Ethel Cain - Crying During Sex

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  • @dalagita2000
    @dalagita2000 Рік тому +2042

    i once cried while having sex with my ex because he forced me to do it. and then, someone came into my life, and we made love. and i cried the next day because it was so beautiful, so divine. it wasn't the kind of sex that makes you feel hypersexualized. it was the kind that makes you feel safe, warm and open. it was the kind that makes you feel worshipped, connected.
    i never really thought that one sex would heal me from the trauma of being used, and feeling forced to do it. i
    and it did.

    • @ampdesigns101
      @ampdesigns101 11 місяців тому +72

      damn that's fucked up

    • @caingoth
      @caingoth 11 місяців тому +70

      hope you're doing better 🙏

    • @perfessermicbo8556
      @perfessermicbo8556 11 місяців тому +32

      😢 I feel this so hard. I've never healed from the experience. Wish I could, but I know it won't ever happen for me. I won't take the risk again. Ever. 😢

    • @eyes1168
      @eyes1168 10 місяців тому +80

      This gives me so much hope there exists sex like that, in this world objectification is so normalized

    • @amandalees4184
      @amandalees4184 10 місяців тому +1

      SAME.

  • @koikun
    @koikun 3 місяці тому +213

    If this song was back on spotify, I'd have one less problem in life.

    • @dykttatuob_rmsm
      @dykttatuob_rmsm 2 місяці тому +11

      was it on her oficial spotify discography?

    • @grace-g9f
      @grace-g9f 21 годину тому +2

      You know what I do, I download it from soundcloud and into spotify 💋

    • @koikun
      @koikun 20 годин тому

      @@dykttatuob_rmsm It was, yes.. and we miss it dearly every day... 🫠💔

    • @koikun
      @koikun 20 годин тому

      @@grace-g9f you... you can do that?? wow, good for you, i didn't know! 😅❤️‍🩹

  • @sarahcfarrell1598
    @sarahcfarrell1598 9 місяців тому +633

    “I don’t know what happened…I don’t know what happened…I was young and sweet and then something happened…something overwhelming…something everlasting…everlasting…” that’s really where it gets me

    • @_ku_kiii2979
      @_ku_kiii2979 9 місяців тому +8

      Same 😭💔

    • @lilliansims619
      @lilliansims619 4 місяці тому +17

      Fell in love at 16. We decided to have a kid together in highschool. My life changed forever. He went on to cheat and be one of the worst people I have ever met. I was so young...

    • @koikun
      @koikun 3 місяці тому +6

      read this as it played. I'm having ethel lyrics tatted all over, and this needs to be one.

  • @cantshakeyoumel
    @cantshakeyoumel 2 роки тому +1307

    her music makes me feel like no other artist's does

    • @oomf_irl
      @oomf_irl Рік тому +15

      that part.

    • @hannahg5216
      @hannahg5216 Рік тому +34

      This is Lana’s real baby

    • @Lyghtsparroh
      @Lyghtsparroh Рік тому +15

      Dandelion hands,
      Flatsound,
      Teen suicide,
      Elvis depressedly

    • @gooeyshuga154
      @gooeyshuga154 Рік тому +34

      No matter how much I've listened to other songs that have a similar style it just doesn't hit the same.

    • @DavidJohnson-er9kt
      @DavidJohnson-er9kt Рік тому +50

      Her music makes me feel things I havnt felt since I was a teenager and I'm 40 this Friday. It's almost too much to contain. I guess my life isn't over yet. Lol

  • @funnymufflerjerkypal
    @funnymufflerjerkypal Рік тому +455

    "keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick" can she chill 😍

  • @Cl0ud3dDr34mz
    @Cl0ud3dDr34mz 7 місяців тому +135

    I love Ethel for singing about sexual trauma, it makes me (and ik so many others) feel seen. It gives me something beautiful to pair to something so awful.

    • @sarahruiz6553
      @sarahruiz6553 3 місяці тому +15

      Ptomlomaea is so cathartic for me. When you/ve been through that shit most people cant understand you. I still dont like being in the same room as men. Especially religious men, Last time I went to church I had a full on panic attack. Its hard to believe that you can heal. Its hard to believe that good men exist.

    • @aethrya
      @aethrya 3 місяці тому

      @@sarahruiz6553hug

    • @aethrya
      @aethrya 3 місяці тому +1

      🫂

    • @Cl0ud3dDr34mz
      @Cl0ud3dDr34mz 3 місяці тому +2

      @@sarahruiz6553 that one hurts to listen to, but it expresses the feeling so well. It’s awful knowing we’re not alone but comforting at the same time that others understand. But I completely agree it’s hard for me to believe as well. It’s fucked up my life so much, it’s already been 4yrs and I’m still a mess. My anxiety and paranoia around others I feel will always be awful because of it. I’m terrified of men too. But we will heal at some point ya know? It’s just going to be a long road to get there…

    • @dykttatuob_rmsm
      @dykttatuob_rmsm 2 місяці тому +1

      i cried reading this comment

  • @dollangangel
    @dollangangel Рік тому +953

    i swear this song hits so deep to me.. have literally cried during sex because i couldn't believe someone would actually make me feel good.. and if i'm crying, it's because i'm in love ♡

    • @cupcakies222
      @cupcakies222 Рік тому +52

      stop this comment is gonna make me cry

    • @Dan-ze6tq
      @Dan-ze6tq Рік тому +12

      This is such a good comment

    • @cannibalbunny
      @cannibalbunny Рік тому +30

      I hope to one day relate to this…

    • @nojams717
      @nojams717 Рік тому +17

      I hope someday I'll relate to this comment...

  • @ludelkri
    @ludelkri 8 місяців тому +359

    This song is about how childhood trauma, likely sexual in nature, made her hyper-sexual and unable to have proper sexual boundaries. It's about finding love after having been used for your body for so long.
    "I was young and sweet
    And then something happened
    Something overwhelming
    Something everlasting"
    "It’s easy for him to get out of me
    What I’ve been praying will get out of me"

    • @Ty-iz9wd
      @Ty-iz9wd 7 місяців тому +7

      Yep. This is exactly how I feel

    • @peterbaldwin1881
      @peterbaldwin1881 5 місяців тому

      @@Ty-iz9wd😔🫂

    • @giannarose4444
      @giannarose4444 5 місяців тому

      @@Ty-iz9wdreal

    • @Evizsq
      @Evizsq 2 місяці тому +1

      Ive also Seen a lot of people also interpret it as being a teenager and loosing your virginity for the first time and how your supposed to feel

  • @i_krss4099
    @i_krss4099 Рік тому +450

    Lyrics:
    I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues
    When I take you and your
    Brother in the back pew
    Drive into the median
    Keep myself from eating and wonder
    Why I feel so sick
    Tradition’s ligature marks always
    Yellow through
    I lied when I said I didn’t want you
    In no time
    You’ll forget the way we were supposed to be
    Asking what I’m on this time
    Holding on to you like I do
    Like we’re the only people in the
    World god left to mind to
    Two drowning coals won’t ever light
    But if I ask you to, you’ll warm the night
    If I want you like I said I’d never do
    I would hold my breath and
    Sit down next to you
    Terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you
    And right now I need you
    I don’t know what happened
    I don’t know what happened
    I was young and sweet
    And then something happened
    Something overwhelming something everlasting
    Time drags on
    I hate him for the time he’s gone
    I’ve been here for weeks
    I’ve been here for years
    I’ve been here too long
    I forgot what stop means
    Either I drink it or the boat sinks
    It’s easy for him to get out of me
    What I’ve been praying will get out of me
    Will I always be crying during sex with you
    All my dreams take place in
    Heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you
    Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises
    Between my thighs
    Look me deep In my eyes like
    I’m a river worth wading
    And if I’m crying, it’s because I’m in love
    And I could love you if I tried
    And I’m trying
    I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying

  • @Alex-ky4cd
    @Alex-ky4cd 6 місяців тому +85

    > One of the themes down South, especially, is that you don’t talk about anything. Anything that happened, you don’t talk about it. It’s a common theme that whenever you go through something, you just don’t speak about it afterwards. I think it’s nice to hear somebody say it out loud and be like, “Oh my God, me too.” It’s kind of nice to know that you’re not in it alone so you don’t feel so isolated.

  • @omfghayl
    @omfghayl 3 місяці тому +34

    my first serious relationship was like this. i was 17. looking back there was nothing meaningful about any of the sex we had. not even the first time. there was never any aftercare. we always got dressed immediately after. but it being my first serious relationship, i just thought that was how it was supposed to be despite hating it and feeling so empty afterwards. he later became very abusive and would often guilt trip or degrade me any time i refused sex. the words got to me and broke me down so i gave in every time to avoid the fighting. i lost respect for myself without even knowing. i later ended up leaving bc of his increasingly abusive and narcissistic behavior. however, the damage was already done. i went into new relationships without having a drop of respect for myself. being blinded by hyper sexuality, not knowing it was a trauma response, and giving myself up too early because i thought maybe these boys would like me more. only for them to leave bc that's all they wanted from me in the end. even being sa'd at a party by a male friend i trusted. i was so damaged, i convinced myself that it was my fault that i got hurt and maybe i was sending him the wrong signals. in my head, i was defending his actions. i didn't want to believe that a friend would do something like that to me. it wasn't until i found my current boyfriend that everything changed. he gave me choices i didn't know i had, he helped me learn how to love, respect, and forgive myself. he has been so patient with me navigating through my trauma and finally being able to unpack all the baggage. never has he pressured me or made me feel less worthy for saying no. he gave me a safe space that i never had before. i would not mentally be where i am today without him, nor would i be the person i am today without him. i am forever grateful for the ways that he has helped me find myself and the ways he continues to teach me more about myself every day. we've been together for 2 years now and i couldn't imagine a life without him. for anyone going through a similar situation, there is a light at the end of the tunnel. do not sell yourself short. you are more than just a body. find yourself. love yourself. be yourself. ♥️

  • @heyitzphil9792
    @heyitzphil9792 Рік тому +444

    Anyone else been looking for this kinda music for a while now? Thanks to that artist I feel relieved of so many pressure.. this is ethereal.

    • @milktea2323
      @milktea2323 Рік тому +14

      If you like this, I'd really recommend Cigarettes after Sex. Listen to the song "K".

    • @karuru2284
      @karuru2284 Рік тому +52

      @@milktea2323 Yeah they are great but their perspective aint this... she just hits diff this one

    • @milktea2323
      @milktea2323 Рік тому +6

      @@karuru2284 I feel you, this is a great song

    • @dylankai21
      @dylankai21 7 місяців тому +5

      @@karuru2284FACTS ethel has another level of songwriting and a unique spirit

    • @Ty-iz9wd
      @Ty-iz9wd 7 місяців тому +7

      Another person I can think of that gives me this vibe is Nicole Dollanganger

  • @jefft199
    @jefft199 11 місяців тому +113

    My old girlfriend once started sobbing in the middle of it and I didn't know what to feel but after a moment I realized I really disliked it but I didn't want to be a completely insensitive dick so instead of telling her to stop like I wanted I asked her why she was crying, before telling her that I think
    fucking is supposed to be fun and if it's not then why do it with me. She said she was crying because she got to have sex with me, at the time I didn't take this as a compliment or even any kind of statement of her appreciation and this wasn't the first time we had sex it was more like the thousandth time and she had never done this. I was mostly confused so I asked her to please try to explain and she told me it wasn't a bad thing, she was just very overwhelmed when she was struck by the fact that she didn't know how many times she would get to do this again. She was a person who was able to feel things very deeply but this instance never resonated with me till just now hearing this song and I'm holding back tears, she passed away a few years after that night, rest in peace babe

    • @kamidavi3710
      @kamidavi3710 8 місяців тому +12

      This is going to stick with me.. I have so many questions but alas rip

  • @tamaramorrison722
    @tamaramorrison722 2 роки тому +337

    This is one of the most gorgeous songs I've ever heard

    • @jasonx-ray3921
      @jasonx-ray3921 Рік тому +16

      Wait until you hear all of her others. All of her songs are great. She is the most talented new artist since Billie Eilish.

    • @luscaasg
      @luscaasg Рік тому +33

      @@jasonx-ray3921since who? LMAOO don’t compare miss ethel cain with this one

    • @jasonx-ray3921
      @jasonx-ray3921 Рік тому

      @luscaasg You forgot something: Songs by Billie Eilish were mostly conceived and written by her brother with contributions by Billie. Ethel Cain did all of her own work. So, don't you sound dumb now. But, in your case, you probably never knew you were dumb.

    • @oracxo
      @oracxo Рік тому

      @@luscaasgpeople like you suck. i’m sure ethel would like that compliment. believe it or not but billie was a small artist like her too! i was there to see it. and here to see Ethel’s Uprising. Get out of here with your negativity.

  • @c444ulfield
    @c444ulfield 7 місяців тому +83

    "and i forgot what stop means" kill me pls

  • @atadbitahistory9660
    @atadbitahistory9660 11 місяців тому +86

    The feeling of this song is genuineky unique and weidly comforting/nostalgic but also foreign and unrecognisable? It's orange

    • @Starlet997
      @Starlet997 4 місяці тому +7

      Synesthesia… it feels warm and orange to me too. A little bit of a red in that orange. Reddish orange is the color I feel..

  • @Thatgeminiwitch
    @Thatgeminiwitch 8 місяців тому +64

    I just discovered this song…
    I always felt used in all my relationship’s during sex, I’ve been single since 2017 and I hope that the next person I meet will make me feel liberated and break free from those traumatic experiences, I always felt yucky and gross after every sexual interaction…especially my last relationship I told my ex that it hurt and he got pissed and said “I didn’t do anything yet”
    I deserve better
    This song speaks to me loudly thank you for the upload 💖

    • @spice1959
      @spice1959 4 місяці тому +1

      Someone hurt you and made you feel unworthy. You not being comfortable deep down with yourself makes it hard to let go and be intimate because inside you can’t except someone’s love until you believe your a great person in your heart. Only you will be the one to break those chains…

    • @Brandon-jv1fk
      @Brandon-jv1fk 4 місяці тому +1

      u deserved better for sure and some people just are so inhumane

  • @greatvalue_ethelcain
    @greatvalue_ethelcain 8 місяців тому +95

    this makes me feel like I've fallen off a train in South Dakota and I'm lying by the tracks, my body broken, while snow falls.

  • @neowollic
    @neowollic Місяць тому +6

    Genuinely one of the most gut wrenchingly beautiful songs I’ve heard in my entire life. Her melodies are unlike any other

  • @santiagosantos9853
    @santiagosantos9853 2 роки тому +808

    I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues
    When I take you and your brother in the back pew
    Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick
    Tradition’s ligature marks always yellow through
    I lied when I said I didn’t want you
    In no time, you’ll forget the way we were supposed to be
    Asking what I’m on this time, holding on to you like I do
    Like we’re the only people in the world god left to mind to
    Two drowning coals won’t ever light
    But if I ask you to, you’ll warm the night
    If I want you like I said I’d never do
    I would hold my breath and sit down next to you
    Terrified you’ll bite the hand that needs you
    And right now I need you
    I don’t know what happened
    I don’t know what happened
    I was young and sweet
    And then something happened
    Something overwhelming
    Something everlasting
    Time drags on
    I hate him for the time he’s gone
    I’ve been here for weeks, I’ve been here for years
    I’ve been here too long
    I forgot what stop means
    Either I drink it or the boat sinks
    It’s easy for him to get out of me
    What I’ve been praying will get out of me
    Will I always be crying during sex with you
    All my dreams take place in heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you
    Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises between my thighs, look me deep In my eyes like I’m a river worth wading
    And if I’m crying, it’s because I’m in love
    And I could love you if I tried
    And I’m trying
    I’m trying, I’m trying, I’m trying

    • @Umbrey_Dunctum
      @Umbrey_Dunctum 2 роки тому +60

      Sadly lacking that line in the demo “kissing through the screen at the back door , just like I asked for and I swear on my life that when it hurts you know I’m good for it.”

    • @santiagosantos9853
      @santiagosantos9853 2 роки тому +17

      I swear on my life that when it hurts you know I'm good for it 🖤

    • @aarongagnon966
      @aarongagnon966 Рік тому +13

      I'm trying every moment. As if I didn't love you from the moment I touched you.

    • @Death_Bliss
      @Death_Bliss Рік тому +12

      ​@@Umbrey_Dunctum "Do you ever want to die so bad, you'd fall in love for it?"

    • @Umbrey_Dunctum
      @Umbrey_Dunctum Рік тому

      @@Death_Bliss It's a bit scary... that's not Ethel, but how I got a response 11 moths later +months,x

  • @iljagraveura5604
    @iljagraveura5604  3 роки тому +313

    «And all my dreams take place in heaven where it’s quiet, lying next to you»

  • @TheSim1derful
    @TheSim1derful Місяць тому +2

    I really really wish this was on Spotify or Apple Music. It's one of my absolute favourite songs of hers, it's so beautiful.

  • @aethrya
    @aethrya 3 місяці тому +9

    I don't know what happened
    I don't know what happened
    I was young and sweet
    And then something happened
    Something overwhelming
    Something everlasting
    I wasn't even molested as a kid and this hit so hard. What beautiful, gut-wrenching writing.

  • @AzazelBathory
    @AzazelBathory 7 місяців тому +18

    The only person I realize I truly wanted to be intimate with, I couldn’t, I stopped myself when we were about to because the love was too much for me, it was too overwhelming. I sort of sabotaged that shortly after and continued having sex with people that just wanted me because I’m good at it and I give all of me to people that I care about in so many ways… but recently, I realized that fucking and seeking the validation of having approval and fake love doesn’t mean shit to me because it only sucks the life out of me. I only recently realized this, and started missing her. I didn’t realize that when I met her it sort of ignited so much chaos within me to be unraveled… because I was running from that love. It was too much to hold because it battled with the my internal demons. Now since it’s all unraveled, I realized I was addicted to being a martyr for people who didn’t know how valuable I am or how to treat me. Now I miss the one that made me cry, because I only spent time with her for a few days, but it’s been 2 years since I met her and on my worst days I close my eyes and I still see hers and somehow it always reminds me that I am seen and loved, and somehow I feel like she’s always been there with me with some sort of quantum connection that I’ve just been avoiding. I see her in my dreams often, even when I was extremely preoccupied in other relationships trying NOT to think of her… she’d pop up. For some reason my ex was extremely jealous of her despite me really ever saying much. Always. She was obsessed with knowing every detail of those 3 days, and despite me leading out key information that I was even trying to forget about, my ex somehow knew that her touch could never amount to my 🤍’s, that it wouldn’t make me feel like our essence was gonna melt together. My ex somehow knew that when I looked into her eyes it didn’t make me feel like my naked raw authentic self was seen and loved for all of my light and dark, despite me never saying that… it’s like my ex tried to keep my mind on this girl when I was trying so hard to say “look I’m committed to you!” Haha, I guess deep down the heart cannot uncommit when it’s true. Because I hear her in every song, every playlist I make secretly reminds me of her, idk how I’ve lied to myself about it this long honestly. I don’t care that i only knew her 3 days and that we didn’t even have sex. Something was sacred about that, and I feel like I’ve defiled myself and let others use me in the name of running from this, or rather, from me.
    I love her, and I realize now that I don’t want to spend time with fake love. I’m not even concerned about the girl messaging me or anything, I just feel like I’ll see her again, I just need to do something different for a change and take care of myself instead of others so much. This song is beautiful because it represents that moment for me, and how my true love deserves all of me.

    • @ludelkri
      @ludelkri 7 місяців тому +6

      I'm really glad that you were able to reach this level of self-awareness and understand your value now & I'm praying that you reunite with her!

    • @erisgro3945
      @erisgro3945 13 днів тому

      did you guys reunite?!

  • @rothberg4334
    @rothberg4334 2 роки тому +174

    There’s something so great about this song. Very addictive and gets stuck in my head.

  • @ashleybelot9467
    @ashleybelot9467 6 місяців тому +19

    This song reads like I prayer, I end up closing my eyes when I sing along and just get into this meditative state.

  • @bunnybunny8745
    @bunnybunny8745 Рік тому +149

    god i feel like i’m in another dimension her voice and the feelings it gives you are so ethereal

  • @dullblad3
    @dullblad3 5 місяців тому +15

    i’ve never had a song make me sob like this before. i needed this hayden

  • @MarkiesMLDZ
    @MarkiesMLDZ 28 днів тому +2

    This song has been by my side for a f long time now… it just feels like… it’s embracing me, calmly, and painful on the surface… it’s like telling me it’s ok to feel this f sad,m and broken, even though I’m all alone, completely alone, on my own. Crying to sleep and dreaming of the person that meant everything have been my sleeping pills…

  • @MrCryingBanana
    @MrCryingBanana Рік тому +44

    Literally goosebumps. So many individually distinct parts of this one song

  • @TheLastMimzie
    @TheLastMimzie 3 місяці тому +3

    Been looking for this feeling all day and I can't even say I'm surprised Ethel was keeping it

  • @ThisIsBuffy
    @ThisIsBuffy 7 місяців тому +7

    This song found the words for feelings I've had for so long but couldn't explain.

  • @stijn9649
    @stijn9649 2 роки тому +62

    Missing this on spotify ):

  • @Savadorason1
    @Savadorason1 9 місяців тому +53

    -I'm an older 63yr old grandfather now, but i remember my younger 19 yr.old days, being in a girls bed when her mother was out. And the sex was soft & sweet as she cried. ,,And as was common back then so was, the older furniture, phones & tv's being on during the sex as you see here.

  • @aubreyplazasuncle
    @aubreyplazasuncle Рік тому +95

    why isn't this on spotify i'm going to fkn riot

  • @nicos598
    @nicos598 3 місяці тому +23

    she was insane for this

  • @lehjonk8733
    @lehjonk8733 9 місяців тому +18

    I used to be in a really unhealthy relationship where I would always cry after but now I’m in a super healthy relationship and every once and awhile I will sob after and I have no idea why I always reassure him he did nothing wrong i guess it’s just strange having someone that loves me for me and not my body

  • @Michaelroni420
    @Michaelroni420 3 роки тому +80

    Chilling and full of desolation. Love the tender purity

  • @oliviasnyder6885
    @oliviasnyder6885 3 місяці тому +3

    i'll never stop going back to listen to this beautiful song

  • @flowerswerewarpaint646
    @flowerswerewarpaint646 2 роки тому +38

    New addition to my random hidden Ethel Cain song playlist, CthelEain

  • @littlepotato9138
    @littlepotato9138 Рік тому +33

    I listen to this everyday to remind myself what perfection sounds like

  • @lillywantsheranchovypizza107
    @lillywantsheranchovypizza107 8 місяців тому +18

    Is this song not on spotify? I have tears in my eyes because of how this song has deeply put into words some of my deepest feelings.

    • @Adian06
      @Adian06 8 місяців тому +7

      Nope, but it's in soundcloud. Most of her unreleased songs are thereeeee, I suggest Tounge and Dust Bowl!

    • @yesitsmeyesitsmeyesitsme
      @yesitsmeyesitsmeyesitsme 5 місяців тому

      @@Adian06 also its on the inbred cd + cassette as a bonus track

  • @Adam-2good4u
    @Adam-2good4u 2 місяці тому +5

    She’s such a genius

  • @loriaf3628
    @loriaf3628 8 місяців тому +4

    Wow. Stumbled upon this and I am so happy I hit play. Love finding amazing new music/artists like this!

  • @allens_exist
    @allens_exist 11 місяців тому +21

    Love him a lot but some of the things he's said to me has left me feeling like numbness is a mercy.

  • @danisings5493
    @danisings5493 Місяць тому +1

    I come listen to this song when I need a reminder that it's ok

  • @koikun
    @koikun 3 місяці тому +4

    made me, a sex repulsed ace, wanna talk about sex trauma. made me feel like I could.

  • @oxytaboo
    @oxytaboo 2 місяці тому +12

    traumatized girls where we at

  • @bunnybunny8745
    @bunnybunny8745 Рік тому +21

    this song is absolutely everything

  • @ye4959
    @ye4959 2 місяці тому +3

    [Verse 1]
    I sing the lord’s euthanasia blues
    When I take you and your brother in the back pew
    Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick
    Tradition’s ligature marks always yellow through
    [Verse 2]
    I lied when I said I didn’t want you
    In no time, you’ll forget the way we were supposed to be
    Asking what I’m on this time, holding on to you like I do
    Like we’re the only people in the world god left to mind to
    [Interlude]
    Two drowning coals won’t ever light
    But when i'm cold, you’ll warm the night
    [Verse 3]
    Time drags on
    I hate him for the time he’s gone
    I’ve been here for weeks, I’ve been here for years
    I’ve been here too long
    I forgot what stop means
    Either I drink it or the boat sinks
    It’s easy for him to get out of me
    What I’ve been praying will get out of me
    [Chorus]
    Will I always be crying during sex with you
    I think about it when you're dreaming and it's Quiet, lying next to you
    Kissing through the screen at the back door
    Just like i asked for
    And i swear on my life that when it hurts you know i'm good for it
    Do you ever want to die so bad you'd fall in love for it

  • @negom2333
    @negom2333 2 місяці тому +7

    I cried during sex because i was so scared that he’s gonna leave me, I cried because i couldn’t believe he desired me and he would still do for the rest of his life (he left)

  • @Dark_Lady_
    @Dark_Lady_ 3 місяці тому +4

    It happens to me occasionally as I'm usually depressed af and constantly feeling like crying and screaming but I can't, so when I get to have sex with my partner I am so desperate to feel something else than the emptiness and all the other crippling things I feel, and to cling on the feeling of being touched and allowing myself to be vulnerable, that I finally cry. He knows not to stop, I don't want him to. I need to lose myself in the fleeting oblivion...

  • @dinosaur6756
    @dinosaur6756 Рік тому +70

    This exact kind of girl used to cause me a ton of trouble... but I always kept pursuing her. I fucking adored her... worshipped, even. By the way, EC is the most amazing and talented songwriter to come around in quite some time. I adore her work as well. ❤

    • @sasha.t3737
      @sasha.t3737 Рік тому +8

      What happened?? Don’t leave us hanging!!!! 😊

    • @loversable
      @loversable 9 місяців тому

      Don't chase pussy my dude, never ends well
      Before you say it, same applies to girls, don't get too obsessed with anyone.

    • @soomysaleem351
      @soomysaleem351 9 місяців тому +1

      Yes please!!! What happend if you don't mind our asking!

  • @Adam_spence17
    @Adam_spence17 2 місяці тому +3

    Sounds like Hello Neighbours Main Theme but 10x More DEPRESSING 😭

  • @AnimeCapitalist
    @AnimeCapitalist 8 місяців тому +2

    1000th subscriber woo.
    That aside, this song got to me. Ive never had the ability to express it, but my ex fiance made me cry during sex. I remember, feeling like every bad moment or sensation went away. I just remember the quiet of each others breathing and no other sound in the world. I havent cried during sex since, because it no longer feels the way it did when i was with them..
    Thank you for this song. Thank you for this channel.

  • @yalterfly
    @yalterfly 7 місяців тому +4

    i wish this was on spotify

  • @HyperrealisticLuigi
    @HyperrealisticLuigi 4 місяці тому +4

    Sampling the hn ost is crazy

  • @unholysphynx
    @unholysphynx 9 місяців тому +8

    this is helping me forget that everything isn’t so serious.

    • @aethrya
      @aethrya 3 місяці тому +2

      This song is about an incredibly serious topic.

  • @jcarroll1202
    @jcarroll1202 8 місяців тому +9

    My auntie's name was Ethal Cain. True story. Made me curious about this artist.

  • @adelaideshriver9603
    @adelaideshriver9603 6 днів тому

    legit cried the first time my current partner gave me a hickie because it was the first time someone left a bruise on me out of true genuine love and made me feel safe and cared for

  • @RobVincent-n8b
    @RobVincent-n8b Рік тому +9

    so i made a playlist of her b sides, the mountain goats, salvia plath and corbin and ive never cried more

  • @lisyinwonderland
    @lisyinwonderland 4 місяці тому +4

    i love this song with all my heart

  • @Fiveash-Art
    @Fiveash-Art 8 місяців тому +2

    She's pure musicianship

  • @j.mstrawberry
    @j.mstrawberry Рік тому +8

    god im so happy to find this song

  • @adrienimartinez
    @adrienimartinez 9 днів тому +1

    Love this song Sm!!!

  • @SeaGullArt
    @SeaGullArt Рік тому +8

    Can't Lose With A Title Like This

  • @num7088
    @num7088 Рік тому +15

    The love of my life just sent this to me and I'm still having trouble believing she didn't write it.

  • @krudcobain
    @krudcobain Рік тому +15

    3:13 ugh 😩

  • @garbagetruck3874
    @garbagetruck3874 4 місяці тому +4

    It’s the fucking hello neighbor song 😭

  • @avikchatterjee1945
    @avikchatterjee1945 Рік тому +17

    Unique song magnificent lyrics.

  • @michaelhuff923
    @michaelhuff923 3 місяці тому +5

    dawg ain't this the song from Hello Neighbor

    • @yuripiIIed
      @yuripiIIed 3 місяці тому +3

      yup i think she sampled it or something like that 😭

  • @dizzy1810
    @dizzy1810 4 місяці тому +2

    really funny how this just uses the hello neighbor nostalgia theme as a sample

  • @kirstengarcia3846
    @kirstengarcia3846 Рік тому +7

    why is my heart crying...😔so beautiful

  • @snigdhabhattacharya1690
    @snigdhabhattacharya1690 5 місяців тому +3

    I do not cry in front of people anymore. I feel pain everywhere all the time and I just sort of power through it. I feel like unaliving myself every second but I have to be responsible for myself. What’s a little more pain if I’m already drowning anyway right? Besides nobody cares. No one can do anything for me anymore. I’m 21 ffs

    • @February30-31
      @February30-31 5 місяців тому

      Someone cares, you'll be the love you've never received. Good Luck!

  • @Smmdndi7373
    @Smmdndi7373 7 місяців тому +3

    The first Ethel Cain song I heard

  • @dankhell7334
    @dankhell7334 2 роки тому +32

    such a beautiful soul and song.

  • @Natnatdayo_
    @Natnatdayo_ 3 місяці тому

    I need this in spotify so bad :(

  • @cebaa8969
    @cebaa8969 3 роки тому +8

    For no reson this amazing tender song, pop up on the suggestion ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️..

  • @zaraa5104
    @zaraa5104 Рік тому +7

    so glad to have listened to this song.❤

  • @JessamynD
    @JessamynD 4 місяці тому +3

    please release this one mother

  • @aidan32112
    @aidan32112 Рік тому +8

    favvvv Ethel song

  • @Wiglytuff26
    @Wiglytuff26 Рік тому +13

    This song sends me where i need to go i love her.

  • @andrapetrache8119
    @andrapetrache8119 8 місяців тому +11

    If i die and my boyfriend finds this, hello baby, i just want you to know i love you so much, thank you for loving me, talking with me about every single problem, thank you for being alive and staying with me and willing to know me better and live with my traumatizing beahviour. im sorry for every time i hurt you but i always loved the way you kiss my lips, my neck, my hands, my forehead, i always loved your voice, your pointy nose, your blondish hair and your caring nature..i love you and please always remember me ❤️
    forever, your star shaped earrings, Lana coded and cappuccio coquette girl

  • @Z3ropro
    @Z3ropro Рік тому +5

    I cannot believe I get to hear this

  • @Kittys_brainvomit
    @Kittys_brainvomit 4 місяці тому +2

    "Songetext"
    I sing the lord's euthanasia blues
    When I take you and your brother in the back pew
    Drive into the median, keep myself from eating and wonder why I feel so sick
    Tradition's ligature marks always yellow through
    I lied when I said I didn't want you
    In no time, you'll forget the way we were supposed to be
    Asking what I'm on this time, holding on to you like I do
    Like we're the only people in the world god left to mind to
    Two drowning coals won't ever light
    But if I ask you to, you'll warm the night
    If I want you like I said I'd never do
    I would hold my breath and sit down next to you
    Terrified you'll bite the hand that needs you
    And right now I need you
    I don't know what happened
    I don't know what happened
    I was young and sweet
    And then something happened
    Something overwhelming
    Something everlasting
    Time drags on
    I hate him for the time he's gone
    I've been here for weeks, I've been here for years
    I've been here too long
    I forgot what stop means
    Either I drink it or the boat sinks
    It's easy for him to get out of me
    What I've been praying will get out of me
    Will I always be crying during sex with you
    All my dreams take place in heaven where it's quiet, lying next to you
    Heavy breathing and sighs, bruises between my thighs, look me deep in my eyes like I'm a river worth wading
    And if I'm crying, it's because I'm in love
    And I could love you if I tried
    And I'm trying
    I'm trying, I'm trying, I'm trying
    ~ ~
    Don't forget to look through the comments to share your thoughts and creativity. We love you ~

  • @davidgoold4683
    @davidgoold4683 Рік тому +6

    Such delicate insistent music

  • @toddthornton509
    @toddthornton509 Рік тому +4

    Title is pretty devo do you like depeche mode?Nice harmonys angst soaked regret of the fatigue settling in an picking up the pieces what's left after the vultures.😊❤

  • @pandemicdistresssiren1042
    @pandemicdistresssiren1042 8 місяців тому +3

    I could tell by the cover art, I belong on this channel.

  • @sinfante93
    @sinfante93 Рік тому +11

    Either I drink it or the boat sinks 🥲

  • @katierose3262
    @katierose3262 3 місяці тому +1

    Hi sweetheart, it's me again.. I just wanted to say Everything has gone wrong since we broke up. I miss you and I miss what we had. I cherished you. Every moment of you.. every eye contact ,every blink looking at your beautiful eyelashes ,every smile you ever gave me... Man how I miss those smiles more than anything. I miss your back rubs. You were so gentle when you would do it. I feel like crying right now but there are people around me at work.. its been a year and it feels like time didn't even pass. Right now I need you. I don't know what happened. It feels like a opening wound that'll never heal. I wish I could just stitch myself back up. But they say time heals. I can't stop thinking about you. Everyday it's killing me. I don't understand how your coping with not talking to me. It's the worst feeling. I never wanted to say goodbye to you. Please come back to me. Just talk to me ... Just once... I feel like I died and I can't come back to life .

  • @cruz8176
    @cruz8176 Рік тому +11

    I’ve never related more to a song.

    • @Indyawillis85
      @Indyawillis85 Рік тому +1

      If you're a Twigs fan, you know good music 😉

  • @ryanrowland5909
    @ryanrowland5909 Рік тому +4

    Holy moly how have I just found you 😩

  • @creek_blues
    @creek_blues 3 роки тому +22

    I love Ethel but imo the demo of this is 100x better

  • @savannahholley7360
    @savannahholley7360 5 місяців тому +4

    Favorite song

  • @_aereos
    @_aereos Рік тому +18

    i was young and sweet and then something happened

    • @aethrya
      @aethrya 3 місяці тому

      So sad

  • @dangerousadvantage126
    @dangerousadvantage126 Місяць тому +1

    'look me deep in my eyes/like i'm a river worth wading' fuck....

  • @editqxrs
    @editqxrs 9 місяців тому +6

    omg the hello neighbor theme

  • @gamingwithsilentaj
    @gamingwithsilentaj 6 місяців тому +3

    Fun Fact: The Beat is From Hello Neighbor

  • @Michaelroni420
    @Michaelroni420 3 роки тому +24

    This is so good and chill to listen to!❤️

  • @irvainedeluca
    @irvainedeluca 6 місяців тому +3

    why didnt this one go to the stream platforms officially?