After Life | Acceptance
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- Опубліковано 14 січ 2022
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"Science makes us understand how to stay alive longer, feelings give us the reason to want to."
An open letter :
I've lived with grief since I tragically lost my brother 5 years ago. Since then, I have been living with this kind of shadows following me everywhere, that shadow that made me feel guilty every time I smiled and laughed because I could not accept to be happy while he was gone, that shadows that made me feel like never will be alright ever again. As many people, not being able to deal with it I decided to push this tragic incident of my life in a corner of my head. Ignoring it. Sometimes acting like It never happened. Pushing the thought every time my mind decided to bring it back, again, and again, and again. Because dealing with the amount of regrets of what could have been of what I could have done was to painful for me. Accepting the death of someone you love and knew since you arrived on this earth was impossible. In time like today I ask myself, Is it fair for my loved one that I keep pushing his existence out of my head ? It's not. I want to change this.
I accept that you are gone, that I will never see you again and I'll never be able to copy everything you do like when I was a kid. I accept that I'll never get to know what life had in store for you, I accept also that you'll never get to know who I am. I am not the person I was when you left but I in a way your person will always be frozen in time for me. I hate that the more the time pass the more I forget some details you, like your voice, the way you laughed and the way you were simply you. I am sorry I never talk about you to anyone or tell stories. I felt shy about this my whole life. Today I dedicate this video to you, wherever you are now, I am aware this isn't anything much, but that's the only way I found to be able to express myself. I hope you have stories for me from up there, If there is an " up there. "
I want to go forward knowing you are gone - but there's always be a part of you inside of me that will follow me wherever I go. I miss you and I love you, goodbye for now.
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The bit with the little boy in the hospital when he remembers Lisa’s face and says “definitely” absolutely broke me.
The description really hit me in the feels... I'm so sorry for your loss and I admire the courage you have to express your feelings and move forward in life
No show has ever made me want to burst out loud laughing one second and then burst out in tears the next
Beautiful, incredible tribute, especially after reading your open letter, thank you for making this, means so much especially as someone who also knows the struggle ❤️
Can you point me in the right direction to read this open letter??
@@warlikeelephant7170 It is the description of this video
I've only reached season 2 recently and i have fallen in love with the show. The way Tony cries everynow and then, cries for 2 or 3 seconds when he's talking about Lisa or if he's watching her video, he cries for a few seconds and then suddently stops. That is exactly how it goes. You accept that they're gone and you know you shall continue your life without them. Still, everyday that one certain heavy emotion, that you recognise easily, hits you like a truck for few seconds and then goes away and you remind yourself that you need to keep it togther. It's like a wind. Swifly comes and goes and the next day it comes back.
My father passed last summer. It's like part of me shut down, not wanting to face the truth. Your videos have helped me to process some things and they always inspire me to be better.
For what it's worth I think your brother would have been proud of you and what you've created with this channel
Much love from finland
I’m sorry for your loss. Much love.
Last year I have lost the only person who had ever selflessly loved me, my mom. I've come through several stages of grief but the acceptance is still not there. I understand very well your struggle and feelings of guilt. I absolutely cannot move forward and wonder whether there will be a time when I will be. Thank you for your videos as always. Very beautiful and moving, I swear I bawled my eyes out.
I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my Mom when I was 10, and ever since then I have felt frozen. It wasn't until these last couple years, I'm in my early 20's now, that I let myself feel all of that. It's a real bitch. Just remember that Love is a form of energy, and the Loving bond that you had with your Mom may be broken, but the Love you both felt for each other still swirls all around you, and it is still inside of your heart. ❤
I'm going to be honest, we had to put down our dog of 12 years two years ago last Sunday. He was very much my better half and source of strength in the years following my father's, uncle's, and grandfather's passing. He helped me through my first heartbreak and made me feel like I wasn't alone. Every time I watch this video I end up in tears because I know what Tony feels and you as well. I'm sorry for your loss and I'm sure your brother and him are playing waiting for the both of us. I know my dog, Razz, always loved the people.
That's one of the most beautiful tributes to a show I've seen.
This show is an absolute masterpiece
The stages of grief:
Denial
Anger
Bargaining
Depression
Acceptance
My favorite uncle died when I was 14. We're going on 7 years since then, and it hasn't been easy. I remember getting woken up at 3 AM by my mom and my grandma being there. I remember calling my favorite cousin/"big sister" and telling her about it.
I remember driving out to Utah (where he lived) the next morning and getting the death certificate, as well as seeing his corpse before it was cremated. I remember what it felt like and it still chills me to the bone. When we left (the last time I saw his body) I said, "Goodbye Uncle!"
For a long time, I couldn't bring myself to talk about it or him. I was really angry and just in a dark place emotionally. I wondered that maybe, if I'd just called him that night, if I could've stopped him from shooting himself in the head. I went through scenario after scenario, but the truth is that he's gone.
It changed my outlook on life and afterlife. I don't know if there's a God. I don't believe in heaven and I don't believe in hell. I don't know if there's even anything after this life. I hope so, but I don't know. I hope he's in a happier place. I can still feel him sometimes, but I know it isn't really him. It's the part of me that is him.
I know he didn't leave us because he didn't love us. He did. He just hated something in himself or missed his dog so much that he thought suicide was the only way to relieve that pain.
i was literally watching After Life right this second when you posted! your edit is beautiful and inspiring as always
also im sorry about your brother’s passing, grief always follows you after a loved one is gone so whatever you’re feeling is valid
Moving words about your brother. I know you've heard this many times before but I'm sorry for your loss. I truly am. To lose someone you have a lifelong connection with, I do not wish that pain on anyone. Heartfelt video BTW.
It doesn’t happen a lot but once in a while you watch something and it doesn’t feel like a fanvideo at all. It feels like a personal video essay, something genuine, made with the heart, for something or someone, something personal. And this is exactly what this felt like.
Even if the material is already heartbreaking and emotional, the way you put this together and the fact that it’s you, a real person, who made this and shared this makes it 1000 times more unique.
This was so just, especially with everything it represents for you or anyone watching it and relating to it… This was a moment in time, it felt like a warm hug and literally lights sparks into our hearts.
Thank you so much for creating, sharing, loving. This truly makes this channel what it is today. Be happy, be kind, be slyfer !
I guess I needed to hear this today. It's difficult to move forward without the one you love.
This show……..i cant articulate in words how good it is.
Let me start by saying thank you. I’ve watched your edits for quite some time now, and you never cease to amaze me with your ability to out-due yourself. Because you were so kind as to share something so personal and tragic with everyone, I too would like to share something with you. In 2005, after battling stage 4 lung cancer for a year, my father, at the age of 50 succumbed to his illness. I was 13 years old when I lost him, that was 17 years ago. I am now almost 30 years old, and the pain I felt the day he left is as strong and as real as it’s ever been. I’ve heard that time heals all wounds, but I know that not to be true. For I have carried this pain inside me for 17 years, and I will carry it with me until my last day on this earth. Now that I’ve accepted this truth, I’ve done my best to try and learn to live in his absence. To get up everyday and do what is expected of me, even on the days where I can’t be bothered to get out of bed. I fake a smile, or force a laugh, I try to make the ones who I still have left proud of me. I don’t do it for myself, I do it for him, I do it for them. All of us walk through this existence, brushing past one another, holding inside unbearable pains. We see each other everyday. At the grocery store, at the gas station, everywhere. We are the survivors. We are the ones who have been left behind. And every single day that we get up and make an effort, is another day we fight back against the dark urges that we so desperately push down deep inside us. Thank you Ricky Gervais for making this series, Thank you Slyfer for making these tributes. Please know that you’re loved, and please know that you’re not alone.
Slyfer, I must say, what a video. Yes, the video made me cry, but your story made me sob. I wasn’t going to say anything, but then I saw your age.
I won’t pretend to understand your pain. I don’t think anyone can truly understand another’s tragedy. But man, do I feel it. I am also 21 years old, and about 5 and a half years ago, I lost my older brother right in front of my eyes. It’s something I don’t tell anyone, a secret of mine from the world. But when I read your story, to see that others can have such a haunting tragedy… it’s heartbreaking.
Then we have this video. What a video. The fact that you can do masterfully express your feelings through these videos just leaves me in awe. Speechless. In truth, I’ve been subscribed to you for many years, yet I find myself coming back to this video the past week or so because of how beautiful it is. Where words fail, you sing through these videos. It’s incredible. It also makes sense now, all those videos from five years ago showing yourself in pain. You are an amazing artist, and I hope you continue expressing yourself through this UA-cam channel.
For me, I could never find internal peace after losing my brother. Acceptance is hard, and sleep is harder. I may never “move on” or find peace, but I have moments where I feel… like a singular breath that needed to happen. And this video, it’s one of those moments. Thank you. I know your brother would be so proud of you.
Mab this show has me in the feels. My dad who doesnt watch any TV watched season 3 along with me. Absolute great show
I am sorry for your loss mate... That open letter really got me. I hope your brother in a better place ❤️
My father died 3 days ago, I didnt know i would need this so much... Thank you
I lost my brother, unexpectedly, on Nov. 14th of 2021. He and I were best friends for all my life, 43 years. I was crushed. I am crushed. I can relate to being in "two minds", I live it daily. I miss him. Every second of every day. He was an amazing man who touched so many people. I know how he would want myself and others to go on living but it's hard. And not fair.
Slyfer, I read your open letter and wept more than I already was. I know your pain. I know your thoughts. I feel as if I could've penned that myself. Know that you are not alone, even though those words don't mean anything, I know. But, still...what you do allows people, such as myself, to tap into the feels that they bury. We keep moving forward....because we must.
This channel and human behind it has been everything to me and continues to be as I attempt to move forward each day.
No great words from a stranger, or poetry, or any kind of wise, comforting quote. Just this….
I am a fan, an admirer of your production, your art. You show beauty in things I missed, make me more appreciative. Love what you do and look forward to every new video.
I don’t say this lightly, but “love ya!”. I’ll be thinking about ya!
I just watched it. First of all I wanna tell you how proud I am about your open letter brother. We can see how much your brother meant to you and how much you miss him. But I'm even more proud to see that you've passed the grief and you've continued living. You deserve it. You deserve to be happy.
This video was made with your heart. You wanted to make us understand a message and we perfectly did. You did a great job and I'm really happy to know such a courageous man. ❤
Sometimes I really feel like we are in a simulation, this series definitely give you a big hints on that .
I started watching this video when my father was diagnosed with stage 4 cancer. It helped me a lot. Then it took me several months after his death to come back to this video. I was bawling my eyes out. Each time I come back to this, it gets a bit easier. It makes me appreciate how special life is, and how the simple things in life matter most.
Fyi, my father's name is Tony. So it was a gut punch.
Thank you so much for the art that you create, and I along with various others are walking the same journey with you in regards to grief.
Ive never laughed and cried so much in my life watching this show
I’m sorry for your loss, I can’t fathom the pain of losing any of my brothers. That’s why I always try to joke around with them everyday always having fun with them cherishing all of our memories we make. Because you never know it could be me or one of them going any day. I always try to appreciate life and the moments.
The first After Life tribute you uploaded was actually the video that got me to learn about the show's existence in the first place. I watched the show and I absolutely loved it. Then my grandfather died last November, the person that I considered the most important to me, and I rewatched the show again and it made me cry. And then season 3 came out, and that made me feel even more.
Then came your second After Life video which I just finished watching. I cannot express how much I can thank you for that. This is definitely one of my favorite edits out there, first being your House MD edit.
You've always amazed me at how you're able to convey the entire story of a show and all the feelings into a single short video, and execute it so brilliantly. You're the reason I got into editing, and definitely the reason of half of the editors on your server lmao.
I've been here for over 2 years and I've watched you grow by 200K subscribers, and you deserved every one of them. You deserve to hit a million subscribers, and I hope to be there to see it. You're a big inspiration to many people out there and your videos definitely have helped many through difficult times, like me. So once again, thank you. Cheers mate 🍾
Thank you !!❤
For sharing a part you with us...
It's unimaginably painful and uncomfortable to lose someone whom you ever cared for !!
May God give you the strength to endure it and to any one who live through the same experience in their life ❤🙏
I’ve lost my grandfather 3 years ago then my grandma and my friend 2 years ago.Now I am emotienless from inside and I don’t feel happiness anymore nothing makes sense.When I first watched the show it broke like i cried after a long time.This show made me realize that i have feelings but ı don’t have hope anymore.
This is an absolutely beautiful tribute for your brother! This is just soo touching! I'm sorry about your brother. That open letter hurts because as someone who has experienced grief, that loss just hurts! The open letter is soo open and honest.
You've put such beautiful words on your grief, I admire it and I can sadly understand your suffering. As usual, you've done an amazing job with this edit, take care of yourself!
This is so tragically beautiful. First thing I want to say is, I am truly sorry for your loss, hope your brother rests in peace.
The video is so well made its unreal, it felt special. Thank you for this!
What an amazing tribute, and I could never imagine having the courage to express your feelings in the way that you did, because I'm sure most of us don't talk about people we've lost.
Sir, this video made me genuinely laugh and cry. Laugh to memories I have with people I used to call as friend, close to some. Cry at their passing, sudden and inevitable by disease, wanting to die, or old age itself. My last grandmother and grandparent died in over a year ago. Due to the pandemic, not socializing and being stuck in a room, she wanted to die and it was her choice. Even though she died, I still miss her from time to time. From the sassiness to the classic way of knowing if their sons, my father and uncle, are safe and good in their lives. Now, I had a friend who was a great, humorous, and loving leader. The kind who wanted to push you to not be afraid. Then, couple weeks ago, I heard his throat cancer went all over his body and is expected to die. Well, he died earlier this week. So, with all of these deaths from friends, sometimes it does weigh on me. But seeing this video, reminded me of them. Not just their deaths, but also spending time with them. Enjoying life to the fullest. With all the memories flooding in from watching this, even now it's almost hard to hold the tears in. Sir, you got a gift of storytelling. A gift passed down for thousands of years. Never give that up. I bet your brother loves these, "up there." In Heaven. I hope that be true so it be comforting to you.
man, I’m sorry for your loss but I’m glad to see you are in a better place and able to accept and move forward. Love will always transcend time and space and anything in between, I’m not a religious person but that energy never goes away. It’ll always be in you. Thank you for sharing and thank you for always posting incredible works on here. Sending my love and good energy to you and whoever else might read this. To live is to love. That is why we are here I think. Beautiful video, thanks again.
This is one of the most beautiful videos I've ever seen. I am absolutely awe struck, got me emotional.
Slyfer I have been a fan of yours ever since I came across your videos. You have a real talent for piecing videos together to capture a range of emotions in a short 3-4 minute window. I can tell the afterlife videos really mean something to you and you have done a phenomenal job with them, as you have with all your other videos. Awesome work mate, your brother will be proud!
i cried a bit and i didn't even saw the series, and then i just cried a bit more reding the description, sorry about your loss, keep doing this maybe you help someone that is passing for the same situation that you pass 5 years ago. love your work
I have seen some of your videos, they´re all so beautiful and inspiring, you have helped me in ways you can't even imagine, I really hope you manage to deal with whatever you are dealing with, and I also want to thank you for doing this, your videos have changed me in so many ways. I wish you the very best
Your note was absolutely beautiful and this dedication is a wonderful dedication of love.. Death is such a hard factor to grasp because it's something we will never understand til we are gone... but at the end of the day the people we miss and loved are with us because we would not be the same people without them, they made us in the memories we made with them... I wish you love and understanding as you go forward, and hope the memories of your brother will become less sad over time and more fond
I Highley recommend people like me who hate our existence, this series really kicked me up the arse. Sort of made me grow up if that's possible. Series three hurts but made me grow up a bit, and I cried cos its life 🙂
I just want to say that i appreciate you and every video that you posted many of your video have help me get through the death of my dad and has help me appreciate the moment that i did have with him even though i cant make anymore and won't be able to see him again but i just want to say thank you for helping me deal with my grief ❤
Gods this hits really hard for me, for the longest time all I can remember is just family members and friends dying for years. A full family and friend circle from 15 years ago is just gone now, all happening as I'm not even what I consider an adult yet at 24.
But the people that I died I loved, and they'd hate it if I just spent all my time moping about it. Heck I know a few of them would've slapped me upside the head, told me to stop crying, hug me, and say it's going to be alright. Thanks for this, I've actually been avoiding watching After Life because of this and the topics it touches on, especially since I'd been suicidal for the longest while. But I had and still have friends, good people, and the few family I have left that've helped me avoid all of that.
You've given me reason to watch After Life, and helped me out a bit mentally even if i'm just a random person on the internet. Thank you for this, and I mean this with all my heart when I say to take care of yourself, you're important and you deserve the best, even if you don't think you do in any capacity.
Wish you all the best.
family always said I'm like Ricky Gervais, same kinda dark jokes and stuff. Lost my about to be wife and I'm dealing with not only that but the fact that I've d9ne very bad things in the past (never hit her, never talked bad, but I took part on some gigs to earn money to calm my addiction) and this edit is like the dog avoiding Ricky of killing hinself, I'm destroyed, all my family are watching this series to help me since its kinda similar case and even though Im trying to be happy, kind, be Alex, sometimes I can't. But thank u, and I hope all of u going through or not a difficult moment have a great life
Brother, your words… I felt the pain. Thank you for your videos. You don’t know this but they have saved my life on many occasions. God bless you x
beautifully said in your description. i lost my father to cancer 9 years ago, you just learn to live with it over time. but u said it perfectly. Big hugs to you. Also awesome video. Masterpiece.
A very poignant tribute. I tragically lost my sister 13 years ago - the only on screen production I've seen which comes close to replicating the emotions of that time is '8 Simple Rules' Goodbye episode, a real tear jerker.
Also would recommend watching the song 'The Other Side' by Lauren Alaina and the story behind why she wrote it, then performed it on Dancing with the Stars.
I'm going through grief too. You actually pointed out everything I been through in the past months in that great letter you wrote to your brother. And I do believe there's an "up there". We don't see it, but I think that deep down in our hearts we can feel it. And that's enough, because it gotta be enough. Living is meaningless. People are meaningful. If you join them together... you'll get a taste of what life should be: nothing certain, I guess.
I wasn't gonna watch season 3, got 2 minutes into this and it made me. So I binged it all in a couple of hours. Incredible edit, and great show too. Thank you.
6 episodes x 30 mins a piece. You binged it in a few hours ;) Couldn't help myself :) Take care and be happy!
I’m sorry for your loss. love you, brother.
I lost someone I love recently too. Your description is very similar to how I’m feeling right now. Your words are lovely and this video (and all your others) is moving and fantastic in equal measure. Take care and take it easy pal ☺️.
The exchange with the little girl Lisa killed me it was so sad
I love this video and your other 'Grief'. I have lost much over the last four years, my mum, my gran and my son. I too want to move forward and hope they are with me too. Grief is only love with nowhere to go. I am sorry for your loss.
Finished watching today, and all the time I was like I think slyfer will add this line in his edit
I am glad I found few of them in this vid.
And the last poem of Mary Elizabeth Frye ❤️
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope you can find some semblance of peace going forward.
Your open letter made me feel how I feel about my grandmother’s death...Been 3 years and it still sucks😪
Such a great show, unbelievable tribute! Love your work, keep it up!
The little girl with cancer bit destroyed me this season, utterly shattered
You’re an inspiration to all of us editors, amazing video Slyfer!
This show is amazing on so many levels. Thank you Slyfer for beautiful tribute
I’m sorry for the loss of your brother, I have a somewhat love/clash relation with mine but I know, one day if he passes or i do, it’ll feel exactly like how your description was described. I hope all is well or better now.
1:56 what a brilliant cut
Can't stop watching this one.
Hugs Slyfer. I am so sorry for your loss. 😞 I lost my twin sister two years ago. It was sudden, unexpected. No definite answers. They were concerned about medical malpractice...too high a dosage of medication in her system. Her doctor had increased her dosage to very high levels but she also suffered from depression and anxiety.
It's horrible not knowing either way. It's haunting. And because I was told the police were looking to speak to me...I was quickly going through voice-mails on my phone. I accidentally deleted one from my sister. I didn't think much of it because I was concerned about why the police were trying to contact me. I never thought it had anything to do with her since I have a restraining order against my father.
I have no idea what her last message to me even was about. And that torments me.
The type of grief that comes with losing someone you are so, so close to...for you, your brother, for me my sister...it scars. I feel disconnected in a sense from everything. A pallor has been cast over the entire world and all life. I struggle a lot to find meaning, but I am doing the best I can for my cat and my friends who have supported me so, so much.
This hit differently... I wish you peace...
Your message in the description is wonderful. He would be proud :)
What a beautiful video you've pulled off mate. Truly, honestly, thank you.
So sorry for your loss 💔
Slyfer you always make me cry....
Great caption man. I hope you’re doing well. Your videos help a lot of people; wanted to take the time to say thank you.
I just finished season 3 and was wondering if we will be getting a new slyfer video or not. You my friend are a hero!
Thank you very much sir....I owe you utmost respect ....Cheers!
One of the greatest show ever made!
Beautiful dedication to someone you love.
Your videos are absolutely incredible. I always look forward to the next.
Thank you... i love very much this series... it seems my life...
when the dog disappeared and then tony did... that hit hard cause eveyrone's gonna die, no one's spared from death :(
Simply. Beautiful.
This has hit me to the new level. you dont easily find something that is made so flawlessly. #afterlife is that. :)
You're incredible.
One of the best TV shows out there
Beautiful edit mate! I am sorry for your loss, hope you and your family are doing well :)
Such a moving, funny, poignant program. Amazingly well written and acted. Bravo Ricky Gervais.
Just right now i finished the new season and it was wholesome in alot of ways
My grandma from both side of the family died during my high school year. During that time I’m still in process of overcoming depression after long year of having school bullying. So when I hear the news of my grandma(s) died, who love me and gave me a lot of loves, I broke down completely. I didn’t have a someone who would comfort/listen to me like in the show, to be honest I wish I have cuz those weight from those pains really affects me a lots. Through Idk if it was because of me having a “brave mental attitude“ or sth (my friend used to tell me that cuz I listen to their problems while having problems myself, which is getting bullied), I did get to the stage of acceptance (sort of) but I think I wasn’t able to get the closure I want, cuz I wasn’t able to share with anyone.
And then recently, another person of my life also died not too long ago. And I couldn’t go to the funeral cuz I have a final exams. Before and after it, I regret that I didn’t go to her funeral, and I couldn’t stop from crying immediately after the exams. And wonder how did I even manage to overcome this feelings of losing someone in the past.
The show is like I have those friends that Tony met during his journey of dealing with grief and loss that I wasn’t able to meet during my own journey. And god I can’t express how much I love this show and thankful to find this show.
the only tv show ever made me cry like a toddler
I'm so so sorry for your bro...
Beautiful work man and your open letter is beautiful and heartbreaking
Brilliantly made! so sorry for your loss
Beautiful, just absolutely beautiful
thanks for the feelings you gave me
This series is such a good time
Death smiles at us all, but all a man can do is smile back.
Sorry for your lost slyfer, if it helps Ik what it’s like losing a brother too and I hope your fine
Sorry to read this mate. But I'm glad you find a series such as After Life (and making this edit) as a way to express yourself :)
Beautiful letter. I'm sure your brother has read this whatever he is now.
beautiful ❤❤ i think this is a beautiful way to honor your brother xxx
One of the only shows I confidently refer to as art.