If you have ever suffered from such an awful experience, do not ever be afraid to reach out and talk to someone. There is always someone out there to help you and they will always be there to help you. You are valid and loved, never ever forget that.
Thy Nyx:)You're really amazing!I'm crying right now because I was r@ped in 2020...I never told anybody because I was scared.but now,I think I'm ready to Talk to someone.Thank you!
Idk bro,I don't think so,I mean Even when I was caught hurting my hand, my mother took a picture of my hand and sent the picture to my teacher, and my father? he's just playing games like nothing happened ,And I never trust anyone in my life even I don't trust myself but hey I know you want to make people Forget their trauma and their dark past ,I really love every video you make,thank you for this video....
SA is no joke, being through it myself, it definitely wears you down. But it doesn't have to weigh you down. We are all valid, and we must always feel safe and secure no matter who it is with. And I know that 14 year old me would be thankful that I got out of that relationship
This really hit home. I had an incident in middle school with SA and it still affects me to this day. I told an ex about my past and he went and told his friends about it without my consent. He really hurt me and made me feel like I can't trust anyone. To anyone else who has gone thru this, I'm so sorry. I love you and your pain and hurt is valid
As a survivor of SA this was amazing with how you dealt with this topic. For me it happened 20years ago by my own father when i was 5. It personally effected me for 18 years, I couldn't be in the same room as a male on my own without being scared. Even now I am still vulnerable and I still have no confidence. I feel tainted and scared of remembering what happen if I get intimate with anyone, probably why I have never had I boyfriend. I feel that this topic isn't spoken enough about, like people see it as a taboo subject they don't want to touch, I understand that it is sensitive but being scared doesn't help people who went through it, I feel that most of my life I have been told to hide it it I'm in the wrong. Personally this is something that never goes away but it's something that we eventually learn to deal with and become who we are as an individual and embrace that we are a survivor and that good things always come to. Because after the rain there is always a rainbow, it just takes sometime.
Well said-I applaud your bravery in telling your story. There are so many more of us than we know. Surviving incest, and at such a young age, truly is more common than anyone wants to believe or remember or talk about. But all survivors deserve to be seen, honored, and brought into safe and authentic community. We see you.
As a SA survivor at 13, my experience still infests my mind sometimes, even 2 years later, and Im so thankful I have this audio to comfort me and others and thanks for your caring heart, Nyx!
this is very much appreciated i hope anyones that has been SA or went through something similar knows u aren’t alone and they’ll always be someone there too help you i’m honestly very sorry for anyone that’s been through it
As someone who was sa'd by my step brother, this was definitely not an easy one to listen to. I had chosen to stay silent for nearly 7 years until I gathered up enough courage to tell my parents. This audio was incredibly helpful and comforting to listen to. As always, you did an amazing job Nyx ❤
I was SAed by my ex boyfriend when I was 13. I haven’t dated anyone since then because I’m scared that it would happen again. I didn’t even know what it was until late last year. Im 17 now. This helped so much. To have someone understand and not get mad at you for it is so comforting. You did amazing!
Me still being a minor sucks that I relate to this but it’s comforting to hear someone talk about it without hesitation, makes me feel less alienated when talking about it myself. Love your content ❤
This hit hard. I was sexual abused for 3 years. And it started when i was 9 by my own father. And the aftermath of a tramatic like this is not something that should be skipped. I'm really grateful foevtgis audio ❤
Unfortunately I was a victim of S/A at only 8, it definitely makes you feel disgusting about your body and nights worth of crying, not even wanting to look at yourself in the mirror. Then comes the guilt, you feel like you should have known better, it’s your fault that you let them do that to you. Yeah S/A is nothing to joke about, if you are a victim I’m so sorry that that happened to you, but just know your beautiful! I love you so much! Amazing audio Nyx❤️ thank you so much for this
whoa holy moly its such a shame ppl at this young age need to go through something terrible like S/A it breaks my heart. Youre so brave and strong and i hope youre okay now! Sending virtual hugs ^^
So I had SAed when I was 14 by my crush at the time.. and I've only just noticed it was classed as SA (I'm 18 now) my boyfriend has helped me notice what it was and comforted me and made me feel so comfy and loved whenever anything happened. This helped me too. Thank you Nyx.
I’m a survivor of COCSA too. I was 12 and 13. He was 15 and 16. Currently, we are 16 and 20 respectively. I also had no idea that it was SA until I started talking about with people and it was only a short while ago that I found out what COCSA was. Sorry for blubbering my story. All in all, I’m so sorry that happened.
I immediately clicked on the video when I saw the title❤❤❤ As a girl that was r@ped when I was 12 years old by a group of teenage boys in a mall and no one to help me I just kept it to myself and to this day I still haven’t told anyone. This really made me feel validated
I went through SA when I was around 10-12 years old… by my own cousin. I really liked hanging out with him and playing games, but he did so much awful and traumatizing stuff to me when I was so young. My family argued and split apart because of his actions and they often blame me for it when I was the one who came out and spoke about it. It was an really hard time for me, but now I’m able to speak about it comfortably after going to therapy. Please. Speak about it with people that you know you can trust. People who will protect you and want you safe. I know that one day, you will be able to heal from it.
Coming from someone who kept it a secret because I was scared of the arguments it would cause I’m proud of you. I can imagine how hard it was, I never told anyone but my therapist it’s gotten easier but the fear is still there
I’m actually just terrified that because I am a woman it might happen considering how common it is but to anyone that it has happened to IT IS NOT UR FAULT AND NEVER WILL BE do not blame yourself and your extremely strong and brave even if u haven’t reported it ❤
I am so sorry to anyone who has gone through this. I love you and you are so amazing no matter what❤❤Also, thank you for posting today nyx! Everyone have an amazing day!
This makes me feel so happy and loved man. Happened to me several times, once when I was 6, another by 2 boys at my school a few months ago and recently by my ex-friend. I haven’t opened up to anyone about it except for my father (well..my adoptive father) and honestly..lemme tell you that was a good ass feeling just to let it all off my chest. My dad was there for me and listened through the whole thing and it really did mean a lot to me man.. (shoutout the homie aka my father)
From a person who went through SA when i was younger has really took a toll in my life, this is not smth to joke about and everybody's stories are valid even if it happend years ago, that person has no excuse about doing that to somebody, IL all of you guys,❤
I'll save everyone the pain, but to keep it simple I experienced every form of abuse until I was 24. I struggle daily with the pain and emotions, and to know that an audio like this exists... It helps more than you know. Yeah, therapy and everything helps, but to hear a reaction like this is something every survivor wishes they could hear. Thank you for this. Seriously thank you. 💕
@@mckennadevore8692 You do realize child abuse and spousal abuse occurs in every single form right? Some people have to go through one kind, and some people, like me, get to go through it all. At the end of the day, abuse and assault is something that should be taken seriously, and not something to be mocked or scoffed at.
I suffered 4 years of sexual assault from 5 different people I’m super happy you posted this I can’t wait to listen to this I can’t wait to feel safe 😊
As a SA survivor who suffered for five years of repeated abuse from my cousin at ages 7-11 y/o this realllly helped my come to terms with who i can really be no matter what happened in the past
As someone who dealt with a lot of SA at 10-13, being ..... by my u n c l e, this hits so hard. Rn i'm 18, with a boyfriend just like this, so listening to this made me sob so hard. I cannot express how grateful i am for all of these audio's, Nyx.
thank you sooo much evan!! you're really out here making people feel safe and comforted even though you dont know what they're going through with just these videos💗
Thank you so much I have been a victim of SA by many people and have never felt like I could share it to anyone.. you have made me realise that is ok to talk to someone. Thank you so much!!
TW!!! (?) Even if it's something "small" like having to take your pants down for someone it is still important. Even if its something like that and you think it is then at least talk to someone.
Thank you for this. ❤️ I’m also part of the club that I never asked to be a part of or sign up for. 🙁 This was sweet and comforting and something I wish I heard from someone long ago. Hugs to all of you out there that had to go through this. Remember you are loved, your feelings are valid, and it was Not you fault. I hope this has never happened you to Nyx. If it has, those words above are for you too. While the majority happens to women, it also happens to men too. They need our support as well. As many keep quiet.
I am so sorry you had to go through that. Pls if u need to talk don't forget that I'm here and so are many others. Remember u are loved and appreciated!❤️
I looked through most of the comments and I feel horrible. I’ve never been through SA and the amount of people that have are sad.. I’m glad all of you have survived it though, and I’m so sorry that you’ve been through that ❤❤❤❤
I sincerely can’t thank you enough, I commented about making a video like this due to personal experience and I have felt a level of validation and momentary peace that no one has been able to give me. I’m crying happy tears and I am learning to love myself again. So from the bottom of my heart, thank you so so much
I had a few incidents with SA during junior high and such. It really took a lot from me and I was scared to even go near anyone. I think this helped a lot, looking back to it all.
It makes me sick to think that we are the same race as people who do this kind of thing. APD APPROVED. Fun fact: This is one animal myth that's true: Eating parts of a pufferfish can kill you because, in a defense mechanism to ward off predators, it contains a deadly chemical called tetrodotoxin. There's enough in one pufferfish to kill 30 people-and there’s no antidote. Still, pufferfish, called fugu, is a highly-prized delicacy in Japan, but can only be prepared by well-trained chefs. Until we meet again.
thanks for the audio, i never thought that i would actually relate to this topic. other topics and audios you have done have been relatable but this one is fresh. i feel like i need noise, music, or someone talking to me at all times now or i start to think about what happened and I spiral. *TW* recently experienced sa only like 3 weeks ago and i keep getting debilitating flashbacks. he texted me yesterday trying to get me to come over and i flipped out and couldn't calm down for hours. i luckily have a supportive rommate that helped me afterwards but it really is fucking with me. i feel like all my worth is gone because he stole it. i am crawling out of my skin writing this as it is triggering my brain to think about that night. i wish i had never met him. luckily your audios are really helpful and are an escape from my thoughts and emotions. i really appreciate the storylines and messaging that you put in your videos and i try to internalize them. know that your work helps people and make sure to prioritize your own health and wellbeing!
Oh this is...bro....nah forget about it,thank you for making this, What happened to me when I was a kid still traumatizes me AGHH this is sound cringe Like I'm looking for attention sorry ,but hey at least this is can make me Calm a little better,and remember y'all so strong! You make until this day and another days until you can find someone you truly love! I...don't KNOW what to say anymore I've been thinking for 10 minutes what to say...maybe cause now it's 4 AM and My brain is not workings XD but hey random stranger,I love you! We love you! 💙
Thank you so much for this nyx! I am going through a rough relationship and planning to end it but don't know how I end it. Every time I listen to these, idk what it is about your voice but it always helps me. My mom, teachers, and some friends are here to support me. I just feel overwhelmed and have been stressing out a lot lately...so I'm happy to see you have a new video out, it made me feel better! ☺️☺️☺️
When i was at least 5 my UNCLE did something so horrible to me that I didn't tell anyone until i was in the 5th grade, there was a program that was very respectful and when we were sharing each other troubles i said that and a teacher told my mom, as soon as i got home my mom started to cry, after that day my mom and dad never hung out with him. I'm so glad that there are people that are helping us with troubles like this. This audio made cry so much because of happiness because this makes happy about my body because he cut me multiple times and luckily they are starting to go away:) Im so sorry if i went off track and some of this is wrong spelling, I'm very dyslexic 😭
This has happened to me more than once. And by someone I loved. This hit hard for me. I still feel im ugly sometimes because one of my exes would tell i was. Even now that i have 2 amazing partners and im a better spot, i still feel that way sometimes. Thank you so much for this. You are an angel
having this happen with a family member is the absolute worst. i’m wishing everyone that went thru this a good recovery (i know one can’t fully recover but we try yk?)
i’ve been SAd twice and seeing so many comments from others who have been SAd broke my heart. i love all of you and i’m so sorry. you didn’t deserve it and it’s not your fault. sending so much love and virtual hugs to all of you 🤍.
I was SA’d when I was 18 by my boyfriend at the time (ex now thank goodness). He took advantage of my weak emotional state after a loved one had passed away. It has definitely impacted my romantic life. For me it has become a battle of wanting a relationship, trying to feel worthy of a relationship and fear of being in a relationship. I’m scared of physical affection will turn into sexual intention. Thank you, Nyx for doing this. It’s very helpful, comforting and validating. And to all SA survivors out there, you’re strong and amazing ❤
As a teenager who’s been SA’Ed by three different boys at my schools that I’ve been at,this really helps me.Thank you Nyx,we all appreciate and love you and what you do :)
Am scared of it happening again. My hurted me. I don't know if he bragged about it or not but am scared he can and try to do it again. Thank you for this audio
I don't usually listen to these seriously but like man this hit close to home didn't know I really needed it till I saw the video haha.. *especially* the shower thing the memories hit me like a brick that feeling of being dirty...
As someone who survived SA I am happy you made this Hey I'm faith and this is my story: I was 5-6 years old and my brother was about 11-12 years old and we decided to go out and play with him so we went out and he took me to this alleyway/corner thing and he asked me "truth or dare" and I said dare and he said "I dare you to kiss me" and I said okay Thinking it was brother sister stuff but no He kissed me and he put his hands down my pants and kissed me even tho I told him to stop and he wouldn't. I ran back to my grans crying and she said, go into your room and watch rio and I did that but he came in and did the same thing again. it was really traumatic and I still get shivers to this day it's affected me for the past 12 years but I will stay strong! Edit: whoops i think this is the wrong sa I'm talking about.
I just came across this video in an asmr search and I love your voice so kind and tender and this audio really speaks to me as I have suffered from SA! Thank you so much for this! I subscribed and I can’t wait to binge listen to all of your audios!!! ❤❤❤❤
Thank you so much Nyx, this made me feel so safe. When I was 10 years old I was r@ped and I now have PTSD flashbacks. I’m in therapy now but it still affects me everyday
I was just scrolling down your yt channel when i stopped at this video and when i read caption i started crying so hard because I remember my sa history. Anyways thank you for this audio ❤️
I had to listen to this because recently the police had my step dad tell them what he did to me while drunk and angry. So now I'm in the middle of having to relive it again over and over again. This helped me a lot. So thank you so much
This really helps as someone whos ex was like the asshole, WANTING rewards like that for everything he did.....its sad to see so many others in the comment that had to suffer so much too but...in the same time,im thankful im not alone. Thank you so so much Nyxmoonreads❤
TW This really helped me a lot, I have trouble loving my body since its so curvy and fits into the "slim thick" category, even since as young as 13. A lot of male doctors, random men from the street, and boys from high school really made me uncomfy and miserable. But I was young and naiive, I really didn't know better. Now at age 18, I'm just finally affording group therapy with other SA survivors. I'm nervous for my first meeting, but I know I'm not alone. And trust me, my friend, you aren't alone either. :)
I lived through hell with a previous boyfriend for a year suffering from every type of abuse imaginable almost, just to learn that he also cheated on me for a good part of the relationship. I thought I had gotten over most of the trauma or at least pushed it as far back in my mind as possible. Until yesterday, when I learned that my boyfriend of 6 months cheated on me. Everything came rushing back, the cheating reminded my brain and body about everything else I suffered through and I feel like I am back to square one of the healing process again. I hate it. The most constant abuse was r@pe and it is what has continued to haunt me since then but now worse than it has in a long time so I want to thank you for having done this video. It is helping at least a bit and will make sleep possible tonight, something I thought would be impossible...
As a victim of SA by my own stepdad who still lives here with me, this helps so much. im currently 16 and i plan on moving out as soon as possible. I didnt tell anyone about this. i dont wanna ruin my mums relationship/marriage and it wasnt involved with s€x he was just.. t0uching me. i think he didnt notice me noticing what he was doing bc i was sleeping in my parents bed with my mum and dad aside. i pretended to be asleep and i just feel so incredibly uncomfortable around him. he keeps tickling me also around upper chest and i just HATE it I HATE IT. i dont wanna tell anyone until i moved out.
I know I’m commenting in every damn video you have… but… Your audios make me cry…( in a good way) With this one… I’ve been SA’d…. Multiple times… and hearing this calms me down…. Thank you.💜
At the age of 11 I experienced my second SA I was just outside and felt a guy put his hands on my butt and he was rubbing my back he told me he knew but I didn't even know him i can't tell he was about to touch my chest but I left and I got so scared of men after that day i don't go with men even I've known them my entire life...😕😕
I know no one will see this but I love your audios and I was hoping I could get through it but I couldn’t… for me it’s still hard to think about even tho when it happened I was so young like idk 4 or 5 but I will struggle with everyday things like being hugged or just someone tapping me on the shoulder. That small of a thing can send me into freeze, fight, or flight. Even when I try to confront my feeling about what happened to me with my therapist I can even get through a sentence without crying… so I was hoping this audio might help but I guess I’m still to weak to do it haha… but I’ve made a great deal of progress from where I used to be… I’m so thankful for your audios and I’m sorry i couldn’t finish it but I appreciate all you do and I’ve learned if it’s to much take a second and breath hope you have a good morning/night! ❤
I was so confused so a second because I live in South Australia (SA) so I thought the title was talking about a history test then I look at the thumbnail and realised it was way worse then a history test-
I had a pretty bad sa experience when I was little with a kid older than me at school, and its stuck with me for years. I still remember it vividly, and this really helped!😊
I am a survivor. It was my brother. I was 4 when it started. And I was around 13 when it ended… I’m 18 now… and I’m still traumatized… I don’t know why but my parents knew it was happening- SAW IT HAPPENING- and did nothing. When I fought back, however, I got in trouble… punished for ‘hurting my brother’. I’ve also experienced different kinds of abuse- from my parents and some forced relationships. I just started talking about it a couple months ago…. It still feels fresh. And I still feel disgusted and disgusting about it. These kinds of videos keep me sane when the thoughts get bad… Thank you for making this…
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If you have ever suffered from such an awful experience, do not ever be afraid to reach out and talk to someone. There is always someone out there to help you and they will always be there to help you. You are valid and loved, never ever forget that.
Thy Nyx:)You're really amazing!I'm crying right now because I was r@ped in 2020...I never told anybody because I was scared.but now,I think I'm ready to Talk to someone.Thank you!
Idk bro,I don't think so,I mean Even when I was caught hurting my hand, my mother took a picture of my hand and sent the picture to my teacher, and my father? he's just playing games like nothing happened ,And I never trust anyone in my life even I don't trust myself but hey I know you want to make people Forget their trauma and their dark past ,I really love every video you make,thank you for this video....
@@kayoru5854 hope your okay ml
@@kayoru5854 also hope ur doing amazing rn! ❤️❤️❤️
@@kayoru5854 i hope your alright😁😁😁😁💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖💖
SA is no joke, being through it myself, it definitely wears you down. But it doesn't have to weigh you down. We are all valid, and we must always feel safe and secure no matter who it is with. And I know that 14 year old me would be thankful that I got out of that relationship
People who commit SA, deserves to rot.
In my opinion...
I’m so sorry you had to go through that I hope you’re okay now ❤
This really hit home. I had an incident in middle school with SA and it still affects me to this day. I told an ex about my past and he went and told his friends about it without my consent. He really hurt me and made me feel like I can't trust anyone. To anyone else who has gone thru this, I'm so sorry. I love you and your pain and hurt is valid
I love you too. Remember you are also vaild. ❤️
@@thatonerandom.3371 thank you love. Appreciate you ❤️
I hope your doing better now.🙁
@@cardsisdead its a struggle everyday, but I've been okay
I hope you’re okay ❤
As a survivor of SA this was amazing with how you dealt with this topic. For me it happened 20years ago by my own father when i was 5. It personally effected me for 18 years, I couldn't be in the same room as a male on my own without being scared. Even now I am still vulnerable and I still have no confidence. I feel tainted and scared of remembering what happen if I get intimate with anyone, probably why I have never had I boyfriend. I feel that this topic isn't spoken enough about, like people see it as a taboo subject they don't want to touch, I understand that it is sensitive but being scared doesn't help people who went through it, I feel that most of my life I have been told to hide it it I'm in the wrong. Personally this is something that never goes away but it's something that we eventually learn to deal with and become who we are as an individual and embrace that we are a survivor and that good things always come to. Because after the rain there is always a rainbow, it just takes sometime.
*Hug*
Well said-I applaud your bravery in telling your story. There are so many more of us than we know. Surviving incest, and at such a young age, truly is more common than anyone wants to believe or remember or talk about. But all survivors deserve to be seen, honored, and brought into safe and authentic community. We see you.
So your 25 but be safe ok 😁
@@NyxMoonReads
You will always be the guy to come to nyx❤❤❤
Thank you for helping us all in the time of need😊😊😊❤❤
As a SA survivor at 13, my experience still infests my mind sometimes, even 2 years later, and Im so thankful I have this audio to comfort me and others and thanks for your caring heart, Nyx!
im so sorry, you are so brave❤
this is very much appreciated i hope anyones that has been SA or went through something similar knows u aren’t alone and they’ll always be someone there too help you i’m honestly very sorry for anyone that’s been through it
As someone who was sa'd by my step brother, this was definitely not an easy one to listen to. I had chosen to stay silent for nearly 7 years until I gathered up enough courage to tell my parents. This audio was incredibly helpful and comforting to listen to. As always, you did an amazing job Nyx ❤
When he said "I fell in love with you for you" I rolled around in my bed and ended up falling off.
@@DIVINE_REMNANTS nah your good
1:33 “don’t slip and fall”
Slayyyyy
HAHAHA
I was SAed by my ex boyfriend when I was 13. I haven’t dated anyone since then because I’m scared that it would happen again. I didn’t even know what it was until late last year. Im 17 now. This helped so much. To have someone understand and not get mad at you for it is so comforting. You did amazing!
Me still being a minor sucks that I relate to this but it’s comforting to hear someone talk about it without hesitation, makes me feel less alienated when talking about it myself.
Love your content ❤
I know how that feels. I was a minor when it happened to me
This hit hard. I was sexual abused for 3 years. And it started when i was 9 by my own father. And the aftermath of a tramatic like this is not something that should be skipped. I'm really grateful foevtgis audio ❤
8:15
When he started with the promises i started praising him
And a few tears even escaped my eyes 😢😢😢❤❤❤
I started crying from haressment a few minutes ago this is exactly what I needed thank you so much
we love you and hope everything is better now 💗💗
@Mayah_Simp:3🏳️🌈 I started crying too I hope you are okay and you’re not alone it’s happened to me too❤❤❤
Unfortunately I was a victim of S/A at only 8, it definitely makes you feel disgusting about your body and nights worth of crying, not even wanting to look at yourself in the mirror. Then comes the guilt, you feel like you should have known better, it’s your fault that you let them do that to you. Yeah S/A is nothing to joke about, if you are a victim I’m so sorry that that happened to you, but just know your beautiful! I love you so much! Amazing audio Nyx❤️ thank you so much for this
I’m so sorry you went through that. I hope you know it wasn’t your fault and that you find peace, if you haven’t already. 🖤
whoa holy moly its such a shame ppl at this young age need to go through something terrible like S/A it breaks my heart. Youre so brave and strong and i hope youre okay now! Sending virtual hugs ^^
So I had SAed when I was 14 by my crush at the time.. and I've only just noticed it was classed as SA (I'm 18 now) my boyfriend has helped me notice what it was and comforted me and made me feel so comfy and loved whenever anything happened. This helped me too. Thank you Nyx.
I’m a survivor of COCSA too. I was 12 and 13. He was 15 and 16. Currently, we are 16 and 20 respectively. I also had no idea that it was SA until I started talking about with people and it was only a short while ago that I found out what COCSA was. Sorry for blubbering my story. All in all, I’m so sorry that happened.
I immediately clicked on the video when I saw the title❤❤❤
As a girl that was r@ped when I was 12 years old by a group of teenage boys in a mall and no one to help me I just kept it to myself and to this day I still haven’t told anyone. This really made me feel validated
I went through SA when I was around 10-12 years old… by my own cousin. I really liked hanging out with him and playing games, but he did so much awful and traumatizing stuff to me when I was so young. My family argued and split apart because of his actions and they often blame me for it when I was the one who came out and spoke about it. It was an really hard time for me, but now I’m able to speak about it comfortably after going to therapy.
Please. Speak about it with people that you know you can trust. People who will protect you and want you safe. I know that one day, you will be able to heal from it.
Hugs 🤗
Coming from someone who kept it a secret because I was scared of the arguments it would cause I’m proud of you. I can imagine how hard it was, I never told anyone but my therapist it’s gotten easier but the fear is still there
as a victim of SA from my own father, this was rlly comforting.
I hope you are doing better. ❤️❤️❤️
Im so sorry that happened to you hope you find peace if you havent already k i love you and so many other people do ❤
I'm so sorry hun. I wish you the best ❤❤
I’m actually just terrified that because I am a woman it might happen considering how common it is but to anyone that it has happened to IT IS NOT UR FAULT AND NEVER WILL BE do not blame yourself and your extremely strong and brave even if u haven’t reported it ❤
I am so sorry to anyone who has gone through this. I love you and you are so amazing no matter what❤❤Also, thank you for posting today nyx! Everyone have an amazing day!
WAIT DABI IM TELLING SHOTO!
@@animallover1039 no! let's not be rash...sit down and lets talk about this
This makes me feel so happy and loved man. Happened to me several times, once when I was 6, another by 2 boys at my school a few months ago and recently by my ex-friend. I haven’t opened up to anyone about it except for my father (well..my adoptive father) and honestly..lemme tell you that was a good ass feeling just to let it all off my chest. My dad was there for me and listened through the whole thing and it really did mean a lot to me man.. (shoutout the homie aka my father)
From a person who went through SA when i was younger has really took a toll in my life, this is not smth to joke about and everybody's stories are valid even if it happend years ago, that person has no excuse about doing that to somebody, IL all of you guys,❤
"SA is no joke ‼‼‼‼‼‼‼‼"
Me, joking about mine everyday to cope 😧😧🤯🤯😱😱
it’s nice to finally hear words you always longed to hear. hope you’re well nyx
I'll save everyone the pain, but to keep it simple I experienced every form of abuse until I was 24. I struggle daily with the pain and emotions, and to know that an audio like this exists... It helps more than you know. Yeah, therapy and everything helps, but to hear a reaction like this is something every survivor wishes they could hear.
Thank you for this. Seriously thank you. 💕
every single form? i do doubt that 💀
@@mckennadevore8692 You do realize child abuse and spousal abuse occurs in every single form right? Some people have to go through one kind, and some people, like me, get to go through it all. At the end of the day, abuse and assault is something that should be taken seriously, and not something to be mocked or scoffed at.
i was SA’d from the time i was 5-7 by my brother’s bsf, i only recently realized that it was bad. this helped a lot, thank you Nyx 💕
I suffered 4 years of sexual assault from 5 different people I’m super happy you posted this I can’t wait to listen to this I can’t wait to feel safe 😊
You should be safe no matter you are love and what those people did is inforgiveable I hope u habe a wonderful day💕
babe i'm so sorry , i hope ure fine now :))
I’m so sorry you experienced it for that long. I hope you’re now fine and are in a safer and better place away from those people
holy shit.. that’s so messed up… are you okay now? Is there anyone that knows what happened? I rlly feel bad for you ☹️
I can honestly relate to this ones sadly
This is amazing, I suffered sa to r@pe aged 11 and got my son out of it, now I’m 16 and have never forgot it. This has helped w comfort, thank you.
As a SA survivor who suffered for five years of repeated abuse from my cousin at ages 7-11 y/o this realllly helped my come to terms with who i can really be no matter what happened in the past
Your videos make me feel so safe☺️
Me too
As someone who dealt with a lot of SA at 10-13, being ..... by my u n c l e, this hits so hard. Rn i'm 18, with a boyfriend just like this, so listening to this made me sob so hard. I cannot express how grateful i am for all of these audio's, Nyx.
As someone who's been SA'd by my own step brother (he's no longer my step brother luckily.), This really hit home. Thank you for this
I hope things get better sooner. ❤️❤️
thank you sooo much evan!! you're really out here making people feel safe and comforted even though you dont know what they're going through with just these videos💗
Aw that is so sad, so cute seeimg him comfort her!! 💞
Thank you so much I have been a victim of SA by many people and have never felt like I could share it to anyone.. you have made me realise that is ok to talk to someone.
Thank you so much!!
Thank you so much for making this video you don’t know how much I needed this thank you so much nyx
TW!!! (?)
Even if it's something "small" like having to take your pants down for someone it is still important. Even if its something like that and you think it is then at least talk to someone.
hi nyx! i hope your feeling better
Before the Audio:
That's exactly what I need now, I've just come out of a similar situation and I hope I'll feel better after the audio.
Thank you so much for this! It means the world!
Thank you for this. ❤️ I’m also part of the club that I never asked to be a part of or sign up for. 🙁
This was sweet and comforting and something I wish I heard from someone long ago.
Hugs to all of you out there that had to go through this. Remember you are loved, your feelings are valid, and it was Not you fault.
I hope this has never happened you to Nyx. If it has, those words above are for you too.
While the majority happens to women, it also happens to men too. They need our support as well. As many keep quiet.
Thank you for making this this means a lot to me considering that I was actually sexually abused by a family member…. So thanks so much.! ❤️
I am so sorry you had to go through that. Pls if u need to talk don't forget that I'm here and so are many others. Remember u are loved and appreciated!❤️
@@fantasyFREAKY Thank you so much that means a lot love.!!❤️❤️❤️
@@fantasyFREAKY same to you.!!! ❤️😊
I looked through most of the comments and I feel horrible. I’ve never been through SA and the amount of people that have are sad.. I’m glad all of you have survived it though, and I’m so sorry that you’ve been through that ❤❤❤❤
I sincerely can’t thank you enough, I commented about making a video like this due to personal experience and I have felt a level of validation and momentary peace that no one has been able to give me. I’m crying happy tears and I am learning to love myself again.
So from the bottom of my heart, thank you so so much
I had a few incidents with SA during junior high and such. It really took a lot from me and I was scared to even go near anyone. I think this helped a lot, looking back to it all.
Going through a breakup and going back over my life and going back through your videos. This made me cry..
It makes me sick to think that we are the same race as people who do this kind of thing.
APD APPROVED.
Fun fact: This is one animal myth that's true: Eating parts of a pufferfish can kill you because, in a defense mechanism to ward off predators, it contains a deadly chemical called tetrodotoxin. There's enough in one pufferfish to kill 30 people-and there’s no antidote. Still, pufferfish, called fugu, is a highly-prized delicacy in Japan, but can only be prepared by well-trained chefs.
Until we meet again.
I was almost sexually assaulted by a guy downtown when I was 16 now me as 19 years old I’m finally growing stronger now as a woman and a person too.
thanks for the audio, i never thought that i would actually relate to this topic. other topics and audios you have done have been relatable but this one is fresh. i feel like i need noise, music, or someone talking to me at all times now or i start to think about what happened and I spiral.
*TW*
recently experienced sa only like 3 weeks ago and i keep getting debilitating flashbacks. he texted me yesterday trying to get me to come over and i flipped out and couldn't calm down for hours. i luckily have a supportive rommate that helped me afterwards but it really is fucking with me. i feel like all my worth is gone because he stole it. i am crawling out of my skin writing this as it is triggering my brain to think about that night. i wish i had never met him.
luckily your audios are really helpful and are an escape from my thoughts and emotions. i really appreciate the storylines and messaging that you put in your videos and i try to internalize them. know that your work helps people and make sure to prioritize your own health and wellbeing!
I bet this is gonna be a great video!
This gave so much comfort, i wish i would listen to something like that back then. It's lovely
This audio means so to me bc as a person who got SA as 6-10 year old girl but 5 years later I forgive him but I won’t forget those times
Whenever someone raises there hand at me even if there not gonna hit me i always flinch rlly bad
Oh this is...bro....nah forget about it,thank you for making this, What happened to me when I was a kid still traumatizes me AGHH this is sound cringe Like I'm looking for attention sorry ,but hey at least this is can make me Calm a little better,and remember y'all so strong! You make until this day and another days until you can find someone you truly love! I...don't KNOW what to say anymore I've been thinking for 10 minutes what to say...maybe cause now it's 4 AM and My brain is not workings XD but hey random stranger,I love you! We love you! 💙
Thanks! I really needed this❤️🥺
As a survivor of SA, this really helps!!!! 🙂
I'm really happy I found this. I was a SA victim and I'm glad I could find someone who discussed the topic. Thank you so much you are a true blessing
I wish I knew about this kind of audios when I was a teen. They would have helped me a lot. Thank you for this
Thank you so much for this nyx! I am going through a rough relationship and planning to end it but don't know how I end it. Every time I listen to these, idk what it is about your voice but it always helps me. My mom, teachers, and some friends are here to support me. I just feel overwhelmed and have been stressing out a lot lately...so I'm happy to see you have a new video out, it made me feel better! ☺️☺️☺️
Omg, thank you Nyx! You are absolutely amazing! Stay awesome sweets! ❤️❤️❤️
I literally just finished another one of you videos.
I haven't even listened to it and I already love it, Thank you 😊😊
When i was at least 5 my UNCLE did something so horrible to me that I didn't tell anyone until i was in the 5th grade, there was a program that was very respectful and when we were sharing each other troubles i said that and a teacher told my mom, as soon as i got home my mom started to cry, after that day my mom and dad never hung out with him. I'm so glad that there are people that are helping us with troubles like this. This audio made cry so much because of happiness because this makes happy about my body because he cut me multiple times and luckily they are starting to go away:) Im so sorry if i went off track and some of this is wrong spelling, I'm very dyslexic 😭
This has happened to me more than once. And by someone I loved. This hit hard for me. I still feel im ugly sometimes because one of my exes would tell i was. Even now that i have 2 amazing partners and im a better spot, i still feel that way sometimes. Thank you so much for this. You are an angel
having this happen with a family member is the absolute worst. i’m wishing everyone that went thru this a good recovery (i know one can’t fully recover but we try yk?)
i’ve been SAd twice and seeing so many comments from others who have been SAd broke my heart. i love all of you and i’m so sorry. you didn’t deserve it and it’s not your fault.
sending so much love and virtual hugs to all of you 🤍.
I was SA’d when I was 18 by my boyfriend at the time (ex now thank goodness). He took advantage of my weak emotional state after a loved one had passed away. It has definitely impacted my romantic life. For me it has become a battle of wanting a relationship, trying to feel worthy of a relationship and fear of being in a relationship. I’m scared of physical affection will turn into sexual intention. Thank you, Nyx for doing this. It’s very helpful, comforting and validating. And to all SA survivors out there, you’re strong and amazing ❤
*Does parcour to get their headphones*
*Takes blanket and sits down*
*Enjoys*
PARCOUR!!!
As a teenager who’s been SA’Ed by three different boys at my schools that I’ve been at,this really helps me.Thank you Nyx,we all appreciate and love you and what you do :)
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I'm so sorry for what happened
@@ZepfireSmilez thank you,it means a lot ❤️
@@vxlgxrwxb___ 💝
If you have suffered from SA, it is not your fault and you are so brave ❤️ 💗
Am scared of it happening again. My hurted me. I don't know if he bragged about it or not but am scared he can and try to do it again. Thank you for this audio
I don't usually listen to these seriously but like man this hit close to home didn't know I really needed it till I saw the video haha.. *especially* the shower thing the memories hit me like a brick that feeling of being dirty...
As someone who survived SA I am happy you made this
Hey I'm faith and this is my story:
I was 5-6 years old and my brother was about 11-12 years old and we decided to go out and play with him so we went out and he took me to this alleyway/corner thing and he asked me "truth or dare" and I said dare and he said "I dare you to kiss me" and I said okay
Thinking it was brother sister stuff but no
He kissed me and he put his hands down my pants and kissed me even tho I told him to stop and he wouldn't. I ran back to my grans crying and she said, go into your room and watch rio and I did that but he came in and did the same thing again.
it was really traumatic and I still get shivers to this day it's affected me for the past 12 years but I will stay strong!
Edit: whoops i think this is the wrong sa I'm talking about.
thank you so much for this youre very comforting
This is a bloody masterpiece ♡
As a SA survivor i really love this audio. Its comforts me. Well done Nyx! I always loved ur audios! 💗
I just came across this video in an asmr search and I love your voice so kind and tender and this audio really speaks to me as I have suffered from SA! Thank you so much for this! I subscribed and I can’t wait to binge listen to all of your audios!!! ❤❤❤❤
this made me feel so safe
My past trauma from SA was when I was 9 all through 12. It still scares me. Thanks for the comfort Nyx. ❤️🩹❤
Thank you so much Nyx, this made me feel so safe. When I was 10 years old I was r@ped and I now have PTSD flashbacks. I’m in therapy now but it still affects me everyday
This is so sad I went through this 😢 it's so sad upsetting and horrible 💔💔💔💔❤❤❤
this hit home i was 11 and he was 48 but this really made me feel so much better i actually feel like someone actually cares about me
I was just scrolling down your yt channel when i stopped at this video and when i read caption i started crying so hard because I remember my sa history. Anyways thank you for this audio ❤️
I had to listen to this because recently the police had my step dad tell them what he did to me while drunk and angry. So now I'm in the middle of having to relive it again over and over again. This helped me a lot. So thank you so much
This really helps as someone whos ex was like the asshole, WANTING rewards like that for everything he did.....its sad to see so many others in the comment that had to suffer so much too but...in the same time,im thankful im not alone. Thank you so so much Nyxmoonreads❤
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This really helped me a lot, I have trouble loving my body since its so curvy and fits into the "slim thick" category, even since as young as 13. A lot of male doctors, random men from the street, and boys from high school really made me uncomfy and miserable. But I was young and naiive, I really didn't know better. Now at age 18, I'm just finally affording group therapy with other SA survivors. I'm nervous for my first meeting, but I know I'm not alone. And trust me, my friend, you aren't alone either. :)
I really hope it goes well for you, you're strong.
I’m proud of you ❤
@@NyxMoonReads Thanks, man. And thank you for making audios that bring comfort and security for us 💙
@@muddpieee9209 Thank you, I'm proud of you too
You are strong. Don't let anyone else tell you otherwise.
oh my god your videos are great✨
I lived through hell with a previous boyfriend for a year suffering from every type of abuse imaginable almost, just to learn that he also cheated on me for a good part of the relationship. I thought I had gotten over most of the trauma or at least pushed it as far back in my mind as possible. Until yesterday, when I learned that my boyfriend of 6 months cheated on me. Everything came rushing back, the cheating reminded my brain and body about everything else I suffered through and I feel like I am back to square one of the healing process again. I hate it. The most constant abuse was r@pe and it is what has continued to haunt me since then but now worse than it has in a long time so I want to thank you for having done this video. It is helping at least a bit and will make sleep possible tonight, something I thought would be impossible...
I needed this so much, these comments are so nice I ended up crying
Thank you so much for this! I've been waiting for you to do an audio related to this topic and it helped so thank u
Today has been especially tough, flashbacks wise. This helped calm me alot. Thank you so much
i’ve been crying since the second this video started😭😭😭😭
As a victim of SA by my own stepdad who still lives here with me, this helps so much. im currently 16 and i plan on moving out as soon as possible. I didnt tell anyone about this. i dont wanna ruin my mums relationship/marriage and it wasnt involved with s€x he was just.. t0uching me. i think he didnt notice me noticing what he was doing bc i was sleeping in my parents bed with my mum and dad aside. i pretended to be asleep and i just feel so incredibly uncomfortable around him. he keeps tickling me also around upper chest and i just HATE it I HATE IT. i dont wanna tell anyone until i moved out.
Your audio was so good
I know I’m commenting in every damn video you have… but… Your audios make me cry…( in a good way)
With this one… I’ve been SA’d…. Multiple times… and hearing this calms me down…. Thank you.💜
At the age of 11 I experienced my second SA I was just outside and felt a guy put his hands on my butt and he was rubbing my back he told me he knew but I didn't even know him i can't tell he was about to touch my chest but I left and I got so scared of men after that day i don't go with men even I've known them my entire life...😕😕
I know no one will see this but I love your audios and I was hoping I could get through it but I couldn’t… for me it’s still hard to think about even tho when it happened I was so young like idk 4 or 5 but I will struggle with everyday things like being hugged or just someone tapping me on the shoulder. That small of a thing can send me into freeze, fight, or flight.
Even when I try to confront my feeling about what happened to me with my therapist I can even get through a sentence without crying… so I was hoping this audio might help but I guess I’m still to weak to do it haha… but I’ve made a great deal of progress from where I used to be… I’m so thankful for your audios and I’m sorry i couldn’t finish it but I appreciate all you do and I’ve learned if it’s to much take a second and breath hope you have a good morning/night! ❤
I was so confused so a second because I live in South Australia (SA) so I thought the title was talking about a history test then I look at the thumbnail and realised it was way worse then a history test-
I had a pretty bad sa experience when I was little with a kid older than me at school, and its stuck with me for years. I still remember it vividly, and this really helped!😊
I am a survivor. It was my brother. I was 4 when it started. And I was around 13 when it ended… I’m 18 now… and I’m still traumatized… I don’t know why but my parents knew it was happening- SAW IT HAPPENING- and did nothing. When I fought back, however, I got in trouble… punished for ‘hurting my brother’.
I’ve also experienced different kinds of abuse- from my parents and some forced relationships. I just started talking about it a couple months ago…. It still feels fresh. And I still feel disgusted and disgusting about it. These kinds of videos keep me sane when the thoughts get bad…
Thank you for making this…
Can we get a reverse comfort for SA/abuse history or ?? If you're comfortable with doing that I'd make my day tbh 😭 my saviour complex acting up