Rambling In My Second Voice - Jam #96

I just wanna fly
My second voice is rambling in this video just like my first voice does. I always have so many things I want to say but can't seem to find any of the right words to put it together. And so I ramble helplessly. Desperately. My sentences are like a slot machine at a casino. I mostly spout out confusing and unapproachable topics that could never compare to my occasional outburst of fluent english to finally construct what had been so hard to say in the way I wanted it to be said. Those times are magical. I feel like I barely feel a thrill in anything anymore. Life feels so dull. When my words finally make sense to somebody for once, I feel a weight lift from my shoulders and the sun shines brighter for the rest of the day and all of the plants glow vibrantly in green. Or at night time the stars appear so much clearer to my eyes that aren't crowded with floating squiggles that seem to multiply along with the pressure in my head and weight in my heart when I am in pain. I long to change myself. I want to become better still. I want to break free from my circumstantial constraints and fly. I just want to fly.
-Andrew