Rachel Peacock:My Transition
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- Опубліковано 12 бер 2020
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This is my story so far; I share this as not only a diary for myself, but in the hopes that you too will also find some inspiration to be yourself and seek what makes you happy. Thank you for your support !
~ Rae
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The genes in the Peacock family must be rock solid in the beauty department. Look beautiful as a man and a woman. Glad you're happier now.
Came here to say this. Some people just look attractive as male OR female!
Haha, makes me believe I'll still look ugly no matter the gender lol 😂
@@AntonAdelson self confidence
Agree with you Mark
Calling a trans person beautiful as their assigned gender isn't a compliment
@@walter-vq1fw You must not have comprehended the comment, maybe English is not your native language?
I genuinely loathe the way trans issues have been weaponized as a political cudgel. When you see how much pain the dysphoria can cause , any caring person would be willing to support just about any steps needed to bring relief. So glad to see Rachel is doing better & I hope she continues. Also, fantastic music selection!
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This genuinely made me cry. I hope my transition goes as well as yours has. I want to look as happy as you do at the end.
The part where you show the text convo is when I started crying, and my tears kept falling harder and harder as the smile in your pictures grew bigger and bigger. They were tears of joy; I am completely alone, living in a motel and have ZERO support because my entire family and my so-called "friends" all abandoned me when I came out as mtf transgender earlier this year, but seeing how happy you have been able to become inspired me and helped me realize that I'll get to where you are, too. Thank you, Rachel.
hey, you're valid and you matter. i'll support you and be your friend if you'll have me :) you aren't alone anymore
Well, lexi --- you now have an ally/Auntie in Southern California. (hugs)
Hello Lexi! I'm here if you need me! I love you!!!! 💛
lexi, I'd like to make you feel better. I was child # 9 yet I always felt alone because I was different , I learned to love it, still do. I got No support so everything took more time I learned about anything trans. Late in life I transitioned changed my total identity. Nobody caused me any problems. I suggest you learn and rely on yourself and disregard critics. Be patient it's a learning period. It will be great in the end ,
Not trying to sound like an idiot but what is mtf?
You should be damn proud of yourself. Just remember, you are not changing who you are, you are becoming who you are..... Well done
This is how I've always thought about it
Very well stated and so true!
Wow that's incredible nice
Hunted, very well said, have a nice day ❤️❤️
I TOTALLY agree
So, I was looking for peacock decorating ideas for my wife for our house and I saw this video. As a retired Army Warrant Officer, you're one of my sisters. It doesn't matter how you started your journey or that you're Chair Force (kidding! Love my USAF brethren).
All that matters is that you found your way and your happiness. Carry on Sis. You got this. I see you've struggled and fought through the tough times, surviving and coming out stronger. Here's to you and your survival, Sis! Bravo.
Keep kicking ass like always.
I'm Literally crying " i tried to be what others wanted, to make them proud, and to earn their love" thats hit me so hard
Jesus Loves you, don't give up. He makes all things new.
This is my favorite and
the saddest transition video. Thank you Rachel 😥❤😥
Aw Thanks, but the ending is happy :D
@@RachelPeacock 0:16 is so sad 😥, but ending is amazing ❤❤❤
I saw the thumbnail and thought: she looks so cute with her boyfriend 😅
Bruh 😂😂😂😂😂
Same I was like who's the gorgeous guy
Bruh moment
Turns out that was her ex.
Not her ex-boyfriend; her ex-body.
This is one of the best transition videos. I loved how the quotes gave the viewer a good understanding of what she was thinking and feeling during her journey. Thank you so much for sharing! By the way, your are absolutely stunning woman.
You are beautiful! Thank you for sharing your transition, and I’m so glad you survived those most challenging days of despair!
I almost transitioned in my 20s, but chickened out. Whenever I see someone able to be themselves at a younger age, it makes me very glad. I ran away from myself, thinking I could change who I was. I gave it a good shot at pretending to be what others expected me to be, but it just meant another 20 years of lying to myself. Glad you were able to embrace your true self much sooner!
Your so beautiful and been so brave to have over come that dark place you were in. There is light at the end of the tunnel and nobody needs to hide from who they are - but many do and I hope that your journey to discovering the beautiful soul you truly are will inspire and comfort them too.
This is just the beginning and you are seeing sunshine really for the first you took those steps .
We are all surrounded by love and those who truly love you for the person you really are to be treasured - those who cannot handle it, then light a candle for them , as their values do not have to be yours .
I am so amazed to have met the beautiful spirit of the wonderful woman you have come that I wish you all the best of dreams this life can offer.
You look fabulous - do enjoy being the girl that was always in you and go and conquer the world as it needs more love and adorable spirits like you x
I feel so humbled to have spent just 6 minutes 53 seconds here today with you Rachel.
Your story is truly an inspiration and I feel honoured and uplifted by watching your transformation ❤️. Inside and out you are a beautiful woman! xx
Girl, you made me cry happy tears! Your journey is wonderful and seeing the light come into your eyes over the that timeline is amazing!
The very beginning had me in tears. My heart breaks for u so bad. As a mom all I wanted to do was reach out hug u and tell u it's all ok. It's ok to b the real u.
By the end I was and am still crying for a totally different reason....ur beautiful smile. Ur entire face came more and more alive. U R SO GORGEOUS.
Oh my goodness, I know I don't know u personally but I love u, ur strong will to b who u were meant to b and u r an inspiration. Please, keep smiling, keep living ur truth, and keep being happy.
Betty Bennett you are the definition of the mother every lgbtq kid would begged for to have. Thanks for being a beautiful person
can you be my mom?
Thank you so much for sharing. It took me 37yr to begin transition, but three months ago, I began the coming out portion. Started hrt a little over a month ago and am going through a lot. Seeing other girls out there who have helped to pave the way for me truly makes so much difference. Thank you.
Josette
*was a hot guy*
*is now a beautiful girl*
Like excuse me where did your family’s genes come from
she's got a point
@Djar leeng She was always a female, she was a woman trap inside in a man's body.
Djar leeng wow imagine being transphobic I’m-😳
Djar leeng your disgusting. What was she supposed to do, end it all??? Be happy that she is happy now. Stop being a fuckhead.
Djar leeng - Excuse me, you’re discriminating against them, there is such thing as ‘transgender’, and yet you’re getting the pronouns incorrect.
Omg this made me all teary eyed 😭 So proud of you! You're glowing 💖
Wow, thank you So SO much Melonie- that means the world coming from you! You are always so kind,strong, and sweet! You treat people with respect and aren't afraid to speak up when something is wrong. You are still my biggest hero on the internet and exactly the kind of woman I strive to be every day🤗
i love to transition to female someday like u did
This very beautiful video Rachel I love to collaborate with you plus this very nice making me cry
@@RachelPeacock I just found your channel & wanted to say congratulations on becoming your true self & thanks for your military service. Much love from Ohio.
I cried so hard you are so strong we all support you
Some transition videos are just amazing, but this one is truly inspiring because you can almost feel her transformation inside and out, I mean she absolutely glows when she finally starts to transition.
That was a beautiful success story. Your smile looks so much more authentic and less pain-filled as a girl…which makes sense. So glad you didn’t give up. You’re gorgeous and an inspiration to us all.
I was so deeply and profoundly touched by what you shared with all of us, Rachel, and I pray for your complete happiness!
I am transitioning too and I’m so glad that you are still here and going strong. Don’t ever let society determine who you are because you are incredible!
You've come so far, you're a beautiful person inside and out, and so so brave. i am praying that now you will be able to live happily and be the best you that you can be, you're killing it in the inspiration department.
I'm pretty sure this is my brother situation, I'm tearing.
I love him ao much and accept him.. But he's terrified and living a macho character that's basically killing him and affecting his mental health because the whole family are homophobics.
I know he secretly wears my clothes and make up and I hinted that's ok and he's safe, yet he lash on trans and homosexual people and gets incredibly angry when I say I accept them and respect their freedom of living because it's not a choice, it's their nature.
I hope one day he can be like you and come out to his true self.
You're beautiful and an inspiration! 💖
Good to see an Air Force vet forging a new life. I wish you the best.
Wow, you started out so damn beautiful, but the real you just got even better. The joy in your eyes, and that amazing smile! I just love seeing how much of a difference it makes when a person finally gets to be who they were meant to be.
I'm so happy for you! ❤
Aww Rachel, you're absolutely lovely! My heart broke for you there at the beginning. I'm so glad to see the joy you found after such sorrow. You are brave and brilliant and beautiful. May things just keep getting better and better in your life.
quite proud of you. I have spent a lot of time trying to help people around me who were starting to feel the way you were. You are beyond beautiful and you have a wonderful radiant glow.
Awesome Rach keep it up more hope for all off us, every time one of us makes it into the euphoric phase of finally becoming you, that itself is the Inspiration
I have watched so many transition timeline videos over the last several years. All of them inspiring but none of them really stick out in my memory. At 1:59 when I read your caption "I created a character that everyone seemed to love" I immediately broke down in tears. I've wanted to be a girl for as long as I can remember but I was 14 (now 40) when I learned what it means to be trans. That quote sums up my entire life to this point. I seriously put down my phone and cried for a good 10 minutes. It took me almost 20 minutes to get through a 7 minute video 😆.
One of my biggest worries about coming out to friends is how to explain how I hid my true feelings so well. Would any of them even take me seriously or think it was just me playing a big joke again? Thanks to you, I know how to put it into words.
And girl... you tied it up perfectly with that C.S. Lewis quote at the end. Luckily the video was over so I had plenty of time to sit and cry some more. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. You look so much happier than before and for the first time ever I feel like maybe I can be happy too. I'm sorry this comment was so long-winded. If you're still reading good luck on your journey from here on.
FixitJunkie1980 It’s not too late. I’m 41 and transitioning and I look great you will too!☺️
😭😭🌈🌈💞
I have started my transition. I have been presenting as female since October 2019. I believe I'm happier and at least one person who I worked with closely has said the same. I expect the majority of your friends will take you seriously. All of mine have. The only place I have experienced any abuse is online, and that was in a place of my own, where I could ban the participant (and that's exactly what I did). There is absolutely NOTHING wrong with being a girl, cisgender or transgender. It took me a long time to realise that. I'm 46, by the way. I didn't know I was transgender until I reached this age. I suspected for a long time but I didn't know until I started experimenting. You go, girl!
1:59 is where I started crying..because thats how I've felt since I was early 20s..now I'm 37 and hope to find the courage to transition
I am 44, and on the 27th I will be four months into a MUCH happier and more fulfilling life! It's SO worth it! Words from the Wise: Get a good Primary Care Provider and Therapist that have experience with Trans people. Find local resources, and know that You Are Worth Investing In! Keep a Transition Journal, and read it when you need to Remind Yourself How Strong You Are! Stay true to YOURSELF, First and Foremost! Keep in mind that No One said that living more True to Yourself would be Easy, just that It IS Worth It!
Much Love, and All the Best Wishes on Your Journey! =^.^=
You saved my brother's life. I can never thank you enough for being you and being an inspiration.
That fact that I can inspire anyone keeps me going.. thank you so much and I wish you and your brother both the best.
I just share my story to educate and let others know they aren't alone
@@RachelPeacock I looked up to you and I gotta you give confidence to carry on and be myself as I am nothing more
Wow, you look fucking amazing! I love transition videos, my favorite part is how their smiles looks before and after. You can see them radiating happiness now that they’re living who they really are on the inside.
Thank you for sharing this, particularly 0:16 through 0:41. Too many people are unaware of the intensity of that terrible, terrible pain. When you said "I feel so lonely, and I hate my life so much" I started crying because I've heard myself say the exact same thing. I'm so happy for you. I'm not particularly religious, but God bless you.
That's me
Jesus Loves you, He makes all things new, don't give up.
I feel like that as well
This is really inspirational and you look absolutely amazing!! Thank you so much for sharing babe! ☺️❤️
You’re so brave, I’m at the beginning of my transition and have only just tapped into a courage I feared previously to start my journey. I admire you’re strength so much. You are a beautiful woman, inside and out! ❤
This whole video resonates so much with me. I totally feel the same way, and you put it perfectly about creating a character others would love. You’re so brave! Someday I hope to be able to do the same. Until then, I’ll have to be me when I get a rare moment alone. But thank you for the video, and the inspiration!
Girl, thank you for this! I'm approaching my 1mo. mark on E and I'm learning that patience and practice is definitely a must. I completely understand the struggle you went through, my struggle was almost identical to yours. From a fellow vet, "oorah!" and thank you for sharing your struggle!
One of the most beautiful people I know I’ll ever see... Couldn’t be more inspired! Thank you
Going through the video and seeing you change, I genuinely feel so happy for you! Your story is so positive and uplifting and I can only wish I could be like you one day.
That was a great video Rachel, so well put together, telling your story, I'm looking forward to seeing where life takes you. Keep well beautiful, and all the best for your future.
When you said “Then it hit me... It’s not like anyone can make me feel WORSE...” wow!!! I never thought about things in that way. I just got a major shot of courage. Thank you
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Rachel:
Happy First Anniversary!
Good for you to be able to start young, you will have a happy life as your true self.
My message to others who consider themselves Trans are these three words: insistent, persistent, consistent. When your Gender Identity follows those words, you are likely ready to explore Transition.
Do it for yourself. You are not being selfish, you are being a better you to your family and to your friends who stay with you on your journey.
I’ve been there, done that. I was a Trans child during the 1950s and the 1960s who began adult Transition at age 18. I’m age 64. No regrets other than wishing that I could have done it better and sooner, but we lacked the advantages of Trans youth today.
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Just watched all your videos in one go. Lovely to see someone so genuine. You seem to be informing people rather than performing for people. Makes a change.I think you will make a difference 🖤
I’m terribly sorry you had to deal with pain in the passed, you should be who you truly are and I’m very proud of you for doing just that. I know the pain you felt, I am going through that very pain and you inspired me to be myself, to be who I am in the inside. Thank you!
Right now I’m in that terrified, talking to the few people I trust stage. I’m taking refuge in the fact that I’m not alone. So, thank you for sharing your story.
This literally made me cry. You made it. I just got this as a suggestion and it inspired me to be myself and happy thank you.
I don't think happiness is something you can"attain", but rather achieve every day.
I'm humbled that I can inspire anyone and I wish you the best in all you do. Go be happy with no regrets ☺️
Rachel, you look so happy and adorable and I'm very proud of you, despite having never met you! You're an absolute inspiration!
This literally has me pouring tears because I know all those things you wrote about in the text all too well... so happy you found a way outta that horrible pit of depression. When you said how you just accepted better luck next life I cried so much cause I've used the EXACT same words. I have zero support system and the couple of times I've tried to confide in someone it ended SO bad so I still hold it all in to this day
This is awesome. I knew you had come along way, but pictures are stronger then memory.
Omg you’re so pretty and such an inspiration
Much love sister! Its 11 years for me, and im only now willing to look back on that time and see how far I've come.
This sort of thing has SUCH importance for those who are still unsure, or who are scared and feeling alone.
You are awesome 💖💖
Just saw this vid, and it's given my day the lift that it needed, to keep going. Thank you for sharing your story~
wow just wow. I really wish I had the courage like you to come out but even though I have a very good relationship with my family I'm still so nervous and scared to tell them and my friends. Also I felt so happy for you that i burst into tears near the end. You go girl!!!
This is crazy to see a comment say this because I remember I used to say the EXACT .Same.Thing. haha..
I wish you the absolute best in what you choose in life, and I can tell you from experience that the people who truly love you,will remain. Even some of the people you'd never expect. I still have Alpha-male personality marine friends talk to me with respect and it's amazing. There will always be jerks out there, but honestly just focus on being a kind person,and seeking other kind people. Life is too short to be unhappy- and a person's physical being is no reason to hate them.
You got this 💞Zero regrets~ Rae
What a sunny and pleasant person, she is happy and shares her joy with others. I support everyone on this difficult path and encourage them to be more tolerant of those who change in this way.
This gives me hope that maybe it'll work out for me. So happy for you and your journey--the sheer difference in your smile as the true you vs your smile before tells a story all by itself.
I'm soooo glad your happy with yourself and you have shown me that I could do anything even if it is hard that is what being human is about. Its about finding a great path but not risking it by taking the short path there are no short cuts and the mind is the most powerful tool too so it is the best thing to keep it happy and to match the mental image of yourself to the outside it really makes a difference on how you see the world in a happy setting so I just wanted say I'm glad for you keep it up and you helped me by showing me that I can do this I will start transitioning with myself too thank you again
You will be an inspiration to many people that are going through the same and see this video it's good to see that your happy now you look absolutely beautiful
Im so glad Rachael you are in a happier place...life is difficult, it takes courage to live on your terms....and you my dear are brave and beautiful...Congrats!😊
"I tried to be what others wanted, to make them proud, and to earn their love" that hits hard. I think almost anyone can relate to that in some level. Thank you for sharing your experience. You are beautiful! I wish you the best in your new life ;)
Thank you for your service and thank you for sharing such a personal and struggle filled journey with us. I applaud your courage and determination to release the real you that has always been within you to find your true self happiness. Be well and stay safe Rachel!
"Never worked so hard for an F in my life!" 😹
very cute, before and after.
may I ask, did you get facial feminizing surgery at some point in this ??
Only curious because of the changeto your jawline, or cheeks or something...
I don't think it's only from looking so happy!
@@anthonypc1 No surgery yet,but I am currently running my fundraiser for srs!
Cheeks are just from hormones and the muscle/fat redistribution that brings
@@RachelPeacock good for you :)
Anthony PC Hormones are magical! I cannot wait to start my HRT!
@@naruhina1997 :) just be patient with your expectations is all.
I'm so happy for you girl 🥳You're finally free. I truly understand what it feels like. When you feel so alone and nobody understands you. Now you are finally free and able to be happy.
"girl"
Wow!! Congratulations that was touching! You have to be strong as hell mentally as a person, many respects to you Rachel! I hope you'll continue to be as happy as you look, your smile is contagious!
A difficult journey that many never undertake, and some no longer can..
Glad you made it. Your video is an inspiration to many youths looking for guidance and acceptance.
Every success story eases the pain for others.
Thank you for sharing yours.
I look up to you in every way possible, I'm figuring out who I am and this made my day 100x better!!!
First of all I have to say that you are so brave to have taken the steps you took to finally become the true you.
I watched your video because I have a daughter that does not identify with any gender. I have known this for years and have always supported her but still seek to understand more so that I can support her at a much deeper level. Thank you so much for sharing your story.
YOU'RE BEAUTIFUL, not just on the outside but on the inside. I don't think you know how incredible you are. The strength in you to be yourself can't be expressed in words. You're absolutely glowing girl.
I too have gone and am going through this.Your videos give me inspiration and hope as it is a difficult road especially being an older girl.Thanks for your videos and all the best to you. :)
I suppose you could say that I'm a normal heterosexual guy,but now im sitting here with tears in my eyes,hard as I try i cannot imagine what you have been doing through,i wish you everything good for the future,and remember not everybody is prejudiced and ignorant
Thank you so much for your kindness and wishes ; empathy is a lovely and attractive quality to be proud of! I wish you the best in pursuing what makes you happy as well :) have a great day ~Rae
WILD BILL You mean GREAT comment
@WILD BILL I think someone is in denial. Me gay...haha, I think my girlfriend will disagree on that. Maybe my boyfriend also, but I’ll have to check on that
Very moving story! Thanks for sharing! I still remember when you crushed everyone in that super smash tournament at goodfellow. Stay strong!
Hahah thank you!! I STILL crush at smash bros
@@RachelPeacock Haha. Not sure if you remember me but, It's Williams from tech school! I'm glad you're doing well!
Oh my god, this battle is like the same thing in a way im fighting. Like your "Mask" references, and alcohol part... Omgg. On the part where you were like "Well no one can make me feel WORSE?" - It's exactly what I thought too. Thank you for having such a relatable story. You are awesome! Im just now starting my journey! Your are so inspirational!!
Thank you for this. This made me feel so many feels. Thank you for providing my feelings some validity and letting me know I am not the only one who feels like this. Thank you so much.
Your story is honestly so amazing! I’d been struggling with coming to terms with being trans for a long time, and after watching this video a couple of weeks ago it inspired me to be true to who i am! I’ve honestly never been happier, so thankyou!! 💞💞
Rachael, thank you for posting this video, you are an inspiration, I just came out trans MTF to my Mother and showed her your video, it really helped. You are beautiful, please make more videos 💕
Aw thank you so much for the sweet compliment! 😭💘I remember sharing my friends videos when I started coming out so that's such an ironic Honor! Congratulations!! Good luck on your journey and always strive to be happy. I can promise it won't be easy,but it will be rewarding, and the people worth keeping will be by your side ever still 💗 much love~Rae
I have no idea why, but I've went through your video library, and I've watched and listened very carefully. I'll admit, I am very unfamiliar with the topic, and I've never been around it first hand. I've seen many transitions on YT, and many transformations. Yours is absolutely next level. You've become a gorgeous young woman. You started with a canvas that was honestly meant to be what you've made yourself today. Your smile is absolutely contagious and I can actual FEEL your happiness through your videos. I do not know you, but I'm still very happy for you. I'd love to know how you are doing in 2024. I hope that you've accomplished even more of your dreams. I am in awe at how beautiful you've blossomed into, and I love your positive attitude and outlook. You seem like such a pure soul. If anyone on here knows Rachel more, or maybe is in contact with her off site, I'd truly love to hear how she is doing. I wish her the absolute BEST and will keep her in my thoughts for an amazing future.
You know, when I started to see transition videos like yours I was afraid it would damage my self confidence, but it even empowered me with inspiration and guts. I came out of the closet 15 years ago. I am Meike for the same distance of time, but I got more and more into a tomboy phase of lifestyle. Finally have that power again. Thank you Rachel for sharing your story, means so much for so many people. Girl power ! 😘😎🤘
Wow!! So inspiring video,I was having a bad day coz sometimes is difficult stand my "situation", now I feel a little more confident and I have to thank you, then thanks a lot!!
I am very sorry for commenting so late lmao but, I've just been so scared to comment on this specific video even though I found it about a year ago and I've watched it over god knows how many times lol. But, thank you Rachel... So so so so so much for making this video. I'm going through my own struggles as a Trans minor and it's really hard but whenever the depressed thoughts and other bad thoughts come in, I come back and watch this same video and it always makes me feel better. I'm so very happy for you that life is better and thank you for making mine better. Even though I know I can't be who I am right now, with good people like you in the world, I know it will be hard but it will be fun and fullfilling. Thank you
Videos like this give me hope. I'm in the early stages of my transition (mtf). Seeing other people's journeys is really inspiring ♥
I know I'm late here but I just wanted to say thank you. You're journey inspired me and kept me going in some very tough times. I began my transition today. Thank you for sharing your journey.
I can tell you have a beautiful heart and spirit. Never give up Rachel!
I really wish you the best Rachel. You look wonderful. From Montreal Canada lots of hugs and kisses😊
Wow, you’re so beautiful and I can really see how much happier you are. Keep going strong, you’re amazing.
That was beautiful and inspiring! Thank you so much for sharing your story and blessing our world with such courage and love!! HUGS!!
Wonderful, wonderful story, young lady. I'm so happy that culture is what it is today and young people like you can more easily be true to themselves like this. I didn't start transitioning until I was 48, and it's been such a fantastic experience. I can't imagine what life would be like if I could have started this whole journey back when I was your age! I'm very happy for you and inspired by your courage. The world is lucky to have you as a part of it.
It's so good to see other girls that are into cars and proud of it! Keep being yourself, true beauty can shine with no filter
Thank you very much for your example. I have watched this video countless times before deciding to transition. I started HRT 5 months ago, and even now when I need a boost of confidence and hope that everything is going to work out on this journey I look at it all over again. So thank you very much again and again. Greetings from Argentina.
You're a wonderful inspiration, and I'm so happy for you.
you have such beautiful eyes. i could see the change in them once you began your transition: i’m so happy that you’re who you were meant to be, beautiful, happy and healthy! ❤️
Congratulations on living as your authentic self. I'm glad that you realized that you can't live your life just to please other people. You need to be happy with your life as well and if this makes you happy then I wish you the best.
Beautiful video, Rachel. Sometimes finding out who we are and what makes us happy can be a challenging journey. But it's ever a splendid journey.
Here i come again. I watch this every year since coming out. Thank you for sharing this
I’m not crying 😭 You look so beautiful babe!
This hit home for me on every single thing... so why do I still not pick up the phone and schedule my appointment to start HRT and begin my own transition? I’ve known for 10 years. Been afraid because of how I was treated when I came out... I was 13 when I understood that it was a thing to be trans. And it made sense that I was. I tried to kill myself that year thinking I’d never be accepted or supported.
I too created an image of myself that everyone loved, but me. I portrayed myself as what I thought a man should be... for half my life.
It took some VERY close calls with death to accept that I am who I am.
And I think this video.. your story you’ve shared... it’s just so relatable. I cried watching it. You’ve really inspired me to do what I know is right 💙
You're describing my life. Though I didn't have a word for what I was until I was 27.
PLEASE DO NOT WAIT.
I let fear influence my decisions. I started to transition at 27 and just before I started HRT an opportunity opened up that promised wealth. I hoped for financial freedom and hid again.
At 35 I started again, though foolishly. I purchased estrogen illegally. After 6 months I started developing noticeable breasts. That freaked me out and I hid again.
At 46 I started knowing I'd never go back.
Each time - 27, 35 and 46 I experienced a mental break. Each time I lose a part of myself. The months leading up to my collapse at 46 were filled with waves of pain. The break was so bad I lost consciousness for 40 minutes. And when I came-to, I discovered ALL my coping mechanisms and ALL my walls were shattered. I was laid bare before my tormentor. I knew I had 6 weeks before the torment would drive me insane. That's why I couldn't look back.
But now I have 30+ years of male habits to overcome. I have to take injectable estradiol because the pills do nothing for me.
I traded living for security.
And now I have no choice but to reverse that.
@@r-platt thank you.......
@@mherziarescatie Dear-heart,
If you have any questions, please feel free to ask. I will not judge you or declare what you must do.
Otherwise, I wish you peace, health and joy.
Oh Rachel, well done you sister. I cried tears of pure joy watching this. Your story could be my story, could be everyone's story who desires to be who they were born to be. Now you are girl and I am so happy for you. I am 47 and only told my Mom this past week, she is 86 and to my joy she said she always knew and why not sooner. You cannot change the past only live in the now. I am beginning my hormone and transition journey in 3 weeks. Keep smiling you beautiful soul......a sister in Ireland xx
Thank you for sharing your story, I'm so happy for you ❤ Now your smile is BEAUTIFUL!!
My best friend when i was a child love wearing his mother's dresses i used to laugh because i thought he was clowning around he was always making us laugh when he got older he now designs and makes dresses so we all know from a young age who and what we are, much love.
Absolute great transition. Well done!
If someone showed me a pic of you know and didn't tell me that you had transitioned I wouldn't have been able to tell.
I'm glad you are living your life on your own terms and are happy doing so.
I wish you all the luck in the world as you go forward.
This is so inspirational as I start to being my own transition. Thank you for posting it.