Every child needs a father. Every child. We need black fathers back in the house. We need to celebrate fathers who actually step up to the role and do right by their children.
My sperm donor vanished into thin air. I've got nothing, birth mom is dead and she was the outcast of the family. She hid the pregnancy. It fucks with ya..
@anonymous I don’t feel the need to help raise the awareness of gay households being that only 15% of the 1.5% same sex households are raising children.
“Loves a hard word for me…my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more.” Truly one of the saddest things I’ve ever heard on this channel. I hope this guy gets a break soon, because he needs it.
I’m a police officer and I remember the first time I realized heroin was more important than kids for some. It was jarring. Now it’s just another thing I know. Heroin is some insidious evil shit.
@@nickthelick I encourage you to keep trying to quit, until you quit, or until you die. I revived two people with Narcan between today and yesterday. What’s out on the streets (in Oregon where I work) is pure poison. This year alone I’ve done at least 30 overdoses… and that’s just me. Some lived some did not. I’ve had to do several death notifications to kids, parents, husbands and wives. I know a lot of people feel sympathy for the guy in this video. I can appreciate that I didn’t have the same upbringing as him. But selling meth or heroin is pure evil. Especially when you are as well educated as him on the effects of what you’re selling. It’s hard to care about a pusher’s story after you see someone’s kid die from what this guy sold… then have to go tell a parent their kid died in bathroom of a flop house. As a parent, I take on that pain as my own. So as far as this guy goes… I’ll pray for him, but sympathy isn’t too forthcoming. As for you my man, I’ll pray for you and I sincerely hope you summon the resources and strength to get clean. I have many “friends” on the street that have successfully beat heroin. I go to church with many that I have arrested. The other side of addiction is worth the hell you MUST go through to get there. Sending love brother. Be strong and find a way… it’s worth it.
@@nickthelick my sister was in active opioid (mostly fentanyl) addiction for something like four years. The only time she was semi clean was the last few months of her pregnancy. After she had the baby, she lost custody, so me and my mom raised her while my sister floated around doing drugs with her boyfriend. She overdosed a few times and would have died if it weren't for narcan and the grace of God. She was in rehab and that didn't stick. Then outpatient treatment and that didn't stick. I saw my sister blue on the floor with no heartbeat a year ago and I dream about that all the time. I say all that to say that she just celebrated six months clean. She just got back custody of her daughter and is working on finding a job. It was really hard, but she did it, and has been doing it for six months. I'm personally not an addict, but living with one for so long has given maybe a bit of insight, and I truly believe that if my sister can do it and continue to do the work, so can you or anyone else. I hope you can rest and find people who are able to support you.
Poor guy, self soothing with rocking back n forth. Seems like he never was fully loved and cared for. I hope his daughter can show him compassion and connect with him in a heartfelt way.
@@spiralingout9506 yeah that they seize in a bust. if he had money stashed somewhere else it’s very possible. drug money is kept on records so there’s no way for them to know how much he actually had or made.
I know you say that you “gave up” your daughter, but I think instead, you gave her a chance. Good on you for doing what was never, but should have been done for you. My heart goes out to you and I hope you keep focusing on a better life. Take care.
I met so many trash people like this in LA, getting free rent free clothes free drugs, getting paid $1,000/month just to exist, etc etc. I wonder what it's like to live in a country that doesn't treat criminals better than responsible people. But seriously, those of you who praise these people are even worse than they are. 🖕🖕🖕
This man put his daughter through one of the MOST prestgious schools all while screwing most of his life up. Kudos to Psycho and what he did for his daughter!
He wanted better for his daughter and that is what most parents who love their children want. He had a screwed up childhood thank God he didn't put his daughter through that kind of life. I agree kudos to him!!!!
@@TaraLynnbeauty 800k is more than it costs to go to NYU medical school. Google what it costs to be a registered nurse. Hes lying, hes a meth head that got a couple hundred for an interview.
Psycho is not psycho at all. He is actually a very intelligent man who was broken by his upbringing. I find it amazing and admiral that he took care of his daughter. I hope he finds peace someday.
@@RanchDressingPop-Tarts It wasn't clarified what psycho meant in this video so it could have been short for either psychotic OR psychopath. Psychotic: Someone who's mind is losing its grip on reality. Psychopath: Someone who isn't able to feel for others and may act in reckless and antisocial ways. He could be classified as both.
Mark's interviewing technique is really strong. He uses silence so well to let people stew in it. And his questions are broad and unintrusive, allowing them to interpret them how they want.
"my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more than me" God damn that one cut me straight to my core. Someone I'm really close to their sister has 3 kids who she couldn't be bothered to be in their lives. Living on the street, 3 kids bring raised by the grandparents. She would go on to OD and die half way across the country.
@@hamsandwichindahouse Certainly. But that is what these videos are for. Many of them confessing they make only bad decisions, no matter what they try or do. They are mostly fucked up humans for a reason and know it, but somehow can't help bettering themselves despite intentions and knowing what's right. That is the fucked up thing. That is the lesson to be taken from these videos I think. What I am often wondering is what makes some people succeed and others not? In the end we often feel the same way but act totally different.
Same as the people who are American justice, police's favorite preys and your problematic (overly sensitive, too paranoid, annoying with her traumas) but many won't live as long as him, many would do less shit than him and not. And them white homeless asking young sometimes colored students we know them too. I'll watch this interview when black lives will matter. And black folks empathizing y'all...😅 Please have some self-love, more likely, this nigga more likely wouldn't care about your trauma if you did this to his race, remember that.
@@bigbillybadass you've never seen prison walls obviously don't be a clown I really hope your a child and not adult Cut the woke 💩 life is alot deeper than your bubble you live in
The interview and comments below honestly brought me to tears... love is the human default mode. This guy is supposed to hate me for my skin, but I know he pretended to hate to survive. The complexity of the human condition is a beautiful one.
One of the worst things about California prisons that other states don't do as you probably know is segregation by race. You might not even be racist but you literally have to Side with your race for survival.
@@brownjatt21 I mean it's kinda smart because everyone is in survival mode in CA prisons so I think being with your own race the survival mode goes down a notch
@@spiralingout9506 no we wouldn't, not if he's just minding his business. He lives in a Mexican neighborhood, if he messed w anyone for no reason, he knows he would be done.
Thing that gets me the most, as a father, is seeing the pain in the eyes of guys like this when they talk about their childhood. Hearing them talk about how bad they wanted a dad.
I don't he think does anymore he live in a Mexican hood. U gotta understand in California if u in the life. Gangs. Prisons. Etc. U riding with you're race. Just how it is. Especially prision
Skinheads aren’t always racist. The original skinheads listen to reggae which comes from Jamaica. It wasn’t till the 80s that skins started becoming race oriented.
It's tough to feel sorry for him. My older brother was beat and stabbed to death by skinheads at the age of 15 or 16 can't remember his age, but he was young.
I feel for that man. His life had been trauma since he can remember, no matter how tough a man is we are not built for all that constant trauma. Prayers for him and his family
Actually, we are all built for constant trauma. If we weren't, then would have no automatic coping mechanisms, which we clearly have in abundance. Granted these mechanisms are not geared toward rationality, but rather, pure raw survival. Its how we kept on keeping on, after watching our children eaten in front of our eyes by a saber toothed cat. Our society is what is not built to handle severely traumatized humans, that are in a mind state of "survival at all costs" due to said trauma.
Im black and a good majority of my friends are white since I grew up with mostly white people my whole life. I also have alot of black and white friends too that grew up in what most would call “the hood” and I have one friend who was a skin head. He doesnt have a racist bone in his body lol. But he was facing 10-15 years at 19 and only way u survive up in state being non affiliated and white is to join the aryans/skin heads. And thats what he did, its better than being a flesh light. Truth is, you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes and not to take everything at face value. He has white power and nazi symbols tatted all over him but I really dont care cuz I know his true character and sitting down and getting to know someone is better than judging them at face value based on what YOU think about them. We all need to come together and listen to each others stories, cuz it will bring us closer. See someone with a confederate flag on their truck, ask them why they have it. The reason will 9.9/10 not be racist. See someone with a blue lives matter sticker, ask em why they have it. They could have a deceased family member who was a serviceman. See someone with a BLM sticker, ask em why they have it, the reason might shock you. But the truth is, you can have differing views and be friends, so stop being limited by your political party or if someone likes guns or not or if someone has a flag u dont agree with cuz that shit is all face value and is a horrible way of judging TRUE CHARACTER. Thank you if you read this whole thing and have a good day.
@@Doodamac yea man its s15 front end swapped. I rarely run the bumper or hood anymore tho since ive been doin rolls. Its a street car but I throw some 225s on it every once in a while and break her loose lol.
240dejS14. Dude. Brother. Fellow human. Well said. Very well said. You know what really gets under my skin is that, most of the time in today's society, if you hold an unpopular opinion, or go against the latest grain in any fashion, so many are real quick to not just point you out, but to drown you out, as if they aren't just content with hating on you, they want to erase you for not thinking like them. In the last few years I've seen this mentality rise from obscurity , to become the norm . It's beyond sad , that in this country it's near impossible for people to sit down and just be cool with each other if they are of opposing viewpoints. I'm not perfect. I struggle with ingrained racial shit more often than I wish. It's not like I hate anyone for being different from me, not in the true sense of me. Sometimes though I find myself thinking shit that I feel terrible for thinking, like a flash of thought will come into my mind and I'm asking myself why did I think that? That's not me! I'm fascinated by other cultures , especially ancient cultures from all over! I mostly like punk , metal and oi! , but I know that none of those musics would exist without the invention of deep southern blues. Music that was invented by black men. Nothing but love and respect there. I can't stand when I see someone do r say something racial, publicly no matter who it is against who. Like Psycho , I can't stand bullies. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. Other than I appreciate your comment. I wish people were actually tolerant , especially those who preach tolerance the most. We're all the same, we're all different. We all breathe and we're all gonna die someday. Anyways.. God bless you sir. And God bless Psycho.
Wowww!! This is so raw. I never thought i could sympathize with a Skinhead but here we are in 2021. Everything is so complex and nuanced. 🥴 These interviews make it make sense.
Brad & Lex. I love your video reviews on music.I subscribe & I wonder if you two could handle the Butthole Surfers? Or Die Antwoord? Two very weird music groups.
@@crzywrld1321 This shit had nothing to do with Politics and you bringing Trump up in a conversation about a Skinhead shows you’ve never even looked into Trump or spoken to his supporters because they’re the furthest from racist.
I've watched about 4 hours of SWU today after recently discovering it. This channel is so important, thanks for letting these people share their story and express their humanity...and thanks for being such a great interview! Subscribed after the first video!
Just a update: I see him almost everyday. Super nice guy, not a racist at all, I’m Mexican and always says hi to me and he buys clothing from my job. Great guy.
Goes to show that it doesn't matter who you are or your skin color, lack of good parenting puts you at the mercy of an unforgiving world. Hard to grow up properly if you're busy raising yourself.
Yes, environment is important but genes are too. A lot of people I know grew up in real bad conditions and they made it out a“normal” life (without prison at least).
@Piglover Genes absolutely has something to do with is also. Mental illnesses can be genetically pre disposable. If I'm not totally wrong, studies show that children of addicts also are more likely to become addicted even if they grow up away from their parents. We know that heart diseases has to do with genetics, so why shouldn't mental illness be genetic? Obviously your environment are the most important factor but genetics also play roles.
Kids love unconditionally unless you're not there parenting or cause them so much hurt they have to lose the love to survive. All kids need from us is to raise them and protect them.
I commend you for loving your daughter enough to send her to live with your sister. Funding her pathway to success through nursing school. Removing those tattoos from your face speaks volumes about leaving your past behind you. You’re a noble man, don’t look back
I appreciate how much honesty this man delivers. He is a prime example of why children need love and support along with stability. This dude never had a chance to even know what normal is.
I think about %80 of me completely agrees, but then I think that everyone has choices. I mean truly. Not looking to be ignorant about the bad hand he was dealt, but we weren't there, and I don't think it's fair to him to say that he never had a chance to know normal. Maybe he chose a lot of this. Don't crucify me, just saying it's not out of the realm of plausible, and definitely not out of the realm of possible.
@@ThaNewDealer723 I get it and there are exceptions to every rule, there are kids that come from garbage that grow up and be fine but that isn’t the normal outcome. He never had a chance to know normal when he didn’t have a choice and when he was old enough to choose he clearly chose wrong which was what he knew
@@deadpilled2942 I can’t argue with you there and I really just meant the negative shit he said about himself. I do agree with you most people like this with amazing tales of good they have done are full of shit probably almost all the time
@@deadpilled2942 tell everyone about how you beat your mother and robbed a bank….. see how easy it is to make shit up about people you don’t know with next to no real information?
Your right with your comment, I'm 36 and have struggled all my life with no father since age of 5. You just feel lost looking for and over giving to anyone that shows you some kind of fatherly affection. Taken me a long time to see it, you do just go into a selfish self destruct mode it's crazy
I felt what you wrote. Im 35 years old and my father figure/role model was my best friend that was my age. I didnt know it then, but i have soul searched my self and stumbold a cross that thought!
@@ryansouthey2691 man i wrote my answear and then i read other comments! We had the same issues brother. Im struggling with opiates my whole life. And for the last time, this is the hardest i worked in my whole life. Taking just very very little Subutex/buprenofine now days. Took a whole 8mg Subutex a day, now i take 1/4 two times a week. Progress finally brother! I wish you well and luck in life brother! Peace from Sweden
When he said, I’m institutionalized I can stare at a wall for 24 hours for years, that…that got me. The prison industrial complex has deeper pockets and more power than we can fathom. Just turns us out, cashes us in, then on to the next.
They've done everything they can to capitalize off poverty and the trauma that is often associated with it. They actually have huge companies using prison labor to make their products for pennies (Victoria's Secret for instance). In my opinion, just because they give them 3 cents a hour doesn't mean it isn't....damn near slavery, and the US population of black Americans vs US prison population of black Americans is far out of proportion. That should be a red flag to everyone that slavery isn't dead it just got a different look now. This is either slavery or an updated version of the workhouse or a mixture of both. We enslave people we don't think are worthy of human rights which are supposed to be...a right. Something you can't take away, kind of exactly like we did before. Then we based it on color now it's less about color (but still is to an extent) and more about poverty. The prison industrial complex is out of control. We have the most prisoners in the world and we only make up what? Like 20% of the population? Less? Idk but it's far out of proportion and our prisons leave a hell of a lot to be desired. Do I expect The Ritz no but mold, standing water, rats and no AC or heat is ridiculous for the richest country in the world. (Or one of the richest at least)
It seems he’s really changed his perspective on life and things in general. Awesome that he has learned from what he didn’t know years ago. Wishing him the best of luck.
@@scooter2163 Exactly hes caught up in dealing and doing meth, he has learned though from his life which is awesome bc some people don’t learn anything from awful experiences.
I don't really get that he changed anything. He just doesn't want to go back to prison and that's certainly understandable. I'm sure he's grown since he was 20 years old.... Prison will do that to you. But he also seems to have a lot of pride about that bad behavior. (IMO)
I agree in how important parents are in children's lives. I got two boys myself and can also relate to squeezing the shit out of them. Just gotta be there for them and not make the mistakes parents make.
May God bless you for your compassion 🙏 Numbers 6:24-26 King James Version 24 The Lord bless thee, and keep thee: 25 The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: 26 The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.
No! Theyre convicts and should be locked up for as long as possible so we can make the most money from his prison stay. Suffering is the elites nourishment, we low vibrational beings feed on the agony of humans, and compassion leaves such a bitter taste.
I can't help feeling overwhelmingly sorry for this guy. I hope this serves as a lesson to us all, to myself foremost...our children deserve to be raised better.
Maybe deadshits shouldn't have children . I've said it before that people should have to get a license to have kids, pass an IQ test, have assets to pay for their upbringing. Any piece of shit can produce a child and in most cases shit produces shit, just my opinion
@@thebob3712 we can’t police people’s body but with positive influence we can share info to positively have an impact on their minds so that they make better decisions in their lives
@@thebob3712 its the system, not really the people, when you grow up in some neighborhoods, even if you area good person, you are allmost forced to join gangs as very young teen and they f** up their life even before they become adults. I live in Sweden and even the poor families or the ones that have a chaotic childhood, social service will take care of them. I have two grown up kids, my daughter as teen had some issues, like many teens, small silly stuff, but social service and school took care of her with programs and family therapy and so on, and she ended on the right track, fully. But like in cities in the USA as example, the system will help not these kids. So much chance they end like this guy in the video
Hes honest and just trying to keep his apartment. I couldn’t imagine going through all that let alone having to bounce back and try to stay out of prison. People are products of there environment. I hope he can keep it together.
Most people have good in them. It's just very hidden at times. He talks to his daughter twice a week. It's a very good thing she's forgiven him because she's probably the only thing in his life that has some kind of meaning to him.
When he said , he left home at 14 , as a mother myself my tears just rush down my face very hard , cause all I could see was my 14 yr old son whom happen to be my everything . I really wish him the best smfh ❤️ 🙏🏾
I grew up without a mom or a dad and was homeless on the streets of l.a. as a child. I'm not a skinhead racist piece of crap I would love a hug from you
These stories are so insightful -- they really make me view others with more grace... you never know someone's background and story. Thank you for sharing.
Totally agree Denny, Mark has an amazing way of interviewing that doesn't challenge his interviewees and just allows them to talk. This brings the best out of people and feel they have the freedom of speech.
This is a guy who had no guidance but loves his daughter. My guy won’t like me cause I’m not White but I have the utmost compassion for him and I seriously wish him all the best.
What’s called money? I don’t think you understand what I mean. I don’t think whether he gets money or not for his videos has anything to do with how communicates with his guests
@@aliamonique192 when he first started, it wasn't lucrative, but people see his current success and think it's always been like this. it's been a journey.
As someone that’s been contemplating suicide, your channel always helps me keep on going. It’s very comforting to know I’m not the only one struggling with issues. Thank you so much🤍
You are so strong I know how hard it can be! I promise life is worth living and when it's our time it's our time. Keep fighting keep pushing you got this 💪💪 💜💜
Hey Cheyenne, try to be patient with yourself. I've been there. It's hard to believe that a person can go from wanting to end it all to being happy and successful and loved...but it happened to me. It might only be one small correct decision that starts the change and it might be something that doesn't even seem important at the time. But if I had not been patient with myself, I wouldn't have been present to make that choice. Be patient, Cheyenne...Cheers.
We have a saying in my country: "Everyone is a blacksmith of their own luck"...Keep up your head girl, no one lives a easy life, we all feel you. Everyone close to you needs you, trust me. I've been in the same place... Hell, if you want i'm open for talking, to hear you out or whatever! And for everyone else too...
as a dad, hearing him say what he did for his kid, that was huge. you can fuck up your entire existance, as long as you do right by your children, your ok in my book. good luck to ya, buddy.
@@spiralingout9506 It's easy to play the morality Card for people who aren't parents. I feel that people these days think having kids is easy when it's not, parents are still human and are far from perfect.
Setting the bar low if you think that's doing right by your children. As a father, so much more is required. If you don't know what's required, there are books
@@oenophile i never said thats all thats required. the guy fucked his life up, had nothing to learn from as a kid. but still atleast did something right. give the guy an ounce of credit, he couldve done much worse, considering his background.
"My mom told me she loved me but she loved heroin more". Damn that broke my heart. Makes me thankful for the mom God gave me and I should probably stop being such a brat.
When someone turns to heroin / fentanyl they sell their soul away. They are no longer themselves and have no control over it. Surely your mother loved you but the devil got her on lock down
Seeing these interviews should make a lot of us think about how lucky we are. There is no guarantee that we wouldn't have ended up like this man if we were dealt as shitty cards in life as he was. Most people (not everyone, but most of them) are not evil and can redeem themselves, under the right circumstances.
This is exactly why I love listening to these interviews!! Every.. single.. night i listen to 1 to 2 of these while doing my puzzle games before bed. Shows you how lucky you are even if you suffer in life yourself the way I do. These people are all humans that were given horrific lives. We can never say how things would be if in their shoes.
I grew up with dope heads, dealers violence when he says he grew up quick he developed a distrust for everyone around him I can tell you in the meth game everything is unpredictable, been sober for 2 years lost my all my family except my mom and my lil bro to heroin
I'm thankful everyday too have a home and not be from couch to couch wherever I could stay, and I'm so thankful I got the devil out of my life. God is good, the world is crazy.
This guy has somehow a good heart. but he had to suruve in this very awfull environment. Not much choise. You hear it when he talk about loayalty, love and his daughter.
@@nofurtherwest3474 they confiscate any money or property that was paid with from dealing drugs which usually means they're left with nothing. So when he got out he had nothing and had been in prison 20 years. I didn't know they paroled people homeless
@@retrosurfer76 so... he made $4 MM from dealing drugs? i mean... if you make that much in CASH how in the hell do you not store some away. You literally can't carry that much around, it would weigh too much. Something does not add up. He's likely bullsh*tting. No way he had $4 MM and didn't put some away in some place he could access later. If he's smart enough to make and actually hold on to $4 MM then he's smart enough to stash some away.
The fact that he's been able to help his daughter as much as he had is amazing. Maybe his own life didn't turn out the way He wanted but his daughter's certainly did.
Things never turn out good when a child lacks a parents love, affection & most of all, ATTENTION ! I feel for this gentlemen as I do many of your interviewees. ❤
It does not always turn out bad for children who does not get love, affection and attention from their parent(s). Some actually turn out very well despite their bad childhood. Children are amazingly resilient. But many also pay some kind of price for their childhood, which is so unfair and very sad. People should not hesitate to report to the CPS (or whatever it’s called where you are) that they are worried about the children in family members or neighbours’ families (or students’ if you’re a teacher or other type of mandated reporter) so the kids/families can get some kind of help. You can always do it anonymously if you’re worried for repercussions if they find out you did it. Bottom line: If you’re worried that children do not get proper care, report it, then it’s their responsibility…
Althought I do agree with you a bit, Its not always easy to see if something isn't right. Kids look clean, show no signs of mistreatment, abandonment ect.. just "seeming normal" So that's why CPS is usually involved until its too late in horrible cases or where issues already been occuring for so long. Also children don't want to lose or be away from their biological parents no matter if they aren't getting love & attention because as a child you don't know where you'll end up with some strangers or if you'll ever seem them again along with the rest of the family members, so they're uncomfortable while be comfortable at the same time even in the worst situations.
That’s totally true. I know people that have become amazing people with no parental love but they were able to get into a house where someone else’s parents gave them parental love. It’s sad, it’s almost like they never had a chance when they get no love as a child
This man has been through and seen more than most could even attempt to imagine. Now he just wants to keep to himself and do his thing, and be left alone. He's the literal definition of "been there, done that".. As someone else said in an earlier comment. I would have never thought I would say, I have respect for a "skinhead". But I have respect for this man. He did what he had to do to survive, and survive is what he did. People are fast to judge others, without having a clear understanding of the things they have gone through and their upbringing.
Respect ?!! Really bro that man will fuk u over in 1 second flat! You respect him for what? What has he done to deserve your respect? If u ask me he hasn't done shit but continued the cycle of living like a piece of s***! Let him change an be a positive in someones life then he would be deserving of respect!!!!
These interviews really gets my mind thinking. It shows how easy it is to slip through the cracks of society. We have let each other down,not as society but as the human race. Just think of the changes we could make if we reached out and helped one person. If everyone helped one person just imagine how better things would be! Some of the most talented and interesting people are homeless,hooked on drugs,or just so caught up in the day to day struggles that they don't get to shine or don't know how to shine. Be the hand that reaches out,be the polish in someone's life and help them shine. My wallet is empty but my heart is full. One love ❤️
Good on him for having the insight to reflect on his life, and acknowledge & own up to all the bad stuff. Paying for all your daughter's schooling in full, is very respectable. He sincerely wants her to have a better chance at life than he did.
okay, I agree but you can't be blaming your parents for how you end up...signed my mother was murdered by my stepbrother and the last time my dad hit me I was 23...still, you are right. He's helped his daughter and is trying...
Obviously doesnt care if hes still abusing drugs. Hes doing the same thing to his daughter. Exaclty what his mother did to him, hes doing to his daughter.
@@gely_ His daughter is now an adult and doing her own thing, any damage he has done is already done. The point is he did more for his child than most suffering from advanced drug addiction, not that he's a squeaky clean or something.
This guy has been there and done that. Easily let us know not having a dad was the main downfall of his life but his daughter is the best thing in his life.
Mark I love what you do here .. the stories and the way you interact with the people you meet. Your open and non judge mental and you can tell a lot of them use this for therapy session. Keep doing what you do I’m here for all of it.
Mark, I subscribed to your channel after discovering you a few weeks ago. I have shared several of your videos. I'm extremely impressed, like so many others, with your fantastic show, "Soft White Underbelly." You're really excellent at this. I have one suggestion and one other observation. Your content and topics for some, if not many or even most, is painful to watch, almost excruciating but extremely important for many reasons. With All Due Respect, Mark: With that said, while I understand a majority of the people you interview could be perceived "hard as nails," impervious, resilient, hardcore and raw, you don't have too meet them with the same hardened exterior. You rapid-fired your questions in an aloof, curt, rapid staccato rhythm. That's not to say you're cold, unconcerned, and unfeeling, in fact, I believe you to be the complete opposite. This particular video is the most severe of the aforementioned. It's as if you're completely distracted, not paying him much attention. Even I'm having slight difficulty catching on or hearing what you're asking him. You're discharging these questions so quickly, without normal inflection, as he also demonstrates some difficulty understanding you. You're quite cold here, with a considerable flat affect. Furthermore, you seem to be mumbling some of your questions. You don't need to be overemotional by any stretch, but perhaps consider taking a bit more engaging approach. This was more like an interrogation than an interview. Finally, what really validated my perspective was when you asked this VERY Caucasian, "Skinhead" if he joined a Mexican gang. (LOL) Mark, did you forget who you were interviewing? His body language alone speaks volumes of how terribly uncomfortable he already feels.
I feel for this man. He knows exactly what went wrong, how it went wrong and what was required to make things as they should be. He figured it out and that is a big thing. I hope he and his daughter will have a valuable relationship soon. As it appears, At least he invested in her with what he could.
Mark, I really admire what you do. I also really appreciate all the people who allow you to interview them. It is really enlightening to be able to see things from all different perspectives. We are all human...just trying to figure this "life" thing out.
I bet grandchildren would truly push him to change even more. You can tell he truly loves his daughter. He really needs a complete change in his environment. Doesn’t matter the race, poverty, drugs, trauma has a very strong effect on a person. I don’t blame him, what was a child to do with literally no positive role models, no money, living on the streets, no love 🥺. I truly wish this man the best 🙏🏾 he has plenty sense, & his experiences has granted him alot of wisdom. Best wishes Psycho ❤️❤️❤️
This guy is one of the most raw and real people I feel you have interviewed. Even had me tearing up. I hope he finds some peace in his life and can find sobriety in the end of his journey
Man, I have so much respect for this man, I understand the struggle. I'm a recovering addict and prostitute and lived that life for over 30 years. I have 4 years clean and sober and now I'm a psychology major . This channel really shows the fundamental attribution error that we all commit against people. These people on your channel are so brave to share their story with the world. I wish all the best for this man. Keep pushing !
I celebrated my two years today. I’m so happy to be clean. I was an IV drug addict with absolutely no hope. Recovery is possible and we can turn our lives around. It’s incredible
@@Tom6060 we’re you IV’ng opioids? I’m 21 recovering on suboxone I was getting to the point were the pills weren’t effecting me (20-30 percs a day) and I was debating moving up a notch if you know what i mean but I chose to get help and go on suboxone and my life has been much better since. I’m just not looking forward to stopping it because the depression really kicked my ass going through withdrawals not to mention the physical part.
I’m sure it was therapeutic for him to be able to talk to someone. Keep up the good work, Mark! I hate he went through so much neglect & pain at such a tender, young, age. Hang in there, Psycho! 💓
These interviews not only make me thankful for my life and how different I grew up with both parents and life's necessities, but I feel such sadness when I hear them speak about their pain and upbringing. I see homeless and drug addicts in my town and always wonder how they are as people if they were clean, what they've been through, what dreams that they had but have been robbed from substance abuse. It's so sad. I wish him the best. 😢
I seriously had to stop and wonder if my own dad ever showed he was proud of me. He didn't pay for my school, and never saw how his life affected me. This guy makes me proud for myself overcoming my past and succeeding. Thanks, Psycho ❤
I’ve thought about the same thing. My dad never showed it and I always wanted it. I bought my first nice car after a milestone in my life and stopped by his house to show him. He pretty much shrugged. I just wanted to hear him say good job or he was proud of me. He died about 15 years ago and I never heard him say it.
EVEN THO his history is not positive & he has really struggled personally,, his love for his daughter & how he has been devoted to her well being is so incredibly touching!
Pshyco is my age. Listening to him makes me unbelievably grateful that I had parents who loved me and educated me and punished me when I was out of line. I could have had his life. not being able to trust and love anymore must be terrible. I wish I had the means to take him out of his situation and give him one more chance to be who he can be. I see a caring person hurt badly by hate and greed. my heart goes out to him.
We don't all end up like Psycho. A lucky few of us become, to all appearances, everyman. No one would guess the horrors I grew up with now. For decades, though, the damage was apparent quickly. I was so broken. It shouldn't be such a fight, just to be allowed to heal.
Paying 740k for “ nursing assistant school “ is NOT APPROPRIATE.. who ever told him that’s what it cost has fucked him over. Also. “ Going for training at harbor ucla ( where I work at) and his daughter living in RENO, NEVADA are 2 hours apart… I think he’s getting fucked over by his daughter
I do not know all the harm he has done, but one thing he has done right, realize that he could not take care of his daughter and make sure she gets a better chance in life than he himself had. He still has a good heart
My heart breaks for him, it really does...Mark, I so appreciate that you give these people you interview a chance to talk and not be downtrodden. You are probably the only one who cared to let them open up about their hurt.
Time and time again it always comes down to the breakdown of the family. Prisons are filled with dudes who come from broken homes. Our society doesn't value the family like it once did. I hope one day we get back to realizing the power of a strong family unit.
@Frank McGovern single parents raise these kinds of kids as well. But if you grew up without a mom or a dad, chances are you are not the most successful version of yourself
Broken homes aren't the issue, it's parents and families not being there for their children. I'm from divorced parents but both my parents and both my stepparents were there for me and my siblings and we are all productive members of society and have kids ourselves now we are older and are happy and healthy. It's about support and love from your family, no matter what that family looks like
yeah people don't realize it wasn't hatred for other races that brings them into skinhead gangs, it's the support ''like a family'',in prison you're forced to stay with your own race
Thank you so much- for posting. Psycho could possibly save others from such hard lessons in life. This information is so Educational, so hard to hear, so valuable- as to what not to do.
One thing I notice just as much as the person being interviewed is how classy and thoughtful most of the people in these comments are. I’m truly impressed. Your comments are thoughtful, genuine and sincere. 99% of us are luckier than this man. That’s all, we just got luckier. 🙏🏼
That's what I'm noticing too. When I saw the title skinhead, I thought there'd be more judgment, because that's supposed to make him a white supremacist by default. Heck, a lot less can get you labelled a white supremacist these days. He doesn't come off that way, more like he was just dropped into this group, but no real hatred, just resignation. People just seem to have compassion.
Like most of the others interviewed, the odds were against this man from the beginning. Without a family, you gravitate to a gang and for him it was the skinheads. I wish him all the best. This channel is so powerful. If we all took the time to listen and understand, maybe we realize we aren’t so different from each other. Blessings to you, Psycho.
@@redrustyhill2 No skinhead was a non racist subculture of working class youths in the UK that listened to reggae music but over time it started to become more affiliated with neo Nazis. There are skinhead gangs like the Nazi low riders but some are just political movements.
@@thing8357 my comment wasn't about the origins of "skinhead". My comment was pointing out this man became a skinhead from time in the pen. It's part of prison culture and the gangs that inhabit prison. One has little choice. If your white and get locked up in socal you become skinhead or get shanked
"Whatever right is, I wish I did things better" that is such a simple thing but so true and I think everyone can understand and relate to that regardless of your background.
Helping his daughter was a flash of real light under a dome of blackness, but where there was just a flash of light, there's hope. His clear, ongoing, relentless battle against such suffocating darkness is inspiring.
@@kgreggh5058 some people like the weirdo above are just super entitled, can't really reason with them but something will happen to him one day and he'll need some help lol.
Goddamn Mark you do some of the most raw visceral interviews. This is the type of stuff the world needs to see, no agenda, no politics, no goal, just a rare insight into the human condition. Very humbling
This channel has shown me that all people no matter how bad have a story to tell, time erodes all people down and all that's left is reflection and wisdom
Psycho is a good man. He is the product of the world he was raised in, he's tired now. After it all he won't risk or give up the only real comfort he's ever know, the apartment where he can keep himself safe and sane. "They took everything, they ain't take my mind" -not something you expect from a man who's used meth amphetamines most of his life.
I could listen and watch Psycho all day long. Love you Brother. Hearing about your awakening and seeing its truth in your body is a major victory for Yourself and Humanity. Stay blessed Bro.
Guy's got a good heart. With a past that traumatic, it's admirable to see him still want to do some good in the world. I wish nothing but the very best for you sir
You can't tell shit from this interview Besides what he wants you to no. You are the type of fool that let's people like this into your life only to be taken for a useful idiot by them.
@@highdefinitionstanleytm9614 Sounds alot like you're the guy that let someone into their life just to be used by them and you seem very upset and traumatized by it 😂 not everyone is the same lil guy stop being an idiot for once
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This poor man has been on survival mode since birth. I felt a pain when he said “I wish I had a dad.”. All children need love and security .
Every child needs a father. Every child. We need black fathers back in the house. We need to celebrate fathers who actually step up to the role and do right by their children.
My sperm donor vanished into thin air. I've got nothing, birth mom is dead and she was the outcast of the family. She hid the pregnancy. It fucks with ya..
@@jen4552 hn
@@jen4552 Not necessarily only celebrate but EXPECT.
@anonymous I don’t feel the need to help raise the awareness of gay households being that only 15% of the 1.5% same sex households are raising children.
Not gonna lie when he said my mom loved heroin more then me , struck me hard, I wish this gentleman nothing but the very best
I felt his pain with that statement. Full credit to him for standing up and changing his life direction. That takes 💪
Truth
Addiction articulated at its finest
Sad
Me too, I seriously put my hand over my heart when he said that... 💔😢
“Loves a hard word for me…my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more.” Truly one of the saddest things I’ve ever heard on this channel. I hope this guy gets a break soon, because he needs it.
Totally agree..I felt like crying.. I wish I knew his address cos I'd send him £££££
Your right
I’m a police officer and I remember the first time I realized heroin was more important than kids for some. It was jarring. Now it’s just another thing I know. Heroin is some insidious evil shit.
@@nickthelick I encourage you to keep trying to quit, until you quit, or until you die. I revived two people with Narcan between today and yesterday. What’s out on the streets (in Oregon where I work) is pure poison. This year alone I’ve done at least 30 overdoses… and that’s just me. Some lived some did not. I’ve had to do several death notifications to kids, parents, husbands and wives. I know a lot of people feel sympathy for the guy in this video. I can appreciate that I didn’t have the same upbringing as him. But selling meth or heroin is pure evil. Especially when you are as well educated as him on the effects of what you’re selling. It’s hard to care about a pusher’s story after you see someone’s kid die from what this guy sold… then have to go tell a parent their kid died in bathroom of a flop house. As a parent, I take on that pain as my own. So as far as this guy goes… I’ll pray for him, but sympathy isn’t too forthcoming. As for you my man, I’ll pray for you and I sincerely hope you summon the resources and strength to get clean. I have many “friends” on the street that have successfully beat heroin. I go to church with many that I have arrested. The other side of addiction is worth the hell you MUST go through to get there. Sending love brother. Be strong and find a way… it’s worth it.
@@nickthelick my sister was in active opioid (mostly fentanyl) addiction for something like four years. The only time she was semi clean was the last few months of her pregnancy. After she had the baby, she lost custody, so me and my mom raised her while my sister floated around doing drugs with her boyfriend. She overdosed a few times and would have died if it weren't for narcan and the grace of God. She was in rehab and that didn't stick. Then outpatient treatment and that didn't stick. I saw my sister blue on the floor with no heartbeat a year ago and I dream about that all the time. I say all that to say that she just celebrated six months clean. She just got back custody of her daughter and is working on finding a job. It was really hard, but she did it, and has been doing it for six months. I'm personally not an addict, but living with one for so long has given maybe a bit of insight, and I truly believe that if my sister can do it and continue to do the work, so can you or anyone else. I hope you can rest and find people who are able to support you.
Poor guy, self soothing with rocking back n forth. Seems like he never was fully loved and cared for. I hope his daughter can show him compassion and connect with him in a heartfelt way.
Lmao he’s high on meth
That's not self soothing. He's tweaking on meth.
@@dontblameme6328 🤣🤣
@@harryking3468😂 shit got me weak the guy that made the top comment is innocent please stay that way 🙏
If a movie was ever made about this guy Woody Harrelson would be perfect to play him
Facts!! They look so similar 😯
I also see that
"I blew my balls off?"
Or Nolte
Awesome remark.
"Besides paying for my daughter's schooling, I've never done anything right" just broke my heart. Jesus.
He lied about that.....they don't let you keep part of the money they seize in a bust
@@spiralingout9506 yeah that they seize in a bust. if he had money stashed somewhere else it’s very possible. drug money is kept on records so there’s no way for them to know how much he actually had or made.
He paid with drug money ffs
"My mother told me she loved me. But she loved heroin more than me, so." 😢
The Jesus you propably think of does not care. He is dead.
I know you say that you “gave up” your daughter, but I think instead, you gave her a chance. Good on you for doing what was never, but should have been done for you. My heart goes out to you and I hope you keep focusing on a better life. Take care.
Sounds like he’s still part of her life too. At least he knew the right thing to do and still be around. He didn’t do what his dad did to him.
Ur beautiful 😍
She was half black. He had to give her up to live his skinhead lifestyle. He couldn't be caught with a black daughter.
@@doejon9424 .....? Where did you get this information
@@doejon9424 yea where did you get this info from?
I’m glad to hear how well his daughter has done and how she didn’t let his issues ruin her life. Good for her. I bet he’s so proud
Same. You could tell he was very proud of her. Happy to see
I was thinking the same thing. Unfortunately that’s rare to do so well with parents so messed up.
You can tell she’s hes biggest pride and the one thing he feels has gone right about his life
You’d be surprised what someone can accomplish when they don’t constantly victimize themselves as an excuse
I met so many trash people like this in LA, getting free rent free clothes free drugs, getting paid $1,000/month just to exist, etc etc.
I wonder what it's like to live in a country that doesn't treat criminals better than responsible people.
But seriously, those of you who praise these people are even worse than they are. 🖕🖕🖕
This man put his daughter through one of the MOST prestgious schools all while screwing most of his life up. Kudos to Psycho and what he did for his daughter!
He wanted better for his daughter and that is what most parents who love their children want. He had a screwed up childhood thank God he didn't put his daughter through that kind of life. I agree kudos to him!!!!
💯👌🏽 hes a real one! Solid asf through & through! 💪🏽 OTF
school doesnt mean shit when it comes to character
You do realized he was lying right? About the 800k and his daughter only "almost being an assistant rn." U can do that shit for 2400$.
@@TaraLynnbeauty 800k is more than it costs to go to NYU medical school. Google what it costs to be a registered nurse. Hes lying, hes a meth head that got a couple hundred for an interview.
Psycho is not psycho at all. He is actually a very intelligent man who was broken by his upbringing. I find it amazing and admiral that he took care of his daughter. I hope he finds peace someday.
He might be a sociopath bc i don't think this man was born with no feelings, he definitely has some feelings
I dunno I think someone who can torture somebody and film it is pretty psychotic tbh. Nice guy though! Would let him date my daughter :)
He tortured someone for 72 hours by using dental floss to keep their eye lids open (like Hitler did), and burned him while videoing it.
@@keenb641 Yes exactly, a nice guy!
@@RanchDressingPop-Tarts It wasn't clarified what psycho meant in this video so it could have been short for either psychotic OR psychopath.
Psychotic: Someone who's mind is losing its grip on reality.
Psychopath: Someone who isn't able to feel for others and may act in reckless and antisocial ways.
He could be classified as both.
Mark's interviewing technique is really strong. He uses silence so well to let people stew in it. And his questions are broad and unintrusive, allowing them to interpret them how they want.
Like asking a white skinhead if he was in a Mexican gang?
i feel like the way he can phrase things and make insinuations can lack tact a lot of times
Mark really is an outstanding interviewer.
@@Jedstop that was genius
agree, its kinda like a therapy session. the people also must feel some weight off their back after they tell their stories :,)
"my mom said she loved me, but she loved heroin more than me" God damn that one cut me straight to my core. Someone I'm really close to their sister has 3 kids who she couldn't be bothered to be in their lives. Living on the street, 3 kids bring raised by the grandparents. She would go on to OD and die half way across the country.
@@hamsandwichindahouse that’s true huh lol
@@hamsandwichindahouse Certainly. But that is what these videos are for. Many of them confessing they make only bad decisions, no matter what they try or do. They are mostly fucked up humans for a reason and know it, but somehow can't help bettering themselves despite intentions and knowing what's right. That is the fucked up thing. That is the lesson to be taken from these videos I think. What I am often wondering is what makes some people succeed and others not? In the end we often feel the same way but act totally different.
100th 👍
@@hamsandwichindahouse you really judging like you’re perfect, he’s trying to change while your a shitty person staying the same wow
@@hamsandwichindahouse wow that's a lot of hate. keep it up buddy.
This man isn’t hateful by default, he’s a product of his environment just like anyone else growing up in that kind of environment is.
Let it be known Pablo👍
Lies. He's just like his ancestors that burnt down black wall street
Same as the people who are American justice, police's favorite preys and your problematic (overly sensitive, too paranoid, annoying with her traumas) but many won't live as long as him, many would do less shit than him and not. And them white homeless asking young sometimes colored students we know them too. I'll watch this interview when black lives will matter. And black folks empathizing y'all...😅 Please have some self-love, more likely, this nigga more likely wouldn't care about your trauma if you did this to his race, remember that.
@@bigbillybadass you've never seen prison walls obviously don't be a clown
I really hope your a child and not adult
Cut the woke 💩 life is alot deeper than your bubble you live in
@@frankyeager2298 yea cause the beans don't program with the pecks?. Foh
You can legit watch this guys energy shift during this interview. I’m sure he is not used to someone asking him so many genuine and deep questions.
Looks a lot more like the anticipation of drugs as payment for speaking.
the questions about the father brought out the worse panic
@@FLnative13thGen yea he looks like he’s twacked out lolol
That energy shift is literally called meth.
His agitated “huh!?” sounds like he’s about to chop him up with a machete
The interview and comments below honestly brought me to tears... love is the human default mode. This guy is supposed to hate me for my skin, but I know he pretended to hate to survive. The complexity of the human condition is a beautiful one.
One of the worst things about California prisons that other states don't do as you probably know is segregation by race. You might not even be racist but you literally have to Side with your race for survival.
@@brownjatt21 I mean it's kinda smart because everyone is in survival mode in CA prisons so I think being with your own race the survival mode goes down a notch
He would kill you.... given the chance
@@spiralingout9506 no we wouldn't, not if he's just minding his business. He lives in a Mexican neighborhood, if he messed w anyone for no reason, he knows he would be done.
Yes.......
Thing that gets me the most, as a father, is seeing the pain in the eyes of guys like this when they talk about their childhood. Hearing them talk about how bad they wanted a dad.
Never thought I’d feel for someone who probably hates my skin, but I really am rooting for him. Wish I could hug the guy.
I don't he think does anymore he live in a Mexican hood. U gotta understand in California if u in the life. Gangs. Prisons. Etc. U riding with you're race. Just how it is. Especially prision
Skinheads aren’t always racist. The original skinheads listen to reggae which comes from Jamaica. It wasn’t till the 80s that skins started becoming race oriented.
I know an ex skin head who went to prison and came out not rasist lol his best friends are black ... People change if they want to
@@witchcraftwilliam7879 he was skinhead before going to prison stop it. Most biker gangs dislike darker skinned ppl here in America.
It's tough to feel sorry for him. My older brother was beat and stabbed to death by skinheads at the age of 15 or 16 can't remember his age, but he was young.
I’m having a hard time in life but these videos humble me. Keep your head up ppl
hugs Matt.. urnotalone
If you ever need to talk I’m here bro
Sending you a hug🤗
Blessings bro💚
💪🏾💞
Damn, if there’s one thing he did, he BROKE THE CYCLE (daughter in nursing school)!!! Props to you on that, Psycho! You’re one of the good ones!!
i thought the same right away, great job man - you did it
Even a psycho dad is important for a child.
He's a pretty decent man
Dudes literally a skin head decent man my ass
@@boonkgang1536 oh okay, but we’re supposed to believe that these gang bangers out here are just misunderstood troubled souls.
I feel for that man. His life had been trauma since he can remember, no matter how tough a man is we are not built for all that constant trauma. Prayers for him and his family
Fuck that guy. He tortured people.
That's because you're stupid.
@Janet Pratt 😐
@Janet Pratt ok janet..
Actually, we are all built for constant trauma. If we weren't, then would have no automatic coping mechanisms, which we clearly have in abundance. Granted these mechanisms are not geared toward rationality, but rather, pure raw survival. Its how we kept on keeping on, after watching our children eaten in front of our eyes by a saber toothed cat. Our society is what is not built to handle severely traumatized humans, that are in a mind state of "survival at all costs" due to said trauma.
Im black and a good majority of my friends are white since I grew up with mostly white people my whole life. I also have alot of black and white friends too that grew up in what most would call “the hood” and I have one friend who was a skin head. He doesnt have a racist bone in his body lol. But he was facing 10-15 years at 19 and only way u survive up in state being non affiliated and white is to join the aryans/skin heads. And thats what he did, its better than being a flesh light. Truth is, you gotta do what you gotta do sometimes and not to take everything at face value. He has white power and nazi symbols tatted all over him but I really dont care cuz I know his true character and sitting down and getting to know someone is better than judging them at face value based on what YOU think about them. We all need to come together and listen to each others stories, cuz it will bring us closer. See someone with a confederate flag on their truck, ask them why they have it. The reason will 9.9/10 not be racist. See someone with a blue lives matter sticker, ask em why they have it. They could have a deceased family member who was a serviceman. See someone with a BLM sticker, ask em why they have it, the reason might shock you. But the truth is, you can have differing views and be friends, so stop being limited by your political party or if someone likes guns or not or if someone has a flag u dont agree with cuz that shit is all face value and is a horrible way of judging TRUE CHARACTER. Thank you if you read this whole thing and have a good day.
Real shit man, but aye I wanna ask did u s15 swap ur front end on ur s14? Thing looks nice! Also do you drift or drag it?
@@Doodamac yea man its s15 front end swapped. I rarely run the bumper or hood anymore tho since ive been doin rolls. Its a street car but I throw some 225s on it every once in a while and break her loose lol.
240dejS14. Dude. Brother. Fellow human. Well said. Very well said. You know what really gets under my skin is that, most of the time in today's society, if you hold an unpopular opinion, or go against the latest grain in any fashion, so many are real quick to not just point you out, but to drown you out, as if they aren't just content with hating on you, they want to erase you for not thinking like them. In the last few years I've seen this mentality rise from obscurity , to become the norm . It's beyond sad , that in this country it's near impossible for people to sit down and just be cool with each other if they are of opposing viewpoints. I'm not perfect. I struggle with ingrained racial shit more often than I wish. It's not like I hate anyone for being different from me, not in the true sense of me. Sometimes though I find myself thinking shit that I feel terrible for thinking, like a flash of thought will come into my mind and I'm asking myself why did I think that? That's not me! I'm fascinated by other cultures , especially ancient cultures from all over! I mostly like punk , metal and oi! , but I know that none of those musics would exist without the invention of deep southern blues. Music that was invented by black men. Nothing but love and respect there. I can't stand when I see someone do r say something racial, publicly no matter who it is against who. Like Psycho , I can't stand bullies. I don't even know what I'm trying to say. Other than I appreciate your comment. I wish people were actually tolerant , especially those who preach tolerance the most. We're all the same, we're all different. We all breathe and we're all gonna die someday. Anyways.. God bless you sir. And God bless Psycho.
@@Lupinotuum66 god bless you brother
Probably the most intelligent comment I have ever heard on social media. God bless you
Wowww!! This is so raw. I never thought i could sympathize with a Skinhead but here we are in 2021. Everything is so complex and nuanced. 🥴 These interviews make it make sense.
Brad & Lex. I love your video reviews on music.I subscribe & I wonder if you two could handle the Butthole Surfers? Or Die Antwoord? Two very weird music groups.
Right?! Thanks Trump!!!
I agree the last thing a racist needs is more hate.
@@crzywrld1321 NOTHING IS STUPIDER THAN RELATING TRUMP TO SKINHEADS!
@@crzywrld1321 This shit had nothing to do with Politics and you bringing Trump up in a conversation about a Skinhead shows you’ve never even looked into Trump or spoken to his supporters because they’re the furthest from racist.
I've watched about 4 hours of SWU today after recently discovering it. This channel is so important, thanks for letting these people share their story and express their humanity...and thanks for being such a great interview! Subscribed after the first video!
Please take care of yourself, these videos are crazy heavy. however I do agree with you.
Thank you @@danieleriksson5728 , you to 🙏
I agree.
Its like museum exhibits
@@danieleriksson5728 I see what you mean, I watched a few and felt terrible had to go and sleep it off
Just a update: I see him almost everyday. Super nice guy, not a racist at all, I’m Mexican and always says hi to me and he buys clothing from my job. Great guy.
Skinhead and not racist doesn't go in the same sentence. You must be new to earth...
He literally brags about killing a mexican
@@sinverrette9803There are non racist skinheads and racist skinheads. They are both completely different groups.
@@sinverrette9803 massively ignorant statement.
@@sinverrette9803You clearly have no clue about the skinhead movement. most skins are not racist. They call them SHARPs . educate yourself
These videos do a lot to break barriers and give us insight into someone’s life we would otherwise never view as human
I agree its good to have insight on someones life it gives us a better understanding of what people go through ua-cam.com/video/abFkYvjV0KI/v-deo.html
I could watch these all days
Thank god I was raised to see everyone as a human being no matter how they looked and how flawed they are
hell yea. this is what kids should learn at school.
Humans are the most dangerous species! There are many terrible people and many fantastic people.
Goes to show that it doesn't matter who you are or your skin color, lack of good parenting puts you at the mercy of an unforgiving world. Hard to grow up properly if you're busy raising yourself.
Yes, environment is important but genes are too. A lot of people I know grew up in real bad conditions and they made it out a“normal” life (without prison at least).
@@arnekronvall817 its not genes it's just luck
All luck. U don’t choose ur parents… or at least remember
@Piglover
Genes absolutely has something to do with is also.
Mental illnesses can be genetically pre disposable.
If I'm not totally wrong, studies show that children of addicts also are more likely to become addicted even if they grow up away from their parents.
We know that heart diseases has to do with genetics, so why shouldn't mental illness be genetic?
Obviously your environment are the most important factor but genetics also play roles.
It could be epiginetic; ie trsuma encoded into genes that isn’t necessarily your “dna” but methylations of it.
He gave more love to his daughter than he ever received. I hope hes looked upon favourably for this wherever he may go.
Especially for the countless young lives he corrupted.....also the kidnapping and torturing.....damn good dude
@@spiralingout9506 😆
Kids love unconditionally unless you're not there parenting or cause them so much hurt they have to lose the love to survive. All kids need from us is to raise them and protect them.
@@spiralingout9506 "He" corrupted? Uhh, you're either born into it, or you really need to want it, it's not like he forced people to join or smh. lol.
@@unknownentity8256 actually kids becoming teens and around that age are easily manipulated for many reasons. So yes he “corrupted” them.
I commend you for loving your daughter enough to send her to live with your sister. Funding her pathway to success through nursing school. Removing those tattoos from your face speaks volumes about leaving your past behind you. You’re a noble man, don’t look back
I can feel the love he has for his daughter through the screen. I hope she sees this and knows he’s trying.
I appreciate how much honesty this man delivers. He is a prime example of why children need love and support along with stability. This dude never had a chance to even know what normal is.
I think about %80 of me completely agrees, but then I think that everyone has choices. I mean truly. Not looking to be ignorant about the bad hand he was dealt, but we weren't there, and I don't think it's fair to him to say that he never had a chance to know normal. Maybe he chose a lot of this. Don't crucify me, just saying it's not out of the realm of plausible, and definitely not out of the realm of possible.
@@ThaNewDealer723 I get it and there are exceptions to every rule, there are kids that come from garbage that grow up and be fine but that isn’t the normal outcome. He never had a chance to know normal when he didn’t have a choice and when he was old enough to choose he clearly chose wrong which was what he knew
He's most likely lying. I doubt he paid for his daughter's schooling, I doubt he's even seen his daughter. If he had $750k, he would be spending it
@@deadpilled2942 I can’t argue with you there and I really just meant the negative shit he said about himself. I do agree with you most people like this with amazing tales of good they have done are full of shit probably almost all the time
@@deadpilled2942 tell everyone about how you beat your mother and robbed a bank…..
see how easy it is to make shit up about people you don’t know with next to no real information?
Having no role models has ruined this man , the fact that he realizes that speaks volumes . You have saved your daughter .
Amen
Your right with your comment, I'm 36 and have struggled all my life with no father since age of 5. You just feel lost looking for and over giving to anyone that shows you some kind of fatherly affection. Taken me a long time to see it, you do just go into a selfish self destruct mode it's crazy
I felt what you wrote. Im 35 years old and my father figure/role model was my best friend that was my age. I didnt know it then, but i have soul searched my self and stumbold a cross that thought!
@@ryansouthey2691 man i wrote my answear and then i read other comments! We had the same issues brother. Im struggling with opiates my whole life. And for the last time, this is the hardest i worked in my whole life. Taking just very very little Subutex/buprenofine now days. Took a whole 8mg Subutex a day, now i take 1/4 two times a week. Progress finally brother! I wish you well and luck in life brother! Peace from Sweden
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This man is a soldier of the darker side of life & delivering a message of light.
No he isn’t, he’s still a dirtbag
When he said, I’m institutionalized I can stare at a wall for 24 hours for years, that…that got me. The prison industrial complex has deeper pockets and more power than we can fathom. Just turns us out, cashes us in, then on to the next.
What a real comment, deep pockets, how try we don’t “rehabilitate” anyone😔
Word.....
Heyy Chloe..
Exactly. Prisons - making traumatized people more desperate and deeper in survival mode. All while making money for “justice” aka corrupt gov
They've done everything they can to capitalize off poverty and the trauma that is often associated with it. They actually have huge companies using prison labor to make their products for pennies (Victoria's Secret for instance). In my opinion, just because they give them 3 cents a hour doesn't mean it isn't....damn near slavery, and the US population of black Americans vs US prison population of black Americans is far out of proportion. That should be a red flag to everyone that slavery isn't dead it just got a different look now. This is either slavery or an updated version of the workhouse or a mixture of both. We enslave people we don't think are worthy of human rights which are supposed to be...a right. Something you can't take away, kind of exactly like we did before. Then we based it on color now it's less about color (but still is to an extent) and more about poverty. The prison industrial complex is out of control. We have the most prisoners in the world and we only make up what? Like 20% of the population? Less? Idk but it's far out of proportion and our prisons leave a hell of a lot to be desired. Do I expect The Ritz no but mold, standing water, rats and no AC or heat is ridiculous for the richest country in the world. (Or one of the richest at least)
Whoa you're so deep.
This was a fascinating interview-raw and apologetic. He seems to be genuinely remorseful yet still broken so the poor guy struggles. Praying for him
I didn't hear an apology to anyone.....I heard regret about getting ratted on by his ex....who is probably going to find eventually
It seems he’s really changed his perspective on life and things in general. Awesome that he has learned from what he didn’t know years ago. Wishing him the best of luck.
How do you learn from what you didn't know? Is that a colloquialism?
@@scooter2163 Exactly hes caught up in dealing and doing meth, he has learned though from his life which is awesome bc some people don’t learn anything from awful experiences.
Umm he’s still a skin head not sure if I sure stand by him in line at the store lmao😂😂😂
I don't really get that he changed anything. He just doesn't want to go back to prison and that's certainly understandable. I'm sure he's grown since he was 20 years old.... Prison will do that to you. But he also seems to have a lot of pride about that bad behavior. (IMO)
What a powerful interview on how important our role as parents are. I’m about to go squeeze the shit out of my two boys. Stay strong man.
I agree in how important parents are in children's lives. I got two boys myself and can also relate to squeezing the shit out of them. Just gotta be there for them and not make the mistakes parents make.
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I am sitting here thinking about how bad my life sucks but this man is living for the sake of living.
Made me think twice, too.
Hope you feel better soon.
Dude has seen a life many could never imagine. Addiction articulated perfectly
Facts
Your life still sucking anyways.
a broken little boy in a grown man’s body, wow. i wish this man nothing but the best & for him to find peace. 🥺🙏🏾
May God bless you for your compassion 🙏
Numbers 6:24-26
King James Version
24 The Lord bless thee, and keep thee:
25 The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee:
26 The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace.
Love the compassion in these comments … I hope people realize there are real people behind all these people that society deems criminal
@@whohizzie exactly
No! Theyre convicts and should be locked up for as long as possible so we can make the most money from his prison stay. Suffering is the elites nourishment, we low vibrational beings feed on the agony of humans, and compassion leaves such a bitter taste.
@@J3MOdh3NOWX3S ok, somebody obviously hurt you. & this statement means nothing to me. go somewhere with that bitterness. you sound miserable.
I can't help feeling overwhelmingly sorry for this guy. I hope this serves as a lesson to us all, to myself foremost...our children deserve to be raised better.
We wont fix this world until we learn to do exactly that, raise our children better.
Maybe deadshits shouldn't have children . I've said it before that people should have to get a license to have kids, pass an IQ test, have assets to pay for their upbringing. Any piece of shit can produce a child and in most cases shit produces shit, just my opinion
@@thebob3712 we can’t police people’s body but with positive influence we can share info to positively have an impact on their minds so that they make better decisions in their lives
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@@thebob3712 its the system, not really the people, when you grow up in some neighborhoods, even if you area good person, you are allmost forced to join gangs as very young teen and they f** up their life even before they become adults.
I live in Sweden and even the poor families or the ones that have a chaotic childhood, social service will take care of them. I have two grown up kids, my daughter as teen had some issues, like many teens, small silly stuff, but social service and school took care of her with programs and family therapy and so on, and she ended on the right track, fully.
But like in cities in the USA as example, the system will help not these kids. So much chance they end like this guy in the video
Hes honest and just trying to keep his apartment. I couldn’t imagine going through all that let alone having to bounce back and try to stay out of prison. People are products of there environment. I hope he can keep it together.
The fact he knows all those things about his daughter without having to even think shows he has some good left in him
He is proud of her! It might be the one thing in his life he can be proud of. It shows his humanity.
Most people have good in them.
It's just very hidden at times.
He talks to his daughter twice a week.
It's a very good thing she's forgiven him because she's probably the only thing in his life that has some kind of meaning to him.
Everyone is capable of goodness. Even monsters.
@@stephenforbes2762 I don’t think it’s wrong to try and make yourself feel better..
let the mans live the life he has left. He knows his done wrong
@@stephenforbes2762 You act like people can't be redeemed. It's wild how you can watch this and not be able to sympathize with him.
When he said , he left home at 14 , as a mother myself my tears just rush down my face very hard , cause all I could see was my 14 yr old son whom happen to be my everything . I really wish him the best smfh ❤️ 🙏🏾
@@MrGeronimo300 They're all mouth. They do ot to have a family. You think the blank or Hispanic gangs were gonna be his family?
He left them anyway.
I felt similar, can't imagine my 13 Yr old being ANYWHERE NEAR ready to leave.
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@mark skwirut couple of months away of being 14 to be exact, so... kinda 14 to me
@@MrGeronimo300 some more hatred huh?
I grew up without a mom or a dad and was homeless on the streets of l.a. as a child.
I'm not a skinhead racist piece of crap I would love a hug from you
These stories are so insightful -- they really make me view others with more grace... you never know someone's background and story. Thank you for sharing.
Great avatar.
Right, and compassion
I've learned so much more grace & compassion than I already had.
Totally agree Denny, Mark has an amazing way of interviewing that doesn't challenge his interviewees and just allows them to talk. This brings the best out of people and feel they have the freedom of speech.
This is a guy who had no guidance but loves his daughter. My guy won’t like me cause I’m not White but I have the utmost compassion for him and I seriously wish him all the best.
I love how he’s so comfortable talking with these people with such chaotic lives.
What’s called money? I don’t think you understand what I mean. I don’t think whether he gets money or not for his videos has anything to do with how communicates with his guests
He's a Helluva guy, probably one of the most genuine people I've ever came across. Take care & have a nice day...
@@aliamonique192 when he first started, it wasn't lucrative, but people see his current success and think it's always been like this. it's been a journey.
When you live in chaos it becomes the norm
That’s because these are normal humans who used to be a baby just like you. FEAR is what controls us.
As someone that’s been contemplating suicide, your channel always helps me keep on going. It’s very comforting to know I’m not the only one struggling with issues. Thank you so much🤍
You are so strong I know how hard it can be! I promise life is worth living and when it's our time it's our time. Keep fighting keep pushing you got this 💪💪 💜💜
Hey Cheyenne, try to be patient with yourself. I've been there. It's hard to believe that a person can go from wanting to end it all to being happy and successful and loved...but it happened to me. It might only be one small correct decision that starts the change and it might be something that doesn't even seem important at the time. But if I had not been patient with myself, I wouldn't have been present to make that choice. Be patient, Cheyenne...Cheers.
We have a saying in my country: "Everyone is a blacksmith of their own luck"...Keep up your head girl, no one lives a easy life, we all feel you. Everyone close to you needs you, trust me. I've been in the same place... Hell, if you want i'm open for talking, to hear you out or whatever! And for everyone else too...
What’s your Instagram?
Hey Cheyenne! Don't give up, I usually never ever comment on UA-cam but your comment stood out to me. You're a beautiful person both in and out :)
as a dad, hearing him say what he did for his kid, that was huge. you can fuck up your entire existance, as long as you do right by your children, your ok in my book. good luck to ya, buddy.
Hey Chief, fucking up your entire existence... directly screws your children up
@@spiralingout9506 it must be so great to have a detailed "how to" book on life. people like this guy find shit out the hard way.
@@spiralingout9506 It's easy to play the morality Card for people who aren't parents. I feel that people these days think having kids is easy when it's not, parents are still human and are far from perfect.
Setting the bar low if you think that's doing right by your children. As a father, so much more is required. If you don't know what's required, there are books
@@oenophile i never said thats all thats required. the guy fucked his life up, had nothing to learn from as a kid. but still atleast did something right. give the guy an ounce of credit, he couldve done much worse, considering his background.
I love how he went and meditated on what stories to share and came back, like he said, he learned to think before doing/saying things...
"My mom told me she loved me but she loved heroin more". Damn that broke my heart. Makes me thankful for the mom God gave me and I should probably stop being such a brat.
How could you not come out of that fucked up? Dude had no chance. Sad
Yes, it is devastating to listen to this phrase. I feel his pain and sorrow…
Your mom could be taken away, In an accident, why stress her?
When someone turns to heroin / fentanyl they sell their soul away. They are no longer themselves and have no control over it.
Surely your mother loved you but the devil got her on lock down
Nah being a brat is a part of growing up and if you don't give your parents some trouble now and again they won't be able to think of new punishments
He’s so proud to send his daughter to school 🙂🙂🙂
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@GapYear and if she has a good life and has kids well then he broke the chain. It’s sad but at the same time. Good for him
I was thinking the same thing. It is probably the most “normal” thing he has ever done. He has such pride for his daughter.
FACTS
I like that
This interview took a totally different direction than what I was expecting. Thanks for sharing.
Just found out about Soft White Under Belly from your appearance on Joe Rogan! Thanks to both of you!
Way worse than Netflix as far as binging goes
Me too
Yup me too!
Me too!
Same here
He’s just as deserving of healing as anybody else. Hoping for the best for him. 🤞
I agree
I pray he one day finds the love and peace of Jesus Christ, amen.
When this guy says he’s seen some shit, you can trust and believe that he very much has.
Until he breaks in your home.....
It’s funny all the ppl that are not of color is praising him…I wonder why😒. I would never praise a racist piece of 💩
Seeing these interviews should make a lot of us think about how lucky we are. There is no guarantee that we wouldn't have ended up like this man if we were dealt as shitty cards in life as he was. Most people (not everyone, but most of them) are not evil and can redeem themselves, under the right circumstances.
We are all just different shades of the same evil. There is not one righteous. No not one.
"Anybody is a killer, all you gotta do is push 'em to the limits." - J. Cole
This is exactly why I love listening to these interviews!! Every.. single.. night i listen to 1 to 2 of these while doing my puzzle games before bed. Shows you how lucky you are even if you suffer in life yourself the way I do. These people are all humans that were given horrific lives. We can never say how things would be if in their shoes.
I grew up with dope heads, dealers violence when he says he grew up quick he developed a distrust for everyone around him I can tell you in the meth game everything is unpredictable, been sober for 2 years lost my all my family except my mom and my lil bro to heroin
I'm thankful everyday too have a home and not be from couch to couch wherever I could stay, and I'm so thankful I got the devil out of my life. God is good, the world is crazy.
I'm usually pretty cold hearted but I feel for this guy, he was doomed from the start. I really do hope he's able to change things and find peace.
This guy has somehow a good heart. but he had to suruve in this very awfull environment. Not much choise. You hear it when he talk about loayalty, love and his daughter.
Hurt people hurt people, my pastor says that all the time.
Can you help me understand - he had $4 million but then became homeless?
@@nofurtherwest3474 they confiscate any money or property that was paid with from dealing drugs which usually means they're left with nothing. So when he got out he had nothing and had been in prison 20 years. I didn't know they paroled people homeless
@@retrosurfer76 so... he made $4 MM from dealing drugs? i mean... if you make that much in CASH how in the hell do you not store some away. You literally can't carry that much around, it would weigh too much.
Something does not add up.
He's likely bullsh*tting. No way he had $4 MM and didn't put some away in some place he could access later.
If he's smart enough to make and actually hold on to $4 MM then he's smart enough to stash some away.
The fact that he's been able to help his daughter as much as he had is amazing. Maybe his own life didn't turn out the way He wanted but his daughter's certainly did.
Things never turn out good when a child lacks a parents love, affection & most of all, ATTENTION ! I feel for this gentlemen as I do many of your interviewees. ❤
It’s true …it means so much people don’t realize that
It does not always turn out bad for children who does not get love, affection and attention from their parent(s). Some actually turn out very well despite their bad childhood. Children are amazingly resilient. But many also pay some kind of price for their childhood, which is so unfair and very sad. People should not hesitate to report to the CPS (or whatever it’s called where you are) that they are worried about the children in family members or neighbours’ families (or students’ if you’re a teacher or other type of mandated reporter) so the kids/families can get some kind of help. You can always do it anonymously if you’re worried for repercussions if they find out you did it. Bottom line: If you’re worried that children do not get proper care, report it, then it’s their responsibility…
Althought I do agree with you a bit, Its not always easy to see if something isn't right. Kids look clean, show no signs of mistreatment, abandonment ect.. just "seeming normal" So that's why CPS is usually involved until its too late in horrible cases or where issues already been occuring for so long. Also children don't want to lose or be away from their biological parents no matter if they aren't getting love & attention because as a child you don't know where you'll end up with some strangers or if you'll ever seem them again along with the rest of the family members, so they're uncomfortable while be comfortable at the same time even in the worst situations.
That’s totally true. I know people that have become amazing people with no parental love but they were able to get into a house where someone else’s parents gave them parental love. It’s sad, it’s almost like they never had a chance when they get no love as a child
@@shortstacked1980 Look at all those kids who aged out of foster care and made it!
This man has been through and seen more than most could even attempt to imagine. Now he just wants to keep to himself and do his thing, and be left alone. He's the literal definition of "been there, done that".. As someone else said in an earlier comment. I would have never thought I would say, I have respect for a "skinhead". But I have respect for this man. He did what he had to do to survive, and survive is what he did. People are fast to judge others, without having a clear understanding of the things they have gone through and their upbringing.
Respect ?!! Really bro that man will fuk u over in 1 second flat! You respect him for what? What has he done to deserve your respect? If u ask me he hasn't done shit but continued the cycle of living like a piece of s***! Let him change an be a positive in someones life then he would be deserving of respect!!!!
@@jshawnrittenour2665 what jshawn said
@@spiralingout9506 nobody asked u punk
Your MOMMA PUNK !
@@jshawnrittenour2665 literally something a punk says lil keyboard warrior tendencies showin💀
These interviews really gets my mind thinking. It shows how easy it is to slip through the cracks of society. We have let each other down,not as society but as the human race. Just think of the changes we could make if we reached out and helped one person. If everyone helped one person just imagine how better things would be! Some of the most talented and interesting people are homeless,hooked on drugs,or just so caught up in the day to day struggles that they don't get to shine or don't know how to shine. Be the hand that reaches out,be the polish in someone's life and help them shine. My wallet is empty but my heart is full. One love ❤️
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I feel the same way, we are eachothers responsibility.
There are a lot of charities you can work for to help out.
Good on him for having the insight to reflect on his life, and acknowledge & own up to all the bad stuff. Paying for all your daughter's schooling in full, is very respectable. He sincerely wants her to have a better chance at life than he did.
okay, I agree but you can't be blaming your parents for how you end up...signed my mother was murdered by my stepbrother and the last time my dad hit me I was 23...still, you are right. He's helped his daughter and is trying...
This guy is out there, yet he still cares about and tried to help his daughter. I wish him well.
Obviously doesnt care if hes still abusing drugs. Hes doing the same thing to his daughter. Exaclty what his mother did to him, hes doing to his daughter.
@@gely_ His daughter is now an adult and doing her own thing, any damage he has done is already done. The point is he did more for his child than most suffering from advanced drug addiction, not that he's a squeaky clean or something.
Better than her not getting any education at all. There's people all over the world doin way worse than us.
these guys always lie about what they did for their kids.
This guy has been there and done that. Easily let us know not having a dad was the main downfall of his life but his daughter is the best thing in his life.
Mark I love what you do here .. the stories and the way you interact with the people you meet. Your open and non judge mental and you can tell a lot of them use this for therapy session. Keep doing what you do I’m here for all of it.
Wow you are very pretty!
Sometimes, talking to a stranger helps us tell ourselves the truths we are hiding from.
@@tylerlienau7548 well thank you !
Mark, I subscribed to your channel after discovering you a few weeks ago. I have shared several of your videos. I'm extremely impressed, like so many others, with your fantastic show, "Soft White Underbelly." You're really excellent at this. I have one suggestion and one other observation. Your content and topics for some, if not many or even most, is painful to watch, almost excruciating but extremely important for many reasons.
With All Due Respect, Mark:
With that said, while I understand a majority of the people you interview could be perceived "hard as nails," impervious, resilient, hardcore and raw, you don't have too meet them with the same hardened exterior.
You rapid-fired your questions in an aloof, curt, rapid staccato rhythm. That's not to say you're cold, unconcerned, and unfeeling, in fact, I believe you to be the complete opposite.
This particular video is the most severe of the aforementioned. It's as if you're completely distracted, not paying him much attention.
Even I'm having slight difficulty catching on or hearing what you're asking him. You're discharging these questions so quickly, without normal inflection, as he also demonstrates some difficulty understanding you.
You're quite cold here, with a considerable flat affect. Furthermore, you seem to be mumbling some of your questions. You don't need to be overemotional by any stretch, but perhaps consider taking a bit more engaging approach.
This was more like an interrogation than an interview.
Finally, what really validated my perspective was when you asked this VERY Caucasian, "Skinhead" if he joined a Mexican gang. (LOL) Mark, did you forget who you were interviewing?
His body language alone speaks volumes of how terribly uncomfortable he already feels.
I feel for this man. He knows exactly what went wrong, how it went wrong and what was required to make things as they should be. He figured it out and that is a big thing. I hope he and his daughter will have a valuable relationship soon. As it appears, At least he invested in her with what he could.
Mark, I really admire what you do. I also really appreciate all the people who allow you to interview them. It is really enlightening to be able to see things from all different perspectives. We are all human...just trying to figure this "life" thing out.
That's something most don't understand. Some have it bad some have it worse. It all still hurts.
He did the best he could with what he had been given like anyone else on this channel. Narrator asked the right questions.
I bet grandchildren would truly push him to change even more. You can tell he truly loves his daughter. He really needs a complete change in his environment. Doesn’t matter the race, poverty, drugs, trauma has a very strong effect on a person. I don’t blame him, what was a child to do with literally no positive role models, no money, living on the streets, no love 🥺. I truly wish this man the best 🙏🏾 he has plenty sense, & his experiences has granted him alot of wisdom. Best wishes Psycho ❤️❤️❤️
The fact that you survived everything you've been through to actually become an old man and not get killed says a lot about your strength.
Yeah, the dude IS a survivor....No doubt about that. I suppose that is something to even take some PRIDE in.
Already know😎
I don't think he really IS an old man. Just looks like that.
Peace
He's only 53!
This guy is one of the most raw and real people I feel you have interviewed. Even had me tearing up. I hope he finds some peace in his life and can find sobriety in the end of his journey
The first interview he seemed pretty clear headed, the 2nd interview you can see a change 😥
Man, I have so much respect for this man, I understand the struggle. I'm a recovering addict and prostitute and lived that life for over 30 years. I have 4 years clean and sober and now I'm a psychology major . This channel really shows the fundamental attribution error that we all commit against people. These people on your channel are so brave to share their story with the world. I wish all the best for this man. Keep pushing !
I celebrated my two years today. I’m so happy to be clean. I was an IV drug addict with absolutely no hope. Recovery is possible and we can turn our lives around. It’s incredible
What’s there to respect ?
omg i dont know who you are but i'm so proud of you!! keep doing it please
@@dmfd_rosieperez9847 the fact he changed? the fact he tried to make it right? You won't beat hate with hate...
@@Tom6060 we’re you IV’ng opioids? I’m 21 recovering on suboxone I was getting to the point were the pills weren’t effecting me (20-30 percs a day) and I was debating moving up a notch if you know what i mean but I chose to get help and go on suboxone and my life has been much better since. I’m just not looking forward to stopping it because the depression really kicked my ass going through withdrawals not to mention the physical part.
He’s a lot sweeter than I was expecting. I hope he stays straight and things get better for him. Everyone good deserves happiness
I’m sure it was therapeutic for him to be able to talk to someone. Keep up the good work, Mark! I hate he went through so much neglect & pain at such a tender, young, age. Hang in there, Psycho! 💓
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These interviews not only make me thankful for my life and how different I grew up with both parents and life's necessities, but I feel such sadness when I hear them speak about their pain and upbringing. I see homeless and drug addicts in my town and always wonder how they are as people if they were clean, what they've been through, what dreams that they had but have been robbed from substance abuse. It's so sad. I wish him the best. 😢
Thats right Amber😁😁😁
I seriously had to stop and wonder if my own dad ever showed he was proud of me. He didn't pay for my school, and never saw how his life affected me. This guy makes me proud for myself overcoming my past and succeeding. Thanks, Psycho ❤
Im proud for you! The awesome if you've overcome that adversity.
I’ve thought about the same thing. My dad never showed it and I always wanted it. I bought my first nice car after a milestone in my life and stopped by his house to show him. He pretty much shrugged. I just wanted to hear him say good job or he was proud of me. He died about 15 years ago and I never heard him say it.
Hey at least you had a dad
@@navajorezathlete1202 real talk. I would have loved a father (figure)
@@navajorezathlete1202 my dad wasn't around either, sometimes that's for the best
EVEN THO his history is not positive & he has really struggled personally,, his love for his daughter & how he has been devoted to her well being is so incredibly touching!
Pshyco is my age. Listening to him makes me unbelievably grateful that I had parents who loved me and educated me and punished me when I was out of line. I could have had his life. not being able to trust and love anymore must be terrible. I wish I had the means to take him out of his situation and give him one more chance to be who he can be. I see a caring person hurt badly by hate and greed. my heart goes out to him.
He doesnt need money, he needs a job, freedom from meth, stability, and a new environment away from the filth.
@@mmmmmmmmmmm10 You need money for all that.
@@somerandomguy4240 true i guess in america, do they have free rehabs in the states?
@@mmmmmmmmmmm10 No idea, I'm Danish.
We don't all end up like Psycho. A lucky few of us become, to all appearances, everyman. No one would guess the horrors I grew up with now. For decades, though, the damage was apparent quickly. I was so broken. It shouldn't be such a fight, just to be allowed to heal.
Doing right by your daughter is a big thing. You did it. People with everything still don’t do that.
Paying 740k for “ nursing assistant school “ is NOT APPROPRIATE.. who ever told him that’s what it cost has fucked him over. Also. “
Going for training at harbor ucla ( where I work at) and his daughter living in RENO, NEVADA are 2 hours apart… I think he’s getting fucked over by his daughter
I do not know all the harm he has done, but one thing he has done right, realize that he could not take care of his daughter and make sure she gets a better chance in life than he himself had.
He still has a good heart
My heart breaks for him, it really does...Mark, I so appreciate that you give these people you interview a chance to talk and not be downtrodden. You are probably the only one who cared to let them open up about their hurt.
Time and time again it always comes down to the breakdown of the family. Prisons are filled with dudes who come from broken homes. Our society doesn't value the family like it once did. I hope one day we get back to realizing the power of a strong family unit.
Amen.. and the destructive power of drugs
@@Rizafoolwitit Alcohol, drugs, overeating goes hand in hand with broken, abusive, neglected families...
@Frank McGovern single parents raise these kinds of kids as well. But if you grew up without a mom or a dad, chances are you are not the most successful version of yourself
Broken homes aren't the issue, it's parents and families not being there for their children. I'm from divorced parents but both my parents and both my stepparents were there for me and my siblings and we are all productive members of society and have kids ourselves now we are older and are happy and healthy. It's about support and love from your family, no matter what that family looks like
Wow ... I'm speechless .. . Imagine growing up in this environment . He's very honest , intelligent . I hope he finds peace someday .
I like this guy, I don’t care what anyone thinks. I hope his life gets better.
Pathetic.. I'll never feel bad for a colonizer
yeah people don't realize it wasn't hatred for other races that brings them into skinhead gangs, it's the support ''like a family'',in prison you're forced to stay with your own race
@@colmekaglass9978 Most countries have colonized at some point. Chill bro
@@colmekaglass9978 ill never feel bad for those that are weak and were conqoured.
@@jacobjones4766 i don’t think conquering stuff makes you weak lmao
Thank you so much- for posting. Psycho could possibly save others from such hard lessons in life. This information is so Educational, so hard to hear, so valuable- as to what not to do.
One thing I notice just as much as the person being interviewed is how classy and thoughtful most of the people in these comments are. I’m truly impressed. Your comments are thoughtful, genuine and sincere. 99% of us are luckier than this man. That’s all, we just got luckier. 🙏🏼
That's what I'm noticing too. When I saw the title skinhead, I thought there'd be more judgment, because that's supposed to make him a white supremacist by default. Heck, a lot less can get you labelled a white supremacist these days. He doesn't come off that way, more like he was just dropped into this group, but no real hatred, just resignation. People just seem to have compassion.
yer awesome
Like most of the others interviewed, the odds were against this man from the beginning. Without a family, you gravitate to a gang and for him it was the skinheads. I wish him all the best. This channel is so powerful. If we all took the time to listen and understand, maybe we realize we aren’t so different from each other. Blessings to you, Psycho.
His family WAS a gang.
Skinhead title came from being in prison
@@redrustyhill2 No skinhead was a non racist subculture of working class youths in the UK that listened to reggae music but over time it started to become more affiliated with neo Nazis. There are skinhead gangs like the Nazi low riders but some are just political movements.
When you dont have a family you go out in search to replace it. He turned to the only place he could find it.
@@thing8357 my comment wasn't about the origins of "skinhead". My comment was pointing out this man became a skinhead from time in the pen. It's part of prison culture and the gangs that inhabit prison. One has little choice. If your white and get locked up in socal you become skinhead or get shanked
No matter how sad someone is, the thought of their children always bring a smile
im glad he has her and she has him
"You're my father. Not my Dad." That line broke my fucking heart
@@scottyk1763 is that what she said to him?!?
@@AsmrByDozy ua-cam.com/video/Fp3SaLFln9c/v-deo.html
@@AsmrByDozy that's what he described her saying. So I'm assuming yes.
"Whatever right is, I wish I did things better" that is such a simple thing but so true and I think everyone can understand and relate to that regardless of your background.
I’ve only watched a short video, but this guy seems to have a genuine heart. His reflections on his past and regrets sound heartfelt and genuine.
Helping his daughter was a flash of real light under a dome of blackness, but where there was just a flash of light, there's hope. His clear, ongoing, relentless battle against such suffocating darkness is inspiring.
Superbly well put Sir.
Imagine the people's lives he's ruined. Stop being a wet lettuce for attention
@@Fudge-picker behave yourself before your parents take your phone away
@@kgreggh5058 some people like the weirdo above are just super entitled, can't really reason with them but something will happen to him one day and he'll need some help lol.
He sounded so proud of his daughter. It’s good he tried to do right by her.
Goddamn Mark you do some of the most raw visceral interviews. This is the type of stuff the world needs to see, no agenda, no politics, no goal, just a rare insight into the human condition. Very humbling
This channel has shown me that all people no matter how bad have a story to tell, time erodes all people down and all that's left is reflection and wisdom
Amazing work Mark for reminding us how fortunate some of us are, even we tend to forget it every day. Thank you.
Wow, this man's story is so human. It's heartbreaking and heartwarming all at the same time.
Did you watch till the end? He's awful.
@@sliverskittle ~ perhaps you haven't met a 'real' person.
Psycho is a good man. He is the product of the world he was raised in, he's tired now. After it all he won't risk or give up the only real comfort he's ever know, the apartment where he can keep himself safe and sane. "They took everything, they ain't take my mind" -not something you expect from a man who's used meth amphetamines most of his life.
LMAO.....it's a fucking movie quote.....calm down
Nope look him up on UA-cam he fights someone
Yeah? What is his best characteristic? His proficiency at torturing and beating people?
A good man?! Lmfao god you people are fucking gullible
A good man indeed, the guy picked dealing drugs over straight-up robbery hussles, that takes some character.
His daughter chose the right field. Jobs o plenty for nurses. You can tell he’s proud.
Watching these videos make me realize just how great of a childhood I had. No child should have to live the way he had to.
Hell no, vicious beginning to life
I could listen and watch Psycho all day long. Love you Brother. Hearing about your awakening and seeing its truth in your body is a major victory for Yourself and Humanity. Stay blessed Bro.
"I did the skinhead thing"
"So you was in a Mexican gang?"
"..no..skinhead.." Lolz
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Dude was testing him what one. lol.
😂😂😂
Literally makes no sense , skinhead is a cult from white Europe.
I laughed my ass off when he did that
Guy's got a good heart. With a past that traumatic, it's admirable to see him still want to do some good in the world. I wish nothing but the very best for you sir
You can't tell shit from this interview
Besides what he wants you to no.
You are the type of fool that let's people like this into your life only to be taken for a useful idiot by them.
@@highdefinitionstanleytm9614 Sounds alot like you're the guy that let someone into their life just to be used by them and you seem very upset and traumatized by it 😂 not everyone is the same lil guy stop being an idiot for once