What Does a Nightmarish Ego Death Feel Like?

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  • Опубліковано 19 лис 2024

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  • @thecatsbackyard4833
    @thecatsbackyard4833 10 місяців тому +50

    The value of Vivec's Terrence McKenna voice cannot be overstated.

    • @crashtestsafety
      @crashtestsafety 10 місяців тому +3

      i hate it personally haha i literally skip past it

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому +14

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    • @TheSchmuck2
      @TheSchmuck2 10 місяців тому

      ​@@crashtestsafetynot being a dick is free

    • @SoogySploogy
      @SoogySploogy 10 місяців тому +10

      @@crashtestsafetyparty pooper

    • @nimbuscloud2385
      @nimbuscloud2385 10 місяців тому +1

      Lol. Imagine what Vegeta tripping would be like. Only Goku could handle being his tripsitter.

  • @jackofallthinks
    @jackofallthinks 10 місяців тому +14

    Running around the streets naked AGAIN is wild

    • @Bunny01879
      @Bunny01879 10 місяців тому +2

      NOT AGAIN OMG

  • @psilopsychic
    @psilopsychic 10 місяців тому +17

    Important message in the commentary on this 🙌🏼
    Edit: The best advice I can give for people wanting to start, besides the usual research, set/setting, is to start low. Wanna do mushrooms? Take 1-2g. You have your whole life to be working with these tools and if you start low, you can get a feel for them and know your own tolerance and how well you manage them. I’ve had quite a lot of trips now, and most of them have been small in dosage, yet they’ve helped me completely transform. You don’t need 5g in silent darkness for that, you can always get there eventually if you wish, but please value your own mental health and be careful

    • @TheSchmuck2
      @TheSchmuck2 10 місяців тому +1

      Vivec is the best

    • @nickromeo93
      @nickromeo93 10 місяців тому

      What is your favorite dosage range for mushrooms? I just finally worked my way up to 3 grams and I’m just now getting into visual territory. Wondering if I should take a few more journeys here before I move up. I’m definitely curious about how much the closed eye visions will intensify if I go up but at the same time I don’t want to overwhelm myself. This last 3 gram trip was pretty beautiful.

    • @psilopsychic
      @psilopsychic 10 місяців тому

      @@nickromeo93 The majority of my mushroom trips were 1.5g liberty caps which for me resulted in minor visuals but very useful realisations. I did 2g blue meanies (cubensis) recently which was very strong and resulted in an ego death. I feel confident enough now after over a year and a half or so of tripping to jump to 3g blue meanies for my next trip. I wanna try DMT this year also

  • @bolby019
    @bolby019 10 місяців тому +8

    My dad had a panic attack last night after sharing weed with him, your videos are very informative one of my favorite channels cheers from oregon mate

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому +11

      Hope he's doing better now, I've had many panic attacks & episodes of extreme anxiety/paranoia due to cannabis use. Thank you for watching, much love man.

  • @Soundsaboutright42
    @Soundsaboutright42 10 місяців тому +7

    Perfect upload for my Sunday, appreciate all you do man

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому +3

      Glad to be complimenting your day of rest my man

    • @Soundsaboutright42
      @Soundsaboutright42 10 місяців тому

      ​@@Vivec You have fundamentally changed my views and guided me to develop an understanding of life I'm unsure I would've gotten elsewhere. If we ever cross paths in the physical realm, you're getting a hug amigo.

  • @Hollyhayes19
    @Hollyhayes19 10 місяців тому +1

    Thanks for sharing, love your commentaries afterwards. So valuable and informative. Keep it up!

  • @nah2coo552
    @nah2coo552 10 місяців тому +3

    I once took 4 gram of blue minis never really took that many before usually around 1 or 2 grams but during my come up I was hitting my cart back to back like a dumbass all I remember was watching videos on my phone and getting stuck in some weird ass thought loop very hard to remember but afterwards I remember laying there with a ringing in my ear and my memories slowly coming back to me it was like I was getting to know myself again 😂 I was never really myself after that tho it was jus a really weird trip

  • @fizzybubblech8302
    @fizzybubblech8302 10 місяців тому +1

    This channel is the bomb ! love it. I wonder if our society is so materialistic and not spiritual because psychedelics are no longer in general use?

  • @V0iD.c0llectiv3
    @V0iD.c0llectiv3 7 місяців тому +1

    lol I had this EXACT same experience smoking weed on the acid come up I fought the experience out of fear and it fucked me up bad I can’t even touch weed anymore or I derealize it feels really good to know I’m not alone with my experience

  • @aug.jam.1
    @aug.jam.1 10 місяців тому +5

    This sounded like me last Saturday. Damn that LSD trip didn't go very well even though it was a 1 tab 150uG. Huge amount of ear ringing and terrible headache... not sure what happened lol. Thanks for another great trip report! 🎉

    • @jimit.4220
      @jimit.4220 4 місяці тому

      You probably were in a bad headspace and/or a bad environment

    • @aug.jam.1
      @aug.jam.1 4 місяці тому

      @@jimit.4220 yeah I have no doubt I was at that time. I also had stuff to do at night and next morning and thats a big no no. Its really best to take it like friday evening with nothing planned for the weekend and at least feel a bit more positive than normal

  • @longjonhothan6963
    @longjonhothan6963 10 місяців тому +1

    Love your summaries and thoughts on people’s experiences

  • @nothingtosee1417
    @nothingtosee1417 10 місяців тому +17

    Had this off of Durban Poison cuz I can't tolerate weed. I'm going to rehab Monday. Love your content bro :) .

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому +10

      All the best with your recovery mate!

    • @nikolai6489
      @nikolai6489 10 місяців тому +4

      Lmao rehab for weed

    • @nothingtosee1417
      @nothingtosee1417 10 місяців тому

      @@nikolai6489 Not only that but opioids. I just don't think opioids really cause derealization.

    • @Johndoe-wm3ns
      @Johndoe-wm3ns 10 місяців тому +7

      @@nikolai6489why so rude ?

    • @nikolai6489
      @nikolai6489 10 місяців тому +2

      @@nothingtosee1417 ah so opioids

  • @captainobviousdude
    @captainobviousdude 10 місяців тому +23

    I always wonder if what most of these “ego deaths” these people experienced is actually depersonalization. I know i see it a lot in r/glitch in the matrix. Someone saying “suddenly i didn’t feel real like everything was a simulation and it was just gonna turn off” and i gotta tell them “oh that’s just depersonalization, yeah just happens sometimes”

    • @DMTVisuaL
      @DMTVisuaL 10 місяців тому +9

      An Ego Death is not the same as depersonalization.

    • @newusernamehere4772
      @newusernamehere4772 10 місяців тому +6

      It's a rectangle/square situation. Can't have an ego death without depersonalization but depersonalization happens all the time if you pay attention. Ego death only happens while basically unconscious. It's similar to a blackout in that you can't remember it, only the hallucinations and events surrounding it. In a way it's the opposite of depersonalization bc it's a completely realistic view of the self: absolutely nothing in the face of the universe.

    • @wabalubadubdubdub
      @wabalubadubdubdub 10 місяців тому +1

      You devalue the experience when u say, its JUST depersonalization

    • @psilopsychic
      @psilopsychic 10 місяців тому +6

      Nah I strongly believe I have DP/DR (depersonalisation/derealisation) and it is not the same thing at all, as someone who has experienced ego death. The closest thing I’ve had to it on a drug was ketamine, which is a dissociative, but even that is very different. When you’re dissociated, reality doesn’t seem real one way or another, and when you’re depersonalised, you don’t seem real. My first experience with ego death on the other hand, felt more real than any other experience in my life, and I believe that is partly because the ego is an illusion and I was seeing reality with one less illusion in the way

    • @quinndepatten4442
      @quinndepatten4442 10 місяців тому

      I think you're onto something. I've been doing a lot of journaling and I've realized that certain ego beliefs create unconsciousness by "annihilating" the self. The self is not empty, the beliefs that hold the self up empty the self. Basically, I think the depersonalization is basically experiencing your ACTUAL self for the first time.

  • @petespencer8813
    @petespencer8813 10 місяців тому +9

    I NEVER interact with technology while tripping. It is a bad way. I have been a psyconaut since I was 13. I have never had a bad trip, I have, however, experienced ego death quite a few times. It's my FAVORITE

    • @wabalubadubdubdub
      @wabalubadubdubdub 10 місяців тому +4

      I remember my first time tripping i looked at my phone and it just looked completely out of place, when i looked at the screen it felt like i was literally looking into a portal, it just didnt fit in with the rest of the scene. I didnt even have any visuals at that moment even tho i was quite affected by the mushrooms.

  • @bump9291
    @bump9291 10 місяців тому +2

    I thought I'd had my ego death until this week!? 😢 I was an infinite 🕸 of emotions...watching my family live there mundane live's. It haunts me that web. ❤ ☠️👽

    • @psilopsychic
      @psilopsychic 10 місяців тому +1

      Life is beautiful for everyone, no one has a mundane life, only their own perception may cause that illusion

    • @bump9291
      @bump9291 10 місяців тому

      @@psilopsychic exactly!!

  • @zaykeesisles8365
    @zaykeesisles8365 10 місяців тому +4

    The warrior poet back with another banger!!!🎉

  • @siriosstar4789
    @siriosstar4789 9 місяців тому +1

    There is no such thing as ego death . ego death is actually a shift in what one identifies with from our experiential 'story' to that which the story appears inside of as consciousness awake to itself . We will always have an Ego as long as their is a functioning nerveous system with brain, senses emotions etc. the ego doesn't die it only takes a back seat to pure consciousness as our new identity .there Is the sense of it dying but it never fully dies as it is necessary to have an ego in order to negotiate the relative field . for example - if there was no ego ,then we could not intellectually discriminate in terms of right and wrong , up and down , safety and danger etc. if we had a mind set of " it's all one man " , then we could potentially step in front of a bus and get crushed .

  • @devin8215
    @devin8215 10 місяців тому +2

    i would not recommend weed while tripping. HOWEVER, alcohol usually does the job when things are getting iffy. i'm pro-alcohol when those psychedelics start getting scary lol

    • @jonncockrell3606
      @jonncockrell3606 7 місяців тому

      I only use weed while tripping and never use alcohol!!

  • @titangoodson1064
    @titangoodson1064 10 місяців тому

    This doesn’t sound like an ego death, if that’s what he thinks he experienced.

  • @SumoDudo
    @SumoDudo 10 місяців тому

    Super Mega Hitler x1,000,000 sounds fucking terrifying

  • @willowadams7208
    @willowadams7208 10 місяців тому +1

    I mixed cocaine with LSD and cannabis once, it caused a seizure and a time before that it was a heroic dose of LSD and some cannabis that caused a n intense and horrific trip followed by a grand maul seizure and acute kidney failure. Nearly killed me. The PTSD has followed me for 7 years now and it's difficult to trip anymore as it almost always sends me back into the same world of the trip that fated night

    • @KMFDM_Kid2000
      @KMFDM_Kid2000 9 місяців тому +1

      That was likely the cocaine. Neither cannabis nor LSD have those sides effects. It sucks you experienced that while tripping though. Any kind of bad experiences while on acid tend to be amplified.
      LSD and weed tend to be a very winning combination. Cocaine is just bad overall and should be avoided. I used to speedball frequently and I never felt good about it afterwards. On the other hand, I've felt great after trips with and without weed.
      Hard drugs are just awful all around.

    • @willowadams7208
      @willowadams7208 9 місяців тому +1

      @@KMFDM_Kid2000 the first time there wasn't any cocaine though. SOOOOOO how could it be the problem then. But anyways I'm not worried about these things myself. It's food for thought for others. I've mixed blow and hallucinogens many times, only went bad once. I still wonder if the heroic dose wasn't true lsd

    • @KMFDM_Kid2000
      @KMFDM_Kid2000 9 місяців тому

      @@willowadams7208 quite possibly it could have been something else, analog or designer drug. That's sadly so prevalent now, enough that people are making a lot of of those test kits, which wasn't even a thing back in the day.
      Been decades since I've even seen acid. Shrooms are always around since they're so easy to grow. So at least there's ol' reliable 🤣

  • @AlienBigCat23
    @AlienBigCat23 10 місяців тому +3

    In search of the heroic dose (to later boost the ego).. too much drug machismo

    • @johnbeton4058
      @johnbeton4058 10 місяців тому

      Indeed man the grams are important for the player in the story😉.

    • @4D2M0T
      @4D2M0T 10 місяців тому +2

      The egoistic psychonaught paradox 😅😅😅

    • @AlienBigCat23
      @AlienBigCat23 10 місяців тому

      Clickbait immortality.. they hope

  • @stanley-no2xu
    @stanley-no2xu 10 місяців тому +3

    people dont realise that smoking a joint while tripping can fuck everything

    • @mikinatsumi7772
      @mikinatsumi7772 10 місяців тому

      This right here

    • @jimit.4220
      @jimit.4220 4 місяці тому

      Exactly, you need to know how you react to cannabis, because some people do benefit from weed during a trip cuz it calms them down, but people who are prone to paranoia shouldn't touch weed during a trip

  • @archieg8009
    @archieg8009 10 місяців тому

    FXE is a newish RC that very closely mimics the effects of K. It feels like a stronger and more stimulating ketamine. There is a higher risk of mania with FXE though and there's really not much known about it yet. Just a random piece of information. It's really big in the US because its one of the only RC dissos that is available.

    • @nikolai6489
      @nikolai6489 10 місяців тому

      I thought fxe been out for a couple years

    • @archieg8009
      @archieg8009 10 місяців тому +1

      @@nikolai6489 I hear that in Europe it's rare but it's rampant in the States.

    • @thomas_the_dank_engine708
      @thomas_the_dank_engine708 10 місяців тому

      @@nikolai6489maybe you're thinking of MXE?

  • @DoubleTime999
    @DoubleTime999 10 місяців тому

    I always smoked weed on mushrooms. Their both earth bound and not research chemicals in a lab. On that note , I’ve take 3.5 and smoked the whole trip lmao . Just kept me calm personally but that won’t be for everyone .

  • @ek5688
    @ek5688 10 місяців тому

    what a LAD

  • @jonncockrell3606
    @jonncockrell3606 7 місяців тому

    A lightweight.

  • @ApolloBassGuitar
    @ApolloBassGuitar 9 місяців тому

    Yup happened to me lol

  • @keef9078
    @keef9078 10 місяців тому

    AL-LAD more like our lad

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому

      🤣🤣🤣

  • @sauravistheascended7161
    @sauravistheascended7161 10 місяців тому +1

    Nice use of Zelda gameplay

  • @j.d.5665
    @j.d.5665 10 місяців тому

    What was the first one he said? Cannabis and what else? Please and thankyou

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому

      AL-LAD

    • @j.d.5665
      @j.d.5665 10 місяців тому

      @Vivec AMEN 🙏 Thankyou sir!!!

  • @lusterris9183
    @lusterris9183 10 місяців тому

    Anyone else see a grotesque distorted SpongeBob face in the thumbnail 🤣😭

  • @ElisOlofssonGomar
    @ElisOlofssonGomar 10 місяців тому

    What is that you said before weed

    • @Vivec
      @Vivec  10 місяців тому +1

      AL-LAD. I've linked the psychonautwiki.org article on it in the description with feature more information on the substance.

  • @nimbuscloud2385
    @nimbuscloud2385 10 місяців тому +3

    My doctor talked me into a ketamine treatment. The scale battery died so she asked what I weighed at my last primary doctor visit. She gave me 250mg of ketamine gel pills. The most terrifying experience of my life. Lost in oblivion for hours. Dying, evaporating, and snapping back to a distorted reality. Only to start again, over and over. My mother drove me, and could only watch me lose my mind. I could have never prepared myself for that. I don't think all of me came back, or ever will after 7 months now. Please be careful. Even "doctors" can screw up big time.

    • @Bunny01879
      @Bunny01879 10 місяців тому +4

      The way I look at it is that you forget parts of yourself like you shed skin, constantly and slowly. If you had a bad time, sorry, don't mourn for too long. Or say I'm broken or changed. You are always you. If you lost all memories you'd still be you. Maybe you'd pick a new favorite color but that's the skin, superficial coating which is perceptible. Unlike the true invisible self which lets a skin grow on them. That part of you that won't return might have been a metaphoric wort. Yeah you REALLY could notice it but why would you want it back? It's easiest for me, remembering i always have rose glasses/believe it was not so bad. I always think how smoking wasn't so bad, but I know deeper that it was killing me. That one is obviously yet I see it as who I was and I was Cool. After ego breakdowns, I remind myself I wouldn't throw away anything I needed or just couldn't be relearned. Be proud you took out just so much trash at once. You were that kid taking all the groceries in. 30 bags in both hands, couldn't even open the door. That's true strength.

    • @nimbuscloud2385
      @nimbuscloud2385 10 місяців тому

      Not every mind is stable enough to take a trip. Especially a deep trip. More can die than just the ego. Mine was a last resort for depression. It was deeply disturbing, but not exatly traumatizing. I wouldn't recommend it. But some people can handle it, and swear it transformed them somehow. I should have talked to a shaman or an experienced traveler in person first. I feel like the snakes shed skin sometimes, rather than the snake. I really have no idea what that was or where. But it was an ominous, dark place, filled with dred, and an indifferent presence trying to absorb me. Too intense for me to try again.

    • @h1d34w4y
      @h1d34w4y 10 місяців тому +1

      ​@@Bunny01879Beautiful comment, all very true

  • @ayoubzahiri1918
    @ayoubzahiri1918 10 місяців тому +2

    DMT and 5-Meo- DMT are the only psychedelics compatible with humans, since they're the closest molecules to Melatonin, wich we have it in the pineal gland naturally, and i believe it's what transforms into either DMT or 5-Meo-DMT or something else that is still undiscovered, since the experience of the esoteric saints and mystics report experiences similar to BOTH DMT and 5-Meo-DMT

    • @newusernamehere4772
      @newusernamehere4772 10 місяців тому +4

      Not a chemist I take it

    • @psilopsychic
      @psilopsychic 10 місяців тому

      Mushrooms are likely the first drugs to be used by humanity and have been found in a multitude of cultures throughout history. I don’t understand why you believe they are the only two compatible. From everything I’ve come to understand, substances like Psilocybin and LSD lead to the same
      ‘place’ as DMT in higher doses

    • @tyjhepengel5342
      @tyjhepengel5342 10 місяців тому +1

      Integration is important