my friends and family...
my mental health begins to dissipate slowly, growing to more worries and the more question, all blank nothing's new
all I ask myself is "I began to tolerate these feelings, can my body handle it? Would I find peace within myself if I just died? If so must this be another bad day like anything else?" trust me I tried..
It’s sad to know that a complete and total stranger can make you feel so much better than your friends and family do my friend just says “I’m sorry to hear that” then proceeds to ask me how my day was
To whoever is reading this.
Your feelings are valid, don’t let others change the way you feel. You are amazing. Yes the person reading this, you will get through these tough times. I wish i could give you a big hug because all of you need it, 🫂 for now here’s an internet hug. I promise it will get better. I’m 18 and man life has taken a toll on me. But i’m still here and standing. i pormise on my life it will get better. You are handsome/beautiful. You are amazing, you are loved (you may not know me but i love you ❤) Keep fighting my loves. Keep your head up, don’t let that crown fall off. Your crown is there for a reason and it’s to show that you can do anything you put your mind to. Take a walk, check up on your friends(if you don’t have any now i’m your friend❤) Take a minute to breath, it’s okay. You are okay, make sure you stay hydrated and you eat as well. Even if it’s anything small, if you already did that. I’m so proud of you. I’m proud of you for waking up today, I’m proud of you for eating/drinking some water. I’m proud of you for being here still. You are all Amazing, and wonderful
My parents are arguing downstairs, I'm crying into my pillow, listening to this playlist maybe I'll feel better after
Younger: don't cry
Inbetween: I can't cry
Older: please cry
10:55 always will be one of my favourite songs, the 2 birds remind me of the 2 versions of myself. One who wants it all to end in a horrific and painful way and the other who wants it to end peacefully.
My whole group of friends a year ago left me and talked behind my back and blamed me for talking behind theirs when I never did, then they’d make fun of me sometimes they acted like they cared for years just to drop me like a light switch turning off. And I’m here again because I got a new group of friends just to have one of my closest friends tell me that the person who took me into my new friend group, who was my first new friend after my old friend group dropped me. Hated my guts and to make it worse she always acted like she cared, now I sit here sobbing because I thought I had somebody in life and just as it’s going good I get my period with bad cramps and more friends drop me like a light switch turning off. And that’s not even half of my problems.
All of that sounds horrible, and the fact that the things you said aren’t even half of your problems is worse. I know this was commented 8 months ago but if something that happened a year ago is still on your mind I thought that you might need comfort, if you don’t then I’m sorry. But I really hope that you find some new friends that will always have your back ❤️
@@LindaEguade-qg3bm Everything with friends is going better now, thank you! I hope that you're doing well!♥
as someone who hates feeling vulnerable, the "don't cry" hit me straight in the heart
It's alright
man i read this shit and started crying a bit thanks man, really needed this rn :)
@@Annielynnzie_ you're welcome
Thank u.
I know a lot of yall need to here this, im proud of you, you have made it this far dont give up yet one day we will have peace just keep going. I believe in you!
When you cut yourself everyday, hate everything, attempted twice and want to again but everyone tells you your fine
The first step of the day is to wake up if you can get past that then you should encourage yourself to continue your day like you did when you decide to wake up
ive been dealing with stress and depression(half) lately, and i dont want to vent but i cannot hold it in anymore, i just hate the people that dont understand you, and i cannot even tell my family what is happening, i just want to vent but its too much and i dont even know where to start. but then theres one thing that cheers me up. my bff, and you guys, and you, the stranger reading this, please just get me relived, i dont know if anyone else is going through their, how i call it, Vent phase, im in it rn, and im hiding from crying infront of my family, or alone, i just want to cry when theres nobody, and i mean nobody that hears me or sees me. please. *Help me.*
Im so sorry for commenting after 1 year, but i hope you're fine now. If not, then please feel free to vent your human. we all cry for different reasons. We feel pain in other ways, but were still flesh bones were soft and sensitive
Were isolated and bottled up
But i just wanted to say that there might be someon3 you know or dont who appreciate your company smile personality your beauty or when you just there and if you think that none cares about your existanc3 please know that i love fobeing strong weak skinny chubby girl , boy or other genders
FIND PEOPLE WHO LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE❤
The fact that the playlist starts right with "I can't handle change" shows that it will make me (us) cry and realise my loneliness.
relatable to me right now, suffering with anxiety and depression for 4 years now and no one has noticed and those who did just laughed
It's not your fault
Your not a problem
You are perfect
You aren't fat
You aren't skinny
You aren't the problem
You aren't a bad person
You are wonderful
You aren't a crybaby
Your don't deserve them
You love yourself
You are clean
You are kind
Your are the person that everyone wants
Your skin isn't a paper... don't cut it
Your face isn't a mask... don't hide it
Your heart isn't a door... don't lock it
Your size isn't a book... don't judge it
Your life isn't a movie... don't end it
Your neck isn't a rope... don't hang it
Your body isn't for sale... don't sell it
Your brain isn't a stone... don't crush it
Your life is an inspiration...be proud of it
Love yourself.. you are perfect no matter what you do.
The past of you suffering will end
Your suffering will end
Don't c^t your body your hair
Don't kill your self yet.
If you have a pet it will make your problem go away
They get mad at you for being soo perfect
They blame you because you are so pretty/handsome/stunning
You are brighting the world.. you are a true star
Keep going.. it will past.
We love you don't stop being kind to everyone
The kindness will speard and the kidness will also pay you back.
They love you they just don't wanna show the loveness for you
You are so perfect that everyone gets mad and jealous
Give everyone a second chance not too many tho
your eyes is perfect
your nose is perfect
your height is perfect
your skin is perfect
your mouth is perfect
your hair is perfect
your face is perfect
your body is perfect
your hands is perfect
your fingers is perfect
your teeth is perfect
your waist is perfect
Your torso is perfect
your legs are perfect
your thighs are perfect
your tounge and everything is perfect
YOU are perfect love your body and everything
You are so greatful for what you have.
Ignore the bad people you dont want them to get attached to you
And leave your fake friends
You deserve better.
Don't give up
Cheer up aswell Pretty/handsome/stunning person.
We are proud to see you alive.
We are so proud
We love your smile
We love your laugh
We love your personality
So don't give up
We love you.
We love you so much
Don't end it too fast.
Don't commit
Don't get controled
Don't make them control you like a puppet
Do your own way
Do everthing you like
Ignore the rude people
Ignore the hate
Ignore getting yelled
There's people by your side and always be.
We love you no matter what you do to yourself.
They don't know what your been through
They ain't been in your shoes
Don't belive them they are liars
Love youself.
We are proud of you existing here
We love you so much..
NEVER GIVE UP
You're precious
You made it this far.
And it's so amazing that you are still here
“You don’t even have a reason to be depressed?”
“What’s so wrong in your life?”
“I don’t care how “harsh” your life is, mine was worse”
“Ew cringe”
“Stop being fake. We aren’t friends anymore.”
“Depression isn’t even that bad, you are so dramatic.”
“Why are you always gloomy and sad? Your life is perfect.”
1. comparing trauma and depression isn’t cool.
2. i trusted you. I came out to you. I was comfortable with you, but now I don’t know you.
3. I’m coming out to you, don’t tell me I’m dramatic. Take it serious.
This playlist rlly helped me ty❤
"People Don't Like me, Then I Don't Like Them Back." -Erin That Self Harmed Recently.
This person likes you ❤
It just breaks my heart to see how much people listened that. im so sorry for all of you, guys.
It'll be okay. Someday, somewhere, somehow you'll gonna feel found. Everybody have a chance.
All i need right now is someone who I can call whenever I'm crying and they'll always answer and just make me feel okay. Anyone up.
Hey, I’m here for you. If you need to talk, or just have a good cry I’ll be here. You’re going through a lot, it’s okay. I’m so proud of you for making it this far. ❤
These songs always give me strength to live on. I cry and feel alive. Thank you people for making this wonderful music!❤️
@mishaiia
hey i was looking at the comments and i realized you respond to almost every comment and idk that made me feel super happy like man someone actually genuinely cares. please stay like this💕
can do
I don't know what to do. I don't feel like ending it but its like that song, numb little bug where you don't want to die but you don't exactly want to live. I just feel sad for no reason, I guess its that summertime sadness. But I have lots of friends I can't open up to and I cry so much. I just can't tell anyone face-to-face because they won't understand. I don't understand. I just want to go somewhere safe, somewhere where I can lay down and think about nothing, somewhere I can be safe.
I know this was commented a year ago but I truly hope you found that comfort and happiness you deserve, I’m not sue if you’re looking for advice or not but I think it would be best to open up to a close family member who would understand. Sorry if you didn’t want advice or if you’ve already done that. I hope you have a great day ❤️
At some point I got told that imagining your child self talking to your adult self could be therapeutic so I tried while listening to this playlist. Here’s how it goes:
Adult walk in
Child self: omg! That’s me!!
Child self run to Adult
-Im so glad to finally see you!! I’ve been talking about it with my friends at school!! Oh do you remember them?? Are we still best friends forever?? Rn im studying fractions and I try to draw a cat but it’s so hard and-
Adult: you know you’re a good child right ?
Child:…yeah?
Adult: no. You have to know, it wasn’t your fault. You’re a good child, right ?
Child:…
Adult: you perceived the world differently from others
Child: that’s because I’m
Adult and child: crazy and weird
Adult: yeah we heard that a lot right.
Child:..please stop
Adult: you had a different personality, you could be noisy, curious, talkative and oversharing
Child: stop.
Adult: you lied a lot too
Child: I’m sorry
Adult: what are you ?
Child:..
Adult: c’mon me…what are you
Child: a terrible person
Adult: wrong. Try again. What are you
Child:…a child.
Adult: you are a child. More than that. * adult leans to clean child’s tear* you were a good child. You were noisy and talkative because you wanted to laugh with people and make them feel good with you. You said a couple of lies to make you look more interesting because you were terrified of not receiving love. Because you weren’t able to love yourself. Because you felt that love was conditional.
Child: * tears roll down cheeks *
Adult: I love you me. You are a good child. Nobody should make you believe otherwise. You were just a kid. Nobody should had ask you to grow old faster. Nobody should had push you to hate yourself
Child face is now completely blank. Almost adult like. It had lost all its childish trait. To old for such a young body. Such a young soul.
Adult : I wish we were able to see at the time. We didn’t deserved that.
Child: I am tired.
Adult: I know
Child: I’m scared
Adult: you’re allowed to be tired and scared.
Child: I’m hurt too.
Adult: I’m sorry
Child: oh.. * its face goes shocked and completely destroyed by pain. *
Adult: I am so sorry
Child: stop.
Adult: I am so so sorry for what I did to us
Child: I SAID STOP
Adult: we were just kid. I am so sorry
Child: WHY DO YOU CARE WHY DO YOU APOLOGIZE IT WAS JUST US. * child fell on its knees sobbing shaking* it was just us.
Adult: it was us. That’s why I’m so sorry. It was us.
Child: I’m sorry.
you're a really strong person for realizing it isn't your fault! i really hope things get better for you! have a wonderful day lovely human /gen
@@dmitrix_ thank you so much you have no idea how I needed to hear thoses words! I wish you the best as well, may you and your loved ones can always be able to feel happiness
I'm literally tearing up by the comments, thank you... I needed this.. Strangers comfort you more than your family❤
I remember my lowest point, I was 12
I was watching a mha tiktok compilation because it was 2021 and I had literally not been allowed to leave my apartment for over a year at that point
I hadn't seen the sun outside in over a year
So I was watching this video
It was mostly memes, some cosplays, some edits
But halfway through there was a bakugou comfort audio
I've never cried like that, and I hope I never will again
Because that was the first time in my ENTIRE LIFE
I'd heard someone, anyone, say "I'm proud of you"
And it got better
I went back to school, made real friends
Got some therapy through a charity program
But sometimes I remember
And it still hurts
Thanks for this!
I’m having a hard time in life
But no-one is noticing except my therapist
I got a therapist at 5th grade because of me goggling something online
The school found it and contact my mom and my mom delivered the information to my gram/tia
The teacher almost told the police because of that
I lost my first best friend at four/third grade and came back at 6th grade it feels like we are separated she found other friends but hanged out with me but I didn’t feel so close to her anymore
She picked a other friend she just met over me they where so close to each other I felt left out but hid my feelings
I had kids make fun of my through 1-4 grade I spent four years with that because I couldn’t express it I had ‘ew’ faces at me for four years they made me cry and it just boiled my blood I wanted to just rip their spine and lung in pieces they were so nasty and selfish they even embarrassed me by saying “ewe I don’t wanna be behind her she is nasty and stinky bro I bet she doesn’t shower” I yelled at the teacher and said I’m being at the back the teacher command me to stay in front but I denied but I knew riping someone apart isn’t the right way so I did nothing because that’s not the right way and I knew they just wanted to be cool So i didn’t bother hurting anyone
but no one found out my mum didn’t even notice how much I suffered then the person I love the most died by her health at 4th grade I cried the whole year she even named me even though She wasn’t my mom she was just my trans aunt then her mom died her mom reminded me of her so I cried also but I cover my tears that day I was tired of life and I felt like my mum doesn’t care about me but Ik that’s a false alarm I knew she was my mom and I loved her even tho when she gets mad or sees me with something she body shames, calls me ugly,etc.. but I cried because of that and she doesn’t know that I hate my body/personality/everything about me so she makes comments like that but no matter I still loves her then at 5th grade I felt like my group just used me for food then they stopped talking to me at 6th grade and I found my best friend but she was still hanging out with me and stuff but I feel like everyone is using me and hates me but that continues through..
..and still no-one knows anything everything I’m telling you who is reading this . . . I’m still holding on
I feel you. My bestfriend also was a backstabber, after 9 years of relationship she left me out with other friend. My classmates talk bad about me, that started 5 years ago, also thougth it was my fault.
I'm here for you❤
playlist: don't cry.
I'm :crying.
I feel like a ghost. A million regrets tethering me to the earth and a soul that begs to fly away from it's corroding body.
I’m almost 13 and have been going through a lot of trauma because my mom and dad aren’t together and I go back and forth to their houses. All that’s happened was hearing fighting through the phone and police coming once in a while at each of their houses…
I’m sorry that’s been happening to you, I really hope your parents stop fighting and realize how much they are hurting an amazing teenager like you (no disrespect to them sorry if that sounded rude and sorry if you didn’t want this comfort) if you want advice, maybe you can try talking to them about how the situation makes you feel? It can be a really hard thing to do and if you don’t want to it’s totally understandable. I really hope you have a bright future that you deserve and that this doesn’t hold you back from anything ❤️
Today my other friend was crying, I deeply care about her so I approached her to comfort her but her other friends told me to go away. But I understand, who would want to be next to someone like me. Can't even maintain a normal daily schedule, never remembered having a loving father. Today I asked my mom how I was like when I was in preschool. She said I used to be so friendly and kind. But I realized all the things she said she said "used to be" I also remember cutting myself and nobody seemed to care, my friends just made fun of me, my mom yelled at me, my brother hid the knives. It's crazy how my brother who likes hitting me ends up being to most supportive one. Whenever I try to tell my friends my story they brush it off, some don't even listen. I hate myself. I was a mistake, "the special child" is just a nicer way of saying the "adopted child" The only person who seemed to care about me ended up liking me from some reason. I felt really bad for rejecting her and now she doesn't really seem that nice anymore. I rejected her because I already like someone else but it's all my fault. Why would anyone like me in the first place?
I’m on risk of getting kicked out of a nerd school and I honestly can’t handle being kicked out bc I’ll get made fun of
"Don't act like this ur not a kid anymore"
I know......
Here’s what I think , nobody cares about us so we should just care for each other
I hate that fact that every time i have a straight face so I don't cry and my mom will tell me to "cut my attitude" but when my brother has a straight face she asks him if he is okay and if someone did something wrong or if something happened idk I love that she cares about him but I wanna feel that same way I wanna feel like she cares
VENTING
So after years of hiding that I was depressed. I got the courage to tell my mom about how I felt and I thought it would be the best thing I could have done and make me feel less alone. But now after 1 year nothing has changed every time I talk about how I feel she would talk about something else and I would be disappointed every time hoping this time she would listen and talk to me about it. Now I think what was the point of telling her how I felt if nothing would change. I have no one to talk to and I think It will always be like that and now I can't tell anyone how I feel. I even said to her can I please go to therapy and she said I could and she would help but nothing has happened. I don't feel like it is her fault for being like that when she was raised that way and does not know how to help me and express it. but I feel like she should have at least tried to.
I think a therapist can really help. Maybe search for one close to your home and ask your mom if you can go see him. To show her that you really want to go and so that she don't have to do the research. And if you can't find a therapist, you'll find someone who will listen to you, someone who will listen to your feeling. It won't always be like that, it will get better
“It all gets better!” NOT UNTIL IM 18! UNDERSTAND WHAT WE GO THROUGH, NOT EVERYTHING GETS MAGICALLY BETTER PEOPLE! I’m 13 and shouldn’t feel like this, I should be so mature for my age I wanna run around and hang out with my friends but I can’t do that..
thank you for this it really helped me calm down a bit and just breathe(:
you're welcome
It's wild I can tell people's ages from their comments. The kids growing up "everyone hates me I hate myself"
Adults "I can't be bothered, I'm tired"
At some point we stop caring bout what others think and just struggle to make any progress
"Mom."
"Yeah?"
"Can I have a cig?"
"No, why would you ask that?"
"You said I can try."
"I never said you can start smoking."
"Why? You do it. Dad does it. Everyone else does it. Why can't I?"
"Becouse I don't want you to kill yourself."
"Shoulda said that long ago."
"What do you mean?"
"Nothing."
"It can't be nothing. It's never nothing."
"Shut up. You never told me not to run away. You never told me not to jump. You never said anything."
"How could you say that? I've done so many for you. I cared for you every time."
"You only care about yourself. You only care about what others say about you. Never about me. Never about dad. It's allways you. Allways you who want's to fight. Allways you who wins. It's unfair."
"No. That's not true. You're just lazy. Now go back to studying."
"Thank's for the motivation. Really fucking helped."
"You're welcome."
"Damn this shit hole."
"Stop swearing."
"You don't swear?"
"No. I don't."
"Seems you don't lie either."
"I don't."
"Good night...(forever. I'm going to jump this time.)"
I didn't. I don't want to feel more pain. More guilt.
Edit: Ya'll pretty worried so I'ma answere so you stop. I'm much better. After 9 years I finally feel good.
PS(to @T): That flip joke is funny😂
is u there? if so, im here for u. if not, ima call the cops. if u dont answer in the next hour im calling the police
@@Emmi_em i wish i wasnt. but thanks
Hey, if you're not okay, just know this is a safe place to vent. I hope whatever you're going through gets better.
same bro its feels numb but we will get better this feeling will go away it might not seem like it but it will im here if you need anything i might be a stranger who doesn't know anything about you but just know im here.
how selfish ~
i don't know how a person on the internet i don't even know comforts me better than anybody i know
I wish I could have a life where I can feel at peace, my parents argue 24/7 and might get a divorce, my friends at school not actually care and just ignore me, this guy I know keeps telling me to Kms, to cut myself and to starve myself and my gf broke up with me yesterday. On top of that I have so much homework piled up from school and I’m an embarrassment and disappointment to everyone. I haven’t had a hug in minths and god knows I need one so much right now, I’m only here today thanks to my 7 year old cousin who looks up to me. I only find escape in music but even then, would it ever be enough to save me?
The fact that ppl online care more Abt us more than anyone
Reminders:
Your body is not paper so don’t cut it
Your look/looks are not a book so don’t judge it
Your neck is not a rope so don’t hang it
I love you when ur aggressive
I love you when ur sad
I love you when u feel suicidal
I love you no matter what you do
Ilysm please don’t end it all
I LOVE YOU EYES
I LOVE UR EYEBROWS
I LOVE YOUR LIPS
I LOVE YOUR NOSE
I LOVE UR TONGUE
I LOVE YOUR WEIGHT
I LOVE YOUR BODY
I LOVE YOUR LEGS
I LOVE YOU STOMACH
I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYONE
don’t end it all
I love you when ur aggressive
I love you when your sad
I love you when your anxious
I love you when ur scared
I love you when ur happy
I love when u feel suicidal
I love you to the moon and back
LOVE YOUR SELF, REMEMBER ILY
Naa bro I’m going through so much this playlist is helping me 😭😋
I just don't understand what is wrong in this life, I always create problems, but with my environment I am always cheerful and every time I am alone, there is just one desire
die, die, die
I'm getting worse and worse every day, my morale is getting worse and worse, I'm going to dig deeper in my life, and this is probably the first and last time I can speak out like this ...)
Istg it's scary how similar our tastes are...
Lol
Dear school...... Why can't you stop desroying mental health...? I barely get any sleep.. just to get the perfect grades to please my family... And you want more....? Pushing on more..?
Dear friends..... Why are you so blind? I want to tell you what's happening.. but you're blind and don't ask me if I'm fine every once in awhile..... I want to cry.. so bad.
Dear parent(s)... You have my respect.. more to my mom.... You have listened.. but my fears don't let me speak more than I have....
Underrated playlist fr
It feels like everything I've ever known, everything I've ever cared about, has been stripped away from me, leaving behind a hollow shell where my life used to be. The things that once brought me joy, the people I used to lean on, and the dreams I once chased with passion all of it is gone, scattered like ashes in the wind. Every day feels like a battle just to survive, and the weight of it all is unbearable. I’m drowning in a sea of despair, and no matter how hard I try to reach for the surface, I keep sinking deeper. It's as if the world has turned its back on me, and I'm left standing in the ruins of what once was, with nothing but the echoes of a life I can no longer touch.
I can’t do this anymore. The fight has left me, and I’m exhausted beyond words. Every step forward feels like a step into the void, and I’m not sure I have the strength to keep walking. The pain of losing everything of watching everything I’ve ever loved slip through my fingers is more than I can bear. I’ve reached the end of my rope, and I don't see a way out of this darkness. It feels like there’s nothing left for me here, and the thought of trying to rebuild from the rubble seems impossible. I’m lost, broken, and so utterly defeated that I don't know how to continue living in a world where everything that mattered to me is gone.
srry if its alot i js had to vent take care all of u
My best friend left school last year and we talk on the phone sometimes when she returns home (she went to a boarding school), after she left i still had friends , basically i tried being nice to everyone so the whole class was friendly with me, but there was this one duo of besties who were always together, nut once a new girl transferred to our class, one friend from the duo left the other, i really didn’t think much we were young.
Now we’re more of seniors, the left out friend and I became friends, best friends to be exact, and for some reason joined in with the new girl’s duo, so now it was a group of four, but the new girl didn’t like me nor the left out friend, she started treating badly the people she didn’t like , but no one questioned a thing, because who would ever go against her? She’s the prettiest in the whole school, she’s the topper, every guy wants her or her best friend, they’re like rlly popular for their looks and outgoing personality…..and when after having kept bullied the leftover friend and kicked her out of the group basically, no one batted an eye.. and fast forward now a couple weeks ago she told me she never though of me as a friend, the girl I stood up for when none of the fakes did, the girl I thought was my bestie, hated me….always, she and her pretty bsf are always mad at me if I just simply talk to others, i am not allowed to talk to others, nor invited in conversations, always left out, they on,y need me when they are bored or when they need me , they always hit me and laugh about it,they insult me and say it’s a joke,they don’t respect my opinions, im merely their puppet and I fucking hate it here, i wish i coul change schools but my parents don’t want to listen either, i ha e no real friends , no personality, looks, ir grades I’m a loser and deeply inside i feel like i am paying for a sin I will never commit again
I'm sorry that this is happening to you. You don't deserve it. Please keep telling your parents about this or someone you know you could trust. Bullying is not good. It could effect you a lot. Mentally and physically. Make them beg for your forgiveness. I don't know who you are, but I know you're pretty. Don't let others tell you otherwise. I'm proud of you, if you don't get good grades, I'm still proud of you, for being here, for staying strong even tho you're going through something so hard. Please take care of yourself. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things that makes you happy. Don't let others prevent you from doing things that makes you happy. Take care :)
@@Ed1th.I am so grateful that someone took the time to read my comment, I thank you for being so kind.
But I have tried talking with my parents many times , soo many times that I don’t even think it’s gonna help at this point.
My mother doesn’t want to understand anything, she calls me a psychopath and other names I possibly couldn’t write, but the past times that I did talk with her she always shared my personal moments with her to everyone as if I have no privacy , for them my mental health is a joke, she share’s everything embarrassing and things I kept a secret with her to everyone , my father scolds me every time I want to give entrance exams for other prestigious and better schools, I don’t have any people close to me to share stuff either, the girls at school make me sick , and I’m not allowed to talk with guys. I have hobbies I want to try out, things I want to do, places I want to go, but it’s all a joke, I am always compared by my parents to other kids, because As long as my room is clean, I don’t wear short clothes, and my grades are good, that’s all that’ll make my parents happy
@@kire1948 You're so welcome. You deserve kindness and happiness. You really do. I wish you do some day.
Y'know, that could unfortunately be verbal abuse. It's horrible to not care for what's happening to you in school. She shouldn't have invalid your privacy. Mental health is not a joke. It's a real thing that many people had struggled with, or are struggling with. Mental health is a serious thing. It could happened to kids, teens, adults and elders. This y'know, I'm afraid would be mental abuse. She shouldn't invalidate your privacy and she shouldn't have told others your secrets. Your privacy and secrets are yours. They can't act like it's theirs. It's NOT okay. Any parents shouldn't scold their kid for such things like that. When making decisions like that, it should also be your decision, not only them. Can counselors in your school, perhaps, help you in some way? This is a serious matter. You're still so young and you deserve to be treated kindly. You deserve a perfect time when you're still just so young, not a traumatic experience where it could lead you to having suicidal thoughts. I'm just so sorry, but this could not keep happening any further. Please try to tell your teacher about those girls. Do you mean that those girls prevent you from talking to guys or your parents? Don't let your parents prevent you from doing what you want. You always have your own freedom. They can't just let you stay like this. It's YOUR decision whether if you want to try out new hobbies, things you want to do, places you want to go and others. Don't let your parent's negative words go through you. Don't let them effect you. Tell yourself you deserve happiness and that you're proud of yourself. Tell yourself compliments. Tell yourself that you've done enough and that's enough. I'm so proud of you, for everything. For staying here. That makes you strong. No one is perfect. Everybody makes mistakes sometimes, and that's completely okay. Don't let them control you, okay?
Clean room or not, I'm still proud of you. Choice of clothing, then again, should be your decision. Do what you think is best for yourself, not for others. Good grades or bad grades, that's completely fine. I'm still proud of you. Do things that makes you happy too. Care for your own needs and wants. Don't just do things for someone only, do it for yourself too. Make yourself happy. I wish I could make you happy. I wish I could make you feel better at some point, because you, you deserve happiness. I am grateful that you've responded to my comment. I hope I could help at some point. I hope you'll find what you need. Stay safe, take care. Eat well, drink enough water, sleep well and do things you love. Try out some new things. I'm sure it'll be worth it. It's better trying than being scared to do so. Sometimes you might feel relieved to know what happens when you try. Please don't give up. You're so young, you deserve to be so loved and again, you deserve happiness. Again, I'm proud of you. Keep going. My apologies, if this was way too long.
"You're not depressed!" "Stop being so melodramatic." I really wish I could stop thinking of all the horrible thoughts that cross my mind, but I can't, and I feel so useless because everyone thinks I'm lying. Not even the people closest to me think I need help, even though I've tried to tell them I do need help, and I can't help myself because of the mindset I'm in.
For everyone who needs to hear this and for everyone who doesn't. (You can vent in replies
i feel like your being too much of a therapist friend rn and not getting any/enough love or appreciation. here take a hug
@samanthacanadayt I agree. And I know how it feels to be one. So I know exactly how they’re feeling. At least how I feel in a situation like this: I’m saying all these nice things and taking care of everything and everyone yourself but you can’t even worry about yourself. But you will never tell anyone because you don’t want to put pressure on others. But then that just builds more pressure on YOU instead.
@@Its_Syd_2219im sorry you know how it feels to be one.
It's not the playlist it's the comments that make me cry 😭
People say “you can move on you’ll have people in your life”. Or “go put on makeup ,go lose some weight”. And other people at school say they are friends with me like everyone at the whole entire school says they can understand but the thing is I know they all may have been through worse but not what in my thoughts and my feelings say I’m just a kid stuck in a teenage body with no one by my side when my whole entire family has been separated from each other and I mean like my whole entire family we all barely see each other even my cousins they barely talk to me and never wonder how am I like nobody wants me they say they do but I think through my head saying “ then why are you doing this to me why do you say I don’t love you when I loved you first I loved all of y’all first even my siblings mostly them cause they were there for me mostly my sister cause my other sibling passed away when I was 5 and it was almost my birthday and I had to deal with all the crying in my little room I toke over from my brother’s bedroom while passing by all the favorite things he loved while I was wearing a matching shirt of what he loved and after that I had to do with more lost family members dieing on me and they said I was too young to understand that they were dead but I already knew cause I saw him in his bed not moving or breathing I was the one who first knocks on his damn door just to see if he was ok right after getting out of the shower and was dressed cause I shared another bedroom with my sister and mostly everyday I was the one who breaks in his room laughing with him and watching and getting reached from him while he was playing games and he was 19 right when he died and they think I can’t sit there and see how he lays there and getting taken by the ambulance from having a seizure an my sister toke cared of me mostly than parents should my sister was always there she was my best friend she was my world she was my life my wise person my leader my everything and we were so close and when brother left our lives life became worse mom and dad fights all the time and they separate rooms and never talk but argue all the time and mom found somebody knew and was already getting more traumatized by hearing banging on the wall and yelling in my moms room while I sat there in the front door crying and crying and later on a few years later my sister moved to her boyfriends and I was the one sitting there all alone in the living room with no one not. Even my dad. He always locked his door and barely talks to me I always knock on his door but I smell the smokes and alcohol as I already knew he wasn’t there in his joyful mind and my moms not attacking how she use to when our family was perfect and I sat there in the damn living crying and no one heard me I reached out for anybody’s hand but no one toke it but my sister did she comes visit and always checks on me before she goes back to her boyfriends and she would even let me spend the night where she was just to keep me safe from all the drama and mostly I cry and cry in my brothers room where he use to be wondering why me while I be at school most of people didn’t want me but two old friends that I lost later on and yet I always watched myself grow while looking in the mirror and tell myself “I look so ugly when I cry when do I even cry” and a few years later it got worst and I went to grandmas and my moms boyfriend came along and beated grandma in front of me than points the knife at me saying “turn around so I can cut your grandmother into pieces and probably will do it to you too” and then point the gun at me while I hid under the bed crying and watching and it was all for a medicine battle to borrow and beated up my uncle and slide my dad against the wall and repeatedly beated up my mom every time and every day and finally I had enough and I told the school and later on I was separated from them and I couldn’t even barely contact them and after few months the woman promised I could see them all again but I never had the chance cuz of what the woman did and the woman even traumatized me everyday saying I’m too skinny and too fat I’m too stupid and so ugly and many more things and did more worse things and when one day I accidentally hit her she slapped my face so hard I had a bruises and fell against the floor crying and crying constantly for days and even at school nobody wanted to talk to me they all used me and bullied me and I wished I had the two friend I had when I needed them but now I’m alone afraid scared traumatized and always saying to myself “I’m never good enough to do anything no matter what I do I try and try but I can’t do this on my own I want my sissy(nickname for sister as child self) “ and I always cried like a child and they say why am I so childish everyday abd after a while I finally came back home but before then my sister passed away and that toke my heart out because the woman who was watching over me never wanted to see her again as now till this day I’m standing on my too feet while my mom and dad are divorced of course and mom making me guilty and sad mostly and other family members not talking to me as often and alone with no friends as I’m homeschooled and moms boyfriend in jail he deserves it but every time I get out of my room something bad always happen as I always think I’m the cause of everything no matter what I do they always say do better your too fat you eat to much food your ugly go put on some makeup or go make friend well I can’t can’t you see why ? I always wanted to just make myself disappear but it’s like I want to die but I really don’t want to it’s just how I feel and it’s so hard when they always say “S.M.I.L.E” and you know how I spell smile out ?
S: suffers
M:mentallly damaged
I: invisible to the world
L: lied to
E:: Emotionally abused
that’s how I spell out smile in my emotions and in my head and I am still alone and always crying still and missing my sister and brother as they were the only thing I had left in life now I’m alone as they were just a dream and not reality don’t anyone knows how I feel and still can never get over it as more people in my family fades away from me and when I finally contacted an old friend finally and when they spent the night she talked to her other friend instead of me and I said let’s hangout and she said maybe later and later on I said do you want to hang out now and she said later but I said I have waited for you for ever just to hangout with you and now your saying maybe Later? And she says trust me I will hang out with you later on a few more shouts and I said why not now and she said cause I’m talking to my friends and I’m not use to you and when she said that she didn’t even know that it finally broke me and I went to the bathroom looking in the mirror crying and crying and I thought to myself “ after all in my life how I cry every second …every minute and hour and days just to be with the most people I loved and missed just to not be able to be laughing and talking like other fitness and family meme bees should be …” and later on she still hasn’t talked to me for days now and I’ve been texting her and she barely texts back and she mostly says she is busy when I see and hear her mostly talking to other friends and mostly now everyday I fairly smile and saying I’m doing fine as I say it to every I go to my room and cry so many times more as I am still faking my smiles and happiness all I had is now Gone as I have no one to love no friends nobody just the shadows and myself ….
im so tired of everything being about my sister. shes so open about being sad and my parents starting taking her to therapy, and no matter how many times i tell them i feel the same way or tell them my feelings they say im just faking it or i just want attention and my sister calls me a pick me for that. little do they know ive been struggling with depression for almost 6 years now. my sister ruined everything for me. shes all my parents care about now. ive known im the least favorite child for a long time but its too much now. this is gonna make me sound bad but shes always making everything about her sadness and everything. like i get how she feels. im so tired of my life. im tired of nobody liking me. im tired of not having any friends. thats one of the reasons why i wanna be a kpop idol. ive been dancing for a couple years now and my parents told me i could audition in november but then as soon as i was about to submit my audition they straight up told me they didnt support me. that was first time ive ever cried so hard in front of them. but they support my sister with her music career. i genuinely dont know what i did to make them not like me. theres more i can say its just too much. i have been giving them so many signs but they dont care. i even went to the school counselor and they still didn’t care. i started dancing to forget about it and so i can get far away from everything here but i cant anymore. they thought that i’ll probably be here for the rest of my life is such a depressing thought to me. i have to leave this toxic town. i would honestly rather die than stay here. nobody cares for me. if i went to korea to be a trainee i’d be happier because im not here anymore. im tired of my sister and my parents.
They all ignore me. And then they ask "Heyy, why are you so quiet? You don't want to talk?? Awh" No I want to talk but no one is f listening.
I freaking hate this.
How do we stay good people when there's constant bad happenings everywhere ?