No idea how or why these types of videos with not even 100 views get recommended to me every now n then. I don't even really _watch_ this type of stuff but it still happens once and a while. Interesting though, cool stuff man. Keep the content going, we are cheering on (merry christmas)
*Change your story* You can make something out of nothing. If it isn't there you can create it. But for me it's like I just do what I can do get exposure and I meet many people all the time, you know. And I'm very available as well, because I made that decision, and then I go out and socialize a lot. And so the times when I'm actually in a mental state of availability and where I'm actually paying attention is, like, really really BIG. Best of all, I get to meet a ton of interesting people that way, because people are generally very curious about me, and they love talking with me, because I have so much wisdom to share with them. Even if I, on a logical level, know that this isn't true _now,_ I still tell myself this, and re-read this before bed time - when I'm at my most suggestible. Since my subconscious can't know the difference between fantasy and reality, it still makes new neural pathways (it makes something out of nothing) based on the things I tell myself, and so it manifests as truth.
It is a life in progress. And my perception of the world around me, my philosophy of person and place continues to change. Trying to notice my own patterns by the results that I tend to get. And if I want to get different results, then I need to apply different behaviors. Trying out new endeavors. New platforms. New ideas. But just due to my nature, I am extremely averse to meeting a lot of people. I am a simple person with simple dreams. I am not seeking anything beyond my own imagination placed within my capacity and limitations of what is plausible, practical, and possible. I am not trying to live the life of anyone else's dreams. Just my own. And no one can tell me my dreams are wrong. They may be modest, but they work for me. Trying to keep my own expectations of what I can do and what the world may accommodate in some reasonable semblance of balance. I don't really need much to find relative satisfaction and contentment. Happiness is another matter. But I am working on it. And there has been progress. My greatest adventures lie ahead of me, not behind. Thank you very much for taking a sincere interest. It was an enlightening thought experiment to play out. But as I was reading, to me it sounded like a nightmare situation. I don't like being around very many people or receiving very much attention. And I do try to keep my ego in check, because I am really no one special. Just another person with a story to tell, same as anyone else. I am very quiet. Anyway, thanks again, and this response is just my passing thoughts based on my current mood.
@@Verge25 If it sounded like a nightmare situation then it might not be time to face those demons as long as you don't strictly need to. Personally I was very shy when I was a kid. I didn't like talking to strangers much, and I've always kept to myself kinda. But then I also wanted to become a journalist... So, when I arrived at the desk at 14 years old, I either had to let go of my old fears, or I'd have to choose a completely different path in life (as fate would have it, the universe chose a different path for me anyway, but that's a different story lol). I chose to let go of my fears (ofc because I _could,_ which I know isn't the luxury of everyone). That is to say, in the beginning I took on this mask of sorts. I just told myself, "kebman, you're a journalist now, and it's the _job_ of journalists to speak to complete strangers, so just do your job now, you can relax after." And it worked! I've used this ever since to become the very outgoing person I am today. But just know that getting here was completely unnatural for me. My spirit is still that of the recluse. Perhaps that's why I've delved into so many introspective things, and I'm also good at nerdy technology stuff and programming. Either way, my point is, if you _want_ to find a life more welcoming to other people, then there are ways. But if you don't _have_ to, then it's ofc up to you if you feel that it's a worthy endeavour or not. Either way, for a guy who's not into crowds as much, you've certainly found a great way to communicate with them! Wishing you a continued God Jul!
Thank you again, very uplifting and relatable in a non-judgemental way. I am finding peace with my identity. Accepting myself for how it is the way I am. I don't really seek to change myself to fit into the world. But perhaps only to reach out and strike an accord with those that are already travelling on similar wavelengths. There is a learning curve to the process. One that I fell off of for a number of years, and stopped caring, stopped trying, basically stopped living for a long time. But I am back (more or less) and now I am trying. I can never get those years back, but they were not wasted or in vain. A lesson to be derived from everything. And if I am only doing better than how I used to be doing, then that is still something. A new phase. A new chapter. A new life. Or something like that.... :) Also, making a serious effort to learn not to take myself too seriously all of the time.@@kebman
OTOH if you're _happy_ with the way you describe life, then just let it be. Just pretend I never posted anything. I just thought it was a bit of fun to re-write the claims you made into their opposites, to see where it lead. I think if you do that as an exercise with the rest of this manuscript, you'll be surprised by how many new opportunities will reveal themselves to you. But if that's not for you, well, then no worries. God Jul!
No idea how or why these types of videos with not even 100 views get recommended to me every now n then. I don't even really _watch_ this type of stuff but it still happens once and a while. Interesting though, cool stuff man. Keep the content going, we are cheering on (merry christmas)
The mysteries of UA-cam. Thank you very much. And Happy Holidays!
*Change your story*
You can make something out of nothing. If it isn't there you can create it.
But for me it's like I just do what I can do get exposure and I meet many people all the time, you know. And I'm very available as well, because I made that decision, and then I go out and socialize a lot.
And so the times when I'm actually in a mental state of availability and where I'm actually paying attention is, like, really really BIG. Best of all, I get to meet a ton of interesting people that way, because people are generally very curious about me, and they love talking with me, because I have so much wisdom to share with them.
Even if I, on a logical level, know that this isn't true _now,_ I still tell myself this, and re-read this before bed time - when I'm at my most suggestible. Since my subconscious can't know the difference between fantasy and reality, it still makes new neural pathways (it makes something out of nothing) based on the things I tell myself, and so it manifests as truth.
It is a life in progress. And my perception of the world around me, my philosophy of person and place continues to change. Trying to notice my own patterns by the results that I tend to get. And if I want to get different results, then I need to apply different behaviors. Trying out new endeavors. New platforms. New ideas.
But just due to my nature, I am extremely averse to meeting a lot of people. I am a simple person with simple dreams. I am not seeking anything beyond my own imagination placed within my capacity and limitations of what is plausible, practical, and possible. I am not trying to live the life of anyone else's dreams. Just my own. And no one can tell me my dreams are wrong. They may be modest, but they work for me. Trying to keep my own expectations of what I can do and what the world may accommodate in some reasonable semblance of balance.
I don't really need much to find relative satisfaction and contentment. Happiness is another matter. But I am working on it. And there has been progress.
My greatest adventures lie ahead of me, not behind. Thank you very much for taking a sincere interest. It was an enlightening thought experiment to play out. But as I was reading, to me it sounded like a nightmare situation. I don't like being around very many people or receiving very much attention. And I do try to keep my ego in check, because I am really no one special. Just another person with a story to tell, same as anyone else. I am very quiet.
Anyway, thanks again, and this response is just my passing thoughts based on my current mood.
@@Verge25 If it sounded like a nightmare situation then it might not be time to face those demons as long as you don't strictly need to. Personally I was very shy when I was a kid. I didn't like talking to strangers much, and I've always kept to myself kinda. But then I also wanted to become a journalist...
So, when I arrived at the desk at 14 years old, I either had to let go of my old fears, or I'd have to choose a completely different path in life (as fate would have it, the universe chose a different path for me anyway, but that's a different story lol). I chose to let go of my fears (ofc because I _could,_ which I know isn't the luxury of everyone).
That is to say, in the beginning I took on this mask of sorts. I just told myself, "kebman, you're a journalist now, and it's the _job_ of journalists to speak to complete strangers, so just do your job now, you can relax after."
And it worked! I've used this ever since to become the very outgoing person I am today. But just know that getting here was completely unnatural for me.
My spirit is still that of the recluse. Perhaps that's why I've delved into so many introspective things, and I'm also good at nerdy technology stuff and programming. Either way, my point is, if you _want_ to find a life more welcoming to other people, then there are ways. But if you don't _have_ to, then it's ofc up to you if you feel that it's a worthy endeavour or not.
Either way, for a guy who's not into crowds as much, you've certainly found a great way to communicate with them!
Wishing you a continued God Jul!
Thank you again, very uplifting and relatable in a non-judgemental way. I am finding peace with my identity. Accepting myself for how it is the way I am. I don't really seek to change myself to fit into the world. But perhaps only to reach out and strike an accord with those that are already travelling on similar wavelengths.
There is a learning curve to the process. One that I fell off of for a number of years, and stopped caring, stopped trying, basically stopped living for a long time. But I am back (more or less) and now I am trying. I can never get those years back, but they were not wasted or in vain. A lesson to be derived from everything. And if I am only doing better than how I used to be doing, then that is still something. A new phase. A new chapter. A new life.
Or something like that.... :)
Also, making a serious effort to learn not to take myself too seriously all of the time.@@kebman
OTOH if you're _happy_ with the way you describe life, then just let it be. Just pretend I never posted anything. I just thought it was a bit of fun to re-write the claims you made into their opposites, to see where it lead. I think if you do that as an exercise with the rest of this manuscript, you'll be surprised by how many new opportunities will reveal themselves to you. But if that's not for you, well, then no worries.
God Jul!