Therapist reacts to Save Me by Jelly Roll
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- Опубліковано 31 тра 2024
- Therapist analyzes the lyrics of Save Me by Jelly Roll and discusses how the root cause of hopelessness is fear, not sadness. When we think of hopelessness as rooted in fear it gives us an opportunity to take an action step because fear can be changed, it doesn't have to be accepted.
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I love Jelly Roll man gets in front of the senate and asks for them to do something about the fentanyl crisis because he understands from his past what it’s doing to America. God bless him
I lost my beautiful son to addiction 2 yrs ago. I’ve heard all of these desperate words from his mouth. Trauma and debilitating depression are real accelerators to addiction. We don’t see the feelings of unworthiness and feeling unlovable. We don’t see the torment in their minds of using to escape but in doing so, they hurt the ones that love them. I don’t have guilt bc my son knew I was there fighting with him, supporting him. He knew I loved and treasured him. My only regret is that in my tunnel-visioned focus on trying to save him, I didn’t understand his side of it, until he was gone. It breaks my heart to know the mental anguish and pain that he went through everyday!! TJ was a beautiful soul, and he will live on in all the best parts of me!! Be kind, empathetic and understanding!!
I'm 50. Spent my whole life on drugs and alcohol. Not to mention my mental health history. 8 months sober. This song absolutely rings true and hits a chord deep inside
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Congrats on your sobriety keep going! I spent years being an alcoholic
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Hope doing bettter
When I started dating my wife, I showed her this song, and I sat there and cried as she listened to it. I told her I know I'm broken, I have issues, and they come with me. If you want to leave now I understand.
She stayed and embraces every part of me. I am lucky I found her.
Get well bro. Sounds like you have a very solid partner.
GOD BLESS
Bunny saved him. And oh man are we so thankful for her. Jelly, we love you, and thankyou eternally Bunny!
BUNNY ROLL? or BAD BUNNY lol
This song saved my life! I had never heard of Jelly Roll until my psychologist daughter sent me the link.
Some people I know struggled to understand how listening to a song that sounded depressing to them good help me with depression but it means a lot to know I am not alone. I am much better in recent years because I finally made the effort to make an effort in life.
Even the hardest coldest heart can some how relate to this hauntingly beautiful song it made me feel things I had forgotten to remember 💔💔🔥🔥🔥
This song helped me see the light at the end of the grief tunnel after loosing my little boy😢
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Elvis Presley once said “im so lonesome I could cry” was the saddest song he’d heard in his life. this is the saddest song I’ve ever heard. I lost a cousin to addiction. It’s chilling I can hear him in this song.
57 and not sober. I drink way too much. A 2 time widower with way too many memories I wish I could forget. As well as a 2 time combat deployed veteran. This song is a living embodiment of how I feel
Take the first step….go to a meeting. Doesn’t have to be AA., can be N.A. or another recovery meeting….you will be embraced with arms wide open and it’ll be the first step to healing! You’ve got this!
Brother, thank you for your service! Don't give up. I've been where you are. It can get better.
The first time I heard that I heard this song I cried- I just wanted to wrap my arms around this man and give him the most heart felt hug and tell him that he was worthy 🥰
On my bad days. My playlist consists of NF, Jellyroll, Dax and a couple of others. The music helps keep my last drink back on 5/17/16 and not today.
Just for today... bless you!
Proud of you.
Jelly Roll has helped me through alot of tough situations and this song alone speaks volumes for someone like me.
Your recognition that addiction is based on deep rooted pain. Is spot on. As a 42 year old single, never married and no kids, I have to drink and smoke everyday to numb my pain and suppress my rage from all of the intolerance and ignorance in my life. Keep up the good work and keep cooking!!!
I liked because I fell ya, but this young lady did not understand the feelings, she must have had a good upbringing most therapists will not be able to get it after all they had money from the start.
This song pretty much ripped the words out of our soul, felt like this for years now...
This was the last song my Uncle ever sent to anyone in his life, he sent it to my Mother and Two days later he suddenly died, his pancreas failed because he drank himself to death after a divorce where his wife took everything from him. He died on 8/2/22. The only person In the world who understands me
Currently going through a divorce and trying very hard every moment of every day to not pick up a drug or drink. Thank you for your comment 🙏. I wish nothing but the best for you especially with your loss. Keep up your strength.
@DisturbedInOhio a good ol' UA-cam rabbit hole got me to here and I gotta say I'm proud of you man. Hope you're still doing good.
I'm in the same boat and fighting the same fight. Had to pick up a side job and grab extra hours at my full time.... the risk of a dui to my line of work is huge in keeping me away from the bottom of a bottle (not enough time to sleep it off some days and if I started in at night, I'd probably still be over on my way to work in the AM). I'm not in favor of any drunk driving to be fair.
Can't keep from falling into a bag of powder every so often in an effort to keep moving. My partying days are way behind me and I haven't gone off the rails in this past year and a bit, but I absolutely hate this part of my current life. And it's a vicious cycle....
Basically, all I'm trying to say, is if you can't see any other option but to give in to an itch, reach out to someone and get an assist on finding anything besides caving in.
There are a whole bunch more of us in these boats all around the place.
@@AndyEightSevenFive I appreciate you reaching out. I've made it through another day without numbing myself. So, the pushing will continue. Hopefully, we all can continue to be better.
I love jelly roll his early stuff more so, when this song first came out I was going through my divorce, it really spoke to my soul, 4 years later I still cry hearing this song
This song makes me cry…..but seriously feels as if he truly gets how I feel…like it explains me very clearly. 11months sober from Alcohol. Having C-PTSD….most can’t believe I’m still alive! Same….but I’m happy you understand this song because soo many could/can benefit from just 1 listen to this song!
This song defiantly hits home for me. Especially after I left the military after almost 20 years in. Dealing with things like PTSD anxiety and depression. I did manage to quit drinking, but I do use weed to get through most of my bad days.
This song really makes me think about connection and addiction. That one of the biggest factors (perhaps THE biggest) in whether or not someone becomes an addict is whether they have strong social connections. And then, when they are addicts, it becomes a loop that's hard to get out of because they push people away.
Jelly is one of the best turnaround stores out there and one of the best to come out of Nashville in a long time.
Great reaction as always!
Stories
Jelly Roll openly singing about this is so inspiring so many people in recovery feel embarrassed over there past. The truth is we have overcome something that was trying to kill us and by sharing those feelings of fear we show others they are alone and they can recover too. God bless you for your work ❤
I remember the first time I saw Jelly roll was 3 years ago at Louder than Life and he brought a 6-year-old girl and her dad on stage to sing this song and that man single-handedly won over a giant crowd of metalheads and it was beautiful plus he was really respectful, plus he bought everyone shots at Headbanger's Hall
I was there too! An amazing performance!
He has preformed this with Lainey Wilson. That one is a must see.
This song, along with most Jelly Roll songs, saved me in a time that was dark and frightening. This was on repeat for a good four months it’s still hard to not cry.
His new song with Joyner Lucas is incredible as well. All about how addiction affects the user and their family.
Ive listened to hundreds of reviews on this song but you really put it in the point of view from his side. It speaks to me. I have so much going for me now but i still keep drinking and smoking bc im never happy. I should be, i want to be
Its the only peace I've ever found. Ptsd, deppresion and anxiety from my job(paramedic) and going through a divorce. Been living this song for a while now.
I hope you are doing better today. Never give up on yourself because you are a good person no matter what you are going through. Sending out Prayers, and Good wishes for you to hang in there
From Brian_Bishoff: @exabysussairsoft Yeah that song and how he sings it is gut wrenching and so powerful! I wish you strength in your struggles. I've been there and and know that greater happiness and peace are possible in the long run. Keep reaching out here and any place that you can get support.
I have been on a four year battle with congestive heart failure. It has been so hard, and this song is exactly how I feel in the dark bad days. But I keep fighting and always will. no matter how broken I feel
I swear this song is about me. This is how I feel.
More jelly roll please.. So you can further explain why his music heals me..
I'm a recovering drug addict and I have been sober for 4 and a half years now and I'm also bipolar and I have a lot of other mental health issues I have been in and out of mental institutions, hospitals, rehab's,jails and prisons for the majority of my life and now I'm really trying very hard to get my life together and I'm doing a lot better I'm sober and I have a good job and I have a nice apartment and I live alone and pay my own bills. I have been really trying very hard to get better and this song and my therapist and my sponsor and music and watching Taylor palmbry reaction to videos and listening to her positive and inspiring words are really helpful to me and this song really hits hard to me and right now I'm going through a lot of depression and music and comedy has,is and always will be a crutch for me when I'm dealing with my depression
You're doing great. Even if you feel you're not, here you are. You are still here. You're already winning. ❤️
I became sober from alcohol 2 yrs ago on 5/9/2024. Him & Tom Macdonald's music gave me strength. I shared this with my wife, and we absolutely found 100% of your message relatable in every way.
I've started a loosely held together group of Men, where we can come to check in. I call it One Step, bc that's all you have to be willing to, to take part. The understanding is that we each hold strengths where others might be lacking. I truly believe we can heal each other. It's not AA, but it is if you want it to be; is not NA, but it is if you need it to be; is not therapy, but that exactly what it is.
If I'm being honest, I need your help. I don't know that I have the tools to properly be able to benefit everyone, in the limited ways I have available to me.
I would love to find out more about any information you could possibly lead me to, so that I can help these men.
This is a great song and honestly helps me knowing I’m not the only one that feels this way. If you wanna hear another good song listen to Dax dear alcohol
Jelly Roll is the man! Our stories are similar. Drug & alcohol abuse, prison, toxic relationships. Been clean and sober for 28 years now.
You should look at She by him. Deals with more addiction.
It's the pain of always being too late or not being/ having enough for all those who are an intricate part of the castle you've built around you... when you watch your entire village burn too the ground and disipate.. you can only see yourself as the flames that burnt it all...after repetitions, your entirety hollow inside, more so with no one or anything too even begin to rebuild... numb it all, wash the rest away, keep everyone out, but show all your nothing left. and pray anyone who cares any saw it all, so they don't lose like you have..
This man has such a powerful voice. Song suggestion for you, "Leave a Light On" by Papa Roach. That one is another outstanding song.
Life has shattered my hopes and my dreams.
@heartsupport I really love this song . I think this song deserves more respect generally . This is another one of those songs that hits close to home
I can relate to this song I have felt like this my whole life. Love you jelly roll
Alot of us feel this way sweetheart.
Thank you for your insights into this song, I think I will listen to this video many times today. And maybe one day I can face my addiction.
Jelly is a great guy and had really turned his life around. Hopefully other people are inspired by this guy to better their lives.
I think Shawn James's song through the valley would be a good reaction video the lyrics are pretty dark but it's a great song.
I feel down but I'm thankful I have numerous family and friends to talk to
My friend was an addict for years. She sent me this and said this so describes how she felt. I cried.
I meet Jellyroll and his wife maybe 10yrs ago after a little show while he was doing his rap shows. Hands down 2 of the most humble people around and so nice. Even after a show he still takes time to chat and say hello.
Man, Kelly just lord have mercy! I’ve never related to an artist so much! Every single day I can listen to this and cry because I am screaming this. I can’t wait to see jelly in concert, I’m going to cry so hard. Just god this song
I love this song. I relate on such a deep level. It's a miracle I haven't blown my head off yet.
Jelly is an Inspiration to many just like me!!!
Yes Jelly Roll bringin the feels!!
Girl, you making me cry. You validated my feelings .💗 @HeartSupport
I just lost my 23 year old daughter to addiction…. This was one of her favorite songs.
I was born with spinabifida and hydrocephalus and I developed a deep depression and I got addicted to drugs and alcohol and this song really makes me feel like it's me
This song is in my Playlist. It kind of explains me. I'm 50, have had 4 heart attacks and just had my 5th Stent, I have ulnar nerve entrapment, and lower and mid back problems. Depression sucks. Also on large doses of painkillers and rso. So yes, this song speaks to me...😢
From Micro: @subtleaggression My friend. My heart goes out to you and I can't imagine how painful this must have been for you. You are in my thoughts today. @ www.loom.com/share/160950efbb0a4aaa8c73620d72355a88
March 10th was 12 years sober. At the age of 41. Yesterday was my God Daughter’s 11th birthday. Jelly speaks the truth. The person I took through the steps of recovery told me about Jelly and I am thankful for that. Jelly’s story and documentary on hula is amazing.
Tht song is me every day all day
It was me too ❤
We love Jelly Roll! We also love the energy you bring to these reactions!
I love this man and his message. ❤❤❤
I was diagnosed ten years ago with MS
This song is pretty much how I feel everyday of my life
Not every song you break down directly relates to what I'm going through but every video has at least one small piece or nugget of a tool that has helped me figure out where I am. Once I figured out where I was I didn't feel lost. As soon as I didn't feel lost the fear that used to soak me through started to dry. That's where I am now, not dry yet but not dripping and cold either. One day, maybe soon, I'll feel warm like a freshly laundered shirt.
I wasn't lost, just temporarily misplaced.
Even being soaked with fear I realized that, like walking through the rain, you can only get so wet.
The sun will come out to dry you eventually. That might not be tomorrow and that's ok.
Thank you for making this space feel so open and inviting. It's a place we can come and scream into the abyss and get a response that's so much more useful than just an echo.
beautifully explained. This touched me
I relate very much to this song. Not so much with the drinking but I suffer from severe panic/anxiety disorder and undiagnosed autism. I isolate and pray out loud and smoke and thats the only way my brain knows how to cope. Its hard for people in my life to understand why i cant change the way I cope so easily or why my mind acts so irrationally. Its isolating in itself so i can understand why my brain decided it felt more comfortable Panicking alone where no one can see me. I am blessed in so many ways and i know this but this is a very lonely thing to constantly deal with on a daily basis. To be a prisoner in your body and for you to have moments where you have ZERO control of the way your brain and body react to fear. It is scary and makes me feel misunderstood and alone, even with my loved ones trying their best to support me and help me. Thank you for the way you broke down his feelings because you explained it exactly how it feels sometimes. Glad I found your channel!! With Love, Kimmie
From Micro: @user-gi1ps3yu9n Thank you so much for sharing these parts of your story, friend. There's so many times when we carry our struggles on our own, away from others sight - and therefore judgment -, but it's also safe and healthy to share our vulnerable side when it's appropriate to us. By opening up about what you've been through, you're taking a brick off this walll of loneliness and isolation. It might not feel like a big thing when it's done through a UA-cam comment, but really you can be proud of yourself for choosing to write down all of this here.
You have without a doubt been carrying your share of struggles, and it makes sense to feel overwhelmed and alone with it, especially when other people in your life don't seem to understand what it entails to feel things the way you do. As you said, you can know rationally that you are living in good circumstances and surrounded by great people, but anxiety/panic don't work this way. It pushes so many buttons in our mind and body that are emotionally taxing, and not grounded in rationality. Somehow, it's what makes it so hard for so many people to understand its reality: from the outside, it doesn't make sense and/or doesn't seem logical. Thankfully, there are people who can understand even without having experienced anxiety or panic firsthand, but it surely takes practice and stretching one's own sense of empathy.
For what it's worth, I personally relate and understand the things you describe. I have only struggled with panic at very low and stressful times of my life, but anxiety on the other hand has always been present, like a neverending background speaker in my brain. It keeps on instilling so many fears, doubts and shame on a daily basis, making social interactions difficult and preventing me from living the life I aspire to get in many aspects. As you said, it is really scary to see yourself thinking, feeling and reacting a certain way while having no control over it. It feels like being stuck in your own body but being pushed on the passenger side. You are somehow forced to witness things happening without any control over it, like someone else was piloting everything. It's such a brutal experience to feel like you don't have ownership of what's happening inside of you, and how it can be seen by others on the outside.
I do hope that, in the midst of this, you manage to cultivate as much as possible a spirit of patience, grace and love ot yourself. What your anxiety and panic manifests are your body and mind's way to say that needs have to be attended inside of your heart. It's not really great at explaining what's going on with proper words, but at least that's the way I personally like to see it. It helps me see that my anxiety is not there to sabotage me, but more a signal that I need to be gentle with myself even more than the day before. By ensuring time for *me*, by listening to my body's sensations, by journaling my thoughts every once in a while. Making space for myself when I seem to push "me" away a little bit too much, or for too long.
May you find peace and healing through this. You are definitely not alone, my friend. I'm thankful for you and the fact that you've shared these personal experiences here. Hold fast.
-Micro
This is exactly how I feel and live. I'm 56 and I don't see a stopping point anywhere in sight. I even keep my addictions a secret from everyone, especially my wife of 34 years because I don't want to lose her. The first time I heard this song I cried because someone finally put into words what I have never been able to do
From twixremix: @shannonturner8337 hey friend, thank you for reaching out and sharing your story. i’m so glad you found such a deep connection with this song - it’s an incredible thing when music can do that for us. it’s also so difficult to live in secrecy especially for things you deserve support, love, and encouragement for. it takes so much courage to speak out about - please know that you are not alone in this journey and are understood as well as believed in.
love,
twix
From OneStepAtATime: @shannonturner8337 Hey there friend,
Thank you sharing and being open. I appreciate you. Music can be so incredibly powerful, and it makes me so happy that you can feel that deep connection with this song. I hear you and I feel for you. Addiction is a cruel beast. Please just know that you can always come to heart support, no matter what. We’re here for you. It takes a lot to open up, but it is worth it. I can assure you friend. Stay strong
From Jearls: @shannonturner8337 Hi Friend,
Being able to recognize your situation and be honest with yourself about where you stand takes power in it of itself. You are not alone in this and I know you will keep making pushing forward. Best of luck.
SM
From daniiicass: @shannonturner8337 Hi there,
Music is so powerful in a way that it sometimes touches us emotionally in a way that we may not have thought of in the first place. It speaks volumes in ways that we are not able to reach ourselves and tunes into our emotions more than we can comprehend. I am glad that you found solace in this song while dealing with internal struggles. I have never personally struggled with addiction but I have dealt with keeping deep secrets to the detriment of people who I care and love most, and it is certainly an emotional weight. Your wife seems to be so important to you and I am happy that you value your relationship with her.
Addiction is a long journey that involves a lot of patience. So be patient with yourself and with others during this time. You have people here to support you and who believe in you. I wish you luck and love.
Remember to not only be kind to the ones you love, but be kind to yourself.
-Daniela
This song relates totally to me. I have lost so many family members in the last 3 years, first my dad then my husband then my mom then 4 people I went to school with. This is how it went dad on may 28 , 2020 the husband January 24, 2021 then mom on Feb 17th 2021 then people I went to school with on March 19 2021. Then my older sister on November 21, 2023. So sad every single day. That at times I feel like I don't belong here anymore.
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From Micro: @user-kz7yo7rq6x Sending so much love to you friend. It must have been absolutely heart-shattering to navigate the last couple of years, to basically just survive through all of these losses. Nothing could have prepared you for losing so many people you love dearly in such a short amount of time. These three years must have felt like such a brutal storm sent your way with absolute no end in sight. At some point, it forces to you feel as if it's just never going to stop. It makes you wonder not if there is going to be another loss to come, but *when* it is going to happen.
To share life with people you love, then having to say goodbye to them one by one is one of the most brutal experience to know. I can only imagine how painful it must have been for you to experience this over and over. It makes me think of this imagine of someone running a relay course, but the relays just never keep on coming at you so you have to keep running over and over. Once you think you've reached a step to pause and rest, there is someone else coming at you, giving you the relay you need to keep on carrying. Just this sensation of being forced ot be in movement all the time while after losing someone you love the very first thing you need is time and space to feel what needs to be felt. With this succession of losses, it's like your very right to grieve was constantly being taken away from you. There's not enough time for your mind and body to process what happened. You're carried forcefully through the motions of life and the adversity it keeps throwing at you, again and again and again...
It must feel so very lonely to be now in 2024 and looking back to all that happened in just a couple of years. To feel like not so long ago the people you love the most were present with you, and that you are now forced to compose with their absence. Having lost several people I love during the last couple of years, it's definitely brought an intense sense of isolation deep inside. My heart truly goes out to you as you are trying to catch your breath slowly. Yes, when you have lost people you love, it does feel at times like you wouldn't belong anymore. And it's so important to say it, just like you did here. It might feel useless most of the time, but sharing how you feel, naming it and making sure that safe people are there to listen can be such a huge crutch during times of utter loss and isolation. It doesn't heal, but it helps to keep on going, to keep on giving ourselves the time we need to find ourselves again after losing so much of our own heart, of our own world.
Thank you so much for being here, friend. For sharing about your family and friends, and about what's going on inside of your heart. You matter so much. Your voice is so important.
-Micro
Jack Harris, "careful what you wish for" is a fire song and describes perfectly what I, and others, go through due to medication.
This song is on my list of songs for when I'm close to crisis. A few other ones from that list are "Hate Me" by Blue October and "Ghost" by Badflower. Badflower, in general, would be great for this channel. They aggressively write about mental health issues.
After getting off the hard drugs I became an alcoholic and thought it was under control until I almost lost my world. This song played on repeat for days while I drank myself stupid disgusted with myself. Six years off drugs and 18 Months off the bottle
This is my first time hearing this song and it just hit me to a tee like I was singing along and this is my first time hearing it how does that happen... Damn🙁
Gotta go down the jelly. Roll rabbit hole Definitely gotta check out she
I fell inlove the second the video turned on, and then the voice, and the message I drink and smoke and never use drugs
Oh jelly roll ❤️ I love him. Thank you for checking this out. Great advice
First, thank you for finding this song! I've never clicked on a video so fast. Second, you could do a deep dive into Jelly Roll's music and never run out of material. He writes, in his words, "songs for the broken". He's country now but his older, non-commercial music is much more heartfelt and beautiful in my opinion.
Look up nothing left at all by jelly roll if you haven't yet, it's another good one
So I’ve never been able to tell my feelings cuz the way I grew up so I know exactly how jelly roll feeling this song in all my 31 years I’ve always felt like this I’ve got my own devices but again I’ve felt just like this the whole time 🖤🖤
I suffer from debilitating pain in my shoulder, 5 shoulder surgeries and they still can't fix it, I completely feel the damaged beyond repair.
From Micro: @dennisbarker5986 My goodness, friend. Five shoulder surgeries is such a high number - I'm really sorry you've been going through this. It must have been absolutely exhausting so far to have these repeated surgeries, *and* on top of it to not see yet the results you would have expected. It's like somehow you are forced over and over to make concessions, gather all of this strength and perseverance for the perspective of relief and hope for healing... but then this hope gets crushed by an unfair reality. I can only imagine how tiring this must be for you. It makes sense to feel the way you do, and it's understandable to have a hard time when positive perspectives for the future seem to be constantly challenged like this. I'm wholeheartedly rooting for you and wish so much for you to receive some good news and find closure with what must feel right now like a neverending chapter. :heart:
Love his voice!
One of the only constant experiences I've really seen in my many years of experience with addiction and recovery across a diverse range of people, to quote Vessel of Sleep Token from Ascensionism, is that "anything's better than the way I feel right now."
Just wanted to share my personal interpretation of this song in my experience. Great work and powerful insight! Keep on rockin'! Rant incoming!
This song illustrates my experience for years and still sometimes today in my relationship with my therapist and my loved ones who support me as the urge to push others away to save myself from the crushing weight of disappointing them and myself. I'm even taken it so far to try and heal myself in a sink or swim scenario of currently being in grad school for counseling in the hopes it will force me to find a way to heal but it still feels as if I'm just as broken and maladapted as when I first began going to counseling 13 years ago I judge my lack of growth because I've come so far and see so little growth because my confirmation bias keeps me from seeing it even though I logically know it's there. I love the burger analogy, and in my case I've been judging myself for not being done with the whole burger after all of these years. I hopefully can begin to see more realistically that I have been biting a lot of burgers or mental health challenges in a huge buffet as a mental health perfectionist and really give myself the experience of acceptance of not having everything fully healed to be able to help others. I hope this can resonate with someone and allow someone else to feel like they can be ok with not being perfect at something while simultaneously being a so-called expert of that very thing (similar to imposter syndrome). Thanks for letting me share! Much love!
I love Jelly. I vibe most with a trilogy by him, Only, Love the Heartless, Creature ft, Tech n9ne & Krizz Kaliko. The Dynamic Self Motivation failed me so many times in my life. I'm not a diagnosis or a disease that fits in the ConText of a text book. I survived real SA, suicide, addiction, and over medication. It was not until I could accept all the "negative" parts of me and be comfortable with myself in those places that I began to grow. I understand the need for medication for diseases like schizophrenia, but I am a strong advocate for not medicating the symptoms of mental illness in the majority. At the end of the day it is my mind not I am my mind. Every thought comes with a choice to act upon it or not. Every emotion has a choice to feel it or not. Every emotional response has a cause, and by addressing the cause we can amplify the positive and remove the negative. I am sorry I went on a tangent when all I really wanted to say is. I like your honest reactions and breakdowns of the music you are sharing. All of art is perspective, and seeing others perspective that aligns or varies with my own to the same art is enlightening.
Thank you for doing jelly roll he's truly an Angel
Thank you so much for reaction to this !
Totally loved your Reaction
would love to see you react to either 'Nothing to lose' by Billy talent, or Youth of the nation by P.O.D. I chose those songs as a music project while in grade 8 and my music teacher was the first person to listen to lyrics and pull me aside to talk to me about how i felt and checked in on me regularly. probably the best thing thats ever happened in my life
This song touches me. I am so socially phobic due to my disability that I am often very alone. I used to know I was needed by my daughter but now she is old enough to care for herself and is marrying. Sometimes... Often I am just waiting to die so I won't be in pain anymore.
From DyllonKG: @dherald1532 Hello my friend.
Thanks so much for posting about this and giving us the opportunity to support you in this. I know that in my life, feeling vulnerable has sometimes led to me turning inwards, not outwards, and I commend your strength.
In your post, you mention being socially phobic due to your disability and how a loneliness looms overhead. Especially now that your daughter is grown, is getting married, and has moved away. That sounds incredibly difficult. I imagine that feels incredibly isolating. More than lonely - perhaps a bit hollow. You mention that you use to feel needed with regards to your daughter. So perhaps there is also a sense of lacking purpose or directionless? Being a father, I can imagine feeling just...lost outside of that purpose.
I don't want to overstep any boundaries and ask your disability or anything - and I think it may not be pertinent to know the exact thing you're struggling with. But isolation, no matter the cause, can be maddening. I firmly believe that humans are meant to be social. And if you're in physical (or emotional) pain with no way of distracting yourself or dissipating it, I imagine pain becomes this all encompassing storm over your head.
Regarding the sentence "I used to know I was needed by my daughter but now"
It'll sound cliche and maybe like you've heard it 1000 times. But your daughter being grown doesn't mean she doesn't need you. But I understand that you're not physically doing the care-taking anymore.
In that vein, I have to ask if there is anything your passionate about? Social work? Helping others? Is there anything that sets your soul on fire like art? Or writing?
My story is quite quite different than yours. But the long and short of it is that I spent nearly an entire decade spinning my tires, grinding away at my "career" because I was looking for a feeling. Through a lot of hard work and some therapy, I uncovered that I was looking for a reason - a driving force to "stay". A justification to live. In my case, it was through content and content creation. If I got enough clicks and likes and shares and subs and blah - maybe I would then feel...whole? Or feel like it was ok to exist. Feel like I'd done something for the world to justify the resources I took up. And also, perhaps I'd earn love.
The fallacy was that I don't need to earn love. Nobody does. People are born into this work and deserve to exist and live and thrive. No justification required. And that the thing that I thought was my sense of purpose, was actually the only way that I felt deserving or worth it.
To loop this back around, I think you deserve to exist without needing to earn it. Though purpose is really important for people, I don't think I could exist without having some project (I'm currently writing a book) creating a value exchange out of it made me feel worse.
I think you have so much to offer this world. So much that you can still do. But you deserve to exist, even without doing those things. Additionally, and again - cliche, have you considered therapy or professional help to perhaps unwind any narratives you may hold about yourself.
I am glad your alive and glad to be able to be here to support you. I hope that what I had to say made some semblance of sense or connected the way I intended.
We're here to support you. I hope you get feeling better my friend. You deserve it. Hold fast.
Huge hugs. Reading this early this morning meant a lot. I used to work with prisoners. I was a counselor but because of the need to restrain and at times intervene in fights I couldn't go back. I had seven surgeries in seven years and the pain is terrible. I know emotionally some of my hurt comes from being bullied.… I was spit on literally and told what a bad person I am. Its hard when I hear my daughter say I know you want to die… and its really not suicidal. Just a desire not to hurt anymore not physically or emotionally
JEELLLLYYYY ROLLLLLL Say less, love this man.
@Heartsupport I feel like he's taking words from my mouth
As of this August it will 22 years sober. But for the time I was drinking, I did not drink to feel something else. I just did not want to feel. At that time when sober all I felt was pain. I can relate so mush to this song
This song hits me heavy every time. Im an army vet. Only 33, but i suffer from PTSD, anxiety, and alcoholism. The part that hurts me most, "life has shattered my hopes and my dreams." Even when im doing great, i no longer have goals and dreams. Id rather just stay where im at than try and move forward professionally. I am working on my addiction though at least.
From djstarion: @zacharyricords8964 Hey friend,
First of all, thank you so incredibly much for your service.
I'm so happy that you're working on your addiction. That's such a huge step, and I've seen great friends battle thorough it and see much clearer afterwards. The rest will fall into place, but like a war there's many battles you fight along the way. It's all about having the best strategy.
Just remember: The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.
From Lisalovesfeathers: @zacharyricords8964 Hello Friend, thank you so much for commenting on this post, firstly may I also say Thank you for your service, it is fair to say you have probably already lived a full life worth of experiences at the young age of 33?
Life can indeed be incredibly challenging for almost everyone but for a person who sets out to join the forces, to take the position that offers to pick up a weapon and protect their country from enemies, from natural disaster, the adjustment of coming home, having to live with any injury and of course survivors guilt all can all be a cause of PTSD and any of those things are enough to make a person feel fearful and that life is full of so much negativity which in turn gives that feeling of your life shattered, destroyed all of a sudden and you didn’t see it coming.
I am proud of you for working on your addiction and I hope you are too, its huge and so very hard and its ok right now to not want to move on to other things, It's not uncommon to experience a loss of motivation and direction, especially after facing significant challenges or setbacks.
One thing I try my best to focus on when I lose motivation is to recognize and celebrate my achievements, no matter how small they may seem. This can help build momentum and confidence and you have some huge achievements worth celebrating.
I truly wish you well and have enormous faith in you. Lisa
From AliceBlue: @zacharyricords8964 Trauma can absolutely shatter the world around you and it’s like a waking nightmare sometimes. It creeps into the way we live and think and feel.
I think the very fact that you are pushing forward and working hard to own your addiction is such a worthwhile celebration.
It’s so easy to see the heaviness and the gravity of what we have to work through to start healing, and it’s certainly easy to think that the end is too far.
I just want to encourage you that the small steps and small victories are very much worthy of being proud of. It’s the “how do you eat an elephant?- one bite at a time” scenario. Take a moment to give yourself the deserved credit.
Know that you are worthy of the process
From dr_hogarth: @zacharyricords8964 Reading your post made me think of how easy it is sometimes to forget about appreciating our small struggles and triumphs just in every day life. Recognising your addiction and making the choice to work on it are two stages that many people don't reach. Working on an addiction is a goal in itself; your goal is towards a life where you can manage your addiction.
I can only really imagine what you've experienced in your life. Seeing so much, I can see why that may make recognising the day-to-day achievements of life difficult to appreciate. Those daily victories are some of the hardnest to win sometimes though. You deserve to recognise your progress, even if that progress seems small. x
Thanks I for the video I found a new favorite song first time I hear it and i love it
This song and Sam Tompkins song "See me" are basically what I want to scream at the world but can't find the words to express how I feel
Jellyroll says he writes music for the broken and lost. You should do “SHE” by jelly it hits me hard. As mental hearth therapist you can add lot to that song.
NAILED IT! ❤
Amigo The Devil, Another Man's Grave is a great song
Thank you.
I came up with lyrics like that to 'It's Hard to Be Humble' by Mac Davis a few years ago, based on stories told to me by addicts I was working with at the time. It really synced with them. I only remember the chorus and the first verse, though; sorry.
Oh, Lord, it's not hard to be humble
When you're screwed up in every way
And you can't stand to look in the mirror
'Cause you're getting more haggard each day
When you used to have folks who loved you
'Til they all went through Hell by your hand
Oh, Lord, it's not hard to be humble
When you've flushed your life right down the can
I used to have a good woman
Who did her best to stand beside me
But to save herself from all my abuses
She kicked me out on the street
I guess I could find me another
But out here, she'd be as broken as me
And as that would just be a new round of Hell
I guess I'm stuck being lonely
Oh, Lord, it's not hard to be humble
When you're screwed up in every way
And you can't stand to look in the mirror
'Cause you're getting more haggard each day
When you used to have folks who loved you
'Til they all went through Hell by your hand
Oh, Lord, it's not hard to be humble
When you've flushed your life right down the can
I love what you all do on this channel. Thought I'd make a suggestion for you. Song is hurt a long time by Jerry Cantrell. This song hits me hard. Disposable human
i relate to this so so much jelly roll is amazing i don't do much off this kind off music i love deathcore and metal but i love this guy ren and nf
God Bless you J! Your music and your story just reaches in and grabs ahold of my soul. God Bless your beautiful family y’all are such an inspiration to me, I have fostered and adopted 3 children at birth whom was born addicted to so many drugs and alcohol so I pray your story will be inspiring to them as well, they have come through so much and will have many other struggles especially my oldest he also has genetic issues. I already talk to them about life and talk to them about your and Bunny’s story and all you guys have overcome.! Thank you so much Keep up Gods work
The pain won't let me share but can I say it's kinda
Like being in a coma
Stuck on a hamster wheel
this one is slept on but you should listen to his song Same Asshole. Echoes is another beautifully tragic and deep song, but Same Asshole is amazingly deep.
Suggestion: Citizen Soldier - Would Anyone Care
ODAAT, (One Day At a time) one hour at a time, one moment at a time...🙏