I think a mix of drugs, body dysmorphia, and cruelly relentless paparazzi sent her over the edge. I remember a video where she was covering her face with some fabric to avoid paparazzi photos while she was trying to get into a building (I think her residence), and one paparazzi man kept pulling the sweatshirt off of her head. She said “please don’t touch me” several times. But he reached up to her face and pulled it off over and over. My jaw dropped when I saw that. That was honestly depraved. I sure as hell don’t blame her for wanting to black out her windows and all of that, even if it didn’t seem like a rational behavior... because from her experiences, it kind of WAS a rational behavior, whether she was using drugs at the time or not.
I think it also didn’t help that she had no support system. Her mother basically made her spiral into her eating disorder by saying she looked good when she was severely underweight from mono so she felt like she was only worth something when she was that weight and tried to maintain it. Then she had ‘friends’ who send pictures of her apartment to the paparazzi who then proceeded to expose her living conditions and shame her, which definitely didn’t help her obvious mental turmoil
@@lunarialoonatic I certainly agree with you about that - had she had a better support system, I think things would’ve turned out differently for her. When she was inpatient and when she was under her conservatorship with her family for a period of time, she seemed to be doing much better - but that’s only based off of the narratives we’ve seen, and we can’t really know what was going on behind the scenes unless that information is disclosed. Western beauty standards (namely, being thin, wealthy, and white) propagated via Hollywood and popular culture certainly influenced her from a young age in the entertainment industry, and her mother’s snarky comments (whether intentionally snarky or not) were probably sprinkled throughout her childhood and into her adult life. I’m sure that had a lot to do with her self-image and eating disorder, unfortunately. A better support system to help her and care for her would have been greatly beneficial for her.
ya i don't blame her AT ALL for blacking out her windows. i would too, honestly, if i were her. also, i love how that's 'crazy' but taylor swift being toted around inside a suitcase to avoid paparazzi is 'clever' lol like the nerve
@Mal c.H You’re right, I would totally want to black out my windows after that. Throughout the whole video, I was wondering if it would be illegal to carry a taser around and taser somebody that touched her even when she asked them not to. I would honestly lose my mind.
I've always had a sweet spot for Amanda, I actually went to FIDM during the same time she was there and would often see her minding her own business and seemed relatively normal from what I've seen in the tabloids. But one day she walked over to me and my classmates while we were doing homework in the library, and asked if we were taking photos of her. We were kind of shocked that she was talking to us but at the same time were confused and told her no. She did not believe us and asked to pull up the last photo we took on our phones. My classmate then showed his phone and she immediately apologized and walked away. At that point, we all felt bad for her and can't imagine the detrimental trauma the paparazzis must have caused towards her or towards any celebrity really. My heart goes out to her!
Thank you for not being immediately offended or rude when she asked if you guys were taking pics. And an extra thank you for showing her your camera rolls. You gave her the peace of mind no one had allowed her to have almost her entire life. I wouldn't be surprised if she remembered you guys simply because of your kindness to her. I imagine small interactions like that is what keeps her going, knowing that there ARE good people in this world that aren't out to exploit her. Thank you for showing her such kindness
Poor girl i cant imagine the constant paranoia she felt being in public. That could possibly be one of the reasons for the drug abuse. Except stimulants make you extra paranoid especially when they cause severe insomnia. So add not sleeping for a couple days into the mix and you've got textbook psychosis. i wouldn't blame anyone for acting the way she has given what shes been through.
I mean. Back then a picture of Lindsay for instance could go for upwards of 10K. A picture of her would be worth less money yes, but putting yourself in her shoes, you would eventually learn to be completely paranoid that at any moment anyone could be watching you, and at any time you saw a phone in your presence and any semblance of a happy face in the person holding it, you would assume he is thinking “wow, I just got a perfect one, that’s gonna be worth much more than 10K look she has her finger in her nose “ or something like that. Over time anyone would start seeing things, especially if you have a mental illness. And in that situation people might even make things up and involve your name into it so they can make such amount of money by selling it, their hearsay story like at this point in the video 10:15 i mean where’s the proof it was Amanda ? Where’s the scratch actually? All there’s there is something anyone can actually do to themselves, it’s just pressing your arm with your fingers, there’s no bodily damage there, there’s no video or picture of Amanda doing that, but that person got at least 5K for those pictures and that story back then. So living in those circumstances i mean. We all would be completely paranoid to a point of maybe even having a complete breakdown, like everyone everywhere is trying to make money of taking and selling pictures of you, and the more humiliating, or revealing, or anything like that the more it paid
Just bc someone's struggling with their mental health doesn't mean they're bound for disaster. It's a tacky and ultimately unhelpful comparison at best and actively harmful at worst.
@@martinprehjan9944 Funny because when male stars similarly go on twitter rants such as Kanye and the former president, no one deems them "attention grabbing" and/or incompetent. They get to run the highest office in the land and billion dollar businesses. And this video clearly shows Amanda being distressed by the paparazzi. People who call the paparazzi on themselves, like the Kardashians and influencers, are fair game to call attention seekers bc they have no actual talent to perpetuate a career other than making headlines. THAT is the difference between overworked young female stars and actual attention-seeking vampires.
@@martinprehjan9944 that’s really messed up of you take it like that. First off, you can’t even prove what you said was true. Second of all, they were trying to escape from the attention, no to seek for more attention.
I have schizoeffective disorder/bipolar disorder with psychotic symptoms also eating disorders anorexia and bulimia, I feel for Amanda when she explains how seeing photos of her makes herself want to cry. She’s not acting like a robot or creepy or anything like that, she’s just experiencing a lot of things that most people will never understand. How can people be so cruel
i’m so sorry, my brother is diagnosed schizoaffective too and i hate all the stigma surrounding his diagnosis. there’s really no cure-all for it and when he is taking his meds and doing better, he comes off very robotic/ emotionless and people who knew him before his diagnosis think he’s “weird” or very ignorant people will think schizophrenic diagnosis = serial killer. it’s a mental illness that’s very misunderstood, very difficult to medicate, and once “properly” medicated the person still have terrible side effects they have to suffer through that sometimes work against their meds or health in general. again i’m so sorry for any hurt you have suffered from people’s ignorant comments, and although i’ll never know what that feels like personally it makes me see red when people take advantage or call my brother weird or creepy amongst other things. 😔
Thank you for sharing this. I think people are scared when they see what 'real' mental illness can look like. Its so disheartening watching how people misunderstand this. 💗
I've met her when I was in treatment. She was super nice and was really healthy when I met her. It's sad how many people try to make her slip just because they want a story
That's my theory too. It would explain why she went back to treatment too. Things like can send people over the edge from the grief, and since she was already fairly fragile...
I think that is well but at the same time it's really none of our business.it was certainly not the paparazzi's business.. I've had a miscarriage and it's a horribly hard thing to go through.it sent me into a deep spiral and I didn't have mental problems to start with so I can't even imagine what this poor girl went through. I've got nothing but positive thoughts for her
This is my theory too! I don’t think she made up being pregnant but I think she had an issue with the pregnancy and she didn’t want to have to address it publicly (which is totally understandable).
Hi. Can you do ke$ha next? I feel like her story is worth mentioning in these pop star deep dives. She did A LOT for the music industry and I think her story is one that can inspire/highlights a lot of bullshit these girls gotta go through to become a celebrity
The fact that she’s filmed or photographed with every step she makes is honestly so disturbing. She can’t even eat lunch alone with people standing outside the window taking pictures. Ffs.
Please to the Olsen Twins and the rumours of abuse/trauma from their full house days, co-star Bob Saget's pervy behaviour, Marykate's teen eating disorder, mental health struggles and her best friend and ex-BF Heath Ledger's death. Most people don't understand how much these women went through. Just like other child entertainers Britney, Lindsay and Amanda x
Interesting I heard some bad things that happened to them but I would like to fully know what happen. Idk that Bob was doing that :/ We know he makes a great tv dad but if Tyler Posey’s dad got the role I don’t think that would have happened to them
You know what nobody ever tells you about being 5150’d? That your 72 hour hold doesn’t start until you’re seen by a doctor and they’re allowed to keep you for however long they want to until you get to be seen by someone. It usually doesn’t take long, but when it happened to me, I was in there for 4 days before I saw a doctor and was in there for 9 days total. even for mentally ill people who need it, it’s still literal hell for us, but I really hope she gets the help she needs.
Same in the uk! One of my friends was held in a hospital for 2 weeks with nothing to do, missing school etc, under constant supervison until they could get someone to find time to do a psych eval. Oh and here they also watch you pee/make you use the bathroom with the door open :)))))
@@IvorySiren yessssss I feel that too-- it broke my heart when she was like "can I please see that picture you just took?? I NEED to be beautiful" like they're just vultures. It is clear as day she wasn't well and they just swarmed all over that insecurity. So gross. Thank you for sharing your own perspective.
Imagine how many people over the years have called themselves a good friend of hers. But not one single friend or family member stood up for her, stood in her corner and tried to take care of her. It breaks my heart thinking of her sitting in some padded cell thinking "not one person in the world cares about my wellbeing, not my parents, not my manager, brother or sister, nobody"
Yeah we have a serious problem of basically discarding celebrities once they aren't 'pure' and 'happy' or just get a wrinkle. She deserves love, no matter how much she has been through or what issues she has. I'm even guilty of this but I want her to find happiness
@@haley5735 Exactly, people especially with child actors once they grow up and go through things people constantly compare them to their younger self. It's honestly annoying. She's 34 years old, she's grown and she's been through HELL. She's not a bubbly teen anymore and people need to accept that and allow her to grow and evolve as a person. I hope she finds happiness too.
@Karl M Yea your're right, plenty have stayed clean even went on to do other successful things out of the limelight. However, for the ones were not so lucky, i feel immensely sorry for them
@Karl M I feel like we can’t hold child celebs to the same standard for every single one of them. Amanda Bynes, Lindsey Lohan, Britney Spears, and Paris Hilton have all made it very clear that they didn’t have any type of support system and their parents did more harm than good. A lot of the people you mentioned (which this is purely anecdotal) are people I have NEVER heard of. Which means they didn’t have the same attention and audience that major celebs like Amanda Bynes at the time and Britney Spears did. That’s not even concerning the fact that many mental illnesses are genetic and can manifest in sooo many different ways and at different stages of a person’s life. So even though some child stars made it out okay, they probably had parents who were protecting them in certain aspects, a good support system, and most likely were completely neurotypical for a lot of their time in the spotlight before developing their mental health problems after years of the exposure to Hollywood. I know you’re not arguing against the points being made. But I don’t think it’s a great perspective to look at struggling child celebs and hold them to the same standards as other child Celebs who made it to adulthood with little controversy. It perpetuates the idea that those girls were just messed up and didn’t deserved the attention they received or were ungrateful for it and Rhine sit for themselves, or just fucked up from the get go. Rather than addressing the key issue. That being the lack of resources they had compared to other celebrities.
I'm sure that its mostly because they had families that properly protected and cared from them. So many parents of celebrities seemed to have thrown their children to the wolves. You can't expect a child to thrive in such a potentially dangerous and toxic environment without guidance
Sam Lufti might honestly be the devil. He lures people who are down on their luck and easily manipulated, and promises them a way out, only to have him take everything left they have. Holy shit that man is evil.
THANK YOU!!! Finally someone with the acorns to address this elephant in the room. What he did to Britney alone ensures him of a front row seat in hell, but what he did to Amanda gets him box seats. His constant threats of slap suits are the sole reason why he hasn't had countless documentaries exposing him.
I would love love a video about Drew Barrymore ...the woman is just an inspiration her life was so so messed up growing up with her parents.. but the woman atm standing on her feet and killin it and I couldn't be more proud
we all need to give Amanda an apology, she’s obviously hasn’t been treated well her whole life by the public and just think what has happened to her behind the scenes when she was only a child she was being abused, but all the media did was make her seem like she was just crazy but it was actually the media and the public that made her go “crazy”
I’m proud she was able to post a video of her self, I imagine it’s so hard with the things she struggles with (I hate recording myself too) .. It just shows how hard she’s worked to get where she is today. Also it’s so weird that Ashley Banks had the ID picture..
i agree, strange that persianla had the ID. but Persianla was not followed by amanda, that was persiannyc , the original “secret account” that never asked for money
@@annieshaffer6939 Finally giving someone's full story that had been ravaged by the media, some true due diligence and bringing to light the injustices someone faced? You call that a low bar? I'd love to see what you've done with your own life Annie. I have a strong feeling you haven't done a lot...
@@annieshaffer6939 you’re the first one who turned this into a personal thing… why not focused on the video and its purpose for raising awareness instead of focusing on profits??? So much other shit out there that is non-productive and targeting views just for profit… you should go there and be a Karen THERE. Peace & Light ✌🏽
@@byroncortezmusic1327 I don't understand what awareness you think this is trying to bring....this is just someone telling another person's story using the same things we saw on TMZ and trash magazines...only they are profiting off of it now...
can i just say i love this set up esp with the softer camera focus, it feels like when i have tipsy late night rants/tangents in my friends bedrooms. i’ve had a pretty scary night and this has grounded me so well
Maybe the face tattoo has some kind of significance. In part 1, you mentioned that she was really self conscious about her cheeks making her look “fat,” so maybe the heart tattoo was symbolic in a way she could “love” a part of her body she always hated.
I thought it seemed like she's damaging her face because she doesn't love it, like she wants to show that she is on a nosedive and has no way to get back to the state she was before things went downhill.
@@stepanhybl9017 ik babes, and I'm not blaiming her. She consistently provides us with really top-notch content. So I'm more than willing to wait. Take care xx
I love that you treat these celebs as what they are: human beings with feelings. The fact that we, as a society, feel it’s ok to tear these women down for our own entertainment is disgusting.
That’s incredible she got her degree after all she’s been through. She’s a hard worker and thank you Amanda for being such a joy to watch when I was a kid. I hope you find happiness and peace in your life! We are all just human beings and this you tuber did a great job showing your humanity.
She probably had fire grades too. I finished my Bachelors degree with honors while going through a mental breakdown. Turns out I was Bipolar, but my grades maintained during it all.
The fact that her roommates knew that she was paranoid about people recording her and it must have messed with her psyche to have that confirmed in a way.
That would make you so paranoid all over again but tenfold. It became a reality instead of just thoughts in her head. I hope her bf is the support she needs to keep getting better but I think it can be dangerous to put all of the eggs in one basket, especially when one has mental health struggles. I don’t know if she has any real friends other than her bf but if not I really hope she can meet some more healthy, kind, and loving ppl somehow. We all need more than just one person to count on bc god forbid if anything were to happen then you won’t be totally alone again. I had to/chose to learn that the hard way, just like pretty much everything in life. I’m finally branching out now at 30, better late than never! I’m praying for her and everyone reading this that love & healing flows to them and through them to others that need it.
Yet fans chase her around for photos, videotape her when they see her out, harass her etc and people do this with EVERY celebrity yet come online and act like they have empathy for them when they do the SAME THING. Para social relationships and celeb worship is one if the grossest things about our culture. Imagine being obbessed over someone who in all honesty is disgusted by you and wants too be no where near you but is forced to interact with you to earn money.
Man oh man. I'm mentally ill, too. I've said plenty of crazy shit on the internet. It's nice to see someone speaking about it with empathy instead of contempt. Thank you.
This poor women is literally being traumatized everytime she is seen in public and the synergistic effect of her suffering from mental health problems is just disastrous, I feel like I’m witnessing a mentally ill person being tortured. I think everyone can relate to feeling self conscious and worrying about their appearance and the terrible feeling of seeing a friend or family post a photo that you hated online. Now she is experiencing this on such an incredibly cruel and unique level where the whole world is witnessing this. I don’t understand why it is tolerated for paparazzi to swarm you, surround you, physically assault you, demean and insult and having absolutely no respect for their wish to be left alone. Just a terribly sad situation and I’m not sure how she can possibly be treated and recover in such an environment.
I feel so exhausted just by watching this. Poor Amanda had trouble for a lifetime and some more. I really hope she's happy and content now. She deserves it.
Hey, Mila 🙋♂️🙋♂️🙋♂️. I'm feeling sorry for Amanda Bynes and many of Child Stars. It is because they didn't have a normal childhood. That is very sad. I hope that Current Young Hollywood Actresses mustn't end up just like Lindsay Lohan and Amanda Bynes.
i’m so proud of her recovery, she rly seems like she’s doing better!! i hope she continues to get the help she needs & can get out from the conservatorship. thank u for such a wellmade & respectful vid!!
When a woman is considered unable to take care of herself, why are all her rights given to her family? It seems like someone unbiased should be hired to take such a roll. I would never trust my family with my life and assets....the way Amanda and Britneys family had all the power, and yet left them with nothing while they struggled, it seriously scares me!
In my country you can be sectioned against your will for a couple days then your doctor's have to go to court and get a judge to agree. If you are so severely ill that you cannot consent or make decisions you are made a ward of court, you have your own independent legal representation looking after your interests.
But you would trust a stranger hell I would not trust a damn stranger fuck nooooooooo the only family member I will trust is my mom and if you can’t trust a family member than u should not trust a stranger but that’s me
The way people exacerbate her body dysmorphia is so upsetting to me. I deal with it too and I don't let anyone take pictures of me at all, and when I do it's inevitable that I will have a breakdown looking at them... it's the main reason I don't let people take photos. I literally set a goal to update my FB profile photo once a year because I want to keep it current, but I hate taking photos of myself...
It took me a while figure out I had body dysmorphia. I have never liked taking pictures, looking in the mirror or talking about my body. I can't imagine dealing with this as a public figure.
I hate when people tale pics of myself. I like ONLY the pics I take of myself. I always say people dont know how to take pictures of me... dunno i fund myself ugly and strange when someone takes a photo of me
@@c4lt727 Yeah same! I'm able to take pictures where I genuinely look good but somehow every single picture another person has taken of me ever makes me look like a frumpy mess.
I struggle with body dysmorphia too and this just proves how it’s not recognised enough with the way people speak about it! I’m actually the opposite, I’m obsessed with taking photos of myself, but I edit so much and edit myself to how I want to look, but I cannot have people take pictures of me I just freeze up and panic because the thought of them having an unedited picture of me literally scares me!
I legit told my Mum the only photos she can post of me if I go missing or die are ones I have on my fb. There is no way I want her sharing pics that she thinks are cute!
Mila, it’s sooooo cool that you make videos about old drama that most of us forgot about, and why you haven’t come on UA-cam before is a mystery to me, ‘cause you are literary my favorite youtuber rn. This is The UA-cam channel I didn’t know needed. Keep it going queen
I always watched her show as a kid and even had a small crush on her back then. To see the suffering she’s been through is so heart-wrenching, I can only imagine how it felt to live it. If the girl were never to come back to public life, I think I would be perfectly fine with it, as long as she were living the life that makes her happy.
those two candid videos of her make her seem like shes doing better. She gets one face tattoo which was probably a huge step in self-love and everyone scream she is disturbing....umm okay Post Malone has a face full of tattoos but he gets called goofy and odd but not distrubing
Face tats only really became mainstream in the past 3 years and we KNOW the world treats men and women different and hold them to ENTIRELY separate standards so no suprise
I think the tattoos are part of the whole “magazines and paps are using old photos of me” thing that was talked about in part 1. A way to take control and force the mags to use newer photos (in an attempt to make them look more accurate in Amanda’s eyes).
Dude it’s a great channel and great vid, you don’t have to call it 2000’s just because it has flowers and a sweater lol, it’s very universal themes, for any time period!!
You did an amazing job on this! I stopped watching Wendy Williams yrs ago when she slammed Amanda. I was so disgusted by what she was saying about her.
I have body dysmorphia and I don’t know what I would do if someone was taking pictures of me and photoshopping them to resemble the monster I see in my head. I would not be able to handle it. People are sick.
I feel like a lot of people don't realize that prolonged drug use can cause mental health issues that a long lasting if not permanent. Adderall is basically clean and legal meth and abuse of that drug causes paranoia, delusions, and breaks from reality. It happens. She clearly suffered abuse in the industry, as most beautiful young women do. Compound that with the trappings of fame and the body dismorphia and there is the perfect storm for the behavior she displayed. It also seemed like she was completely alone throughout most of this. It's all just so damn sad. I wish her only the best.
I agree. My ex has some long term mental health issues due to abusing drugs and it's heartbreaking. I do have to partially disagree about Adderall being basically clean meth, though. Methamphetamine is chemically related to amphetamine but methamphetamine is much stronger and has more harmful side effects. Abusing amphetamines is still seriously dangerous like you said, though.
Adderall is a controlled medication and is helpful for ADHD, saying that is basically legal meth creates an stigma and is harmful for the creation of conscience of mental health
Thank you for making these videos! I'm about 5 years younger than Amanda, and I was a HUGE fan growing up, of every single thing she did (still am). It was distressing and heartbreaking to watch her struggles over the years and especially how people and the media treated her. I just wanted to give her a hug. Amanda is a nuanced, complex and beautiful human being. It's refreshing to see her story told by an "outsider" in such a compassionate way. I will forever love Amanda Bynes!
I think her focus on ugly this, that, etc., stems from never being casted in pretty girl/love interest roles when she was acting, compounded with being told her face was too round for those roles and that she was beautiful when she was in the throws of mono (which led to her ED). All Amanda wanted was to be shown via projects that she could be the pretty girl, she could do that role, and her thing for fashion plays into that: her mental faculties latched on to her deep deep need to be seen as pretty/sexy/gorgeous as Lindsay Lohan and Megan Fox and her fellow contemporaries.
I dont get it because I literally remember being like 10 watching sydney white and thinking about how pretty she was and hoping id look like her and was cool like her when i was in college like that.
@Karl M Hilary didn't have stage parents and Lauren Conrad was already HS aged when she found her fame. She already had her confidence and already knew what she wanted. It's why she's the most successful by leaps and bounds with Whitney Port and Cavallari trailing behind her.
@@lizzie0canada9roxya the fact is she was never told during her formative years that she was and even IF she was told, she was seeing her peers being called sexy and sultry by the media. She wanted to be seen and treated as equal to them but she never was. Society definitely failed her.
yea, that's what I'm seeing too, but what makes me super sad was (in the last video mainly) that she hated seeing herself in She's the Man. That movie (while yes corny at times) was really positive to me in high school, when I was having body image issues because I thought I was too athletic and muscular etc for a girl (my parents pushed me thru competitive swimming for most of my youth).
This poor baby. I feel bad for Amanda. But can I say as a fellow content creator, I’m living for the green eyes, pink bathrobe, filming in bed eleganza.
Struggling with addiction and mental health issues is hard enough, speaking from experience, but to have the whole world watching you and judging you and magnifying the things about you that you already hate about yourself has got to be so crippling. I truly wish nothing but a lot of love and healing for her.
I will never forget meeting Amanda Bynes at the launch of her fashion line in 2007. She was the sweetest person ever and took the time to talk with all of her fans. All love to Amanda!
I like the way the Britney doc. reminded everyone how famous (YOUNG) girls were treated 15yrs ago & it made me think of Amanda too. Thanks for your work Mila, very well researched!
I really hope she sees this, this is by far the most respectful video I’ve ever seen on Amanda, I really hope she’s doing okay, she was always my hero when I was younger
I feel so bad for her... Amanda, if you're reading this just please take good care of yourself and know that NOW, people DO have your back, and we DO genuinely hope you get better. You deserve happiness and safety.
hey be careful not to burnout, you're a new channel with a big growing but you have to be care not to put too much pressure on yourself to upload every 3 days or every week bc eventually you will burnout. take care of yourself first!
Literally the title of that article says she’s “No Longer” pregnant, which either means she either had the baby and lost custody, lost the pregnancy or had it terminated. Either way, the idea that people would jump to “she lied” is really crappy.
with the new release of “quiet on set” i’ve seen a new surge of people calling her new look disturbing :( i’ve seen so many videos of people comparing her to how she looked as a child and saying “EVERYONE FAILED HER” and everyone did fail her BUT i hate the insinuation that she doesn’t look okay anymore. people need to stop being so fucking hard on traumatized female celebs
Fr even though people LOVE to act like they are trying to help because they “care”, but they only put these women in little boxes and project their personal issues onto real celebrities personal issues. “They are ruined!!! They are destroyed :(“ - and go on to post emo photos of those celebrities. People seriously lack self-awareness and empathy for random people and for people they THINK they know. Ngl rn I’m having that realization with Kim Kardashian and how she is judged by everyone for every little thing she does and I can’t help, but feel sorry because I once took part in that. (Of course she capitalizes on herself and her family, but she still a human being that literally has done nothing objectively and seriously wrong at least to my knowledge. I can literally can predict that one day everyone will find out that she was playing this character and she is actually just a human with thoughts a feelings like what happened to Paris Hilton.)
My little young 16 y.o cousin confided in e saying she sometimes hears voices but very faint, i told her to tell her mom. My aunt is a European old school alcoholic and said shes probably tying to get attention. That same year she started taking M D M A and that exacerbated the condition and and made the voices louder, yet she didnt want to stop M D M A because it was the only thing that made her happy. She hung herself in the park of her high school. I was heart broken. I found her TUMBLR account and found she conjured up a mermaid that has been telling her to die and cross over to her into the deep sea because there its QUIET with out voices. My heart still hurst for her. And that was 10 years ago. I wish i did more.
Wow..my heart aches for your cousin and you.. and her family as well. Though it's true children like attention if your child tells you she hears voices what's the harm in having her checked out. At the very worst you lose a couple of dollars to a doctor. Money well spent to know for sure in my opinion. Not your fault auntie.. you listened and gave good advice.. "tell your mom". Give yourself a break
@@terireed3740 Thank you for your kind words. There was still stigma 10 years ago in conjunction with slavic parents it seemed like nonsense at the time. Yet i see hope for the future now that mental illness is taken more seriously today. And videos like these with the right commentator like Mila, is also helpful in my opinion.
I’m so sorry, for you and your dear cousin. That must be very a traumatic experience and I hope you have someone close you can talk to. If your family isn’t there for you please know there are so many other outlets for help and people who care. Your cousin was suffering and shouldn’t have been brushed off by her mother, please don’t carry this on your shoulders, it’s really hard to know how to properly help a loved one who is mentally struggling so much. Love and light your way 🦋
MDMA is hell. You may be thinking its handsome while you’re going up, because it give the feeling of being in love and being loved at a very high level, but you will have to go down, and it’s hell on earth, you’re not able to feel anything good, you feel hate for yourself and hate from others, you wanna die. If you’re fragile don’t take these drugs, even an healthy person can go into depression if they takes it regularly.
Amanda was truly one of my idols growing up and I just want to see her happy and loving herself no matter what she chooses to do with her life. She is not a "f*ck-up" or "damaged" and I am so tired of hearing that kind of language used against people who suffer from mental health issues and/or addiction. She has always been beautiful and still is and I hope that one day she can think so too. The tabloids and paparazzi absolutely disgust me for taking advantage of her while struggling and I wish people would just leave her alone so she can heal and be happy. XOXO to Amanda, you kind soul. (BTW good job with this video series Mila!)
Legit never watched drama channels really before, but this is just such quality content I can't help but watch. seriously keep up the good work, this is coming from a gaming nerd that watches primarily gaming and commentary content. Love what your doing
@@algaegreen8 i just did and it seems he had to edited out that part from the olsen twins video for legal reasons, so i still dont know what he did! something about killing a girl?
Fun fact I had an English teacher in community College that was Amanda Bynes' cousin, he even had the same last name and would say not the nicest things about her which made me think she never had much family support from anyone, not just parents :(
I’d actually love if you did a video on Mary Kate and Ashley because I HATE they way people online talk about them. Calling them ‘scary’ and so on like they’ve clearly had an awful childhood
seems very plausible. not only is miscarrying very common but on top of that the persiandoll twitter (or it was a blind item) mentioned the abuse ruined her chances at having the family she always wanted. now that may or may not be true but it does seem likely 😢
As someone who has ADHD and has been taking medication for it for several years, I'd like to add a few things: Firstly, taking ADHD meds with a mood disorder can dramatically worsen your symptoms. This isn't true for all of them and is also highly individual - Ritalin (methylphenidate) is infamous for causing depressive episodes whereas Vyvanse (lisdexamphetamine) generally does not. Like Vyvanse, Adderall is a form of amphetamine, and while I haven't taken it myself it seems like it causes euphoric feelings rather than depressive. It *is* sometimes used to treat bipolar disorder but it's very much not recommended as it can worsen manic episodes. Secondly, ADHD meds can induce psychosis. Your brain works so fast because so many neurotransmitters are active and it can cause hallucinations/ lucid dreams etc even if you DO need the pills. If I take my meds at odd hours or accidentally mix them with energy drinks/ alcohol I get quite bizarre side effects, and I'm someone who has to take pills to activate those transmitters. My friends who take them recreationally at times have also reported strange dreams and feeling like they're in a very weird state of mind. (Caveat: this has been when taking them at night, mixing them with other substances, or taking too high of a dose.) Thirdly, they can cause paranoia. This is a part of psychosis (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia) but I'm giving it its own point because I want to emphasize that large doses of ADHD medication when you're already in the public eye would very likely cause someone to feel extremely paranoid. Fourthly, you can get very dependent on Adderall!!! You build up tolerance fast and will require more and more of it to get the same effects. This isn't necessarily unsafe in itself, but it can make quitting Very difficult. On days that I have skipped my Vyvanse I get severe headaches and feel extremely tired TT Methylphenidates like Ritalin can be taken when you need them since they're short-term, which makes skipping or irregular hours more okay, but amphetamines like Adderall or Vyvanse really require a schedule for when you take them because they stay in your body way longer. So beyond wanting to stay on meds to e.g. lose weight there's a clear disincentive to quit the pills, even if you absolutely can and most people handle it quite well. To lose substantial amounts of weight on Adderall you also need to be taking quite large doses of it. I haven't lost anything on Vyvanse and I'm on 90mg a day - for reference, the recommended daily max dose is 60mg for Adderall and 70mg for Vyvanse. Of course this depends on the person, but she must have been taking quite a bit... I want to make it very clear that I am not trying to blame everything on pills or undermine the role that the media played in this. ADHD medication can be taken safely and without issue just like any other type of medical treatment. I'm very grateful to be taking mine. However, it does absolutely affect your brain - that's the whole point -, and shouldn't be taken so lightly. Adderall is NOT just a weight loss pill that makes you focus. It's a serious medication for a serious medical condition that's very rarely seen as such, neither by the media nor the GP. (As a sidenote, the attempts at destigmatising ADHD I've been seeing lately really aren't helping at all - making it into this generic condition with traits so vague that 95% of the population would fit the description just means it isn't taken seriously. It'd take too long to get into but it causes a Lot of problems for me, please don't throw it around so much.) TLDR: Adderall will seriously fuck up your brain and I think we should keep this in mind when discussing how Amanda Bynes ended up in the situation that she's in.
i agree with everything you said, and i appreciate you writing something so informative and eloquent. i do however believe that her cannabis use also played a part in the development of her psychosis. as far as i know, frequent cannabis use can accelerate the development of mixed/manic episodes including rapid cycling in people with underlying/undiagnosed/untreated bipolar disorder, as well as psychosis in those predisposed to it, especially in those whose brains are still developing (before age 25). the short-term effects of cannabis can feel very helpful for managing psychotic and bipolar symptoms so it is very understandable why cannabis and these illnesses seem to come together so often. i think the adderall's encouragement of sleep deprivation and overstimulation of dopamine receptors and the nervous system certainly worsened amanda's condition, and combined with cannabis use, and the external factors in her life, it unfortunately created a 'perfect storm' for a breakdown. i wish you and her all the best :)
@@JulietLong oh yes, i kind of forgot about that! thank you for pointing it out. i always feel a bit uneasy about speculating too wildly about someone’s brain and addictions, but i also dont want this to go unsaid. thank you for bringing up the point about cannabis as well . you’re probably right that that could be more responsible for psychosis. thanks again and i hope you’re having a nice day!!
@@maxens_is_here thank you for saying that :^) i dont want to speculate too wildly about someone’s mental state and their drug abuse, but i never see anyone bring up the actual side effects of adderall (or other ADHD medication) beyond weight loss, not even in this quite in-depth series, and felt that it was important to point out. glad it could be of help to you.
Ok I feel like it’s unfair when Tik Tokers compare her conservatorship to Britney’s, Britney hasn’t shown any sign of being a danger to herself and it’s clear the media had a huge role in assassinating her character. Amanda showed actual dangerous life threatening behavior and had a drug addiction & body dysmorphia that was eating away at her life savings. I think she rlly needed a conservatorship, it’s honestly not the same as Britney
@@ninamarysan1 it’s a really difficult and complex subject but as someone who spent a year in residential treatment against my will, the fact that people have the right to forcibly stop someone who may be harming themselves can absolutely save lives. My close friend recently had her medical rights taken away because she’s so deep into anorexia that her heart has shut down twice now. Standards for conservatorship and the like should definitely be stricter but sometimes it is really all you can do.
Oh yeah I completely agree. With Britney the farthest thing she did was the umbrella thing but honestly she was pretty understandably provoked but that one incident was isolated. I know that Amanda was extremely sick mentally but she was in public countless numbers of times with the wigs or disheveled clothes (and that's not affecting anyone else but she deserves better than that, she was mentally ill she cannot control it most likely), then the incidents which did affect people like locking herself in different places, and then finally starting the fire unprovoked, like she ruined that person's driveway for no reason and her poor dog got hurt. The case for Amanda is not the same as the case for Britney at all- she didn't do half the things Amanda did and Britney was really only once notably shown doing something criminal
The tmz voice clip reminds me of myself during my worst moments. Thats so cruel to record that, she seems like shes being taken advantage of by almost everyone in her life on and off
Watching Amanda’s videos defending herself broke my heart. She’s a normal person who’s gone through HELL. I hope she continues to be happy and healthy.
If Amanda watches this, I hope she knows we love her and I am fully sending her joy and laughter and happiness. I can't imagine constantly being under the eye of fame. DAMN! I've been a mess in the past, some days I still feel a mess. Literally can't wrap my head around someone digging into me in my vulnerable state - especially as much as her personal human experience. Not normal for people to live under such pressure. Amanda, you are human. I support you on your journey. We are all here for each other.
so well done mila. I have bipolar disorder and such a big part of it is the shame and humiliation you feel after having a really intense manic episode. you were respectful, empathetic, accurate and informative all at once. I didn’t know much about amanda’s story but hearing it brings up painful familiarity with my own mental health battles and there’s no way I would have figured out all of this without your video. thank you
You handle these topics so well! As someone who consumed 2000s celebrity content as a kid but also wants to examine it as an adult your channel really gets me thinking.
I wish Amanda all the health and happiness in the world. These videos broke my heart, I can’t fathom how emotionally taxing it would be to go through all of this. I’m almost in tears after watching this, it somewhat reminds me of a close family member who had a severe mental decline. She’s such a beautiful, talented woman that really inspired me from a young age, and I truly just wish her the best. I hope she knows that we know that the tabloids are toxic garbage, and people are really rooting for her ❤️
I went through a lot of this with my ex-girlfriend, and man is our mental health system broken. A lot of this mirrors her experience and me running back and forth getting her treatment. It’s amazing that someone with all the money in the world still can’t get proper treatment.
I'm excited for the Disney Channel video! I don't think the quality is declining, it's just what's made now isn't for us. It's for children like 6-12 and a lot of people say it isn't as good as "old Disney" but that's because it doesn't give us that sense of nostalgia. It doesn't give us the same feelings as when we were kids because we aren't kids. I've seen just small pieces of newer shows and honestly shows like Hannah Montana and WOWP had sceneries and scripts that were just as weird.
The sad part of all this is it highlights how difficult it is to get someone who is clearly struggling with mental illness proper treatment for their illness. It's very difficult to get a person treatment if they are unwilling (unless they are threatening to hurt themselves or other people). I can't imagine being a public figure and dealing with mental illness. It would be impossible to stay healthy....
I remember this was the first time I saw a celebrity have a “meltdown” where I was old enough to understand that they weren’t just “crazy.” When I first heard about all of this years ago, I remember feeling so saddened. With Britney and Lindsay, I was only 9 or 10 when most of their stuff was publicized. I didn’t understand, and I wrote them off as being insane, though I was still a fan of both. These videos are super important, because so many people still have that mindset that these women are just “crazy crack addicts.” For the most part, what we see is a sudden spike in illegal activity and mental instability, but what your videos show is that it was cultivated over years of being ridiculed, pitted against other women, compared, stalked, shamed, and defined. I also want to say that much older men dating them doesn’t help either! Her WILAY costar was 25 and she was 16. Her Amanda Show costar was 18 and she was 14. Very creepy! I’m a fan of Lindsay, Britney, and Amanda, and I hope they get all the love and happiness in the world ❤️
Damn I kinda forgot all about her honestly. It's sad that she's been through so much. I don't even like being seen by people at the grocery store so I couldn't imagine how she feels in the public eye so much. This was a great two part video and the compassion you showed was really nice.
I’m 23 and loveeeee going back to that era and your videos are so in depth that I feel like I’m watching a Netflix documentary. These are so good girl keep it up ❤️
I feel so mixed on her conservator case. It seems like she does do better when she’s under her parent’s care, but at the same time I think they are too strict with her and she deserves more freedom. I also feel like conservatorships when they come to celebrities are just fishy in the first place - because financially whoever is in control, has so much to gain. Like honestly I really don’t know what the right answer is. Hopefully she is doing better though and getting the best treatment possible. Also I’m so proud of her for graduating from college! That’s amazing, especially considering everything she has been through. ❤️
I know that she might be a little out of your preferred era but I would absolutely love a full dive deep of Drew Barrymore‘s upbringing I heard she was a cocaine addict at 12 and flash David Letterman at like 15
I think a mix of drugs, body dysmorphia, and cruelly relentless paparazzi sent her over the edge. I remember a video where she was covering her face with some fabric to avoid paparazzi photos while she was trying to get into a building (I think her residence), and one paparazzi man kept pulling the sweatshirt off of her head. She said “please don’t touch me” several times. But he reached up to her face and pulled it off over and over. My jaw dropped when I saw that. That was honestly depraved. I sure as hell don’t blame her for wanting to black out her windows and all of that, even if it didn’t seem like a rational behavior... because from her experiences, it kind of WAS a rational behavior, whether she was using drugs at the time or not.
I think it also didn’t help that she had no support system. Her mother basically made her spiral into her eating disorder by saying she looked good when she was severely underweight from mono so she felt like she was only worth something when she was that weight and tried to maintain it. Then she had ‘friends’ who send pictures of her apartment to the paparazzi who then proceeded to expose her living conditions and shame her, which definitely didn’t help her obvious mental turmoil
@@lunarialoonatic I certainly agree with you about that - had she had a better support system, I think things would’ve turned out differently for her. When she was inpatient and when she was under her conservatorship with her family for a period of time, she seemed to be doing much better - but that’s only based off of the narratives we’ve seen, and we can’t really know what was going on behind the scenes unless that information is disclosed.
Western beauty standards (namely, being thin, wealthy, and white) propagated via Hollywood and popular culture certainly influenced her from a young age in the entertainment industry, and her mother’s snarky comments (whether intentionally snarky or not) were probably sprinkled throughout her childhood and into her adult life. I’m sure that had a lot to do with her self-image and eating disorder, unfortunately. A better support system to help her and care for her would have been greatly beneficial for her.
ya i don't blame her AT ALL for blacking out her windows. i would too, honestly, if i were her. also, i love how that's 'crazy' but taylor swift being toted around inside a suitcase to avoid paparazzi is 'clever' lol like the nerve
@Mal c.H You’re right, I would totally want to black out my windows after that. Throughout the whole video, I was wondering if it would be illegal to carry a taser around and taser somebody that touched her even when she asked them not to. I would honestly lose my mind.
That's insane she should travel with a friend or a brother if she can't afford security these days, I would have punched him myself that's assault
Well I wasn’t expecting to watch 2 hours of Amanda Brynes tonight, but here we are...
Yeah girl, and I have and exam... Omg sos
@@mar-cl2gg RIP your education. Just gotta hope the exam is on Amanda Brynes lmao
@@beckydavidson hahahahahaha lol
Currently me
Girl same, so much to do but why would I do them when I can watch this??
I've always had a sweet spot for Amanda, I actually went to FIDM during the same time she was there and would often see her minding her own business and seemed relatively normal from what I've seen in the tabloids. But one day she walked over to me and my classmates while we were doing homework in the library, and asked if we were taking photos of her. We were kind of shocked that she was talking to us but at the same time were confused and told her no. She did not believe us and asked to pull up the last photo we took on our phones. My classmate then showed his phone and she immediately apologized and walked away. At that point, we all felt bad for her and can't imagine the detrimental trauma the paparazzis must have caused towards her or towards any celebrity really. My heart goes out to her!
Thank you for not being immediately offended or rude when she asked if you guys were taking pics. And an extra thank you for showing her your camera rolls. You gave her the peace of mind no one had allowed her to have almost her entire life. I wouldn't be surprised if she remembered you guys simply because of your kindness to her. I imagine small interactions like that is what keeps her going, knowing that there ARE good people in this world that aren't out to exploit her. Thank you for showing her such kindness
Poor girl i cant imagine the constant paranoia she felt being in public. That could possibly be one of the reasons for the drug abuse. Except stimulants make you extra paranoid especially when they cause severe insomnia. So add not sleeping for a couple days into the mix and you've got textbook psychosis. i wouldn't blame anyone for acting the way she has given what shes been through.
I mean. Back then a picture of Lindsay for instance could go for upwards of 10K. A picture of her would be worth less money yes, but putting yourself in her shoes, you would eventually learn to be completely paranoid that at any moment anyone could be watching you, and at any time you saw a phone in your presence and any semblance of a happy face in the person holding it, you would assume he is thinking “wow, I just got a perfect one, that’s gonna be worth much more than 10K look she has her finger in her nose “ or something like that. Over time anyone would start seeing things, especially if you have a mental illness. And in that situation people might even make things up and involve your name into it so they can make such amount of money by selling it, their hearsay story like at this point in the video 10:15 i mean where’s the proof it was Amanda ? Where’s the scratch actually? All there’s there is something anyone can actually do to themselves, it’s just pressing your arm with your fingers, there’s no bodily damage there, there’s no video or picture of Amanda doing that, but that person got at least 5K for those pictures and that story back then. So living in those circumstances i mean. We all would be completely paranoid to a point of maybe even having a complete breakdown, like everyone everywhere is trying to make money of taking and selling pictures of you, and the more humiliating, or revealing, or anything like that the more it paid
I’m 😊
I really hope Amanda is doing well these days. Thank you for another great, comprehensive video!
Agreed!! Also great to see you here Tiffany!! Love it when my favorite youtubers all watch each others’ videos :)
THE FACT THAT ALL MY FAVS ARE WATCHING THIS CHANNEL WHAT
Oh hey Tiffany! Another creator I love up in these comments✨
Thank you so much!! You were definitely one of my biggest inspirations to start this channel. I appreciate the support ❤️❤️❤️
i wish i could see amanda’s face watching these videos
I feel like we're just watching the Marilyn Monroe story on repeat. This is what Hollywood does to young women, again and again and again.
It really is the same story over and over. Like Judy Garland too
Just bc someone's struggling with their mental health doesn't mean they're bound for disaster. It's a tacky and ultimately unhelpful comparison at best and actively harmful at worst.
No, this is what they do to themselves when all the attention grabbing is gone and they crave it like a vampire!
@@martinprehjan9944 Funny because when male stars similarly go on twitter rants such as Kanye and the former president, no one deems them "attention grabbing" and/or incompetent. They get to run the highest office in the land and billion dollar businesses. And this video clearly shows Amanda being distressed by the paparazzi. People who call the paparazzi on themselves, like the Kardashians and influencers, are fair game to call attention seekers bc they have no actual talent to perpetuate a career other than making headlines. THAT is the difference between overworked young female stars and actual attention-seeking vampires.
@@martinprehjan9944 that’s really messed up of you take it like that. First off, you can’t even prove what you said was true. Second of all, they were trying to escape from the attention, no to seek for more attention.
I have schizoeffective disorder/bipolar disorder with psychotic symptoms also eating disorders anorexia and bulimia, I feel for Amanda when she explains how seeing photos of her makes herself want to cry. She’s not acting like a robot or creepy or anything like that, she’s just experiencing a lot of things that most people will never understand. How can people be so cruel
Hopefully we can breakdown the stigma and protect those in need of help instead of judging and ostracising.
sending love and good vibes ✨
Literally same and exactly
Yep. 😔
i’m so sorry, my brother is diagnosed schizoaffective too and i hate all the stigma surrounding his diagnosis. there’s really no cure-all for it and when he is taking his meds and doing better, he comes off very robotic/ emotionless and people who knew him before his diagnosis think he’s “weird” or very ignorant people will think schizophrenic diagnosis = serial killer. it’s a mental illness that’s very misunderstood, very difficult to medicate, and once “properly” medicated the person still have terrible side effects they have to suffer through that sometimes work against their meds or health in general. again i’m so sorry for any hurt you have suffered from people’s ignorant comments, and although i’ll never know what that feels like personally it makes me see red when people take advantage or call my brother weird or creepy amongst other things. 😔
Thank you for sharing this. I think people are scared when they see what 'real' mental illness can look like. Its so disheartening watching how people misunderstand this. 💗
your videos are so well researched and empathetic :( thank you for making these! Genuinely so enlightening, we love Amanda
Hey Broey! Loved your Killing Eve video ❤
thank you so much! it means a lot! I love your content !!
This is who Shane Dawson wishes he was.
My two queens
Broey, Mila and yourself are the reason I started watching UA-cam video essays again. Your content is fantastic! ❤️
The fact that she still graduated while going through all of this is amazing
I've met her when I was in treatment. She was super nice and was really healthy when I met her. It's sad how many people try to make her slip just because they want a story
When was that if you don’t mind me asking?
@@katelynrose6707 august of 2019
Hope you're doing okay
Best of luck to you on your recovery as well.
We all deserve to live a happy life
@@Daaaanielle thank you, it's a long road but it's worth it
I think she had a miscarriage and got publicly shamed for lying about a pregnancy, which sucks so hard.
That's my theory too. It would explain why she went back to treatment too. Things like can send people over the edge from the grief, and since she was already fairly fragile...
I think that is well but at the same time it's really none of our business.it was certainly not the paparazzi's business.. I've had a miscarriage and it's a horribly hard thing to go through.it sent me into a deep spiral and I didn't have mental problems to start with so I can't even imagine what this poor girl went through. I've got nothing but positive thoughts for her
Poor thing
@Brittney Sending you love
This is my theory too! I don’t think she made up being pregnant but I think she had an issue with the pregnancy and she didn’t want to have to address it publicly (which is totally understandable).
Hi. Can you do ke$ha next? I feel like her story is worth mentioning in these pop star deep dives. She did A LOT for the music industry and I think her story is one that can inspire/highlights a lot of bullshit these girls gotta go through to become a celebrity
YES
Oh yes, she's been through so much, and is now thriving ✨ it would be great
yes!!
Yes Kesha! 🙌
She has her own list of what she’s planning. I don’t think she is taking requests yet
The fact that she’s filmed or photographed with every step she makes is honestly so disturbing. She can’t even eat lunch alone with people standing outside the window taking pictures. Ffs.
Yeahhhhhhhhhhh extachy DUDE That's why I hate Hollywood and America as a whole because of this shit.
@Karl M I'm not even in America just shut up
@Karl M okay 👌👌👌 jeez you're so toxic
@Karl M you need to go to a theparist
@Karl M you're crazy
Please to the Olsen Twins and the rumours of abuse/trauma from their full house days, co-star Bob Saget's pervy behaviour, Marykate's teen eating disorder, mental health struggles and her best friend and ex-BF Heath Ledger's death. Most people don't understand how much these women went through.
Just like other child entertainers Britney, Lindsay and Amanda x
yessss omg pls do olsen twins vid!! how does this comment not have more likes/ comments?!?!? I'm flabbergasted
Omg yes do the Olsen twins
PLS do the Olsens
Interesting I heard some bad things that happened to them but I would like to fully know what happen. Idk that Bob was doing that :/ We know he makes a great tv dad but if Tyler Posey’s dad got the role I don’t think that would have happened to them
Omg yes after ur finals do this video plz !!!
You know what nobody ever tells you about being 5150’d? That your 72 hour hold doesn’t start until you’re seen by a doctor and they’re allowed to keep you for however long they want to until you get to be seen by someone. It usually doesn’t take long, but when it happened to me, I was in there for 4 days before I saw a doctor and was in there for 9 days total. even for mentally ill people who need it, it’s still literal hell for us, but I really hope she gets the help she needs.
Same in the uk! One of my friends was held in a hospital for 2 weeks with nothing to do, missing school etc, under constant supervison until they could get someone to find time to do a psych eval. Oh and here they also watch you pee/make you use the bathroom with the door open :)))))
I’ve been waiting ✨💃🏾
Same
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Ugh. Body dysphoria can go straight to hell. Poor Amanda. I've got nothing but love and empathy for her.
I always liked her because I had similar cheeks like her and she made me feel good about them.
@@devisrina I always loved her smile and her cheeks!!
Same. I 100% get triggered when I see pictures taken of me, that I didn’t personally take. I can’t even imagine how she felt/is feeling :(
@@IvorySiren yessssss I feel that too-- it broke my heart when she was like "can I please see that picture you just took?? I NEED to be beautiful" like they're just vultures. It is clear as day she wasn't well and they just swarmed all over that insecurity. So gross. Thank you for sharing your own perspective.
@@alavenderfawn4025 same she's so beautiful.
Imagine how many people over the years have called themselves a good friend of hers. But not one single friend or family member stood up for her, stood in her corner and tried to take care of her. It breaks my heart thinking of her sitting in some padded cell thinking "not one person in the world cares about my wellbeing, not my parents, not my manager, brother or sister, nobody"
People need to accept that she's not ever going to be that perfect, preppy high energy cheery girl anymore and that's ok.
Yeah we have a serious problem of basically discarding celebrities once they aren't 'pure' and 'happy' or just get a wrinkle. She deserves love, no matter how much she has been through or what issues she has. I'm even guilty of this but I want her to find happiness
@@haley5735 Exactly, people especially with child actors once they grow up and go through things people constantly compare them to their younger self. It's honestly annoying. She's 34 years old, she's grown and she's been through HELL. She's not a bubbly teen anymore and people need to accept that and allow her to grow and evolve as a person. I hope she finds happiness too.
@Karl M Yea your're right, plenty have stayed clean even went on to do other successful things out of the limelight. However, for the ones were not so lucky, i feel immensely sorry for them
@Karl M I feel like we can’t hold child celebs to the same standard for every single one of them.
Amanda Bynes, Lindsey Lohan, Britney Spears, and Paris Hilton have all made it very clear that they didn’t have any type of support system and their parents did more harm than good.
A lot of the people you mentioned (which this is purely anecdotal) are people I have NEVER heard of. Which means they didn’t have the same attention and audience that major celebs like Amanda Bynes at the time and Britney Spears did.
That’s not even concerning the fact that many mental illnesses are genetic and can manifest in sooo many different ways and at different stages of a person’s life. So even though some child stars made it out okay, they probably had parents who were protecting them in certain aspects, a good support system, and most likely were completely neurotypical for a lot of their time in the spotlight before developing their mental health problems after years of the exposure to Hollywood.
I know you’re not arguing against the points being made. But I don’t think it’s a great perspective to look at struggling child celebs and hold them to the same standards as other child Celebs who made it to adulthood with little controversy. It perpetuates the idea that those girls were just messed up and didn’t deserved the attention they received or were ungrateful for it and Rhine sit for themselves, or just fucked up from the get go. Rather than addressing the key issue. That being the lack of resources they had compared to other celebrities.
I'm sure that its mostly because they had families that properly protected and cared from them. So many parents of celebrities seemed to have thrown their children to the wolves. You can't expect a child to thrive in such a potentially dangerous and toxic environment without guidance
Sam Lufti might honestly be the devil. He lures people who are down on their luck and easily manipulated, and promises them a way out, only to have him take everything left they have. Holy shit that man is evil.
Their parents are not much better tho, it seems like nobody is looking out for the well-being/rehabilitation of these women.
Is there no consequences he can face for doing this? I don’t know but if feels criminal.
Don’t understand how he’s not in jail already holy shit
THANK YOU!!! Finally someone with the acorns to address this elephant in the room. What he did to Britney alone ensures him of a front row seat in hell, but what he did to Amanda gets him box seats.
His constant threats of slap suits are the sole reason why he hasn't had countless documentaries exposing him.
I would love love a video about Drew Barrymore ...the woman is just an inspiration her life was so so messed up growing up with her parents.. but the woman atm standing on her feet and killin it and I couldn't be more proud
I love Drew! ❤️
when a luxury rehab center is less expensive than the American healthcare system for mental health lmaooooo
That’s legit a summary of the health care system.
@@temirab.5891 Of the US healthcare system. It's socialized and free everywhere else.
This is the internet, not America (US).
Damn
@@sersastark not everywhere... not here in Canada
we all need to give Amanda an apology, she’s obviously hasn’t been treated well her whole life by the public and just think what has happened to her behind the scenes when she was only a child she was being abused, but all the media did was make her seem like she was just crazy but it was actually the media and the public that made her go “crazy”
The way this has been the only thing on my mind for DAYS
Lol SAME!
Same. Thank you girl 💖🙏🏽
I’m proud she was able to post a video of her self, I imagine it’s so hard with the things she struggles with (I hate recording myself too) .. It just shows how hard she’s worked to get where she is today. Also it’s so weird that Ashley Banks had the ID picture..
i agree, strange that persianla had the ID. but Persianla was not followed by amanda, that was persiannyc , the original “secret account” that never asked for money
@@milatequila thank you I saw that in the end, I thought it was the same for bit. Great video!
Discovered this channel literally 3 days ago and now I’m fully committed .
SAME
Haha sammeeee
same!
I discovered in like December and samee
Same !
Such great videos queen, you truely are an inspiration and you’re doing the early 2000s queen the justice they deserve
...dissecting someone’s life for your own profit is what you find inspirational? Low bar, buddy
@@annieshaffer6939 Finally giving someone's full story that had been ravaged by the media, some true due diligence and bringing to light the injustices someone faced? You call that a low bar? I'd love to see what you've done with your own life Annie. I have a strong feeling you haven't done a lot...
Omg hi!
@@annieshaffer6939 you’re the first one who turned this into a personal thing… why not focused on the video and its purpose for raising awareness instead of focusing on profits??? So much other shit out there that is non-productive and targeting views just for profit… you should go there and be a Karen THERE.
Peace & Light ✌🏽
@@byroncortezmusic1327 I don't understand what awareness you think this is trying to bring....this is just someone telling another person's story using the same things we saw on TMZ and trash magazines...only they are profiting off of it now...
can i just say i love this set up esp with the softer camera focus, it feels like when i have tipsy late night rants/tangents in my friends bedrooms. i’ve had a pretty scary night and this has grounded me so well
Maybe the face tattoo has some kind of significance. In part 1, you mentioned that she was really self conscious about her cheeks making her look “fat,” so maybe the heart tattoo was symbolic in a way she could “love” a part of her body she always hated.
I love that. ❤ I think it's cute, I've always wanted a heart tattoo.
I thought it seemed like she's damaging her face because she doesn't love it, like she wants to show that she is on a nosedive and has no way to get back to the state she was before things went downhill.
That’s what I was thinking too!! Whatever it’s for I hope it brings her nothing but happiness!
Love your mindset
Hope she's well and gets her privacy when she wants
I thought it was to make her unappealing to acting agencies
I love that this was supposed to come out two days after the first part but it's been a week. We love a fashionably late queen.
she said it was edit problem it wasnt supposed to be in 2 days
@@stepanhybl9017 ik babes, and I'm not blaiming her. She consistently provides us with really top-notch content. So I'm more than willing to wait. Take care xx
That’s when you know she worked hard on this. We stan 💅
I KNOW the anticipation is real hahah not mad tho. You know something going to be good when they put more time in :)
@@stepanhybl9017 in one of the descriptions she said part 2 up in 2 days I remember reading that. Maybe she edited it, it’s not really a big deal
I love that you treat these celebs as what they are: human beings with feelings. The fact that we, as a society, feel it’s ok to tear these women down for our own entertainment is disgusting.
That’s incredible she got her degree after all she’s been through. She’s a hard worker and thank you Amanda for being such a joy to watch when I was a kid. I hope you find happiness and peace in your life! We are all just human beings and this you tuber did a great job showing your humanity.
She probably had fire grades too. I finished my Bachelors degree with honors while going through a mental breakdown. Turns out I was Bipolar, but my grades maintained during it all.
It said she was offering money to ppl to do her work … .. ? ? Didn’t it ?
My cousin graduated with her at FIDM and everyone (including me) was applauding her when she walked :) very proud of her
@@UNPOCOLOCO444 lucky…i flunked out during my mental breakdown 😂
@@hheinous it was rough and I was very close to dropping out, but I just kept pushing. Did you go back to school?
The fact that her roommates knew that she was paranoid about people recording her and it must have messed with her psyche to have that confirmed in a way.
That would make you so paranoid all over again but tenfold. It became a reality instead of just thoughts in her head. I hope her bf is the support she needs to keep getting better but I think it can be dangerous to put all of the eggs in one basket, especially when one has mental health struggles. I don’t know if she has any real friends other than her bf but if not I really hope she can meet some more healthy, kind, and loving ppl somehow. We all need more than just one person to count on bc god forbid if anything were to happen then you won’t be totally alone again. I had to/chose to learn that the hard way, just like pretty much everything in life. I’m finally branching out now at 30, better late than never! I’m praying for her and everyone reading this that love & healing flows to them and through them to others that need it.
That was truly disturbing. They took breaking girl code to an extreme w/ that.
Yet fans chase her around for photos, videotape her when they see her out, harass her etc and people do this with EVERY celebrity yet come online and act like they have empathy for them when they do the SAME THING. Para social relationships and celeb worship is one if the grossest things about our culture. Imagine being obbessed over someone who in all honesty is disgusted by you and wants too be no where near you but is forced to interact with you to earn money.
Man oh man. I'm mentally ill, too. I've said plenty of crazy shit on the internet. It's nice to see someone speaking about it with empathy instead of contempt. Thank you.
Part 2 😍 #FreeAmanda
Omg you watch her too!
Yasssss bby
Hi Sloan! We love you! #FreeAmanda
#freeAmanda
Wow 😳 two of my favorite UA-camrs.. I’m fan girling over here
You’re fucking killing me always premiering these right before I work.
SAME
same 😂 sitting in my works parking lot, watching this
OMG RIGHT
ive been taking bathroom breaks to watch lil bits 😭😭
Honestly, I'm getting ready to go to work at 7 and at 5:30 it said premiering in 2 hours 😭
This poor women is literally being traumatized everytime she is seen in public and the synergistic effect of her suffering from mental health problems is just disastrous, I feel like I’m witnessing a mentally ill person being tortured. I think everyone can relate to feeling self conscious and worrying about their appearance and the terrible feeling of seeing a friend or family post a photo that you hated online. Now she is experiencing this on such an incredibly cruel and unique level where the whole world is witnessing this. I don’t understand why it is tolerated for paparazzi to swarm you, surround you, physically assault you, demean and insult and having absolutely no respect for their wish to be left alone. Just a terribly sad situation and I’m not sure how she can possibly be treated and recover in such an environment.
Could you cover Lia Marie Johnson? They seemed eerily similar and I like the way you empathetically cover this stuff.
ooo sounds like an interesting idea
omg yes didn’t she get assaulted by her manager on live?
@@xrrgr yep :(
yes would love to hear this one
This !!!
not you teasing us nine hours early 😭😭😭
FR IMMA CRY
I know! I don’t appreciate it. Lol
I KNOW PLSSS
Literally
Right she is petty for that 😤
I feel so exhausted just by watching this. Poor Amanda had trouble for a lifetime and some more. I really hope she's happy and content now. She deserves it.
Can I say thank you for leaving text up long enough to read without having to rush and hit pause just to read it.
Hey, Mila 🙋♂️🙋♂️🙋♂️. I'm feeling sorry for Amanda Bynes and many of Child Stars. It is because they didn't have a normal childhood. That is very sad. I hope that Current Young Hollywood Actresses mustn't end up just like Lindsay Lohan and Amanda Bynes.
After this masterpiece, you are the oNLY content creator I would trust with Britney Spears' story. Hope to see it in the future!
For Harriet has an episode about Brittany that I think did her a lot of justice.
@@thelittletaosena5176 Agree. "For Harriet" all the way. Also, Kim's Britney video lasted a little over an hour, which made me love it more.
The Deep Dive channel has an amazing series on her as well.
I would love to see stuff on Britney that wasn’t covered already
Sloan has amazing commentary on this subject too
i’m so proud of her recovery, she rly seems like she’s doing better!! i hope she continues to get the help she needs & can get out from the conservatorship. thank u for such a wellmade & respectful vid!!
It just dawned on me how impressive it is to recall an hours worth of details and tell these stories so precisely without being a voiceover
I’m pretty sure she has a script though
When a woman is considered unable to take care of herself, why are all her rights given to her family? It seems like someone unbiased should be hired to take such a roll. I would never trust my family with my life and assets....the way Amanda and Britneys family had all the power, and yet left them with nothing while they struggled, it seriously scares me!
In my country you can be sectioned against your will for a couple days then your doctor's have to go to court and get a judge to agree. If you are so severely ill that you cannot consent or make decisions you are made a ward of court, you have your own independent legal representation looking after your interests.
I had the same opinion until I watched the movie "I care a lot"
And I wouldn't ever trust a random to look after me either
But you would trust a stranger hell I would not trust a damn stranger fuck nooooooooo the only family member I will trust is my mom and if you can’t trust a family member than u should not trust a stranger but that’s me
What do you think is a better thing to do then with an unstable adult? Genuinely asking
I really appreciate the empathy you show her in both videos!! She really does deserve happiness and to know she IS beautiful.
gosh I love this channel
Bonjour sis.
a queen knows a queen !!!!!!!!
The way people exacerbate her body dysmorphia is so upsetting to me. I deal with it too and I don't let anyone take pictures of me at all, and when I do it's inevitable that I will have a breakdown looking at them... it's the main reason I don't let people take photos. I literally set a goal to update my FB profile photo once a year because I want to keep it current, but I hate taking photos of myself...
Right I couldn't imagine seeing pictures of me on the front news everyday that I didn't like 🥺 poor girl
It took me a while figure out I had body dysmorphia. I have never liked taking pictures, looking in the mirror or talking about my body. I can't imagine dealing with this as a public figure.
I hate when people tale pics of myself. I like ONLY the pics I take of myself. I always say people dont know how to take pictures of me... dunno i fund myself ugly and strange when someone takes a photo of me
@@c4lt727 Yeah same! I'm able to take pictures where I genuinely look good but somehow every single picture another person has taken of me ever makes me look like a frumpy mess.
I struggle with body dysmorphia too and this just proves how it’s not recognised enough with the way people speak about it! I’m actually the opposite, I’m obsessed with taking photos of myself, but I edit so much and edit myself to how I want to look, but I cannot have people take pictures of me I just freeze up and panic because the thought of them having an unedited picture of me literally scares me!
I was coming off of drugs while watching. And I'm so glad I stumbled upon this. I feel for someone I didn't care existed a couple hours ago.
That's the same reason I stumbled here lmao
“Imagine all your pictures are the ones your mom takes *with* flash” HAH
I legit told my Mum the only photos she can post of me if I go missing or die are ones I have on my fb. There is no way I want her sharing pics that she thinks are cute!
Mila, it’s sooooo cool that you make videos about old drama that most of us forgot about, and why you haven’t come on UA-cam before is a mystery to me, ‘cause you are literary my favorite youtuber rn. This is The UA-cam channel I didn’t know needed. Keep it going queen
Mila is very mysterious! Lol
I always watched her show as a kid and even had a small crush on her back then. To see the suffering she’s been through is so heart-wrenching, I can only imagine how it felt to live it. If the girl were never to come back to public life, I think I would be perfectly fine with it, as long as she were living the life that makes her happy.
those two candid videos of her make her seem like shes doing better. She gets one face tattoo which was probably a huge step in self-love and everyone scream she is disturbing....umm okay Post Malone has a face full of tattoos but he gets called goofy and odd but not distrubing
I am verbally liking your comment because I’m immature and it’s at 69 likes. Can’t ruin the luck number 🙃😂
Face tats only really became mainstream in the past 3 years and we KNOW the world treats men and women different and hold them to ENTIRELY separate standards so no suprise
I think the tattoos are part of the whole “magazines and paps are using old photos of me” thing that was talked about in part 1. A way to take control and force the mags to use newer photos (in an attempt to make them look more accurate in Amanda’s eyes).
The whole aesthetic of your video is so early 2000's. I love the old camera quality. I am so living for this channel.
Dude it’s a great channel and great vid, you don’t have to call it 2000’s just because it has flowers and a sweater lol, it’s very universal themes, for any time period!!
You did an amazing job on this! I stopped watching Wendy Williams yrs ago when she slammed Amanda. I was so disgusted by what she was saying about her.
I have body dysmorphia and I don’t know what I would do if someone was taking pictures of me and photoshopping them to resemble the monster I see in my head. I would not be able to handle it. People are sick.
I feel like a lot of people don't realize that prolonged drug use can cause mental health issues that a long lasting if not permanent. Adderall is basically clean and legal meth and abuse of that drug causes paranoia, delusions, and breaks from reality. It happens. She clearly suffered abuse in the industry, as most beautiful young women do. Compound that with the trappings of fame and the body dismorphia and there is the perfect storm for the behavior she displayed. It also seemed like she was completely alone throughout most of this. It's all just so damn sad. I wish her only the best.
I agree with this. Plus you really see how lonely big celebrities are. Like Amanda had no one and it is heart breaking.
Omg I feel the exact same way as u.
I agree. My ex has some long term mental health issues due to abusing drugs and it's heartbreaking.
I do have to partially disagree about Adderall being basically clean meth, though. Methamphetamine is chemically related to amphetamine but methamphetamine is much stronger and has more harmful side effects. Abusing amphetamines is still seriously dangerous like you said, though.
Absolutely agreed.
Adderall is a controlled medication and is helpful for ADHD, saying that is basically legal meth creates an stigma and is harmful for the creation of conscience of mental health
Thank you for making these videos! I'm about 5 years younger than Amanda, and I was a HUGE fan growing up, of every single thing she did (still am). It was distressing and heartbreaking to watch her struggles over the years and especially how people and the media treated her. I just wanted to give her a hug. Amanda is a nuanced, complex and beautiful human being. It's refreshing to see her story told by an "outsider" in such a compassionate way. I will forever love Amanda Bynes!
I think her focus on ugly this, that, etc., stems from never being casted in pretty girl/love interest roles when she was acting, compounded with being told her face was too round for those roles and that she was beautiful when she was in the throws of mono (which led to her ED). All Amanda wanted was to be shown via projects that she could be the pretty girl, she could do that role, and her thing for fashion plays into that: her mental faculties latched on to her deep deep need to be seen as pretty/sexy/gorgeous as Lindsay Lohan and Megan Fox and her fellow contemporaries.
I dont get it because I literally remember being like 10 watching sydney white and thinking about how pretty she was and hoping id look like her and was cool like her when i was in college like that.
@Karl M Hilary didn't have stage parents and Lauren Conrad was already HS aged when she found her fame. She already had her confidence and already knew what she wanted. It's why she's the most successful by leaps and bounds with Whitney Port and Cavallari trailing behind her.
@@lizzie0canada9roxya the fact is she was never told during her formative years that she was and even IF she was told, she was seeing her peers being called sexy and sultry by the media. She wanted to be seen and treated as equal to them but she never was. Society definitely failed her.
yea, that's what I'm seeing too, but what makes me super sad was (in the last video mainly) that she hated seeing herself in She's the Man. That movie (while yes corny at times) was really positive to me in high school, when I was having body image issues because I thought I was too athletic and muscular etc for a girl (my parents pushed me thru competitive swimming for most of my youth).
@@littlegreenclementine it was because of her body dysmorphia.
This poor baby. I feel bad for Amanda. But can I say as a fellow content creator, I’m living for the green eyes, pink bathrobe, filming in bed eleganza.
👍👍
Struggling with addiction and mental health issues is hard enough, speaking from experience, but to have the whole world watching you and judging you and magnifying the things about you that you already hate about yourself has got to be so crippling. I truly wish nothing but a lot of love and healing for her.
I will never forget meeting Amanda Bynes at the launch of her fashion line in 2007. She was the sweetest person ever and took the time to talk with all of her fans. All love to Amanda!
y’all I have a presentation and I’m hiding in the bathroom- AND SJSJKSSK QUEEN IS BACK AND FEEDING US MOREE.
GOOD LUCK! I believe in you ✌️
@@lunarialoonatic thank u sm
Hope all went well
@@kyrabeth4470 it was okay! I was kinda shaking....... ty for asking
@@FM-yy5cr what presentation was it?
I like the way the Britney doc. reminded everyone how famous (YOUNG) girls were treated 15yrs ago & it made me think of Amanda too. Thanks for your work Mila, very well researched!
I really hope she sees this, this is by far the most respectful video I’ve ever seen on Amanda, I really hope she’s doing okay, she was always my hero when I was younger
You manage to balance sharing all the details we came here for while still being so supportive of Amanda. 10/10 storytelling.
I feel so bad for her... Amanda, if you're reading this just please take good care of yourself and know that NOW, people DO have your back, and we DO genuinely hope you get better. You deserve happiness and safety.
hey be careful not to burnout, you're a new channel with a big growing but you have to be care not to put too much pressure on yourself to upload every 3 days or every week bc eventually you will burnout. take care of yourself first!
Literally the title of that article says she’s “No Longer” pregnant, which either means she either had the baby and lost custody, lost the pregnancy or had it terminated. Either way, the idea that people would jump to “she lied” is really crappy.
Right that just makes me angry.
with the new release of “quiet on set” i’ve seen a new surge of people calling her new look disturbing :( i’ve seen so many videos of people comparing her to how she looked as a child and saying “EVERYONE FAILED HER” and everyone did fail her BUT i hate the insinuation that she doesn’t look okay anymore. people need to stop being so fucking hard on traumatized female celebs
Fr even though people LOVE to act like they are trying to help because they “care”, but they only put these women in little boxes and project their personal issues onto real celebrities personal issues. “They are ruined!!! They are destroyed :(“ - and go on to post emo photos of those celebrities.
People seriously lack self-awareness and empathy for random people and for people they THINK they know.
Ngl rn I’m having that realization with Kim Kardashian and how she is judged by everyone for every little thing she does and I can’t help, but feel sorry because I once took part in that. (Of course she capitalizes on herself and her family, but she still a human being that literally has done nothing objectively and seriously wrong at least to my knowledge. I can literally can predict that one day everyone will find out that she was playing this character and she is actually just a human with thoughts a feelings like what happened to Paris Hilton.)
I agree 100% and people seem to act so certain they know exactly what happened to her or that every single thing she does is a trauma response 😡
She was so pretty it’s just so sad to see
My little young 16 y.o cousin confided in e saying she sometimes hears voices but very faint, i told her to tell her mom. My aunt is a European old school alcoholic and said shes probably tying to get attention. That same year she started taking M D M A and that exacerbated the condition and and made the voices louder, yet she didnt want to stop M D M A because it was the only thing that made her happy. She hung herself in the park of her high school. I was heart broken. I found her TUMBLR account and found she conjured up a mermaid that has been telling her to die and cross over to her into the deep sea because there its QUIET with out voices. My heart still hurst for her. And that was 10 years ago. I wish i did more.
Wow..my heart aches for your cousin and you.. and her family as well. Though it's true children like attention if your child tells you she hears voices what's the harm in having her checked out. At the very worst you lose a couple of dollars to a doctor. Money well spent to know for sure in my opinion. Not your fault auntie.. you listened and gave good advice.. "tell your mom". Give yourself a break
@@yukijames1321 Thank you for your kind words.
@@terireed3740 Thank you for your kind words. There was still stigma 10 years ago in conjunction with slavic parents it seemed like nonsense at the time. Yet i see hope for the future now that mental illness is taken more seriously today. And videos like these with the right commentator like Mila, is also helpful in my opinion.
I’m so sorry, for you and your dear cousin. That must be very a traumatic experience and I hope you have someone close you can talk to. If your family isn’t there for you please know there are so many other outlets for help and people who care. Your cousin was suffering and shouldn’t have been brushed off by her mother, please don’t carry this on your shoulders, it’s really hard to know how to properly help a loved one who is mentally struggling so much. Love and light your way 🦋
MDMA is hell.
You may be thinking its handsome while you’re going up, because it give the feeling of being in love and being loved at a very high level, but you will have to go down, and it’s hell on earth, you’re not able to feel anything good, you feel hate for yourself and hate from others, you wanna die. If you’re fragile don’t take these drugs, even an healthy person can go into depression if they takes it regularly.
Amanda was truly one of my idols growing up and I just want to see her happy and loving herself no matter what she chooses to do with her life. She is not a "f*ck-up" or "damaged" and I am so tired of hearing that kind of language used against people who suffer from mental health issues and/or addiction. She has always been beautiful and still is and I hope that one day she can think so too. The tabloids and paparazzi absolutely disgust me for taking advantage of her while struggling and I wish people would just leave her alone so she can heal and be happy. XOXO to Amanda, you kind soul. (BTW good job with this video series Mila!)
I love how positive and understanding you are!! I can’t imagine going thru any of this in front of people.
Legit never watched drama channels really before, but this is just such quality content I can't help but watch. seriously keep up the good work, this is coming from a gaming nerd that watches primarily gaming and commentary content. Love what your doing
Well said
Pleaseeee do a Mary Kate and Ashley one now that all this Bob Saget stuff is coming to light
wait what??? what did he do????
@@Digmer so many things. if you look up the video on slo4n’s channel it’s all about it
@@algaegreen8 i just did and it seems he had to edited out that part from the olsen twins video for legal reasons, so i still dont know what he did! something about killing a girl?
OMG PLS DO ONE
@@Digmer ua-cam.com/video/ezM95_Y9ABk/v-deo.html
Are we.. are we worthy of a part 3?
Fun fact I had an English teacher in community College that was Amanda Bynes' cousin, he even had the same last name and would say not the nicest things about her which made me think she never had much family support from anyone, not just parents :(
I’d actually love if you did a video on Mary Kate and Ashley because I HATE they way people online talk about them. Calling them ‘scary’ and so on like they’ve clearly had an awful childhood
I wonder whether she had an early miscarriage and that’s why she deleted the pregnancy announcement. And people are saying she faked it :(
seems very plausible. not only is miscarrying very common but on top of that the persiandoll twitter (or it was a blind item) mentioned the abuse ruined her chances at having the family she always wanted. now that may or may not be true but it does seem likely 😢
As someone who has ADHD and has been taking medication for it for several years, I'd like to add a few things:
Firstly, taking ADHD meds with a mood disorder can dramatically worsen your symptoms. This isn't true for all of them and is also highly individual - Ritalin (methylphenidate) is infamous for causing depressive episodes whereas Vyvanse (lisdexamphetamine) generally does not. Like Vyvanse, Adderall is a form of amphetamine, and while I haven't taken it myself it seems like it causes euphoric feelings rather than depressive. It *is* sometimes used to treat bipolar disorder but it's very much not recommended as it can worsen manic episodes.
Secondly, ADHD meds can induce psychosis. Your brain works so fast because so many neurotransmitters are active and it can cause hallucinations/ lucid dreams etc even if you DO need the pills. If I take my meds at odd hours or accidentally mix them with energy drinks/ alcohol I get quite bizarre side effects, and I'm someone who has to take pills to activate those transmitters. My friends who take them recreationally at times have also reported strange dreams and feeling like they're in a very weird state of mind. (Caveat: this has been when taking them at night, mixing them with other substances, or taking too high of a dose.)
Thirdly, they can cause paranoia. This is a part of psychosis (hallucinations, delusions, paranoia) but I'm giving it its own point because I want to emphasize that large doses of ADHD medication when you're already in the public eye would very likely cause someone to feel extremely paranoid.
Fourthly, you can get very dependent on Adderall!!! You build up tolerance fast and will require more and more of it to get the same effects. This isn't necessarily unsafe in itself, but it can make quitting Very difficult. On days that I have skipped my Vyvanse I get severe headaches and feel extremely tired TT Methylphenidates like Ritalin can be taken when you need them since they're short-term, which makes skipping or irregular hours more okay, but amphetamines like Adderall or Vyvanse really require a schedule for when you take them because they stay in your body way longer. So beyond wanting to stay on meds to e.g. lose weight there's a clear disincentive to quit the pills, even if you absolutely can and most people handle it quite well.
To lose substantial amounts of weight on Adderall you also need to be taking quite large doses of it. I haven't lost anything on Vyvanse and I'm on 90mg a day - for reference, the recommended daily max dose is 60mg for Adderall and 70mg for Vyvanse. Of course this depends on the person, but she must have been taking quite a bit...
I want to make it very clear that I am not trying to blame everything on pills or undermine the role that the media played in this. ADHD medication can be taken safely and without issue just like any other type of medical treatment. I'm very grateful to be taking mine. However, it does absolutely affect your brain - that's the whole point -, and shouldn't be taken so lightly. Adderall is NOT just a weight loss pill that makes you focus. It's a serious medication for a serious medical condition that's very rarely seen as such, neither by the media nor the GP. (As a sidenote, the attempts at destigmatising ADHD I've been seeing lately really aren't helping at all - making it into this generic condition with traits so vague that 95% of the population would fit the description just means it isn't taken seriously. It'd take too long to get into but it causes a Lot of problems for me, please don't throw it around so much.)
TLDR: Adderall will seriously fuck up your brain and I think we should keep this in mind when discussing how Amanda Bynes ended up in the situation that she's in.
Wow, that's a really useful comment. Thanks for taking the time to write this.
i agree with everything you said, and i appreciate you writing something so informative and eloquent. i do however believe that her cannabis use also played a part in the development of her psychosis.
as far as i know, frequent cannabis use can accelerate the development of mixed/manic episodes including rapid cycling in people with underlying/undiagnosed/untreated bipolar disorder, as well as psychosis in those predisposed to it, especially in those whose brains are still developing (before age 25). the short-term effects of cannabis can feel very helpful for managing psychotic and bipolar symptoms so it is very understandable why cannabis and these illnesses seem to come together so often.
i think the adderall's encouragement of sleep deprivation and overstimulation of dopamine receptors and the nervous system certainly worsened amanda's condition, and combined with cannabis use, and the external factors in her life, it unfortunately created a 'perfect storm' for a breakdown.
i wish you and her all the best :)
@@JulietLong oh yes, i kind of forgot about that! thank you for pointing it out. i always feel a bit uneasy about speculating too wildly about someone’s brain and addictions, but i also dont want this to go unsaid. thank you for bringing up the point about cannabis as well . you’re probably right that that could be more responsible for psychosis.
thanks again and i hope you’re having a nice day!!
@@maxens_is_here thank you for saying that :^) i dont want to speculate too wildly about someone’s mental state and their drug abuse, but i never see anyone bring up the actual side effects of adderall (or other ADHD medication) beyond weight loss, not even in this quite in-depth series, and felt that it was important to point out. glad it could be of help to you.
This right here
Ok I feel like it’s unfair when Tik Tokers compare her conservatorship to Britney’s, Britney hasn’t shown any sign of being a danger to herself and it’s clear the media had a huge role in assassinating her character. Amanda showed actual dangerous life threatening behavior and had a drug addiction & body dysmorphia that was eating away at her life savings. I think she rlly needed a conservatorship, it’s honestly not the same as Britney
Agreed honestly after the whole fire thing I was like “yeah she needs major help”
i just dont agree with conservatorships in general, they go against human rights
@@ninamarysan1 it’s a really difficult and complex subject but as someone who spent a year in residential treatment against my will, the fact that people have the right to forcibly stop someone who may be harming themselves can absolutely save lives. My close friend recently had her medical rights taken away because she’s so deep into anorexia that her heart has shut down twice now. Standards for conservatorship and the like should definitely be stricter but sometimes it is really all you can do.
Exactly. Brittany had a few outburst due to paparazzi always stalking her no doubt she might of had trauma but its just not the same.
Oh yeah I completely agree. With Britney the farthest thing she did was the umbrella thing but honestly she was pretty understandably provoked but that one incident was isolated.
I know that Amanda was extremely sick mentally but she was in public countless numbers of times with the wigs or disheveled clothes (and that's not affecting anyone else but she deserves better than that, she was mentally ill she cannot control it most likely), then the incidents which did affect people like locking herself in different places, and then finally starting the fire unprovoked, like she ruined that person's driveway for no reason and her poor dog got hurt.
The case for Amanda is not the same as the case for Britney at all- she didn't do half the things Amanda did and Britney was really only once notably shown doing something criminal
The tmz voice clip reminds me of myself during my worst moments. Thats so cruel to record that, she seems like shes being taken advantage of by almost everyone in her life on and off
Watching Amanda’s videos defending herself broke my heart. She’s a normal person who’s gone through HELL. I hope she continues to be happy and healthy.
mila tequila content is #1
If Amanda watches this, I hope she knows we love her and I am fully sending her joy and laughter and happiness. I can't imagine constantly being under the eye of fame. DAMN!
I've been a mess in the past, some days I still feel a mess. Literally can't wrap my head around someone digging into me in my vulnerable state - especially as much as her personal human experience. Not normal for people to live under such pressure.
Amanda, you are human. I support you on your journey. We are all here for each other.
so well done mila. I have bipolar disorder and such a big part of it is the shame and humiliation you feel after having a really intense manic episode. you were respectful, empathetic, accurate and informative all at once. I didn’t know much about amanda’s story but hearing it brings up painful familiarity with my own mental health battles and there’s no way I would have figured out all of this without your video. thank you
I’m excited
Why'd the security guard have no reaction to her touching him lmaoo
I rewound that twice Hahahah. He was so unreactive I was LMAO😳😂
literally thought he was a mannequin???😭
I’m literally hiding in my work closet w chips and a soda I’m so ready
Same 😂 are you a mom too ;)
Same 😂
You handle these topics so well! As someone who consumed 2000s celebrity content as a kid but also wants to examine it as an adult your channel really gets me thinking.
I wish Amanda all the health and happiness in the world. These videos broke my heart, I can’t fathom how emotionally taxing it would be to go through all of this. I’m almost in tears after watching this, it somewhat reminds me of a close family member who had a severe mental decline. She’s such a beautiful, talented woman that really inspired me from a young age, and I truly just wish her the best. I hope she knows that we know that the tabloids are toxic garbage, and people are really rooting for her ❤️
Mila, you are an icon for pumping out this A+ scholarly, journalistic content. I’ve enjoyed watching every video so far. I’m excited to watch!!!!!!
I went through a lot of this with my ex-girlfriend, and man is our mental health system broken. A lot of this mirrors her experience and me running back and forth getting her treatment. It’s amazing that someone with all the money in the world still can’t get proper treatment.
Thanks for being so entertaining, without the expenses of tearing people down! Your comedic timing is comforting and compassionate.
I'm excited for the Disney Channel video! I don't think the quality is declining, it's just what's made now isn't for us. It's for children like 6-12 and a lot of people say it isn't as good as "old Disney" but that's because it doesn't give us that sense of nostalgia. It doesn't give us the same feelings as when we were kids because we aren't kids. I've seen just small pieces of newer shows and honestly shows like Hannah Montana and WOWP had sceneries and scripts that were just as weird.
The sad part of all this is it highlights how difficult it is to get someone who is clearly struggling with mental illness proper treatment for their illness. It's very difficult to get a person treatment if they are unwilling (unless they are threatening to hurt themselves or other people).
I can't imagine being a public figure and dealing with mental illness. It would be impossible to stay healthy....
I remember this was the first time I saw a celebrity have a “meltdown” where I was old enough to understand that they weren’t just “crazy.” When I first heard about all of this years ago, I remember feeling so saddened. With Britney and Lindsay, I was only 9 or 10 when most of their stuff was publicized. I didn’t understand, and I wrote them off as being insane, though I was still a fan of both.
These videos are super important, because so many people still have that mindset that these women are just “crazy crack addicts.” For the most part, what we see is a sudden spike in illegal activity and mental instability, but what your videos show is that it was cultivated over years of being ridiculed, pitted against other women, compared, stalked, shamed, and defined. I also want to say that much older men dating them doesn’t help either! Her WILAY costar was 25 and she was 16. Her Amanda Show costar was 18 and she was 14. Very creepy!
I’m a fan of Lindsay, Britney, and Amanda, and I hope they get all the love and happiness in the world ❤️
Damn I kinda forgot all about her honestly. It's sad that she's been through so much. I don't even like being seen by people at the grocery store so I couldn't imagine how she feels in the public eye so much. This was a great two part video and the compassion you showed was really nice.
I’m 23 and loveeeee going back to that era and your videos are so in depth that I feel like I’m watching a Netflix documentary. These are so good girl keep it up ❤️
I feel so mixed on her conservator case. It seems like she does do better when she’s under her parent’s care, but at the same time I think they are too strict with her and she deserves more freedom. I also feel like conservatorships when they come to celebrities are just fishy in the first place - because financially whoever is in control, has so much to gain. Like honestly I really don’t know what the right answer is. Hopefully she is doing better though and getting the best treatment possible. Also I’m so proud of her for graduating from college! That’s amazing, especially considering everything she has been through. ❤️
I know that she might be a little out of your preferred era but I would absolutely love a full dive deep of Drew Barrymore‘s upbringing I heard she was a cocaine addict at 12 and flash David Letterman at like 15
she’s been through it
wtf??? this is so sad
whatt omg that's awful
Her flashing him is here on youtube i seen it. And yea she was drinking at 9
seconding!!!