Sorry to hear about your Dad, Elle. Cancer sucks! My dad died May 4th. I wasn't allowed to go visit him. Then the funeral home kept him for over 2 weeks. It was horrible. Seems we have a common heartache right now. My dad passed just a couple of minutes after I talked to him on the phone.I was lucky to have it and will cherish that call. My Dads voice sounded slow and tired but he was still happy and chatting about strawberries...then he was gone..My Mom died of cancer in 99 I was cradling her head...tough to watch something you love so much slip away ...sending you a Big hug. :) I know how tough this is. Oh yea, Father's day....double hug.
I am so sorry for your loss sweetie, sending lots of love and hugs. I lost my dad to cancer too and I totally understand how hard it is to just carry on, but life does get easier
So sorry to hear about your father's passing, I send you my condolences. This pandemic has been an awful experience, especially for those experiencing loss, my grandpa has been in and out of hospital and my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me yesterday. Nobody I know has passed but I send you hugs and hope you heal from your grieving xxx
Oh Elle. This is a lot. Take your time to grief. Take your time to go to those dark places. It’s not fun, but those dark places will become less and less as you face them. Yes you have many who care about you even though we have never met you. But we still understand stand the pain. Take care of yourself. Losing a loved one is not easy. And don’t let anyone expect anything from you unless you are ready. You will always find support. Some days will be more difficult. And on those days reach out. Let others know how you are feeling as long as you are comfortable with it.
I am deeply sorry. I lost my mother unexpectedly at the end of March, just as quarantine and self isolation were taking place. It has been the hardest time in my life and it doesn't help that I barely had a chance to say goodbye and had to grieve in isolation, without family close by for fear of getting them sick. You couldn't have funerals or memorials to remember your loved one with those who knew them. It is just all truly truly awful. I hope you can do what you can to take care of yourself. I'm sending you so much love and good thoughts. 💗
I lost my dad 11 years ago to a heart attack in the middle of the night. I was 19, he was only 55. I miss him so much. I’m sending you a bunch of love. In my experience, you will receive little signs of him saying hello in dreams, or maybe hearing a random song on the radio that will make you feel comforted. He is with you always, I truly believe that. Again, my deepest condolences. I know what you’re going through, you are not alone and you and your family are in my heart right now 💜
I am absolutely sorry for your loss. My I just loss my dad in Nov, Black Friday actually. My dad found his cancer Oct 2015, had surgery and was in remission until they found it again, Oct 2019 , exactly 4 yrs later, but it was too late. He passed at home 8 weeks later on hospice. It was the most stressful and devastating thing I’ve been through. It’s changed me forever. It’s been almost 7 months, and I still don’t feel like I’m close to being me. For me, it hasn’t gotten much easier, I think about him all day, it’s still hurts, I still cry, but I’m learning how to keep going. Be patient with yourself, give yourself time to grieve. And while I know it’s incredibly hard, try not to feel guilty for doing things for yourself or when you laugh again for the first time. My dad wanted me to keep going and be happy and I know your wonderful dad would want the same for you. Hang in there, Sending you lots of hugs💕
I m so sorry for your loss... I knew something was wrong... Take your time, do what you feel, write everything now if you want, because for me I forgot a lot of details for my dad... Since the loss of my father, I m doing all he learned to me, but something in me is broken inside, and I don't speak about him, it s too hard, just remember good things for my daughter, but the deep inside my heart is private... Rest, cry, scream in the woods, sleep, hug your mother.. I m so sorry for you... Your Sophie from Paris France
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my dad very unexpectedly in May too and hadn’t seen him in months because of the pandemic since I lived on the opposite side of America. I know it was going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever been through, but the pandemic and the logistics of having something resembling a funeral made it far worse than I could’ve ever imagined.
My deepest condolences for the loss of your father. The loss of a parent is a seismic event, no matter how old you are. I’m glad you’re surrounded by people that love you. Celebrate his life for as long and as often as you need to. This first year without him will be hard. I promise it does even out.
Aw Elle 😥 sending my love to you. I know how hard this is 💔 my dad had a cardiac arrest 1.5 years ago and he survived but has a hypoxic brain damage and is in a rest home full time and is a completely different person now. Sending you a virtual hug
Writing this as I'm still watching your video and I understand about wanting to talk to your dad. I'm the same, with my dad's brain injury he just doesn't understand what's going on and gets frustrated as he will forget everything within 1-5 minutes 😢
So, so so sorry about the loss of your Father. I cried with you....the pain comes in weird waves and you're never the same but if it's any consolation, he's with you always in your heart and mind. I talk to mine aloud frequently, it's been many years for me...he was my world and I still miss him every day. Do whatever makes you happy or calms you! We'll be here for whatever you want to film!
I'm so sorry. I've lost both of my parents--my dad first (a complete shock, from a heart attack on the day he retired), then my mom not quite two years later THEN my stepdad a few months later. Through all that grief and loss, I was fortunate to have my extended family and dear friends to support me. I feel for you going through this when you can't have people physically with you. Sending you prayers for comfort and healing.
So sorry to hear about your dad, I lost my dad almost 9 yrs ago. My heart goes out to you and your family, it's a very difficult thing and please take your time. Talk about it as much or little as you want.
I’m tearing up for you and my heart goes out to you and your family. I’m SO GLAD you were able to be with him - you and your mom. I lost my dad almost 7 yrs ago to cancer and the hospice nurse called my brother and couldn’t get a hold of him and no one called me...he died with the hospice nurse, no family and this hurts me to this day. I don’t know if you celebrate Father’s Day in Canada but HFD to him. It will always hurt and little things you think of will have you bawling. Make sure to take his birthday and death day off from work (I find myself thinking I’ll be fine and a cloud comes over me on my dad’s bday, which was just this past Tuesday the 16th). I lost my mother in 2019 but we were all with her and surrounding her - it calms me to know we were all there - kids, grandkids, friends and her pastor. Hugs hugs and more hugs Hun... you are not alone💖💜
I am so sorry for your loss, Elle. Just know that I think you are a wonderful woman, and I admire the way you are able to share your feelings. I wish I could do anything to help you, but I a have no doubt that you will find a way to go on, because you are so wonderful.
I’m so sorry Elle. Losing my mom to cancer in my 20s was the worst thing that ever happened to me, I can’t imagine how much harder it would have been if it was happening right now.
I am so sorry to hear this. I was just thinking of you the other day, remembering your father and his illness, and I was hoping everything was okay. You certainly don’t owe us an explanation for your absence, but thank you for sharing your experiences with us and helping us understand what you have been going through. My prayers and condolences are with you❤️
My sincere condolences. I lost my mom last April so I perfectly understand you. I am bad at words but my heart is with you and your family. Tons of love your way.
I’m so sorry for your loss Elle. I lost my dad 3 years ago, and I miss him as much today as I did at the time. I often think thoughts to him, and hope he is watching over me and listening. Tomorrow is my 4th Father’s Day without and it’ was his birthday this month too. Please stay well, stay safe and talk to us when you need and want to. ❤️
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how it feels to want to call someone and have them be there and not be able to. For me it was the most excruciating thing about losing my best friend. It's been 2 years and I still reach for my phone daily to text him only to realize I can't. Just sending so much love, my heart grieves with you
Please accept my sincere condolences. I am sending healing thoughts for you and for your dad’s transition. I lost my parents within 6 weeks of each other in 2019 so I sympathize with your loss. It’s very disorienting and deep. You are right it’s life’s hardest thing to handle unfortunately but you will find the strength you need. You are a wonderful daughter and I can see why he was so proud of you. ☘️🙏😇🌹✝️ ❤️💔
Elle I am so sorry for your loss again. I know from your posts your dad meant so much to you and know that he is still watching over you. You were definitely very important to him and that he was always very proud of you.
My sincerest sympathies, I hope you can find strength to continue through this tough time. Losing a parent isnt easy and I cant imagine going through that in these crazy times. Stay strong, stay safe, stay healthy
I havent watched your channel but I found this video on recomendations. Im very sorry your loss. I cried with you watching the video. We live in strange times and you have gone a lot. I wish you the best.
I lost my father a while back and I feel your pain. I wish you the best ♡ my love and prayers go out to you and your family. I'll be thinking of you. Sending all the love I possibly can during this difficult time. Xoxoxo
I'm so so sorry for your loss! My grandfather passed away at the end of April, my family live in about country and couldn't visit at the end due to restrictions, it's been awful to feel like I got no closure, and I know it's been especially hard for my mum not getting to see her dad one last time I'm glad you got to see him at the end, and I hope that the memories will start to ache a little less ❤️
It was just yesterday I was wondering where you had been. I’ve missed your videos. This is heartbreaking. I’m so sorry about your dad. I wish I could take the pain for you. Take all the time you need, we are here for you, and we love you. ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss, mine passed away last year, 11 days before my bday, I think about him every day and the great moments we shared, keep the good moments alive in your heart.
I'm sorry for the loss of your father, I couldn't imagine all that you and family members have been through during this time in our world . Sending peaceful thoughts to you .
Love you so much, Elle. I'm sorry doesn't even cover it. You don't deserve this. I know how special he was to you & I loved your stories about him & how much he supported you & your channel. Going through this in a pandemic sounds unbearable. I wish I could make it better. We're here for you ❤️
I'm so sorry Elle!! It was hard loosing my mom a year & a half ago under normal/typical circumstances. My heart goes out to you & you're in my thoughts! Hang in there!
Elle 🦄, I admire how strong you are! Please be sure that your dad is in a so much better place now, feeling no more pain and breathing in and out deeply, and smiling the whole day because he ist so proud of his beautiful daughter 💜 You have been through so much already, and yes, the pain you are feeling now is incomparable. But this too will become easier, and as always you will learn and heal and grow. I feel with you 😘
My God Elle, I’m so sorry. 💔😞. This is my biggest fear. My parents are in their 70’s and live across the county from me. I’m just so sorry. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
So sorry for your loss. I hope you can spend Father’s Day remembering the good. I lost my dad a few years ago and I know how hard it is. I feel for you and I hope you can find some source of comfort during this time. I know it feels so weird to just go on with life without them so just take your time
Oh Elle, this is heartbreaking, I'm so sorry for everything... The stories you hear these days about covid making such heartbreaking situationa even worse are unbelievable. Try to focus on the positive things in your life and have in mind that the 1st year is the absolute worse. It becomes better in the 2nd year and slowly the daily pain fades away and small moments remain to remind you of your loss. Take your time if you need it, or make any videos you want and can and if it makes you feel better, we'll take either. Sending a virtual hug from accross the world, sweetie!
I’m so sorry for your loss that’s horrific especially during this awful pandemic. I know many people who couldn’t even be with their family members in their last hours even, during this pandemic, so heartbreaking. Such a horrible way to lose your loved one, it’s hard enough as it is. What really makes me mad is my knowledge having family members working in a hospital and finding out it was happening in many hospitals & nursing homes in the US that they were being very negligent in them and putting covid patients on the same floors and amongst cancer patients and elderly...while their own family members couldn’t even visit cause the hospital was worried they’d bring it in all the while they really had covid patients already around others with weakened immune systems.
Sending you all the love and positivity your heart can hold Elle 💜 I'm sure your dad will love to watch you continue to flourish because I know he's still by your side always just in a different way. I know my loved ones that have passed find special and usually funny ways of speaking to me and that always warms my heart. I hope those moments find you as well 💗💗💗
I am so sorry for your loss Elle. I wish there was more I could say as my words seem insufficent at best. I am sending lots of Love to you and your family.
Wow. Im so sorry you had to go through this especially right now. I cant imagine how hard this has been. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I understand the feeling of how you feel death should be more. Its so scary how it happens and you just expect more
That's such a hard thing to go through. Massive condolences to you and your family. What an awful time to be grieving I never even considered that part. You will pull through though. You will.
The biggest possible hug to you. I know your pain. Lost my dad to cancer the same weekend I turned 26 and 8 months pregnant. Nearly 30 years ago. I can tell you it will get less raw. But it never goes away. It is so unfair. The pandemic restrictions rub salt I am sure. I am so sorry for your loss and for the loss you will feel going forward. Much love to you.
Elle. Your video resonates so much with me. I lost my mom a few years ago , right before Mother’s Day. Now i hate Mother’s Day , and Mother’s Day commercials. Weird for my family as I have 2 kids. I experienced the same with not realizing she was that sick. She was also in and out of hospital for a few years and always made it, I think it desensitized me. And it makes me angry that we never get a warning. I feel like the nurses and doctors know it’s close to the end but they lie right to our face with not knowing. About 2 days before my mom died, I went to the nurses station and begged them to tell me the truth. About my mom. It was so silent as they awkwardly looked at each other. No one did give me any insight. She died within 18 hours. If I had known that visit would have been the end I would have stayed at her bedside. I can’t imagine dealing with Covid restrictions on top of all that 😢 I’m so sorry, Elle.
I am so sorry for your loss. My mother died of cancer in the "normal" times, I cant imagine how surreal it felt in the times of pandemic. Please take care of yourself and surround yourself with people who are good to you and understanding, even if its over a phone call or text message. I'm not going to lie, the pain will be there for a long while, but eventually going on with your life and living normally is possible. Sending love.
My heart goes out to you, Elle. Grief is terribly difficult to go through and being on UA-cam does not mean you have to put on a poker face and pretend things are fine. Thank you for sharing and allowing us to be with you. 💗
Hey Elle. Thanks for being so strong during this. This year has been so cruel and unfair. I'm sorry for all you've been through. I wish you all the strength during your healing process ♥️
it’s so crazy that you uploaded tonight because I literally thought of you this afternoon wondering how you were. I’m so very sorry for your loss. I’m thinking of you & your family xoxo
I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost my father without much warning and I know losing a parent is so heartbreaking. Especially when we are young enough that we expect them to be around for many more years. Again I'm so sorry. Take all the time you need to grieve.
I’m so, so sorry dear. It is one of the hardest things to lose your father. I can just imagine how hard it is to not be with those you love at a time like this, and my heart goes out to you. My mom, and grandma and I were the only ones in my dad’s hospice room when he passed away, and I just am sending so much love to you. When he’s with you, hug your baby tight, that was one thing that started to help me heal from losing my dad even though the hurt never goes away. Take care of yourself today❤️❤️❤️
My poor girl, you deserve the most massive hug. Every emotion you’re experiencing right now is normal. The next while will be a rollercoaster for you. Please look after yourself and be around people that love you and will support you. I’ll be thinking of you, genuinely I will. Much love ❤️❤️❤️
In times like these I struggle to find appropriate words to say to comfort, to encourage, and to give hope. I’m so sorry you’ve had to endure losing your father on top of everything else that’s going on in our world. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I lost my dad suddenly at about your same age (in 2003) and then my mom 5 years later to lung cancer. With my dad, no one saw it coming so I didn’t see him or talk to him. Anyway, it’s been over 15 years and I’m still grieving the loss of my dad. I have a voicemail of him singing happy birthday to me and it’s a prize possession. Just return to life and learn a new normal because you won’t ever get past this loss and that’s ok.
I lost my Dad suddenly 2 years ago. All my family is in NS in the valley area. We are out west with no family here. I know how your feeling and I'm so sorry. It's going to be hard and all I can say is cry when u need to, talk about your dad as I do keeping his memory alive. Hugs to you during this insane and difficult time
The other day, I was thinking about you not having upload in a while and I just thought " It's her father". I wished I had been wrong. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how devastating this must be for you. Take all time you need. Whether you decide to come back and how you decide to come back it will be fine. All my love to you and your family.
Elle, I'm so sorry for your loss. My father passed in December 2018 from cancer. I can't imagine having gone through that during this pandemic. I'm sending you all good thoughts and wishes.
Hi Elle, I was thinking about you the other day and how it had been a while since you uploaded last. My deepest sympathy to you and your family; life is dark right now, but brighter days are coming. Much love from Winnipeg.
I’m so sorry for loss Elle. I was crying right along with you when I watched this. I lost my dad when I was 19 and it fucking sucks. Sending you positive vibes to hopefully give you some extra strength to get through this difficult event.
Elle I am so sorry for the loss of your father. My son passed away on May 3, 2016. I understand what i mean about how they’re there and then they’re not. My son waited until we were in a meaningless conversation he took a deep breath and he was gone. My son died the Tuesday before Mother’s Day and today is Father’s Day and I think about my grandson, the mother doesn’t let me see him, and how he will never spend a Father’s Day with my son that he will be able to remember. I’m so grateful they did get one together and it was a good day despite his others attempt to ruin it. The brain does so many strange things when u are grieving. I am a reader so I looked to books to help me navigate grieving my son. I wasn’t able to read for very long at a time and I had to re-read quite a bit but eventually I was able to process the information. After about 6 months of reading only books on grieving I was finally able to put them down and return to my favorite authors. My son loved to be read to. He was an auditory learner and at the height of his ADHD it was the only way he could learn. The book I was reading to him before he passed is still in the car. My heart breaks for you and your family especially with the added circumstance of the pandemic. Much love and light and I believe our loved ones know we are there whether they can show it or not. I have to. Happy Father’s Day to your dad and my son who will always be with us in spirit.
I am so sorry for your loss. I had to race home from work to see my mom. I was the one with her when she died. It’s as if she waited for me (she was unconscious). I bet he knew on some level you were there and waited for you. ❤️
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Losing a parent is so hard because they've always been there. Just take it minute to minute and let yourself feel what you feel. I hope you find some comfort in your memories of your dad. Hugs from Michigan.
I understand and sympathize completely. I lost my father June 3 . He contracted covid-19 in his nursing home (where they had been on lockdown since early March) . The last time I saw him was late Feburary. After 11 days in the hospital, complications of the infection caused my Dad to go into cardiac arrest. Suddenly, he passed after being told that he was doing well. We couldn't even have a funeral , but we will as soon as possible. Take care of yourself. xoxo
I'm so very sorry for your loss. You've been through what is most people's worst nightmare and only made harder by the pandemic. The beautiful soul of a daughter your father raised is his legacy and he must have been so proud of you. My deepest condolences, and my thoughts are with you and your family, especially today. Take care of yourself and each other ❤
hey Elle I'm glad you are back! I can't watch this video right now I lost my husband 3 weeks ago and it's to new. Know I'm thinking of you right now and sending so much love
I am so sorry Elle. Losing a loved one is difficult enough, but is compounded by what is happenings in the world. I’ll be praying for you. Virtual hugs sent.
This was really hard just to listen to, and I can't imagine actually experiencing it. I am so sorry for your loss and the circumstances it happened in. I have a relative with heart failure right now and I just wish we could go comfort them and their partner during this time. I'm sending you love. ❤❤❤❤❤
I haven't been able to watch this until now because I lost my father last year and just didn't know if I could get through it. You have my deepest sympathy; the pandemic complicates the grieving process so terribly.
My condolences on losing your Dad. This could not have been easy. I’m so sorry for your loss. Father’s Day is hard. You get through the grief but it comes in waves. Over time, it feels less like a tsunami. When you are ready, the channel will be here. You are allowed to have fun. Sending zen hugs.
“Oh Daddy If I could make you see If there's been a fool around It's got to be me Yes, it's got to me Why are you right when I'm so wrong I'm so weak but you're so strong Everything you do is just alright And I can't walk away from you Baby, if I tried” I know you know where this is from. ❤️❤️❤️ he’s still with you! It’s just in a different way now. I’m so happy you had such a good connection with your father.
I'm so sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I lost my father a few years ago and think of him everyday, I felt so very lost for a long time, and still do especially on Father's Day.
Elle, my heart is so broken for you. I can't imagine what you're going through right now. I can't stop crying and I wish I could hug you tight. My prayers and love go to you and your family 💕
Elle, how wonderful to hear about your father. You are so generous to have shared your deep grief with us and to be so vulnerable. I am so so sorry. I wish you many bright spots along the crazy, heavy trudge of loss - I loved hearing about him and how proud he was of you. Yeah, apologies to both you and your father for this US President. I look forward to hearing more stories about him; he sounded like such a proud dad and he must have loved you very much!! 💘💘 How could he not?! 😊
Sorry to hear about your Dad, Elle. Cancer sucks! My dad died May 4th. I wasn't allowed to go visit him. Then the funeral home kept him for over 2 weeks. It was horrible. Seems we have a common heartache right now. My dad passed just a couple of minutes after I talked to him on the phone.I was lucky to have it and will cherish that call. My Dads voice sounded slow and tired but he was still happy and chatting about strawberries...then he was gone..My Mom died of cancer in 99 I was cradling her head...tough to watch something you love so much slip away ...sending you a Big hug. :) I know how tough this is. Oh yea, Father's day....double hug.
I am so sorry for your loss sweetie, sending lots of love and hugs. I lost my dad to cancer too and I totally understand how hard it is to just carry on, but life does get easier
This was a whole lot! Accept my sincerest sympathies along with the most heartfelt of virtual hugs, and may his name be for a blessing.
So sorry to hear about your father's passing, I send you my condolences. This pandemic has been an awful experience, especially for those experiencing loss, my grandpa has been in and out of hospital and my boyfriend of 3 years broke up with me yesterday. Nobody I know has passed but I send you hugs and hope you heal from your grieving xxx
My heart goes out to you and your family! I lost my father when I was 23 and my mother when I was 26. Thinking of you during this difficult time.
Oh Elle. This is a lot. Take your time to grief. Take your time to go to those dark places. It’s not fun, but those dark places will become less and less as you face them. Yes you have many who care about you even though we have never met you. But we still understand stand the pain. Take care of yourself. Losing a loved one is not easy. And don’t let anyone expect anything from you unless you are ready. You will always find support. Some days will be more difficult. And on those days reach out. Let others know how you are feeling as long as you are comfortable with it.
I am deeply sorry. I lost my mother unexpectedly at the end of March, just as quarantine and self isolation were taking place. It has been the hardest time in my life and it doesn't help that I barely had a chance to say goodbye and had to grieve in isolation, without family close by for fear of getting them sick. You couldn't have funerals or memorials to remember your loved one with those who knew them. It is just all truly truly awful. I hope you can do what you can to take care of yourself. I'm sending you so much love and good thoughts. 💗
I lost my dad 11 years ago to a heart attack in the middle of the night. I was 19, he was only 55. I miss him so much. I’m sending you a bunch of love. In my experience, you will receive little signs of him saying hello in dreams, or maybe hearing a random song on the radio that will make you feel comforted. He is with you always, I truly believe that. Again, my deepest condolences. I know what you’re going through, you are not alone and you and your family are in my heart right now 💜
I am absolutely sorry for your loss. My I just loss my dad in Nov, Black Friday actually. My dad found his cancer Oct 2015, had surgery and was in remission until they found it again, Oct 2019 , exactly 4 yrs later, but it was too late. He passed at home 8 weeks later on hospice. It was the most stressful and devastating thing I’ve been through. It’s changed me forever. It’s been almost 7 months, and I still don’t feel like I’m close to being me. For me, it hasn’t gotten much easier, I think about him all day, it’s still hurts, I still cry, but I’m learning how to keep going. Be patient with yourself, give yourself time to grieve. And while I know it’s incredibly hard, try not to feel guilty for doing things for yourself or when you laugh again for the first time. My dad wanted me to keep going and be happy and I know your wonderful dad would want the same for you. Hang in there, Sending you lots of hugs💕
I am so sorry for your loss. Peace be with you and your family.
I m so sorry for your loss... I knew something was wrong... Take your time, do what you feel, write everything now if you want, because for me I forgot a lot of details for my dad... Since the loss of my father, I m doing all he learned to me, but something in me is broken inside, and I don't speak about him, it s too hard, just remember good things for my daughter, but the deep inside my heart is private... Rest, cry, scream in the woods, sleep, hug your mother..
I m so sorry for you... Your Sophie from Paris France
I’m sorry for your loss. I lost my dad very unexpectedly in May too and hadn’t seen him in months because of the pandemic since I lived on the opposite side of America. I know it was going to be the hardest thing I’ve ever been through, but the pandemic and the logistics of having something resembling a funeral made it far worse than I could’ve ever imagined.
My deepest condolences for the loss of your father. The loss of a parent is a seismic event, no matter how old you are. I’m glad you’re surrounded by people that love you. Celebrate his life for as long and as often as you need to. This first year without him will be hard. I promise it does even out.
Aw Elle 😥 sending my love to you. I know how hard this is 💔 my dad had a cardiac arrest 1.5 years ago and he survived but has a hypoxic brain damage and is in a rest home full time and is a completely different person now. Sending you a virtual hug
Writing this as I'm still watching your video and I understand about wanting to talk to your dad. I'm the same, with my dad's brain injury he just doesn't understand what's going on and gets frustrated as he will forget everything within 1-5 minutes 😢
So, so so sorry about the loss of your Father. I cried with you....the pain comes in weird waves and you're never the same but if it's any consolation, he's with you always in your heart and mind. I talk to mine aloud frequently, it's been many years for me...he was my world and I still miss him every day. Do whatever makes you happy or calms you! We'll be here for whatever you want to film!
I'm so sorry. I've lost both of my parents--my dad first (a complete shock, from a heart attack on the day he retired), then my mom not quite two years later THEN my stepdad a few months later. Through all that grief and loss, I was fortunate to have my extended family and dear friends to support me. I feel for you going through this when you can't have people physically with you. Sending you prayers for comfort and healing.
I’m so so sorry Elle. 💜there really aren’t words. It sounds so surreal. Thank you for sharing you story.
So sorry to hear about your dad, I lost my dad almost 9 yrs ago. My heart goes out to you and your family, it's a very difficult thing and please take your time. Talk about it as much or little as you want.
I’m tearing up for you and my heart goes out to you and your family. I’m SO GLAD you were able to be with him - you and your mom. I lost my dad almost 7 yrs ago to cancer and the hospice nurse called my brother and couldn’t get a hold of him and no one called me...he died with the hospice nurse, no family and this hurts me to this day. I don’t know if you celebrate Father’s Day in Canada but HFD to him. It will always hurt and little things you think of will have you bawling. Make sure to take his birthday and death day off from work (I find myself thinking I’ll be fine and a cloud comes over me on my dad’s bday, which was just this past Tuesday the 16th). I lost my mother in 2019 but we were all with her and surrounding her - it calms me to know we were all there - kids, grandkids, friends and her pastor. Hugs hugs and more hugs Hun... you are not alone💖💜
I am so sorry for your loss, Elle. Just know that I think you are a wonderful woman, and I admire the way you are able to share your feelings. I wish I could do anything to help you, but I a have no doubt that you will find a way to go on, because you are so wonderful.
I’m so sorry Elle. Losing my mom to cancer in my 20s was the worst thing that ever happened to me, I can’t imagine how much harder it would have been if it was happening right now.
I am so sorry to hear this. I was just thinking of you the other day, remembering your father and his illness, and I was hoping everything was okay. You certainly don’t owe us an explanation for your absence, but thank you for sharing your experiences with us and helping us understand what you have been going through. My prayers and condolences are with you❤️
My sincere condolences. I lost my mom last April so I perfectly understand you. I am bad at words but my heart is with you and your family. Tons of love your way.
I’m so sorry for your loss Elle. I lost my dad 3 years ago, and I miss him as much today as I did at the time. I often think thoughts to him, and hope he is watching over me and listening. Tomorrow is my 4th Father’s Day without and it’ was his birthday this month too. Please stay well, stay safe and talk to us when you need and want to. ❤️
So sorry love. Silent viewer here but my heart hurts for you. Know your family is in my thoughts. Love you. ❤
I am so sorry for your loss. I know how it feels to want to call someone and have them be there and not be able to. For me it was the most excruciating thing about losing my best friend. It's been 2 years and I still reach for my phone daily to text him only to realize I can't. Just sending so much love, my heart grieves with you
Please accept my sincere condolences. I am sending healing thoughts for you and for your dad’s transition.
I lost my parents within 6 weeks of each other in 2019 so I sympathize with your loss. It’s very disorienting and deep. You are right it’s life’s hardest thing to handle unfortunately but you will find the strength you need. You are a wonderful daughter and I can see why he was so proud of you. ☘️🙏😇🌹✝️ ❤️💔
Elle I am so sorry for your loss again. I know from your posts your dad meant so much to you and know that he is still watching over you. You were definitely very important to him and that he was always very proud of you.
My sincerest sympathies, I hope you can find strength to continue through this tough time. Losing a parent isnt easy and I cant imagine going through that in these crazy times. Stay strong, stay safe, stay healthy
My deepest sympathy. I am so sorry for your loss.
I havent watched your channel but I found this video on recomendations. Im very sorry your loss. I cried with you watching the video. We live in strange times and you have gone a lot. I wish you the best.
I lost my father a while back and I feel your pain. I wish you the best ♡ my love and prayers go out to you and your family. I'll be thinking of you. Sending all the love I possibly can during this difficult time. Xoxoxo
I'm so so sorry for your loss!
My grandfather passed away at the end of April, my family live in about country and couldn't visit at the end due to restrictions, it's been awful to feel like I got no closure, and I know it's been especially hard for my mum not getting to see her dad one last time
I'm glad you got to see him at the end, and I hope that the memories will start to ache a little less ❤️
Elle I am so so sorry for your loss!
It was just yesterday I was wondering where you had been. I’ve missed your videos.
This is heartbreaking. I’m so sorry about your dad. I wish I could take the pain for you.
Take all the time you need, we are here for you, and we love you. ❤️
I'm so sorry for your loss, mine passed away last year, 11 days before my bday, I think about him every day and the great moments we shared, keep the good moments alive in your heart.
So sad for your loss. I hope strength and lightness find its way to you with each day that comes.
I'm sorry for the loss of your father, I couldn't imagine all that you and family members have been through during this time in our world .
Sending peaceful thoughts to you .
I'm so sorry you've lost your father. My deepest condolences to you and your family.
Love you so much, Elle. I'm sorry doesn't even cover it. You don't deserve this. I know how special he was to you & I loved your stories about him & how much he supported you & your channel. Going through this in a pandemic sounds unbearable. I wish I could make it better. We're here for you ❤️
I was just thinking about you today and wondering where you have been. I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry Elle!! It was hard loosing my mom a year & a half ago under normal/typical circumstances. My heart goes out to you & you're in my thoughts! Hang in there!
Elle 🦄, I admire how strong you are! Please be sure that your dad is in a so much better place now, feeling no more pain and breathing in and out deeply, and smiling the whole day because he ist so proud of his beautiful daughter 💜
You have been through so much already, and yes, the pain you are feeling now is incomparable. But this too will become easier, and as always you will learn and heal and grow. I feel with you 😘
My God Elle, I’m so sorry. 💔😞. This is my biggest fear. My parents are in their 70’s and live across the county from me. I’m just so sorry. You’ll be in my thoughts and prayers.
So sorry for your loss. I hope you can spend Father’s Day remembering the good. I lost my dad a few years ago and I know how hard it is. I feel for you and I hope you can find some source of comfort during this time. I know it feels so weird to just go on with life without them so just take your time
Oh Elle, this is heartbreaking, I'm so sorry for everything... The stories you hear these days about covid making such heartbreaking situationa even worse are unbelievable. Try to focus on the positive things in your life and have in mind that the 1st year is the absolute worse. It becomes better in the 2nd year and slowly the daily pain fades away and small moments remain to remind you of your loss. Take your time if you need it, or make any videos you want and can and if it makes you feel better, we'll take either. Sending a virtual hug from accross the world, sweetie!
I’m so sorry for your loss that’s horrific especially during this awful pandemic. I know many people who couldn’t even be with their family members in their last hours even, during this pandemic, so heartbreaking. Such a horrible way to lose your loved one, it’s hard enough as it is.
What really makes me mad is my knowledge having family members working in a hospital and finding out it was happening in many hospitals & nursing homes in the US that they were being very negligent in them and putting covid patients on the same floors and amongst cancer patients and elderly...while their own family members couldn’t even visit cause the hospital was worried they’d bring it in all the while they really had covid patients already around others with weakened immune systems.
Sending you all the love and positivity your heart can hold Elle 💜 I'm sure your dad will love to watch you continue to flourish because I know he's still by your side always just in a different way. I know my loved ones that have passed find special and usually funny ways of speaking to me and that always warms my heart. I hope those moments find you as well 💗💗💗
I'm so sorry for your lost Elle. 💔 I'm praying for you and your family.
My darling girl ❤️ 😍 I'm proud of you xxx we love you xxx
I’m crying as I write this, sending you a big hug from Hawaii, so , so sorry for the loss of your father .
I am so sorry for your loss Elle. I wish there was more I could say as my words seem insufficent at best. I am sending lots of Love to you and your family.
Wow. Im so sorry you had to go through this especially right now. I cant imagine how hard this has been. I will keep you and your family in my prayers. I understand the feeling of how you feel death should be more. Its so scary how it happens and you just expect more
That's such a hard thing to go through. Massive condolences to you and your family. What an awful time to be grieving I never even considered that part. You will pull through though. You will.
The biggest possible hug to you. I know your pain. Lost my dad to cancer the same weekend I turned 26 and 8 months pregnant. Nearly 30 years ago. I can tell you it will get less raw. But it never goes away. It is so unfair. The pandemic restrictions rub salt I am sure. I am so sorry for your loss and for the loss you will feel going forward. Much love to you.
I am so sorry for your loss. Sending prayers to you and your family.
Elle.
Your video resonates so much with me. I lost my mom a few years ago , right before Mother’s Day. Now i hate Mother’s Day , and Mother’s Day commercials. Weird for my family as I have 2 kids.
I experienced the same with not realizing she was that sick. She was also in and out of hospital for a few years and always made it, I think it desensitized me. And it makes me angry that we never get a warning. I feel like the nurses and doctors know it’s close to the end but they lie right to our face with not knowing. About 2 days before my mom died, I went to the nurses station and begged them to tell me the truth. About my mom. It was so silent as they awkwardly looked at each other. No one did give me any insight. She died within 18 hours. If I had known that visit would have been the end I would have stayed at her bedside.
I can’t imagine dealing with Covid restrictions on top of all that 😢
I’m so sorry, Elle.
I am so sorry for your loss. My mother died of cancer in the "normal" times, I cant imagine how surreal it felt in the times of pandemic. Please take care of yourself and surround yourself with people who are good to you and understanding, even if its over a phone call or text message. I'm not going to lie, the pain will be there for a long while, but eventually going on with your life and living normally is possible. Sending love.
My heart goes out to you, Elle. Grief is terribly difficult to go through and being on UA-cam does not mean you have to put on a poker face and pretend things are fine. Thank you for sharing and allowing us to be with you. 💗
Hey Elle. Thanks for being so strong during this. This year has been so cruel and unfair. I'm sorry for all you've been through. I wish you all the strength during your healing process ♥️
it’s so crazy that you uploaded tonight because I literally thought of you this afternoon wondering how you were. I’m so very sorry for your loss. I’m thinking of you & your family xoxo
I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost my father without much warning and I know losing a parent is so heartbreaking. Especially when we are young enough that we expect them to be around for many more years. Again I'm so sorry. Take all the time you need to grieve.
I'm so sorry for your loss Elle. I send my condolences to you and your family.
I’m so, so sorry dear. It is one of the hardest things to lose your father. I can just imagine how hard it is to not be with those you love at a time like this, and my heart goes out to you. My mom, and grandma and I were the only ones in my dad’s hospice room when he passed away, and I just am sending so much love to you. When he’s with you, hug your baby tight, that was one thing that started to help me heal from losing my dad even though the hurt never goes away. Take care of yourself today❤️❤️❤️
I am so sorry...sending you big hug over the miles 💜
Offering you and your family my condolences. 💗🌈💗
My poor girl, you deserve the most massive hug. Every emotion you’re experiencing right now is normal. The next while will be a rollercoaster for you. Please look after yourself and be around people that love you and will support you. I’ll be thinking of you, genuinely I will. Much love ❤️❤️❤️
In times like these I struggle to find appropriate words to say to comfort, to encourage, and to give hope. I’m so sorry you’ve had to endure losing your father on top of everything else that’s going on in our world. My thoughts are with you and your family.
I lost my dad suddenly at about your same age (in 2003) and then my mom 5 years later to lung cancer. With my dad, no one saw it coming so I didn’t see him or talk to him. Anyway, it’s been over 15 years and I’m still grieving the loss of my dad. I have a voicemail of him singing happy birthday to me and it’s a prize possession. Just return to life and learn a new normal because you won’t ever get past this loss and that’s ok.
I am so sorry, this has been troubling times, but your lost was so deep and sad. I am so sorry, sending much love
I’m so sorry Elle. I can’t imagine how you’re feeling and what it was like to go through that. Thinking about you and your family. ❤️
I lost my Dad suddenly 2 years ago. All my family is in NS in the valley area. We are out west with no family here. I know how your feeling and I'm so sorry. It's going to be hard and all I can say is cry when u need to, talk about your dad as I do keeping his memory alive. Hugs to you during this insane and difficult time
The other day, I was thinking about you not having upload in a while and I just thought " It's her father". I wished I had been wrong. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how devastating this must be for you. Take all time you need. Whether you decide to come back and how you decide to come back it will be fine. All my love to you and your family.
One of those moments where you just want to offer a giant hug. My deepest condolences: I can't even imagine. Thank you for sharing.
Elle, I'm so sorry for your loss. My father passed in December 2018 from cancer. I can't imagine having gone through that during this pandemic. I'm sending you all good thoughts and wishes.
Hi Elle, I was thinking about you the other day and how it had been a while since you uploaded last. My deepest sympathy to you and your family; life is dark right now, but brighter days are coming. Much love from Winnipeg.
I’m so sorry for loss Elle. I was crying right along with you when I watched this. I lost my dad when I was 19 and it fucking sucks. Sending you positive vibes to hopefully give you some extra strength to get through this difficult event.
I’m so sorry!! Sending you love ❤️
Im so so so sorry for your loss. That was sweet your mom brought you a birthday cake, be blessed that you had another one on earth 👍🏻😀
I’m so sorry for the loss of your dad... I hope that you and your family stay well ❤️
Elle I am so sorry for the loss of your father. My son passed away on May 3, 2016. I understand what i mean about how they’re there and then they’re not. My son waited until we were in a meaningless conversation he took a deep breath and he was gone.
My son died the Tuesday before Mother’s Day and today is Father’s Day and I think about my grandson, the mother doesn’t let me see him, and how he will never spend a Father’s Day with my son that he will be able to remember. I’m so grateful they did get one together and it was a good day despite his others attempt to ruin it.
The brain does so many strange things when u are grieving. I am a reader so I looked to books to help me navigate grieving my son. I wasn’t able to read for very long at a time and I had to re-read quite a bit but eventually I was able to process the information. After about 6 months of reading only books on grieving I was finally able to put them down and return to my favorite authors. My son loved to be read to. He was an auditory learner and at the height of his ADHD it was the only way he could learn. The book I was reading to him before he passed is still in the car.
My heart breaks for you and your family especially with the added circumstance of the pandemic.
Much love and light and I believe our loved ones know we are there whether they can show it or not. I have to. Happy Father’s Day to your dad and my son who will always be with us in spirit.
I am so sorry for your loss. I had to race home from work to see my mom. I was the one with her when she died. It’s as if she waited for me (she was unconscious). I bet he knew on some level you were there and waited for you. ❤️
I'm so very sorry for your loss, Elle..Sending you lots of positive vibes. Take your time, and do whatever makes your soul happy
Condolences to you and your entire family. Sending you all love
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad. Losing a parent is so hard because they've always been there. Just take it minute to minute and let yourself feel what you feel. I hope you find some comfort in your memories of your dad. Hugs from Michigan.
I understand and sympathize completely. I lost my father June 3 . He contracted covid-19 in his nursing home (where they had been on lockdown since early March) . The last time I saw him was late Feburary. After 11 days in the hospital, complications of the infection caused my Dad to go into cardiac arrest. Suddenly, he passed after being told that he was doing well. We couldn't even have a funeral , but we will as soon as possible. Take care of yourself. xoxo
I'm so very sorry for your loss. You've been through what is most people's worst nightmare and only made harder by the pandemic. The beautiful soul of a daughter your father raised is his legacy and he must have been so proud of you. My deepest condolences, and my thoughts are with you and your family, especially today. Take care of yourself and each other ❤
hey Elle I'm glad you are back! I can't watch this video right now I lost my husband 3 weeks ago and it's to new. Know I'm thinking of you right now and sending so much love
I am so sorry Elle. Losing a loved one is difficult enough, but is compounded by what is happenings in the world. I’ll be praying for you. Virtual hugs sent.
I’m so sorry Elle. This was such a sad story. I feel for you and your family. Please take care of yourself. ❤️
This was really hard just to listen to, and I can't imagine actually experiencing it. I am so sorry for your loss and the circumstances it happened in. I have a relative with heart failure right now and I just wish we could go comfort them and their partner during this time. I'm sending you love. ❤❤❤❤❤
I haven't been able to watch this until now because I lost my father last year and just didn't know if I could get through it. You have my deepest sympathy; the pandemic complicates the grieving process so terribly.
My sincerest condolences on your loss. Sending internet hugs!
My condolences on losing your Dad. This could not have been easy. I’m so sorry for your loss. Father’s Day is hard. You get through the grief but it comes in waves. Over time, it feels less like a tsunami.
When you are ready, the channel will be here. You are allowed to have fun. Sending zen hugs.
I'm so sorry for your loss!😥
My condolences. I lost my dad 11 years ago so I couldn’t imagine losing a parent this day in age !! Big prayers
“Oh Daddy
If I could make you see
If there's been a fool around
It's got to be me
Yes, it's got to me
Why are you right when I'm so wrong
I'm so weak but you're so strong
Everything you do is just alright
And I can't walk away from you
Baby, if I tried” I know you know where this is from. ❤️❤️❤️ he’s still with you! It’s just in a different way now. I’m so happy you had such a good connection with your father.
I'm so sorry for your loss, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. I lost my father a few years ago and think of him everyday, I felt so very lost for a long time, and still do especially on Father's Day.
Elle, my heart is so broken for you. I can't imagine what you're going through right now. I can't stop crying and I wish I could hug you tight. My prayers and love go to you and your family 💕
Elle, how wonderful to hear about your father. You are so generous to have shared your deep grief with us and to be so vulnerable. I am so so sorry. I wish you many bright spots along the crazy, heavy trudge of loss - I loved hearing about him and how proud he was of you. Yeah, apologies to both you and your father for this US President. I look forward to hearing more stories about him; he sounded like such a proud dad and he must have loved you very much!! 💘💘 How could he not?! 😊