What is Pure OCD?

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  • Pure OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) is an unfortunate state of mind, which a surprising number of us may suffer from, where certain deeply distressing, intrusive and shocking thoughts refuse to leave us alone. The suggested solution doesn't target the thoughts themselves, but rather their underlying cause: shame and self-contempt.
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    “Few mental afflictions are as humbling or as terrifying as what is known as ‘Pure’ OCD or, more colloquially, Intrusive Thoughts. In standard Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, a person is haunted by a worry that compels them to repeat an often counterproductive or fruitless action with manic intensity: handwashing, turning off gas pipes, checking their pulse and so on. But in ‘pure’ OCD, there is no outward, physical action; the problem unfolds - hence the name - purely in the mind, yet it is, if anything, an even more distressing condition.”
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КОМЕНТАРІ • 6 тис.

  • @DOGOO44
    @DOGOO44 4 роки тому +4150

    It's like a voice in your head that never shut's up. It's pure suffering. I never feel good

    • @darrenwilliams6536
      @darrenwilliams6536 4 роки тому +7

      I would like to help you. Please watch this video, my email is in the description - ua-cam.com/video/DNOsS8tmPWQ/v-deo.html - there is a part 2 and 3 with insights and techniques

    • @emilyc4724
      @emilyc4724 4 роки тому +15

      how’s it going now?

    • @DOGOO44
      @DOGOO44 4 роки тому +100

      @@emilyc4724 better

    • @emilyc4724
      @emilyc4724 4 роки тому +35

      44 maroc well that gives me some hope. hope you’re doing well and thanks for replying :)

    • @SkoolNerds
      @SkoolNerds 4 роки тому +28

      Guys do not discount adhd. The overlaps are massive and the treatment is effective

  • @christianporter6357
    @christianporter6357 5 років тому +6914

    Having pure OCD makes it so hard to distinguish reality from intrusive thoughts. Editing: Reality is the perception that I have of my personality in relation to other personalities. Thoughts are the mental framework that emanate from the personality. And how I chose to respond to certain thoughts in action determines the outcome of the goal that I achieve. So thoughts are not reality they are just the framework that we as humans use to understand what we are in relation to other personalities.

    • @lu8201
      @lu8201 5 років тому +123

      CBT & meditating might help. Best wishes from a fellow pure ocd stranger

    • @beesbrownies
      @beesbrownies 5 років тому +10

      ikr!

    • @αφροδίτηενσαρκωμένος
      @αφροδίτηενσαρκωμένος 5 років тому +44

      yeah I didn't know half of the way I saw things wasn't real ( not schizophrenia but believing that i had to do allll these mental things before i could go outside etc

    • @fishxutopia_
      @fishxutopia_ 5 років тому +3

      yes

    • @morbid_corner
      @morbid_corner 5 років тому +89

      YES!!! I struggle to distinguish which thoughts about myself and family members are intrusive and not.

  • @Penawashere86
    @Penawashere86 4 роки тому +8937

    I’m in tears, thank you for showing me I’m not a monster.

    • @richagoyal2530
      @richagoyal2530 4 роки тому +45

      How can u be a monster whenu are a patient nd thats not ur mistake plz dont think like that

    • @iudexitfreak3342
      @iudexitfreak3342 3 роки тому +38

      @PK Pena, I was feeling the same way two years ago, and I also felt just like you. But, if
      you search for medical help, and do these steps, by the time, you will get better. I tell you that from my own experience. I went through the breakdown and felt like there's no hope for me, but you have to CONSTANTLY TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, LIKE EXPLAINED IN THIS VIDEO, AND WITH THE MEDICAL TREATMENT, AND TIME PASSING BY, IT GETS BETTER. GOOD LUCK 🤞

    • @iudexitfreak3342
      @iudexitfreak3342 3 роки тому +13

      @@feelsokayman3959 absolutely.

    • @coolhammas
      @coolhammas 3 роки тому +28

      I'm so sorry you have to feel this way, I hope good things come for you.

    • @SureshBabu-bc1lr
      @SureshBabu-bc1lr 3 роки тому +14

      @@feelsokayman3959 Thank you so much man from my bottom of my heart.

  • @polinagonch
    @polinagonch 2 роки тому +624

    "pure OCD thoughts are not wishes. They are symptoms of radical self-distrust". I alredy knew that I have OCD, but this statement was a very helpful and somehow comforting thought.

    • @chickpeasasparagus8374
      @chickpeasasparagus8374 Рік тому +6

      I wanna give you the biggest hug❤️I needed to hear that, or read it…😅

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому +5

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

    • @Jazzys.Prime.Chilling.Time127
      @Jazzys.Prime.Chilling.Time127 8 місяців тому +1

      @@lazysnorlax3909I remember during my one of thoose hard ocd attacks i was so miserable than i beggim my friend to gave me slap on my face for rid of ocd attack and helps me but he was like that my rituals are sometimes very bad. My ocd get worst after i almost die when my former mobile blow up while charging.

    • @laurencampbell2699
      @laurencampbell2699 8 місяців тому

      Same

    • @giangle622
      @giangle622 2 місяці тому

      Ocd is not real you can create a lot of things in your mind and believe it is real but it is not real it is like the memories it is you think in your mind you can think whatever you like you are the creator of yourself your life you create your world you can let go everything even the angry and envy emotion you can control yourself wish you all the best

  • @cricketandkarma5129
    @cricketandkarma5129 5 років тому +3962

    One of the worst parts of this specific disorder is that it’s talked about so little that there’s no community for those suffering. There’s a sense of loneliness that isn’t there with many other mental health issues because we’re all terrified to open up about it. I know how it feels and I am so sorry that some of you do, too.

    • @lu8201
      @lu8201 5 років тому +104

      I agree. Iv had it since I was a kid and I'm only getting a handle on it now. Until this video I didn't now it's name. We are strong. I feel meditating, CBT & EFT can help.

    • @DOGOO44
      @DOGOO44 4 роки тому +42

      I had it since i was 9 years old But I didn't suffer from it that much when I was a child. But as I grew older. People around me started noticing. Wich really lead to me be being a little socially akward.(I mean I still have friends) And it affected my daily life. Like making me go to school late. I'm 15 years old and still suffer from it.

    • @Bksoufiane
      @Bksoufiane 4 роки тому +3

      @@lu8201 does CBT help

    • @heather9857
      @heather9857 4 роки тому +15

      I've found so much healing in my life from this. Words cannot express how horrible it is. I'm going to do everything I can to bring awareness and love to people. I have my Mental Health First Aid Certification and I'm going to get my CPSS. I need to get my website back up, but I recently started tweeting about it. I don't care what anyone thinks of me. When I hear the song ua-cam.com/video/Wizc2UC9s0A/v-deo.html I think of all of you, all the people who are suffering alone, how I suffered alone. The journey will be different for each person, but there truly is healing from OCD Harm/Pure OCD.

    • @arianaelena9644
      @arianaelena9644 4 роки тому +2

      @@lu8201 Exposure Response Prevention Therapy (ERP) Heard about this one as well. I recommend Rose Bretecher Guardian Article as well as this site: www.madeofmillions.com/ Really goes into the different branches of pure and treatment. It breaks my heart to hear that some people have been suffering since a young age. I had spikes I remember throughout childhood, but the first episode happened senior year of college. Stay strong friends :)

  • @oliverread1060
    @oliverread1060 4 роки тому +3447

    Dear OCD sufferers, all of you are highly intelligent people with very powerful minds. We are in such a corrupted world, we worry about being a certain person while the rest of the world goes on committing crimes without remorse. Our level of empathy is high, now it is time to reflect that empathy onto us, our own selves. OCD is a devil in disguise but with a shift of perspective, it is a blessing in disguise. We have complex brains, we cannot control our thoughts or urges, and sensations, not ever will we be able too. Let's change our reactions instead.

    • @GreasyBaconMan
      @GreasyBaconMan 3 роки тому +153

      Your words made me cry as I thought the same thing. Many people hurt and commit heinous crimes acting as if those things are inconsequential, while at the same time, I’m trying hard to have good thoughts and work at being kind as to not go crazy.

    • @junior3734
      @junior3734 3 роки тому +36

      yeah dude people are doing evil that piss me off

    • @CriS-jq6em
      @CriS-jq6em 3 роки тому +37

      Doing charity has improved my mental state

    • @tallic967
      @tallic967 3 роки тому +17

      This is so sweet, thank you so much

    • @ryankerwinpo4377
      @ryankerwinpo4377 3 роки тому +6

      Thank you for this

  • @Angie_bae
    @Angie_bae 4 роки тому +1101

    OCD makes you think of killing others, cheating on your loved one, make you think fortune cookies are trying to send you a spiritual message, etc. it’s a sickness. I’m suffering deeply

    • @keithm7004
      @keithm7004 3 роки тому +42

      I don't want to feel like this anymore

    • @christopherestrada2474
      @christopherestrada2474 3 роки тому +44

      I feel you in the fortune cookies. I have thought of the other two but quickly dismiss them because they’re that bad. Idk. They do linger around though. So it does suck. Hang in there.
      Just try to recognize such thoughts as part of a mental illness. Those thoughts don’t define who you are. Try meditation as wel :)

    • @taylormatthews6086
      @taylormatthews6086 3 роки тому +1

      @@keithm7004 meditate good energy bro

    • @balamurugan-ql3rk
      @balamurugan-ql3rk 3 роки тому +5

      deeply means that makes lots to me.........i am not only the person who suffer in this world......now i realiz there is different flavours of ocds

    • @golfwang8084
      @golfwang8084 3 роки тому +11

      Right like I actually won’t undress or shower when I think I’m being watched by people from the future, or my ancestors are watching me. I’ll reimagine myself getting sexually assaulted in my head over and over even though I’ve never actually had it happen. I won’t draw certain times of the day because I’ve gotten it in my head that my art is better way late at night even though it probably makes no difference. I take jinxing way too seriously and have cried over the fear of jinxing myself or my family over something. There’s more but those are the first things that popped in my head

  • @fatstan1878
    @fatstan1878 2 роки тому +1027

    To all those suffering from this horrendous affliction, I just want to let you know that Pure OCD literally destroyed me in my early 20s to a point where I was properly suicidal. It was constantly there at either a mild or moderate level but occasionally reared it’s ugly head in the most extreme ways imaginable. This went on for years and years in cycles. I genuinely believed I’d lose everything including my career, my relationship and all my friends and never achieve anything because of this nightmarish condition.
    Fast forward 12 years and I’m now married with children, have the job I always wanted and I’ve been essentially free from this shite for nearly 2 years now (although I feel it’s probably there subconsciously at an extremely low level, it doesn’t seem to bother me anymore). Basically I’m in control of it now, not the other way around, and life is good.
    I could massively relate with everything in this video, and if you can too, trust me when I say you’ll eventually overcome this and enjoy your life again.
    My only advice to you is to force yourself to stop doubting yourself and TRUST yourself that these thoughts mean nothing. There is a huge difference between THOUGHTS and DESIRES. The only reason you keep having them is because you believe they MUST mean something and that you are the worst person in the world. The reality couldn’t be further from the truth though. And actually, the only reason you’re having these thoughts is because they horrify you so much that you’re subconsciously constantly scanning your brain to “check” if you’re having them. The constant checking is what’s giving them power. Learn to accept the thoughts as just thoughts and nothing more and with a bit time and being kind to yourself, you’ll eventually let them go.
    If this helps even one person I’ll be happy :) Trust yourself, be kind to yourself, you’re a good person and you’ll recover from this hopefully sooner rather later!

    • @rjrht
      @rjrht 2 роки тому +34

      I really needed that, these thoughts have drove me sucidal in the past couple months it really does feel like a cycle getting one thought out of your head and then another popping back in. I really wish this condition was talked about more so more people can understand it and realise they have it instead of hating themselves our feeling disgusted

    • @Astro_Aladfar
      @Astro_Aladfar 2 роки тому +8

      This is such an important comment, being informative and straightforward. Thank you!

    • @jramos15
      @jramos15 2 роки тому +3

      Thank you.

    • @Brainutor
      @Brainutor 2 роки тому +5

      Thank you so much for this post😭😭😭 This is such a hell this Pure Ocd and more worrying not even all therapists know it exists. We just need to learn how to love ourselves. Warm new year greetings Xxx

    • @landonwhiteman2568
      @landonwhiteman2568 2 роки тому +5

      I’ve recently been diagnosed and I was just so scared that what happens in my mind would be real. Knowing that there is a happy ending grants me peace of mind that I can be happy too. Thank you for sharing your story.

  • @Someinternetuser
    @Someinternetuser 3 роки тому +2373

    I relate.
    1) Thinking obsessively about if I’m a pedophile and that I’m disgusting.
    2) Thinking obsessively about being self centered and rude.
    3) Thinking obsessively about how fat I am, wanting to check myself every second of every day.
    4) Thinking obsessively about how it doesn’t matter if I like helping people if I think about hurting others.

    • @mercury6284
      @mercury6284 3 роки тому +151

      I relate to all the things you listed. You are not alone and please don't ever feel weak. We are survivors!

    • @rosiespaniel9941
      @rosiespaniel9941 3 роки тому +74

      i totally relate!! please know these are just the ocd, theyre not you💖

    • @starrynight669
      @starrynight669 3 роки тому +153

      I feel exactly the same way you do. I was too horrified to ask for help. I thought if I told anyone what I was feeling I would've been sent to jail or cancelled forever. I honestly contemplated suicide because I didn't want to live with the horrible thoughts in my head anymore. Crying everyday and not being able to turn off the thoughts was so hard for me.

    • @rosiespaniel9941
      @rosiespaniel9941 3 роки тому +25

      @@starrynight669 i hope you are doing better now!!

    • @Someinternetuser
      @Someinternetuser 3 роки тому +21

      @@kriya412 Hey man, we got this. Life is hard, and we are still here! You should really see a therapist and see about getting diagnosed and treated. I'm a lesbian as well, and if you're questioning just know you aren't digusting or outcast! You're a unique human being who nobody else can match.

  • @Harrypotterxx2
    @Harrypotterxx2 6 років тому +5566

    This video made me cry because it felt like someone finally understood. Thank you so much for making this wonderful video!

    • @herp_derpingson
      @herp_derpingson 6 років тому +22

      Next time, try not to get stabbed.

    • @chloerines
      @chloerines 6 років тому +58

      the same exact feeling occurred as the video approached the end, like a blunt description of what my mind unveils daily

    • @BeiMutian
      @BeiMutian 6 років тому +16

      same here...

    • @mafaldaneves9051
      @mafaldaneves9051 6 років тому +16

      exactly the same!

    • @wakemeupinside83
      @wakemeupinside83 6 років тому +10

      Same

  • @astropuke
    @astropuke 3 роки тому +3643

    i’ve been bawling for the last half hour. i’ve never felt so seen, understood, and validated.
    thank you for sharing.

    • @1NTEN7ION
      @1NTEN7ION 3 роки тому +29

      💜 you are not alone

    • @Jackgritty28
      @Jackgritty28 3 роки тому +15

      Ocd, obsessive behaviour, not accepted by society, how the mind operates, intrusive thoughts, self-esteem issues, traumatic childhood, the individual will suffer in daily life, haunted by feelings of self-loathing, distrust of others, afflicted by ocd🆘🚩✅

    • @toreyarnold
      @toreyarnold 3 роки тому +4

      hug

    • @moshelevin603
      @moshelevin603 3 роки тому +7

      You are alone
      Edit: oh I'm sorry I was probably really mad or sad when I made this. But I still hold by the fact that lots of people deal with stuff all all the time alone, and they have to traverse and learn to become a normal functioning human all by themselves, alone. Happens a lot more often thanyou think. "You are not alone" oh yeah? Well then why don't you do something about it instead of pouring out useless sappy quotes

    • @astropuke
      @astropuke 3 роки тому +12

      @@moshelevin603 i hope you get the love, support, and attention you so desperately need, kiddo. 🖤

  • @GaboElGato
    @GaboElGato 2 роки тому +435

    Before I knew about pure OCD, I was certain that I was truly evil. I was afraid to leave my house, to interact with anyone, even my closest friends and family. I feared that I would become a disgusting monster. A rapist, a murderer, or a p*do. I honestly thought that suicide was the best option, that it would save my family the shame of being associated with me while also stopping the horrible thoughts that plagued me.
    When I finally told my therapist about these thoughts, she seemed disgusted. She asked me if I had ever hurt someone, if I wanted to. Her words legitimized my fears. I never went back because I thought she could never look at me the same again, and maybe she couldn't.
    I considered killing myself every day. I didn't know what was wrong with me, and I thought that maybe I was just crazy.
    When I found this video a few years ago, the relief I felt was enormous. I cried for hours. Knowing that I wasn't alone, that I wasn't some horrid monster that deserved to die. I can honestly say that this video saved my life. I finally had a name for what I was experiencing.

    • @MadiRoss91
      @MadiRoss91 2 роки тому +53

      This video too saved my sanity. As someone who lives with Pure OCD myself and wants to devote my life to understanding and healing the mind I would love to share these discoveries with you in the dearest hopes that they will help in your healing:
      1. You are not your thoughts
      2. Unhealed trauma often manifests as unwanted thoughts
      3. Lack of a strong sense of self can foster an environment where intrusive thoughts thrive
      4. Intrusive thoughts feed off of lack of self-love and lack of confidence
      5. Finding yourself through fulfilling your life’s passions is the remedy
      You are not alone. Numerous loving people suffer from this condition. Pure OCD is like a possession. The more we empower ourselves the less power these monsters in our heads will have to the point where they have no more power over us. I feel it is not unlike the corrupt people in power in the world and their relationship with the masses. The more we own our own power the less power they have over us, they only feed off the power we give away and then manipulate us to make us think we are misusing power when it is they.
      You are strong, inspiring, loving and lovable. Nourish your spirit through doing what you love so toxic thoughts and people can not feed off of you. Boundaries will protect your energy. Take care dear friend.

    • @claudias.8837
      @claudias.8837 2 роки тому +7

      @coolgabe and @MiddleEarthMadi thank you so much for your honesty and helpful words 😭🙏💔❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @woundedidiot429
      @woundedidiot429 2 роки тому

      Fuck bro fcukk same, same broeht, were in this together

    • @adamtrafford6544
      @adamtrafford6544 2 роки тому +11

      So happy to hear, same experience for me. I almost laughed with relief watching the video a year or two ago. Had tried a psychologist and explored the notion of intrusive thoughts with them but was nowhere near being able to verbalise any of the thoughts to him. This video is amazing and has done wonders for me.

    • @treahugger5939
      @treahugger5939 2 роки тому +15

      You’re not alone. Just wanted to chime in and say your therapist was bogus for judging you, but it seems like you now know that and that your compulsive thoughts don’t bear meaning to your worth

  • @lukieway
    @lukieway 4 роки тому +3605

    wow shit, i'm actually crying. this is real? i'm not a terrible person? what is life? thank you sm for making this.

    • @cultzgor.e1757
      @cultzgor.e1757 4 роки тому +7

      Same :(

    • @thebrooklynbakehouse
      @thebrooklynbakehouse 4 роки тому +103

      my goodness you're not a terrible person! It's a horrible disease but you are def not alone!!

    • @tomd1434
      @tomd1434 4 роки тому +39

      I’ve had some mental health issues. I grew up in the 90’s. You’re lucky to be able to see videos like this and communicate with others on this kind of platform. You realize at least you’re not alone. Would have helped me a lot, but glad it helped you. Peace

    • @chips.3927
      @chips.3927 4 роки тому +12

      I have this and also i have a speech disorder, it's hard for me to think, actually i never been so sad or felt so down thinking that I'm the worst person in this earth, It's just i keep on bothered with intrustive thoughts, but i *Do not do any physical contact* , but i do kept on repeating or kept on saying the same sentences that i just wrote over and over again until I'm sastified, OCD and speech disorder, a perfect disorder partners.

    • @luizalbuquerque2846
      @luizalbuquerque2846 4 роки тому +1

      That’s exactally the feeling!

  • @tingoelgringo
    @tingoelgringo 6 років тому +838

    Started bawling at "they believe they don't deserve to exist"
    spot on. I wouldn't wish pure o on anyone. it has absolutely ruined my life.

    • @ElizabethGonzalez-jt7ns
      @ElizabethGonzalez-jt7ns 6 років тому +12

      Jordan King ... same here. I joined the ocd group on Facebook. It’s pretty cool.

    • @heather9857
      @heather9857 4 роки тому +4

      BIGGEST HUGS, I did as well

    • @cric-crack9699
      @cric-crack9699 4 роки тому +1

      Me too

    • @kristiant96
      @kristiant96 4 роки тому +11

      Ocd made me paranoid of everything sometimes I am paranoid from my mother which is the only person that helps me.

    • @stevies-w6122
      @stevies-w6122 4 роки тому +1

      Me too

  • @Zavodd
    @Zavodd 5 років тому +522

    The best way to overcome pure OCD, is to stop fighting the thoughts. Make yourself realise, that they are not a part of you, but purely symptoms of a mental illness. I did this, and as soon as I came to peace with the thoughts being there, they faded away with time.

    • @acool318
      @acool318 3 роки тому +13

      Something to look forward to

    • @issad8396
      @issad8396 3 роки тому +17

      I recently found out about pure ocd and been having anxiety attacks but im ready for the recovery journey!! :)

    • @Zavodd
      @Zavodd 3 роки тому +23

      @@issad8396 You got this. As I said, don't fight them, don't do any compulsions. It will be tough, but I promise, once your brain realizes how absurd it is, it will go away.

    • @luciferis
      @luciferis 3 роки тому +24

      the problem is i just cant acknowledge the fact that theyre part of a mental illness. it feels so real, and it just keeps getting worse

    • @sullybutler1775
      @sullybutler1775 3 роки тому +4

      But it’s harder than you think it is

  • @maidenfan724
    @maidenfan724 3 роки тому +376

    I needed this. Just the acknowledgement that I'm not completely broken and hopelessly flawed does so much. I've never seen someone describe what occurs in my head so well before. I never knew there were so many others experiencing the same thing. I'm glad I'm not alone.

    • @jackson4393
      @jackson4393 3 роки тому +18

      Never alone. We must face these demons in our heads telling us lies together

    • @catjamcultist
      @catjamcultist 2 роки тому

      You're not alone man.

    • @falalala83
      @falalala83 2 роки тому

      Agreed. I think this is the first resource I’ve ever seen that goes over this.

    • @brandonsrelax6311
      @brandonsrelax6311 2 роки тому

      Same here 💯

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @sullengirl1698
    @sullengirl1698 3 роки тому +3564

    Oh my god, this is it. All throughout middle school and early high school, I was tortured by intrusive thoughts that I was going to kill myself and that I wanted to commit suicide. Of course I didn't actually want to, but for some reason my brain was constantly thinking about it, and seeing a knife and imagining stabbing myself or something would trigger a huge panic attack. I thought something was deeply wrong with me, and it got to the point where I was so miserable, I started to lose all hope. I don't know if this is possible, but after about 3 years of this my brain suddenly kind of snapped out of it. I still get stuck with intrusive thoughts but it's not 24/7, for some reason it's gotten a lot better. I don't know if anyone is reading this, but I am in college and am pretty happy now, and I thought I never would be. Getting better is possible. It may not 100% go away, but you can be happy and live a great life.
    Edit: To the people just saying I’m an edgy teenager or making assumptions about me, shut the fuck up. I have gone through hell and back surviving domestic violence and sexual abuse and grappling with the aftermath of that. Many of my mental struggles connect to the horrors I’ve survived. You don’t know my entire life story, and I feel sad that you feel the need to minimize strangers on the internet. But thank you to everyone else who is supportive and I’m glad many of us are finding comfort in this video and learning we are not alone.

    • @hen44444lovely
      @hen44444lovely 3 роки тому +72

      immm soo happy your good now, its good to hear it can just go away like that.

    • @NicHklas9Nevermind
      @NicHklas9Nevermind 3 роки тому +107

      This is so similar to my experience with Pure OCD. As a child from about 9 tI was so miserable worrying I wanted to commit suicide or have sex with a family member. It was exacerbated by my family moving to a new country and going to a new school etc, all I did was obsess over my intrusive thoughts. It started off as a really young child I couldn't go to sleep if everyone else in the house was already asleep. I was so scared I would sit on the top of the stairs until my parents came and found me and took me to bed and stayed until I was asleep. As I grew into myself as a teenager and gained self-confidence it just seemed to disappear. I still occasionally have bouts of intrusive thoughts that I'm sexually attracted to my young nephew or my boyfriend is cheating on me but I can control the thoughts much better now and it's very rare they come about.

    • @АлександраГришина-с5р
      @АлександраГришина-с5р 3 роки тому +10

      @@hen44444lovely yeah, it may just start to loose power over you, I don't know how

    • @hen44444lovely
      @hen44444lovely 3 роки тому +36

      ​@@АлександраГришина-с5р even after watching this video a couple days ago, i feel like its losing its power. because now i'm self conscious of being self conscious, since i now know the reason why im truly like this; being because i had unconsciously hated myself all this time.

    • @bluegaming1346
      @bluegaming1346 3 роки тому +18

      I had the same experience, and the older I am the better it gets, slowly but surely.

  • @omegasiarnaq
    @omegasiarnaq 3 роки тому +850

    "These thoughts are not wishes but rather a radical distrust of the self." I can't believe it, I've been lying to myself this whole time. And when I actually think about it, it's true, my thoughts all started because I was triggered by a fear of myself turning into something I utterly despise. And from that moment on, I stopped trusting myself and thinking I was some sort of appalling monster and started hating myself. Thank you for this, something I can actually work towards.

    • @nateychan909
      @nateychan909 3 роки тому +14

      This line stood out to me too, and your comment perfectly captured how I felt about my own experience. Thank you for writing that. :)

    • @edenontheorbit9778
      @edenontheorbit9778 3 роки тому +1

      Thank you

    • @roseandlotus
      @roseandlotus 2 роки тому

      Wait wtf this happened to me. I’m so mind blown right now. I drove myself crazy.

  • @mycelium_6508
    @mycelium_6508 3 роки тому +1517

    Im discovering i might have OCD. As a kid I always felt the need to check my if my parents were sleeping (i was too young to remember why but I ABSOLUTELY needed to check, never sleeping until they were asleep) and then I developed intrusive thoughts that as a christian, I started praying for forgiveness constantly. I get sexually intrusive thought about family members or hurting my dog and I just lock myself in my room with intense guilt. I always over check my social medias in case I posted something on accident. I cant even trust myself driving a car cause my intrusive thoughts tell me to crash into something or someone. Its all painful, its a living hell. I wouldn’t wish this mental illness on anyone, cause your brain never stops thinking of awful things or worrying, it never stops to relax.

    • @1NTEN7ION
      @1NTEN7ION 3 роки тому +58

      I cannot imagine your struggle but I feel your pain , I am standing with you as you battle your demons on your journey to find peace :) I relate to this

    • @fia6537
      @fia6537 3 роки тому +3

      100

    • @matigumu
      @matigumu 3 роки тому +54

      I've neve thought someone would ever had the same experience as me

    • @gsfs8208
      @gsfs8208 3 роки тому +8

      @@AllAtOnc3 Isn't OCD an actual mental illness?

    • @youraveragexin7400
      @youraveragexin7400 3 роки тому +3

      I used to do the same when they used to sleep

  • @aidancunningham2052
    @aidancunningham2052 2 роки тому +417

    Former pure O sufferer here. I just want to let you know that you can beat this, it does get better and the real you is still in there. A big thing to help me was realising that it was the 'guilt' of having intrusive thoughts that made them cycle even worse. Then when your mood is down because you feel like a crazy piece of shit, the thoughts are more likely to happen because your mood is down / you are stressed.
    Right now, I feel completely 100% normal. I know that if I was to have a flare up of pure O it would cause me do doubt that. And that right there is the devil in this horrible affliction. The doubt. DON"T LISTEN TO THE DOUBT, IT IS NOT REAL. YOU ARE NOT A MONSTER. YOU ARE NOT CRAZY. YOU ARE A HUMAN BEING
    Don't try to to look for reassurance, just trust that you are not crazy and let the thoughts come, they will pass (Trust me I know how hard that is, but that is the way out of it) THEY WILL PASS. If you can let the thoughts happen without feeling guilty or bad for thinking them, they will go away. I cannot stress how much help mindfulness was in helping me beat this. I think of mindful meditation as like practice and then when the thoughts flare up, it's "game time". Mindfulness is a tool to help quieten the mind. If you get good at it (everyone can) it's almost like telling your thoughts "I'll be over here when you guys are done, just don't leave a mess and lock the door on your way out".
    ALSO Curcumin / Turmeric has made the thoughts stop happening in the first place. There is an undeniable, but not yet fully understood link between gut health and the mind. I had inflammation in my gut so I started taking one Turmeric capsule ever day, I can't tell you how much of a difference it makes.
    I realised I had inflammation from having "Post-Cold Euphoria", a sensation of feeling really really good for a day or so after getting over a head cold. The theory is that a lot of inflammation cells are released at the end of a head cold there by lowering inflammation in the gut (Lots of people have noticed this phenomenon). This led me to start taking something natural with an inflammatory property and boy have I not looked back!
    Do I still get the occasional weird thought, ABSOLUTELY, but I'm almost able to laugh at it and think "there's good old crazy brain' and then that's it. Not responding to the thought with guilt is key. Try to almost laugh at the absurdity of the thought. In the way you would when a comedian says something really really inappropriate. "did he just say that?" and you laugh your ass off.

    • @ZaneiYah
      @ZaneiYah 2 роки тому +10

      Thank you so much! I'm trying this today! ❤

    • @ghastbutlol
      @ghastbutlol 2 роки тому +17

      ive been suffering wince i was 10 and now im 16 ,i laught at thoughts that used to make me feel horrible when i was younger but my brain now finds worst ones ,at least now i know it has a name ,and that im not alone ,thank you!

    • @user-fv9ep7dv9c
      @user-fv9ep7dv9c 2 роки тому +3

      Thank you!

    • @treahugger5939
      @treahugger5939 2 роки тому +1

      Thank you

    • @xalexcstasy
      @xalexcstasy 2 роки тому +4

      Ty so much man, i rlly needed to see this comment. bc on top of that its our words & actions that make us up as humans & not sum dumb ass thoughts/compulsions.

  • @Ulandos
    @Ulandos 4 роки тому +1266

    I've suffered from Severe OCD since I was 10. I'm 25 now now and I've been taking medication and going to therapy for 15 years. I'm still going through stages where I'd rather be dead than put up with the day to day torture it inflicts, it's a deadly parasite in my opinion that I wouldn't wish upon my worst enemy. I am however extremely fortunate I met my wife when I was 14 and she's helped me along the way, that and doing youtube to make me feel productive since I literally can't work because of my OCD. Thank you for making this video, helps everytime someone talks about it and spreads awareness. I really do hate the stereotypes people immediately jump to when you tell them you have OCD as well, quite irritating.

    • @skibiditoiletrizz67
      @skibiditoiletrizz67 4 роки тому +31

      Your a warrior man. I’ve been struggling with intrusive thoughts and thought it was living hell. But you’ve put up with this for 20 years?! That’s insane, I can’t imagine how strong you would have to be in order to put up with OCD. It’s truly awful. Keep it up! I wish you the best of luck with dealing with OCD.

    • @Angie_bae
      @Angie_bae 4 роки тому +3

      I understand you

    • @siddharth3485
      @siddharth3485 4 роки тому +5

      You are a king

    • @111horror
      @111horror 4 роки тому +2

      CBD weed helps

    • @siddharth3485
      @siddharth3485 4 роки тому

      @@111horror can i help u

  • @larko2717
    @larko2717 5 років тому +988

    I want to legit cry, because I thought I was insane. But it's just OCD. I felt so disgusted just being in my own body. It made me want to throw up.

    • @Maryam7580
      @Maryam7580 4 роки тому +25

      SAME.
      Also, I’m very sorry you felt that way. 🌸

    • @MarshsAUTacity
      @MarshsAUTacity 4 роки тому +47

      Seeing people say "I thought I was insane," hits so close to home because I had my first panic attack because that morning all that went through my head was "I'm going crazy. Am I crazy? There's no way I'm not crazy."

    • @mooneymagic4521
      @mooneymagic4521 4 роки тому +9

      Same oh my god, I honestly feel like my brain had turned on me and I just want to disappear.

    • @chips.3927
      @chips.3927 4 роки тому +5

      So people experienced this only.
      My nervous system is always so high but i never became ashame of my body because i learnt on how to respect everyone. The thing I'm experienced are so much worse, Nervous thoughts about something that's going to happend in the future, this Nervous system, once it got activated i couldn't do anything properly, combined by my OCD, created a big impact on me which made me to lose the ability to do anything for a temporal moments.

    • @tacticaIprincess
      @tacticaIprincess 4 роки тому

      same

  • @skerlp836
    @skerlp836 4 роки тому +617

    Every day when I wake up the thoughts take no less than 20 minutes to start torturing me for the rest of the day, all I can do is excessively distract myself with screens and I also excessively stress eat, which is like a downward spiral for my physical appearance. I'm very grateful for this video, and as a professionally diagnosed obsessive-compulsive disorder sufferer I think I speak for us all when I say I appreciate this video. Awareness really helps, so thank you :)

    • @coldorak8230
      @coldorak8230 4 роки тому +8

      I have pure O ocd and it's really hard for me as a young artist

    • @voidpriestess8339
      @voidpriestess8339 4 роки тому +10

      @@coldorak8230 me too. When it gets the best of me I don't draw or hang out with friends because I'm just worrying

    • @adelinasardothien8238
      @adelinasardothien8238 4 роки тому +10

      Yup. Right when I wake up I find no peace. It’s horrible.

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +4

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому

      @@coldorak8230 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

  • @hattiebartlett
    @hattiebartlett 3 роки тому +241

    I was diagnosed with this in high school and later diagnosed with autism as well. I spent a lot of time being misdiagnosed with disorders like bipolar disorder and borderline personality disorder because I had those thoughts, but never acted on them. I believe now that my pure-o probably was triggered by the bullying and feeling of isolation I experienced as a child with autistic traits. Incredible video, thank you so much!

    • @erossore8500
      @erossore8500 3 роки тому +3

      Fellow autistic girl who thinks she has OCD, it’s nice to not feel alone

    • @DIZZY-xl9hx
      @DIZZY-xl9hx 3 роки тому +2

      im going threw that currently i dont think i will gwt the right help in time

    • @insertnamehere3971
      @insertnamehere3971 2 роки тому +1

      same here. really struggling right now.

    • @insertnamehere3971
      @insertnamehere3971 2 роки тому

      @@DIZZY-xl9hx you doing okay?

    • @Hi-bv3wq
      @Hi-bv3wq 2 роки тому

      I really hope you're doing alright!!

  • @SamuelShajy
    @SamuelShajy 4 роки тому +574

    It's worse, when it comes to a point where you think your the worst person to exist and enter into a stage of depression where one thinks that only death can bring then peace.

    • @lochmarnegoat9812
      @lochmarnegoat9812 4 роки тому +24

      Been there too

    • @hailseitan3876
      @hailseitan3876 4 роки тому +12

      There right now.

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +16

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +2

      @@lochmarnegoat9812 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому

      @@hailseitan3876 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

  • @homemadechaosYT
    @homemadechaosYT 3 роки тому +703

    I just broke down crying so hard. Finally, the key to why this is happening has been revealed. I do have a lot of scars indeed, which explains it all. Thank you.

    • @floweryunicorn8888
      @floweryunicorn8888 3 роки тому +19

      Same mate. I don't even have normal memories, most of them are altered and they're all in third person.

    • @woundedidiot429
      @woundedidiot429 2 роки тому

      Fuck bro fcuk, I'm so fucking glad I'm not alone, fuck bro like I knew I wasn't alone but I was too busy strugglind and dealing to care, and idk now everything just clicked, I'm not alone, ghere others with the same bullshit life ruining shit

    • @woundedidiot429
      @woundedidiot429 2 роки тому

      Lets keep on strpggling my frends

    • @catjamcultist
      @catjamcultist 2 роки тому

      Same man.

  • @SofiaHeleneThuru
    @SofiaHeleneThuru 4 роки тому +211

    jesus, finally we're talking about this. It's plagues my existence since I was a teenager. My mind is a battleground.

    • @1NTEN7ION
      @1NTEN7ION 3 роки тому +5

      Stay strong , you are more amazing than you could ever imagine

    • @jamzee_
      @jamzee_ 3 роки тому +4

      I try just not to think. Taking medication for my Adhd has helped that nulling practice but if i get a single thought in my head i cant fight it for the rest of the day.

  • @emmanuelfernandes5610
    @emmanuelfernandes5610 2 роки тому +47

    I've been sobbing and crying for half an hour now, because the frase "they're not wishes, they are symptoms" hit me so deeply and so hard. The feeling that now I understand myself a little better is one of the greatest reliefs I've ever experienced. Thank you. Deeply from my heart, thank you.

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому +2

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

    • @metime9260
      @metime9260 7 місяців тому +1

      Try mind full meditation... Only solution. I suffered at 16 tried every thing..now 44 from 3 years practicing meditation finally almost clean and smiling.. In those 30 years lost everything couldn't do well in exams.. Life family.. Though I was intelligent hard working... Now finally I am getting my life back.. There is no short cut to come out...

  • @faithroth668
    @faithroth668 6 років тому +1520

    I do suffer from this, but I had no idea that there was a name for this condition. I thought that there was something severely wrong with me for sometimes having intrusive thoughts. I've always kept it to myself because I was afraid that my family and health practitioners would say that I needed to be kept in a padded cell, even though I would never ever in a million years act on those thoughts. It has been the biggest burden on me, aside from my battle with depression and anxiety.
    Edit: Wow, I had no idea my comment would get this much support. Thank you so much. I'm actually majoring in psychology, so maybe one day I can help others who are afflicted with these abnormalities.

    • @Esperanza_121
      @Esperanza_121 6 років тому +11

      Faith Roth you need to be open with your dr about it. It's crucial

    • @sunnyray4065
      @sunnyray4065 6 років тому +20

      I've had had OCD most of my life and I obsessively took pregnancy tests cause I was convinced I would be. This happened for five years and it wouldn't matter if I test said negative cause the next day I could get pregnant anuway
      I used to lie to get the morning after pill even after using condoms. That went away and have a nightmare I have pure O that gives me intrusive thoughts hours and hours each day. You're not alone.

    • @Eeriekid
      @Eeriekid 6 років тому +6

      Right here with you

    • @brandijade2910
      @brandijade2910 6 років тому +9

      It feels good that someone knows how I felt exactly. Thank you

    • @theerathg9022
      @theerathg9022 6 років тому +13

      I suffered for 4 years without knowing it's a kind of OCD . Someone knows how it feels like. I am glad I am not alone in this.

  • @ENGW1SH
    @ENGW1SH 5 років тому +1079

    OCD is like having two brains: a “normal” brain and an OCD brain. Think of OCD as a separate entity; you are not your thoughts. People with OCD have the same thoughts as people with “normal” brains, but our brains get stuck in an uncontrollable loop we can’t stop. It is uncontrollable because no amount of reassurance from someone else or self-rationalizing will help.But don’t let this illness control every aspect of your life. With intrusive thoughts,(what I have) Know that everyone has these thoughts, and you’re not going to act on them. I found exercising, video game’s, and a change of diet, plus medication to work wonders. You’re not a horrible person, Don’t allow this illness to take control of your life.
    You will get through it, and it will get better I promise!

    • @sam4832
      @sam4832 5 років тому +25

      Mental illness are really complicated; you end up making mistakes in your thought chain that lead you into the weirdest solutions. OCD is one of the most complicated since you get in a loop incable of doing anything else. It erases your soul little by little until you get the control back. Nevertheless for me it still feels like some feeling you're trying to get away from using whatever, sometimes you don't have anything and end up doing stupid tasks, sometimes it hurts enough that only a stronger thought can erase the feeling, since there is nothing stronger than an intrusive thought, it takes over. This is the only self-rationalization that helps me; to understand that the thoughts are not evil and they are not the thing that needs my attention; quite the oposite, the things I'm not thinking about while they are on my mind are way more relevant. Like the feeling of getting distant from someone, for me it's one of the worst. Seems a fair trade to get a terrible thought and lose a bad feeling (flawed thought chain).

    • @lu8201
      @lu8201 5 років тому +3

      I have it too and I feel meditating, CBT & EFT therapy can help.

    • @versatilehumanbeing6013
      @versatilehumanbeing6013 4 роки тому +2

      @Jassi Kanday Which one bro I am suffering from it

    • @versatilehumanbeing6013
      @versatilehumanbeing6013 4 роки тому +1

      @Jassi Kanday Sexual intrusive thoughts OCD

    • @versatilehumanbeing6013
      @versatilehumanbeing6013 4 роки тому +2

      @Jassi Kanday whenever I look at someone thought of ejaculation comes up in my mind whenever I am seeing someone or watching something or listening

  • @alyajewellery
    @alyajewellery 5 років тому +234

    It was so scary when I was a child. It took a year to tell my therapist because I thought I would be reported. I didn’t know it was a recognised condition.

    • @dmgsoultogetherness6667
      @dmgsoultogetherness6667 4 роки тому +1

      💯

    • @Alina-xu7nn
      @Alina-xu7nn 4 роки тому +2

      Aww I'm really sorry because I know how you feel. My therapist thought I had adhd (which I didn't have) it took 9 years to be properly diagnosed😔

    • @tblmoon
      @tblmoon 4 роки тому +13

      I am 14 years old and I am afraid to talk to my psychologist about my intrusive thoughts 😔

    • @dmgsoultogetherness6667
      @dmgsoultogetherness6667 4 роки тому +6

      @@tblmoon i did it today....it was fine...she didnt freak in the early days when i started getting the violent,sexual,weird,off the wall thoughts i was sick with worry .it only upsets me when my depression is v bad...

    • @voidpriestess8339
      @voidpriestess8339 4 роки тому +1

      @@tblmoon It's gonna be really hard but you should try to. I know it isn't quite the same, but I told my mom and had a panic attack but once I got it out there it helped a bit to have a support system

  • @bearybearbear7514
    @bearybearbear7514 3 роки тому +55

    I’ve had OCD my whole life since I was a little kid. Overtime you either submit to the compulsions and obsessions or go insane trying to block them. I remember having to pray 20 times to not go to hell or.check my alarm every 5 seconds to make sure it’s on. Whoever struggles with OCD, you know the pain and I have deep sympathies for you. Overtime I’ve just accepted it and tried to live peacefully.

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @colincook6884
    @colincook6884 4 роки тому +588

    Am I the only one who feels like I’m in a dream state at some points because it’s hard to tell what thoughts are reality and which aren’t?

    • @aaaxdxd
      @aaaxdxd 4 роки тому +42

      Could be depersonalization
      Depersonalization is described as feeling disconnected or detached from one's self. Individuals may report feeling as if they are an outside observer of their own thoughts or body, and often report feeling a loss of control over their thoughts or actions.
      Is that what you feel?

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +30

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best my friend 😊❤

    • @luciacatinelli692
      @luciacatinelli692 4 роки тому +2

      YES OMG

    • @luciacatinelli692
      @luciacatinelli692 4 роки тому +2

      @@aaaxdxd OMG this is exactly what I'm feeling thank you

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +1

      @@luciacatinelli692 is this an uncomfortable state for you?

  • @jeys4432
    @jeys4432 5 років тому +259

    Hey guys I'm revisiting this video after discovering it 2 years ago.
    I just want to say that if you are still going through this, it CAN get better. I am living comfortably now and I can not even recall the tremendous pain. Just keep pushing. Dont give up

    • @nicolasarchambault1671
      @nicolasarchambault1671 4 роки тому

      How did you see a ocd specialist

    • @jeys4432
      @jeys4432 4 роки тому

      @@nicolasarchambault1671 the time that I had discovered I had OCD, I was a child so my mother had set everything up for me.

    • @brice-9696
      @brice-9696 4 роки тому

      Did you take meds

    • @jeys4432
      @jeys4432 4 роки тому

      @@brice-9696 I did for a short period. Stay off the meds bro. It's rough but if you are still dealing with it, do it naturally. Please dont take meds

    • @brice-9696
      @brice-9696 4 роки тому

      @@jeys4432 you don’t think I should even for the ocd?

  • @21units
    @21units 3 роки тому +517

    "Their problem began with a deficit of love and needs to be healed by a loving act of witnessing."
    This made me cry ngl. I don't have ocd but I do suffer from self-loathing and thinking that I don't deserve anything and this line just broke me but also made me feel seen.

    • @mrandmrscrosby4271
      @mrandmrscrosby4271 3 роки тому +8

      OCD has also been considered hereditary as well as genetic.

    • @christianchandler6973
      @christianchandler6973 2 роки тому +11

      For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him should not perish but have everlasting life. For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but that the world through Him might be saved.
      John 3:16‭-‬17
      For as the Father raises the dead and gives life to them, even so the Son gives life to whom He will. For the Father judges no one, but has committed all judgment to the Son,
      John 5:21‭-‬22
      Jesus received the full punishment for our sins. The blood of Jesus Christ makes us blameless and complete. When our Father sees us He sees his sons and daughters, because the blood of His Son Jesus covers us and is in us. God's DNA now runs through our veins. We are not only forgiven, but we have full access to the Father through His very own Spirit that He puts in us. And nothing can separate us from His love.

    • @ThePathOfLeastResistanc
      @ThePathOfLeastResistanc 2 роки тому

      My son has this and I’ve always given him an abundance of love. It’s not always lack of love.

    • @alansommer
      @alansommer 2 роки тому

      We love you!

    • @El__Silbon
      @El__Silbon 2 роки тому +3

      ​​​​​​​​@@ThePathOfLeastResistanc I don't think it's external love. It's a deficit of internal love. Not loving our self, hence self-loathing
      "Pure OCD thoughts are not wishes. They are symptoms of radical self-distrust. And these will start to lift once the afflicted learn that most vital of arts: being a friend to oneself."
      Best wishes to you and your son

  • @Robin856
    @Robin856 9 місяців тому +20

    I come back to this video when I’m struggling to remind myself I’m not the only person going through this and its just my disorder

  • @sadcybergen1548
    @sadcybergen1548 6 років тому +1193

    i actually have pure ocd and its hell... the worst part is the anxiety

    • @newrunrocks2656
      @newrunrocks2656 6 років тому +5

      nathan felton are you doing better now?

    • @kutthroatvictm
      @kutthroatvictm 5 років тому +10

      sadcyber gen absolutely terrifying.

    • @rickyborby
      @rickyborby 5 років тому +45

      ikr. in my case its silly intrusive thoughts, but the anxiety that comes with them is unbearable.

    • @cornelmasson4610
      @cornelmasson4610 5 років тому +68

      Yes, yes! The unrelenting, exhausting anxiety. The heart rate, the rumination, the inevitable depression. Just know you're not alone.

    • @zacharyrich4069
      @zacharyrich4069 5 років тому +12

      I’m a big hypochondriac and that’s the nature of my intrusive thoughts. It sucks, and I agree, it’s terrifying.

  • @paulinejoseph132
    @paulinejoseph132 6 років тому +140

    This brought tears to my eyes because it put a name to something that was puzzling for most of my life. Thank you.

    • @7imanee
      @7imanee 4 роки тому +1

      SAME

    • @hgmblog596
      @hgmblog596 4 роки тому +1

      ME TOO! It feels comforting to know that people are going through the same things you are, that people acknowledge how hard it is, and that you’re not crazy

    • @shukk5613
      @shukk5613 4 роки тому

      Me too, i always thought it was just me and was too ashamed to speak out about it.

    • @anthonystitt7015
      @anthonystitt7015 4 роки тому

      Pauline, if you are still suffering with this, look into Exposure Response Therapy. It really helped me. Also remember the sufferer of Pure O is almost always kind and compassionate, that's why the thoughts bother them so badly. Best to you, always.

  • @forlovers2.0
    @forlovers2.0 3 роки тому +186

    I just turned 21 today and all this time I thought I was a horrible person. Being miserable half of my life, distancing myself away from everyone and now I finally learned that there are other people suffering the same way as me. Thank you for making this. It means the world to me.

    • @nickoflegends1244
      @nickoflegends1244 2 роки тому +16

      Yeah I just found out too and I gotta fix this dawg can’t life like this forever.

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому +2

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

    • @ExcitedAnacondaSnake-hg8ec
      @ExcitedAnacondaSnake-hg8ec Рік тому

      It’s totally treatable for like 90% of people with exposure therapy. Refuse drugs from those cynical greedy psychiatrists, they just want money and don’t care about your well being. Fuk them.

  • @oddball0399
    @oddball0399 3 роки тому +65

    "Somewhere in their past, normally from traumatic and degrading childhood relationships, they will have derived the impression that they did not deserve to exist" That moment for me was probably my dad saying "your not the kid I wanted".

  • @oldmothergoose
    @oldmothergoose 6 років тому +289

    This is incredible, thank you! I suffered with Pure OCD for years after some acute and prolonged trauma. This makes me feel so much less alone in the world.

    • @leovolont
      @leovolont 6 років тому +5

      Hi Alex, Well, cool, you are not alone, but weren't you irritated by this overly simplistic treatment of it, and the especially the syrupy sweet Happy Ending ( oh, it turns out that Pure OCD isn't a problem after all because all we have to do is give ourselves a great big hug and say to ourselves "All the World Loves a Smile" or whatever that schmooze was at the end ).

    • @leovolont
      @leovolont 6 років тому

      Hi Elijah,
      Yes, if you really are a good person and, for some dysfunctional reason (cognitive sense of reality is distorted or delusional) you do not see yourself as a good person, and you somehow chronically think of yourself as a 'bad' person, well, that is a problem. But if you ARE a bad person and think of yourself as a bad person, then one is simply being realistic, objective, and impartial. Honestly, if people think they are bad, well, who should know any better? If they are bad, let's not divert these feelings in any other way then to insist that they make themselves good. None of this "its okay be a social and economic predator, and to betray your friends, because in fact by just being 'yourself' you are far more worthy of self consideration then everyone else. Besides, everybody else is a scumb bag like yourself (are we all not born in Original Sin?), and so if there is nobody inherently much better than yourself, than why place these unrealistic moral standards upon yourself... blah blah blah. This is how the Devil whispers into Faust's ear. Well, screw the devil! If people's sense of their own moral turpitude places them in something of an emotional hell, well, good. That must be where they belong. what if they have higher moral standards than the rest of us suppose are actually required, that is, they assume for themselves a higher moral burden, well, then we can suppose such people are actually Morally Gifted. People should live up to their own personal moral standards, and not try to dodge them with casuistic excuses. Oh, and then there is this, Elijah, and that is that now that you feel so much better about yourself morally, it is okay to set that cat on fire which you have been dying to do, huh? But I don't think the cat would agree.

    • @leovolont
      @leovolont 6 років тому

      Hi Elijah, yeah, I understand your criticism. That is why I left myself some wiggle room by conditioning my statement towards people who did not have some actual cognitive dysfunction or neuro-chemical imbalance which could counterfeit shame and feelings of moral and even functional degradation. So basically I was aiming my comment at the people who would think that maybe they were a 'little bit ODC' and use that as an excuse to toss out all their cognitively accurate but uncomfortable appraisals of their selves. Oh, I have a bit of homework to do (I've gone back to school for a 2nd degree), and then I think I'll get "a little drunk" too. cheers!

    • @ishtarmari5160
      @ishtarmari5160 5 років тому

      And worse yet, pure OCD is a trauma in itself.

  • @odealianaffairs9001
    @odealianaffairs9001 3 роки тому +284

    The “what if I am a “. “ thoughts disturb me so much. Most times I can find the humour in my brain being in a battle against me but on some days it gets me and I feel like I’m really messed in the head and distance myself from everyone. I also think it’s a seasonal thing as it gets a lot worse for me in winter and spring.

    • @5552-d8b
      @5552-d8b 3 роки тому +13

      Do you ever get that feeling where your not “good enough” I mean it literally. I feel like I’m never a good person. I always feel like a F up somtimes? I’m not suicidal or anything but I feel like In my mind it’s always I see a negative outcome.
      I think relationship, I think I’m gonna cheat
      I think about being a father, I think I’m gonna neglect my children
      I think friendship, I think I’m gonna betray my
      friends for no reason cause I feel like it
      I think religion, I think I’ll betray god even when he supports me
      Like I never been in a relationship and I have this constant nagging thoughts in my head that I would cheat as soon as I’m in one. I even did date simulation in my head where I had “fantasy relationship” to see if I would have sexual feelings for other people to see if I would cheat and which I did and I felt I cheated even though it was a fantasy relationship but I still feel like garbage. Am I a cheater or is this my ocd? I feel like a piece of shit for this

    • @pph8440
      @pph8440 2 роки тому +6

      @@5552-d8b BRO I DO THE EXACT SAME THING WHAT THE SHIT

    • @5552-d8b
      @5552-d8b 2 роки тому +14

      @@pph8440 yea. It may sound odd but I feel comforted that I’m not the only one suffering this. Not that I want others to suffer or anything. It helps to know that I’m not crazy

    • @logancravatas9857
      @logancravatas9857 2 роки тому +3

      Exactly

    • @5552-d8b
      @5552-d8b 2 роки тому +7

      @@edn2674 I’m glad to have comforted you. Your not alone feeling this pain. As what I commented before. Those fears still linger inside me. My thoughts think opposite of what I want to be. You don’t have to apologize for anything. You can suffer with me and it’s no problem. We’re in it together

  • @crepuscula5734
    @crepuscula5734 6 років тому +642

    Just want to say animation/sound here are fantastic.

    • @f8talfury
      @f8talfury 6 років тому +3

      Superb

    • @billymeinkowsky615
      @billymeinkowsky615 6 років тому +3

      yes! i'm wanting to make a minidoc on pure O and this video just told me whatever amatuerish stuff i do won't be good enough, lol. i wish i could animate.

  • @BranchOfSin6
    @BranchOfSin6 3 роки тому +24

    Wow, it's astounding the reaction this video has gotten. I'm not a sufferer, but to see the impact this video has had on people who do suffer, even when they weren't aware of it until now, is really unbelievable. While this is an educational video meant to explain what "Pure OCD" is, the way it was presented and the empathy it showed were beautiful.
    Whether you intended to or not, the reach and effect that this video has is undeniably incredible. You've done a great service to everyone that has watched.
    I've liked, commented, and subscribed to make sure that the algorithm keeps spreading this wonderful message.

  • @jenlshort9935
    @jenlshort9935 4 роки тому +82

    This condition is so horrendous, I’m so sorry if you have been through this. YOU’RE NOT ALONE ❤️

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +2

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts), do the following practice and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better and most likely even completely vanish if you apply this advice for long enough, you have to do this if you want to get better, there is no way around it:
      Meditate daily, ideally 30-60+ minutes, but you can start with 5+ minutes and work your way up. I recommend Vipassana meditation, which simply means putting your attention on the bodily sensations of breathing.
      Meditation is essentially about one thing: Practicing Awareness. Sitting meditation is an intentional, focused practice of Awareness, but it's just the beginning. You also have to practice Awareness when you are not sitting down to meditate. You basically have to meditate/practice Awareness 24/7, no matter what you are doing, no matter how many thoughts come up and no matter how much you suffer mentally and physically.
      Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions (and also emotions, sensory perceptions, bodily sensations, pain etc., basically everything you experience) in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness that is free from all experience. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMPULSIONS. You are free from your thoughts, your thoughts just fool you into believing that they are real. Thoughts are just randomly generated bullshit, don't ever worry about them and don't ever think they are more than that. Never believe ANY thoughts. YOU ARE NDo not identify with your thoughts and simply observe them from a distance. Your OCD will try to come up with all kinds of sneaky shit to draw you back into it, but NEVER give in to it, no matter what it says. Examples of sly tricks of OCD would be thoughts like "Meditation/Awareness doesn't work", "Your OCD will never go away" etc., but all these tricks only work because you let yourself get fooled by them, because you believe in them. You willingly give your power to these meaningless thoughts so that they can destroy you. See the absurdity in that. Also, never try to argue with thoughts, correct them, fight them, get rid of them etc., all of that is more tricks of OCD. You cannot solve OCD inside of the mind, only by stepping outside of it and observing it (Awareness). When you practice Meditation/Awareness, OCD will most likely try to draw you back into its grasp through anxiety and anxious reactions in the body: tension, racing heart, sweating, unease etc., also observe all of this in a detached way. Don't identify with the uncomfortable bodily sensations and believe it is you. It's all the OCD trying to trick you, trying to ruin your life. OCD is a sly fucker. OCD is threatened by Meditation and Awareness, that's why it will try to keep you from practicing them. This should be a clear signal to you that you are on the right path. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely no control over them whatsoever, but you have the power of being able to observe them, to realize they are not you and to not worry about them, which will make them go away if you do it long enough. They only keep coming if they keep getting negative reactions from you. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never resist thoughts. Thoughts have no power over you as long as you don't give it to them. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked by your thoughts, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on your negative reactions to them. Simply observe them without being irritated by them.
      Meditating and constantly practicing Awareness might be very hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier with time, and your OCD and all its symptoms will gradually become better. Even if thoughts still come up, they will not bother you anymore, you will just see them for the random bullshit that they are. The end goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Also, as corny as it may sound, what's even more important than Meditation and constant Awareness, and actually the most healing practice you can do, is fully and unconditionally loving yourself and everybody else and everything else in the world, even the most evil shit you can imagine, even your intrusive thoughts and compulsions. Your world and life have to become filled completely with Love. Negativity and suffering can only thrive where there is a lack of Love. Love repels negativity and suffering.
      You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently for a long enough time, please trust me for your own sake.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. 😊❤

  • @ranieldale4842
    @ranieldale4842 4 роки тому +168

    This is such a weight off my chest, struggling with these fucking thoughts and emotions has wiped my life of all happiness, joy and calm. They have been replaced with stress, guilt and depression.
    Knowing now that I’m not alone, that I’m not a freak and I’m not the abhorrent, sinful and psychotic person I’ve felt like has genuinely brightened my mood... I’m definitely bringing this up with my counsellor

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +7

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts), do the following practice and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better and most likely even completely vanish if you apply this advice for long enough, you have to do this if you want to get better, there is no way around it:
      Meditate daily, ideally 30-60+ minutes, but you can start with 5+ minutes and work your way up. I recommend Vipassana meditation, which simply means putting your attention on the bodily sensations of breathing.
      Meditation is essentially about one thing: Practicing Awareness. Sitting meditation is an intentional, focused practice of Awareness, but it's just the beginning. You also have to practice Awareness when you are not sitting down to meditate. You basically have to meditate/practice Awareness 24/7, no matter what you are doing, no matter how many thoughts come up and no matter how much you suffer mentally and physically.
      Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions (and also emotions, sensory perceptions, bodily sensations, pain etc., basically everything you experience) in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness that is free from all experience. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMPULSIONS. You are free from your thoughts, your thoughts just fool you into believing that they are real. Thoughts are just randomly generated bullshit, don't ever worry about them and don't ever think they are more than that. Never believe ANY thoughts. YOU ARE NDo not identify with your thoughts and simply observe them from a distance. Your OCD will try to come up with all kinds of sneaky shit to draw you back into it, but NEVER give in to it, no matter what it says. Examples of sly tricks of OCD would be thoughts like "Meditation/Awareness doesn't work", "Your OCD will never go away" etc., but all these tricks only work because you let yourself get fooled by them, because you believe in them. You willingly give your power to these meaningless thoughts so that they can destroy you. See the absurdity in that. Also, never try to argue with thoughts, correct them, fight them, get rid of them etc., all of that is more tricks of OCD. You cannot solve OCD inside of the mind, only by stepping outside of it and observing it (Awareness). When you practice Meditation/Awareness, OCD will most likely try to draw you back into its grasp through anxiety and anxious reactions in the body: tension, racing heart, sweating, unease etc., also observe all of this in a detached way. Don't identify with the uncomfortable bodily sensations and believe it is you. It's all the OCD trying to trick you, trying to ruin your life. OCD is a sly fucker. OCD is threatened by Meditation and Awareness, that's why it will try to keep you from practicing them. This should be a clear signal to you that you are on the right path. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely no control over them whatsoever, but you have the power of being able to observe them, to realize they are not you and to not worry about them, which will make them go away if you do it long enough. They only keep coming if they keep getting negative reactions from you. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never resist thoughts. Thoughts have no power over you as long as you don't give it to them. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked by your thoughts, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on your negative reactions to them. Simply observe them without being irritated by them.
      Meditating and constantly practicing Awareness might be very hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier with time, and your OCD and all its symptoms will gradually become better. Even if thoughts still come up, they will not bother you anymore, you will just see them for the random bullshit that they are. The end goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Also, as corny as it may sound, what's even more important than Meditation and constant Awareness, and actually the most healing practice you can do, is fully and unconditionally loving yourself and everybody else and everything else in the world, even the most evil shit you can imagine, even your intrusive thoughts and compulsions. Your world and life have to become filled completely with Love. Negativity and suffering can only thrive where there is a lack of Love. Love repels negativity and suffering.
      You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently for a long enough time, please trust me for your own sake.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. 😊❤

    • @IDoHaveClarity
      @IDoHaveClarity 3 роки тому +2

      @@feelsokayman3959 thank you

    • @rissagotvideos09
      @rissagotvideos09 3 роки тому +1

      How do i even know I’m not alone 😭 what if it’s all imaginative and everyone else is just apart of me, apart of whatever this “life” is. I don’t understand reality.

    • @rissagotvideos09
      @rissagotvideos09 3 роки тому +1

      I want these thoughts to go away.(

    • @IDoHaveClarity
      @IDoHaveClarity 3 роки тому +3

      @@rissagotvideos09 you're not alone.
      Even everyone is apart from you.

  • @ferdoeric596
    @ferdoeric596 4 роки тому +69

    Every one of us has the potential to overcome this thing no matter how bad it feels atm, NEVER forget this!

  • @d.earth.angell
    @d.earth.angell 2 роки тому +24

    This, is exactly what I needed. I just realized today that I have been experiencing this at a subconscious and sometimes conscious level & it has been draining me! It has put stress on my relationships with the ones I love the most & now I feel like I have more power over it. Thank you, also to the people in the comments. 💪💗I’m also thankful for the love I’m receiving now. All of this is so helpful and I know I will overcome the compulsive behaviors & negative thoughts & be kind to myself. I know I can figure this out. Also, great illustration & sound design!

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @emmam5075
    @emmam5075 5 років тому +254

    When you said that people with pure OCD try to find a reason to feel awfull
    I felt so happy that someone described so accurate what I do with my OCD

    • @thepaynebro2377
      @thepaynebro2377 5 років тому +1

      NewMysteryGamer GR Took the words right out my mouth!!

    • @PasscodeAdvance
      @PasscodeAdvance 4 роки тому +1

      Soo true

    • @chips.3927
      @chips.3927 4 роки тому +2

      Occasionaly, i though of murdering a person , and i don't feel awful for it, but i think "Isn't that abnormal of not being awful?" And consider myself as a bad person , and act if i feel "Awful" manipulate your brain to feel that way, when it's just a mere obligation not a genuine feeling...

    • @emmam5075
      @emmam5075 4 роки тому +5

      @@chips.3927 I had the same thoughts . I also had thoughts that I am a lesbian or that I have schizophrenia, and none of these are true , but I wanted to find a problem with me so that I can get anxious and get my brain satisfied....sometimes when I find my self happy or smiling I think ..wait ...your life goes well?? Isn’t this unfair for other people ?? Yes it is , and then I get anxious that bad things will happen to me

    • @chips.3927
      @chips.3927 4 роки тому +4

      @@emmam5075 Exactly! I always consider myself as inferior and stupid, so this Ocd manifest, from an ordinary thought about murdering, now this thought "Manipulate" your brain to thinking you're inferior, it feels as if you are but it isn't true.

  • @marchofthepigs36
    @marchofthepigs36 3 роки тому +73

    As a sufferer of a different mental illness, my heart breaks for all you sufferers of this disease. It makes me sad that the disease has convinced your that you aren’t worthy of being seen. Aren’t worthy of being. Loving thy self isn’t an overnight process, but hear me when I say so SO so so so many people are cheering you on. You deserve love, and you are loved.

  • @MadiRoss91
    @MadiRoss91 3 роки тому +410

    God I love that the psychotherapist is a cat in a suit with a witch's hat

  • @JoshuWadubs
    @JoshuWadubs 2 роки тому +18

    The first part of this video genuinely makes me cry. It is exactly how I feel.

  • @robertjazz3613
    @robertjazz3613 6 років тому +254

    Pure O is like Hell I’m suffering from Pure O it’s like they’re are intruders and they’re is a war of good and evil battling inside your head.

    • @Userquw198
      @Userquw198 5 років тому +6

      Robert Jazz OMG please be my friend im litteraly crying. Im so happy this is exactly what is happening to me

    • @laced7
      @laced7 4 роки тому

      Doggoman1919 I’ll be your friend bro I feel the same way ur not alone

    • @cathygene15
      @cathygene15 4 роки тому +9

      Jesus is the real way that helps anything is possible with god

    • @mrkrabsoof6756
      @mrkrabsoof6756 4 роки тому +1

      Catherine Mitchell yea bcuz God gets through it even if it means by going to Therapy

    • @kozl0vska
      @kozl0vska 4 роки тому

      Exacly!

  • @thisaintallen5483
    @thisaintallen5483 4 роки тому +685

    This is particularly hard when you're someone who has a big ass dream.

    • @a.r.375
      @a.r.375 4 роки тому +31

      Exactly ...

    • @joeyh2185
      @joeyh2185 4 роки тому +140

      felt this. it's really hard to fantasize about my dreams for the future because i feel i don't deserve to achieve or have them. much love man we'll get through this.

    • @a.r.375
      @a.r.375 4 роки тому +8

      @@joeyh2185 yess I’m defeating it and I can understand beautifully how it can kill you :(

    • @xcashannahx6554
      @xcashannahx6554 4 роки тому +34

      @@joeyh2185 you’ve just described how I feel. I’m so young and other teens are probably dreaming big about their futures whereas I feel like I’m not allowed to be happy and successful because of these thoughts. It’s not fair 🐌

    • @freakyphy23
      @freakyphy23 4 роки тому

      True..

  • @tomkab7976
    @tomkab7976 3 роки тому +60

    Well, that was a huge revelation. Thank you for helping me understand what I felt like... all throughout my life I was so confused as to whether I'm truly a horrible person or just paranoid. Now I discover that it was neither, but instead pure OCD.

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому +1

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @luciferalpha3080
    @luciferalpha3080 6 років тому +855

    The psychotherapist is a cat. I wish there is such a psychotherapist.

    • @MichelleC50
      @MichelleC50 6 років тому +26

      I found that oddly soothing to contemplate....I too wish that.

    • @Dysiode
      @Dysiode 6 років тому +13

      I didn't even consciously realize that, I just fell in love with it. That's so wonderful

    • @arete7884
      @arete7884 6 років тому +6

      Well had many thoughts of cutting my kitten open or burning even tho i love animals.

    • @MattDavis_BeechingsGhosts
      @MattDavis_BeechingsGhosts 6 років тому +2

      You'd never get any therapy from a cat. Unless you paid in cucumbers.

    • @metanoiameta3696
      @metanoiameta3696 6 років тому +2

      Lucifer Alpha same!

  • @fmasoul
    @fmasoul 5 років тому +850

    If someone reads this, i overcame PURE OCD and heres how. This is my “instructions book” to achieving it, i learned it, did it myself and it worked.
    Here we go.
    My recommendations:
    - very important to understand why it started, why you feel what you feel and thing what you think and if possible what started it. If you cam recall that and understand how your self steem and perception of the world is so distorted by the trauma or event that detonated the ocd you are one big step ahead of overcoming it.
    - never let ocd thought fool you into getting back to obsessing, uncertainty is the biggest ally of ocd, as an ocd sufferer you always feel the need to be sure that everything is and will be ok, believe me you dont need that reassurance, embrace the uncertainty because its tour best ally and liberator mark this words “embrace the uncertainty as a treasure as its your best ally”
    -anxiety peaks maje you more vulnerable to obsessions so be aware when the thoughts and fears start to pop up and dont react, NEVER REACT to a thought of ocd in any way just embrace the uncertainty sensation.
    - never give up because its truly doable and its truly worth it
    - dont let the ocd trick you into giving up or falling again while you are in the process, thing of it as a deug addiction, if you go back to trying drugs after being sobber for some time you will end up as bad as you were, perseverance is key
    - never let ocd distort your perception of the world because thats what it does sadly and is its wat of tricking you into fearing what your thoughts and obsessions tell you
    - work on your selfsteem and happiness its the key and the origin of ocd thoughts and its the key to overcoming it.
    - do meditation to clear your mind, it will help you to get rid of the distorted reality that ocd creates
    - do physical activity or activities that help you get rid of stress and liberate endorphins as its the hormone of hapiness and ocd feeds of lack of hapiness to increase the obsessions
    - know your worth in the world, never believe that you depend on someone or something to do anything, you can do and be who you want on your own, thats key to knowing how strong you are and capable of living without fear.
    - never, and i mean never iverthing about anything or react with fear to a thought, it will not help you in anyway, it only distorts the reality, embrace uncertainty as its your best ally and trust in yourself, you would be amazed if you knew how powerful the mind is when you want to achieve something, its mindblowing once you realize it.
    YOU CAN AND WILL ACHIEVE IT
    Mark this words because I thought it was impossible but it’s actually a lot easier than I thought, you just need to understand ocd in all aspects, once you do that is a lot easier.

    • @My_Garmonbozia
      @My_Garmonbozia 5 років тому +38

      Thank you so much. I have experienced immeasurable trauma and am unable to afford therapy here in the US. Anything helps. I will get through this and so will anyone who reads this.

    • @BikeLifeMike93
      @BikeLifeMike93 5 років тому +1

      Still over it?

    • @clarah.3297
      @clarah.3297 5 років тому +15

      @@My_Garmonbozia I'm in the same situation - my OCD has continually (for the last five years or more) destroyed my life. I want to go to do well in college, but it feels impossible to focus on anything other than my intrusive thoughts. We need to fight it! Good luck, I really hope you get the help you need.

    • @robsonoliveira5285
      @robsonoliveira5285 5 років тому +3

      Thank you so much. 🙏

    • @despairthewumbo9804
      @despairthewumbo9804 5 років тому +23

      Here we are , screen shotting your comment haha , much love man ❤️

  • @erinfischer4560
    @erinfischer4560 6 років тому +519

    Before I got medicated and sought therapy I constantly had worries that I was a psychopath, a narcissist, or a violent and angry person. I had urges that sent me into panic attacks to like, crash my car. Or to strangle no one in particular, I always felt uncomfortable around children because I thought my very existence was bad for them, that I just hurt and ruined everything I came near for one reason or another. I never worried that I was attracted to children- and I wasn’t- but I was just constantly plagued by the idea that if a kid hung around me for too long I would push them into oncoming traffic, or pick them up to drop them and bash their head in. It’s terrifying all the time because you just are acutely aware of your ability as a person to do horrible things, and everyone is capable of doing horrible things. And that logic leads to you and the person who actually does those things are just as bad- if not that thought process directly. My therapist and I narrowed it down to the pressure my parents put on me to be better than my older brother, my brother’s resentment toward me, my father’s anger, and that I was too afraid to come out to my family as a lesbian in such an unhealthy environment. I’m doing much better now, my fiancé and I just got engaged and I’m in uni studying to be a theater analyst. The anxiety and negative thoughts still come, you’re never totally cured. You just learn to step back from it and manage it better.

    • @danielcoronado4010
      @danielcoronado4010 6 років тому +22

      You are not alone, I've been through kind of the same, kid from divorced parents, my brother resented me, grew up on a religiously heavy enviroment being gay thinking that I would go to hell, I wanted to kill my self when I was 8, or at least the thought came by... and I kinda suffered all of the pure OCD hell for a good while, it has calmed down, I no longer use meds, but I still remember the torment it was... is.

    • @kyleiq1912
      @kyleiq1912 6 років тому +11

      wow, my story is very similar. i’m glad to know you’re doing better now, it’s inspiring!

    • @adnanrifaie4604
      @adnanrifaie4604 6 років тому

      Thank you

    • @hfllw
      @hfllw 6 років тому

      what medications are you taking if you don't mind me asking??

    • @adamhernandez668
      @adamhernandez668 6 років тому +5

      Yes! Its hell living with this im only 15 and im trying my best

  • @sarahgraham-smith
    @sarahgraham-smith 8 місяців тому +2

    I did not know this had a name. It makes me feel so much better. I've struggled with OCD for years and have overcome the taboo thoughts, but everyday is a struggle.

  • @alexa-ny9eb
    @alexa-ny9eb 4 роки тому +174

    I found about pure ocd about 2 years ago. I had no idea what I was struggling with was OCD. I was convinced I was a horrible person who wanted to hurt people. It was awful and drained me. But I’ve gotten so much better. I used to have these thoughts every single second of the day. Now after 2 years of therapy, I don’t have any and if I do it’s rare and not intense and I know how to deal with it. If you are struggling with this, it will get better I promise. You will go through so much discomfort but I promise you it will be worth it. I didn’t think I would get better but I did. I feel free. I hope one day you do too 💗

    • @rissagotvideos09
      @rissagotvideos09 3 роки тому +1

      Thank you, I’m currently struggling with this. I need to find a therapist. I have an appointment on oct. 11th to see a doctor… I’m going to tell them about my anxiety and OCD. I have horrible thoughts everyday. And it makes me withdraw from conversations and from people and I look like an Asshole. I don’t know how go communicate or be confident in myself with these thoughts.

    • @Kiwinov
      @Kiwinov 3 роки тому +3

      Comments like this make me so happy! I'm doing ERP and it makes me sad how many people are left to deal with this alone

    • @rosiespaniel9941
      @rosiespaniel9941 3 роки тому +1

      this is so comforting, thank you so much for sharing!! im so glad youre doing better now, that makes me feel really happy for you:))💖💖

    • @rosiespaniel9941
      @rosiespaniel9941 3 роки тому

      @@rissagotvideos09 im so glad youre reaching out and getting help!!! i hope things have been looking up since you met with the therapist:)

    • @theycallmealex454
      @theycallmealex454 3 роки тому

      I can recall from when I was in High School many times when I was in overthinking hell, with countless moments of having some of the most bizarre and absurd thoughts that I don’t for sure know if I have somehow gotten better with it now and was just going through something most teens do or if I have this type of OCD. I have calmed down a bit, but I still sometimes question myself from time to time :/

  • @OswinSamueloz
    @OswinSamueloz 6 років тому +54

    Finally, someone explains the horrors people like me go through on a daily basis. Good job school of life! ❤️

  • @ashlahoyt5728
    @ashlahoyt5728 3 роки тому +96

    I'm in tears after watching this and reading the comments. I have OCD and it got to the point that I felt like I deserved to suffer. A year or two ago I was so down that I convinced myself that I deserved all the tormenting thoughts that would come up in my mind. I thought everyone felt this way, I thought I just couldn't deal with it and I felt like a failure for it. I've come to find out that people don't torment themselves over EVERYTHING, every mistake, miscommunication, even your thoughts weren't safe. I would freak out leaving a store thinking I stole something when I know I would never and never did do it, I would cry for hours thinking I was a terrible person with almost no end. Now I've gotten help and am medicated and damn, it's a whole new world. Sure I have self esteem issues and these thoughts pop up every once in a while but I'm no longer thinking about it for weeks. I don't play a fake memory in my mind and cry for hours anymore, I don't sit there and plan out all the terrible things that can happen. I no longer feel like a monster. I may still have a long road ahead but knowing that my thoughts aren't always my own makes it easier.

    • @malachibadillo9967
      @malachibadillo9967 2 роки тому +2

      The “I don’t play a fake memory in my head anymore” got to me so much because I am also medicated now too and was diagnosed with ocd but before I was I was having repeated panic attacks and would have these thoughts in my head and not being able to tell the truth to myself like did I do that? Like I hope I didn’t …. Like I really would be scared and would do the same sit and cry for a long time and keep to myself and just be all panicky . But I’m feeling better now it’s been three months of being medicated …. I also have a very long road of getting better mentally I hope you are doing better as well 😎🤟🏼

  • @inkswamped
    @inkswamped 2 роки тому +75

    I've been in psychological and emotional agony for years due to the symptoms of this. I can't believe I'm just learning that not only is this a legitimate diognosis but, other people also share these horrors too! I'm still in pain but there is a tiny glimmer of light now.

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому +1

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @YouFightLikeACow
    @YouFightLikeACow 6 років тому +311

    "Behind pure OCD is a person's need to find a reason to feel awful"

    • @feralingo
      @feralingo 4 роки тому +17

      This is SOOO true and close

    • @user-vr6us6nx6g
      @user-vr6us6nx6g 3 роки тому +3

      Jokes on me I got 300000000 reasons

    • @jp-dv7et
      @jp-dv7et 3 роки тому +2

      EXACTLY MAN EVERY THEME I HAD WAS THE 100% OPPOSITE OF THE TRUE ME IN FACT WHAT I HATE THAT WILL OCD ATTACK..

  • @CoilCannon
    @CoilCannon 3 роки тому +67

    When I was a kid, I occasionally got those awful intrusive thoughts, and for awhile it wasn't as bad, but as of recently, it's been a lot worse. Quick flashes of awful thoughts would go through my head, but I try not to dwell on them or acknowledge them as much. My most common ones tend to be stuff like hurting a family member or hurting a pet. I feel like an awful person for having these thoughts that I can't control. But good god, I'm so happy I'm not a monster. This helps so much. This practically nailed it on the head for me, thank you so much for making this. Thank you for telling me I'm not a monster

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

    • @CoilCannon
      @CoilCannon Рік тому

      @@lazysnorlax3909 Bro what

  • @jessicascott2260
    @jessicascott2260 6 років тому +16

    I have never seen something so accurately describe my affliction outside of a therapist's office. This video brought me to tears. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for making this video, and helping to educate the public on what OCD actually is, vs. the stereotypes everyone knows. Thank you for shedding some much needed light on this sub-group of OCD sufferers.

  • @James-ip7zk
    @James-ip7zk 11 місяців тому +2

    I’m always in awe about how accurate this video is describing the experiencie. But most importantly, after going through a harsh therapy, you were right about the origin of the condition and psycotherapy has the most creative solution.

  • @martin7895
    @martin7895 6 років тому +76

    I just wanted to say that this is absolutely amazing! This is so accurate and made me feel relieved that for once someone actually explained and depicted intrusive thoughts properly. As for me, It seems a never ending cycle of intrusion. I'm currently plagued by the idea that I am soon to become a schizophrenic or that I am psychotic. Its impossible to explain to someone without OCD, the feeling of attempting to refute these thoughts, the "normal" person can simply look at themselves objectively and reassure themselves within seconds that they are 100% not what their mind would have them think they are. On the other hand, with OCD, this kind of strange *reassurance* occurs, almost as if some dark force lying in your psyche wishes it to come true. Eventually these thoughts leave and new ones come, I have thought I was all the things you mentioned in this video and more which often leaves me feeling hopeless as this cycle of unintentional self inflicted torture continues. I hope anyone with similar experiences, deal with them and better yet overcome them ❤ Stay strong

    • @opjunkz4235
      @opjunkz4235 5 років тому +4

      Martin THATS LITTERLY ME DAWG 😭😭😭😭 LIKE THE ONE U SAID “ soon to become schizophrenic or psychotic

    • @mohamadsaleh7669
      @mohamadsaleh7669 5 років тому +3

      I have anxiety towards developping szcirophenia and yesterday i just had i dont know but felt so weird like i'm no longer myself and i almost convinced myself that i'm seeing something at the corner of my eye so i convinced myself i was going szcirophenic plus i'm moving to a new house so yesterday everything felt unreal i couldnt sleep at all and frequent panic attacks although i have no one in my family tree who have szcirophenia but i'm afraid i'll be the one who start it.

    • @zhanonaltay5466
      @zhanonaltay5466 4 роки тому +2

      Mohamad Saleh bro same but Don’t worry you will overcome it.

    • @rivert4936
      @rivert4936 3 роки тому +1

      hey man i've been scrolling through all these comments to find one like yours, there are only a few, i've been dealing with this too for years and i'm devastated when it returns, I feel like it will never leave me. It's so difficult and i feel like i've been through hell..how are you now? it's such a tough one cos unlike the harm or anything like that it's pretty difficult to relax cos it's a fear of our own mind which is already giving us so much trouble, it's not something in real life which we can physically control, i've been through that too and got over it. this one stays with me

    • @martin7895
      @martin7895 3 роки тому

      @@rivert4936 Its been 2 years since I posted this and ive had people message me about this, all I can say is, keep delving into everything your brain says, it will pass, Ive never felt better, I have no worries of these sorts anymore, I feel so incredibly free compared to then, it will pass, and you will leave stronger and more self aware, it will turn into your superpower.

  • @ActiveServo12
    @ActiveServo12 3 роки тому +276

    Fellow pure OCD sufferers, let us unite in the comments and show one another that we are not monsters.
    This condition used to feel like literal hell
    but through exercise and self reflection
    now it only feels like a waste land.

    • @carogranner1019
      @carogranner1019 2 роки тому

      this is so true.

    • @zainamjad7505
      @zainamjad7505 2 роки тому +2

      It is an absolute hell

    • @ActiveServo12
      @ActiveServo12 2 роки тому +6

      @@zainamjad7505 Just a quick update, my dudes.
      Christ found me, brought me to the bible
      and now my "OCD" is virtually almost gone!
      All the things i've wanted the entire time i struggled alone with these demons running around in my head have been given to me.
      All i have to do is pray, read the bible and tell people about Jesus.
      Seems like a pretty fair trade.

    • @stuartdparnell
      @stuartdparnell 2 роки тому

      Yeah they are only just thoughts. CBT meditation helps, so does exposure to the very thing you are afraid of. For example leaving a small knife out on the table when you have someone you trust over. You know you won't hurt that person so why be afraid of the thought?

    • @srishtysamal8600
      @srishtysamal8600 2 роки тому

      Hello! Just wanted to ask, can Pure OCD occur in the context of relationships as well?

  • @e-berry
    @e-berry 3 роки тому +34

    Right now I'm crying, and simply shocked by what I've just watched... Thank you for helping me and I guess many other people, this video you've made helped me understand why I was thinking and behaving this way, in under 5 minutes you might have changed my life. You are the one who deserve all the love.

  • @vincentdeschatelets8709
    @vincentdeschatelets8709 2 роки тому +45

    As someone wuth pure O, the worst thing you can say to one is “I have intrusive thoughts as well”. They are not the same thing and they aren’t as frequent. Pure O thoughts will often lead with panic attack and social anxiety and it needs to be understood instead of compared.

    • @jakesmith9438
      @jakesmith9438 2 роки тому +11

      People tend to use “intrusive thoughts” interchangeably with “impulsive thoughts” which are within itself very different things.

  • @lenolabowens8026
    @lenolabowens8026 5 років тому +55

    Never knew there was a name for this, I’ve already dealt with it internally in fear of being view as a terrible person thank you much

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently, trust me. 😊❤

  • @zuzu091
    @zuzu091 5 років тому +305

    Sometimes i've wished i got the hand washing checking type of OCD. Having thoughts about becoming schizophrenic, being an psychopath or even being possesd ain't cool. And i gotta disagree with the self esteem part, people with Pure O feel bad but not in a way that you're starting to get depressed. If they understand the illines and what pure O is they will understand that they do not need to feel bad about theyr thoughts because it's not theyr fault in the first place. People become depressed from pure O if they don't know shit about what they suffer like me i was a full bag of full blown anxiety when i had those thoughts for the first time and i felt so bad i was even at the edge of crying everytime when i was seeing by loved ones because of the harm thoughts. But after i understand what i was suffering from and did my research my anxiety cutted like 60%. The compulsions are still there rumminating, questioning or doubting, and the "what if"" it's just hell. But i'm full rational like i've allways was and i know that like all the peoples who are suffering from this.

    • @mel5282
      @mel5282 4 роки тому +11

      Dis Boi me too. I’ve also had an obsession where I thought I was going to go insane and that I was going to have schizophrenia. I also dealt with hypochondriac and I’m currently battling hocd/soocd (sexual orientation ocd) and it is absolute hell. I doubt you’ll see this but stay strong. I hope you’re so much better now. 💕

    • @yuhgetintoitagario3351
      @yuhgetintoitagario3351 4 роки тому +8

      Same. The “checking ocd, washing hands,ect.” Is NOT as severe with these type of bad, intrusive thoughts. I try to tell myself that my thoughts are irrational. Thank you for explaining!

    • @vinalucia3712
      @vinalucia3712 4 роки тому +28

      @@yuhgetintoitagario3351 I'm not sure if you can generalise if checking/washing ocd is not as bad. There are so many different levels of those OCD's that you can not compare.
      As an example of mine: for me it started 3 years ago and would only come up at night. I had to check things 3 times perfectly, if I did a mistake I had to do it 9 times and if I did a mistake again I'd have to do it 27 times. But there wasn't only one thing but up to 70 things I had to check which would take me from 9pm to 4am sometimes. Standing up out of bed over and over doing literally a workout until you are about to pass out is not nice. Especially if it's 40°C and your ocd tells you not to open a window making this workout for 8 or 9 hours straight and only sleeping 2 hours a night etc etc. If it was one night in a week it would be acceptable but this amount of pressure every single night is like a never ending hell. You pray for it to stop but you never know when the last thought will come. This is my hell now for years and it gets you suicidal as well because like I said it seems like this hell that would never end but repeat forever.. I can not meet loved ones over night and I had extreme rules like going to sleep at 9pm at least because otherwise I'd have the worst nights of my life which takes a lot of time of your day since almost half of your day (or the entire night in my case) gets wasted by even harming your health.
      Now I'm not saying those pure OCD's aren't as bad but I'm saying you can't compare 2 hells with each other.

    • @doe6896
      @doe6896 4 роки тому

      mel this is EXACTLY me right now.. I get relief every few hours :/

    • @sonaliyadav8795
      @sonaliyadav8795 4 роки тому +9

      @@vinalucia3712 yeah both are hell. We should not compare it to each other.
      And please see Psychologist and Psychiatrist and take medicine too. Medicine really helps in ocd. I hope you will get better soon. Stay strong.

  • @ItachiUchiha-zu3zp
    @ItachiUchiha-zu3zp 6 років тому +105

    This made me cry because I relate with everything you’ve just described - I’ve done my own research in an attempt to understand my issue and now I go to to therapy, I’m scared to open up about it there but I hope I’ll manage. I know it got a lot better though compared to how crazy it used to be years ago. I just thought I’m purely insane.

    • @aimandurrani2228
      @aimandurrani2228 5 років тому +8

      Itachi Uchiha I hope you’re doing better, warrior

  • @Shan-dt3fz
    @Shan-dt3fz 2 місяці тому +3

    For years, I’ve worked toward managing these thoughts and learning to trust myself. It becomes difficult at times, but I’m proud and surprised at how far I’ve come. I’m even pregnant now and will be having my own child! I trust myself to love and protect them. Years ago, I wouldn’t have. Anyone going through this, you can do this!

  • @heather9857
    @heather9857 5 років тому +66

    I wish I could express how much this changed my life. You'll never fully know what you did for me, but thank you and may God bless all of you and your families

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +1

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently, trust me. 😊❤

  • @luisdiaspires7618
    @luisdiaspires7618 5 років тому +105

    Ill tell you how to work this out, I've suffered from it since I was 12, I'm 19 now...You need to embrace the thoughts because you won't commit those things, it's just a trick! You need to accept them and then let them flow whenever they want to, not to judge what comes to your mind because anything can literally come. You need to stop judging the thoughts and laugh at them, toy with them or ignore them simply. I know it's not easy because they remain like a dark shadow always by your side, but in time, if you keep ignoring them every single day they will lose their power! I struggled with OCD and depression for as long as I can remember, it's a terrible demon, but I also found that it made me a stronger person, no real life event such as bad grades or I don't know stuff like that that bother people can hit me, I'm just too strong for those because of OCD. For better or worse it made me a strong person and also very creative, I'm in the process of editing a book that I would never have written if I weren't a person with OCD. It did make me special.

    • @salomeebegue9144
      @salomeebegue9144 4 роки тому +6

      That’s a beautiful take on it!! I totally agree with everything you said about embracing the thoughts... it worked for me too :)

    • @Hello-ww7xr
      @Hello-ww7xr 4 роки тому +1

      I always have had small stupid compulsions where I would say to myself like "your family will die if you don't" but I was able to overcome them and they kind of got smaller with time. I never really thought I had diagnosable OCD. Recently I experienced something like this for the first time, I convinced myself I was something that, looking at it outside of my stuck mindset, was completely illogical, but it was so bad I wanted to die. Luckily, I met with somebody right after so I was able to convince myself it wasn't reality before it was too late. It hasn't happened since, which makes me wonder if I do or do not have pure OCD. I did meet with a professional that one time, who confirmed that is was OCD and that they had met with other people who like convinced themselves of things as well, but it has only happened once so I don't know whether or not I can say I have OCD or not. Am I?

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому

      @@salomeebegue9144 If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому

      @@Hello-ww7xr If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts) do these two things consequently and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better or maybe even completely vanish if you do it long enough: Meditate daily (ideally 30-60+ minutes, I recommend Vipassana, which is simply putting your Awareness on your breath) and constantly practice Awareness throughout the entire day. Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness and not the observed thoughts and compulsions. Thoughts are random bullshit generated by the brain, don't worry about them. Do not identify with your thoughts and compulsions and simply observe them from a distance. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely 0 control over them, but you have the power of being able to ignore them and not worry about them. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts and compulsions, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on the attention and meaning you give to them. Meditating is gonna be extremely hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier the more you meditate and practice Awareness. The goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. You will get through this if you follow my advice 😊❤

  • @weebishlyweird9467
    @weebishlyweird9467 3 роки тому +49

    I don’t have diagnosed OCD but I had so many of these intrusive thoughts, so much so that I always felt extremely disgusting and uncomfortable around so many people, I may not have had it or maybe I did, idk but I don’t get them anymore simply because of amazing people around me, They made me feel confident and loved me no matter what, they still show up from time to time but I don’t think about them, my heart goes out to anybody suffering from ocd, I hope you find peace through all the madness and feel better ❤️

  • @coltongealy9759
    @coltongealy9759 2 роки тому +12

    I have spent most of my life suffering with Pure OCD, I now realize, so many years of therapy and medication and none of it ever seemed to help or actually address the problem I had no name for. I'm so grateful that this information is out there now, and it both saddens me and fills me with hope to know there are so many others like me. Thank you to everyone who ever gave support to this condition and allowed us to understand our own minds better

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @TomHarper1997
    @TomHarper1997 6 років тому +12

    This is so absolutely spot on it's unreal. I am amazed at how accurate this video portrays pure OCD.

  • @Eeriekid
    @Eeriekid 6 років тому +16

    I never thought the school of life would make a video about this. I've been struggling with this for a year now and it's been exhausting and terrifying. It's also so misunderstood in society. I'm glad you guys are educating people about what it is. Thank you

  • @littlefox3128
    @littlefox3128 3 роки тому +21

    This has helped me so much. I’m tearing up writing this. This video is exactly what I went through and it is awful. I used to cry when I woke up because when I was awake my thoughts would come back and it was a living hell. Especially the pedo one. I got very close to ending it all. But CBT helped me and watching videos like these. My art also helped me express feelings that I couldn’t put into words. I’m so grateful I’m over this, and to anyone suffering at the moment, you are not alone, i know it feels never ending but it will get better! Talk about it to someone you love or trust, I had to tell my husband that most nights I went to bed thinking that I’d murder him, he laughed. It’s okay you are NOT your ocd thoughts. Xx

  • @oldladmanmp4
    @oldladmanmp4 2 роки тому +3

    Oh my god this is amazing to hear. I was just recently able to see that I had a deep shame over my actions. I was diagnosed with ocd years ago but hearing someone else say that it’s rooted in shame makes so much sense

  • @AGSTRANGERTunisianAuthor
    @AGSTRANGERTunisianAuthor 6 років тому +281

    CBT is working like a charm for treating my pure-O. (I had tears pouring from my eyes when I first started the treatment I really couldn't believe that I was a the person I always were.) And I have to disagree with the analysis provided in the video. Because up-until my pure-o surfaced in my mind, I was indeed very in love with myself and my self-esteem was definitely robust. So the causes may not be the ones mentioned by Alan. I believe intrusive obsessive thoughts are caused by constant anxiety and pressure which is my case. Great video though. I am really surprised that it came-out in the time I am healing from my pure-O.

    • @cami9209
      @cami9209 6 років тому +24

      A.G. STRANGER Tunisian Author
      I would agree that the analysis is not sustainable for everybody who suffers from this condition. People are different, and mental illness is caused by different thaughts, mindsets and experiences. There is a problem with generalization and therapy has to meet the individual needs of a patient to truly understand and help in the curing-process.

    • @HelgaCavoli
      @HelgaCavoli 6 років тому +1

      You said you loved yourself and had robust self-esteem, but it doesn't make sense to be anxious then. Your self-analysis could have been overselling your oberall well-being.
      I mean: I disagree with your disagreement. But still am very glad you're seeking help and all. :) Truly. This is extra tiresome.

    • @AGSTRANGERTunisianAuthor
      @AGSTRANGERTunisianAuthor 6 років тому +14

      Helgali anxiety is way deeper than you think. Our brain is too complex an organ and anxiety affects it on multiple "layers" some of which are not connected directly to our conscious brain. That is to say that I wasn't consciously aware of my anxiety. But my emotional brain was wreaking havoc within me without my awareness of its deeds. I will refer you to some books if you'd like to understand more about it. This is too long to explain in just one comment. But, the contradiction will perfectly make sense once you understand how anxiety works.

    • @shis10
      @shis10 6 років тому +1

      A.G. STRANGER Tunisian Author same here bro 😟😟

    • @AGSTRANGERTunisianAuthor
      @AGSTRANGERTunisianAuthor 6 років тому +5

      shismohammad mulla stay strong brother. And use CBT actively everyday whenever those thoughts arise. Eventually, everything will be fine. It helps to remember who you were, the true you.

  • @carsonmccord6226
    @carsonmccord6226 6 років тому +360

    I just want to write this in case anybody is struggling with this. This is gonna kinda be my story with pure ocd.
    I was a freshman in high school when it got terrible, but looking back over me childhood, I can see the early warning signs. I was getting ready for school one morning and a dreaded terrible thought popped into my head. And from there it over took my life. It went 0-100 and I started thinking about suicide. I remember one day it was so bad in my history class I was shaking uncontrollably. Hell on earth. It wet on for months and I was too afraid to talk to anybody about it. One day. I talked to my dad. Told him what was going on, and my parents booked me an appointment with a psychiatrist. It was so hard to talk about it, but after a few months I began improving. Now about a couple years later I can’t say it’s gone, or that I don’t have bad days, but I can say for anybody out there it does get better. When it makes you cry, lean on those close to you. When you want to give up, think about why you are here. I don’t want to forcefully push my religion on anybody, but during that really hard time, I got closer to God. Nobody or nothing else has helped me more on the road to recovery. Instead of panic attacks every hour, now I lead a semi-normal life. I just want to say there is hope out there, even when you don’t see it.

    • @caelyn2873
      @caelyn2873 6 років тому +3

      Carson McCord This video applies to me too. My dad got me a therapist because I was cutting myself. I was too scared to talk to her because I knew she would just tell my dad everything. I want to be fixed, but now it feels like a personality trait.

    • @syedarman4720
      @syedarman4720 6 років тому +7

      I am glad to hear your story bro.I also went through the same thing and being close to God helped me a lot too..not fully but it did get a little bit better.Thank you for the last line.I will try to be hopeful

    • @bolivar1789
      @bolivar1789 6 років тому +1

      Hello Carson! Thanks a lot for taking the time to share your story and for your courage. You will help many people! I am so glad that your parents were supportive and the psychiatrist you have seen was a good one. Best wishes :- )

    • @vitorbernardes8190
      @vitorbernardes8190 6 років тому +5

      I'd love to know how God helped you, man. I'm an atheist, but I'm not being sarcastic.
      I just think that it is more plausible that you helped yourself and that acknowledging that would make you even more stronger.

    • @carsonmccord6226
      @carsonmccord6226 6 років тому +6

      Vitor Bernardes I’m going to tell you this, and every Christian you talk to will agree. For us, God is the higher power. When you can let go of your worries and insecurities, it is a peaceful thing. God, is this for me. He is that infinitely strong power that us Christians can lean on. Why worry about anything harmful when you can lean on an infinitely powerful entity as your strength. I know this sounds like bullshit to you, but it’s my strong opinion that Jesus Christ was God and that he rose again. And that he continues to be there for his people as we await his return. All this being said, I very much respect your opinion as an atheist, but I must encourage you to try to find God as a Christian man. And if you do try to find god, you might as well attend a Pentecostal Church 😉

  • @MEEPRODUCTION100
    @MEEPRODUCTION100 3 роки тому +58

    I just wanted to say this video alone has helped me succeed in taking back control of my cognitive state, Intrusive thoughts/false feelings are just emotional pranks our ego is pulling on us, we're not monsters! Just very intelligent humans looking for a reason to self destruct. I also wanted to add... The Japanese has a saying "Kintsugi" which means putting back together broken pieces with gold. In which to value an object's beauty, as well as its imperfections, focusing on them equally as something to celebrate, not disguise. You can break from this cycle. You have my word. I love you all

    • @jp-dv7et
      @jp-dv7et 3 роки тому +1

      Hey man can we talk?

  • @ranieldale4842
    @ranieldale4842 Рік тому +14

    I found this video two years ago, during the absolute worst year of my life. I honestly really appreciated it, as it helped to contextualize everything i was struggling with.
    I was dead certain I was the worst person alive, that absolute no one else could be thinking such horrible things, then I learned about what my condition really was.
    I've learned how to handle these thoughts, I've learned the difference between a thought and a want, and my life has been all the better for it. Sure I get the occasional flare up or a thought that really shakes me, but I simply repeat a little mantra, and go on with my day.
    So it does get better, no matter what, I trust that anyone reading this will come out the otherside and be a better person for it.
    (Also its kinda depressing that the replies to my original comment are filled with scams lol)

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @rain-vb1yj
    @rain-vb1yj 3 роки тому +84

    having ocd is the worst thing i've ever had to experience, ive had so many surgeries and operations, ive been ruthlessly bullied, none of it compares to the hell it is having ocd. thank you shedding light on this to neurotypicals/people without ocd.

    • @bape7372
      @bape7372 2 роки тому +5

      Yeah nothing compares. At times it literally feels like hell on earth

    • @lazysnorlax3909
      @lazysnorlax3909 Рік тому +1

      Please support me I have coined a term so that people don't feel guilty for not feeling guilty and they don't consider themselves a psychopath
      Nicesopaths are individuals who, despite initially experiencing guilt, have successfully overcome it. They have learned to embrace self-acceptance and no longer feel guilty for minor mistakes or intrusive thoughts. This term is used to celebrate their journey towards a happier and more fulfilled life.

  • @jhashfaghsdfsajdfjgsajgfas342
    @jhashfaghsdfsajdfjgsajgfas342 3 роки тому +25

    It’s never felt so clear before. I got over one of the biggest demons in my life before I had my first panic attack, sending me into an obsessive spiral of trying to find out what was wrong. It’s never felt just so easy to put into words till this video, thank you so much.

    • @1NTEN7ION
      @1NTEN7ION 3 роки тому +3

      Please stay strong because you are a truly beautiful soul :) words cannot describe your courage and integrity for fighting such trauma , I feel your pain and I stand with you 🌍🙏

  • @WonderGirl99
    @WonderGirl99 3 роки тому +27

    I wish I could somehow broadcast this to the entire world … to all my friends and family … to explain why I feel anxious the way that I do, to tell them the kind of things I’d probably never have the strength to explain, to explain to them why I distance myself or “act strange”… Thank you so much for understanding me. Thank you so much.

  • @miro6192
    @miro6192 2 роки тому +33

    Yeah so I been going through this since i was 11 years old. I am now 15. At 12 i had to go to a mental hospital and was no longer functional in society. After going through therapy and medication for the past 4 years I can tell you the cure to this illness and OCD in general is letting go. You must come to terms with ur growing up and know that you are not what you fear. In knowing this you have to let your thoughts pass. That is the only way to get better

    • @paulienvanthuyne2951
      @paulienvanthuyne2951 2 роки тому +3

      It is very clever that you can let go at this age 🫶🏻

    • @springdaydimple1006
      @springdaydimple1006 2 роки тому +7

      The simple line of “you are not what you fear” makes me cry. They just started but they are so scary. It’s a good reminder. I am not what I fear.

    • @jamelmektoub
      @jamelmektoub 2 роки тому +2

      Everything will be ok

  • @Ben-vc7br
    @Ben-vc7br 4 роки тому +48

    I've been having these absolutely awful intrusive thoughts and I was so terrified to look it up, because in my head I was sure that I'd find the only answer to be that I was schizophrenic or a psychopath or something like that.
    Well I looked it up anyway, and I'm really glad I did. This video described perfectly how I'm feeling , and it's really relieved me. Before I thought that I would just bury these thoughts inside. I was really scared whenever I saw a knife or if I got behind the wheel of a car, because I was terrified I might do something bad. I didn't want to go to therapy, because I thought I would get locked up or something. After watching this video I think I will go. I really think I have this condition (pure OCD) because it describes EXACTLY what I've been feeling. I think I'll go to a professional and see what they think.
    Edit.
    5 months later and I have a diagnosis for OCD. Thank you to this video for introducing me to OCD and getting me on my way to recovery

    • @1NTEN7ION
      @1NTEN7ION 3 роки тому +5

      Stay strong brother , you are blessed ! Please have a peaceful day today because you deserve it after all of your exhausting battles , every day feels like a marathon and you are a warrior 💯🙏

  • @saileenaway6457
    @saileenaway6457 3 роки тому +26

    3:10 I had to put my phone away for a minute when I heard that. This is the most helpful explanation of intrusive thoughts ever. It makes sense. But it's scary. Understanding it makes it less scary. Thank you. So much.
    Psychology and psychiatry are truly amazing.

  • @fibergut613
    @fibergut613 3 роки тому +66

    I too have never heard anyone describe my experience with OCD this precisely, and it feels good. Illnesses such as this one can make you feel so hopeless, but for me an many others it has gotten a lot better. Today I probably suffer less from intrusive than most, which feels surreal to say, and I definetely wouldn't have hoped for this kind of life when I was at my worst.
    I have to add though, that I personally couldn't relate to the cause of my (prior) illness being a lack of love. I know that my parents always have loved me, so I think the cause, at least for me, was more an amalgomation of things, that cannot be attributed to a single cause.

    • @giannispsillias7964
      @giannispsillias7964 3 роки тому +7

      Yes during its worst…the effects of this illness can be devastating..I couldn’t sleep for more than a month,had completely shut down and couldn’t function as a person glad i got help and feel tremendously better now really lucky I was able to kinda bounce back in a healthy way keep strong mate

    • @alexandermwenyo9082
      @alexandermwenyo9082 2 роки тому

      @@giannispsillias7964 Any advice on bouncing back?

  • @cotufasinsal
    @cotufasinsal 2 роки тому +7

    I'm glad I'm not alone. I'm glad I'm not facing all these horrible intrusive thoughts by myself. I would never wish this on anyone. i hope things get better. No matter whats happens inside your head NEVER. NEVER. UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE let those senseless thoughts define YOU. NEVER. You've never been them, You are not them, You will never be them, and i repeat myself because i need you to get this tattoed into your brain. You are not a bad person. You are not a monster. You are not crazy .Never doubt. Its NOT REAL, THOSE THOUGHTS ARE NOT REAL. Never give in. You are loved. Even if you feel like nobody could ever understand you, im here, I love you. Im rooting for you. i need you to never give up. we've been deeply scarred by this mental illness. we've cried. we've suffered. we've lost. But please dont let them take away your will to live. “you are not what you fear”. Things will get better. Stay.

  • @joshuabaker8646
    @joshuabaker8646 4 роки тому +52

    Just want to say reading these comments makes me feel a level of comfort to know I’m not the only one who suffers this bad ❤️❤️❤️❤️

    • @feelsokayman3959
      @feelsokayman3959 4 роки тому +2

      If you have OCD (compulsions and/or intrusive thoughts), do the following practice and your compulsions and intrusive thoughts WILL 100% get better and most likely even completely vanish if you apply this advice for long enough, you have to do this if you want to get better, there is no way around it:
      Meditate daily, ideally 30-60+ minutes, but you can start with 5+ minutes and work your way up. I recommend Vipassana meditation, which simply means putting your attention on the bodily sensations of breathing.
      Meditation is essentially about one thing: Practicing Awareness. Sitting meditation is an intentional, focused practice of Awareness, but it's just the beginning. You also have to practice Awareness when you are not sitting down to meditate. You basically have to meditate/practice Awareness 24/7, no matter what you are doing, no matter how many thoughts come up and no matter how much you suffer mentally and physically.
      Practicing Awareness means simply observing your thoughts and compulsions (and also emotions, sensory perceptions, bodily sensations, pain etc., basically everything you experience) in a distanced and detached way. You have to realize that you ARE the observer/the Awareness that is free from all experience. YOU ARE NOT YOUR THOUGHTS AND COMPULSIONS. You are free from your thoughts, your thoughts just fool you into believing that they are real. Thoughts are just randomly generated bullshit, don't ever worry about them and don't ever think they are more than that. Never believe ANY thoughts. YOU ARE NDo not identify with your thoughts and simply observe them from a distance. Your OCD will try to come up with all kinds of sneaky shit to draw you back into it, but NEVER give in to it, no matter what it says. Examples of sly tricks of OCD would be thoughts like "Meditation/Awareness doesn't work", "Your OCD will never go away" etc., but all these tricks only work because you let yourself get fooled by them, because you believe in them. You willingly give your power to these meaningless thoughts so that they can destroy you. See the absurdity in that. Also, never try to argue with thoughts, correct them, fight them, get rid of them etc., all of that is more tricks of OCD. You cannot solve OCD inside of the mind, only by stepping outside of it and observing it (Awareness). When you practice Meditation/Awareness, OCD will most likely try to draw you back into its grasp through anxiety and anxious reactions in the body: tension, racing heart, sweating, unease etc., also observe all of this in a detached way. Don't identify with the uncomfortable bodily sensations and believe it is you. It's all the OCD trying to trick you, trying to ruin your life. OCD is a sly fucker. OCD is threatened by Meditation and Awareness, that's why it will try to keep you from practicing them. This should be a clear signal to you that you are on the right path. Intrusive thoughts and compulsions are randomly generated and you have absolutely no control over them whatsoever, but you have the power of being able to observe them, to realize they are not you and to not worry about them, which will make them go away if you do it long enough. They only keep coming if they keep getting negative reactions from you. Fully accept and welcome all thoughts, no matter how strange or disturbing they may be. Never resist thoughts. Thoughts have no power over you as long as you don't give it to them. Never feel ashamed, disgusted or shocked by your thoughts, this fuels intrusive thoughts and compulsions immensely. Compulsions and intrusive thoughts thrive on your negative reactions to them. Simply observe them without being irritated by them.
      Meditating and constantly practicing Awareness might be very hard at first, but don't be discouraged, it will become easier and easier with time, and your OCD and all its symptoms will gradually become better. Even if thoughts still come up, they will not bother you anymore, you will just see them for the random bullshit that they are. The end goal would be to remain in Awareness 24/7, which would make you completely invulnerable to all compulsions and intrusive thoughts.
      Also, as corny as it may sound, what's even more important than Meditation and constant Awareness, and actually the most healing practice you can do, is fully and unconditionally loving yourself and everybody else and everything else in the world, even the most evil shit you can imagine, even your intrusive thoughts and compulsions. Your world and life have to become filled completely with Love. Negativity and suffering can only thrive where there is a lack of Love. Love repels negativity and suffering.
      You WILL get through this if you follow my advice consequently for a long enough time, please trust me for your own sake.
      Wishing you all the best and much love my friend. 😊❤

  • @thatstrangebuggirl4150
    @thatstrangebuggirl4150 3 роки тому +102

    My therapist always had me challenge these thoughts with “so what?” For example the thought could be “what if I don’t /truly/ believe in god, what if I’m an evil person who is some how actually lying about my belief in god? Followed up with intrusive blasphemous thoughts. The response I was told to give to that was “so what?” “So what if it’s true?” “Then what?” And then combining that with “I accept that I might actually be bad” and then learning to not focus on the what if anymore, just think “it is what it is”
    That helped me A LOT it took years of this to get better, and it was hard but it worked. Obviously everyone is different, but that’s what worked for me. I’m doing much better now. I hope I made sense, I don’t explain things very well.

    • @elyria9788
      @elyria9788 3 роки тому +10

      That is my approach. Remind myself that none of it matters and we will all be dust soon enough. This also works for panic attacks.

    • @TooDamnTall
      @TooDamnTall 2 роки тому +3

      This is what helped me before. Good ol fashioned Nihilism. I was torturing myself about these horrible thoughts I was having for so long until I watched a video about how massive our universe actually is. From that point on it was always "So what?". I can do the most horrible things in the world and one day no one will remember or care. One day there will be no one to care. Nothing I do has an effect on anything outside of my tiny localized area. It unlocked ultimate freedom for me and through that freedom I was able to focus on what I actually love which is helping people and making people laugh just because. I forgot about this until I read this comment. Thank you.

    • @josebarbosa8098
      @josebarbosa8098 2 роки тому +1

      I have the same intrusive blasphemous thoughts over and over all day every day started out of nowhere how did you stop them. God bless!

    • @thatstrangebuggirl4150
      @thatstrangebuggirl4150 2 роки тому

      @@josebarbosa8098 I had to stop giving them energy, which is really hard. The thoughts for a long time will not go away. But when you have them, you have to actively choose to ignore them. Don’t try and disprove them to yourself or argue with them, you have to at the very least pretend to not care about them. Don’t try to pray it away either. Because doing those things reinforces that thought cycle further. The longer you “stop caring” about it for the less often you’ll have them and the more you’ll actually stop caring about it. It’s going to be very uncomfortable and upsetting for a long time, but you have to ride that wave of emotion and not act on it. It gets worse before it gets better (emotionally)

    • @thatstrangebuggirl4150
      @thatstrangebuggirl4150 2 роки тому

      Allowing yourself to feel that pain and discomfort without trying to fight it off in the long run trains your brain to not believe those thoughts are a threat to you, and will make your brain stop bringing those thoughts up, and then on the occasion it does come up the anxiety and discomfort eventually will not come back. It’s all about rewiring the brain. Again it is very difficult, long, painful, but worth it. Just remember that you can do hard things!

  • @Angel-ip7pw
    @Angel-ip7pw 3 роки тому +9

    This is my favorite video on the entire internet. It’s so emotional for me

    • @1NTEN7ION
      @1NTEN7ION 3 роки тому +3

      Stay blessed brother , I appreciate you

  • @Rosesroses-o4h
    @Rosesroses-o4h 9 днів тому +1

    Thank you. OCD makes feel crazy 😧. Thank you it helps me

  • @indigo7317
    @indigo7317 6 років тому +45

    Thank you endlessly for making and posting this. I struggle with this and it has such a misunderstanding and unawareness still surrounding it.

    • @ImGoodThankYou
      @ImGoodThankYou 6 років тому +1

      Indigo hey, I’m interested to know more about it, would you be comfortable to have a chat?

    • @Eeriekid
      @Eeriekid 6 років тому +1

      I have the same thing

    • @indigo7317
      @indigo7317 6 років тому +2

      Hi! I'm not overly comfortable talking about my personal experiences, but I can recommend you to check out the Pure OCD forums at OCDAction.org.uk. I came across the site a while ago and I found that I really fit in with what others were experiencing.

    • @indigo7317
      @indigo7317 6 років тому +1

      You are braver, and kinder than you think. Stay strong x