LOSING MYSELF as I say goodbye to my cat….

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    This past week hasn't been easy, last saturday I had to burry my cat. this isn't the normal video I want to put out but I didn't feel right continuing on with my videos as if nothing happened. Thank you all for your support and I will be getting back to posting my normal videos next week. you'll be getting a video on wensday and saturday!
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  • @stewartfoster6581
    @stewartfoster6581 2 місяці тому +167

    My cat, Zoe, died on my couch , on her favorite blanket, while I stayed with her, knowing the end was near ( cancer )..I sat there for 20 hours with her paw in my hand..watching out the window together..she exhaled once and she was gone. I let her stay on her spot overnight. I never thought I'd recover from that loss. A year later , a girl / friend I know brought me an abandoned grey tux kitten, barely filled my palm. I fed him, cuddled him, did everything I could for him. Although he can't replace Zoe, that huge hole in my soul was filed a bit with my new little buddy, Mr. Bosco...It's hard to imagine we can heal from these losses, but time will help..and I plan to give mr. B all the love and care and fun that I can possibly provide. Take a look at my thumbnail pic, that's Mr. Bosco...I can only hope you just may find another furry soulmate to help you heal from your loss...

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +34

      I’m so sorry for your loss. I wish I was there with my toast in his final moments. I’m going to miss him so much and time will definitely help heal me. I’m happy to hear you adopted another cat. He’s really cute and looks super happy to be with you. I do plan on getting another cat but no time soon. I want to grieve and process this loss before moving on to adopting another cat

    • @elizabethstolle1793
      @elizabethstolle1793 Місяць тому +6

      So very sorry😢it is so hard…..

    • @ivan00001983
      @ivan00001983 Місяць тому +4

      Mr Bosco looks like a wonderful little dude👍

    • @arteson6093
      @arteson6093 Місяць тому +3

      I still miss mine dearly, he was very special and reached 13 . He was very talkative and had many different sounds and chirps to communicate particular things
      It has been over a year and I continue to be very sad, as he was my kid , friend, and companion.
      Read your heartfelt words…How old was Zoe?

    • @claudiafahey1353
      @claudiafahey1353 Місяць тому +2

      We have hearts for our little companions and sometimes they break 😔

  • @Chey778
    @Chey778 2 дні тому +1

    I’m so sorry for your loss.
    I lost my cat, Cheyenne, on July 23, 2021 when she was 3 years old. The night before and the morning of, she was being more loving than usual, as if she knew it was her time… later that morning, while she was outside, she got tangled in our soccer net, and we were too late to save her.
    Rest in peace Toast, may you and your owner be reunited once again.

  • @gertrudessangalang9778
    @gertrudessangalang9778 Місяць тому +41

    Sorry for the lost of this precious kitty! All cats and dogs go
    to heaven!

  • @tiffanystephens4785
    @tiffanystephens4785 2 місяці тому +53

    Rest in peace little one. An angel on earth now an angel in heaven. So sorry for your loss of your beauriful boy🌈🌈

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +10

      Thank you so much for your beautiful words!

  • @kathyrobinson9959
    @kathyrobinson9959 2 місяці тому +37

    I am so sorry about your sweet kitty passing. He was obviously well-loved. Healing thoughts and prayers for you and Toast.

  • @jeremy3770
    @jeremy3770 Місяць тому +27

    Dude! That's awful. I had one furbaby make it to 19 before dying of cancer.
    My second furbaby has kidney disease. The median survival time for cats with kidney disease is two years after being diagnosed.
    It's been two years since he was diagnosed.
    I dont knnow when hes going to pass away, but I know this.
    While my second boy didn't fill the hole in my heart after the first one passed away, he filled a different hole that I didn't even know existed until I found him.
    And when he dies, it will be awful, but I wouldn't trade the 15 years we have been together for anything.
    When your ready, a new furball will choose you.

    • @arteson6093
      @arteson6093 Місяць тому +3

      Like what you wrote. It expressed my similar story and how I felt also.

    • @drunkensquirrel7545
      @drunkensquirrel7545 Місяць тому +1

      Same. Our eldest girl has kidney failure, we're keeping her happy and comfy for now. It's one day at a time. We also lost two cats last year. Just when I think I can't cry anymore, it seems like heaven always sends us a new one who really needs our help.

    • @theproplady
      @theproplady 20 днів тому +2

      My orange cat had kidney disease and she lived another 4 years, dying at age 18. So, you could still have lots of time yet.

    • @ravendixon1099
      @ravendixon1099 2 дні тому +1

      Thank you for opening your heart to another that needs your love. I lost my cat Sheba after 16 yrs & lost my cat Harley 2 days ago. So many animals are out there needing our love. Thank you for caring enough to share your life.

  • @ravendixon1099
    @ravendixon1099 2 дні тому +1

    I am so sorry for your loss of little kitty Toast. It must be heartwrenching because he was so young. I lost my cat Harley 2 days ago at the age of 20. I stayed with him for 3 days soothing him & watching him take his last breath. I can't imagine not being there. My heart breaks for you...I know your pain. Just know that Toast is at the Rainbow bridge where he's healthy & running free. God loves all his little creatures. ❤🎉

  • @mspears_bobobuddytheseniorcat
    @mspears_bobobuddytheseniorcat Місяць тому +31

    I'm crying my head off watching this! Years ago my kitten named Toast also passed away unexpectedly! Years later, I found an adult cat named Buddy that looks just like your Toast! He is very senior now, and although I never got to experience the first years of Buddy's life or the rest of my Toast's, I am beyond grateful! Rest easy always sweet Toast! 🐾❤️

  • @hakp6401
    @hakp6401 2 місяці тому +21

    Love & light. Cry until no more tears left. Give yourself some time. It might take your whole life but remember, you gave lots of love and he surely will keep your love as his most precious treasure. Take care

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +1

      Thank you so much! This means a lot!

    • @lucycarter5587
      @lucycarter5587 Місяць тому

      Thinking of you 💕

  • @MitchSprague
    @MitchSprague 2 місяці тому +23

    So sad. He was a beautiful boy. Your story sounds very familiar to our recent sad events. I'm so sorry for your loss.

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +2

      He really was a beautiful boy. Thank you so much! I’m so sorry for your recent sad event! You’ll be ok! I promise.

  • @sallysam4650
    @sallysam4650 Місяць тому +2

    He’s beautiful, I cannot imagine the feeling seeing him not breathing, the pain is unreal, be strong, patience, God is watching❤

  • @sxwrtr918
    @sxwrtr918 2 місяці тому +23

    Wonderful tribute to a precious and delightful little soul. Your love for him is heartfelt, as is the agony in your voice. You found him all alone and gave him a lovely life, and he loved you. Keep him in your heart and he will be with you always❤.

  • @jjrat5pack
    @jjrat5pack 25 днів тому +1

    Toast knows you did what you could. I'm so sorry you lost him. Please don't blame yourself, you did nothing wrong. Sounds like the vet postponing his visit is what's to blame.
    We lost our 3 yo cat to kidney disease. Turned out that her bad breath I kept noticing, which neither of my roommates ever seemed to smell, was a symptom. We did give her sub-q fluids, but it wasn't enough.😢 She passed laying on my roommates' bed. Her 'daddy' lifted her up to look out her favorite window one more time & she was gone 10-15 minutes later.
    Yikes, that NFL ad was jarring, coming up mid-story!
    Sending you supportive hugs & love.

  • @clearview2311
    @clearview2311 2 місяці тому +49

    bro, I can hear the crack in your heart/soul, ...but that tiny spirit didn't come to you by accident, Toast's story came to your family to be a complete picture in a larger dynamic. We all have a different time line and we just can't tell when. The beautiful animals that came into my life have brought me more than I can even bear to speak as I visit their graves, but I know that someday I will pass, and there won't be any separation but Complete Unity. Peace and Love Toast!! There is no separation, only Unity when our work here is complete!!

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +8

      Thank you so much. That’s means so much to hear. I’m sorry to hear about your loss of your animals and I can’t wait to be with toast again.

    • @marialuisamartins8197
      @marialuisamartins8197 Місяць тому +5

      So beautiful hope you are right

    • @clearview2311
      @clearview2311 Місяць тому +1

      @@marialuisamartins8197 ...one to think about, does consciousness exist in the body, or does the body exist in consciousness???

  • @LovedbyDarkness
    @LovedbyDarkness 2 місяці тому +22

    Good bye Toast, you where loved so very much. I wish I got to come up and meet you.. You will forever be in our hearts.

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +5

      I wish you would have been able to meet him as well. I was so excited for you two to meet. He would have loved you

    • @valstrong5438
      @valstrong5438 Місяць тому +2

      So sorry for your loss
      I feel your loss . Sweet little baby boy 😢rest in Peace

  • @clifffloyd4478
    @clifffloyd4478 Місяць тому +11

    Kittys are Gods animals and deserve better treatment and care for them. Vets who are cold hearted don't deserve to be doctors . I'm so sorry for your lost, i know the feeling. My life with my kittys are my reality now. They show more love to me than blood relatives. RIP Toast.

  • @ocsteve3
    @ocsteve3 2 місяці тому +30

    In my thumnail is Ms. Pinky. We lost her Sept. 2022, cancer. We had her 15 years.
    Watched a TED Talk on pet grief which helped point out why it's so difficult saying goodbye which is our own human instinct to relive events over and over looking for our mistakes which helps us learn and evolve. I had to forgive myself and learned to do that. This past February, we were finally ready to provide a forever home to our next housemates. A couple of boys, Chewie and Maverick. They are both named for famous pilots, not siblings. Maverick lost a leg in his outdoor adventures before being rescued. Both are alpha's and have found a mutual understanding and are already each others wingmen.
    They are both 2 years old which means our next loves were already here and waiting while we were still saying goodbye to Pinky.
    I felt your pain.
    Rest, Toast. Pinky will greet you at the Rainbow Bridge.

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +6

      Im so sorry for you loss, and I am happy to see that you have found you next furry housemates! I am keeping Toast in my heart and will never forget him! I do plan on adopting another furry friend in a few years but for right now I just want to grieve the loss of toast. Thank you for your kind words, Im sure toast and Ms. Pinky are having so much fun together on the rainbow bridge with all the other wonderful furry friends!

    • @malicetosociety
      @malicetosociety Місяць тому +1

      Grief is an emotion like any other, not a human instinct. How it works varies from person to person.

    • @ocsteve3
      @ocsteve3 Місяць тому

      @@malicetosociety Yes, we all grieve differently. Replaying events over and over is our instinctual learning process which can intensify our grieving process. Thanks for the clarification.

  • @sp1cyn3k0
    @sp1cyn3k0 Місяць тому +40

    I am sending you so much love and light.
    I lost my Haru in 2022, two days after her spay operation. The vet said she was completely healthy, that the surgery went well, so why did I lose her?
    It hurts so much knowing that we could have had more time. It hurts that we’ll probably never have answers.
    I know we will be reunited with our Haru and Toast in the rainbow bridge. In the meantime, I hope you find the strength to honor his life for the rest of yours.

  • @chucku00
    @chucku00 Місяць тому +1

    Thank you for sharing what your kitty gave you.
    “And when your sorrow is comforted (time soothes all sorrows) you will be content that you have known me. You will always be my friend. You will want to laugh with me. And you will sometimes open your window, so, for that pleasure . . . And your friends will be properly astonished to see you laughing as you look up at the sky! Then you will say to them, 'Yes, the stars always make me laugh!' And they will think you are crazy. It will be a very shabby trick that I shall have played on you...”
    ― Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, The Little Prince

  • @rz9084
    @rz9084 Місяць тому +1

    What a beautifully touching tribute to your beautiful baby kitty. You are a beautiful man for making this beautiful video. I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost my baby kitty that I had for 17 years. I cannot get over my baby kitty. That was 30 years ago. I still love my baby kitty. I love the video of Toast. Toast will always be with you. I know my kitty is somehow with me. Toast will somehow always be with you. It's true love. Love never dies. Bless you. It hurts me that you are crying. I send you love. Thank you for loving baby kitty Toast❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤❤

  • @susandeleon-barlis4
    @susandeleon-barlis4 Місяць тому +9

    Oh NO!!! TOAST was still just a Baby! I am so, so Sorry for losing your priceless Joy, treasured Friend and Playmate. Your envisioned long years of companionship was so unexpectedly taken away from you. I cannot understand why his Vet/Staff denied to accommodate seeing him knowing TOAST is a current patient who was very recently Neutered! As a Retired Dentist, Cat Rescuer & Advocate, it does Not make sense how in such a situation, they could not carve out any time to see him even after office hours after that 1st Call. Cats are known to be good in hiding their pain. Neutering a Male Cat is a much simpler Surgical Procedure than that of Spaying a Female Cat. Something must have gone wrong internally, as you found blood.
    I truly feel for you and can relate to your deep Grief. I don't mean to make you feel worst but I just feel so sorry for TOAST not seen by his Vet and wondered if there were no other caring Vets in your area? Please go to a different Vet iIF or when the time comes that you want to adopt a Kitty and give him/her the Best Life other than being in a Shelter. Be ready for possible emergency situations. I've rescued and adopted so many injured, abused, abandoned, sick, homeless cats & emergencies do happen at the worst of times, when Regular Vet Offices are closed or all nearby 24/7 Animal Hospitals are Full. I've had to drive close to an hour in the dead of the night for a seriously fur-baby to be seen immediately.
    I personally know that Dealing with Grief from losing our beloved Fur-babies is a long Process. TOAST would never have known tender, human love, if you and your sister did not rescue him. He was deeply loved by all of you. Thank you for Honoring his Life with this TRIBUTE despite your Pain. I Pray that in time, only Joyful Memories of TOAST and his Time with you and your Family will remain. ❤

  • @lindastanley229
    @lindastanley229 23 дні тому +1

    The loss of a pet is unbearable.my precious cat was killed by a car in 1984 and i am still not over it.i loved him so much .he was a stray we took in.we all understand how you feel and the pain it brings.sending love to you rest in peace sweet kitty ❤

  • @johnwindle6378
    @johnwindle6378 24 дні тому +1

    Lovely tribute to your beloved Cat, Toast. When he was pawing at the Dogs, you could see how content and loved he was. Remember the good times, he's not far away, take care 🐱❤️

  • @gregdepaulo6302
    @gregdepaulo6302 20 днів тому +1

    RIP little sweetheart...😢❤😢❤

  • @kittykatross3896
    @kittykatross3896 25 днів тому +1

    Aww I'm so sorry for your loss. I know the pain of losing a Fur Baby. I've lost 3 very special little friends. I love the poem "Rainbow Bridge" It gives me comfort when I am feeling lonely for them. "If you had not loved so very much, the pain would not be so great." Take care from Calgary, Alberta.❤

  • @FeralWench
    @FeralWench Місяць тому +2

    He was a beautiful little boy, I'm sorry for your loss.

  • @Blueangels4ever
    @Blueangels4ever Місяць тому +2

    Rip little baby boy

  • @papafrank7094
    @papafrank7094 Місяць тому +8

    I rushed my beloved Pip, who was clearly having some kind of episode, to my vet. As I rushed him into the exam room, he went limp. I felt him slip away in my arms. Its been 4 years and his brother and my family miss him. Tears flow right now thinking of my boy.
    I'm so sorry for your loss of your beloved Toast, and I know how you feel.
    Toast is watching you from the bridge and is patiently awaiting you and he is whispering to you, "Dad, I'll see you soon, but not too soon."
    "Thank you for the blanket and as long as you hold me in your heart and memory, I'll be right beside you."

  • @susanmorris5114
    @susanmorris5114 Місяць тому +2

    God bless you all

  • @MrRAGE-md5rj
    @MrRAGE-md5rj 2 місяці тому +12

    Normally, I hesitate to watch videos like these because I hate feeling sad, but that's from my own, purely selfish point of view.
    it always reminds me about my own kitten, Gracie. I found her half-starved out on the street while I was walking my dog. You could see her neck & ribs sticking out, even through her fur.
    I brought her back some milk & wet food, and gave her space to eat in peace. After letting her eat for a bit, I saw my chance to grab her, so I did. I took her in, bathed her, gave her a pillow to sleep on, and I kept her sheltered from my dogs & other cat. She didn't have a collar, so we knew she had to be a stray. She warmed up to me pretty quick, even to the point of jumping onto my lap to fall asleep. Beneath all that hissing, she was a warm soul who just wanted to be loved & comforted.
    Two weeks later, she gradually stopped eating, while also drinking more & more water. I took her to a 24-hour vet on a Friday night, staying with her outside for at about 3 hours before they let us in. The vet checked her and said she had "intestinal lymphoma", and that surgery would be "expensive." If that wasn't enough, he also said that should surgery be attempted, she'd have less than a 10% chance to even survive it. When I asked the vet if she was suffering, he said "yes", and I knew what had to be done. It's not like I wasn't preparing myself for the worst, but that didn't stop it from hurting like Hell, inside.
    At the very least, I was lucky enough to have the luxury of holding her in my arms and rocking her to sleep one more time.
    If there's one thing I regret in all this, it's that I dug her first hole too shallow.
    I spent the next few days digging a proper 6-foot hole for her to be buried right, thanks to some help from my dad.
    We put her in the deeper hole in our backyard's garden, along with 3 of our dogs; all of which have been with me from one phase of my life to another.
    It's funny. They were there for me at the beginning, they rode with me through my worst years, and even if the end wasn't always as glamorous as it should've been, they still stuck with me to the end. Rest in Peace, Gracie, Joey, Chuy, and my first dog Skippy. You were all much better to me than I deserved.
    Whether you believe in Him or not, I pray that God will bless & comfort you through this time. It never gets easier. But just know, wherever they are, they're still with you, in some way, shape, or form.

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +2

      Im so sorry for your loss. You gave Gracie so much love and showed her in her short time here how much someone can care for a furry friend. You did right by her and you did right by all of your other furry family members! I wish you love and happiness and never forget you furry family members! hopefully they are all having fun up there on the rainbow bridge. Toast always wanted to be outside so I hope he is having fun with Gracie and all of his new friends!

  • @michelleharrell8452
    @michelleharrell8452 Місяць тому +29

    Male cats are neutered. Its a simple surgery. Female cats have Major surgery. Its can be pricey. I am sorry you lost your special angel whom you loved dearly. I have been thru this heartache many times. Its never easy. I still grieve for my precious bundles of fur. That was in 2014. A very bad year for me. I have the baby who is now old at almost 14 years old. Rest in Peace for all pets .

    • @user-tk1xd9js1z
      @user-tk1xd9js1z Місяць тому +2

      Yes, a simple surgery and that young cat died because of an incompetent vet that is also a coward that go in hiding.

  • @mariacasas3329
    @mariacasas3329 Місяць тому +35

    I am so sorry for your loss! Vets sometimes are jerks… I spent more than 10,000 on my kitty, he was FIV positive and had other problems which the stupid vets never resolved. My baby passed away breaking my hurt and leaving me so lonely! I miss my Teddy so much 😢I absolutely understand you!😢 RIP sweet Toast ❤

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  Місяць тому +6

      I’m so sorry for you loss. That’s awful that the vets didn’t help resolve your Teddy’s problems. I’m sure toast and teddy are running around on the rainbow bridge playing together!

    • @carriefischer9552
      @carriefischer9552 Місяць тому +1

      IM SO SORRY 🙏 YOU LOST HIM YOU MUST FEEL REALLY CRAPPY INSIDE 😢😢😢😢😪😔☹️😥😢😭 ITS A RIP OFF TO LOSE A PET I GET IT ITS NOT FUN IT WAS LAST YEAR IN 2023 ThAT I LOST MY FORMER CAT FUZZY HE HAD HEALTH PROBLEMS INSIDE OF HIM POOR FUZZY SO I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL IT SUCKS TO LOSE A PET ITS A RIP OFF NOW HIS CAT IS UP IN HEAVEN WITH MY FORMER CAT FUZZY AND WITH MY FORMER CATS LIKE SOCKS AND TIGER AND SPOOKY AND JOES FORMER CAT TERMINATER MUST FEEL REALLY CRAPPY INSIDE IM REALLY SORRY 🙏 THAT YOU LOST HIM IM SURE HE WILL MISS YOU I HOPE YOU FIND A BETTER CAT IN A NEAR FUTURE 🔮 SO I KNOW YOU FEEL IT SUCKS TO LOSE A CAT ITS PAINFUL 😥😢😭☹️

  • @ellensc-hawley3720
    @ellensc-hawley3720 Місяць тому +2

    it'll be hard, our pets are so precious & mean so much to each of us. but they know they are loved, & they love us unconditionally. cherish every precious memory you have, their spirit & soul will always be with us. take time with your grief, give yourself all the time you need. he is a real living darling, it's one of the hardest experiences one has to go through. ♥️❤️❤❤❤. by doing this video you are honoring him take care. he was so precious

  • @ameliag8574
    @ameliag8574 Місяць тому +2

    you might not have had him for most of your life but toast had you for almost all of his and i’m sure you made it so much better, i hope you’re doing as well as you can be, sending love xx

  • @Nayelilovesmusic
    @Nayelilovesmusic Місяць тому +4

    😢😢😢 I feel your pain.
    I lost my exceptional kitty at 15 years of age. No day will be the same since then. I have rescued other cats now, but no one will replace my 'Muggie'. Some souls are meant to remain forever closest to our hearts.
    -Until we might meet again, so God's will.- ❤

  • @sallysam4650
    @sallysam4650 Місяць тому +1

    This broke me… thank you for loving this beautiful baby😢

  • @jeromebreeding3302
    @jeromebreeding3302 2 місяці тому +15

    I sudpect a botched neuter surgery caused the loss of your beloved Toast. I am profoundly sorry for your loss.

    • @user-zp1se9du9z
      @user-zp1se9du9z Місяць тому

      Vets seem to exist to cash in on our love these days. Their sympathy is empty, because without money, our furbabies will die. They'll euthanize for a low, low price. Life costs an arm and a leg.

    • @steveleeds5221
      @steveleeds5221 18 днів тому +1

      I agree, I think maybe a stricture leading to his bladder hemorrhaging, it nearly happened to my Simba a few weeks ago. Thankfully they unblocked him and admitted him, but he was bleeding from his bladder, he's neutered but had I known the problems it causes, never would I have had him done. Blockages in male cats following being neutered is a huge problem, but we wasn't told that until after he kept blocking up. We've spent over 5k getting him treatment to save his life. Worth every penny!

  • @BlackDragon41sbm
    @BlackDragon41sbm Місяць тому +24

    My cat of 18 years passed back on March 6th of this year. She died in front of my doorway as if waiting for me to get back home from work. I grieved for days and still do from time to time, but with her chapter at its end, i went and adopted a new cat to save from the shelter, she's my little sunshine and so sweet. She's been helping me with the passing of my last baby girl Ebony who literally lived half my life. I would recommend getting another cat, preferably saving one from a kill shelter.

    • @solidsnakesimulation666
      @solidsnakesimulation666 Місяць тому +1

      You're sick to get over a loved pet so quickly and easily.

    • @BlackDragon41sbm
      @BlackDragon41sbm Місяць тому +1

      ​​​@@solidsnakesimulation666
      Do you honestly think that I don't love a cat that I raised and cared for literally half my life, giving love, attention, affection, and making many memories the good and bad, just dropping it because I go out and save a cat from a shelter only a little over a week since passing? Like it was 'easy'? Smh. Who's the sick one for making such a claim? Mind you, I still mourn my baby, I still sometimes accidentally call my new cat my old cat's name. I still think fondly about my baby and I sometimes look at a lock of her fur that I put into a tiny jar with her picture. Really? I I'm sick? Believe me, it does sound terrible, maybe to someone like you, but I am alone a lot. I don't have a husband, i don't have kids, i live in a single bedroom apartment and have issues and anxiety about being alone. You cannot fathom how much anxiety I had, waiting for my adoption form to get approved to go and get a new cat. I loved my baby, I cried more when she was nearing her death than after her passing. I spent over a week suffering her loss, yet thanking the Lord for sending me that precious animal who kept me company in a trying time in my life when I moved away from my parents. It hurt, it really hurt to lose her. But, I'm not a woman who likes being alone. I still think about my baby, even now that nearly a month has passed, I still cry sometimes. But my new cat Sundae is like a ray of sunshine in my cloudy skies, she needed a specific environment in order to be adopted and so sat in foster care and the shelter for almost 2 years before finally finding her forever home and she is as sweet as can be and makes me smile. I always look forward to her after work like my last cat because I have a tiresome and laborious stressful job, she waits on me at my front door, just like my last cat. However, there is nothing wrong with going out and saving a cat from a shelter just because your previous pet recently passed away. Sundae has been helping me with grief and anxiety. Of course she can never replace my cat Ebony, I didn't raise her half my life, but it sure is nice to have another friend to come home to after a long day. Don't assume that I'm being cruel to the memories of my last cat because I was quick to adopt, there will always be a special place in my heart for Ebony. Even to this day, I still think about and miss her, and in a day it'll be a month since her passing, but age has taken her and she's taking the long sleep. Her book has closed, no matter how long I wish I could have kept it open. I am now taking care of a new kitty who needs a home, too many cats are sitting in shelters, if only there were more people who cared to rescue them... You can say what you will, call me sick for moving on 'so quickly', but my sisters, my brother, my parents, and my friends would say differently. There is no reason to sit at home, crying, mourning over what once was for weeks on end, when there's a cat out there who needs a friend, a place to stay, a home. You can't see my pain, I tend to keep it buried to myself because I don't like to worry others. We all grieve and handle it differently, some people need more time than others. I'm sorry if I'm not the kind of person you expect, but I can't handle loneliness. Have a good night and be well.

    • @malicetosociety
      @malicetosociety Місяць тому

      ​@@BlackDragon41sbm You are trying to fill a lonely void with an animal. One now, next time another, but deep down you know what's the issue.
      It's easier to relay on a cat then to let another human being inside.

  • @lloydhlavac6807
    @lloydhlavac6807 Місяць тому +2

    My heart is breaking for you. And you have made a wonderful memorial for Toast, one that he deserves. I did the same for my last cat, my sweet beloved Abby, who passed on 7/23/21, after a paralyzing blood clot she had forced me to have her euthanized, and I can still come to tears thinking about her. Please don't beat yourself up so much, as you DID save Toast when you found him! The too short a time he was with you he knew love and a happy home, so you DID save him. Toast can not be replaced, but I hope you will keep an open heart to the possibility of some day adopting another cat who so deserves a human like you in its life. My family and I have had 4 cats during my 60+ years, and each one's passing has devastated me and left me heartbroken, but each of those cats were strays who needed us, and had much better lives than they would have had if we hadn't adopted them. In fact, Abby adopted me, even though I didn't want another cat because of the heartache losing one brings, but I have no regrets, as she brought much joy to my life. My sincerest condolences to you.

  • @amotaba
    @amotaba Місяць тому +1

    I also lost 3 four-legged angels last past year: two cats Garrincha and Maradona and one rabbit Sophi. First who died was Garrincha in december 2022. I still miss him and the other two SO MUCH. I feel exactly what you said in this video. There will be always a hole in our heart, but the heart is big. Adopt or buy another little angel, they need love and a home. They will never replace Toast, but i'm sure they will love you as mush as Toast loved. I sincerely hope will feel better soon.

  • @senob44
    @senob44 Місяць тому +1

    I am so sorry that you had to lose your little one this way. It is frustrating knowing that something is wrong and not being able to do anything about it. In the past 15 years we have had to visit an emergency vet twice because it was either the weekend on one occasion, and just needed immediate care the other time. It was costly but both times undoubtedly saved our cats' lives. Luckily in our area the emergency vet is 24/7/365.

  • @mr.skullma7100
    @mr.skullma7100 Місяць тому +8

    So sorry for your loss…your boy is in Heaven now and you will see him again someday…

  • @stop08it
    @stop08it Місяць тому +2

    I’m so sorry you couldn’t even get him seen by the vet, after trying for so many days, that is awful!!! I can understand why you are so heartbroken, I’m so sorry for your loss. He was loved till the end, RIP beautiful baby

  • @drunkensquirrel7545
    @drunkensquirrel7545 Місяць тому +1

    I'm so sad to hear about Toast's death, he was so young. I'm in tears for you. Please remember he loved you & you gave him his very best life - when you and your sister found him it was a blessing for Toast and for you. We've lost many cats over the years. Some were young, some old... it's always a terrible grief. I'll always miss them, even when (in time) I can remember them with more smiles than tears. Toast will always be with you, and I believe that one day we'll all be reunited.
    RIP, Toast. 🫂

  • @lil_paws
    @lil_paws Місяць тому +5

    Oh God I can not fight back the tears😢. I am so sorry for your loss.

  • @Iconoplastt
    @Iconoplastt Місяць тому +5

    Sorry about your loss... your cat looked so beautiful and he was lucky to have had you and been so well loved. It 's pretty unfathomable for me to picture how much a creature like this was loved, but it always does make me happy. The circumstances are horrible, I am sorry that happened :(

  • @romygime5822
    @romygime5822 Місяць тому +7

    So sorry for the loss of your beloved pet. Beloved little one so sweet baby R.I.P little Angel❤🙏🐈🕊🌼🌻💐🏵

  • @Bizzlle
    @Bizzlle Місяць тому +2

    Gone too soon to even comprehend. I am so sorry. At least he got to spend his time with a dad and mum who loved him so very much. I know how much you must be hurting. I hope Toast bless him sends another guy into your life.

  • @punithasubramanian2278
    @punithasubramanian2278 2 дні тому +1

    RIP Toast 😭😭😭😭😭

  • @karver4151
    @karver4151 Місяць тому +2

    I am so sorry for your loss, friend. 💗💗 Came across this video while looking for resources to help me cope with losing my beloved girl two weeks ago. Be blessed for saving and loving this little soul. Sending you light and healing 💗. Take your time to honour Toast. Grief has no timeline, no matter what anyone says...

  • @priscalilla
    @priscalilla Місяць тому +2

    Rip Little angel🌈💜💗

  • @lisag.6599
    @lisag.6599 Місяць тому +2

    How unutterably sad. I’m so sorry for you, and so sorry your little friend is gone so much before his time.

  • @BillyCrystal-hc5jp
    @BillyCrystal-hc5jp Місяць тому +7

    Oh no. This is so sad. Cats are my life

  • @bonniehowell6604
    @bonniehowell6604 Місяць тому +5

    Thank you. I , too, would be so sad if/ when my cat dies/died. He’s @12 yrs old now. A rescue.
    Love him with all my heart. Thank you. Be comforted.

  • @jonnunn8034
    @jonnunn8034 Місяць тому +8

    I’m so sorry for your loss god bless his heart

  • @user-og2bm6hl4l
    @user-og2bm6hl4l 2 місяці тому +8

    Its so heart breaking to listen to your story. RIP TOAST ❤

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +3

      Rip toast. He was an amazing cat and would have loved all this attention :(

  • @1959Berre
    @1959Berre Місяць тому +2

    Oh man, I feel your pain. When my cats passed away I was devastated each time. I cried till I had no more tears for weeks. It hurts and there is nothing you can do about it. It is okay to grieve. A pet is part of the family. Stay strong.

  • @beckymartin12
    @beckymartin12 2 місяці тому +10

    yes i agree,, with the others here,,, the Vet was not diligent in helping ur fur baby,,.. i feel he may have had an infection from the surgery,,, im a huge animal lover,,, have had many kitties and still have a few,, i knw a lot about them and have had many close calls with their health.. i had one that had an episode due to a Spay and called the vet,, rushed him in and they helped me right away,,, ur vet SHOULD have helped u,, this is very heartbreaking and sad,,, ur baby was still a BABY,, my heart goes out to u and ur family... they are our hearts,, the heartbeat at out feet and they fill us with love, joy, laughter and keep us happy and full of life,,, it hurts when they leave us. whether we had them for 3 seconds or 18 yrs,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,its never easy and always hard,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +3

      I agree. The vet should have been more diligent and should have helped us. I also think it was an infection that took toast. I wish we could have helped him and have him with us now but he came into my life when I needed him most and he did what he was supposed to do and unfortunately he left us not to long after.

    • @SomnusLucisCaelum
      @SomnusLucisCaelum Місяць тому +1

      ​@@MilkCoffinI hope you dont blame yourself foe what happened. You loved him and tou could've never predicted what that isiot vet was going to do. Healing thoughts for you, you got a little angel in heaven watching over you

  • @AlexTheFollowerofJesusChrist
    @AlexTheFollowerofJesusChrist 2 місяці тому +17

    This was so heart breaking. I am so sorry for your loss man. I know things may not seem fair right now, but things will turn around and get better. I lost my dog Romo May 2nd, 2023, and that led me to Jesus Christ and the Lord has changed my life for the better. I am now at peace knowing that I am saved because of what Jesus did on the cross for me and knowing by his promise that I will have everlasting life and will get to be with my family, animals, friends and my Lord and Savior when the time comes for all of eternity. I hope you come to the faith and receive the free gift of everlasting life and peace.

    • @Clovis-fn4pz
      @Clovis-fn4pz Місяць тому

      Sorry for your loss . Especially when there young.

    • @daveogarf
      @daveogarf 23 дні тому

      @@Clovis-fn4pz - (*they're)

  • @aurasphere87
    @aurasphere87 28 днів тому +1

    My friend, I am truly sorry. This is a pain that's indescribable. He was so young... had his entire life ahead of him. Vets need to prioritize emergencies!
    My 13 y/o boy Garfield is dying as I type this... he has blood in his urine, has lost weight, not eating much and for the 1st time in 13 years not sleeping with me.. None of the meds or antibiotics are working. I feel your pain and am truly sorry your bond was so short lived. I have another 13 and 14 year old cat also....
    This was a touching video. My prayers are with you.
    Rest well Toast ❤

  • @KatsCats2619
    @KatsCats2619 Місяць тому +2

    Do sorry for the loss of Toast 😢R.I.P sweetheart😇🌈

  • @kalkeikuu
    @kalkeikuu 26 днів тому +2

    My condolences 💔 May he rest in peace Toast.😢

  • @Kimellis0
    @Kimellis0 Місяць тому +5

    I’m so sorry for loss 😭 Your words was everything I felt and wanted to express about my Albie, who passed away in 2020. I still miss her dearly and still talk to her every day. RIP to our precious companions, friends and soul mates. 🌈🌈 until we meet again ❤

  • @user-ve2et5ce7p
    @user-ve2et5ce7p 16 днів тому +1

    My cat looks just like toast. Toast will always be in your heart and now ours. RIP Toast.

  • @mcmlxii4419
    @mcmlxii4419 13 днів тому +1

    This made me cry. I am so sorry for the loss of your precious little boy Toast. He is a beautiful kitten. It's obvious how much you loved him. Sending you hugs. I lost one of my cats a month ago. She was very young, too. She had cancer. I miss her terribly. It hurts so much,.

  • @vickynestell3436
    @vickynestell3436 Місяць тому +5

    Poor baby he was so young I lost My beloved Milo of 10years I miss him it's so sad and I to buried him under a tree this makes me cry i was with him to his last breath it never gets better God sent me another ❤ now I have 3 rest in pease toast you Will be missed God bless you

  • @brainrussell6811
    @brainrussell6811 Місяць тому +1

    A very tough, very unnecessary loss. The only way to heal anger and pain is with love. I feel for you because I've been there so many times. Just remember, there are so many needy souls like Toast out there... alone and probably feeling hopeless. When you're ready, invite another soulmate into your life and heal two hearts at once. Many Blessings, my friend.

  • @aaronzylbers
    @aaronzylbers 2 місяці тому +7

    God bless you, beautiful Toast.

  • @user-cq7uv6mu6i
    @user-cq7uv6mu6i 28 днів тому +1

    Sorry for Your Loss And He Is In A Beautiful Place And I Love You Furever And Ever Sweet Kitty And So Precious and Special and Amazing You Are Little One Darling 💞💕💞💕💞 I As A Christian 💗💗💗💗💗 Believe Your In A Beautiful Place As All Little Ones who went
    Before Us An We Will Seeing Our Little Beloved One's Again. I
    Cry as well Hearing This
    Memory Of You Guys And Your Special And Precious Family And Friend May He Be Waiting for You As I Know He will ❤❤❤❤...

  • @Diaszurana
    @Diaszurana Місяць тому +3

    I'm so sorry, man. Truly

  • @tamdsms
    @tamdsms Місяць тому +2

    💔, 🙏❣ You'll see him again, & it will be forever. My heart goes out to you❣ Kind regards❣

  • @drinnenber
    @drinnenber 2 місяці тому +5

    Man, I know this heartache and it's awful. I really feel for you, man.

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  2 місяці тому +1

      Thank you so much! It really is awful. I’m sorry you’ve had to feel it as well.

  • @dewithistle910
    @dewithistle910 23 дні тому +1

    Oh man! Poor baby! I’m so sorry! 🥺🥲 I’ve lost two of my cats over the last few years and it’s just the worst thing ever! They’re literally part of your family! RIP Toast! 💔🌻

  • @jiffa7891
    @jiffa7891 Місяць тому +5

    Thank you for sharing your feelings and the story of Toast. He was wonderful. It resonates deeply with me, as I also lost my old cat. Just wanted to say that I feel your pain.

    • @MilkCoffin
      @MilkCoffin  Місяць тому +1

      I’m so sorry for your loss and I’m happy my words and my feelings could be shared with you!

  • @user-pm5qq2kx9r
    @user-pm5qq2kx9r Місяць тому +3

    😢😭🥺😭dèepest condolences to u n ur family...a pet is like part of our family members, a life too precious to loose....take care...rip toast...

  • @tylociraptor8131
    @tylociraptor8131 Місяць тому +6

    Don't even follow you but it came on my suggested... RIP to Toast, he was so cute!!!! So sorry for your loss.

  • @sandyk1153
    @sandyk1153 Місяць тому +4

    I lost my beautiful tortie, Sophie, on Feb. 27, 2024. I had her over 10 years
    and vet thought she was around 15 years old. I had her cremated and have her canister on my headboard.

  • @proudlycanadian3023
    @proudlycanadian3023 Місяць тому +2

    Thank you very, very much to both you and your cat for being amazingly/divinely perfect to the highest degree! I am just speaking about my personal views/beliefs-MAY ALMIGHT GOD BE PRAISED AND GET ALL THE GLORY! What do I mean? I am just so thankful about the precious gifts that my creator has bestowed upon me, and now his creation NO longer suffers from this fallen world. They are in perfect peace in heaven!

  • @kaitlintropper2061
    @kaitlintropper2061 Місяць тому +1

    So sorry for your loss, I was at work when my 22 year old cat passed away. Sad that I didn’t watch him go but my dad and sister did. Went over to the vet after to say my final goodbye. It is hard, it’s a hole in your heart. Did end up getting two cats a month later.

  • @cal7961
    @cal7961 28 днів тому +1

    I’m in tears. Stay strong friend and know that you gave him a better life and that he’s in a better place now. ❤️

  • @joycejohnston2863
    @joycejohnston2863 27 днів тому +1

    Hi so sorry for your loss and what a heart warming tribute to your adorable cutie pie toast all animals are cutie pies well in my eyes love is deep so glad at least he went happy being cared for and loved and until yous meet again so glad him and the dogs loved one another also they will all meet again also he might also be seeing some of his love ones and meeting new friends well if you decide to get another cat or help another cat in need toast will be happy that you are helping out one of his furry kind my pepper the cat is gone now 2yrs and no one won't really take the place of him but he will be happy that they will be loved and taken good care of like he was well blessings and peace for toast your cat and for you and your dogs peace✌️🙏✌️🙏✌️🙏✌️🙏😇🙏✌️

  • @HM2SGT
    @HM2SGT Місяць тому +1

    Strength & Courage, Love & Luck 🍀😻🤞🫶
    You gave him a life, however brief, free from want & fear. A life that was heaven on earth. He had a loving forever home, & y'all did that. It's a beautiful, wonderful thing.
    _You were my favourite hello. You were my hardest goodbye. You were ready for your wings, but our hearts were not._
    Broken hearts heal larger.
    Im a disabled vet, a 6'2"250# 40 year career medic & firefighter... & I choke up & get misty eyed about my cats. & about Toast too. I've lost patients, I've lost cats, I've woken to innocent sweet kittens who came to the clearing at the end of the path while I slept- it *_SUCKS!_* But you'll find somebody else who needs you & loves you, & you'll love them, & it'll be wonderful until it hurts again, but you'll have made a difference for that cat too. The wheel always turns, & they'll live in your heart & memory. It's a good thing. You have so much love to give, & so do they. 😸

  • @mikefisher2673
    @mikefisher2673 Місяць тому +5

    Toast, when you cross that rainbow bridge look Chico he crossed that bridge last year. He'd love having a little brother to play with.

  • @soaringkite2673
    @soaringkite2673 Місяць тому +4

    My 20 year old boy will be crossing the rainbow bridge tomorrow. Godspeed to Toast and Baby. 😢💔

  • @margaieljohnson1231
    @margaieljohnson1231 Місяць тому +1

    I'm so sorry 💔😔😥🙏 Beautiful tribute.

  • @helenahandkart1857
    @helenahandkart1857 2 місяці тому +3

    Poor li'l mate, Toast. It is so hard... Much love to you, ❤️‍🩹🌌

  • @bobbiejobrown2838
    @bobbiejobrown2838 Місяць тому +2

    I'm so deeply sorry 4 ur loss he's such a handsome boy....i kno how u feel i just lost my girl Lexi on march 14, 2024 @ 10:25 am on my chest listening 2 my heartbeat...i adopted her from the local animal shelter n my home town n june of 2007 & she was 13 months old then...she was born 05/17/2006 & i lost her 03/14/2024...RIP TOAST...i kno he's up there n heaven playin with my Lexi & her brothers Johnny & Tigger & they r waiting on us

  • @duckymcscrooge438
    @duckymcscrooge438 Місяць тому +1

    I know. I can relate to your loss. Poor baby 😢. Know this...he loves you as much as you love him. You both will reunite one day, when the time is right.

  • @elizabethruby-cunningham6028
    @elizabethruby-cunningham6028 18 днів тому +1

    So sorry for your loss. May the memories that you have of Toast bring you some comfort.

  • @gillianevans8291
    @gillianevans8291 Місяць тому +1

    I am so sorry you lost your beautiful boy. I lost my fur baby, my best friend when he was 21. That was 4 years ago, and I still miss my baby every day ❤❤

  • @shanecampbell5100
    @shanecampbell5100 Місяць тому +1

    I’m so sorry you lost your best friend 🌈 He went where he knew he could pass and maybe being you would cause him pain and he knew it would affect you too. Toast loved you and your family so much and you gave him is best life ❤ Your heart is broken right now but pieces will fill back in but there will always be a missing piece named Toast 💔🫶🌈🙏🏻

  • @yolandarecania1281
    @yolandarecania1281 19 днів тому +1

    Hi my name is Yolanda, I seen your video today 5/1/24
    And it touched my heart all the words you said is the same thing I felt and went through. W recently lost our younger cat too on March 10th 2010 He was a joy to our family we got him from a friend he was a loving cat and a rolly pooly that’s why we named him Gordy .he started acting different not making it to the litter box the vet said he just had arthritis we where gonna take him to the vet the following Monday. Because it was the weekend. But on Sunday when my family was out I woke up that morning To find my precious baby Gordy passed away. I screamed and was angry blame the vet my self. We cremated him have his ashes with us. I want him back everyday I miss him so much . Your cat looked just like Gordy. I’m so sorry for your lost both our baby’s are playing together in heaven,until we meet them again. God Bless yo🙏🏽😭😭😭

  • @PattyandWillie
    @PattyandWillie Місяць тому +1

    I am so very sorry 😭for the loss of your beautiful cat. I feel your pain.....I love animals, especially cats. But I truly believe we will see our beloved pets again someday. Rest in Peace 🕊️ little angel! 🌈🐈🐾🐾💖

  • @elliej11j68
    @elliej11j68 Місяць тому +1

    My heart breaks for you. RIP sweet Toast.❤️

  • @moongypsyguerrero1925
    @moongypsyguerrero1925 Місяць тому +1

    I can hear the heartbreak in your voice.I'm so sorry, deeply sorry.Little Toast is so precious,Bless his sweet heart,💔 Rest In Peace and Heaven, little loved one🙏🌈🕊️

  • @MyTubeOne
    @MyTubeOne 2 місяці тому +3

    RIP
    🪦
    Petty beauty
    They are legends one way or another
    What beautiful soul

  • @ivan00001983
    @ivan00001983 Місяць тому +1

    I am so sorry, I felt like that when a car hit our cat Nikky, he was only one and a half year old. I hope to see him one day on the other side. 🌈

  • @Daligga
    @Daligga Місяць тому +1

    I'm so sorry for your loss, what an amazingly sweet kitten :

  • @archiebald4717
    @archiebald4717 Місяць тому +4

    So sad, I kn9w the feeling of loss of our dear friends.

  • @liamrowbotham2069
    @liamrowbotham2069 4 дні тому +1

    Aww my heart breaks for you he was beautiful looks like the male version of my cat Rosie 🐈 i dread this day myself i send my condolences Toast will always be with you