Fentanyl Addict interview-Brian
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- Опубліковано 15 чер 2024
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Brian, a fentanyl addict on Skid Row.
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I personally know Brian. I haven’t seen or spoken to him in a long time. He really is a great friend and it breaks my heart to watch this video. Mark, how can I help Brian?
Everyone like that comment.
You can't help him. He said he's not interested in stopping drugs.
If he’s not willing to help himself, there’s nothing you can do.
I hate to break it to you, but a man must be willing to help himself; if he is not then there is no salvation for him.
U could send him drug money
You should interview a skid row police officer as well that would be pretty interesting.
Absolutely!
Yea. That would be epic
Yeah it would be great to hear their side of it
Great idea.💡😊 And maybe some local business owners. I think that would be interesting
Problem is half of these ppl prob have petty warrants for sleeping outside shit like that,SWUBELLY is their safe place to vent
The way he speaks about his mom n women is so heartwarming yet heartbreaking
Even junkies have mothers, send him some money !
@@MrFz1rider I know that but most of them are harsh or they do things to retaliate from what I’ve seen it’s just so sad n unfortunately I cannot I don’t have money
Well he got one woman hooked on heroin so not very heartwarming in my book.
@@MrFz1rider money ain’t good to send to junkies, they’ll just spend it on their drug of choice.
@@chicnoir29 right? I’ve been an opiate addict for years and not once have I introduced anyone to it.
I wouldn’t wish addiction on my worst enemy.
Mark, thank you for showing us the humanity of the fringes of our society, for asking the all-consuming question of these people, " What happened?". We all forget that these individuals are still human beings, with feelings, hopes and dreams just like ours. 💔
We don’t all forget.
haha???? “what happened” why do u even have to ask such a naive question. yeah you are also a “human being” why the fuck would someone even be reminded by some str8 edge dude with yt content….pathetic
It breaks my heart to see him go through this, I’ve been in the same exact situation in life as he has fentanyl was my biggest demon I’ve now been clean almost 4 years I pray he gets his life back.
WHY FENTANYL??? ITS SO SHORT ACTING .. I DON'T GET IT
Congratulations Danielle. Such a huge accomplishment. I'm glad to see someone that kicked Fentanyl.
Some fetnal patches are designed to last 3days.
Congratulations to you. I'm proud of anyone that can get off the drugs.💜
Good for you. I know it is not an easy process, to get off that crap. Life is zo much better without it!
As you feel bad and relate to this guy watching this video, remember that if you came out one morning and your car was gone, and your life was suddenly chaotic and expensive, maybe even spiraling downward as a result, it was so a guy like this could blow the money on a couple days of drugs. And he ain't sitting around worrying about it. It's wonderful to have compassion for addicts, but have equal compassion for everyone caught in the wake of their destruction. We tend to focus on the addict as the 'victim' in our society, and romanticize their problem, but they create a huge number of very real victims and problems, as well. We tend to ignore that or downplay it.
Very realistic and important point.
Facts. I was drawn to him initially, his story felt so familiar, almost comforting. But then I snapped out it. Having been at the receiving end my family's addictions for a good part of my life, I don't feel bad for him at all. He absolutely doesn't worry that he may be upending the lives of those he is boosting from. Wish he would get clean, but he won't.
Totally agree 👍
Well said.
Yes you definitely have a very good point there. Also, Just because they are addicted doesn't mean that they are good people. I think to solve the problem the government has to "force rehab".
As goofy as it may sound, I always found that children are a snap shot of who you were at the time they were created. My kids were born at different periods of my life, and you can almost see who I, and there mom were at the time in each child. The kids are completely different.
I can see that. My kids are a full decade apart and very different. Same ethics and similar values, though.
Hearing him say where he’s from sent a chill down my spine. I’m from Philly also so I kno how hard it is. It’s terrible. Hope he gets the help he needs!
Philly here too .....northeast
Meee toooooo!! wondering why he moved to l.a??
South philly and I stayed away from drugs
It's a shit city. I was born and raised and left 12 years ago at 30.
He seems like such a sweet soul. As a person that lives near Philly, I can attest to his story of drugs being rampant in certain areas. Wish him the best.
Philly here too
I'm in Philly too.
I’ve never seen any kind of concept like this on UA-cam. First bump into this channel and I was instantly hooked. Mark seriously helps the people that can never be helped or never gotten a chance to see the light. Seriously is one of a kind to show the world and at the same time to help the people in need. ❤️
Yea was very happy when I recently came upon his work, ive always wanted someone to do something like this an very happy hes the one. Now if people would just watch one of these instead of TMZ or Kardashians or w/e we would be better people to each other.
Definitely an issue that needs a LOT MORE light shined on it..
I first came across Mark's channel when UA-cam suggested I watch the videos of the Whitaker family that are all born from incest.. I was immediately hooked. My first thought was how amazing Mark is and the empathy in his heart and soul. It was very obvious he cared about that family when most people wouldn't even acknowledge their existence in the world.
I think you are doing some amazing work Mark.
His older brother sounds like me. I read a lot as a coping skill.
Hey Brian - you are loved. Your creative spirit and great style cannot be missed. I really hope you find some clarity in your life in order to take that path towards making art work and living a cleaner life. Stay strong, keep moving forward!
Mark i watched all your videos, they are amazing, best videos, and best people , very interesting stories, and authentic, you are a really nice person, giving them a plataform ande making then shine for a moment, keep the good work, I hope you get the reconitgion you deserve, I am spanish and live in Barcelona, great admirer of your work, i am hooked on your videos, amazing people, absolutly authentic and real .... all the best
This dude may think that he’s doing well in his art career now as an addict but I can’t help but believe that he would do better clean or at least on methadone or suboxone. I’ve heard musical artists say they got MORE creative when they got clean. There’s no incentive to get clean because he believes he’s in a field where being a junkie is accepted. He has no incentive to get clean for himself unfortunately.
Rock stars don’t last long on hard drugs. They either get clean or die young.
Brian the traumas u remember as a 6 yr old speaks volumes wish u well in life
God bless you Brian. I’m born and raised in Bucks County. I wish you nothing but the best.
As a fellow artist and someone who has suffered from depression my whole life I wish you all of the best. It’s the outlet that saved my life numerous times that is actually positive and life bringing. Don’t be scared to make big moves. Look for the clean artists to surround yourself with. We are out here! You are supported.
His health is in serious decline. Gun shot wound untreated & abscess? He’s in suicide mode. Bless the soul that dwells within.
Hey Mark been a big fan of your channel for over 2 years now, your dedication and work is truly something. I had an idea after watching the video on Everett, how about asking your interviewees if they have a picture of themselves from a couple of years ago. I find that the full body picture you show during the video really gives a nice idea of what these people have been through, their clothing speaks words as well. Im sure Everett would be unrecognizable, seeing him with a proper haircut, trimmed beard and standing upright would be a really interesting addition in my opinion.
I wish Brian Good Luck in life ,He has a Talent that he can use to help get him off the streets .
I hope he gets the help he needs to get clean it's not to late .Brian stay strong best wishes to you ,with your art
I hope all your Dreams come true .
You can’t “rehab” someone who hasn’t been “habbed” to begin with. I’m afraid he has a very poor prognosis of getting off the streets due to his very poor start in life.
He never has been “habbed” has he? Well said. You are right!
I pray for his health and healing of his soul from his childhood trauma.
He’s one of those guys that could be clean and on a spiritual path if he could just get there.
You mean like everyone?.......lol thanks for the profound insight 🤣
He is a sweetheart, this is so sad to watch. I hope he gets to the hospital soon.
Hope he doesn't smash your driver side window and steal your glasses as well! 😀
He's very sweet though once you get to know him! Don't worry
I can't believe how brave this man is and how he overcomes his misfortune with self acquited compassion , my heart goes out to him .
What did he overcome lmao? He wasn't abused he just had a slightly worse than average homelife.
He openly said he would just party and do drugs because it was fun he wasn't coping with any abuse.
Now he just steals and does graffiti as a 40 year old man... not brave. just a loser
What happened to the Royalty 4 video that went up this morning Mark? It was fantastic and I guess I was really lucky to catch it.
Mark will you please start posting on the paid subscriber channel ? Would love to see the royalty 4 video 🙄
I live in Los Angeles, and I didn't hear of any racial violence in the area. I hope 🤞🏾 it stops and I don't become a victim. It's getting scary everywhere you go 💔💔
It’s related to gangs robbing people I believe.
How old are you? Binge this channel. You will learn a ton.
@@annieseaside Bingeing this channel doesn't tell you a whole lot of facts though. A lot of the people interviewed take zero responsibility for their actions and blame "others" for how they choose to be.
It's black on white violence on skid row
He has a lot of soul...seems like a sweet guy. ❤️
He remembers his mom too cute ... but also traumatic, he remembered how she took care of him, love is something .... U can feel and always remember the care someone shows ... it's means so much.... I feel for Brian but he can get thru this his angel will help him.
Basically a good guy who isn’t beyond help yet…the longer the addiction is there the slimmer the chance..there’s help as I’ve been off booze 31 years but had to get help from others in the same situation..I hope he gets help soon…he has to want it though
I feel so bad for him. He looks like he really needs a hug.
No. He obviously need some more drugs.
Thanks for sharing. God Bless you.
You seem like a nice dude with a heart , you have what it takes to change your life around you could be a brilliant dad and loving partner , fast living always ends in a disaster , good luck
Bless his sweet heart 😥 gosh I hope he gets the help he needs ❤️ praying for you
I hope things work out for you, Brian.
How can there be so many boosters in one area?
I love how many goals this guy has and how optimistic he is about his future. I pray that he finds peace and have high hopes ❤️
Damn Mark after the one video I watched the others disappeared 😳 Brian’s from Philadelphia and doesn’t think Kensington is that bad, obviously he hasn’t been there in a while. I’m from Philly and it’s really bad but I really like Brian. I hope things work out for him he looks like he needs something positive and a little hope in his life. Good luck Brian I’m rooting for you!!!!✌️❤️
He's even wearing a fedora like Rocky Balboa
He doesn't think Kensington is that bad, because the Drug Dealers hang out and protect the drug addicts, because that's there money. Here on Skid Row, he gets robbed, and (according to Brians words) Allegedly the white boys are targeted because they always have money and merchandise due to heavy drug use.
He said it wasn't that bad before. And it wasn't. It was nothing like it is now. Bunch of animals.
So, I'm wondering if
"You reap what you sow" is applicable here?
Oh holy shit he's originally from my neighborhood! Surprised to see someone from Philly all the way on LA skid row since we have quite the huge drug scene here.
Bless him. If he would put as much thought and process into staying clean as he does on “his high” - he’d be golden. Just my thoughts. He knows what he wants. He can figure it out. Thanks Mark.
sometimes you get a read from a person, and you can tell they are talented and have someting to offer. you can just tell. this is one of those guys. hope he can sort himself. not as easy as people think. chances are he wont,.
Graff kid from the 80's and early 90's I hope you come up in the art world. You got get to clean . Wishing you the best.
Really hope he makes it.
He sounds like a gentleman to me. He obviously has a deep respect for woman.
Peace & Love ☮💙
But would not want to be near him with my purse when he is craving. Yikes!
I'm actually living in Bucks County now too. Never in my life thought I'd become addicted to opiates. On a program now and not going near that garbage.
Would love to see some of his artwork ♥️
Can’t wait for a follow up to hear how his life has changed once his zine gets going and he can fully immerse himself! ❤️
Brian you deserve more...
Brian needs to give himself more.
Hey Mark, have you considered doing interviews with Kensington Avenue (in Philadelphia Pennsylvania) folks?
I notice a lot of comments on videos of female interviewees here that they seem like little girls or stunted at a certain age. I feel the same applies to Brian. He looks a bit younger than 39 but behaves and speaks as though decades younger to me.
He's comes across as sweet because he's cute and that infection running thru his body has slowed his speech as if he may pass out at any moment. I'm sure after he does that load of dope you won't be thinking what a sweetheart anymore. Sad that he says don't get in ur head cuz something worse is always gonna come. I hope you get clean Brian. I'm currently trying to kick fentenal so I know how hard it is. Especially when ur homeless. Maybe your art will be the thing that gets you clean.
I’ve been hooked on your channel because of the truth-telling. Don’t see much of it lately.
People get triggered and go into a attack mode when they hear someone speak the simple truth that many homeless people are in that state because they're comfortable with it (as this man honestly stated about himself). Most negative circumstances that most people consistently find themselves in are results of personal choices having to do with comfort, even if the circumstances are overtly negative in many ways. There is an 'upside' of some kind to that person, hence their participation in the process. People stay in bad jobs, bad relationships, bad eating habits, unhealthy habits in general, bad financial circumstances, addiction, homelessness,etc, etc because they make choices that result in that outcome. This doesn't mean no one should help them, obviously, but being in denial about this fact and claiming it's 'offensive' to recognize it is totally unhelpful to anyone. The first step to people getting help must be the recognition that they have personal agency. And if they don't get help, pretending that agency doesn't exist in order to make them 'feel' better living in hell is not 'social justice,' it's dishonest and immoral.
i feel sorry for the shops with so mant stealing how do they even stay open? they dont realise the homeless that the THEFT THEY DO drives up the prices for everyone else
They have a DA with a ludicrous world view, refusing to support any business small or large. As long as it is one penny under $1,000 you can walk into a store and walk out with your groceries or cvs shopping, clothes, whatever. Staff are not paid enough to intervene. Security staff are not paid enough to risk their lives by being stabbed. If caught, the DA refuses to prosecute, so it is waste of time for the Police to do the paperwork. Politicians cut the Police force in LA by $150 Million last year so Law Enforcement are moving out of LA and in droves out of State. But Newson survived a recall vote. So give the voters what they want. 🙄The wealthy live in high security, and can afford losses. The rest, too bad. Life is unfair. You can’t fix stupid. I also feel awful for the small businesses and victims of Crime. I guess if they ever want change they will have to move or vote.
@@annieseaside omg thsts terrible
He says he will go back to smoking when he is able to do it more. He is under the delusion that he can get work as an artist and have a business and do all these great things but he believes using is not what’s holding him back. What’s holding him back is not being able to use freely. Some ppl r never ready to stop some of us just never get there. That’s just how it goes. ❤️❤️❤️
Someone is always going through something worse. Live by that.
Those swollen extremities tell the tale
Good dude wish him luck
What a sad life….
not on drugs sir, are you going to be a clothes designer or street artist. many have same delusions. your life MATTERS. What will it take for it to matter to YOU? ONLY YOU can make thosechanges to save your life and fulfil your dreams.
You didn't mean to put 4 out huh ? That's why you took down the other 3 damn
And the royalty one was bomb!
@@Rich-yn6eo ya I watched it before this one
I'm a fellow Philly boy myself. As soon as he started talking I could here the Philly in him. Wish you the best of luck my bro. There's a pretty much open drug market in the Kensington section of Philadelphia. It's absolutely horrible. It's so bad rt now. People walking around with holes in their skin from this dope that has dear and horse tranquilizer in it and of course Fetty. It's awful. It puts you straight to sleep 😴
An interview with his teacher brother would be interesting too!
Buenos Días Mark, Stay Safe & Healthy!!!
Omg he's from exactly where I am in Philly!!
He looks so sickly. Prayers to this gentleman hope he gets the help he needs
Mark, what happened to the Royalty video, that was so interesting?
Exactly!!!! 🤦🏽♀️
It’s a bit too much for me to run three channels at the same time while doing everything else I do. That was a mistake. Hopefully, you’ll see those videos on UA-cam again (permanently this time). UA-cam keeps demonetizing my videos (female sex workers especially) and I battle with their arbitrary decisions constantly. It’s a lot to explain here, but please try to understand that I’m fighting to keep this channel going and if my content is demonetized I’m done. All these videos will be on the SWU subscription channel eventually. I’m just trying to get them on UA-cam as well.
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly Thank you for the reply. Is there anything that we can do to get YT to stop the madness of punishing good content?
Eta: I think we, the viewers, should try and see what we can do.
Anyone interested?
@@thematriarchy2075 just chill cuh
@@SoftWhiteUnderbelly
Thanks Mark 😊
Why do most fiends always have that one mushy looking arm .. like is there a scientific reason for this? Lol
It’s probably their non-dominant arm (so for most people the left) because they use their dominant/right hand to hold and inject the needle. So their left arm takes the most abuse from having dope injected in it , much more than the right arm would
@@Day-ZDuke good answer. No sarcasm.
What happened to the video posted before this one i was in the middle of watching it and it disappeared?
The girl was young very beautiful i cant remember her name
ROYALTY!! U forgot bcuz the vid disappeared so fast!! 🤷🏽♀️
@@bobbiewood6328 he has more videos of her
I’m hoping to see my sister on here one day…She may be on skid row, we been trying to locate her for over a year now
♥️♥️♥️
I hope you find her doing well ❤️❤️❤️
Unfortunately there won't be an update with this guy. He's going to end up one-eight-seven. Crips don't play around.
Care to elaborate? I'm curious!!
@@ItsFreshItsAnne 187 is murder. He's a white boy on Skid Row rolling with a "crew", the crew has disappeared, he's having to carry a weapon, did u listen to his story? Or compare his to the many others on this channel? He's flirting with the devil. He's taking full 1 gram shots of Fentanyl. .2 grams is lethal for most. U see his neck? He's either shooting up in his neck bc his veins are all collapsed or the hospital had to carve through his neck to find a good vein. So if he doesn't end up murdered he has a high chance of committing suicide. Don't get me wrong I don't wish this upon him. I just hope he reads my comment and wants to prove me wrong. Nothing else has changed the course of his life.
@@lpe655 Thanks! I definitely agree with you. I was just curious what your thought process was about it. Honestly there's only 3 outcomes with the heavy hitter drugs ... Jails, mental wards and death. It's all tragically fascinating ❤️
@@ItsFreshItsAnne agreed I feel terrible for these ppl. It blows my mind that anyone can make a baby. I hate more Gov't but juat what if parents had to "register" to have kids. Aka pass a background check, pass a mental hygiene check, & have a minimum credit score of 700 or prove of long term income that can support a child. We have to meet these requirements to own a 🔫 or to get a good car insurance rate. If it could be calculated I would bet money that bad parenting has resulted in more death than guns and auto homicides combined. What are ur thoughts on this?
Mark is heaven sent! Heaven on earth 🌍 … a light in the dark and one of the most genuine and non judgemental souls around! 💕 .. WE love you with a sincere, genuine and pure love 💕
Are there really people dumb enough to think he wouldn't spend their Go Fund Me money on drugs ?
Love is wanting the best for people.
I wondered how Kensington, PA and skid row compared. Great question. I wonder how the economy is affected by all of the boosting that goes on in the area.
My husband grew up in Kensington, im interested to see some interviews from there!
@@kaypayree3 there is another channel dedicated to Kensington interviews called AML Films
And " Morals over money"
But this channel is better. I really like the format.
Kensington and Skid Row are pretty much a match. Kenzie has a little bit smaller population. Is horrible with the drugs and heartbreaking everyday to see it. I ride the L train everyday to work and it goes past Kensington. Tacony it's pretty rough as well. The whole city is a mess. We are a small City here in Philly but our crime and drug problems are very large. The things going on now remind me of the Reagan years very very difficult times
Hey Mark, what happened to the latest royalty video? It was up and disappeared. Thank you for letting the voices be heard!
Fight the flames. 🔥
“Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow.” - T Real
Hi there, hope everybody reading this has a Beautiful Day! 💜
Hope you have a beautiful day also from oklahoma
Thank you, I hope the same for you too!❤🤟
Mark PLEASE do a follow up an see if he infect did get the bullet out
Philly fam!!!! 👊🏾🔥
Have you ever interviewed the people in Kensington? Good luck Brian. Drugs are fucked
Mark yesterday you uploaded 4 new videos and took them down like wtf ? 🙏 put them back up if u can my man
i always click on the fentanyl stories. im curious to hear if they got started on the m30 pills like i did….
Alot of ppl did. They hit the scene everywhere! From Ohio to LA, the Canada to Mexico. I was already a user by then. A Dr introduced me. Shattered my collar bone when I was 15ish, and had an almost never ending script of narcos and oxy 20s. The old ones lol. Oc. They were so smooth... easy breathers. God damn this takes me back. Good and bad. 🍻
@@JacksonDunnoKnows yea they’re hittin Phoenix really really bad right now. the blues are the new crack. its a struggle for me everyday not to spend my last 5 bucks on one more high….
@@JacksonDunnoKnows watching these videos help me tho. this is not where i wanna end up….
Oh man, you can tell he is lost to the streets. So unhealthy.
His brother pursuing education and career isn't a different type of "escape" as he put it but rather responsible behavior of a person who grew up around irresponsible people. He chose to carry on with the irresponsible behavior where his brother did not. He is trying to blur his own bad choices with his brother's good choices as different type of "escapes". Being responsible and doing the right thing isn't an "escape" from anything at all. It is the opposite of an "escape".
I notice his posture and arm/hand build is eerily similar to Everett’s. I guess 5 years on the streets can physically change you.
Anyone know what this guy writes ?
Hey Brian, im a recovering homeless addict, also a writer/artist.. Lmk if i can help/contribute to your zeen..
Best of luck in NY.
"When the day he dies he'll finally be free."..."20:03 Hell yeah."
Hope you get yourself back into the art scene........ u can do it,,,,,,take the help.
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Praying you get your life back and reach your goals. I am praying for you.
I'm wondering if the fentanyl has animal tranquilizers in it in LA. If you see the addicts in Kensington there's a huge difference from what I've seen on this channel.
Pamela Palmer. What is the specific difference you see??
@@laraoneal7284 Xylazine.
Yeah, don't see a lot of people just collapsed in half and frozen in place, is that what you mean?
What name does he tag? Does anyone know if i can find his art online?
The weariness in his voice.
We simply NEED to get women & children off the streets if we want to fix things. It’s a cycle that gets passed from generation to generation. Our children NEED stability and guidance or else addiction, poor mental health, and violence will continue to infect all of our communities.
Wait it gets worse!
The next major financial crisis will throw even more homeless people onto the streets!
Capitalism shits its children.
Mark not to take away from this interview but why did Royalty’s get taken down? I was in the middle of watching it lol
Mistake with uploading. It happened 2 days ago too. It will be ok.
Me too. Pissed me off cos I was getting into it lol
@@thematriarchy2075 what was the mistake though? Lol
@@lordsofafan372 right lol
One more thing. If that's you in your channel profile pic your one of life's beautiful people 😍😂
What does Brian write? What is his tagger name, and what crews does he rep?
YO WTF?? I WAS HALF WAY THROUGH WATCHING THE NEW VIDEO WITH "ROYALTY" AND IT DISAPPEARED!!!.
Calm down, ffs! Mistakes happen.
@@thematriarchy2075 I know. I'm not angry I'm just making sure Mark sees that his video was taken down so I typed in capital letters 😅
@@lordsofafan372 I am going to assume that he made a mistake with uploading, so i am sure he is aware, lol.
@@thematriarchy2075 yeah your probably right lol. was just making double sure 😅
@@thematriarchy2075 u calm down!!
I was a heroin addict for over 3 years and never stole a single thing from anyone. There's just no excuse I got up and went to work everyday high as f*** and ran my own side business on the weekends to support my habit