For GOD so loved the world that he gave his only begotten SON, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life. St. John 3:16 Receive the HOLY GHOST and you will have power to stand against all the tricks of the devil and you will find rest for your soul. May GOD give you strenght to hold on😮
Dear Lord, I pray for myself and every reader that You'll help us see clearly and that we are nothing without You and that we are everything with You. Help us always rely on Your grace, shun pride and every form of self exaltation while constantly trusting that Your infinite, divine energy is in us and for us to do many exploits with. Amen.
I am a worm I have been struggling for the last 2 months with all sorts of doubts and unbelieving thoughts it has been the hardest time in my life,Charles spurgeon has such a way to comfort the heart of the afflicted
Jon I hope the Lord has seen you through your dark times and back into his light. I’m having a tough time of it now myself now just hope I learn what the Lord is trying to teach me bc this worm 🐛 stage ain’t easy brother !! Much love & strength to all who struggle during their dark nights of the spirit. God bless all always. 🙏🏼❤️
Please pray for me, i am troubled due ro problems in my marriage, i have grown weary, i have made mistakes in my marriage and i need God's help and strength and may God make me the husband that He approves of and save my marriage. May God probe my heart and sift me like wheat.
Hello Brother Jake, =] I am seeing this Prayer Request you posted here, 2 Years ago. And would like to pop in to Ask ~How is it (now). Have things changed for Better? ? As you see this Prayer Request from 2 Years ago. =] Will appreciate to hear back, either way.
When I was an Armenian I really almost gave up So I really know what that is like I just can’t thank God enough for the Truth of scripture What a freedom and Joy I now have these years
The Christian path is not necessarily an easy one but most assuredly a rewarding and fulfilling path to life and eternal salvation, through Jesus Christ.
I was comforted yesterday by this sermon and sharing this sermon with a friend and my parents. I have heard this sermon many times, but yesterday struck me different. My favorite part.... "Put God in a man's arm... in a man's hand... in a man's eye..." Listen for it.
Jesus is Yahweh The One True God, Lord, and Saviour! I love You Jesus, thank You! Every knee shall bow, and every tongue confess You are the Only God, Lord, Saviour. King of kings, Lord of lords, Holiest of holies! Immanuel. Amen❤️
My Beloved JESUS please help me ✝️I need your strength now I am so weak & weary and I want to go home but you my sovereign GOD knows the day and hour of my death only you know these things and I shall trust you with that day ❤️🙏My faith is deep and clearly you are my Lord & Savior ‼️ I shall wait upon you to refresh my soul 🌹😇
Don’t wonder at Charles Spurgeon. There is no great men of God, but only weak, pitiful men with a great, merciful God. Look at how powerful the LORD is to have done such miraculous work through these men.
His strength is perfected in our weakness. Don't doubt Him. He never fails. Count it all joy. Of course it gets hard. Big time. That's when we surrender to Him and worship especially when it's hard. Praying for you sister. Love in Christ. Your brother In Christ.
"Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight." -Proverbs 3:5-6
@@pedrogonzales9202 Pedro, I'm really glad to hear this🙏 For what it's worth, after applying the teaching of this little verse in my life, it has been absolutely life-changing. Miracles have unfolded. The ancients understood this principle very well, that's why we hear of miracles in the Old Testament that some struggle to believe today. I hope it does the same for you as it did for me. May the Lord bless you in all your ways! 💜
@@Belief_Before_Glory It came as a shock to realize that what I think about anything, how I see the "world" or what it means had been coming from my own mind filled with unrecognized limitations. What a relief to not have to rely upon my own understanding, but to open to God's infinity. The quote literally says it all! It hits me at that perfect time! Thank you! Blessings eternally!
This is awesome. For God’s blessings to be manifested in our lives, to receive answers to prayers, it seems we must at times pass through heavy dark trials, wherein consolation deserts us, and God himself appears to desert us. This darkness is to purify our faith: to make us weak in ourselves, and strong in Christ. It is proper-as Spurgeon suggests-that we “fear not” in such instances, as oftentimes the blessing is just around the corner.
the christian path is the size of the eye of a needle, and we camels cannot through unless God chooses us to go through, for only with God is it possible, for we can never, ever be found worthy to enter the kingdom of God. thank you whosoever that is posting these wonderful and powerful sermons, only available for the ears of those who hears.
This sermon cut right through the darkness of the layers of earth that is above this worms head and shed the light that is guiding my spirit through. How amazing it is that though one day I can be on the top of the mountain rejoicing in Jesus’s love and yet another be in a dark earthly hole and still do the same!
Praise God I will serve and worship only you Lord lest I die and fall into the pit of hell I pray you grant me forgiveness of all my sins and give me mercy and peace forever and ever Amen
This is always timely. Thankful this is here during the time of the Coronavirus passing across the world. Fear weakens us, faith and trust in the Lord gives us strength ❤️
Excellent. Excellent. Praise GOD! How amazing that the LORD GOD in His sovereignty would encourage me through a preaching that deeply resonates with me even after 100+ years.
Thank you for keeping such teaching available. Truth, yes we are worms........but God is with us and will enable.....Long May it continue to teach and bless a faltering generation 🦅
Thank you God Lord Almighty for your Word gives us strength and you Oh God show us your infinite wisdom ! Now help me understand your simplest of truth that l may stay in your presence. I need you oh Lord without you my life is meaningless.l want to be counted for you ! I'm praying for your Holy Spirit take hold of me .
How encouraging and all our strength in the current 2021 battle is from Him, He enables us with the Holy Spirit. The bible says 365 times fear not, for every day of the year. Thank you for Spurgeon. I just read his book spiritual warfare and learned so much.
I am not a good man God has been showing me how lost I am with my sin my axeity my fear is from the enemie I am sick I need the lord to make me better I cannot get better without a doctor of this world Jesus said he is the great doctor he can make us well if we have faith in him.
Thank you for praying for us for we are facing every struggles in this sinful world thank you Lord Jesus for dying on the cross for the world s sinful ways amen
This was lovely. I wish all of the brethren could hear this. May God's Grace be with you, brother. And may you always "bend your fist in the world's face" :). Thank you so much for the upload.
Junior Benoit Lubangi mvp Mpiana You are most welcome, Junior. I am very glad to know you found the sermon a blessing. May God bless you as well, brother.
Elizabeth Morfin You are most welcome, Elizabeth. I hope you were greatly blessed by God's Word preached by brother Spurgeon. Shalom to you as well, sister :-)
I wish that I could come upon a church with a Pastor that preaches this way. The pastors today limits their sermons to 27 minutes to get the congregation out the door to get to the Country Club for lunch or out to the lake to board their boat.
Remember dear friends what Christ speaking to( peter/us all) said Simon Simon (put your name)satan has desired to have you to sift you like wheat But I (Jesus) have Prayed for you that your Faith failth not but Strenghten your brethen.this last part is Very Important for not doing is why we fail. its 4/6/2020 and i think the evil one has done this just to keep us from assembling together and cause discord among brethen .The hand and heart is the Matter.be well all who call on the Lord.
Charles Spurgeon Sermon playlist: ua-cam.com/users/view_play_list?p=CDB844A9113F938C Isaiah 41:14 Fear not, thou worm Jacob, and ye men of Israel; I will help thee, saith the LORD, and thy redeemer, the Holy One of Israel. Charles Haddon (C.H.) Spurgeon (June 19, 1834 January 31, 1892) was a British Reformed Baptist preacher who remains highly influential among Christians of different denominations, among whom he is still known as the "Prince of Preachers." In his lifetime, Spurgeon preached to around 10,000,000 people, often up to 10 times a week at different places. His sermons have been translated into many languages. Spurgeon was the pastor of the New Park Street Chapel in London for 38 years. In 1857, he started a charity organization called Spurgeon's which now works globally. He also founded Spurgeon's College, which was named after him after his death. Spurgeon was a prolific author of many types of works including sermons, an autobiography, a commentary, books on prayer, a devotional, a magazine, and more. Many sermons were transcribed as he spoke and were translated into many languages during his lifetime. Arguably, no other author, Christian or otherwise, has more material in print than C.H. Spurgeon. Charles Spurgeon Sermon - Fear Not
I used to listen to Kenneth Copeland and he said we are not worms, we are little gods. Some things seemed of the word that Copeland said, other things just don't seem right.
So many people are being damaged by this fooliness those faithiful that doubt!! and those that look to Heaven for Hope now see those in Fear , The LORD is Our Keep.Remember ;The Fear of man bringth a SNARE, BUT he who puts in ths LORD is Safe. Now for those in the 21 century thinking this is what you are safe from in CHRIST Our LORD, man who in Sin seeks always to deceive in satan the evil one.
Preached on pride. That's me. Preached on insecurity. Thats me. Preached on how easily we are beset. That's me. Preached on the solution: trust thou in God. That's not me nearly enough As someone entering into ministry...and that relatively late (and moving from one traditon [country extemporaneous primitive baptist ripping amd snorting kinda style) to another [more reserved, more refined, in some way more mature of mainline baptist orientation], as someone introverted, doubtful of self (yet battling with pride knowing a good deal [but knowing and preaching to edify are two different things]). It has bee like being pummeled. Every opportunity that I've had to preach/and or teach has found me on the day before as I go over what I wish this speak on thinking this is not worthy, it won't do. I will never communicate this well. I will speak above their heads or I will babble losing my place or trying to explain something. It seemed, when God first called me, a very romantic idea. I'd seem many passionate fiery eloquent beautiful ministers proclaim God in power and it seemed a lovely idea to do the same. Then I realized how wretched I am, in faith, so little; in righteousness, so wicked, in ability to communicate aurally and in ways that will make the people hear the Lord, destitute. Edit: helps to when I've read the great degree of depression and doubt Spurgeon suffered -even to that of his election. From what I've read that we might have said he had some some of depressive disorder. Also me.
I'm skin surgery please pray for me healing amen
Prayers going up❤
So glad Jesus died for a worm like me
youre not a worm. you are made in the image of God the Father. To be transformed into the image of His dear Son.
Compared to God we are like worms. And that is generous.
Let us be humble and see how powerless we really are to fix our problems.
People with thumbs down need to get right with the Lord
LORD Jesus Christ, Son of God, have mercy upon me, a sinner...
For GOD so loved the world that he gave his only begotten SON, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life. St. John 3:16
Receive the HOLY GHOST and you will have power to stand against all the tricks of the devil and you will find rest for your soul.
May GOD give you strenght to hold on😮
The Lord is my Strength and my Sheild. I can not do this alone❤
Pray for me please.....I am weary and so fearful. I appreciate this sermon. Thank you
DB How are you doing? I hope you found peace with Jesus.
May the Lord bless you and keep you and make His face shine upon you 🙏
Dear Lord,
I pray for myself and every reader that You'll help us see clearly and that we are nothing without You and that we are everything with You. Help us always rely on Your grace, shun pride and every form of self exaltation while constantly trusting that Your infinite, divine energy is in us and for us to do many exploits with.
Amen.
I am a worm I have been struggling for the last 2 months with all sorts of doubts and unbelieving thoughts it has been the hardest time in my life,Charles spurgeon has such a way to comfort the heart of the afflicted
May the Lord be with you Jonathan
Dear Brother it is the Holy Spirit that comforts your heart
Jon I hope the Lord has seen you through your dark times and back into his light. I’m having a tough time of it now myself now just hope I learn what the Lord is trying to teach me bc this worm 🐛 stage ain’t easy brother !! Much love & strength to all who struggle during their dark nights of the spirit. God bless all always. 🙏🏼❤️
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@@paulmccauley3736 😉🙏🏼
Please pray for me, i am troubled due ro problems in my marriage, i have grown weary, i have made mistakes in my marriage and i need God's help and strength and may God make me the husband that He approves of and save my marriage. May God probe my heart and sift me like wheat.
May His will be done for you
Hello Brother Jake, =] I am seeing this Prayer Request you posted here, 2 Years ago. And would like to pop in to Ask ~How is it (now). Have things changed for Better? ? As you see this Prayer Request from 2 Years ago. =] Will appreciate to hear back, either way.
Fear not for Christ shall not lose one who calls on Him for help!! Praying!!!
Amen Brother❤
When I was an Armenian
I really almost gave up
So I really know what that is like
I just can’t thank God enough for the Truth of scripture
What a freedom and Joy I now have these years
Gaurd me lord from pride and despair of life.
The Christian path is not necessarily an easy one but most assuredly a rewarding and fulfilling path to life and eternal salvation, through Jesus Christ.
I often pray and thank God my life is in His hand and in my weakness I remember fear not, God is with me🙏🏼✝️
Everything this Man of God speaks, is Holy Spirit filled. God's words are alive. Thank you...all Glory to God!
what God are you talking about the God of Israel
I was comforted yesterday by this sermon and sharing this sermon with a friend and my parents. I have heard this sermon many times, but yesterday struck me different. My favorite part.... "Put God in a man's arm... in a man's hand... in a man's eye..." Listen for it.
Jesus is Yahweh The One True God, Lord, and Saviour! I love You Jesus, thank You! Every knee shall bow, and every tongue confess You are the Only God, Lord, Saviour. King of kings, Lord of lords, Holiest of holies! Immanuel. Amen❤️
Oh Amen! Yes! ❤️✨
I'm only 7 mins in and I can relate straight away ❤❤❤ ✝️ 👍 xxxxx
Being confident of this very thing that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it!
My Beloved JESUS please help me ✝️I need your strength now I am so weak & weary and I want to go home but you my sovereign GOD knows the day and hour of my death only you know these things and I shall trust you with that day ❤️🙏My faith is deep and clearly you are my Lord & Savior ‼️ I shall wait upon you to refresh my soul 🌹😇
Amén yo that, thank you for speaking my heart ❤
It,s Been told me that ; What,s over my Head is Under HIS Feet. Praise God for this Victory and renewed Mercies.
I like that enough to repeat it . It is a truth I’m confident few will argue with me about. What a great way to testify of His sovereignty
Listening to this in 2022. God's Word is ALIVE!!!
Don’t wonder at Charles Spurgeon. There is no great men of God, but only weak, pitiful men with a great, merciful God. Look at how powerful the LORD is to have done such miraculous work through these men.
Okmmmmm
His strength is perfected in our weakness. Don't doubt Him. He never fails. Count it all joy. Of course it gets hard. Big time. That's when we surrender to Him and worship especially when it's hard. Praying for you sister. Love in Christ. Your brother In Christ.
I needed to hear this sermon tonight.
Thank you Jesus. And thank you for posting this sermon.❤🙏❤
My despondency and crazy thinking is leading me to weakness. Thank the Lord for bring me to this sermon.
Be encouraged and comforted my fellow Christian- Jesus will never leave us nor forsake us.
Keep trusting never give up. God is with you, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah.
Prayer is in need!For God to speedily will deliver me from being homeless.My name is Lonzell Wilkes.
Amen 🙏🙏🙏
Are things better?
God is with you Lonzeli, as the word speaks "God is with you, do not fear" ❤🙌
"Trust in Yahweh with all your heart, and don't lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight."
-Proverbs 3:5-6
Wow! How timely this!
@@pedrogonzales9202 Pedro, I'm really glad to hear this🙏 For what it's worth, after applying the teaching of this little verse in my life, it has been absolutely life-changing. Miracles have unfolded. The ancients understood this principle very well, that's why we hear of miracles in the Old Testament that some struggle to believe today. I hope it does the same for you as it did for me. May the Lord bless you in all your ways! 💜
@@Belief_Before_Glory It came as a shock to realize that what I think about anything, how I see the "world" or what it means had been coming from my own mind filled with unrecognized limitations. What a relief to not have to rely upon my own understanding, but to open to God's infinity. The quote literally says it all! It hits me at that perfect time! Thank you! Blessings eternally!
I love God’s word.
This is awesome. For God’s blessings to be manifested in our lives, to receive answers to prayers, it seems we must at times pass through heavy dark trials, wherein consolation deserts us, and God himself appears to desert us. This darkness is to purify our faith: to make us weak in ourselves, and strong in Christ. It is proper-as Spurgeon suggests-that we “fear not” in such instances, as oftentimes the blessing is just around the corner.
This is very encouraging and very realistic."FEAR GET THEE HENCE!" May the saints be refreshed by God's word.
the christian path is the size of the eye of a needle, and we camels cannot through unless God chooses us to go through, for only with God is it possible, for we can never, ever be found worthy to enter the kingdom of God. thank you whosoever that is posting these wonderful and powerful sermons, only available for the ears of those who hears.
Isaiah 41:14 Fear not, thou worm Jacob, and ye men of Israel; I will help thee, saith the LORD, and thy redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
Amen💯🦋
This sermon cut right through the darkness of the layers of earth that is above this worms head and shed the light that is guiding my spirit through.
How amazing it is that though one day
I can be on the top of the mountain rejoicing in Jesus’s love and yet another be in a dark earthly hole and still do the same!
If you are finding Christianity easy - you are not a Christian. Expect tribulation and trust in the Lord.
Old Preacher, Thank You so Much;
Praise God I will serve and worship only you Lord lest I die and fall into the pit of hell I pray you grant me forgiveness of all my sins and give me mercy and peace forever and ever Amen
Pray that for me too please❤
The trials are many and seem to roll in like waves. Thank you for posting these sermons.
Please pray for me I'm going through the darkest time and no one to help!
Praying for you, Michelle. I have been there, sister, and I assure you that God WILL see you through...abide in Christ, and he WILL see you through.
I will also pray for you, do not lose faith in god
Focus on Jesus and Jesus alone nothing else. Focus on Him and stay alone with only Him, get into His presence and darkness will flee.
+michelle staunton Praying for you.
+Christian Praise and Worship in Songs, Sermons, and Audio Books thank you so much :-) I can't tell you how much it means tome write now
Thank you Lord for this powerful message for you are always there when we call apon your precious mighty name amen
This is always timely. Thankful this is here during the time of the Coronavirus passing across the world. Fear weakens us, faith and trust in the Lord gives us strength ❤️
These sermons preserved for us strengthen our faith. Only GOD !
I thank God for His word, i feel relived hearing this great man of God.
Good sermon, it convinced me to "fear not", and.the narration is very clear; thank you
We have to trust, and seek daily to the word of our Lord Jesus Christ
Excellent. Excellent. Praise GOD! How amazing that the LORD GOD in His sovereignty would encourage me through a preaching that deeply resonates with me even after 100+ years.
Wonderful message, it is filled with the Spirit.
Thank you for keeping such teaching available. Truth, yes we are worms........but God is with us and will enable.....Long May it continue to teach and bless a faltering generation 🦅
Thank you God Lord Almighty for your Word gives us strength and you Oh God show us your infinite wisdom ! Now help me understand your simplest of truth that l may stay in your presence. I need you oh Lord without you my life is meaningless.l want to be counted for you ! I'm praying for your Holy Spirit take hold of me .
It is so with me.. oh God finish what you've began
Take Heart dear friends the giants of life are Meant to Fall before the GOD in whom we trust.Remember tho he slain me I Will Trust Him.
How encouraging and all our strength in the current 2021 battle is from Him, He enables us with the Holy Spirit. The bible says 365 times fear not, for every day of the year. Thank you for Spurgeon. I just read his book spiritual warfare and learned so much.
THANK YOU!!!
I am not a good man God has been showing me how lost I am with my sin my axeity my fear is from the enemie I am sick I need the lord to make me better I cannot get better without a doctor of this world Jesus said he is the great doctor he can make us well if we have faith in him.
May the Lord heel you today in the name of Jesus prease be to the king of the king
Thank you for praying for us for we are facing every struggles in this sinful world thank you Lord Jesus for dying on the cross for the world s sinful ways amen
Amen. Thank you, Jesus. God bless.
These saying go for me also in my current trial.God is so good as he COMMANDS! us Fear Not!
I needed this. Glory to God!
This was lovely. I wish all of the brethren could hear this.
May God's Grace be with you, brother. And may you always "bend your fist in the world's face" :). Thank you so much for the upload.
Know that God is with you.
This has been my all-time favourite sermon by Charles Spurgeon since hearing it back in 2020.
My fav book of Spurgeon...Beside Still Waters. Amazing how relevant his word is today! thank you for sharing.
Very encouraging messages
I love his sermons🙏
Apt in my present situations.
My trust in Him alone.
A believer struggling with my faith because of my health. Thwre seem to be endless trials there seems to be endless trials mio . Pray for me
Just prayed for you. Jesus is Lord!
Still impactful in 2022
As the days so shall our strength be.
The eternal God is our refuge and underneath are the Everlasting Arms.Amen.
fear not, thank you for uploading this sermon awaken message , may God bless you . good job Spurgeon for this good heritage
***** thank you so much dear bro. it is also helpful my God bless
***** dear bro. thank you for sharing that with me, may God bless you. i am a Baptist i love to hear sound doctrine teaching
Junior Benoit Lubangi mvp Mpiana You are most welcome, Junior. I am very glad to know you found the sermon a blessing. May God bless you as well, brother.
Beautiful.
Thank you it's good to know someone is praying for you ,I love the sermons
In Lord and my Master Jesus, Name, Amen.
I'm praying for you.
Thank you and God bless you!
Blessed message. Thank God for a good word. Amen.
Thank you and God bless you !!! shalom :)
Elizabeth Morfin You are most welcome, Elizabeth. I hope you were greatly blessed by God's Word preached by brother Spurgeon. Shalom to you as well, sister :-)
Golden and timeless 1800s 1900s 2000s and onwards.
It is Christ who will comfort you. Is Christ your Savior? Have you surrendered all to Him?
True view of who God is.
Shield
FEAR NOT
Im such a wretch, sinning often, and with such guilt afte ward, such shame fills my heart, im in need of God's grace, will i make heaven???
... te amo Jesus
Thank you for posting this very important message.This problem has caused so much division within the church.
Amen 🙏
I wish that I could come upon a church with a Pastor that preaches this way. The pastors today limits their sermons to 27 minutes to get the congregation out the door to get to the Country Club for lunch or out to the lake to board their boat.
How long did Jesus teach when He gathered the people and how often did he do that..
I am a wretched worm
Remember dear friends what Christ speaking to( peter/us all) said Simon Simon (put your name)satan has desired to have you to sift you like wheat But I (Jesus) have Prayed for you that your Faith failth not but Strenghten your brethen.this last part is Very Important for not doing is why we fail. its 4/6/2020 and i think the evil one has done this just to keep us from assembling together and cause discord among brethen .The hand and heart is the Matter.be well all who call on the Lord.
Trusting
Revival
'Fear not, oh worm...'
🙌🏽🙏🏽
Charles Spurgeon Sermon playlist: ua-cam.com/users/view_play_list?p=CDB844A9113F938C
Isaiah 41:14 Fear not, thou worm Jacob, and ye men of Israel; I will help thee, saith the LORD, and thy redeemer, the Holy One of Israel.
Charles Haddon (C.H.) Spurgeon (June 19, 1834 January 31, 1892) was a British Reformed Baptist preacher who remains highly influential among Christians of different denominations, among whom he is still known as the "Prince of Preachers." In his lifetime, Spurgeon preached to around 10,000,000 people, often up to 10 times a week at different places. His sermons have been translated into many languages. Spurgeon was the pastor of the New Park Street Chapel in London for 38 years. In 1857, he started a charity organization called Spurgeon's which now works globally. He also founded Spurgeon's College, which was named after him after his death.
Spurgeon was a prolific author of many types of works including sermons, an autobiography, a commentary, books on prayer, a devotional, a magazine, and more. Many sermons were transcribed as he spoke and were translated into many languages during his lifetime. Arguably, no other author, Christian or otherwise, has more material in print than C.H. Spurgeon.
Charles Spurgeon Sermon - Fear Not
I used to listen to Kenneth Copeland and he said we are not worms, we are little gods. Some things seemed of the word that Copeland said, other things just don't seem right.
Thank you
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2022
Great reading, but can this guy tell me how the missile knows where it is?
Abide
So many people are being damaged by this fooliness those faithiful that doubt!! and those that look to Heaven for Hope now see those in Fear , The LORD is Our Keep.Remember ;The Fear of man bringth a SNARE, BUT he who puts in ths LORD is Safe. Now for those in the 21 century thinking this is what you are safe from in CHRIST Our LORD, man who in Sin seeks always to deceive in satan the evil one.
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Preached on pride. That's me.
Preached on insecurity. Thats me.
Preached on how easily we are beset. That's me.
Preached on the solution: trust thou in God. That's not me nearly enough
As someone entering into ministry...and that relatively late (and moving from one traditon [country extemporaneous primitive baptist ripping amd snorting kinda style) to another [more reserved, more refined, in some way more mature of mainline baptist orientation], as someone introverted, doubtful of self (yet battling with pride knowing a good deal [but knowing and preaching to edify are two different things]). It has bee like being pummeled. Every opportunity that I've had to preach/and or teach has found me on the day before as I go over what I wish this speak on thinking this is not worthy, it won't do. I will never communicate this well. I will speak above their heads or I will babble losing my place or trying to explain something. It seemed, when God first called me, a very romantic idea. I'd seem many passionate fiery eloquent beautiful ministers proclaim God in power and it seemed a lovely idea to do the same.
Then I realized how wretched I am, in faith, so little; in righteousness, so wicked, in ability to communicate aurally and in ways that will make the people hear the Lord, destitute.
Edit: helps to when I've read the great degree of depression and doubt Spurgeon suffered -even to that of his election. From what I've read that we might have said he had some some of depressive disorder. Also me.