I've noticed this while watching art competitions; art that is too pretty or positive is talked about like it's bad art. I've previously thought that my own creativity can't be classed as real art because I paint things that look happy and it doesn't have any deeper meaning to it. Then I realized that that is the meaning. I got into art more to help me to overcome some of the difficulties I was having with my mental health. I paint with the hope that things will get easier, not to dwell on the things I struggle with.
I think it's likely that they are rejecting pieces for being too kitchy, not for being too pretty, because the pretty painting can veer towards the kitchy if it doesn't have anything to distinguish it from other, similar pretty paintings, like the artist's unique vision. This, to an experienced artist, is what makes a painting good, and prettiness isn't any kind of a problem. If it were why would Watteau or Fantin-Latour still be thought of as masters of painting? Modern painting, too, does not have to be ugly. Just look at David Hockney's latest landscapes; very beautiful, but uniquely his vision. Maybe have a look at these three artists, if you like pretty art, and don't already know them. They're superb.
Have you been watching ‘Landscape Artist of the Year’ by any chance? The judges freak out if anything beautiful is put into a painting despite them being in a beautiful location fairly often and God forbid they put a bird in. They hate anything that isn’t the back end of a petrol station and a bunch of bins 🙄
@@DonnaEmerald8 Thanks for the suggestions, they're really good. I see what you mean. You can still have a unique take on a pretty painting, but it can be harder to do. Admittedly my taste in art has grown the longer I've been doing it for. You get better at seeing these things with more experience.
@@liberator2057 haha yes. The last episode I watched they mentioned the birds being a problem 😳. I understand they want to put a variety of artists and styes through, but sometimes I think they go a bit too far in avoiding anything that leans towards showing how beautiful the landscape is.
@@joo2596 my take on this, which the second comment touches on: "pretty" art isn't what I'm attracted to when I go to a museum. im not particularly attracted to the Hudson River school photo realistic propaganda paintings of the American west, but learning about their history was very interesting. "pretty" art by itself can be boring to some people because it doesn't have any kind of frame telling you anything about the author than their technical ability. but in the same vein, learning about someone's inert drive to make hundreds of similar beautiful paintings is interesting. on a local level, like going to a community gallery, seeing people painting beautiful scenes of local places is appealing, because you can relate it to your life and your perspective. I think the human mind is most interested in anthrocentric narratives, and "pretty" art doesn't necessarily give much more than a description, a bio, if you will. That being said, the context around it and how/why it was produced can become its narrative, in that way the art extends past the literal paintings etc.
I recently started going back to therapy and told my therapist the first appointment that my goal was to no longer make my grief the motivation of my healing. I was ready to be defined by something else. I journaled while watching and wrote "I want my happiness and joy to be the most interesting things about me" while listening to you This was wonderful thank you
Can relate to this. I was recently accused of “wasting my talent” on trivial subject by someone commenting on my channel and it left me so … puzzled for lack of a better term. Art doesn’t need to be political or scream trauma to be valuable. Thank you for sharing your experiences 💕
I really enjoyed this shift in your content. Adam Duff is my “art father” and you are slowly becoming my “cool, wise art auntie” (although I am sure I am at least a decade older than you) and I love it! Thanks so much for sharing 💚 This is a very lovely piece too. I especially love the movement and color of the water.
this, to me, is your most beautiful painting yet. That aside, I am so glad to have reached your channel earlier and watched you grow c: You have been the most helpful in your videos and most authentic in your voice overs. you truly are an inspiration to many c: Thank you for taking care of yourself and always looking up to better things in life. your videos brings me hope 🌷
We have a very similar chilhood, even now those problems surround my relatives. Art was my escape as a kid and young teen, but as I transitioned towards adulthood even that was taken from me by the parents who used whatever they could to control me so I'd never leave the nest and stop being their scapegoat. They blamed a child for their lives being unbalanced, the child they made. It's been... 4 years since I made anything significant? A whole year since even a single sketch? I kept being told what I made was either weird and unworthy, or that if I 'wasted so much time' on art then I needed to go to college for it to make money otherwise it was useless. I'm trying my best to dig up the happiness my art and stories used to give me, even while I stopped drawing and painting I still through the years have followed artists. I hope that means that it's still in me somewhere ❤ I finally cut off my family and moved on my own for the first time, so I hope I can now take my time to heal and rediscover that freedom art gave me.
I was like you Starry, with an added layer of homelessness at 8, ultra-conservative religious cults until I left home at 21, abuse, and (undiagnosed for decades) chronic illness. But what I can tell you, is that it gets better. It might take time, and you might feel like there's a lock on your creativity, that even when you tell yourself that you're free to be yourself, you still can't really be YOU. Believe me I've been there, it took years... However, I'm getting closer every day. I finally came out at 43 last June (imagine that!) and I've started oil painting 18 months ago after a life thinking I wasn't good enough. It gets better. Surround yourself with things, people, art that elevate you, that give you strength and purpose. You can draw dark stuff, you can draw light stuff, but whatever you do, do it for you. You went through your childhood and made it to the other side. You're a hero, and you deserve the art that makes you feel like a hero. Make art for you. It's your gift. You left the people and situations that were limiting you. You did the hardest part already! We all deserve it. ❤
Beautiful artwork. As someone who has also suffered a great deal of trauma in my youth, its nice seeing a fellow artist use their art to heal instead of ruminate. There is a time for analysis of past events, but living in the gentle, comforting present is what life is really about. Slow, steady positive growth and fostering good connections and experiences. Thanks for sharing! Your work is always inspiring and i like seeing more of yourself instead of just business stuff, although that is also very much appreciated.
i clicked on this video solely because of the painting, i think it's absolutely stunning. what i especially like about it is the round canvas, the amazing color palette, and - what originally caught my attention - the almost linework-like quality of the bigger rocks. there's something really juicy in this combination and it works super well. i could stare at it for a very long time. thanks for sharing
Great video. I’ve always found art as refuge for me for hard times in my life. Building that relationship for my creativity and expression is one of the best parts about life. No matter what no one can take away your passion, imagination and creativity.
I’m so with you in terms of being down re-living and regurgitating the trauma. I’m ready to be happy! Art definitely helps me move forward to happiness! Thanks for the video!
Aww Kelsey, I love your new video style! Listening to your thoughts and feelings is so comfortable and inspiring. I feel the same about the quote you shared and I think maybe we have forgotten to see that the true depth lies in everything that is beautiful about being human and not in the stuff that diverges from being human. I e.g. create watercolour character illustrations that could be placed in a childrens book, but to me, these illustrations are much more about appreciating the sensitivity and simplicity of the soul and the inner child. A way to express the sensitive worlds of HSP or autistic humans and the strength and beauty that comes with it, which is often denied by environments that don't match their needs. So what you said deeply resonated with me. Anyways, kudos from a fellow artist.
There are definitely popular works of major artists that focused on happier things like luncheons, countrysides, family portraits and water lillies. I think what people are after is just to feel moved in some way or capture a moment. Sometimes it's not the subject but rather the execution that makes waves. It's great having other avenues for expressing those darker feelings too like dancing, writing or singing ❤
I appreciate this video so much, it made me tear up... Moving out has made me realize that my instable 'childhood-situation' forced me to hide my truest self. I was always eager for finding an art style and my "meaning", when the truth is that my art has always been a coping mechanism, a place I could escape to... Creating art enabled me to keep the deepest, most authentic parts of myself alive whilst pretending to be someone else to stay safe Looking back to my past has always been difficult to me. And for a long time I thought I needed to actively incorporate the trauma in my art for it to be "real" art. When the most honest art I can create is still some sort of escapism. And that's okay. Art not having a concrete "meaning" can be the meaning in itself. It's okay to just create, have fun and let the art patch up your wounds unconsiously. I realized that art has been my best friend, my caretaker and my biggest supporter. Might sound crazy but I always felt like art would be there for me when noone else was. Art was comforting me when noone else would, art hugged me and patched me up, when noone else was there to take care. Art is my best friend, my family and possibly the reason I made it into adulthood. And I'm so thankful for that.
Kelsey I recently found your channel and so much of it has been so helpful and inspiring. I am an aspiring illustrator/artist and there are many times I struggle, but your videos always get me back on track and inspired again. Thanks so much. This painting and video is beautiful ❤️
I know we shouldn't judge people too quickly but often I find myself thinking that I can't reproduce the success of others because it seems that they have a nice background of overall security. Watching your success is reassuring. I've always thought you are brave and deserving of your success. I didn't know about your backstory but it explains why I've felt that way about you. Wish you the best!
Aww Kelsey this was such a nice video all around. It’s so nice seeing your art process and hearing you open up and be vulnerable. You’re so strong and I’m so proud of you 🤗!
I love the intro with the sea ❤ so peaceful and beautiful. Overall this video resonates with me specially during this rather weird time in my life. I want to be happy and have adventures and travel and just live ✨
Thank you for sharing. Your story enlightened me in a way I needed and did not expect. This is probably my favorite video of yours and perhaps favorite painting too. Can´t wait for the next artist diary and more hiking paintings!
This really resonated with me - "The art that I make today exists in total contrast to all of that (evil and trauma)" And I'd like to add for you, me and anyone else who is going or went through trauma: sharing it isn't to get someone's pity or profiting on it, sharing it helps us taking control over the narrative and processing every shit storm that happened. Obviously there is a time and space but everyone pls share your traumas, it helps you and the ones that hear it feel more understood and connected and ultimately creates a safer world for everyone.
Thanks for affirming we can paint just for fun and happiness! And thanks for sharing the more personal stuff with us, it's always inspiring to see people who have dealt with adversity and watch them become an inspiration, which is what you are for me
That is really good! Thanks for sharing a bit of yourself as well as your art because you are a work of art yourself. I'm sort of an aspiring artist myself and I struggle to delve into it, but your videos motivate me to just take even baby steps in the right direction. ❤
I wholeheartedly love your business content, but this is amazing and I really would love more videos like this! This really moved me, thank you for sharing.
I love your motivation and meaning. I feel the same. As an older mom I want to express joy to my adult kids and others rather than focus on my traumas. Much love 💕
Your words are so true. Your message is so beautiful. Your art is incredible. Thomas Kincaid and Norman Rockwell are two examples of amazing artists who were panned by the critics for the very reason you expressed: Because their art was beautiful and radiated with the joy of life and of living. Thank you, Kelsey.
thank you for sharing this story and painting, I can't emphasize enough how important this message is. I've been in recovery from mental health stuff for a few years now, and this video came at exactly the right time for me. I honestly never make comments online, so I wanted to say thank you for being such a fabulous inspiration in so many aspects.
Love this!! I agree that happiness and recovery can have a lot of depth. This is something I've been working on myself especially when it comes to writing artist's statements. Presence and joy in a changing world is so great. I would love to see more videos like this from your channel :) Happy 2024!
Kelsey this painting is absolutely stunning, I'm in awe 🫠. Thank you for sharing the perspective and painting process with us! Love this style of video. 💞💞💞
this makes me feel so many things about the work that I made to get into graduate school, and then didn't get in. it was all such a big ode to Trauma and I think that had a lot to do with the expectations of fitting into prestige and the deeply conceptual requirements of the Art World. the choice to make work for the sake of joy and being excited about making it is really liberating. It also makes me think that work that documents these joyful moments is such a good balm to the negativity and hopelessness that we accidentally consume too much of on the internet.
This video is awesome! I really love the painting. I'm very happy for your success in your personal journey, too, and glad to hear from someone else who also gets it.
I really like this video! It’s very different from your other videos but I feel like it works. It actually helped me with other things then just the business side of art. Thank you!
I love this style of video and this is my favorite painting I've seen by you! I grew up with similar themes, and this commentary helped me see my own growth, personally and as an artist. In college, my art was loved by my classmates but my art professor criticized it for not having a clear meaning or story. His art was black and white, very dark and melancholy, while mine was colorful and exaggerated. Maybe he was looking for the pain in a space I cultivated for healing and happiness in a time when those resources were scarce for me. I find this video affirming and inspiring, thank you for sharing!
Finding happiness in the process is always secretive. Even when shown, your inner workings are the reason, method, and progressive conclusion that'll never be known.
This is a beautiful painting. I have been following you for a while and your growth has been amazing and inspiring! As a new artist you have given me so much hope. 😊
You inspired with your amazing thoughts! I believe in the same :) Looved your painting 👌 I have started painting to keep an art journal, not business but I get the feeling! May you keep shining alwayz!✨️🍀🌈
I love it❤ i love your version so much better! It came out so good! You dont need to change a thing, including the foreground. It looks as it should, beautiful.
Thank you for sharing this. It definitely gave me something to think about, as I have a lot of future art planned that revolves around trauma. For me it's not about that it defines me, though - I know it doesn't, even though it's still a very, very large part of me. But I've wanted to make art around it because I want to share how it feels, not for me personally, but for others going through trauma. I've noticed that I absolutely love it when I can recognize myself in something. I'm easily drawn towards trauma topics because the happy-clappy pink unicorn cloud world some people seem to live in is about as real to me as fairytales. And I want to show other people that they aren't alone in the way they feel. I also want to show the larger society what trauma feels like and what it can look like so that if they happen to know and love someone with trauma, they can - hopefully - more easily understand. Also, I just gotta say, when you said you realized you hadn't thought about it in a while, I almost started crying. I'm so happy for you. I also have friends who don't know that I've been through trauma, but for me, my trauma is still impacting me so much that I feel like I can't fully be myself around those who don't know. I hope I can one day get to where you are now, and I think it is so beautiful, the idea of making art inspired by healing and light and hope, and not just the trauma and the dark stuff.
i genuinely think the pursuit of happiness & peace is an extremely worthy goal & honestly takes a higher level of maturity than the life of misery & reliving all the suffering & parts of yourself you dislike. it can be intellectually lazy to simply wallow & never figure out how to heal. im not saying healing is easy, it's very much not; but to heal is to rebel against the evils done to you or that you feel within you! i think there is beautiful cathartic art out there but to me i would agree with you that the greatest catharsis is to pursue happiness despite it all
Art doesn't have to be born of suffering to be worth something! You hit the nail on the head. I'm an art major and I wish I could throw this video in my professors' faces😄 During one particularly hard painting course, I tried to paint what I liked in a way that was "meaningful" enough for my professor and I always felt hollow doing those pieces. I eventually made paintings about my insecurities about my coily hair and another about a mental breakdown I was having, and I was low-key disappointed that the reactions to those were relatively good. Even though those are both parts of me I care about, I still felt hollow not painting what I loved. My final painting that year was a giant flower with clouds behind it because those were both subjects I loved painting. I'll never forget my professor's response: "well do we have the right to just paint flowers?" (the way I had to keep my rage in check when he said that). He just kept insinuating that we don’t have the right to paint unless we're trying to change the world or highlight suffering. In reality, we get constant information about how horrifying the world can be all the time, so one of the main reasons I paint is to remind me that there's also still joy and beauty here worth getting out of bed and fighting for. Especially on days where I'm struggling with my mental health, that reminder is so important to me. I couldn't stand my profs perpetuating this myth that only suffering is intellectual, so I decided not to do the final painting course of my program (so glad I have enough credits to graduate without it). Thanks for making me feel seen with this video, Kelsey! Your painting looks great!
Such beautiful video, art and content! I felt as if I'm watching an artist and listening to an author and a reflector! You carried me to the top of those mountains, as a seagull.. This video is a great combination of art and reflection and wisdom. I would love to see more videos like this whenever it is possible for you. Have a great life and career 😊🧡 Thank you
My goodness, it's difficult to find someone who you can relate with in every aspect but it's like I could've made this voiceover myself. How did we grow up the same. I even have hashimotos too! I thought I was floored hearing that in your other video but wow what a connection. Thanks for being vulnerable, and I always look forward to your content. You've inspired me so much in the past few months to start my journey ♥️
As an empath who absorbes the emotions and energy of everything around me I completely relate to having things be too much sometimes and art not needing to have a deep political meaning. Art can just be art for the sake of art. It only needs to benefit the person who is making it.
I've always loved making things as an escape, I can relate to your situation and I loved expressing myself through art and getting a sense of achievement. Unfortunately the last few years I have fallen out of a routine of making things due to physical health problems and the resulting lack of work/ education to hold me accountable, I've been stuck in a freeze mode of really wanting to make things but overthinking it and getting scared of not being able to do as good a job as I used to and then feeling bad about myself because my art was where I got a lot of self esteem. I'm really hoping to get better at creating my own plans and sticking yo them for me. (Fingers crossed my new adhd meds help with this lol) thank you for sharing, I find your videos really helpful ❤
This video was so inspiring and listening to you gave me some beautiful comfort, so I want to say thank you for sharing. I gotta say, I believe your words are one of your greatest talents. If you publish a book one day, I’ll be a very happy person. 💙☺️
it’s so strange how our lives can mirror interests, how you can internalise someone’s psyche to understand why but you will never be someone else, and thereby.. you can never know why. Maybe because we see a point in life we don’t see a quest, it’s only more doors that open, more ways to examine. And sometimes it’s more important to live than to understand. To contemplate, not think, to listen, not judge.
This is really how I felt while coming out of a depressive state during college!! I was genuinely finding happiness and would feel bad about it due to this idea of “if I make positive art, it won’t be as ‘meaningful’ anymore”. But I think it was an easy idea to overcome because…well, it was life-saving to not be depressed anymore, so #1 I will not sacrifice my health for my art and #2 the fact that joy is life saving…doesn’t that prove how impactful and meaningful it is? It’s a belief I’ve kept since, that positivity and joy is as important as negativity and darkness. Ngl, I’ve been deeply depressed again and cannot will myself to make cheerful art like I used to, but I think it’s incredibly empowering of you to make ur art ur sign of resilience or just a peaceful haven to exist in! I want to make darker artwork not because it’s “better” than lighthearted ones, but because I feel that this would be a healthy way for me to let this heaviness out. For each person to use art that feels true to u, best serves u, I think that is the right way to do it!
yeah we both had crappy childhoods, and I dont hide it but I also dont try to let it affect my current life or my art (it did A LOT during emo Jen age tho lol). but im glad i am getting the help I need and am starting to set needed boundaries 🙂
Honestly, I am so glad you posted this video. I don't know if you'll ever see this comment, but I have had so much happen to me throughout my life. I am currently a Sociology/Criminal Justice/Criminology major, and I have recently had a very traumatic experience with my family. I have been learning how to be a person, doing things I genuinely want to do, finding enjoyment in life, and learning how to endure hardship. I had a very similar childhood to you, and I have just started counseling and getting help and it is honestly so freeing to work through this stuff. I am learning to enjoy my art and the process and not just how it looks and putting pressure on myself to be good. So, thank you. You are very inspiring.
You know, watching this video, somehow made me realize something. I started drawing with the goal of one day being able to express myself trough it, being able to convey an idea, feelings or even something silly trough it, and I was beating myself over because I felt my lack of skill wouldn't allow myself to do it, that's when I realized, I was already doing it, even by just practising drawing cubes, and sharing it online while venting about how I'm incapable of drawing a straight line to save my life, I was doing it, I was expressing myself..... maybe not in the most flashy or inspiring way ever, but I was doing it.... You don't even need to be good at art to do it, just make art, any art, regardless of how bad it turns out, even if you never share it, do it and it will be enough. Although after this realization I'm left wondering, what now? I mean, I'm happy, this won't last forever of course, happyness is never permanent, just some kind of state that we get in and out of. Hell even this freaking comment is a form of expression, I feel like I'm conveying my feelings trough pure text better than I ever could with a drawing. Sometimes you've already acheived your goal, you just have not acheived it in the way you expected. (Oh, and thanks for the epiphany, btw.) This was great, but right now. I want to rest, I think I deserve it. Logic dictates that when you acheive a goal, you get a reward after all.
I love your art videos and business talks. It contains so much useful information that I can use. I have a question how do you deal with stagnation in art, where it seems you are not improving in spite of all the exercises/ practices done.
I want your message to be shouted from the rooftops!!!! I had a proposal I wrote be reviewed before submission and the reviewer told me to focus on the trauma of my ancestors. I was pissed off! My work has nothing to do with any sort of trauma and all the focus in todays world is about the attention and money that given to the people advertising the biggest victimhood (real or otherwise). We need to step back from that and celebrate positive arts too.
I came from the AI video and I can of get it now. I think the problem is just the definition of art in English: something that looks good. In spanish is a way of expresion, wich means to do something that it needs to have a message, a feeling or an idea. And also that's why you see some future in the AI art.
I don't know if this will strike any relevance. Since you started with a quote, I thought I might end with one. It's about writing, and it's by Toni Morrison. If you substitute the words about writing to painting words, I think you might find this relates: ''There are certain emotions that are useful for the construction of a text, and some are too small. Anger is too tiny an emotion to use when you're writing, and compassion is too sloppy. Almost everything that makes you want to write, or feel like writing, is not useful in the act of writing. So it's the mediation between those two states, the compulsion and all those feelings, that make you compelled.''
I say this with full understanding that you are a stranger on the internet and you mentioning the things you mentioned about your childhood does not mean I know you and I do not think that I do and maybe admitting this in a public space is a bad idea, but I have to do it, because yes, me too. My mother had munchausens by proxy and my father was a drunk and that isn't by far all of it. My step parents were not better. And my art represents the same things only mine leans towards "ewww, gross!" being mostly horror related. But like. I do it 'cause I like too. It's not deep. It's just cool. And I just had to say so 'cause it's cool seeing someone else doing art the same way. Also, your painting is lovely.
Youre badass! Im in recovery myself. Approaching 3 years. Im a colorblind oil painter aspiring in hyperrealistic portraits. All my work is related to death and dying. Love your work! Are you on iG?
I just lost my job, I'm not sure if I should pursue art kinda like Leigh Ellexson did. I like making art, but I'm scared it won't financially support me, so I'm kind of in a limbo. It's something that takes time to pursue and gain a following and I'm not sure if I can do that. I don't know what to do
I think it is great that you get joy out of painting and that you do it for the sake of the beauty. But I believe it is also beautiful and brave for some one to use their deepest emotions to create a price of art to express a deeper meaning as well. I as well had a very rough childhood, and a toxic family, and it may not define who I am, but I would not be who I am today if I denied that. Perhaps your adult life is filled with enough ease that you aren't triggered by the past as much, but pushing it down and not talking about it, doesn't make those things disappear. I feel like this video illustrated this strange concept that you don't have to work through trama but ignore it, you can just not tell your current friends and some how that means it doesn't make you who you are today, or perhaps just that you don't know how to open up to the people in your life now? I am not sure which you are or which path it is you are taking but it sounds like a lot of denial on the pain from that childhood because I can't imagine being my authentic self at the same time hiding my past from all my current loved ones in the moment. Not to say you should tell everyone but this video really hit my heart, made me feel like you are trying to tell people who have massive trama from childhood that you can just ignore it and it won't affect you. Every book on the subject says that when you push down all those emotions, they will boil up later when you least expect them. I use to shove it all down and I thought I was totally fine, then I had kids and all those past issues came flooding back and suddenly I realized I had been lying to myself, that life wasn't hard enough to pull these issues out till now or more so, I distracted my self good enough that I didn't have to face it....and I really hope that doesn't happen to you because it seems like you are living your 20s not thinking deeply or feeling all your emotions or being honest to the new friends you have now. Perhaps I misunderstood what you were trying to to say because I don't know your full life but you are giving bad mental health advice and making it seem super easy to be cool after a bad childhood and that doesn't help the people out there who have had similar problems...all it is doing to trying to make trama nothing to worry about and that you should just get over it because ignoring it works for you.. that is not the reality of psychology. And btw neither is it not good to look away from politics because it is too hard...life is hard, that doesn't mean you don't live it...the reason that people in Gaza are suffering so is because no one saw what was happening till now and God I hope we stop finding this genocide..what if a piece of art could help people see what is happening and actually change some thing for the better in this world? There is nothing wrong with pretty art but don't discount the power art can have on society, it can change the world and has in the past ...if you turn a blind eye to the world then you are a part of the problem. People are fundamentally good but for evil to triumph all you need is indifference in good people.... I hope this made you think about what kind of message you are sending and perhaps to think more deeply about who you really are, stop trying to make a sweet cute video and make a video that is truthful and insightful, because this was not. I hope I see your authentic self one day.
I've noticed this while watching art competitions; art that is too pretty or positive is talked about like it's bad art. I've previously thought that my own creativity can't be classed as real art because I paint things that look happy and it doesn't have any deeper meaning to it. Then I realized that that is the meaning. I got into art more to help me to overcome some of the difficulties I was having with my mental health. I paint with the hope that things will get easier, not to dwell on the things I struggle with.
I think it's likely that they are rejecting pieces for being too kitchy, not for being too pretty, because the pretty painting can veer towards the kitchy if it doesn't have anything to distinguish it from other, similar pretty paintings, like the artist's unique vision. This, to an experienced artist, is what makes a painting good, and prettiness isn't any kind of a problem. If it were why would Watteau or Fantin-Latour still be thought of as masters of painting? Modern painting, too, does not have to be ugly. Just look at David Hockney's latest landscapes; very beautiful, but uniquely his vision. Maybe have a look at these three artists, if you like pretty art, and don't already know them. They're superb.
Have you been watching ‘Landscape Artist of the Year’ by any chance? The judges freak out if anything beautiful is put into a painting despite them being in a beautiful location fairly often and God forbid they put a bird in. They hate anything that isn’t the back end of a petrol station and a bunch of bins 🙄
@@DonnaEmerald8 Thanks for the suggestions, they're really good. I see what you mean. You can still have a unique take on a pretty painting, but it can be harder to do. Admittedly my taste in art has grown the longer I've been doing it for. You get better at seeing these things with more experience.
@@liberator2057 haha yes. The last episode I watched they mentioned the birds being a problem 😳. I understand they want to put a variety of artists and styes through, but sometimes I think they go a bit too far in avoiding anything that leans towards showing how beautiful the landscape is.
@@joo2596 my take on this, which the second comment touches on:
"pretty" art isn't what I'm attracted to when I go to a museum. im not particularly attracted to the Hudson River school photo realistic propaganda paintings of the American west, but learning about their history was very interesting.
"pretty" art by itself can be boring to some people because it doesn't have any kind of frame telling you anything about the author than their technical ability. but in the same vein, learning about someone's inert drive to make hundreds of similar beautiful paintings is interesting.
on a local level, like going to a community gallery, seeing people painting beautiful scenes of local places is appealing, because you can relate it to your life and your perspective. I think the human mind is most interested in anthrocentric narratives, and "pretty" art doesn't necessarily give much more than a description, a bio, if you will. That being said, the context around it and how/why it was produced can become its narrative, in that way the art extends past the literal paintings etc.
I recently started going back to therapy and told my therapist the first appointment that my goal was to no longer make my grief the motivation of my healing. I was ready to be defined by something else.
I journaled while watching and wrote "I want my happiness and joy to be the most interesting things about me" while listening to you
This was wonderful thank you
Can relate to this. I was recently accused of “wasting my talent” on trivial subject by someone commenting on my channel and it left me so … puzzled for lack of a better term. Art doesn’t need to be political or scream trauma to be valuable. Thank you for sharing your experiences 💕
I really enjoyed this shift in your content. Adam Duff is my “art father” and you are slowly becoming my “cool, wise art auntie” (although I am sure I am at least a decade older than you) and I love it! Thanks so much for sharing 💚
This is a very lovely piece too. I especially love the movement and color of the water.
I always knew it was me
this, to me, is your most beautiful painting yet. That aside, I am so glad to have reached your channel earlier and watched you grow c: You have been the most helpful in your videos and most authentic in your voice overs. you truly are an inspiration to many c: Thank you for taking care of yourself and always looking up to better things in life. your videos brings me hope 🌷
We have a very similar chilhood, even now those problems surround my relatives. Art was my escape as a kid and young teen, but as I transitioned towards adulthood even that was taken from me by the parents who used whatever they could to control me so I'd never leave the nest and stop being their scapegoat. They blamed a child for their lives being unbalanced, the child they made.
It's been... 4 years since I made anything significant? A whole year since even a single sketch? I kept being told what I made was either weird and unworthy, or that if I 'wasted so much time' on art then I needed to go to college for it to make money otherwise it was useless.
I'm trying my best to dig up the happiness my art and stories used to give me, even while I stopped drawing and painting I still through the years have followed artists. I hope that means that it's still in me somewhere ❤ I finally cut off my family and moved on my own for the first time, so I hope I can now take my time to heal and rediscover that freedom art gave me.
I was like you Starry, with an added layer of homelessness at 8, ultra-conservative religious cults until I left home at 21, abuse, and (undiagnosed for decades) chronic illness.
But what I can tell you, is that it gets better. It might take time, and you might feel like there's a lock on your creativity, that even when you tell yourself that you're free to be yourself, you still can't really be YOU. Believe me I've been there, it took years... However, I'm getting closer every day.
I finally came out at 43 last June (imagine that!) and I've started oil painting 18 months ago after a life thinking I wasn't good enough. It gets better. Surround yourself with things, people, art that elevate you, that give you strength and purpose.
You can draw dark stuff, you can draw light stuff, but whatever you do, do it for you. You went through your childhood and made it to the other side. You're a hero, and you deserve the art that makes you feel like a hero. Make art for you. It's your gift. You left the people and situations that were limiting you. You did the hardest part already!
We all deserve it. ❤
Beautiful artwork. As someone who has also suffered a great deal of trauma in my youth, its nice seeing a fellow artist use their art to heal instead of ruminate. There is a time for analysis of past events, but living in the gentle, comforting present is what life is really about. Slow, steady positive growth and fostering good connections and experiences. Thanks for sharing! Your work is always inspiring and i like seeing more of yourself instead of just business stuff, although that is also very much appreciated.
i clicked on this video solely because of the painting, i think it's absolutely stunning. what i especially like about it is the round canvas, the amazing color palette, and - what originally caught my attention - the almost linework-like quality of the bigger rocks. there's something really juicy in this combination and it works super well. i could stare at it for a very long time. thanks for sharing
True, the painting attracted me too, so I clicked to discover more about it...👍👍
Great video. I’ve always found art as refuge for me for hard times in my life. Building that relationship for my creativity and expression is one of the best parts about life. No matter what no one can take away your passion, imagination and creativity.
I’m so with you in terms of being down re-living and regurgitating the trauma. I’m ready to be happy! Art definitely helps me move forward to happiness! Thanks for the video!
I agree with you that sometimes the message of art is just to be beautiful
Aww Kelsey, I love your new video style! Listening to your thoughts and feelings is so comfortable and inspiring. I feel the same about the quote you shared and I think maybe we have forgotten to see that the true depth lies in everything that is beautiful about being human and not in the stuff that diverges from being human. I e.g. create watercolour character illustrations that could be placed in a childrens book, but to me, these illustrations are much more about appreciating the sensitivity and simplicity of the soul and the inner child. A way to express the sensitive worlds of HSP or autistic humans and the strength and beauty that comes with it, which is often denied by environments that don't match their needs. So what you said deeply resonated with me. Anyways, kudos from a fellow artist.
I want to see more of these videos!!! I need them, i need this truth, i need this intimacy, i need this happy place ❤
There are definitely popular works of major artists that focused on happier things like luncheons, countrysides, family portraits and water lillies. I think what people are after is just to feel moved in some way or capture a moment. Sometimes it's not the subject but rather the execution that makes waves.
It's great having other avenues for expressing those darker feelings too like dancing, writing or singing ❤
I appreciate this video so much, it made me tear up...
Moving out has made me realize that my instable 'childhood-situation' forced me to hide my truest self. I was always eager for finding an art style and my "meaning", when the truth is that my art has always been a coping mechanism, a place I could escape to... Creating art enabled me to keep the deepest, most authentic parts of myself alive whilst pretending to be someone else to stay safe
Looking back to my past has always been difficult to me. And for a long time I thought I needed to actively incorporate the trauma in my art for it to be "real" art. When the most honest art I can create is still some sort of escapism. And that's okay.
Art not having a concrete "meaning" can be the meaning in itself. It's okay to just create, have fun and let the art patch up your wounds unconsiously.
I realized that art has been my best friend, my caretaker and my biggest supporter. Might sound crazy but I always felt like art would be there for me when noone else was. Art was comforting me when noone else would, art hugged me and patched me up, when noone else was there to take care.
Art is my best friend, my family and possibly the reason I made it into adulthood. And I'm so thankful for that.
Kelsey I recently found your channel and so much of it has been so helpful and inspiring. I am an aspiring illustrator/artist and there are many times I struggle, but your videos always get me back on track and inspired again. Thanks so much. This painting and video is beautiful ❤️
I love your Artist Diaries. Thank you so much for sharing your thoughts and your beautiful art.
I’m astonished your able to find the time to write a 20 minute script once a week for over a year
It’s beautiful, Kelsey. Thank you for sharing
Very honest, very reliable. I've been through the same process.
You are brave and pure to make this statement.
I know we shouldn't judge people too quickly but often I find myself thinking that I can't reproduce the success of others because it seems that they have a nice background of overall security. Watching your success is reassuring. I've always thought you are brave and deserving of your success. I didn't know about your backstory but it explains why I've felt that way about you. Wish you the best!
Aww Kelsey this was such a nice video all around. It’s so nice seeing your art process and hearing you open up and be vulnerable. You’re so strong and I’m so proud of you 🤗!
Such a beautiful painting. Your personal conversation and sharing wisdom is related to growing as an artist. So so good. Blessings
I love the intro with the sea ❤ so peaceful and beautiful. Overall this video resonates with me specially during this rather weird time in my life. I want to be happy and have adventures and travel and just live ✨
I love this video. I have been searching for artists speaking about their motivation why they do art and there are not a lot of them out there.
Thank you for sharing. Your story enlightened me in a way I needed and did not expect. This is probably my favorite video of yours and perhaps favorite painting too. Can´t wait for the next artist diary and more hiking paintings!
This really resonated with me - "The art that I make today exists in total contrast to all of that (evil and trauma)" And I'd like to add for you, me and anyone else who is going or went through trauma: sharing it isn't to get someone's pity or profiting on it, sharing it helps us taking control over the narrative and processing every shit storm that happened. Obviously there is a time and space but everyone pls share your traumas, it helps you and the ones that hear it feel more understood and connected and ultimately creates a safer world for everyone.
Thanks for affirming we can paint just for fun and happiness! And thanks for sharing the more personal stuff with us, it's always inspiring to see people who have dealt with adversity and watch them become an inspiration, which is what you are for me
That is really good! Thanks for sharing a bit of yourself as well as your art because you are a work of art yourself. I'm sort of an aspiring artist myself and I struggle to delve into it, but your videos motivate me to just take even baby steps in the right direction. ❤
Thank you for bearing your soul. You are not alone 💕💕💕
I adore this painting and enjoyed the more personal type video. Thanks Kelsey!
I wholeheartedly love your business content, but this is amazing and I really would love more videos like this! This really moved me, thank you for sharing.
I love your motivation and meaning. I feel the same. As an older mom I want to express joy to my adult kids and others rather than focus on my traumas. Much love 💕
My favourite painting of yours so far!
Your words are so true. Your message is so beautiful. Your art is incredible. Thomas Kincaid and Norman Rockwell are two examples of amazing artists who were panned by the critics for the very reason you expressed: Because their art was beautiful and radiated with the joy of life and of living. Thank you, Kelsey.
thank you for sharing this story and painting, I can't emphasize enough how important this message is. I've been in recovery from mental health stuff for a few years now, and this video came at exactly the right time for me. I honestly never make comments online, so I wanted to say thank you for being such a fabulous inspiration in so many aspects.
Love this!! I agree that happiness and recovery can have a lot of depth. This is something I've been working on myself especially when it comes to writing artist's statements. Presence and joy in a changing world is so great. I would love to see more videos like this from your channel :) Happy 2024!
your painting came out so BEAUTIFUL!!!!
This was really relaxing and fresh, thank you for sharing your stories and making my day better :)
Kelsey this painting is absolutely stunning, I'm in awe 🫠. Thank you for sharing the perspective and painting process with us! Love this style of video. 💞💞💞
this makes me feel so many things about the work that I made to get into graduate school, and then didn't get in. it was all such a big ode to Trauma and I think that had a lot to do with the expectations of fitting into prestige and the deeply conceptual requirements of the Art World. the choice to make work for the sake of joy and being excited about making it is really liberating. It also makes me think that work that documents these joyful moments is such a good balm to the negativity and hopelessness that we accidentally consume too much of on the internet.
This video is awesome! I really love the painting. I'm very happy for your success in your personal journey, too, and glad to hear from someone else who also gets it.
I really like this video! It’s very different from your other videos but I feel like it works. It actually helped me with other things then just the business side of art. Thank you!
I love this style of video and this is my favorite painting I've seen by you! I grew up with similar themes, and this commentary helped me see my own growth, personally and as an artist. In college, my art was loved by my classmates but my art professor criticized it for not having a clear meaning or story. His art was black and white, very dark and melancholy, while mine was colorful and exaggerated. Maybe he was looking for the pain in a space I cultivated for healing and happiness in a time when those resources were scarce for me. I find this video affirming and inspiring, thank you for sharing!
Finding happiness in the process is always secretive. Even when shown, your inner workings are the reason, method, and progressive conclusion that'll never be known.
This is a beautiful painting. I have been following you for a while and your growth has been amazing and inspiring! As a new artist you have given me so much hope. 😊
Sometimes I think you have to go through s*it to be able to see and appreciate the beautiful things, the little things. Thank you for your openness! 🧡
I really like this type of video Kelsey. I like your business videos too, but this one just hits different! 💜😊
You inspired with your amazing thoughts! I believe in the same :)
Looved your painting 👌
I have started painting to keep an art journal, not business but I get the feeling!
May you keep shining alwayz!✨️🍀🌈
I love it❤ i love your version so much better! It came out so good! You dont need to change a thing, including the foreground. It looks as it should, beautiful.
Thank you for sharing this. It definitely gave me something to think about, as I have a lot of future art planned that revolves around trauma. For me it's not about that it defines me, though - I know it doesn't, even though it's still a very, very large part of me. But I've wanted to make art around it because I want to share how it feels, not for me personally, but for others going through trauma. I've noticed that I absolutely love it when I can recognize myself in something. I'm easily drawn towards trauma topics because the happy-clappy pink unicorn cloud world some people seem to live in is about as real to me as fairytales. And I want to show other people that they aren't alone in the way they feel. I also want to show the larger society what trauma feels like and what it can look like so that if they happen to know and love someone with trauma, they can - hopefully - more easily understand.
Also, I just gotta say, when you said you realized you hadn't thought about it in a while, I almost started crying. I'm so happy for you. I also have friends who don't know that I've been through trauma, but for me, my trauma is still impacting me so much that I feel like I can't fully be myself around those who don't know. I hope I can one day get to where you are now, and I think it is so beautiful, the idea of making art inspired by healing and light and hope, and not just the trauma and the dark stuff.
i genuinely think the pursuit of happiness & peace is an extremely worthy goal & honestly takes a higher level of maturity than the life of misery & reliving all the suffering & parts of yourself you dislike. it can be intellectually lazy to simply wallow & never figure out how to heal. im not saying healing is easy, it's very much not; but to heal is to rebel against the evils done to you or that you feel within you! i think there is beautiful cathartic art out there but to me i would agree with you that the greatest catharsis is to pursue happiness despite it all
Art doesn't have to be born of suffering to be worth something! You hit the nail on the head. I'm an art major and I wish I could throw this video in my professors' faces😄
During one particularly hard painting course, I tried to paint what I liked in a way that was "meaningful" enough for my professor and I always felt hollow doing those pieces. I eventually made paintings about my insecurities about my coily hair and another about a mental breakdown I was having, and I was low-key disappointed that the reactions to those were relatively good. Even though those are both parts of me I care about, I still felt hollow not painting what I loved.
My final painting that year was a giant flower with clouds behind it because those were both subjects I loved painting. I'll never forget my professor's response: "well do we have the right to just paint flowers?" (the way I had to keep my rage in check when he said that).
He just kept insinuating that we don’t have the right to paint unless we're trying to change the world or highlight suffering.
In reality, we get constant information about how horrifying the world can be all the time, so one of the main reasons I paint is to remind me that there's also still joy and beauty here worth getting out of bed and fighting for. Especially on days where I'm struggling with my mental health, that reminder is so important to me.
I couldn't stand my profs perpetuating this myth that only suffering is intellectual, so I decided not to do the final painting course of my program (so glad I have enough credits to graduate without it).
Thanks for making me feel seen with this video, Kelsey! Your painting looks great!
This video resonated with me so much. Thank you Kelsey! And that's such a beautiful painting too 😊💜
Such beautiful video, art and content! I felt as if I'm watching an artist and listening to an author and a reflector! You carried me to the top of those mountains, as a seagull.. This video is a great combination of art and reflection and wisdom. I would love to see more videos like this whenever it is possible for you. Have a great life and career 😊🧡 Thank you
Preach. I have the exact same feeling about art and why I create it.
Thank you for your videos and your inspiration. Your art is beautiful! Thank you for sharing it
My goodness, it's difficult to find someone who you can relate with in every aspect but it's like I could've made this voiceover myself. How did we grow up the same. I even have hashimotos too! I thought I was floored hearing that in your other video but wow what a connection. Thanks for being vulnerable, and I always look forward to your content. You've inspired me so much in the past few months to start my journey ♥️
As an empath who absorbes the emotions and energy of everything around me I completely relate to having things be too much sometimes and art not needing to have a deep political meaning. Art can just be art for the sake of art. It only needs to benefit the person who is making it.
I think this is my favorite painting I've seen you work on! The round panel is a perfect fit!
Me also!
Your art is so awesome! ❤ The brushstrokes actually remind me of Van Gogh
I've always loved making things as an escape, I can relate to your situation and I loved expressing myself through art and getting a sense of achievement. Unfortunately the last few years I have fallen out of a routine of making things due to physical health problems and the resulting lack of work/ education to hold me accountable, I've been stuck in a freeze mode of really wanting to make things but overthinking it and getting scared of not being able to do as good a job as I used to and then feeling bad about myself because my art was where I got a lot of self esteem. I'm really hoping to get better at creating my own plans and sticking yo them for me. (Fingers crossed my new adhd meds help with this lol) thank you for sharing, I find your videos really helpful ❤
This video was so inspiring and listening to you gave me some beautiful comfort, so I want to say thank you for sharing.
I gotta say, I believe your words are one of your greatest talents. If you publish a book one day, I’ll be a very happy person.
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Spooky did a great job as assistant director. Love seeing more personal content. Thanks for being vulnerable
he is the crucial force behind the camera lol
Wow! Your painting is beautiful 💙💚🤎
it’s so strange how our lives can mirror interests, how you can internalise someone’s psyche to understand why but you will never be someone else, and thereby.. you can never know why. Maybe because we see a point in life we don’t see a quest, it’s only more doors that open, more ways to examine. And sometimes it’s more important to live than to understand. To contemplate, not think, to listen, not judge.
This is really how I felt while coming out of a depressive state during college!! I was genuinely finding happiness and would feel bad about it due to this idea of “if I make positive art, it won’t be as ‘meaningful’ anymore”. But I think it was an easy idea to overcome because…well, it was life-saving to not be depressed anymore, so #1 I will not sacrifice my health for my art and #2 the fact that joy is life saving…doesn’t that prove how impactful and meaningful it is? It’s a belief I’ve kept since, that positivity and joy is as important as negativity and darkness. Ngl, I’ve been deeply depressed again and cannot will myself to make cheerful art like I used to, but I think it’s incredibly empowering of you to make ur art ur sign of resilience or just a peaceful haven to exist in! I want to make darker artwork not because it’s “better” than lighthearted ones, but because I feel that this would be a healthy way for me to let this heaviness out. For each person to use art that feels true to u, best serves u, I think that is the right way to do it!
so beautiful! inspirational video. Makes me think of the reasons I make art.
yeah we both had crappy childhoods, and I dont hide it but I also dont try to let it affect my current life or my art (it did A LOT during emo Jen age tho lol). but im glad i am getting the help I need and am starting to set needed boundaries 🙂
Honestly, I am so glad you posted this video. I don't know if you'll ever see this comment, but I have had so much happen to me throughout my life. I am currently a Sociology/Criminal Justice/Criminology major, and I have recently had a very traumatic experience with my family. I have been learning how to be a person, doing things I genuinely want to do, finding enjoyment in life, and learning how to endure hardship. I had a very similar childhood to you, and I have just started counseling and getting help and it is honestly so freeing to work through this stuff. I am learning to enjoy my art and the process and not just how it looks and putting pressure on myself to be good. So, thank you. You are very inspiring.
I really enjoyee this video and watching you paint❤
You know, watching this video, somehow made me realize something.
I started drawing with the goal of one day being able to express myself trough it, being able to convey an idea, feelings or even something silly trough it, and I was beating myself over because I felt my lack of skill wouldn't allow myself to do it, that's when I realized, I was already doing it, even by just practising drawing cubes, and sharing it online while venting about how I'm incapable of drawing a straight line to save my life, I was doing it, I was expressing myself..... maybe not in the most flashy or inspiring way ever, but I was doing it.... You don't even need to be good at art to do it, just make art, any art, regardless of how bad it turns out, even if you never share it, do it and it will be enough.
Although after this realization I'm left wondering, what now? I mean, I'm happy, this won't last forever of course, happyness is never permanent, just some kind of state that we get in and out of. Hell even this freaking comment is a form of expression, I feel like I'm conveying my feelings trough pure text better than I ever could with a drawing.
Sometimes you've already acheived your goal, you just have not acheived it in the way you expected.
(Oh, and thanks for the epiphany, btw.)
This was great, but right now. I want to rest, I think I deserve it. Logic dictates that when you acheive a goal, you get a reward after all.
Love love love❤
i love the circle canvas tho
I love your art videos and business talks. It contains so much useful information that I can use. I have a question how do you deal with stagnation in art, where it seems you are not improving in spite of all the exercises/ practices done.
I want your message to be shouted from the rooftops!!!! I had a proposal I wrote be reviewed before submission and the reviewer told me to focus on the trauma of my ancestors. I was pissed off! My work has nothing to do with any sort of trauma and all the focus in todays world is about the attention and money that given to the people advertising the biggest victimhood (real or otherwise). We need to step back from that and celebrate positive arts too.
I love these types of video's
so inspiring, thank you for sharing ☺☺☺
Much love to you 🫡❤️
Thank you for the video ❤️
This is fucking awesome! Thank you :)
I came from the AI video and I can of get it now. I think the problem is just the definition of art in English: something that looks good. In spanish is a way of expresion, wich means to do something that it needs to have a message, a feeling or an idea. And also that's why you see some future in the AI art.
I don't know if this will strike any relevance. Since you started with a quote, I thought I might end with one. It's about writing, and it's by Toni Morrison. If you substitute the words about writing to painting words, I think you might find this relates:
''There are certain emotions that are useful for the construction of a text, and some are too small. Anger is too tiny an emotion to use when you're writing, and compassion is too sloppy. Almost everything that makes you want to write, or feel like writing, is not useful in the act of writing. So it's the mediation between those two states, the compulsion and all those feelings, that make you compelled.''
I say this with full understanding that you are a stranger on the internet and you mentioning the things you mentioned about your childhood does not mean I know you and I do not think that I do and maybe admitting this in a public space is a bad idea, but I have to do it, because yes, me too. My mother had munchausens by proxy and my father was a drunk and that isn't by far all of it. My step parents were not better. And my art represents the same things only mine leans towards "ewww, gross!" being mostly horror related. But like. I do it 'cause I like too. It's not deep. It's just cool. And I just had to say so 'cause it's cool seeing someone else doing art the same way.
Also, your painting is lovely.
Youre badass! Im in recovery myself. Approaching 3 years. Im a colorblind oil painter aspiring in hyperrealistic portraits. All my work is related to death and dying. Love your work! Are you on iG?
I'm not very active there but you can find me @kelseyrodriguezart on IG
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I just lost my job, I'm not sure if I should pursue art kinda like Leigh Ellexson did. I like making art, but I'm scared it won't financially support me, so I'm kind of in a limbo. It's something that takes time to pursue and gain a following and I'm not sure if I can do that. I don't know what to do
Do you have any recommendations for music that can be used in UA-cam videos?
Harris Heller’s Streambeats is a good free project, otherwise I recommend paid services like Epidemic Sound!
Thank you!
I love this❤ as a fellow trauma child... if u know, you know
hi, just checking up on you
I'm all good, new video coming out this week!
@@KelseyRodriguez feeling better knowing you are okay!!
I think it is great that you get joy out of painting and that you do it for the sake of the beauty. But I believe it is also beautiful and brave for some one to use their deepest emotions to create a price of art to express a deeper meaning as well. I as well had a very rough childhood, and a toxic family, and it may not define who I am, but I would not be who I am today if I denied that. Perhaps your adult life is filled with enough ease that you aren't triggered by the past as much, but pushing it down and not talking about it, doesn't make those things disappear. I feel like this video illustrated this strange concept that you don't have to work through trama but ignore it, you can just not tell your current friends and some how that means it doesn't make you who you are today, or perhaps just that you don't know how to open up to the people in your life now? I am not sure which you are or which path it is you are taking but it sounds like a lot of denial on the pain from that childhood because I can't imagine being my authentic self at the same time hiding my past from all my current loved ones in the moment. Not to say you should tell everyone but this video really hit my heart, made me feel like you are trying to tell people who have massive trama from childhood that you can just ignore it and it won't affect you. Every book on the subject says that when you push down all those emotions, they will boil up later when you least expect them. I use to shove it all down and I thought I was totally fine, then I had kids and all those past issues came flooding back and suddenly I realized I had been lying to myself, that life wasn't hard enough to pull these issues out till now or more so, I distracted my self good enough that I didn't have to face it....and I really hope that doesn't happen to you because it seems like you are living your 20s not thinking deeply or feeling all your emotions or being honest to the new friends you have now. Perhaps I misunderstood what you were trying to to say because I don't know your full life but you are giving bad mental health advice and making it seem super easy to be cool after a bad childhood and that doesn't help the people out there who have had similar problems...all it is doing to trying to make trama nothing to worry about and that you should just get over it because ignoring it works for you.. that is not the reality of psychology. And btw neither is it not good to look away from politics because it is too hard...life is hard, that doesn't mean you don't live it...the reason that people in Gaza are suffering so is because no one saw what was happening till now and God I hope we stop finding this genocide..what if a piece of art could help people see what is happening and actually change some thing for the better in this world? There is nothing wrong with pretty art but don't discount the power art can have on society, it can change the world and has in the past ...if you turn a blind eye to the world then you are a part of the problem. People are fundamentally good but for evil to triumph all you need is indifference in good people.... I hope this made you think about what kind of message you are sending and perhaps to think more deeply about who you really are, stop trying to make a sweet cute video and make a video that is truthful and insightful, because this was not. I hope I see your authentic self one day.
the world is quiet here