My First Three Manic Episodes and Psychosis Experience
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- Опубліковано 28 сер 2024
- In this video I talk about my resistance to medication and why, my hospitalizations, some of the symptoms I exhibited when I was in psychosis. I briefly mention the difference between Bipolar 1 & 2. I talk about hypersexuality with bipolar disorder. I talk about being unfaithful to my husband. The feelings of guilt and shame that come with bipolar disorder, suicide ideation, side effects of medication and how that affected my life, I basically walk you through my first three psychotic episodes some of the delusions I was having and how that affected my life. I also talk about the consequences that are unavoidable with bipolar disorder without medication. I strongly advocate for medication, for some finding the right medication can be a lengthy process but bipolar disorder is deadly if left untreated. There is no cure for bipolar disorder. When we live with bipolar guilt and shame comes along with that. Guilt about bailing on our friends last minute because we are too depressed. Shame about feeling suicidal or depressed or things we have done and said. Embarrassment towards those that have seen us in our psychotic state. We feel everything and a much more intense level than the average person medication or not. I will make a video for my 4th episode soon. There is even more to the story and there are a lot of things I can't bring myself to talk about because it is just too painful but when I finish my book I will include some of those things in there just not on youtube. We are hard to love be we love hard and we are no less okay than you, we are just different and sometimes need more from the world and our relationships.
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My wife is currently committed for the 6th time. She won’t accept any help and will not let me help her at all. We have been together for almost 20 years and I still love her. Thank you for sharing your story.
I'm sorry that is so aweful. You are a really amazing person to be there with her. A month after I was married I was psychotic on the streets for a year. My husband read this book "I'm Not Sick And I Don't Need Help." He said it helped him understand a lot. Anyone expierencing someone with bipolar not wanting help should watch this video. Xavier the author does a demonstation and if you have time, I promise it will be helpful. ua-cam.com/video/NXxytf6kfPM/v-deo.html
@@BipolarPerson I have been reading that book and others so that I can better understand her illness.
@@sempertexas5456 ❤️ Thank you, your wife is lucky to have you.
@@BipolarPerson I’m meeting with an attorney next week to file for full guardianship because at this point she is so paranoid that she refuses to sign anything.
@@sempertexas5456 That's so hard. My husband and I are legally separated just in case I have another episode and end up forcing us into poverty. I'm sending all the positive vibes from the universe to you and her. I hope the storm passes soon.
My partner just got diagnosed at age 46 and is in denial. This diagnosis helps put so many pieces together over the last five years and helps me understand so much and have a deep level of compassion and empathy. It doesn't make me feel any better but certainly provides great insight. Love and light to all experiencing bipolar and to all the family members.
❤️ Maybe this link will. I reccommend it to anyone who has a loved one with bipolar. Xavier speaks about the denial and gives a demonstration that's pretty powerful. He says "it's typically not denial it's Anosognosia a symptom. He is a prominent figure as it relates to Bipolar and the updated DSM-5. I'm glad your partner finally got a diagnosis and has someone like you who cares enough to seek out information and understand. That's the thing with severe mental illnesses it affects everyone around you. You are in a better place than you were before the diagnosis you're just working on the next step. Keep up hope & strength. It gets better. ❤️ua-cam.com/video/NXxytf6kfPM/v-deo.html
Thank you. You are such a brave and courageous beautiful woman. Truly 💜
You are so brave for choosing to share your story! Keep sharing because it helps in your healing process!
Hi, thank you for this video. I have had several episodes of mania and psychosis. Thankfully always only lasting around 2 weeks. I have also struggled with addiction and anxiety and depression my whole adult life. Hearing your story reminds me to not blame and punish myself. It is a very hard road to travel. I admire your bravery in sharing. Thank you.
Our daughter is bipolar and is having psychotic episodes. I ran across your channel and I'm trying to help understand her better. She is 29. Thank you for sharing.
I hope she gets better. ❤️ I'm sorry.
Try dr Kelly brogan she heals these Individuals a lor
I was diagnosed bipolar 2 so I know what you are going thru. It took me a long time to identify though. It also took me forever to find the right med combo. I'm sending you good thoughts. You are awesome.
Thank you. Ditto! ❤️
The only thing that works for me is gabapentin.
I struggle with Severe a manic episodes. Thanks for sharing 😊
How can manic be a strugle?
It's so much love😂😂😂...
Thankyou for your raw honesty.
Worse than you freaking out is someone you love and depend on freaking out. My mother has had two psychotic breaks. I would rather have freaked out in her place. The first one came out of nowhere. It was desperate. I was devastated. I was 15 years old. It was just me and my mom. I was more devastated when my mother was forced to look for my father, since no one wanted to help her. My father is a sadistic narcissist and profiteer just like his mother. My mother's father and stepsisters wanted to throw her into a public psychiatric hospital. They almost succeeded. My father and his mother wouldn't let them because my father saw the advantage in keeping my mother. She received money every month and he decided to take advantage. I don't know if I will ever know if my father did some witchcraft to get my mother back with him, but I don't doubt it. Unfortunately he is still alive. He must have done it out of pure evil, even if he knew the risks. To make matters worse, we went to my father's mother's house, my paternal grandmother. My father's sister and my two cousins still lived there. It was a real hell. Threats, fights. I couldn't eat or brush my teeth. I was shaking 24 hours a day with worry and anxiety, a horrible feeling. We stayed in that house for a year until we moved to a house on the same street where my father's mother lived. I swore on my life that we would have to put up with my dad for 4, 8 or 9 and, if we were very unlucky, longer. However, it was quite ironic. It wasn't even three years later and my mother went berserk again. That outburst was the "exit door". We left my father due to a series of tragic things, which I will not be able to name. My father even said that my mother was schizophrenic and I believed him, but after we left that place, my mother was diagnosed with bipolar disorder. Seriously, if my mom had family that cared about her, she wouldn't have snapped the second time. That created trauma in me. It was my father's fault that I was raised dependent.
It was terrible to see my mother freaking out. In the first outbreak my mother became obsessed with the singer Tiago Iorc. She likes his songs. She was also listening to a lot of John Mayer. In the second outbreak she was listening a lot to Coldplay repeatedly, sad songs and stopped listening to the radio. These days she is not very well due to intense worries. She is listening to a lot of Pholhas. I knew she wasn't well because of certain things she did, like changing her clothes often, bathing several times a day, not eating or sleeping, plus the things she said, and she wanted to throw several things away. I don't think anyone imagines that such a thing can happen around you. I felt an absurd desire to already be in college, to be independent, but I was still in the second year of high school. Plus my dad wouldn't let me live right. It's frustrating to know that.
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😢 That is so heartbreaking. I don't know how anyone survives without family. They say hurt people hurt people. To go through that as a child is so much trauma. Yet you have persevered through all that. Do you feel it made you stronger?
Thank you for sharing and detailing your story. I hope it helps many suffering from psychosis or those helping them.
Wow your accounts are frightening and having that reaction to meds and handling your life afterwards was very brave and i am very impressed how you carry yourself and your storytelling!! You are so articulate and smart!! I have a cousin with bipolar 2 and a good female friend with bipolar mania so i seen a glimpse of what you have been through your husband is a good man, hope your relationship with him is great and hope you and your family are close. I wish i could give you a hug!😊
Awe, thank you. My husband is incredible, I am so grateful for him. I really hurt him so bad and he just forgives me, knows I was sick, doesn't judge me or make feel guilty I'm really lucky. I wish I was close with my family but I'm grateful for the support and love from the family and friends I do have. Virtual hug accepted! ❤️🤗
💘Thank you for sharing your painful journey with us ✝️🙏🏼
Prayers for you and your family
Thank you. ❤️
Hey. Very brave of you to share your story. Takes so much courage. Hope you are doing well.
You are truly amazing to share your story it’s incredible the similarities I share with you. You should be so proud of yourself for the courage you have in being able to share the truth in your story!
Wish u all the best with your future x
Hello I hope you are doing well. I can relate to a lot of what you been through and going through. Keep posting and stay strong💕💕
She just answered the questions we all have…psychosis is fueled by drugs & alcohol….which is no surprise, I mean what do you expect is you’re already sick and you add fuel to the fire you get a huge fire ball right ? Kids, stay off drugs !! Esp if you have childhood trauma , get help, heal and stay sober.
Hi!!! Thank you for your comment. You are right drugs can definitely prolong and exacerbate psychosis but you do not have to be on drugs or using drugs to experience psychosis. Psychosis is a symptom of Bipolar 1 and Mania. Drug use can be a symptom of Bipolar Psychosis because our thinking and decision making are impaired and we look to self medicate. People including myself have had plenty of episodes where drug use was not involved. Someone in psychosis is not living in reality so they have no expectations.
I've been sober and never touched drugs and still had psychosis. But that doesn't make me better than people who did get drug and alcohol fueled episodes.
Please stop spreading untrue statements. You get psychosis without use of drugs and alcohol, its a symptoms itself of bipolar 1
I got psychosis from cortisone and no one believed me something was really wrong and my doctor prescribed me drugs and drugs and drugs through my therapists and I was like please I have myself not in control and I am puking and impulsive and all of that and saying things that are not true and I feel so restless and no one believed me.
when you said "there was no past and no future, only now" that is exactly what all the spiritual teachers and channelers talk about, you were accessing a higher dimension of awareness, you just couldn't integrate it with this broken society we live in.
Hi!! I love that! I do understand that and I'm trying to meditate more and reach enlightenment it is really hard, but I keep trying.
@@BipolarPerson oh speaking of enlightenment, I kinda loved how in these states you kept being drawn to homeless people. it reminded me of a thing I've sometimes theorized about, that it would probably be easier for a homeless person to reach enlightenment than a very rich person bc homeless people have so much less attachment and pride keeping them stuck. I don't know if that's actually true, I live in a cold country so there's not many homeless people here for me to make friends with 😅
It's partially true I think, but I also think it's because they were the only people that didn't call me crazy. Looking back I might have met one or two truely enlightened individuals. If you haven't read The Unteathered Soul it's a really good mindfulness book that has helped me so much.
Hey I think it was a couple years back and I'm just noticing that you had appreciated my sons Christian rap in the city and thank you for that
Thank you for sharing this so open I really appreciated.
God bless you for everything .
Thank you for your story. When you talk about the shame and the guilt, after getting over an episode. The grandeur, thinking you can do so many creative things. I guess I sound very convincing that I could do the things I promised. A few fantastic. Many less than mediocre. The shame of this is hard to let go of. Taken awhile, but I am getting there.
The shame we carry because we hurt our family. Especially my daughter who was just trying to help me. I would get mad at her bossiness.
When you said “losing your mind, how can we think all these things”.! Sometimes I would think wow! More likely , how could my mind spiral to thinking all these things. Exhausting, but ever, ever grateful for the days, weeks, sometimes months of peace. Yet in the background, always the fear of another episode.
The best to you. ❤
I think most of us live with the fear of having another episode that part is really hard.
thank you for sharing this ❤️
Of course, I would have eventually come across your blog. Algorithyms would catch on to search bar full of bipolar this, psychology and comorbidities. It was a true gift to my eyes and brain to have landed on you. 🙏 Namaste - my name is Juliette. I, too, suffer from Bipolar 1, psychosis and acute alcoholism
[ now 10 yrs sober ]. I am heavy hearted to hear of your episodes and the lack of knowledge from ppl around you to better help navigate your life. I unfortunately did not have such a loving support group. Coming from a very stoic stepford wivish family existence, I wasn't praying enough, and we did not display any unruly behaviors. You said something along the lines of
"Our mental illness caused trauma, and we got PTSD from this trauma." Did I quote you right? Because I never thought of it that way. BAM, it's an eye opener. The hardest part about finally getting institutionalized for 2 yrs is that I didn't have the language to even begin to know how to ask questions regarding my mental illness. I did not understand anything. It's taken years of research and therapy to begin to see the patterns of my episodes and what were some triggers.
I'll be viewing all your posts.
May all the beauty and goodness of the universe hold you dear.
Congratulations on getting sober and on top of mental illness!!! ❤️ I don't remember what I said lol but our episodes of major depression or other bipolar symptoms psychosis and hypomania studies have shown that over time without treatment we can get brain damage. I do think the simple aspect of losing touch with reality is so intense and real with bipolar that, that itself is traumatic. I also think it's really traumatic for loved ones so we carry a lot guilt over our symptoms and confuse that with who we are sometimes I think. At least I do. I don't know how to apologize enough for hurting my loved ones at the same time I was psychotic so it isn't my fault I was experiencing delusions and black outs mean, it's hard to earn forgiveness for that even if it isn't your fault people just don't understand bipolar disorder as a deadly disorder and the symptoms and rather a personality. I was grateful to finally have an answer for my episodes too, scared, but grateful to know I could do something
@@BipolarPersongood job on your videos. Practice your music too; I'm sure you're very gifted! I too am bipolar 1 and have always been a single mom now 69 years old. My son is 49. All the best to you!
My son is 49 years.
Thank you so much. I've been in depression for a while and my music has been on lock down....I'm hoping for the end of this month to release 2 news songs. ❤️
@@BipolarPerson looking forward to hearing your music. Sleep well. I too have been in a depression for 4 years which I don't remember depression in the past. My last hospitalization was 4 years ago as a result of a psychotic breakdown drinking alcohol and smoking pot really exacerbated the event. I'm griefing the results of bad decisions I made in 2020. The year of Covid was crazy and I let the wrong people in my life. I stopped medication went to college when my son started kindergarten 1979. No episodes until 2009 back on meds. Off meds again 2015. The year 2020 uggg.
Hi steph dropped a huge like here, your amazing 💝
I'm from Santa Maria myself!
Just diagnosed with bipolarism at 31 after being undiagnosed most of my life even went through the service without it being diagnosed. Your channel definitely has been helping me and tons of things just make sense now
There is a place in Pismo Beach that has these amazing sandwiches and champagne brunch. It's soooo good!!!You will see life get a lot easier. It's still hard and adjusting the meds is scary but they really do work. I've been on just a mood stabilizer for 6 years, currently I had to add Geodon an anti-psychotic just through the summer my doctor said to get me over that tragedy (my dog died). I've added and taken away meds for ptsd and night sweats. We just have to be really careful with the unexpected things like a sudden death in the family. Thank you for your service, I'm so glad the videos help. 😁
@@BipolarPerson hmm I'm wondering if your talking about Hoagies because that's my go to whenever I'm visiting from Vegas
I'm not sure but they had this triple cheese sandwich I was in love with.
I had depression and i took antidepressants 6 months ago for first time and i expeirenced symptoms of bipolar from antidepressants,despite i dont have bipolar!
Suddenly after antidepressants i start playing lottery,i had visions of grandeur that i will win,those fantasies and aggressive day dreaming was like half of day!
I was aware i might not win,i was aware is a side effects,but i was like for sure i willl,the fantasies wont stop,and prior pills i never had this.
I had other wierd daydreaming n fantasizes!But i was aware is not right,but they were so powerful!
Also i start listening to music,which i never did prior,i like movies,podcast,documentaries,not really into music,unless is a party.
Eventually i stop after 6months from the aggressive side effects,after 2 mnoths aggressive acneea,i neve had acneea in my lifeeeeee,until the age of 40,suddenly i had acneea all over my face,cheeks,lips,chin,nose.forehead,around eyelid,under eyebrow,under the molds,ear lobe!
Also i start losing hair,left n right,i could see my scalp though the hair in a wierd way i never seen,llike im getting bald.
Wasnt mentioned as a side effect but if u google hair loss n antidepressants appear that lithium,antideressants,seizzures med corticosteroids,cause hair loss.
After the beginning of hair loss i stop that day n it recovered but acneea is still there,despite quitting pills 1 month prior,the acneea is less but still there,it just doesnt heal.
Also i had restlesss leg syndrome!
also i had joint pain like i was 70s,in my wrist,knees,and fingers!
Im done with antidepressants!
First, hi!!! Second wow! I am so sorry that all happened! If you have bipolar and you are prescribed anti- depressants SSRI's you can go into psychosis. One time I got insanely stressed and developed acne in adulthood it was tiny little pimples everywhere. If you experience hopelessness and severe depression, sleeping for 18 hours at a time please see another doctor. Medication is a process. The first time I was put on meds I was allergic and almost died but now I'm on a different medication has saved my life. I could not survive this world without my medication. There is a test for bipolar if you just google it, I would take it just to see and then see another doctor just to be safe if you experience any symptoms. The medication is such a lifesaver but it can also wreak havoc if you are allergic or it's not the right one so it's super important to convey even the tiniest side effect. Thank you so much for your story and support! ❤️
Honestly watching this right now is making me so sad. I have bipolar 1 but it’s really making me see how I am messed up. I’m lucky because I got help and lithium after my first episode but I’m so scared watching this video. I’m truly scared.
Awe..my situation is unique because I didn't get on medication until 7 years ago. All the bad stuff happened before they gave me my diagnosis. Since medication, life is awesome yeah I still have issues and when my dog died I had to hospitalize myself because the trauma sent me into an episode but the medication helped enough for me to make that decision. It does suck sometimes I am still realizing how messed up I am. But everyones messed up one way or another.
I love Jack in the Box. Wish we had them where I live. Thanks for the story. People love when they get to understand. But it's a long road to understanding. But to fully know is left for the victims of bipolar. Can be lonely.
I’ve had him it doesn’t matter they pass
Hey I am really sorry for the things what you experienced. There is hope tho, look into Chris Palmer's work and the ketogenic diet, there is a high chance that it would help, but make sure to check you blood after the first two or three weeks, especially your thyroid levels. Lot of people healed already, and maybe you can too. This diet is different in terms of the biomechanism how it works, and the reason why it can work is well-grounded in science. If that doesnt work try maybe carnivore as an elimination diet. Stay strong there is hope!
Hi! Thank you so much for watching and the information! I did check him out and it's super interesting but he says on his website his treaments should only be explored by those who are non-responsive to all other forms of treatment (medication, psycho-therapy, ECT) as the diet requires hospitalization and being monitored constantly and the research is in it's infancy. His research is a glimmer of hope for those non responsive but not yet proven or studied with a control group. Thankfully!!! I am on medication and have been sucessfully managing my disorder with lamictal. Everything that happened in the video happened prior to my diagnosis and me taking medication. I haven't had a psychotic episode in 6 years!!!!! I tear up writing that. There is no cure for bipolar disorder as of yet but I do want to say something since you mentioned it. Most people are unaware that heart disease is the number 1 preventable death in the U.S. Heart disease is caused by an excess of cholesterol which is only available outside our body in animal flesh. The World Health Organization has also labeled meat a known carcinogin (cancer causing agent. ) MOST importantly people are also unaware of the extreme torture and cruelty in the meat and dairy industry. They lie to us telling us their practices are humane, it is a lie. (Dominion Movie on youtube) There are some great documentaries I watched that exposed me to the truth Forks Over Knives, What the Health, Earthlings... etccc. If you can able to please watch this and if it impacts and you have questions please let me know. Thank you so much again. ❤️ ua-cam.com/video/UcN7SGGoCNI/v-deo.html
@@BipolarPerson I am really happy for the results you have and hope you will keep it up! This topic is really close to me.
It started with depression at the beginning when I was 14, and then later it was mixed up with ADHD. Depression went on and off for a decade, when I started to develop OCD symptoms as well as bipolar 2 (probably). I didnt go to a mental professional because I wanted to just to stroll through it. (It was not a good idea probably, and I dont recommend.)
Long story short, I found Chris Palmer and keto some months ago, and after that I checked my blood. I was indeed having problems with thyroid as well as I was prediabetic. Keto helped me gain my stability back.
The diet can also be done vegetarian or vegan if that is an issue, which I can understand. :) The reason people with medication needs supervision is that the diet can make your medication too strong over time, and then it can induce mania, or hypomania.
Maybe I could convince you maybe not but if someone else also reads it, I would be happy to just help one person. :) The brain is also an organ and we need to take care of it the same way as the rest of the body.
@@norbertjanoscsorba38 Have you ever been to a psychiatrist and diagnosed?
Finding this late after being told I am in a manic episode so watching to see if anything resonates
Alot of the things you've experienced my daughter experience exact same things your videos have been so helpful to me
Advice is hard. Your such a good mom. A lot of parents don't care to find out this stuff. ❤️ My greatest piece of advice is always don't give up but I can't see you doing that since you are here. I've been wanting the make a video about what to do when you are diagnosed I'll do that this week maybe today. One thing my mom told me was "mental illness is not a character flaw." That felt like a relief. We feel a lot of shame and guilt and we suffer memory loss. A counselor told me once in group counseling "you were in psychosis it wasn't your fault." Those words they really helped me forgive myself.
@@BipolarPerson thank you so much for your kind words. It's the aggression and barrating that are hardest besides seeing how different she is . She is very much struggling with emotions like currently she is crying over headphones sobbing and screaming at me about headphones. I know it's not her . She isn't exactly understanding or accepting the psychosis . I've researched it could be up to 6 six to come back to some kind of normalcy. I'm just helpless I wish I could fix this.
@@LeaVeIttoBeBer It's hard to be on the recieving end I'm sorry. The headphones, is she screaming because she wants to escape and listen to music or are they wire tapped or is there a camera in the headphones recording her? If she takes medication she'll get better quick but without medication it can take a long time. I know the mean things we can say in psychosis hurt but don't listen to that it's not real. Thank you for your condolances about Freddy. I don't know if you've seen this video but you have to watch it will help I promise. Ted Talk ua-cam.com/video/NXxytf6kfPM/v-deo.html
He does a demonstration that is really helpful.
@@BipolarPerson thank you for the video I'm watching now 🙂
Did it help?
You are very brave
I'm going to make another video about helping someone in my next video because I just picked my friend up from the psychiatric hospital today. (different friend) and I was shocked I convinced her to drive herself to an E. R. 3 days ago so I'm doing a video about how I did it. Thank you again for the super thanks, you are the first person to do that for me. 😁
Thanks for sharing in great detail of your experiences. Can’t imagine being in Psychosis mode for one day, but 8 months of loosing you mind. So after the long episode, you get back to you old self until your next manic episode? How about the ppl. that never come out of it and stay in the manic mode?
Thank you. ❤️ The shame and embarrassment and depression after each psychotic episode lingered for about 2 years until I got back to what felt like me. As long as there is someone there to love you I think people can come out of it, if there is no one there then, there is nothing to come back for. With medication it's really different, I did have another episode but no where near as bad and my recovery time was minimal, I took myself to the hospital and recovered and a few weeks with a medication adjustment. My dog was ran over and killed in front of me, that was the trigger. The hard part is when substances get involved. So many of us self medicate and then end up addicted.
Alot of incidences of arguing and fighting in family of one or two Bipolar disorder are started by the person with bipolar and the rest of the family not understanding the wild behaviours.
Putting the responsibility for siblings on her was inappropriate
Welcome to the Rodio... Hope we all keep riding 🙏
😊😁❤️ Thank you!
@@BipolarPerson It really helped listening to your story. It helps to know other cool 😎 have exsperienced the very same symptoms 😢... To know there are others out there, who are on the same team. Study out the effect fatty acids found in fish oils, Saw Palmetto have the the receptors in the brain 🧠 Saw Palmetto really helps me... It also balances the hormones naturally.
Thank you, I appreciate you saying that. Team Bipolar!! 😁 My husband took Saw Palmetto for a while I don't know if he still does but I'll give it a shot for sure! ❤️
Hello! Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. There is so little information out there concerning manic episodes so I just want to tell you how much I appreciate hearing your personal accounts of it.
I currently have a friend who is going through a lot of symptoms of what looks to be a manic episode (lasting a little over 2 months now). She is undiagnosed but becomes offended/angered when people suggest she seek out a therapist. Do you believe she may be more open to seeing a mental health professional when she comes out of her manic episode and into the depressive state?
❤️ Sometimes I get angry at the internet and humans in general but people like you give me hope. I think so yes, the depressive state is so devastating that then it might be a relief for her to have an answer to it all. If she is in mania psychosis it would be tough to get through to her because she's not in reality and would not know she is sick.
@@BipolarPerson Thank you so much for your quick response! I want you to know that I am incredibly thankful for you. I was really lost and confused in trying to figure out what is going on with my friend. Your videos are helping me a lot in trying to understand what she is going through and how to better help.
@@windfaerietree My next video is going to be full documentary, I hope it really helps people. I've put more work into it than any of my other videos. I'll be sharing a lot of people's stories.
I am now realizing I answered you from my other youtube account lol! Whoops! I hope everything is going okay or starting to get better..
Bipolar is coping mechanisms
Having done acid when you were younger may have altered your brain chemistry along with your abusive upbringing. Drugs plays a big role on the mind.
Does bi polar meds really help ? I’m so scared of what I’m in and but just don’t the medicine . Anybody have advice on medicine and how to overcome the fear of not taking it . I do wanna get better ! Any advice on medication worked for phycosis ?
Yes, they work take them, you just have to monitor them like I said in the short I just posted. Taking medication for bipolar disorder can mean life or death that's why we die on average 8-12 years sooner than the average person. I am on medicaton now with no side effects. I did have problems in the past with other medications and everyone's body is different. Sometimes it can take time to find the right one but trust me I almost lost my life multiple times before I got on medication 6 years. It's normal to be afraid of the meds I was too but eventually I saw how dangerous my life could be without them. I could have hurt myself or worse others like Nicole Linton who was speeding in an episode and killed 7 people.
@@BipolarPerson I’m very irritated lashing out .being very incoherent day to day is different and idk what will appear from here to the next . I think enough is enough I’m doing this to myself by not taking medication . I have dissociation from anxiety from it . I personally know I’m in some sort of phycosis from bi polar but just kinda riding it out at home . I got so many meds but I’m not like nah this won’t get me out . I’m so stubborn !! Any advice !! ??
@@BipolarPerson enough is enough I hurt them too much
@@user-mm6wu4hg9l The medications saved my life. Meditation, exercise, diet all those help but not enough to prevent symptoms. If you had a migraine or diabetes would you take medicine? The brain is just another part of the body, we didn't chose this disorder and before we had these life saving medicines they would lock us up in horrifying hospital facilities and leave us there to die. We are so lucky to have medicines if you don't like the way one feels you can talk to your doctor anout trying a different one but you've got to take them. From someone who had a near deadly reaction to medicind the first time I took them, I still take medication now even though that happened, it's a different medication but bipolar can take over your life and make it so you constantly havd to start ovef or you become a risk to others and yourself. Please just givd it a try I promise it will help. ❤️
@@BipolarPerson Could you tell me what medicine did that If you don’t mind ?
Right now I have latuda lamictal and Abilify . Respridone. Saraquel . I won’t give none a try but yet I reach out for help desperately to get them. I don’t know why I do it
It is shocking how many doctors mis-diagnosed you. How stupid of them to miss a diagnosis with so many obvious symptoms. I'm sorry you had to deal with this. I've been inspired by the UA-cam channel of a lovely young woman who has reversed her schizoaffective symptoms with a medically supervised ketogenic diet/lifestyle. It seems the brain likes ketones as fuel. Hopefully you will be able to have stability for a long, long time.
Me too my adult children disown me at 52 I had back surgery that didn’t go well and Hunting dies i live with my adult son but I’m not allowed to take about my grandchildren make me s o say 😊
I'm so sorry that really sucks! All my siblings and parents think I'm horrible some people just don't understand. I hope it changes someday and you do get to be with your grandchildren. ❤️
"STRAIGHT JACKET"😱
Apparently I have BPD and refuse to believe it. Yesterday I pulled out my box cutter on some man and he took it as a challenge so I had to call the cops. He kept telling me to get into his car wasn't doing anything he was the one standing across the street looking shady and ghetto at 2pm talking to me...and the whole time I thought he was talking to friends. The only reason why I didn't murder him is because I didn't want to go to jail and be more traumatized then I would look like the vilian but my city and the nearest city is not safe anymore. I also worked at a staffing agency and a pimp tried to pick me up....They try so hard not very smart though. I also spend a lot of money, am addicted to a lot of things, had trauma in my life also...
That is scary!!! I'm glad you are okay.
I am on no anti depressants.
I was with this guy for a yr and something snapped in my head.
Him and I were drinking beer and smoking pot and I almost threw him out the window.
He did not land on the roof and it was a long way down.
I've had about 4 manic episodes in my life.
Most of them are about the occult weird shit.
Taking medication has really changed my life. I still need someone to tell me if I'm hypomanic but for the most part the severe psychosis is gone. It's really strange so many people have spiritual experiences when they get sick. I think our brain takes scary things and makes a story or something.
Had you been involved in any new age /occult practices, like Yoga meditation or manifesting or Astral Projecting or Tarot Cards etc before you had your episode?
No. I am into yoga & meditation now but that started after I was diagnosed.
I recommend Jesus......I mean a relationship... not dead cold religion. @@BipolarPerson
Mmmm. Have you ever been to a pig vigil? It's when a bunch of activists sit outside of a slaughterhouse and as the trucks come in loaded with beautiful creatures filthy with wounds, terrified, thirsty and cold. They usually travel hours on the truck with no water. So I sat out there and I gave the pigs water to show them that humans are capable of giving them love with the rest of the activists. I thought about God a lot that night and I divorced him. I continue to ask those who worship God and Jesus if one of them came to you and said let's have dinner. You have two options I can kill a beautiful loving animal or I can make you something with the abundance of the earth which do you choose. I have heard neither as a response, or no response or I would do what he told me. The thing is people are posed that choice at least theee times a day. Many who boast a relationship with Jesus would not do as Jesus would. Many sayJesus ate fish. But it's as simple as Today would Jesus eat the animal he had to send to a gas chamber or would he choose the kinder option of abundant other sources of food. The faith and belief I have now is that we should treat all with love and love will live with us. Here is what it's like to watch pigs be sent to a gas chamber and then have their throat slit. ua-cam.com/video/mm9yniDo6bM/v-deo.html
You're really pretty
"Then I got this job with this lady who was a full blown alcoholic" 😆
duuude...She took me through a drive thru on lunch asked for a cup of ice and pulled out a water bottle and when she opened it I could smell pure vodka! 😂 lol
@@BipolarPerson the old vodka in the water bottle trick lolol
You are beautiful ❤
In any of the videos, can you elaborate on how you got it? If you went through so much trauma at a young age., were you ever on antidepressants before you began bipolar meds? Or did you have asthma at all, these two things are linked to the disorder, one is auto immune and sometimes requires steroids, the other if not taken properly, will lead to possible relapse.. everyone has a different story but obviously you were normal before 16 I guess I would say… maybe I’m wrong……. sorry about the traumas
Most definitely! 😁 I never had asthema, my childhood was traumatic because my parents screamed and yelled at each other every night, we were poor and my parents divorced when I was 13. I had two little brothers was constantly responsible for it was an insane amount of pressure. There is much more but I have always been this way. I remember at 8 I thought the world was a cruel place. I just didn't get the opportunity to take the life saving medications I take now. I have a brain disorder it's taken many years to get my diagnosis but it is correct. I have zero other health problems a perfect blood panel and am active I just have Bipolar Disorder. Anti-depressants DO cause mania in someone that is Bipolar if they are not combined with an antipsychotic. It happens ALL the time...I have been planning on doing a video about triggers so thank you so much for this comment. Stress, substances, lack of sleep, trauma..You could be right about asthema I don't know but a lack of oxygen to the brain makes sense to me. Brain injuries can cause bipolar too I think.
Are you continously taking your medications or do u stop them?
I would never stop my medication. Everything that happened, all my psychotic episodes happened before I took medication and had the right diagnosis. I always advocate for medication because it saved my life even though I've had some bad experiences with it.
@@BipolarPerson thank you for your reply , so u never got an episode while taking the medication ? do u smoke cigarettes btw ?
I used to smoke cigarettes for years but not anymore. No I haven't had a psychotic episode since taking medication, but the key is medication management. So for example I started on 150mg of Lamictal, then I had a really stressful life event and I was not sleeping and starting to feel like I was gonna go manic so I went to the doctor and she put it up to 200, then 300, now 400. It might go down at some point. I've had a hard few years with my family. I've been on a lot of different medications before from being hospitalized but this medication is really good for me. It just takes a long time sometimes to find the best medicine for you and keep in touch and be honest with your doctor and make sure they listen. Sleep is the most important thing bipolar people need to avoid going manic even when on medication, lack of too much sleep and you are pretty much guaranteed
to have an episode. I hope that helps. ❤️
I begged me doctor to get Committed or Sick leave because I was Sick in My brain and she told me I did. Not have a medical Problem
Hi! So unfair.. What Country are you in? I'm trying to compare care accross countries.
@@BipolarPersonbelgium but my care was exceptionally bad and I was maybe going a little crazy but my doctor was way worse because she kept prescribing me meds and I had withdrawal and mania from cortisone and ocd and vomiting and akathasia but I had no clue I reacted so badly and I ended up on clonazepam because my THERAPIST told me so omg!
What a horrible experience. Some doctors realky suck and we are at their complete mercy. I hope you found a new one! Stay strong. ❤️
Yes and I had told my parents like I need a new doctor because she is not respecting me but they did not listen to me. No one listened to me that I really was stuck in my mind and ill ill ill @@BipolarPerson
@@BipolarPersonhonestly my ENT told me no meds and waiting it out 3 to 6 months and going to therapy so I should have listened but they were also dangerous not explaining me or giving me good therapist to go to or like helping me with sick leave so they ALL SUCKED TBH
Seems to be a common theme in psychosis. Wanting to befriend the homeless. 😂
IKR! I thinks it's because they are the only people nice to you in that state. The only people that don't tell you that you are out if your mind.
Remember the part when you said you had no substance abuse issues? You might want to edit that part out
Hi! thank you for your comment. I'm not sure what you mean.
@@BipolarPerson you drank a lot and did tons of drugs through out the video no judgement
Hi! Did you watch the entire video?
Sounds like weed psychosis. Withdrawing from weed can also cause psychosis fer a few months.
It's bipolar 1 with psychotic features. The episodes I had were not caused by marijuana use they were caused by trauma, and an undiagnosed mental illness; however I have heard there are some people who can have marijuana induced psychosis and not have mental illness.
@@BipolarPerson You might just have a high free copper, which can cause the same problems. The test at lab corp is 279071. Another thing that can cause these problems is a low B12 tissue level. To test the B12 tissue level, you need a methylmalonic acid blood test. To lower the free copper, you can take 50 mg of zinc 3 times per day, one hour before meals. In 1 to 2 years your free copper will be lowered to normal levels. Dr. Carl C Pfeiffer used zinc to cure psychosis in 20,000 patients. Good luck and God Bless
This information is not quite accurate I have researched it. The doctor you speak of passed away some time ago. Outside a small clinic sporting his name he hasn't really brought any real change so I am gathering his methods are lacking in areas. From what I read you are quoting the number of patients ever studied by his methods. From what I found mild improvement in symptoms for few was achieved but there were no significant cures. And patients still had to take medication. I don't pretend to know the cause of mental illnesses because no one knows. I'm pretty sure it's not as simple as copper. There is still so little we know about the brain. I appreciate this though. I need to be aware of these types of studies. I think it's gonna be up to A.I. if we find a cure,
@@BipolarPerson I researched this for over ten years and have cured schizophrenics by lowering their free copper level. After 9-12 months of 150 mg of zinc per day, their psychosis goes away and they no longer need anti psychotic medication.
Even the doctor you mentioned was not able to cure schizophrenia or Bipolar. He was able to minimize some symptoms which can also be achieved through counseling. Medication saves lives and has been proven to be effective. The doctor is long gone and his research is still unproven. The people that do seek this type of treatment pay out of pocket. It functions as a business. You can look up "peer reviewed articles" While his research peaked interest it was never performed in a controlled setting and the conclusion in the Executive Summaries all say "requires further research." Medication has been around for over 100 years and it continues to get better with the lack of side effects. Because NOT taking medication nearly ended my life I would never advocate against it. I do understand deeply wanting a cure and feeling you've found something that will benefit others and you just want to help them. You have a really good heart. I appreciate your kindness. Thank you so much. 😊❤️
Why dont you stay on meds. I do and I dont have those kinds of episodes. Meds work.
I do. All of my episode's happened prior to being properly diagnosed I was misdiagnosed 5 times. Also If you watch my channel getting the right medication has taken years. My first experience almost killed me with sjs and I was on the wrong medication. This channel is all about advocating for others the importance of medication, that's why I do my channel. I explain how bad it can get. It was not my choice to live with bipolar nor was it my choice to live off medication, it's a symptom called anosognosia and improper medical care and knowledge that took me years to get the proper help.
I don't think you have bipolar I think you were malnutrition and a lot of trauma. You didn't deserve it. ❤
Hi i am bipolar 1.. what is ur best combination pls for bipolar? Morning anf night drugs name pls..my english not good sorry.. tahnk u for information 🙏
Hi! I take 200mg lamictal 2x a day, morning & night. I started at 150mg once a day and moved up over a few years due to stress. There are a lot of medications available and they all work different for everyone but Lamictal has worked for me for the last 6 years. The important thing is managing your medication with your doctor and making sure you tell them how you are feeling so if they need to adjust medication they can. ❤️
@@BipolarPerson i take night 200 mg seroquel ir morning 100 mg lamictal and 150 mg wellbutrin and 50 mg zoloft and 20 mg propronolol..
@@BipolarPerson you take 400 mg lamictal in 1 day? Or 100 mg night 100 mg morning lamictal?
@@BipolarPerson and pls write me all name off drugs pls for i will say to my doctor..thank u for information 🙏
I take 400 mg total which is the max for lamictal but that is the only pill I take. 200mg in morning and 200 mg at night. I've been on medication since 2017, I started at 150 mg once a day. A few times I struggled, I was worried so my doctor increased it to 200mg and then 300mg and now 400mg but that was over 6 years and now that I am better I will probably decrease back to 300mg. Those are a lot of different medications you are on is bipolar 1 your only diagnosis and did you start on that many different medications? Did you have a hard time finding a medication/s that worked?
Psychedelics healed me
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If everything is felt so deeply, then there simply must be an awareness of the hypersexuality & the inevitable hurt that causes a partner. Really, bipolar is seen as coming with a special pass. If you're an attractive female, then maybe such circumstances might be tolerated, but it must be different for men ~ I actually wonder if the hypersexuality aspect is latched upon by females ~ my friend went through what I understand was prob bi2 & he was very latched onto health ~ it was his way of balancing out life ~ he ate well & done marathons & other sports ~ it were as if he had conquered the outcome of his upbringing trauma ~ he was in a loveless family life & struggling with a sexless relationship ~ he eventually found warmth with another but he was codependent ~ there was no compassion from his now ex ~ she wanted his mental health & to see him with nothing ~ he wasn't an attractive female & got no understanding
Pretty privilege is real, including with bipolar.
Thank you for your frankness ~ I found this video so interesting
Yes, you are right pretty is an unfair advantage. It really sounds amazing how your friend turned his life around. It must have been so hard especially if it hurt him so bad it affected you. I think it's really just a matter of what kind of partner you have and if they are willing to learn. She sounds very angry and probably just hurt herself. It's so hard on loved ones. I hope your friend is okay now. I don't know how it is for everyone but for me it only happened in psychosis so while I was aware of what I was doing I wasn't understanding. I was acting on a delusion I know that sounds crazy it's really hard to explain but I feel so much guilt and shame and am grateful everyday my husband forgave me. I'm really glad I found medicine and that there are people like you who will want to learn and offer compassion to others and those with bipolar. There is a guy with Bipolar on youtube called Polar Warriors he does have videos about this I'm not sure if he shares his life example though. It's a good channel check it out if you haven't yet. Thank you so much! ❤️
He is okay. He was a fat child. His Irish immigrant parents were always low-level angry at him. He was always embarrassed of himself. He was quite smart.. Then, his college grades tumbled. After his breakdown, he spent a decade slowly weaning off of meds. It wasn't a plan. It just happened that way. He missed out on his 20s. He was a .smoker but nothing more than that. Then he discovered running 🙏🏽 He dropped cigarettes. He ran marathons. In this period, he was with the woman he would have a beautiful daughter with. He isn't ambitious but not ready to be old & infirm. After his indiscretion was revealed, his home life became much worse. He felt trapped. He loved his daughter, but all his savings went into her education. Her mother had an investment property & well-paid job. Anyway, four yrs ago, they split. He was to be wholly relieved to be unchained, to go through a type of healing from 17 yrs with quite a controlling person who was extremely promiscuous before they met. Sadly, his daughter then became a pawn to punish him & the angry ex seemed determined to see that his life could never really move forward. It's not easy to think that in 1992, he was given a type of life sentence that would condemn him to be seen as a type of retard in his own birth family, yet today he lives a simple life that is centred around exercise, nutrition & solitude. He doesn't watch TV. He'd prefer not to live alone, but it seems that the situation with his daughter is a huge red flag to potential suitors. He works with special needs children.
He has no interest in alcohol.
Over 30 yrs ago, he was diagnosed with manic depression. He struggled to hold down jobs & was so unhealthy. It had always seemed that his diagnosis was convenient for his mother. The problem was him. She herself was so unhappy in her marriage but had comfort. So, she gave up on herself & her kids. All became so fat. The father became angry. His trad wife was lazy & his anger got directed at the son.
The son paid a heavy price. His mental health.
Nowadays, they steadfastly refuse to acknowledge anything. They think everything was always fine. They are like a unit & he will always be the black sheep. He's grown to be okay with this. He doesn't need their company.
He stays aware of the bipolar. He knows that in many ways, he's actually extremely fortunate. He's into a protein rich diet ~ avoids sugars & most carbs . He has faith that God / The Universe will lead his daughter back to him. He was a good stay-at-home dad & they bonded happily. The mother has controlled the narrative & this remains. Maybe she is narcissistic, but it isn't for him to diagnose anyone else. I think she wanted him to go back after she decided to wander off before the pandemic. She didn't realise how hard he took not being able to contact or see his daughter whilst the mother took a different romantic path. He shut down. He did go through a depression but it passed. He accepted it.
Today, he goes to swim two miles. He is grateful for his physical health. It is essential for his mental health.
Thank you for your kind reply 🙏🏽
It wasn't anticipated, & I am sincerely grateful. You are so brave ❤️
The initial pic says “Biplar Story” 😣 instead of bipolar.
Thank you!!! Jeez!!! I can't believe you are the first to say something!!! I must have uploaded the wrong thumbnail!!! lol
I have a new thumbnail thanks again ;) I still can't believe no one noticed!
she is picky for a crazy person
what does this mean? Why would you say that?
OMG! We get told about that side effect when being offered meds. I am on keto for 7 months. Complete remission of symptoms. No meds. Hope you are well. Thanks for sharing your story!
Thanks for watching! That's awesome that you're doing better. I advocate for medication because it saved my life but I've heard a few people online say that keto has worked for them when meds did not, it's unfortunate they have never done any actual studies on it. I don't think there is anyone to pay for the study.... I'm grateful for meds that work for me. I live a vegan lifestyle so keto would never be a route I would want to follow. I like a lot of different foods and I just really like food too much to limit it that way. I do like to fast every now and then and that resets me sometimes.
@@BipolarPerson yeah I hear you. I love food too. But it was a worthy compromise but it's not easy. If you are curious, there is significant efforts underway to get real studies done. It can absolutely be done vegan. Look at Metabolic Mind. They interviewed my Dr recently. AND BipolarCast interviewed me. I do what I can to make eating fun for me. I did the interview at 5 months. I am even better at 7 months. It's not easy. But I feel so much better. The amount of ways I feel better is surprisingly large. Metabolic problems are real. I lost eyesight permanently last year. In my opinion meds save lives, including mine and I am grateful. But they also made things worse. I was filling out disability paperwork last Oct unable to function. I owe lifestyle including diet,sleep and stress reduction as the real life improving measures that got me productive again. I am glad others tolerate meds better but encourage people to consider healthier eating and taking care of themselves. Meds or not it absolutely makes life better with this illness. It can take up to a few years to be able to taper off meds. But it can be done. Cool. Michael
I'll definitely check that out! I can't take that kind of risk though. I think because it hasn't been studied enough and meat has been proven to cause high cholesterol, high blood pressure and cancer. The number two preventable cause of death is heart disease which is only caused by eating animal flesh. I found that out a few years back, I had no idea. Because of that I think going Keto if medication is working is probably not a good idea. BUT medications can also have bad effects on the liver and many other parts of the body. I think until there are solid studies it should be used as a last resort and controlled in a hospital especially for those of us who go psychotic because we can be dangerous to ourselves and others. We also can go psychotic undetected like I did so many times before I got medication. My husband has read about it a bit and he brought up a good point. When people lose wieght they feel better but I absolutely believe food affects our mental health and bodies and that It is possible that it could prove to be a viable treatment plan in the future but most people who are not vegan will just start eating steaks and burgers so for that reason I would never advocate for it because then it just adds to the demand of animals being killed. Maybe when we have lab grown meat in and they know more I can say more about it. Medication truely saved my life and I don't have any side effects so I'm lucky but I know a lot of people are not that lucky. I think it's an interesting topic, I'll have to so more research on it for sure. Maybe I'll do a video on it in the future. 😁 I'm so glad you found something that works mental illness is like trying to solve a rubix cube!
@@BipolarPerson keto can be vegan! And that cholesterol stuff is really outdated. Glad you're on a good path for you. The right way to do keto for bipolar is WITH a Dr's care and a dietician. As you said, taking chances can be really bad!