Jacob, the neuroleptics will kill you! You don't have to take neuroleptics! You will be able to cope with these states without drugs. Absolutely all mental states at the level of the physical body are manifested as muscle tension. Learn to feel it. Close your eyes and try to see all the muscle tensions in your body that deprive you of a comfortable state. Pay special attention to the muscles of the face and head. And then, not paying attention to these muscle tensions, you should try to achieve a comfortable state. You can get comfortable condition with a lot of muscle tension. People often do not notice this strong muscle tension and unconsciously support it. This tension may be so strong that your efforts will not be enough to remove it. But your efforts should be directed not to maintain tensions but to remove them. To do this, you only need to focus on the state of internal comfort. If you notice that the internal tension as it pulls attention to yourself, try to focus attention on this place, and then as if to get out from under this concentration of attention. This can be called the technique of scattered attention. Then this thing can happen - you concentrate on some place, you can relax the muscles, but the tension has changed the configuration and went to another place. You track tensions again and you leave from it again and it goes to another place again. So you can meditate as much as you want. If you succeed, then there is a certain pleasure in it. It is better to do it at night, but you can do it at any time. You can anywhere at least for a moment to close your eyes and instantly disconnect. In depression, do not orient on the emotional color of the feeling, but only on its strength. Well, that is the reason for depression can be anything and feelings can be different. But the feelings should be ignored as if they don't exist. Learn to meditate this way!
@STINKY BUG 05:52 - "and now I just feel like I'm constantly dying like every time I go to sleep or I lay in bed I always think this is the last time I'm gonna be alive I'm gonna wake up well I'm not gonna wake up and I'm gonna be dead every night every night I deal with that" Jacob, you already know that feelings can deceive. And, as it seems, you can quite understand when feelings deceive you, and when do not deceive. Feelings are the wind. If you understand that feelings or thoughts do not correspond to the real situation, that they are very strong or unpleasant to you, try to think of it as the wind. Let them be as it were outside of you. Don't support them with your feelings. Be completely neutral to them. Just watch them play, but don't get your head in this game.. Remember - feelings are the wind. The wind is passing and there is no wind. Don't fly away with the wind. And stop taking the pills! You feel bad from the pill but not from schizophrenia.
Neuroleptics and antidepressants have a chemical effects on the brain. They don't cure. They have another target. Their goal is to calm the person, it is a chemical binding. Side effects of neuroleptics do not arise from the fact that they affect the internal organs, but from the fact that they affect the brain and disrupt the brain. The brain stops working correctly and therefore the internal organs are disrupted. Because of this reason, anxiety and fear of death may arise. Hallucinations don't do you as much harm as neuroleptics do. Schizophrenia does not damage internal organs, schizophrenia does not damage the brain. But this is what the neuroleptics give you in full measure. You can live without neuroleptics. You will have the same symptoms, but your blood pressure will not rise, your heart will not ache, you will be able to exercise and you will be able to learn to control your behavior without medication.
I’m always terrified that I have to go out into public and face people. I’m genuinely terrified of the internet and I deleted all my social media two years ago because it filled me with absolute terror and panic. I’m afraid of graduating, getting a car, a job, and being an adult once I finish high school. I’m 17 and I’ve been mentally screwed over by my own brain for the past 5 years. I feel like I’m drowning in my own body, constantly so I know how it feels. The advice I would give you is to seek out switching medication, constantly distract yourself with hobbies when you feel anxious, and look into different forms of therapy. Other forms of keeping yourself calm are meditation, and healthy forms of fidgeting with putty and stuff. Also you should research some breathing techniques for keeping calm, and do them once every few hours. You seem like a really genuine guy and you don’t deserve to suffer from these delusions and anxiety. No one does. Keep looking up and if you never need someone to talk to, it looks like you have a lovely selection of people supporting you, including me. Stay strong dude. ❤️
Feeling like you’re constantly dying, I hear you. Everything you’re saying is what I go through also. Having a pet pass away and another health scare is anxiety provoking in itself, so it makes sense that your anxiety is so high. It’s a trigger point, and you’re comstantly in a wrestling with your logic place and your anxiety. Behaviorally you could work on 20 min a day of relaxation, tensing your muscles and relaxing them, or listening to your favorite music, thats helped me. But if you do the behavior task and it isn’t enough, you might want to see about getting meds adjusted so it works better for you. Just advice from an anxiety sufferer. I’m not a medical doctor.
I don’t suffer with schizophrenia, but I came across your channel because I also deal with severe anxiety with panic attacks. I can’t tell you how much your words hit home. I’m constantly in pain, panicking, worrying, and have all these physical symptoms of anxiety and it’s truly awful. Interestingly enough, my anxiety makes me worry that I’m getting schizophrenia or some sort of brain disorder that will make me go “crazy” (whatever crazy is). I can’t imagine having to deal with both schizophrenia and anxiety. If anxiety is this bad, I can’t even think of what schizophrenia is like. Though from what you said I guess they are just completely different rather than one being worse from the other. Thank you for being open about your struggles.Knowing someone is also going through this is so reassuring. You impact so many more people than you would know.
Man I'm only about 2 minutes in so far but I feel this so much. I've been especially terrified of dying lately. I've had this pain in my right side since March and nobody has been able to explain it. I've lost ten pounds at this point and I'm light than ever. Anyway, Just wanted to say you're not alone and these videos really help people like me.
Also, just to follow up after finishing the video; I also have been housebound for quite some time now. I'm 23 now and have been stuck at home for the most part since about age 18 due to anxiety and all sorts of weird physical health issues that the doctors mostly blame on anxiety. I know it can feel like whenever anything starts to get better, something else pops up and makes it worse. As far as suggestions go, have you ever looked into any agoraphobia discords? I've been in a few here and there and I know it sounds kind of corny but I've met some people on there who can relate to my situation and it's helped me quite a bit. I'm also always down to talk if you ever need someone to message about this stuff. Anyway, those are just a few things that come to mind. I wish you all the best man. This mental illness stuff can be truly awful.
I've had the same issues on and off pal. The sick irony is that the pains on your side and weight loss are anxiety symptoms. I get very severe pains on my heart a lot from anxiety and then I panic and it only makes it worse. Try to keep in mind that there are thousands of possible causes and only a token handful are dangerous. At our age especially, you're the same as me, we generally have nothing to worry about. Try to avoid internet searching your symptoms as I find that only makes me feel worse as Google jumps straight to cancer for basically everything you look up. I recommend trying to get out the house, even if it's just for five minutes. Hiding yourself away only further deepens the mental hole we trap ourselves in. There's always people who understand and people to talk to. Even if it's us strangers on the internet!
@@A-Disappointed-Horse Oh yeah you're absolutely right about googling. I've read about people my age with colon cancer and it's been on my mind quite a bit lately. You're right though it does no good to sit there and obsess over it (Even if it was something serious). Hope things get better for you man. It's really awful to live with.
As someone who has suffered from anxiety a lot in the past, I’d say the best advice I can give is just to let the dreadful feelings be. Don’t fight them, just let them be. When you obsess over what might be wrong with you, the shitty feelings just dig themselves in more deeply. You’re ironically keeping them alive by fighting them. Just do your thing and try not to fret over why you feel the way you feel. Once I fundamentally understood this at 19, my anxiety faded over the course of a few months, and I’ve been relatively free of anxiety since. (I’m now 25.) Try to get out of the same neurotic thought loops my friend. Don’t give them your time of day. Sometimes forcing yourself to go for a walk works. Or jumping right into a social event you’re dreading. 99% of the time it’s not nearly as bad as you think, and often quite enjoyable. Focus on living life the way you want it, without letting your fears get the best of you. I’ve been there. I know it’s not easy. There’s no magic cure-all or an instant fix. There will be setbacks. But just aim to let the dreadful feelings be and force yourself to do things you feel too anxious for. ’Fake it ’til you make it’, in a sense. It’s liberating, and helps you break through toxic thought loops. You have to convince your brain you’re actually doing okay. And you can do this by ignoring the anxiety.
I can relate to this. I always feel so paranoid that something terrible is going to happen and I'm just waiting for it to happen. I feel constantly fatigued, like death is near. I'm so tense all the time and stressed out, over thinking loads, body hurts so bad, I feel horrible all the time and paranoid about going out, so been homebound awhile. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it, because unless you've got these things, people just don't really get IT. All in all, I deeply understand what your going through on that level. I'm sorry you're going through it too. Sending much love and positive vibes to you, my dude. 🙏
the demons...they like to bully those who are most afraid, don't let them...develop an appreciation for the darkside, do not fear it and do not reject it as UNREAL....
I know you don't go outside but fresh air helps me. I used to have a swing in my backyard that would really help me calm down. I would do that for hours at anytime. Now when I'm panicking at night I try to get my heart rate down by holding my cat.
I don't have scizophrenia, but I have lived with anxiety and panic attacks my entire life (in my late 30's now). What you describe has been most of my life. It's so similar, it's eerie. I have had the same thing going to bed knowing I won't wake up. The Paranoia. The actual physical symptoms. The obsessing. The only thing that has helped me has been the UA-cam channel "OCD and Anxiety". I am not cured, but I deal with so many less symptoms than I used to, it's like night and day.
Hi, Jacob! Happy Holidays! One thing that helped make my anxiety more bearable was meditation, it made me more calm and helped prevent panic attacks. Just 5 min. everyday already made a difference for me. And if you like teas, try some chamomile or lemon balm. I really do hope your anxiety gets at least a little better in time. Thank you so much for your videos. You don't know how much it helps us.
My son has schizophrenia he's 28 thank you for helping me understand. I use to be like that, I suffer from clinical depression and my meds aren't working like they use to. I never want to go out, take to people. I'm socially retarded. Ive always been a loner. I'm so sad people suffer with mental illness. Thank You.
I am binge-watching your channel and find that very interesting. I am really impressed how you are rational and try to push yourself to the best. You are amazing.
Happy New Years Jacob! You’ll get through your anxiety. Your a strong guy. And very smart. Try not to give much thought to your anxiety thoughts and they’ll be much more subtle. I’m wishing the best for you
Cannot imagine the torture you are going through...and knowing that it’s your brain working against you must be beyond overwhelming. I admire your courage and your strength beyond what words can convey.
You might ask your doc about this... could be a med thing- esp since you say that they are not working. You are not going to die, my dear...my thoughts and prayers with you.... that peace will envelope you!
I'm a long-time subscriber. I'm so sorry for your loss of your dog and your cat's current health issues. You know yourself best and it sounds like you have a pretty good plan about getting through this I'm trying to be confident. I have to found that some of the best advice for dealing with mental health issues is from people who have it themselves. Last May Mike at Kitty-Co I passed away I still find myself tearing up but a month later we've been telling yourself that we were going to get another cat I wanted it to choose us and along came Storm who is 10 months old now and a lovely orange boy full of but you can be but a butthead. And then about a month-and-a-half ago Bars! a long haired super soft beautiful female cat who is super shy kept hanging around our house I was super skinny so I started feeding her I'm working with her and now we're thinking about keeping her and acclimating her into her household! As far as my diagnosis is go I have schizoaffective, Gad, PTSD, dyslexia and capd along with some health issues. It's been a long road to find the right medications and I think we are finally there with Thorazine, Lexapro, Ativan for a long time I had any side effects from the atypicals the worst was dystonia... and now because of an knee injury last year I found out from the orthopedic surgeon that the combination of mental health meds and asthma meds exacerbates and makes it difficult for joint injuries to heal if ever and I never knew that. Some of the things that have helped me over the last few years are therapeutic oils like Haitian vetiver, cedar wood, lavender. I've also done a lot of mindfulness and grounding. Below here's a link to when that my therapist showed me. I hope that the next year and next decade is much better for you. www.uclahealth.org/marc/mindful-meditations
Wish I had something brilliant to tell you. I admire your strength in dealing with this. It is beyond brutal. Just keep hoping for a better tomorrow. Maybe you should get another kitty for more company and more to love. Stay strong as you can.
Anxiety is terrible. I have bipolar and I get it too. I’d recommend breathing exercises but the truth is they’re difficult to do during the anxiety. I hope you get through this rough patch and feel better soon.
I hope your doing ok with everything going on. Youre in my prayers. Cats are soothing. So calming and loving. Im glad your cat is healthy and doing well
Hey, I experience paranoia and anxiety, which are a bad combo. they tend to spike with my mood being unstable... when things aren't decent I will use my imagination to help me: I would imagine an animal helper (like a bear), and would talk to it (out loud) or think to it during the day all my worries, and I would just imagine the animal near me, sometimes answering me, sometimes just listening...i really like animals so this helps me to feel not alone and to feel that things are okay. I use my imagination to trick myself in some ways. Another thing I have imagined in small bursts is the sun- just the quiet, hot orb in the blue sky, pouring out heat without making a sound. this forces my mind to re-focus and drown out the noise. they dont cure but they help me sometimes alleviate symptoms when they arise. I hope these help...if not, I hope you find something that does. and I wish your cat well, she's really cute.
Thanks for speaking out about this, you're very brave and I hope things will get better for you, dealing with anxiety can feel suffocating and mixed up with depression and everything else makes it even worse... I've been struggling myself with anxiety and depression, have you tried meditation to reduce / calm anxiety ? Or music? it's pretty simple but sometimes it helps, obviously this probably won't work if you're feeling extremely anxious but maybe if you're starting to get anxious about something, you know, to try to focus on something else or clear your mind . Also, you can do some breathing exercices, that may seem a bit silly but it usually works, you gotta stay focused and aware of your breathing, inhale and exhale slowly while taking long breaths, it may seem obvious but that's one of the best ways to try and calm down your heart rate and relax a bit, anyway I hope you'll find a way to deal with it more effectively, thank you for posting videos and sharing about your experiences, take care !
I completely get the feeling. I really hope you're doing well now-a-days. You've always seemed like such a sweetheart to me. You deserve to feel better. ♡
I feel u 💯 I'm going through that too but I deal with it by hearing music see movie happy one n have cats n dogs I talk too alot I'm here for u 🙏❤️ God bless you
I think the best advise ive gotten is to have flexibility in your coping strategies. Sometimes mindfulness helps sometimes detracting yourself helps, art, animals, exercise, therapy. Like whatever feel like a good match at the time. Use your resources and don't be afraid to ask for help!
Finally as things were starting to look up, my anxiety is making quite the fun return. Not about me dying, but about people I care about either dying, getting hurt, or leaving and me never seeing them again (starting to remember why I isolated myself for so long). Some things that help take the edge off is trying to think through what scares me with logic. When I feel myself catastrophizing, I sometimes go through it with a word document and write down why the things I fear are not so likely to happen. I also have a weighted blanket, but idk if it's something that could worsen a heart condition or not.
i`ve been there too. different things work for different people. for me, good food, music, exercise, endless research, enlightenment, nature and my kitten has helped, with no meds at all. conscious self-governance. still not out of the woods yet, still hear voices but after over three years, i can say i feel better than i did in the beginning. i think you just have to find what "speaks" to you other than the voices. these are some quotes that help me. hope they help you too: “it is of no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” - Jiddu Krishnamurti "If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present." - Lao Tzu “There is no illusion greater than fear.” - Lao Tzu “Fear does not prevent death. It prevents life.” - Naguib Mahfouz “Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.” - Lao Tzu “There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” - C.G. Jung “Nobody can fall so low unless he has a great depth. If such a thing can happen to a man, it challenges his best and highest on the other side; that is to say, this depth corresponds to a potential height, and the blackest darkness to a hidden light.” - Carl G. Jung “No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” - Buddha “It`s beautiful to be alone. To be alone does not mean to be lonely. It means the mind is not influenced and contaminated by society.” - Jiddu Krishnamurti "Anti-social behavior is a trait of intelligence in a world full of conformists." - Nikola Tesla "The more powerful and original a mind, the more it will incline towards the religion of solitude." - Aldous Huxley “Use the light that is within you to revert to your natural clearness of sight.” - Lao Tzu “Be a light unto oneself.” - Jiddu Krishnamurti
There’s a lot to be said for activity of “doing nothing”. The question that is bound to pop up every day is “What do you wanna do?” and when a holiday comes around, the inevitable “Did you have a good time” and the obligatory “What’d do?”. These questions always dogged me and I spent years thinking that I had to be “doing” in order to validate life. To keep yourself calm, empty your mind and breathe slowly, concentrating on a special place that is all yours. It could be the sky for example. Also, having little friends like your cat always help and keep in mind that your not struggling alone at any time.
Sorry to hear your anxiety is getting much worse, Jacob. I also suffer from extreme anxiety and ocd to the point where I feel physically bad, like you. Let me preface my suggestion with this: I'm not a doctor, that being said the only thing thats really ever helped my anxiety is a medication called Clonazepam aka Klonopin. So I suggest you ask your psychiatrist if a benzodiazepine may work for you. They're potent, and addictive but they have a high success rate at treating anxiety.
I’m on ability and Zoloft I have anxiety and schizophrenia too, well schizoaffective disorder, but I also am on busperone for panic attacks I take it when I’m panicked and it calms me down in minutes I hope that your anxiety can calm down for you! I totally get the physical pains that come with anxiety it’s wear and tear like you said: because of something my brain is doing! I really hope you can figure something out! I also have a spire stone for breathing. That may help you have an app and it will allow you to do short breathing excersises! This may help you but I know every one is different! I wish you well this coming year!
Love your videos, and I hope you can get your anxiety managed. Lots of love from fellow schizophrenia person. Oh also, I use a sensory item to help with anxiety. For me, it's a piece of silk my hands rub to bring me back to norm. Something like a set of beads to wear or other things like that may help. Touch often helps bring peace. And as always, pet your cat. It lowers your blood pressure and alleviate stress.
I recently discovered your yt channel and I must say that you're a really interesting person! I myself am a student of Psychology and these subjects always catch my attention. I hope your doing well and all the best for your cat (I have 6 cats xD) And if you need someone to talk to I'm always there for an listening ear!
Anxiety stinks for sure especially if you have Schizophrenia as well. I take anxiety and depression medications as well as Super B Complex sometimes to help with bad anxiety. I'm glad your cat is doing better.
I feel you I have anxiety and alcohol addiction and anxiety is 1000 times worse then the alcohol addiction when I go out in public there’s about a 70% chance I will have a panic attack and that’s why I drink when I drink I feel happy and comfortable so I drink before I go to school and out in general I know it’s bad but the drinking addiction doesn’t feel as bad as the panic attack i wish there was a medication for anxiety because it can be very serious
I used to think I would die in my sleep and not be able to sleep due to my OCD and anxiety. For short term- id read literally every word in a magazine until i was so bored I passed out, but really that is what prompted me to go to a therapist for the first time. I had to try a few people but my psychologist has changed my ffcking life. I hope you find some relief
i have suffered with really bad anxiety since i was 13 and im 22 now. i have really bad feelings that im gonna die early and struggle to get to sleep sometimes because i have this thing where just as im about to fall asleep i get this really bad panic feeling and my heart starts racing not sure why and i also struggle to speak to people and go outside and things and still do and i was taught to try and focus on my breathing if i was having a panic attack and also counting in your head can help because it stops you from thinking about the anxious thoughts in your head at the time. when i got told to try those things i thought that they would never work but they do help for me. Also when i have anxious thoughts in my head i always find it helpful to try and think about the positive things that i at least do have in my life like family and my pets an things. anxiety is a real pain but those are just things that helped me a little bit with it.
Same here. But I guess I'm more afraid of life, because I don't know for how long the pain will last until death will (maybe) take it away. Btw you're very brave making videos about this. Much respect. I would be afraid that people will take advantage of it and use it against you. Anyways, feels nice yet sad that there are others with the same sickness. Feel supported.
I get what you are saying. I feel exactly the same way... i wake up at night sometimes ''Am i alive'' ''am i dying''..... and this morning when i woke up something said in my head '' Felicia is gone'' ... ''just an empty shell left''.... kind of scary, and i feel fatigue too..... but i still work half time anyway. Although it can be good sometimes...... i try to think positive... i have much to be happy about.... i thibk of things i'm thankful for...... Anyway... '' This too shall pass''
The only problem with hearing voices is being in public and not being able to differentiate between actual voices and other, which I'm sure creates anxiety. I guess there could be the issue of people knowing your situation, then talking and saying they didnt. That could be triggering.
So I probably the worst person ever to give advice because I have an anxiety disorder and I myself have trouble keeping calm. Here’s what has worked for me: 1) if you are having a panic attack calm yourself down say I’m not dying, this will pass 2) heat makes things worse get somewhere cool 3) lay down if possible 4) listen to soothing music. To reduce stress I do the wim hof breathing method. I stretch because my body gets sore. I try to take a walk everyday with one cheat day. I highly recommend buying headphones. I live in mine because they help me to deal with the voices. You can listen to music or watch something. I’m dire need I’ll take something and try to sleep. Hope this helps.
In 2019 I lost my mother and grand-mother from cancer (that was, apart my father who lives far away, all my family). I'm 21 and I began to feel sick all the time after those events. I know it's (hopefully) not real too but it's difficult to live with. I'm a student in occupational therapy so it's difficult to help others that are suffering when you're not feeling good in your life. I have no advices to you but I hope it will get better. I noticed that when I'm busy I feel a lot better so maybe by starting a new project or activity you will get distracted by those feelings. Also don't be affraid to ask for check-up to your doctor. I did it and I feel better knowing indicators are good and the probabilities that I will die from an undiagnosed dicease are very low. I hope there are people around you to listen to your anxious thoughts help you feel better.
I also have schizophrenia and a history of depression and severe anxiety. This may not apply to you but in my experience just seeing a regular therapist (not a psychiatrist) to talk about what was bothering me in my life helped me overcome a lot of my anxiety. Just taking the time to talk about shit once a week for 4 or so months helped me identify and tackle the underlying causes of my anxiety. It takes a while to sort out and there's no quick fix for anxiety but it can be dealt with. Also it's worth considering doing more exercise or taking up a martial art, just anything that's going to make you feel more confident and secure in yourself. Sorry if you don't find this advice particularly helpful. I hope at the very least you feel better :^)
I am going through the same that you have been through for a lifetime. and the medications I take don't help me much. I feel I have paranoid schizophrenia, but my doctors still don't want to rule out other diagnoses. I'm sick and I don't know what to do. I fully understand you.
Sorry to hear you're going through this, i've experienced something similar. Please try journaling your thoughts, i believe it will help you a lot, Make it a daily habit. And as corny as it sounds, try some yoga. lol
Hey Jacob :) I don't have experience with Schizophrenia or the dread you speak of. I have, however, struggled with social anxiety, general anxiety and panic throughout most of my life. I have always wondered what it was that terrified me about people. Was it their unpredictability or the fact that they may be judging me or observing me? In any case, I don't think medication can improve any of the anxiety symptoms you mentioned, or at least it didn't help me. What DID work was THERAPY. Actual group therapy or just sessions with a therapist. There are many options out there, but I do suggest a group setting. That can benefit you far greatly than any mindfulness from your part. I was shocked to find out how many people experienced similar thoughts and ideas. While we are all different, we bond to others through our similarities. I know it seems daunting at first, especially if you've had some bad experiences, but sharing your thoughts and ideas with others is greatly therapeutical, and it also alleviates stress. Bonding with others, however it may be, changes your physical state, your perception of pain and your mindset, among other things. The fact about social anxiety is that unfortunately it does cause you to become more isolated, which in turn produces even more stress, forming a loop. And that was what I was stuck in through most of my life. I haven't made a complete turnover. I am still me, still a bit shy, hesitant, always perceiving and taking in more than is really out there... but I have found people like that, people who experience life similarly, with whom I can share my distress and even laugh about it. I can't say that it will work in you 100%, but it really reduced my anxiety, not only in social gatherings, but generally. People DO help, I know it sounds unbelievable, but they do. Anyway, I hope you find something useful in here and give it a shot. Lost of love Jacob, and good luck :)
Good to hear from you. 2020 is brand new; think of it as a clean slate. Who knows what's in store? I hope good times reach you soon. ...nice shirt, btw :^)
For a while and only recently has it stopped, I would feel like I was about to have a heart attack every night and it kept me up until at least 6am. I actually know what true anxiety feels like now. I hope everything's going well for you! Cheers.
☼ Novelty helps. It is risk and reward. Especially novel things still from the room. There are psychological techniques to kind of *refuse* to worry anymore. Accept death. But they are not, i suppose, _technically_ , 'healthy'. In training we arent suppose to teach them. But I argue that is up to the person deploying them. Everything else you'll know. Or I would have said before. I can only say what works for me. Environmental control, w/exposure (ie making close to you house trips, when *weather isnt too hot or cold* , to a library or public lecture. Where there is single stimulus to focus on, but no one expects anything from you, and you can leave whenever you want). Tiktok is another serious one. & explore other peoples' worlds through online. It would be too much for me to suggest adding a stimulant or anxiolytic. altering stable medications is always (usually too high) of a gamble. & though dopamine ags can be protective, it will be argued that the risk of increased schizophrenic Sx is too high. & maybe that is true. & adding a benzo, to a beta blocker and an antipsych and antiDep is a lot. Though i will say, a lot of docs think sedation and anxiolysis is the same thing: and it isnt. Lowering BP is not directly anxiolytic. Antipsychs are not anxyolytic just bc they are sedating. & antiDeps are not anxiolytic - that was a sales pitch. ("everyone being different" has to be mixed in there, and "if it works for you" is always the cornerstone of medicine as well) But again, altering meds is always a last resort. & the behavioral stuff is still also required. meds are only assistants and shields. Thats all ive got for now. Let us know if you find anything new that works too. Later man. =) JC
I have a certain meditation I do to help me ground and calm myself. It’s a weird one and one I made myself so bear with me. I chose a rock that I can hold. When I feel I need to I just sit down and hold the rock. I try to steady my breathing then imagine roots like those of a tree going deep into the ground. I let the whispers shift in running water then song. It’s personalized for myself so yeah. It may need some adjustments. I stay with the specific rock because I try and make a connection in my brain that it means to calm down. Things to fiddle with can help. I’ll often try to channel my anxiety into an outlet such as writing. Music is a huge help for me as I could sing before I could talk so it’s always been there. This is some of the things that help me personally.
Hey Jacob, hope you're doing better now than when you made this video. Have you tried any new strategies lately, and if so how did it go? I definitely relate to what you said about the fear of dying, feeling like you won't wake up, will be killed, are never safe etc. I've had times where i feeel like my death is imminent and everything is final. Anxiety in the form of a cold, paralysing numbnes which sort feels like I'm already dead. The thought would grip me and take over, like other psychotic thoughts do. The worst of those times was 6 months ago, I'm now doing much better due acute treatment, changes in medications, change of routine, learning to be an observer of my thoughts and thereby seperate myself from them - not easy/not cured but is giving way to a change in my mindset. Any questions? Am more than happy to elaborate - Are you by any chance taking Propanolol for your blood pressure/anxiety? Or another similar Beta Blocker? I was and am sure it caused a worsening of these symptoms, lack of motivation and shortnes of breath (Dr agrees, so does list of rare side effects) - Another thing is exercise. I find it helpful even if only in a small way and my muscles tend to feel less painful and tense when i exercise regularly. Start small with some very basic stretches, rolling your shoulders, move your arms and legs around. Build up to a 5 or 10 minute stroll near your house - which will hopefully lead to more and also help increase your comfort zone to outside your house (I also did this and it helped). - Also I sense that you are kind of stuck, and that something really needs to chage with you. I know you say you are good at dealing with stress and I don't dispute that, but I wonder if you could use more help with your mental health at the moment. I've been in a similat state, it scares me to think back on that and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. So it also scares me to see you like this. Hope that didn't sound patronising Last thing, I want to say thanks for making your videos I've been watcing you for years and find you reall interesting and articulate!! You have helped me - hope some of these ideas may be of some use to you. All the best 😊
I was wondering if you have anger issues, or if schizophrenia brings on anger issues, my brother has schizophrenia since he was 22 and it seems like he progressively gets angrier and more bitter every year. Thanks, and thanks for all the awareness and understanding you bring towards mental illness.
I feel you I have anxiety and alcohol addiction and anxiety is 1000 times worse then the alcohol addiction when I go out in public there’s about a 70% chance I will have a panic attack and that’s why I drink when I drink I feel happy and comfortable so I drink before I go to school and out in general I know it’s bad but the drinking addiction doesn’t feel as bad as the panic attack
Understand I've always had issues with anxiety. to be honest I do the same thing when I sleep. I always feel like I'm going to die. but as far as my public anxiety goes I start telling myself the everyone judging everyone and it doesn't matter what anyone thinks about me. because I'm just another person being judged unfairly. a lot of my anxiety came from what people think. to be honest it's not important what people think. I feel like you have to have a goal or give yourself one. My goal is to take care of my immediate family. That's all that really matters.
That "feeling like dying " (U tube recommended a video about a woman singing gospel hinting about *feeling the God surrounding n guarding me while I was in the process * .... After that process was over I was possesd by different entities showing me their past lives - .... It's impossible without God or angel... (A faith /belief) .... Days back I felt like dying 💀 but I hv managed to went back to the past (timeline ⌚) when situations weren't worst... Time traveling... (As everything is operated by faith n believe.. I believe time travel is possible probably Call me crazy no problem.. But in this place where my mind is living, everything's possible.. "Believe"..... The feeling of dying in other perspective, it might be the feelings of other energies we r picking up... (Sensitive empaths does this.. Like u were picking up on a thought or feeling somebody near/close to u express later on!!! ... I hv experience this with my dad... We r connected... N with my spirit guide.. /guides or angels or spirits around me... I channel pains,habits of people I been thinking about... Happens sometimes...(energetic protection is helpful)So u might b feeling other people's vibes feelings energies ?.... Idk... Just some thoughts I wanted to share... *might b a connection with death n dying people/incidents probably* Faiths n beliefs r.... Challenged..idk much just one of the perspective from a human..
I also suffer from anxiety, what helps me is keeping my mind constantly occupied with engaging stuff, such as physical exercises, studying programming... some people can meditate , I can’t (yet) because I can’t shut my mind off Lately I’ve been having a huge fear of sleeping, during the day not so much, but when I go to sleep is hell - I’ve been trying to sleep when I’m exhausted so I’m practicing physical exercises during the day (I’m on vacation now so it’s easier to find time to do it). Also, I’ve been sleeping with Netflix on or smth, because the noises distract me a bit from the fear
Hey dude I get feelings of dread and fear about my own life as well although not as severe but i just wanted to say that it sometimes helps for me to think about if I were to die I would want my last days to be over all positive even though there are factors that you can't control
Sweeti can't your Dr tweek your meds or up them? My daughter has to check herself into the hospital poss twice a year to have her meds fixed when they stop working!!! Sometimes it helps and as you know sometimes it's an ongoing struggle to get it right.
Hi kid. Just checking in. It's been awhile. (Like since November 8, 2017 when you had 37,452 subs...yeah, I kept track) Good to see you hanging in there. That said (going by what you are saying) no matter the mental state the body still needs activity to relieve stress and tension to circulate the blood and oxygen and such. It's like when you sleep too long and instead of feeling rested, you feel over tired...because the body needs regulated exhertion. Or if you feel the need to stretch but don't it will make you feel bogged down and anxious; the very symptoms you are expressing. If someone is confined in a car during a long ride, what's the first thing they want to do when they get out? Sleep? Heck no STRETCH. To release that tension from lack of mobility. And doesn't that simple stretch refresh and feel good? Is there any way you could develop some kind of regular physical activity for outside AND inside, say, late in the evening or early in the morning before all the freaks come out. It doesn't have to be alot, just regular. Even something simple like a 10-15 minute jog outside and/or an aerobic routine inside would do wonders. I can't help but think this would really help the anxiety level go down and to rejuvenate and strengthen your mind and body, even lift your spirits up a bit in a way that no pill can do. It does good for everyone, that's a fact. It may be tough to get started but start small and you will gradually gain more endurance as your body adjusts to it. I hope you don't mind my suggestion. You're an amazingly strong and wonderful kid. I just want to see you happy. You're not alone. EVERY body needs exercise.
First off, so glad your gorgeous cat is doing well. I bet the death has exacerbated the anxiety to a critical level. I have insomnia and sometimes I literally wander, pace, late at night. You mentioned your brain is causing physical pain.. I think there’s a term for that, but correct me if I’m wrong. The term is somatic. The brain is more than capable of inflicting pain. I’ve been there, too. I have anxiety issues pretty bad sometimes but I don’t have schizophrenia. For a long time I feared death to the point that sometimes I wouldn’t want to sleep, but this phase sort of shed from my gut. Now I think I read somewhere where you mentioned you’re atheist? I’m not going to preach to you because that would probably give you more anxiety. I know about existential dread, my being Christian doesn’t cure me, but because I’m at peace with the Lord I can now feel God’s power and comfort during my many bouts of anxiety and breaks from “reality”. But because you’re atheist you might hard pass my advice - ‘course I don’t want to make that assumption! So maybe you can give my advice a quick glance at the most. I’m not suggesting you go out and go to church... because yeah right! But.. there are compelling reasons why researching what the Bible says about anxiety (chronic worry) and pain as it relates to Christianity might illuminate your problem. I’d be a bad sub if I wasn’t honest with you and instead tried to merely only console you. It was time to put the task of looking in to the Bible in front of you. Finally, the Bible isn’t a physical cure. Jesus came to cure death, to abolish it. That’s the good news. There are answers and they will work temporarily- then they don’t. The only answer is Christ’s atonement for sin, the thing that causes death and dread. I could go on but your time is valuable and I don’t want to waste it. I’m rally happy cat is doing better. Live every moment with wild abandon; they’re here too short a time.
We'll all be dead soon and none of our anguish, uncertainty, seemingly irresolvable conflicts of thought, will matter any more. No one will even know and still less care that they, and we, ever existed. All that matters, if anything matters at all, is to find a way of enjoying this wierd experience called life which we find ourselves undergoing. Get out of the house, even just for a walk. Living all your life in one room would drive anyone insane. There is no chance of finding contentment or happiness or resolution on your own (unless you have some deep inner conviction which overrides any doubt), you have to interact with others BECAUSE we are a social species, and it's impossible to detach yourself from your inbuilt instinctive needs which have evolved over millions of years.
"If you are born schizophrenic in a xamanic/indigenous society, you are the bringer of knowledge and cure. If you are born schizophrenic in this society, you are sick" Us schizophrenics are constantly terrified and paranoid because we accept the external narrative that we are sick. When I began to accept my mind's potential to manifest "realities" upon my perception, thats when I took my power back. Psylocybin mushrooms saved my life. The voices didn't go away, but they became peaceful.
Depersonalisation and derealization I've had for 2 years now, every day. I don't have schizophrenia, but was put on antipsychotics due to anxiety, and holy hell does that medication fuck up your brain. Only feeling moderately better days days.
My brain starts telling itself I am going to drop dead right now. I then start producing pulses from my lower brain down through my chest... It's the most bizarre feeling... It then takes me 30 or so minutes for it to go away. IT SUCKS SO BAD. It is getting worse the older I get.
dont think of it as a mental illness, but ACTUAL DEMONS! and think of them as being like bullies! how do you deal w bullies? do you fear them and run away all the time?.....
When you said you’re constantly fatigued and tired I felt that
Jacob, the neuroleptics will kill you! You don't have to take neuroleptics! You will be able to cope with these states without drugs.
Absolutely all mental states at the level of the physical body are manifested as muscle tension. Learn to feel it.
Close your eyes and try to see all the muscle tensions in your body that deprive you of a comfortable state. Pay special attention to the muscles of the face and head. And then, not paying attention to these muscle tensions, you should try to achieve a comfortable state. You can get comfortable condition with a lot of muscle tension. People often do not notice this strong muscle tension and unconsciously support it. This tension may be so strong that your efforts will not be enough to remove it. But your efforts should be directed not to maintain tensions but to remove them.
To do this, you only need to focus on the state of internal comfort.
If you notice that the internal tension as it pulls attention to yourself, try to focus attention on this place, and then as if to get out from under this concentration of attention. This can be called the technique of scattered attention.
Then this thing can happen - you concentrate on some place, you can relax the muscles, but the tension has changed the configuration and went to another place. You track tensions again and you leave from it again and it goes to another place again. So you can meditate as much as you want. If you succeed, then there is a certain pleasure in it.
It is better to do it at night, but you can do it at any time. You can anywhere at least for a moment to close your eyes and instantly disconnect.
In depression, do not orient on the emotional color of the feeling, but only on its strength.
Well, that is the reason for depression can be anything and feelings can be different. But the feelings should be ignored as if they don't exist.
Learn to meditate this way!
@STINKY BUG 05:52 - "and now I just feel like I'm constantly dying like every time I go to sleep or I lay in bed I always think this is the last time I'm gonna be alive I'm gonna wake up well I'm not gonna wake up and I'm gonna be dead every night every night I deal with that"
Jacob, you already know that feelings can deceive. And, as it seems, you can quite understand when feelings deceive you, and when do not deceive. Feelings are the wind. If you understand that feelings or thoughts do not correspond to the real situation, that they are very strong or unpleasant to you, try to think of it as the wind. Let them be as it were outside of you. Don't support them with your feelings. Be completely neutral to them. Just watch them play, but don't get your head in this game.. Remember - feelings are the wind. The wind is passing and there is no wind. Don't fly away with the wind.
And stop taking the pills! You feel bad from the pill but not from schizophrenia.
Neuroleptics and antidepressants have a chemical effects on the brain. They don't cure. They have another target. Their goal is to calm the person, it is a chemical binding. Side effects of neuroleptics do not arise from the fact that they affect the internal organs, but from the fact that they affect the brain and disrupt the brain. The brain stops working correctly and therefore the internal organs are disrupted. Because of this reason, anxiety and fear of death may arise. Hallucinations don't do you as much harm as neuroleptics do. Schizophrenia does not damage internal organs, schizophrenia does not damage the brain. But this is what the neuroleptics give you in full measure. You can live without neuroleptics. You will have the same symptoms, but your blood pressure will not rise, your heart will not ache, you will be able to exercise and you will be able to learn to control your behavior without medication.
No u
I suffer from anxiety too, so I feel this. It is a nightmare. Hugs
I’m always terrified that I have to go out into public and face people. I’m genuinely terrified of the internet and I deleted all my social media two years ago because it filled me with absolute terror and panic. I’m afraid of graduating, getting a car, a job, and being an adult once I finish high school. I’m 17 and I’ve been mentally screwed over by my own brain for the past 5 years. I feel like I’m drowning in my own body, constantly so I know how it feels. The advice I would give you is to seek out switching medication, constantly distract yourself with hobbies when you feel anxious, and look into different forms of therapy. Other forms of keeping yourself calm are meditation, and healthy forms of fidgeting with putty and stuff. Also you should research some breathing techniques for keeping calm, and do them once every few hours. You seem like a really genuine guy and you don’t deserve to suffer from these delusions and anxiety. No one does. Keep looking up and if you never need someone to talk to, it looks like you have a lovely selection of people supporting you, including me. Stay strong dude. ❤️
I feel you man my anxiety got the best of me too the past 2-3 months idk but everyone i know who suffers from anxiety have been suffering lately
Feeling like you’re constantly dying, I hear you. Everything you’re saying is what I go through also. Having a pet pass away and another health scare is anxiety provoking in itself, so it makes sense that your anxiety is so high. It’s a trigger point, and you’re comstantly in a wrestling with your logic place and your anxiety. Behaviorally you could work on 20 min a day of relaxation, tensing your muscles and relaxing them, or listening to your favorite music, thats helped me. But if you do the behavior task and it isn’t enough, you might want to see about getting meds adjusted so it works better for you. Just advice from an anxiety sufferer. I’m not a medical doctor.
I don’t suffer with schizophrenia, but I came across your channel because I also deal with severe anxiety with panic attacks. I can’t tell you how much your words hit home. I’m constantly in pain, panicking, worrying, and have all these physical symptoms of anxiety and it’s truly awful. Interestingly enough, my anxiety makes me worry that I’m getting schizophrenia or some sort of brain disorder that will make me go “crazy” (whatever crazy is). I can’t imagine having to deal with both schizophrenia and anxiety. If anxiety is this bad, I can’t even think of what schizophrenia is like. Though from what you said I guess they are just completely different rather than one being worse from the other. Thank you for being open about your struggles.Knowing someone is also going through this is so reassuring. You impact so many more people than you would know.
Man I'm only about 2 minutes in so far but I feel this so much. I've been especially terrified of dying lately. I've had this pain in my right side since March and nobody has been able to explain it. I've lost ten pounds at this point and I'm light than ever. Anyway, Just wanted to say you're not alone and these videos really help people like me.
Also, just to follow up after finishing the video; I also have been housebound for quite some time now. I'm 23 now and have been stuck at home for the most part since about age 18 due to anxiety and all sorts of weird physical health issues that the doctors mostly blame on anxiety. I know it can feel like whenever anything starts to get better, something else pops up and makes it worse. As far as suggestions go, have you ever looked into any agoraphobia discords? I've been in a few here and there and I know it sounds kind of corny but I've met some people on there who can relate to my situation and it's helped me quite a bit. I'm also always down to talk if you ever need someone to message about this stuff. Anyway, those are just a few things that come to mind. I wish you all the best man. This mental illness stuff can be truly awful.
I've had the same issues on and off pal. The sick irony is that the pains on your side and weight loss are anxiety symptoms. I get very severe pains on my heart a lot from anxiety and then I panic and it only makes it worse.
Try to keep in mind that there are thousands of possible causes and only a token handful are dangerous. At our age especially, you're the same as me, we generally have nothing to worry about. Try to avoid internet searching your symptoms as I find that only makes me feel worse as Google jumps straight to cancer for basically everything you look up.
I recommend trying to get out the house, even if it's just for five minutes. Hiding yourself away only further deepens the mental hole we trap ourselves in. There's always people who understand and people to talk to. Even if it's us strangers on the internet!
Health anxiety sucks
@@A-Disappointed-Horse Oh yeah you're absolutely right about googling. I've read about people my age with colon cancer and it's been on my mind quite a bit lately. You're right though it does no good to sit there and obsess over it (Even if it was something serious).
Hope things get better for you man. It's really awful to live with.
@@user-ep8bk5ku6g No doubt. It's ruining my life.
As someone who has suffered from anxiety a lot in the past, I’d say the best advice I can give is just to let the dreadful feelings be. Don’t fight them, just let them be.
When you obsess over what might be wrong with you, the shitty feelings just dig themselves in more deeply. You’re ironically keeping them alive by fighting them.
Just do your thing and try not to fret over why you feel the way you feel.
Once I fundamentally understood this at 19, my anxiety faded over the course of a few months, and I’ve been relatively free of anxiety since. (I’m now 25.)
Try to get out of the same neurotic thought loops my friend. Don’t give them your time of day.
Sometimes forcing yourself to go for a walk works. Or jumping right into a social event you’re dreading. 99% of the time it’s not nearly as bad as you think, and often quite enjoyable.
Focus on living life the way you want it, without letting your fears get the best of you.
I’ve been there. I know it’s not easy. There’s no magic cure-all or an instant fix. There will be setbacks. But just aim to let the dreadful feelings be and force yourself to do things you feel too anxious for. ’Fake it ’til you make it’, in a sense. It’s liberating, and helps you break through toxic thought loops. You have to convince your brain you’re actually doing okay. And you can do this by ignoring the anxiety.
I can relate to this. I always feel so paranoid that something terrible is going to happen and I'm just waiting for it to happen. I feel constantly fatigued, like death is near. I'm so tense all the time and stressed out, over thinking loads, body hurts so bad, I feel horrible all the time and paranoid about going out, so been homebound awhile. I don't feel like I can talk to anyone about it, because unless you've got these things, people just don't really get IT.
All in all, I deeply understand what your going through on that level. I'm sorry you're going through it too. Sending much love and positive vibes to you, my dude. 🙏
Anxiety gets the best of everyone from time to time. Ride it out. It will get better
the demons...they like to bully those who are most afraid, don't let them...develop an appreciation for the darkside, do not fear it and do not reject it as UNREAL....
I know you don't go outside but fresh air helps me. I used to have a swing in my backyard that would really help me calm down. I would do that for hours at anytime. Now when I'm panicking at night I try to get my heart rate down by holding my cat.
one hour of stretching every part of your body and then another of excercise, it may help with the pain in the long run
So glad Audrey is doing okay. I was wondering about her since your last post. Hoping this year things get better for you!.
I don't have scizophrenia, but I have lived with anxiety and panic attacks my entire life (in my late 30's now). What you describe has been most of my life. It's so similar, it's eerie. I have had the same thing going to bed knowing I won't wake up. The Paranoia. The actual physical symptoms. The obsessing. The only thing that has helped me has been the UA-cam channel "OCD and Anxiety". I am not cured, but I deal with so many less symptoms than I used to, it's like night and day.
Hi, Jacob! Happy Holidays!
One thing that helped make my anxiety more bearable was meditation, it made me more calm and helped prevent panic attacks. Just 5 min. everyday already made a difference for me. And if you like teas, try some chamomile or lemon balm.
I really do hope your anxiety gets at least a little better in time.
Thank you so much for your videos. You don't know how much it helps us.
Julia Kimie no u
Jon N you are a waste of oxygen and space
My son has schizophrenia he's 28 thank you for helping me understand.
I use to be like that, I suffer from clinical depression and my meds aren't working like they use to. I never want to go out, take to people. I'm socially retarded. Ive always been a loner.
I'm so sad people suffer with mental illness.
Thank You.
I am binge-watching your channel and find that very interesting. I am really impressed how you are rational and try to push yourself to the best. You are amazing.
Thank you so so much for making these videos! You help many people. And you are strong
Happy New Years Jacob! You’ll get through your anxiety. Your a strong guy. And very smart. Try not to give much thought to your anxiety thoughts and they’ll be much more subtle. I’m wishing the best for you
Cannot imagine the torture you are going through...and knowing that it’s your brain working against you must be beyond overwhelming. I admire your courage and your strength beyond what words can convey.
I’m going through a benzo reduction and I am too going through terrible anxiety lately. Stay strong. I love your channel
Hoping things have taken a better turn so far!
P.s. your cat is precious!
You might ask your doc about this... could be a med thing- esp since you say that they are not working. You are not going to die, my dear...my thoughts and prayers with you.... that peace will envelope you!
I'm a long-time subscriber. I'm so sorry for your loss of your dog and your cat's current health issues. You know yourself best and it sounds like you have a pretty good plan about getting through this I'm trying to be confident. I have to found that some of the best advice for dealing with mental health issues is from people who have it themselves. Last May Mike at Kitty-Co I passed away I still find myself tearing up but a month later we've been telling yourself that we were going to get another cat I wanted it to choose us and along came Storm who is 10 months old now and a lovely orange boy full of but you can be but a butthead. And then about a month-and-a-half ago Bars! a long haired super soft beautiful female cat who is super shy kept hanging around our house I was super skinny so I started feeding her I'm working with her and now we're thinking about keeping her and acclimating her into her household! As far as my diagnosis is go I have schizoaffective, Gad, PTSD, dyslexia and capd along with some health issues. It's been a long road to find the right medications and I think we are finally there with Thorazine, Lexapro, Ativan for a long time I had any side effects from the atypicals the worst was dystonia... and now because of an knee injury last year I found out from the orthopedic surgeon that the combination of mental health meds and asthma meds exacerbates and makes it difficult for joint injuries to heal if ever and I never knew that. Some of the things that have helped me over the last few years are therapeutic oils like Haitian vetiver, cedar wood, lavender. I've also done a lot of mindfulness and grounding. Below here's a link to when that my therapist showed me. I hope that the next year and next decade is much better for you.
www.uclahealth.org/marc/mindful-meditations
Happy new year jacob.my anxiety is a nightmare to me too.hope we feel lots of love ly feelings
Wish I had something brilliant to tell you. I admire your strength in dealing with this. It is beyond brutal. Just keep hoping for a better tomorrow. Maybe you should get another kitty for more company and more to love. Stay strong as you can.
New Year gives me anxiety.
Anxiety is terrible. I have bipolar and I get it too. I’d recommend breathing exercises but the truth is they’re difficult to do during the anxiety.
I hope you get through this rough patch and feel better soon.
I hope your doing ok with everything going on. Youre in my prayers. Cats are soothing. So calming and loving. Im glad your cat is healthy and doing well
Hey, I experience paranoia and anxiety, which are a bad combo. they tend to spike with my mood being unstable... when things aren't decent I will use my imagination to help me: I would imagine an animal helper (like a bear), and would talk to it (out loud) or think to it during the day all my worries, and I would just imagine the animal near me, sometimes answering me, sometimes just listening...i really like animals so this helps me to feel not alone and to feel that things are okay. I use my imagination to trick myself in some ways. Another thing I have imagined in small bursts is the sun- just the quiet, hot orb in the blue sky, pouring out heat without making a sound. this forces my mind to re-focus and drown out the noise. they dont cure but they help me sometimes alleviate symptoms when they arise. I hope these help...if not, I hope you find something that does. and I wish your cat well, she's really cute.
Thanks for speaking out about this, you're very brave and I hope things will get better for you, dealing with anxiety can feel suffocating and mixed up with depression and everything else makes it even worse... I've been struggling myself with anxiety and depression, have you tried meditation to reduce / calm anxiety ? Or music? it's pretty simple but sometimes it helps, obviously this probably won't work if you're feeling extremely anxious but maybe if you're starting to get anxious about something, you know, to try to focus on something else or clear your mind . Also, you can do some breathing exercices, that may seem a bit silly but it usually works, you gotta stay focused and aware of your breathing, inhale and exhale slowly while taking long breaths, it may seem obvious but that's one of the best ways to try and calm down your heart rate and relax a bit, anyway I hope you'll find a way to deal with it more effectively, thank you for posting videos and sharing about your experiences, take care !
I completely get the feeling. I really hope you're doing well now-a-days. You've always seemed like such a sweetheart to me. You deserve to feel better. ♡
I feel u 💯 I'm going through that too but I deal with it by hearing music see movie happy one n have cats n dogs I talk too alot I'm here for u 🙏❤️ God bless you
I think the best advise ive gotten is to have flexibility in your coping strategies. Sometimes mindfulness helps sometimes detracting yourself helps, art, animals, exercise, therapy. Like whatever feel like a good match at the time. Use your resources and don't be afraid to ask for help!
Finally as things were starting to look up, my anxiety is making quite the fun return. Not about me dying, but about people I care about either dying, getting hurt, or leaving and me never seeing them again (starting to remember why I isolated myself for so long). Some things that help take the edge off is trying to think through what scares me with logic. When I feel myself catastrophizing, I sometimes go through it with a word document and write down why the things I fear are not so likely to happen. I also have a weighted blanket, but idk if it's something that could worsen a heart condition or not.
i`ve been there too. different things work for different people. for me, good food, music, exercise, endless research, enlightenment, nature and my kitten has helped, with no meds at all. conscious self-governance.
still not out of the woods yet, still hear voices but after over three years, i can say i feel better than i did in the beginning.
i think you just have to find what "speaks" to you other than the voices.
these are some quotes that help me. hope they help you too:
“it is of no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” - Jiddu Krishnamurti
"If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present." - Lao Tzu
“There is no illusion greater than fear.” - Lao Tzu
“Fear does not prevent death. It prevents life.” - Naguib Mahfouz
“Care about what other people think and you will always be their prisoner.” - Lao Tzu
“There is no coming to consciousness without pain. People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own Soul. One does not become enlightened by imagining figures of light, but by making the darkness conscious.” - C.G. Jung
“Nobody can fall so low unless he has a great depth.
If such a thing can happen to a man, it challenges his best and highest on the other side; that is to say, this depth corresponds to a potential height, and the blackest darkness to a hidden light.” - Carl G. Jung
“No one saves us but ourselves. No one can and no one may. We ourselves must walk the path.” - Buddha
“It`s beautiful to be alone. To be alone does not mean to be lonely. It means the mind is not influenced and contaminated by society.” - Jiddu Krishnamurti
"Anti-social behavior is a trait of intelligence in a world full of conformists." - Nikola Tesla
"The more powerful and original a mind, the more it will incline towards the religion of solitude." - Aldous Huxley
“Use the light that is within you to revert to your natural clearness of sight.” - Lao Tzu
“Be a light unto oneself.” - Jiddu Krishnamurti
There’s a lot to be said for activity of “doing nothing”. The question that is bound to pop up every day is “What do you wanna do?” and when a holiday comes around, the inevitable “Did you have a good time” and the obligatory “What’d do?”.
These questions always dogged me and I spent years thinking that I had to be “doing” in order to validate life.
To keep yourself calm, empty your mind and breathe slowly, concentrating on a special place that is all yours. It could be the sky for example.
Also, having little friends like your cat always help and keep in mind that your not struggling alone at any time.
Sorry to hear your anxiety is getting much worse, Jacob. I also suffer from extreme anxiety and ocd to the point where I feel physically bad, like you. Let me preface my suggestion with this: I'm not a doctor, that being said the only thing thats really ever helped my anxiety is a medication called Clonazepam aka Klonopin. So I suggest you ask your psychiatrist if a benzodiazepine may work for you. They're potent, and addictive but they have a high success rate at treating anxiety.
I’m on ability and Zoloft I have anxiety and schizophrenia too, well schizoaffective disorder, but I also am on busperone for panic attacks I take it when I’m panicked and it calms me down in minutes I hope that your anxiety can calm down for you! I totally get the physical pains that come with anxiety it’s wear and tear like you said: because of something my brain is doing! I really hope you can figure something out! I also have a spire stone for breathing. That may help you have an app and it will allow you to do short breathing excersises! This may help you but I know every one is different! I wish you well this coming year!
thanks for the video ^^ i wish u the best! i hope u have less or non anxiety in 2020
There is no stronger love than that between a man and his cat.
Love your videos, and I hope you can get your anxiety managed. Lots of love from fellow schizophrenia person. Oh also, I use a sensory item to help with anxiety. For me, it's a piece of silk my hands rub to bring me back to norm. Something like a set of beads to wear or other things like that may help. Touch often helps bring peace. And as always, pet your cat. It lowers your blood pressure and alleviate stress.
I recently discovered your yt channel and I must say that you're a really interesting person! I myself am a student of Psychology and these subjects always catch my attention. I hope your doing well and all the best for your cat (I have 6 cats xD) And if you need someone to talk to I'm always there for an listening ear!
Anxiety stinks for sure especially if you have Schizophrenia as well. I take anxiety and depression medications as well as Super B Complex sometimes to help with bad anxiety. I'm glad your cat is doing better.
love you bunches jacob
I feel you I have anxiety and alcohol addiction and anxiety is 1000 times worse then the alcohol addiction when I go out in public there’s about a 70% chance I will have a panic attack and that’s why I drink when I drink I feel happy and comfortable so I drink before I go to school and out in general I know it’s bad but the drinking addiction doesn’t feel as bad as the panic attack i wish there was a medication for anxiety because it can be very serious
Im do happy u r still making videos and u featured ur cat.such a sweet 😺 kitty
I used to think I would die in my sleep and not be able to sleep due to my OCD and anxiety. For short term- id read literally every word in a magazine until i was so bored I passed out, but really that is what prompted me to go to a therapist for the first time. I had to try a few people but my psychologist has changed my ffcking life.
I hope you find some relief
i have suffered with really bad anxiety since i was 13 and im 22 now. i have really bad feelings that im gonna die early and struggle to get to sleep sometimes because i have this thing where just as im about to fall asleep i get this really bad panic feeling and my heart starts racing not sure why and i also struggle to speak to people and go outside and things and still do and i was taught to try and focus on my breathing if i was having a panic attack and also counting in your head can help because it stops you from thinking about the anxious thoughts in your head at the time. when i got told to try those things i thought that they would never work but they do help for me. Also when i have anxious thoughts in my head i always find it helpful to try and think about the positive things that i at least do have in my life like family and my pets an things. anxiety is a real pain but those are just things that helped me a little bit with it.
Same here. But I guess I'm more afraid of life, because I don't know for how long the pain will last until death will (maybe) take it away.
Btw you're very brave making videos about this. Much respect. I would be afraid that people will take advantage of it and use it against you. Anyways, feels nice yet sad that there are others with the same sickness. Feel supported.
I get what you are saying. I feel exactly the same way... i wake up at night sometimes ''Am i alive'' ''am i dying''..... and this morning when i woke up something said in my head '' Felicia is gone'' ... ''just an empty shell left''.... kind of scary, and i feel fatigue too..... but i still work half time anyway. Although it can be good sometimes...... i try to think positive... i have much to be happy about.... i thibk of things i'm thankful for...... Anyway... '' This too shall pass''
The only problem with hearing voices is being in public and not being able to differentiate between actual voices and other, which I'm sure creates anxiety.
I guess there could be the issue of people knowing your situation, then talking and saying they didnt. That could be triggering.
So I probably the worst person ever to give advice because I have an anxiety disorder and I myself have trouble keeping calm. Here’s what has worked for me: 1) if you are having a panic attack calm yourself down say I’m not dying, this will pass 2) heat makes things worse get somewhere cool 3) lay down if possible 4) listen to soothing music.
To reduce stress I do the wim hof breathing method. I stretch because my body gets sore. I try to take a walk everyday with one cheat day. I highly recommend buying headphones. I live in mine because they help me to deal with the voices. You can listen to music or watch something. I’m dire need I’ll take something and try to sleep. Hope this helps.
In 2019 I lost my mother and grand-mother from cancer (that was, apart my father who lives far away, all my family). I'm 21 and I began to feel sick all the time after those events. I know it's (hopefully) not real too but it's difficult to live with. I'm a student in occupational therapy so it's difficult to help others that are suffering when you're not feeling good in your life. I have no advices to you but I hope it will get better. I noticed that when I'm busy I feel a lot better so maybe by starting a new project or activity you will get distracted by those feelings. Also don't be affraid to ask for check-up to your doctor. I did it and I feel better knowing indicators are good and the probabilities that I will die from an undiagnosed dicease are very low. I hope there are people around you to listen to your anxious thoughts help you feel better.
So happy to see kitty!!!!
Looks like spiritual awareness to me.
I also have schizophrenia and a history of depression and severe anxiety. This may not apply to you but in my experience just seeing a regular therapist (not a psychiatrist) to talk about what was bothering me in my life helped me overcome a lot of my anxiety. Just taking the time to talk about shit once a week for 4 or so months helped me identify and tackle the underlying causes of my anxiety. It takes a while to sort out and there's no quick fix for anxiety but it can be dealt with. Also it's worth considering doing more exercise or taking up a martial art, just anything that's going to make you feel more confident and secure in yourself. Sorry if you don't find this advice particularly helpful. I hope at the very least you feel better :^)
My anxiety is pretty bad. Good luck friend.
I am going through the same that you have been through for a lifetime. and the medications I take don't help me much. I feel I have paranoid schizophrenia, but my doctors still don't want to rule out other diagnoses. I'm sick and I don't know what to do. I fully understand you.
I’m always paranoid that I’m gonna get attacked,kidnapped or murdered
Sorry to hear you're going through this, i've experienced something similar. Please try journaling your thoughts, i believe it will help you a lot, Make it a daily habit. And as corny as it sounds, try some yoga. lol
My anxiety sometimes makes it hard for me to leave my house
Kitty is so pretty....holidays cause me such terrible anxiety.new years eve.hurts so much ❤🌸🌼
Try exercise? Your body is made for moving
Hey Jacob :) I don't have experience with Schizophrenia or the dread you speak of. I have, however, struggled with social anxiety, general anxiety and panic throughout most of my life. I have always wondered what it was that terrified me about people. Was it their unpredictability or the fact that they may be judging me or observing me? In any case, I don't think medication can improve any of the anxiety symptoms you mentioned, or at least it didn't help me. What DID work was THERAPY. Actual group therapy or just sessions with a therapist. There are many options out there, but I do suggest a group setting. That can benefit you far greatly than any mindfulness from your part. I was shocked to find out how many people experienced similar thoughts and ideas. While we are all different, we bond to others through our similarities. I know it seems daunting at first, especially if you've had some bad experiences, but sharing your thoughts and ideas with others is greatly therapeutical, and it also alleviates stress. Bonding with others, however it may be, changes your physical state, your perception of pain and your mindset, among other things. The fact about social anxiety is that unfortunately it does cause you to become more isolated, which in turn produces even more stress, forming a loop. And that was what I was stuck in through most of my life. I haven't made a complete turnover. I am still me, still a bit shy, hesitant, always perceiving and taking in more than is really out there... but I have found people like that, people who experience life similarly, with whom I can share my distress and even laugh about it. I can't say that it will work in you 100%, but it really reduced my anxiety, not only in social gatherings, but generally. People DO help, I know it sounds unbelievable, but they do. Anyway, I hope you find something useful in here and give it a shot. Lost of love Jacob, and good luck :)
You and your cat are the cutest.
Good to hear from you. 2020 is brand new; think of it as a clean slate. Who knows what's in store?
I hope good times reach you soon.
...nice shirt, btw :^)
For a while and only recently has it stopped, I would feel like I was about to have a heart attack every night and it kept me up until at least 6am. I actually know what true anxiety feels like now. I hope everything's going well for you! Cheers.
@Roxas hi
@Roxas wtf lol
☼ Novelty helps. It is risk and reward. Especially novel things still from the room. There are psychological techniques to kind of *refuse* to worry anymore. Accept death. But they are not, i suppose, _technically_ , 'healthy'. In training we arent suppose to teach them. But I argue that is up to the person deploying them. Everything else you'll know. Or I would have said before. I can only say what works for me.
Environmental control, w/exposure (ie making close to you house trips, when *weather isnt too hot or cold* , to a library or public lecture. Where there is single stimulus to focus on, but no one expects anything from you, and you can leave whenever you want). Tiktok is another serious one. & explore other peoples' worlds through online.
It would be too much for me to suggest adding a stimulant or anxiolytic. altering stable medications is always (usually too high) of a gamble. & though dopamine ags can be protective, it will be argued that the risk of increased schizophrenic Sx is too high. & maybe that is true. & adding a benzo, to a beta blocker and an antipsych and antiDep is a lot. Though i will say, a lot of docs think sedation and anxiolysis is the same thing: and it isnt. Lowering BP is not directly anxiolytic. Antipsychs are not anxyolytic just bc they are sedating. & antiDeps are not anxiolytic - that was a sales pitch. ("everyone being different" has to be mixed in there, and "if it works for you" is always the cornerstone of medicine as well)
But again, altering meds is always a last resort. & the behavioral stuff is still also required. meds are only assistants and shields. Thats all ive got for now. Let us know if you find anything new that works too. Later man. =)
JC
I have a certain meditation I do to help me ground and calm myself. It’s a weird one and one I made myself so bear with me. I chose a rock that I can hold. When I feel I need to I just sit down and hold the rock. I try to steady my breathing then imagine roots like those of a tree going deep into the ground. I let the whispers shift in running water then song. It’s personalized for myself so yeah. It may need some adjustments. I stay with the specific rock because I try and make a connection in my brain that it means to calm down.
Things to fiddle with can help.
I’ll often try to channel my anxiety into an outlet such as writing.
Music is a huge help for me as I could sing before I could talk so it’s always been there.
This is some of the things that help me personally.
You are bored. A bored mind finds things to worry about. Read a book, study a physics book, anything.
Anxiety can be improved over time with distraction
Hey. Nice to see your face again. Are you going to stream on twitch again any time soon? Your streams were very chill.
Hey Jacob, hope you're doing better now than when you made this video.
Have you tried any new strategies lately, and if so how did it go?
I definitely relate to what you said about the fear of dying, feeling like you won't wake up, will be killed, are never safe etc.
I've had times where i feeel like my death is imminent and everything is final. Anxiety in the form of a cold, paralysing numbnes which sort feels like I'm already dead. The thought would grip me and take over, like other psychotic thoughts do.
The worst of those times was 6 months ago, I'm now doing much better due acute treatment, changes in medications, change of routine, learning to be an observer of my thoughts and thereby seperate myself from them - not easy/not cured but is giving way to a change in my mindset. Any questions? Am more than happy to elaborate
- Are you by any chance taking Propanolol for your blood pressure/anxiety? Or another similar Beta Blocker? I was and am sure it caused a worsening of these symptoms, lack of motivation and shortnes of breath (Dr agrees, so does list of rare side effects)
- Another thing is exercise. I find it helpful even if only in a small way and my muscles tend to feel less painful and tense when i exercise regularly. Start small with some very basic stretches, rolling your shoulders, move your arms and legs around. Build up to a 5 or 10 minute stroll near your house - which will hopefully lead to more and also help increase your comfort zone to outside your house (I also did this and it helped).
- Also I sense that you are kind of stuck, and that something really needs to chage with you. I know you say you are good at dealing with stress and I don't dispute that, but I wonder if you could use more help with your mental health at the moment. I've been in a similat state, it scares me to think back on that and I wouldn't wish it on anyone. So it also scares me to see you like this. Hope that didn't sound patronising
Last thing, I want to say thanks for making your videos I've been watcing you for years and find you reall interesting and articulate!!
You have helped me - hope some of these ideas may be of some use to you. All the best 😊
Kitty is alive!!!
I was wondering if you have anger issues, or if schizophrenia brings on anger issues, my brother has schizophrenia since he was 22 and it seems like he progressively gets angrier and more bitter every year. Thanks, and thanks for all the awareness and understanding you bring towards mental illness.
I feel you I have anxiety and alcohol addiction and anxiety is 1000 times worse then the alcohol addiction when I go out in public there’s about a 70% chance I will have a panic attack and that’s why I drink when I drink I feel happy and comfortable so I drink before I go to school and out in general I know it’s bad but the drinking addiction doesn’t feel as bad as the panic attack
I have no advice, but your a lovely person.
Understand I've always had issues with anxiety. to be honest I do the same thing when I sleep. I always feel like I'm going to die. but as far as my public anxiety goes I start telling myself the everyone judging everyone and it doesn't matter what anyone thinks about me. because I'm just another person being judged unfairly. a lot of my anxiety came from what people think. to be honest it's not important what people think. I feel like you have to have a goal or give yourself one. My goal is to take care of my immediate family. That's all that really matters.
I’m
Praying for you!!
Jesus reigns
much love
That "feeling like dying " (U tube recommended a video about a woman singing gospel hinting about *feeling the God surrounding n guarding me while I was in the process * .... After that process was over I was possesd by different entities showing me their past lives - ....
It's impossible without God or angel... (A faith /belief) ....
Days back I felt like dying 💀 but I hv managed to went back to the past (timeline ⌚) when situations weren't worst... Time traveling... (As everything is operated by faith n believe.. I believe time travel is possible probably
Call me crazy no problem.. But in this place where my mind is living, everything's possible.. "Believe"..... The feeling of dying in other perspective, it might be the feelings of other energies we r picking up... (Sensitive empaths does this.. Like u were picking up on a thought or feeling somebody near/close to u express later on!!! ... I hv experience this with my dad... We r connected... N with my spirit guide.. /guides or angels or spirits around me... I channel pains,habits of people I been thinking about... Happens sometimes...(energetic protection is helpful)So u might b feeling other people's vibes feelings energies ?.... Idk... Just some thoughts I wanted to share...
*might b a connection with death n dying people/incidents probably*
Faiths n beliefs r.... Challenged..idk much just one of the perspective from a human..
I also suffer from anxiety, what helps me is keeping my mind constantly occupied with engaging stuff, such as physical exercises, studying programming... some people can meditate , I can’t (yet) because I can’t shut my mind off
Lately I’ve been having a huge fear of sleeping, during the day not so much, but when I go to sleep is hell - I’ve been trying to sleep when I’m exhausted so I’m practicing physical exercises during the day (I’m on vacation now so it’s easier to find time to do it). Also, I’ve been sleeping with Netflix on or smth, because the noises distract me a bit from the fear
Hey dude I get feelings of dread and fear about my own life as well although not as severe but i just wanted to say that it sometimes helps for me to think about if I were to die I would want my last days to be over all positive even though there are factors that you can't control
Sweeti can't your Dr tweek your meds or up them? My daughter has to check herself into the hospital poss twice a year to have her meds fixed when they stop working!!! Sometimes it helps and as you know sometimes it's an ongoing struggle to get it right.
Hi kid. Just checking in. It's been awhile.
(Like since November 8, 2017 when you had 37,452 subs...yeah, I kept track) Good to see you hanging in there.
That said (going by what you are saying) no matter the mental state the body still needs activity to relieve stress and tension to circulate the blood and oxygen and such.
It's like when you sleep too long and instead of feeling rested, you feel over tired...because the body needs regulated exhertion. Or if you feel the need to stretch but don't it will make you feel bogged down and anxious; the very symptoms you are expressing.
If someone is confined in a car during a long ride, what's the first thing they want to do when they get out? Sleep? Heck no STRETCH. To release that tension from lack of mobility. And doesn't that simple stretch refresh and feel good?
Is there any way you could develop some kind of regular physical activity for outside AND inside, say, late in the evening or early in the morning before all the freaks come out. It doesn't have to be alot, just regular. Even something simple like a 10-15 minute jog outside and/or an aerobic routine inside would do wonders. I can't help but think this would really help the anxiety level go down and to rejuvenate and strengthen your mind and body, even lift your spirits up a bit in a way that no pill can do. It does good for everyone, that's a fact.
It may be tough to get started but start small and you will gradually gain more endurance as your body adjusts to it.
I hope you don't mind my suggestion.
You're an amazingly strong and wonderful kid. I just want to see you happy. You're not alone. EVERY body needs exercise.
1st thing popped in mind was a calming smell. Sniffing something will look weird
First off, so glad your gorgeous cat is doing well. I bet the death has exacerbated the anxiety to a critical level. I have insomnia and sometimes I literally wander, pace, late at night. You mentioned your brain is causing physical pain.. I think there’s a term for that, but correct me if I’m wrong. The term is somatic. The brain is more than capable of inflicting pain. I’ve been there, too. I have anxiety issues pretty bad sometimes but I don’t have schizophrenia.
For a long time I feared death to the point that sometimes I wouldn’t want to sleep, but this phase sort of shed from my gut. Now I think I read somewhere where you mentioned you’re atheist? I’m not going to preach to you because that would probably give you more anxiety.
I know about existential dread, my being Christian doesn’t cure me, but because I’m at peace with the Lord I can now feel God’s power and comfort during my many bouts of anxiety and breaks from “reality”. But because you’re atheist you might hard pass my advice - ‘course I don’t want to make that assumption!
So maybe you can give my advice a quick glance at the most. I’m not suggesting you go out and go to church... because yeah right! But.. there are compelling reasons why researching what the Bible says about anxiety (chronic worry) and pain as it relates to Christianity might illuminate your problem.
I’d be a bad sub if I wasn’t honest with you and instead tried to merely only console you. It was time to put the task of looking in to the Bible in front of you.
Finally, the Bible isn’t a physical cure. Jesus came to cure death, to abolish it. That’s the good news. There are answers and they will work temporarily- then they don’t. The only answer is Christ’s atonement for sin, the thing that causes death and dread. I could go on but your time is valuable and I don’t want to waste it.
I’m rally happy cat is doing better. Live every moment with wild abandon; they’re here too short a time.
We'll all be dead soon and none of our anguish, uncertainty, seemingly irresolvable conflicts of thought, will matter any more. No one will even know and still less care that they, and we, ever existed. All that matters, if anything matters at all, is to find a way of enjoying this wierd experience called life which we find ourselves undergoing. Get out of the house, even just for a walk. Living all your life in one room would drive anyone insane. There is no chance of finding contentment or happiness or resolution on your own (unless you have some deep inner conviction which overrides any doubt), you have to interact with others BECAUSE we are a social species, and it's impossible to detach yourself from your inbuilt instinctive needs which have evolved over millions of years.
"If you are born schizophrenic in a xamanic/indigenous society, you are the bringer of knowledge and cure. If you are born schizophrenic in this society, you are sick"
Us schizophrenics are constantly terrified and paranoid because we accept the external narrative that we are sick. When I began to accept my mind's potential to manifest "realities" upon my perception, thats when I took my power back. Psylocybin mushrooms saved my life. The voices didn't go away, but they became peaceful.
i have a same issue my schizophrenia develop from use of cannabis
yoga helps a lot i hope you get better thanks for sharing.
Depersonalisation and derealization I've had for 2 years now, every day. I don't have schizophrenia, but was put on antipsychotics due to anxiety, and holy hell does that medication fuck up your brain. Only feeling moderately better days days.
My brain starts telling itself I am going to drop dead right now. I then start producing pulses from my lower brain down through my chest... It's the most bizarre feeling... It then takes me 30 or so minutes for it to go away. IT SUCKS SO BAD. It is getting worse the older I get.
Hey Jacob! Would you ever do a video with you and your mom?
Your cat is a beauty
dont think of it as a mental illness, but ACTUAL DEMONS! and think of them as being like bullies! how do you deal w bullies? do you fear them and run away all the time?.....
Hey take cold showers should help with the body pain. I start with a warm shower then turn it cold at the end. Hope this helps. Cheers
im in pain too 💔