Battling Demons: One Woman's Struggle with Addiction in the Heart of Kensington - Caroline
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- Опубліковано 11 лип 2023
- Captured July 8, 2023
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She still has her beauty.. the longer she's there..the faster she'll be on the walking dead series...sad sad sad..🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾
She looks alot older than 35. Drugs really ruin beauty. 2:20 I love you Mal! You are awesome.❤
Agreed
Obviously beauty doesn’t matter thag much . Idk why y’all always say this as if beauty is some fckin thing to live for
I went to highschool w Carolyn! She is such an amazing soul. So beautiful, my heart literally breaks for her. Girlfriend, you deserve so much out of life, get better for your boys, you are so worth it! I wish I could heal you my love.
lovely woman, I feel for her. The shame and pain of addiction and helpless feeling is awful, I know this. It's such an awful destructive force.
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Caroline, thank you for sharing your story with us. You have great wishes and I pray they all come true. You are worth it.
She's not to far gone. I hope she gets help, and off the streets.
Caroline your worth so much better and deserve so much better. Your well spoken, and you told your story from the heart. Thank you for sharing. You can beat this disease. It will not be easy, but you can recover. I'm rooting for you. I pray that you get all the services you need and that all your dreams come true. Blessings to the AML Family and Mal 🙏🙏🙏
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Continuing to pray for you Caroline. 🙏
I was in your situation for years and the thing that changed my life was watching the pain and suffering of my wife and the people around me starving and literally suffering to death I just got up and walked to get help one day witch in turn forced my wife to turn herself in and I’ve been clean for 6yrs in September you just have to get up and get out of there bc the odds of it is you are gonna eventually die I’ve seen so many people pass my wife passed after she got released I hope and pray you take that serious it could happen to you and your friends it could be over in a second
Sorry for the loss of your wife,I hope your strength will inspire those that read your story,respect! 😊
@@philippamcqueen5430 thank you I was just venting shouldn’t have been so hard sometimes when you’re on these substances you are numb to what you’re doing to yourself and others like your kids and boyfriends and girlfriends and family that’s why people can do things that are immoral you just don’t care about what happens till you get your mind cleared of these substances
Im so sorry for your loss. Your story gives others hope though that they too can start the long road to becoming clean. I'm really proud of you. Hugs
Everyday is a struggle, everyday is a blessing❤ I always like to see the end of my day on the “up swing” tomorrow is a new day…Something to look forward to. Everyone has their Earthly struggles, perhaps that’s why we are here to fix them;) I’m dealing with stage4 colon cancer ( soooo many with darker feelings…I’m sorry) and I’m squeezing all my life in good days and hard ones…I’m thankful for everyone;) I’m in bed more then out. I have a wonderful neighbor Mrs. Gray…around 90:) and keeps me on my toes, not feeling sorry for myself. If I could give advice…keep picking yourself up off the floor, out of bed, outside…dust yourself off. I do like the powdered liquid IV’s, you can find at every drug store. Just keep trying !
@@kristineobrien8878 you’re right everyday is a struggle and a blessing I pray god heals your cancer quickly
Caroline hope the best for you.
The only person that cares about your hopes & dreams is YOU. The only person that is going to make them HAPPEN is you.
Life is a one-time OFFER. Use it well...
She has’nt been out there that long , there is good hope for her to get off the drugs 🙏🙏
I didn't recognize her without her glasses. She seems dimmer and quieter but still so beautiful!!! Her and her boyfriend have really good heads on their shoulders. They try to be as respectful as they can to everyone around them.
I’m an ex addict and not getting clean for your kids is definitely selfish. No sugar coating…..If you want something you have to fight hard for it. You fight hard to get your next fix. Fight hard to get help for your sobriety. Your children NEED you! Not fair to them to not have a mother in their life full time. They didn’t ask to be brought into this world. Get your life straight before your children lose their mother. You know how hard that would be on them? Your still young, beautiful and have a whole life ahead of you to do great things! You can do this!!
Keep your head up, it’s the most difficult battle you will ever face. I hope your wishes/dreams come true.
I have been and addict since 14 yo, I’m 43 now. I had significant clean time but relapsed 7yrs ago. I am fortunate to have a safe place to live. I raised my children when I was sober. They are now grown and thriving. I lost my son on NYE2020 to a fentynal OD. I have spiraled since then, should never have been him it should have been me. It has been so difficult to get sober. There is no protocol to detox us safely from the Tranq. Moreover, the protocol for detox is a one size fits all approach. I have not been able to find a place that caters your detox to you. I have been taken out on a stretcher because the detox is unable to keep me stable. My BP skyrockets to 220/180+, HR stays around 170 and the vomiting is uncontrollable which messes up my electrolytes. I believe that many of us would push through being uncomfortable but when detox is this dangerous and medical staff can’t manage it, we resort back to what puts us at our homeostasis.
Caroline keep positive. People like you will help others prevail.
This touched my heart… I’m going to send something soon for Carolyn 🙏🏼💜
Carolyn, you’re a beautiful person with a good head on your shoulders. You deserve to give yourself a better life. I’m sorry you ended up in this situation. Sending Prayers and positivity to you. 🙏🌸
What she's saying is so important!
To keep sending homeless people to rehab is just a total waste of time and resources. If that person has no safe, long term living arrangement, there's no chance whatsoever that they're going to stay clean.
That's just common sense.
Who on earth could stay clean on the streets?
You're in danger and on edge constantly.
I mean, I'd guess most homeless people have PTSD.
It's like a was zone out there.
People should be offered long time treatment. And half houses and then sober living housing as long as they want or need until they themselves feel stable enough to live on their own.
Hope you get a bit of luck in the future sweetheart 😘 love from Scotland 🏴💯💙
Dear Caroline, stay safe 🙏🏾 I love your energy and I pray you find your way back to yourself and your boys 🙏🏾💫🌟💫
Mal, thank you for your continued love, care and work you do. It’s so sad such human beings are stuck in addiction. Only if we could wave a magic wand to take it all away and give these people a drug-free productive life. The closest thing that could be done is for citizens to vote differently for politicians who will enact much better policies, ensure funds are spent on resources that actually help people get OUT of addiction, provide mental health services, job training and jobs, low-rent “recovery housing” communities where there are comprehensive services including residents working on-site jobs, stop the flow of drugs, build better communities and ensure great opportunities for children and parents, and help grass root groups/organizations and Individuals like you so that you can continue your great assistance that you provide. As it is now, it’s in an emergency state and minimally- clean and safe bathrooms should be placed around the area, a program for users to pick up needles and trash off of the ground should be implemented to keep Kensington clean and litter free, and additional resource and medical facilities need to be opened and fully staffed, including wound care and treatment for withdrawal so people can comfortably go into a rehabilitation facility. This is the 21st century- we can send a man to the moon, we have developed a near cure for HIV, we can transition men into women (?), supposedly men can now have babies and “chest” feed. So, why can’t the medical and pharmaceutical sector create something to erase the withdrawal symptoms??????? And, why can’t something be developed that is a safe alternative to the illicit and addictive prescription medication - something that can produce a feeling of well being but that keeps a person focused, productive, safe, clean and whole?
Such a beautiful person. How can the government abandon these people in face of a drug flood? So sad!
Terribly sad! 😢
This country send our tax money everywhere else but where it counts which is here at home! Unreal
They abandon the seniors too. I am 64 and living in my SUV in Florida. I have been working since I was 17. Retired Disabled RN. I do not drink or do drugs. Renting or buying a house is too expensive.
@@amargacanica1042 What I don't understand ~ everyone says what you said. Most citizens don't agree with 75% to 90% of what our state & federal government is doing. We vote for them & outnumber them. There's something obviously wrong. I'm not suggesting I have a solution. I just see a huge problem while most folks are squawking over whatever is put in front of their face.
Gov is 😈 🐍
God bless you Carolyn, you are a awesome person.
She's not to far gone!! Jesus please help this woman sending LOVE AND GRATITUDE!! HELP HER PLEASE
What she said about the bad Vibes and people acting unusually crazy I have noticed the same attitude everywhere lately. Something strange is happening, like a dark cloud is coming over things. Just wondering ?
What do you think it is?
I think the covit vax has something to go with it but it’s not the only cause.
Often when addicts are asked what their biggest fear in life is they answer having their death explained to the children they leave behind. I suggest a reframing of that mindset to reflect the reality that their continuing in addiction will more than likely result in their children's following in their footsteps. A truly selfless addict would understand that dynamic, it is afterall the reason why you ask them to tell you about their childhood.
Ur a bright lady praying u can get an injoy ur life u have a purpose God bless
Happening over and over !!
You are loved!
Beautiful Carolyn! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️
Excellent interview Mal. This woman is very real and seemingly honest about her situation and responsibility for her part of the disease. I pray she stays safe and gets the heck out of there!
Caroline sounds like a really cool person I pray that she gets better so that she can be with her kids & the rest of her family. She seems to have a good heart.
Thank you for sharing your story with us Caroline. I truly hope that you get the help you need, it's so important to have support around you once you leave rehab as that is when you need it most. We're here if you ever need to talk to someone. Hugs from Australia
She should never leave her boyfriends side for even a minute praying for her to get out of there.drugs are horrible!!
Their bfs do the same stuff..
A lot of these girls this age have a husband n kids.. A whole family.
I actually thought this was my bm at first. But she's got a diff accent and my no tattoos. They dress the same same age everything
Loved this interview. She's a lovely lady , I wish her the best ❤
My top 3 favorite interviews with ATM... super genuine interview..
He’s AML, totally different…
Hey Mal, great interview she’s a pretty woman she seems like she’s fed up with this life. Putting prayers up for her🙏🏼
Thanks for allowing us to have a window into your heart and mind. Listen to that inner you, its telling you its not safe. There are people that need you and love you. Take Care ❤
Caroline, given your present life situation, you look and sound fabulous, please find the inner strength to come to terms with your addiction and seek help. Blessings to you. Good luck ❤
Beautiful ❤
Caroline. Good news. If you try really hard, your wishes will come true.
I hear right now you don't want to quit. Believe in yourself and believe in your kids.
Best interviewer and amazing guest much enjoyed hope she makes it out of the quicksand
Love heading your way Caroline💙💙💙
One step at a time… she is on her way to “ loveliness”, just looking at her, I feel Angel wings wrapped around her…she has a lot of beautiful living to share and live;)❤
She still looks good and healthy plus her mind is good ..Get out before you lose your life ❤
🙏🏻 praying for you!
Caroline sounds like a lovely lady. I hope she can get up out of her situation.
Omg love her!!! Shes such a GrEaT n AmAziNg person..I hope she does get clean! Shes sooo beautiful!! She most def needs to get clean..its the best thing for her! I have clothes that would fit her and help her out! Please let me know...keepin her in my PRAYERS!
Can we hear more about the area that’s up in the train tracks that’s she’s takin bout.
Its all BAD. Think of the worst things possible, and then times it by 100. That just about sums it up!
Caroline please try to allow and apply your strengths against anything that has weakened your daily routines & thoughts. You hv been through some tough life threatening scares out there. Change begins when we can feel a need to approach seeking another way. Speaking your current feelings is a huge release. Look forward towards exploring a better life path for you that you are deserving of to approach. Keep faithfulness, love & light on a daily to help you lead your desires to fruition. Blessings & Prayers for you to release any stagnation from what doesn't serve you. 🙏💪🙊🙉🙈🌟🌠🌈
Caroline, I really like you as a persone and your unique way of thinking. Hope you manage to make your 3 wishes come true, know Is difficultà but I can see how much you want it.
You can do it❤
Thank you for ALL you do!
I wish more people knew that addiction is a disease, not a moral deficiency. Would folks turn their backs on a person struggling with diabetes, cancer?
We DO recover! 💫💪💞 ~
... if we can survive active addiction. 😞
I see a beautiful soul with a whole bunch of potential! 🤩 I pray she accepts any & all help to get AND stay clean.
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You are very nice person I can tell but also very naive I see . I wish it works the way you described it! Being optimist is wonderful but being realist is a very difficult thing.
@@amargacanica1042 You ARE 100% correct. Too MANY young people don't understand: Life is not always a matter of holding good cards, but sometimes playing a POOR hand very well.
@@amargacanica1042 Thank you! I am a very nice person.
🤭 I also will have 11 years clean in September. It works if you work it!
I'm definitely not naive. I got clean while homeless as well ~ meaning, nobody propped me up either. No amount of desire OR will power is enough. Parents can't do it for their kids. I've also survived Stage IV Grade 3 cancer.
I guess I can see why you would have such untruthful assumptions. I didn't provide you with any information.
I hope you have a nice day.
@@josephschmohl1157 Beautifully said!
@@Stacey0909 it’s not a assumption it’s a statistical fact period. You are one of the few and I commend you for that absolutely amazing but still not a realistic expectation for most and that’s the fact. You don’t believe me read up on it it’s loud and clear. Much respect to you and if I was you I’ll be going around and be helping them get on their feet I am sure they can use someone like you but I am afraid that you know better and it doesn’t work unless they really want to help themselves, mental health issues plays major part in homelessness , homelessness is a choice in the USA , we don’t live in a 3rd world country, no excuse, embrace the suck and keep pushing forward.Period.
The heat will pass and so will she. She's is truly beautiful inside and out. I'm sending prayers she will stay safe and find her way xoxo❤
You are such a beautiful women inside and out ! You are selfless! Please girl get sober for yourself first & your sons second ! You NEED this ! It’s such a better way of life on this side ! I have 81 days today !
This man is doing more good than he knows having these people tell and process their stories. Some will try and some will get clean from doing this.
That right there! is the biggest failure in an addicts life, not wanting to be judged by their loved ones. Not wanting to deal with reality sucks but you gain respect when you own up and take responsibility . Life isn’t ever going to be easy but going through it sober is better than dragging your body around
Yeah it’s actually easier to walk on the ground than the quicksand
Prayers for you to get your life back.
She can get out of this. She's really with it and hasn't lost herself yet. I wish her all the luck.
You seem like such a beautiful soul. I will think of you and send you the love you deserve to feel.
Olá de Portugal ❤😢
God bless you pray to the lord for everything you are talking about don’t give up you seem like a good person and good head on your shoulder pray to the lord he will make a way for you girl god bless ✝️🙏🏻
Looking at this girl, I'd never thought she's an addict.
She looks great for being a 35 year old homeless girl who's been using for many years.
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My birthday is also October 23rd. I consider myself a Scorpio. I also love Fall the best.
I hope you get help and get your second wind of LIFE do it for you and your kids they deserve to have their mom ❤
Good looking woman! 35! Very pretty. Get clean and the whole world is happy!
Caroline 💯
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Good luck Sweetheart 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏♥️
Carol come to Massachusetts
Weve so much in commen i been off drugs4 10 years
I would love to have u as my sister❤
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America is one of 9 countries w out Universal Healthcare
Yemen
Syria
Iraq
Afghanistan
Egypt
Nigeria
Iran
South Africa
Pakistan
& us
Pathetic
These people all get free healthcare surgeries admitted wound care std tests hep c treatment free needles pregnancy/ abortions, infections cardiovascular disease etc and these people make more money day tax free than most usa working taxpayers
We can only hope that those who wish for a better life somehow find the way to claw their way out of that misery
If Ppl would fight to stay sober like they fight to get high constantly working the program and completely turn your life over to god! You will gain the ability and strength to live.
Love yourself, and you an see what a real man can show you true love. I use to ha e bad men, Give your life to the lord, he will make a way for you, he is true love. Your beautiful and sweet. My prayers for you.😢
All of these people who aren’t too deep have a chance to get out. Everyone else I feel has no chance. With the tranq and the wounds. How do you have a chance to go to treatment if you can’t go in with sores and you have you detox and treat sores first. I fear all those past this aren’t getting out
Lovely lady❤ 🌹. Stay away from the tracks please get on the methadone your got so much to live for your kids love you😊
I never understood it till i was it. Dang.
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If you were self “less” you wouldn’t have had 3 children. We have children for our egos
did she say oct 43rd?
Whos dude in white standing in the background??
You can get clean….just do it
Isn’t this the girl that said her name was Laura Mae?
Sadly you will change hussle and sell your sell when times get tough, as a female
Damn since 2020 so 3 years of that crap makes u look 20 yrs older..damn
Thought this was my baby momma for a sec
Only demon she's battling? Is herself.
Give them some food and drinks
C'est la même chanson,
Mais la différence c'est que toi, tu n'es plus là..
Claude François
Hopefully she got her self together. Ur to intelligence to mess with the trash. God bless u. Stop go to Rehsb. Stop doing it gether urself together.
She does dates
She doesnt believe in G but she wants to go to Heaven ….?
What do shoes hanging from a line mean?
People need to get right with Jesus. Period.
Someone was killed
You need to learn how to use your camera mal
Damn... she could've been wifey
Sad
What does that mean?
The tracks sound so terrifying.
We all need help.
Laundry List
The Laundry List - 14 Traits of an Adult Child of an Alcoholic
We became isolated and afraid of people and authority figures.
We became approval seekers and lost our identity in the process.
We are frightened by angry people and any personal criticism.
We either become alcoholics, marry them or both, or find another compulsive personality such as a workaholic to fulfill our sick abandonment needs.
We live life from the viewpoint of victims and we are attracted by that weakness in our love and friendship relationships.
We have an overdeveloped sense of responsibility and it is easier for us to be concerned with others rather than ourselves; this enables us not to look too closely at our own faults, etc.
We get guilt feelings when we stand up for ourselves instead of giving in to others.
We became addicted to excitement.
We confuse love and pity and tend to “love” people we can “pity” and “rescue.”
We have “stuffed” our feelings from our traumatic childhoods and have lost the ability to feel or express our feelings because it hurts so much (Denial).
We judge ourselves harshly and have a very low sense of self-esteem.
We are dependent personalities who are terrified of abandonment and will do anything to hold on to a relationship in order not to experience painful abandonment feelings, which we received from living with sick people who were never there emotionally for us.
Alcoholism is a family disease; and we became para-alcoholics and took on the characteristics of that disease even though we did not pick up the drink.
Para-alcoholics are reactors rather than actors.
Tony A., 1978
This list goes for many other groups of people, too.
None of my parents drank, yet that list is me.
Do you know if many children of alcoholics are diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder, BPD?
Because this description to me looks a lot like the traits of a person with BPD.
Beautifully stated .
What’s she getting for a slurpee?