I have a fear of vomiting. Because of my fear I was scared to eat because I didn't want to get sick. I was also really afraid of choking on food. When I was 12 I started to lose a lot of weight because I was not eating because food scared me. I remember the doctor asked If I thought I had an eating disorder and I got really offended and upset. I got referred to a clinic and started to challenge my fears and discomforts about food. My doctors told me the same thing, eat more junk food, eat more fries and ice cream. The clinic did help me. I still find eating a chore. I also eat to live. If I could take an easy pill that would sustain all my main nutrition I probably would. I'd just thought I'd share my experience because I could relate to you and I want you to know that your not alone. You are amazing Ellie. Having trouble gaining weight may feel like failure but it is not. When I go through things as a patient, I think about how it will make me a better clinician when I finish school. You go this Ellie. I'm routing for you!!!
Ellie, never feel like a failure. You Have made such an amazingly positive impact on so many people. We all owe you love and support. I need to lose weight and I will match you pound for pound while you gain and I lose.
I hope that you’ll have more luck with your weight gain in 2019! ❤️ By the way: An eating disorder doesn’t necessarily mean that a person has anorexia or bulimia because those are 2 specific EDs. it just means that the person has disordered eating patterns. :)
Hope the dietician helps you I would feel the same way if someone said I have an eating disorder.. sorry that happened but I think you should trust your doctors, if it doesn’t work out just let them know and I’m sure you guys can figure it out Sending all my love and positive energy your way
You are amazing ! I had issues with eating when I had my bowel resection for years I had had so much pain when i ate that I was not interested in food. My dad goes on about me not eating enough even now but I get stressed about it because I am in a wheelchair and don’t want to end up over weight. I am much healthier than I was.you will get there! You will be a brilliant doctor!
We got my son's weight back up from 45kg to 60kg when he was on chemo. Meat, body building protein powder, lotsa veges - all good food. He also did light exercise - for him lifting 5kg was like lifting 50kg for anyone else but he did it. It was a battle but his weight went up. And ... rather than a standard three meal day, rather, several small meals a day. Not snacks - small meals, 5 or more colours. No junk food. But diet can also be personal - what works for one may or may not work for others. You say you don't like eggs - maybe you should try - they are good. What you 'like' is less important than surviving. Good luck :-)
In the US, grocery stores sell yogurt cups with SMALL toppings of candy such as MnMs. You could try eating them if they're in the UK. It might help you gain weight with a small treat and some dairy and protein. I think you could find vegan yogurt though not sure
I have IBS x it's common for beans, lentils and bread to trigger IBS so you're definitely not alone there. What I found helps is to completely cut out foods that trigger your IBS a lot for a couple of years and then slowly introduce them again.
Hi ellie! I am also a vegetarian and here are a few tips :) so first not meat related but you could try out dates which is high in complex glucides hence calories yet very healthy, also avocados and nuts are high in calories and healthy fats so it's a good thing to try too :) if you like it you can also try incorporating honey and peanut butter :) those you can put in plain yogurt which is high in protein and not as strong tasting as cheese :) I would also recommend trying other protein sources if you don't like beans and stuff, for example brocoli and spinach have a high level of protein and you can put these into smoothies :) I know there are also protein milkshakes that exist :) I hope this is all understandable as English isn't my first language :) good luck ellie I am rooting for you!
I have problems with food too and not eating enough - I've never been a huge eater to begin with, but with treatment and side effects and whatnot my stomach got pretty tiny as well. However, since I'm obese (was always on the big side and then having thyroid cancer/my thyroid removed made it a lot worse), I get a lot different response from the doctors than you. Post my last treatment I was getting nauseous every time I ate, eventually every time I drank, to the point where I was only getting in about 200-300 calories a day and was eventually losing a kilo a day. Two months of them blaming it on other things (depression, constipation, blah blah blah) and not doing any testing, when they finally actually looked into it they found a hiatal hernia that I most likely got from coughing too hard when I got pneumonia (which probably went unnoticed at the time because I had also dislocated some ribs in the process). The doctor that did the test that found it? He said, "Well, but you're of a substantial size, so it's probably good for you." I was in the hospital a few days later with metabolic acidosis from dehydration, but yeah, it's good for me you jerk. I was asked by one of the docs in the hospital if I made myself throw up (definitely not), and a different doctor suggested it was mental (sigh), so I can sympathize with how frustrated you must be. I think though it would have been better for them to call it disordered eating, rather than an eating disorder. Anyway, I thought I might throw some of the suggestions they gave me (when I finally got a good doc) your way, plus some tips I got from some other people, since the approach they give a fat person definitely doesn't include just telling me to eat junk food. So one thing is that I have to set an alarm to eat every three hours. The way the good doc explained it was that since I was getting nauseous and eating less, I had more stomach acid, which was making me more nauseous, which was making me eat less, etc - I was stuck in a vicious cycle. I don't know if this is a problem for you, but something to keep in mind. For me as well, since my hernia is about the size of a clementine, and I can only fit 1-2 dl of food/liquid at a time, I had to eat more often to make up the difference. Since your stomach is small right now, the same approach would probably help. So yup, set an alarm on your phone, and every three hours you have to eat something. It can be a granola bar or some of that protein shake, just something. Go for something small; since you'll be eating 5-6 times a day, it'll add up. I think it's easier to tackle too, then trying to eat something big in one sitting. You didn't mention how the protein shake feels for you, but I wouldn't be able to drink 500mL in one go. But, if I'm eating five times today, and I split that up into two meals, then that would be those 500 calories plus whatever I ate in the other three meals. Does that make sense? I think it makes it a lot less daunting. You also have to try and stick with it and see if things will get better after a few weeks. Initially, I was very against this eating every three hours thing, since eating made me have to hang out next to a toilet for a half hour and then lay down for another 2-3. But since we cut the amount I ate at a time in half, and they gave me a new nausea med, I made myself do it. That first week I was nauseous every single time I ate, and it was terrible. But, it was an okay level of nausea (like not happy but I didn't have to sit next to the toilet most of the time), and I made myself keep at it. Now it's a month and a half later and I'm completely off the nausea meds and haven't thrown up in I think two weeks. It's not perfect - I still get nauseous at least one meal a day - but it's manageable and I don't have to worry about ending up back in the hospital dehydrated. Also, the eating every three hours has become routine, and now my friends are used to it too and they remind me if I slack off. So I would say try something like that, to work with the physical issues to try to get calories in despite them. I'd also give the eating disorder therapy a try. Even though you don't have an eating disorder, the way you feel about food and the fears you have are similar to the way people with eating disorders feel. Yes, yours comes from physical symptoms and a physical history, but even though you might avoid bread because it made you sick during chemo, you're still avoiding a food. That's something people with eating disorders do a lot, and so someone who has worked with people who do that can maybe help you in a way that someone who hasn't helped people with that can't. Even though you do most likely have a physical component, there is a mental one to it too. Wouldn't hurt to try it out, right? There was a definite physical component to me and eating, still is, but I was also mentally afraid to eat, and it took a while to work through that. These people would help with that. My other recommendation would be to focus on one thing at a time. This was something the dietitian I saw recommended, and it really helped me. Ideally I want to eat enough calories in a day and have them be nice, healthy, and well-balanced. But that's the long term goal to get to, the first step was making sure I was eating enough to survive, right? So first I just had to make sure I ate every three hours, didn't matter what it was - an apple, chips, chocolate, whatever. The first issue was to eat and make eating a habit again, so that was the only focus. Then when I got to the point where it was no longer a struggle to eat several times a day, which took about a month, now I've started paying more attention to what I'm eating and am slowly making it more healthy, but that's also in steps. Right now I'm trying to hit 80% of what I'm eating something I'm making or a whole ingredient, and then later I'll work on that. So for right now if I make a grilled cheese sandwich it counts, because I made it versus ate a candy bar. Then when this has become a habit, I can work on making sure that there's also vegetables in there as well. (Does that make sense?) I just noticed you mentioned that you want to make sure it's healthy and you're not eating the same thing every day, but I would put that in a long term goal. Step one, eat regularly. Step two, eat more healthily. Step three, eat a healthy variety. Take a month or more per step. Otherwise you're going to get overwhelmed with it, and it's easier to do one thing at a time. Don’t let the perfect be the enemy of the good - break it down into manageable steps. It may seem like that's going to take too long now, but it will really help to make it more sustainable over time, I promise. Final tips in this novel of a reply: add in calories where you can. (I'm hoping your dietitian would be better at this, since you don't have to fight a fat bias - tell me if they give you any good tips, because I'm still struggling to hit calories myself.) Drink juice or something else with calories instead of just water. Smoothies can be really full of calories, and my friend that had jaw surgery and subsisted on them for a while was told to add cream to them for added calories. (Her favorite was canned pear, cardamom, and cream.) I know you said you don't like dairy so much, but I don't know how you would feel with it mixed in there. Can I ask why you're a vegetarian? Meat is very dense in calories, and I wouldn't come close to hitting enough calories without it in my diet, I physically couldn't eat enough and that was before the whole hernia thing. Animal products in general are way more calorie dense, and a lot of the vegans I know eat huge quantities of food in a day to make up the difference. Okay, I'm going to shut up now. Let me know if you have any other questions or if you just want to chat about it more or whatnot. Good luck!
MidknytOwl Wow, you have won the the prize for the longest UA-cam comment that I have ever received! I will definitely take note of all of your tips, especially the eating every 3 hours thing, that could really help me. I am a vegetarian because when I was diagnosed there was so many advertisements going around about meat causing cancer, so it out me off altogether. Besides, I didn’t eat meat very often anyways because most of my family are either vegetarian or vegan. It’s great to see how far you e come, you give me hope (:
Eating disorders are very psychological. The mental and emotional state of people suffering from this disorder is profound. I wish you all the best getting through this.
I think You would enjoy Italian food. It is basically Mediterranean diete, quite healthy. Pasta, extra vergine oil, vegetable, fresh fruits and so exquisite ice cream 😊😊wish you the best xxx
I am a chef. Hearing you talking about you being a vegetarian and not eating beans and lentils because of your stomach issues, makes me think, where do you get your protein from? beans and lentils etc is the main source of protein and if you cut them out....what's left? I hope you get the help you need so you can gain weight and feel healthier and go on with your life. much Blessings! Sofia is always with you!
I have same relationship with food, always have, I don’t love it, eat cause I have to x but I do eat a lot of junk food x hope they can help you sort your meals out xx
A big part of having an ED is fear of food and even more so, control. It doesn't sound like you have an ED. (I've been fighting EDs for about 14 years. ) I guess just listen to what they have to say and do your best. High calorie/high protein shakes like Boost or Ensure, help with the extra calories. Best of luck with it.
Hi, so first of all, I'm sorry to hear you have dealt with eating disorders for such a long time. I do struggle a little with this topic, I'm eating normally as far as I can tell but I am counting calories and stuff and before our scale broke weighed myself a lot. I just don't really know whether I have an ED or not but I don't want to develop one and maybe you have some tips how to get out of these thinking patterns (if you have "won" against your eating disorder). Anyway, thanks already :)
katti maria set an eating schedule. Set an alarm and make sure you eat at those times. Treat it like medicine. I am actually in a relapse right now. Try talking with someone as well. Enlist help from friends and let them know you are struggling with eating and weight. (Sorry, I’m currently at hospital getting iron infusion and I’m drugged up on antihistamines. I’ll write more later if you’d like... or you can DM me on Instagram. My info is in my channel description. )
@@AmyLouiseYT Thank you a lot for your answer! I'd really like to talk to you on Instagram but I can't seem to find your account :( And good luck for your recovery!
How about a smoothie: Almond Milk, spinach (greens), a good protein powder, peanut butter (protein, calories), banana, blueberries, egg, oatmeal, some added juice but I do not like because of the sugar. You get the idea. Last year I had to gain and the Ensure had calories but it is not really healthy. Milkshakes are good but again not really healthy. I also eat because I have to; also have health issues which makes eating difficult. Good luck to you.
Hello Ellie so nice to see and hear you, your looking so beautiful and very well, why not try some milk puddings, I found rice pudding very helpful for adding calories it's quite easy on the belly my fav is bread and butter pudding lots of goodness and vitimins in there.
Oh I am so sorry this has happened. I've had an eating disorder for a decade, and, from this video alone, what you're going through is absolutely not an eating disorder. However, for ED patients, food is medicine and it will be medicine for you too so hopefully the clinic can help you. However, I have had friends who have been wrongly 'accused' of having an eating disorder and their symptoms shoved aside as 'excuses for not wanting to eat' so please be ready to expect that when you talk about IBS. I feel that it would be more beneficial to see a dietitian who specialises in cancer and chemotherapy because she might know more about your particular situation (which I expect is so common in children who have gone through a traumatic thing like cancer), rather than a dietitian who specialises in anorexia and bulimia. An eating disorder that is similar to what you're dealing with is ARFID - it is common in young children and describes a severe aversion/phobia of food, but again - your issue has an obvious cause and probably not so much a phobia. I just really hope the clinic can help you :)
Oh I'm sorry you're struggling to process this all. Perhaps a different phrasing would fit more: a disordered relationship with food. I've heard this term a lot, and as opposed to what the term "eating disorder" is, it actualy suggests more that the person has disordered eating- for whatever reason. It really sounds like cancer and it's treatments have left mark on your eating habits- probably unconsciously as you have explained. You're not intentionally trying to lose weight or grapple with your control over food, but your relationship with food has definitely been changed and formed. I hope you can find the help you need- give it a try, try and engage. Best of luck to you, love watching your videos you speak so wonderfully!
Good luck with this Ellie-good to see you vlogging again :) I find it incredible and disappointing that you have been referred to an Eating Disorders team. You DO NOT have an eating disorder Ellie and I have no doubt that you will be discharged after your 1st appointment. I am glad that you have been referred to a dietitian as this seems the way forward.
No need to apologize for lack of videos! We love you!
I have a fear of vomiting. Because of my fear I was scared to eat because I didn't want to get sick. I was also really afraid of choking on food. When I was 12 I started to lose a lot of weight because I was not eating because food scared me. I remember the doctor asked If I thought I had an eating disorder and I got really offended and upset. I got referred to a clinic and started to challenge my fears and discomforts about food. My doctors told me the same thing, eat more junk food, eat more fries and ice cream. The clinic did help me. I still find eating a chore. I also eat to live. If I could take an easy pill that would sustain all my main nutrition I probably would. I'd just thought I'd share my experience because I could relate to you and I want you to know that your not alone. You are amazing Ellie. Having trouble gaining weight may feel like failure but it is not. When I go through things as a patient, I think about how it will make me a better clinician when I finish school. You go this Ellie. I'm routing for you!!!
Thank you so much for sharing your experience with me, it makes me feel good to know that somebody understands. I love your positive attitude!!!
I was exactly like this for many years! It feels so good to know I wasn't the only one!
happy new year Ellie! I hope that 2019 brings you only joy and happiness! and I hope that this problem will solve quickly
Happy new year! Thank you
Ellie, never feel like a failure. You Have made such an amazingly positive impact on so many people. We all owe you love and support. I need to lose weight and I will match you pound for pound while you gain and I lose.
Frederick Heine IV Thank you. Sounds good to me! 😊
I hope that you’ll have more luck with your weight gain in 2019! ❤️
By the way: An eating disorder doesn’t necessarily mean that a person has anorexia or bulimia because those are 2 specific EDs. it just means that the person has disordered eating patterns. :)
Hope the dietician helps you
I would feel the same way if someone said I have an eating disorder.. sorry that happened but I think you should trust your doctors, if it doesn’t work out just let them know and I’m sure you guys can figure it out
Sending all my love and positive energy your way
You are amazing ! I had issues with eating when I had my bowel resection for years I had had so much pain when i ate that I was not interested in food. My dad goes on about me not eating enough even now but I get stressed about it because I am in a wheelchair and don’t want to end up over weight. I am much healthier than I was.you will get there! You will be a brilliant doctor!
Thanks for sharing that with me. I am glad that you are getting better. (:
We got my son's weight back up from 45kg to 60kg when he was on chemo. Meat, body building protein powder, lotsa veges - all good food. He also did light exercise - for him lifting 5kg was like lifting 50kg for anyone else but he did it. It was a battle but his weight went up. And ... rather than a standard three meal day, rather, several small meals a day. Not snacks - small meals, 5 or more colours. No junk food. But diet can also be personal - what works for one may or may not work for others. You say you don't like eggs - maybe you should try - they are good. What you 'like' is less important than surviving. Good luck :-)
Anglo Saxon That’s remarkable! Your son’s story gives me hope. Thank you for the advice. (:
I also got told I had an eating disorder so I really understand how you feel! Hope you're ok Hun, stay strong and keep going, you've got this👍🏼
Beauticole Thank you ❤️
In the US, grocery stores sell yogurt cups with SMALL toppings of candy such as MnMs. You could try eating them if they're in the UK. It might help you gain weight with a small treat and some dairy and protein. I think you could find vegan yogurt though not sure
Sarah Spindler thanks for the suggestion ❤️
I have IBS x it's common for beans, lentils and bread to trigger IBS so you're definitely not alone there. What I found helps is to completely cut out foods that trigger your IBS a lot for a couple of years and then slowly introduce them again.
Oh, Ellie, you are so amazing, sweetheart! I just love your videos! Keep 'em coming! Love and hugs! ☺♥
Jered 'JerBear' Fuller Thank you!
Hi ellie! I am also a vegetarian and here are a few tips :) so first not meat related but you could try out dates which is high in complex glucides hence calories yet very healthy, also avocados and nuts are high in calories and healthy fats so it's a good thing to try too :) if you like it you can also try incorporating honey and peanut butter :) those you can put in plain yogurt which is high in protein and not as strong tasting as cheese :) I would also recommend trying other protein sources if you don't like beans and stuff, for example brocoli and spinach have a high level of protein and you can put these into smoothies :) I know there are also protein milkshakes that exist :) I hope this is all understandable as English isn't my first language :) good luck ellie I am rooting for you!
carolinevel94 Thank you so much for the advice! I will definitely try to implement these foods into my diet.
I have problems with food too and not eating enough - I've never been a huge eater to begin with, but with treatment and side effects and whatnot my stomach got pretty tiny as well. However, since I'm obese (was always on the big side and then having thyroid cancer/my thyroid removed made it a lot worse), I get a lot different response from the doctors than you. Post my last treatment I was getting nauseous every time I ate, eventually every time I drank, to the point where I was only getting in about 200-300 calories a day and was eventually losing a kilo a day. Two months of them blaming it on other things (depression, constipation, blah blah blah) and not doing any testing, when they finally actually looked into it they found a hiatal hernia that I most likely got from coughing too hard when I got pneumonia (which probably went unnoticed at the time because I had also dislocated some ribs in the process). The doctor that did the test that found it? He said, "Well, but you're of a substantial size, so it's probably good for you." I was in the hospital a few days later with metabolic acidosis from dehydration, but yeah, it's good for me you jerk.
I was asked by one of the docs in the hospital if I made myself throw up (definitely not), and a different doctor suggested it was mental (sigh), so I can sympathize with how frustrated you must be. I think though it would have been better for them to call it disordered eating, rather than an eating disorder.
Anyway, I thought I might throw some of the suggestions they gave me (when I finally got a good doc) your way, plus some tips I got from some other people, since the approach they give a fat person definitely doesn't include just telling me to eat junk food.
So one thing is that I have to set an alarm to eat every three hours. The way the good doc explained it was that since I was getting nauseous and eating less, I had more stomach acid, which was making me more nauseous, which was making me eat less, etc - I was stuck in a vicious cycle. I don't know if this is a problem for you, but something to keep in mind. For me as well, since my hernia is about the size of a clementine, and I can only fit 1-2 dl of food/liquid at a time, I had to eat more often to make up the difference. Since your stomach is small right now, the same approach would probably help. So yup, set an alarm on your phone, and every three hours you have to eat something. It can be a granola bar or some of that protein shake, just something. Go for something small; since you'll be eating 5-6 times a day, it'll add up. I think it's easier to tackle too, then trying to eat something big in one sitting. You didn't mention how the protein shake feels for you, but I wouldn't be able to drink 500mL in one go. But, if I'm eating five times today, and I split that up into two meals, then that would be those 500 calories plus whatever I ate in the other three meals. Does that make sense?
I think it makes it a lot less daunting. You also have to try and stick with it and see if things will get better after a few weeks. Initially, I was very against this eating every three hours thing, since eating made me have to hang out next to a toilet for a half hour and then lay down for another 2-3. But since we cut the amount I ate at a time in half, and they gave me a new nausea med, I made myself do it. That first week I was nauseous every single time I ate, and it was terrible. But, it was an okay level of nausea (like not happy but I didn't have to sit next to the toilet most of the time), and I made myself keep at it. Now it's a month and a half later and I'm completely off the nausea meds and haven't thrown up in I think two weeks. It's not perfect - I still get nauseous at least one meal a day - but it's manageable and I don't have to worry about ending up back in the hospital dehydrated. Also, the eating every three hours has become routine, and now my friends are used to it too and they remind me if I slack off.
So I would say try something like that, to work with the physical issues to try to get calories in despite them.
I'd also give the eating disorder therapy a try. Even though you don't have an eating disorder, the way you feel about food and the fears you have are similar to the way people with eating disorders feel. Yes, yours comes from physical symptoms and a physical history, but even though you might avoid bread because it made you sick during chemo, you're still avoiding a food. That's something people with eating disorders do a lot, and so someone who has worked with people who do that can maybe help you in a way that someone who hasn't helped people with that can't. Even though you do most likely have a physical component, there is a mental one to it too. Wouldn't hurt to try it out, right? There was a definite physical component to me and eating, still is, but I was also mentally afraid to eat, and it took a while to work through that. These people would help with that.
My other recommendation would be to focus on one thing at a time. This was something the dietitian I saw recommended, and it really helped me. Ideally I want to eat enough calories in a day and have them be nice, healthy, and well-balanced. But that's the long term goal to get to, the first step was making sure I was eating enough to survive, right? So first I just had to make sure I ate every three hours, didn't matter what it was - an apple, chips, chocolate, whatever. The first issue was to eat and make eating a habit again, so that was the only focus. Then when I got to the point where it was no longer a struggle to eat several times a day, which took about a month, now I've started paying more attention to what I'm eating and am slowly making it more healthy, but that's also in steps. Right now I'm trying to hit 80% of what I'm eating something I'm making or a whole ingredient, and then later I'll work on that. So for right now if I make a grilled cheese sandwich it counts, because I made it versus ate a candy bar. Then when this has become a habit, I can work on making sure that there's also vegetables in there as well. (Does that make sense?) I just noticed you mentioned that you want to make sure it's healthy and you're not eating the same thing every day, but I would put that in a long term goal. Step one, eat regularly. Step two, eat more healthily. Step three, eat a healthy variety. Take a month or more per step. Otherwise you're going to get overwhelmed with it, and it's easier to do one thing at a time. Don’t let the perfect be the enemy of the good - break it down into manageable steps. It may seem like that's going to take too long now, but it will really help to make it more sustainable over time, I promise.
Final tips in this novel of a reply: add in calories where you can. (I'm hoping your dietitian would be better at this, since you don't have to fight a fat bias - tell me if they give you any good tips, because I'm still struggling to hit calories myself.) Drink juice or something else with calories instead of just water. Smoothies can be really full of calories, and my friend that had jaw surgery and subsisted on them for a while was told to add cream to them for added calories. (Her favorite was canned pear, cardamom, and cream.) I know you said you don't like dairy so much, but I don't know how you would feel with it mixed in there.
Can I ask why you're a vegetarian? Meat is very dense in calories, and I wouldn't come close to hitting enough calories without it in my diet, I physically couldn't eat enough and that was before the whole hernia thing. Animal products in general are way more calorie dense, and a lot of the vegans I know eat huge quantities of food in a day to make up the difference.
Okay, I'm going to shut up now. Let me know if you have any other questions or if you just want to chat about it more or whatnot. Good luck!
MidknytOwl Wow, you have won the the prize for the longest UA-cam comment that I have ever received! I will definitely take note of all of your tips, especially the eating every 3 hours thing, that could really help me.
I am a vegetarian because when I was diagnosed there was so many advertisements going around about meat causing cancer, so it out me off altogether. Besides, I didn’t eat meat very often anyways because most of my family are either vegetarian or vegan.
It’s great to see how far you e come, you give me hope (:
Eating disorders are very psychological. The mental and emotional state of people suffering from this disorder is profound. I wish you all the best getting through this.
All the best xx
What about trying gluten free, or dairy free, as I get ibs, and it's much better now x
Claireabell Hayward I try and have as little gluten as I can , so that has helped me. 😊
@@teamellie648 cool. I xx
Hey Ellie, nice to see a video., ❤️ from Vancouver Island
Jane Russell Thank you ❤️
Try high calorie smoothies!!!
I think You would enjoy Italian food. It is basically Mediterranean diete, quite healthy. Pasta, extra vergine oil, vegetable, fresh fruits and so exquisite ice cream 😊😊wish you the best xxx
Lucia lucia I LOVE Italian food 😍
Team Ellie ah that is nice!!! Sending you big hug from Verona, Italia 🇮🇹. ❤️😍👍😘🙏🏻🙏🏻
I am a chef. Hearing you talking about you being a vegetarian and not eating beans and lentils because of your stomach issues, makes me think, where do you get your protein from? beans and lentils etc is the main source of protein and if you cut them out....what's left?
I hope you get the help you need so you can gain weight and feel healthier and go on with your life. much Blessings! Sofia is always with you!
I have same relationship with food, always have, I don’t love it, eat cause I have to x but I do eat a lot of junk food x hope they can help you sort your meals out xx
A big part of having an ED is fear of food and even more so, control. It doesn't sound like you have an ED. (I've been fighting EDs for about 14 years. ) I guess just listen to what they have to say and do your best. High calorie/high protein shakes like Boost or Ensure, help with the extra calories. Best of luck with it.
Hi, so first of all, I'm sorry to hear you have dealt with eating disorders for such a long time. I do struggle a little with this topic, I'm eating normally as far as I can tell but I am counting calories and stuff and before our scale broke weighed myself a lot. I just don't really know whether I have an ED or not but I don't want to develop one and maybe you have some tips how to get out of these thinking patterns (if you have "won" against your eating disorder). Anyway, thanks already :)
katti maria set an eating schedule. Set an alarm and make sure you eat at those times. Treat it like medicine. I am actually in a relapse right now. Try talking with someone as well. Enlist help from friends and let them know you are struggling with eating and weight. (Sorry, I’m currently at hospital getting iron infusion and I’m drugged up on antihistamines. I’ll write more later if you’d like... or you can DM me on Instagram. My info is in my channel description. )
@@AmyLouiseYT Thank you a lot for your answer! I'd really like to talk to you on Instagram but I can't seem to find your account :( And good luck for your recovery!
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Amy Louise Thank you! ❤️
How about a smoothie: Almond Milk, spinach (greens), a good protein powder, peanut butter (protein, calories), banana, blueberries, egg, oatmeal, some added juice but I do not like because of the sugar. You get the idea. Last year I had to gain and the Ensure had calories but it is not really healthy. Milkshakes are good but again not really healthy. I also eat because I have to; also have health issues which makes eating difficult. Good luck to you.
Thanks for the advice (:
It really sounds like you have gastroparesis, not ibs. You can get a gastric emptying study to check
Hello Ellie so nice to see and hear you, your looking so beautiful and very well, why not try some milk puddings, I found rice pudding very helpful for adding calories it's quite easy on the belly my fav is bread and butter pudding lots of goodness and vitimins in there.
French fries 🍟 all day every day sounds like a dream to me
Cindy Horst Lol 😂
Same
This might sound like a really dumb question but why do you want to gain weight? To be healthier?
Anonymous I want to gain weight to be healthier and stronger.
Team Ellie fair enough :)
Happy new year 🥳
Oh I am so sorry this has happened. I've had an eating disorder for a decade, and, from this video alone, what you're going through is absolutely not an eating disorder. However, for ED patients, food is medicine and it will be medicine for you too so hopefully the clinic can help you. However, I have had friends who have been wrongly 'accused' of having an eating disorder and their symptoms shoved aside as 'excuses for not wanting to eat' so please be ready to expect that when you talk about IBS. I feel that it would be more beneficial to see a dietitian who specialises in cancer and chemotherapy because she might know more about your particular situation (which I expect is so common in children who have gone through a traumatic thing like cancer), rather than a dietitian who specialises in anorexia and bulimia. An eating disorder that is similar to what you're dealing with is ARFID - it is common in young children and describes a severe aversion/phobia of food, but again - your issue has an obvious cause and probably not so much a phobia. I just really hope the clinic can help you :)
Mind me asking, what is your BMI?
Kind of hard to tell from just seeing your face.
Love you!!!
I wish you the best
Oh I'm sorry you're struggling to process this all. Perhaps a different phrasing would fit more: a disordered relationship with food. I've heard this term a lot, and as opposed to what the term "eating disorder" is, it actualy suggests more that the person has disordered eating- for whatever reason. It really sounds like cancer and it's treatments have left mark on your eating habits- probably unconsciously as you have explained. You're not intentionally trying to lose weight or grapple with your control over food, but your relationship with food has definitely been changed and formed. I hope you can find the help you need- give it a try, try and engage. Best of luck to you, love watching your videos you speak so wonderfully!
Overcoming Frankie I think you have worded that perfectly! I completely agree. Thank you (:
Good luck with this Ellie-good to see you vlogging again :) I find it incredible and disappointing that you have been referred to an Eating Disorders team. You DO NOT have an eating disorder Ellie and I have no doubt that you will be discharged after your 1st appointment. I am glad that you have been referred to a dietitian as this seems the way forward.
Nik Bag thank you! I will keep you guys updated about how the appointments go. 😊
Good video
Avocados and nuts are high in calories but very healthy!
Yes, I eat those regularly (:
Guapa !
Your food choices are super limited being vegan who can't tolerate grains and doesn't like eggs or cheese
Maybe Mukbang with the youtube???
Maria Strong Haha that could be a good idea!
You are a heroine
Just eat more